April 28, 2024 • 36 mins
In this controversial episode we talk about regrets in life. Don't miss the heated discussion. Please comment your thoughts.
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M hm no, I don't liketo do that. Welcome to Dirty tea
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Podcast. Is your girl v Savagein the building And we have a new
guest today. We're gonna call himJohn Smith, a k A J.
S. Welcome to Dirty Podcast.Hello. And then you know the our
everyday panel, we have Miss Melby, he and Isy Hey and uh.
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Today's topic is going to be regretsin life. M m there's a lot
of those, a lot, alot, a lot of the lot of
head nodding over here. Don't makeus regret this episode, no crying,
no tears. What is your biggestregret? I'm going I'm going next.
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Do you need to call a friend? You can't want lifeline? What about
you is? I don't know.I think maybe maybe it's chastys my.
I mean, I don't know.Was that one night staying in college?
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You can't bring your imaginary friend towork? Well, we'll just well ask
mel b what does she regret?I really don't have many. They're all.
If I have any, they're justthey's just small little things. I'm
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happy. I'm very blessed with whatI dil blah blah blah, very blessed
with with what I have, Soit's hard for me to say I would
have done it this way or Iwould have done it that way, because
everything that I did like led meto where I am, and I'm really
happy about where I am right now. They're like small stuff like investing in
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you know, bitcoin sooner like ofcourse that's fact. But having less money
makes those relationships, friendships, familyrelationships just really because they're with you when
you don't have anything. So it'sstill blessed. I don't know hashtag busted.
I love that for you, atleast not my end. I regret
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a lot of a lot of things, a lot of people. I know,
everybody got that one person blessed.It's a blessing and every lesson you
can go back to, you know, your teenage years, any regrets,
any that you did or didn't do. I regret didn't do. I regret
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you took it way back, wayback. I think I know him because
when I lost my virginity, itwas literally like I was I didn't do
it because of your pressure. Nothinglike that. I wasn't over here like
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oh I'm gonna wait till I fallin love. No, I was just
curious. I was like, Iwant to see what this is about.
And it was garbage. You regret, no person, No, I wish
I stayed garbage because whole sway showedme that sex was a fun thing,
and then I was a hot messafter that he turned me up wherever you
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are there. He fucked my wholelife. H he fucked my whole life
up. I was a sheltered Christiangirl. What are you now? I'd
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be savage now and he started that. Okay, he started the madness.
Gotta give him this flowers? Yeah, yeah, I got I don't know,
man, The regret thing is like, it's like a lot of doors
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in that house. Mm hmm.You get what I'm saying. I don't
know what door you want to gothrough. I'm gonna go through the fun
door. Yeah. Wish I wouldhave had more kids, yeah mm hmm.
Okay, Okay, it's never toolate. Nah, I ain't shooting
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have kids all the way up untila little different. Yeah, that's what
I'm saying. You don't want notbe a little differently different. But they're
all special in their own right.Yeah. I get that. Man,
that's cheating. They don't have alot of time with you, that's cheating.
It. That's cheating the kid.Like, yeah, no, I
agree, there's no way to teachthat motherfucker how to drive, because you're
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gonna be like old as you ain'tgonna be able to drive. You ain't
gonna be able to see ship,your cataracts, funck everything up. I
don't have by the time your kidold enough to drive, you go,
there's enough in my system. Ihave thought that can give me some glama
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counteract. It's a different strand that'sdefinitely does it. I can't. But
yeah, the kids, that's abig one. Yeah, but that's it.
That's it. Yeah. My motherused to tell me, because my
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mother is a twin yard, soshe used to be like, you go
fuck with them nasty pictures you want, you want twins? I was like,
what does twins have to do innafty pitches? They have twins?
Bro, I don't know, Ihave twins. So what you trying to
say? Bro? Way way,way? How? How when you had
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your twins they're twelve? How oldwere you about twenty eight? Into the
math? Okay, that's a littleolder than what I'm talking about. I'm
saying throughout my teenage, like mydevelopment, my my, you know,
when it was cool to you know, fingers something like, you know what
I'm saying, back in the whenis it cool to figure something? What?
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Age? Seventh grade? Great?They start early. Now I need
him to come to the show.We're gonna have to ask some questions.
We're gonna have to playing with Barbie. Are you better? You like he
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wasn't in the hood. We wasin the hood. I was tall,
Yeah, see I was tall andChristian girl playing with Barbie. Hent hear
finger girls Church Church girls with theTwisters, Church girls. That's true,
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though, girls, that's true.Church. The retirement if you used to
be, if you used to bea whole back in the day. They
not they all church retirement demons,ice queen. That's what they just prayed
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it. It's still a retirement forthe whole. I'm bad because he's not
wrong. That's it, man.It's like, yeah, said coming here
and be honest. That's all Iwas saying. That's why I gotta go
by anonymous. That's fact is.I know there gotta be regretting there somewhere.
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I am trying to figure it out. I feel like, wait,
no, I feel like young.Obviously I have just plenty, but I
think a lot of things kind ofmade me who I am, So I
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don't know. It's hard to reallyfigure it out. I don't know.
I'm not to sit on that.I have to sit on that. You
still on that? Which one didyou sit on that you regret? I
think I think she needs more thanjim Bean. It'll come out eventually,
I was. I've been thinking aboutit. So I'm trying to deep.
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I know, that's what I'm saying. Yes, keep going. Well,
then I'm gonna ask you all this. Was there ever someone that you had
feelings for that you never told themand you wish you did. No,
I just love them holes, Itell them all. I love them.
That's how, not all of them. That's how I used to get the
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pants down. Oh, it allcomes out now, co words. We
were talking about this on another episode. When people say something but mean something
else. So what does it meanwhen they tell you they love you?
I mean that's you're hard and canfeel the heart beating it. Yeah,
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he ain't wrong, feel me,That's what it mean. Okay, alright,
speaking of your truth, I respectit. Chicks be nasty too,
Yeah, y'all just being sy rightnow. No, we just don't be
throwing the we do, but weain't throwing the love you word around willy
nilly m M. Back in theday. I mean, I don't say
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I love you now now I'm like, yeah, I got forty dollars,
worry about it. That's worse.No, it would be worse. I
love you. Here's forty dollars.Thank you, come again, Appreciate you
with that on the phone bill,he'll call you later. Part. Put
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that on the books. Part ofthe support man. Oh wow, feelings.
I know. I ain't really dealwith feelings. Why not. I
ain't had no feelings on my babymother. That's it. Other than that,
that ship was let's go to themall. I mean numbers we're gonna
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get okay, Well, we're gonnacatch the bus too. We're gonna have
fun here. We're gonna have funthere, you know, like that ship
was an adventure. I wish backin the day we could have put the
bike on the front of the bus. What mom and cheshire you get the
bus? Like yo u h.I wasn't sheltered. I was outside.
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Yeah, I was sheltered, okayuntil what kind of TV I grew up
sheltered, But I didn't. Ihate that for you. Everyone needs they're
like, thank you, thank you. Who wasn't Liam? Oh my god,
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I feel like Liam know me.I didn't. I didn't like Nick
or stay with him long. Soyou're being very right now. That was
That was my shortest relationship. NotNick. He's a regret, I guess.
Yeah, he's a whole regret namedropping Nick Nick Nick Nickelodeon shout you
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taught us a lesson one way oranother that's turned down? For what turn
that? I think. I thinkthat Nick was like the opposite who.
So I was like, I'm fine, thank you, I'm glad. Yeah,
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I'm very okay. I think everybodyhas a Nick in their life too.
Yeah. I don't have a Nick. There's not You can't say,
hey, there's not a single femaleyou don't with that. You're not like,
I will never deal with that typeof person again. Like for me,
it's Pisces never again. I'll neverdeal with the Pizies man ever in
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my life. It's for me that'san automatic hard No. Guess what guys,
my birthday was last week? Andwhat did you do for your birthday?
Happy Lady enjoyed the pis season oh, I knew it was your birthday
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because I pulled up a sung HappyBirthday was a drive by. I sung
out my window, that's right.I went to a basketball game, then
I went to some crabs. Iate some mushrooms, smoked a ship ton
of weed. How was the mushroomsamazing? I just got new ones.
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We're gonna have to replace cocaine someday to sweat mushroom. Mondays, I
have internships to God. I can'tbe living life. Go back to God,
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Go back to God. She didmusic. Whe Yo, this is
off topics. Tell me why whenI went for my console because basically your
girls getting snatched for the simmer.But she was like, when you hug
somebody, make sure you leave roomfor the holy ghost. And I was
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like, what She's like, don'ttoo tight? Christians very called Christian Christian
hug the whole Yeah, pep pet. That reminded me of that. I
was cracking me up. There's beforeyou hollars get more than that. And
I was like, where did thatcome from? She goes, you know,
school dances. We're like leave roomfor the ghosts. And I was
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just like, where did you goto school? And the with the sister
wives. I don't regret checks.I just block them. Wow, just
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beat a friend, like, hey, al right, that wasn't cool.
We shouldn't do that again. Iknow what they're hiring that though, that's
what you do with your next Idon't have a nick Nicole, Jessica.
Everybody knows you can't trust Stacey orJessica. M hmm, I like our
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girls. Okay, what kind offoreign are we talking? Are we talking
green card for it? Saying I'msaying Canada? Or I have a foreign
child? Yes, my son isIndian red mm not slap a hole red.
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Okay, that's different. Yeah,I wanted too many summer camps.
That should turned me off. Bandcamp. You went to band camp?
I wish I heard it was.That's where I first met nixt I bet
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you didn't you have Bible study Bible, But I stayed in the truth.
Yes, I love her. Iget I don't know. You don't have
a name. I don't a namefor what, a name for what?
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I don't You never got a whole, not a nick either. Just started
off like I like this ship.Yeah, I got a let me think,
Oh well, we can't even callthat a regret. Damn that sucks
that that demon. There was acouple of demons, which one I mean
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always there's always that toxic person thatlike turns you out. That's why the
relationship becomes toxic. It doesn't gettoxic unless the sexist. Well, I
mean, but let's get thousand grittyhere. Who's to say, good?
Letting go that far? I'm iam. That's what that boat tals is
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for. Soon so I'm my forty. You're going to look like a lego
man. Don't do that to yourface, lego lego man face, don't
listen. I'm your friend. Onethousand, I said, look at the
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watch, look at that See we'renot looking at that part what you're looking
at. We're trying to see howfar your belly button hangs out, Like
is it a booty doo or boy? Don't like? What is a boy
about? What he come from?Is that where your stomach is bigger than
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your ass y equal in size?What is that? Grimace is crazy?
Crams is crazy. You need tobe cold, needs be a cold episode.
What he means We're not listening tothat as men, We just like,
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yeah, so question, is ittrue that men like that little fupa
in the front. We like thehoundle bar. We don't like the fucking.
We don't like the the ship thatlooks like an extra person, you
know what I'm talking about. Andthey be folding it and they throw it
inside the sock and then they getskinny. You be like, wait,
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what you're talking about that girdle?Yeah, yeah, the ship would like
it's like it's like forty two lockson the back of that. I used
to call it. I used tocall it like a bobby pin effect.
You take one bobby pin out andeverything. I'm thinking more like Pillsbury biscuit.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, sot out the side,
like it's crazy. If your shoesare leaning, you need to think
about that. Bro. Listen,that's cool. We understand, we understand.
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We've seen the art. It's like, I mean, I get it,
but it's people standing straight up shoeslike sheesh, good grief, red
bottoms orange in the corners leaning.Damn. If you leaning with the red
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bottoms, that's the problem. Whereyou see outside. Damn, I'm outside,
you know, because of my licensedindividual on my field, I'll be
knowing all the tricks of the It'scrazy. You knowing all about them girdles.
That hard, all them yo,hard to meet girls and like them
because I'll be like, it's liketet for someone to just take the pieces
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away. You get what I'm saying. And some people are be like,
now you gotta see girl Like it'sdifferent. Sometimes it's hard to tell.
Sometimes it's hard to tell it's aNick or Nicole. We gotta I'm home
and everything it was. It wasn'ta different person. It was like what
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you look like after hot water,you know, after you take off the
make up. They say to takethem on their first day swimming, but
some of them have waterpoof makeup,so that makeup comes off. Gym days
you can't really wear. Your makeupwill start melting, Jim date. True,
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and if you have a butt pador anything, it's gonna like flip
flop in them tights, Phoenix.No, you know the underwear. Yeah
no, that shit ain't moving.So if their but is moving, its
real. Okay. We definitely likethe moving part, flopping, you know,
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little motion for the ocean, gotcha. Yeah, But outside of that,
I don't know. I feel likeI don't have too many more regrets
either. And I'm glad for that, because I feel like people that are
insecure and have all those type oflike mental health issues like stress, anxiety,
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all those things are from like regretsor I'm I didn't grow up in
the most stable home, but Ifeel like it helped me prepare for adulthood,
and all those lessons you learned prepareyou for adulthood. So it's like
you can't really be mad about That'swhy I said, it's kind of hard
to say you have regrets when Ifeel like everything that has happened in my
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life to this point have made mewho I am. You know what I
mean as far as like men go, I mean, who doesn't I mean
just like he' said, I meaneverybody has that, you know, and
everybody has a whole sway. Everybodyhas a nick and you know, and
I just case even like the relationshipslike friendships like so you got John Smith,
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if an anonymous I have, Yeah, I've had Yeah. I didn't
know I was poor until I startedfantaxes like I don't got regret in my
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life. I come from love,yeah, hot of love, received love.
I'm emotionally intelligent, Like she alreadysaid it, I wish I had
bought me a bitcoin earlier too,you know what I mean? Outside of
that, mm hmm, I probablyshuld got my license. So that's about
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it. Like what kind of licensedrivers? Ship? Leave of money and
fine. I had to go tolike six courts to get my license to
just take you know what I'm saying, You get tickets when you're a kid,
like when you're a kid. Yeah, absolutely not. I got my
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ship at sixteen, and then Igot caught with some ship in the car
and they took my ship. Andthen then I had a period where I
went on vacation for a little while, you know, and then I came
home and you know what I mean, I ain't get it right till twenty
eight. So you're saying, that'sso I regret them. I regret taking
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a left. I probably should havetook the right, like the movie wrong
term, got it? But doyou think, like like the game of
life where you take the life roador the fast track or whatever, like,
do you feel like if you hada pivot in your life where you
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could have went a whole different route, do you think you would have ended
up anywhere near where you are today? Or you think it's just like it
would be completely different your life.Are you talking about like a butterfly flight
like something? Yeah, it couldbe small, it could be big,
it could be whatever. Like Ifeel like if I never got married as
a teenager, my life would havebeen like a whole different, That's what
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I say. I feel like realit wasn't a cult. I feel like
she escapes, she's here people.I love her for this. I feel
like this is mostly choices that thatlead us. I guess little things can
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happen, or crazy shit can happenin the blink of eye, But I
think it's those. I think it'sjust our choices as we move along that
bring us. Like I think,I guess, I don't know, or
destiny. You believe in destiny.He maybe I know that. You know.
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That's why I said I don't knowif I have regrets, because you
know I was close. I wasengaged three times, just I never got
married. Because you like to argue, no, I like to, Well,
no, I don't like to.But are you good at it?
But I must are you good atand investigations and terriation fucking lotely that has
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nothing to doing anything. I'm theone that didn't go that far. I
got a team busy Jersey. Okay, I'm John Smith Smith. I'm just
saying. That's why I said Inever went that far. I kind of
she didn't kill him, right,they're all live, that's something. But
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I said, it's best that Idon't go take that route. So I
just for my own sake, waslike, no, they're not the one.
Nope, they're not the one.I have to find the one.
I'm forty one years old still haven'tfound the one. So that's why I
said, Wait, I'm not goingto make the mistake. You know what
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they say? What do they say? The men are like wine and women
are like milk. I've never heardthat one one. Think about it.
There's a lot of recipes that isthat curdles and milk. It's crazy.
I'll figure it out. They gotthis caramel recipe. I'll be all right.
I don't know. Wait, Idon't get the mill. Why is
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that? I don't get the mill? Old dude to me, don't don't,
don't don't shoot the messenger. Right, No, they're not. They're
never Okay, you know because listen, because yeah, because that's that's how
it is. It's the forces ofnature. M hmm. What it is
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like a bottom of water that wasleft in the car? Men, I
mean women like listen. Please explainthat because women listen. Man, maybe
Becky does. Savage don't understand black, don't crack baby. Look at this
chocolate milk on your side. Youcan't see the kurdles because it's it's underneath.
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I think I'm going to all theladies at this table look like fine
wines. They're right, California wineslooks like Colonel. That's not that's not
our reality for now, to getit. I don't know, so nobody.
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I look amazing. I look amazingfor my age, Yes you do,
and all your botox lego, lego, listen just because I'm shiny shiny
penny right. I'm just saying,that's what they say. I don't know,
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how do you feel about that.I've never heard that before. I've
never heard that before either, AndI feel like conversation we have and makeup
and feeding braids and leave and wehave everything we need to never age?
Are you looking at me like that? Filter filters? You don't know what?
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How what I listened to? WhatI don't listen to? What he
said? What did you say,say it again because you didn't listen.
Thank you. He said, womendon't. Women don't listen to the man.
That's what you said, right,They don't listen. Hear what they're
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saying. Facts those one year outthe other. That's bad. Happy wife
happy like right? No, hellno, no, that ship is like
love me, leave me alone,period. That's good. Wow, you
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know yo, what you mean?I grew up in the household where the
man led the house. It wasn'tall that. It wasn't that talk back.
You know what I'm saying. Tobe single forever because I honestly,
you're not gonna give lessons. Bro, Now is anybody gonna love you if
you can never submit? That meansyou always have something to a certain extent,
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to a certain extent, right likeyou can't. I'm gonna need this
oxygen later on when I'm old ashell and I'm with my mate, because
oxygen goals in the blood. That'syou know what I mean. There's no
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visuals, No one knows what you'resaying. It's an uplifting experience. Uplifting
I'm dead. Don't be quiet.Say what you want to say. Put
it out there is we ain't gonnabreak up because we got some microphones in
front of us. Stop playing that. I think it would take a very
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safe place for me to feel likeI would be able to constantly submit,
Especially the place that I'm at.It's less of me submitting and both of
us being able to not submit,just partner together to like move to move
forward. I think, I yeah, I think I let him. I
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feel like I let him run thehousehold. But the same thing, I
think I see things that he doesn'tnecessarily see all the time, and he
has that he's able to. Butlisten, listen. That's why they say
that the behind every great man isa great woman. But I'm not behind
him. We're side by side.Sometimes I'm propping him up. Sometimes to
me, I did not design society. You mad at me and trying to
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like, can't I can't. Iam very I'm saying like I can't,
you can't Rebut how the world's setup, it's just set up like that.
The same Bible you read as akid is the same one I did
too, And ain't no woman wasin front of Jesus. I have a
lot to say, but I'm notgonna say it. I feel like We're
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gonna have to put a pin inthis or for another episode, because this
is gonna get this is gonna getugly, and I'm here for it.
Don't get me wrong. I'm allabout it. No weapons, no weapons,
we have metal detectors at the door. Weapons and peace for the security.
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Oh god, let me in,let me in relationship. I would
take a bullet for my man.I don't. I don't know if the
mic, if they can hear thestudio audience, so speak a little bit
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louder. He said, would youtake a bullet? The bullets? So
that's the ultimate submission. You havealready submitted. But he would do the
same for me. So would youcall him submissive? That's why he's in
the front, But he doesn't.I don't want to live longer than him
though. All right, that's isstrange. You guys are answering your own
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questions in front of me. Idon't know what's going on here. I'm
lost in the sauce. So onthat note, we're gonna say good night
and thank you everyone for coming.Make sure you catch Dirty Tea podcasts on
Instagram, Snapchat, Facebook. Youcan catch us Dirty the Letter t Underscore
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podcast have a good night. Y'allknow I don't like to do. That is
M hm no, I don't liketo do that. Welcome to Dirty tea
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Podcast. Is your girl v Savagein the building And we have a new
guest today. We're gonna call himJohn Smith, a k A J.
S. Welcome to Dirty Podcast.Hello. And then you know the our
everyday panel, we have Miss Melby, he and Isy Hey and uh.
(01:10):
Today's topic is going to be regretsin life. M m there's a lot
of those, a lot, alot, a lot of the lot of
head nodding over here. Don't makeus regret this episode, no crying,
no tears. What is your biggestregret? I'm going I'm going next.
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Do you need to call a friend? You can't want lifeline? What about
you is? I don't know.I think maybe maybe it's chastys my.
I mean, I don't know.Was that one night staying in college?
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You can't bring your imaginary friend towork? Well, we'll just well ask
mel b what does she regret?I really don't have many. They're all.
If I have any, they're justthey's just small little things. I'm
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happy. I'm very blessed with whatI dil blah blah blah, very blessed
with with what I have, Soit's hard for me to say I would
have done it this way or Iwould have done it that way, because
everything that I did like led meto where I am, and I'm really
happy about where I am right now. They're like small stuff like investing in
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you know, bitcoin sooner like ofcourse that's fact. But having less money
makes those relationships, friendships, familyrelationships just really because they're with you when
you don't have anything. So it'sstill blessed. I don't know hashtag busted.
I love that for you, atleast not my end. I regret
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a lot of a lot of things, a lot of people. I know,
everybody got that one person blessed.It's a blessing and every lesson you
can go back to, you know, your teenage years, any regrets,
any that you did or didn't do. I regret didn't do. I regret
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you took it way back, wayback. I think I know him because
when I lost my virginity, itwas literally like I was I didn't do
it because of your pressure. Nothinglike that. I wasn't over here like
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oh I'm gonna wait till I fallin love. No, I was just
curious. I was like, Iwant to see what this is about.
And it was garbage. You regret, no person, No, I wish
I stayed garbage because whole sway showedme that sex was a fun thing,
and then I was a hot messafter that he turned me up wherever you
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are there. He fucked my wholelife. H he fucked my whole life
up. I was a sheltered Christiangirl. What are you now? I'd
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be savage now and he started that. Okay, he started the madness.
Gotta give him this flowers? Yeah, yeah, I got I don't know,
man, The regret thing is like, it's like a lot of doors
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in that house. Mm hmm.You get what I'm saying. I don't
know what door you want to gothrough. I'm gonna go through the fun
door. Yeah. Wish I wouldhave had more kids, yeah mm hmm.
Okay, Okay, it's never toolate. Nah, I ain't shooting
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have kids all the way up untila little different. Yeah, that's what
I'm saying. You don't want notbe a little differently different. But they're
all special in their own right.Yeah. I get that. Man,
that's cheating. They don't have alot of time with you, that's cheating.
It. That's cheating the kid.Like, yeah, no, I
agree, there's no way to teachthat motherfucker how to drive, because you're
(06:09):
gonna be like old as you ain'tgonna be able to drive. You ain't
gonna be able to see ship,your cataracts, funck everything up. I
don't have by the time your kidold enough to drive, you go,
there's enough in my system. Ihave thought that can give me some glama
(06:38):
counteract. It's a different strand that'sdefinitely does it. I can't. But
yeah, the kids, that's abig one. Yeah, but that's it.
That's it. Yeah. My motherused to tell me, because my
(06:59):
mother is a twin yard, soshe used to be like, you go
fuck with them nasty pictures you want, you want twins? I was like,
what does twins have to do innafty pitches? They have twins?
Bro, I don't know, Ihave twins. So what you trying to
say? Bro? Way way,way? How? How when you had
(07:23):
your twins they're twelve? How oldwere you about twenty eight? Into the
math? Okay, that's a littleolder than what I'm talking about. I'm
saying throughout my teenage, like mydevelopment, my my, you know,
when it was cool to you know, fingers something like, you know what
I'm saying, back in the whenis it cool to figure something? What?
(07:46):
Age? Seventh grade? Great?They start early. Now I need
him to come to the show.We're gonna have to ask some questions.
We're gonna have to playing with Barbie. Are you better? You like he
(08:07):
wasn't in the hood. We wasin the hood. I was tall,
Yeah, see I was tall andChristian girl playing with Barbie. Hent hear
finger girls Church Church girls with theTwisters, Church girls. That's true,
(08:28):
though, girls, that's true.Church. The retirement if you used to
be, if you used to bea whole back in the day. They
not they all church retirement demons,ice queen. That's what they just prayed
(08:48):
it. It's still a retirement forthe whole. I'm bad because he's not
wrong. That's it, man.It's like, yeah, said coming here
and be honest. That's all Iwas saying. That's why I gotta go
by anonymous. That's fact is.I know there gotta be regretting there somewhere.
(09:15):
I am trying to figure it out. I feel like, wait,
no, I feel like young.Obviously I have just plenty, but I
think a lot of things kind ofmade me who I am, So I
(09:35):
don't know. It's hard to reallyfigure it out. I don't know.
I'm not to sit on that.I have to sit on that. You
still on that? Which one didyou sit on that you regret? I
think I think she needs more thanjim Bean. It'll come out eventually,
I was. I've been thinking aboutit. So I'm trying to deep.
(10:05):
I know, that's what I'm saying. Yes, keep going. Well,
then I'm gonna ask you all this. Was there ever someone that you had
feelings for that you never told themand you wish you did. No,
I just love them holes, Itell them all. I love them.
That's how, not all of them. That's how I used to get the
(10:28):
pants down. Oh, it allcomes out now, co words. We
were talking about this on another episode. When people say something but mean something
else. So what does it meanwhen they tell you they love you?
I mean that's you're hard and canfeel the heart beating it. Yeah,
(10:54):
he ain't wrong, feel me,That's what it mean. Okay, alright,
speaking of your truth, I respectit. Chicks be nasty too,
Yeah, y'all just being sy rightnow. No, we just don't be
throwing the we do, but weain't throwing the love you word around willy
nilly m M. Back in theday. I mean, I don't say
(11:16):
I love you now now I'm like, yeah, I got forty dollars,
worry about it. That's worse.No, it would be worse. I
love you. Here's forty dollars.Thank you, come again, Appreciate you
with that on the phone bill,he'll call you later. Part. Put
(11:41):
that on the books. Part ofthe support man. Oh wow, feelings.
I know. I ain't really dealwith feelings. Why not. I
ain't had no feelings on my babymother. That's it. Other than that,
that ship was let's go to themall. I mean numbers we're gonna
(12:03):
get okay, Well, we're gonnacatch the bus too. We're gonna have
fun here. We're gonna have funthere, you know, like that ship
was an adventure. I wish backin the day we could have put the
bike on the front of the bus. What mom and cheshire you get the
bus? Like yo u h.I wasn't sheltered. I was outside.
(12:28):
Yeah, I was sheltered, okayuntil what kind of TV I grew up
sheltered, But I didn't. Ihate that for you. Everyone needs they're
like, thank you, thank you. Who wasn't Liam? Oh my god,
(12:52):
I feel like Liam know me.I didn't. I didn't like Nick
or stay with him long. Soyou're being very right now. That was
That was my shortest relationship. NotNick. He's a regret, I guess.
Yeah, he's a whole regret namedropping Nick Nick Nick Nickelodeon shout you
(13:26):
taught us a lesson one way oranother that's turned down? For what turn
that? I think. I thinkthat Nick was like the opposite who.
So I was like, I'm fine, thank you, I'm glad. Yeah,
(13:46):
I'm very okay. I think everybodyhas a Nick in their life too.
Yeah. I don't have a Nick. There's not You can't say,
hey, there's not a single femaleyou don't with that. You're not like,
I will never deal with that typeof person again. Like for me,
it's Pisces never again. I'll neverdeal with the Pizies man ever in
(14:09):
my life. It's for me that'san automatic hard No. Guess what guys,
my birthday was last week? Andwhat did you do for your birthday?
Happy Lady enjoyed the pis season oh, I knew it was your birthday
(14:33):
because I pulled up a sung HappyBirthday was a drive by. I sung
out my window, that's right.I went to a basketball game, then
I went to some crabs. Iate some mushrooms, smoked a ship ton
of weed. How was the mushroomsamazing? I just got new ones.
(15:01):
We're gonna have to replace cocaine someday to sweat mushroom. Mondays, I
have internships to God. I can'tbe living life. Go back to God,
(15:22):
Go back to God. She didmusic. Whe Yo, this is
off topics. Tell me why whenI went for my console because basically your
girls getting snatched for the simmer.But she was like, when you hug
somebody, make sure you leave roomfor the holy ghost. And I was
(15:43):
like, what She's like, don'ttoo tight? Christians very called Christian Christian
hug the whole Yeah, pep pet. That reminded me of that. I
was cracking me up. There's beforeyou hollars get more than that. And
I was like, where did thatcome from? She goes, you know,
school dances. We're like leave roomfor the ghosts. And I was
(16:07):
just like, where did you goto school? And the with the sister
wives. I don't regret checks.I just block them. Wow, just
(16:32):
beat a friend, like, hey, al right, that wasn't cool.
We shouldn't do that again. Iknow what they're hiring that though, that's
what you do with your next Idon't have a nick Nicole, Jessica.
Everybody knows you can't trust Stacey orJessica. M hmm, I like our
(17:00):
girls. Okay, what kind offoreign are we talking? Are we talking
green card for it? Saying I'msaying Canada? Or I have a foreign
child? Yes, my son isIndian red mm not slap a hole red.
(17:30):
Okay, that's different. Yeah,I wanted too many summer camps.
That should turned me off. Bandcamp. You went to band camp?
I wish I heard it was.That's where I first met nixt I bet
(17:51):
you didn't you have Bible study Bible, But I stayed in the truth.
Yes, I love her. Iget I don't know. You don't have
a name. I don't a namefor what, a name for what?
(18:14):
I don't You never got a whole, not a nick either. Just started
off like I like this ship.Yeah, I got a let me think,
Oh well, we can't even callthat a regret. Damn that sucks
that that demon. There was acouple of demons, which one I mean
(18:40):
always there's always that toxic person thatlike turns you out. That's why the
relationship becomes toxic. It doesn't gettoxic unless the sexist. Well, I
mean, but let's get thousand grittyhere. Who's to say, good?
Letting go that far? I'm iam. That's what that boat tals is
(19:07):
for. Soon so I'm my forty. You're going to look like a lego
man. Don't do that to yourface, lego lego man face, don't
listen. I'm your friend. Onethousand, I said, look at the
(19:29):
watch, look at that See we'renot looking at that part what you're looking
at. We're trying to see howfar your belly button hangs out, Like
is it a booty doo or boy? Don't like? What is a boy
about? What he come from?Is that where your stomach is bigger than
(19:51):
your ass y equal in size?What is that? Grimace is crazy?
Crams is crazy. You need tobe cold, needs be a cold episode.
What he means We're not listening tothat as men, We just like,
(20:15):
yeah, so question, is ittrue that men like that little fupa
in the front. We like thehoundle bar. We don't like the fucking.
We don't like the the ship thatlooks like an extra person, you
know what I'm talking about. Andthey be folding it and they throw it
inside the sock and then they getskinny. You be like, wait,
(20:36):
what you're talking about that girdle?Yeah, yeah, the ship would like
it's like it's like forty two lockson the back of that. I used
to call it. I used tocall it like a bobby pin effect.
You take one bobby pin out andeverything. I'm thinking more like Pillsbury biscuit.
(21:00):
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, sot out the side,
like it's crazy. If your shoesare leaning, you need to think
about that. Bro. Listen,that's cool. We understand, we understand.
(21:22):
We've seen the art. It's like, I mean, I get it,
but it's people standing straight up shoeslike sheesh, good grief, red
bottoms orange in the corners leaning.Damn. If you leaning with the red
(21:44):
bottoms, that's the problem. Whereyou see outside. Damn, I'm outside,
you know, because of my licensedindividual on my field, I'll be
knowing all the tricks of the It'scrazy. You knowing all about them girdles.
That hard, all them yo,hard to meet girls and like them
because I'll be like, it's liketet for someone to just take the pieces
(22:07):
away. You get what I'm saying. And some people are be like,
now you gotta see girl Like it'sdifferent. Sometimes it's hard to tell.
Sometimes it's hard to tell it's aNick or Nicole. We gotta I'm home
and everything it was. It wasn'ta different person. It was like what
(22:33):
you look like after hot water,you know, after you take off the
make up. They say to takethem on their first day swimming, but
some of them have waterpoof makeup,so that makeup comes off. Gym days
you can't really wear. Your makeupwill start melting, Jim date. True,
(22:55):
and if you have a butt pador anything, it's gonna like flip
flop in them tights, Phoenix.No, you know the underwear. Yeah
no, that shit ain't moving.So if their but is moving, its
real. Okay. We definitely likethe moving part, flopping, you know,
(23:19):
little motion for the ocean, gotcha. Yeah, But outside of that,
I don't know. I feel likeI don't have too many more regrets
either. And I'm glad for that, because I feel like people that are
insecure and have all those type oflike mental health issues like stress, anxiety,
(23:47):
all those things are from like regretsor I'm I didn't grow up in
the most stable home, but Ifeel like it helped me prepare for adulthood,
and all those lessons you learned prepareyou for adulthood. So it's like
you can't really be mad about That'swhy I said, it's kind of hard
to say you have regrets when Ifeel like everything that has happened in my
(24:14):
life to this point have made mewho I am. You know what I
mean as far as like men go, I mean, who doesn't I mean
just like he' said, I meaneverybody has that, you know, and
everybody has a whole sway. Everybodyhas a nick and you know, and
I just case even like the relationshipslike friendships like so you got John Smith,
(24:38):
if an anonymous I have, Yeah, I've had Yeah. I didn't
know I was poor until I startedfantaxes like I don't got regret in my
(25:00):
life. I come from love,yeah, hot of love, received love.
I'm emotionally intelligent, Like she alreadysaid it, I wish I had
bought me a bitcoin earlier too,you know what I mean? Outside of
that, mm hmm, I probablyshuld got my license. So that's about
(25:22):
it. Like what kind of licensedrivers? Ship? Leave of money and
fine. I had to go tolike six courts to get my license to
just take you know what I'm saying, You get tickets when you're a kid,
like when you're a kid. Yeah, absolutely not. I got my
(25:48):
ship at sixteen, and then Igot caught with some ship in the car
and they took my ship. Andthen then I had a period where I
went on vacation for a little while, you know, and then I came
home and you know what I mean, I ain't get it right till twenty
eight. So you're saying, that'sso I regret them. I regret taking
(26:11):
a left. I probably should havetook the right, like the movie wrong
term, got it? But doyou think, like like the game of
life where you take the life roador the fast track or whatever, like,
do you feel like if you hada pivot in your life where you
(26:33):
could have went a whole different route, do you think you would have ended
up anywhere near where you are today? Or you think it's just like it
would be completely different your life.Are you talking about like a butterfly flight
like something? Yeah, it couldbe small, it could be big,
it could be whatever. Like Ifeel like if I never got married as
a teenager, my life would havebeen like a whole different, That's what
(26:56):
I say. I feel like realit wasn't a cult. I feel like
she escapes, she's here people.I love her for this. I feel
like this is mostly choices that thatlead us. I guess little things can
(27:18):
happen, or crazy shit can happenin the blink of eye, But I
think it's those. I think it'sjust our choices as we move along that
bring us. Like I think,I guess, I don't know, or
destiny. You believe in destiny.He maybe I know that. You know.
(27:41):
That's why I said I don't knowif I have regrets, because you
know I was close. I wasengaged three times, just I never got
married. Because you like to argue, no, I like to, Well,
no, I don't like to.But are you good at it?
But I must are you good atand investigations and terriation fucking lotely that has
(28:04):
nothing to doing anything. I'm theone that didn't go that far. I
got a team busy Jersey. Okay, I'm John Smith Smith. I'm just
saying. That's why I said Inever went that far. I kind of
she didn't kill him, right,they're all live, that's something. But
(28:30):
I said, it's best that Idon't go take that route. So I
just for my own sake, waslike, no, they're not the one.
Nope, they're not the one.I have to find the one.
I'm forty one years old still haven'tfound the one. So that's why I
said, Wait, I'm not goingto make the mistake. You know what
(28:52):
they say? What do they say? The men are like wine and women
are like milk. I've never heardthat one one. Think about it.
There's a lot of recipes that isthat curdles and milk. It's crazy.
I'll figure it out. They gotthis caramel recipe. I'll be all right.
I don't know. Wait, Idon't get the mill. Why is
(29:14):
that? I don't get the mill? Old dude to me, don't don't,
don't don't shoot the messenger. Right, No, they're not. They're
never Okay, you know because listen, because yeah, because that's that's how
it is. It's the forces ofnature. M hmm. What it is
(29:36):
like a bottom of water that wasleft in the car? Men, I
mean women like listen. Please explainthat because women listen. Man, maybe
Becky does. Savage don't understand black, don't crack baby. Look at this
chocolate milk on your side. Youcan't see the kurdles because it's it's underneath.
(30:00):
I think I'm going to all theladies at this table look like fine
wines. They're right, California wineslooks like Colonel. That's not that's not
our reality for now, to getit. I don't know, so nobody.
(30:21):
I look amazing. I look amazingfor my age, Yes you do,
and all your botox lego, lego, listen just because I'm shiny shiny
penny right. I'm just saying,that's what they say. I don't know,
(30:42):
how do you feel about that.I've never heard that before. I've
never heard that before either, AndI feel like conversation we have and makeup
and feeding braids and leave and wehave everything we need to never age?
Are you looking at me like that? Filter filters? You don't know what?
(31:06):
How what I listened to? WhatI don't listen to? What he
said? What did you say,say it again because you didn't listen.
Thank you. He said, womendon't. Women don't listen to the man.
That's what you said, right,They don't listen. Hear what they're
(31:26):
saying. Facts those one year outthe other. That's bad. Happy wife
happy like right? No, hellno, no, that ship is like
love me, leave me alone,period. That's good. Wow, you
(31:52):
know yo, what you mean?I grew up in the household where the
man led the house. It wasn'tall that. It wasn't that talk back.
You know what I'm saying. Tobe single forever because I honestly,
you're not gonna give lessons. Bro, Now is anybody gonna love you if
you can never submit? That meansyou always have something to a certain extent,
(32:15):
to a certain extent, right likeyou can't. I'm gonna need this
oxygen later on when I'm old ashell and I'm with my mate, because
oxygen goals in the blood. That'syou know what I mean. There's no
(32:37):
visuals, No one knows what you'resaying. It's an uplifting experience. Uplifting
I'm dead. Don't be quiet.Say what you want to say. Put
it out there is we ain't gonnabreak up because we got some microphones in
front of us. Stop playing that. I think it would take a very
(33:00):
safe place for me to feel likeI would be able to constantly submit,
Especially the place that I'm at.It's less of me submitting and both of
us being able to not submit,just partner together to like move to move
forward. I think, I yeah, I think I let him. I
(33:22):
feel like I let him run thehousehold. But the same thing, I
think I see things that he doesn'tnecessarily see all the time, and he
has that he's able to. Butlisten, listen. That's why they say
that the behind every great man isa great woman. But I'm not behind
him. We're side by side.Sometimes I'm propping him up. Sometimes to
me, I did not design society. You mad at me and trying to
(33:45):
like, can't I can't. Iam very I'm saying like I can't,
you can't Rebut how the world's setup, it's just set up like that.
The same Bible you read as akid is the same one I did
too, And ain't no woman wasin front of Jesus. I have a
lot to say, but I'm notgonna say it. I feel like We're
(34:07):
gonna have to put a pin inthis or for another episode, because this
is gonna get this is gonna getugly, and I'm here for it.
Don't get me wrong. I'm allabout it. No weapons, no weapons,
we have metal detectors at the door. Weapons and peace for the security.
(34:37):
Oh god, let me in,let me in relationship. I would
take a bullet for my man.I don't. I don't know if the
mic, if they can hear thestudio audience, so speak a little bit
(34:59):
louder. He said, would youtake a bullet? The bullets? So
that's the ultimate submission. You havealready submitted. But he would do the
same for me. So would youcall him submissive? That's why he's in
the front, But he doesn't.I don't want to live longer than him
though. All right, that's isstrange. You guys are answering your own
(35:24):
questions in front of me. Idon't know what's going on here. I'm
lost in the sauce. So onthat note, we're gonna say good night
and thank you everyone for coming.Make sure you catch Dirty Tea podcasts on
Instagram, Snapchat, Facebook. Youcan catch us Dirty the Letter t Underscore
(35:45):
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