I SURVIVED WHAT WAS MEANT TO KILL ME

I Survived What Was Meant to Kill Me!

Join me LIVE on The Kim Jacobs Show this Wednesday, March 19th, at 11 AM EST, as I sit down with the incredible Yolonda Gayden—a powerhouse author, community leader, and founder of Y.C.G. Ministries.
With 6 best-selling books, including Hannah Learns to Give and It's My Time to Shine, Yolonda shares her powerful story of overcoming trauma, surviving abuse, and turning pain into purpose. Her journey of resilience will inspire and empower you!

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
You have a great show lined up for you. I'm
your host, Kim Jacob's better known as the Balance Doctor.
And all of our guests that come on there either
people that have overcome some tremendous odds in their own
lives as they balance this thing called life, or they're
experts and they're here to share tips and strategies that
will help you better balance and manage your life. Grab

(00:21):
your virtual seats and let's get ready for some real,
relevant and relatable content on today's episode of The Kim
Jacob Show.

Speaker 2 (00:33):
I know that.

Speaker 1 (00:37):
Jacob. Hello everyone, and welcome to this episode of The
Kim Jacob Show. Yes, we are talking today with Prophetess
Yolanda Gayden and she's going to be talking today about
what was meant to kill her. She survived it, and
so everybody out there today that is in need of
inspiration on some things that's trying to take you out

(00:59):
of this world, you're gonna learn how to survive some
of those things today. For our prophetes, Yolanda Gaiton, how
are you today?

Speaker 2 (01:07):
I am, well, how are you so excited to be here?

Speaker 1 (01:11):
I know we were backstays like because it's like we
finally cotnacked. People don't get to see all the behind
the scenes stuff, right, Yes, but I am so honored,
so honored to have you here today. And your story
is nothing short of invigorating. It's a roller coaster ride.
It's heartbreaking, it's heartwarming, it's heart wrenching, you name it,

(01:33):
it's going to happen throughout this episode today. So I
want everybody to invite your friends and family to be
a part of our discussion. And we're gonna go ahead
and literally just get right into it because it's so
much meet and b here that's unpacked. So I really
want to make sure that we get into everything. So
Ylanda Gayton. She is an acclaimed author many times over.

(01:57):
She's made significant impact and the little world with six
best selling books out of eight. I know that there's
about twelve or so that really encompass everything that she's done,
but six best selling books. Her writings delve into the
complex themes such as mental and physical abuse, so a

(02:18):
lot to unpacking her books pertaining to mental and physical abuse,
offering insightful and empowering perspectives. So I am really excited
to introduce this woman because she's going to be sharing
her personal journey and her own testament of being resilient
and really determined to be an overcomer. Lots about her
personal note of her life, but she's been married for

(02:40):
twenty seven years, and I'll let her tell you the
rest of her journey and all of the hats that
she wears as well, and celebrating something very important coming
up really soon. So welcome Yolanda Gaiton to the Kim
Jacob Show.

Speaker 3 (02:52):
Thank you, thank you so much for having me.

Speaker 1 (02:56):
I'm so glad you're here. So glad. Okay, okay, So
your story, as I said, is really inspiring. It's incredibly inspiring.
So I'm really glad that you're here today to just
take us through it. I want you to, if you will,
share a little bit about your journey and what led
you to ultimately say that I survived what was meant
to kill me?

Speaker 2 (03:16):
Yes, yes, so as far back that I could really
like remember it was around the age of five years old,
and basically my mother and father abandoned me and they
were nowhere to be found. And I remember my great

(03:36):
grandmother raising me, who was like seventy plus. She only
had a first grade education, She only knew how to
sign her name. And I remember, even at that early age,
I remember that my life was different from the other children.

(03:56):
You know what other children had, you know, their hair
pretty calm, and their bows and you know, mom and
dad was there and I didn't have those things present.
So I quickly realized that things were different from me.

Speaker 3 (04:13):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (04:14):
So when you're when you are being raised by seventy
five year old you say, grandmother that has a faced,
great grandmother who has a first grade education. One thing
she had was a lot of love in her heart
because she didn't want to see you get put in
the streets type of situation or going into some un

(04:35):
chartered territory, being with families that you would be possibly
passed around with. And so she did have the ability
to love even though she didn't have that education. Right, right,
and how did that work? Growing up under her leadership?

Speaker 2 (04:50):
Ooh, I was light years behind most everyone, all the
way down to you know the that your mother normally
even tell you, like even how to take care of
your hygiens. Right, Well, grandmother was you know, oh, she
was from the South, and even down to like deodorant

(05:13):
that looked like taking the bacon soda and literally rubbing
up under your arms.

Speaker 3 (05:18):
Wow it and it did not work.

Speaker 2 (05:23):
And the thing about it, I can laugh about it now,
but I literally remember there was a time when I
was in third grade and there was someone, they said,
the teacher and students that did not smell fresh.

Speaker 3 (05:39):
And I'm looking around to see who are they talking about.

Speaker 1 (05:43):
Right, let's address this right here, and I'm realizing that
person is me.

Speaker 3 (05:52):
My grandmother was so old schooling from the South, she.

Speaker 2 (05:55):
Didn't even know what deodorant was. Now it was out
around that time, but she was doing the pattern of
what she had been taught.

Speaker 1 (06:03):
Okay, wow, and but and so back in the day,
they did whatever it took to be able to just
make it and to function. Basically, So you fast forward
your grandmother being your great grandmother being at that age.
Ultimately what happened that puts you in other situations because
there's so much to your story, it is.

Speaker 3 (06:23):
A lot to my story.

Speaker 2 (06:24):
So around the age about eleven, maybe ten eleven, my mother,
my biological mother, reached out and wanted me to come
live with her, okay, and she was in another state,
and so literally I got on a airplane and went to

(06:46):
be with her, and I was so you know, you
can only imagine a daughter always wanted to be with
their mother. I was just so excited. I was so happy.
You know, I never understood in the first place why
I was not weak, you you know, what was wrong
with me?

Speaker 3 (07:02):
Why you didn't love me?

Speaker 2 (07:03):
And so she was living with a living boyfriend, and
so I went to go live with them both.

Speaker 1 (07:13):
Okay, so you went, you ended up going. You did
your great great grandmother pass.

Speaker 3 (07:18):
Away, now she was still alive, but your.

Speaker 1 (07:21):
Mom requested you to come he did so. At this
point then and again, I feel like I'm almost in
a movie. Year. But at this point you are excited.
You're exciting, You're eleven years old. You're like, whatever the
reason was, I finally get a chance to have a
real shot at real life with my mom who birth right.

Speaker 2 (07:42):
Yes, and so that was like Christmas for you, right,
it really true? Super excited.

Speaker 1 (07:48):
Okay, Okay, so now you're there where you now get
on a flight, You're with your mom, you're eleven, she
has a living boyfriend, and tell us how things progress
from there.

Speaker 2 (08:00):
So at first everything was wonderful, and the living boyfriend
even it was to me like he viewed me like
a daughter, and he was buying me things and doing
nice things for me and taking me to the store.
And every time he left, you know, I wanted to
go with him, of course, because he was going to
the store. He always bought me things when he took

(08:22):
me to the store. So I'm a child in that
child frame of mind. And then yes, and then mom
had a job where she worked a lot, and so
of course he became the babysitter. And everything was fine
at first, and I didn't even know how to really

(08:46):
understand the concept when he was like, you know, he
started like, let's play.

Speaker 3 (08:51):
A game, and I'm like, okay, you know.

Speaker 2 (08:54):
And it's a hide and seek game. And then you know,
hide and seek went to something else. The other games
led to touchy Philly something else. So that's where it started.

Speaker 1 (09:07):
Okay. So and it's really unfortunate, believe it or not,
because there are so many father figures that never crossed
the line. And so on the Kim Jacobs Show, I
definitely were we're bringing balance to your household, one household
at a time. I really want you to know that
not everyone is molesting, raping, harming the children. Been a

(09:31):
sign to care for even if they're not their biological parents.
So I do want to always provide that fair balance.
But in your case, this turned into something this is
your own personal testimony. Yes, so you and your own
words can share what your testimony is and what transpired
and how did it go to the point where you
feel like I really survived what was meant to kill me?

Speaker 2 (09:54):
Yes, And so that went on, the touchy philly things,
the games, you know, uh, and I felt uncomfortable, but
I didn't know as a child how to really express it.
It was a tickle and then rubbing places that hands
shouldn't have not been, and so I was weird. I was,
you know, like trying to focus, like what's going on,

(10:15):
you know, didn't know. And then things for him and
my mom financially, they kind of took a turn.

Speaker 1 (10:22):
Okay.

Speaker 2 (10:23):
So I ended up, you know, going back to my
grandmother for a little while, okay, kind of speaking up
the you know story, because it is a lot to
the story, and stayed with her for a while. Mother
wanted me back. I think a couple of years or so,
uh like maybe two years.

Speaker 1 (10:40):
I went back to the same living boy.

Speaker 3 (10:44):
Living boyfriend and her at a different place.

Speaker 1 (10:47):
Now at this point. She doesn't know your great grandmother
does not. Nobody knows that this person is invading at.

Speaker 3 (10:54):
All, not at all.

Speaker 2 (10:56):
Okay, So now it gets a little more because now
he's starting to tell me these gangs that we're playing,
you know, they're our special little game.

Speaker 3 (11:08):
And I love you so much.

Speaker 2 (11:11):
And I know your mother having been there, she doesn't
really know how to love you. But I love you
so much. I love you so that those are the
words I always wanted to hear. Although, like you're saying,
I know now that grandmother had to have loved me,
but she was not a person that knew how to

(11:31):
express love, give love, gave hubs, gave kisses. She wasn't
that type of Grandmotheray, So to hear him say I
love you.

Speaker 1 (11:42):
Really really resonated with you and wanted you, wanted to
do whatever was going to make that situation come to
pass in a positive light. But my okay, So so
he's according to you, obviously, he's in fracting on your
life and doing some things that a young age that
should never be happening from an adult. Right, So how

(12:03):
does this fast forward and tell us how does this
ultimately get discovered? How do you get to safety in
this situation, Who did you trust? I have so many questions, so.

Speaker 3 (12:12):
Just yes, okay.

Speaker 2 (12:15):
So, like most people that experience this type of thing,
it's always seemed like the same storyline as far as
the man saying, don't tell anyone our secret. You're special
to me. And then later on he got more aggressive
and said, if you tell anyone, I'm going to kill you,

(12:35):
and I'm going to kill your mother, I will kill
your whole family. And I didn't know what to do
with that or had to process that.

Speaker 3 (12:44):
I just believed them, right.

Speaker 2 (12:46):
So it went on with touching Philly, doing things to
a full blown you know contact, completely it was completely
you know rape. And so that went on for a
while while mom was at work.

Speaker 3 (13:02):
A couple of times.

Speaker 2 (13:03):
I've never told anyone that, but I'm really ready to
let my story be really heard, even a few times
while she was there completely drunk, completely drunk. So one
day my mother came home early for lunch and she
unlocked the door and that little change. I don't know

(13:26):
if a lot of y'all know, it's kind of an
old school Yeah.

Speaker 1 (13:31):
Yeah, yes, that metal chain like that wasn't going to
keep anybody out, But no, for some reason, it made
you feel more secure.

Speaker 2 (13:38):
Right, And so she unlocked. Then she tried to come
in and she's like, you know, what's going on? And
then I noticed someone had came in.

Speaker 3 (13:48):
I was like, I can break a loose.

Speaker 2 (13:51):
So he got nervous and kind of got up off
of me, and then I was able to break a
loose and holland scream and run to the bathroom. So
she's peeping in. She's at an angle where she can
see me running to the bathroom.

Speaker 3 (14:07):
She gets in and.

Speaker 2 (14:08):
She's like going off, like, what's going on? Why is
on the running from our bedroom today? He's like, oh, oh, oh,
you know. He's like, oh, it's not you know what
you're thinking. She's like, I don't know what the thing?

Speaker 3 (14:21):
What's going on?

Speaker 2 (14:22):
And then I was like, okay, just just just say it,
just just tell her, just to tell your mom.

Speaker 1 (14:28):
Okay, yes, Now at this point, you're what age are
you at this point.

Speaker 3 (14:33):
I'm about twelve and a half.

Speaker 1 (14:35):
Okay, because you had went back to your great grandmother,
you came back again because your mom wanted you to
come back with the same living boy friend. You're there again.
He's still raping you and your and your mom now
comes home early unexpected from work and discovers you running
from their bedroom.

Speaker 4 (14:55):
Okay, oh my gosh, yes, yes, And so with him
in there, scared, I'm balled up in a fetal position
and I have, you know, put my clothes on the bathroom.

Speaker 3 (15:08):
I'm on the couch, and I'm like, I didn't know.
I didn't know what rape was or how.

Speaker 2 (15:12):
I didn't even really know how to describe it other than,
you know, he's doing things to me with his private
That's the way I said it. For one thing, my
grandmother nor my mom wasn't around. I didn't know anything
about sex education. I didn't know nothing. Even when the
you know, female have their you know, monthly to come on,

(15:36):
I didn't even know what that was.

Speaker 3 (15:38):
That was a scared That's a whole other subject. It
was so scared for me.

Speaker 2 (15:42):
So I wasn't educated on too much of anything. My
grandmother didn't talk to me about those things. I didn't
know about a lot of those things. And so what
I told my mom in that fetal position, on that
count that he had been doing things to me, She's like,
what what are you talking about? Taking his clothes off

(16:04):
on top of me, touching me with his private So.

Speaker 1 (16:09):
Where was he during this time? Just sitting there.

Speaker 3 (16:12):
He's like he's like behind her.

Speaker 2 (16:15):
And as soon as I get all the words out,
she's furious. She goes into this fears you state and
he's like, no, it's not not what she's saying. It's
not what she no, no, no, no, you're getting this
all wrong. You know this, And that she goes in
the kitchen, she grabs a butcher knife. She started coming
at him and then I'm freaking out. I don't know
what to think, what to do, and I'm like holling,

(16:38):
and then he grabs it and she's trying to go
down on him. He grabs it and he's holding her
and they getting to this little tussle. He's like, he's like,
I'm telling you.

Speaker 3 (16:48):
It's not it's not what you think. He's calling her name,
it's not what you think. No, what you think.

Speaker 2 (16:53):
Finally, she just started, you know, busting out crying and
she lets.

Speaker 3 (16:57):
The knife down and he it's like, it's not what
you think. Let's go talk about it. Le's go talk
about it.

Speaker 2 (17:03):
So he's talking to her, comforting her. I'm crying on
the couch. He says, let's go talk about it.

Speaker 3 (17:09):
They leave.

Speaker 2 (17:12):
To go talk about it. I'm still there by myself,
crying on the couch.

Speaker 3 (17:19):
Okay, they can talk about it.

Speaker 2 (17:24):
And when they come back home, he has now told
her a story that I have been coming on to him.
I didn't even know what that even means, coming on
to him for for you know, a while, and he
just did what a man does, was what he said.

Speaker 1 (17:46):
Okay, so your mom ultimately believed him and then started
taking it out on chastising you for miss inappropriate behavior.

Speaker 2 (17:57):
Yes, fast, I should dress a certain way. It's all
of that kind of stuff.

Speaker 1 (18:04):
Okay, so what let me just ask what? First of all,
from Stop Child Statistics Victims of Crime dot org, you
all can find this information that I'm getting ready to
share with you all, but one in five girls and
one in twenty boys is a victim of child sexual abuse.
And it shows that approximately twenty percent of adult females
in five to ten percent of adult males recall a

(18:27):
childhood sexual assault or sexual abuse incident. Like that's a
lot of people that are remembering something in their childhood
that is now triggered as an adult that brings them
back to their remembrance that they were violated. So in
this case, there are parents that will say it's your

(18:48):
fault and take the side of the person that is
inflicting the harm. What advice would you give to parents
that are dealing with situations like this children finally come forward,
because there are plenty of people watching the show. It
streams in one hundred countries. You know how many countries
are experiencing some level of sexual abuse of the children

(19:11):
in their homes. Yes, any advice that you would give
to the.

Speaker 2 (19:15):
Parent, You really need to take the time to listen
to your child and listen to all the information. And
I would do my own investigation. But something that's serious,
we would have to go to the authoritiest. We would
have to go to the authoritists and allow that to

(19:37):
all be investigated.

Speaker 1 (19:40):
I'm glad you're saying that, because sometimes within our own
means of trying to handle a situation, Hence your mom
in that case went and got a knife. The knife
was they were struggling back and forth. Anybody could have
life could have ended on that day for all three
of you all, you know, and so I'm really grateful
that you And that's what I want to just focus on.

(20:02):
I'm so honored that you're here to share your story today,
and like you said, you're sharing different pieces of it
that maybe you've never shared before. So I'm grateful that
you're comfortable sharing it here on the Kim Jacobs Show.

Speaker 3 (20:13):
A lung process, but I am here now long.

Speaker 1 (20:18):
And even as you've gone forward, there are a lot
of people that you still put further trust in and
decided that, Okay, I'm going to go above my mom
and go tell somebody else that I think is a
higher authority. And how did that work for you?

Speaker 3 (20:34):
So?

Speaker 2 (20:34):
I had always had a great relationship with one of
my grandfathers.

Speaker 3 (20:39):
I just put it like that.

Speaker 2 (20:40):
And he's deceased, he's no longer even here, and I
went to him to tell him what had happened. I
was like, I can't hold this. I don't know what
to do with it. I don't have nobody to tell
it to. And I told him what was going on.
I thought it was good until well, he started touching,

(21:02):
he started feeling, he started rubbing, and then times when
my grandmother was absent, he took it further and then
he raped me.

Speaker 1 (21:15):
Oh my gosh.

Speaker 3 (21:16):
Okay, yeah, okay, Okay.

Speaker 1 (21:23):
So the men in your life that are supposed to
be the protectors, the ones that are letting you know that, sweetheart,
life is going to be beautiful for you. I'm here
to show you how a man should treat you, how
a man should care for you, they're the ones that
are violating you. And yes, okay, oh wow. So yeah,

(21:51):
so in the midst of all of this, you really
feel isolated, alone, abandoned. What are some of the things
you putting words in your mouth? What did you feel?
I don't know. I don't know what I would have
felt doing those moments.

Speaker 2 (22:05):
I felt dirty. I felt very dirty. I felt super dirty.
And even when I you know, bathed, I still feel dirty.

Speaker 3 (22:19):
I feel nasty. I felt disgusted.

Speaker 2 (22:22):
So now at that particular time, I'm thinking my mother
was nowhere to be found, my father was nowhere to
be found. Now the people that I put trust in
and including my mom, like they all felt they all
let me down. So this is when I first started

(22:43):
struggling with a little depression and didn't even know that
it was called depression.

Speaker 3 (22:47):
Of course.

Speaker 1 (22:48):
Of course, so you're out of the house, You're out
of that. Your mom gets you out of the house again,
basically as a result of what hatted.

Speaker 2 (22:56):
Eventually I stayed a little bit in that situation, but
again they struggled again financially, and it came down to
she had to, oh yeah, let me bag up a
little bit. She had to go and live with an aunt.
And so this this was before I.

Speaker 3 (23:14):
Got to the grandfather. I'm sorry missed this part.

Speaker 1 (23:16):
But this is a movie to lifetime or something.

Speaker 2 (23:21):
I've always dreamed that my my life that it would
be told on lifetime.

Speaker 3 (23:25):
I've always dreamed that. But I had to.

Speaker 2 (23:29):
Go and live with an aunt and my first cousin
because now since I've been exposed to all this stuff
with the mom's boyfriend, now I do become PREMI permiscuous,
you know, I do become you know, out there kind
of you know, liking guys and all that type of stuff.
And so there was a guy on the phone that

(23:52):
was having sex talk with me, but nothing had happened
with us, but he was talking nasty and dirty to me.
A cousin over heard him talking to me, and then
he came to me and said, Hey, all that stuff
that God was talking to you about. He was like,
I'm gonna tell your mom about it unless you do
that with me.

Speaker 1 (24:12):
This is a this is a first cousin, so like
your mother's brother's child or.

Speaker 3 (24:20):
A mother's siblings child.

Speaker 1 (24:21):
Yeah, so he overheard you talking to someone else and
could hear the conversation and use.

Speaker 3 (24:28):
That on another line, another phone.

Speaker 1 (24:31):
And then he used that to bate you to have
intercourse with him.

Speaker 2 (24:35):
And I said no, right off the bat, I said's
not happening. No, I want to tell your mom.

Speaker 3 (24:40):
No, please don't do that. No, he said, I am.
I said, don't do that. Don't do that.

Speaker 2 (24:46):
And so I was on pins and needle for days,
wondering when he was gonna just tell her. He held
it and kept threatening with me, try to make me
come to him on my own. And then one day
when his mom left, my mom left, No, the one.

Speaker 3 (25:00):
Was in the house. I was in a room sleep.
He came, he got on top.

Speaker 2 (25:05):
Of me, he held me down, he put his hand
over my mouth, and then he raped me.

Speaker 1 (25:10):
And did you ever get anybody in your family to understand?

Speaker 3 (25:15):
I held that one.

Speaker 2 (25:17):
I held that one for almost twenty seven years.

Speaker 3 (25:21):
I held that one. I held that one.

Speaker 1 (25:24):
So what's making you today? Which I appreciate the fact
that you are here sharing your story, and I think
that every woman that has ever experienced something like don't
care how many years it is later. I would imagine
that it would be some level of therapeutic relief for
you to be able to share your story. What's making
you share it at right now on The Kim Jacob

(25:45):
Show Because we're I mean, you're an author of twelve
books and all of this stuff. We're here to talk
about a lot of other things. Yes, this is I'm
just going by the leading of God here in my
opinion that we're going to stay here for a second
so that it helped somebody else at the level that
they may need to be managed to. What made you
share your story here on The Kim Jacob Show.

Speaker 2 (26:03):
I'm a big fan of Miles Munroe. I know he's
for those that know who that is. He's deceased and
passed on, but he always talked about dying empty, and
for a long time, I was like, dying empty?

Speaker 3 (26:17):
What does that mean? What does that look like?

Speaker 2 (26:20):
So all the things that I have went through, I
want to die empty that is out and that is
helping someone. I don't want what I went through to
be in vain. I want someone to hear my story
and I want them to find healing, find safety in

(26:43):
a revelation. I want to die empty.

Speaker 1 (26:49):
I am so glad you're saying that. Yeah. Less Brown
often says that as well, and he often talks about
the fact that we don't want to go to our
grave and we're laying on our deathbed and surrounding us
all of our gifts, all of our talents, and they're
angry that they were put inside of our body on
this earth. And so you were inspired by doctor Miles

(27:11):
Munroe for that saying. I was inspired by Les Brown
for that same saying. And I have made a commitment
in my life, doctor Prophetess Yolanda, that I will not
go to my grave with my gifts and talents laying
dormant on the inside. And so I'm really grateful that
you are sharing this because you have overcome so much

(27:31):
to become who you are today. Are there any other
closing comments before we transition pertaining to your backstory, Any
advice for children that are now adults that are still
holding it, any advice, anything that you.

Speaker 3 (27:46):
Want to say.

Speaker 2 (27:48):
I just want to say that from all of that,
I was broken. I felt like nothing. I got very
severely depressed, started having mental issues behind all of that
that I wanted to die. I didn't know anything about therapy,
and I'm right now at this point, I'm a big believer.
Jesus Coffee in therapy is actually my I say all

(28:10):
the time, Jesus coffee in therapy like that, and I
need a therapist. You know, there's nothing wrong with a therapist.
And a lot of times in the black community it's
deja vu.

Speaker 3 (28:22):
We don't talk about it.

Speaker 2 (28:24):
We think that people that go see a therapist, we automatically, Oh,
they're crazy, Oh they're loing. No, it means you need
mental help. That's right to get in a good mental place.
I ended up being the party girl. I end up
alcohol was my best friend at that time because I

(28:45):
was trying to, you know, all of the stuff that
I was going through. I was trying to find a
way to escape it, and so alcohol is my best friend,
Like it almost got me killed and everything was my
best friend. I literally became an alcoholic to the point
I had alcoholic in my jean pocket.

Speaker 3 (29:01):
Every single day, all day on shuston gen all of it.

Speaker 2 (29:07):
And so I really want people to know it doesn't
matter where you come from, and don't based on where
you're at right now, that that's your life. Because if
I had a really I did try to give up.
I tried to kill myself, not one, not two, not three,
but five times.

Speaker 1 (29:24):
Mm, five times you attempted suicide and it didn't work.

Speaker 2 (29:29):
And so only the last one took me to the
hospital to get my stomach pumped. The rest of them
I kind of like went out.

Speaker 1 (29:36):
It did.

Speaker 2 (29:37):
Those didn't work, but that one almost took me out.

Speaker 1 (29:40):
Wow. So God literally has a plan for your life
that exceeds or supersedes it overly, above and beyond anything
that you plan for your own life. Yes, wow, Yes,
Oh okay, y'all Jesus, she said, Jesus coffee and therapy.
It's okay, it's okay to get that Jesus coffee, but

(30:03):
also get that therapist. The therapist is critically important. I
know I have a counselor that I she's not. I
don't know if she's a therapist. Anyway, she's my she's
my person that I go to and and it's maintenance.
It's not even something that I'm so down and out about.

Speaker 3 (30:20):
But I'm like, now I.

Speaker 1 (30:24):
Talk, I'm like, girl, just if you just could be
a person that don't know me at that level and
can hear me and give me some good advice Christian advice.
I'm good. Yeah, yeah, so this is really good. I
see a lot of comments that's been coming in. So
do you want to take a moment before we transition, okay,
because it's also as I'm getting ready to pull the
comments up, tell me how important faith was in your healing.

Speaker 3 (30:49):
Faith was was my lifeline. Faith was my lifeline.

Speaker 2 (30:56):
I've always been curious about faith, and I've always been
curious about God.

Speaker 3 (31:02):
I really have.

Speaker 2 (31:03):
And I remember wanting to go to church as a
little girl and really having nobody to take me at
one point now at the beginning, like age probably two, three,
four five, maybe up to about eight, I had my
mother mother who is deceased as well. Now she did

(31:25):
take me to church as a little but faith was
my lifeline.

Speaker 1 (31:32):
It's so it's important then to make sure that people
have some spiritual component to their journey if they're planning
to really survive and transform and navigate some of the
things the hardships that people may be experiencing.

Speaker 2 (31:46):
I know there are different people that have different you know,
beliefs and things of that story. But all I can
tell you for your Lona's personal testimony, Jesus Christ saved
my life.

Speaker 3 (31:58):
I was down.

Speaker 2 (31:59):
I remember, Oh God, it is so much to unpack.
I needed two hours.

Speaker 3 (32:03):
Serious.

Speaker 2 (32:05):
But I remember one of the relationships that I was
in for a year and a half. To find out
as someone knocked on my door at the year and
a half that I like to say, he had a
whole wife.

Speaker 3 (32:17):
I wrote. I wrote a chapter about that one of
my books, too, had a whole wife.

Speaker 2 (32:21):
I thought I had finally found love and things were
starting to look good, so I thought, and you know,
he had a whole wife. So the husband that I'm
married to now I cried on his shoulder to tell him.
The man that I was in love with, that I
wanted to be with for the rest of my life.
I find out now he has a whole wife, and

(32:42):
I am torn. I am more just wanting to go
somewhere and just die.

Speaker 1 (32:51):
Wow. And that's because you he didn't tell you. So
you're you're falling out life type of.

Speaker 2 (32:58):
Yes, we're out of town, we're doing things together. He's
over the two or three in the morning.

Speaker 3 (33:04):
He has no ring, no sign.

Speaker 2 (33:06):
I knew his mother, his cousin, his sisters, and.

Speaker 1 (33:12):
They knew he was married. Yes, and everybody knew he
was married except you exactly. Oh my gosh, okay, so
and and and it's not like you know how sometimes
people be like, girl, you knew, you really know?

Speaker 2 (33:26):
I know people say that, but well, I didn't have
a clue even when I went to see him. I
seen him at his mother's house that it was his room,
but I found out later it was his room when
he was living with his mom, like he didn't really
live there.

Speaker 1 (33:43):
Oh oh, So it was like a whole family scheme
type of thing. That's bizarre, isn't it that everybody was.

Speaker 3 (33:51):
In on it.

Speaker 2 (33:52):
Well, when I finally when it was finally out, and
unfortunately I made it come out, that's a whole other.

Speaker 1 (34:02):
You gonna have to come back on chem yourself once
a month.

Speaker 2 (34:07):
And so I asked his mom, like, how could you
not say anything? She said, my son is grown. That
is his business. She said, I like the wife, and
I like you a lot too.

Speaker 3 (34:21):
Mm hmmm. She said that, she said, that's his business.

Speaker 2 (34:26):
I was like very confused by that, but yeah.

Speaker 1 (34:30):
So that ended and him did stayed together?

Speaker 3 (34:34):
Yeah with a baby. Yeah, I had a baby.

Speaker 1 (34:37):
Oh god?

Speaker 3 (34:38):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (34:38):
Okay, okay, So anybody that is on a roller coaster
ride other than me that you have your seatbelts safely secured,
but you're going up and down up a lot, put
it in the comments section. Let's go to a lot
of these comments. Okay, Oh lord, okay, I see you saying,
Oh Sandy Sanders. I'm sure she want to have you

(34:59):
on her her show. She is one of my contemporaries
with our media network, and she has authors that come
on her show. Her explanation of what she encountered and
experience is represents the stories of so many other women.

Speaker 3 (35:15):
It does.

Speaker 1 (35:16):
Yeah. Now, I mean you're you're really a voice for
a lot of people that have silently suffered. I commend
your guests for courage sharing her story. Thank you so
much for those comments. And if you all have not
checked out Sandy Sanders Coffee Conversations, is hey coffee conversations? Yes,
I love coffee Coffee Conversations with Sandy Sanders. Make sure

(35:38):
you check out her show. Wow. Nijeong says, good evening, ma'am.
Because he's out of the country. So it's evening where
he is, and let us know where you're visiting in
from Nijong. We'd love to know that. Again. The Kim
Jacobs Show is on on CTR Media Network and it's
in one hundred countries. Thanks to CTR Media Network, we

(35:58):
are now also. Oh, let me pop this up because
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(36:19):
Jacobs Show over in the Self Improvement Channel last month,
so I want to make sure y'all are aware of
that and you can you can find us over there,
all right, So let's see some more comments that came in.
People have been really common. Lord have mercy, people said,
Sandy said, yes, Jesus coffee and therapy. Okay, we're gonna
do that. We're gonna do that. Of a com Oh,

(36:40):
doctor Tina J. Ramsay is on and she's the founder
of CTR Media Network, and so she said hello to
you and send lots of hugs.

Speaker 3 (36:48):
And love, Thank you, Thank you so much.

Speaker 1 (36:51):
Jessica Walker said, I am so proud of my client.

Speaker 3 (36:55):
That's my pr person.

Speaker 1 (36:58):
Say girl is here, your girl is here here. So
glad to have you, so glad to have you, and
all of you that are tuning in. I do see
different ones of you. It's hard for me unless you
put a comment up. It's hard for me to really
acknowledge everything. But I see you, Alicia, I see you,
Evangelist Brenda, I see you, Margaret, I see you in
the gen I see you, TJ Tamilia, Tammy, I see

(37:20):
all of you, Doctor Eleanor, I see you, doctor Marcia
Austin over there on Instagram, the nicky Sinclair Nayanner sown
all of you, guys. I love acknowledging my guests because
I love you.

Speaker 3 (37:31):
Yes, I love it.

Speaker 1 (37:33):
Okay, So there are so many other hats that you wear,
and I wanted to just take a moment and play. Oh,
somebody said, Kim, say, gosh, gosh, your guests and I
have a lot in common, a lot in comge on it. Wow,
all right, I wanted to just play this quick video
clip before we get ready to transition to the rest

(37:55):
of our time together. What was she doing reading?

Speaker 2 (38:12):
But she was reading one of my children's book on nice.

Speaker 1 (38:19):
Oh Hannah, okay, okay, tell us about your book, Hannah.

Speaker 2 (38:24):
Well, Hannah is actually my baby daughter's name. She's twenty
six now, but it's her name, Hannah. And so Hannah
learns to give. So Hannah takes us on a journey
to learn how to be givers and not just only
think about ourselves, but being kind, generosity and spreading love.

Speaker 1 (38:48):
Awesome, spreading love, spreading love, giving. I see right in
the bubble out of her mouth there says yes, Hannah
is a giver. She's yeah. And how I want to
ask you because for you to write this particular book
you went through so much as a child yourself. What

(39:09):
made you want to do this particular type of genre
when you're when you're writing your books.

Speaker 2 (39:15):
I wanted to highlight the things that I did not
receive as a child. I didn't so love, I didn't
feel loved, I didn't feel wanted. I didn't get hugs,
I didn't give kisses, I didn't give birthday parties. It

(39:36):
was so much missing in my childhood, so much missing.
So I wanted to put books out that would help
other children to be able to, you know, receive and
get and get those type of things.

Speaker 1 (39:51):
That is so incredible. Now you have so many books
that you do have them. Let's see, what is that
one that you have that you're holding up at least
Brown Sugar Wears.

Speaker 2 (40:02):
Brown Sugar Wishes, which is my oldest daughter and the
little girl in this this little girl character, she wears
hearing aids, okay, And despite the fact that she wears
hearing aids, she has dreams and vision and hopes and
she does goes out and do a lot of things

(40:23):
in the world. And so this is a book that
just help a lot of little our little girls, especially
our brown skin girls, to love their selves, to have
affirmations daily, and just something that I wanted to give,

(40:44):
you know, again, something that I didn't have. And when
I was growing up, I never saw brown skin girls
on the covers.

Speaker 1 (40:51):
That is so beautiful and yet to have. And they're
beautiful images of your Do they resemble your children?

Speaker 3 (40:59):
Actually, yes, they are there.

Speaker 2 (41:02):
They are their faces that the illustrator used from a picture.

Speaker 3 (41:06):
And drew them in at that age.

Speaker 5 (41:08):
Yes, I love it, Yes, I love it. I have
all of these right here on this that's all of them.

Speaker 1 (41:19):
That's it. So I was like I got, I got
the image for you right here unbound. I see, I
see Hannah, Yes, your logo over there, and Ayisha's brown
sugar wishes. And then the one that you're holding up
right now. Tell us what that one is.

Speaker 2 (41:35):
Uh, that's my time to shine. It's an affirmation coloring book.
This one is on Amazon. Yes, and it's all of
like my different sayings in this coloring book, like yes,
and I actually have one in here that talks about

(41:56):
Jesus and coffee because I say that all the time.
I'm like Jesus coffee and the therapist like yeah, and
I'm good to go.

Speaker 3 (42:04):
I need to go ahead and make a T shirt
from it.

Speaker 1 (42:06):
But of course Jesus and therapy. Yes, come through Jesus
and therapy. I definitely am in that club. I think
all people, not men or women only, everybody should have
some kind of therapists in their life.

Speaker 3 (42:19):
I agree.

Speaker 2 (42:20):
I totally agree, yes, and that I recently received.

Speaker 1 (42:27):
Literary Advocate of the Year. Yes, Okay, you deserve every
honor that can be poured on you. I want people
to know how they can get all of your books.
Let's tell them how they can get the book.

Speaker 2 (42:42):
So I Isha Brown Sugar Wishes and My Time to Shine.
It is on Amazon. Okay, it is on Amazon unbound.
And the heartcover of Hannah Learns to Give. You can
get that through going through Facebook, and there's a there's
a place for you to skill in it and it
will take you directly to those books.

Speaker 1 (43:03):
Okay, So if they go to Yolanda Gayton on Facebook,
they'll find every way to get your Okay, So on Facebook, everybody,
that's the main platform that is on and everything about
her is there. And if you go there, you'll see
all of her books. On My Time to Shine, the
coloring book, that's a great adult coloring book. My mom,

(43:26):
Oh my gosh, my mom will lose it to have that.
She has she likes adult coloring books, and she'll lose
it to have that one because it's confirming. And then
Hannah and making sure that you learn more about how
to be giving and loving and compassionate and just a
sweet soul is what Hannah is her youngest child. And
then Aisha being able to have that brown sugar, dark

(43:50):
dark chocolate. Yes, and even with the hearing aids, not
letting life limit you and have what people disability, I
personally call it a different stability because I have.

Speaker 3 (44:02):
Three children, and I call it my superpower.

Speaker 1 (44:05):
Oh look at that? Look at that? So us about it?

Speaker 2 (44:09):
Let me say this, God's telling me the bag up.
So the hearing as Issa doesn't have a hearing issue
and the real life that doesn't. But I have thirty
hearing in one of my ears. I could bind my
story to this story, and so that is one of
my disabilities. I also have ADHD and I also have dyslexic.

Speaker 1 (44:33):
Well, it has worked in your favor to rest this world,
that's for sure.

Speaker 3 (44:38):
Get my superpower, that's right.

Speaker 1 (44:41):
So let me let me the people that were in
your life that did all of these things. Are they
just going on in life as if everything's regular or well?
What's happened to any of these things? These people?

Speaker 2 (44:53):
The mom's boyfriend, I was told that he is deceased.
I don't really know, but I was told that he
was deceased. Okay, my grandfather on his dying bed. I
know a lot of people don't believe certain spiritual things,
but on his dying bed, he was screaming and hollering
and saying that little black people was coming to get him.

(45:16):
So I actually, because I'm in ministry, and I believe
heavily in the power of prayer, and I was able
to go see him and try to lead him to Christ,
and he told me that he knew the Man before
I knew the man, so I don't know how that went,
but I was able to pray over him and the

(45:40):
little people left and he was like, they're leaving, They're leaving.
I'm like, yeah, because yeah, I don't play.

Speaker 3 (45:46):
That's why I didn't leave.

Speaker 1 (45:47):
The beautiful part then, is that you forget.

Speaker 3 (45:52):
That's what I wanted to do. I forget.

Speaker 2 (45:55):
And it was a process, a long process, and it
was a long process for me to forgive my mom
because some parts of what I did not say is
I ended up getting into voodoo after all that stuff
had happened, and I had a voodoo dollar of my mom,
and I had such hate of her for her, and

(46:16):
I wanted to see her dead. And it's not no
secret she knows I cut up pictures of her. I
did seanceins the whole nine yard. I even told her
one particular time that she still remembers and talked to
me about it not that long ago. She said, do
you remember the time you said I was gonna come
down the stairs and break my leg and I did.
I said, yes, ma'am.

Speaker 3 (46:35):
I remember.

Speaker 2 (46:37):
I gave all of that up. And that's why I
said for me, Jesus Christ was my complete savior. Because
I got redeemed, I got healed, I got delivered. I
was able to forgive all of those people. And again
I want to make sure I say it was a
process because even after I gave my life to Christ
started walking as a Christian in the Bible. I remember

(47:00):
a coworker said to me, you're such a powerful woman
in the Lord, but I noticed you still deal with
unforgiveness of your mom And I was like, no, I don't, No,
I don't, No, I don't, but I did.

Speaker 3 (47:13):
Wow. Wow.

Speaker 1 (47:16):
And so you personally went into some deep dark areas
that were areas that you had to be delivered from
in order to have God ultimately work his best work
through you.

Speaker 3 (47:28):
Yes, ma'am.

Speaker 1 (47:29):
And you started YCG Ministries Women's Empowerment and giving hope
to women.

Speaker 3 (47:37):
Yes.

Speaker 1 (47:37):
And so how do you empower women now through your ministry?

Speaker 3 (47:41):
Oh my god.

Speaker 2 (47:42):
Well, I'm a certified life coach, so there's a lot
of people that come to me. I am going to
be looking at becoming a license counselor therapist myself, because
I end up kind of going in a realm that
I'm like, oh my god, I mean, by life, I've
definitely qualified. I don't have that degree. I have a
degree and I'm working on a degree right now. But

(48:05):
I do it.

Speaker 3 (48:06):
By I cloth.

Speaker 2 (48:08):
I feed meeting the needs or whatever they need, being
a listening ear, giving Christian advice, leading them to the Lord,
going out and doing outside ministry.

Speaker 3 (48:23):
You know, it's so much to do. I do a lot.

Speaker 1 (48:27):
It sounds like it, it really does. And what advice
do you give women that are struggling with some of
the same types of issues that you struggle with across
your journey in life.

Speaker 2 (48:38):
The main thing that I like to tell women is
it's not your fault, and make sure that you because
see that's one of.

Speaker 3 (48:46):
The things that that voice.

Speaker 2 (48:48):
That we hear that says it was your fault, it
was your fault. No, it was not your fault.

Speaker 3 (48:54):
And as I told my mom, I said, I don't.

Speaker 2 (48:58):
Care as a child if I was strip but niked
and came to a man.

Speaker 3 (49:04):
A man is gonna say, little girl, if you don't go.

Speaker 1 (49:08):
If you don't get somewhere and I'm gonna tell your
mama because.

Speaker 3 (49:10):
We probably be and probably beat your behind at the
same time. That's what a real man do.

Speaker 2 (49:19):
But you know that, I'm like, they want to use
all of these excuses.

Speaker 3 (49:24):
You know. The main thing I like to tell women
that's going through.

Speaker 2 (49:27):
Is that, Okay, you may be here now, but you
don't know what tomorrow. You need to hang on and
you need to know that first of all, it was
not your fault.

Speaker 1 (49:38):
That's good.

Speaker 2 (49:40):
There's healing for you if you would like. And and
once again I lead them to what you know, christ
and a good therapist.

Speaker 3 (49:49):
Now I didn't have a therapist as a matter of fact.
Very interesting.

Speaker 2 (49:52):
I just got a therapist like the middle of last year,
and she is amazed by my story and we you know,
I just told her, I just, you know, want someone
that I could just maintenance, like you said, maintenance everything, because.

Speaker 3 (50:08):
She's like, girl, I'm trying to see how you made
it this far.

Speaker 5 (50:12):
A lot.

Speaker 1 (50:13):
It's a lot, and I'm really impressed with the beautiful smile,
the great joy that's permeating through your being in the
midst of everything that you've experienced and overcame so this.

Speaker 2 (50:23):
Is God has been so amazing to me. Once again,
not pushing God or religion on anyone. I found relationship
through God.

Speaker 1 (50:34):
All day long.

Speaker 2 (50:36):
I found out my identity and who I was, and
that I am so loved and that God has a
purpose and a plan for Yolanda. Yes, I have been
able to raise four beautiful children who are doing incredible
things in this world. And three of them are college
you know, well, two have master's degrees and one is

(51:00):
getting ready to finish off her bachelor's degree. And then
there's my son who says, well, Mama, college is not.

Speaker 3 (51:06):
For everybody, but.

Speaker 1 (51:08):
That's fine. I have to have mine.

Speaker 2 (51:10):
But they're they're productive, they're they're good, well mannered children.
My middle daughter she married a minister who just got
licensed to be an elder and they're still in ministry
and they.

Speaker 3 (51:25):
Love the board. And I'm grateful and I'm the gg
of four.

Speaker 1 (51:29):
Well, let me pull, Let me pull. I'm actually on
your Facebook page because there were like hundreds of pictures.
So I'm like, if I started trying to download all
of these, my computer's gonna crash.

Speaker 3 (51:38):
Let me, yeah, let me pictures. I love memories.

Speaker 1 (51:42):
Okay, tell me if it. Okay.

Speaker 2 (51:45):
So the little one at the top where my fro
and my glasses and I'm smiling so big. She's older now,
she's two years old, but that's tomorrow joy. And then
I'm around children all the time because.

Speaker 3 (52:01):
I read at school and things like that.

Speaker 2 (52:04):
All that.

Speaker 3 (52:05):
Oh my god, look at you.

Speaker 2 (52:06):
That's my graduation picture on the second row. Yes, right
there s here, yees. I graduated from Denel Community College
in early learning.

Speaker 3 (52:15):
I've been the early.

Speaker 1 (52:16):
Years so happy and content in these pictures. I was like,
do I screenshot every piece and put it on?

Speaker 3 (52:22):
I didn't know what to do.

Speaker 1 (52:23):
I was like, I absolutely love this because.

Speaker 2 (52:25):
It Let's see one, two three, the third row, the
guy with the red that it was no.

Speaker 3 (52:30):
Fortunate my husband Red.

Speaker 2 (52:35):
The deacon in the church as Fred Gayden of twenty
seven years April.

Speaker 1 (52:43):
Is that holding the baby over there is? Okay, look
at y'all. You've been married for twenty seven years, and
what a beautiful thing to have a husband.

Speaker 2 (52:53):
My daughter's wedding on there. Oh he's been he's a
great listener. I bought all of my baggage into my
way into my marriage. There was a few things that
he had to deal with like, you know, touching intimacy,
things like that.

Speaker 3 (53:09):
He's a really good dude, really good dude.

Speaker 1 (53:13):
I see your daughter and her husband down there, I do. Okay,
look what is this? Is this a picture of you
and your family with all the black Let me see.

Speaker 3 (53:24):
I'm trying to see. I can't. Okay, I can't.

Speaker 1 (53:30):
I'm gonna save that and pull it up. Okay, okay, okay.
I just had to.

Speaker 3 (53:33):
Pull some of that because I was like, wow, yeah,
I have tons of pictures.

Speaker 1 (53:38):
I want some of these.

Speaker 5 (53:39):
Two.

Speaker 1 (53:39):
Tell me just.

Speaker 3 (53:40):
Oh that one.

Speaker 2 (53:41):
We just did a networking like it was called Bosses
basically about bosses lunching with networking, and so I was
basically the keynote speaker of that. I uh dibbling dabbling
in poetry. So I read off form called Queen b

(54:02):
and then I talked to all of the queens about
self love because that's one of the biggest things that
my platform is on.

Speaker 3 (54:09):
How to love yourself.

Speaker 1 (54:11):
Yes, yes, how to love yourself. And I think you
can speak volumes to that. And even being married for
twenty seven years and being a mother and a GG,
how does that even influence your overall mission and your work?
That you're doing.

Speaker 3 (54:25):
Oh it has been phenomenal.

Speaker 2 (54:27):
I really have embraced it as well as I can
and just you know, being able to.

Speaker 3 (54:35):
I believe that. Well, some people have told me that
I'm a role model to them. I'm like okay, and
they're like, you don't look like a GG. I'm like, oh, well, good,
because I don't want to look like a GG.

Speaker 2 (54:46):
Right, just being able to inspire other people that, you know,
you can have a family and you still can do
the call of God, you know, and you could be
I'm very active in my you know, my grandchildren's life.
I'm very active going down to bed Rouge this Saturday
for one year birthday party.

Speaker 1 (55:05):
That's so good and so rightfully, so so very.

Speaker 3 (55:09):
You know, very active, you know.

Speaker 2 (55:12):
And you know, I tell my husband right now, since
we're empty nesters, the last one just left last year, Okay,
it's our time. It's really our time, so you know,
so yeah, you see.

Speaker 1 (55:26):
What is this?

Speaker 2 (55:27):
This is your award that you that's your award. I
recently just received that award. I don't even think it's
been three weeks.

Speaker 3 (55:33):
I've just used that award.

Speaker 1 (55:35):
So you never know. You come on to Kim Jacobs Show,
we can have some real eye. It's it's like, you know,
you've been through a lot, but at the end of
the day.

Speaker 3 (55:44):
That's my husband.

Speaker 2 (55:46):
And that is Aisha where the book was inspired Issha
Brown Sugar Wishes. That's my middle daughter. And I'm super excited.
I didn't had no idea that I was gonna win.
I was like, I was listening. I was like, gonna
call somebody else's name, and and I was.

Speaker 1 (56:00):
Like, oh my god, the fascinator on you Like I am.

Speaker 2 (56:07):
I am very I know people tell me I'm animated
all the time. But what is this picture of I
saw this on Facebook.

Speaker 1 (56:15):
I just wanted to pull it out.

Speaker 3 (56:16):
I'm trying to see what that one is.

Speaker 1 (56:21):
It looked like there was some kind of conference or something. Anyway, Okay,
this book I saw that.

Speaker 2 (56:26):
So that one is the last anthology book that I
have been in. In anthology is where a group of
people come together and tell their stories. And so I
tell my story how I went through domestic We didn't
even get to talk about that. I went through the
domestic violence with two relationships where I actually got.

Speaker 1 (56:46):
Beat and we want to all of them.

Speaker 2 (56:51):
Yeah, they I actually confused that with love at the time,
I thought, oh my god.

Speaker 3 (56:56):
He's hitting me. He must really love me.

Speaker 1 (56:59):
Yeah, yeah, See that's the whole thing. And I really
want us to have a domestic violence episode because there
are so many that.

Speaker 2 (57:08):
I have a lot, please you know a lot.

Speaker 1 (57:13):
That's your book release.

Speaker 2 (57:15):
That's my book release, and all of my book release
has been fantastic, has been great. Guy has really blessed me.
I'm getting ready for another book release April the twelve.
If you're anywhere in Monroe, if you anywhere where you
can drive, we're gonna have resources tables set up and
we're gonna be talking about autism.

Speaker 3 (57:34):
Oh good. Being an early learning teacher.

Speaker 2 (57:38):
Is something that I have saw and I really wanted
to highlight. I'm definitely want to highlight all types of disabilities.
But I have a book coming out calls. It's called
Noise Voice.

Speaker 1 (57:49):
Okay, well do I have that picture of that.

Speaker 2 (57:51):
You don't because it's a it's a book reveal cover,
so I haven't released it yet.

Speaker 1 (58:02):
I would get it.

Speaker 3 (58:04):
I will all inquiring minds to actually come out. Okay, Well,
right here is.

Speaker 2 (58:11):
To get into It was a special that I was
running because you know, I don't really want money to
be a factor. Although I'm full time now so I
do have to make a living. But I read a
special to get clients to come in and see how
I do my uh life coaching and how I could
be beneficial to them, right, And so I was giving

(58:33):
them an opportunity by running a special.

Speaker 1 (58:36):
Nice. Okay, that's great, and make sure you all get that,
and make sure you get the QR code if you
want to screen that you can take. Okay.

Speaker 2 (58:47):
And this was Mommy and Me Affirmation Social Oh my god,
it was phenomenal podcast. I so enjoyed it. I also
I read another poem that I had did. God been
dealing me about going and revisiting poetry.

Speaker 3 (59:03):
I used to write it all the time, and so yeah,
so I did that.

Speaker 2 (59:10):
And then I also talked about self love because it's
just really like my staple point besides talking about all
the other things that I can elaborate and talk about
on a personal note from personal experience, God has been
good to me. I've had a really blessed life. If
I was to go home and be with the Lord today,

(59:31):
not ready, but if I were, if that was his choice,
I can honestly say the little girl who was lost,
who was confused, who was broken, wanted to die? Who
had depression that I was fighting? Who thought I was worthless?
Who cried myself to bed many nights I'm talking about
I cried his sterical I never knew this was the

(59:56):
plan that God had from me. I helped change lives.
I do a lot of ministry. I work a lot
of departments in my local church. Shout out to my pastor,
Pastor Ronaldale Green and my first lady, first Ronaldale Green.

Speaker 1 (01:00:11):
Where they located.

Speaker 2 (01:00:12):
Come on, They're in Monroe, Louisiana. My first lady Maryland
Diane Green, who is also my big sister. She adopted
me thirty years ago and she is a phenomenal big sister.

Speaker 3 (01:00:23):
I love both of them.

Speaker 2 (01:00:25):
I love my ministries in Marrala, Louisiana, Highway fifteen, Spirit
of Deliverance, Church of God in Christ.

Speaker 3 (01:00:31):
I'm a Kojak.

Speaker 1 (01:00:32):
Girl, all right, I'm coaching over here too. I didn't
know that, Yes come through Kojak. And in North Carolina,
Second Jurisdiction Cowell and Lady Beverly Cowell and mother Patricia D. Lofton,
Yes come through.

Speaker 2 (01:00:48):
Yeah, but very proud of that hair just too. I
know coaching is not the only people that have it right.
I'm not a denominational, you know, believing that we all
have it right here. But I do love the Granno
Church of God in Christ and that has been you
know where God has you know, had me for the
last thirty years and it has been phenomenal.

Speaker 1 (01:01:09):
What's your past his first name again, Ronald Pastor Ronald agreed, Okay, yes,
all right, this is so oh my gosh. I'm thoroughly
enjoying our conversation. And like I said, I feel like
it's been it's been a roller coaster ride, but I'm
glad to see that it has.

Speaker 2 (01:01:26):
And it's so many more missing pieces, so I would
love to come back. And those are just someone buying
the Hannah books and I had to put them in
a little cover to protect them.

Speaker 3 (01:01:39):
I think that person about like ten apiece.

Speaker 2 (01:01:41):
The Sensory Family event, it was another guy that's really
been all of my events. People have Monroe have showed
up and showed out, you know, and I'm very thankful,
very very thankful.

Speaker 1 (01:01:54):
It sounds like it sounds like you're just oozing with gratitude.
That's what I think. I'm walking away with no matter
what happens in our lives, our circumstances don't always dictate
the outcome of our destiny. There you think God, And
that's so. I just want to give a shout out
again to your husband. I think that for him to
be there by your side for so many years and

(01:02:17):
you all are happy, and Gigi and granddads and all
of that stuff. Oh, Papa, Okay, Paul, Pa, that's so beautiful.
Is there anything else that you wanted to say that
that would be something that you want people to walk

(01:02:38):
away knowing about you? Because this, this picture right here
is the picture. It's the epic picture to me to say, girl,
I got the last laugh. I'm living my best life.

Speaker 3 (01:02:51):
And once again I truly am God.

Speaker 2 (01:02:54):
I really wish I could put it into words, but
what I say God has been so I don't want
to do this.

Speaker 3 (01:03:02):
God has been so faithful to me.

Speaker 2 (01:03:05):
I have had an incredible, amazing life full of love,
all the things you know that I.

Speaker 3 (01:03:13):
Wasn't given as a little girl.

Speaker 2 (01:03:15):
God has more than made up for all the birthdays
that I didn't celebrate as a little girl. People will
tell you here Monroe, I celebrate my birthdays in a
grand way.

Speaker 1 (01:03:26):
What do you do for your birthday?

Speaker 3 (01:03:28):
Oh?

Speaker 2 (01:03:28):
A lot of times, like I think the last one
I did. I had a photographer, I had decorations. We
went to a restaurant. I had a huge, big cake.
People around me, so, you know, just showed love and
gave gifts. They got to stand up and speak. You
know a lot of people told me, you know what
I meant to them in their lives. I had student workers.

(01:03:48):
Oh thank you, ni, please, thank you so much.

Speaker 3 (01:03:56):
Hey, beautiful, love love love love, I love.

Speaker 1 (01:04:02):
And then let me say this till Sandy Sanders said powerful.
These are the type of testimonies that will lead other
people to Christ.

Speaker 2 (01:04:09):
Yes, I'm very transparent, and I don't think it's no
other way to you know, go people look at me
now and I give people all the time say, oh
my god, you're this author, You're this motivational speaker, you
this certified life coach.

Speaker 3 (01:04:21):
Oh my god, you're doing it all these wonderful, big,
you know things.

Speaker 2 (01:04:25):
And I'm like, you're looking at glory, but can I
can I give you a few minutes to tell you
my story.

Speaker 3 (01:04:32):
You're looking at the glory, but only if you knew
the story behind the glory.

Speaker 1 (01:04:37):
Thank you Jesus. Girl, you're gonna have me over here
like laid back. You're in office, yes, but I will
be slain in the spirit anywhere anywhere.

Speaker 2 (01:04:49):
The little girl that used to be so broken that
you you know, I became a bully.

Speaker 3 (01:04:55):
I struggled in school.

Speaker 2 (01:04:57):
Now there was some things I did really well. I've
always done really well in English and history. I always
made straight a's through all of it. But I struggled
because I didn't know I had a learning disability. It
was not talked about doing those days. My grandmother, of
course didn't know. She couldn't help me with anything home work.
I was always on my own. But I was always
a reader. Even when I struggled reading, I always read.

(01:05:20):
And one thing grandmother did deposit that I think is
a big part of who I am today. A lot
of things she deposed, but this one in particular. I
was in a book club and I had books coming
to the house all the time. Oh good, and so
you know, but I never saw brown skinned little girls.

Speaker 3 (01:05:39):
That looked like me.

Speaker 1 (01:05:41):
Now, why you're making that happen for people?

Speaker 3 (01:05:43):
Now, I'm making that happen for people.

Speaker 1 (01:05:45):
Good. I am so grateful that you took the time
to be a guess. It's by far very enlightening, informative, uplifting, edifying, disturbing,
oh kind of. You can put any kind of actives
and there there's been a lot on this episode today.
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May supports the Kim Jacobs So even though she my mama,
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Speaker 3 (01:07:32):
That's right. It's a blessing.

Speaker 1 (01:07:33):
So thank you, mommy. And I'm seeing any other people
that are on here today that I just would like
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Praise the Lord.

Speaker 2 (01:07:54):
God is so awesome and amazing and he can turn
your life into something that you never would as saw
and imagine. And I also do want to say that
at this point in time, I love my mother. I've
forgiven her for all that she has done. We have
a great relationship. She's in another state and recently lost

(01:08:17):
her husband of thirty five years. Y'all keep her in prayer.
I love her dearly. We have healed and we have
moved on.

Speaker 3 (01:08:25):
My mom had me I think at fifteen, very young.

Speaker 2 (01:08:29):
And so I also listened to her story and understood
things even better.

Speaker 3 (01:08:34):
So glory onto the most High God.

Speaker 2 (01:08:38):
You know, stay faithful, get in the word, give your
life over to Christ.

Speaker 3 (01:08:43):
He is the true and living God.

Speaker 1 (01:08:47):
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It's one of my main platforms. I am on TikTok
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Speaker 3 (01:09:08):
Thank you so much, and thank you.

Speaker 2 (01:09:11):
Thank you, thank you so much, Kem for all that
you're doing with your amazing show. May God continue to
bless all of your efforts. You know, contina to go
forth and continue to do the work of the Lord.

Speaker 1 (01:09:24):
Thank you so much for being here. You've made my
heart glad. My cheeks are burning from just smiling and
being with you and spending this time. Thank you all
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Love you all, and we will see you again tomorrow
at eleven o'clock AM Eastern Standard time. Oh wait, wait, wait,
what am I doing to make sure I tell y'all this?
What in the world? I gotta let y'all know that
I'm a new pastor here in Charlotte, North Carolina. We
invite you to be a part of our Sunday worship
experience on Sundays. If you have not come to visit

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with us yet, we'll put it over in the comments section,
and we want you to come and stand on the
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I did have the image here, the final image here
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yes it's an event venue, but it is a sanctuary

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on Sundays, so make sure I'm in fellowship with us.
All right, everybody, God bless you and have a grand
arrest of your day. Love you all, I'll see you backstage.
Thank you for tuning in to today's episode of The
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Your presence truly does make a difference, and I look
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