Tales From A Cult Insider

Tales From A Cult Insider

Here is a podcast where I tell stories about growing up in a fairly well-known cult. Starting as the Process Church of the Final Judgement in the UK and morphing into the Foundation Faith of God in the US - it was controversial in many ways. It evolved over the years and now has no religion, functioning solely as Best Friends Animal Society. There's much that hasn't been told about 30+ kids that were 'raised' in this cult. Cult orphans is a fair way to describe us. These are stories of my growing up in this cult along with lessons learned and some episodes with my sister. Please support!

Episodes

August 30, 2024 36 mins

As I'm working out guests for the podcast and getting the schedules to line up, I've also been reflecting on this idea of healing through truth-telling. I want more of that healing. I'm greedy. I want to be free.

I yearn for freedom from the tendrils and chains of what those cultists did to me - WHILE at the same time, I'm grateful for the hardship that led me to become a deeply happy and blessed person.

So I refl...

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This is the second half of the session with just me and my father. He adds more detail and we have a good opportunity to keep proving the truth that there's always more to the story. Also, he's a great dude and I love him.

Thank you as always! Don't forget to rate and share!

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August 16, 2024 39 mins

My dad stuck around to share more interesting details and more from his perspective about how his life was in the Process, then the Foundation Faith of God.

Thank you all for returning to the podcast, and thank everyone who is just finding it! I hope you enjoy this new approach of healing through truth-telling.

There's more to come!

Please remember to share and rate!

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August 13, 2024 37 mins

My father continues telling his story. Lots of neat details.

We do a lot of good for ourselves and others when we not only listen to there stories but also try to help them tell that story. Often, when we have a story to tell, even a true one that is from our experience, we need help and space to figure out how to tell that story truthfully and in a way that satisfies us.

I hope this episode is the beginning of that for my father...

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August 9, 2024 34 mins

As I mentioned, my father was a big driver of getting this started back up. This is the episode where he starts telling his story, with my sister and I adding color commentary, questions, and our own memories here and there. He shares stuff I didn't know at all.


It's interesting to realize that there really is always more to the story, and there's so much power in telling the truth and knowing what you're sayi...

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August 2, 2024 25 mins

We're back!

In this episode, I share what has happened over the last couple of years that made it necessary to start a sequel season.

New information, new photos, strengthened relationships, renewed friendships, and healing opportunities got me thinking, "What if I went back and shared all of this with those amazing listeners?"

So I did. And that includes guests! Here's the intro to tell you what to expect and ...

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Surprise, there's more!

Lots has happened since "I'm Out" dropped. I've loved the freedom I've felt from the cult as I feel I've truly moved on and healed, so I'm very grateful.

But there's more. Like, more guests with unique insight. And more reconnections. And loads more information.

So welcome to season two of this podcast. Actual Season Two. I think I called some episodes a second season...

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February 9, 2022 10 mins

I needed to record some truly final thoughts while actually on Best Friends property. So I recorded on my phone near a highway and you'll hear cars going by and me being reflective as I take the final step of the journey this podcast has taken me on. 

I can't overstate how much it means to me that you have taken this journey with me. I hope you've gained hope and optimism for the future and have gotten a glimpse at the ...

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This is the grand finale episode, recorded in Kanab, only seven miles from Best Friends. Poetic by design! And with a live, not exactly studio, audience! 

This is a wrap-up episode aimed to provide some closure to myself and all of you wonderful listeners. I think it worked. I share my deepest feelings about all of this and I have hope and optimism and am blessed with all I could ever need. 

-- also yes, there's a bit of ...

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This is the final of three long, deep episodes with my wonderful sister, Emma. You can find more of her perspective and also her excellent talents on TikTok at spicyemmapanada

We make sure we say what needs to be said, not out of malice but because we will tell the story and we are responsible for telling all of it, both for ourselves and for the world to have truth. So join us for the ride. And stay tuned for the final epis...

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My sister Emma joins me for another wide-ranging, mildly cathartic episode in which we dive into the trauma of constant instability and how that looks today. We also talk about how the cult did our parents dirty and really was a wrecking ball of crap. 

Start for the silly inside jokes, stay for the sweet chat about The Little Mermaid. Which is obviously more than a chat about a movie with a series of questionable messages.&nbs...

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The podcast is back. Not epilogues, not bonus episodes. Back with stories and more truth that needs telling. Back with my sister, Emma, for at least the next several episodes. 

I'm still not trying to bring down the whole thing that used to be the cult that we grew up in. But I'm not happy about keeping some of the story untold out of a desire to 'be nice' or whatever. So when I heard my sister telling some of what she experie...

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Back in January of 2020, before all the crazy, I was contacted by Bob Smietana, who was then the Editor-in-Chief of Religion News Service, a rather impressive and wonderful news outlet that reports on the religious angle of all the newsworthy stuff going down. Bob had found this podcast and was interested in discussing my childhood and experiences and we ended up doing an interview some weeks later. He also talked to my dad and sis...

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You can probably imagine that visiting Best Friends now is odd. In this epilogue episode, I share stories to illustrate some of the strange and disconnected feelings I have visiting there. Spoiler: it's odd. But cool and chill. 

Remember to review and share this podcast with your chums and bums! 

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I learned a lot from watching the documentary that Neil Edwards at TwoFour Entertainment put together. It's a very good documentary with an impressive amount of primary sources, interviews, and footage and audio. Very cool stuff. 

I had several visceral reactions to this thing. I considered writing them all down, but didn't want to go to the effort. So I recorded an episode. 

This one is me being a little less guarded tha...

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Remember that episode I did on what the cult actually believed? 

Well, my knowledge was far more incomplete than it is now. I received a bunch of material from the director of a documentary about the Process. His name is Neil Edwards and the documentary is called Sympathy for the Devil: The True Story of the Process Church of the Final Judgment. He sent me some interesting stuff in the same package as a DVD copy of the documen...

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Did I ever tell you I was a firefighter? Well, I was. My first call was to rescue young bulls from a truck accident. My first fire was a dumpster fire. 

No, literally. 

Also, I talked a lot about how important books were to me, but I don't think I emphasized the power and importance of music in my formative years. It provided unfettered exhilaration and pretend and I will always be thankful to it. I recently rediscovered ...

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March 25, 2020 44 mins

This is the first of at least three epilogues. The way I grew up led me to a mission in Brazil and I found a home in the warmth, goodness, and welcome of those people. And I learned and was changed fundamentally. This episode shares some of the more impactful stories from my mission and you will be able to see how this experience provided everything I had wanted my whole life. Sincerity, genuine faith, and things that in my old cyn...

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Spoiler: I have never seen that show. Not even a single episode - and I'm a big fan of Alyson Hannigan. This episode brings the podcast full-circle from where I started: I wanted a family, to where I am now: I have a family. It's longer because there's a lot of juicy details and intermittently mortifying memories. I tell how I met my dear wife and how we got to know each other and got engaged. So buckle up, this is the last episode...

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This episode starts with me singing, moves on into me reading a very small part of a poem by Walt Whitman, and then just keeps to that epically high standard. I mean, might as well go out with a bang. 

But really though, this episode is all about the things that helped me find my identity, my voice, my love, and my passion. Things that helped me see and recognize beauty. 

Also, it's about Dead Poets Society, that amazing ...

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