Carol Cooper, author of "Knock, Knock, It's Me, Mom"

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with Karen Noe, Nuts and LiverRadio dot Com. Hello everyone, Welcome
to the Angel Quest Show. I'mKaren Knowwie, author of Your Life After
Their Death Through the Eyes of AnotherWeak Consciousness and the Angel Quest Oracle Deck.
My guest today is Carol Cooper,author of Knock Knock, It's Me

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Mom, The Awakening of My Spiritualityafter Losing an only child and My Broken
Heart Lives On Without You. Carollost her only child to a deadly overdose
of ventnel heroine. Her mission nowis to try to save as many lives
as she can to her nonprofit foundation, A Life for Brian, which is
a platform to educate people of thedangers of street drugs. Welcome Carol,

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Thank you so much for being withus today. Thank you, Karen.
It's a true pleasure to be onwith you. And just let me tell
you, you have been such aninspiration to me on my journey and I
really appreciate everything that you've done meup to this point. It's really helped
me along my journey. So thankyou, oh, thank you. It's

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truly my pleasure. And we'll talka little bit about how we met in
and so forth during the show.Okay, before we start, can you
tell us a little bit about yourson, Brian and how it passed.
Sure, So, Brian was myonly child, as my book reflects,
and he was a good child.He did suffer us from separation anxiety disorder,

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which kind of bonded us very earlyon, but not to the point
where it was normal, like Icouldn't leave the house. I mean,
he had a lot of issues growingup, but I basically raised him on
my own and we had a veryclose connection. And eventually Brian did go

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on to college to get his degreein finance, and during college he you
know, started to develop tendencies ofdrinking and whatnot. But his passing basically
was sudden, very surprising to me, and I'll talk about that more later

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on. But he did because ofhis severe anxiety that he suffered. He
was given something to help him sleep, and unknowingly, he just snorted up
his nose and he died instantly onthe bathroom floor. And that was very
very add situation. And I'm bigawakening for me. Oh my gosh,

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you know, I know your story, and I'm sure a lot of our
listeners know someone that this has happenedto you. We were talking before the
show and you told me you starteda group and you already have how many
members? So I started about thereal less than a month ago and I've
now reached I think it's two thousand, six hundred members, which a lot

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of them are people that lost theirchildren at the end of two thousand and
twenty two and even some into thismonth. So it seems like the trend
is moving upwards rather than backwards,which just you know, leads me to
believe that betanol is out of control. It's in everything. Um, it's
there's different variations of betanol, whichis not resistant to north it's non resistant

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to nor can So um yeah,that just told me right a way that
this group not only was it needed, but it was shocking to me to
see so many new members joining ona daily basis so quickly. How did
you get people to join so quickly? Honestly, I started it because I
needed a place where people can gowhere they felt safe. A lot of

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the groups right now on Facebook thatyou know pretty much focus on people who
lost the drugs. There's a lotof animosity, there's a lot of bashing,
and I didn't want that in mygroup, so I made a private
group where people could just basically sharetheir children. And I guess it must
be worth to mouth because every morningwhen I go on and it shows,

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you know, I have to approverequests, there's at least ten to twenty
people in the morning, and thenit's continuous throughout the day. So you
know, I can only assume thatit's where the mouth people are saying,
you know, I'm in a groupand you should join it. And it's
been nothing but positive vity and healingand just a wonderful thing. And I'm
glad that I started it. Sohow can people join that if they would

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wish to join? So all youhave to do is go to Facebook and
you know, just search for mAngels of Fentanyl and it will come up
and just click join and I willautomatic you, don't you know. There's
three basic questions and I'm happy to, you know, approve everybody's request.
There's nobody that's not welcome in thisgroup, even if you haven't personally lost

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somebody defent anyl but you are.You know, it doesn't have to be
just Fent and Al. It's agroup of gree grieving people and we just
all come together and support each other. So I'm happy to have anybody join
that wants to. That's beautiful.Thank you so much for starting that.
I know it's needed, it reallyis. So um Okay, after Brian

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passed, what things did you doto help you through the grieving process?
That's a great question, m Soyou know, everybody greaves differently, and
when Brian passed, the only thingthat came to mind was that I didn't
want to be here anymore. Ijust could not see my life without him

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because at the bond we had.And the other reason, basically is because
I didn't have any belief in theafterlife. I was raised in a family
that did not believe in that,and so when Brian passed, I had
no hope of anything except where Ithought he was. And basically, I
think that's what saved my life,because if I would have known that by

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taking my life, I would havebeen with him. I probably would have
that night. So I've learned thatthat was not in my path of what
I'm supposed to be doing. Butyou know, how did I get through
it? Well? For me,I found myself reading a lot. I
could not watch television. That wasa definite no no for me, and

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nothing interested me. I didn't havebasically any interest in anything, but I
felt like I needed to know wherehe was or what happened. So I
submersed myself in books, any bookI could find. I was at the
library three times a week. Iread every book on the afterlight, every
book on breathe, every book onlosing a child. Then I went to

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the internet. I watched every Iwent to YouTube, I watched afterlight videos,
I watched people who lost children.This is how I spent every single
day for the first six months.That's all I did was read and watch
videos. Read and watch videos.And I found myself starting to feel a

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little better knowing that I wasn't alone, that there was other people going through
the same thing that I was goingthrough. Because when it first happens,
you think you're going crazy, youthink you lost your mind, you think
how am I still here? Andso it was basically a learning process for
me of trying to figure out whathappened and what I'm supposed to do,

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And you know, I also surroundedmyself with very positive people. Anybody that
I felt didn't understand what I wasgoing through, or any judgmental people,
I kind of put them to theside, and I found myself trying to
connect with other people that had similarissues. In fact, one week after
Brian passed, I went to asupport group and there was other people there

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that lost their children. They couldn'tbelieve that I was there after one week,
and you know, it was helpful, but I found that it wasn't
something that was good for me becausethe thing that bothered me was basically a
lot of people there had lost childrenten years ago, and they acted as
it could happen ten minutes ago.And that scared me because I didn't want

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to see myself at that point tenyears from now. So you know,
I'm glad I went. I'm gladI experienced it, but I didn't continue
with that. I just basically wentback to the books, went back to
connecting with people. I went onFacebook. I joined as many groups as
I can of people that lost children. I was reading other people's posts,

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I was responding, they were responding. I was starting to build a people
on my Facebook page that we're askingto be my friend. And so I
started to make connections with other peoplethat had similar situations where I felt more
comfortable. That's beautiful, you knowwhat. I found a lot of people

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who come to see me. Theyalso say they've been to support groups,
which are great. They are greatones. There are parents helping parents heal.
I believe that's a good one.Yes, they talk about the afterlife.
They don't just talk about the death, which you need to grieve,
you need to get over all ofthat, but you also need to talk
about what goes on and the thingsthat both of us know right now.

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And can you tell us how youstarted having these experiences and so forth with
so again, like I said,being one hundred percent non believer, not
even a ten percent one hundred percent, what happened was and this was very
strange. So after Brian passed,you know, I was a mess.

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I was a total mess. Andso I was, you know, basically,
I knew I had to find thecounselor. I figured, let me
try that. The group didn't workfor me, let me try one on
one. So I went to thewebsite, which is where I go for
everything, and I googled Greek counselors. At the time, I was living
in Chatham, and so when yougo on to them. When you go

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on, it'll give you a breakdownby towns or cities, and it would
start with Aberdeen and go all theway down to z And I said,
okay, let me find Chatham becausethat's where I lived. So I scrolled
down, and all of a sudden, when I came to Chatham, they're
all in capital letters, but noother cities were capitalized, just that one.

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And I said, well, that'sstrange. Why is that capitalized?
So I went out to get myboyfriend. I said, well, it's
capitalized, because so what does thatmean. I said, well, I
don't know, because I didn't evenknow what a sign meant at that point.
I said, what do you thinkthat means? He goes, I
have no idea. He said,maybe that means you should go to chap
So I, you know, Iwrote down the number and I called him

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make an appointment. And the nextday someone said you should take a picture
of that. Maybe it's a signfrom Brian. I said a sign.
I said, okay, So Iwent said that. He said it might
be a sign. I love it. Okay, so I went back,
and when I went back, itwas now it was in small letters again,
it wasn't capitalized anymore. It wasonly when I was looking for a
counselor that the words were capitalized.Right. Oh. I sat down and

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I said, what can that mean? I don't understand what was that?
And so all of a sudden Istarted to question myself, is there something
out there? Is he somewhere?Is there life after death? You know?
So that with all the things Iwas watching, and I watched,
you know, people that had neardeath experiences, and they, I mean,

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they were credible, they weren't youknow, they were doctors, they
were you know, even Alexander wassomebody that made a big impression on me,
the one that you know, hadthat issue and went to heaven.
And he was one that didn't believein very analytical mind and tried to do
all these hypotheses to figure out whathappened, and he couldn't. So I
started to think back about everything Iread, and all of a sudden I

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started to connect the dots, whichis what everyone says, connect the dots.
And you know, that was thefirst thing that got my mind open
a little bit. And from therebecause I knew that I had to start
looking maybe outside the box. That'swhen I started to get more and more
and more, and they got betterand better and better. And I think

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that was the start of my spiritualjourney, as as I call in my
book the awakening of my spirituality.The reason I say knock Knock, it's
me Mom, it's like Brian wasknocking on my head. Knock knock,
mom. I'm here, way up, listen, look, And that was
basically what started me. Yes,and again, your book is called Knock

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Knock It's Me Mom, The Awakeningof my spirituality after losing an only child.
Yes, and so how did weaveme? I'd love for everybody to
oh story. So this is veryunbelievable. Um. Brian's father remarried after

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me, and he had another twotwo children with his second wife. He
lost his daughter from his second wife, and she reached out. She came
to the funeral for Brian, andthen she quote me on the phone and
she said, you need to callthis woman Karen Knowey, because that's what's

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going to get you through your life. I promise you. I know right
now you're in a really bad place, but you need to call her because
she's who got me through my life. And I said, I just don't
know what to do. So shegave me your number and I called and
you never pick up the phone.You said, I mean, usually an
appointment. You're always an appointment.You're always busy, You're always doing something.

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But I just happened to call atthe very moment that you were sitting
there, and you picked up thephone and right and I was hysterically crying,
and you were so kind, andyou said, you know, you
explained to me, you know,certain things that were bothering me, and
you just I don't know, therewas something that gave me hope when I
spoke with you, and it wasalmost like my heart was starting to heal,

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and you were so kind to giveme an appointment. I did have
to wait, but it was worthevery minute that I had to wait,
because when I finally came to seeyou, Brian was such a strong energy,
and you know, you told methings that just I'm telling you.
Every time I get into a badspace, I just think about our meetings

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together and it gets me through becauseI've never met anybody like you ever,
and I say it all the time. I really say it all the time.
Who are the only one that's likea phone call to my son?
You really are. I mean,you changed my life in a way you'll
never know if you want to sharesome of that's private messages, but if

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you would like to share some ofthe message, and so people understand it's
not just oh, your son ishere and it loves you very much,
right, Okay. I tell thisstory a lot, and in fact,
you're in my book and I sharea lot of our conversation. A lot
of our readings are in my book. So I encourage people if you do
get my book, you will havea whole chapter on Cameronoi and all the

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things that she did during our Ihave no problem sharing because they're that magical.
But there's one in particular that standsout a lot because I probably am
the biggest skeptic out there, andI'm always thinking, oh, I'm an
open book on Facebook. Everybody knowsmy life story because of my foundation.

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So whenever I went to see you, there was there was one time in
particular you said to me, waita minute, I don't know what your
son is trying to say, butI'm going to write it down, and
you wrote b r I A L. You said, b r bal Brial
breal b r e L And yousaid, I have no idea what that

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could mean. And I said,oh my god, I almost passed out
when you said that, because myfather, when Brian was young, would
call him real. It was amade up name that I didn't even remember.
And where in the world you wouldpossibly hear that other than from my
son. I mean, he saidsomething that totally I would never ever ever

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have believed that you know, youwould pick up on because it's not a
name, I mean, it's real, it's a made up right. It
stands out so much, and itwas, oh my god. There was
so many other things I remember whenBrian passed away. Oh here's a good
one. I'll say two more thatstands out really well. When I was

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on the way to see you,I said, Brian, you have to
say the Mohammed Ali boxing clubs andthen I'll believe. And then I know
that's asking a lot, but youcould do it. I know you have
a big connection with Karen, soplease, you gotta do it. I
waited a whole year for this.Gets give me that, and as soon
as I came in, you saidMohammed Ali. And that was like the

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second and third thing. You said, what is Mohammed Ali? Oh my
god, I mean that was That'swhat I'm trying to say about you.
I mean, things that come outwith you is just more than I could
possibly believe. And the other onewas when I was on my way to
see you, I got lost andand so I ended up going into a

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driveway and a police went behind mebecause I made it. I didn't put
my directional on, and I said, oh my god, you have to
let me go. I'm late formy reading. I have to make a
connection with my son. And he'slike, excuse me, and I said,
start up a reading with somebody,and I need to connect with my
son, who passed away. Andhe looked at me and he said,
okay, you could go. Justyour directional next time. And as soon

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as I walked in and said calmdown, calm down, and I didn't
say one word, And you said, Brian's laughing and wants to know why
you told the policeman that you're goingfor a reading. Oh jeez, you
know. So, I mean,but this is the thing, the most
important thing. I'm so glad thatI was able to really connect with you.
And this is what I do.I'm able to find tune, you

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know, my thoughts so that Icould pick up on this they come to
us telepathically, and that's what Italk about all the time. I love
doing this for you, but themost important thing is for people to learn
how to do it for themselves.So it's not just that once a year
action with your son. It's it'syou know, throughout the day, throughout
the night, you would ask forsigns as something to come to you in

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a dream and wake you up afterthe dream so that you remember it and
then be patient and wait and itcomes when you least expect it. We're
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Radio dot com. Okay, now, welcome back to the Angel Quest Show.

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I have Carol Cooper with me,author of Knock Knock. It's me
Mom, and we're discussing her signswith her wonderful son Brian, who passed
from an overdosea at that mal heroine, and how all the good that she's
doing in the world after his passing. We were talking about signs and coming
to us in dreams and so forth. So I would love to tell the

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listeners, even if it's just verybriefly, to make sure to tell your
loved ones to give you a sign. And when I say signed, it's
something that normally wouldn't happen. Youknow, it's not just any bird in
a tree. It would be thebird that's knocking on your window and keeps
pecking at it, or something likethat. Or if a car cuts you
off and the license plate is yourloved one's name, or if you're in

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the middle of nowhere and you smelltheir smell song comes up on the perfect
time when you need to hear it. Things like that. I would also
say to ask your loved one tocome to you in a dream and to
wake you up after the dreams sothat you remember it, and to be
patient and wait. And this willhappen when you least expect it. So
they're trying to connect with you asmuch as you're trying to connect with them.

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And Carol, have you received anysigns from Brian or any dreams and
so forth? Yes, I have. You know, now that it's been
five six years that Brian has passed, I've you know, learned so much
as to asking for signs and askingfor him to come in my dreams.
And just last week, you know, I was in my car and you're
talking about license plate and I wasjust really sad. I mean, sometimes

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you know. It's just it's likea wave. You never know when it's
going to hit you. I justfelt really sad missing him, and I
said, Brian, I missed youso much that I'm crying. And it
was a sad song on the radio. And all of a sudden a car
cut me off, just like youjust were saying. And the license plate
said, I'm okay. Oh mygosh, and I took a picture down
and I took a picture. Iput it's on my Facebook page. I

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got I think four hundred responses likewow, you know that. You know
that was like a really a momentfor me, you know, And this
is how he does it for me, and with the dream, like my
son is so creative with his signs. That's another reason why I wrote a
book, because when you say likea bird or a penny, yes,
I find pennies all the time.I find dimes really strange ways and strange

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places. But he goes like reallyout of this way to make things very
creative. And I did ask himto come in my dream because he hasn't
and it didn't happen the next night, but it did happen, and when
it did, we were at aplace where we always loved to go,
next to the casino. We'd loveto go to Atlantic City casino and play

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the slot machines. And it wasvery quick dream, just us together in
the casino of what I remember somuch that we love to do, and
the way that he woke me upis off. So I have on my
phone, I have an app whereI play slot machines for fun. It's
not gambling, it's just for fun. And all of a sudden the app

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went on. It turned on andit was playing like a slot machine music
like ju ching ju ching, AndI woke up and it was like because
we were in the casino and thenthis played it was it just oh my
god, and then yeah, isincredible the fact that you have to wake
up after the dream so that youremember. So he made sure that you

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woke up and with a sign thatyou know was him, without a doubt,
So absolutely with doubt, a doubt, without a doubt. And I
just want to tell everybody it's more. It's important to know the difference between
a true visitation and a dream fromyour subconscious, you know, like that
was without a doubt, Brian,no question about it. There are some
people who have dreams of their lovedones and it's scary how they died,
they're in a casket, or they'remad at them. That's not them for

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you know, that's you trying toresolve the issues with it, to see
the difference. Look at Carol's dreamwas how could you even question that?
That's without a doubt he even wokeup, what woke her up? So
that's incredible. So thank you forthat was a beautiful dream and one that
I'll never forget. And I agreewith you because I've had some dreams that
were very scary, you know,and I know that it was my own

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subconscious you know. Of course that'swhat happens when you lose somebody. You
know, you're sad and you're scared, and but then when they do come
to visit you, it's always somethingyou'll remember like it just happened, and
it's always probably gives you boost bumpsand chills, and a lot of times
they'll hug you when you'll actually feelthem and smell them, and you know

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that's the best. Have you feltthat? Have you felt him when you
I did have one dream where wejust hugged and it was so nice and
so it was like he was rightthere with me. It was just something
that he needed to do. Heneeded it was quick. His dreams are
always boom boom boom, right,But I just know that he's there.
So that's great, exactly. So, Carol, what made you write your

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book? I know there are anumber of things, but what really made
you say I'm going to write thisbook? Okay, so I'm not a
writer. I've always been you know, I've always been good with writing and
expressing myself and you know that hasbeen my strong point. But I never
thought that I was going to everwrite a book, because that, to
me is too like, oh mygoodness. But what happened was, you

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know, because I'm a big advocatefor drugs and awareness and teaching people and
getting the word out there, I'malways asked to those different places to speak,
and when I do, I alwaysbring my phone with me and I
share some of the signs that hesent to me, because I know there's
a lot of people out there thathave doubts and you know, this made

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them feel really good when I sharedsome of the really good signs that I
got, And people would always comeup to me afterwards and say, oh,
my god, you should write abook. I mean that really helped
me. You have no idea howthat helped me to see that. But
you know, did you ever considerwriting a book? I said no,
no, no, no, nono. I could never write a book.
And so but it was always inthe back of my mind. And

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one day I sat down and Ihad a notebook, and I just it
was like he was he was inmy head, Brian. It was going,
man, you could do this.I'll help you mom. And I
was hearing these voices. I thoughtI was crazy, and I just picked
up a pen and I taring.I started writing and writing and I couldn't
stop. I finished this book inthree months. It hit number one.

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It was number one bestseller for abouta month and a half. And it
just I was obsessed. I meanI was up sometimes the four o'clock in
the morning because I'd be laying inbed and all of a sudden this would
come to me that I had aright and I go back on it and
right right right, right, rightright. And I never used a publisher.
I did everything by myself. Iself corrected by myself, I published

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by myself. And I still saythat he was my partner, and he
gave me the words, a lotof the words that I didn't even remember,
absolutely absolutely, and it went wasdoing so well. I even had
people coming writing to me saying theyread your book and they saw my know
your story in so that, Yeah, your book is helping a lot of

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people. Thank you, Oh,thank you. It's such a pleasure to
ship. You know what I alwayssay, you can't stop talking about your
loved ones, because that's how youkeep them alive. You keep them in
the heart, in your heart,and you talk about them. And the
more I talk about Brian, andthe more recognition I get, and the
more people I help, the morevalidity I get to why I'm still here

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because I question that a lot oftimes, like why you know he was
so young? Why am I hereand he's not? And this is why,
because he's helping me now in away that he could never do it
when he was here because he hadtoo many problems. But now he's free
from all that. He's soul isfree, he's happy, and he's able
to help me. And how manylives I've saved. I mean, I

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could never have done that if Iwould have given up, and everybody knows
Brian. Everywhere I go, oh, aren't you a life for Brian?
You know, and people call forhelp, you know, because I get
people into Silver Living Home. Stillon a daily basis, I get phone
full and people cry and they say, you know your son, it's with
you, right, you know thatyour son is helping you to do this,

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and you just saved my life.And now I'll started cry. And
you know how many lives I saybecause of him, So you know it's
true. Yes, absolutely, Sothank you for all that you're doing for
so many people. And thank you, Brian for helping us from beyond.
And I know you and I youdon't feel you don't hear the buzzing now

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so much sound, but throughout thiswhole thing, I hear like a high
pitch. And I know that tohim because you said you can't hear it
right So you don't hear that rightnow properly offering right over you right now,
you know, I say. That'sone of the signs that give us
is they speak to us telepathically,okay, they speak to us as thoughts,

(31:48):
and they when they speak to us, it comes in a higher pitch
because it's a higher frequency. Sohe's saying, don't forget me. What
we can't forget him, you know, and he wants you don't know he's
here with us. Oh boy,can you share this? Maybe one story?
That's it? You have in yourbook knock knack It's name on Yes,
So would you like me to sharea sign or I'm anything anything you'd

(32:13):
like to share? So okay,just give me two seconds. I mean,
I can't show a picture. ButI think for me, the biggest
sign for me, I think whatreally started my awakening. It was the
Chatham thing was good for me,but you know, I think what really

(32:34):
got me on the journey and thesign that I share with a lot of
people that they really I think thisis what they told me to put in
my book and write a book,was that I was on the phone with
somebody who told me that they wantedto get together for lunch and I said,
okay, well, you know it'snot the time right now, but
when I'm feeling better, I definitelywill. And this was through texting.

(32:55):
So after we got done, nextthing, she said, well take care
and stay in touch. And Iwent to write yes I will, and
there was words written in the textbox and I'm like, wait a minute,
and then I'm trying to read it, and it said, why you
know eat your food? You wantmommy to get your chicken? And I
said to her because I didn't understandwhat that was, and she called me

(33:20):
on you take that or nobody typedit. It was just there. I
mean, it just appeared from nowhere. It was a blank spot, and
I went to write. I came, you know, I'll talk to you
soon, and it was these words. So I sent it to her because
I thought I was hallucinating. Shecalled me on the phone. She said,
what what does that mean? Whyyou knowing your food? You want

(33:40):
mommy to get your chicken. Now, when Brian was young, he would
eat nothing but chicken fingers, evenup till the time he was in college.
I would bring them chicken tenders fromchippy gardens. So it was written
as a child would talk, whyyou no eat your food? You want
mommy to get your chicken? Karen. That was my awakening right then and
there. I said, Okay,Brian, I believe, I believe,

(34:05):
I believe, And yeah, Imean and that story when I when I
share it, first of all,did what it did with you? People
laugh and that's what they need.They need to laugh and they say,
oh my god, that's the bestthing I ever heard, you know.
And then they come up and Ishowed them the screenshot of where it was
written. Yeah, they say,write a book, Write a book.

(34:25):
So I mean, that's just oneout of so many. Another one I
have to just say real quick isagain I say, I played video games
on the computer and there was atournament coming up, and I said,
oh, I'm going to enter thistournament. So I was playing against five
people. To the left of mewas Brian. He was playing. He

(34:46):
was right there, Brian Urson,and there was his picture next to mine.
Oh my gosh, that's what I'msaying, Oh my gosh. And
he was number twenty three, whichis birthday, and I was number twenty
two, which was my lucky number. And of course I got a screens
out of that, and that's inmy book. So I mean, so

(35:07):
you'll also have pictures in your book, absolutely in color. Everything it was
in color, and all the allthe signs I captured. And like I
said, he was so creative,and you know the way that he did
things, leaving dimes everywhere, butin ways that nobody would really get dimes
that way. Like when I hada tricky trade from my foundation. We

(35:30):
had a set of knives in apicnic basket and my friend said, take
the plastic covering off the knives becausethey looked dirty, but they're brand new.
So I pulled them off and shegoes, you missed one. I
said, oh, okay, SoI went to pull it off and all
the way up on the top ofthe plastic stuck in there was a dime.
Oh my god. Yeah. Sohe's very, very creative. You

(35:52):
have to say that. It's justand he was like that. And when
he was here, he was verypersistent, you know, like when he
wanted something, he would not stopuntil he got it. You know,
he would just keep going and going, and you know he you know,
he had that kind of personality whereit was annoying sometimes like alright, already,

(36:14):
I get it. And that's howhe is now. That's why knock
knock, mom, wake up,I'm here, stop listen, And that's
you know, that's what My bookbasically is my life before Brian, my
life with Brian, and my lifeafter Brian, and then I fall here.
Don't say after because my life ina different way, correct, right,

(36:37):
And we have a story, butwe really can't share it on the
air. But it was pretty funnyand very private. Yes it was.
I was I'm talking about you'll neverget that right, never know that.
I wish they could share it,but we can't. I know, you
know what I'm talking I know exactlywhat you're talking about. And we laughed
so hard. But that's what Imean, you know, like that's a

(37:00):
you know, I'm glad we're talkingabout laughing because I remember. And this
is very common with people who losesomeone. They don't want to laugh because
they feel they shouldn't because it's notfair to laugh when you can't laugh with
your loved one. But you know, and you don't be the first one
to say that when we laugh,they're happy. I mean that, I'm
really happy to see us laugh.They don't want to see us cry,

(37:22):
even though do but I think laughingreally helps them a lot. And so
I've learned now to laugh and talkabout happy times where I'm absolutely more absolutely
when they come through meant most ofthe time, they always say, think
of me how I live, nothow I died, and they want you
to be happy again. They don'twant you to be. Of course,

(37:45):
it's easy to say don't grieve,because you have to grieve with your own
pace. Everybody is different, butthey would they want you to move on,
They want you to be happy andso forth, and that strengthen them
caring when you're half you know,not help feel them as well or make
them, you know, their vibrations. What. I don't know how you

(38:06):
would you know, say that,but I've heard that it really helps them
to see when we're getting along andyou know, doing things, positive things
and their memory or yeah, Ioften the appointments that I'm even yesterday I
had a young boy passed away andhis family was here and he was trying
to make them laugh. And ofcourse they're grieving, but to show you

(38:29):
that, that's what they're trying todo. They don't want they don't they
they know that you're grieving, andit's it's easier said than done to say
stop. But at your own time, when you decide to do so,
and you decide to have fun again, you know, and laugh and enjoy
life, that's all they want.That's that's truly all they want. Now
you have another book out called MyBroken Heart lives On Without You, Yes,

(38:52):
write that one. So um Honestly, after this first book, this
was really difficult for me to do. First of all, it was hard
to relive a lot of things whichI had to do, of course,
But I felt very good about myselfafter I wrote this, and I felt
I helped a lot of people.But what happened was as soon as my
book was finished, and I gotsuch an outpouring of love and you know,

(39:15):
people emailing me and even calling meon the phone to thank me for
doing this. They said, canI share my story? And I said,
of course, I'd love to hearit. So I would get emails
and I would get phone calls,and then I got people who had near
death experiences and they were talking aboutthings that I can't even imagine could happen.

(39:36):
It was so healing to my heart. And I said, you know,
as to my boyfriend, I said, I think I have to write
another book, and he said really, And I said, but it's not
really going to be my book thistime. It's going to be other people's
stories. And that's where my brokenheart lives on without You. It's incredible
stories of hope and unconditional love fromour loved ones in heaven. So it
was people that had experiences with theirpets. Was a chapter on dreams.

(40:00):
It was a chapter on knowing somebodywas going to lead before they actually left,
like a premonition that we get thatthey knew that it was coming.
It was near death experiences, itwas life changing encounters. It was hospice
stories, people in hospice that couldn'tmove their arms and went right before they're

(40:20):
dying, they lift their arms upto the air. I mean, all
kinds of stories. And every timeI would get chills. That was a
validation from Brian to say that onegoes in your book, Mom. And
then also there was a chapter onsigns that other people got, and so
I just felt I wanted to shareother people's stories because they were too good

(40:43):
not to. And you know,this is definitely my last book, but
it kind of went hand in handwith my story and then other people's stories,
and you know, and it wasvery healing for me because I got
to hear all these stories and itjust gave me more validation there is life
after death. You know. Itwas just too good, these stories and

(41:04):
they were so filled with love.And then the parents you know, people
reached out to thank me for includingthem, saying that that gave them feeling
and they were so honored that Ishared their stories. That's so wonderful.
We're going to take a quick break, but when we come back, if
you could share one of the storiesin that boat that you'd like our listeners

(41:25):
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(42:24):
We're with Carol Cooper today, authorof Knock Knockets Me Mom and also
My Broken Heart Lives On Without YouAnd Carol, can you share maybe one
story that really I don't know thathas an impact on you and will help
our listeners. Um sure, solet's see Um okay. I don't want

(42:49):
to keep sharing stories of um signs, because you know, I've talked a
lot about that. But there wasone story that came to mind about a
woman who's little girl, unfortunately hada near death experience in the pool.
She actually drowned and they did bringher back to life, and she came

(43:14):
to her mom and she talked alot about meeting Jesus and she explained heaven
and the afterlife. And now shehas become an advocate. This little girl
who was just a little I thinkshe was no more than seven or eight
years old. She's now an advocateand teaches safe swimming and you know what
happens when you drown, and Imean she's all over the internet. She's

(43:37):
really something else. And her momshared her story with me in the book
and pictures of her little girl.It was very healing for me to see
something like that, because you know, out of the mouths of babes,
we always say. There was alsoanother story. I love the ones with
children because they're so innocent at thatage and they they're so open to receive

(44:00):
things. There was another one whoselittle girl came to her house. It
was her daughter's friends and she came, I believe, for a piano lesson.
And while she was there, shewrote a poem and it was about
her daughter, who she never knew, really, and it was just a

(44:20):
beautiful thing that was written as ifit was written from her daughter. And
you know, it's hard for meto remember that one. I really should
probably talk about a different one,but it was just the ones that deal
with children are for me very healing. But then there was another one,

(44:40):
Dave Kine, who lost his sonin a fire. It was very well
known this story. His son wasa musician, and again it was his
wife and him were in the carand they were feeling really horrible, and
the wife kept saying, was hein pain? Do you think that he
knew what was going on? Andthey too got cut off by another car
and the license plate said no painat all. Yeah. And he also

(45:07):
wrote a book about his experience.And he did call me on the phone
when Brian had first passed and Iwas crying. I was a mess.
He said, why are you crying? I said, because I lost my
son. He said, no,you didn't. You didn't lose Brian,
he's right with you. You justhave to learn how to live in a
different way. Now, you haveto learn how to communicate with him.
He was so positive, you know, he was like, he said,

(45:30):
I'm not sad anymore. He said. My son is always with me.
We talk all the time. Hesaid, And someday you're going to get
to that point too, I promise. I mean so, I mean a
lot of people were brought to mefor different reasons. Brian brings people to
me that he wants me to havein my life. I have definitely believed
that now because it's just things happenthat should never happen, and people I

(45:54):
meet I should never meet, anddoors open from my foundation that should never
open. And so I know he'smy partner in life now and he's just
with me every step of the way. That's so beautiful. And now that
you mentioned it, can you tellus a little bit about your foundation.
It's called a life or Brian,Yes it is. And I started this.

(46:16):
It was only six months after Brianpath. I felt like, and
people say, how do you getthrough your life? And I say the
same thing. You have to finda purpose, You have to find whatever
it is you know, that makesyou feel good about your life. Now,
that's what I felt I needed todo. I felt I needed to
do something to help other people andkeep his name alive. So I started

(46:40):
a nonprofit foundation. I did everythingby myself, no attorneys. Again,
like I said, he was helpingme. We formed this foundation. I
do fundraising, I do tricky trays. I take all the money that I
you know, generate, and I'mon a website called got recovery dot org.

(47:01):
So it's g ot r eco vry dot org. Anybody could go
on and ask for assistance. Youjust fill out a short application. And
myself and about seven other nonprofit organizations, many of who are people like me
who lost the child, we alldo the same thing and we all come

(47:21):
together and we help people off thestreets, many who are homeless, into
sober living environments through through my nonprofit. And there's as well. And so
you know, again, like Iwas saying before, I get phone calls
from people that are really scared anddesperate and they need help. And that's
where my foundation is able to cometo the aid of these people and get

(47:45):
them off the streets and put themin a safe living environment so they help
want the bol Thank you for doingthat, it's so helpful. Again,
can you share that website one moretime that somebody didn't have a been sure?
So my website it is a Lifefor Brian dot org and the website
which you'll also be able to getall this information off, A Life for

(48:07):
Brian dot org is got recovery dotorg beautiful. And I also understand that
you are recognized for your ready SetGo comfort bears. Yes, tell it's
a little bit about that. Yes, So before Brian passed away, I
was a special education teacher and Itaught autistic children and I came up with

(48:30):
the idea to create a bear thatwould teach children positive self esteem and also
it was geared towards kids that werebullied and I called it my anti Bullying
Bear, And it was basically camewith a book about bears that didn't feel
good about themselves and they met awoman and she turned them into superheroes and

(48:52):
they had a pendant, a readySet Go that meant get ready to overcome
your fear, set your both high, and go out there and be the
best you could be. And Iused this tool in my school to help
these children with disabilities to feel goodabout themselves. And it was supposed to
be I was nominated for a Toyof the Year, and I was supposed

(49:14):
to be on Good Morning America intwo sixteen, and that's when Brian passed
and I was in Autistic magazines andit got a lot of recognition. Unfortunately,
when he passed, you know,I did create I did also start
this bear because of Brian. Youknow, as a child, Tom very
overweight and he was bullied, andso that was another reason why I did

(49:37):
this. But to get back tomy other bears. So I put them
in the closet and I forgot aboutthem, and there was like fifteen hundred
bears. And again in my headin my I hear a voice, Mom,
do something with the bears. Don'tjust leave them in the closet.
You could do something else, yea. So I sat down and I came
up with this idea to make acomfort bear, which wears a shirt that

(49:58):
says, when you feel like youcan't bear the pain, hugged this bear
and say my name. And ithas a diamond locket around the neck that
opens up and you put a pictureof your loved one in the locket.
Those bears have been all over theInternet. I donate them a lot to
different organizations. People gave them outas Christmas gifts. I get videos from
people of sharing their children opening thepresent and crying and hugging the bear.

(50:22):
I get adults saying they can't sleepunless they have their bear. And there's
all different kinds. There's you know, They're all on my website as well.
And also I have a place whereI sell inspirational products, my t
shirts that I have, my booksand my bears at a Life for Brian

(50:44):
dot Store, and I use thatmoney as well to help people into silver
living. So it all goes backto my cause. So wonderful again,
how do people get in touch withyou? So one more time? Your
websites and everything had to connect withyou. Youre so A Life for Brian

(51:05):
dot Org has a lot of informationand videos. I have YouTube videos where
I've done some inspirational talking along myjourney. Some go back to like a
year after Brian passing. You couldsee how I've made changes over the time
and how I was in that placeand now I'm in this place. Also
a Life for Brian dot store youcould see all my inspirational products. And

(51:29):
on Facebook you can go to Angelsof Fentonel where you can share your loved
ones picture and connect with like mindedpeople to build a family, because we're
all family and we're all there foreach other. And it's a really great
place to go if you're feeling likeyou're alone, because you're never alone.
I'm always here and I'm a greatresource. If you have any issues,

(51:52):
or you need help, or youjust need of friends, you can always
reach out to me. I'm veryreachable. Thank you, and do you
have any closing words for our listeners. My closing words is to never stop
talking about your loved one, neverbecause that's what keeps their memory alive,
that's keeps your legacy alive. Anddo something, whether it be just pick

(52:15):
up the phone and call somebody andsee how that person is doing. Just
as you want to be loved.There's so many other people out there that
two want to be loved. Ialways say, you know, do something
kind, do something positive. Youknow, if you feel like you can't
get out of bed in the morning, just put one foot down and the
other foot down and just pick upthe phone, or just go on Facebook

(52:38):
and answer a post you know,maybe somebody's having a bad day, just
send them a heart, send them, you know, XO XO. You
know, little Davy steps steps,but never give up hope because our loved
ones are always with us. Karenhas taught me to learn that. And
now I'm I'm not a hundred percent, but I'm ninety eight percent. I'm

(53:01):
ninety eight percent. I don't thinkI'll ever be a one hundred percent because
I think if I was one hundredpercent, maybe if I had a bad
moment, I might want to sothat two percent keeps me here because my
journey is not over. I stillhave work to do. And you know,
I just want Brian to be proud, that's all. And I hope
he is. And you know,again, like I say, just be

(53:23):
positive and you know, it willget better and you will learn to open
up your heart and look for signsbecause they're there. You just have to
look for them. And if youthink it's a sign, it is.
Yeah. Yeah, you are amazing, And I just wanted to thank you
for everything that you're doing for everybodyin the midst of your grief and so

(53:44):
forth. You're helping people. SoI just want to tell you this was
wonderfully. You're amazing and I loveyou and I love you too, Karen,
and keep up what you do becauseyou've saved so many lives to people
that you don't even know, peoplethat come to me and who know you
who. I've also been helped byyou, and you're a strong force,
and I'm very happy to have thehonor to know you've been Thank you those

(54:09):
both ways. Thank you again,and thank you for joining us today.
It's been amazing. Tune in againto next month's angel Quest podcast. While
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