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Speaker 1 (00:02):
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k wots Podcast. Hey guys, welcome to an all new
episode of the KOs podcast. I'm your host Kashawn Watson,
but you know me as Kawats and I'm super excited
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about this week's episode. Y'all. It is another solo episode.
That's right, solo do lo. It is me and you
wherever you're listening. Rather it's in your car, your shower
not weird at all, your bathroom, put it on your makeup,
or maybe you are actually on your morning walk or run.
I'm so grateful that you tuned in, so let's talk.
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I'm kind of like on fire this week. I've really listen.
I have really just been not just petitioning the Lord,
but really really asking him to search my heart. And like,
there's little areas that I didn't even see were as
big of a a hindrance for me to really just
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see God or see myself as God sees me. I
think that's the best way to word it. So the
question of the week that I have, and I want
you to ask this question is when did being innocent
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become bad? Or when did it becoming innocent become not desirable?
Go with me here. I did a post. I feel
like I say this almost every episode that I did
a post, And if you're not following me, it's okay,
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but you should personal page at imk Watts and the
Instagram page K Watts podcast. But I did a post
and I said, for the longest time, if I'm just
gonna be honest, I really felt pressure to strive to
be called a woman of God. And I don't know
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when it started, but I can remember like truly desiring
to be a Proverbs thirty one woman and being called that.
And I feel as though a lot of us can
relate to this, probably more than what we think. I
didn't know this was an area of opportunity for healing
from me and for growth and maturity. But somewhere along
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the line, the validation of becoming or other people acknowledging
that I am a woman of God kind of took
precedence in my life. And recently I was reminded that
sometimes we don't understand that when we experience something traumatic. Yeah,
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I'm just going to go here real early, like in
the first couple of minutes, when we experience something traumatic,
rather it be mentally, physically, spiritually. When we experience traumatic things,
there is a part to where our innocence is stolen.
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And I say this in a way because I don't
really know if I've ever acknowledged that there were certain
aspects to my childhood, to my adolescence, to my early twenties.
I felt like being innocent wasn't cool. I felt like
being innocent wasn't my reality. So the next thing was
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what I need to really mature very quickly. Now, I
want you guys to really think about this, because on
the opposite end, if you are not a believer, if
you have not given your life to Christ. What do
you see A lot when it comes to young girls,
they want to grow up very fast. They no longer
want to be a child. They want to be seen
as a young woman. So a lot of that goes
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into the way that they'll dress, the group, the friend
group that they'll be in, who they're dating. Right. Well,
I don't know if we've ever thought about this from
the sake of actually being a believer and being new
in the faith, and sometimes when we are as a
new believer, our first law is like, man, I really
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really want to be a seasoned mature Christian. And when
I get around other seasoned mature Christians, sometimes they're not
as encouraging as I would like them to be. And
sometimes they'll tell you like, oh, you're still on milk,
or you just don't know. So there is this thing
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to where you want to strive to be seen as
a woman of God. And I think so many of
us kind of like we're embarrassed about the innocence that
we had when we first accepted Jesus, the innocence that
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we had the first time we felt his presence and
his glory into our room or enter our car, the
first time that we spoke in tongues and what we felt.
And sometimes I think that we can be so flippant
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on and how much God loves us to be childlike
because you want to be so grown and so mature
and so seasoned. And I've been walking with the Lord
for twenty years and oh my God, I know all
these things. And the Lord just very kindly, because that's
what he does, very kindly just reminded me and highlighted
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to me that the striving that you have to be
a woman of God is a result of trauma. Child Listen,
what how can be possible? How can wanting and desiring
and striving to be a woman of God be a
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Proverbs thirty one woman? How can that come from a
place of trauma? And I'm going to tell you how,
because it's very hard to be a woman of God
if you first have not accepted that you are a
child of God. Like I could in there, I could
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really wrap it up and just allow you to sit
with that and ask the Lord, is that something that
you have struggled with? Is there an area or areas
in your life that you need Him to heal and
to rectify that you may no longer be embarrassed about
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being childlike in this area. Maybe it's the way that
you pray. Maybe it's the excitement that you get to
go to church service. Maybe it's the invitation of you
asking someone else to go to church with you, because
you haven't done that in ten years, but you remember
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doing it when you were like fifteen and sixteen years old.
You were just so like, man like, I love going
to church. I'm there all the time. Man, Hey, do
you want to go to church with me? And we
just don't do that anymore because we're so mature. And
what the Lord has been showing me is that in
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the sake of being mature, I have despised innocence, and
how the Enemy has perverted and twisted this thought about
being what it means to be a seasoned, a seasoned Christian,
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as if we graduate, as if there is some level
of degrees that comes out of this, and there is not.
And it's so funny because I named twenty twenty twenty
four for me. The word that I had was mature,
and the prayer that I had was that I asked
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God to mature me this year. And I think it's
so interesting that as we were halfway through this year.
The things that he has actually matured me in is
actually to become more childlike, Oh my gosh, to no
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longer despise the small beginnings in the small seeds and
the introductions and the entry points and the the small
if you will, dreams or the secret seeds that you
so like. He's really been working with me on not
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despising the small. And in that scripture, it doesn't just
say do not despise the small bank account or like
business plan, or it's says do not despise small beginnings.
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And for whatever reason, I think a lot of times
when we hear that, we think of it to where
it's only in reference to something financial or something that
needs to be built. But I'm learning that in different seasons,
I'm beginning a new like a walk with the Lord
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in a new way, and very quickly, sometimes I could
revert back to, well, I should be further along than
this in my faith. I shouldn't have been shaken by that.
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So the question of the week is, is there areas
in your faith where you feel like the enemy has
tried to steal your innocence in because listen, I don't
know about you but I listen, I know a lot
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of seasoned if you will, Christians, And do you want
to know what else? I know a lot of seasoned
Christians that are bitter and that are not nice and unkind,
And I can't find the fruit of the spirit if
I like dig like I'm like where it's somewhere. It's
down in there. It has to be, And I truly
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think it's because somewhere along the line, the enemy has
stolen the innocence about what it means to be a child.
And listen, if you experience any level of trauma, which
I'm gonna be honest with you a lot of us
have in different ways, any level of trauma in your
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childhood and your upbringing and your adolescence, then this is
probably an area or a place where the enemy has
probably attacked you in or deceived you in. Because some
people are like, well I don't feel attacked. Okay, Well,
maybe you don't feel like you're under attack there, But
maybe there's a part to where you have been deceived.
Maybe you've been hoodwinked. Maybe you have come to believe
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that in order to be able to be a woman
of God, I have to be hard. I have to
be judge. Listen, the buzz topic right now is the
is the Olympics and the opening at the Olympics. And
I'm gonna be roll with you. I'm gonna preface this
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because I did not watch the full thing. So let
me just say I did not watch the full opening
of the Olympics, but I did have a flood on
my timeline, okay, with responses to the opening, and the
common theme that everybody seemed to be posting and saying.
The regurgitated statement is that God will not be mocked
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and that the opening of the Olympics was a mockery
to Christians and of the Christian faith. And let me
tell you something, I immediately began to thank the Lord
for his mercy for all of the times, in the moments,
and the seasons, and the situations and the decisions that
I made that mocked my faith. Let's be clear, every meme,
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every real, every side joke that I said or have
done that mocked what it meant to be a believer
of Jesus. And I'm not discounting or discrediting us being
able to speak out and defend the faith. But I
also think that it is very easy for us to
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highlight blasphemy on a major scale. But let me tell
you something. The major scale that we're highlighting blasphemy on
is the major scale that we created out of our
own need for idolatry. Just go there. We like to
give out medals, we like to give out crowns, We
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like to band together and support things and commemorate things.
And this is what happens when we do this, when
we idolize anything that anything that is not worshiping the
Lord day in and day out, is idolization. We do
it for our own entertainment, and then in the midst
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of the entertainment, we want to be what we like
that's entertaining us to then be like, well, no, no, no,
you went too far. Can I tell you something we've
been went too far. I have moments of thanking God
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for his mercy for the times that we point out
the mockery and others, but then privately asked for his
mercy and private I am mindful about highlighting someone else's
mockery in public, when I will get in my room,
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in my closet and beg for his mercy for the
decisions that I made that mocked who he was and
by his grace. Let me tell you, it is by
his grace that He has forgiven me and you that
he even allows us at this point to be alive
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and to preach the gospel because we're so unworthy. And
I'm just reminded as we move forward, especially in this year,
especially with the things that are coming, especially with the
national news and the headlines and the back to back
things that are happening, I think that it it's going
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to be very very careful of There is a time
to speak out one thousand percent, but there is a
time to be still and know and know when God
doesn't need you to defend. That's all I'm gonna say
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about that. I think that we're just it's a different time,
it's a different season, and I think the best way
that we can be men and women of God is
to really acknowledge and embrace being a child of God.
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The way that we really do fight against pride, the
way that we really do fight against other people making
a mockery and taunting is by humility. Let us not
forget that Jesus was mocked before he was crucified. Happening
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what happened at the opening of the Olympics does not
surprise God. He was not surprised, but his spirit was
probably grieved as what we all probably experience. But I
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also believe his spirit is grieved when we have forms
of idolatry in our home, in our day to days,
in our communities and our relationships. The point of this
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episode is for us to truly just be like, where
can we get back to the innocence of just being
children your children? And I'm not talking about naive to
the point to where we're just completely unaware, but I'm
talking about blameless in your sight because of what your
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son did for us. How do we get back there?
How does that become the headline of our life? How
does that become the story that breaks? Because I'm gonna
be honest with you. When Jesus died on the cross,
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and before he took his last breath, he interceded on
our behalf. He didn't have to. There's that he could
have just died in our place and want to go
be with the Father. But before he takes his last breath,
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he chooses to still then intercede on behalf of us
in the midst of us making a mockery of him.
When he said, Father, forgive them. The story changed. The
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story changed because forgiveness covers a multitude of sins. So
I'm just gonna pray for us as we just move
forward for the rest of the summer, and as we
move forward, just navigating what the season is and all
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of the breaking news, and I listen, Hey, there's gonna
be more. Okay, but it's gonna be more, and we
have to remain postured to fix our eyes on Jesus. So, Father,
God and the name of Jesus, I come to you
right now, Lord, just thanking you for allowing us to
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be your children, just thanking you for your mercy and
your goodness that they may follow us all the days
of our lives. I humbly ask that we just get
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back to a place of just loving being your children,
that the innocence that was stolen, that Lord, you restore it.
That we may walk like your children, we may talk
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like your children, we may love others like your children.
Nothing more, nothing less. All we want is to be
blameless in your sight and Jesus name.
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We pray. Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Okay, Okay, guys, I
just want to say thank you so much for tuning
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