If no basis for morality or meaning to life then... (pt 8)

I realized that I did not have a basis for deciding what is right or what is wrong, and that was very uncomfortable. And so, the discomfort intensified.




Making a long story short, once I went back home to Omaha, Nebraska I actually reached the point where life seemed meaningless because those were the logical conclusions of my atheistic assumptions. And when I reached that point where I couldn't care whether I lived or died (because everything was meaningless) suddenly I could hear God. It was...it just... out of the blue air...just out of the blue I could hear God plainly and I had this urge...I didn't know it was God, but i did, but I didn't. c; and it just became more and more overbearing.


I was playing in a Gospel group, you know, they asked me and I said, "I like music. Sure, I'll play anything." And so we were playing in a church and so, anyway I went back to that church and asked them for a Bible and she said, " A Bible?! Warrior wants a Bible?" So, I couldn't stop reading the Bible. I was unemployed at the time. I woke up, ate breakfast, read the Bible, ate lunch, read the Bible, ate dinner, read the Bible. And I did that for about a week and then I got a job and I read the Bible from cover to cover for about three times...once a month I guess (something like that) and then I couldn't stop reading it. I couldn't do anything else.



And then I went to my Grandfather's church. He hadn't heard me play my saxophone in, oh, decades. And, so, I was a celebrity--the pastor's grandson, he was a bishop at the time. He had just become a bishop of the Church of God in Christ; and so, I was a celebrity. They hadn't seen me in a long time and certainly not in a church; and so they ushered me down to the bandstand with my saxophone and they stuck the microphone down the bell of my horn.



It was the Church of God in Christ so, these alter calls last forever. It lasted for at least an hour. I think it was longer than that. I think it was an hour and a half. Yeah, I think it was an hour and a half long alter call