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Speaker 1 (00:00):
This is the Words of Radiance podcast entitled When to
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Let Go of labels like I'm an alcoholic Hello, and welcome.
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I'm doctor Troy. First and foremost, my primary objective with
this particular podcast is to not step on toes. And
if at any time you feel like, Okay, I'm getting
kind of under the caller right now, I'm getting kind
of offended. I'm getting he stepping on my toes, it
is not my intention to do so, and I want
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to come full circle. So if you are feeling that
way during this particular podcast, I will ask you to
take a deep breath, pause it. Know that I have
only love and that I'm just merely expressing an idea
something to consider. And this is both sides because we're
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not going to pull any punches today, nor would that
be okay to pull a punch. Ever. We are going
to speak truth, in kindness and in love, but also
look very clearly at some things. Now. I say that
because how many people out there go to meetings that
say I'm an alcoholic er, I'm a sinner, or I'm bad,
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I'm awful, I'm not okay, I'm a murderer. I don't know.
Whatever people say but there's a lot of things that
we tell ourselves, and the point comes to at some
point in time, when do I stop telling myself a lie. Now,
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it might be helpful in the beginning to say things like,
you know what, I need some serious help because I
have a drinking problem, or I have a gambling problem,
or I have a sex problem, or I have a
anger problem, or I have a narcotic problem, or I
have whatever drug problem or pornography or addiction of any kind.
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So we all have these issues. In fact, many of
us don't even realize that our primary addiction is to
be leaving our own brain while it incessantly talks to us.
And if you're there thinking, I just want to turn
on the TV so I can shut my head up
and just forget everything and watch something and stop thinking. Well,
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that's at least one way to use television, I suppose.
But what we would rather do is that you become
very hyper aware of the thoughts going on in your
brain and start looking at them directly. That would be awesome.
So for all of us, we all have these things
that we believe, these things that well are just not
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very awesome. So I'm going to start with reading you
about guilt, because to understand guilt in all of its
flavors becomes a much more successful way of letting go
of it. So here we go. I'm going to read
from the course, page two thirty six. If you did
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not feel guilty, you could not attack. For condemnation is
the root of attack. It is the judgment of one
mind by another as unworthy of love and deserving of punishment.
But herein lies the split. For the mind that judges
perceives itself as separate from the mind being judged, believing
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that by punishing another it will escape punishment. All this
is but the delusional attempt of the mind to deny
itself and escape the penalty of denial. It is not
an attempt to relinquish denial, but to hold on to it,
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for it is guilt that has obscured the Father to you,
and it is guilt that has driven you insane. The
acceptance of guilt into the mind of God's son, which
is you, by the way and me, was the beginning
of the separation, as the acceptance of the atonement is
its end. The world you see is the delusional system
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of those made mad by guilt. Look carefully at this world,
and you will realize that this is so. For this
world is the symbol of punishment, and all the laws
that seem to govern it are here. Excuse me, are
the laws of death. Children are born into it through pain,
and in pain, their growth is attended by suffering, and
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they learn of sorrow and separation and death. Their minds
seem to be trapped in their bodies and its powers
to decline. If their bodies are hurt, they seem to love,
yet they desert and are deserted. They appear to lose
what they love, perhaps the most insane belief of all.
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And their bodies bodies wither and gasp and are laid
in the ground and are no more. Not one of
them but has thought that God is cruel. If this
were the real world, God would be cruel, for no
father could subject his children or his child to this
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as the price of salvation and being loving and be loving.
Love does not kill to save. If it did, attack
would be salvation. And this is the ego's interpretation, not God's.
Only the world of guilt could demand this, for only
the guilty could conceive of it. Adam's sin could have
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touched no one had he not believed it was the
Father who drove him out of paradise, for in that belief,
the knowledge of the Father was lost, since only those
who do not understand him could believe it. This world
is a picture of the crucifixion of God's Son, And
until you realize that God's son cannot be crucified, this
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is the world you will see. Yet you will not
realize this until you accept the eternal fact that God's
son is not guilty. He deserves only love because he
has been given only love. He cannot be condemned because
he has never condemned. The atonement is the final lesson
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he need learn, for it teaches him that, never having sinned,
he has no need of salvation. Now to read here
just a little bit longer. Earlier I said that the
Holy Spirit shares the goal of all good teachers, whose
ultimate aim is to make themselves unnecessary by teaching their
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pupils all they know. The Holy Spirit wants only this
for sharing the Father's love for his son. He seeks
to remove all guilt from his mind, that he, his
son may remember his father in peace. Peace and guilt
are antithetical, and the Father can be remembered only in peace.
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Love and guilt cannot coexist, and to accept one is
to deny the other. Guilt hides Christ from your sight,
for it is the denial of the blamelessness of God's Son.
Who is God's Son? It is you, it is me,
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it is everyone. God did not create many, He creates
only like himself one. So at some point in time
we have to accept these truths by remembering our Father
in peace. And when we remember our Father in peace,
we will decide only for him and his gifts. Punishment
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is not one of those. Neither is guilt, and neither
is fear. So as we begin to move away from
I am a sinner, I'm an alcoholic, I'm a poor,
an addict, I'm a gambler, whatever. These are all phraseologies
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that tend to reinforce the lie. But in the beginning
they can be helpful because it is through the egoic
mind that we're trying to stop these things, and this
behavior that we know is not helpful. But there comes
a point when no longer is that my identity. I
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now can gently lay that identity aside. How long I
don't know? Everyone is different. I had a wonderful friend
in college. She was an alcoholic, and she went to
AA about three years in. She was very afraid because
she had a glass of wine and she had called
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me up sobbing, and I say, how do you feel well?
I feel okay. Do you feel like you need to
have another glass? No? Do you feel like you could
simply walk away and not do it ever again? Yes? Well,
perhaps maybe you are not the alcoholic that you've been
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reinforcing for years, and still to this day she is fine.
Twenty thirty years or forty years later. My gosh, it's
been a while. And so some may have to resort
to this mechanism all their life, but others will gently
let go. And So, if you have beliefs about yourself
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that seem to plague you, I am bad, or I
am not enough, or I am not good, or I
am an alcoholic, or I'm a poor, an addict or whatever,
these are ideas that eventually win your desire for alleviating guilt.
By fully accepting who and what you are and allowing
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the ministering of the spirit to you and believing it
more than you believe your brain, does freedom come and completely,
For when the sun sets, you free and who is
the sun? You are, not your brain. You are when
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the sun sets, you free, You will be free. Indeed,
I hope this was helpful. It obviously is not a
complete dissertation on the whole thing, and there are things
that may be lacking, but this will least give us
a little bit of food for thought moving forward. How
do I wish to allow this beautiful internal guidance that
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is me, that is God, that is part of everyone,
move me to the next place, the next beautiful journey.
Not a bad thing, but quite a good thing. Until
next time, I'm doctor Troy, and remember you have nothing
to do, only something to see.