Ep. 449 "What If My Forever Love Missed the Exit?"

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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Yeah, you check one two, check one two. Is this
Mike On? Is this Mike On? Hey listen man, it's
the one and only Trunks that the DJ sis and
you're listening to cocktails Dirty Discussions with Kikia Medina Monroe.

Speaker 2 (00:14):
Here.

Speaker 1 (00:19):
Today's cocktail is called thirst trapping, trapping, trapping, trapping, trapping
all day night. So that was a song. I think
it was like yeah and.

Speaker 3 (00:30):
Then yeah, had Okay.

Speaker 1 (00:35):
The ingredients to make a thirst trapping two ounces of
tequila episodo points, seventy five ounces of some fresh lime juice,
a half ounce of elderflower liqueur or triple sec whichever
you prefer, one ounce of grapefruit juice, a dash of
a gave and I always get it wrong ta Jean
or tahen t a tahen rim and a lime wheel

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for garning. So you're gonna rim your glass with the
lime and the tahen. You're gonna shake all of the
ingredients with ice strain over some fresh ice in a
rocks glass and garnish and serve and that is a
thirst trapp in. And it's the summertime, so I know
a lot of thirst traps are gonna being posted, especially.

Speaker 3 (01:13):
If you got your life are X and you been
in the gym, or even if you haven't, because life
our X got your back, you could just you know,
get back. Don't be eating whole pizzas and shit and
candy and ice cream at night. That's how it started
to regress. But I'm back on trap.

Speaker 1 (01:27):
You know, you know I will say, don't be doing that,
don't do it. This is the first time I feel
like I have. It wasn't an intent, It wasn't intentionally
for summertime. The timing just happened to be for summertime.
But when this is the first time, I'm like, oh
my gosh, I'm actually like prepared for summer. Like they say.

Speaker 3 (01:42):
Summer bodies are built in the winter, and you've been
on it.

Speaker 1 (01:45):
Yeah I should have, But well, yeah, dude, you're right.
But it's funny because I was just like I when
I'm sitting on that stage with Easter Ray interviewing her,
I just want her to be able to picture me
as a character in her next whatever film she's working on.
Are you gonna right? The whole theme is the power
of big thinking and how sometimes you just got to

(02:05):
step out there and ask people stuff you gotta do.
It you do.

Speaker 3 (02:09):
I was reading Will Packer's book and I forget the
teachings now because this is back in February. I need
to reread it. But it was something about like go
ahead and have the audacity and step into the room,
and like stop thinking about what if it doesn't work,
just do it.

Speaker 1 (02:27):
Just do it, and just because what's the worst that
can happen?

Speaker 3 (02:30):
No, And you already at no, So it's only up
from here or you stay in the same place.

Speaker 1 (02:35):
That's it. I mean, we're just gonna see what happens. Well, okay,
I want to remind you guys to sign up for
the book club we just so you will hear this. Surcia.

Speaker 3 (02:46):
So last night we had our happy hour, and it's
always a good time because we just get on there
and we play games. I've been playing games and making
up drink recipes and coming up with different stuff and
it's really just girl chat. It's fun.

Speaker 1 (02:58):
It's nice meeting different people.

Speaker 3 (03:00):
There's ladies all over the place, and it's just.

Speaker 1 (03:03):
Cool to get to know new women.

Speaker 3 (03:04):
I know people are always talking about having a hard
time meeting new friends, and I get it.

Speaker 1 (03:10):
The older you get.

Speaker 3 (03:12):
Especially depending on what you might do for work or
what your hobbies are, interest are if you had to
move and you don't you don't know anybody, like I
don't know.

Speaker 1 (03:21):
It's hard. Like imagine if you.

Speaker 3 (03:23):
Had a career where you're not around people for real,
like it help desk or something, you know, like how
you meet people. You got to get out and do stuff.

Speaker 1 (03:32):
Or if you're more comfortable on the computer, you can
join us with the Drinks and Reads book club.

Speaker 3 (03:37):
The link to that is patreon dot com. Slash Kiki said,
so this month we are reading The Nothing Man. It
is available on audible for the people who like audio books.
And whether you joined the book club or not, I
didn't realize how many people weren't familiar with.

Speaker 1 (03:51):
The Libby app. Do you know what the Libby app?

Speaker 3 (03:54):
So all you need to do is get a library
card from your local public.

Speaker 1 (03:59):
And you can check out the books.

Speaker 3 (04:00):
So they have the Kindle books and they also have
audio books and you can do it from your phone.
And then also if you have Spotify Premium, they have
a lot of audio books on there now.

Speaker 1 (04:15):
So Audible it.

Speaker 3 (04:18):
Was cool and everything, but like I love my Spotify
Bundle because I get Spotify with my music.

Speaker 1 (04:24):
No ads. I have the audio.

Speaker 3 (04:26):
Books and I get my Hulu subscription for free.

Speaker 1 (04:30):
Real yeah, it's all bundled in. I still got titled
because I've just been holding on to Beyonce and that
I don't even think they're in it. They're not, but
I just didn't. I just wanted to hurt it. All
was loyal. But all you get is title. Yeah, and
it's like if it's good, I mean like maybe I
should get Spotify. Why have a package deal?

Speaker 3 (04:51):
I don't know how much you can listen on Spotify
to the audio books, for example, but I listened to
a lot of books like daily and it's never like, oh,
you can't play this, so yeah, check it out and
there's a bunch of freebies now Audible keep the app
because you know they have free books on there too.
Just depends anyway, get your reading and also something else.

Speaker 1 (05:13):
Another thing helpful tip for this summer.

Speaker 3 (05:17):
I also didn't realize how many people didn't realize how
much the libraries offer the public.

Speaker 1 (05:22):
Libraries tell the people, because I know people don't know, y'all.

Speaker 3 (05:26):
When you are trying to figure out what to do
with your kids or even yourself, or if you have someone.

Speaker 1 (05:31):
Older that you're taking care of.

Speaker 3 (05:32):
Check out the libraries in the summertime before they take
all the good stuff away. They have so many different activities.
They many of them had funding to be able to
provide lunches for the kids and stuff or whoever. And
while some of those snap benefits may not be there
or they're going away or whatever, there's other organizations that come.

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You get your kids fed, they can learn something, they
have new activities and stuff.

Speaker 1 (05:58):
My mom took my niece's to Louisiana.

Speaker 3 (06:02):
To spend some time out there, and she left them there.
She was taking everybody to the library. She was like,
we're not sitting around in the house playing video games
all day and she's not get up and she was like,
you know, I don't play that. I don't like seeing
kids sitting around. They need to be outside playing or
we're going to the library. She took them to the library.
That library now they do a special thing. I think
it's like not all the time, but they closed the

(06:24):
whole second floor on this one special day and they
let the kids do laser tag in the library.

Speaker 1 (06:30):
It's just like shut down. They pull the shades down.

Speaker 3 (06:33):
It's dark in there, so they can play laser tag
and they have like all these different activities and everything
is totally free. I was looking here to see what
kind of stuff. I was like, Oh, I keep talking
about I want to learn another language and I want
to get back into Spanish and some other stuff. So
I was looking for Spanish classes and they do have
free Spanish classes for English speakers. However, it's all the

(06:53):
way and John's Creek. I ain't going out there, baby,
but I'll keep our library.

Speaker 1 (06:58):
It didn't have. I checked.

Speaker 3 (06:59):
I did the whole Fulton COTNY to see what all
they had. They had that they have yoga, many libraries
depending on where you are. They have podcast studios free,
they have classes to teach you how to edit. There's
so much more than just books. So whatever it is,
y'all take your eyes down to the library. Yeah, and
bring those kids because they can't read and they need

(07:20):
to learn how and knowledge is power. Yeah, and y'all
need to be reading because everybody, because some of y'all
can't either.

Speaker 1 (07:28):
Yeah, they have to date on your stuff. Yeah you
went on poor Minds.

Speaker 3 (07:33):
Oh yes, so I went on poor Minds. I think now,
I don't know when the episode comes out. I think
the episode will be out tomorrow. If not tomorrow, then
next Friday.

Speaker 1 (07:44):
But I went on there.

Speaker 3 (07:45):
I did an episode with them, and then I also
did like some of their Patreon stuff.

Speaker 1 (07:50):
We just played a game how I forget the name
of the game. It's like how something are you?

Speaker 3 (07:54):
But it was like it reminded me of Cosmo magazine,
you know how much I used to love that where
you answer these questions And then I was like, well
what am I and.

Speaker 1 (08:03):
They're like, oh, we don't have to. I was like, no,
wait a minute, y'all need to come up with some
characters now. Anyway, it was fun doing that, And they.

Speaker 3 (08:13):
Have a bartender on their show, ty She's really cool
and we were talking whenever I hosted their show premiere party,
Ty was there and she did something. So Tye works
for Crown Royal now and I might be wrong, but
I'm pretty sure she said she ended up getting the

(08:34):
job after doing the bartending stuff there. So fun story
about ty. She went to Howard too. I didn't know
her from Howard, but we have a mutual friend. This
is back when we were at Bravo Ocean and Jessica,
your Tipsy homegirl, was our bartender. So he had hit
me up about Tye and I was like, oh, well,
we have somebody already, but I'll keep her in mind,

(08:54):
like if Jessica's not available. And then Dre had asked
me a about if I knew anybody or whatever, and
I was like, oh, yes, I actually do know somebody.

Speaker 1 (09:05):
And that was many moons ago, and she's.

Speaker 3 (09:07):
Still there and doing stuff and just having more opportunities.
And I think that, you know, sometimes like when things
don't work out because he hit her, hit me up
to have her be on cocktails, but it's it worked
out for her still, So sometimes when things don't go
your way, it's okay. There might be something else out there.

Speaker 1 (09:27):
Yep. So anyway, I did that and that was really fun,
and we did they do karaoke at the.

Speaker 3 (09:32):
End, you know, and we were talking about how we
were their first guests in their new studio and they're, yeah,
we had to get this sound right and staid because
they back to regular mics and so sometimes you know,
we be doing too much. Anyways, we did what is
that song? With Usher, Ersha, Luda, Chris and Look lovers
in France. Oh my gosh, are you sure you want

(09:55):
to go this route?

Speaker 1 (09:57):
Who let a nigga no before I put it?

Speaker 3 (10:00):
Who do you think I would never ever cross the line?

Speaker 1 (10:04):
Show the limit? He gets him one more time, one
more time. I love What do you think I was?
You were little John?

Speaker 3 (10:14):
Yep yep, yeah, And you know me, that was the
best one for me.

Speaker 1 (10:18):
Ludacris is too fast, too fast. He's like I sound
that whole entire song everybody's heart mm hmm.

Speaker 3 (10:25):
I'd be a little off someometimes because I don't know
when to breathe and stuff.

Speaker 1 (10:29):
But that is a hit.

Speaker 3 (10:31):
It's a hit, it's a I don't need to put
more respect on Ludacris's name, I will say, because I
think people forget about him. But he had some bangers
and he's really talented. And when you can slow down
your mind to catch up to what he's actually saying,
he's quite clever.

Speaker 1 (10:45):
I like Ludacris. I like him and I don't not
like him. I don't know what it is about you.
You're different. I mean it's like that song is good,
but like just Ludacris alone is like he always kind
of had like a little I don't know what you know.
Some people just like I don't know what it is,
but I just don't like you do.

Speaker 3 (11:00):
Sometimes you just feel that way and let's normalize. Hey,
sometimes people just aren't a cup of tea. There's nothing
wrong with that.

Speaker 1 (11:06):
So yeah, I went on poor Mines, I went somewhere
else on a show or out out. I did something.

Speaker 3 (11:14):
I went you in a restaurant, Pata Negra. I believe
it's it's in Buckheat, but like Bucket Midtown, like right
on the edge on Peach Tree, you know where. What
is that place called? It's a it's another Mexican restaurant.
Pasa Negra is cute. You could go there for a
date night, or it's cute for lunch. So my friend

(11:37):
came and picked me up. I hadn't been answered my
phone and stuff, so she knew she needed to come
pop up on me, and she did. So she took
me to lunch. And it's really good and it's just
like cute and vibing in there.

Speaker 1 (11:50):
It's across from there's a Boutika.

Speaker 3 (11:53):
What's that place you used to like to go to
that I don't like, And it's like after the club place.
But they had like allegedly organic or healthy food or
some shit. Maybe they just had extra vegetarian options. It's
colorful and cluttered.

Speaker 1 (12:05):
I didn't like it one I know that's what I said.
You loved it. I used to beel like, damn it,
we're going to our timas again. I think that was open,
it was safe. You had to walk up that.

Speaker 3 (12:21):
Want to go to Landmark for my land chops. But
you know, I would always get out voted because you
and Hannah both love that place.

Speaker 1 (12:28):
But it's a place you gotta go, or at least
you had to. Where are y'all young people be going?

Speaker 3 (12:33):
They're Atlanta?

Speaker 1 (12:34):
I don't remember. Keep me away the young people is dangerous.

Speaker 3 (12:37):
Yeah, Demmie scaring me and I don't know what they're
saying half the time.

Speaker 1 (12:40):
They probably don't either. Also, I want to let you
guys know that this week, no next week.

Speaker 3 (12:48):
Sorry, I had to think about what day it was
because we recorded in reverse order. Next week, my show
XOMN podcast with Exo, Nicole and Willpacker is coming out.

Speaker 1 (13:00):
I will be hosting it.

Speaker 3 (13:00):
I'm interviewing different black men about different aspects of black masculinity, love, relationships,
family dynamics, fatherhood, marriage, career, self care, all that stuff, childhood, Trump,
We're going there we're talking about it. It's really interesting
and I have done a shit ton of episodes already.

(13:22):
I'm really excited about it. This has been a labor
of love. I've been working on this since last year
and we kept thinking it was going to come out,
and so I have already recorded fifteen episodes. They're all
totally done, ready to go. Yeah. So I'm a producer
on the show as well as a host. And it's
funny because there's a team of us. There's Nimmi, Sheridan

(13:46):
and London shout out to y'all. Those are the other
three producers.

Speaker 1 (13:50):
And when we were starting out, they didn't ask me
to produce the show.

Speaker 3 (13:54):
They just asked me to host. And this was when
I was like, I've gotta start speaking up and saying
what I want and like, why not just shoot your shot? Because,
like I said earlier, what can they tell you no?
So they hit me up to host the show. I
came back with an offer and a proposal for them
to let me produce and host and so end up

(14:15):
being like the producer on the show. But I don't
like booking guests. You know that that is a tedious task.
It is important to have guests, especially on that show,
because I'm not a man. Uh so, I do have
a say so in the guest I don't book anybody.
I've booked a few people, but that's not really my responsibility.
I'm hoping to get some more interesting people. The episode

(14:37):
that I can't wait to come out is this episode
with David Banner. That one was probably one of my
favorite ones.

Speaker 1 (14:43):
Yes he was, Is he single? Yes he is?

Speaker 3 (14:46):
Oh he was like. He cut me off and was like,
what you thinking, Oh, tell me what you think. I
was just say I'm trying to be professional, y'all. I'm
gonna tell y'all right now. But I'm telling y'all this
with the understanding that come Tuesday, when the audio drops,
you're gonna go to whatever audio app you use, you
will hit subscribe, you will like it, and you're gonna

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leave a five star review and say we need more Kiera.
And don't be alarmed because he says Kiera Walker, not kik.
He says so because I'm trying to grow up, right,
So anyways, I need y'all to do that. And then
on Wednesdays or when the videos drop, makes I need
y'all everywhere in the comments everything job YouTube. I need

(15:28):
y'all on the social media, it's on the clips, all
of the stuff.

Speaker 1 (15:32):
Because this is a job for me.

Speaker 3 (15:33):
This isn't my concept or anything, and I want to
keep it okay anyway. I'm trying to be professional.

Speaker 1 (15:40):
My dress ripped.

Speaker 3 (15:42):
Warren and Cass were filming, and we were like trying
to use some of the production tape to take me
back together.

Speaker 1 (15:51):
Na I said, not even my dress is hot in
the twat for this man.

Speaker 3 (15:56):
It was just trying to I was trying to disrobe subconscious.

Speaker 1 (16:00):
So what did you do? I just wrapped it to
the song. I mean, I didn't know what to do.
I couldn't do no.

Speaker 3 (16:06):
I mean, he was there and that was the only
person I was interviewing that day. It was just like
he's walking in my dress.

Speaker 1 (16:11):
It wasn't.

Speaker 3 (16:12):
And then what pissed me off is as much stuff
as I exquosed my big ass up into. It wasn't
even that. It was just fucking fashion and I just
know what loos It was supposed to do better than that.
But I didn't worry about I worried about four or
five times. It's probably after four times, you just need
to call it quits.

Speaker 1 (16:31):
Sometimes you got four times. It was because it was love.
We did the basketball things with making him my dress.

Speaker 3 (16:37):
I was like, and it's just they had good tape, though,
I need to find that tape. Anyways, dress falling off,
I had to I don't remember what happened with my hair.
Maybe my hair pointment got canceled. I had to stop
in the ghetto somewhere and get me a little cheap
organique synthetic blend hair thing. I made me a little bun.

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I felt cute, though I thought I pulled it together. Anyway,
he was flirting. He had asked me if I was
hot and bothered, and then he was staring at me,
and I was so nervous. I was visioning with this iPad.
I was like, we're gonna move on because you're doing
that thing with your eyes and we'll talk about it later.

Speaker 1 (17:18):
And he was like, what thing with my eyes? You mean?

Speaker 3 (17:20):
Because I'm looking at you and your eyes like a
man is supposed to. I was like, now you need
to cut it out.

Speaker 1 (17:26):
You could beat my dad Patty. Yeah, And there was
a story.

Speaker 3 (17:31):
I don't remember where we were coming back from, if
it was New York or LA, but it was during
touring season and we were in the Delta lounge together,
he and I and I don't something in that stare. Anyways,
I dropped. All my shit was tumbling down the esciat.
I mean, it was just a mess. He tried to
help me, and then I was like, please don't let
him be sitting by me. Please don't let him be
sitting by me. And he kept walking closer and the
seat was empty. He did not sit by me. He

(17:53):
sat somewhere else. But anyway, I shared a bunch of
fun stories. He told me some interesting things. I was
kind of surprised at some of the things that he said,
but yeah, that was probably one of my favorite episodes.
And I got to talk to Kendrick Sampson that was
you won't like him because he's got the light eyesh.

Speaker 1 (18:09):
He was on Insecure.

Speaker 3 (18:12):
He was I think, yeah, okay, he is really from
there and his daddy was from Louisiana. And when we
were talking about that, he was cute. He was an
interesting guy. He said that he doesn't ever want a relationship.
I think the only Yeah, and it's interesting to hear

(18:32):
why he feels that way. Anyway, a ton of great
episodes I'm really looking forward to all of them. The
first one will be with Devout Ellis, so y'all check
it out. Tuesday again is audio and Wednesday will.

Speaker 1 (18:43):
Be the video. I can't wait to listen. I love
to hear men talk when a woman's guiding the conversation.

Speaker 3 (18:49):
Yeah, and they, for the most part. I didn't have
to fool tease. There were a few, but y'all just
tune in. You'll see the ones exciting.

Speaker 1 (18:57):
That's fun. If any of them need to buy a house,
just make sure you tell them to look me up. Okay, okay, okay.
I want only.

Speaker 3 (19:05):
Sell in Georgia or are you in other states too?

Speaker 1 (19:07):
I'm only here right now, but I want to get licensed,
and I plan on getting licensed in Texas because it
makes sense, and Oklahoma and maybe even Alabama, just because
we're so close. In Florida. The text maybe from Florida
and it's all right here.

Speaker 3 (19:24):
You already be in the car all day.

Speaker 1 (19:27):
But with that being said, I have two new clients,
one of them I am just so excited about, and
I can't wait to document the whole experience. I finally
have a client where it's like we can document it.
We will like we're making content around it, and it's
like a whole big deal. All my other clients are like,
I don't want to be on Instagram, don't put this

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dead lie, don't do the thing on yeah, And it's
like we have this whole little plan of like this
real exciting. It's so excited, just the story behind it.
It's just like we were even talking and like and
I found the house and so it's just I just
feel like, you know how you were talking about like
when one door closes, and we're like you never know,
like just what Avenue's life is going to lead you down?

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And so yeah, I'm just I'm just really excited about
one of my clients. But I have two new clients.
It's really it's just such a thing. I'm just like,
oh my gosh, like I'm really doing my thing in realism.
Maybe a year ago you're like.

Speaker 3 (20:22):
I just want to sell off, and now you got
all these clients, you're doing showings all the time. Look
at what a difference of your makes.

Speaker 1 (20:28):
Yeah, and a difference of your makes It's wild. And
it's like one of the things that I didn't realize
was going to be my message. And I keep noticing this.
The more people reach out just to ask questions or
to talk or to just to learn about home ownership.
Is that people that look like us, and when I
say us, like obviously black, but also like content creators

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or podcasters or you have like a different type of
you don't have a traditional job, but you also are
bringing in money and you do your taxes and all
of that stuff. People don't really that there are options
for you, Like I didn't know that. People just assume
that a lot of people are just like I can't
buy a house. I can't buy a house because because
of whatever you think. But it's a thought, and so

(21:11):
you don't actually know for sure, like if you could
get approved even if you think you have bad credit. Y'all. Literally,
I'm saying this, even if you don't work with me,
do not assume that you can't have home ownership if
you have not tried. I literally one of my clients
was hitting me up to help her get a rental
and I was like, you sure you want to do that,
Like just to give you some education that I'm learning,

(21:33):
Like you sure have you done your taxes? Year? You
making money no matter how much? Yeah, let's just see
let's just see. She thought she was getting a rental,
You're getting a home. And like I have found this
like a love for being like do not like, don't
assume you do not know the like the horrible credit

(21:53):
is the credit card debt? Like you think about student
student loan son. Yeah, like come on, like just let's
just see, let's just see what could happen here. And
I just want people to believe you could probably own
a home. You don't have to jump into your dream home.
That's not how this works. Get into the house. You

(22:14):
can get in, live there for a while, let it
build value, get a little equity, and then that could
get your dream home. Y'all. BET's stop playing because the
white people is out here doing it and I'll be
in the rooms with the white people like these things
these let me go past the message and it's just
like so it's just like this whole new avenue of
like I really want to help the people that are
content creators or have non traditional jobs, know, like just

(22:36):
the steps, just the steps, like come on anyways, So
that I have two new clients, I'm really excited about that.
It feels really good. Also, we have a day pass
for the Sedona Retreat with Paradise and Vibe. I'm also
really excited about that retreat. We'll be saying at the
enchantment it is like a festival if you will, it's vibefest.

(22:59):
It's gonna be vibes. So if you live in Arizona,
or if you live somewhere else and you just wanted
to come and you didn't want to, you know, do
the whole experience with us, and you're like, I just
want to see Lisa or I just want to come
to the festival portion. There are day passes available, So
go to Paradise and Vibe dot com and sign up. Now,
tell them I sent you. Also, I just wanted to

(23:19):
share this. Y'all know, I've been getting real intense with
my Jesus walk lately, and so I have been really
carving out time to like read the Bible and try
to understand what's going on. And like my sister was like,
sometimes certain scriptures will just like jump out at you,
but that was not my experience. I kept opening the
Bible and I kept seeing like there was this part
in different areas where it's like the gnashing of the teeth,

(23:41):
and I was like, Mecca was like, you're the only
person who's knowing the national I was like, I keep
seeing nashing of the teeth. There would be weeping and
gnashing of the teeth. Anyways, one day I opened it
and it was in Matthew and there was this scripture.
It was Matthew six twenty one. I don't even be
remembering the scriptures like that, and it was I don't
know about heart, but it was something about where where
your treasures are is where your heart's desires are something

(24:04):
like that, and it made me. I was crying and
I called my sister and I was like, I don't
know where my treasury is. Like I don't know where
my treasure is. And it's making me really like upset
because the whole scripture is about like whatever you spend
the most time doing that is where you will find
the desires of your heart. And I couldn't get to
the bottom of like where are my treasures? Like I
really was like I don't, Like lately, I've just been
so like there's a lot of stuff that I've cut

(24:25):
out of my life, and so it's like I don't
know where my treasure is, don't know my treasure is
bothering me. So I was like, I need to I
need to help people, or I need to volunteer. Anyways,
I started volunteering at Meals on Wheels and I did
the first volunteer thing with Keller Williams. They had a
red day and everybody just went and I didn't really
know what Meals on Wheels was. I'm like, I was like, oh,
this is cool. We packed the boxes. So I went
to their website to see what other options they had available.

(24:47):
And you can go to Meals on Wheels different days
of the week or Saturday mornings and you can deliver
food to the seniors. And I did it. I've been
doing it every Saturday morning at a thirty and I
pull up, they fill up your car with all of
these meals and Kiki, I went. They give you a

(25:08):
little route, they give you the people's names, They give
you some notes about them, like this lady might not
be able to walk. You might have to like go
and like sit it somewhere where she can actually get it.
If she doesn't answer, call this person, and there's all
these things and like literally it was like it was
so rewarding. I talked to old people. I brought them
their food. I met this lady named missus Maymi. She

(25:32):
was like, I was crying. I am a person where
it's like I wear my emotions on my sleeves. You're
gonna know that I feel it. I got in my
car and I just cried. I couldn't believe that, like
there are people in the world. Was like, you don't
have anybody like they rely on these meals. They rely
on you to like these like people to like because
when I talked to meals and was They're like, please

(25:52):
don't cancel it. Don't commit if you know you're gonna
be canceling because if you cancel, they don't eat. Yeah,
they don't eat. And so it made me even feel
more like Okay, get up, it's I know it's it's Saturday,
but get up and go. And it just felt so great.
So I am like in a in a phase in
my life that I want to stick of finding my

(26:16):
treasure and like making sure the treasure matters. And it
was just such a it was so special. I could
not believe that. I could imagine if my grandma had
to be like getting up down the steps to like
try to get the It was a lot and Anyways,
it was just such a wonderful opportunity to be able
to serve the elderly people in Atlanta, and I'm doing

(26:37):
it again this Saturday. So I say that to say,
if you guys have time on your hands and you
don't know where your treasure is, they have availability during
the week, you can go to meals on wheels and
pack the lunches. Or you can go to meals on
wheels during the week or on the weekends and let
them give you the boxes of food. They give you
the route, and you go and deliver hand deliver the

(26:58):
meals to the seniors and it is life changing. And yeah,
I just wanted to share that with you guys.

Speaker 2 (27:04):
So it's sweet because imagine, like you live your whole
life and what if you don't have kids, or your
kids are gone or they don't fuck with you, your
spouse is gone and you're just there, and then it's
like you're supposed to survive of of what they anticipated
would be enough. Yeah, the older I get, the less

(27:27):
I'm worried about like appearance so much, and it's more
about things like that.

Speaker 1 (27:32):
That's why I made sure.

Speaker 3 (27:33):
To show up for my friend's daughter's recital because I
need to make sure all the kids know Auntie Kiki
loves you and she's been here for you for a
long time. So when Aunti Keiki gets old, you need
to check on her because Whitley's probably gonna be dead.
In my obituary is gonna say she was preceded in
death by her loving dog, Whitley Beyonce Gilbert forty years ago,

(27:56):
like you know, like I men't think about that though,
Like I got my niece and said, oh no, So
I'm tapping in with all the kids. Yeah, and I
love the kids. They wear me out. Maybe I need
to do some more stuff as old people. It could
be hard sometimes, but I do like I've always enjoyed
being around old people.

Speaker 1 (28:13):
It's comforting to me. I feel like we can relate.
I'm thinking about lot of things, so doing the mills
on wheels, and I think I'm gonna start going to
because you can't really you can't just like sit with
him at the mill. You give the food and go,
like you don't be going in the house and doing stuff.
But like I think I want to start volunteering out
a like a Senior citizen home. Yeah, a nursing home

(28:34):
and just like talking with people and hearing people's stories
and just just making your hours and on this earth
count because they should be good.

Speaker 3 (28:45):
Yeah, make your time matter and not just be doing
mindless things. I know my grandfather used to feel like
sometimes people forgot about him when he would be in
the nursing home because I told you all he fell
off the side of the house before and a few
other mishaps. He'd be the nursing home recovering. And sometimes

(29:05):
my grandma would stay overnight, but sometimes she wouldn't. She's
got her own health issues. Sometimes she needs to be
in the bed anyway, when people weren't visiting, or I
would go visit when I was in town and I
would hear other people.

Speaker 1 (29:17):
Some people would just be screaming.

Speaker 3 (29:19):
Not because they're in pain, they just want some attention
and they want somebody to come in there because they're lonely.

Speaker 1 (29:24):
Yeah, and they can't get up.

Speaker 3 (29:25):
And it's just like nobody's coming to visit. It can
be really sad. So, yeah, that's a good one. And
I was watching something land Man and it's a show.

Speaker 1 (29:35):
It's on Paramount. Plus I want to say.

Speaker 3 (29:37):
Or Peacock one of them anyway, point of that part
of the story is this girl and her mom ended
up volunteering at a nursing home and they work up.
Now they were bringing them Margarita's, which they weren't supposed.

Speaker 1 (29:47):
To do, but I'll bring now.

Speaker 3 (29:51):
Yeah, they were having a good time and they were
bringing them games, they were playing dancing. She was bringing
this new man to see how he was gonna act
around the old people, if he was going to volunteer
or be turned off, because that was gonna be an
issue for her. They're liking him because he's attractive, and
so all the old ladies are having a good time.

Speaker 1 (30:08):
Like it was just good.

Speaker 3 (30:09):
And sometimes hanging out with the old people can be
fun aside from here in their storte, but it's just nice,
you know, Yeah, it's nice.

Speaker 1 (30:18):
Speaking of being lonely, this I was talking to. There
was a guy that I was talking to on the phone.
We was on the phone for like three hours. He's
just a friend. But are we sure? I don't I'm
not sure.

Speaker 3 (30:31):
But last man I stayed on the phone with three hours.
I ended up sucking him. So I'm just so you know,
it took years, so I know you're taken a hero's
probably about four or five.

Speaker 1 (30:43):
We were having such a good conversation sex and I'm
not having sex and be it and it's so crazy.
I'm taking to it so well that I didn't even
realize how long it's actually been because I stopped having
sex in the relations in my relationship, so it's not
like this doesn't it's not like get started just because
we broke up. My body was like, nah, nigga, you

(31:04):
don't get none of these. So this was like before
October might have been like end of September the last
that was the last my sex, like your birthday, Yeah, yeah,
that was the least of my sex. And so anyways,
we were talking about like just like like when you
start on like just different types of journeys and trying
and trying to just like do different things and shift

(31:26):
your mindset and you feel like you're in a phase
of just like almost like solitude, and it's like this
beautiful thing and you feel the transformations happening, and people
like try to talk it up. But I told him,
I was like, you know what, it's really interesting. I
was like, you're making this sound so beautiful, which it is,
But I said I had a moment last week and

(31:49):
it has still kind of been sticking. And that's what
I had called my sister and told her about it.
In the moment, Kara, I am so lonely, and it
has been so long since I have felt lonely, like
like actually lonely. And it's like and I was the guy,
the friend that I was talking to, he was like, yeah,
he was like, I've been through that. He's not he's

(32:09):
celibate also, and he was like, it's been like like
two years for me. And anyways, I was like, yeah,
it's really interesting. I have this urge to like I
just wanted to be with a man, like not sex,
but just like call somebody and tell them about like
this goal that I just reached or this exciting thing
that just happened. And I didn't, like, for the first

(32:32):
time in a long time, I didn't have anybody to
do that with, and it felt anybody are you.

Speaker 3 (32:37):
Mean specifically like man loneliness, like man loneliness, like a
romantic one, just like calling flair And I was I
was talking to my sister.

Speaker 1 (32:44):
I was like, man, like, I wish there was just
like a hot line you could call it, not a
sex hotline. But it's like a hot line where you
could call. You get you get like paired up with
a man and you just get to act like it's
your boyfriend. But y'all can't exchange no what Like you
don't get to exchange numbers or anything, and you don't
you don't do that. You just talk like it's your man.
You're like, well, you don't talk to chat and tell
her to be your man. Because they got a voice

(33:04):
on there, and some of them sound good. It might
sound like this would be like a conversation with the person,
and you just get to be like, let me tell
you about this accomplishment that that I did today, like
and you just get to have like that and I
don't have that, And so I have just been like, wow,
this kid, this journey to getting like healed in a

(33:25):
real deep way and like whole if you will. There
are some really lonely patches where you want to like
give in and you want to be like there's a
rapper that slid in my DMS and I did used
to have sex with him and he and I was like,
this is the devil. And then my my frindch chnuggle
be like maybe it's not like you do need furniture,
and I was like, nobody but the devil. He's slit

(33:48):
in my things. And it happened, and he's been doing it,
and I was it's so crazy because he was the
first of me sliding my DMS. I wasn't feeling lonely.
I was like, ain't no way. And then a couple
of days ago he slid in my DMS. He was like,
I'm in Atlanta, like I'm about to pull up and
I was like to wear the airport and I was like, hey,
I was like no. He was like, but I don't

(34:09):
know why you're acting like you don't need a rich
and going your roster like I know you don't got one.
And I was like that would have been enough for me.

Speaker 3 (34:17):
I bustled.

Speaker 1 (34:17):
I was like, I was about to sing in my address.
I was about be like and I was like, I
don't the only rich niggas no more and he and
he was like, but even just send me the address.
He was like, come on, like we're just gonna go,
and like we're just gonna get some food. And I
know what it's like with him, It's gonna be great time.
It's gonna be a great time. We're gonna go do
the rich nigga shit. It always is. It's always a
great time. And I was just sitting there like, Okay,

(34:40):
what'd you do? Open up your Bible and look at
national teeth or what did you know? I didn't. I
took a screenshot of his message, but in the group chat,
we were all talking go and I was like no,
I was like, this is gonna consist of drugs, alcohol,
a whole entourage. He doesn't really, I was like, I
just sent him. I was like, I just got baptised.
I don't even fun anymore. Like I was like, I

(35:00):
was like do you know that? I'm like, are you
looking at my page? Like what are you looking at?
Like he was like just and I just I didn't go,
but I like everything in me was like, oh I
miss an icy change just hitting me on my just
and I but I didn't go, and I but I didn't.
I didn't go, and I didn't go, and I stuck
to it. But I'm lonely, like and it's it's crazy

(35:21):
because it's like I feel like I'm I feel the
most beautiful that I have ever felt in a very
long time. My body looks amazing without clothes on. I'm
so consistent with working out. My like skin is clear,
hair is healthy, like everything, just like I feel real
good about myself. And then I'm just like, yeah, but
I can't. Some of my girlfriends are going to cant
Coon and I thought about going, and then I was like,

(35:45):
I'm not going, y'all, because I'm trying to I'm just
trying to like stick to what I said.

Speaker 3 (35:53):
What does can coon have to do with the celibacy.

Speaker 1 (35:56):
Well, it's no, it's gonna it's gonna be a wild
can coon. It's gonna be a wild trip.

Speaker 3 (36:03):
And I've only been once and when I went, it
was a bachelorette party, but nobody was being wild. So
I don't know what the can coon life is.

Speaker 1 (36:12):
I actually don't either, but I'm not going. And so
I was like, y'all, I'm just not going, and I'm
just not going, Like I don't know why. I feel
like I have to just like right now, just be
locked in and like alone, like I feel like I
have to do that. And it's just an interesting feeling
of not when you feel like you need to uh
what is the word like h fulfill like a I

(36:34):
guess a craving and you actually don't. You're like, you
know what, you know what comes with it. It's just
it's not it's not fun. It's not fun. And so
I'm just like they were like, just go hang out there.
I was like, y'all, the last time I hung out
with him, cocaine was being done.

Speaker 3 (36:55):
You know what I mean.

Speaker 1 (36:56):
It's like you have to really look a situations and
be like, do you want to change or do you not.

Speaker 3 (37:01):
It's good that you stood your ground and you exercised
your discipline because who was stopping you and who.

Speaker 1 (37:07):
Was gonna know not me.

Speaker 3 (37:10):
I was gonna be sleep I don't be in the
clubs no more because my ass be tired. I just
want to watch my shows on the Netflix or whatever. Yeah,
and you could have gone and yeah, but you would
have known inside like this isn't what I want to do.

Speaker 1 (37:23):
I want to make a change. I felt it was
a test. I really felt like it was a test.
The fact that he hit me up three days in
a row and almost got I almost felt then. I
was like, yeah, no, it's gonna be weeping and gnashing
of the teeth. What is gnashing of the teeth in
the Bible it sounds scary. Somebody's about like them silver

(37:44):
cat teeth. It says it's in several parts. It's like
and there'll be weeping and gnashing of the teeth.

Speaker 3 (37:50):
I slept through a lot of church. Let's see.

Speaker 1 (37:55):
They were there all day of teeth weeping and gnashing
of the teeth. They hiss and that this look like monsters.
This looks like something on front. I've never seen a visual.

Speaker 3 (38:10):
Angry or frustrated about something like that. Looks scary, but
it's a phrase. If you say that someone is gnashing
their teeth, I mean they're angry or frustrated about something. Okay, well,
who wants to be angry? Not anyways, Well, I hope
that you continue to stay strong and then maybe when

(38:32):
you feel stronger and like you want to come to
the flesh, you can go out and do some fun things. Yeah.
I wonder what they're gonna be doing, and uh can cool.
They're probably not even gonna be wild, but that's okay,
we're gonna say that they were wild. You need to
be an Arizona getting your paradise and vibe on with

(38:52):
ray and just your vibes. Okay, real quick, I'm gonna
share a short short story for weird sex, and then
we'll touch on a little bit of this topic and
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(39:34):
working out. I went to the gym like three times
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But you've been in they get to see like the
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(39:58):
like the definition certain parts of my body. But I'm
not sure I would be able to see if I
wasn't taking the pill. Like like as I'm working out and
doing the things, but like sometimes it's hard to lose
weight in your face and like it has chiseled out.
Somebody was like, your face does look smaller, and I
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(40:19):
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like you not being a quitter, Like what if you
do differently? And I was like, well, I mean I
don't got nobody's son stressing me out. And then I
was like, oh no, I took I took a BET
twelve shot and he was like and it just helped

(40:41):
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I love it too. It actually does give me a
bit of energy.

Speaker 3 (40:51):
And they told me that that could happen because they
did ask like, are you really sensitive to stimulants of
any kind? And I was like, no, I love a
little stimulation, but you know, stop playing in this doctor's appointment.

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Speaker 1 (41:59):
The link is in the episode description. You said a
man is not a necessity. A man is a luxury
like dessert.

Speaker 4 (42:08):
Yeah, a man is absolutely not necessity.

Speaker 1 (42:11):
Did you mean that to sound mean it bitter?

Speaker 3 (42:15):
Oh not at all.

Speaker 1 (42:17):
I adore dessert. I love man.

Speaker 3 (42:19):
I think men are the coolest, but you don't really
need them to live.

Speaker 1 (42:25):
All right. So this story.

Speaker 3 (42:29):
Is about somebody who got you guessed it hurt so
after doing the this is somebody wrote this I saw,
I don't read it. They said, after doing the deed,
I had a massive headache that was like a bomb
going off in my head. I don't know if you
guys have ever had a really bad headache where it's
just like pounding and it won't go away. So I

(42:52):
could only imagine anyway. He says that his wife rushed
him to the er, I thinking he had a busted
brain vessel and was having a stroke. The er basically
says it happens a lot. They just kept him on
observation and let him go when he could see straight again.
It never happened again. It's called a thunderclap headache.

Speaker 1 (43:12):
So what happened?

Speaker 3 (43:13):
I skip part of it? So what happened was he
was getting hit and it felt so good. His wife
was really going to town. It felt so good that
he ended up having a headache from it, And so
the doctors call it a thunderclap headache. And it's a sudden,
intense headache, sometimes triggered by an orgasm or some other
sexual activity. It's rare, but it happens more often than

(43:34):
you probably think. And this guy was brought to the
er thinking he'd bust a blood.

Speaker 1 (43:41):
Vessel, but he walked away with just a little story,
so he's all right.

Speaker 3 (43:45):
But I wanted you to know, back when you were
having sex, did you ever have sex that was just
so intense and it felt good in the moment, but
maybe it hurt afterwards or you thought you would have to.

Speaker 1 (43:56):
Call NOWE one one. I never thought I was gonna
have to call that on one, except for that time
when them when we couldn't get it out, but then
we got it out. But that was the only time.
You know, It's really interesting. Like I was telling you earlier,
I have a high tolerance for pain, and that's why
I enjoy pain. I mean, or does it not affect you?

Speaker 3 (44:19):
Because sometimes I be wondering when people say they have
a high talents from pain, I'm like, you just push.

Speaker 1 (44:23):
Through or you like the shit if you don't feel it.
I think it's just like a push through because like
with my back, it's like it's just not like a
I feel like if anybody else is feeling the pain,
they would be like, oh no, like day one, I'm
going I'm more like, he ain't that bad, Like let's
just see, it's probably gonna go away, like I really
don't know. But so it transfers into sex also, and

(44:44):
sometimes it's like it hurts me, don't hurt that bad,
Like I want everybody to feel good doing this. So
I never feel like I was going to go to
the hospital, but I definitely was like, dang, something might
be broke.

Speaker 3 (44:55):
Yeah, I've definitely hurt myself a few times. The first
time I realized I had side there's a sex injury.
And I should have known from then. I just need
to sit my feeble ass, sharp shooting pain down your
back all the way down your leg to your foot.

(45:16):
It doesn't always go down to my foot, but that
is like what it is because it's like a pinch
nerve essentially, how you get rid of it. I went
to the chiropractor. You you should stretch and you should
move more, and that'll do it. Sometimes I think people
have to get them shots and their spines. I don't

(45:37):
want to do all that. I'm just going to see
the chiropractor. And it happens a lot. Like when people
say they throw out their back, A lot of times,
that's what it was. It wouldn't be up, it goes
down because it's like back here. Yeah, that is not
a good feeling. Last flare up I had, I was

(45:58):
literally laying on the floor like is this how I'm going?
And who's gonna come in here? Because I thought my
door was locked, and I thought I had it locked
with the lock that's only on the inside. So it's like,
can't nobody even get up in here?

Speaker 1 (46:09):
What am I gonna do? And I'm alone? Then I
got a dog, but she can't do shit.

Speaker 3 (46:14):
She can't call nobody.

Speaker 1 (46:15):
Else you can do is bark.

Speaker 3 (46:16):
Anyways, y'all, let me know if y'all have gotten hurt
or what's something crazy? A crazy situation where you either
ended up at the hospital or you thought you were
going to go to the hospital, or the person or
people who were having sex with Whent to the hospital.

Speaker 1 (46:28):
Please exclude all of your diseases.

Speaker 3 (46:30):
That's not the kind of stories I want to hear about,
unless there's something funny to it.

Speaker 1 (46:34):
Anyway, that's it for where sex keep sending me the stories.

Speaker 3 (46:38):
I really appreciate them, all right. So this week we
got a few different things to talk about, but not
a whole lot of time.

Speaker 1 (46:49):
Yes, I keep I thought about it when.

Speaker 3 (46:52):
You were talking about miles on wheels and like the
old people being alone, and then you're talking I'm so lonely.

Speaker 1 (46:57):
I'm so lonely, And.

Speaker 3 (47:00):
It's been on my mind a lot since I left Louisiana.
My grandmother had written this letter. I think I told
you all that already. That was in the program, and
it was a letter to my grandfather. I'm gonna read
just a short piece of it. But I had sent
it to Medina prior. Yeah, and it made me cry
for several reasons. But it made me think, like we

(47:27):
say it in jest all the time, but it's like,
will we ever see like a forever love like that?
So this is what this is a piece of what
she said. So she says in her letter to him,
we promised we would never leave each other. And I
believe with all my heart that the love we shared
will carry me through. You took part of me with you,

(47:50):
when that will never return and can never be replaced.
Through it all, we loved one another deeply and completely,
and I believe that because even when they were bickering
and annoyed with each other and all of that, or
angry at each other, they always found a way to
come back. They were very big on family and all
these things. And it's just like together they had this

(48:13):
vision of what they wanted for their family and what
they wanted for their lives. And I often forget like
outside of being parents or grandparents, they were in a
romantic relationship, like that's that's how parents go, Yes.

Speaker 1 (48:34):
Forever. And it's like, how long was their marriage?

Speaker 3 (48:38):
They would have been married sixty years this year, I think.

Speaker 1 (48:43):
It is, but together obviously longer.

Speaker 3 (48:45):
Yeah, together longer. And they've known each other their entire lives.
When I tell you, they grew up essentially across the
street from each other, like catacorner across the street from
each other in the town we're all from. They went
to school together where then graduated valedictorian saludatorian. They go
to college together, they got married, she did tell me
because she was pregnant with my uncle. And then they

(49:07):
had all these kids and they built this big ass
family and just have had this life. And so it's like,
she's eighty one. Well, Shell, yeah, she's eighty one now,
he was eighty one. But to basically know somebody almost
eighty years and then you wake up one day and
they're gone, but you still have that love. One of

(49:28):
her friends had said, or somebody was like, oh, well,
you can live a whole new lifestyle. She got upset
and she was like, a new lifestyle. I would never
do that. I wouldn't disrespect my husband and I wouldn't
disrespect my family. And I was like, girl, I.

Speaker 1 (49:40):
Won't feel disrespect.

Speaker 3 (49:42):
You're eighty one. You can do what you want. But
it's like to still feel like I don't even want
anybody else because I have my love and I miss him,
but I don't want to replace that. I'm not interested
in that. There's other things I can do. I just
wonder if people want that one.

Speaker 1 (50:02):
Because that's a big part of it. Do you even
want it? Do you want it? I want it? I
do want it. And I feel like I'm built for it,
but I don't know if it's enough people out here
that want it or built for It's like I look
at like the times now and it's like some of

(50:24):
what is being like said and talked about and relationships ending,
like reasons why relationships are ending or why some of
it is just so ridiculous. And I have probably even
said some of the things in very early episodes.

Speaker 3 (50:42):
And I don't know the same girls we were Damn, you're.

Speaker 1 (50:45):
Ten years old. Yeah, I think that, and I think
I say this all the time, like in the vowels
that people say. It's like people say that for better
or for worse, and then all of a sudden, the
worst happens and you totally forget that you said for
better or for worse, and it just doesn't matter anymore.
And so I don't know. He I definitely believe in
it and I want it, but I don't know exists.

(51:07):
I think it does. I just don't know if it
will make its way to me, like I hope that
it does. Like even in my with my last relationship,
there were things that like we went through it made
me realize like how much I have to be with
somebody who is compassionate and like not so now that
I'm finally coming out of like the depressing part of

(51:28):
a breakup and looking back at like certain things that
happened and like being able to see them like I was,
he was kind of like a robot almost, if you will,
Like the way that he just was with emotions and
within a relationship and everything was so like it was
just very robata robotic. Yeah, like if it's not like this,
then we can. We were talking about having kids and

(51:51):
he was, well, if you don't have one hundred thousand
dollars saved for children, like I don't think that, like
that's smart to even think about having it. I was
even shocked. I was like, wait, what do you should have?

Speaker 3 (52:05):
He was saying this as if you should have one
hundred thousand as an individual.

Speaker 1 (52:09):
As an individual, even though we're having kids together, since
you want kids, you should have that. Because he hit
I mean, and I'm not even saying it's right or wrong.
I'm just saying I don't have that. So I don't
know what to tell you. He was like, I started
saving for children in college, and so like there's this
like the strategic way that I want to do that.
It was just very like it wasn't like life, Like
I get that that's what you're doing, but it's.

Speaker 3 (52:31):
Like you have goals, but things don't always work out
that way.

Speaker 1 (52:36):
You you were born into a very poor family, Like
I mean, it's a trauma thing.

Speaker 3 (52:41):
Yeah, you're so afraid of being like that that you're like,
there's no way, I want to do everything that I
can in my power. I think a lot of things
that we do that are weird.

Speaker 1 (52:52):
I know for me it is.

Speaker 3 (52:54):
All trauma responses, hyper independence, too many damn rules.

Speaker 1 (53:00):
Yeah yeah, so but but after being in that relationship
and then how vulnerable I guess i'll just say I was,
and how honest I was, and how like willing I
am to like like that Nigga wasn't perfect. Like it
was a lot that camera was like, oh, man, like, well,
this is what we said we were gonna do, This
is what we said we were moving forward to, and
then like to see how it ended and like some
of the things that were said and the reasoning behind it,

(53:22):
it was like oh wow, Like the men are talking
like and even some women it's like there's these there
are these very like surface level reasons that will have
people being like net yeah, never mind, I love you,
but never mind. And so that's why it's like, I
don't I really think that like my spirit and the
way that I love was supposed to be in a

(53:42):
different time period. What time period do you think? Probably
like maybe like the sixties. I think I'm in like
the sixties, seventies, Like where do you think you would
have lived?

Speaker 3 (53:56):
I have recently become my latest obsession is time loopse
and people getting into parallel universes. I'm pretty sure I
said this already, but I don't remember if y'all have
not seen Caddo Lake. That is my favorite movie about
time loops and like the I don't know what all

(54:17):
the words is called. One of you fellow nerves help
us is stout?

Speaker 1 (54:21):
It's like time loops and something about paradise.

Speaker 3 (54:23):
Anyways, these people stuck in the swamps somewhere East Texas,
North Louisiana, right near Katto Lake, and they're all linked.

Speaker 1 (54:33):
I won't give it away, but they're all linked.

Speaker 3 (54:35):
The movie is available on Max and they go through
different time periods and there's a love story in there,
like somebody thinks that their dad just ran away. Somebody
thinks that their husband just ran away. Somebody thinks that
their mom left them. And then when you find that
and there's more people who think things, but when you
find out what happens, it's just interesting. Anyway, So sixties

(54:56):
or the seventies.

Speaker 1 (54:58):
Where would you have lived for some reason? I think
either Alabama, South Carolina, or maybe even New York or Maine.

Speaker 3 (55:07):
Those are very different. They're also doing South Carolina and
Alabama similar enough Missus Soul in the sixteen seventies.

Speaker 1 (55:15):
But North Carolina and Maine. Yeah, I would have been,
but I said, but forever love. I'm one of the
people where it's like it's not much and my mom
and my sister gets so mad because they're just like
you should have been. But there when we say certain things,
I'm gonna ride it out to them, like it's like
I understand much what. There's not much that I won't

(55:35):
that I can't work through. There's not if I say
I love you, and this is what we say, we're
doing and we have gotten to the point where it's
like I want to marry you. I'm not one of
those people where I look at the person it's like
I know there's gonna be some rough stuff that happens.
Like I won't say I'm prepared for it, but I
I know it, Like it's not there's not a lot
that somebody can do to me where I'm just like

(55:57):
leave me alone forever. There is just not a lot.
And it's like a gift and a curse, and mostly
a curse because now you're just getting you just and
then they don't do that, it doesn't reciprocate, and now
it's like so it's like to a choire sister girl, Yeah,
it's like if we say we love each other, what

(56:18):
we should be together, And it's like if abuse isn't happening,
obviously y'all take the extremes out of it. But it's
just like I don't know how you say you love somebody,
especially you get married to somebody and then like you
just get annoyed and you're just like, yeah, I don't
want to be I just don't love you anymore. I
don't understand that, Like, how does that happen? How do
you not know how to compromise? How do you not
know how to figure it out? So I don't know.

Speaker 3 (56:41):
Sometimes I think that when you can't compromise in a relationship.
With romantic relationships, it's a lot of fear m hm,
because maybe you're doing something that's so out of your
personal norm and you get scared. You don't know how

(57:02):
it's going to be, and instead of like testing the
waters and seeing what happens, you would rather run. What
is it called, it's one of those attachedment sulf maybe
a fearful avoidant. Yeah, you avoid certain things. And for
a long time, I've never been great with talking about

(57:25):
my emotions. I try to, but usually when it's like
very hot and cold with me with a lot of
things right, And I was talking to someone about it
and I was like, you know, I want to get
better at it.

Speaker 1 (57:37):
It's just such an uncomfortable thing.

Speaker 3 (57:39):
And I feel like a real crazy person, not just
a little bit crazy like I do normally.

Speaker 1 (57:44):
And it's just hard.

Speaker 3 (57:45):
And it's like you realize the things that you weren't
taught and but that's that's your life. Everybody has good
things and bad things from their past. But when you
realize that you want to make a change, you have
to make a conscious effort. And most of the times,
with many changes, I can't think of a change that
does not come without being uncomfortable. It's like the growing pains,

(58:08):
you know, and you just kind of have to push
through it. I don't like, especially in romantic relationships, and
I know this is a trauma response. I don't like
being very vulnerable and not being met with the same thing,
or feeling like the other person is gaslighting me. Once

(58:29):
I let out how I feel and I have done this,
you dismiss it or you don't do anything about it.
So sometimes it's easier not to deal with it at all.
But that's not good because it gets us nowhere. But
to the point of the Forever Loves, I would hope
that it would be there, and in recent times I
have really been and this is in any relationship, romantic, friends, family,

(58:54):
because I have a hard time letting go of anything.
I'm saying. I wanted to quit my job about ten years. Yeah,
I literally have been there ten years and I even
realized it and then I.

Speaker 1 (59:05):
Got mad because why the fuck?

Speaker 3 (59:08):
Anyway, again, please make sure y'all go check out xomm
podcast too, because.

Speaker 1 (59:11):
I'm ready to go.

Speaker 3 (59:15):
But AnyWho, I have a hard time of letting go
of things, and I've got to get better with that.
There was a point I think I forgot it. Damn
I need to leave that. Okay, So it's got me frustrated.
Oh forever loves. I would hope that there is one.

Speaker 1 (59:31):
But something that I've.

Speaker 3 (59:32):
Been considering is like, in all of the different relationships,
how do these people treat you and how do you
treat them? And when an issue does arise, who is running?
I'm not even gonna get mad if you run, because

(59:53):
sometimes I run, but I will come back sometimes I
need a moment, right, but I can come back. If
you never come back, if you run away and you're gone, okay,
I can see that that's how you operate. If it's too.

Speaker 1 (01:00:05):
Much about you, you can't even hear me.

Speaker 3 (01:00:07):
It's just like a lot of things that I've been
thinking about in every relationship, about who I want to
keep around and who I want to let go of,
and I'm trying to do better. And I was like,
you know, maybe if I surround myself with people who
I like how they handle things, because I'm okay now

(01:00:28):
with some uncomfortability. I mean, it never feels good in
the moment, but I'm okay with it. But if I
just feel like what am I trying to say. It's
like if I feel like you would never try to
work something out, or you could never be understanding or
just never like I understand moments in time you need
some space whatever, that's cool, But when you can't and

(01:00:49):
you are just so hard on I'm drawing a line
and I'm done without listening or trying to have any
understanding or empathy. Maybe that I always get them mixed
up empathy, especially when.

Speaker 1 (01:01:02):
It's like a relationship where you y'all like it was
like a love it you said you loved the person
that doesn't. That just doesn't make sense. I don't know how.
I don't understand how that works. Like I don't know
how you say you love somebody and then you can
just be like and now fuck you.

Speaker 3 (01:01:19):
Yeah, it's yeah, I don't. I don't get it either,
unless it's some extreme involved like where somebody was really
doing something trifling, because I do get it, then i'd
be like, said it.

Speaker 1 (01:01:34):
Hmmm, I don't know it's I hope I get the
forever love, but I don't think I can get it
if I this little break that I'm taking, who had
to take it? Because I really am just like I
don't I clearly don't know anything, because what what do
you mean? You don't know anything? I don't know anything.
We did all the things. It's like you look sometimes

(01:01:54):
you look at like the toxic man and you're like,
that's clearly not gonna work, and then you look at
the men where it's like, Okay, everything's together. We did
all the things the right way. We communicated what I
thought was communicating therapy, uh, you know, under trying to understand,
forgiving certain things, talking about the stuff, and.

Speaker 3 (01:02:16):
You in the end or after, did you ever feel
like as you were going through all those things and
you look back, it's like maybe I was the one
doing that and it was one side.

Speaker 1 (01:02:26):
All the things that you just listed.

Speaker 3 (01:02:27):
I mean, I'm you are both going but like going
to therapy and like actually trying, actually forgiving, well actually caring.

Speaker 1 (01:02:35):
It's funny that you said, because now I look back,
you just be so I am just I got it.
I'm I believe you. So I believe you, like if
someone is like I love you, we're gonna be together
for and that's how we feel like I believe you
like I believed him, and so I me and my
sister that we were talking to literally the other night
because now I'm coming out of it in some of
the glazeses leaving my eyes, and I'm just like we

(01:03:00):
was in therapy for years. It is like, hmm, that
maybe was I look at it now, like were you
trying to convince yourself and talk yourself into like wanting
to be what we were saying we wanted God because
I wasn't doing I wasn't talking myself into it. Therapy

(01:03:21):
was his idea. Like it wasn't like a I was like,
let's do therapy. It was like his it was his idea.
And this was like going on for a year, and
it was. But it also like now that I look
back at and it's like, yeah, but you never could
admit what you were wrong. You never could really apologize
in a calm manner. He wasn't like he didn't do
it in like a crazy way that sometimes you see
the like toxic men do. It was very like digestible.

Speaker 3 (01:03:45):
That's how it usually it's real life, not a movie.

Speaker 1 (01:03:48):
Yeah, it was like, I mean, there were just some
now that I look back and I was like I
was with somebody who like every moment I was like
talking him up and like just really out of him,
and I still don't. I don't say that with any regret.
I really don't. I was really proud of my boyfriend,
and now when I look back at it, it's like

(01:04:09):
I didn't get that same I didn't get the same feedback,
you know what I mean. It wasn't reciprocated. It was
like you liked the trimmings of me, and you were
trying to convince yourself that you wanted them forever, the
idea of when you really didn't and when you really didn't.
And I don't even think he would admit that, but
that's just that's just that is what it was. And

(01:04:33):
it just sucks like I was with somebody who was
really mean, but he just said it nicely. But when
I look back at it, and I was like, nice, nasty,
if we will it. We were in therapy one time
and the therapist was even like, he said, I just
feel like I'm not getting a return on my investment.
Excuse me, straight face, calm And were you were there too.
We were both in the session. I'm crying and I'm

(01:04:56):
just like and the therapist was like, what did you
just say? He repeats it. I just feel like I'm
not getting a return on my investment. She said, this
is a human being.

Speaker 3 (01:05:07):
What was the return he thought he was gonna get.

Speaker 1 (01:05:10):
I'm not actually sure. I'm not. I'm i am not
actually to this day, we were sitting in a therapy.
I'm crying. It's not running down my nose because I
just felt like, yeah, it was a cry, damn. And
the therapist was like, that's a human, Like, do you
understand that's a human returning like it's a house. Yeah,
And he just said it's so straight faced. Collect Now

(01:05:32):
all my friends and stuff are like he's a psychopath,
like something's wrong with him, and I'm just like, I
don't know. But he got me for your memoir.

Speaker 3 (01:05:39):
You make a buck off of that, Okay.

Speaker 1 (01:05:42):
I want to believe in the forever. I still believe
in the forever, but I don't have another heartbreak in me.
So if the next nigga ain't the forever, it's a rap.
I can't do this because these niggas folks thought I
was on Olympic. It didn't start with that. I was
just heartbroken. Damn.

Speaker 3 (01:05:56):
I'd be wishing and maybe I shouldn't wish this and
I'm not trying to make light of it.

Speaker 1 (01:06:01):
But sometimes when.

Speaker 3 (01:06:02):
People like you be saying that, Oh, I was just heartbroken,
so I.

Speaker 1 (01:06:07):
Wouldn't eat for a week and a day.

Speaker 3 (01:06:10):
And I wasn't using like I should be onna save
the children commercial after about five or six hours before
life are x and I would just be like.

Speaker 1 (01:06:18):
Oh, I'm so hungry, I just want some chicken wings.
But I was not hungry.

Speaker 3 (01:06:21):
I was fucking thirsty. I should have been drinking more water.
I mean, I just food.

Speaker 1 (01:06:26):
I've got that eating demon in me. I do.

Speaker 3 (01:06:29):
I'm surprised I don't have the sugar, but I don't.
I'm saved my a one C's is right. Well, I
hope that we find it one day. I'm wondering, like,
what are And I've always wondered this. What are the
little things?

Speaker 1 (01:06:48):
Like?

Speaker 3 (01:06:48):
You know how we can list off things that we want,
big things, height, appearance, physical attraction. You want to have
a good job, you wanna have a good family, Oh
those things? What are the little things that will make
or break some shit? You know?

Speaker 1 (01:07:04):
And I'll be.

Speaker 3 (01:07:04):
Thinking about it, and I who's talk? I was talking
to my grandma. They didn't really go too far. I
don't think she understood what I was saying. I understand
what she was saying. She don't be putting her hearing aids,
and she's quite frustrating. And then I was talking to
my mom and she was like, well, I don't know.
I can tell you the mistakes I made. But I

(01:07:25):
asked several women, and so many people didn't really have
an answer, right, They're like.

Speaker 1 (01:07:32):
I don't know.

Speaker 3 (01:07:32):
But I asked to my friends and they're like, you
know what, when you are seeing somebody, pay close attention
to the things that they say to you and how
they treat you, which I've heard before. When you get
mad at each other, are they going for lobos? Are

(01:07:52):
they poking at insecurey what are they doing?

Speaker 1 (01:07:55):
Watch that?

Speaker 3 (01:07:57):
If it's that and they are hidden below the belt
and they're doing these things and they come back and apologize,
leave it alone. You want somebody who wouldn't handle it
like that and has a better control of emotion, because
that's what they equated it to. And they were like, so,
if somebody has a better control of their emotions and
can be considered of yours, that's something that we'll carry

(01:08:19):
through no matter what the mood is. And so maybe
that's a little thing you could look out for. And
I was like, huh, any think about that? Because I
have been with some name Colin, I was gonna say, uh,
niggas well.

Speaker 1 (01:08:31):
They are.

Speaker 3 (01:08:33):
And I would do it back. I don't want to
live my life like that. I would like to be
able to be calm and respectful or just like walk
away if it gets that much and you can't write it,
I don't know. We're trying to figure out for those
of you who are in committed relationships or marriage or whatever. Y'all,
y'all got all these names for marriage these days, and

(01:08:54):
tell me some because maybe I'll use them. Let me
know what are some of the little things. Let you
know that this was a person that you feel like
you can be with forever right now, and only tell
me if it's not right now, if they're dead. I
don't want to hear about nobody that done broke up.
That's not who I'm talking to. And good luck to
you all in your next endeavor. But I ain't talking

(01:09:16):
to you. I'm talking to the people that are with
somebody right now. What's something that you know that this
could be Maybe I should consider this more seriously, or
you know whatever, or I really love him, and I
mean and I think he might too. I'm just curious.

Speaker 1 (01:09:31):
I'm very interested.

Speaker 3 (01:09:35):
Yeah, I was not in my lover girl era. I
asked chat Gibt when for the show notes you had
said that at first, but I was thinking about it
with that letter, But then after that, I was like, well,
I don't know what the fuck we're gonna talk about.
But then not dating right now, and I need these
girls to tell me some situationship titles. I don't like
that name.

Speaker 1 (01:09:55):
Are you dating multiple people? Are just one? Just the one?
I just have one person? Fun?

Speaker 3 (01:10:02):
Is it fun? It ain't really fun, to be honest,
but it's comfortable in a good way, not like a
bad way. It is nice to.

Speaker 1 (01:10:13):
Have somebody, have somebody who.

Speaker 3 (01:10:15):
Actually appreciates you and considers you even when you don't
consider yourself, and like can be there like that does matter.

Speaker 1 (01:10:28):
Yeah, but I don't know. I don't know what to
call it, y'all. Give me some words.

Speaker 3 (01:10:34):
We'll see.

Speaker 1 (01:10:37):
I don't know, but I won't be having a hot
girl summer, y'all. It'll be a healed girl summer.

Speaker 3 (01:10:44):
But I just want to go on a vacation.

Speaker 1 (01:10:47):
That's what we were talking to me and this man.

Speaker 3 (01:10:49):
He wants to take a trip, and we were supposed
to go somewhere last month.

Speaker 1 (01:10:57):
Funeral.

Speaker 3 (01:10:58):
H but but we're gonna go somewhere this summer. He
really wants to go to Arizona, and I was telling
him about the thing. Uh so, I don't know because
he wants to go next month, and I was like, Jela,
it's very hot. I don't want to go to Arizona
and July, so I don't know. Do y'all have some
places that you want to go. I've also been thinking
about Granada.

Speaker 1 (01:11:19):
M Saloon is a good one if you want to
be romantic. But Talma be expensed for no reason, but
it is pretty.

Speaker 3 (01:11:26):
I really just want to go back to my favorite
little island.

Speaker 1 (01:11:28):
Let's go. Just went in March, and I want to
go for my birthday that I love it there. You
want to go to Martha's Vineyard and Nantucket Island? What Nimmy.

Speaker 3 (01:11:44):
She's a producer on the New show. She was at
Martha's Vineyard last month and she says she loves everybody.
She lives in New York and she's like, I don't
think she had been, but she went and she loved it.
I want to go. I want to go to this
man I used to date in college. He's always there
in May when all the rich blacks be out there

(01:12:06):
having their weekend. And maybe it's a Memorial Day weekend
thing like how people go to the Hampton's for Labor Day.
I don't know, but he's doing good.

Speaker 1 (01:12:13):
Your sucker. I do be wondering what is it gonna
be like when I do decide to step out outside?
What she gonna do? I don't know, because I'm not
going to sax with your niggas. I don't know what
I'm gonna do, because what else we gonna do? What
are y'all doing? Like, I don't know what we're gonna do.
I don't even know what to.

Speaker 3 (01:12:26):
Want to die on you and spoil you. You don't
have to give it.

Speaker 1 (01:12:29):
Up, okay, because that man was in my DMS.

Speaker 3 (01:12:32):
Don't worry about him. You can get something better, okay.
Instead of the rapper, you can get the executive. That's
what we really want, dun over the rapper. I think, like,
what you want the big boss over the rapper?

Speaker 1 (01:12:45):
You know what I think I want? And this is
what I even told the rapper. I was like, oh, lord,
I don't think. I just want like a construction worker.

Speaker 3 (01:12:51):
I knew you were gonna say that. I think I'm
tapped into my Literally, I heard construction work.

Speaker 1 (01:12:55):
I just want a construction worker. I just want a
construction worker, just a good old work a man can
build some ship, go home, come home, because I just
want like a simple man. You make money, you handle
your business, and you love your woman. And that's just
what I want. A simple man. You don't got to
do the extra shit. I'll do it construction, the extra stuff.

(01:13:19):
What do you mean, like the princess treatment that the
men want today? Like I just I don't even want to.
I don't. I'm so sick of some of the things
that even my ex boyfriend was saying, I'm sick of it.
Like I'm sick of it.

Speaker 3 (01:13:31):
What's the last princess treatment thing you saw or experience
from a man or that he wanted? Kind of think
of something this mm hmm, I remember this was This

(01:13:52):
wasn't the last one, but this is the one that
comes to mind. This man was really upset that I
would always call him when I was on the way
to get my nails and toes done and would never
invite him, and he wanted to come along. Why would
I have you in my meantime like that? And for
what you're doing with those damn bricks on your feet,
you don't go get petic currys.

Speaker 1 (01:14:13):
What the fuck you're doing?

Speaker 3 (01:14:14):
And now I'm feeling like you just want to have
an excuse to be in there with the bad bitches
that's getting their nails and toes done before they go
to work at the clubs and shit at night. Because
you knew where I went to get my nails and
toes done. It was a pop and nail shop.

Speaker 1 (01:14:26):
Something was up.

Speaker 3 (01:14:27):
And why do you need me to invite you just
go in there? That upset me all over again. What's
the thing you can think of? Because why do you
need to be there for real with me?

Speaker 1 (01:14:37):
The princess treatment, the princess? How did you get me?
I heard a man say.

Speaker 3 (01:14:44):
Why didn't why didn't this girl bring him flowers as
a congratulatory gift for something?

Speaker 1 (01:14:54):
Well, some of the man would be offended by that.

Speaker 3 (01:14:56):
Maybe that's why.

Speaker 1 (01:14:58):
I don't know, But why the fuck you need flower? Anyway?

Speaker 3 (01:15:00):
Sorry?

Speaker 1 (01:15:00):
Go ahead, I can't because I feel like I can't
even share my princess moment treatments with these things because
mom was my boyfriend, so.

Speaker 3 (01:15:07):
Well, you didn't have to tell us who it was,
all right, Well, h if you are a man who
wants princess treatment, I almost total lize and said all
judgment aside. The judgment's not aside.

Speaker 1 (01:15:25):
But I am curious.

Speaker 3 (01:15:28):
What is that about?

Speaker 1 (01:15:29):
And what is princess or prince treatment to you? And
please don't say king.

Speaker 3 (01:15:35):
I'm just wondering what it is that you guys want
sometimes or is it that you don't know how to say? Hey,
sometimes I want to feel appreciated. I need a break.
I have feelings too, And if that is the case,
do you ever just say that? Because I could handle
that better than you tell me some bullshit.

Speaker 1 (01:15:58):
I'm just glad I'm taking my break because I can't
deal with I'm just like, this is too much. What
happened to the men, the internet and podcast.

Speaker 3 (01:16:14):
It has done us all at disservice. I think that
the bottom line is because people talk about us too.
Sometimes I don't know how to take a damn joke
or just to take things. It's like, oh, we're just
having fun talking shit, talking shit, and what's really going
on are not one and the same, and sometimes people
just want to have fun and laughs about stuff. You'll
never sit around with your friends, girlfriends, guy friends, whoever

(01:16:36):
and just talk about stuff. You might be talking shit
about your man, but you know, you go right back
home to him. And as soon as he calls you
and tells you I'm done watching the game with the boys,
that I'm about to go home.

Speaker 1 (01:16:44):
You want me to pick you up?

Speaker 3 (01:16:45):
Yes, and you're gonna be outside, Well, girl, my man
is here, I gotta go. I'm not staying down with
y'all night. You know, I just I just wonder what's
happened to let me know. I try to say the
nicest way possible.

Speaker 1 (01:16:57):
Anyways, it's very late.

Speaker 3 (01:16:58):
We're gonna move on, and when we come back, we're
either going to do advice for a cocktail.

Speaker 1 (01:17:12):
But if I'm come on, mean you think is it
some catch in the place that it is? Once upon
a time, not long ago, I was.

Speaker 3 (01:17:24):
A we're eskiping the advice this week and it's time
for the cocktail. So this one says surprise golden shower.
Hey beautiful. So I'm going to try to keep this short.
Blah blah blah, blah okay. So one night I went
to an R and B party with my homegirls, and
my little situationship was there with his homeboys. I was

(01:17:46):
surprised to see his fine ass, but still very excited.
I planned on trying to see him after, but I
wasn't really sure if that was going to happen. He
came up to me and my homegirls and we all
started chatting it up, and he started feeling on my
booty and I already knew where the night was going.
I know that feeling too, girl, because we'll say, you
rub on that booty, don't hide that pussy.

Speaker 1 (01:18:11):
I love that. I'm like, play it on the way home.
All right.

Speaker 3 (01:18:14):
We were both lit, so tom was about to be had.
Let's fast forward to the after party. He meets me
at my hotel room about one in the morning. We
take some shots and we get to it. I start
to suck his stick and he tells me to get
on top, so I do.

Speaker 1 (01:18:29):
We're so into it. He's asking me do I miss.

Speaker 3 (01:18:33):
Him, telling me he loves me, saying this is pussy
and that he is going to nothing. It had a flashback.
All right, now, I'm not on birth control, but I'm
very much like Yollo.

Speaker 1 (01:18:47):
That is the alcohol.

Speaker 3 (01:18:49):
Okay, So I'm like, yeah, daddy, not yo, pussy. We
changing to different positions and he's still talking his shit.
He was very vocal this night, and I loved every
bit of it. He even asked me if I was
keeping the baby and did he write this no, because
this is to start off with a golden ship, because

(01:19:10):
this is well, I'm sorry, y'all, my bad. Anyway, he
asked me if I was keeping the baby and what
we were naming it. Y'all, I'm so delusional. I told him,
of course, and it was going to be a junior.

Speaker 1 (01:19:20):
I know, that's right, bitch. Okay. It felt like we
was making love. Anyways.

Speaker 3 (01:19:26):
We had sex for like at least two hours, and
we kept taking very small breaks, like a few minutes.

Speaker 1 (01:19:33):
He was turning me every which way but lose, being
very demanding about what he wanted and how I obeyed
every command. I was in heaven. I knew we were
both drunk, but he was more drunk than I understood.
In that moment. The man wouldn't net mmm, look he
feel like I read this before.

Speaker 3 (01:19:52):
But whatever, we're in it now or halfway home okay,
which has never been a problem for him before. But
every time we stopped, he was like nah and wanted
to go again. He wanted that nut and I wanted
him to have it. So I get on my knees
to suck his dick again, and he is finally telling
me he's about to nut, so I do not stop.

Speaker 1 (01:20:13):
I want it in my mouth. I was going to
swallow it. Next thing you know, he starts doing a
sound like he is coming.

Speaker 3 (01:20:18):
So I continue to suck and swallow, but then I
realized something was not right, so I stopped swallowing.

Speaker 1 (01:20:25):
In my mouth started filling up with liquid.

Speaker 3 (01:20:28):
I popped his dick out so fast, and next thing
you know, he is peeing on my goddamn titties, but
he doesn't realize he's doing it.

Speaker 1 (01:20:38):
I'm also in shock, so in the midst of it all,
I swallowed the beak.

Speaker 3 (01:20:46):
The word the beak, hear it now? That got into
my mouth and shortly realized what the fuck I just did.
When he saw me, he was confused and I didn't
say too much and she did not, and I realize
he peed instead of nutted, and I was speechless. He

(01:21:06):
then goes to pee in the bathroom and I get
in the shower. Luckily, his peet was clear and didn't smell.
I don't believe that you off the shower. Oh wait,
you would think I would have ended up. I would
have ended the night, But nope. Somehow, someway after I
got into shower, one thing led to another, and my
toes are in his.

Speaker 1 (01:21:25):
Mouth and he starts to eat my pussy.

Speaker 3 (01:21:28):
I turned around for back shots and he finally nutted
and it was in me. He passes out to sleep
immediately and he is hanging off the bed. I kind
of dragged him into a better position and I joined
him with sleep. The next morning he left and went
to work. We had no recollection of the night. He
didn't because you can rote the whole story. He blacked

(01:21:50):
out after we took them shots. He doesn't remember peeing
on me, nutting in meat, peeing in you in your
after like the first ten minutes, Dam bitch, the p
a time was really had. The night goes into the books.
He apologized and still does when it comes back up.
But I just laugh at it now. Truly a moment
I'll never forget. Start for the long email, I hope

(01:22:12):
you'll enjoyed this embarrassing short. I don't think we read
this before. I think the last one they was in
a motel and in turned it to broke golden showers.

Speaker 1 (01:22:21):
Yeah, for sure, I'm living vicariously through all you guys.
I told you I'm lonely and not being touched by men.

Speaker 3 (01:22:28):
Got to get you a Lilo toy, give me a
little lelom and I heed it.

Speaker 1 (01:22:35):
Blaken and a boyfriend pillow. I'll have to send care package.

Speaker 3 (01:22:39):
Those really do come in handy on one.

Speaker 1 (01:22:41):
Yeah, dude, I definitely a needy one there. I have
made a post on Instagram something about like not I
made a funny celibacy, funny little video and this girl
that was funny. It was funny. I'm gonna make something
jokes out of it. And she was like, well, you
should have been missing me, And I was like, well, bitch,
I do like, I don't know what you want, like
I might not be having sex with I'm not not
having sex cause I don't like man. I love men love,

(01:23:02):
and I'm talking about love all right, share. I love men.
I think they're the coolest, but they're like hurt. They do. Yeah,
they make your backs? Why skin breaking out, hair falling off,
you look.

Speaker 3 (01:23:18):
Old, dusty hair uneven, you look ashy. Anyways, that's enough
of us for today.

Speaker 1 (01:23:26):
I hope you enjoyed us this week.

Speaker 3 (01:23:30):
Please please please check the description box for the links
to everything we discussed today. Another reminder, new show drops
next week, So Tuesday audio, Wednesday YouTube, Thursday cocktails.

Speaker 1 (01:23:44):
So yeah, you'll check it out.

Speaker 3 (01:23:48):
In the book club we read the norm nowhere, man,
I want to get back to the psychological thrillers.

Speaker 1 (01:23:53):
And go to Sedona. Oh yeah, we have day passes,
so if you are just like day, you know, you
have to stay at the place you might live there. Yeah,
you might in the reason or you might just want
to come out there, stay in a different hotel that's
a little bit more budget friendly for you, and just
come to either the party part or just see me
interview esa whatever, go to Paradise and Vibe dot com.
Check it out. All right, you guys, we are at

(01:24:14):
Cocktails podcast.

Speaker 3 (01:24:15):
I'm at Kiki said.

Speaker 1 (01:24:16):
So I'm at coffee beand and until next week, you guys, goodbye.

Speaker 4 (01:24:20):
Goodbye bye bye bye bye bye do relation, goodbye bye
bye

Speaker 1 (01:24:32):
Were dry, bye bye bye

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