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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Greetings, fellow meditators. Welcome to mindful meditations with calm the
bleep down. I am your guide Michael Beckemeier, and today
we are going to eliminate our problems. Let's get started.
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As always, we have a mindfulness quote to help us
head into our meditation with some intent and purpose. And
today our quote comes from Michael Jefferies and it reads,
what would the ego do without a problem? That quote
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obviously sounds a little bit like a like a thought exercise,
like what is the sound of one hand clapping? But
when I read that quote, the first thing I thought
of is yes, obviously we create our own problem. And
so much of our reaction to a thing is tied
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up in our ego. If something makes us feel good,
that's our ego going on.
Speaker 2 (01:11):
That makes me feel good.
Speaker 1 (01:13):
And if something makes us angry or upset or defensive
about something, that's also our ego meddling into our reaction
to a thing. So much of meditation and mindfulness, in
my opinion, is about distancing ourself from the ego so
that the ego has less control, less effect on our decisions.
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Like we can make a decision to respond in a
certain way towards something. The better we can distance our
ego from that decision, the better off we're going to be.
So I think that divination has helped me tune into
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more of who I am on the inside, and it
has helped me recognize when I don't feel good about
the way I responded to a thing, and then when
I don't feel good about it, when I do recognize,
I can go, oh, then I'm not going to do
that again next time, or I'm going to try harder
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not to act that way or behave that way, or
respond that way to a thing. And most of the
time that is for me at least, all always a
process of distancing myself from my ego wanting to tell
somebody off or flick somebody off in traffic, or any
of those things that we all kind of go through.
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But we do them because they feel good in the moment,
or because we are triggered to do something a certain way,
or to respond or to act a certain way, or
or to shut down a certain way. So much of
it is tied back to our ego, and our ego
really is doing what it can to protect us, but
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it's all focused on negative. So I don't like how
that guy talked to me so blah. You know, stuff
like that over my life and into my older years,
my sage older years that I'm entering into now, mister
almost fifty, I just have learned to listen to my gut.
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I used to have a really personally I just used
to have a really bad habit of if somebody did
something wrong, I would have this like sense of justice
about it and I would fire off a I'm a writer,
so one of my specialties is well worded emails that
cut the person off at the knees, like word hurt.
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And I am good at writing those because I can
sit there and I can dwell, and I can write,
and I can rewrite, and I understand how to how
you know the one two punch of a well worded
sentence or a cut down in a way that I
never am face to face. It's because face to face,
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I feel like I feel the conflict staring me in
the face. So I don't really say that stuff. But
in private, when I go it's almost unfair. I go
sit in my room and I rub my hands together
and go, Okay, this is how I'm going to take
you down, and I do it and it always felt
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good to click send email after that, and almost every
time I did it, I would get a response back, well, man,
that hurt or I always got my way because they
could tell how upset I was or furious about.
Speaker 2 (05:08):
It, and it.
Speaker 1 (05:11):
The strange thing about that was when I did that
and got those responses that my ego wanted, my ego
wanted somebody to go, you were right, I'm going to
let you have your way, or you were right. I
can see I was wrong. Then I would feel bad,
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and I would feel bad because human to human, I
don't necessarily like.
Speaker 2 (05:37):
Cutting people down.
Speaker 1 (05:38):
I don't like it when people act like jerks, and
I don't like it when people mistreat others, which was
a lot of those little like little justice emails I
would send to people when I felt somebody was being
taken advantage of or when I was being taken advantage of.
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But I didn't like one.
Speaker 1 (05:58):
Upping somebody, which is exactly what those emails or those
correspondence would do. So over time I realized that it
really didn't didn't feel good in the long run to
get my way like that, because it ultimately something about
it just felt like I wasn't like it wasn't fair.
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I don't mean you shouldn't stick up for yourself, and
I don't mean that that you should just like bend
over when it comes to stuff like that. I just
mean that for me, I found that it was if
it was even though it was harder for me to
speak up face to face, I felt better about that
because essentially I was avoiding conflict by going into my dark,
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you know, writer's room and like banging out a you know,
a massively long, hurtful email and then sending it the
way more productive to do that face to face because
you don't burn bridges, you don't hurt people's feelings, and
they can see you and feel you in that moment.
But what I was actually doing was protecting my own
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ego because I was avoiding the conflict. But then I
would go off and do like a little email ambush.
So a couple of things were happening, all of them
were in relation to my ego, and I realized over
time that even though it was harder for me to
do the face to face, it was better for me
because I didn't ever.
Speaker 2 (07:31):
Feel sick to.
Speaker 1 (07:32):
My stomach after I had a face to face conversation
or a face to face conflict. I might not have
been happy with the outcome, but I didn't feel like.
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Like I'd done something wrong.
Speaker 1 (07:49):
That was my ego creating a problem, so it could
solve a problem that it created. Remis here is that
all of us have these things. I'm sure different levels.
Some people avoid their problems so much that every every
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time they walk in a room there's things in there
they're trying to avoid, and it's all ego, and it's
all our ego creating a problem that it can then go. See,
it's way easier to just let me handle things. I'll
do it this way, and you can avoid your problem
and then we'll fix it over here, and then everybody
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will be fine. You'll be fine, I'll be fine. But
the thing is, we get painted into a corner that way,
and then you're stuck. So this is what we're going
to meditate on today.
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It is not a.
Speaker 1 (08:51):
Oh I meditated, So my ego is under control. It's
a constant thing. It requires mindfulness. But you have to
catch yourself.
Speaker 2 (09:03):
In moments like that.
Speaker 1 (09:04):
You have to catch your ego running away with things.
You have to really think about it, you have to
really dig down inside and think, am I doing this
because it's the right thing to do? Or am I
doing this because it makes me feel better? Sometimes the
right thing to do will make you feel better. So
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that's not what we're talking about. What I'm talking about,
it's things where we're avoiding, and we can only get
there by being mindful of those situations. And the only
way to be more mindful is to just practice being mindful.
And I think, as always the best way to practice
being mindful is through meditation. So that's what we're going
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to do today. So to start, go ahead and find
yourself in a comfortable place. You can sit down or
lie down, but mostly just close your eyes and start
lengthening your breath, breathing in and out and slowing down,
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relaxing into this moment. We want to remove any tension
from our bodies. We want to let each exhale sink
us deeper into the relaxed state. So much of my meditations,
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when I'm distracted with thought, so many of those thoughts
are ego driven. What did this person think about what
I did there? What does this person think of me?
And if I do that? What happens if I this?
And what happens if I that, and it's just worrying
and all that stuff. Mindfulness is a process of recognizing
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that and distancing yourself from it so you can make better,
more productive decisions. Continuing to lengthen your breath in and out,
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maybe scan your body from head to toe, relaxing all
the tension, roll your neck, you shoulders, your wrists, ankles,
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just observing your breath in and out. As you're watching
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your breath, you may notice that your mind has wondered,
and it will, it's inevitable, and when it does, do
your best to just observe that last thought, let it
float away and come back to you your breath. Avoid
feeling frustrated or annoyed, even though it is hard when
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your mind constantly wonders when all you're trying to do
is watch your breath. But that, in fact is the
process of meditation. We always see these serene people sitting
in their perfect lotus, and we think, oh, that's meditation,
But really meditation is an internal struggle of breathing in out,
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anchoring yourself to the present moment, and observing your thoughts
and not getting swept away by them. So as you
continue to watch your breath and observe your breath and
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bring yourself back to your breath as you notice that
your mind has wondered.
Speaker 2 (14:03):
You just want.
Speaker 1 (14:04):
To settle into this moment. Feel some of that stillness
and quiet. Observe the sensations in your body brought to
you by your breath, breathing in and out, and repeat
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the process breathing in, breathing out. Observe the thought, let
it pass, and come back to the breath breathing in.
Speaker 2 (14:59):
And u.
Speaker 1 (16:56):
U.
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Okay, it is time to return to the meditation.
Speaker 1 (17:51):
Take another couple of long, slow, deep breaths in to
let the silence settle in just a few more moments
the stillness set up in Absorb this feeling. Memorize this feeling.
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I know you can come back to it at any point.
The ego is going to do what the ego does.
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It's just like the mind. In fact, it's connected.
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The ego is constantly going to fight for itself and
try to protect and defend and try to make your
life what it thinks your life is easier. It's going
to create all kinds of scenarios. The ego is a liar. Really,
that guy over there, he look what he's doing to
you like, and there's you know, he is just making
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up stories. It's up to us to distance ourselves from
that so that we can not believe the lie and
make decisions that are right for us, that make us
feel better, that make us feel more connected to the truth,
more connected to ourselves than the people around us and
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the present moment. The ego lives in the past. The
ego lives in the future. The ego does not live
here and now, right here in the present moment. That's you.
You do that, the true self, way deep down inside.
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That's not the ego's job. That's your job. So with that,
when you're ready, you can open your eyes and go
about your day. Be well, and have fun, one breath.
Speaker 2 (19:54):
At a time. We'll see you next time.
Speaker 1 (20:02):
That's it for this time on Calm the bleep down.
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We'd love to hear from you. Once again, I'm Michael
Beckamia reminding you to please calm the bleep down. We'll
see you again soon. Thank you for meditating with us.
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Be well, have fun and no mistake.
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So much of meditation.
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When I'm meditating, so many of the thoughts that my
mind runs away with during that process are linked to ego.
What did I do there that might embarrass me? Or
what does that person think about me? And if I
do this, what happens if it doesn't go right? Or
what are people going to think? And blah blah blah
and all that nonsense, and so much of the process
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of meditator is we are trying to distance ourself from that.
We're distancing ourselves from our thoughts, but also the ego.
We're trying to observe the ego. What's the ego going
to do over there with that? Oh? Well, that doesn't
sound like a good idea. So we're distancing ourselves from
that so that we can start to make more productive
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choices for ourself that aren't tied to our ego. Three
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two one. Our picture of meditation is so often some
serene person sitting in a perfect lotus with their hands
and the moudras and all that stuff, looking very zen
and very relaxed and very like, you know, like they're
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about to start levitating. I wish, really meditation that looks
that's what we might look like on the outside. But
meditation is an internal process, and it's watching our breath
or anchoring ourselves to the present moment. Somehow, a lot
of people.
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Use their breath.
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We're watching our breath in and out and in and out,
and then constantly recognizing that our mind has wondered and
watch that final thought come back to the breath. It's
frustrating because what we think of meditation is the serene
person's in looking all perfect and calm and all that stuff.
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But it's really internal and it's an internal struggle. And
the trick is to not get annoyed or frustrated or
so disheartened that you can't quiet your mind that you quit,
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when really it's really more of a process. To show
you can't quiet your mind, it's not going to happen.
You can distance yourself from your thoughts, you can observe
them instead of getting swept away by them. But the
mind is going to do what the mind does, so
let it do its thing and you can stay over
here and watch your breath. That's the trick. It's hard.
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It's deceptively hard. It looks easy, sounds easy, but it's not.
And that's why so many people struggle with it. So okay,
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it is time to return to the meditation. Take another
couple of long, slow, deepbreaths in to let the silence
settle in just a few more moments the stillness settle in,
Absorb this feeling, Memorize this feeling. I know you can
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come back to it at any point. The ego is
going to do what the ego does. It's just like
the mind. In fact, it's connected. The ego is constantly
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going to fight for itself and try to protect and
defend and try to make your life what it thinks
your life is easier. It's going to create all kinds
of scenarios. The ego is a liar, really, that guy
over there, he look what he's doing to you, like
and there's you know, he is just making up stories.
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It's up to us to distance ourselves from that so
that we can not believe the lie and make decisions
that are right for us, that make us feel better,
that make us feel more connected to the truth or
connected to ourselves and the people around us and the
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present moment. The ego lives in the past. The ego
lives in the future. The ego does not live here
and now, right here in the present moment.
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That's you. You do that the true self, way deep
down inside.
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That's not the ego's job. That's your job. So with that,
when you're ready, you can open your eyes and go
about your day, be well, and have fun, one breath
at a time. We'll see you next time.