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Speaker 1 (00:01):
A little crypt and this is a script I want
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to say you and then a little raision, but Apple
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(03:05):
And yeah, and today we have questions again, questions again,
and I'm going to talk about all I wanted to
talk about is you know, this is a crypti podcast.
I do have to keep that in mind the times,
but these monolags are a little bit different and they
are kind of to tonally stay the same going forward.
So I will probably talk about the passing of Charlie
Kirk I think that was his name, and the sort

(03:27):
of the Tommy Robinson March thing that went on in
England on the weekend in the UK. So we'll talk
about those things at the end of the episode. Maybe
maybe we'll get through the questions first and then I
will share my thoughts on that as if that's what
we needed, more of people talking and not a lot

(03:48):
of doing. But however we will do that. And Okay,
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(04:09):
And also I would like to thank our new patron,
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You know who you are. It is much appreciated. And yeah,
let's take the Instagram first before we talk about some
of the pop culture goings on. It's probably the wrong
way to pull it, so let's go really quick. Have

(04:34):
I ever seen the show Expedition Unknown with Josh Gates?
I feel like I have Once that coffee break, I
feel like I have em, and whenever we go away
on our hikes or anything will subject me to all
these different shows that I should really be watching. Because
I have a crypted podcast, I feel like I've watched

(04:57):
a bit and I think I enjoyed it if that's
the show I'm thinking of. So let's see what we
got her coffee, coffeees and coconuts. Asks? How is Leah
is my dog? Who? I took a picture of her
for this Instagram post where I was asking for questions.
Can't asking with that face and how is she adjusted?

(05:18):
How has she adjusted with Luna? She's okay. So mixing
cats and dogs hold they never get along, as they say,
But Leah is very gentle and docile most of the time.
She's a diva. She's a she has her own ways
about her. But she is docile and fairly chilled out.

(05:43):
She was raised, like we were talking about COVID earlier
during COVID, and she wasn't very well socialized because of that.
So I got Lea when she was a pup, asked,
I want to say she was two or three months old,
and when COVID hit she was like four months old
or something like that. If that so, a lot of

(06:03):
those like steps that you take to like formally train
your dog in terms of socialization. You know, you're bringing
it to the doggy park, you're hanging out with people,
like all that kind of went for the first six
months of La being around like that, we were still
in those early days of COVID. It was like, don't
do anything. So she didn't get a lot of that
socialization that she probably should have. So she has her

(06:25):
own little weird always and she's quite aloof with other pets,
like she doesn't bother her ars with other dogs or
anything like that. She's kind of funny that way, Like
if I put her with another dog, she'll just try
and ignore it. Really, she's like, yeah, fucking bugging me,
I'm out of here. So yeah, so with the cat,
they're okay. They both shared living room and kitchen. We

(06:47):
have an open plan bottom floor, and so they share
that space for most of the day. I think dracts
you down there together now, And yeah, they seem to
get getting better. Like it started with like bring the
kitten in. The kitten's hissing at the dog. The dog
is kind of avoiding the cat, and now like the

(07:10):
cat wants to play with the dog, but the dog
is ignoring the cat still because the cat is too
fidgety and running around and stuff. So I'm hoping touchwood,
fingers crossed and all that that eventually they just start
cuddling and she'd sleep and sleep up in the ball
together and all that kind of holesome stuff that you'd
expect out of a cat and a dog. But maybe not.

(07:33):
But they are, like they're definitely getting there. There's definitely improvements.
And otherwise other than that, she's quite good. Yeah, she's
throwing tantrums this morning because the cat was up on
the couch Twitter and she didn't like that. So but
she's pretty pretty good otherwise. Marky Miller asks me, do
you reckon You'll try hike the Morns sometime, very nice walk.

(07:57):
I have hiked the Morns, mark I did. Yeah, cant
of me down right. I did the main mourn hike,
the one that you do from Newcastle if I think,
let me just look that up actually Newcastle more just
to make sure, but yeah, yeah, yeah, oh yeah, yeah

(08:19):
yeah no I did that. So yeah. So the cool
thing about for our listeners there, The More Mountains are
a really nice spot up north. I did talk about
it a little bit in the pod. The time I
did hike it, I think it was actually about a
year ago, and it had wild horses up there. That
was the thing that really struck me because I had

(08:42):
never seen wild horses and I was kind of thinking
to myself. I was like, what the fuck is this like?
Because as I was walking down, coming down the mountain
and I seen this thing in the distance and I've
seen people kind of standing around it, and I was like,
some of them things are your brain like kind of glitches.

(09:02):
I was like, that fucking horse, it's not a horse.
And then I looked back. I was like, yeah, shit,
it is a horse, and yeah, they're they're It's it's tricky.
The horses that I found out afterward, and it's quite
a sad story. A lot of them are just dumped
up there and they're not actually wild. They're like former

(09:24):
domestic horses if you call them a domestic horse, and
they're also ponies, and as a result that they never
really evolves to deal with being wild. So these are
these are animals that were domestic headed and now have
been released into the wild, and so as a result,
they're getting things like really bad parasites, you know, They're

(09:45):
hooves are getting all fucked up, they're breaking their legs
and shit, because again they didn't really evolve to deal
with it. They've got all worms and stuff like that.
It's not great. But apparently, like some people are saying
that they're good because they're grazing and they're keeping down
overgrowth of vegetation. Because I do know that the Morn mountains,

(10:06):
I think I think it's the more mountains are prone
to a bit of fire in the summer. Coffee break,
so you know, that's one casse people are saying. But
it was quite strange to see them up there and
they're relatively tame, Like I was able to pet one. Now,
I was very fucking wary about petting them because like

(10:27):
a horse, you'll get to kick off a horse. That's it, Like,
you know what I mean. You don't want to know
anything about getting kicked by a horse or bitten by
a horse either. I've seen a lad get this fucking
diddy bit off by a horse on YouTube one time,
like literally grabbed his peck muscle and fucking pulled it

(10:49):
and I looked sore as fucking shit. So both ends
of a horse are not good. You don't want to
be there either one too long and if you iron
near them, you gotta be vigilant. So yeah, so the
more Mountains are beautiful. What I really like about the
More Mountains actually is the hike starts in like you

(11:12):
can literally park in a car park that's like almost
like it's in the town pretty much, and you start
from there. So it's quite an unusual hike that way,
that like start in a kind of built up area
and then really quickly Euroupe in the Mountain. You know,
I might wild camp up there maybe next year. I'll

(11:32):
have to say. I was meant to go back this
year in terms of like hike, and I've done fucking
none this year. Really. I did a little bit early
on in the season. But I don't know. This year
has been a strange, strange year. You know. We had
Scaffle planned that fell through and then I did. I
did a couple before Scaffle to kind of warm up

(11:53):
for Scaffle, And yeah, it's been it's been aware the air.
I just kind of fell out of hiking. I wanted
to go back to Wales. Actually, I wanted to go
back to Snodonia, but I don't think I'll get over now.
So hopefully next year I'll get over the snow and

(12:13):
Scaffold needs do on next year too, but I'd like
to get over to Snodonia. Like North Wales. I've said
it before on the pad is like my favorite spot.
It's I think Snowdonia in general is absolutely majestic, mystifying
and magical. I think it's one of the most beautiful

(12:34):
spots I've ever been to. And I've been to quite
a lot of areas now, like I've been to Asia,
good amount of Europe. You know, a lot of different
variety of areas there, and I was over in Iceland,
which also has some really epic stuff. But something about Snodonia,
I don't know whether it's like again I talked about
on another episode Nostalgia, where you feel, you know, I

(12:57):
want for something that you were doing when you were
a kid. I would have been in Snodonia a lot
as a kid, but Snowdonia, Bala, and then I discovered
over there last time, like Clandaled known all them areas.
They're quite nice, like for a little stroll, you know.
So No, I really like North Wales. Actually it's one
of those areas I wouldn't mind living in or like
going over for like a month. Now. I'd imagine it's

(13:19):
dull as fuck, like for anything other than sort of nature.
But that's kind of what you want, you know. I
like dull as fuck to be honest. So yeah, so yeah,

(13:39):
more mountains, love the time. Jane revel Travel asks did
you ever have trouble jumping on a trampoline bouncy castle
because you're height? No, as a kid, I used to
do with castle go crack. I kind of I grew
out with all that stuff very young. I was very
fucking frankie child, I think, be honest, it's like I

(14:04):
always wanted to hang around with older people when I
was young, and I always did, like I always knocked
around my older cousin, for one, who was always like
three years ahead of me, so I was always trying
to catch up with him. But then also like I
always got on more, but like older people, like had
better conversation with them, and I wanted to be around
older people. And I think it was just a conversational thing.

(14:26):
I think I wanted to be stimulated, like having a
good chat. I used to love that, or even just
sitting listening to people chatting. I used to love that
too as a kid. Those were the two things. So no,
I never I wasn't much of a bouncy castle dude. Trampolines.
I remember actually last time I was on a trampline,
I'll tell you it was. I was at someone's twenty

(14:47):
first and I was with Aim and and another one
of our pits and and the other one of them
outes were absolutely fucking shit face drunk, and they were
on the trampoline like kicking each other, and the fucking
head and everything like gob shakes and like one and
fall under the trampoline and the other be like bouncing
on his head. Everything they got. The two got out

(15:11):
and they started going around one of another, one of
our mets, like they just wanted to fucking annoy him
for whatever reason that night, and they were like, well,
just annoy him, and the two went over and they're
like kick and I was like what he was doing?
So that was the last time I was on a
trampoline with the buys. It was many years ago, and no,
I would not get on one now I'm too ould,
So that's that's why I wouldn't bother at all. After

(15:35):
in the traffic asks after a couple of cans, would
you ride a female bigfoot? Probably not, but you never
know what cans are we talking about her? What are
we drinking? Coffee rag? You know in Japan they have
what's called Guy Jane Killer nine under a auro. I

(15:56):
can you're drinking four cans of them and you're anyone's
him mean, But if we're talking four knds of Heineken
or something bud light, forget it. And also female big
foot Coulby Dodge Cubby sauce you would know what kind
of like sort of weird hybrid diseases you'll be getting

(16:18):
off a female big foot like, but you never know,
you know, never said ever try anything once, you know,
something like that. But yeah, other than that in a
big foot, I don't know. There's probably people out there
who draw sexy big face. There's there's a person out
there for everyone, right, and there surely is someone out

(16:39):
there who draws six sexy big foot women. Actually, as
a matter of fact, Patterson did, I mean the whole
Patison gave was female big foot. We've talked about it
ad nauseum. But the female Patty like was drawn by

(17:00):
Parson prior to the sighting. How convenient, and he was
drawn female big feet, so he was the original big footgooner.
It was all about that big foot life. It's also
crazy how in this community that Parson gimblans almost like

(17:22):
the Bible of cryptozoology, like you have to believe in
it or you're not into cryptis And yeah, I'm still like,
it's funny, isn't it. Five years deep into the podcast,
my heart still says that it's all a hoax big time.
Now as I get older, I think I'm on record,

(17:43):
it's probably saying different now at this stage, but when
I look back at the podcast and how long for
time span it's been. But same as anything, you know,
we all grow, we all change, opinions change. In five
years time, I might say I think Parison given was real,
you know, But currently, as I feel in this moment,
too much smoke around us, too much smoke around something

(18:05):
that's already unbelievable, do you know what I mean. It's
not like I took video footage of like an Irish
guy walking to the bar in California. I'm the first
person to get that on camera. Like then you'd go,
oh yeah, okay for you know, you're out and you
got footage of that good. It's like I got footage

(18:27):
of like a thing that is barely supposed to exist
and also something that I have drawn and I'm hugely
involved in the industry of, and also my career may
or may not depend on this footage doing well, and
that's kind of where I am with it. It's just

(18:48):
it's just too sort of all over the gatholic. It's
to hired to fucking deal with so as well. Actually,
funnily enough, that are popping into my head there Aim
and I do believe will be the first person to
see Monster Fulls on an air Linguis flight. So he's

(19:09):
flying home tomorrow at the time of recording and he
might catch us in flight. So yeah, if you're onf flight, guys,
do let us know. Let us know if you listen.
I am super cool, like support the pod if you're
on the flights you know on air Lingus. Like what
attracted me to them? What I thought was really cool

(19:30):
about this dal before we did it was like the
whole idea when you fly on air lingus is it's
Irish podcasts, so you are in a group of like
Irish podcasters and so it was very nice to be
representing Irish podcasts. So it's cool. It's cool the veather

(19:50):
in the cap. You know, something that I'll be proud
of just to have worked with aer Lingus again such
a like a sort of household names in Ireland, you know,
household brand. I suppose you could say, say very cool,
m h okay Linus asks Lens. He says, if you

(20:21):
could rewrite the ending of a movie, what movie and
what would I change? He also says hello to Layer,
So I will forward on to Laya. So what ending
would I change? What did I? What film did? I
really not like the ending up? Lots of them, lots

(20:43):
of them. One of the ones that immediately springs to
mind is like that recent Star Wars trilogy that the
latest of the tree, just like that whole ending with
fucking dark CEDI has shown up for Palpatine whatever you're
want to call them, and just at that fucking shit, like,
just change that to anything else so that it's not
so fucking contrived and just like completely painfully, just like

(21:11):
I suppose, devoid of any creativity or any sort of excitement, Like,
was there anyone in the cinema when I watched that
film they were like, oh my god, it's palpitating again.
What the fuck are you okidding me? This is brilliant.
It's like, no, it's like we've seen this dude in
six films like or whatever however many he was in. No, Like,

(21:36):
it's not it's boring. It was never particularly exciting anyway,
really fucking annoying that shit was. That was just stupid
requiem for a dream, give it a happy end and
where they all like they all end up kicking Heroin
and they all, like, you know, live happily. Ever after
Jared Lettle doesn't lose his arm. You know, maybe Jarred

(21:59):
Lettle should have one less arm though. Isn't there some
fucking alleged cult of Jared Letto where he's like up
to all sorts of stuff allegedly that shall be worth
looking into for everyone because he kind of looks like
Jesus now as well. So you're like, hmmm, I think
when anyone starts to look like Jesus, they're probably trying

(22:20):
to start a cult, right, It's like a fore warning.
As soon as the Jesus hair comes down, then need
invest again. If you think about there's a lot of
people like Tom Cruise. He's another one. He's high on Zeno.
He has the long hair Crystal. They tried to start
up a sex cult. Well, there's there's a couple out there.

(22:41):
There's lots of but that wants the hair gets to
that length to watch out. And if you're listening to
this part in your hair is that length cut? It?
I go from there, what does Nolan nug So the
wife wants to take the dog for walks wearing their
Halloween costumes. It's September, is this acceptable behavior. No, it's unhinged.

(23:08):
You want to be careful actually, because you might get
fucking the looney bus my character off. A lot of
lads might jump out with a bust for fucking them
snares on the poll lead things and get your wife
and tire down and the pets and drag them off,
and you'll never see him again. It's too early October.

(23:32):
Game set match. But personally I love Halloween, but I
would leave it till like a week before Halloween, maybe
even two or three days before Halloween, before I start
dressed up cute dog shit. It is very cute that
it will look cute, don't get me wrong, So I
don't blame you. But there's a time and a place
for cuteness, and that it was not it Halloween. I'm

(23:56):
kind of excited for this year. I think we're starting
to feel the bite in the air. The breeze is
getting chilly, and today was torrential or rain and a
nice little chili snap to the wind, and so I
really like that. I'm getting into it. Booklyn in getting

(24:20):
ready to clean out the office today, clean out the space,
trying to focus on the mental health now going forward,
have to be mindful. Usually for me, October November November
is where the wheels started to wabble. Yeah, yeah, so
usually I used to be able to carry myself into

(24:41):
Christmas and then January February started to get a bit.
But last year now I was rocked. My ship was
rocked in mid October. I think that's when I went
on the Alexis. I was like, fuck this, but yeah,
I'm off all them now anyway, So I'm do you know,
cleared mental health. I'm now at the prime of my

(25:04):
life of mental health. The peak, yeah, I found. Actually
I suppose I'll talk a little bit about that while
I'm here. Why not. We can talk about anything we
want apparently and use a listen, which is why we're
going to talk about Tommy Robinson and all that. But yeah,

(25:29):
so yeah, how have I been there? Let good, good,
good good. I think I'm chilling out, like I'm trying
to kind of process, you know, grief. And again, as
I've said before, thanks to everyone who has come forward
and offered kind words, words of condolence, advice, their own anecdotes,

(25:50):
their own stories. It's always super nice to hear. So
I've been getting on with that it's there's a lot
of moving in my situation currently, so I'm trying to
I'm like a dude spinning a load of plates and
balancing them. I'm trying to trying to keep all of
them from smashing off the ground in a load of

(26:11):
tiny pieces, basically and trying to keep the head up
above water. I think what was happening to me with
the lexaprov was it worked really well for anxiety, which
was what I was feeling. And also I did have
what I would call and I didn't really know it
as this, but it was probably OCD or something like OCD.

(26:36):
And what I mean is I always head self diagnose them,
but I think I'm usually fairly on the nail on
the head type of jobby with it. But I was
having periods of just sort of repeating thoughts, negative, repeating
thoughts over and over and over again, cult and shake
them no matter what I tried, whether I fucking ran,
whether I hiked, whether anything did anything really And it

(27:01):
wasn't a thing like where I'm actively trying to defeat it.
Because I know you hear some people talk about these
things like I used to listen to if Neil Brennan
was everan a Poda'd listened to him as a comedian
in America, and like it came across sometimes like that
he could devote his life to trying to fight depression,
do you know what I mean? Like he was very

(27:21):
acutely aware and was always, always, always just trying to
chip away and stop it, and that to me is
also a problem. So like, I wasn't trying to do that.
I wasn't like a firefighter trying to fucking piss a
lot of water on it or anything. But I was
just observing myself through various phases of time and still
coming up with the same results rather than trying to

(27:43):
actively fix and change things. Well I was actively trying
to fix and changing things, but you get you get
what I'm saying, And yeah, it just wasn't the Lexapro
works for that. Really well, that actually stopped that, and
to be actually, since I've come off, it's kind of
stopped it. Even now that I'm off it, like it's

(28:04):
i'd say it's again, it's still really reduced. And that's
great because I think I was a lifelong havre of that.
But I do as I get older, suspect and I
have well, I have none for years anyway. It was
always something that I've had, and I think I've said
on the pod suspect DD slash EDDYHD, and I think

(28:30):
that that may have been the problem all along. But
I'm going to look into getting tested again now soon.
But yeah, I do find the identify with pretty much
ninety nine percent of what would be called the classic
symptoms of adult EDDHD, And as a matter of fact,
I actually think that that was probably the problem rather

(28:53):
than just anxiety. So that's kind of where I'm at. Yeah,
I think as you get older, whether you have kids,
I don't have kids, or you know, if you've struggled
at any point, and I've struggled a lot at times
in my life for reasons unknown oftentimes actually that you

(29:17):
then want to find answers. I know a lot of
times when people in my age is like, well, my
kids are diagnosed with say autism or ADHD or ORCD
or dyslexia, which is also in your aal divergence by
the way, dyslexia, And then you're like, right, I want
to get answers for that, or I want to find
out whether maybe I have that. You can see stuff

(29:38):
in your child coming out from or experience in similar
things that you did. And so I have found ye
that I look back to my childhood and I look
back to my struggles as a kid and all of
those things, and yeah, it was there was something up
there that wasn't allowing me to perform academically or in

(30:00):
a traditional sense, and still to this day causes problems
for me even in relationships. All of that stuff, Like,
all of those things have always been an issue. So
sometimes I want to get on top of and at
least understand and get some understanding towards and work on.
And I think that's always important, and I think growth

(30:21):
is always important, which is what I aim to do.
I think that I was unlucky in a sense. I
struggled in school a lot, and I never really had
support in spite of not being completely fucking stupid, you
know what I mean, I'm like fifty percent stupid. I
was never like I was always watching would call probably

(30:42):
a little bit bright, but I was never able to
apply it so in a traditional learning environment. So I
don't know, and I'm not just saying like, oh, I
was like I was failing fucking miserably in school, you know,
like I was like dead on the urs. It was
like a fish out of water in spite of trying
as well at times, like you know what I mean,

(31:02):
And then just like you know, like I could go home.
I remember as a kid, I'd come home, like when
I was like fourteen, fifteen thirteen, and I put the
books on the table, sit there, read the books, like
history books. Study it was interested in history, even it
was stuff that I was kind of into, like sit
down and read it. Come in the next day, couldn't

(31:25):
couldn't put pen to paper, didn't remember any of it.
None of it had stuck, you know, ever, And that
kept happening throughout school, secondary school in particular, but a
little bit towards the end of primary school. But none
of that could stick. And so as a result, I
just used to do fucking awful in school academically, like

(31:46):
because my study just wasn't working. I still remember, like
I remember going into school as a kid and like
fucking like failing something right, being made a fucking example
I've by dickhead teacher because I failed, or made a
laugh of by a teacher because I failed, Feeling shame,
feeling fucking shitty, coming home I'm going I'm gonna sit

(32:10):
down now, I'm gonna read these fucking books, and I'm
gonna I'm gotta know all this shit, and I've gotta
come in and show them, you know what I mean.
And then you'd come in and do shit again like
like whoops, And then after a couple of cycles that
actually just like, well, what the fuck is the point anymore?
You know That's how I felt, and then I dropped
out of school of fifteen as a result. You know,

(32:34):
so as you get older, I think you kind of
said yourself, like, fuck that, I do want the answers
for all that stuff, like do you know what I mean?
Because it does. We all know, Like what your experiences
as a kid, they've just such a profound mark on you.
You know, you can't really ever escape it. Anyone knows that.

(32:54):
And no matter what way you grew up, if you
grew up happy like that will stick with you. You know,
you'll remember it throughout your life. And likewise, it's true
for if you grow up in a bad circumstance, and
my circumstances were less than ideal, shall we say, And
so you want the answers for it, you know, you
want to try and at least better it. You owe
yourself and your younger self that I think to investigate

(33:20):
and sort it out, because yeah, it's shit, Like because
it is shit, because you know, you're you're young when
you're going through all that, very very young, and you
don't really have a strong understanding of it. But even
now when I think back to it, I still feel
the same as I did them. So you're like, so
that's the crack with it. So yeah, that's where I'm

(33:41):
at really with mental health. You know, you're just kind
of trying to get your your head around answers, and
I think answers give you understand them. I know a
lot of people out there say, well, like sure, what's
it going to do? Or sure, what's the point like
or everyone has something or blah blah blah. In my eyes,
that's all I down playing stuff, you know what I mean,

(34:03):
And they do reckon by the way, that a lot
of people do have NEU diversins too, so that statement
is kind of true. Yeah, probably there are a lot
of people that aren't diagnosed that should be diagnosed also
with some kind of ner diversions. So so yeah, so
it's it's interesting, but yet you know they already get

(34:26):
the more you want to just kind of get a
grip on it. I have found that my sort of
stuff has gotten more profound as I get older. I
find that I'm not getting as much enjoyment out of
the things that I would normally find. Also that my
attention span is just not good. Like I find like

(34:47):
if I want to sit down and do something, I
enjoy whatever that may be, could be anything that I'll
actually just like after half an hour, I'm like, ah,
I'm done, or nah, I'm not enjoying it. I'm not
engaged with it, and I'm in fucking limbo with I
don't know if anyone else feels the same, but that's
that's how I feel a lot lately with with that

(35:08):
sort of thing. And I thought it was maybe a
little bit of a depression, but the antidepressants or anything
didn't help that. So yeah, I haven't done my own
research and all that. That's the crack. That's where I'm at.
So that's my my journey. Everyone's is different, but that's
where I feel I'm going with the whole mental health
fulds and the crack. So let's see radio, what am

(35:38):
I doing we are going to talk about. Yeah, let's
get into the controversial zone. Let's talk about all the
shit that's going on in the news. So this week
we had, or last week, we had a lot of

(36:01):
crazy shit. Well, the Charlie Kirk fella, he got assassinated
some kind of rally. The first thing I'll say is,
I don't know Charlie Kirk. I didn't know him beforehand,
and I've done very little research since then, so I'm

(36:22):
not really going to talk much about him personally as
a character. I'll just talk a little bit about sort
of sort of more general ideas. And the other thing
that we also had was I think Tommy Robbinson had
as a British political activist as what Google calls him,
he's an anti islam Is on his overder on Google.

(36:48):
Oh yeah, I have seen him before talking about yeah. Yeah.
So apparently there was like one hundred thousand people out
in London or something for this big march on the
weekend and it was Musk there. I think Muscue was
there as well. Far right rally is what the newspapers
are calling it, but I don't know if I'll call
it that. I think, what do I feel? I think,

(37:11):
firstly about the Charlie Kirk fella. I think it's very
sad that people are getting assassinated for words, you know,
what they say. Obviously, what you say can have great meaning,
can cause a lot of harm and damage. But I
think once you're in the political sphere, you should be
relatively safe from being assassinated for fucking do you know

(37:33):
that kind of shit? Well, as I said that, I'm
doubting myself. Let me have a bit of a coffee
here to form my thoughts. I think, yeah, no one
should be assassinated for anything like that. But at the
same time, part of me does feel like, you know,

(37:54):
we're in this kind of really fucking divisive shitty for
time where people are fucking have a hard on for
choosing a side. People are fucking mad for Like they're
mad for someone to tell them what to fucking do.
They're mad for someone to tell them how to feel,
how to think. They're fucking notes for it. They're absolutely

(38:17):
loving it, like like they want that. People want that
right now. People want your fucking Charlie Kirk's. People want
your fucking bench of Harrols, people want your Jordan Peterson's
and they call them Jordan Henderson there, and likewise, the
talking about people want your young tarks, you're fucking whoever,

(38:38):
the focus on the left, I don't even know who
you're Hassan pikers. People want these to tell them how
to feel and how to think and be right back, yeah, right, okay,

(39:02):
I'm back. I think that the kitten was attacking the dog,
so it was a big drama downstairs between the two
of them. Where was I. Yeah, we're talking about politics.
We're talking about Charlie Kirk, the assassination, these rallies and
the immigration protests, things like that. Yeah, I mean, I

(39:27):
just feel like, yeah, I think the way I look
at it is like I'm starting to wonder, let me
see if I can word destroy it. I feel like
personally that the algorithm nowadays is just trying to push
you down a hole, and I think some people are

(39:47):
taking that and running with it, and they're happy to
be pushed down the hole. I think some people just
agree with it, and they're making the wrong conscientious decisions
and saying, yeah, I agree with everything Charlie Cark says,
or yeah, I agree with everything fucking Hasan Piker says
on the other side, or whoever, and that's how they identify,

(40:07):
that's how they identify with people, that's how they get along,
that's where they find their people personally. For me, like
I always found all this kind of shit fucking lame.
It's not for me. I don't want to be told
what to think, and I don't really even care to
watch talking heads, even with the same opinion as me, Like,

(40:30):
I don't give a fuck. I don't want to listen
to that ever. I'm not interested, not interested in being
told how to think or how be told how to feel.
It gets old. I just I think a lot of
it makes problems seem worse than it is as well,
and I think it blows it out of proportion. I
think it stars people up, and I think it creates

(40:52):
more division, more frenzy, more upset. I don't think it
makes people very happy. I don't think people get much
comfort from consuming this media all the time. I think
it actually just causes outrage and pain. I don't think
it's very progressive, and I don't mean progressive in a
political sense. I mean progressive in I don't think it's

(41:14):
actually moving anything forward. I think it's actually just set
out to break things further. But maybe I'm wrong. That's
that's just how I feel. I'm just speaking in my
mind on these things. And again to qualify, I'm not
some kind of fucking I don't have a degree in politics,
or I don't fucking do this or do that. But

(41:36):
I would actually say interestingly, we like obviously we're a
comedy cryptid podcast, but I actually think that a lot
of people that are into cryptozoology and stuff actually fall
on the right in terms of their political views. So
I actually think that we am and myself actually we're
probably centrist to like center left, but I do think

(42:00):
that we have viewpoints that would be deemed right as well.
I think that the problem with centrists is, like myself,
is that in these really divisive, trying times where people
aren't able to fucking rent a house, buy a house,
they're not able to put food round their play, there's

(42:21):
mad inflation things like that, I think that you get
washed out as a centrist. That's what I'm trying to
think after I was running losing the run of myself.
But I think that you risk you run the risk
of just being washed out because you pick a side,

(42:47):
you know, pick a side. The issue with that is,
like I don't really I think, to be honest in
terms of like immigration and things like that, it does
need to be revised. In twenty twenty five. I think
I've said this on the record before on the pod,
like I think we're going to enter an air pretty

(43:08):
sound of more war, more climate change, more economic refugees,
more war refugees, all that sort of stuff, and I
think you have to kind of be sensible about your
approach to borders in those times, because you know, I

(43:29):
think the problem is and why a lot of people
get upset and angry is because we don't have the
infrastructure to support a lot of this anymore. And we
don't like Ireland didn't have the fucking infrastructure to support
fucking Irish for a lot of time. So and that's
just the truth, Like that's just the way it is.
That that's the crack. So I do think there needs

(43:53):
to be sensible policies. You know, I don't think the
doors shall be entirely open. And likewise, I feel like
I feel personally that I shouldn't be able to just
rock up into a country and go, yeah, let me
live here. If it's the EEU fair enough, that's I
think that's fine. We're part of a union and that's
one of the parts of being in the union. But

(44:15):
I think further afield, I think that's when you have
to start really looking into how things are handled. I think,
if you're letting in people that have degrees and can
improve things and are intelligent, I said, that's ironic because
I don't have a fucking degree myself. But I think
if it's people that are willing to work and improve
and help, I think that's great, and I think there

(44:38):
needs to be a sensible way to vet that. That's
how I feel on all that shit. I personally think
like all of this fucking trans stuff and the way
that that's been blown way out of proportion, I think
is like crazy. I think the right have been using
that as like a fucking like kind of like political football. Again,

(45:01):
it comes down to, like, I don't know, I just
think that I think, like now the conservative voice is
louder than it's ever been, and I don't think the
conservatives are any sort of you know, oh you know,
it's just we're a little low conservatives, like no one
can hear us, and we're being censored by the left

(45:22):
and this and that like, that's definitely not the case.
It's not the case anymore anyway, and maybe it was
before you could you could make that case that you know,
tech companies and all that would definitely have been left
leaning and the pendulum swang that way when the rise
of tech happened. But you could also say that prior

(45:44):
to tech, we were in a very conservative era both
in Ireland, in America and in Britain. We weren't lying
out like Thatchers, the Reagans and in Ireland random mass motherfuckers.
I think where there's a period there where there's a
couple of different well, we were in like fucking Catholic,
you know, fucking alkhed a'l handle a la except Catholic

(46:08):
there for a long time. So that's the crack I mean, personally, yeah,
I feel that. I just feel it sad that there's
so many people getting fucking divided over shit nowadays as well,
Like it seems like it's just everywhere you can't avoid it.
I remember when the first time I seen Andrew Tait

(46:31):
was on your Mom's House podcast, a long fucking time ago,
probably pre twenty twenty, i'd say, must have been like
it was probably even like twenty seventeen, twenty eighteen maybe,
And I used to watch like videos of his and
kind of laugh and I thought when I was watching them,
I thought he was in character, Like I thought he

(46:51):
was a skit, no joke, like one hundred percent honest
thought he was a skit. I remember watching the thinking like, oh, yeah,
this is this is funny out like people will get
this or whatever. But then no, it's not a skid.
And not only is it not a skip, but like
now he has lots of followers, right, And again it
comes down to people just want to listen to these

(47:12):
people and fucking get outraged, and like, I get it,
it's not easy to do anything. But at the same time,
I feel like all of these issues are blown mad
out of proportion, you know. And I think they're blown
out of proportion to the youth as well, to make
it seem a lot worse, because kids and teenagers and
stuff are a lot more like what idealistic, and they're

(47:39):
more malleable, and they are more prone to having like
a one track mind, right, And I think that, like,
for example, let's just pick a common topic, which would
be housing. Housing is hard to get, but it's not
fucking impossible to get it, isn't. I'm an example of that,

(48:00):
Like I didn't have a great deal of money, Like
I'm relatively low income. As a matter of fact, i'd
say I molsto the people listening to this pod even
are on a better income than I am. And myself
and my partner, we were able to save. We got
a gaff, you know. We put the head down. We
fucking didn't do much for a year and a half,
two years, put the head down and saved. We got
a house, you know. And is it as easy as

(48:23):
it was in the sixties or seventies? Is probably the eddies. No,
it's definitely still fucking double. And that's that's what I
would be telling kids these days. I wouldn't be telling kids, lads,
is all don and gloom. These are fucked and the
only way to change this is to fucking riot or
some shit. What I'd be telling them is, lads, this
is shit. The way that you work the system now

(48:45):
is you keep your fucking head down, and even now
at eighteen nineteen, make sure you're putting away even if
you're putting away fucking twenty thirty forty quid a week,
whatever it is put it away. Make sure you're putting
something away. If that's one thing I could impart on
the youth is like put a few bob away, save
a bit. You will need it. You'll be alibio gaff

(49:06):
if you do everything right and yeah, so like rather
than just constantly going this is a problem, this is
fucking outrageous. Let's get mad over this, Like why you
can't people just go like, all right, okay, Like let's
there's let's have sensible dialogue and let's look at trying
to improve this. And unfortunately there's not enough of that.

(49:27):
There's not enough like educated dialogue between parties, between different viewpoints.
There's that. I don't know if any views of seeing that.
The Enemies Project, I think it's called so on YouTube
is very good. He gets basically it's in the name,
but he gets people from rivaling viewpoints sitting opposite each

(49:49):
other and have a good dialogue. An example of be
the first one I think I had seen was he
had a acidic Jew and a Palestinian sitting opposite each
other and having like an hour of dialogue. And I've
seen another one where he had a trans female to
male sitting opposite like a trump Er Magama and it's

(50:17):
actually a really good watch. It's actually very good exercise,
and it's fairly impartial, like he tries to represent both
sides really well, and he does say like this is
why the MAGA person would feel threatened by this trans person,
or this is why you know she would feel this,
and he will advocate for their point on both sides.

(50:40):
And I think it's quite good actually because it gives
people a lot of like just mad man, Like I
don't know where it even comes from, where people can
have such fucking insane sort of viewpoints on the internet.
Like I watch some of these people and I'm like, man,
like what the fuck is going on? I think the
problem is as well, nowadays, a lot of influencers. I

(51:01):
suppose I'm kind of give her right now as I'm
talking to a mic, as I'm someone that doesn't know
a lot about politics, well I know my bit, but
like I'm talking to people too, but like a lot
of these podcasts are just like not qualified in any
waysh epe or form to be getting into the deep
waters that they're in. And the one that springs still
my mind when I'm thinking about it is the H

(51:22):
three H three podcast and I'm just going, like I
watched a video and the eaton client felt like yesterday,
and I was like, Jesus, what is going on with him?
Like what the fuck? I just a love of Ethan,
Like you watch all this content, Like I said, there
was a point in time where I thought he was
the funniest motherfucker going. And like I watched the podcast

(51:46):
and what that's become and like what the talking points
are and stuff, and I'm just like wow, Like this
is a fucking huge departure from like any sort of creativity.
This is what happens when you give motherfucker's money for
talking into a microphone rather than actually trying to be creative.
That's the crack. So don't give me too much on Patreon, folks. Otherwise,

(52:09):
give me fucking five years and I'll be looking cracked out,
fucking shouting about Jews and Palestinians and trying to get
fucking people to docs people and fucking all crazy shit.
It's just mad shit. Like it's just crazy. I think
that's it. Like a lot of the influencers are just
gone fucking haywire or like I don't know what is
going on, but I do think to be a little

(52:30):
bit conspiratorial that if a content creator speaks more divisively
they will get more views. This isn't even conspiratorial, This
is fucking fact. But you can take it as conspiracy
if you like. If if a content creator speaks more
provocatively controversially, they will get more views, and in turn

(52:57):
they will get more money. They will be warded more
monetarily for that. So then what is the most logical
thing to do with I can't think creator, You're sitting
at home trying to make money for yourself, keep saying
fucking crazy shit, and then it's probably like a method
acting thing. You start believing your own crazy shit. You

(53:17):
start living that crazy shit lie, and you can't see
the trees from the forest anymore, the woods from the trees,
And then next thing you know, you're eating Klein who
just I don't know. It does not look well and
it's not acting well, and you're like, wow, what happened?
Like and I do wonder about that, like about the

(53:41):
I wonder about the algorithms. I wonder about where like
why are people like I wonder what the profiles are
for the algorithm on how they distribute content to people,
And how is that determined? Is there anything to it?
Is it automated to people? Like is their agendas? And

(54:07):
and for like lame in terms I'm talking about you
watch a fucking gardening video and now your whole feet
is gardening. Right then you start to clicking certain ones
and funnels a certain way, and you know that's your
whole thing. Like I wonder about that when you when
you watch political content, how how does the algorithm decide

(54:31):
what to show you? Is it a simple thing or
is it a complex thing? And then yet, like there's
a lot of power in that, Like there's a lot
of power. People don't realize that, Like a lot of
people like what they're told to like, And that is
an unfortunate truth about humanity in general. Is a lot

(54:52):
of stuff you don't have agency over and it's already
selected for you and put on a play in front
of you, and you will consume and you will like it.
And that's just the way it is. That is the crack.
I'm guilty of it. Everyone's guilty of it. It happens,
and that's someone cherry picking something for you and going,
we know that you'll like that. But how deep does

(55:14):
that rabbit hole go. How far down does that go? Like,
what's the methodology in it and what's behind it. It's
interesting to think about right just where it goes. That's
why I try not to consume any of that shit,
any of them talking to head. Motherfucker's like anyone that's
sitting in front of a fucking YouTube video, sitting in

(55:35):
front of a screen talking about like you should be
outraged about this or this is going on and it
is a terrible it's like, No, I'd rather at least
try and get my news from a like semi neutral spot.
I make my own mind up. I don't mind even
reading it from a newspaper, even if the newspaper might
be based like you find that even that is better then,

(55:58):
because I think people can be quite cool like, and
especially if you like a personality, they can be very
coercive like and you become a brand, you know what
I mean. People will just consume what you say without question,
you know, So you have to be fucking wary of
that shit. Like you know, my interrsells out there. It's
it's a crazy time, but I understand that. I understand

(56:22):
why people are fucking annoyed, like it makes sense, but
I do despair. A little bit. Part of me, if
I'm being entirely truthful, just wants to fuck off out
into the country, buy a plant of land and not
listen to anyone and not deal with anything, and that's it.
Part of me wants to go the fucking Snodonia, live

(56:44):
in the woods and just like go, you know what,
have at it. I don't care. But then there is
a part of me that is interested in politics, is
interested in discussion and the way things are going and
at least observing and talking about it. But it can
depress you election, you know what I mean, because a
lot of it is out of your hands at the

(57:05):
end of the day. So that's the other side of
a lot of it is out of your hands, so
you just kind of I don't know. Personally, For me,
I try and focus on the things in front of me,
little fun things to do and go from there, like
sitting down playing some guitar or sitting down playing a
video game. Maybe I'll go in the garden, do me

(57:26):
a bit out there, try and keep it small, keep
it close, and that's about it. Yeah, I think I'll
leave it there. Fox the Charlie Kark fella. I didn't
really agree with the shitt he was selling, but I'll
say rest in peace. I don't think anyone deserves to
be assassinated. Well, do I think people deserve to be assassinated?

(57:53):
I don't know. That's probably for a whole different episode.
But if you got this far, thanks for much for
hanging out and chatting. I know this type of stuff
in particular can be divisive. Like we've met, We've had
fucking people, dickhead shit bags called right in before like
why are you're talking about pologues? Like you should shut

(58:15):
up about that, you're not qualified, and as like shut
the fuck up, Like if I can fucking vote, I
can talk about politics, dick. But yeah, it's just it's
been on my mind, do you know what I mean?
Like all this stuff has been on my mind and
trying to articulate that's kind of hard on your own
as well, to not have someone to bounce off to
kind of chat about it in a sort of a

(58:38):
fully kind of not comprehensive, but a full sort of way.
But yeah, I mean, look, it's a I wouldn't like
to be. The way I think about all this stuff
is like I look at like said the big Tommy
Robinson fucking thing there. And then I wonder how, like
the average Indian nurse fields working for the NHS, for example,

(59:03):
when she sees that going on, I wonder, does that
create like does she feel a certain type of way
about that or is she coll with it? I do
wonder because because I think I do think you can
have an anti immigration protest and not be racist. But likewise,

(59:26):
I do think they can have that the immigration process
protest and be very racist also. So I'm curious. I'm curious,
But we'll leave it there, folks. Hope you enjoyed it. Okay,
So this is the last one of me on the
Feed for a while. I might be back. I might
be back on the fucking feed. I might come back
my surprises, But for nowadays, I am moving to Patreon.

(59:51):
If you want to hang out, chat be a part
of these episodes, head on over to Patreon, because what
you can do is I'll make a tram post before
I record, and I'll ask much of the same as
I'm doing on Instagram if he's got anything he would
like me to talk about this week, and we will
have a chat. It can be as broad or as

(01:00:12):
narrow as you like. He's has done a good job
of the questions for the most part. For the most
part is too imagine he's a been all rightly. But yeah,
we'll leave it there, folks. Look, thanks very much. I
was a bit when im and went away. I was like,
oh fuck, I'll try and sort out fucking things to
be grand. That passed and and I was like, okay,

(01:00:34):
I'm not going to sort out guests because I just
my head is too wrecked to try and sort out people.
I had tom Aman who lined up, I was I
had the best intentions to give him a shout and
stuff like that, but my head was wrecked. My head
was melted, and I just said, I'll just sit down,
I'll do these when I can, and I'll pump them out.
So yeah, thanks for sticking with me, folks. It's been great.
It's nice to know that us listen to me just

(01:00:55):
shining on sitting here in a chair. You know, it's good. So, yeah,
I've been robbed. This has been monster fuzz. So he's
on Thursday over and o