March 3, 2025 • 68 mins
🌟 In this soul-stirring episode, we sit down with Portia Chigariro, a healer, psychic medium, and guide for those on the journey of transformation. 🌿✨ From her roots in Zimbabwe to overcoming deep personal loss, Portia shares her powerful story of grief, resilience, and spiritual awakening. 💫 Join us as we explore her unique insights on energy healing, meditation, and manifestation—helping others find joy, purpose, and limitless possibilities! 🎧🔥
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Is this such a thing? Is it possible?
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Not only is it possible, it can be very easy
to do. You decide to do it because worry is
nothing more than a response that you choose. There are
plenty of others, much more empower responses. You know, no
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Requirement for you to worry about it.
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Think about it, and you will also see that, you know,
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You have no idea worry It's just a central part
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right listen, So is my life? My life is chaotic?
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Heck? Did?
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I have six children and a lot of things that
I do in my businesses.
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So yeah, I understand how chaotic.
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You know, life be lifeing sometimes and things happen, you know,
But you can also think about gratitude, like you woke
up today, like some of us have the use of
our arms and legs and mind. That's you know, that's
pretty incredible. Every single day, so I kind of shift
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my focus on the things that I can control. I mean,
I can't control waking up, but I'm thankful that I do,
and that kind of alleviates my worry because that gives
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for me, for you, and for the world. What help,
Ladies and gentlemen. Welcome to VRL or Vigilantes Radio Live.
I want to introduce our next guests. Some individuals walk
through life merely just assisting, but others ignite the flames
of transformation, not just for themselves but.
Speaker 3 (04:48):
For those they touch. And our next guest Portia Sigariro.
Speaker 4 (04:55):
It's one of those luminous souls from the heart of
Zimbabwe to the spiritual n of deep healing. She has
turned personal tragedy into a beacon of light for others.
A gifted psychic medium, energy healer and guide, Porsia helped
souls break free from the past and embrace the magic
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of the present. Her story is one of resilience, love,
and boundless William Wisdom. With that, let's say welcome friend
to Porsche.
Speaker 2 (05:28):
Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, hid Hello Hello. Thank you for
having me.
Speaker 3 (05:36):
Absolutely absolutely we are excited that you're.
Speaker 4 (05:39):
Here with us.
Speaker 7 (05:40):
Thank you.
Speaker 2 (05:42):
What an exciting introduction.
Speaker 3 (05:45):
Thank you, You're welcome. You're welcome, Thank you, Porsche. Before
we dive in, what has been on your heart and
mind lately?
Speaker 7 (05:56):
What has been on my heart and mind lately? You know,
it's a funny thing since I'm a coach, you probably
laugh at this one, that I'm changing, that I'm having
to adapt, that you never quite arrived. Actually, you know,
healing is a process.
Speaker 2 (06:15):
Healing is something that you continue to go through and
you learn new things as you go. And what if
I been.
Speaker 7 (06:23):
Thinking about lately is just how much I've grown, I think,
just how peaceful I feel, how I feel.
Speaker 2 (06:33):
Yeah, that's it.
Speaker 4 (06:36):
Yeah, you know what Portia, I would rather have a
coach that is changing and that changes. Yeah, because you
really don't ever reach the top of the mountain per se,
you know, and if you did, what is the next challenge,
What is the next plateau, What is the next thing
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in your climate?
Speaker 3 (06:59):
So I would read.
Speaker 4 (07:00):
Therefore, someone who's coaching me to also be changing because
as I grow, you know, if I outgrow.
Speaker 3 (07:06):
My coach, what what what?
Speaker 2 (07:08):
What I need to coach for exactly exactly?
Speaker 3 (07:12):
So I love that. I love that.
Speaker 4 (07:13):
Yeah yeah, yeah, So from adversity to awakening, you've lived
through immense personal laws, a cultural shift, and internal battles
with PTSD.
Speaker 3 (07:30):
Can you take us back to a defining moment when.
Speaker 4 (07:33):
You realize you had to take control of your healing
journey and if you want to go even further before that,
just to give a little context about your beginnings and.
Speaker 3 (07:42):
Your life, please feel fear, Please feel free to share.
Speaker 2 (07:46):
Yes. When I was listening to your introduction, it struck
a chord with me.
Speaker 7 (07:52):
You have six children, Well, yeah, I grew up in
a family of six, so I'm number four. So I
I understand that you are quite in it yourself. So basically,
I was born in Zimbabwe, the fourth child out of six.
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My parents were both in the war for liberation because
we had a parthaid in our country.
Speaker 2 (08:18):
It wasn't just in South Africa, we had it in
Zimbabwe as well.
Speaker 7 (08:23):
So I was born four years after the end of
the war and it was still quite quite difficult. At
that time, still a lot of things that were not
quite right. People were still displaced, there was a lot
of turmoil and stuff going on. But my parents managed
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somehow through all of that to educate themselves.
Speaker 2 (08:47):
And to buy a farm. So we grew up on
a farm.
Speaker 7 (08:52):
Outside the city and we all went to boarding school,
so we were away from home most of the time.
Speaker 2 (09:00):
And at school we were.
Speaker 7 (09:04):
Kind of thrown into the deep end because we were
the only black kids. My brother and I were the
only black kids in the school of three hundred white children,
and that was really tough. We were there for a
week at a time, so we started at the ages
of five until age of twelve, and so that was
already quite.
Speaker 2 (09:25):
You know, something to sort of to get used to,
and it was confrontational. Really. There were a lot of
things that we had to go.
Speaker 7 (09:35):
Through proving ourselves and constantly working harder.
Speaker 4 (09:39):
You know.
Speaker 7 (09:39):
We basically all turned into overachievers, I think, which is
one of the first trauma sciens, I would say.
Speaker 2 (09:49):
And so from there we went through I went through
school and at the age of thirteen, my mom died
rather tragically.
Speaker 7 (10:01):
Her and my father had a difficult relationship. I would say,
without going too much into detail, it was not very.
Speaker 2 (10:10):
Nurturing. You know, for my mother, she was quite depressed
and I think she just gave up.
Speaker 5 (10:16):
So she.
Speaker 7 (10:19):
Went to visit her mother one day after dropping us
at school, and then she just never came home, you know,
she was just gone. And so that was really really,
I think, a moment where I think everything for me
just sort.
Speaker 2 (10:32):
Of my whole world just fell apart. Because she was
my foundation, she was my.
Speaker 7 (10:39):
Sense of existence, my source of nonconditional love. She guided me,
she taught me things, she protected me, and then I
just found myself in the world that I felt was
just full of monsters and things that I didn't understand
and people I didn't I couldn't communicate with.
Speaker 2 (10:57):
And I started to spiral from that point, and I
started to fail at school.
Speaker 7 (11:06):
I wasn't able to pay attention in class, and eventually
that turned into me leaving my father's house when I
was seventeen and then started living on my own, and
I created a business selling secondhand things, an antique store.
You know.
Speaker 2 (11:23):
I used to sell little nick nick backs and things.
Speaker 7 (11:26):
People would bring me things from their garages and I
would sell them, and it was going pretty well, but
still it was a very, very sort of difficult existence.
I was on my own with no real family around me.
Everybody was sort of dispersed. My sister's left, my brother
also left. My younger sister my younger brother were too
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small to kind of spend time with me or to
be around me, and my dad wouldn't really let.
Speaker 2 (11:55):
Us see each other because I had left.
Speaker 7 (11:57):
So that created a huge sort of sense loneliness for me,
and I found myself.
Speaker 2 (12:02):
Caught up a little bit in a world of.
Speaker 7 (12:07):
You know, sort of teenage mischief for a little bit
of drugs and alcohol and that kind of thing. And
then I got pregnant and I decided to keep the child.
So my son turned twenty last week. I'm really proud
of him. And I had my baby, and then I
(12:27):
moved to South Africa, and there I met my now
ex husband who was in Belgium, and we got married.
And then I moved to Belgium and we had two
more children, two girls who won our thirteen and ten,
and well the marriage didn't work out and now we're divorced. Yeah,
(12:50):
So through all of that, I think at some point,
maybe five years ago, I just woke up one day.
Speaker 2 (12:58):
You know, it's really difficult to explain.
Speaker 7 (13:00):
I don't really think that it was a moment as
per se or anything in particular.
Speaker 2 (13:05):
I think all these things.
Speaker 7 (13:06):
What happens is it just sort of builds up, and
one day I just woke up and I just didn't want.
Speaker 2 (13:13):
To live anymore. You know, I just looked around and
I didn't recognize myself. I didn't I couldn't breathe. I
was just like shrinking my soul.
Speaker 7 (13:27):
I was just wishing the earth would open up and
eat me up, you know, just I just wanted to disappear.
Speaker 2 (13:32):
And the only thing that kept me going was my kids.
And in that moment, I said to myself, Okay, so
what are you going to do?
Speaker 7 (13:41):
You know, are you going to stay in your marriage?
Are you going to keep going on like this? What
does your life look like? And the thoughts of my
future made me want to not live anymore. So I
had to take the decision to end my marriage and
to start taking steps to heal myself and to go
really down to the core of why I was feeling
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that way, and to really start dissecting all the little
things that had happened to me since I was a child,
because I was also sexually abused since between the ages
of five and ten.
Speaker 2 (14:18):
By a close family relative. This is also something we
don't talk a lot about.
Speaker 7 (14:22):
In I don't know about black culture and America, but
I know that in Africa it's very skept a secret.
These are things that we don't discuss and rarely condemn.
You know, the person will be welcomed into the family
and we won't discuss it. So there were lots of
things like that that I had to delve into and
(14:43):
to really go deeper and to start to really try
to understand what was going on with me, why I
was feeling this way, and why I just.
Speaker 2 (14:53):
Suddenly was feeling like I didn't want to live anymore.
Yeah yeah, wow, Yeah.
Speaker 3 (15:02):
So you began to.
Speaker 4 (15:06):
Take these things that were making you feel this way
and internalize them, but also deal with them because you
had to move forward because you had three children.
Speaker 3 (15:20):
What was your first step, Well, my.
Speaker 7 (15:22):
First step, my first step really, you know, I think
it's very important to be honest about these things. It's
not something that you would say, Okay, I've got a problem,
how am I going to fix it?
Speaker 2 (15:35):
You know, or like this is the solution. It didn't
work that way.
Speaker 7 (15:39):
Actually, I went through abusing myself drinking. I've never been
any kind of addict, but I mean I could easily.
Speaker 2 (15:48):
Drink a bottle of wine by myself when I didn't
have my kids because I didn't want to feel anything.
So I went through this sort of numbing process.
Speaker 7 (15:56):
You know, where I became aware of the problem, but
then I didn't want to deal with it, so I
would numb myself.
Speaker 2 (16:04):
And I did that for about a year, I think,
you know, getting into.
Speaker 7 (16:09):
Relationships where I could focus on somebody else, or friendships
where I would just be focusing on other people and
on myself, or drink myself to sleep whenever I could,
if I didn't have to get up the next day,
you know, all those kinds of things. That's sort of
like coping mechanisms. And I think that was the first stage.
(16:29):
It was the easiest, you know, sort of disassociating, you know,
the first stages is trying to disassociate from the issue,
which is what I went through until I realized that
actually it's not working.
Speaker 2 (16:42):
Eventually all that stops to work, you know, at some
point it stopped working. Yeah, yeah, So after that, what
did you do well? When I stopped working.
Speaker 3 (16:58):
I had to.
Speaker 2 (17:00):
Face it, you know.
Speaker 7 (17:01):
Then I had a conversation with myself and I said, Okay,
so what are we going to do? And I said, well,
I'm going to ask for help. So I started going
to therapy. I started trying to vocalize what I was
feeling and what I had experienced. And speaking to a
therapist helped me because it helped me to see that actually,
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there's nothing wrong with me, that what was done to
me was.
Speaker 2 (17:25):
Wrong, and that it's not something that I should hide.
Speaker 7 (17:28):
It's not something that I should be protecting anybody about,
and that there are a lot of experiences that I've
lived that I should not have lived. And so it
helped me to sort of see it from the outside
looking in, you know, to be less overwhelmed by it.
Speaker 2 (17:45):
So that helped me a lot. I use some plant medicines.
I don't know if you've heard of ayahuasca that really
really really helped me. That really helped me.
Speaker 8 (18:00):
But that's something that I did after about two years,
I think about two years of therapy and trying to
live consciously and actually being aware of what my issues were.
Speaker 7 (18:16):
The plant medicine really really helped me because that sort
of helped me to look at the problems.
Speaker 2 (18:24):
Without feeling the pain as per se, you know, just
to be an observer of the problem and not to
associate myself with it.
Speaker 7 (18:32):
So I was able to do that with the death
of my mother, with my relationship with my father, which
is still quite strange now. I mean, we don't speak
at the moment. It's not something that I think will
last forever. But for the moment, I think it's just
divine intervention.
Speaker 2 (18:49):
It's just the way that it is. We cannot be
in each other's lives at this point.
Speaker 3 (18:55):
Yeah, yeah, like a volatile mix. I guy, yeah, Iohasca.
Speaker 4 (19:02):
I've had a few partitioners on this show, coaches who
actually have retreats, and I always make this joke because
they always tell me the most graphic part about it,
you know, with everyone in the hut just boobooing on themselves.
Speaker 2 (19:19):
Oh my gosh.
Speaker 7 (19:20):
Well, okay, there are some things, yes, I mean, one
thing I must tell you is I wouldn't recommend doing
it in a huge group of people, because it is
true there are some people who have you know, it
brings out what it needs to bring out, that's right, right,
So you know, if you're going to do it, I
think try to do it in smaller groups like two
or three people.
Speaker 9 (19:40):
Even if you can do it on your own with
a therapist, I think I would recommend that. But I mean,
I just I just cried, you know, I cried a lot.
It brings out, it goes where it needs to go.
So it does do like physical cleansing as well.
Speaker 7 (19:57):
Yeah, because some people have blockagein in their body physically,
you know, which is also part of the energy healing,
one of the techniques that I do, because it's not
only you know, blockages are emotional.
Speaker 2 (20:10):
Blockages are expressed through tears, and when you move your body,
you know, when your muscles tense up, these are all blockages,
and so yeah, it can be a bit graphic.
Speaker 3 (20:23):
Yeah.
Speaker 7 (20:24):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (20:25):
I had a friend who went not too long ago,
and he said his experience was pretty pleasant.
Speaker 3 (20:32):
Yeah, he said he cried the entire time too.
Speaker 5 (20:35):
Yeah.
Speaker 7 (20:36):
Yeah, Yeah, it was such an amazing experience, a really beautiful,
beautiful experience because I think I had shut myself down
from thinking about my mother because it.
Speaker 2 (20:47):
Was so painful that I didn't allow myself.
Speaker 7 (20:51):
To see her as a woman, to see her as
somebody who may have been happy in her life at
some point, you.
Speaker 2 (20:56):
Know, to experience her feminine energy.
Speaker 7 (21:00):
And when I had the experience with ayahuasca, I was
able to connect to just the feminine side of her,
the young woman in her, the woman who.
Speaker 2 (21:12):
Was happily married. I suppose at some point.
Speaker 7 (21:15):
I mean, it's not presumptuous of me to assume she
was unhappy the whole time.
Speaker 2 (21:19):
I'm sure they must have been happy at some point.
Speaker 10 (21:24):
Or on occasion, but that was It helped me to
make peace with that that she was not just suffering
all the time, and that.
Speaker 2 (21:35):
I could actually connect to my mother without the suffering.
Speaker 3 (21:39):
Yes.
Speaker 4 (21:40):
Yeah, so, as someone who has walked this journey before,
losing a mother at a young age is a heartbreak.
You know, if you can fathom what were some of
the raws emotions you had to confront and now that
you are who you are, how did they shape the
way that you help others through grief.
Speaker 7 (22:02):
Definitely, suicide I think was one of them, you know,
constant thoughts of suicide, But you know, I think I've
always been kind of not.
Speaker 2 (22:09):
Necessarily I'm not suicidal.
Speaker 7 (22:11):
I've never been suicidal, but it's sort of the trying
to bargain with God, and then just wanting to die,
not wanting to die, and then sort of wanting to
bargain with God and then really sort of pushing the
limits of how much I can hurt myself and maybe
God will save me, or let.
Speaker 2 (22:32):
Me see how far I can go with just letting
go and see what God does. You know, I think
the most extreme emotion I had was cursing God literally,
like I just.
Speaker 7 (22:50):
Was so angry about life and everything that I had
experienced that I just completely lost faith in my self
in not necessarily all things good, but in goodness, you know,
in light.
Speaker 2 (23:07):
And for me, that was I think the.
Speaker 7 (23:09):
Most extreme feeling that I could have experienced, because I
lived by that. You know, I've always been somebody who's
generally very happy.
Speaker 2 (23:21):
I love to laugh. Joy is a part of my existence.
Speaker 7 (23:26):
And I think sadness, just this constant, melancholic kind of
feeling for me, was just giving up on life was
I think the worst, the most extreme feeling I've had.
Speaker 3 (23:44):
Yeah, yeah, you know, when you're going through the most.
Speaker 4 (23:53):
Well the deepest pains in life as possible, you know,
you asked that question, why me or why did this
happen to me. And sometimes when you're searching for the answer,
you come up with, Oh, it must be God, it
must be God's fault.
Speaker 3 (24:08):
This happened. Yeah, I put all this on God. This
is this is guy's miss. He didn't look out for me.
Speaker 4 (24:15):
And I know that because I walked that same that
same journey trying to find.
Speaker 3 (24:21):
I used to be this way and now I'm this way.
What happened, Oh, God happened, That's what happened.
Speaker 4 (24:26):
I did not step in on by and you know,
I go to war with God, turn my back on him,
and you know, and I understand that hurt frustrations can
cause that, you know, that answer to come to say,
oh yeah, I'm gonna blame the highest power for my situation,
and you know, it's just not true when you come
(24:47):
back to the answer. I'm the son of a evangelist.
You know, I've been in church my entire life. I
volunteer in the church today. But still there were points
in my path was like, yo, I'm supposed to be
protected from all this.
Speaker 2 (25:00):
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 7 (25:06):
I think it's also the way that I was raised
as well, you know, because and my mom was also
very Christian, and we prayed a lot and.
Speaker 2 (25:16):
Everything seemed okay.
Speaker 7 (25:17):
You know, when my mom was alive, I really felt
this protection and everything seemed rosy and.
Speaker 2 (25:24):
You know, just better. It wasn't perfect, but it was better.
And then when I was on my own, I really
really really believed that it was God's fault.
Speaker 7 (25:33):
And I really took it very, very personally for a
couple of years, and I heard myself quite a lot
in that period of time, not physically but emotionally, you know.
And that's when I started to realize that actually, the
way that I had been taught about Christianity and God and.
Speaker 2 (25:52):
The Bible was in a way that actually took my
own power away from me.
Speaker 7 (25:58):
And when I started to realize that actually it's not God,
it's me, I started to make the connections between what
the Bible really is to me and what God really
means to me, you know. And I think that's where
I started to my psychic abilities and mediumship started to
(26:19):
slowly come back, because I started to turn inwards and
to ask myself and to look inside and say, but
who am I? You know, what role do I play
in this life? And is God really out there or
is he in here? And I think that's when it
really started to turn around for me. And that's how
(26:40):
I help people now, is to help them to understand
that it's not about externalizing things in your life.
Speaker 2 (26:47):
You actually it's about looking inside. You know, all the
love and the things that we're looking for out.
Speaker 7 (26:52):
There, or the recognition or the even the resolving pain
and everything that we've lived, it starts here insigne you.
And it's not about pointing a finger and saying it's
this person's fault or that one's fault, or it's God
or you know.
Speaker 2 (27:10):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (27:12):
Indeed, indeed, so grown up in Zimbabwe after its liberation
must have been a unique experience. How did witnessing a
nation's rebirth influence your perspective on perseverance and emotional healing?
Speaker 2 (27:29):
You know what.
Speaker 7 (27:32):
I have this I have to say though my father
is an extraordinary man, he's an extraordinary human being.
Speaker 2 (27:40):
He and my mother too. My mother was too. They
were not allowed to go to school, so they had
to be educated.
Speaker 7 (27:50):
By the missionaries, you know, by the church, because they
were also what happened was during a party, they put
all the people of color in reserves, so outside the
city and in certain neighborhoods, and you had to live.
Speaker 2 (28:05):
There, and they had a curfew where they could only.
Speaker 7 (28:08):
Dook blue college jobs, so they couldn't work in offices,
they couldn't go to school, they couldn't be educated or
do anything that would lift them up. They had to
do to work in the fields and do all those
kinds of things. And this is until nineteen eighty and
so the only people that were allowed to give them
an education were the missionaries.
Speaker 11 (28:28):
And my father went and learned English mathematics and studied
with them, and then from there he joined the Rhodesian
police because they needed to hire indigenous people to police themselves.
Speaker 2 (28:43):
That's kind of how it used to work.
Speaker 7 (28:45):
And then from there he started as a coffee boy
in an insurance company in the seventies and he worked
his way up until he became the CEO of one
of the biggest insurance companies in Africa. And this he
did through just tunnel vision, the amazing power of manifestation
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which he has, and his belief in himself and watching
my parents.
Speaker 2 (29:10):
My mom did the same thing as well.
Speaker 7 (29:12):
She was a professor at the university in Kenya and
in Tanzania, and watching them get through all these things
that other people in the family because there were other
family members and you know, who were constantly sort of
feeding us the story of we're not allowed to do this,
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we can't do this, and you know, they call them Sam.
My dad is Sam, and they're like, how can you
how do you do this?
Speaker 6 (29:37):
Sam?
Speaker 2 (29:37):
How do you manage to do this? And like, how
did you get to where you are?
Speaker 7 (29:41):
Watching my parents create this life for themselves in complete
opposition to what they were being told they could do
and or allowed to do really really made me a
go get her, you know. It really made me somebody
who dreams big. It really made me see that you know.
Speaker 2 (30:03):
Your skin color is nothing but a limitation that you
put on yourself. You can do anything that you put
your mind to. You know.
Speaker 7 (30:11):
It's just that if you give in to negativity and
criticisms and what people tell you that you are, then
that's what you'll become. So, I mean I was called
names all the time. Every time something got stolen at school,
it was me or my brother, you know, every time
there was like it was always always always like that.
Speaker 2 (30:32):
And I remember at some point, I mean I don't
know exactly when.
Speaker 7 (30:35):
But at some point I must have decided to myself
as a kid, I'm either going to sink or I'm
going to swim.
Speaker 2 (30:40):
So I just became the best in class at all
all subjects. I was the best in athletics. I was
the best in all sports. And that was it, and
my life was good. I figured that.
Speaker 7 (30:51):
Out pretty young, and I just continued like that for
quite a while, and so it made me strong.
Speaker 2 (30:57):
It made me really really strong. And so today in
my life today, i'd have to be honest that I
don't I'm not going to deny racism. Of course it exists,
but I don't let it stop me.
Speaker 3 (31:12):
Yeah.
Speaker 7 (31:13):
I don't live my life according to the principles of
the color of my skin or what people tell me
I'm allowed to do, or where I've been raised or
where I think I'm going. I just decide this is
what I want to do, and I go for it.
Speaker 3 (31:32):
Indeed, indeed.
Speaker 4 (31:33):
Yeah, So the calling of a medium, some people discover
their purpose gradually, while others experienced a defining revelation.
Speaker 3 (31:43):
Was there a single moment when you knew you had
psychic abilities? Or did it an unfold over time.
Speaker 7 (31:51):
It started when I was really small, and I don't
remember this, but my parents have been telling me since
I was young.
Speaker 2 (32:01):
When I was four years old, we were driving in
the car and I woke up and said to my dad,
you're going to perish.
Speaker 7 (32:11):
In our native language, which I didn't even know the
words at that time.
Speaker 2 (32:15):
So I was channeling some.
Speaker 7 (32:16):
Kind of message but through our native language, you know,
which is really odd for a four year old. And
so they just looked at me and thought, oh, well, okay.
And two weeks later, my dad nearly had a fatal accident.
He was crossing the street and the car hit a
motorbike and hit him and he nearly died.
Speaker 2 (32:39):
Oh yeah, yeah, And then my mom started to notice.
Speaker 7 (32:44):
My dad was very aware of it, and he says, okay, well,
they remember that I had told him these things, and
from then on I would quite often just say little
things sort of in passing, you know, just like not
really thinking about it, just say something.
Speaker 2 (33:00):
And so they've been telling me that since I was
a child, that I that I had that I would
do these things, that I would say these things.
Speaker 7 (33:08):
And I think at some point, because in my culture
it's something that's feared, and also because you know, we
our culture has been sort of diluted as well by
Christianity and so it's looked down upon. It's kind of
people say it's the devil. So so, you know, I
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think I shut it down a bit because I was
afraid of being judged and being treated differently.
Speaker 2 (33:39):
And I didn't really know what was happening, you know,
to me.
Speaker 12 (33:44):
But I would have experiences where I would see people
in my room, or I would experience presences in the house,
or just people with strange or.
Speaker 7 (33:56):
Bizarre intentions would distance themselves from me in the family
for some reason, and my parents were always watching and
they would always notice, and they would always point this out.
Like I had an uncle who was into drug dealing
and things for some reason, I don't know. He got
into some trouble and he came to visit my dad
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on a particular.
Speaker 2 (34:19):
Day when he was in trouble being chased by some guys.
Speaker 7 (34:22):
He owed money or something like that, and he came
into the house and he tried to shake.
Speaker 2 (34:27):
My hand, and he took my hand, and you shook
my hand, and I kind of pulled my hand away,
and I started wiping my hand away, you know, And
I was telling my dad, no, no, no, like his energy,
like he's dirty, he's dirty.
Speaker 7 (34:38):
There's something wrong with him, and it sort of came
out a few days later that this is what was
going on, you know, with him.
Speaker 13 (34:45):
So they were like it always, it's a very subtle thing.
It started with very subtle messages, nothing direct, just sort
of feelings and little words and messages.
Speaker 2 (34:56):
And then it went away for a long time. Yeah.
Speaker 4 (35:01):
Wow, And that's because you put it away out of
fear of you know, the country was Christian based, and
you know, sometimes that's shown a bond when it's.
Speaker 3 (35:14):
Not proceed from, you know, the powers that Christians think
it comes from.
Speaker 7 (35:18):
Yes, But then I think there was also the sexual
abuse that I experienced, because what happens with with these
things is that it's you have to be connected to
your body, and when you go through physical or emotional
mental sexual abuse, you disassociate from your body and so
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you're no longer in connection with your body. And I
think this when this began, I think I started to
disassociate from myself and so I wasn't in my like,
even listening to myself anymore. That's another thing I realized
when when I decided that I wanted to divorce, is
that I realized that I hadn't actually felt my heartbeat
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in like ten fifteen years, like my own heartbeat, like
listened to my own heart.
Speaker 2 (36:11):
I felt like I've been living my life holding my breath.
Speaker 3 (36:16):
Wow.
Speaker 2 (36:17):
Yeah yeah. And I realized that.
Speaker 7 (36:27):
I've been actually blocking God because I think that's how
God speaks to me. I think this is how the
universe communicates to me through your body. And if you're
not connected to your body, you know on near God.
Speaker 3 (36:46):
So when did you awaken the spiritual aspect that you
used to have?
Speaker 7 (36:55):
That came It started to come back a lot more
just before COVID. I think like two months before COVID,
I started to have a lot of dreams and I
had a sort of an exema that showed up on
my skin.
Speaker 2 (37:13):
Is that's something I used to have when I was
a child as well. I was a very sensitive child.
Speaker 7 (37:17):
I wasn't allowed to play in the grass, I was
allowed to take a cold shower because my skin.
Speaker 2 (37:21):
Would erupt in like a rash.
Speaker 7 (37:24):
And when these these abilities went away, that stopped and
now it's come back again.
Speaker 2 (37:31):
And so my skin has like it reacts and I
have like a bit of an exemma.
Speaker 7 (37:35):
Sometimes it doesn't show, but it itches a lot, and
I have to actually take antihistamy, something I'm trying.
Speaker 2 (37:40):
To work out. I haven't quite figured it out.
Speaker 7 (37:44):
But as soon as that began, I started to have
like vivid dreams and to receive premonitions in my dreams
and just sort of a knowing, a sense of.
Speaker 2 (37:54):
Knowing about certain things that I could not explain.
Speaker 7 (37:58):
And that's been Yeah, so since twenty twenty, it slowly
started to come back, and I sensed it sort.
Speaker 2 (38:04):
Of coming back.
Speaker 7 (38:05):
But it's been a process of really getting to the
level where now I'm able to do readings for people.
That's only been about a year that I've been doing that.
It took me some time because I had to clean
up my own emotions.
Speaker 2 (38:21):
I had to clean up my body. I had a
lot of my own things to heal, you know.
Speaker 4 (38:27):
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, So moving to a new country
is an adjustment, even more so when.
Speaker 3 (38:37):
Carrying past trauma.
Speaker 4 (38:39):
How did you transition to Belgium or how did the
transition to Belgium impact your spiritual expansion.
Speaker 3 (38:46):
And were there any unexpected challenges?
Speaker 7 (38:50):
Yeah, you know, I thought it was going to be easy.
I thought, well, you know, this is how we all think.
We think, Oh, I'm going to Europe. Everything is perfect.
Everything works, you know, there's lights, buses, transport, you know,
there's none of the struggle that we have to go
through every day in Africa with certain things and an
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actual fact.
Speaker 2 (39:13):
I got here and.
Speaker 7 (39:16):
The most amazing thing that I was not expecting was
the lack of human connection.
Speaker 2 (39:20):
I think that was the most difficult thing for me.
Speaker 7 (39:25):
Because it's a very very individualist society, so people keep
to themselves and nobody's really people don't necessarily connect on
the same level that we do, you know, with community
and really asking how are you and how are you doing,
and how things going for you and actually sit down
and listen.
Speaker 2 (39:46):
So that was really really hard for me. I had
to adapt that.
Speaker 7 (39:50):
And also I didn't speak the language because they speak French.
Speaker 2 (39:52):
Here, so I had to learn French.
Speaker 7 (39:57):
So I couldn't go to church, I couldn't find social groups.
I had a son, so I was at home with
my son or taking him to school and bringing him home.
Speaker 2 (40:09):
It was really.
Speaker 7 (40:12):
A moment of.
Speaker 2 (40:16):
Just calm, like everything just stopped. My whole life just stopped.
And the strange thing is that you see, this is
why they say be careful what you ask for, because
before this happened. I was overwhelmed, I was alone. I
needed help, I needed rest. I was exhausted, and I
was asking God every day, I need to rest, I
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need to rest, I need to rest. Can this to stop?
And it did. It came immediately within when I met
my ex husband. We were getting we.
Speaker 7 (40:49):
Married within six months, and I was in Belgium, So
it happened immediately, except that it didn't come in the
way that I wanted it to. You know, the rest
and the quiet came in a foreign country, in a
different environment. And then I was starting to feel resentful, yeah,
and a bit lost and not quite understanding that actually,
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this is what I wanted and this is what I
asked for.
Speaker 2 (41:12):
Was a moment for me to just not have to
do anything.
Speaker 7 (41:18):
So that was difficult. The adjustment there was quite difficult.
I mean, now, looking back, I can understand that it
was necessary and that's actually what I wanted, but at
that time I was frustrated.
Speaker 2 (41:28):
It was really really hard.
Speaker 3 (41:31):
Yeah, yeah, all right.
Speaker 4 (41:34):
For listeners unfamiliar with energy healing, what's a simple yet
powerful technique they can use today to start clear and
emotional blockages?
Speaker 3 (41:47):
Hmmm?
Speaker 2 (41:48):
I think I can think of a few a few
really good ones.
Speaker 7 (41:53):
One is dancing. Okay, this is I'm going to give
you some really accessible ones. No like crazy, like you know,
techniques that they have to do classes to learn, or
I'm just going to give you some very simple ones
that we already do that I think people have forgotten.
Speaker 2 (42:10):
Are actually very very good for clearing your energy.
Speaker 7 (42:13):
So putting on some loud music, dancing, like really really
dancing with yourself or with your kids, or with your
wife or your partner, that is really really good for you.
Another one is connecting to nature. So just go outside,
leave your phone at home, just walk outside.
Speaker 2 (42:36):
Try to do that once a week if possible. And
when you get back home after you walk, try to
sit still in your body.
Speaker 7 (42:44):
Just find a quiet place and just sit, you know,
just close your eyes and just sit and just feel
where the energy goes in your body, because there's always
energy moving around in your body, and sort of feel
where it goes and generally, you know, it can maybe
tingling in your legs, tingling in your arms.
Speaker 2 (43:03):
And just listen to the emotions that come up. And
those emotions are generally things that maybe you've been worrying about,
things that you need to work on or things that
you can look at you know that you can observe.
Speaker 4 (43:15):
Yeah, all right, So meditation is often misunderstood sitting in silence,
but you use it as a transformative tool. What's one
meditation practice that has been a game changer for you?
Speaker 2 (43:34):
One that has been a real game changer for me
is just taking five minutes.
Speaker 7 (43:43):
When you're feeling overwhelmed, or it doesn't matter anything that
you're feeling, just taking five minutes to close your eyes
and taking a couple of deep breaths in and holding
it and releasing and then just breathing.
Speaker 2 (43:57):
And listening to the breath coming into your and releasing it.
Speaker 7 (44:01):
That really is excellent for focus, It's really excellent for
reducing anxiety.
Speaker 2 (44:07):
It's really really good as well to generate emotions of
love so and healing as well.
Speaker 7 (44:13):
So, for example, if you're needing to feel feelings of love,
you can close your eyes and take a few moments
and just breathe and imagine, just imagine your heart beating
and just send it energy, you know, just quietly in
your mind and just send love to your heart.
Speaker 2 (44:30):
And this will really bring up feelings of love.
Speaker 7 (44:32):
Where if your leg hurts, just send some energy to
your leg and this really really does work.
Speaker 2 (44:38):
I mean I've tried it with my kids as well,
and it really really does work.
Speaker 3 (44:44):
Indeed.
Speaker 4 (44:45):
Yeah, right, and later on before we leave, we'll play
a five minute meditation that you did, the one specifically
for anxiety career go on in hand with what I
was talking about in the beginning with I think those
go hand in hand, so we'll play that at the end.
A lot of people talk about manifesting, you know, Tess
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love peace, but a few people do it effectively.
Speaker 3 (45:15):
You've talked about how you.
Speaker 4 (45:18):
Ask God for rest and he gave it to you
almost immediately. I think sometimes that is a way of manifesting,
you know, if your mind is always thinking about something
constantly and then your heart connects to that. I believe
anything could be manifested in that way. I manifested something
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that took ten years, but it still happened.
Speaker 3 (45:43):
I didn't let up.
Speaker 4 (45:44):
So in your experience, what are the biggest misconceptions about
manifestation and how do you guide people to get it right.
Speaker 2 (45:55):
Yeah, that's a good one. I think the really the
biggest misconception is in action.
Speaker 7 (46:02):
You know, a lot of people think that I'm just
going to sit in my house and write a list
and everything's going to come to me.
Speaker 2 (46:10):
It doesn't work that way, Okay.
Speaker 7 (46:13):
You actually have to take inspired action towards your dreams.
If you want to be a doctor, you need to
go to medical school, you need to you know, all
those things. You actually have to take inspired action to
make your dreams come true. You can't just write lists
down and expect everything.
Speaker 2 (46:31):
To come to you. So that's one thing I think
in action is a big misunderstanding.
Speaker 7 (46:36):
It's not just magic like just going to happen without you,
because the purpose of this life is for you to
live it. It's not for you to write lists to
the universe and sit in your basement, you know. So
I think that's one thing that's really misunderstood.
Speaker 2 (46:54):
Another thing is.
Speaker 7 (46:55):
That it's some kind of special power that only certain
people have and that I can't do it for some reason,
or it's only for lucky people.
Speaker 2 (47:06):
That's not true. That's really not true.
Speaker 7 (47:09):
We all have the ability to manifest something that we
want if we start with the right emotion, with the
thoughts and the feelings. If you follow the right steps,
you can actually create something that you want in your life.
This is why we're here to create our lives. So
it's not just something that you know, lucky people can do.
Speaker 2 (47:30):
Anybody can do that.
Speaker 3 (47:33):
Indeed.
Speaker 4 (47:34):
Yeah, all right, So trauma isn't always visible, and you're right.
In the black community, trauma abuse scars just don't get
talked about a lot, you know, and if you're a male,
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it gets.
Speaker 2 (47:56):
Shown upon exactly.
Speaker 4 (47:59):
Yeah, for someone struggling but unsure of where to start,
what's the first step they can take today to begin healing.
Speaker 7 (48:12):
Okay, obviously this is something depending on circumstances and you
know the possibility your situation.
Speaker 2 (48:21):
So maybe I'm going to narrow it down to let's say,
people like you and me who don't have existential.
Speaker 7 (48:29):
Issues like war and things like that, So we put
it to if it's somebody like you and me, I
think the very first thing to do is to get
a clear mind. So stop doing things that make you disassociate,
that numb you, that keep you out of the present moment.
Speaker 2 (48:51):
So if you have been drinking or.
Speaker 7 (48:53):
Engaging in negative toxic behavior or situations that make you
feel bad, try to stay away from it.
Speaker 2 (49:01):
Try to stay clear, and then from there try to
connect with your body.
Speaker 7 (49:08):
So start to exercise, start to move, because a lot
of people don't seem to understand trauma actually.
Speaker 2 (49:16):
Get stuck in your body.
Speaker 7 (49:17):
You know, it's a learned habit, like it gets stuck
in your body and it stays there.
Speaker 2 (49:23):
So you need to move.
Speaker 7 (49:24):
So get clear, start to move your body, and step
by step, you know, patience, be patient and kind with yourself.
Speaker 2 (49:32):
Because it's going to take time. Okay, some days you're
going to feel.
Speaker 7 (49:35):
Good, some days you want and this is important to understand,
there's no arriving.
Speaker 2 (49:39):
It's not going to happen overnight.
Speaker 7 (49:43):
If you have the possibility to speak to somebody, do it,
even if it's a community or somebody in your church.
Speaker 2 (49:53):
If you can't afford it, maybe even your neighbor.
Speaker 7 (49:56):
You know, find somebody who you can talk to objectively,
not somebody who's going to magnify the issues or you know,
make you start wallowing and shame and all.
Speaker 2 (50:08):
Of that kind of stuff. Just constructive conversations and then
from there you can start to look at healing modalities
one by one. But this is something that takes time.
Speaker 7 (50:23):
So I think the first step is just to get clear,
to understand the meaning of patience with yourself, especially start
to move your body, eat well. Sleep is really important
as well, try to minimize distractions, and then practice meditation.
Speaker 2 (50:44):
I think meditation is really really good.
Speaker 7 (50:46):
Mastering your mind is really the secret to all of this,
to manifestation, to healing, to everything.
Speaker 2 (50:53):
Once you can master your mind, you can master your emotions.
And it's all really is just about being able to
sit still.
Speaker 7 (51:01):
With just you.
Speaker 2 (51:02):
And meditation is also misunderstood.
Speaker 7 (51:04):
It's not about necessarily following instructions all the time, about
what somebodys saying.
Speaker 2 (51:09):
You can meditate in your house just listening to a
bird outside your window. You know, it's as simple as that.
It doesn't have to be.
Speaker 7 (51:21):
Guided meditations or it's really just about concentrating on one thing,
even if it's the sound of a fan.
Speaker 3 (51:31):
M Yeah, indeed, all right.
Speaker 4 (51:36):
So you mentioned that discussing your father is now an
essential part of your story. What role did he play
in shape in your path and how has your perception
of him evolved over time?
Speaker 7 (51:51):
Yeah, you know, my father, My father was, like I said,
still is, my father is the most amazing man that.
Speaker 3 (52:02):
I have.
Speaker 2 (52:05):
As a scene I think, in my life.
Speaker 7 (52:07):
But also he's broken my heart so many times and
reconciling those two taught me the power of forgiveness. It
taught me the importance of not taking everything personally, understanding
what it means to separate yourself from something because it's
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not good for you, maybe in this moment and acceptance, you.
Speaker 2 (52:36):
Know, because as strong as he was, my father was
also very weak. But he had his reasons.
Speaker 7 (52:43):
But that's not really for me to explain, you know
that sort of those are his things, those are his choices,
those are parts that he took in his life. But
being his daughter, I didn't feel protected. I didn't feel safe,
I didn't feel hurt, and it led to a lot
of self sabotage and you know, things that I would
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have done differently.
Speaker 2 (53:06):
And I felt loved by him, you know, I learned
to love myself.
Speaker 7 (53:14):
You know, it sounds sad to say it, but I
didn't feel loved by him in the way that I
wanted to be loved, and it helped me to become
stronger and to understand what.
Speaker 2 (53:25):
It means to love myself, but also how to be
a good mother to my children. Yeah.
Speaker 7 (53:34):
Yeah, but above all, forgiveness, you know, just moving on,
letting things go and moving on.
Speaker 4 (53:42):
Yeah, that's really key, right, letting it go. Yeah, sometimes
it takes a while to just come to the point
where you can just let it go. Yeah, truly let
it go. I've heard I've heard before, like someone that's
about bad memories the past, that will stop feeding the
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past memories, stop feeding yourself memories.
Speaker 3 (54:08):
The more you feed it, the more it's gonna hang around,
like a like a lost cat. Feed a lost cat.
Now it's not lost anymore.
Speaker 7 (54:19):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (54:20):
Yeah, what do they say energy? Energy goes where.
Speaker 14 (54:29):
Emotion flows, I think, yeah, yeah, yeah, all right, So
the power of community healing is deeply personal, but it
can also be communal.
Speaker 3 (54:44):
How important is it having a strong support system.
Speaker 4 (54:47):
And how can people cultivate even how can people cultivate one.
Speaker 3 (54:54):
Even if they fill along in their journey.
Speaker 7 (54:57):
Yeah, that's a tough one. That's a tough one, you know,
that's a really really difficult one because well, okay, the
good thing is that now we have online communities, So
this is something.
Speaker 2 (55:13):
That I think you can do. It's trying to connect
with people online.
Speaker 7 (55:18):
You know, there are lots of groups and things that
you can connect with online, but in person that's a
lot more complicated because.
Speaker 2 (55:25):
The reason I don't like to advocate online groups too much.
Is because we have this really big problem in society
with this separation amongst us as human beings. And so.
Speaker 7 (55:37):
It's a complicated one because it you know, it depends
I think that's an individual decision because it depends on
people's beliefs, it depends on their cultural habits.
Speaker 15 (55:48):
For some people, I would say, go to church. You're
going to be some amazing people. If you don't like
your church, to find one that you like, you know,
go to.
Speaker 7 (56:02):
Go to events, you know, go to trying to find things,
new hobbies, meet new people, just go to new places.
Speaker 2 (56:10):
Just get out.
Speaker 7 (56:11):
I think it's important to get out, to get out
of your home, especially if you feel lonely. And in
terms of healing, I think it's really really useful to
join yoga groups, you know, groups where you do sports.
You can meet some really interesting people there, and it's
not only good for you physically, then it will be
good for.
Speaker 2 (56:28):
You emotionally and mentally. Yes, right, yeah. Retreats are also
really good.
Speaker 4 (56:36):
Ye all right, So looking ato the future, you've come
a long way, but what's next? Are there new projects,
teachings or spiritual frontiers you decided to explore this year.
Speaker 7 (56:49):
Yes, at the moment, I'm expanding my meditations some working
really hard on that to come up with new meditations
which will be up on my site. And I'm also
working on a series of children's books, so illustrated children's
books that are it's a story, the story of my
life basically, so from when I was a child until now,
(57:14):
to sort of explain trauma to children and.
Speaker 2 (57:20):
How to deal with it.
Speaker 3 (57:23):
Yeah, indeed, indeed, indeed, all right.
Speaker 4 (57:27):
And if you could leave the audience with one unshakeable
truth about life, healing and purpose, what would it be?
Speaker 2 (57:40):
Well, this is this is a quote. This is a quote.
Speaker 7 (57:45):
It's one of my favorite quotes. I think it's Abraham Lincoln. Yes,
the best way to know your future is to create it.
Speaker 3 (57:53):
Mhmm. Yeah, indeed indeed, all right. Where can our listen
connect with you online and check out your practice.
Speaker 7 (58:05):
Well, they can connect with me on Instagram, so let's
portion Tigeriro so Lingo on Instagram my site so Lingo
dot be. And they can listen to my meditations for
free on Spotify, Apple Music, and YouTube music. And I'm
(58:26):
working on a Patreon account right now. Where I'm going
to have a whole lot of new goodies and masterclasses
and things from this coming soon.
Speaker 4 (58:36):
All right, all right, and we will include those links
in the description of this episode and in the show notes,
So all you guys have to do just click those links.
For right now, we're going to play a meditation.
Speaker 7 (58:49):
Stay tuned, Welcome to a five minute meditation for releasing anxiety.
(59:31):
Begin by finding a comfortable position, either sitting or lying down.
Close your eyes softly, take a deep, slow breath in,
and as you exhale, feel your body begin to relax,
sinking into the support beneath you. Now shift your focus upwards,
(59:55):
imagining yourself lying on a soft, grassy hill, gazing up
at a vast, open sky. Feel the warmth of the
sun on your skin, the gentle breeze whispering across your face.
Take another deep breath, and as you exhale, imagine the
(01:00:19):
sky clearing, becoming a canvas of pure, serene blue. Now
imagine clouds beginning to form in the distance. These clouds
represent your anxieties, your worries, and your stressful thoughts. Don't
try to push them away, simply observe them as they appear.
(01:00:44):
Notice their shapes, their sizes, their densities. Some may be
dark and stormy, others light and wispy. Perhaps one cloud
is shaped like a deadline, another like a differ conversation,
another like a lingering fear. Acknowledge these clouds, these thoughts
(01:01:08):
and feelings, all without judgment. They are simply passing through
your mental sky. Repeat to yourself quietly, I see your anxiety.
I acknowledge your presence. Now imagine a gentle breeze beginning
(01:01:32):
to stir. Feel it softly caressing your skin. This breeze
represents your ability to let go, to release. As the
breeze strengthens, notice the clouds beginning to move to drift.
Some are carried away quickly, others more slowly. Imagine the
(01:01:56):
wind gently nudging each cloud, pushing it further and further
away from you.
Speaker 2 (01:02:03):
With each exhale.
Speaker 7 (01:02:05):
Visualize these clouds, these anxieties, being carried off into the
distance and dissipating as they go. Feel the tension in
your body easing as the clouds drift away, leaving behind
a sense of lightness and spaciousness. You are not fighting
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the clouds. You are simply allowing the natural wind to
carry them away. As the clouds continue to drift away.
Notice the vast expanse of clear blue sky that remains.
Feel the sense of peace and openness that comes with
(01:02:47):
releasing those anxious thoughts. Imagine the sunlight shining brightly through
the clear sky, warming your body and your spirit. Lightness,
the freedom, the tranquility that comes with letting go. You
(01:03:08):
are surrounded by peace, by calm, by the open expanse
of the sky. Say to yourself quietly, I am at peace,
I am free, I am safe. Take a few more deep,
(01:03:34):
slow breaths, feeling the gentle breeze and the warmth of
the sun. Bring your awareness back to your physical body,
feeling the support of the ground beneath you. Gently wiggle
your fingers and toes, and slowly move your head from
side to side. When you feel ready, slowly open your eyes.
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Carry this sense of peace and likeness with you throughout
your day. Remember you can always return to this peaceful sky,
this place of release, whenever you need to let go
of anxiety.
Speaker 3 (01:04:17):
The sky is.
Speaker 7 (01:04:19):
Always there, and you are always capable of finding peace.
Speaker 3 (01:04:44):
All right, all right, wonderful, wonderful meditation.
Speaker 7 (01:04:47):
There.
Speaker 4 (01:04:48):
I hope that you, guys, I hope that released some
anxiety from your life, some.
Speaker 3 (01:04:53):
Worry, some anything that you're dealing with right now, and
gave you some clarity. Thank you for that, Porsche. That
was lovely.
Speaker 2 (01:05:03):
Thank you Zabi, Thank you for this amazing opportunity.
Speaker 4 (01:05:07):
Absolutely absolutely all right, guys, Wow, what an absolutely powerful
conversation with Porsche. From childhood loss to spiritual expansion. She's
walked through the fire and emerged as a guide for
others seeking light. We do have a few takeaways from
this episode. One that healing isn't linear, It's a journey
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of self discovery. Energy work and meditation are powerful tools
for transformation.
Speaker 3 (01:05:35):
Manifestation is real.
Speaker 4 (01:05:36):
Like I said, I've done it, Porsia's done it, and
countless of others have done it. And if you really
want to know if you're doing it right, I would
suggest that you contact Porsche and get for the clarity.
But it requires deep inner work, community and self forgiveness
are essential for healing. And if you want more Porsious wisdom,
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follow her journey, beca session and tap into your own transformation.
I will have those links in the description that episode
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Imagine how it would be to live a whole day
without worries. Just think how free it would make you
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feel and how effective it would enable you to be.
Speaker 3 (01:09):
Is this such a thing? Is it possible?
Speaker 4 (01:12):
Not only is it possible, it can be very easy
to do. You decide to do it because worry is
nothing more than a response that you choose. There are
plenty of others, much more empower responses. You know, no
matter what the situation may be, there is never any.
Speaker 3 (01:29):
Requirement for you to worry about it.
Speaker 4 (01:32):
Think about it, and you will also see that, you know,
there is never really anything of value that is accomplished
by worry.
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Speaker 4 (01:43):
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previously imagined. Would you say dating my life is so chaotic?
You have no idea worry It's just a central part
of it. I don't even think about It's like auto worry,
right listen, So is my life? My life is chaotic?
Speaker 3 (02:19):
Heck? Did?
Speaker 4 (02:19):
I have six children and a lot of things that
I do in my businesses.
Speaker 3 (02:25):
So yeah, I understand how chaotic.
Speaker 4 (02:28):
You know, life be lifeing sometimes and things happen, you know,
But you can also think about gratitude, like you woke
up today, like some of us have the use of
our arms and legs and mind. That's you know, that's
pretty incredible. Every single day, so I kind of shift
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my focus on the things that I can control. I mean,
I can't control waking up, but I'm thankful that I do,
and that kind of alleviates my worry because that gives
me a chance to make it right, or to do
it better, or go harder whatever tomorrow may bring for me,
or even today or this moment they bring for myself.
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I want to introduce our next guests. Some individuals walk
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of transformation, not just for themselves but.
Speaker 3 (04:48):
For those they touch. And our next guest Portia Sigariro.
Speaker 4 (04:55):
It's one of those luminous souls from the heart of
Zimbabwe to the spiritual n of deep healing. She has
turned personal tragedy into a beacon of light for others.
A gifted psychic medium, energy healer and guide, Porsia helped
souls break free from the past and embrace the magic
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of the present. Her story is one of resilience, love,
and boundless William Wisdom. With that, let's say welcome friend
to Porsche.
Speaker 2 (05:28):
Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello, hid Hello Hello. Thank you for
having me.
Speaker 3 (05:36):
Absolutely absolutely we are excited that you're.
Speaker 4 (05:39):
Here with us.
Speaker 7 (05:40):
Thank you.
Speaker 2 (05:42):
What an exciting introduction.
Speaker 3 (05:45):
Thank you, You're welcome. You're welcome, Thank you, Porsche. Before
we dive in, what has been on your heart and
mind lately?
Speaker 7 (05:56):
What has been on my heart and mind lately? You know,
it's a funny thing since I'm a coach, you probably
laugh at this one, that I'm changing, that I'm having
to adapt, that you never quite arrived. Actually, you know,
healing is a process.
Speaker 2 (06:15):
Healing is something that you continue to go through and
you learn new things as you go. And what if
I been.
Speaker 7 (06:23):
Thinking about lately is just how much I've grown, I think,
just how peaceful I feel, how I feel.
Speaker 2 (06:33):
Yeah, that's it.
Speaker 4 (06:36):
Yeah, you know what Portia, I would rather have a
coach that is changing and that changes. Yeah, because you
really don't ever reach the top of the mountain per se,
you know, and if you did, what is the next challenge,
What is the next plateau, What is the next thing
(06:57):
in your climate?
Speaker 3 (06:59):
So I would read.
Speaker 4 (07:00):
Therefore, someone who's coaching me to also be changing because
as I grow, you know, if I outgrow.
Speaker 3 (07:06):
My coach, what what what?
Speaker 2 (07:08):
What I need to coach for exactly exactly?
Speaker 3 (07:12):
So I love that. I love that.
Speaker 4 (07:13):
Yeah yeah, yeah, So from adversity to awakening, you've lived
through immense personal laws, a cultural shift, and internal battles
with PTSD.
Speaker 3 (07:30):
Can you take us back to a defining moment when.
Speaker 4 (07:33):
You realize you had to take control of your healing
journey and if you want to go even further before that,
just to give a little context about your beginnings and.
Speaker 3 (07:42):
Your life, please feel fear, Please feel free to share.
Speaker 2 (07:46):
Yes. When I was listening to your introduction, it struck
a chord with me.
Speaker 7 (07:52):
You have six children, Well, yeah, I grew up in
a family of six, so I'm number four. So I
I understand that you are quite in it yourself. So basically,
I was born in Zimbabwe, the fourth child out of six.
(08:13):
My parents were both in the war for liberation because
we had a parthaid in our country.
Speaker 2 (08:18):
It wasn't just in South Africa, we had it in
Zimbabwe as well.
Speaker 7 (08:23):
So I was born four years after the end of
the war and it was still quite quite difficult. At
that time, still a lot of things that were not
quite right. People were still displaced, there was a lot
of turmoil and stuff going on. But my parents managed
(08:44):
somehow through all of that to educate themselves.
Speaker 2 (08:47):
And to buy a farm. So we grew up on
a farm.
Speaker 7 (08:52):
Outside the city and we all went to boarding school,
so we were away from home most of the time.
Speaker 2 (09:00):
And at school we were.
Speaker 7 (09:04):
Kind of thrown into the deep end because we were
the only black kids. My brother and I were the
only black kids in the school of three hundred white children,
and that was really tough. We were there for a
week at a time, so we started at the ages
of five until age of twelve, and so that was
already quite.
Speaker 2 (09:25):
You know, something to sort of to get used to,
and it was confrontational. Really. There were a lot of
things that we had to go.
Speaker 7 (09:35):
Through proving ourselves and constantly working harder.
Speaker 4 (09:39):
You know.
Speaker 7 (09:39):
We basically all turned into overachievers, I think, which is
one of the first trauma sciens, I would say.
Speaker 2 (09:49):
And so from there we went through I went through
school and at the age of thirteen, my mom died
rather tragically.
Speaker 7 (10:01):
Her and my father had a difficult relationship. I would say,
without going too much into detail, it was not very.
Speaker 2 (10:10):
Nurturing. You know, for my mother, she was quite depressed
and I think she just gave up.
Speaker 5 (10:16):
So she.
Speaker 7 (10:19):
Went to visit her mother one day after dropping us
at school, and then she just never came home, you know,
she was just gone. And so that was really really,
I think, a moment where I think everything for me
just sort.
Speaker 2 (10:32):
Of my whole world just fell apart. Because she was
my foundation, she was my.
Speaker 7 (10:39):
Sense of existence, my source of nonconditional love. She guided me,
she taught me things, she protected me, and then I
just found myself in the world that I felt was
just full of monsters and things that I didn't understand
and people I didn't I couldn't communicate with.
Speaker 2 (10:57):
And I started to spiral from that point, and I
started to fail at school.
Speaker 7 (11:06):
I wasn't able to pay attention in class, and eventually
that turned into me leaving my father's house when I
was seventeen and then started living on my own, and
I created a business selling secondhand things, an antique store.
You know.
Speaker 2 (11:23):
I used to sell little nick nick backs and things.
Speaker 7 (11:26):
People would bring me things from their garages and I
would sell them, and it was going pretty well, but
still it was a very, very sort of difficult existence.
I was on my own with no real family around me.
Everybody was sort of dispersed. My sister's left, my brother
also left. My younger sister my younger brother were too
(11:49):
small to kind of spend time with me or to
be around me, and my dad wouldn't really let.
Speaker 2 (11:55):
Us see each other because I had left.
Speaker 7 (11:57):
So that created a huge sort of sense loneliness for me,
and I found myself.
Speaker 2 (12:02):
Caught up a little bit in a world of.
Speaker 7 (12:07):
You know, sort of teenage mischief for a little bit
of drugs and alcohol and that kind of thing. And
then I got pregnant and I decided to keep the child.
So my son turned twenty last week. I'm really proud
of him. And I had my baby, and then I
(12:27):
moved to South Africa, and there I met my now
ex husband who was in Belgium, and we got married.
And then I moved to Belgium and we had two
more children, two girls who won our thirteen and ten,
and well the marriage didn't work out and now we're divorced. Yeah,
(12:50):
So through all of that, I think at some point,
maybe five years ago, I just woke up one day.
Speaker 2 (12:58):
You know, it's really difficult to explain.
Speaker 7 (13:00):
I don't really think that it was a moment as
per se or anything in particular.
Speaker 2 (13:05):
I think all these things.
Speaker 7 (13:06):
What happens is it just sort of builds up, and
one day I just woke up and I just didn't want.
Speaker 2 (13:13):
To live anymore. You know, I just looked around and
I didn't recognize myself. I didn't I couldn't breathe. I
was just like shrinking my soul.
Speaker 7 (13:27):
I was just wishing the earth would open up and
eat me up, you know, just I just wanted to disappear.
Speaker 2 (13:32):
And the only thing that kept me going was my kids.
And in that moment, I said to myself, Okay, so
what are you going to do?
Speaker 7 (13:41):
You know, are you going to stay in your marriage?
Are you going to keep going on like this? What
does your life look like? And the thoughts of my
future made me want to not live anymore. So I
had to take the decision to end my marriage and
to start taking steps to heal myself and to go
really down to the core of why I was feeling
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that way, and to really start dissecting all the little
things that had happened to me since I was a child,
because I was also sexually abused since between the ages
of five and ten.
Speaker 2 (14:18):
By a close family relative. This is also something we
don't talk a lot about.
Speaker 7 (14:22):
In I don't know about black culture and America, but
I know that in Africa it's very skept a secret.
These are things that we don't discuss and rarely condemn.
You know, the person will be welcomed into the family
and we won't discuss it. So there were lots of
things like that that I had to delve into and
(14:43):
to really go deeper and to start to really try
to understand what was going on with me, why I
was feeling this way, and why I just.
Speaker 2 (14:53):
Suddenly was feeling like I didn't want to live anymore.
Yeah yeah, wow, Yeah.
Speaker 3 (15:02):
So you began to.
Speaker 4 (15:06):
Take these things that were making you feel this way
and internalize them, but also deal with them because you
had to move forward because you had three children.
Speaker 3 (15:20):
What was your first step, Well, my.
Speaker 7 (15:22):
First step, my first step really, you know, I think
it's very important to be honest about these things. It's
not something that you would say, Okay, I've got a problem,
how am I going to fix it?
Speaker 2 (15:35):
You know, or like this is the solution. It didn't
work that way.
Speaker 7 (15:39):
Actually, I went through abusing myself drinking. I've never been
any kind of addict, but I mean I could easily.
Speaker 2 (15:48):
Drink a bottle of wine by myself when I didn't
have my kids because I didn't want to feel anything.
So I went through this sort of numbing process.
Speaker 7 (15:56):
You know, where I became aware of the problem, but
then I didn't want to deal with it, so I
would numb myself.
Speaker 2 (16:04):
And I did that for about a year, I think,
you know, getting into.
Speaker 7 (16:09):
Relationships where I could focus on somebody else, or friendships
where I would just be focusing on other people and
on myself, or drink myself to sleep whenever I could,
if I didn't have to get up the next day,
you know, all those kinds of things. That's sort of
like coping mechanisms. And I think that was the first stage.
(16:29):
It was the easiest, you know, sort of disassociating, you know,
the first stages is trying to disassociate from the issue,
which is what I went through until I realized that
actually it's not working.
Speaker 2 (16:42):
Eventually all that stops to work, you know, at some
point it stopped working. Yeah, yeah, So after that, what
did you do well? When I stopped working.
Speaker 3 (16:58):
I had to.
Speaker 2 (17:00):
Face it, you know.
Speaker 7 (17:01):
Then I had a conversation with myself and I said, Okay,
so what are we going to do? And I said, well,
I'm going to ask for help. So I started going
to therapy. I started trying to vocalize what I was
feeling and what I had experienced. And speaking to a
therapist helped me because it helped me to see that actually,
(17:22):
there's nothing wrong with me, that what was done to
me was.
Speaker 2 (17:25):
Wrong, and that it's not something that I should hide.
Speaker 7 (17:28):
It's not something that I should be protecting anybody about,
and that there are a lot of experiences that I've
lived that I should not have lived. And so it
helped me to sort of see it from the outside
looking in, you know, to be less overwhelmed by it.
Speaker 2 (17:45):
So that helped me a lot. I use some plant medicines.
I don't know if you've heard of ayahuasca that really
really really helped me. That really helped me.
Speaker 8 (18:00):
But that's something that I did after about two years,
I think about two years of therapy and trying to
live consciously and actually being aware of what my issues were.
Speaker 7 (18:16):
The plant medicine really really helped me because that sort
of helped me to look at the problems.
Speaker 2 (18:24):
Without feeling the pain as per se, you know, just
to be an observer of the problem and not to
associate myself with it.
Speaker 7 (18:32):
So I was able to do that with the death
of my mother, with my relationship with my father, which
is still quite strange now. I mean, we don't speak
at the moment. It's not something that I think will
last forever. But for the moment, I think it's just
divine intervention.
Speaker 2 (18:49):
It's just the way that it is. We cannot be
in each other's lives at this point.
Speaker 3 (18:55):
Yeah, yeah, like a volatile mix. I guy, yeah, Iohasca.
Speaker 4 (19:02):
I've had a few partitioners on this show, coaches who
actually have retreats, and I always make this joke because
they always tell me the most graphic part about it,
you know, with everyone in the hut just boobooing on themselves.
Speaker 2 (19:19):
Oh my gosh.
Speaker 7 (19:20):
Well, okay, there are some things, yes, I mean, one
thing I must tell you is I wouldn't recommend doing
it in a huge group of people, because it is
true there are some people who have you know, it
brings out what it needs to bring out, that's right, right,
So you know, if you're going to do it, I
think try to do it in smaller groups like two
or three people.
Speaker 9 (19:40):
Even if you can do it on your own with
a therapist, I think I would recommend that. But I mean,
I just I just cried, you know, I cried a lot.
It brings out, it goes where it needs to go.
So it does do like physical cleansing as well.
Speaker 7 (19:57):
Yeah, because some people have blockagein in their body physically,
you know, which is also part of the energy healing,
one of the techniques that I do, because it's not
only you know, blockages are emotional.
Speaker 2 (20:10):
Blockages are expressed through tears, and when you move your body,
you know, when your muscles tense up, these are all blockages,
and so yeah, it can be a bit graphic.
Speaker 3 (20:23):
Yeah.
Speaker 7 (20:24):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (20:25):
I had a friend who went not too long ago,
and he said his experience was pretty pleasant.
Speaker 3 (20:32):
Yeah, he said he cried the entire time too.
Speaker 5 (20:35):
Yeah.
Speaker 7 (20:36):
Yeah, Yeah, it was such an amazing experience, a really beautiful,
beautiful experience because I think I had shut myself down
from thinking about my mother because it.
Speaker 2 (20:47):
Was so painful that I didn't allow myself.
Speaker 7 (20:51):
To see her as a woman, to see her as
somebody who may have been happy in her life at
some point, you.
Speaker 2 (20:56):
Know, to experience her feminine energy.
Speaker 7 (21:00):
And when I had the experience with ayahuasca, I was
able to connect to just the feminine side of her,
the young woman in her, the woman who.
Speaker 2 (21:12):
Was happily married. I suppose at some point.
Speaker 7 (21:15):
I mean, it's not presumptuous of me to assume she
was unhappy the whole time.
Speaker 2 (21:19):
I'm sure they must have been happy at some point.
Speaker 10 (21:24):
Or on occasion, but that was It helped me to
make peace with that that she was not just suffering
all the time, and that.
Speaker 2 (21:35):
I could actually connect to my mother without the suffering.
Speaker 3 (21:39):
Yes.
Speaker 4 (21:40):
Yeah, so, as someone who has walked this journey before,
losing a mother at a young age is a heartbreak.
You know, if you can fathom what were some of
the raws emotions you had to confront and now that
you are who you are, how did they shape the
way that you help others through grief.
Speaker 7 (22:02):
Definitely, suicide I think was one of them, you know,
constant thoughts of suicide, But you know, I think I've
always been kind of not.
Speaker 2 (22:09):
Necessarily I'm not suicidal.
Speaker 7 (22:11):
I've never been suicidal, but it's sort of the trying
to bargain with God, and then just wanting to die,
not wanting to die, and then sort of wanting to
bargain with God and then really sort of pushing the
limits of how much I can hurt myself and maybe
God will save me, or let.
Speaker 2 (22:32):
Me see how far I can go with just letting
go and see what God does. You know, I think
the most extreme emotion I had was cursing God literally,
like I just.
Speaker 7 (22:50):
Was so angry about life and everything that I had
experienced that I just completely lost faith in my self
in not necessarily all things good, but in goodness, you know,
in light.
Speaker 2 (23:07):
And for me, that was I think the.
Speaker 7 (23:09):
Most extreme feeling that I could have experienced, because I
lived by that. You know, I've always been somebody who's
generally very happy.
Speaker 2 (23:21):
I love to laugh. Joy is a part of my existence.
Speaker 7 (23:26):
And I think sadness, just this constant, melancholic kind of
feeling for me, was just giving up on life was
I think the worst, the most extreme feeling I've had.
Speaker 3 (23:44):
Yeah, yeah, you know, when you're going through the most.
Speaker 4 (23:53):
Well the deepest pains in life as possible, you know,
you asked that question, why me or why did this
happen to me. And sometimes when you're searching for the answer,
you come up with, Oh, it must be God, it
must be God's fault.
Speaker 3 (24:08):
This happened. Yeah, I put all this on God. This
is this is guy's miss. He didn't look out for me.
Speaker 4 (24:15):
And I know that because I walked that same that
same journey trying to find.
Speaker 3 (24:21):
I used to be this way and now I'm this way.
What happened, Oh, God happened, That's what happened.
Speaker 4 (24:26):
I did not step in on by and you know,
I go to war with God, turn my back on him,
and you know, and I understand that hurt frustrations can
cause that, you know, that answer to come to say,
oh yeah, I'm gonna blame the highest power for my situation,
and you know, it's just not true when you come
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back to the answer. I'm the son of a evangelist.
You know, I've been in church my entire life. I
volunteer in the church today. But still there were points
in my path was like, yo, I'm supposed to be
protected from all this.
Speaker 2 (25:00):
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker 7 (25:06):
I think it's also the way that I was raised
as well, you know, because and my mom was also
very Christian, and we prayed a lot and.
Speaker 2 (25:16):
Everything seemed okay.
Speaker 7 (25:17):
You know, when my mom was alive, I really felt
this protection and everything seemed rosy and.
Speaker 2 (25:24):
You know, just better. It wasn't perfect, but it was better.
And then when I was on my own, I really
really really believed that it was God's fault.
Speaker 7 (25:33):
And I really took it very, very personally for a
couple of years, and I heard myself quite a lot
in that period of time, not physically but emotionally, you know.
And that's when I started to realize that actually, the
way that I had been taught about Christianity and God and.
Speaker 2 (25:52):
The Bible was in a way that actually took my
own power away from me.
Speaker 7 (25:58):
And when I started to realize that actually it's not God,
it's me, I started to make the connections between what
the Bible really is to me and what God really
means to me, you know. And I think that's where
I started to my psychic abilities and mediumship started to
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slowly come back, because I started to turn inwards and
to ask myself and to look inside and say, but
who am I? You know, what role do I play
in this life? And is God really out there or
is he in here? And I think that's when it
really started to turn around for me. And that's how
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I help people now, is to help them to understand
that it's not about externalizing things in your life.
Speaker 2 (26:47):
You actually it's about looking inside. You know, all the
love and the things that we're looking for out.
Speaker 7 (26:52):
There, or the recognition or the even the resolving pain
and everything that we've lived, it starts here insigne you.
And it's not about pointing a finger and saying it's
this person's fault or that one's fault, or it's God
or you know.
Speaker 2 (27:10):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (27:12):
Indeed, indeed, so grown up in Zimbabwe after its liberation
must have been a unique experience. How did witnessing a
nation's rebirth influence your perspective on perseverance and emotional healing?
Speaker 2 (27:29):
You know what.
Speaker 7 (27:32):
I have this I have to say though my father
is an extraordinary man, he's an extraordinary human being.
Speaker 2 (27:40):
He and my mother too. My mother was too. They
were not allowed to go to school, so they had
to be educated.
Speaker 7 (27:50):
By the missionaries, you know, by the church, because they
were also what happened was during a party, they put
all the people of color in reserves, so outside the
city and in certain neighborhoods, and you had to live.
Speaker 2 (28:05):
There, and they had a curfew where they could only.
Speaker 7 (28:08):
Dook blue college jobs, so they couldn't work in offices,
they couldn't go to school, they couldn't be educated or
do anything that would lift them up. They had to
do to work in the fields and do all those
kinds of things. And this is until nineteen eighty and
so the only people that were allowed to give them
an education were the missionaries.
Speaker 11 (28:28):
And my father went and learned English mathematics and studied
with them, and then from there he joined the Rhodesian
police because they needed to hire indigenous people to police themselves.
Speaker 2 (28:43):
That's kind of how it used to work.
Speaker 7 (28:45):
And then from there he started as a coffee boy
in an insurance company in the seventies and he worked
his way up until he became the CEO of one
of the biggest insurance companies in Africa. And this he
did through just tunnel vision, the amazing power of manifestation
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which he has, and his belief in himself and watching
my parents.
Speaker 2 (29:10):
My mom did the same thing as well.
Speaker 7 (29:12):
She was a professor at the university in Kenya and
in Tanzania, and watching them get through all these things
that other people in the family because there were other
family members and you know, who were constantly sort of
feeding us the story of we're not allowed to do this,
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we can't do this, and you know, they call them Sam.
My dad is Sam, and they're like, how can you
how do you do this?
Speaker 6 (29:37):
Sam?
Speaker 2 (29:37):
How do you manage to do this? And like, how
did you get to where you are?
Speaker 7 (29:41):
Watching my parents create this life for themselves in complete
opposition to what they were being told they could do
and or allowed to do really really made me a
go get her, you know. It really made me somebody
who dreams big. It really made me see that you know.
Speaker 2 (30:03):
Your skin color is nothing but a limitation that you
put on yourself. You can do anything that you put
your mind to. You know.
Speaker 7 (30:11):
It's just that if you give in to negativity and
criticisms and what people tell you that you are, then
that's what you'll become. So, I mean I was called
names all the time. Every time something got stolen at school,
it was me or my brother, you know, every time
there was like it was always always always like that.
Speaker 2 (30:32):
And I remember at some point, I mean I don't
know exactly when.
Speaker 7 (30:35):
But at some point I must have decided to myself
as a kid, I'm either going to sink or I'm
going to swim.
Speaker 2 (30:40):
So I just became the best in class at all
all subjects. I was the best in athletics. I was
the best in all sports. And that was it, and
my life was good. I figured that.
Speaker 7 (30:51):
Out pretty young, and I just continued like that for
quite a while, and so it made me strong.
Speaker 2 (30:57):
It made me really really strong. And so today in
my life today, i'd have to be honest that I
don't I'm not going to deny racism. Of course it exists,
but I don't let it stop me.
Speaker 3 (31:12):
Yeah.
Speaker 7 (31:13):
I don't live my life according to the principles of
the color of my skin or what people tell me
I'm allowed to do, or where I've been raised or
where I think I'm going. I just decide this is
what I want to do, and I go for it.
Speaker 3 (31:32):
Indeed, indeed.
Speaker 4 (31:33):
Yeah, So the calling of a medium, some people discover
their purpose gradually, while others experienced a defining revelation.
Speaker 3 (31:43):
Was there a single moment when you knew you had
psychic abilities? Or did it an unfold over time.
Speaker 7 (31:51):
It started when I was really small, and I don't
remember this, but my parents have been telling me since
I was young.
Speaker 2 (32:01):
When I was four years old, we were driving in
the car and I woke up and said to my dad,
you're going to perish.
Speaker 7 (32:11):
In our native language, which I didn't even know the
words at that time.
Speaker 2 (32:15):
So I was channeling some.
Speaker 7 (32:16):
Kind of message but through our native language, you know,
which is really odd for a four year old. And
so they just looked at me and thought, oh, well, okay.
And two weeks later, my dad nearly had a fatal accident.
He was crossing the street and the car hit a
motorbike and hit him and he nearly died.
Speaker 2 (32:39):
Oh yeah, yeah, And then my mom started to notice.
Speaker 7 (32:44):
My dad was very aware of it, and he says, okay, well,
they remember that I had told him these things, and
from then on I would quite often just say little
things sort of in passing, you know, just like not
really thinking about it, just say something.
Speaker 2 (33:00):
And so they've been telling me that since I was
a child, that I that I had that I would
do these things, that I would say these things.
Speaker 7 (33:08):
And I think at some point, because in my culture
it's something that's feared, and also because you know, we
our culture has been sort of diluted as well by
Christianity and so it's looked down upon. It's kind of
people say it's the devil. So so, you know, I
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think I shut it down a bit because I was
afraid of being judged and being treated differently.
Speaker 2 (33:39):
And I didn't really know what was happening, you know,
to me.
Speaker 12 (33:44):
But I would have experiences where I would see people
in my room, or I would experience presences in the house,
or just people with strange or.
Speaker 7 (33:56):
Bizarre intentions would distance themselves from me in the family
for some reason, and my parents were always watching and
they would always notice, and they would always point this out.
Like I had an uncle who was into drug dealing
and things for some reason, I don't know. He got
into some trouble and he came to visit my dad
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on a particular.
Speaker 2 (34:19):
Day when he was in trouble being chased by some guys.
Speaker 7 (34:22):
He owed money or something like that, and he came
into the house and he tried to shake.
Speaker 2 (34:27):
My hand, and he took my hand, and you shook
my hand, and I kind of pulled my hand away,
and I started wiping my hand away, you know, And
I was telling my dad, no, no, no, like his energy,
like he's dirty, he's dirty.
Speaker 7 (34:38):
There's something wrong with him, and it sort of came
out a few days later that this is what was
going on, you know, with him.
Speaker 13 (34:45):
So they were like it always, it's a very subtle thing.
It started with very subtle messages, nothing direct, just sort
of feelings and little words and messages.
Speaker 2 (34:56):
And then it went away for a long time. Yeah.
Speaker 4 (35:01):
Wow, And that's because you put it away out of
fear of you know, the country was Christian based, and
you know, sometimes that's shown a bond when it's.
Speaker 3 (35:14):
Not proceed from, you know, the powers that Christians think
it comes from.
Speaker 7 (35:18):
Yes, But then I think there was also the sexual
abuse that I experienced, because what happens with with these
things is that it's you have to be connected to
your body, and when you go through physical or emotional
mental sexual abuse, you disassociate from your body and so
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you're no longer in connection with your body. And I
think this when this began, I think I started to
disassociate from myself and so I wasn't in my like,
even listening to myself anymore. That's another thing I realized
when when I decided that I wanted to divorce, is
that I realized that I hadn't actually felt my heartbeat
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in like ten fifteen years, like my own heartbeat, like
listened to my own heart.
Speaker 2 (36:11):
I felt like I've been living my life holding my breath.
Speaker 3 (36:16):
Wow.
Speaker 2 (36:17):
Yeah yeah. And I realized that.
Speaker 7 (36:27):
I've been actually blocking God because I think that's how
God speaks to me. I think this is how the
universe communicates to me through your body. And if you're
not connected to your body, you know on near God.
Speaker 3 (36:46):
So when did you awaken the spiritual aspect that you
used to have?
Speaker 7 (36:55):
That came It started to come back a lot more
just before COVID. I think like two months before COVID,
I started to have a lot of dreams and I
had a sort of an exema that showed up on
my skin.
Speaker 2 (37:13):
Is that's something I used to have when I was
a child as well. I was a very sensitive child.
Speaker 7 (37:17):
I wasn't allowed to play in the grass, I was
allowed to take a cold shower because my skin.
Speaker 2 (37:21):
Would erupt in like a rash.
Speaker 7 (37:24):
And when these these abilities went away, that stopped and
now it's come back again.
Speaker 2 (37:31):
And so my skin has like it reacts and I
have like a bit of an exemma.
Speaker 7 (37:35):
Sometimes it doesn't show, but it itches a lot, and
I have to actually take antihistamy, something I'm trying.
Speaker 2 (37:40):
To work out. I haven't quite figured it out.
Speaker 7 (37:44):
But as soon as that began, I started to have
like vivid dreams and to receive premonitions in my dreams
and just sort of a knowing, a sense of.
Speaker 2 (37:54):
Knowing about certain things that I could not explain.
Speaker 7 (37:58):
And that's been Yeah, so since twenty twenty, it slowly
started to come back, and I sensed it sort.
Speaker 2 (38:04):
Of coming back.
Speaker 7 (38:05):
But it's been a process of really getting to the
level where now I'm able to do readings for people.
That's only been about a year that I've been doing that.
It took me some time because I had to clean
up my own emotions.
Speaker 2 (38:21):
I had to clean up my body. I had a
lot of my own things to heal, you know.
Speaker 4 (38:27):
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, So moving to a new country
is an adjustment, even more so when.
Speaker 3 (38:37):
Carrying past trauma.
Speaker 4 (38:39):
How did you transition to Belgium or how did the
transition to Belgium impact your spiritual expansion.
Speaker 3 (38:46):
And were there any unexpected challenges?
Speaker 7 (38:50):
Yeah, you know, I thought it was going to be easy.
I thought, well, you know, this is how we all think.
We think, Oh, I'm going to Europe. Everything is perfect.
Everything works, you know, there's lights, buses, transport, you know,
there's none of the struggle that we have to go
through every day in Africa with certain things and an
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actual fact.
Speaker 2 (39:13):
I got here and.
Speaker 7 (39:16):
The most amazing thing that I was not expecting was
the lack of human connection.
Speaker 2 (39:20):
I think that was the most difficult thing for me.
Speaker 7 (39:25):
Because it's a very very individualist society, so people keep
to themselves and nobody's really people don't necessarily connect on
the same level that we do, you know, with community
and really asking how are you and how are you doing,
and how things going for you and actually sit down
and listen.
Speaker 2 (39:46):
So that was really really hard for me. I had
to adapt that.
Speaker 7 (39:50):
And also I didn't speak the language because they speak French.
Speaker 2 (39:52):
Here, so I had to learn French.
Speaker 7 (39:57):
So I couldn't go to church, I couldn't find social groups.
I had a son, so I was at home with
my son or taking him to school and bringing him home.
Speaker 2 (40:09):
It was really.
Speaker 7 (40:12):
A moment of.
Speaker 2 (40:16):
Just calm, like everything just stopped. My whole life just stopped.
And the strange thing is that you see, this is
why they say be careful what you ask for, because
before this happened. I was overwhelmed, I was alone. I
needed help, I needed rest. I was exhausted, and I
was asking God every day, I need to rest, I
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need to rest, I need to rest. Can this to stop?
And it did. It came immediately within when I met
my ex husband. We were getting we.
Speaker 7 (40:49):
Married within six months, and I was in Belgium, So
it happened immediately, except that it didn't come in the
way that I wanted it to. You know, the rest
and the quiet came in a foreign country, in a
different environment. And then I was starting to feel resentful, yeah,
and a bit lost and not quite understanding that actually,
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this is what I wanted and this is what I
asked for.
Speaker 2 (41:12):
Was a moment for me to just not have to
do anything.
Speaker 7 (41:18):
So that was difficult. The adjustment there was quite difficult.
I mean, now, looking back, I can understand that it
was necessary and that's actually what I wanted, but at
that time I was frustrated.
Speaker 2 (41:28):
It was really really hard.
Speaker 3 (41:31):
Yeah, yeah, all right.
Speaker 4 (41:34):
For listeners unfamiliar with energy healing, what's a simple yet
powerful technique they can use today to start clear and
emotional blockages?
Speaker 3 (41:47):
Hmmm?
Speaker 2 (41:48):
I think I can think of a few a few
really good ones.
Speaker 7 (41:53):
One is dancing. Okay, this is I'm going to give
you some really accessible ones. No like crazy, like you know,
techniques that they have to do classes to learn, or
I'm just going to give you some very simple ones
that we already do that I think people have forgotten.
Speaker 2 (42:10):
Are actually very very good for clearing your energy.
Speaker 7 (42:13):
So putting on some loud music, dancing, like really really
dancing with yourself or with your kids, or with your
wife or your partner, that is really really good for you.
Another one is connecting to nature. So just go outside,
leave your phone at home, just walk outside.
Speaker 2 (42:36):
Try to do that once a week if possible. And
when you get back home after you walk, try to
sit still in your body.
Speaker 7 (42:44):
Just find a quiet place and just sit, you know,
just close your eyes and just sit and just feel
where the energy goes in your body, because there's always
energy moving around in your body, and sort of feel
where it goes and generally, you know, it can maybe
tingling in your legs, tingling in your arms.
Speaker 2 (43:03):
And just listen to the emotions that come up. And
those emotions are generally things that maybe you've been worrying about,
things that you need to work on or things that
you can look at you know that you can observe.
Speaker 4 (43:15):
Yeah, all right, So meditation is often misunderstood sitting in silence,
but you use it as a transformative tool. What's one
meditation practice that has been a game changer for you?
Speaker 2 (43:34):
One that has been a real game changer for me
is just taking five minutes.
Speaker 7 (43:43):
When you're feeling overwhelmed, or it doesn't matter anything that
you're feeling, just taking five minutes to close your eyes
and taking a couple of deep breaths in and holding
it and releasing and then just breathing.
Speaker 2 (43:57):
And listening to the breath coming into your and releasing it.
Speaker 7 (44:01):
That really is excellent for focus, It's really excellent for
reducing anxiety.
Speaker 2 (44:07):
It's really really good as well to generate emotions of
love so and healing as well.
Speaker 7 (44:13):
So, for example, if you're needing to feel feelings of love,
you can close your eyes and take a few moments
and just breathe and imagine, just imagine your heart beating
and just send it energy, you know, just quietly in
your mind and just send love to your heart.
Speaker 2 (44:30):
And this will really bring up feelings of love.
Speaker 7 (44:32):
Where if your leg hurts, just send some energy to
your leg and this really really does work.
Speaker 2 (44:38):
I mean I've tried it with my kids as well,
and it really really does work.
Speaker 3 (44:44):
Indeed.
Speaker 4 (44:45):
Yeah, right, and later on before we leave, we'll play
a five minute meditation that you did, the one specifically
for anxiety career go on in hand with what I
was talking about in the beginning with I think those
go hand in hand, so we'll play that at the end.
A lot of people talk about manifesting, you know, Tess
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love peace, but a few people do it effectively.
Speaker 3 (45:15):
You've talked about how you.
Speaker 4 (45:18):
Ask God for rest and he gave it to you
almost immediately. I think sometimes that is a way of manifesting,
you know, if your mind is always thinking about something
constantly and then your heart connects to that. I believe
anything could be manifested in that way. I manifested something
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that took ten years, but it still happened.
Speaker 3 (45:43):
I didn't let up.
Speaker 4 (45:44):
So in your experience, what are the biggest misconceptions about
manifestation and how do you guide people to get it right.
Speaker 2 (45:55):
Yeah, that's a good one. I think the really the
biggest misconception is in action.
Speaker 7 (46:02):
You know, a lot of people think that I'm just
going to sit in my house and write a list
and everything's going to come to me.
Speaker 2 (46:10):
It doesn't work that way, Okay.
Speaker 7 (46:13):
You actually have to take inspired action towards your dreams.
If you want to be a doctor, you need to
go to medical school, you need to you know, all
those things. You actually have to take inspired action to
make your dreams come true. You can't just write lists
down and expect everything.
Speaker 2 (46:31):
To come to you. So that's one thing I think
in action is a big misunderstanding.
Speaker 7 (46:36):
It's not just magic like just going to happen without you,
because the purpose of this life is for you to
live it. It's not for you to write lists to
the universe and sit in your basement, you know. So
I think that's one thing that's really misunderstood.
Speaker 2 (46:54):
Another thing is.
Speaker 7 (46:55):
That it's some kind of special power that only certain
people have and that I can't do it for some reason,
or it's only for lucky people.
Speaker 2 (47:06):
That's not true. That's really not true.
Speaker 7 (47:09):
We all have the ability to manifest something that we
want if we start with the right emotion, with the
thoughts and the feelings. If you follow the right steps,
you can actually create something that you want in your life.
This is why we're here to create our lives. So
it's not just something that you know, lucky people can do.
Speaker 2 (47:30):
Anybody can do that.
Speaker 3 (47:33):
Indeed.
Speaker 4 (47:34):
Yeah, all right, So trauma isn't always visible, and you're right.
In the black community, trauma abuse scars just don't get
talked about a lot, you know, and if you're a male,
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it gets.
Speaker 2 (47:56):
Shown upon exactly.
Speaker 4 (47:59):
Yeah, for someone struggling but unsure of where to start,
what's the first step they can take today to begin healing.
Speaker 7 (48:12):
Okay, obviously this is something depending on circumstances and you
know the possibility your situation.
Speaker 2 (48:21):
So maybe I'm going to narrow it down to let's say,
people like you and me who don't have existential.
Speaker 7 (48:29):
Issues like war and things like that, So we put
it to if it's somebody like you and me, I
think the very first thing to do is to get
a clear mind. So stop doing things that make you disassociate,
that numb you, that keep you out of the present moment.
Speaker 2 (48:51):
So if you have been drinking or.
Speaker 7 (48:53):
Engaging in negative toxic behavior or situations that make you
feel bad, try to stay away from it.
Speaker 2 (49:01):
Try to stay clear, and then from there try to
connect with your body.
Speaker 7 (49:08):
So start to exercise, start to move, because a lot
of people don't seem to understand trauma actually.
Speaker 2 (49:16):
Get stuck in your body.
Speaker 7 (49:17):
You know, it's a learned habit, like it gets stuck
in your body and it stays there.
Speaker 2 (49:23):
So you need to move.
Speaker 7 (49:24):
So get clear, start to move your body, and step
by step, you know, patience, be patient and kind with yourself.
Speaker 2 (49:32):
Because it's going to take time. Okay, some days you're
going to feel.
Speaker 7 (49:35):
Good, some days you want and this is important to understand,
there's no arriving.
Speaker 2 (49:39):
It's not going to happen overnight.
Speaker 7 (49:43):
If you have the possibility to speak to somebody, do it,
even if it's a community or somebody in your church.
Speaker 2 (49:53):
If you can't afford it, maybe even your neighbor.
Speaker 7 (49:56):
You know, find somebody who you can talk to objectively,
not somebody who's going to magnify the issues or you know,
make you start wallowing and shame and all.
Speaker 2 (50:08):
Of that kind of stuff. Just constructive conversations and then
from there you can start to look at healing modalities
one by one. But this is something that takes time.
Speaker 7 (50:23):
So I think the first step is just to get clear,
to understand the meaning of patience with yourself, especially start
to move your body, eat well. Sleep is really important
as well, try to minimize distractions, and then practice meditation.
Speaker 2 (50:44):
I think meditation is really really good.
Speaker 7 (50:46):
Mastering your mind is really the secret to all of this,
to manifestation, to healing, to everything.
Speaker 2 (50:53):
Once you can master your mind, you can master your emotions.
And it's all really is just about being able to
sit still.
Speaker 7 (51:01):
With just you.
Speaker 2 (51:02):
And meditation is also misunderstood.
Speaker 7 (51:04):
It's not about necessarily following instructions all the time, about
what somebodys saying.
Speaker 2 (51:09):
You can meditate in your house just listening to a
bird outside your window. You know, it's as simple as that.
It doesn't have to be.
Speaker 7 (51:21):
Guided meditations or it's really just about concentrating on one thing,
even if it's the sound of a fan.
Speaker 3 (51:31):
M Yeah, indeed, all right.
Speaker 4 (51:36):
So you mentioned that discussing your father is now an
essential part of your story. What role did he play
in shape in your path and how has your perception
of him evolved over time?
Speaker 7 (51:51):
Yeah, you know, my father, My father was, like I said,
still is, my father is the most amazing man that.
Speaker 3 (52:02):
I have.
Speaker 2 (52:05):
As a scene I think, in my life.
Speaker 7 (52:07):
But also he's broken my heart so many times and
reconciling those two taught me the power of forgiveness. It
taught me the importance of not taking everything personally, understanding
what it means to separate yourself from something because it's
(52:30):
not good for you, maybe in this moment and acceptance, you.
Speaker 2 (52:36):
Know, because as strong as he was, my father was
also very weak. But he had his reasons.
Speaker 7 (52:43):
But that's not really for me to explain, you know
that sort of those are his things, those are his choices,
those are parts that he took in his life. But
being his daughter, I didn't feel protected. I didn't feel safe,
I didn't feel hurt, and it led to a lot
of self sabotage and you know, things that I would
(53:04):
have done differently.
Speaker 2 (53:06):
And I felt loved by him, you know, I learned
to love myself.
Speaker 7 (53:14):
You know, it sounds sad to say it, but I
didn't feel loved by him in the way that I
wanted to be loved, and it helped me to become
stronger and to understand what.
Speaker 2 (53:25):
It means to love myself, but also how to be
a good mother to my children. Yeah.
Speaker 7 (53:34):
Yeah, but above all, forgiveness, you know, just moving on,
letting things go and moving on.
Speaker 4 (53:42):
Yeah, that's really key, right, letting it go. Yeah, sometimes
it takes a while to just come to the point
where you can just let it go. Yeah, truly let
it go. I've heard I've heard before, like someone that's
about bad memories the past, that will stop feeding the
(54:05):
past memories, stop feeding yourself memories.
Speaker 3 (54:08):
The more you feed it, the more it's gonna hang around,
like a like a lost cat. Feed a lost cat.
Now it's not lost anymore.
Speaker 7 (54:19):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (54:20):
Yeah, what do they say energy? Energy goes where.
Speaker 14 (54:29):
Emotion flows, I think, yeah, yeah, yeah, all right, So
the power of community healing is deeply personal, but it
can also be communal.
Speaker 3 (54:44):
How important is it having a strong support system.
Speaker 4 (54:47):
And how can people cultivate even how can people cultivate one.
Speaker 3 (54:54):
Even if they fill along in their journey.
Speaker 7 (54:57):
Yeah, that's a tough one. That's a tough one, you know,
that's a really really difficult one because well, okay, the
good thing is that now we have online communities, So
this is something.
Speaker 2 (55:13):
That I think you can do. It's trying to connect
with people online.
Speaker 7 (55:18):
You know, there are lots of groups and things that
you can connect with online, but in person that's a
lot more complicated because.
Speaker 2 (55:25):
The reason I don't like to advocate online groups too much.
Is because we have this really big problem in society
with this separation amongst us as human beings. And so.
Speaker 7 (55:37):
It's a complicated one because it you know, it depends
I think that's an individual decision because it depends on
people's beliefs, it depends on their cultural habits.
Speaker 15 (55:48):
For some people, I would say, go to church. You're
going to be some amazing people. If you don't like
your church, to find one that you like, you know,
go to.
Speaker 7 (56:02):
Go to events, you know, go to trying to find things,
new hobbies, meet new people, just go to new places.
Speaker 2 (56:10):
Just get out.
Speaker 7 (56:11):
I think it's important to get out, to get out
of your home, especially if you feel lonely. And in
terms of healing, I think it's really really useful to
join yoga groups, you know, groups where you do sports.
You can meet some really interesting people there, and it's
not only good for you physically, then it will be
good for.
Speaker 2 (56:28):
You emotionally and mentally. Yes, right, yeah. Retreats are also
really good.
Speaker 4 (56:36):
Ye all right, So looking ato the future, you've come
a long way, but what's next? Are there new projects,
teachings or spiritual frontiers you decided to explore this year.
Speaker 7 (56:49):
Yes, at the moment, I'm expanding my meditations some working
really hard on that to come up with new meditations
which will be up on my site. And I'm also
working on a series of children's books, so illustrated children's
books that are it's a story, the story of my
life basically, so from when I was a child until now,
(57:14):
to sort of explain trauma to children and.
Speaker 2 (57:20):
How to deal with it.
Speaker 3 (57:23):
Yeah, indeed, indeed, indeed, all right.
Speaker 4 (57:27):
And if you could leave the audience with one unshakeable
truth about life, healing and purpose, what would it be?
Speaker 2 (57:40):
Well, this is this is a quote. This is a quote.
Speaker 7 (57:45):
It's one of my favorite quotes. I think it's Abraham Lincoln. Yes,
the best way to know your future is to create it.
Speaker 3 (57:53):
Mhmm. Yeah, indeed indeed, all right. Where can our listen
connect with you online and check out your practice.
Speaker 7 (58:05):
Well, they can connect with me on Instagram, so let's
portion Tigeriro so Lingo on Instagram my site so Lingo
dot be. And they can listen to my meditations for
free on Spotify, Apple Music, and YouTube music. And I'm
(58:26):
working on a Patreon account right now. Where I'm going
to have a whole lot of new goodies and masterclasses
and things from this coming soon.
Speaker 4 (58:36):
All right, all right, and we will include those links
in the description of this episode and in the show notes,
So all you guys have to do just click those links.
For right now, we're going to play a meditation.
Speaker 7 (58:49):
Stay tuned, Welcome to a five minute meditation for releasing anxiety.
(59:31):
Begin by finding a comfortable position, either sitting or lying down.
Close your eyes softly, take a deep, slow breath in,
and as you exhale, feel your body begin to relax,
sinking into the support beneath you. Now shift your focus upwards,
(59:55):
imagining yourself lying on a soft, grassy hill, gazing up
at a vast, open sky. Feel the warmth of the
sun on your skin, the gentle breeze whispering across your face.
Take another deep breath, and as you exhale, imagine the
(01:00:19):
sky clearing, becoming a canvas of pure, serene blue. Now
imagine clouds beginning to form in the distance. These clouds
represent your anxieties, your worries, and your stressful thoughts. Don't
try to push them away, simply observe them as they appear.
(01:00:44):
Notice their shapes, their sizes, their densities. Some may be
dark and stormy, others light and wispy. Perhaps one cloud
is shaped like a deadline, another like a differ conversation,
another like a lingering fear. Acknowledge these clouds, these thoughts
(01:01:08):
and feelings, all without judgment. They are simply passing through
your mental sky. Repeat to yourself quietly, I see your anxiety.
I acknowledge your presence. Now imagine a gentle breeze beginning
(01:01:32):
to stir. Feel it softly caressing your skin. This breeze
represents your ability to let go, to release. As the
breeze strengthens, notice the clouds beginning to move to drift.
Some are carried away quickly, others more slowly. Imagine the
(01:01:56):
wind gently nudging each cloud, pushing it further and further
away from you.
Speaker 2 (01:02:03):
With each exhale.
Speaker 7 (01:02:05):
Visualize these clouds, these anxieties, being carried off into the
distance and dissipating as they go. Feel the tension in
your body easing as the clouds drift away, leaving behind
a sense of lightness and spaciousness. You are not fighting
(01:02:27):
the clouds. You are simply allowing the natural wind to
carry them away. As the clouds continue to drift away.
Notice the vast expanse of clear blue sky that remains.
Feel the sense of peace and openness that comes with
(01:02:47):
releasing those anxious thoughts. Imagine the sunlight shining brightly through
the clear sky, warming your body and your spirit. Lightness,
the freedom, the tranquility that comes with letting go. You
(01:03:08):
are surrounded by peace, by calm, by the open expanse
of the sky. Say to yourself quietly, I am at peace,
I am free, I am safe. Take a few more deep,
(01:03:34):
slow breaths, feeling the gentle breeze and the warmth of
the sun. Bring your awareness back to your physical body,
feeling the support of the ground beneath you. Gently wiggle
your fingers and toes, and slowly move your head from
side to side. When you feel ready, slowly open your eyes.
(01:04:02):
Carry this sense of peace and likeness with you throughout
your day. Remember you can always return to this peaceful sky,
this place of release, whenever you need to let go
of anxiety.
Speaker 3 (01:04:17):
The sky is.
Speaker 7 (01:04:19):
Always there, and you are always capable of finding peace.
Speaker 3 (01:04:44):
All right, all right, wonderful, wonderful meditation.
Speaker 7 (01:04:47):
There.
Speaker 4 (01:04:48):
I hope that you, guys, I hope that released some
anxiety from your life, some.
Speaker 3 (01:04:53):
Worry, some anything that you're dealing with right now, and
gave you some clarity. Thank you for that, Porsche. That
was lovely.
Speaker 2 (01:05:03):
Thank you Zabi, Thank you for this amazing opportunity.
Speaker 4 (01:05:07):
Absolutely absolutely all right, guys, Wow, what an absolutely powerful
conversation with Porsche. From childhood loss to spiritual expansion. She's
walked through the fire and emerged as a guide for
others seeking light. We do have a few takeaways from
this episode. One that healing isn't linear, It's a journey
(01:05:29):
of self discovery. Energy work and meditation are powerful tools
for transformation.
Speaker 3 (01:05:35):
Manifestation is real.
Speaker 4 (01:05:36):
Like I said, I've done it, Porsia's done it, and
countless of others have done it. And if you really
want to know if you're doing it right, I would
suggest that you contact Porsche and get for the clarity.
But it requires deep inner work, community and self forgiveness
are essential for healing. And if you want more Porsious wisdom,
(01:05:58):
follow her journey, beca session and tap into your own transformation.
I will have those links in the description that episode
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keep growing, keep healing, and keep manifesting your best life.
Speaker 3 (01:06:35):
Thank you, guys, so much peace to all.
Speaker 4 (01:06:39):
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