SINS I DONT REGRET!

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Well, we're back on another episode of y'all better not
fuck with us because we don't even play like that
right out the fucking comics, trying to come for people
because at the end of the day, on here sharing
our ship like because there's a lot of people that
do ship that we're not afraid to speak about. We
the motherfuckers that's gonna come speak about this ship. You
can't judge. He don't hit bitches no more, retire and

(00:23):
I only run in my nigga mouth if he deserve it.

Speaker 2 (00:26):
That's it.

Speaker 1 (00:26):
That's what we stick into and that's what we're saying.

Speaker 2 (00:29):
Still gonna support what you just.

Speaker 1 (00:30):
It's still gonna what my nigga know bout that. I'll
be on that visit floor. Ain't ain't fun, you know
what's that? And by his dress and bit his scalp,
Yeah yeah, I made that nigga eat the table his scalp.

Speaker 2 (00:47):
On the visiting floor.

Speaker 1 (00:48):
He wants to h I don't know geta said, and
I'm playing with me. It's gonna get the message.

Speaker 2 (00:57):
Niggas gonna put me on the T shirt.

Speaker 1 (00:59):
They don't have a bunch of guy. Damn Blond Poppy
didn't even do ship Merch coming out soon, so it's
gonna be it's gonna be him being a ben with
a cane.

Speaker 2 (01:11):
I'm staying away from all that. That life is. That
life is over man.

Speaker 1 (01:15):
It's not poppy. He is blond poppy. Yeah, please, did
y'all not hear? That's why I said, y'all like to
click date and rage on your own because he said
she hit him first with the fu. He didn't see
that ship coming, and neither does she.

Speaker 2 (01:30):
A win is a win. The fuck.

Speaker 1 (01:32):
You can't beat on disabled people either. We we get
the upper hand. I should have said that to us.
SHO definished you in that last cup. That's whanna speak
for you now once you put.

Speaker 2 (01:41):
Your hand on the head.

Speaker 1 (01:43):
I was in the comments behind you, was calming and
in my d MS. I got people sending me dofter,
I'm defending a woman. Do to get my ass?

Speaker 2 (01:53):
Sean.

Speaker 1 (01:54):
Sean was with allstaid I deserve to get my ass
bet because I'm defending yo.

Speaker 2 (01:58):
My cousin. Sean was in a calm. Let me see
if this is a bad one. Not she good? Not
common in to this.

Speaker 1 (02:06):
You know they ain't got us any like we're just
a terrible to like it's the right terrorism. But today, today,
today we're going to talk about sins that we don't regret.
So well, let's let's look up define the term sin,
because I feel like everybody just what I mean, because
it's like we naturally, like as black people, we grow up,

(02:28):
like a lot of us, even if we didn't go
to church, we grew up, which is you know.

Speaker 2 (02:31):
A lot of going into this word as defined sins.

Speaker 1 (02:35):
That's true and more a sin and more immoral act
considered to be a transgression, bit alliterate. Got today Nigga
said a sin and I'm still of the lemon drops
and a moral act considered to be a transgression against

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divine law.

Speaker 2 (02:59):
I'll about to say, past let me read it for you.

Speaker 1 (03:01):
Yeah, I just want to say, you're reading this shit better.
You can see this shit better than me. And then
it says an act against an act regarded as a
serious or regrettable fault, offense, or omission. So that's the
definition of saying, everybody.

Speaker 2 (03:16):
Who determines what is a sin what is not.

Speaker 1 (03:18):
A obviously the motherfucking super hypocritical Christian and like, you know,
the people that are holier than now, I feel like
those are the people. And then you know they say
what it is in the Bible. So I'll go first.
What are some of your sins that you don't My
favorite sin that I always do a tattoo. I love tattoos.
I love tattoos. My Oh shit, that's what I'm saying.

(03:40):
Like they said that we're gonna go to hell. Get
let's let's see.

Speaker 2 (03:44):
I need skull aheads on me. I got demons everything.

Speaker 1 (03:47):
What's crazy though? And I always tell the story. I
literally got a girl but a week before I got shot.
That's I know God is for real. Maybe tattoos is
a sin, Maybe it really is. I got I got
a girl with a gun tattooed on my back a
week before I got shot. And guess why I got shot.

Speaker 2 (04:06):
Right with the tattoo right in the gun.

Speaker 1 (04:08):
No, I got shot. I can show you, guys, dang.
I wish the camera could get it. I really could.
I can show. We can show it later and then
just throw it in there.

Speaker 2 (04:17):
But I have.

Speaker 1 (04:18):
I got an AK forty seven tatted on me. I
never finished the AK forty seven because this was the
most painful tattoo I ever had. And I have a
tattoos all over my back, but in the middle of
my back. I never finished it. It's a girl with
a bandana and I was on color it red because
I thought I was blood.

Speaker 2 (04:32):
Jesus and the cript shot me.

Speaker 1 (04:36):
So it's like, like, I feel like that was a
very biblical moment there.

Speaker 2 (04:39):
That was crazy. That's crazy, right, bullet.

Speaker 1 (04:42):
The bullet hole, it's literally inside of the gun. That
is That's how I feel like God. God is like, whoa, whoa,
whoa bitch? You know, yeah, I don't know. That's why
you gotta be very careful with your tattoo on you.
And then I tattooed a skull on me before I
got that, I got tattooed the skull. It's on the side.

(05:03):
That was one of these two of my most painful tattoos.
Usually tattoos don't hurt. And I just finished the whole ship.
But that literally, it literally fucking I don't know, it
just did something.

Speaker 2 (05:14):
I don't crazy think about it. My bullet whole that's
in my arm is my spider web. That's his loving
lady tea.

Speaker 1 (05:21):
Lawyer to the streets, right.

Speaker 2 (05:26):
The streets, set my ass down the streets. Don't love nobody,
damn sure, ain't lay.

Speaker 1 (05:30):
You Do you regret your tattoos?

Speaker 2 (05:31):
So I don't regret nothing on me? So yeah, this
is me personally. I don't regret tattoo I got, I
got shot.

Speaker 1 (05:39):
How do you go about, see this is a good
question now we're getting into it. How do you go
about picking tattoos? Now that you're lying?

Speaker 2 (05:45):
Like, what I do is like just come up with
different visions and I have my brother looking up or
whoever around me looking it up on on like on
the web, different pictures, and I just take it to
the tattoo and it's like you can't bring this to life.

Speaker 1 (05:58):
That's fight. But that you know, respect that because if
you ain't having trustworthy people around you, get tattoo dick
on you.

Speaker 2 (06:09):
I got some. Do everybody like, yeah, it's my nigga
be looking at me like wait, what's the on you?

Speaker 1 (06:15):
You'd be like, what the hell?

Speaker 2 (06:16):
I kill him? I kill them? I have another center
to my throat stape?

Speaker 1 (06:23):
What's this?

Speaker 2 (06:24):
But my son is sex?

Speaker 1 (06:28):
But no, sex isn't this sin? You have to be
specific about it. Let's look it up. Yeah, sex, I
haven't you've never been married.

Speaker 2 (06:36):
I've been married, so.

Speaker 1 (06:41):
I'm probably probably going to sin again?

Speaker 2 (06:44):
Love forgive me.

Speaker 1 (06:46):
Well, see, I ain't been sending lately because I'm actually
getting married and I've been celipate until.

Speaker 2 (06:50):
Did you get baptized to wash away your Oh?

Speaker 1 (06:52):
I don't.

Speaker 2 (06:53):
I don't really believe in that.

Speaker 1 (06:56):
I believe in God. I don't really believe in I
don't want to sound hypocritical because I do relate more
towards Christianity more than every other religion. But I wouldn't
say that I'm a Christian. I'm not at that stage yet.
Maybe one day I would. If I was to go
to any religion, it would be Christianity, it would be Christianity.
But I do believe in God. I do believe in Jesus.

(07:16):
I do believe he's real, you know what I mean.
But I just don't follow every exact thing that you know.
But I am studying the Bible right now and I
do resonate a lot with it. But I'm not going
to claim to be anything. But right now, I'm not
baptizing anything.

Speaker 2 (07:28):
That's not wrong. I feel the same way.

Speaker 1 (07:30):
But I am celibate, though that's a good thing. I
even feli it might celibate, but yeah, no, for real,
I don't think sex isst and I feel like, how
do you in this day and age, right, because the
people that did it back in the day when they
just married someone and then they had sex, those people
were marrying children if you think about it, like in

(07:51):
the biblical stages, they were marrying children. So how was that?
Nuts and my own ass men were being married to
thirteen year old children.

Speaker 2 (07:59):
That's who makes the rules of a sin and all that.
I feel like it's all just bullshit to me. Me
and then people are just making it up.

Speaker 1 (08:06):
And then the people that touch the kids the most
be the priests, the past hell yeah, and then it'd
be a bunch of it, be a bunch of pastors
uh rapping uh preaching about, you know, homosexuality, and it
would be the most homosexual.

Speaker 2 (08:20):
One taking it, taking it, take that.

Speaker 1 (08:24):
They don't even give it. They take it. They don't
want to do in the ben dance. That's all I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (08:33):
No, But what's the what? What's what's what's your say?
What do you do? What's said that you don't regret
that you do? Damn?

Speaker 3 (08:43):
I don't know.

Speaker 2 (08:44):
I feel like convince is so perfect.

Speaker 3 (08:48):
I mean, I done definitely did some ship, Like I
sold a nigga a pair of fake Yasies before knowing
what sin.

Speaker 2 (08:54):
Would that be? Would that be considered.

Speaker 1 (08:59):
Foresse sin?

Speaker 2 (09:00):
That's a sin? I like, yeah.

Speaker 1 (09:05):
That bos I ate that one.

Speaker 2 (09:07):
He finished every day though.

Speaker 1 (09:08):
But that's what I'm saying, Is that really a sin?
Or is that wouldn't that be a sin on him?
Because what's the seven deadly sins? That's what those up?

Speaker 3 (09:16):
Because because I lied, you know what I'm saying. I
lied to the niggie, So I like manipulated the situation.
The nigga thought he was getting like a pair of
Yeezies fresh out the box, brand new for a good price.

Speaker 2 (09:27):
He don't know.

Speaker 3 (09:27):
I got him off a website for forty dollars and
they look great. But then I sold them. I sold
them for one seventy.

Speaker 1 (09:33):
But wouldn't that be a sin on his part? Because
it's greed, a lust for material possessions or wealth.

Speaker 3 (09:39):
Well, I don't know, because one of something that is
not less, just just merely wanting it. I don't think
making less. So I don't know if he lost it
over him or not. I just know that I did
the wrong. I was like, nigga, these is fake, I finished.
My dad always said, but this is.

Speaker 1 (09:51):
But let me help you, wolf, because maybe you did
not sin. These are the seven deadly sins. The first
one is pride, Yes, Pride is the excessive love one's
own worth, which puts a person above God. The second
one is greed. Greed is a lust for material possessions
or wealth. Then the third one is Wrath is an
uncontrolled feeling of hatred and anger. The fourth one is envy.

(10:13):
Envy is the resentment of others for their talents or
success and the desire to have it for oneself. The
next one is lust. Lust is an inordinate or illicit
sexual desire. And then gluttony. This is my favorite, because
you know he's fair, fat bitches. Gluttony is over indulgence
in excessive consumption of food or drink. Then the last

(10:35):
one is sloth. Sloth is a laziness, idleness, and a
refusal to act or do work.

Speaker 2 (10:43):
So how many cents you feel?

Speaker 1 (10:45):
Out of all of those, how do you think we
can all go? We'll all take a turn deciding we'll
we'll start with you. Out of the seven ones that
I just named, Damn, I don't know, because those are deadly.
There's way more sins than that, But there's deadly wolf?
What is it?

Speaker 2 (11:03):
Can you?

Speaker 3 (11:03):
Can you run run down on one more time?

Speaker 1 (11:05):
Just greed, wrath, envy, lust, gluttony or sloth. Sloth is
in laziness, idleness and a refusal to act or do work.

Speaker 3 (11:15):
Damn, I don't know. It could be wrath. Ain't gonna lie.

Speaker 1 (11:18):
You have wrath? You know it beat him?

Speaker 3 (11:20):
Quiet one? Feeling worries about ship?

Speaker 2 (11:23):
You do?

Speaker 1 (11:24):
But what would make you when do you like? What
typically makes you feel rage about things? What what makes
you think you feel rage about ship?

Speaker 2 (11:31):
Well? You know what?

Speaker 3 (11:31):
One one thing about me? It is hard for me
to let ship go, and I think that should be
biting me in my ass off.

Speaker 1 (11:36):
So what are you like? A vief of ben deta
type of person like you want to get somebody back.

Speaker 3 (11:41):
I don't want to want to get a nigga back,
But I hoole ship on like I hold grudges for
a long time. And I hate that because it's like
for me to feel a grudge toward you, I gotta
feel that energy in my body. It don't even make
me feel.

Speaker 1 (11:52):
He doesn't even get that right. I've seen grudge.

Speaker 2 (11:55):
I've seen Wolf in the action and we talked.

Speaker 1 (11:57):
So it's like, so what what what would be one
situation where you think that Wolf has shown rage.

Speaker 2 (12:02):
Wrath a podcast one time?

Speaker 1 (12:06):
The podcast, Yeah, that's true.

Speaker 2 (12:08):
He was gone off and he's man him talked about
the situation and he sent me the episode for me
to listen to it. And when I listen to it,
I immediately hit him. I'm like, this is not you, bro.

Speaker 1 (12:19):
It wasn't him.

Speaker 2 (12:20):
I'm like, this is not true.

Speaker 1 (12:20):
So you feel like he allowed somebody else to take your.

Speaker 2 (12:23):
Control, somebody dictated his energy. I said, this ain't you, bro,
don't put that shit out. He's like, nah, Bro, you
understand now, I don't put it out because this is
not you.

Speaker 1 (12:32):
That's not who you are.

Speaker 2 (12:33):
You know when you and it's like, this is not you, bro.
Like coming in the studio, I get good energy every
time I get off the elevator. This is not you, bro,
So I might don't put that.

Speaker 1 (12:43):
That's what I'm saying, Wolf showing rage. It's crazy how
because like I said, you see him every time I seen.
You only get what you get. You get what you
get from people. You know what I'm saying. So I
don't do anything to cause you rage. So I guess
that's why I don't see that part, you know what
I'm saying. But for the person that does cause you that,
how do you tend to handle your wrath in your age?
How do you oh try to like you know, what's
the word repent for that sin of rage? What do

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you do?

Speaker 3 (13:06):
Shit? I don't try to repent for that shit.

Speaker 2 (13:09):
I don't.

Speaker 1 (13:10):
So that's one of them that you don't regret.

Speaker 3 (13:12):
Then, yeah, I guess not, you know, because I'm like,
I'm one of them people. I feel like, if you
did me wrong, it's if I don't like you, it's
something wrong with you.

Speaker 2 (13:19):
You hold that in your heart because it's like that'd
be my problem.

Speaker 1 (13:22):
Like I said, as a Gemini, we're mirrors because Wolf
is a fellow Gemini like me. Clap it up for
the people I wish we had them them fake applause.
So yeah, Wolf is a fellow Gemini like me. And
I always tell people because people like to say Geminis
are so fucked up and twist it, but we mirror you.
So I do agree with that last statement that I
feel like if you you know what I mean, what
did you say just now you said you feel like

(13:43):
something's wrong with them? Yeah, because it's like if I'm
pissing you off, it's because you pissed me off.

Speaker 3 (13:48):
Right, that's all because I'm never looking for bad energy.
So I mean you brought me bad energy.

Speaker 2 (13:53):
Absolutely, I agree.

Speaker 1 (13:55):
So you don't regret that.

Speaker 2 (13:56):
I don't know.

Speaker 3 (13:57):
I don't.

Speaker 2 (13:57):
I don't know stand on that shit.

Speaker 1 (13:59):
What else do you think you have? Any of these
other ones in there? Save again, pride, greed, you already said, rage, envy, lust, gluttony,
or sloth.

Speaker 3 (14:09):
Probably, I mean lust. I think lust is something that
niggas gotta keep keep maintaining.

Speaker 1 (14:16):
It's like a lesson is definitely a deadly one because
you can literally die from lusting.

Speaker 3 (14:19):
Yeah, it's like a twenty four hour job making keeping
your lust and check you know what I mean? Because
lust is like me and Bro was just talking like
me and Seeweed before you got here. We were just
talking about like we're done with the streets, like we're
done with like being outside doing all this and doing
all that.

Speaker 1 (14:33):
And my reasoning is like like as far as being
like a like a male.

Speaker 3 (14:36):
Yeah, like fucking around seeing how many women you can
chase because.

Speaker 2 (14:39):
My thing, I put my way from the line for couchie.

Speaker 3 (14:41):
Oh god, niggas, all niggas do.

Speaker 2 (14:43):
You're going into cribs. You don't know what you're walking into. Yeah,
I did it all. I want this far rockaway to
the piece, just to get a piece of cluar to
the piece. It was one time, no loud. We pulled
up to the crib and like we hear she opened
the door. Just see the shadow of the TV and
you just see a hand like wa eve. When I

(15:04):
come in, I'm like that shit, don't look safe. This
when you was you have to see.

Speaker 1 (15:10):
Don't look safe and you still couldn't see right, you
still went in there.

Speaker 2 (15:14):
But guess what I did when I left the dope,
I just kids. I gotta run to jump back in
the car.

Speaker 3 (15:19):
That's correct me.

Speaker 2 (15:20):
So it's like the things we did for just Bro.

Speaker 3 (15:23):
That should have got you.

Speaker 2 (15:26):
Like, come on you times people like yo, go in
the closet, just be quiet, like.

Speaker 1 (15:29):
Well, you've had to hide in the closet me too.

Speaker 2 (15:32):
I had to do that. I don't have to be
and my cousin just in the closet like yo.

Speaker 1 (15:36):
You know what's crazy about us?

Speaker 2 (15:38):
Now?

Speaker 1 (15:38):
That were speaking it from a female perspective because I
did some fun up ship you did. I kind of
do regret this man. Maybe not, No, I don't think
so I was a kid. I was a teenager. But
I'm in a chair because, like I said, I've been
in the chair most of my life. Most of my
my my life is fucking so so I was in

(15:59):
I was dealing with is not really don't like we
was friends, but it's like you know how it goes.
It's your friend and you just end up sucking them
one time because you high or whatever. We that never happened.
I'm a teenager, not.

Speaker 2 (16:16):
Don't make it like that.

Speaker 1 (16:19):
It seems like that. You know, first of all, y'all
fucked without any drugs, So that's worse right.

Speaker 2 (16:25):
Last, like the way last, standing on your ship.

Speaker 1 (16:28):
All right, I can't stand up, but I'm gonna stand
on my ship. So he had a girlfriend at the time,
and we used to always go hang out with him whatever,
and then one day like his girlfriend had came yo.
While we sat there chill with her, smoke with her,
drink wod all of that, yo. Why he was like, oh,
I gotta wait for friendship with her. Cap while he

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walked her to like the I don't know uber the bus, however,
he walked to it somewhere and he came back downstairs
with just eating me out and stuff, and like, I
was just from with a girlfriend And the next time
I seen her, she was at the party and she
just was pouring shots on my throat and I'm like,
do this bitch know? Is she trying to kill me?
I didn't know, but I don't know. That's that's less
And it's crazy because she could have came back in

(17:12):
that basement and seeing it and tried to whoop my ass.

Speaker 2 (17:15):
It's been blowed all over the wall, right.

Speaker 1 (17:17):
Listen, I ain't going like no, hold, That's all I'm
gonna say. But it was like that that was one
of those things that that would be something I regret.
That was some lustful ship that could have put me
in a situation. I've even been up in crazier situations
than that. Because people have steps, I can't just go
down the steps. So I gotta wait for the nigga
show what because I know if my nigga was she

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on me would have bitch that couldn't walk.

Speaker 2 (17:39):
I'm gonna do some dB.

Speaker 1 (17:42):
I'm saying, but that was when I was a teenager.
So yeah, and after y'all, I was about to say
some ship that some ship, we just got to keep off.

Speaker 2 (17:49):
Sometimes you just gotta be quiet, and I got cr.

Speaker 1 (17:55):
God got my ass after that one. God got my
ass after that one. But seriously, lust, it's crazy. It
works on both parts. It works on both ends. Luss
is the reason why a lot of us are put
in situations and all life because everything that people do
is men, whether you like a men and women, they
do the whatever they do is usually for the attention
of a male or a female, you know what I'm saying.

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They live for it, even if it's a man trying
to impress a man, a woman trying to impress a woman,
or a man trying to impress them Like, you know
what I'm saying, it's for the it's because of what
somebody else wants. And that's literally a sin because it's
pride because you're trying to make yourself look like something
to impress someone else, you know what I mean, Just
thinking so highly of yourself to think like, oh, I'm
gonna impress this person because I am me. No, that's

(18:39):
not no that's not good at all, because I.

Speaker 2 (18:41):
Tell you now five, if you see me with your girl,
please it's time to come with you, not blow my
head off, like for for real.

Speaker 1 (18:49):
And at the end of the day, LUs is the
reason why I have my kid. I don't regret it
because I lest it. He he had someone, you know
what I mean? I had someone we both knew what
was and I just looked like a crazy homeworkerd. But
it was no home. It was a it was a room.

Speaker 2 (19:08):
It was a room.

Speaker 1 (19:09):
I like to think of myself as a room raider.
And he came to my house so unhappy and shit,
but no for real. A couple of times it literally
put me in a position where it was like I
thought it was love, but I realized we just you know,
enjoyed each other's company company in that way. And then
once you realize, like damn, by the time I started realizing,
because it was like I was drunk the whole time.

(19:31):
So I was not only drunk off alcohol, but I
was drunk off of just luss and just the feeling
of just like, you know, it's something you're not supposed
to be doing and I'm young again, So I was
just like Okay, I'm not going to say that I've
never loved my child's father.

Speaker 2 (19:43):
Whatever. I was about to ask you that when you
came all that high, do you still felt like you
love I.

Speaker 1 (19:50):
Loved him, but I wasn't in love with him. And
I do realize that now because now that i'm I
always say this, when you come out of a relationship,
you always think you're in love in those moments, but
when you come out of it, you realized, like I
wasn't really in love. I love that person. We had
love for each other, because in love means you will
never stop. You know what I'm saying. It's a it's
a different type of feeling, like you won't I know,

(20:11):
I know I'm talking about like that I love him.
I loved him enough to, you know, let him go
and be free and stuff like that, Like I'm so
in love now, Like I wouldn't even jeopardize anything out
of the relationship.

Speaker 2 (20:23):
Nothing.

Speaker 1 (20:23):
I don't even dusk with niggas. I don't I don't
flirt with niggas. I don't play with niggas. My man
is incarcerated. For everybody that doesn't know, I don't play around,
you know what I'm saying, like you is messy. But
I realized, like I said, I loved him, but it
wasn't Love is not enough to keep someone, you know

(20:43):
what I'm saying. I realized it was less than once.
Once we we was having sex every day, Like we
literally had sex every day. Even when I was pregnant.
We would have sex every day, but we wouldn't sleep
in the same bed, like he would go to wherever
he was going. You know what I'm saying, Like we
just have sex, and that's when I knew. I'm like,
this is literally fucking love.

Speaker 2 (21:00):
That's not.

Speaker 1 (21:01):
But after I have my kid and all those hormones
out of my body because when you're pregnant, you got
all these hormones and stuff, You're not thinking clearly and
shait and I'm like, Okay, I just wanted my family
and shit like that, you know what I mean. But
it's like I literally asked a mega, I said, what
you want to do? I'm not pregnant no more, you
know what I'm saying, Like I could do this like
I had my son. Everybody always judge women when we say, oh,
I had my son for me. No, I had my

(21:21):
son for me because I'd have been pregnant a couple
of times. That wasn't my first time at the rodeo.
You know me, I'm cold choice. So it's like, that's
that's the sin I would commit again if I had
to abortion. Ye, Trump, don't be trying to take away
women's rights to kill. They don't say killed, get rid
of their baby, get rid of their.

Speaker 2 (21:36):
Baby, because I ain't commit no more sinse of getting
rid of no more kids.

Speaker 1 (21:40):
But that's not your job to do. If the woman
you choose to be with she was just sticking in
an abortion, would that be your say?

Speaker 2 (21:45):
So it's not so much my say, soul, but sometimes
being an asshole can cause her to.

Speaker 1 (21:51):
Oh a nigga, make a nigga breathe wrong. When I
was pregnant abortion, I was saying that for you in
that thing. They still tell me happy birthday. Choices still
tell me Happy birthday. Every starts to choice. I remember
the number, I know the address by heart. I don't
funk around a nigga breathe on choices what and I
was on birth control every time I got pregnant. I'm
very like, I take the steps, you know what I'm saying.
So it's like if that happens.

Speaker 2 (22:11):
But listen, we're not worry about that. You're in love now.

Speaker 1 (22:14):
So yeah, I'm in love now, but we got to
limit up about how many kids too. I want to
have a bunch of kids lease fast. So But like
I was saying, less literally, less literally made me have
a baby. But I'm happy to have my baby. I
love my baby. I'm in love with my baby. And
people say you can't be in love with your child,
but yes, I am in love with my child. I
don't less my child. I am in love with him,

(22:34):
meaning that I will live for him. I will die
for him. Everything that I do is about him. Like
my whole life is to impress my child.

Speaker 2 (22:42):
Honestly should my kids as you should. My sense is
lust and rage.

Speaker 1 (22:50):
Lust and rage wouldy coincide with each other? Because we
heard last time of the last episode that you we
know what you did last Timmer.

Speaker 2 (23:03):
That's what I want to say.

Speaker 1 (23:04):
What would you say? They coincide with each.

Speaker 2 (23:06):
Other sometimes again, sometimes again?

Speaker 1 (23:09):
Or you think so?

Speaker 2 (23:12):
I like my my rage really not got like with
the lust thing. My rage comes from being loyal to
two niggas that I expect to be loyal to me m.

Speaker 1 (23:23):
So that's before you were that's before you even got blong,
before and after. So what what what's one situation where
you realized that you had rage? I you want to
share one that ain't gonna make them tell you.

Speaker 2 (23:38):
Nah with the home, I don't even talk about niggas
to be honest, like, I live my truth right behind
it and I ain't home putting together the story to
fabricate it to make y'all feel okay, Nah that I
could read. No, I'm giving y'all a real me, but
either like not even said like my friends, we moved around.
When I could see we moved around. It was nothing
but love. Sino was always at the top of the

(23:59):
li to call when we moving around. You don't have
to call, you don't have motion. Everybody wanted to be
around Seo. But then once I lost my vision and
then it's like I'm not at the top of the
listener more. Now it's like, oh, nah, bro, we was
gonna call you, but we didn't know if you wanted
to come outside that rage really, because it's like you're
counting me out because it's not even that. It's like

(24:21):
if it was the other way around, I would I
would never make you feel like that. Nah, if you blinding, Yo,
come outside, bro, I'm coming upstairs. You need help getting dressed,
and I bring you downstairs because I'm not gonna change
up because you hit the speed bump and I expected
my friends to do that. They did not. I can't
say not all of them, the ones, twenty of them

(24:42):
out of twenty friends for them still tall.

Speaker 1 (24:45):
So you would say, like that's literally.

Speaker 2 (24:49):
Yeh se seventy five percent of the people dipped on.

Speaker 1 (24:52):
Me five percent, twenty five percent. Yeah, stay like damn,
I'm stupid.

Speaker 2 (24:59):
I can't read and add nothing, not the fuck up.
But I can see though, Let's get a standing ovation
for that. He's not standing there, you know what I mean?

Speaker 1 (25:10):
Lady m I be making front of the wheelchair itch
is down because they want to stand in motivation.

Speaker 2 (25:15):
But nah, it's just like I expected every I felt
everybody's supposed to be in a stand up nigga to me,
and they wasn't. And that's when my emotions got involved
and the rage got involved, and it's like I couldn't
control it. Nah, I'm going on a whole rants or
niggas and niggas like yo, Damn, bro, that's not your
chewing them up? Bro? Fuck you this then and third

(25:37):
nigga like I'm emotional a body because it's like yo, dud,
we with each other every day, like every day until
shout out to smooth, shout out to k like they
text me like Yo, yep, bro, stop that sh ain't
you bro, Like take that ship down? Take that ship down?
Like that's not true. Why you laying niggas to like,
come on, bro, Like nigga, they nigga, They not your bro.
Even in the dark, nigga, you still have nigga. And

(25:58):
I'm like, I gotta I gotta stop playing my rage
the best of me.

Speaker 1 (26:00):
But see, this is why they call these things since
because I feel like when these things happen, it's usually
demons in place. Demons with ragees demons with lus's demon
with pride, demons with gluttony, is demon with sloth is
demons with what was the other two?

Speaker 2 (26:14):
Devil you pride, devil, you would not have me? And
then I ain't gonna lie then Luss. It's like I
felt I felt like I need a richina. I felt
like I needed like I have to my day has
to get started. I can't let my week end unless
I had it, like my my soul was weak because
I felt like I needed it. Now I don't feel

(26:37):
like that no more, because like I got the right
one for me. And it's like, if you want to
keep your legs closed, okay, cool, we're gonna keep our
legs closed. I'm gonna sit and I'm gonna wait. I'm
not before it was like are you gonna wait A cool,
I'm gonna go around this corner. I'm gonna go around
this corner my bus hash and I'm gonna come back
and act like nothing happened. That's crazy, shore friend, I

(27:01):
had a week. I had a week so like my Like,
as a man, I feel like we have to do better.

Speaker 1 (27:07):
But as a woman, because women fuck off.

Speaker 2 (27:10):
Not women.

Speaker 1 (27:12):
I am a female and I have a lot of friends,
and I'm like, damn, little mama, you should know how
to put it back.

Speaker 2 (27:18):
You know what I mean?

Speaker 1 (27:19):
Honestly and in people. I don't want to seem like
judgment to to my friends. Like at the end of
the day, I said, I on proachest, I feel like
every woman should have the right to do what she
wants with her body and stuff like that. But when
you do these things with your body, you can't expect
for your value to be put in the same You
know what I'm saying, Like and you wonder why, oh
this doesn't work? When you finally meet a god that
you like, you didn't gage that who SHEI up to
so many people? You get what I'm saying. Even if

(27:40):
it's still tight, the vibe and the energy still ain't
right because like, like we spoke about it so much,
transmitted demons. So you got all these energies laid up
with you, and the motherfucker that you're trying to deal
with could feel it and see it in some people.
Some people could see that ship.

Speaker 2 (27:54):
You can wait.

Speaker 3 (27:54):
So you're saying, you think that if a woman has
sex with a lot of a lot of guess, but
if a woman has sex with a lot of people,
you think that that is gonna it could possibly get
in the way of her finding love.

Speaker 1 (28:06):
I feel like if a man and a woman has
sex with a lot of people, I feel like it
gets in the way because I don't want the I'm
a woman. I feel like if people have sex with
a lot of people, it gets in the way of
them finding love because these people are outside fucking other
people's girlfriends, other people's maybe mama's, other people, you know
what I'm saying, other people's mouses. So now how you're
gonna go home?

Speaker 2 (28:23):
And you donet came home.

Speaker 1 (28:26):
You didn't fuck this this nigga bitch. And you come
home and you're looking at.

Speaker 2 (28:29):
Your bitch like you dirty bitch, like you get on
somebody like how dare you?

Speaker 1 (28:33):
Yeah, like there's somebody do this to you, and then
you just you want it, And then a lot of
people want to get wan top. They go and fuck
off first because they don't want to be the victim
of being cheated on, being played because motherfuckers like to
say everybody like this, what's that new? Saying, Oh, you
won't know what I do? You know what I'm saying,
Like you don't know what I did. If you knew
what I do, you pop a perk, you know what
I mean? And I used to be on that type
of tommon. I used to I used to be like.

Speaker 3 (28:54):
That, how do you feel about revenge sex?

Speaker 1 (28:56):
Revenge sex? I used to like I said, it wasn't
really revenge for me because I would always be done
with these niggas. I'm not gonna lie. Once you cheat
and stuff like that, I get turned off. I wouldn't
even want you no more, But then a nigga would
press the issue, you know what I'm saying. So it's
like I went and fucked off, but I already told
you he was done, but you don't want to be
done because you think it's so fucking delusion. So now
you're saying I'm cheating because I already fucked off. I don't.

(29:17):
It's no time frame on what you on what people do,
because people usually know the next person they're gonna fuck
while they're in a relationship. And this is the first relationship.
I don't think like that because I honestly like, yeah,
and all my relationships I knew the next person I
was gonna fuck, except for this one.

Speaker 3 (29:31):
Yeah, how does okay? How does that work? Though? Like,
so you met that person one time while you.

Speaker 1 (29:36):
Person Men Men are pursuers, you know what I'm saying.
Usual usually men are, because there's some women, but men
are usually the pursuers. I've never pursued a man before,
so men have always come, you know what I'm saying
to me, So it's like I'll know, like, okay, this
person is always trying to give me this chance, you
know what I mean. I remember when I was pregnant,
people like you don't deserve that. So I'm just like, yeah,

(29:57):
I like him. He's real nice. He's saying nice things,
you know what I'm saying. I've had people go out
their way to do things as a friend knowing that
they wanted to be with me, you know what I'm saying.
So it's like, hmm, I'll give them a chance, you
know what I mean. And you think like that, So
it's like, that's how you find it out, Like you
weed them out. You don't give them a chance while
you're in a relationship, because nobody's gonna take you seriously

(30:18):
if you fuck with them while you're in a relationship.
Think about it, because I'm like, oh, if you did
this to him, you could do this to me.

Speaker 2 (30:23):
To me.

Speaker 1 (30:24):
Yeah, That's why this is the first relationship where I
didn't get into it before I was done, you know
what I mean. I mean, it's a little, it's a
little in the beginning, but it's different because we didn't
get into a relationship, you know what I'm saying until
we knew we were both like you know what I mean?

(30:45):
Like we knew it was that we didn't come in
and we weren't in relationships when we did.

Speaker 2 (30:49):
What we did. I know this might to sound crazy.
What I about to say? Go ahead, go ahead it
get it ready, go click this out. This penis is
a key, right, and.

Speaker 1 (31:01):
Oh my.

Speaker 2 (31:04):
Is a lot right. I'm leaving it, but you stick
it in that right one. It just feels like it's
so perfect, like you unlocked your you unlock your happy. Okay,
you didn't know? Yeah, you know what I thought?

Speaker 1 (31:15):
He was gonna say, no, like the key if all
these keys.

Speaker 2 (31:21):
I'm not saying that because some girls got a key
lock that that broke lock. You feel me? They got
messing all over the city. But it's like I dealt
with a lot of women right that said the right thing,
moved the right way, didn't do nothing wrong. But as
I'm going in and out of them, I don't feel
that connection.

Speaker 1 (31:39):
Because it's the energy.

Speaker 2 (31:41):
But then you get that one over them and it's
like I just want to inside of you.

Speaker 1 (31:46):
It's like that's less.

Speaker 3 (31:48):
Speak feeling like like how do you know that that's
less versus just being love?

Speaker 2 (31:53):
How do I know? Yeah? Yo, because I'm gonna lie
after I in and out, it's like I'm just hurry up.
I'm pumping fast because I want to be done. I
just want to get it over with. It's like I
just want to get minds off. And then after that
she felt like she looking like damn, like you just
gave me the best, but really it's like I just
did it because it felt like it was satisfying me.
It was just pleasing me, just to get my another off.

Speaker 1 (32:15):
So you would know what you're in love when you
want to please the one.

Speaker 2 (32:18):
You know, when you want to please the woman, when
you want to smell the woman, when you don't want
to come out of that woman, when you want to
melt in that woman, when you want to hold that
woman when you finish. You don't want that ship to end.
You don't, you don't you want you want to you
kissing her back, you kissing her body.

Speaker 1 (32:32):
She even podcast nigga thinking about last night you got
a chill gang chill had no sex.

Speaker 2 (32:42):
Podcasting, but that that woman that just like damn, you
know when that one ted to come down, like damn,
this is real.

Speaker 1 (32:49):
So then why so so you're saying you don't regret
less because this is what The episode is about, so
do you regret less?

Speaker 2 (32:57):
Yeah, before you're gonna marry a hell y'all married?

Speaker 1 (33:00):
Why are you doing that?

Speaker 2 (33:01):
Well, I'm doing it. I told her twenty twenty seven, right,
but damn you already old as shit twenty Give us
some time, you know.

Speaker 1 (33:10):
Give what time? You know this girl all your life?

Speaker 2 (33:12):
Yeah, but y'all get the financials ready, Like, no, we
can go to the justice to piece tomorrow and have
our reception later on that line, I'm with this shit.

Speaker 3 (33:19):
You will get married to her tomorrow tomorrow. If she
hit you and she was like, let's go to the
court office tomorrow, you do it.

Speaker 2 (33:24):
Tomorrow, I'm gonna say, tell, I'm at the court over today.
I'm waiting on you.

Speaker 3 (33:27):
I know that's right.

Speaker 2 (33:28):
That's right, you baby, y'all, Yeah, waiting tomorrow for that's
about taking me there? Now, what are we doing?

Speaker 1 (33:35):
I know that's right because that people confuse things. A
marriage in a wedding is two different things. You can
get married without the wedding. You're gonna need that, say, financials.
If you're building with this person, you could build with.

Speaker 2 (33:44):
Now, I'm telling get married. But the far as like
the reception, the big wedding that I felt like she deserves.
You can do twenty twenty seven, twenty twenty eight, but
to have my last thing, you can have that ship
today right now.

Speaker 1 (33:55):
Okay, So because that's what I'm saying, that's what I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (33:57):
It's the phone that I'm signing that bitch right now.

Speaker 3 (33:59):
I know that's right.

Speaker 2 (33:59):
I mean witness that we need. We need to frenchie work.
Y'all ain't going away after this ship. Y'all gotta go
with me.

Speaker 1 (34:05):
I got you shit, I'm marrying mom, And should you
need me to come? Should if we need an extra witness,
I'm like, listen, but no, for real, honestly that.

Speaker 2 (34:15):
That but less, I definitely regret. I regret that sin
now that I'm at the age I am now before,
I love that.

Speaker 1 (34:22):
I regret it less. I've that's probably one of them
that I do regret. I do regret less in some
parts because it's like, as a woman, I don't I
don't know now that I'm getting older. I might sound
a little bit of sexist to my own time, but
I just feel like women shouldn't do we should hold
ourselves to a higher standard.

Speaker 2 (34:40):
When it got Cootie is a gift. You're supposed to
be that ship.

Speaker 1 (34:43):
Everywhere life like life literally comes out of our bodies.
And it's crazy because if you look at all the STDs,
men are less acceptable to STDs and women, you know
what I'm saying, Like you guys can carry it and
won't feel the symptoms that we feel. Women, we will.
We'll get something and then it can cause sterilizing, you
know what I'm saying, Cancers, all types of things, you
know what I mean.

Speaker 2 (35:04):
So it's just like they could burn you.

Speaker 1 (35:06):
I just feel like, I just feel like it's just
know and I feel like everybody shouldn't be.

Speaker 2 (35:09):
Sending everybody shouldn't be sucking everybody.

Speaker 1 (35:13):
And that's what I always say. We were meant to
just have sex with whoever. STDs wouldn't exist.

Speaker 2 (35:17):
We got a gift. Everybody's not supposed to know. You
have your gift that surprize possession in your soul. And
then it's nothing like laying down with a woman that
you know, this shit is minds and only minds. Like
when LUSS going on, it's like it didn't take me
long to get for you to drop your panties. How
often you do this ship what else demons you bringing

(35:39):
into my bedroom or this hotel room? Who else that
Like you could still like you still could smell a
man on a woman sometimes, but that ship don't mean
because like I gotta get minds off. It's like satisfaction
to me, Like sometimes like I'm going two or three
days like and one day I got two or three
women just to please, like just just thinking I'm pleasing myself.

Speaker 3 (36:00):
Yeah, you got that ship feeling.

Speaker 2 (36:02):
Yeah, it's like that or not. But then it's like
when you get that one and you have like that's all.

Speaker 3 (36:06):
You need and another thing about like lust lust, it's
like it's like it's no funny shit. It's like when
you said when you went to that girl's house and
she opened the door, you knew something seemed.

Speaker 2 (36:15):
Off with you.

Speaker 3 (36:16):
Still I can't LUSI LUs will put you in like
predicaments where you're not safe, you know, because like you
could be fucking with a girl who fucking with you,
like I don't listen, I don't Several times, bro, have
I been with a girl and she slipped and told
me she was married, And it was like we was
talking and she's like my husband, and.

Speaker 1 (36:34):
I'm like, now that husband, come home. You in souse.

Speaker 2 (36:37):
You got the right time. Tell the story that I
could have really got myself killed. Tell the story really boom,
I'm in the crib.

Speaker 1 (36:45):
Shure.

Speaker 2 (36:45):
They invited me over right now. It's like my son called,
O had it. I had it. So it's like this
is BBM DS. You feel me. Yeah, I'm moving around.
I was. I was a yeah BBM BlackBerry is brew
chats you know, oh yeah BlackBerry. So were going crazy right,

(37:06):
He's like, yo, Shure, I'm like, word, I said, we
hit it. He like in the car, Yeah, she told
me to put up to her crib, like you said.

Speaker 3 (37:12):
You must have been talking that ship your man's head first.

Speaker 2 (37:14):
Yeah, so first she was aren't.

Speaker 3 (37:17):
Understand that type of show.

Speaker 2 (37:19):
So he like, she don't know. We know each other.
So I pose up to the crib and then she's like, oh,
just come in and be quiet. Going in the room,
I'm hitting and I'm looking around. I'm like as I'm hit,
and I'm like a Yankee fitted on the light and
I'm like maybe she she wear hat fitts. I'm looking
I'm like there was not sneakers over there, man some

(37:42):
more And I'm looking around like damn a vinny sweater.
I met her baby father crib or something. So it's like,
oh for that alone, It's like, you know cook. Like
then I'm like all right, I'm finished. She's like, wait,
hold on, that's my baby father cousin that came in.
I said what what Yo. I'm like, oh my fucking god.

(38:06):
I'm just there by myself. I'm looking at the one
on like then can I make it to the break down?
I thinking she taking she was on yo, third floor. Yo.

Speaker 1 (38:16):
I'm like possibly maybe not.

Speaker 2 (38:18):
I'm like, damn, how I'm looking at the one now.
I'm like damn. So she told me stand behind the door.
She opened the door. She's like, yo's like, I'm about
to go back here and smokes like all cool. He
goes in the room. She rushed me outside. I'm like, yo,
what's up with you? And she's like, oh my bad.
I ain't think nobody was coming here this that, But
this is your baby father crypt It's like your crib.

(38:39):
This is your baby father crib.

Speaker 1 (38:41):
Because his cousin just walking.

Speaker 2 (38:42):
Yo, just walk in, like just walk. I'm like, nah,
I ain't. I ain't playing on my life like this
no more.

Speaker 1 (38:48):
That's disgusting.

Speaker 2 (38:49):
But did I stop hitting on it?

Speaker 1 (38:50):
Nah?

Speaker 2 (38:51):
Damn, I still kept her crib.

Speaker 3 (38:54):
Hn't in her crib. It's like, niggas, it's not worth it, niggas.
Like there's so many stories in the Bible about men
losing their power to lust. You know what I mean.

Speaker 2 (39:03):
It's on the news, men losing a light.

Speaker 1 (39:07):
Men are a week when it comes to sex.

Speaker 2 (39:09):
Absolutely, if you if you want to get if you
want to get out, have a girl, shut it up.

Speaker 1 (39:14):
Even me, now that I'm celebrated, every every man assumes
that I have to be fucking on the low. You
know what I'm saying, Like, no, no way, Like even me,
I wouldn't think this would be possible for me. If
this was me a couple of years ago, I wouldn't agree.
I wouldn't think I could be able to do it.

Speaker 2 (39:26):
Play with yourself is a son.

Speaker 1 (39:28):
I mean, yeah, I play with myself. But they say
when you regret, They say, when you play with yourself,
you're having sex with it. It's an incubus and a
succubist or whatever.

Speaker 2 (39:36):
I forget.

Speaker 1 (39:37):
Hello, you feel it and you're like, yo, that ship
feels so good. You feel disgusted with yourself yourself. I
turned the porn off. I play these dirty bitches yo yo.

Speaker 2 (39:49):
After it was just me. After that, I'd be like, oh,
what is I'm doing?

Speaker 1 (39:54):
But where are they mothers? Oh my god, somebody has
stuff that's never you start to figure it out, like
what the is going? And you started thinking like what's
wrong with me?

Speaker 2 (40:02):
Especially when you gotta clean yourself and then you be talking.

Speaker 1 (40:05):
You ever talk to the bitches?

Speaker 2 (40:06):
Yea? And I never talked it out, but I talked
to my damn stuff like I took.

Speaker 1 (40:12):
To myself in my head and beat the bitches because
I like.

Speaker 2 (40:14):
Got to stop. I like the girl, so like I
gotta stop. I can't keep doing.

Speaker 3 (40:19):
But why do you think you why is it that
like you be feeling bad after this situation?

Speaker 2 (40:22):
No, I don't know.

Speaker 1 (40:23):
I think I feel bad because oh that's a sin
that I that I do regret being being I was.
I was being gay. I was being like when I
was younger, I was being gay. I got delivered because
I stopped doing it after I got shot.

Speaker 2 (40:37):
My whole life changed.

Speaker 1 (40:39):
My whole life shame like when I say, I fucked
so many bitches and I was acting like a nigga
with these bitches.

Speaker 2 (40:46):
You thought it was two niggas on this counter.

Speaker 1 (40:48):
No, seriously, I fucked so many bitches before and I
was literally hurting them, breaking a little hearts because I'm like,
no way, these bitches.

Speaker 2 (40:54):
Take me serious problem both.

Speaker 1 (40:57):
No, yeah, I was. So it's like I stopped in
this like, I don't. I haven't went back. I mean,
do I regret it? Though I don't really, it was
a good time. It was a good time.

Speaker 2 (41:06):
I feel like people like, oh I regret sins. I
feel like the sins that that we committed is what
made us who we are today. Of course, so it's
like if I never commit a lot of the sins,
I want to have been the man I am today
that I want to settle down, that I want to
just like build a family that I went and been
at like my my rage.

Speaker 1 (41:25):
So they made you who you are.

Speaker 2 (41:27):
It made me who I am today. And I'm proud
to say I am who I am.

Speaker 1 (41:30):
I'm mad I jumped this girl back in the day
for no reason. She was my friend. Oh this boy,
it was a stupid jump. Though it was a stupid jump.
The name was Jen. She wasn't really my friend. It
was his girlfriend and I was hanging out, was cool
with his sister and he was like jumper, but I
just hit it.

Speaker 3 (41:43):
Like once, so said she was your friend.

Speaker 1 (41:46):
Though she wasn't really my friend. She was just nice
to me. I'm done calling people my friends. But I
do regret.

Speaker 2 (41:51):
I do regret that I regret putting my hands on
a lot of people I don't like to.

Speaker 1 (41:54):
I'm not a violent person like I literally when I
was walking, I literally had maybe two fight and it
was only because I jumped. I only foot from my friends.
But when niggas I didn't had a bunch.

Speaker 2 (42:05):
Of fights with me.

Speaker 3 (42:07):
Can I share regret with y'all?

Speaker 1 (42:08):
Go ahead?

Speaker 3 (42:09):
This is like not super crazy, but I this actually
I still think about this from time for time. So
one time it was one of my my grandmothers. She
knows she no longer living, but I had a grandmother
and she had a birthday. This is one of her
last birthdays where we was like we actually went out
to a restaurant, booked this little special room. Everybody was there.
I was in the photography and shit like that. So
I took all the pictures of her. These are special

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photos because like after that birthday, she was getting older,
she wasn't stepping outside the house as much.

Speaker 2 (42:34):
You know, we was going.

Speaker 3 (42:35):
You know, she spent the last I would say, she
spent her like last ten years, seven years of life
being in the bed.

Speaker 2 (42:40):
You know.

Speaker 3 (42:40):
So I had these photos, and I had the photos
on a laptop. One day, I was chilling with my
man's and what we're trying to do every day, figure
out how to we gonna smoke some weed. Didn't have
no money, I fucking pond the laptop. Didn't even didn't
even think about that. That's creed, didn't even think about
the photos being on there. And then I realized that
after the act, Bro, that ship, that shit haunted me

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to this day. That was years ago. Was like, that
is some crack that was years ago and it was memph.

Speaker 2 (43:06):
There's so much matteries that you would not be able
to get that.

Speaker 3 (43:08):
I can't get that back, Bro, Damn. That should still
make me even now like saying, I'm like, damn, that
was done. Bro, I still I can't forget. I forgive myself,
but I'm like, you shouldn't have did that, sorry, Grandma.

Speaker 2 (43:18):
Now you did all that right? How long did that
high last?

Speaker 3 (43:21):
Not nearly longer? The laptop for bro now you know,
don't give you no bread.

Speaker 2 (43:26):
Give you how much you got it? Fifty six dollars?

Speaker 3 (43:29):
Got like fifty or sixty?

Speaker 1 (43:31):
Oh, okay, I got one. I pulled my mom's ring,
her engagement her engagement ring from my dad. But they
were what I don't know. She's probably gonna find out
from this podcast. Sorry, mom, this is. And they didn't
give me a lie either, because, like you said, pawn
shops don't. But somebody had. I had let somebody hold
somebody else's eyepod touch, remember the iPod touches, and he

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did whatever he lost it, whatever lost it. Oh, I've
seen that. It's when I was on my feet. I
lifted that girl up. So you going that porn shop
right now, and you go pouring this ring. I was
so mad. I had to pour my mama marine.

Speaker 2 (44:05):
That was so bad. Damn it was fucked up, man.

Speaker 1 (44:08):
So I do regret that too, But you know she
not with my daddy.

Speaker 2 (44:12):
You don't need that anyway, those memories, though, they keep
it for memories.

Speaker 1 (44:17):
I took a look at this photograph, so some things
that kind of made me laugh. Oh mama, But that's
that saved my friend Wolf did it? To get high.

Speaker 2 (44:31):
Yeah, saving a friend.

Speaker 1 (44:33):
I had to save my friend. I had touch, and
I could have got way more afraid because my dad
paid way more for that.

Speaker 2 (44:41):
I know he would always low.

Speaker 1 (44:43):
He probably like, but you could have gave it.

Speaker 2 (44:45):
To me, give it back to me. I could. I
couldn't get.

Speaker 1 (44:53):
In the nineties, people was big on jewelry anything, you
know what I mean. Jewelry was way more real and
clutch and stuff.

Speaker 3 (44:59):
Like that, especially a weather ring that's a good piece.

Speaker 1 (45:01):
My mother had a lot of nice jewelry piece her
jewelry box.

Speaker 2 (45:07):
Oh my god, yo, did you hear her? Well, she fucked.

Speaker 3 (45:11):
Oh, Mike's gonna it's gonna be a clip.

Speaker 1 (45:17):
She's gonna start. She's gonna be like, oh, that's where
my X and change and I do half of that.
She's about to blame me for older she committed.

Speaker 3 (45:25):
Closure.

Speaker 1 (45:26):
Maybe even you talk about that's a crackead.

Speaker 2 (45:32):
But they're gonna turn to right. Let's say she up
jeemy box.

Speaker 1 (45:35):
No, I would say my top sins would be maybe pride,
no problem, Yeah, prid, I would say pride. I don't
regret it though, I feel like it helps you cold
yourself to a certain standard.

Speaker 3 (45:49):
And life saying I don't I'm not you know, I
don't regret with the pride because because it's some geminist
she had come behind somebody.

Speaker 1 (45:58):
I don't regret my pride because at the end of
the day, if you fuck me over, I'm gonna fuck
you over. And it's like, I'm not gonna die. I
don't have to directly you over. God don't play about me.
And when something happens to you, like if I'm the
type of person you do me wrong and you die,
I am not gonna like I'm not gonna celebrate it
or nothing. But if somebody tells me, I'm like I don't,
I'm like, damn, you know what I mean. But I

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don't funk. I don't funk around.

Speaker 2 (46:22):
But pride pride.

Speaker 1 (46:24):
People be like, are you gonna what if something happens
is I don't give a fuck?

Speaker 2 (46:27):
Like I don't give a but my pride. I lost
a lot over my pride. I regret that I ain't.

Speaker 1 (46:34):
Lose it over my pride. I lost as friends like
I lost people that didn't need to be in my life.
So that's not really a loss for me. That's like
a blessing.

Speaker 2 (46:42):
Yeah, but doing that like, because I'm prodful for the
right things on both sides of the defense. But I
lost a lot of people in my top.

Speaker 1 (46:49):
Ten would be less. I would say the one that
I do with is loss.

Speaker 2 (46:54):
I never been agreed rage. I'm not I had rage rage.

Speaker 1 (46:58):
I'm not really a rageful person. People might say.

Speaker 2 (47:00):
I'm rageful, but yeah, I'm like, I don't know all
the stories.

Speaker 3 (47:04):
I didn't her is going on my queen.

Speaker 1 (47:07):
People say.

Speaker 2 (47:10):
Scout gang, But that was that was out of love.
That's rage.

Speaker 1 (47:15):
He pissed me off.

Speaker 2 (47:16):
That was you mix a rage with love.

Speaker 1 (47:19):
Yeah, so maybe it's.

Speaker 2 (47:19):
Just pass that's that's it's an ill passion of Christ.

Speaker 1 (47:26):
Yeah, talking like you're not about to play with me
like that. I love these people. At the end of
the day, I love too hard and that's my thing.

Speaker 2 (47:32):
That's once I love you, was like we forever.

Speaker 1 (47:35):
I can't be glutting this. I ain't no glutting it letting.

Speaker 2 (47:38):
It's not my thing.

Speaker 1 (47:39):
Ship, not my type of little ship. That's you're not
glutting this. You always just a little chey.

Speaker 2 (47:48):
Tell me what you ain't tell me. Damn. I felt
myself like, whoa, let me get down fla.

Speaker 1 (47:54):
That's not me because I like to get up, get
going and motivation. I could you the maid, though I
do not like I'm not an enjoyer of the cleaning.

Speaker 2 (48:03):
I know a lot of lazy motherfuckers.

Speaker 1 (48:05):
But yeah, I don't like slough. I don't. What's the
other one say?

Speaker 2 (48:08):
Envy too? Though I've experienced envy, I never, I never
envy nothing.

Speaker 3 (48:12):
No, I've experienced envy.

Speaker 1 (48:14):
I feel like everybody's low key had envy, whether you
know it or not.

Speaker 2 (48:17):
Oh no, I had envy when the nigga had my woman. Yeah,
I definitely did.

Speaker 1 (48:20):
I've had envy, and this is real. I've had envy
sometimes with people walking m hm, Like I used to
when people would put their feet because I had a
cousin she kept putting her foot like she always put
her feet on me, like it was just her thing.
I don't know what the fuck was wrong with her,
love her to have. One of my favorite cousins always
put her foot and in one day she put her
foot up and I almost broke it because I'm like,
you can move your foot. I can't. I was envious

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over that. I used to tell people like, you can
leave me alone, you know, what I'm saying, like you
can walk away from your problems, and that's kind of envious.

Speaker 2 (48:49):
You put it like that, you envious the people.

Speaker 1 (48:53):
Yeah, so it's like we're being real with ourselves.

Speaker 2 (48:55):
I tell you, like, why are you telling me that?
For like I can see just like I know you're
not doing it to be mischief, but it's telling me
like that. It's like like I even I said things
like joke wise, but I really felt that ship because
I'm like teaming up with a nigger that can't see.
Everybody started laughing, but really it's like I'm saying that
ship because I really mean that. Yea.

Speaker 1 (49:14):
Even even with people in wheelchairs, like when I see
them get there, like they're walking back, sometimes I'd like, damn,
what the fuck is Like how did you get here?
Like I got shot and you got hit by a
car your spine severed and your back walking. Because like
if you have a certain amount of money, anything is possible.
I feel like they bring that ship, So I do
be envious of that ship. Sometimes. It's really like that's

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the only thing that I can't control on my own,
you know what I'm saying, Like as far as wealth
and stuff, I'm never mad about the next person having
a bag or nothing like that.

Speaker 3 (49:44):
That was my thing.

Speaker 2 (49:46):
That was where my envy came to you, to you,
because I feel like we could get to that. Definitely,
I'm not look at it. We can't we going to
get you.

Speaker 1 (49:54):
No, that's yeah, we're going to get to that. But
that's what I'm saying.

Speaker 2 (49:57):
I don't.

Speaker 1 (49:57):
I don't ever get mad over somebody that I just say,
get mad over why they're gonna come. I'm and maybe
sometimes things that one thing I will say to be
so transparent, because you know, we're very transparent with people
because I've been in the chair for a long time
and I've been like advocating for people in the chair.
So when I see people that do what I've been doing,
you know what I'm saying, But I just didn't stay

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consistent with it, and they might blow up quicker with
it because they're doing it. That shit kind of makes
me a little mbia too.

Speaker 2 (50:25):
Yo. When I see certain ship like I've been doing
this ship I love, like what the fuck? Like it's
we chopped liverood, Like how the fuck the day? Yo?

Speaker 1 (50:35):
But people sell their souls for ship like that, like
they do it a different way because I see people
not to judge people, but people go out their way
to make themselves look like assholes. I can't go out
my way to do that. I'm naturally me, I'm naturally funny.
It's either gonna fuck with me or not. I'm not
gonna I can't sell my soul to go viral or
do some shit because that ship that shit turns out.

Speaker 2 (50:54):
But even so, I'd be sitting up there saying like, damn,
like they don't see the work that we're putting in.
But when you see other people shame their content is
not as half as munch.

Speaker 1 (51:02):
Their content it has no quality. It's like it's just
it's just with the what the algorithm. Algorithm likes ignorance,
even if you don't realize people that talk about sex
all day, people that talk about ignorance all day, ship
they go viral because that's that That's what I'd rather
us go for who we are. That I didn't just
sit there and yeah, no I can't.

Speaker 2 (51:19):
I gonna see me stupid be a.

Speaker 1 (51:22):
That's a jiggablele. That's a jiggable I'm not about the jiggle.
So when you send me those clips, when you ask
me those clips in the chat.

Speaker 2 (51:28):
You know what I'm talking about.

Speaker 1 (51:29):
When you send me those, everybody send me like, oh
you should do this, you should do that, you should
do this to each is its own powers to the people.
But that's not what I'm gonna do.

Speaker 2 (51:36):
I hate that ship. You look at this blind person
that I'm like, but that's not.

Speaker 1 (51:39):
Me, Like, oh my God, stops chairs telling me, oh
this and that that's not me. Kolo to them, because
then I don't knock nobody else. So I don't knockive
a bitch at cracking. Do whatever works for you, but
don't just assume that's me. Because if I start sending
you say you're a fat person, I start sending you
fat people like, oh you should do this because you're fat.
Oh you're an ugly person. I start studying ugly people.

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That's doing you should do this since you're ugly, or
talk like that's how ignorant you guys sound. So stop
sending that ship.

Speaker 2 (52:05):
That shit makes me wrath.

Speaker 1 (52:06):
That makes me rage, That makes me want to punch
somebody out.

Speaker 2 (52:09):
I hate when somebody say another blind person, but look
what theyre doing is like they not me though, you know,
I mean, especially like when people like, oh, look they
doing this, this and that, and I'm like, okay, they
was boone blind. I got my life. My eyes got
snatched away.

Speaker 1 (52:22):
And then people be like, at least people don't say
to you, oh, I thought this was you because you
think every person in a wheelchair looks like that's just
like being racist. Honestly, yeah, it's prejudiced. Like I we
have completely different cheers, build skin tones, all types. But
you thought this was me. Like I said, I'm about
to start sending y'all some motherfuckers that look like y'all,
and I'm gonna say I think that that's y'all because
I think a lot of people's a lot, but I

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don't even think about people, so stop thinking about me. Ship.

Speaker 2 (52:46):
Oh you needed to start doing this, you know, nigga,
you put glasses on, you do that ship. It ain't
for me, nigga, what the I like? I like to
have fun? I am? I am. I'm not jumping out
the one though. Doing nothing like that don't fit me.
You're not gonna see me on corner Pop locket and
all that ship. That's not for me. I'm a la
me personally, I'm a laid back person, so a lot
of ship there. People like, yo, bro, that's not me nigga.

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So why is I'm pretending to be something not bro nigga.
Like I just got over being blind. Like before I
used to go outside doing motivational videos. I used to
be like yo, somebody walking behind me, somebody walking inside
of me, like hours our way to the people go
off the block, and then I do my video. Now
now you need to get this motivation. You can hit

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it like this is this, this what fits me. You're
not gonna see me dodging cars, being blind, being stupid
getting hi by a car to go viral. I'm not
doing that. Ship just not just ship, just not for me.

Speaker 1 (53:38):
There's people that pretend to be blind to go viral
or no, it's.

Speaker 2 (53:42):
Somebody when I go to podcast, gonna yeah yeah, he's
funny's his whole thing. Yeah you see that. Yeah yeah
here community. He just came back from snow Dog. He
hit me up. Yo, he's funny as.

Speaker 1 (53:54):
Held we're gonna have. We're gonna have that motherfucker's funny.

Speaker 2 (53:57):
But people hit like people send it to me like,
how do you feel that he's doing this? I didn't feeling.
I don't feel no way not for nothing. It's common,
it's it's comedy, and on top of that, it's believe
it or not, it's bringing awardness to the blind world too.

Speaker 1 (54:13):
I don't. I don't when I see people pretend to
be and perchances it's people that do that too.

Speaker 2 (54:18):
I don't care for panhandling, but if you're doing it
just to get a pan handled again, I be mad.

Speaker 1 (54:23):
I'd be like, shit, maybe I need to go on
the train and hold a pan out and see what
the I could get. I mean when I when they
go to UH, when you know you go to be
a dolarship, would you like to donate to the poor
of the I'm like, yeah, put it back in my pocket, bitch,
leave me alone. I am the less pushment. Leave me
the fuck alone at the end of the day. And
that's another thing. Don't ever come in our comments section

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and think you're about to chew us up. We to
ourselves out exactly what we say on here. We already
we already talked to each other about it, We already
spoke on it. We already know how we feel about it.
Only God could judge us. And if you're a Christian
and you come into comments and you were saying stupid
ignorance shit that's only on you. And remember we weren't
born like this, so it could always be you. So
I would think so far ahead that you could be

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better than the next person.

Speaker 2 (55:05):
And stop judging. So my stories to be living out.
We only living our life, be living our truth. We
here to tell y'all to help the next person out.
We ain't trying to bash nobody, hurt nobody, beat nobody down,
or roll somebody over. We just doing this shit just
to like help the next person out. That's all we do.

Speaker 1 (55:24):
My French facts are stop following the algorithm, be yourself.
If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. We
got to bring back people being famous for naturally being themselves,
not being whatever you see on the internet. Because the
Internet makes so much things so accessible that anybody could
be an influencer. But what are you an influence of?
That's the question that I want everybody to think of.
What are you influencing? Are you influencing the right things

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the wrong things? And that's cool if you want to
be a negative person in life, if you want to
be a follower, that's cool too, But bring back the leaders,
bring back the people that think for themselves, bring back
the people that are not ai versions of other people. Literally,
that's all.

Speaker 2 (55:59):
And motivation with Blond Poppy, it's short today. Stop living
your life by somebody else guidelines. No, no, Richie, that's
what you know. No, that was me before, not now.

Speaker 1 (56:16):
No you just had sex?

Speaker 2 (56:18):
Such who you just had sex? No I did not.

Speaker 1 (56:22):
You had sex.

Speaker 2 (56:23):
No I did not myself, well myself. Be happy, Be
happy with yourself. Don't live life according to how somebody
else expect you to live life. Like you are here
just to make yourself happy, not somebody else's. And stand
on what you believe and who you are, and say

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the funk out of my stay the fun out the
comments talking about you're gonna put me on the shirt
and everything you put himself on.

Speaker 1 (56:50):
The short blind But now I see yea better hop
the fuck up. We don't need nobody to put us
on this this.

Speaker 2 (56:55):
Old merch coming soon, can't put nobody kid heat me
and fraid you that could be rolling with visions.

Speaker 1 (57:01):
And idiots already tried to kill us. It didn't work.

Speaker 2 (57:04):
It didn't work.

Speaker 1 (57:04):
It didn't work.

Speaker 2 (57:08):
Weapons should not prosper Hello, and we ain't going nowhere,
and we'll be.

Speaker 1 (57:12):
Back for another episode next week. Tune in each and
every Wednesday.

Speaker 2 (57:14):
We're gonna see what you're gonna say.

Speaker 1 (57:15):
Now, Yeah, you can't clock that tea.

Speaker 2 (57:18):
I do clock it like the block it They.

Speaker 1 (57:23):
No, it's not that, what is it? Like?

Speaker 2 (57:26):
This is this? You say? It's this? Like I can
see this ship. Next week we out this ship. IMOD
think that was good