EP441: PIVOT! The Anatomy of the Holy FCK Moment + What to do When You are Inside of IT!

You made the brave call. You announced it. You felt the surge. And then—silence. Your soul said yes, but your nervous system is screaming abort. This episode is for the messy middle: the hour, day, or week after the pivot when the old life is gone and the new one isn’t formed yet. I break down what’s actually happening in your body and identity, why it feels like panic, and how to walk yourself through it without backtracking, numbing out, or abandoning what you know is right.

What You’ll Learn in This Episode:

• The anatomy of the “holy-f*ck moment” after a big decision (physiology first, mindset second).
• Nervous system crash vs. true red flags—how to tell the difference.
• Identity disorientation: why even aligned pivots shake your sense of self.
• The void (between what was and what will be) and how to stand it without spiraling.
• The EDGE framework to move through fear: Excavation, Discernment, Grace, Embodiment.
• Enneagram centers as a cross-check for decisions (head/heart/gut).
• Practical regulation tools that bring your power back online.

Key Concepts & Takeaways:

1. It’s not failure—it’s physiology
   • Your soul makes the pivot; your body pays the bill first. Shakiness, scattered thoughts, nausea = wiring bracing for the unknown, not a bad decision.
2. Identity disorientation is normal
   • You left a role you mastered; ego hates unemployment. Panic ≠ misalignment.
3. Loss of control & visibility fear
   • “Do I look unhinged? Will they trust me?” Shame gets loud here—name it to diffuse it.
4. The void is preparation, not punishment
   • Spiritual wilderness between chapters is where capacity gets built before full clarity lands.
5. The EDGE Framework
   • E – Excavation: Name the fear. What identity is dying? What’s being born?
   • D – Discernment: Feelings aren’t facts. Is this danger or discomfort? Intuition or ego?
   • G – Grace: Regulate, don’t coddle. Of course this feels big. New rhythm, not wrong move.
   • E – Embodiment: Put power back in the body—walks, breath, sunlight, prayer, one courageous step.
6. Cross-check with the three centers
   • If you’re a gut type (8/9/1), bring in heart or head. Heart types (2/3/4), ask: would I still want this if no one clapped? Head types (5/6/7), ask: am I chasing certainty—or choosing a true yes?

Quotes That Land:

• “Your soul makes the pivot, but your body pays the bill first.”
• “Panic is physiology; misalignment is a pattern. Know the difference.”
• “The void isn’t punishment—it’s preparation.”
• “Fear can have a voice, but it doesn’t get a vote.”

Try This This Week (EDGE Moves):

• Name it: Write the sentence “I am actually afraid of ___ because ___.” Read it out loud.
• Separate it: Label sensations (body) vs. stories (mind). Circle what’s fact.
• Regulate it: 10-minute walk at sunrise, phone on airplane mode; 4-7-8 breathing x 5 rounds.
• One next step: Ship one tiny visible action toward the new path (DM, post, invite, calendar block).
• Cross-check: Run your yes through the other two centers before you decide again.

Timestamps:
00:00 The moment after the pivot
03:00 Why your nervous system crashes (and why that’s normal)
07:30 Identity disorientation & ego panic
10:05 Visibility fears, shame, comparison
12:10 The void as spiritual training ground
14:40 The EDGE framework walkthrough
17:15 Embodiment practices that work
19:40 Tracy’s real-time pivot (network marketing shift)
22:50 Don’t abandon the pivot before the magic catches up

Next Steps:

• If you’re in your own “holy-f*ck” moment, book a 90-minute session or grab your Enneagram Blueprint to get your personal atlas and tri-type cross-checks.
• DM @tracy_omalley with “EDGE” for details on the new leadership-first, integrity-driven business model.