Hey there, mama! Welcome to Dreams, Dirt, and Grace—the podcast where we get real about growing big dreams while nurturing little hearts all while leaning on God. I’m your host, Kawailani Ah Quin, a Hawaiian homesteading mom who’s juggling homeschooling, building a business, wrangling chickens, and figuring out life as I go. This is your space to embrace the beautiful chaos of it all—the dirt under your nails, the endless to-do lists, and the moments of messy grace that make it all worthwhile. We’ll dive into the nitty-gritty of entrepreneurship, homesteading, parenting hacks, faith, and finding joy in the everyday adventure. If you’re ready to get a little dirty, laugh at the mess, and grow something beautiful, you’re in the right place. Let’s dig in!
Have you ever said “yes” to something just because it felt good? Same here. I used to make big life decisions based on that warm, peaceful feeling and call it confirmation. But over time, I learned that following God isn’t always about the feelings—it’s about faith, obedience, and listening for His voice in deeper ways.
In this episode, I share a personal story about how I almost said yes to an opportunity that looked perfect on pa...
Real-life rhythms, chore strategies, and sanity-saving systems from a homeschooling mama of 5.
Let’s be real—keeping a household running, homeschooling the kids, and keeping everyone fed (without losing your mind) requires more than just a good planner. In this episode, I’m opening up our real-life mama systems: the chore rhythms, life skills training, tech boundaries, and daily routines that have actually helped our family thriv...
Feeling behind? Burnt out? Like the stack of curriculum you bought is staring you down with judgmental eyes?
Been there, mama. 🙋🏽♀️
In this episode of Dreams, Dirt & Grace, we’re talking about the moment when your beautiful, color-coded homeschool plan falls apart—and what to do next. I’m sharing real stories, honest struggles, and what I’ve learned about making curriculum serve us, not the other way around.
You’ll walk away...
In this episode, we’re diving into the real-life mess and magic of homeschooling. Whether you're knee-deep in lesson plans, wondering if you're "doing it right," or just trying to survive another day without someone crying over math (and it might be you), this one’s for you.
We’ll talk about:
Ever wonder if all this staying home, pouring out, and homeschooling is really worth it?
In this honest episode, I’m sharing a moment where I almost walked away from the calling—and what helped me stay rooted. We’ll talk about the tug-of-war between purpose and pressure, and how God reminded me that this season of motherhood matters deeply.
Takeaways:
Doubt doesn’t mean you’re not called.
Obedience sometimes looks like sta...
Ever notice how your home shifts with your mood? I sure have—and it was a wake-up call. In this episode, we’ll talk about why moms set the atmosphere of their homes, how our emotions, rhythms, and spiritual walk ripple through our families, and how even the smallest self-care moments can shift everything. Mama, you have more influence than you realize—let’s learn how to use it with grace.
What if the biggest thing standing in the way of God's plans for your family… is you?
In this vulnerable and heart-changing episode, I share the costly and humbling lesson I had to learn about submission—what it really means to walk in biblical order within our homes, and how I unintentionally distracted my husband from hearing God's direction.
If you’ve ever wrestled with control, pride, or the desire to “help” steer the ship… thi...
Preparing for Your Homeschool Year (Even If You Don’t Feel Ready) 🌿 With faith, flexibility, and a whole lot of grace
Feeling behind before the homeschool year even starts? You’re not alone, friend. Whether your books haven’t arrived, your plans feel scattered, or your confidence is shaky—this episode is a gentle hug and a deep breath for your homeschool mama heart.
In today’s episode, I share some of our messiest first days, the...
Sometimes hope feels like the hardest thing to hold onto—especially when the ending of your story looks nothing like what you pictured.
In this final episode of our Through the Fire series, I’m sharing how God taught me to hold on to hope—not because I had all the answers or could see the whole plan, but because He was still with me in the unknown.
If you’re standing in the ashes, wondering what’s next, this one’s for you.
Who are you when the title is gone? In this raw and reflective episode of Through the Fire, we explore what it means to rediscover your identity in Christ after the role, the dream, or the achievement you clung to has been stripped away. I’m sharing the personal journey of losing the title “Firefighter,” and the deeper work God did to remind me that my worth isn’t in what I do—but in who He says I am.
If you've ever felt lost in t...
What happens when the dust settles after everything falls apart? In this deeply personal episode, I share how God used the fire—not to destroy me, but to refine me. I open up about the false identities I didn’t know I was still carrying… and how, in the aftermath of a dream that didn’t end how I hoped, God began to rebuild something deeper, stronger, and more honest.
If you’ve ever found yourself questioning your worth, wrestling w...
What happens after the disappointment—when the plan falls apart, and you’re left holding questions instead of answers?
In this heartfelt episode of Dreams, Dirt & Grace, we step into the vulnerable space that comes after the fire. The space where God feels quiet, the next step isn’t clear, and you’re wondering if you missed something—or if you’re just… stuck.
Kawailani shares what it looked like to trust God when there was no c...
When the ending isn’t what you prayed for and the heartbreak feels heavy, peace might be the last thing you expect… and yet, somehow, it’s what God offers in the middle of the wreckage.
In this tender episode of Through the Fire, I’m sharing what it looked like to find peace after being released from Fire Academy—just weeks before graduation. The kind of peace that doesn’t come because everything worked out… but because God was the...
Through the Fire – Part 5 | Dreams, Dirt & Grace
What do you do when you obey God, pour your heart into the journey, and the ending still doesn’t look like what you hoped for?
In this episode, I’m sharing the heartbreak of being released from Fire Academy just weeks before graduation—and the peace God gave me in the middle of it. This is a real look at unmet expectations, holy redirection, and the truth that even when the dream...
Sometimes God doesn’t remove the fire. Sometimes... He just holds you through it.
In this episode, I’m sharing how God provided in the middle of my hardest moments—not by making things easy, but by giving me just enough strength, just enough grace, and just enough peace to keep going.
Provision didn’t always look like I expected. It wasn’t flashy or instant. But it was exactly what I needed, right when I needed it.
If you're walkin...
Through the Fire – Part 3 | Dreams, Dirt & Grace
What do you do when you’re doing everything right—surrendering, obeying, showing up—and still feel like you’re falling apart?
In Part 3 of the Through the Fire series, I’m sharing one of the lowest points in my Fire Academy journey. The moment I failed in front of everyone. The moment the whispers got loud—“You’re not strong enough. You don’t belong here. You’re failing.”
This ep...
Saying yes to God sounds brave… until you’re walking it out in the middle of exhaustion, uncertainty, and doubt.
In Part 2 of Through the Fire, I’m sharing the real and raw moments of what obedience looked like for me—saying yes to Fire Academy without knowing the outcome, trusting God while juggling motherhood, training, and the constant feeling of “Am I doin...
Welcome to a new Series...
Through the Fire: Trusting God When the Outcome Breaks Your Heart
This isn’t just a story about Fire Academy. It’s a series about what happens when you say yes to God—and then the story doesn’t go the way you thought it would. Through the Fire is a deeply personal journey of surrender, obedience, disappointment, and the kind of growth that only happens when you’re refined by the hard.
Whether you’re wal...
Here's a real look into homeschooling—I'm going over what has worked for me, but more importantly what hasn’t, and why it’s okay if it’s not picture-perfect.
We'll talk about how incorporating God in center of your homeschool is crucial. How we (us mamas) could be the problem with our homeschool. Why we may be unintentionally forcing things to happen in our homeschool and that it probably is leading us to more stress. Plus I'll ...
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