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Speaker 3 (01:05):
I used to think about things.
Speaker 2 (01:09):
You know, like do you love me? Do you want me?
Speaker 1 (01:14):
Are you gonna call me like you said you were?
Speaker 3 (01:16):
Is this really your real for?
Speaker 1 (01:19):
Hello everybody, and welcome to episode three twelve of What
Are Your Thoughts? Today is Friday, May twenty third, twenty
twenty five, seven ten pm, and we're coming to life
from Fresno, California. Yeah wow, we when's the last time
we recorded? It feels like ages ago?
Speaker 3 (01:36):
I think, like two weeks ago.
Speaker 1 (01:38):
Two weeks ago. Why didn't I was at work?
Speaker 3 (01:40):
Yep?
Speaker 1 (01:41):
Of course, yep, that's what I thought. Yes, a lot
has been going on. Let's see. Let's see a quick
little update. I got accepted into nursing school. That's right,
I forgot myself. Thank you for me. Yes, so I
got accepted into nurse same school education today. Uh, let's see,
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what do we talk about? What did they go over?
Speaker 3 (02:12):
Yeah?
Speaker 1 (02:12):
Actually, yeah, so today it was and you know, I
don't even know how many people are in my cohort.
I didn't really look around. I want to say. They
were like, we'll go with like twenty seven to thirty people.
I have no idea.
Speaker 3 (02:30):
What number cohort are?
Speaker 1 (02:32):
Cohort fifty three? Okay, I think I'm pretty sure it's
a d and what facility are you advan? Okay, you
want me to go all the day?
Speaker 3 (02:43):
I'm sorry? Sorry, sorry that yeah, it's a cave.
Speaker 4 (02:55):
Actually, is there literally twenty five to thirty of you
guys walking around at like once together?
Speaker 1 (03:03):
That's not at all so.
Speaker 2 (03:07):
Huh.
Speaker 3 (03:07):
I think clinicals That's how it was pretty much.
Speaker 1 (03:09):
Oh, I see, So clinicals actually don't start until October,
so my program doesn't start until September. Clinicals start like
mid October, and then I think clinicals continue all the
way until we graduate in April of twenty twenty seven.
I'll be on the cusp of thirty six. I'll be
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thirty five when and if I graduate, And it seems
like a long ways a way, it's eighteen months, so
what is that? A year and a half? Right, about
a year and a half or so. But once I start,
because right now I'm figuring out how to schedule myself
with work and then school, I'm like, oh, this is
gonna fly by so freaking fast. It's going to go
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by very very quickly. But anyways, today we just went
over what is it. So we have like the acceptance letter,
which just talks about, you know, dress code, what we
need as far as supplies go, you know, basic stuff
like that. The terms we're gonna have fundamentals and it'll
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be pharmacology and med surge blah blah blah. And then
it just gives a breakdown of our schedule and the
timeline for everything. So I'll be at school three days
a week, and then once clinicals start it sounds like
that's when scheduling is. It'll still be three days. It'll
be a day of theory plus two days of clinicals,
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but those two days can vary. It could be on
a Saturday, it could be on a Friday, it could
be on a Monday, Wednesday, you know what I.
Speaker 4 (04:44):
Mean, there's a civilian out there, right, Okay, He's like, man,
I really want like, I wonder how good a nursing
riot will be. Okay, when should they expect you to
be able to provide them care?
Speaker 1 (05:02):
Uh so nursing cares and what like like start an ivy,
draw their blood. Okay, I'm their literal nurse.
Speaker 3 (05:10):
I know. I'm so scared you get admitted.
Speaker 1 (05:14):
And uh well, let's hope that I become that nurse
like in May or June of that. Yeah, yes, let's hope.
I'm very nervous. I know I'm picturing on my head. Okay,
how is my first shift as a nurse gonna start?
(05:36):
Because like, let's say I stay with my job that
I'm at now, I think I'll get maybe like sixteen
weeks of training and that I think. I think, yeah,
which is good, and I feel like some I feel
like sometimes you may even need more, right, and I'll.
Speaker 4 (05:55):
Just have someone like literally just there with you any
of your shifts.
Speaker 1 (05:58):
Just right have their next team. Yes, and that's pretty
much it. You're going to be shadowing an RN maybe
another lvon I'm not too sure. And so I'm like, Okay,
you know what, I'm going to be doing the tasks
that I'm doing now just more intense. Right now, I'm
legally responsible for somebody's human life, and I'm going to
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be in charge of their medication, keeping in contact with
their family, obviously, communicating with providers, with doctors, correct, and
the list goes on and on. The communication part, I know,
I feel like I'm already like good with that, especially
(06:41):
now too. I already speak to family members. I mean,
I've been doing that since specific garden days, so that's
not really a big thing with me. From time to time,
I'll speak to the providers as well. I'm not gonna
lie though. Providers intimidate me because they're usually for the
most part, not so like a doctor. It's just like
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a general term of someone who's because.
Speaker 3 (07:05):
Healthcare, right, but so an you're gonna be intimidated by.
Speaker 1 (07:10):
So I'm intimidated as a CNA now, oscar, I'm intimidated
now by the doctors or we'll just say provider. It's
a general term because not all providers are doctors. It
can be a physician, it can be a uh that's
(07:31):
what an ant a specialist who Yeah, so that would
be like a provider right by an anti Yeah, yesediatrics
appedes uh, what is it a pediatric doctor or whatever? Yeah,
And it's because a lot of them I don't know
how to because they're usually like this. So when they're
(07:53):
like that, it's hard for me to read. Now, some
of them will joke around, and some of them are
more personable, but some of them just have.
Speaker 3 (07:59):
Like I think, because they've been doctoring for so long
and they've.
Speaker 1 (08:04):
They're jaded, and they're just like, I'm over.
Speaker 3 (08:08):
There to the entertainment and I entertaining.
Speaker 1 (08:14):
Yes, and I need to be amused at all times.
So I think that's what it is.
Speaker 4 (08:18):
So do you think when you're going through your interviews
you should like be like, hey, what what's you guys
entertainment policy?
Speaker 3 (08:23):
Here?
Speaker 1 (08:25):
What's your entertainment policy? But AnyWho, so I'm trying to
figure out, now, Okay, how can I still work part
time and go to school part time? And so you know,
I'm just gonna have to do it. I'm gonna just
have to do I'm gonna have to do what I
gotta do. So but all in all, I'm very excited,
(08:47):
very excited the DOO when she made a comment to
all of us this morning because she came in and
she was like, you know, she's introducing herself. This is
a little insulting. You know, she's a little and insulting.
Speaker 3 (09:02):
And what do you think her response would be if
you told her that?
Speaker 1 (09:04):
Probably asked me to excuse myself, probably.
Speaker 4 (09:08):
For just sharing your opinion. I think soon that's different.
Speaker 1 (09:13):
So they no, I feel like they very much. And
when I say they, I mean like the d O
N specifically yes, No, No, I'm just saying I think
it's more of like.
Speaker 3 (09:28):
A you think you a better job?
Speaker 2 (09:30):
No.
Speaker 1 (09:31):
I I think that.
Speaker 2 (09:37):
A lot of.
Speaker 1 (09:40):
Nursing school people who are in charge of nursing school
they have like I don't want to say, like a
boomer mentality, but there.
Speaker 3 (09:52):
I know.
Speaker 1 (09:53):
But they're they're like, like they're going to check our socks.
Speaker 3 (09:58):
What do you mean like so.
Speaker 1 (10:00):
Like we have so like okay, the white it specifically
has to be crew ne neck socks because they don't
want us to spend time like adjusting our so you okay,
So do you get what I'm saying? So it's very No,
it's worth it. I'm gonna do whatever. Like even I
(10:20):
probably had to get vaccines, right, and I'm like, you know,
give me all the vaccines. I don't give a ship,
give it, give them to me. Give it to me.
I don't care, Like if I end up getting sick,
you know it, screw it. Like just I'm at this point,
I've come so far. I feel like this is my
one and only chance to do this, to specifically be
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an Alvion, not even our end, just Alvion. So I'm like,
I'm gonna do whatever. Whatever you want me to do,
I'm gonna do it. We have to wear our hair.
It has to be in a in a bun. But
the bun has to be like a low bun. It
can't be a high bun, correct, I guess. So, so
like that's that's the thing, you know. So it's like
very specific because they want you to be to look
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the part of of the nurse right and right nurses
are very It's all about cleanliness, holiness, you know what
I mean. Like you're you're this is supposed to be
your calling, right, so like you need to Now I'm
gonna be honest. Nursing. I don't think nursing is my calling.
(11:27):
I do believe though, that nursing. Let me finish because
you know how some people truly believe and I believe
it too, that for some nurses or people who are
in that field, it really is their calling.
Speaker 3 (11:40):
Right.
Speaker 1 (11:41):
However, for me, I don't think nursing is my calling.
Like I've never thought about my whole life, like, oh
my gosh ever since Right, However, I do believe that,
like I was meant to be a nurse at this
time in my life, and I believe that this is
supposed to be my career. Now do I think like
(12:02):
it was.
Speaker 3 (12:02):
A calling doesn't mean the same because to.
Speaker 1 (12:05):
Me, a call, no, Because to me, a calling is
like this is a calling from God, Oh my God,
like I was supposed to do this. Ever since I
was five years old, I've always dreamt of being a
nurse and helping people and holding their hands. I've never
I didn't think about this till like three years ago,
till last night.
Speaker 4 (12:23):
You yeah, you feel you're meant to do this, but
you don't feel that you're called to do this by
like I don't.
Speaker 1 (12:32):
Does that fell down or like not?
Speaker 4 (12:35):
Not not the meaning in which you're like feel I'm
talking about like you don't do this in what way?
What do you mean by that okay.
Speaker 1 (12:43):
So like I feel like my like.
Speaker 3 (12:47):
In a temporary way, like you may no.
Speaker 1 (12:48):
No, no no. I want this to be the career for
the rest of my life, right and I can see
myself doing this till I'm like in my sixties because
it's something it's an occupation that I truly enjoy. But
do I think it's a calling? Like from God?
Speaker 3 (13:06):
What would be one's calling? And what do you think
you're calling? Is that's the case?
Speaker 1 (13:10):
See, I feel like my I don't know, I don't
I don't know. Like my purpose in life, I believe
is being Olivia's mom. But was that my calling? I
don't know.
Speaker 3 (13:25):
Disagree with.
Speaker 1 (13:28):
You that opposite, yeah, totally for her, she'd be like
hell no. But for me, I feel like my purpose
in life is specifically being Olivia's mom. No other child's mom.
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It's only so that's my purpose being her mother. I
feel like my career is being a nurse, and it's
something that I also at the same time, because a
lot of people have careers that they don't like, that
they don't enjoy, that they were forced into, that they're
there because it provides them financially. With the Kushiny lifestyle
(14:14):
blah blah blah. Right, but I feel like, can we
hold on one sec?
Speaker 3 (14:21):
So I on one sec.
Speaker 1 (14:23):
But so before we got interrupted, so I was just
saying that, oh, okay, So I don't think that it's
a calling like from up above, but I do think it's.
Speaker 3 (14:38):
From somewhere horizontal diagonal.
Speaker 1 (14:41):
Laterally, yes, I think that it brought me here, like
or not, it brought me here. I think my Well,
first of all, this is how it started, just real quick.
Your mom was like Maria, and this was like a
couple of years, a year after I had all of it. Mariyah,
you need to, you know, have a career.
Speaker 2 (15:01):
Now.
Speaker 1 (15:01):
Your mom shouldn't tell you that at like thirty one
years old. But hey, that's another story.
Speaker 3 (15:05):
She didn't tell me, did she. Oh wait, how old
are you?
Speaker 1 (15:10):
You said you No, like she shouldn't have to tell
But anyways, is before.
Speaker 3 (15:17):
Or after you stop smoking cigarettes?
Speaker 1 (15:19):
This is during and so yes, and so she was like, okay,
you know you need to have a career, so you
need to find a career right now. And so anyway,
so I was like, okay, I'm going to do for
bod me. Thank god I didn't do for body I
would have been so bored with that. So I was like, Okay,
I'm going to do CNA. I didn't even know what
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a CNA was, and then I really didn't and then
I really fell in love with it. And I think
it just you know, because because I enjoy the interaction.
I enjoy I'm yes, and that stuff does not gross
me out. Like I know a lot of people don't
like poopy.
Speaker 3 (16:00):
I love it.
Speaker 1 (16:00):
I'm just kidding, roast me out vomit. Now, if there's
like a smell, I'll just breathe through my nose, you
know what I mean, you can.
Speaker 3 (16:14):
And there's a taste, I just.
Speaker 1 (16:17):
Breathe through my mouth. Okay, I don't inhale. I just
constantly like okay, yeah, shallow breast. So anyways, So and
then working at Pacific Gardens, truly I enjoyed it. I
enjoyed what I did. I did not enjoy the environment
and the circumstances in which I had to work under.
That's why I didn't enjoy working there. But I have
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always enjoyed just you know, and being there for my patients.
And I think too, and in nursing, healthcare medical field,
there's always continuous learning right, you can only learn like
it's it's a thing where you're just learning. And also
it has to do with the human body. Everything stems
(17:00):
from the human body, right, So that's something that I'm
interested in. Well, right, all of our diseases, all of
like it's within our humans. Anatomy and physiology something I've
always been interested in. So I can go on and on.
So anyways, and I really like advocating and educating. And
(17:21):
because yes, and because I have gone through my own
trials and tribulations, I feel like, Okay, I've been through
my own stuff healthwise. I've had anxiety, I've been obese,
you know, I've I've had yes, pre diabetes, diabetes. Yes,
(17:43):
I did not have gestational diabetes. I didn't have diabetes,
and I was pregnant. So what I'm saying is is
I I've had my own experiences. So because of those experiences,
I can better serve my patient. Right, Yeah, So I
do it out of a place of.
Speaker 3 (17:59):
Experience and heart.
Speaker 1 (18:02):
Yeah you know what I mean. So that's why I say,
if your heart isn't in it, then don't do it,
because you really have to have a part. And I
just like the interaction. I like people. I like getting
to know other humans, see like, Okay, what happened in
your past, Like what was your upbringing? Like what did
you go through that brought you to like where you
literally are today, So you mesh all that together, and
(18:25):
that's why I'm oh, so yeah. So what I'm trying
to say is is that I really believe that for
me as an individual, nursing as a career and maybe
as a lifestyle, but nursing as a career was brought
into my life at the right time, just like how
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I ended up getting pregnant with Olivia at the right time.
Nursing was brought into my life for the right time.
So I mean, I don't know. Maybe some people will,
like if they were to hear me say this, they'd
be like, well, isn't that a calling?
Speaker 3 (19:00):
Like how you're exactly what I said.
Speaker 1 (19:02):
But for me, like I said, I don't know if
it's a calling. Maybe it is, but I just think
that it's the right choice for me, and it's what
I'm supposed to be doing, and it's something it's the
only career. Well this is my only career, but it's
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the only occupation I've had where like I truly enjoy it.
I truly, truly, genuinely enjoy what I do. Although at
the picture people, I enjoyed what I did too, but
I really wasn't making like a difference.
Speaker 3 (19:39):
Well I guess in people's like artistics.
Speaker 1 (19:41):
I guess. And it was so it was so stressful.
Remember I was driving to people's houses and dropping off their.
Speaker 3 (19:48):
Very crazy, I know, and no.
Speaker 1 (19:52):
I've never heard of anybody doing that, but it's because
I also wanted to do a good job, so I
went out of my way and did. And the fact
that Petro people gave me their addresses.
Speaker 4 (20:05):
Well, I guess technically, if you're to just buy a pictures,
they probablyould be like, what's your address, because're gonna mail
them to you. I'm sure anyone that would buy a
picture probably wouldn't question it oone and ask for their address.
Speaker 1 (20:15):
I guess I don't think any any who's so Yeah, nursing.
I'm really thankful for this career to be in this field, Relliant.
Speaker 4 (20:26):
Yeah, it is kind of like a privilege to be
in it, because it's not I do remind myself that
it's not something that you can just like apply to
you can't just like it's not like.
Speaker 1 (20:35):
A nine to five, right, No, it's not.
Speaker 3 (20:37):
Actual, like it's a career path.
Speaker 1 (20:39):
Yeah, it's a literal career path. And the cool thing
about it is that you can keep moving up, you
can keep advancing, keep educating yourself. And I'm really lucky
that I have a job where I only work three
days a week. If I want to work more, you know,
there's opportunity for that. And I get paid a decent amount.
But I only work three days a week. It's a
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long twelve hours. But I'm like, hey, that's okay for me.
It's it's all good. So yeah, so I'm very grateful
for my nursing career. So and now I'm like, okay,
nurse and progress, Damn, where's my sticker for my Stanley
nursing progress? Nurse loading. I'm going to be like all
(21:24):
like nursed out. And I know a lot of people
will get very annoyed with that. And because people make
it their.
Speaker 4 (21:31):
Person nurse, someone could be like, I'm more of a
nurse than you. Prove to me how much of a
nurse you are?
Speaker 2 (21:40):
You know what?
Speaker 1 (21:41):
The pro assholes who look down on Alvin's and they're
because they're no not everyone has been an ALV. Not
every nurse.
Speaker 3 (21:52):
Yeah, oh you can, you can just do our school.
Speaker 1 (21:54):
Yeah, just like not every r N was a CNA.
A lot of people went.
Speaker 3 (21:58):
Straight from don't say that, you just take the r
N class.
Speaker 1 (22:01):
And just if you do your prerecity, pass your entrance exam. Yeah,
or a lot of people went it's.
Speaker 3 (22:07):
Just one class. No, there's one day.
Speaker 1 (22:11):
I always wonder like, how was it like pre like
I don't know, fifty sixty years ago. I'm sure, yes,
they had to do some sort of tests to get in,
but it was nowhere.
Speaker 4 (22:21):
Like how Yeah, I imagine the barrier for entry was
a lot not it was a lot less, not like
not because it should have been, but just probably because
they probably need well, I mean there was Do you
think a necessity there? You think there was a bigger
necessity for nurses back then, or even it's a bigger
necessity for nurses now. When I think of back then,
I just think of war, So I think that there's
(22:43):
like a constant need for nurses. Yeah, in the paper
hats and like that little like white it was like
the white trench coat or whatever. That's what I think
of when I think of nurses back then. Now I
think of nurses, I think of scrubs.
Speaker 1 (22:57):
Yeah, shout out to shout out to some of the staff.
Speaker 3 (23:02):
Who still wear the paper hats. Not so okay, what
would you do.
Speaker 4 (23:07):
If you, like, let's say you're a nurse at whatever place.
Speaker 3 (23:13):
Right, it's just like a random day.
Speaker 4 (23:16):
Like, oh, yeah, we have like some new CNA's coming,
like yeah, I'm right, you're gonna have a bahlah blah.
Speaker 3 (23:21):
And one of the CNA's came dressed like that, would
you know?
Speaker 1 (23:25):
I feel like, dang, props to you, Like, first of all,
you're very bold. Secondly, you are like throwing it way
back to the original nursing days. And they were like
heels are they probably?
Speaker 4 (23:44):
No?
Speaker 1 (23:44):
I think they wore like those all white leather shoes,
white shoes, which is what they want us to wear
for the nursing program.
Speaker 3 (23:53):
But that would be funny as hell.
Speaker 4 (23:58):
No.
Speaker 1 (23:59):
But there are a couple of hospital staff. I don't
think they're nurses. Maybe they are, but they're for sure
hospital staff. And they wear like the dresses, you know,
like the button up ones. And I'm like, okay, like
I give yes, I commend you. They're probably I don't know,
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maybe they're like Mormon or something. Okay, take three third
times to charm with the pausing.
Speaker 4 (24:27):
Before our third or fourth interruption. I think that's an
appropriate segue to your birthday. Oh yeah, how.
Speaker 1 (24:38):
Many is it? Seventy two hours? Is it?
Speaker 3 (24:41):
By the time this will come out will be what
two days or three days?
Speaker 1 (24:44):
It's on Monday, so yeah, three days? Three okay, so
seventy two.
Speaker 2 (24:48):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (24:49):
So I won't reveal how old I am, but I
was thinking about that this morning. I was like, okay,
you know I'm going to be thirty four, but they'll
have to guess how old you are currently. Okay, okay, yeah,
take a stab at that, a little bit of I'm
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gonna be thirty four in a few days. And uh,
what have I learned?
Speaker 2 (25:15):
You know?
Speaker 1 (25:15):
I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for.
I really do. I don't have any complaints. I can't
complain about anything, even though I do complain about certain stuff.
Who doesn't, though, But I really don't have any complaints
in my life. There's nothing more that I could ask for.
I guess to be financially what secure we especially because
(25:40):
everything is you know, prices have gone up and whatnot.
Speaker 3 (25:43):
But because everything is insecure.
Speaker 1 (25:45):
Everything's insecure. I actually I was watching a video and
she was saying that half of the world's population is insecure.
Speaker 3 (25:54):
Half of the entire world population.
Speaker 1 (25:57):
Wow, Like they have like an insecure attachment style. So
I had an anxious attachment style. Yeah, and that definitely
comes from.
Speaker 3 (26:09):
From the wall.
Speaker 1 (26:11):
Yes, I think you wanted to marry a wall right anyways,
So I was like, you know, I'm not surprised at
that anyways, but yes, all in all, I'm very happy
with where I am in life, and I think a
lot of that, Like I've been able to build my
(26:33):
own happiness, Whereas like five six years ago and beyond,
I was depending on somebody to make me happy and
my happiness right now, which back then was a beer
and a beer and a bowl and a beer and
a fucking bowl, a brew and a blunt weed and
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brew and and anyway. So now that I have been
on my own as a single lady, put your hands up.
And as I have set out and accomplished goals and
I've achieved things that I've wanted to on my own,
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you know, it's like, Okay, that's my happiness right there. Right.
So now that I've been able to make myself happy.
I feel very content in life, as in like, I'm
just grateful and thankful for my life and for the
people around me. And I'm thankful that I'm healthy. I mean,
I hope, so you never know, there's my anxiety speaking,
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but I'm thankful that I'm health, healthy, that I have
a career. I have a decent job, a job that
I love, and I think I'm in a place and
I have my family of course, and everybody's healthy. I'm
grateful for Olivia, Sammy, everybody, for you. I think the
people in my life sitting right there, and what I
(28:08):
have in my life right now, it's because I've worked hard.
And I think for me too, what I'm realizing at
thirty four years older on the cusp of thirty four,
which how sad, but it is what it is. If
you really want something, unless you're lucky, which is a
small percent, you really have to be do. You have
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to put in that effort. You have to be consistent, right,
and you have to work hard to see the results.
Something that I'm not used to, you know what I mean. Automatically,
I'm automatically attracted to weed and brew. Yeah, and that too,
so Anyways, So I'm and you know what, I'm like,
we take a lot of stuff for granted, we're very
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overtly overly privileged here in society, in our western society,
California specifically, But if you look around, you know, the
sky is blue, the sky is beautiful. You hear the
bird chirping. Seriously, I know it sounds it sounds corny,
but we have, just as humans, a lot to be
(29:14):
thankful for and grateful for. We have so much. We
really really do. We have a lot. I think it's
natural for us to always want more in life. Right,
you see what somebody else has and you're like, oh,
I want that, Why can't I have that? But we
really should be thankful that we're able to walk, we're
able to speak, we're able to eat, blah blah blah.
(29:38):
Right exactly, pay two hundred dollars all at once for
for audio to be put out. So there's a lot
to be that. I'm grateful for. That I'm thankful for,
and I believe that all that I've experienced, especially in
my twenties, I believe that it's brought me to where
(29:59):
I am to day. And even though I went through
a lot of emotional and mental pain and anguish. It's
made me a stronger person.
Speaker 5 (30:10):
Now.
Speaker 1 (30:11):
Some people would say, but you shouldn't have to go
through all that, right, But I don't know. Everyone's life
is different. It is what it is. But it's brought
me to where I'm at today. So I'm thankful. I'm grateful,
and I'm here. So I've got a lot to be
thankful for on this thirty fourth year, I guess so.
(30:36):
So anyway, so that is what that's so cheers to that.
But it is a little surreal to be like, holy shit,
in six years, I'm going to be forty. Holy shit,
holy shit. And when you're in your twenties, you really think, oh,
(30:57):
I have so much time. I have all this time,
Like well, that was my mindset really. I was like,
ohh I'm going to be in my twenties forever. Really yeah,
lead and brew Schoolboy Q Yeah. I really it was like,
I have so much time in the world to think
about everything later and later is today and who I
(31:20):
barely made it out.
Speaker 3 (31:21):
Without that right now? I can think about that when
I'm thirty.
Speaker 1 (31:23):
Yeah, I don't even know. I don't even remember like
ten years ago envisioning myself at thirty. I just I
really I didn't. I only thought of myself in that moment.
I didn't think long term. I I really didn't. I
just thought I'm here today, live it up. And that's
really about it.
Speaker 3 (31:44):
Okay, fair, that's fair.
Speaker 1 (31:45):
Yeah, so it is what it is.
Speaker 4 (31:47):
You know, how do you feel about the whole Diddy
slash Cuddy fiasco?
Speaker 1 (31:55):
So what's his name? Said that he was a rat.
He's gross number one, never know he is.
Speaker 3 (32:01):
So I think we have a little bit of it.
Speaker 4 (32:03):
But it's okay, he is Okay, Well, thankfully, I'm not
looking for you to prove that point to me, but
we do.
Speaker 3 (32:11):
Have a message from Yeah, he actually called in.
Speaker 1 (32:14):
Actually okay, thank you.
Speaker 3 (32:18):
Hey, guys.
Speaker 5 (32:20):
So I just want to say, man, I've been seeing
all the love and support and I just want to
say thank you so much.
Speaker 6 (32:27):
Man.
Speaker 5 (32:28):
People have been hitting me up the past week, just
checking in and and even today and just it really
means a lot to me.
Speaker 3 (32:38):
Man, you guys are the best. I love y'all. This
is a stressful situation.
Speaker 5 (32:44):
I'm glad it's behind me, and uh yeah, I love y'all.
Speaker 4 (32:50):
Man.
Speaker 5 (32:51):
Big Love Coach Stream Neverland.
Speaker 1 (32:55):
He's doing this all to promote.
Speaker 3 (33:00):
Funny.
Speaker 1 (33:00):
Actually, so remember it came out years ago that his
car got blown up, and I don't think it got
enough attention that it deserves because that's a huge deal.
He also could have been sitting in that car, but
it definitely did not get the attention that it deserves
because that is that's like that's evil. Yeah, that's crazy.
(33:26):
And when you blow something.
Speaker 3 (33:28):
Up, you give zero.
Speaker 1 (33:31):
So that's like a bad person right there, So you're
did it is bad and the one who initiated it
is worse if not.
Speaker 4 (33:41):
Just just so, just so unclear, if you're involved in
any sort of explosion, you're that you're a bad person,
even if you just watch it or if you just
happen to know about it, you're a you're.
Speaker 3 (33:50):
A bad person.
Speaker 1 (33:51):
Speaking of and this is not funny. I think it
happened last week there was an explosion at a fertility
fertility clinic and it really got pushed the right I
did not get not getting Yeah. I don't know if
anybody died, but it was in Palm Springs. Some guy,
I guess either I think he maybe like put the
explosive on the sidewalk or something. But it was specific
(34:14):
to that for Chilile clinic. Yeah, so the fact that
it's not getting as much recognition that it deserves.
Speaker 4 (34:23):
Is was that around the same time as the failed
uh oh, what do you think.
Speaker 3 (34:28):
I was gonna say?
Speaker 1 (34:29):
Oh, I think you're gonna say, like everything that's going
on in the news.
Speaker 4 (34:33):
Well, I guess technically, but what was that around the
same time as a failed mass shooting when I was
supposed to take place at the gym? Where did you
hear about that? I think in Vegas there is supposed
to be a mass shooting some dude, and that's I'm wrong,
So any of our listeners please feel free to correct me.
But if not mistaken, there was an attempted mass shooting
in Vegas where this dude walk or went into a
(34:55):
gym with like an automatic weapon, and I think either
as he came out or before he went in, something
a Vegas cop right, Yeah, he shot him dead.
Speaker 1 (35:06):
What the hell?
Speaker 3 (35:08):
I didn't hear about this?
Speaker 1 (35:09):
So you know what, there's all this shit that's going
on that's obviously like very important, but it's being blindsided
by everything. Well that's one of the things with Kid
cutting and Cassie and Diddy and then who's the other one,
Hallie Bailey and her stupid baby daddy. Yes, an idiot,
(35:31):
isaam tell me that you support.
Speaker 4 (35:36):
No, you can just tell Okay. For first off, that's
like below my age range right there. I'm not saying
he's younger than me, but DDG, yeah that's my for
like nineteen to twenty year old. I'd say they cut
off is like twenty four to twenty five.
Speaker 1 (35:50):
So he's actually twenty seven.
Speaker 4 (35:52):
Okay, Yeah, that's why I didn't automatically assume I was
older than them or yeah, I didn't assume that, but
that content is not made for people pushing.
Speaker 1 (36:00):
I don't even know.
Speaker 2 (36:02):
Years.
Speaker 1 (36:03):
The only reason why I even know about this guy
is because of the Shade Room. Wow, I know, yes,
I do follow the Shade Room NGL. Not gonna lie anyways.
And then who's the other one? Like Megan the Stallion
stuff going on with her? So I didn't know that
this guy fired twenty four rounds?
Speaker 3 (36:23):
This is a first time or road wave.
Speaker 1 (36:27):
No Daniel Ortega the Loss of Ages Jim Shooter.
Speaker 3 (36:34):
That is, so he fired shots into.
Speaker 1 (36:37):
The actual gym. So someone died.
Speaker 3 (36:41):
Then that was like a serious I shouldn't say seriously.
Speaker 1 (36:45):
That was like, A, U, it is serious. Yeah, so
you know what, And it's actually it's kind of ironic
because I've been going to the gym a little bit
more lately, and you know how our backs are turned
to the glass windows and to the entrance. There's no security,
(37:06):
so literally anyone could just go in at any time.
I always think this to myself too. Okay, anyone if
they wanted, they could just shoot all of us and
we would not know because our backs are literally turning.
It's not like there's a mirror and we can see
what's behind us, but you can't see nothing. So and yeah,
(37:26):
I was thinking they should have security there, especially in
that area. Any like no offense, but like person who's maybe.
Speaker 3 (37:36):
Not in their rights, like A I'm not gonna I
don't unhitched.
Speaker 1 (37:46):
Yes, yes, can just walk in. Yes anyways, uh oh,
I just got out of all my tabs.
Speaker 3 (37:51):
Okay, podcast over so but.
Speaker 1 (37:54):
I didn't hear about that. But going back to which
is very important, I don't know where this per I'm
assuming he either is in so he was arrested. Okay,
he was arrested in twenty thirteen for DUI and same guy. Yeah,
drug trafficking. I don't know if they killed him, he
killed himself. I don't know if he's Oh okay, so he.
Speaker 3 (38:17):
He for sure shot him because the cop shooting on it.
Speaker 1 (38:20):
He could have survived it, but oh yeah he yeah,
So again stupid. I don't understand people's like whatever. So
going back to kid Cutty, I did read something about
like how he got played by Cassie like she played
(38:40):
him and P Diddy she's probably, I'm sure, likerel maybe
who cares. So what my biggest thing is is how
so many people and I'm sorry, a lot of men,
but a lot of women too. But a lot of
men are like, why.
Speaker 3 (39:00):
Didn't she just leave? Did?
Speaker 4 (39:03):
Yeah?
Speaker 1 (39:03):
She was looking for a payout?
Speaker 3 (39:04):
A lot of you're saying, A lot of men that
said that.
Speaker 1 (39:07):
Yeah okay, and a lot of people and women too, women, Oh,
there's something fish going on around here, and she's she's
doing this to set him up because she wants his
money and blah blah blah. How come she didn't leave?
Why does she stay with him for so long? She
must have enjoyed what was going on, because she stayed
with him for ten years. So let me just say, okay,
(39:31):
if I'm not mistaken. She was like nineteen twenty, okay
when she got with him, he was already in his thirties.
Extremely vulnerable, you're what two years post high school? Okay,
so that's number one, not like fully sure, yes, but
extremely vulnerable, don't have a lot of life experience. I'm
going to assume.
Speaker 3 (39:49):
I don't think Ryan Leslie gave her a lot of life.
Speaker 1 (39:55):
I what's I don't know, Like is he still a producer?
Speaker 3 (39:58):
Probably?
Speaker 1 (40:00):
Maybe?
Speaker 3 (40:01):
I don't think he ever is not going to be
a producer.
Speaker 1 (40:03):
Okay, you're right, going back, So I don't think it's
outlandish to say that Cassie probably like didn't have that
many like long term, like that much experience, you know,
because she was so young, right, Okay, So now she
finds herself with not only an older man, which.
Speaker 4 (40:25):
Is extremely famous, like in the top tier artist bracket
of correct. So okay, well you and I guess it
really doesn't matter. But do you think the same thing
would have happened?
Speaker 3 (40:37):
Like not? Because obviously not to.
Speaker 4 (40:39):
The extreme, because did he had and I guess maybe
to a certain extense still does, But there were like
access to a lot of different resources. Whether that'd be
positive or negative. Do you think Cassie would have gone
through the same thing. Let's say, if this was just
a normal dude working.
Speaker 1 (40:54):
A nine to five, perhaps because there are normal dude,
normal civilians work nine who do this.
Speaker 4 (41:03):
Okay, so she's just unfortunately, Yeah, she's just it's just
another case.
Speaker 1 (41:10):
Of it's just another case of DV except it's more
amplified because obviously they're celebrities. Excuse me. But there's also
a huge power and balance between the two of them,
Like not only is he older, but like you said,
money resources. He also has weapons, he has connections to
(41:33):
any and everything. So if he wants to find her,
if he wants to track her down, if he wants
to pay off somebody to keep her quiet, to keep
her health somewhere, he can do that and people are
gonna do it. So for people to be like, oh,
why didn't she leave, Well, hello, there's footage of her
literally trying to leave, and what happens. He comes out
(41:53):
in a tell like a maniac and beats her up.
So it's like, how are you going to say, oh,
she why isn't she leaving? Well, she did, and she
got the shit beat out of her, and then not
only that, but there's other photos that I saw of
her where she's got you know, a scar right here,
a busted lip, she's got bruises on her back, blah
(42:15):
blah blah. And so it's like, Okay, not only is
there physical abuse, but when there's a mental and emotional
abuse and someone's making you fear for your life or
fear for your safety, it's even harder to leave. Like
physical abuse, Okay, that's one thing, which is horrible, right,
but now once you get to emotional and mental that
(42:38):
some say that that's even worse because all that's you're
being manipulated, you're being coerced, you're being threatened, I'm sure,
And the list goes on, and I'm sure he's like, hey,
I have people who are watching you. I know where
you're at at all times, and like, of course, and
(42:59):
I'm sure she didn't. Then their staff, oh, you are
being paid to watch her every move to communicate with him.
Hey this is what she's doing. Blah blah blah. So
it's like she's not really safe anywhere, you know. And
then there's other things that are added into it too.
So that's what I don't like is how people are like,
(43:20):
why didn't she leave?
Speaker 3 (43:21):
Well, she trying to.
Speaker 1 (43:24):
Yeah, And it's not domestic violence, toxic relationship, whatever you
want to call it. It's never that simple. Now. I
will say, before I got into my own toxic relationship,
I had a friend who was in a very toxic,
abusive relationship and there was one instance that I did
uh was around where there was physical abuse and that
(43:49):
was traumatic for me as the bystander just happened to
be in that area when it happened. But because I
hadn't been in it myself at that time, I would
tell her why can't why don't you just leave? Like
why are you still in this? Why? Like why can't
you just leave? But that's because I hadn't experienced it
(44:10):
for myself. But once I got into a toxic relationship,
I was like, oh shit, it's not that easy to
leave because there's so many layers to it, it's so complex.
And then there's always that honeymoon stage. It's true, where
you're like, Okay, this person they're treating me nicely. There
(44:33):
being this person that I've seen them be before where
they're like sweet and they're loving, YadA YadA, and then
the cycle continues. So you know, it's literally a cycle,
and that's why it takes women average and an average
of seven times to finally leave. So for the people,
like I said, saying like she enjoyed it, No she didn't.
(44:55):
She didn't enjoy or she enjoyed the freak offs, well,
I'm sure a lot of it. She was also doing
to please him because she didn't want him to be
mad at her. Yeah, she didn't want him to be
mad at her. She didn't want him to be more
twisted towards her, more depraved.
Speaker 2 (45:14):
You know.
Speaker 1 (45:14):
So she probably stayed because she was scared, you know.
So it's not so black and white, these kinds of relationships. Yeah,
So that's all I have to say about that. It's
very disappointing. It's truly disappointing that a lot of people
in twenty twenty five are still like, how come you stayed? Well,
(45:38):
you must have enjoyed it. No, nobody enjoys being treated
like that. I can tell you that for sure. Anyways,
now what I'll say talking about enjoyment, I went and
saw Final Destination, right, So I went to see Final Destination.
Speaker 3 (45:53):
And it's a comedy.
Speaker 1 (45:56):
It's so over the top, So okay.
Speaker 4 (46:00):
Is it Is that the point though? Or is it
like they were trying to make a good movie and
it turned out so, you know, if.
Speaker 1 (46:06):
I'm not mistaken, and I could very well be mistaken,
but I want to say Rotten Tomatoes gave it like
a decent amount, like a decent score. It was like
eighty percent or something, I know, which I was shocked.
So it's what final destination? Bloodlines? So it's death in
their bloodline within family members, right, so it's like this, wow, yeah,
(46:28):
so what is it? They start off with their I
think it's called skyline or something. It's like in the
nineteen sixties, and that's when they're on top, think of
like the space needle. They go all the way up
top to that.
Speaker 3 (46:41):
And the sounds interesting, you know, it sounds interesting.
Speaker 1 (46:46):
Is it worth seeing at the movie?
Speaker 4 (46:48):
Yeah?
Speaker 3 (46:49):
I don't know if that's executed, probs not.
Speaker 1 (46:51):
But is it worth seeing on Netflix at home here
on the couch with a bucket of popcorn?
Speaker 3 (46:56):
Sure?
Speaker 1 (46:57):
Yeah? Yes, So and then the last starts cracking as
they're dancing.
Speaker 4 (47:02):
On it, and then all them die and it goes
on with the eighties.
Speaker 1 (47:06):
Oh okay, So then the main character she ends up
surviving and she ends.
Speaker 4 (47:13):
Up she falls from the top and lands on the
ground and survives it.
Speaker 1 (47:16):
So kind of yeah, okay, wow, okay, being the survivors,
I don't even thousands of feet in land on the
you know, so you know what, I think they actually
are holding on like a thousand feet.
Speaker 4 (47:30):
And they're still holding on right now. The resources to
them ends up, I.
Speaker 1 (47:37):
Don't even know, So her and the little kid, and
I'm surviving, and so her granddaughter.
Speaker 3 (47:43):
So hold on.
Speaker 4 (47:44):
Imagine if like in a real LI scenario where people
are hanging like thousands of feet in there and they're like, look,
we can't save you, guys, but we can just provide.
Speaker 3 (47:53):
We can provide meals. We can change you guys.
Speaker 1 (47:55):
If you change you guys. I feel like now they
could use like a drone or wait what a helicopter Okay, yeah, right,
a helicopter anyways, So okay, then anyway, so then like
someone gets crushed in the compressor in the the trash, yes,
(48:21):
and then the other one dies.
Speaker 3 (48:26):
Oh.
Speaker 1 (48:27):
They're fling from the train and then the logs end
up impaling them. It's an homage to Final Destination to Yes, Okay,
the other one which I was like, oh, ship, this
could really happen.
Speaker 3 (48:43):
Is the MRI the mercury goes in their veins or what.
Speaker 1 (48:48):
So you know how the MRI machine is just a
huge magnet. So that's what you have to remove. Yes,
so it's a just thinking of a huge magnet. You
have to get any everything away from there, no jewelry,
no cell phone. It's very specific as to what you
can have on your person or in the room. So
in this case, the guy, I don't remember what happens exactly,
(49:11):
but he ends up in the wheelchair or pushing the
wheelchair and gets sucked into the MRI machine and he
ends up like bending within the MRI machine and then
all this stuff like starts like getting stuck to the
outside of the MRI room. And I was like, oh
my because the frequency or the teslas are so high.
(49:35):
But I was like, shit, okay, that one scared me
because that one can really happen. That one can really
happen anyways, So I will say this. So I was
taken out that night right on like my yeah, and
I was never talked to. But you know what, I'm
(49:56):
all good with it. Trust me, I'm not gonna lie.
It make me feel a certain type of way. But
then I was like, you know what, I probably dodged
a bullet in some way, shape or form, because this
person is very pro Trump. This person is yeah, and
this is not even And it's funny because he was like,
(50:18):
I'm probably gonna get counseled on your podcast. But I
was like, no, like, but I'm just speaking like anyways.
But I was like, you know what, I don't like
the idea of like dating or going on dates, because
you have to be the best version of yourself, like
(50:41):
you have to sell yourself. I don't want to sell myself,
you know what I mean, Like I want to be
able to be my authentic self, but also in my mind,
I can't lie. I'm also checking off a list the
entire time. And I feel like he kind of knew
that because like with his driving, like I wasn't down
(51:02):
for it. I was like, Okay, you need to like relax,
you know the whole. And I felt like it was
very like men versus woman, man versus woman, you know
what I mean, and I don't. I didn't like that either,
and I felt like I had to like what's the
(51:23):
word what, like like it was a competition and it's
like why, you know what I mean, Like, there was
no chemistry, There was no and I think he felt
that too, And I definitely felt that while we were there.
I was like, yeah, there's no you know what I mean.
But it was an experience anyways, but the movie it
(51:47):
felt like, yeah, so it was an experience. But going
back to the movie, final destination, that was my final destination.
Speaker 3 (51:57):
But I'm sure, Sorr, are you anticipating there being a
final destination? Six? I don't know which takes it to
the future.
Speaker 1 (52:05):
So how about let's do it in space? Like how
with like Jason went to, Okay, so let's do that.
I feel like there's lots of potential for many final
destinations in space. Now that one would be scary, but
that one would be on point. Or like, how about
do an AI space.
Speaker 4 (52:25):
Hybrid robot dinosaur Ninja hybrid theory?
Speaker 1 (52:30):
Yes, and Chester Bennington is the facilitator of all this.
Speaker 3 (52:38):
Who's the guy that leads.
Speaker 1 (52:39):
The orchestra, the one who does that.
Speaker 3 (52:42):
The composer.
Speaker 4 (52:44):
He's the composer and he has dinosaur Robot Ninja AI
robots in Lincoln Park along with yea for minor.
Speaker 3 (52:59):
Shout out. All right, styles of beyond. Oh, that's the
style of beyond. Right there, We'll catch you guys. A sad.
I'll try to get this out tonight. Everyone, stay safe,
enjoy the last bit of May.
Speaker 4 (53:12):
What's the Memorial Day?
Speaker 3 (53:15):
That happy Memorial day? Make sure to remember and memorize
your loved ones.
Speaker 1 (53:20):
Memorize all of them. Alphabet your loved ones.
Speaker 3 (53:25):
No, what's the scorp Not the scorpio?
Speaker 1 (53:28):
What's the Gemini?
Speaker 3 (53:29):
Is that?
Speaker 4 (53:29):
What? Oh?
Speaker 3 (53:30):
Yeah, you're right, so all the two or three faces?
Where's my snare? Okay, we'll catch you guys there. Everyone
stay safe. We appreciate you guys.
Speaker 6 (53:41):
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Speaker 3 (54:09):
I have no snare in my headphones? Where's my snare?
I have no snare on my headphones.
Speaker 6 (54:22):
Where's my snare? I have no snare in my headphones.
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Speaker 1 (01:19):
Hello everybody, and welcome to episode three twelve of What
Are Your Thoughts? Today is Friday, May twenty third, twenty
twenty five, seven ten pm, and we're coming to life
from Fresno, California. Yeah wow, we when's the last time
we recorded? It feels like ages ago?
Speaker 3 (01:36):
I think, like two weeks ago.
Speaker 1 (01:38):
Two weeks ago. Why didn't I was at work?
Speaker 3 (01:40):
Yep?
Speaker 1 (01:41):
Of course, yep, that's what I thought. Yes, a lot
has been going on. Let's see. Let's see a quick
little update. I got accepted into nursing school. That's right,
I forgot myself. Thank you for me. Yes, so I
got accepted into nurse same school education today. Uh, let's see,
(02:09):
what do we talk about? What did they go over?
Speaker 3 (02:12):
Yeah?
Speaker 1 (02:12):
Actually, yeah, so today it was and you know, I
don't even know how many people are in my cohort.
I didn't really look around. I want to say. They
were like, we'll go with like twenty seven to thirty people.
I have no idea.
Speaker 3 (02:30):
What number cohort are?
Speaker 1 (02:32):
Cohort fifty three? Okay, I think I'm pretty sure it's
a d and what facility are you advan? Okay, you
want me to go all the day?
Speaker 3 (02:43):
I'm sorry? Sorry, sorry that yeah, it's a cave.
Speaker 4 (02:55):
Actually, is there literally twenty five to thirty of you
guys walking around at like once together?
Speaker 1 (03:03):
That's not at all so.
Speaker 2 (03:07):
Huh.
Speaker 3 (03:07):
I think clinicals That's how it was pretty much.
Speaker 1 (03:09):
Oh, I see, So clinicals actually don't start until October,
so my program doesn't start until September. Clinicals start like
mid October, and then I think clinicals continue all the
way until we graduate in April of twenty twenty seven.
I'll be on the cusp of thirty six. I'll be
(03:32):
thirty five when and if I graduate, And it seems
like a long ways a way, it's eighteen months, so
what is that? A year and a half? Right, about
a year and a half or so. But once I start,
because right now I'm figuring out how to schedule myself
with work and then school, I'm like, oh, this is
gonna fly by so freaking fast. It's going to go
(03:53):
by very very quickly. But anyways, today we just went
over what is it. So we have like the acceptance letter,
which just talks about, you know, dress code, what we
need as far as supplies go, you know, basic stuff
like that. The terms we're gonna have fundamentals and it'll
(04:16):
be pharmacology and med surge blah blah blah. And then
it just gives a breakdown of our schedule and the
timeline for everything. So I'll be at school three days
a week, and then once clinicals start it sounds like
that's when scheduling is. It'll still be three days. It'll
be a day of theory plus two days of clinicals,
(04:38):
but those two days can vary. It could be on
a Saturday, it could be on a Friday, it could
be on a Monday, Wednesday, you know what I.
Speaker 4 (04:44):
Mean, there's a civilian out there, right, Okay, He's like, man,
I really want like, I wonder how good a nursing
riot will be. Okay, when should they expect you to
be able to provide them care?
Speaker 1 (05:02):
Uh so nursing cares and what like like start an ivy,
draw their blood. Okay, I'm their literal nurse.
Speaker 3 (05:10):
I know. I'm so scared you get admitted.
Speaker 1 (05:14):
And uh well, let's hope that I become that nurse
like in May or June of that. Yeah, yes, let's hope.
I'm very nervous. I know I'm picturing on my head. Okay,
how is my first shift as a nurse gonna start?
(05:36):
Because like, let's say I stay with my job that
I'm at now, I think I'll get maybe like sixteen
weeks of training and that I think. I think, yeah,
which is good, and I feel like some I feel
like sometimes you may even need more, right, and I'll.
Speaker 4 (05:55):
Just have someone like literally just there with you any
of your shifts.
Speaker 1 (05:58):
Just right have their next team. Yes, and that's pretty
much it. You're going to be shadowing an RN maybe
another lvon I'm not too sure. And so I'm like, Okay,
you know what, I'm going to be doing the tasks
that I'm doing now just more intense. Right now, I'm
legally responsible for somebody's human life, and I'm going to
(06:21):
be in charge of their medication, keeping in contact with
their family, obviously, communicating with providers, with doctors, correct, and
the list goes on and on. The communication part, I know,
I feel like I'm already like good with that, especially
(06:41):
now too. I already speak to family members. I mean,
I've been doing that since specific garden days, so that's
not really a big thing with me. From time to time,
I'll speak to the providers as well. I'm not gonna
lie though. Providers intimidate me because they're usually for the
most part, not so like a doctor. It's just like
(07:02):
a general term of someone who's because.
Speaker 3 (07:05):
Healthcare, right, but so an you're gonna be intimidated by.
Speaker 1 (07:10):
So I'm intimidated as a CNA now, oscar, I'm intimidated
now by the doctors or we'll just say provider. It's
a general term because not all providers are doctors. It
can be a physician, it can be a uh that's
(07:31):
what an ant a specialist who Yeah, so that would
be like a provider right by an anti Yeah, yesediatrics
appedes uh, what is it a pediatric doctor or whatever? Yeah,
And it's because a lot of them I don't know
how to because they're usually like this. So when they're
(07:53):
like that, it's hard for me to read. Now, some
of them will joke around, and some of them are
more personable, but some of them just have.
Speaker 3 (07:59):
Like I think, because they've been doctoring for so long
and they've.
Speaker 1 (08:04):
They're jaded, and they're just like, I'm over.
Speaker 3 (08:08):
There to the entertainment and I entertaining.
Speaker 1 (08:14):
Yes, and I need to be amused at all times.
So I think that's what it is.
Speaker 4 (08:18):
So do you think when you're going through your interviews
you should like be like, hey, what what's you guys
entertainment policy?
Speaker 3 (08:23):
Here?
Speaker 1 (08:25):
What's your entertainment policy? But AnyWho, so I'm trying to
figure out, now, Okay, how can I still work part
time and go to school part time? And so you know,
I'm just gonna have to do it. I'm gonna just
have to do I'm gonna have to do what I
gotta do. So but all in all, I'm very excited,
(08:47):
very excited the DOO when she made a comment to
all of us this morning because she came in and
she was like, you know, she's introducing herself. This is
a little insulting. You know, she's a little and insulting.
Speaker 3 (09:02):
And what do you think her response would be if
you told her that?
Speaker 1 (09:04):
Probably asked me to excuse myself, probably.
Speaker 4 (09:08):
For just sharing your opinion. I think soon that's different.
Speaker 1 (09:13):
So they no, I feel like they very much. And
when I say they, I mean like the d O
N specifically yes, No, No, I'm just saying I think
it's more of like.
Speaker 3 (09:28):
A you think you a better job?
Speaker 2 (09:30):
No.
Speaker 1 (09:31):
I I think that.
Speaker 2 (09:37):
A lot of.
Speaker 1 (09:40):
Nursing school people who are in charge of nursing school
they have like I don't want to say, like a
boomer mentality, but there.
Speaker 3 (09:52):
I know.
Speaker 1 (09:53):
But they're they're like, like they're going to check our socks.
Speaker 3 (09:58):
What do you mean like so.
Speaker 1 (10:00):
Like we have so like okay, the white it specifically
has to be crew ne neck socks because they don't
want us to spend time like adjusting our so you okay,
So do you get what I'm saying? So it's very No,
it's worth it. I'm gonna do whatever. Like even I
(10:20):
probably had to get vaccines, right, and I'm like, you know,
give me all the vaccines. I don't give a ship,
give it, give them to me. Give it to me.
I don't care, Like if I end up getting sick,
you know it, screw it. Like just I'm at this point,
I've come so far. I feel like this is my
one and only chance to do this, to specifically be
(10:41):
an Alvion, not even our end, just Alvion. So I'm like,
I'm gonna do whatever. Whatever you want me to do,
I'm gonna do it. We have to wear our hair.
It has to be in a in a bun. But
the bun has to be like a low bun. It
can't be a high bun, correct, I guess. So, so
like that's that's the thing, you know. So it's like
very specific because they want you to be to look
(11:05):
the part of of the nurse right and right nurses
are very It's all about cleanliness, holiness, you know what
I mean. Like you're you're this is supposed to be
your calling, right, so like you need to Now I'm
gonna be honest. Nursing. I don't think nursing is my calling.
(11:27):
I do believe though, that nursing. Let me finish because
you know how some people truly believe and I believe
it too, that for some nurses or people who are
in that field, it really is their calling.
Speaker 3 (11:40):
Right.
Speaker 1 (11:41):
However, for me, I don't think nursing is my calling.
Like I've never thought about my whole life, like, oh
my gosh ever since Right, However, I do believe that,
like I was meant to be a nurse at this
time in my life, and I believe that this is
supposed to be my career. Now do I think like
(12:02):
it was.
Speaker 3 (12:02):
A calling doesn't mean the same because to.
Speaker 1 (12:05):
Me, a call, no, Because to me, a calling is
like this is a calling from God, Oh my God,
like I was supposed to do this. Ever since I
was five years old, I've always dreamt of being a
nurse and helping people and holding their hands. I've never
I didn't think about this till like three years ago,
till last night.
Speaker 4 (12:23):
You yeah, you feel you're meant to do this, but
you don't feel that you're called to do this by
like I don't.
Speaker 1 (12:32):
Does that fell down or like not?
Speaker 4 (12:35):
Not not the meaning in which you're like feel I'm
talking about like you don't do this in what way?
What do you mean by that okay.
Speaker 1 (12:43):
So like I feel like my like.
Speaker 3 (12:47):
In a temporary way, like you may no.
Speaker 1 (12:48):
No, no no. I want this to be the career for
the rest of my life, right and I can see
myself doing this till I'm like in my sixties because
it's something it's an occupation that I truly enjoy. But
do I think it's a calling? Like from God?
Speaker 3 (13:06):
What would be one's calling? And what do you think
you're calling? Is that's the case?
Speaker 1 (13:10):
See, I feel like my I don't know, I don't
I don't know. Like my purpose in life, I believe
is being Olivia's mom. But was that my calling? I
don't know.
Speaker 3 (13:25):
Disagree with.
Speaker 1 (13:28):
You that opposite, yeah, totally for her, she'd be like
hell no. But for me, I feel like my purpose
in life is specifically being Olivia's mom. No other child's mom.
(13:52):
It's only so that's my purpose being her mother. I
feel like my career is being a nurse, and it's
something that I also at the same time, because a
lot of people have careers that they don't like, that
they don't enjoy, that they were forced into, that they're
there because it provides them financially. With the Kushiny lifestyle
(14:14):
blah blah blah. Right, but I feel like, can we
hold on one sec?
Speaker 3 (14:21):
So I on one sec.
Speaker 1 (14:23):
But so before we got interrupted, so I was just
saying that, oh, okay, So I don't think that it's
a calling like from up above, but I do think it's.
Speaker 3 (14:38):
From somewhere horizontal diagonal.
Speaker 1 (14:41):
Laterally, yes, I think that it brought me here, like
or not, it brought me here. I think my Well,
first of all, this is how it started, just real quick.
Your mom was like Maria, and this was like a
couple of years, a year after I had all of it. Mariyah,
you need to, you know, have a career.
Speaker 2 (15:01):
Now.
Speaker 1 (15:01):
Your mom shouldn't tell you that at like thirty one
years old. But hey, that's another story.
Speaker 3 (15:05):
She didn't tell me, did she. Oh wait, how old
are you?
Speaker 1 (15:10):
You said you No, like she shouldn't have to tell
But anyways, is before.
Speaker 3 (15:17):
Or after you stop smoking cigarettes?
Speaker 1 (15:19):
This is during and so yes, and so she was like, okay,
you know you need to have a career, so you
need to find a career right now. And so anyway,
so I was like, okay, I'm going to do for
bod me. Thank god I didn't do for body I
would have been so bored with that. So I was like, Okay,
I'm going to do CNA. I didn't even know what
(15:40):
a CNA was, and then I really didn't and then
I really fell in love with it. And I think
it just you know, because because I enjoy the interaction.
I enjoy I'm yes, and that stuff does not gross
me out. Like I know a lot of people don't
like poopy.
Speaker 3 (16:00):
I love it.
Speaker 1 (16:00):
I'm just kidding, roast me out vomit. Now, if there's
like a smell, I'll just breathe through my nose, you
know what I mean, you can.
Speaker 3 (16:14):
And there's a taste, I just.
Speaker 1 (16:17):
Breathe through my mouth. Okay, I don't inhale. I just
constantly like okay, yeah, shallow breast. So anyways, So and
then working at Pacific Gardens, truly I enjoyed it. I
enjoyed what I did. I did not enjoy the environment
and the circumstances in which I had to work under.
That's why I didn't enjoy working there. But I have
(16:39):
always enjoyed just you know, and being there for my patients.
And I think too, and in nursing, healthcare medical field,
there's always continuous learning right, you can only learn like
it's it's a thing where you're just learning. And also
it has to do with the human body. Everything stems
(17:00):
from the human body, right, So that's something that I'm
interested in. Well, right, all of our diseases, all of
like it's within our humans. Anatomy and physiology something I've
always been interested in. So I can go on and on.
So anyways, and I really like advocating and educating. And
(17:21):
because yes, and because I have gone through my own
trials and tribulations, I feel like, Okay, I've been through
my own stuff healthwise. I've had anxiety, I've been obese,
you know, I've I've had yes, pre diabetes, diabetes. Yes,
(17:43):
I did not have gestational diabetes. I didn't have diabetes,
and I was pregnant. So what I'm saying is is
I I've had my own experiences. So because of those experiences,
I can better serve my patient. Right, Yeah, So I
do it out of a place of.
Speaker 3 (17:59):
Experience and heart.
Speaker 1 (18:02):
Yeah you know what I mean. So that's why I say,
if your heart isn't in it, then don't do it,
because you really have to have a part. And I
just like the interaction. I like people. I like getting
to know other humans, see like, Okay, what happened in
your past, Like what was your upbringing? Like what did
you go through that brought you to like where you
literally are today, So you mesh all that together, and
(18:25):
that's why I'm oh, so yeah. So what I'm trying
to say is is that I really believe that for
me as an individual, nursing as a career and maybe
as a lifestyle, but nursing as a career was brought
into my life at the right time, just like how
(18:46):
I ended up getting pregnant with Olivia at the right time.
Nursing was brought into my life for the right time.
So I mean, I don't know. Maybe some people will,
like if they were to hear me say this, they'd
be like, well, isn't that a calling?
Speaker 3 (19:00):
Like how you're exactly what I said.
Speaker 1 (19:02):
But for me, like I said, I don't know if
it's a calling. Maybe it is, but I just think
that it's the right choice for me, and it's what
I'm supposed to be doing, and it's something it's the
only career. Well this is my only career, but it's
(19:22):
the only occupation I've had where like I truly enjoy it.
I truly, truly, genuinely enjoy what I do. Although at
the picture people, I enjoyed what I did too, but
I really wasn't making like a difference.
Speaker 3 (19:39):
Well I guess in people's like artistics.
Speaker 1 (19:41):
I guess. And it was so it was so stressful.
Remember I was driving to people's houses and dropping off their.
Speaker 3 (19:48):
Very crazy, I know, and no.
Speaker 1 (19:52):
I've never heard of anybody doing that, but it's because
I also wanted to do a good job, so I
went out of my way and did. And the fact
that Petro people gave me their addresses.
Speaker 4 (20:05):
Well, I guess technically, if you're to just buy a pictures,
they probablyould be like, what's your address, because're gonna mail
them to you. I'm sure anyone that would buy a
picture probably wouldn't question it oone and ask for their address.
Speaker 1 (20:15):
I guess I don't think any any who's so Yeah, nursing.
I'm really thankful for this career to be in this field, Relliant.
Speaker 4 (20:26):
Yeah, it is kind of like a privilege to be
in it, because it's not I do remind myself that
it's not something that you can just like apply to
you can't just like it's not like.
Speaker 1 (20:35):
A nine to five, right, No, it's not.
Speaker 3 (20:37):
Actual, like it's a career path.
Speaker 1 (20:39):
Yeah, it's a literal career path. And the cool thing
about it is that you can keep moving up, you
can keep advancing, keep educating yourself. And I'm really lucky
that I have a job where I only work three
days a week. If I want to work more, you know,
there's opportunity for that. And I get paid a decent amount.
But I only work three days a week. It's a
(21:02):
long twelve hours. But I'm like, hey, that's okay for me.
It's it's all good. So yeah, so I'm very grateful
for my nursing career. So and now I'm like, okay,
nurse and progress, Damn, where's my sticker for my Stanley
nursing progress? Nurse loading. I'm going to be like all
(21:24):
like nursed out. And I know a lot of people
will get very annoyed with that. And because people make
it their.
Speaker 4 (21:31):
Person nurse, someone could be like, I'm more of a
nurse than you. Prove to me how much of a
nurse you are?
Speaker 2 (21:40):
You know what?
Speaker 1 (21:41):
The pro assholes who look down on Alvin's and they're
because they're no not everyone has been an ALV. Not
every nurse.
Speaker 3 (21:52):
Yeah, oh you can, you can just do our school.
Speaker 1 (21:54):
Yeah, just like not every r N was a CNA.
A lot of people went.
Speaker 3 (21:58):
Straight from don't say that, you just take the r
N class.
Speaker 1 (22:01):
And just if you do your prerecity, pass your entrance exam. Yeah,
or a lot of people went it's.
Speaker 3 (22:07):
Just one class. No, there's one day.
Speaker 1 (22:11):
I always wonder like, how was it like pre like
I don't know, fifty sixty years ago. I'm sure, yes,
they had to do some sort of tests to get in,
but it was nowhere.
Speaker 4 (22:21):
Like how Yeah, I imagine the barrier for entry was
a lot not it was a lot less, not like
not because it should have been, but just probably because
they probably need well, I mean there was Do you
think a necessity there? You think there was a bigger
necessity for nurses back then, or even it's a bigger
necessity for nurses now. When I think of back then,
I just think of war, So I think that there's
(22:43):
like a constant need for nurses. Yeah, in the paper
hats and like that little like white it was like
the white trench coat or whatever. That's what I think
of when I think of nurses back then. Now I
think of nurses, I think of scrubs.
Speaker 1 (22:57):
Yeah, shout out to shout out to some of the staff.
Speaker 3 (23:02):
Who still wear the paper hats. Not so okay, what
would you do.
Speaker 4 (23:07):
If you, like, let's say you're a nurse at whatever place.
Speaker 3 (23:13):
Right, it's just like a random day.
Speaker 4 (23:16):
Like, oh, yeah, we have like some new CNA's coming,
like yeah, I'm right, you're gonna have a bahlah blah.
Speaker 3 (23:21):
And one of the CNA's came dressed like that, would
you know?
Speaker 1 (23:25):
I feel like, dang, props to you, Like, first of all,
you're very bold. Secondly, you are like throwing it way
back to the original nursing days. And they were like
heels are they probably?
Speaker 4 (23:44):
No?
Speaker 1 (23:44):
I think they wore like those all white leather shoes,
white shoes, which is what they want us to wear
for the nursing program.
Speaker 3 (23:53):
But that would be funny as hell.
Speaker 4 (23:58):
No.
Speaker 1 (23:59):
But there are a couple of hospital staff. I don't
think they're nurses. Maybe they are, but they're for sure
hospital staff. And they wear like the dresses, you know,
like the button up ones. And I'm like, okay, like
I give yes, I commend you. They're probably I don't know,
(24:19):
maybe they're like Mormon or something. Okay, take three third
times to charm with the pausing.
Speaker 4 (24:27):
Before our third or fourth interruption. I think that's an
appropriate segue to your birthday. Oh yeah, how.
Speaker 1 (24:38):
Many is it? Seventy two hours? Is it?
Speaker 3 (24:41):
By the time this will come out will be what
two days or three days?
Speaker 1 (24:44):
It's on Monday, so yeah, three days? Three okay, so
seventy two.
Speaker 2 (24:48):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (24:49):
So I won't reveal how old I am, but I
was thinking about that this morning. I was like, okay,
you know I'm going to be thirty four, but they'll
have to guess how old you are currently. Okay, okay, yeah,
take a stab at that, a little bit of I'm
(25:09):
gonna be thirty four in a few days. And uh,
what have I learned?
Speaker 2 (25:15):
You know?
Speaker 1 (25:15):
I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for.
I really do. I don't have any complaints. I can't
complain about anything, even though I do complain about certain stuff.
Who doesn't, though, But I really don't have any complaints
in my life. There's nothing more that I could ask for.
I guess to be financially what secure we especially because
(25:40):
everything is you know, prices have gone up and whatnot.
Speaker 3 (25:43):
But because everything is insecure.
Speaker 1 (25:45):
Everything's insecure. I actually I was watching a video and
she was saying that half of the world's population is insecure.
Speaker 3 (25:54):
Half of the entire world population.
Speaker 1 (25:57):
Wow, Like they have like an insecure attachment style. So
I had an anxious attachment style. Yeah, and that definitely
comes from.
Speaker 3 (26:09):
From the wall.
Speaker 1 (26:11):
Yes, I think you wanted to marry a wall right anyways,
So I was like, you know, I'm not surprised at
that anyways, but yes, all in all, I'm very happy
with where I am in life, and I think a
lot of that, Like I've been able to build my
(26:33):
own happiness, Whereas like five six years ago and beyond,
I was depending on somebody to make me happy and
my happiness right now, which back then was a beer
and a beer and a bowl and a beer and
a fucking bowl, a brew and a blunt weed and
(26:56):
brew and and anyway. So now that I have been
on my own as a single lady, put your hands up.
And as I have set out and accomplished goals and
I've achieved things that I've wanted to on my own,
(27:19):
you know, it's like, Okay, that's my happiness right there. Right.
So now that I've been able to make myself happy.
I feel very content in life, as in like, I'm
just grateful and thankful for my life and for the
people around me. And I'm thankful that I'm healthy. I mean,
I hope, so you never know, there's my anxiety speaking,
(27:42):
but I'm thankful that I'm health, healthy, that I have
a career. I have a decent job, a job that
I love, and I think I'm in a place and
I have my family of course, and everybody's healthy. I'm
grateful for Olivia, Sammy, everybody, for you. I think the
people in my life sitting right there, and what I
(28:08):
have in my life right now, it's because I've worked hard.
And I think for me too, what I'm realizing at
thirty four years older on the cusp of thirty four,
which how sad, but it is what it is. If
you really want something, unless you're lucky, which is a
small percent, you really have to be do. You have
(28:28):
to put in that effort. You have to be consistent, right,
and you have to work hard to see the results.
Something that I'm not used to, you know what I mean. Automatically,
I'm automatically attracted to weed and brew. Yeah, and that too,
so Anyways, So I'm and you know what, I'm like,
we take a lot of stuff for granted, we're very
(28:51):
overtly overly privileged here in society, in our western society,
California specifically, But if you look around, you know, the
sky is blue, the sky is beautiful. You hear the
bird chirping. Seriously, I know it sounds it sounds corny,
but we have, just as humans, a lot to be
(29:14):
thankful for and grateful for. We have so much. We
really really do. We have a lot. I think it's
natural for us to always want more in life. Right,
you see what somebody else has and you're like, oh,
I want that, Why can't I have that? But we
really should be thankful that we're able to walk, we're
able to speak, we're able to eat, blah blah blah.
(29:38):
Right exactly, pay two hundred dollars all at once for
for audio to be put out. So there's a lot
to be that. I'm grateful for. That I'm thankful for,
and I believe that all that I've experienced, especially in
my twenties, I believe that it's brought me to where
(29:59):
I am to day. And even though I went through
a lot of emotional and mental pain and anguish. It's
made me a stronger person.
Speaker 5 (30:10):
Now.
Speaker 1 (30:11):
Some people would say, but you shouldn't have to go
through all that, right, But I don't know. Everyone's life
is different. It is what it is. But it's brought
me to where I'm at today. So I'm thankful. I'm grateful,
and I'm here. So I've got a lot to be
thankful for on this thirty fourth year, I guess so.
(30:36):
So anyway, so that is what that's so cheers to that.
But it is a little surreal to be like, holy shit,
in six years, I'm going to be forty. Holy shit,
holy shit. And when you're in your twenties, you really think, oh,
(30:57):
I have so much time. I have all this time,
Like well, that was my mindset really. I was like,
ohh I'm going to be in my twenties forever. Really yeah,
lead and brew Schoolboy Q Yeah. I really it was like,
I have so much time in the world to think
about everything later and later is today and who I
(31:20):
barely made it out.
Speaker 3 (31:21):
Without that right now? I can think about that when
I'm thirty.
Speaker 1 (31:23):
Yeah, I don't even know. I don't even remember like
ten years ago envisioning myself at thirty. I just I
really I didn't. I only thought of myself in that moment.
I didn't think long term. I I really didn't. I
just thought I'm here today, live it up. And that's
really about it.
Speaker 3 (31:44):
Okay, fair, that's fair.
Speaker 1 (31:45):
Yeah, so it is what it is.
Speaker 4 (31:47):
You know, how do you feel about the whole Diddy
slash Cuddy fiasco?
Speaker 1 (31:55):
So what's his name? Said that he was a rat.
He's gross number one, never know he is.
Speaker 3 (32:01):
So I think we have a little bit of it.
Speaker 4 (32:03):
But it's okay, he is Okay, Well, thankfully, I'm not
looking for you to prove that point to me, but
we do.
Speaker 3 (32:11):
Have a message from Yeah, he actually called in.
Speaker 1 (32:14):
Actually okay, thank you.
Speaker 3 (32:18):
Hey, guys.
Speaker 5 (32:20):
So I just want to say, man, I've been seeing
all the love and support and I just want to
say thank you so much.
Speaker 6 (32:27):
Man.
Speaker 5 (32:28):
People have been hitting me up the past week, just
checking in and and even today and just it really
means a lot to me.
Speaker 3 (32:38):
Man, you guys are the best. I love y'all. This
is a stressful situation.
Speaker 5 (32:44):
I'm glad it's behind me, and uh yeah, I love y'all.
Speaker 4 (32:50):
Man.
Speaker 5 (32:51):
Big Love Coach Stream Neverland.
Speaker 1 (32:55):
He's doing this all to promote.
Speaker 3 (33:00):
Funny.
Speaker 1 (33:00):
Actually, so remember it came out years ago that his
car got blown up, and I don't think it got
enough attention that it deserves because that's a huge deal.
He also could have been sitting in that car, but
it definitely did not get the attention that it deserves
because that is that's like that's evil. Yeah, that's crazy.
(33:26):
And when you blow something.
Speaker 3 (33:28):
Up, you give zero.
Speaker 1 (33:31):
So that's like a bad person right there, So you're
did it is bad and the one who initiated it
is worse if not.
Speaker 4 (33:41):
Just just so, just so unclear, if you're involved in
any sort of explosion, you're that you're a bad person,
even if you just watch it or if you just
happen to know about it, you're a you're.
Speaker 3 (33:50):
A bad person.
Speaker 1 (33:51):
Speaking of and this is not funny. I think it
happened last week there was an explosion at a fertility
fertility clinic and it really got pushed the right I
did not get not getting Yeah. I don't know if
anybody died, but it was in Palm Springs. Some guy,
I guess either I think he maybe like put the
explosive on the sidewalk or something. But it was specific
(34:14):
to that for Chilile clinic. Yeah, so the fact that
it's not getting as much recognition that it deserves.
Speaker 4 (34:23):
Is was that around the same time as the failed
uh oh, what do you think.
Speaker 3 (34:28):
I was gonna say?
Speaker 1 (34:29):
Oh, I think you're gonna say, like everything that's going
on in the news.
Speaker 4 (34:33):
Well, I guess technically, but what was that around the
same time as a failed mass shooting when I was
supposed to take place at the gym? Where did you
hear about that? I think in Vegas there is supposed
to be a mass shooting some dude, and that's I'm wrong,
So any of our listeners please feel free to correct me.
But if not mistaken, there was an attempted mass shooting
in Vegas where this dude walk or went into a
(34:55):
gym with like an automatic weapon, and I think either
as he came out or before he went in, something
a Vegas cop right, Yeah, he shot him dead.
Speaker 1 (35:06):
What the hell?
Speaker 3 (35:08):
I didn't hear about this?
Speaker 1 (35:09):
So you know what, there's all this shit that's going
on that's obviously like very important, but it's being blindsided
by everything. Well that's one of the things with Kid
cutting and Cassie and Diddy and then who's the other one,
Hallie Bailey and her stupid baby daddy. Yes, an idiot,
(35:31):
isaam tell me that you support.
Speaker 4 (35:36):
No, you can just tell Okay. For first off, that's
like below my age range right there. I'm not saying
he's younger than me, but DDG, yeah that's my for
like nineteen to twenty year old. I'd say they cut
off is like twenty four to twenty five.
Speaker 1 (35:50):
So he's actually twenty seven.
Speaker 4 (35:52):
Okay, Yeah, that's why I didn't automatically assume I was
older than them or yeah, I didn't assume that, but
that content is not made for people pushing.
Speaker 1 (36:00):
I don't even know.
Speaker 2 (36:02):
Years.
Speaker 1 (36:03):
The only reason why I even know about this guy
is because of the Shade Room. Wow, I know, yes,
I do follow the Shade Room NGL. Not gonna lie anyways.
And then who's the other one? Like Megan the Stallion
stuff going on with her? So I didn't know that
this guy fired twenty four rounds?
Speaker 3 (36:23):
This is a first time or road wave.
Speaker 1 (36:27):
No Daniel Ortega the Loss of Ages Jim Shooter.
Speaker 3 (36:34):
That is, so he fired shots into.
Speaker 1 (36:37):
The actual gym. So someone died.
Speaker 3 (36:41):
Then that was like a serious I shouldn't say seriously.
Speaker 1 (36:45):
That was like, A, U, it is serious. Yeah, so
you know what, And it's actually it's kind of ironic
because I've been going to the gym a little bit
more lately, and you know how our backs are turned
to the glass windows and to the entrance. There's no security,
(37:06):
so literally anyone could just go in at any time.
I always think this to myself too. Okay, anyone if
they wanted, they could just shoot all of us and
we would not know because our backs are literally turning.
It's not like there's a mirror and we can see
what's behind us, but you can't see nothing. So and yeah,
(37:26):
I was thinking they should have security there, especially in
that area. Any like no offense, but like person who's maybe.
Speaker 3 (37:36):
Not in their rights, like A I'm not gonna I
don't unhitched.
Speaker 1 (37:46):
Yes, yes, can just walk in. Yes anyways, uh oh,
I just got out of all my tabs.
Speaker 3 (37:51):
Okay, podcast over so but.
Speaker 1 (37:54):
I didn't hear about that. But going back to which
is very important, I don't know where this per I'm
assuming he either is in so he was arrested. Okay,
he was arrested in twenty thirteen for DUI and same guy. Yeah,
drug trafficking. I don't know if they killed him, he
killed himself. I don't know if he's Oh okay, so he.
Speaker 3 (38:17):
He for sure shot him because the cop shooting on it.
Speaker 1 (38:20):
He could have survived it, but oh yeah he yeah,
So again stupid. I don't understand people's like whatever. So
going back to kid Cutty, I did read something about
like how he got played by Cassie like she played
(38:40):
him and P Diddy she's probably, I'm sure, likerel maybe
who cares. So what my biggest thing is is how
so many people and I'm sorry, a lot of men,
but a lot of women too. But a lot of
men are like, why.
Speaker 3 (39:00):
Didn't she just leave? Did?
Speaker 4 (39:03):
Yeah?
Speaker 1 (39:03):
She was looking for a payout?
Speaker 3 (39:04):
A lot of you're saying, A lot of men that
said that.
Speaker 1 (39:07):
Yeah okay, and a lot of people and women too, women, Oh,
there's something fish going on around here, and she's she's
doing this to set him up because she wants his
money and blah blah blah. How come she didn't leave?
Why does she stay with him for so long? She
must have enjoyed what was going on, because she stayed
with him for ten years. So let me just say, okay,
(39:31):
if I'm not mistaken. She was like nineteen twenty, okay
when she got with him, he was already in his thirties.
Extremely vulnerable, you're what two years post high school? Okay,
so that's number one, not like fully sure, yes, but
extremely vulnerable, don't have a lot of life experience. I'm
going to assume.
Speaker 3 (39:49):
I don't think Ryan Leslie gave her a lot of life.
Speaker 1 (39:55):
I what's I don't know, Like is he still a producer?
Speaker 3 (39:58):
Probably?
Speaker 1 (40:00):
Maybe?
Speaker 3 (40:01):
I don't think he ever is not going to be
a producer.
Speaker 1 (40:03):
Okay, you're right, going back, So I don't think it's
outlandish to say that Cassie probably like didn't have that
many like long term, like that much experience, you know,
because she was so young, right, Okay, So now she
finds herself with not only an older man, which.
Speaker 4 (40:25):
Is extremely famous, like in the top tier artist bracket
of correct. So okay, well you and I guess it
really doesn't matter. But do you think the same thing
would have happened?
Speaker 3 (40:37):
Like not? Because obviously not to.
Speaker 4 (40:39):
The extreme, because did he had and I guess maybe
to a certain extense still does, But there were like
access to a lot of different resources. Whether that'd be
positive or negative. Do you think Cassie would have gone
through the same thing. Let's say, if this was just
a normal dude working.
Speaker 1 (40:54):
A nine to five, perhaps because there are normal dude,
normal civilians work nine who do this.
Speaker 4 (41:03):
Okay, so she's just unfortunately, Yeah, she's just it's just
another case.
Speaker 1 (41:10):
Of it's just another case of DV except it's more
amplified because obviously they're celebrities. Excuse me. But there's also
a huge power and balance between the two of them,
Like not only is he older, but like you said,
money resources. He also has weapons, he has connections to
(41:33):
any and everything. So if he wants to find her,
if he wants to track her down, if he wants
to pay off somebody to keep her quiet, to keep
her health somewhere, he can do that and people are
gonna do it. So for people to be like, oh,
why didn't she leave, Well, hello, there's footage of her
literally trying to leave, and what happens. He comes out
(41:53):
in a tell like a maniac and beats her up.
So it's like, how are you going to say, oh,
she why isn't she leaving? Well, she did, and she
got the shit beat out of her, and then not
only that, but there's other photos that I saw of
her where she's got you know, a scar right here,
a busted lip, she's got bruises on her back, blah
(42:15):
blah blah. And so it's like, Okay, not only is
there physical abuse, but when there's a mental and emotional
abuse and someone's making you fear for your life or
fear for your safety, it's even harder to leave. Like
physical abuse, Okay, that's one thing, which is horrible, right,
but now once you get to emotional and mental that
(42:38):
some say that that's even worse because all that's you're
being manipulated, you're being coerced, you're being threatened, I'm sure,
And the list goes on, and I'm sure he's like, hey,
I have people who are watching you. I know where
you're at at all times, and like, of course, and
(42:59):
I'm sure she didn't. Then their staff, oh, you are
being paid to watch her every move to communicate with him.
Hey this is what she's doing. Blah blah blah. So
it's like she's not really safe anywhere, you know. And
then there's other things that are added into it too.
So that's what I don't like is how people are like,
(43:20):
why didn't she leave?
Speaker 3 (43:21):
Well, she trying to.
Speaker 1 (43:24):
Yeah, And it's not domestic violence, toxic relationship, whatever you
want to call it. It's never that simple. Now. I
will say, before I got into my own toxic relationship,
I had a friend who was in a very toxic,
abusive relationship and there was one instance that I did
uh was around where there was physical abuse and that
(43:49):
was traumatic for me as the bystander just happened to
be in that area when it happened. But because I
hadn't been in it myself at that time, I would
tell her why can't why don't you just leave? Like
why are you still in this? Why? Like why can't
you just leave? But that's because I hadn't experienced it
(44:10):
for myself. But once I got into a toxic relationship,
I was like, oh shit, it's not that easy to
leave because there's so many layers to it, it's so complex.
And then there's always that honeymoon stage. It's true, where
you're like, Okay, this person they're treating me nicely. There
(44:33):
being this person that I've seen them be before where
they're like sweet and they're loving, YadA YadA, and then
the cycle continues. So you know, it's literally a cycle,
and that's why it takes women average and an average
of seven times to finally leave. So for the people,
like I said, saying like she enjoyed it, No she didn't.
(44:55):
She didn't enjoy or she enjoyed the freak offs, well,
I'm sure a lot of it. She was also doing
to please him because she didn't want him to be
mad at her. Yeah, she didn't want him to be
mad at her. She didn't want him to be more
twisted towards her, more depraved.
Speaker 2 (45:14):
You know.
Speaker 1 (45:14):
So she probably stayed because she was scared, you know.
So it's not so black and white, these kinds of relationships. Yeah,
So that's all I have to say about that. It's
very disappointing. It's truly disappointing that a lot of people
in twenty twenty five are still like, how come you stayed? Well,
(45:38):
you must have enjoyed it. No, nobody enjoys being treated
like that. I can tell you that for sure. Anyways,
now what I'll say talking about enjoyment, I went and
saw Final Destination, right, So I went to see Final Destination.
Speaker 3 (45:53):
And it's a comedy.
Speaker 1 (45:56):
It's so over the top, So okay.
Speaker 4 (46:00):
Is it Is that the point though? Or is it
like they were trying to make a good movie and
it turned out so, you know, if.
Speaker 1 (46:06):
I'm not mistaken, and I could very well be mistaken,
but I want to say Rotten Tomatoes gave it like
a decent amount, like a decent score. It was like
eighty percent or something, I know, which I was shocked.
So it's what final destination? Bloodlines? So it's death in
their bloodline within family members, right, so it's like this, wow, yeah,
(46:28):
so what is it? They start off with their I
think it's called skyline or something. It's like in the
nineteen sixties, and that's when they're on top, think of
like the space needle. They go all the way up
top to that.
Speaker 3 (46:41):
And the sounds interesting, you know, it sounds interesting.
Speaker 1 (46:46):
Is it worth seeing at the movie?
Speaker 4 (46:48):
Yeah?
Speaker 3 (46:49):
I don't know if that's executed, probs not.
Speaker 1 (46:51):
But is it worth seeing on Netflix at home here
on the couch with a bucket of popcorn?
Speaker 3 (46:56):
Sure?
Speaker 1 (46:57):
Yeah? Yes, So and then the last starts cracking as
they're dancing.
Speaker 4 (47:02):
On it, and then all them die and it goes
on with the eighties.
Speaker 1 (47:06):
Oh okay, So then the main character she ends up
surviving and she ends.
Speaker 4 (47:13):
Up she falls from the top and lands on the
ground and survives it.
Speaker 1 (47:16):
So kind of yeah, okay, wow, okay, being the survivors,
I don't even thousands of feet in land on the
you know, so you know what, I think they actually
are holding on like a thousand feet.
Speaker 4 (47:30):
And they're still holding on right now. The resources to
them ends up, I.
Speaker 1 (47:37):
Don't even know, So her and the little kid, and
I'm surviving, and so her granddaughter.
Speaker 3 (47:43):
So hold on.
Speaker 4 (47:44):
Imagine if like in a real LI scenario where people
are hanging like thousands of feet in there and they're like, look,
we can't save you, guys, but we can just provide.
Speaker 3 (47:53):
We can provide meals. We can change you guys.
Speaker 1 (47:55):
If you change you guys. I feel like now they
could use like a drone or wait what a helicopter Okay, yeah, right,
a helicopter anyways, So okay, then anyway, so then like
someone gets crushed in the compressor in the the trash, yes,
(48:21):
and then the other one dies.
Speaker 3 (48:26):
Oh.
Speaker 1 (48:27):
They're fling from the train and then the logs end
up impaling them. It's an homage to Final Destination to Yes, Okay,
the other one which I was like, oh, ship, this
could really happen.
Speaker 3 (48:43):
Is the MRI the mercury goes in their veins or what.
Speaker 1 (48:48):
So you know how the MRI machine is just a
huge magnet. So that's what you have to remove. Yes,
so it's a just thinking of a huge magnet. You
have to get any everything away from there, no jewelry,
no cell phone. It's very specific as to what you
can have on your person or in the room. So
in this case, the guy, I don't remember what happens exactly,
(49:11):
but he ends up in the wheelchair or pushing the
wheelchair and gets sucked into the MRI machine and he
ends up like bending within the MRI machine and then
all this stuff like starts like getting stuck to the
outside of the MRI room. And I was like, oh
my because the frequency or the teslas are so high.
(49:35):
But I was like, shit, okay, that one scared me
because that one can really happen. That one can really
happen anyways, So I will say this. So I was
taken out that night right on like my yeah, and
I was never talked to. But you know what, I'm
(49:56):
all good with it. Trust me, I'm not gonna lie.
It make me feel a certain type of way. But
then I was like, you know what, I probably dodged
a bullet in some way, shape or form, because this
person is very pro Trump. This person is yeah, and
this is not even And it's funny because he was like,
(50:18):
I'm probably gonna get counseled on your podcast. But I
was like, no, like, but I'm just speaking like anyways.
But I was like, you know what, I don't like
the idea of like dating or going on dates, because
you have to be the best version of yourself, like
(50:41):
you have to sell yourself. I don't want to sell myself,
you know what I mean, Like I want to be
able to be my authentic self, but also in my mind,
I can't lie. I'm also checking off a list the
entire time. And I feel like he kind of knew
that because like with his driving, like I wasn't down
(51:02):
for it. I was like, Okay, you need to like relax,
you know the whole. And I felt like it was
very like men versus woman, man versus woman, you know
what I mean, and I don't. I didn't like that either,
and I felt like I had to like what's the
(51:23):
word what, like like it was a competition and it's
like why, you know what I mean, Like, there was
no chemistry, There was no and I think he felt
that too, And I definitely felt that while we were there.
I was like, yeah, there's no you know what I mean.
But it was an experience anyways, but the movie it
(51:47):
felt like, yeah, so it was an experience. But going
back to the movie, final destination, that was my final destination.
Speaker 3 (51:57):
But I'm sure, Sorr, are you anticipating there being a
final destination? Six? I don't know which takes it to
the future.
Speaker 1 (52:05):
So how about let's do it in space? Like how
with like Jason went to, Okay, so let's do that.
I feel like there's lots of potential for many final
destinations in space. Now that one would be scary, but
that one would be on point. Or like, how about
do an AI space.
Speaker 4 (52:25):
Hybrid robot dinosaur Ninja hybrid theory?
Speaker 1 (52:30):
Yes, and Chester Bennington is the facilitator of all this.
Speaker 3 (52:38):
Who's the guy that leads.
Speaker 1 (52:39):
The orchestra, the one who does that.
Speaker 3 (52:42):
The composer.
Speaker 4 (52:44):
He's the composer and he has dinosaur Robot Ninja AI
robots in Lincoln Park along with yea for minor.
Speaker 3 (52:59):
Shout out. All right, styles of beyond. Oh, that's the
style of beyond. Right there, We'll catch you guys. A sad.
I'll try to get this out tonight. Everyone, stay safe,
enjoy the last bit of May.
Speaker 4 (53:12):
What's the Memorial Day?
Speaker 3 (53:15):
That happy Memorial day? Make sure to remember and memorize
your loved ones.
Speaker 1 (53:20):
Memorize all of them. Alphabet your loved ones.
Speaker 3 (53:25):
No, what's the scorp Not the scorpio?
Speaker 1 (53:28):
What's the Gemini?
Speaker 3 (53:29):
Is that?
Speaker 4 (53:29):
What? Oh?
Speaker 3 (53:30):
Yeah, you're right, so all the two or three faces?
Where's my snare? Okay, we'll catch you guys there. Everyone
stay safe. We appreciate you guys.
Speaker 6 (53:41):
I have no snare in my head phone. I have
no snare in my head phone. Where's my snare? I
have no snare in my headphones? Where's my snare?
Speaker 3 (54:09):
I have no snare in my headphones? Where's my snare?
I have no snare on my headphones.
Speaker 6 (54:22):
Where's my snare? I have no snare in my headphones.
Where's my snare?
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