June 9, 2025 • 25 mins
Hello, hello! Welcome back to Chiquis and Chill! I’m sure you’ve noticed, but I’ve been a lot quieter on social media lately. I’ve been going through some life changes and wanted to share them with you here on the pod. I’ve also been writing a lot more lately and so I’m giving you guys some exclusive poetry content – including one called, “They Called Me Crazy.” I’m on a journey of rediscovery. Thanks for coming along for the ride.
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Speaker 1 (00:03):
Hello, my beautiful people. I am so happy that you're
here today for another episode of your favorite podcast, Cheeky's
and Chill. Before we get started, I do want to
tell you guys that I'm recording this episode from my
kitchen table here at my home Mikasa Questlucasa, and I
am getting as you can hear some work done on
my roof, so if you hear some banging, please forgive
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me and try your best to just ignore it, which
is going to take deep breaths. But I think it's
a very important episode and something I really want to
talk about. So I know you all are busy and
have a lot to do, but I really do appreciate
you taking the time out of your date to listen,
especially to this episode, because I want you guys to
understand where I'm at and I know you guys have
probably noticed that I am a lot quieter on social
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media and I want to tell you guys why. Okay,
So before I get started, I do want to tell
you guys, this episode is going to be a little
different than other episodes. I felt very inspired while I
was thinking about this episode this morning, so I wrote
down my thoughts and ideas in real time, and I'm
going to be reading some of those passages to you
guys throughout the episode. Okay, so, living a quiet life
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doesn't mean you're hiding, it doesn't mean you're shrinking. It
means you've chosen peace over noise, purpose over performance, and
depth over display. A quiet life is about putting God
in the center of my life, not trying to make
time for God and fit him in. It's making time
for everything else and revolve it around God. Does that
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make sense? I hope it makes sense. But that's kind
of where I'm at and I'm gonna get I'm going
to continue reading because I wrote a lot and I'll
get into the nitty gritty of it. But this is
directly from my notes you guys from this morning, because
I was like, how do I explain this? So AnyWho,
moving on, let's continue talking less, praying more. Gossip is
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an energy sucker, although I will admit I love it.
Who doesn't, But now I try my best not to engage.
I'm working on telling people, hey, that doesn't sit well
with me. I'd rather not talk about so and so
unless they're present. It's a work in progress, though, I
will admit, because who doesn't like to gossip, especially when
you're with your friends. You're hanging out, You're like, Okay,
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let's talk about stuff. But it just I've noticed that
it doesn't make me feel comfortable. It just I don't
know if it's all of this that I'm going to
tell you, guys, has to do with what I'm living
and where I want to go, but also with age
and maturity. It could be a combination of everything I
just mentioned, but the gossip part of it, It's like,
I don't want to have senseless conversations anymore, like I
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want to have substance conversations. I want to hang out
with people that are going to bring out the best
in me, that have ideas that want more out of life,
Like my body, my soul, my mind is craving that
so much, so I am working on trying my best
to tell people, hey, like, let's not talk about that,
Let's talk about something else. AnyWho, Let's go back into
my notes, so redefining SSS again, these are just my thoughts, guys, Okay,
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and this is really coming from my soul. In the
industry I come from, success is often measured by how
loud your name is, how many followers, you have, how
many events you're at, how many deals you're closing. But
now I define success by how calm I feel when
I wake up, by how aligned I am with God,
by how present I can be with the people I love.
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That success to me Now, God has always been in
my life, in a huge part of my life, in
different ways. I was very religious before, you know, now
I'm very spiritual. But God has always been in my life.
Now it's just I'm making really making God a priority
because I love how it makes me feel. And We've
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talked about it a lot. There goes a banking, but
we've talked about it a lot on a lot of
episodes of Cheeky's and Chill a lot. But I have
really noticed the difference from when I go straight into
Instagram or at my emails or I answer someone's text
before I center myself. So now I'm like, really, really,
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really trying more than ever and not even trying. It's
something that I'm really craving. So anyway, a quiet life
is about living in truth, not for attention. It's about
being real even if it's not trending. I used to
feel I had to be on all the time camera ready, performance, ready,
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emotion tucked away. Now I live for presents, for connection,
you guys. I am so sorry about this banging, but
it's real. You guys know Cheeky's and Chill is very
transparent in every way, and I sure am recording this
episode from my kitchen table. But I do hope that
all this is like making sense to you guys and resonating.
For example, I've deleted certain apps off my phone. I
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don't share every moment anymore. I protect my piece. I
show up online when I feel like I have something
meaningful to sh not to prove that I'm still relevant.
And that is the biggest difference. Before I felt like
I had to be on social media and show what
I was doing because that's what everyone's doing and because
that's what's going to keep me relevant. And now I'm like, no,
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I really want my social media to reflect where I am,
even if I disappear for a few days. If I
don't feel like being on social media, I'm not going
to do it, not because my record label is saying
I have to, not because my brain is telling me that,
or because someone else is doing it and I want
to do it too. Now it's like I need it
to be authentic in every single way, and I need
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it to be meaningful. I've unfollowed a lot of people. I've,
like I said, erase a lot of apps. I want
things on my feed. I want to follow people that
pour into my daily cup and not rob me of
my piece. And social media does that a lot, whether
you realize it or not. And we've again talked about
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a lot of these things, but I just wanted to
get into the nitty gritty of it. But AnyWho, Okay,
healing in private this is a very important one. A
quiet life also means healing in privacy. I don't always
announce what I'm going through or what I'm working on,
not because I'm hiding it, but because I'm honoring it.
I've been on the longest music break of my career,
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and for the first time, I'm not rushing back because
I should. I'm letting my sole lead, not the industry.
That's very very new for me, you guys, and I've
decided that I don't have to do it on social
media because I'm very open with you guys on the
podcast on everything that I do. Like when I'm going
through something, I'm not having a good day. I tell
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you guys, hey, I'm not feeling too good. Do you
guys feel the same? Are you guys feeling the energy?
And I love that we can share this and I'm
not alone in my feelings. But it's been a while
where I'm like showing every single step everything that I'm doing.
I used to do that so much. I didn't realize
how I wasn't as present as I should have been.
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Like I have a lot of things recorded, but if
I sit there and really think, do I remember the
conversations I had? Do I remember the performance or the
baseball game and like the little details? And no, it's
because I was so busy worrying about what I was
going to post. And now I am doing a lot
of healing in private, and it helps that my relationship
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is also more private and media is more of a
private type of person. So it's helped me balance that out.
But now I want to do it in my own way.
Now I do want to tell you guys about things
that I'm doing because I want to give you a visual.
So there is a second season of Cheeky Seinfithro coming
and I will talk about some deep things there. And
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that's the way I want to do it, because that's
part of my brand. I'm honest and open and it's
just who I am, you know, because I want to
help everyone. But on social media, I just it doesn't
feel that same anymore. Returning to what matters, okay, I
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have sections for everything. Okay, So living a quiet life
is like tuning out the static to hear your favorite
song again. It's remembering what really matters, family, health, joy, purpose,
and letting go of the chase that leaves you empty.
I spend more time with the people who pour into me.
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I invest in my skin care line because it brings
me joy. I take walks, I sing in the kitchen,
I rest, I laugh, I cry. I do it all
without needing to broadcast it. So that kind of goes
back to what we were just talking about. But I
wanted to talk about this feeling of the rat race
of life. I have mentioned that quite a bit because
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I come in and come out of it. I love
to feel accomplished. I love to complete projects and who
doesn't like and love to make money, you know. So
I love all of that. But it's changing now. And
not only that, but I don't want to think about
just what's going to make me money. I want to
be connected on a soul level and really truly be
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excited about my skincare, my hair care, anything that I
am doing. I've always been very good with only promoting
things that resonate with me, that really work for me,
that I love. I will never sell you guys, something
I don't love just because they're paying me. Never I cannot.
It goes against everything I believe in. But I think
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I did or stuck around or tried to make it
work with certain people in my life and certain partnerships,
even certain friendships because a fear, maybe because it was
making any money, because I wanted to see the best
in the person and ignore that there were more red
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flags because it was making me money, and I had
to kind of learn to just let those things go
for my peace of mind, even if that means I'm
going to make less money. It's just it was robbing
me of my piece, and that even now, it's with
the people that I choose to hang out with, do
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business with, hang out with. If I'm going to invest
my time, my energy with someone, it has to be
someone that doesn't rob my piece, first of all, because
there are energy leeches, and you know, I call them suckers.
But there are people, and we have to learn to
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listen to that, to listen to our body and see
how we feel once we've left those people. And I've
noticed that in my life, if I have to mentally
prepare myself to hang out with you, then maybe I
shouldn't be hanging out with you. I don't know if
it's age. I don't know if it's like I don't
have time to waste. Like I love you, but I
don't know if you're necessarily good for me in this
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new phase, in this new season of my life. As
much as I love you, I shouldn't And I don't
want to feel like I have to prepare in order
to give you some of my time. I want things
that are quality in every single way, in every area
of my life, and I want it to be reciprocated.
Like I want people that pour into my cup, I
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pour intoward their cup. We both are willing and able,
and that's it. That's what I'm craving, you know, So anyway,
just to close out my notes, the quiet life isn't
about disappearing. It's about reappearing in your full truth at
your own pace, in alignment with your soul, and to me,
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that's the loudest kind of freedom there is. So that
is where I'm at, you guys. And right now I
am going inward a lot. I am deciding to instead
of answering emails on a Saturday, I'm gonna go on
a hike with my husband. All that shit can wait
because I've always been very hard on myself about responding
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on time and not leaving anyone on red and being
responsible because that's what I was taught and I'm very
grateful for that because I'm a very disciplined person. But
also those things, those people can wait, because I really
do enjoy spending time with my husband and walking in
the wilderness and sweating and doing something active, having an
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active rest day. And of course I love to stay
in bed and hang out, like that's part of the
quiet life. But now I'm starting to appreciate, like, okay, cool,
what can we do that's gonna be good for our
health and it's gonna make us feel good. But it's
not gonna be strenuous. But I'm gonna feel good, you know,
and I'm gonna sweat a little bit. So I'm really
enjoying those moments and making time for those things. I
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want to go to church more, a Christian church, a
Catholic church, my spiritual church that I have in Santa Monica.
It doesn't matter. As long as I'm in the presence
and there are you know, more people in that same
feeling and frequency. I want that and it's kind of
what I'm doing. I finally started working on music, you guys, barely.
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I thought it was going to take a little longer,
but now I'm starting to feel more inspired and I'm
writing a lot of poems. And I have made some
really big decisions in my career, but I feel good
about them, and I'm very I'm excited again about reappearing
as Janae, you know, and showing people who Jane is.
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This whole thing is like coming back to Jane, you know.
And as much as I love everything I was doing,
and I wasn't faking the funk percent, like I'm really
like figuring out, Okay, what does Janey want to do?
What makes Jane happy? What kind of music, what kind
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of wardrobe? Even like this whole hair change, the color change,
guys just did something for me, Like I feel like
I'm in my Mermaid era. I know that sounds weird,
but I don't know. Like I'm funky right now, Like
all my clothes, everything I'm wearing is just funky, Like
it's very Jane, and I'm remembering so many things that
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made me happy, Like earlier in what I was reading,
I was talking about instead of just being on the
phone the whole time I'm in the car, it's like
I'll either be in silence or I'll listen. For a
long time, I wasn't listening to music. I would just
sit there in silence or answer calls or whatever. And
now I'm like, Okay, I'm gonna put my phone down.
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I'm actually going to play a song that takes me
back to a happy moment or even I don't know
if you guys do this, but I've doing this a
lot lately sometimes when I feel like I need a
cry because this isn't hasn't been easy, and it's not like,
oh my gosh, it's all you know, peaches and roses
and unicorns. It's been tough. I have been going through
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some crazy, crazy growing pains, you guys. So I've been
feeling lately that I just want to cry, so I'll
even put on a song that makes me cry, that
reminds me of twenty twelve, one of the hardest years
of my life, twenty thirteen, and I'll play it and
I'll cry, like in the car by myself, in the shower,
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in my restroom whereich is where I do my prayer
and everything, like I just I need to let this out.
I need a cry, and I've been doing that, and
then I'll put on a song that makes me happy,
and it's just it's been so insane, Like I wish
there was a camera that could just watch everything that
I'm doing and every conversation I'm having with myself, because yes,
I do talk to myself. I sure do. Someone told
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me the other day, okay, this is like you're finding Jane.
I'm like, no, no, no, actually no, because what came up was, oh,
finding Dory, because I love that movie and I love Dory.
But I was like, no, it's not finding Janee. It's
coming back to my authentic self, to who I really
am that I ignored for a long time because I
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was working out of a place of survival, and now
I want to put all of that to the side,
even if that means I'm going to make less money
and I'm not going to be as cool, but I'm
going to be cool to myself. I'm gonna make music
that is cool to me, that is going to help
heal the world in some way, even if there's only
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five people listening to it. And I've been so inspired.
I've been writing so many poems. I wrote this poem
called They called me crazy because they did when I
was telling people this that I was not going to
sign with my record label, that I was going to
be independent, which is more expensive, which is a lot
more work, especially after winning three Latin Grammys with my
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record label who I love, and I'm so grateful for
each and every single one of them, Like I'm so grateful.
It makes me emotional because I'm like, damn, I don't
want them to feel like I'm not being grateful, but
it's something I had to do for my soul. And
they called me like crazy, like are you sure you
want to do this? This sounds crazy, Like you are
right there, you are about to become, like you know,
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you could become worldwide if you just stick to this.
I'm like, but do I really want that? Though? I'm like,
that's what you're not understanding, like, this is my soul.
This is and I can't ignore it because if I
ignore it, I've learned and I've seen with other people
and my own experiences as well, that if I ignore this,
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I'm going to regret it. And I feel like something
not bad, But I guess some bad's going to happen.
And I don't know if that's just me and that's
just like my OCD. I don't know, but I really
really feel like this is a soul calling and I
feel like I'm going actually not me. I'm not going
to be surprised because I know and I feel it,
and I hear it, and I see it in my
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moment of prayer. You guys in meditation, I'm like, oh
my gosh, I see it. I see that this is
going to take me to another place. And even if
it's not what other people want it to look like,
it's exactly what I see. But I know it's going
to be surprisingly successful to a lot of people, because
I know that there are some people that are like, hey,
I'm going to do this with you, but I don't
know where it's headed. I think they're going to be
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pleasantly surprised, And I think all my listeners and the
people that love my music, people that know Jane, because
I've been very consistent. If you have followed my family
and you have watched the reality shows, I have been
very consistent with the person that I am. Especially in
the reality shows. I was very Jenee a lot recycling
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and very hippie and very like go back and look
at all these episodes of Cheeks in control of everything
that I did. I've been very consistent. I just went
on another path for a while. But the people that
know me and have been following me for a long time,
like the oh, you know, the j C Lovers that
was my first fan club before Bossy Nation, j C Lovers,
the og boss B's, It's not going to be a
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surprise if you follow me on social media. I feel
like it's not like, oh my gosh, she just did
a complete three sixty and now she wants to be
spiritual or she wants to be whatever, Like no, this
goes This is very on brand with Janey. I don't
know with Cheeky's, but even with Cheeky's, you know, I
would always talk about God on stage and everything. But
Chicks is resting. I got that girl in the closet
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waiting for me. That doesn't mean I'm never gonna sing regional.
I'm never gonna sing my crazy songs and all that stuff.
Just right now, I'm feeling this. I'm living this quiet
life everything that I just explained, and it feels freaking fantastic.
I needed this, and I know that the people that
are meant to come with me on this new journey
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are gonna come with me, and those that don't work
meant to and those that love me will love it
and say, oh, this is very Jane. Yeah, this is
so Jenney, you know. And I'm not worried about it.
I am really not. And you know what I'm gonna
read you, guys the poem. They called me crazy, Okay,
exclusively here four cheese and choky. It's like a spoken word,
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so just imagine. I still haven't figured out if I
want to make it a song, if I'm gonna keep
it in a poem, I don't know. But anyway, this is
what came out of my heart one day in Miami.
They called me crazy for wanting more than what sparkled,
for walking away from applause. I didn't feel in my
chest for choosing silence over noise, peace over platform, God
over gimmicks. They called me ungrateful because I didn't bow
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to the glitter or chase the ghost of what's working.
But what frightens me more than failure is faking it.
What scares me more than losing the spotlight is losing
myself under it. I heard God whisper, there's more for you,
but it's not. And even though my knees trembled and
my eagle screamed and the world said, why would you
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leave now? I left because some people don't know when
to walk away, but I do, and I am. I'd
rather be called crazy for choosing freedom than to be
worshiped for wearing a mask. This path, it's lonely, sometimes quiet, wild,
but it's mine, and it leads me home to breathe,
to truth, to God, to me. Oh my god, it's
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kind of good, guys. I was like, oh my god,
I was so inspired. I was at the gym in
Miami and I was kind of going through it. I
was crying, having a crying episode on the elliptical, and
I was like, oh my god, A cat like, I
feel so inspired because they had just told me like,
are you crazy? And I was like what am I?
And I started getting into my head and I was
like no, wait, like no, Jane, sit down. And I
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sat down on the floor in the gym by myself,
crying and I wrote this and I hadn't read it
again until now. So anyway, I wanted to share that
with you guys. And that's also part of Janay is
coming back to writing. I would write so much. I
would write so much on Twitter. I have so many quotes.
If you guys go on my Twitter, guys, it's cheeky
six to six, and I would write so much. Go
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back years and years, two thousand and nine even, guys,
and I would write so many quotes. And that's part
of Janey as well, writing more. And I've written I
think at least fifteen poems at least, and they probably
aren't all great, but they are my feelings and they're
my thoughts and I'm enjoying it. So I wanted to
share this with you guys, because sometimes I do get
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in my head. This isn't like I said, It hasn't
been that easy. It's been I've been going through a
lot of change, and with change, you know, change isn't comfortable,
you know. There's a lot that comes with that, and
a lot of crying and yelling and a lot of
moments of discomfort. But it's also been really nice getting
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to know myself in a different way. And I wanted
to share this because I'm sure a lot of you
have noticed, because I do get in my head I'm like,
oh my gosh, I'm not posting as much. Should I
be doing more content, you know? But I know, like
this was a reminder and a note to myself and
also letting you guys in a little bit more the
people that care anyway about what's going on with me
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and why I'm not posting as much or I'm not
like doing so much on specially TikTok, but this is why.
So AnyWho, guys, I hope that this episode in some
way resonates with you and makes you feel something good.
And if it doesn't, that's okay too. I just hope
that you can understand where I'm coming from. And also, guys,
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let me know if you enjoyed me reading from my
notes so that I could do a little bit more writing,
because it really did help me process and just with
a flow, So let me know if you liked it
or not. I love to hear back from you guys,
so make sure you leave me some comments anyway. Thank you, guys,
Thank you again for coming back every week, for being
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a loyal listener to Cheeky's in Chill and your Cheeky's.
I am very, very grateful, and I think it's a
beautiful thing that we have this podcast to share and
that I can share my thoughts and hopefully you can
be inspired to become your best self and join me
on all these different journeys and seasons that I go through,
and you guys have been with me through all of it.
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So thank you. I love you. Enjoy the rest of
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Hello, my beautiful people. I am so happy that you're
here today for another episode of your favorite podcast, Cheeky's
and Chill. Before we get started, I do want to
tell you guys that I'm recording this episode from my
kitchen table here at my home Mikasa Questlucasa, and I
am getting as you can hear some work done on
my roof, so if you hear some banging, please forgive
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me and try your best to just ignore it, which
is going to take deep breaths. But I think it's
a very important episode and something I really want to
talk about. So I know you all are busy and
have a lot to do, but I really do appreciate
you taking the time out of your date to listen,
especially to this episode, because I want you guys to
understand where I'm at and I know you guys have
probably noticed that I am a lot quieter on social
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media and I want to tell you guys why. Okay,
So before I get started, I do want to tell
you guys, this episode is going to be a little
different than other episodes. I felt very inspired while I
was thinking about this episode this morning, so I wrote
down my thoughts and ideas in real time, and I'm
going to be reading some of those passages to you
guys throughout the episode. Okay, so, living a quiet life
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doesn't mean you're hiding, it doesn't mean you're shrinking. It
means you've chosen peace over noise, purpose over performance, and
depth over display. A quiet life is about putting God
in the center of my life, not trying to make
time for God and fit him in. It's making time
for everything else and revolve it around God. Does that
(01:36):
make sense? I hope it makes sense. But that's kind
of where I'm at and I'm gonna get I'm going
to continue reading because I wrote a lot and I'll
get into the nitty gritty of it. But this is
directly from my notes you guys from this morning, because
I was like, how do I explain this? So AnyWho,
moving on, let's continue talking less, praying more. Gossip is
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an energy sucker, although I will admit I love it.
Who doesn't, But now I try my best not to engage.
I'm working on telling people, hey, that doesn't sit well
with me. I'd rather not talk about so and so
unless they're present. It's a work in progress, though, I
will admit, because who doesn't like to gossip, especially when
you're with your friends. You're hanging out, You're like, Okay,
(02:18):
let's talk about stuff. But it just I've noticed that
it doesn't make me feel comfortable. It just I don't
know if it's all of this that I'm going to
tell you, guys, has to do with what I'm living
and where I want to go, but also with age
and maturity. It could be a combination of everything I
just mentioned, but the gossip part of it, It's like,
I don't want to have senseless conversations anymore, like I
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want to have substance conversations. I want to hang out
with people that are going to bring out the best
in me, that have ideas that want more out of life,
Like my body, my soul, my mind is craving that
so much, so I am working on trying my best
to tell people, hey, like, let's not talk about that,
Let's talk about something else. AnyWho, Let's go back into
my notes, so redefining SSS again, these are just my thoughts, guys, Okay,
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and this is really coming from my soul. In the
industry I come from, success is often measured by how
loud your name is, how many followers, you have, how
many events you're at, how many deals you're closing. But
now I define success by how calm I feel when
I wake up, by how aligned I am with God,
by how present I can be with the people I love.
(03:27):
That success to me Now, God has always been in
my life, in a huge part of my life, in
different ways. I was very religious before, you know, now
I'm very spiritual. But God has always been in my life.
Now it's just I'm making really making God a priority
because I love how it makes me feel. And We've
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talked about it a lot. There goes a banking, but
we've talked about it a lot on a lot of
episodes of Cheeky's and Chill a lot. But I have
really noticed the difference from when I go straight into
Instagram or at my emails or I answer someone's text
before I center myself. So now I'm like, really, really,
(04:10):
really trying more than ever and not even trying. It's
something that I'm really craving. So anyway, a quiet life
is about living in truth, not for attention. It's about
being real even if it's not trending. I used to
feel I had to be on all the time camera ready, performance, ready,
(04:31):
emotion tucked away. Now I live for presents, for connection,
you guys. I am so sorry about this banging, but
it's real. You guys know Cheeky's and Chill is very
transparent in every way, and I sure am recording this
episode from my kitchen table. But I do hope that
all this is like making sense to you guys and resonating.
For example, I've deleted certain apps off my phone. I
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don't share every moment anymore. I protect my piece. I
show up online when I feel like I have something
meaningful to sh not to prove that I'm still relevant.
And that is the biggest difference. Before I felt like
I had to be on social media and show what
I was doing because that's what everyone's doing and because
that's what's going to keep me relevant. And now I'm like, no,
(05:15):
I really want my social media to reflect where I am,
even if I disappear for a few days. If I
don't feel like being on social media, I'm not going
to do it, not because my record label is saying
I have to, not because my brain is telling me that,
or because someone else is doing it and I want
to do it too. Now it's like I need it
to be authentic in every single way, and I need
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it to be meaningful. I've unfollowed a lot of people. I've,
like I said, erase a lot of apps. I want
things on my feed. I want to follow people that
pour into my daily cup and not rob me of
my piece. And social media does that a lot, whether
you realize it or not. And we've again talked about
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a lot of these things, but I just wanted to
get into the nitty gritty of it. But AnyWho, Okay,
healing in private this is a very important one. A
quiet life also means healing in privacy. I don't always
announce what I'm going through or what I'm working on,
not because I'm hiding it, but because I'm honoring it.
I've been on the longest music break of my career,
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and for the first time, I'm not rushing back because
I should. I'm letting my sole lead, not the industry.
That's very very new for me, you guys, and I've
decided that I don't have to do it on social
media because I'm very open with you guys on the
podcast on everything that I do. Like when I'm going
through something, I'm not having a good day. I tell
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you guys, hey, I'm not feeling too good. Do you
guys feel the same? Are you guys feeling the energy?
And I love that we can share this and I'm
not alone in my feelings. But it's been a while
where I'm like showing every single step everything that I'm doing.
I used to do that so much. I didn't realize
how I wasn't as present as I should have been.
(07:04):
Like I have a lot of things recorded, but if
I sit there and really think, do I remember the
conversations I had? Do I remember the performance or the
baseball game and like the little details? And no, it's
because I was so busy worrying about what I was
going to post. And now I am doing a lot
of healing in private, and it helps that my relationship
(07:27):
is also more private and media is more of a
private type of person. So it's helped me balance that out.
But now I want to do it in my own way.
Now I do want to tell you guys about things
that I'm doing because I want to give you a visual.
So there is a second season of Cheeky Seinfithro coming
and I will talk about some deep things there. And
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that's the way I want to do it, because that's
part of my brand. I'm honest and open and it's
just who I am, you know, because I want to
help everyone. But on social media, I just it doesn't
feel that same anymore. Returning to what matters, okay, I
(08:09):
have sections for everything. Okay, So living a quiet life
is like tuning out the static to hear your favorite
song again. It's remembering what really matters, family, health, joy, purpose,
and letting go of the chase that leaves you empty.
I spend more time with the people who pour into me.
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I invest in my skin care line because it brings
me joy. I take walks, I sing in the kitchen,
I rest, I laugh, I cry. I do it all
without needing to broadcast it. So that kind of goes
back to what we were just talking about. But I
wanted to talk about this feeling of the rat race
of life. I have mentioned that quite a bit because
(08:51):
I come in and come out of it. I love
to feel accomplished. I love to complete projects and who
doesn't like and love to make money, you know. So
I love all of that. But it's changing now. And
not only that, but I don't want to think about
just what's going to make me money. I want to
be connected on a soul level and really truly be
(09:16):
excited about my skincare, my hair care, anything that I
am doing. I've always been very good with only promoting
things that resonate with me, that really work for me,
that I love. I will never sell you guys, something
I don't love just because they're paying me. Never I cannot.
It goes against everything I believe in. But I think
(09:37):
I did or stuck around or tried to make it
work with certain people in my life and certain partnerships,
even certain friendships because a fear, maybe because it was
making any money, because I wanted to see the best
in the person and ignore that there were more red
(10:01):
flags because it was making me money, and I had
to kind of learn to just let those things go
for my peace of mind, even if that means I'm
going to make less money. It's just it was robbing
me of my piece, and that even now, it's with
the people that I choose to hang out with, do
(10:23):
business with, hang out with. If I'm going to invest
my time, my energy with someone, it has to be
someone that doesn't rob my piece, first of all, because
there are energy leeches, and you know, I call them suckers.
But there are people, and we have to learn to
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listen to that, to listen to our body and see
how we feel once we've left those people. And I've
noticed that in my life, if I have to mentally
prepare myself to hang out with you, then maybe I
shouldn't be hanging out with you. I don't know if
it's age. I don't know if it's like I don't
have time to waste. Like I love you, but I
don't know if you're necessarily good for me in this
(11:08):
new phase, in this new season of my life. As
much as I love you, I shouldn't And I don't
want to feel like I have to prepare in order
to give you some of my time. I want things
that are quality in every single way, in every area
of my life, and I want it to be reciprocated.
Like I want people that pour into my cup, I
(11:31):
pour intoward their cup. We both are willing and able,
and that's it. That's what I'm craving, you know, So anyway,
just to close out my notes, the quiet life isn't
about disappearing. It's about reappearing in your full truth at
your own pace, in alignment with your soul, and to me,
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that's the loudest kind of freedom there is. So that
is where I'm at, you guys. And right now I
am going inward a lot. I am deciding to instead
of answering emails on a Saturday, I'm gonna go on
a hike with my husband. All that shit can wait
because I've always been very hard on myself about responding
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on time and not leaving anyone on red and being
responsible because that's what I was taught and I'm very
grateful for that because I'm a very disciplined person. But
also those things, those people can wait, because I really
do enjoy spending time with my husband and walking in
the wilderness and sweating and doing something active, having an
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active rest day. And of course I love to stay
in bed and hang out, like that's part of the
quiet life. But now I'm starting to appreciate, like, okay, cool,
what can we do that's gonna be good for our
health and it's gonna make us feel good. But it's
not gonna be strenuous. But I'm gonna feel good, you know,
and I'm gonna sweat a little bit. So I'm really
enjoying those moments and making time for those things. I
(13:05):
want to go to church more, a Christian church, a
Catholic church, my spiritual church that I have in Santa Monica.
It doesn't matter. As long as I'm in the presence
and there are you know, more people in that same
feeling and frequency. I want that and it's kind of
what I'm doing. I finally started working on music, you guys, barely.
(13:27):
I thought it was going to take a little longer,
but now I'm starting to feel more inspired and I'm
writing a lot of poems. And I have made some
really big decisions in my career, but I feel good
about them, and I'm very I'm excited again about reappearing
as Janae, you know, and showing people who Jane is.
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This whole thing is like coming back to Jane, you know.
And as much as I love everything I was doing,
and I wasn't faking the funk percent, like I'm really
like figuring out, Okay, what does Janey want to do?
What makes Jane happy? What kind of music, what kind
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of wardrobe? Even like this whole hair change, the color change,
guys just did something for me, Like I feel like
I'm in my Mermaid era. I know that sounds weird,
but I don't know. Like I'm funky right now, Like
all my clothes, everything I'm wearing is just funky, Like
it's very Jane, and I'm remembering so many things that
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made me happy, Like earlier in what I was reading,
I was talking about instead of just being on the
phone the whole time I'm in the car, it's like
I'll either be in silence or I'll listen. For a
long time, I wasn't listening to music. I would just
sit there in silence or answer calls or whatever. And
now I'm like, Okay, I'm gonna put my phone down.
(14:52):
I'm actually going to play a song that takes me
back to a happy moment or even I don't know
if you guys do this, but I've doing this a
lot lately sometimes when I feel like I need a
cry because this isn't hasn't been easy, and it's not like,
oh my gosh, it's all you know, peaches and roses
and unicorns. It's been tough. I have been going through
(15:12):
some crazy, crazy growing pains, you guys. So I've been
feeling lately that I just want to cry, so I'll
even put on a song that makes me cry, that
reminds me of twenty twelve, one of the hardest years
of my life, twenty thirteen, and I'll play it and
I'll cry, like in the car by myself, in the shower,
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in my restroom whereich is where I do my prayer
and everything, like I just I need to let this out.
I need a cry, and I've been doing that, and
then I'll put on a song that makes me happy,
and it's just it's been so insane, Like I wish
there was a camera that could just watch everything that
I'm doing and every conversation I'm having with myself, because yes,
I do talk to myself. I sure do. Someone told
(16:02):
me the other day, okay, this is like you're finding Jane.
I'm like, no, no, no, actually no, because what came up was, oh,
finding Dory, because I love that movie and I love Dory.
But I was like, no, it's not finding Janee. It's
coming back to my authentic self, to who I really
am that I ignored for a long time because I
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was working out of a place of survival, and now
I want to put all of that to the side,
even if that means I'm going to make less money
and I'm not going to be as cool, but I'm
going to be cool to myself. I'm gonna make music
that is cool to me, that is going to help
heal the world in some way, even if there's only
(16:43):
five people listening to it. And I've been so inspired.
I've been writing so many poems. I wrote this poem
called They called me crazy because they did when I
was telling people this that I was not going to
sign with my record label, that I was going to
be independent, which is more expensive, which is a lot
more work, especially after winning three Latin Grammys with my
(17:06):
record label who I love, and I'm so grateful for
each and every single one of them, Like I'm so grateful.
It makes me emotional because I'm like, damn, I don't
want them to feel like I'm not being grateful, but
it's something I had to do for my soul. And
they called me like crazy, like are you sure you
want to do this? This sounds crazy, Like you are
right there, you are about to become, like you know,
(17:29):
you could become worldwide if you just stick to this.
I'm like, but do I really want that? Though? I'm like,
that's what you're not understanding, like, this is my soul.
This is and I can't ignore it because if I
ignore it, I've learned and I've seen with other people
and my own experiences as well, that if I ignore this,
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I'm going to regret it. And I feel like something
not bad, But I guess some bad's going to happen.
And I don't know if that's just me and that's
just like my OCD. I don't know, but I really
really feel like this is a soul calling and I
feel like I'm going actually not me. I'm not going
to be surprised because I know and I feel it,
and I hear it, and I see it in my
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moment of prayer. You guys in meditation, I'm like, oh
my gosh, I see it. I see that this is
going to take me to another place. And even if
it's not what other people want it to look like,
it's exactly what I see. But I know it's going
to be surprisingly successful to a lot of people, because
I know that there are some people that are like, hey,
I'm going to do this with you, but I don't
know where it's headed. I think they're going to be
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pleasantly surprised, And I think all my listeners and the
people that love my music, people that know Jane, because
I've been very consistent. If you have followed my family
and you have watched the reality shows, I have been
very consistent with the person that I am. Especially in
the reality shows. I was very Jenee a lot recycling
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and very hippie and very like go back and look
at all these episodes of Cheeks in control of everything
that I did. I've been very consistent. I just went
on another path for a while. But the people that
know me and have been following me for a long time,
like the oh, you know, the j C Lovers that
was my first fan club before Bossy Nation, j C Lovers,
the og boss B's, It's not going to be a
(19:17):
surprise if you follow me on social media. I feel
like it's not like, oh my gosh, she just did
a complete three sixty and now she wants to be
spiritual or she wants to be whatever, Like no, this
goes This is very on brand with Janey. I don't
know with Cheeky's, but even with Cheeky's, you know, I
would always talk about God on stage and everything. But
Chicks is resting. I got that girl in the closet
(19:39):
waiting for me. That doesn't mean I'm never gonna sing regional.
I'm never gonna sing my crazy songs and all that stuff.
Just right now, I'm feeling this. I'm living this quiet
life everything that I just explained, and it feels freaking fantastic.
I needed this, and I know that the people that
are meant to come with me on this new journey
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are gonna come with me, and those that don't work
meant to and those that love me will love it
and say, oh, this is very Jane. Yeah, this is
so Jenney, you know. And I'm not worried about it.
I am really not. And you know what I'm gonna
read you, guys the poem. They called me crazy, Okay,
exclusively here four cheese and choky. It's like a spoken word,
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so just imagine. I still haven't figured out if I
want to make it a song, if I'm gonna keep
it in a poem, I don't know. But anyway, this is
what came out of my heart one day in Miami.
They called me crazy for wanting more than what sparkled,
for walking away from applause. I didn't feel in my
chest for choosing silence over noise, peace over platform, God
over gimmicks. They called me ungrateful because I didn't bow
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to the glitter or chase the ghost of what's working.
But what frightens me more than failure is faking it.
What scares me more than losing the spotlight is losing
myself under it. I heard God whisper, there's more for you,
but it's not. And even though my knees trembled and
my eagle screamed and the world said, why would you
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leave now? I left because some people don't know when
to walk away, but I do, and I am. I'd
rather be called crazy for choosing freedom than to be
worshiped for wearing a mask. This path, it's lonely, sometimes quiet, wild,
but it's mine, and it leads me home to breathe,
to truth, to God, to me. Oh my god, it's
(21:29):
kind of good, guys. I was like, oh my god,
I was so inspired. I was at the gym in
Miami and I was kind of going through it. I
was crying, having a crying episode on the elliptical, and
I was like, oh my god, A cat like, I
feel so inspired because they had just told me like,
are you crazy? And I was like what am I?
And I started getting into my head and I was
like no, wait, like no, Jane, sit down. And I
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sat down on the floor in the gym by myself,
crying and I wrote this and I hadn't read it
again until now. So anyway, I wanted to share that
with you guys. And that's also part of Janay is
coming back to writing. I would write so much. I
would write so much on Twitter. I have so many quotes.
If you guys go on my Twitter, guys, it's cheeky
six to six, and I would write so much. Go
(22:14):
back years and years, two thousand and nine even, guys,
and I would write so many quotes. And that's part
of Janey as well, writing more. And I've written I
think at least fifteen poems at least, and they probably
aren't all great, but they are my feelings and they're
my thoughts and I'm enjoying it. So I wanted to
share this with you guys, because sometimes I do get
(22:37):
in my head. This isn't like I said, It hasn't
been that easy. It's been I've been going through a
lot of change, and with change, you know, change isn't comfortable,
you know. There's a lot that comes with that, and
a lot of crying and yelling and a lot of
moments of discomfort. But it's also been really nice getting
(22:58):
to know myself in a different way. And I wanted
to share this because I'm sure a lot of you
have noticed, because I do get in my head I'm like,
oh my gosh, I'm not posting as much. Should I
be doing more content, you know? But I know, like
this was a reminder and a note to myself and
also letting you guys in a little bit more the
people that care anyway about what's going on with me
(23:21):
and why I'm not posting as much or I'm not
like doing so much on specially TikTok, but this is why.
So AnyWho, guys, I hope that this episode in some
way resonates with you and makes you feel something good.
And if it doesn't, that's okay too. I just hope
that you can understand where I'm coming from. And also, guys,
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let me know if you enjoyed me reading from my
notes so that I could do a little bit more writing,
because it really did help me process and just with
a flow, So let me know if you liked it
or not. I love to hear back from you guys,
so make sure you leave me some comments anyway. Thank you, guys,
Thank you again for coming back every week, for being
(24:04):
a loyal listener to Cheeky's in Chill and your Cheeky's.
I am very, very grateful, and I think it's a
beautiful thing that we have this podcast to share and
that I can share my thoughts and hopefully you can
be inspired to become your best self and join me
on all these different journeys and seasons that I go through,
and you guys have been with me through all of it.
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So thank you. I love you. Enjoy the rest of
your day. Yea kiros Spiro on the next episode of
Cheeky's in Chill, I Love you. This is a production
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