September 17, 2025 • 25 mins
In these crazy times we are all living in it can be very easy to question your faith. We all at one time or another thought where is God in all this? Sometimes we even blame God for these horrific tragedies that we see everyday. God is not causing those things, people are.
There’s a wonderful verse in the Bible that says “trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all ways acknowledge God and he will make your path straight”.
God doesn’t cause harm. He loves us. He never walks away from us, but we do walk away from him. This is a time to cling to God. In today’s episode I want to share some thoughts and conversations about the importance of that.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hello, my friend. Hello, Hello, and welcome to a new
edition of Have a Little Faith with Delilah. What a
crazy time we live in. What a crazy time we
live in, And I think it's going to get a
lot rougher I do. Why do I say that? Because
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I've read the Bible, and God tells us all the
things that are about to unfold. And we can be
terrified and we can be paralyzed in fear, or we
can read his word and remember that he says that
he has us in the palm of his hand. Last
(00:46):
week brought yet another tragedy. The unspeakable violence that we
all wake up to every day is being normalized. It's
being normalized. Murders, assassination being normalized. Guess what it is
not normal. I know that it's been difficult for so
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long now to be a person of faith, but really
we enjoy a lot of religious freedoms here that other
people and other parts of the world don't get to enjoy.
Right now, it's so important to me to cling to
my faith, to celebrate my faith. My Lord, my faith
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is a construct, but my Lord, my God is everything.
I'm not talking about clinging to a religion or a
building or a theology or a set of rules talking
about clinging to the Almighty, the Great. I am the beginning,
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in the end, the one who created all that is
and all that ever will be. You have every right
to reason and speak out no matter who you are.
There are probably a lot of good reasons for us
to be fearful. I choose to be bold. I'm not
going to choose to be fearful. I am not going
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to live in fear. I absolutely refuse to live in fear.
I'm going to live my faith out loud. I'm going
to live it every single day, not by shouting at people,
or arguing at people, or even debating with people. I'm
not interested in debating my faith with you. I'm not.
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You get to believe however you want to believe. But
if you see in me and my family and my kids,
and my life and my farm, if you see in
me something that looks good, something that looks healing, if
you hear in my voice something that is healing, something
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that brings peace, know that that's something is God. Know
that Jesus is the only peace we can have in
this world, the only peace we will ever have. In
the midst of the storms of life, as if we
cling to the rock, the rock that is the Lord.
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Your words matter, especially if you call yourself a Christian.
The word Christian means to emulate Christ, to live as
Christ lived. He always spoke the truth, He never lied,
he never minced words, but he always spoke the truth
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in love, and he was never hurtful or hateful. So remember,
choose your words wisely. Do not speak words that will
break the heart of God or the heart of other people.
And remember this God. God tells us to love those
who oppose us. He says, love your enemies, bless those
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who persecute you. Love them, do not hate them, and
in doing so, you will be heaping colds upon their lap.
When somebody hates you and somebody despises you, love them,
love them, love them, and bless them. He calls us
to love and pray for our enemies. He calls us
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always to love. Show people your faith by your actions,
by your love, Show your faith by your love. There's
a wonderful verse that says, trust in the Lord with
all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding,
but in all ways acknowledge God, and He will make
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your path straight. Today I'm going to share two stories
with you, two conversations with two young young women who
are struggling with their faith, mostly because of pain and
hurt from the past. I have Hannah up first. She
is struggling with loss and depression, but mostly she's struggling
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with her faith and she knows it. Let's listen to
Hannah right now.
Speaker 2 (05:20):
Mister Hannah. I was just calling to tell you what
you meant to me all my life. And I know
you hear this from everybody, but sitting in the back
seat with my mom on our way home from Vicksburg, Mississippi.
We would go there every weekend. It was where she
grew up, and on our way home, she would have
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you on and I would just lean my head against
the window, and just like everyone else talks about it,
it's a passage in life that we've all had with you,
and you just you mean the world to me. And
my mom passed away when I was seventeen, and when
I listen to you, I think of her. It was
just something me and her did, along with a lot
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of other things. And I just wanted to tell you
how much you mean to me, and thank you so
much for everything you've done for me and everyone else
that loves you the way we all do, and you're
a light in this world and God bless you so much.
Speaker 1 (06:18):
They gonna make me cry. I'm sorry about your mama.
Speaker 2 (06:22):
Don't believe them actually talking to you, and I never
thought i'd get through.
Speaker 3 (06:26):
But you're wonderful.
Speaker 4 (06:29):
You're an angel, you really are, and you mean.
Speaker 2 (06:32):
So much to so many people in this world. And
I said, I know you hear it by everybody, but
you deserve to hear it too, and I hope you
continue to hear it all your life. And just thank
you for the wonderful feelings that you give all of us.
Thank you, and then wonderful memories that you give us.
Because I can get really down sometimes, but I listen
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to you and I hear your voice saying you make
it so much better.
Speaker 4 (06:59):
You help me brith it.
Speaker 2 (07:01):
We're all loved by God and things are going to
get better. So I just want to see you.
Speaker 1 (07:06):
Thank you, Hannah. I'm not an angel, trust me when
I tell you, but I do my best to be
a voice of calm in a world that's gone mad,
gone absolutely crazy.
Speaker 2 (07:23):
Yes, and Delilah's I know you know this, but I'll
just tell you anything that you have done.
Speaker 3 (07:30):
God's forgiven you for already, so well.
Speaker 1 (07:34):
He forgives us when we turn around and walk the
other direction, when we say, okay, I'm done with that,
and we decide to make good choices. And sometimes sometimes
I do that, and then other times stuff comes out
of my mouth that I don't even believe. I'm like,
where did that toxic nonsense come from? Like I thought,
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I dealt with this temper thing twenty years ago, God,
and here I am once again asking your forgiveness.
Speaker 3 (08:07):
Well, you're human, just like all of this, and just
hearing you say that they'll alla makes me feel better
because I have all those problems too, And I'm sure,
along with everyone else that looks up to you the
way I do, we're all just human.
Speaker 1 (08:23):
But I know that God loves me, and I know
that when I truly do repent and I turn from
the things He's asked me not to do, I know
he's quick to forgive me. But man, I just sometimes
I look in the mirror, I go, are you ever
ever going to let go of that that thing that
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you know is not good for you? I get why
people are addicted to drugs or to alcohol because the
things I struggle with.
Speaker 3 (08:54):
It's hard.
Speaker 1 (08:55):
It's so hard.
Speaker 2 (08:57):
I've lost two friends to addiction, and my dad was
an alcoholic, and it must be a monster to struggle
with things like like drugs and alcohol, for sure.
Speaker 1 (09:08):
So was it Paul that said I don't do the
things that I know I want to do. I do
do the things I hate. Why?
Speaker 3 (09:17):
And it's in the in in everything?
Speaker 1 (09:20):
Okay? So when God calls me home and I get
to Heaven, and after I hug my boys and my
mom and my dad and everybody that went before me,
if I start looking around for your mom, how am
I going to recognize her? Tell me a quality or
a characteristic that you know she got to keep in heaven.
Speaker 2 (09:40):
I don't know about just one. That she was short.
I got her short qualities. We were both very short women.
We're both only four foot eight. He had beautiful, bushy
brown hair and the most beautiful, I flew eyes you've
ever seen. I kind of deflected from her for a bit,
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but I am trying to be more like her.
Speaker 4 (10:07):
She was.
Speaker 2 (10:08):
Everyone says this about their moms, and and and I
do believe that everyone's mom is the best person in
the world. But she worth just an angel in the
shape of my mom. The way Ed Cheering put it
in a song. I've heard that so many times in
a phone of his, and that's the best way to
describe anyone's mom.
Speaker 4 (10:25):
She was an angel.
Speaker 1 (10:27):
I think you need to cut yourself a break, Honey.
Speaker 3 (10:30):
I am hard on myself, I'll admit it.
Speaker 1 (10:32):
I am, But I'm not nearly as hard on myself
as I should be. When I listen like I have
a Bible on tape, When I listen to proverbs and
talking about wisdom and foolishness and wisdom and how you
could should seek wisdom, I'm sitting there going ooh, ooh,
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I want to be wise God, But why am I
such a foolish knucklehead? So often when I don't read
his word, I think I'm doing pretty good. But when
I get into God's word and realize how much he
loves me and how he wants me to have a
pure heart, and I compare the nonsense that I have
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in my heart and my mind to his standard, then
I'm like, Okay, I need to pray a little bit
more and show a lot more grace.
Speaker 2 (11:28):
Well, you're doing the thing that I am trying to
do in my life. I've strayed from God, but I
in the past, since I had my daughter, which was
seven years ago, I've tried to do a lot better.
I'm still working, and I know it's always going to
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be something to work on, but I'm trying to get
my relationship with him back.
Speaker 4 (11:55):
The way it used to be.
Speaker 2 (11:57):
He has grown so much the church that I've put
her in, and she's showing me the person that I
need to be in. I know it's supposed to be
the other way around, but she's the one.
Speaker 1 (12:09):
That that's leading Mama back home. Yes, here's what I
want you to remember, Hannah. It is far better to
be one thousand miles from the Lord and walking towards
him than standing next to the cross and walking away.
Speaker 3 (12:24):
Thank you, because I do feel like I'm at a
thousand miles away from him.
Speaker 1 (12:29):
If you're walking towards him, he's right there to meet you.
He's running to meet you. So long as you're walking
towards him, he is running to meet you, to embrace you,
to hold you, to restore you.
Speaker 3 (12:45):
Thank you.
Speaker 4 (12:45):
I need to do hear that. Thank you.
Speaker 1 (12:48):
I'm going to say a quick prayer for you before
I hang up, Father God, I thank you, Lord for
allowing this young woman to get through on the phone lines.
I thank you for her gentle and tender heart. I
thank you for her baby girl, and I thank you
for the sweet memories of her mama. I pray, Lord God,
that you would let her see herself as you see her.
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You say, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. You say
that you rejoice over us with singing. You say that
we are beautiful in your eyes. I pray that she
would get a glimpse of how much you love her
and how precious she is to you, and that she
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would go to sleep wrapped in that assurance that you
are hers and she is yours. Let tonight be the
night that she knows that she is home, safe in
your arms, and that Lord, you are restoring her and
washing her as pure as the morning sun. I ask
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this in your precious and holy name. Amen.
Speaker 3 (14:00):
Amen, thank you all.
Speaker 2 (14:03):
I did night like this, Tonay, Thank you, Good night, Honey,
Good night, Delilah.
Speaker 1 (14:12):
Sophia's call is the one I'm going to share next.
Sophia's story is kind of heartbreaking, but I think it's
good to hear it. Sophia has been sifted. She has
lost a lot, She's been through a lot of grief,
a lot of loss, and in the process she's lost
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her faith. She's focusing on tangible possessions things. I know
that she has all that matters. Let's talk to Sophia
right now. Hi, Sophia, I love your name. What can
I do for you?
Speaker 5 (14:49):
Oh?
Speaker 4 (14:50):
My God? And I'd like, I've always wanted to call you.
Speaker 5 (14:55):
I'm loveing to you since I was a little girl,
and I remember.
Speaker 2 (15:00):
Like stinging in my mom's course, and it was so
great to actually tart to you, so I actually.
Speaker 5 (15:11):
My little girl, I would listen to you with my mom.
Speaker 2 (15:15):
And I lost my mom whenever I was twenty and
I was pregnant with my son, so my mom never
got to meet my kids or anything. And I had
got married as an adult and everything I had three
I have three amazing kids, and we ended up getting divorce. Well,
for the longest time, I never wanted to get married again.
Speaker 5 (15:34):
And I worked at a doctor's office.
Speaker 2 (15:37):
And this man kept coming in and asking me out
and asking me out, and I would never go out
with him. And finally the nurthrough, like, you know, just
give him a chance, because I just wanted to be
a mom, and I ended up losing my dad right
after I met this man, and I was very vulnerable
and he said all the right things and we got
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married after two months, but he ended up finding out
that I was getting life insurance from my dad, and
once we got married, it was a one eighty.
Speaker 4 (16:10):
I was verdly abused, physically abused.
Speaker 2 (16:14):
Over the last almost two years, I have been through help.
Speaker 5 (16:20):
I lost a daughter at six months pregnant with this man.
Speaker 2 (16:25):
And dealt with it alone, and I finally got saved
out of this marriage. He put his hands on me
for the last time, and because I kept calling the
cops and they wouldn't do anything because there was never
a witness and it was just you're saying, and a
teacher ended up seeing him because it was outside of
my house, and he finally got put in jail.
Speaker 1 (16:46):
I'm being quiet not because I'm not paying attention, but
because I'm trying to honor your heart and take in
everything you're saying. And that's a lot to take in, honey.
Speaker 2 (16:58):
I need to talk deeper hour just the stuff that
I've been through, me and my kids, that I dealt
with behind closed doors and he drained my bank account
one hundred thousand I got from my dad for me
and my kids, and I just drained me, and the
lower the money got, the worse of the verbal and
the physical abse got. And they finally she got caught
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this time because, like I said, a teacher, I was
going outside to take my son to school and he
came out there and she ended up seeing it, and
she called the copsin because there was a witness. He
finally he's bonded out now that they are actually going
to take it to trial and try to get this
man in prison.
Speaker 1 (17:41):
Wow. So it sounds to me like it has been
a whole lot of heartache and trauma for your whole
adult life.
Speaker 4 (17:49):
It has.
Speaker 2 (17:50):
And that was part of the thing because he knew,
like I didn't have any I don't have any family.
My mom was my whole world, and when I lost
her when I was pregnant, it really crist me.
Speaker 5 (18:00):
And so my dad was like my last walk, you know,
beside my kids.
Speaker 2 (18:05):
And when I lost him two years ago, I was
at my lowest. And this man knew what he was
doing and said all the right things.
Speaker 5 (18:13):
And once we got married, like I said, it was
a one eighty. When I met this.
Speaker 2 (18:17):
Man, I had a house of five acres, I had
a great job at a doctor's office.
Speaker 4 (18:23):
I had my whole life.
Speaker 5 (18:24):
I was going to church and my kids volunteered at places.
Speaker 2 (18:27):
And I look up tapears of myself and how fool
of life I was before I met him.
Speaker 4 (18:33):
And I have lost so.
Speaker 2 (18:35):
Much weight, down to ninety pounds and I was at
one hundred and thirty and just seeing how much he
sucked the life out of me and my kids.
Speaker 1 (18:45):
And now are you away from all of that?
Speaker 5 (18:49):
Yes, they there's a no contact order.
Speaker 2 (18:52):
They're in a protective order, and like I said, they
are trying to take it to trial.
Speaker 1 (18:58):
What matters is your heart. I hurt right now. You're
so busy beating yourself up, you can't see what a
strong and competent and capable mama you are. But you will.
You're going to get through this, and your kids are
going to get through this, and you're going to come
out the other side healed and stronger than before. You
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can do this. You can do this, honey, You can
do this.
Speaker 4 (19:27):
I can do this.
Speaker 1 (19:28):
God's got you. Oh when was the last time you
spent time praying?
Speaker 5 (19:36):
I mean we an actual good prayer.
Speaker 4 (19:39):
It's been a long time.
Speaker 2 (19:41):
I was going to church and everything, but I feel
like I not so much walt my faith.
Speaker 4 (19:48):
My mom was a Sunday school teacher. We were raised
in church. But it was I was angry.
Speaker 2 (19:55):
After all off my dad and then after everything that
I've been through with this man, I was angry and
I kind of stopped going to church.
Speaker 1 (20:02):
I didn't ask when it was the last time you
went to a building. I asked, when was the last
time you talked to the Lord. Going to church is
a great place to spend time with other people who
love God, but that's that's not where I meet the Lord.
Speaker 4 (20:18):
I don't know when the last time I've done that.
Speaker 1 (20:20):
Can I pray with you? Yes, Father God, I lift
this young woman up to you, and I pray your
healing hand upon her heart. Lord, I pray you would
reach down from on high right now, right now, as
she's in the car with her child, reach down from
heaven and touch her. Lord, touch her, Send your holy
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spirit to cover her, shower her with your grace and
your love. Let her feel your presence in a new
and powerful way. I pray that tonight would begin the
healing process, the process of letting go, letting go of
the abuse, letting go of the lies, letting go of
the conversations she has over and over and over and
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over in her brain when she's trying to reason things
out with an unreasonable person. She thinks, if I just
say it different, if I just present the truth, he'll
finally see what he's doing. Father, I pray you would
bring those conversations to a halt, and every time her
brain starts to go back in that pattern, that instead
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she would speak with you. Lord. Your Bible says that
you will restore the years. The locust of eaten locusts
are horrible bugs that don't leave anything living. When they
come through, they take everything. And everything has been taken
from Sophia, Lord, her dignity, her faith, her mother, her father,
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her money, her peace of mind. It's all been stripped bare.
And Father, I know she feels very alone right now.
I pray God that you would bring good people, godly
people to surround her, to protect her, to encircle her.
Send somebody who will be a mother figure to her.
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Send somebody who will be a father figure to her.
Send somebody who will be a sister and a brother
to her, a family, Lord, that you create to help
her and her children to grow stronger. Father, I pray
that tonight she would finally finally be able to sleep peacefully,
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that the corticol levels that are through the roof, the
anxiety that's through the roof, the peace that she desperately
tries to find, Lord, that you would take away the stress,
take away the noise, and bring her peace. I ask
this in your precious and your holy name, Amen.
Speaker 2 (22:56):
Nam Pollokle currently needs a lie.
Speaker 1 (23:00):
God loves you. He doesn't want you to be anxious.
He doesn't want your mind racing and your heart racing.
He doesn't want any of that for you. He wants
you to have peace and have it in abundance. He
wants you to know that you know that you know
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that you are safe in His arms.
Speaker 4 (23:23):
Thank you so much for answering.
Speaker 1 (23:26):
You're welcome. God bless you, Honey. I want you to
hear me carefully when I say this. If you've listened
to this podcast up to this point, I want you
to listen very carefully what I'm going to share with you,
and I want you to hang on to it for
the rest of your life. God will never leave you
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nor forsake you. Let me say that again. God will never, never,
ever ever leave you, nor will he ever forsake Thank you.
Sometimes it feels like it. I can remember all too
clearly learning that my son had passed. But even in
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that moment, when I was screaming from the depths of
my soul, I felt God holding me. I know he
was with me, and I know he has never left me.
Sometimes we find ourselves in difficult situations. Sometimes we have
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to realize that we put ourselves there. It's a hard
thing to admit. Boy, I have had to admit that
I have put myself some really bad situations, and I
have hurt people along the way. God's asking you to
turn it all over to him. He is watching over you,
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He is waiting for you. He is waiting for you
right now to reach up and say, Lord Jesus, I
need you, I need help. I need you to help
me sort through this. I can't do it on my own.
Ask God for the guidance, Ask him for the help,
Ask him for the love that you are missing. Ask
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him into your heart, Ask him to be your lord
and savior. Ask him to write your name in the
Book of life. Ask him to be with you, to
join with you, to never leave you, nor forsake you.
Ask him, I promise he will respond. He's already responding.
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He's been waiting for this moment. He's been waiting for
your heart, patiently waiting. God bless you until next time.
Speaker 2 (25:48):
Del
Hello, my friend. Hello, Hello, and welcome to a new
edition of Have a Little Faith with Delilah. What a
crazy time we live in. What a crazy time we
live in, And I think it's going to get a
lot rougher I do. Why do I say that? Because
(00:24):
I've read the Bible, and God tells us all the
things that are about to unfold. And we can be
terrified and we can be paralyzed in fear, or we
can read his word and remember that he says that
he has us in the palm of his hand. Last
(00:46):
week brought yet another tragedy. The unspeakable violence that we
all wake up to every day is being normalized. It's
being normalized. Murders, assassination being normalized. Guess what it is
not normal. I know that it's been difficult for so
(01:08):
long now to be a person of faith, but really
we enjoy a lot of religious freedoms here that other
people and other parts of the world don't get to enjoy.
Right now, it's so important to me to cling to
my faith, to celebrate my faith. My Lord, my faith
(01:32):
is a construct, but my Lord, my God is everything.
I'm not talking about clinging to a religion or a
building or a theology or a set of rules talking
about clinging to the Almighty, the Great. I am the beginning,
(01:56):
in the end, the one who created all that is
and all that ever will be. You have every right
to reason and speak out no matter who you are.
There are probably a lot of good reasons for us
to be fearful. I choose to be bold. I'm not
going to choose to be fearful. I am not going
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to live in fear. I absolutely refuse to live in fear.
I'm going to live my faith out loud. I'm going
to live it every single day, not by shouting at people,
or arguing at people, or even debating with people. I'm
not interested in debating my faith with you. I'm not.
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You get to believe however you want to believe. But
if you see in me and my family and my kids,
and my life and my farm, if you see in
me something that looks good, something that looks healing, if
you hear in my voice something that is healing, something
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that brings peace, know that that's something is God. Know
that Jesus is the only peace we can have in
this world, the only peace we will ever have. In
the midst of the storms of life, as if we
cling to the rock, the rock that is the Lord.
(03:21):
Your words matter, especially if you call yourself a Christian.
The word Christian means to emulate Christ, to live as
Christ lived. He always spoke the truth, He never lied,
he never minced words, but he always spoke the truth
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in love, and he was never hurtful or hateful. So remember,
choose your words wisely. Do not speak words that will
break the heart of God or the heart of other people.
And remember this God. God tells us to love those
who oppose us. He says, love your enemies, bless those
(04:06):
who persecute you. Love them, do not hate them, and
in doing so, you will be heaping colds upon their lap.
When somebody hates you and somebody despises you, love them,
love them, love them, and bless them. He calls us
to love and pray for our enemies. He calls us
(04:28):
always to love. Show people your faith by your actions,
by your love, Show your faith by your love. There's
a wonderful verse that says, trust in the Lord with
all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding,
but in all ways acknowledge God, and He will make
(04:52):
your path straight. Today I'm going to share two stories
with you, two conversations with two young young women who
are struggling with their faith, mostly because of pain and
hurt from the past. I have Hannah up first. She
is struggling with loss and depression, but mostly she's struggling
(05:14):
with her faith and she knows it. Let's listen to
Hannah right now.
Speaker 2 (05:20):
Mister Hannah. I was just calling to tell you what
you meant to me all my life. And I know
you hear this from everybody, but sitting in the back
seat with my mom on our way home from Vicksburg, Mississippi.
We would go there every weekend. It was where she
grew up, and on our way home, she would have
(05:41):
you on and I would just lean my head against
the window, and just like everyone else talks about it,
it's a passage in life that we've all had with you,
and you just you mean the world to me. And
my mom passed away when I was seventeen, and when
I listen to you, I think of her. It was
just something me and her did, along with a lot
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of other things. And I just wanted to tell you
how much you mean to me, and thank you so
much for everything you've done for me and everyone else
that loves you the way we all do, and you're
a light in this world and God bless you so much.
Speaker 1 (06:18):
They gonna make me cry. I'm sorry about your mama.
Speaker 2 (06:22):
Don't believe them actually talking to you, and I never
thought i'd get through.
Speaker 3 (06:26):
But you're wonderful.
Speaker 4 (06:29):
You're an angel, you really are, and you mean.
Speaker 2 (06:32):
So much to so many people in this world. And
I said, I know you hear it by everybody, but
you deserve to hear it too, and I hope you
continue to hear it all your life. And just thank
you for the wonderful feelings that you give all of us.
Thank you, and then wonderful memories that you give us.
Because I can get really down sometimes, but I listen
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to you and I hear your voice saying you make
it so much better.
Speaker 4 (06:59):
You help me brith it.
Speaker 2 (07:01):
We're all loved by God and things are going to
get better. So I just want to see you.
Speaker 1 (07:06):
Thank you, Hannah. I'm not an angel, trust me when
I tell you, but I do my best to be
a voice of calm in a world that's gone mad,
gone absolutely crazy.
Speaker 2 (07:23):
Yes, and Delilah's I know you know this, but I'll
just tell you anything that you have done.
Speaker 3 (07:30):
God's forgiven you for already, so well.
Speaker 1 (07:34):
He forgives us when we turn around and walk the
other direction, when we say, okay, I'm done with that,
and we decide to make good choices. And sometimes sometimes
I do that, and then other times stuff comes out
of my mouth that I don't even believe. I'm like,
where did that toxic nonsense come from? Like I thought,
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I dealt with this temper thing twenty years ago, God,
and here I am once again asking your forgiveness.
Speaker 3 (08:07):
Well, you're human, just like all of this, and just
hearing you say that they'll alla makes me feel better
because I have all those problems too, And I'm sure,
along with everyone else that looks up to you the
way I do, we're all just human.
Speaker 1 (08:23):
But I know that God loves me, and I know
that when I truly do repent and I turn from
the things He's asked me not to do, I know
he's quick to forgive me. But man, I just sometimes
I look in the mirror, I go, are you ever
ever going to let go of that that thing that
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you know is not good for you? I get why
people are addicted to drugs or to alcohol because the
things I struggle with.
Speaker 3 (08:54):
It's hard.
Speaker 1 (08:55):
It's so hard.
Speaker 2 (08:57):
I've lost two friends to addiction, and my dad was
an alcoholic, and it must be a monster to struggle
with things like like drugs and alcohol, for sure.
Speaker 1 (09:08):
So was it Paul that said I don't do the
things that I know I want to do. I do
do the things I hate. Why?
Speaker 3 (09:17):
And it's in the in in everything?
Speaker 1 (09:20):
Okay? So when God calls me home and I get
to Heaven, and after I hug my boys and my
mom and my dad and everybody that went before me,
if I start looking around for your mom, how am
I going to recognize her? Tell me a quality or
a characteristic that you know she got to keep in heaven.
Speaker 2 (09:40):
I don't know about just one. That she was short.
I got her short qualities. We were both very short women.
We're both only four foot eight. He had beautiful, bushy
brown hair and the most beautiful, I flew eyes you've
ever seen. I kind of deflected from her for a bit,
(10:03):
but I am trying to be more like her.
Speaker 4 (10:07):
She was.
Speaker 2 (10:08):
Everyone says this about their moms, and and and I
do believe that everyone's mom is the best person in
the world. But she worth just an angel in the
shape of my mom. The way Ed Cheering put it
in a song. I've heard that so many times in
a phone of his, and that's the best way to
describe anyone's mom.
Speaker 4 (10:25):
She was an angel.
Speaker 1 (10:27):
I think you need to cut yourself a break, Honey.
Speaker 3 (10:30):
I am hard on myself, I'll admit it.
Speaker 1 (10:32):
I am, But I'm not nearly as hard on myself
as I should be. When I listen like I have
a Bible on tape, When I listen to proverbs and
talking about wisdom and foolishness and wisdom and how you
could should seek wisdom, I'm sitting there going ooh, ooh,
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I want to be wise God, But why am I
such a foolish knucklehead? So often when I don't read
his word, I think I'm doing pretty good. But when
I get into God's word and realize how much he
loves me and how he wants me to have a
pure heart, and I compare the nonsense that I have
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in my heart and my mind to his standard, then
I'm like, Okay, I need to pray a little bit
more and show a lot more grace.
Speaker 2 (11:28):
Well, you're doing the thing that I am trying to
do in my life. I've strayed from God, but I
in the past, since I had my daughter, which was
seven years ago, I've tried to do a lot better.
I'm still working, and I know it's always going to
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be something to work on, but I'm trying to get
my relationship with him back.
Speaker 4 (11:55):
The way it used to be.
Speaker 2 (11:57):
He has grown so much the church that I've put
her in, and she's showing me the person that I
need to be in. I know it's supposed to be
the other way around, but she's the one.
Speaker 1 (12:09):
That that's leading Mama back home. Yes, here's what I
want you to remember, Hannah. It is far better to
be one thousand miles from the Lord and walking towards
him than standing next to the cross and walking away.
Speaker 3 (12:24):
Thank you, because I do feel like I'm at a
thousand miles away from him.
Speaker 1 (12:29):
If you're walking towards him, he's right there to meet you.
He's running to meet you. So long as you're walking
towards him, he is running to meet you, to embrace you,
to hold you, to restore you.
Speaker 3 (12:45):
Thank you.
Speaker 4 (12:45):
I need to do hear that. Thank you.
Speaker 1 (12:48):
I'm going to say a quick prayer for you before
I hang up, Father God, I thank you, Lord for
allowing this young woman to get through on the phone lines.
I thank you for her gentle and tender heart. I
thank you for her baby girl, and I thank you
for the sweet memories of her mama. I pray, Lord God,
that you would let her see herself as you see her.
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You say, we are fearfully and wonderfully made. You say
that you rejoice over us with singing. You say that
we are beautiful in your eyes. I pray that she
would get a glimpse of how much you love her
and how precious she is to you, and that she
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would go to sleep wrapped in that assurance that you
are hers and she is yours. Let tonight be the
night that she knows that she is home, safe in
your arms, and that Lord, you are restoring her and
washing her as pure as the morning sun. I ask
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this in your precious and holy name. Amen.
Speaker 3 (14:00):
Amen, thank you all.
Speaker 2 (14:03):
I did night like this, Tonay, Thank you, Good night, Honey,
Good night, Delilah.
Speaker 1 (14:12):
Sophia's call is the one I'm going to share next.
Sophia's story is kind of heartbreaking, but I think it's
good to hear it. Sophia has been sifted. She has
lost a lot, She's been through a lot of grief,
a lot of loss, and in the process she's lost
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her faith. She's focusing on tangible possessions things. I know
that she has all that matters. Let's talk to Sophia
right now. Hi, Sophia, I love your name. What can
I do for you?
Speaker 5 (14:49):
Oh?
Speaker 4 (14:50):
My God? And I'd like, I've always wanted to call you.
Speaker 5 (14:55):
I'm loveing to you since I was a little girl,
and I remember.
Speaker 2 (15:00):
Like stinging in my mom's course, and it was so
great to actually tart to you, so I actually.
Speaker 5 (15:11):
My little girl, I would listen to you with my mom.
Speaker 2 (15:15):
And I lost my mom whenever I was twenty and
I was pregnant with my son, so my mom never
got to meet my kids or anything. And I had
got married as an adult and everything I had three
I have three amazing kids, and we ended up getting divorce. Well,
for the longest time, I never wanted to get married again.
Speaker 5 (15:34):
And I worked at a doctor's office.
Speaker 2 (15:37):
And this man kept coming in and asking me out
and asking me out, and I would never go out
with him. And finally the nurthrough, like, you know, just
give him a chance, because I just wanted to be
a mom, and I ended up losing my dad right
after I met this man, and I was very vulnerable
and he said all the right things and we got
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married after two months, but he ended up finding out
that I was getting life insurance from my dad, and
once we got married, it was a one eighty.
Speaker 4 (16:10):
I was verdly abused, physically abused.
Speaker 2 (16:14):
Over the last almost two years, I have been through help.
Speaker 5 (16:20):
I lost a daughter at six months pregnant with this man.
Speaker 2 (16:25):
And dealt with it alone, and I finally got saved
out of this marriage. He put his hands on me
for the last time, and because I kept calling the
cops and they wouldn't do anything because there was never
a witness and it was just you're saying, and a
teacher ended up seeing him because it was outside of
my house, and he finally got put in jail.
Speaker 1 (16:46):
I'm being quiet not because I'm not paying attention, but
because I'm trying to honor your heart and take in
everything you're saying. And that's a lot to take in, honey.
Speaker 2 (16:58):
I need to talk deeper hour just the stuff that
I've been through, me and my kids, that I dealt
with behind closed doors and he drained my bank account
one hundred thousand I got from my dad for me
and my kids, and I just drained me, and the
lower the money got, the worse of the verbal and
the physical abse got. And they finally she got caught
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this time because, like I said, a teacher, I was
going outside to take my son to school and he
came out there and she ended up seeing it, and
she called the copsin because there was a witness. He
finally he's bonded out now that they are actually going
to take it to trial and try to get this
man in prison.
Speaker 1 (17:41):
Wow. So it sounds to me like it has been
a whole lot of heartache and trauma for your whole
adult life.
Speaker 4 (17:49):
It has.
Speaker 2 (17:50):
And that was part of the thing because he knew,
like I didn't have any I don't have any family.
My mom was my whole world, and when I lost
her when I was pregnant, it really crist me.
Speaker 5 (18:00):
And so my dad was like my last walk, you know,
beside my kids.
Speaker 2 (18:05):
And when I lost him two years ago, I was
at my lowest. And this man knew what he was
doing and said all the right things.
Speaker 5 (18:13):
And once we got married, like I said, it was
a one eighty. When I met this.
Speaker 2 (18:17):
Man, I had a house of five acres, I had
a great job at a doctor's office.
Speaker 4 (18:23):
I had my whole life.
Speaker 5 (18:24):
I was going to church and my kids volunteered at places.
Speaker 2 (18:27):
And I look up tapears of myself and how fool
of life I was before I met him.
Speaker 4 (18:33):
And I have lost so.
Speaker 2 (18:35):
Much weight, down to ninety pounds and I was at
one hundred and thirty and just seeing how much he
sucked the life out of me and my kids.
Speaker 1 (18:45):
And now are you away from all of that?
Speaker 5 (18:49):
Yes, they there's a no contact order.
Speaker 2 (18:52):
They're in a protective order, and like I said, they
are trying to take it to trial.
Speaker 1 (18:58):
What matters is your heart. I hurt right now. You're
so busy beating yourself up, you can't see what a
strong and competent and capable mama you are. But you will.
You're going to get through this, and your kids are
going to get through this, and you're going to come
out the other side healed and stronger than before. You
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can do this. You can do this, honey, You can
do this.
Speaker 4 (19:27):
I can do this.
Speaker 1 (19:28):
God's got you. Oh when was the last time you
spent time praying?
Speaker 5 (19:36):
I mean we an actual good prayer.
Speaker 4 (19:39):
It's been a long time.
Speaker 2 (19:41):
I was going to church and everything, but I feel
like I not so much walt my faith.
Speaker 4 (19:48):
My mom was a Sunday school teacher. We were raised
in church. But it was I was angry.
Speaker 2 (19:55):
After all off my dad and then after everything that
I've been through with this man, I was angry and
I kind of stopped going to church.
Speaker 1 (20:02):
I didn't ask when it was the last time you
went to a building. I asked, when was the last
time you talked to the Lord. Going to church is
a great place to spend time with other people who
love God, but that's that's not where I meet the Lord.
Speaker 4 (20:18):
I don't know when the last time I've done that.
Speaker 1 (20:20):
Can I pray with you? Yes, Father God, I lift
this young woman up to you, and I pray your
healing hand upon her heart. Lord, I pray you would
reach down from on high right now, right now, as
she's in the car with her child, reach down from
heaven and touch her. Lord, touch her, Send your holy
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spirit to cover her, shower her with your grace and
your love. Let her feel your presence in a new
and powerful way. I pray that tonight would begin the
healing process, the process of letting go, letting go of
the abuse, letting go of the lies, letting go of
the conversations she has over and over and over and
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over in her brain when she's trying to reason things
out with an unreasonable person. She thinks, if I just
say it different, if I just present the truth, he'll
finally see what he's doing. Father, I pray you would
bring those conversations to a halt, and every time her
brain starts to go back in that pattern, that instead
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she would speak with you. Lord. Your Bible says that
you will restore the years. The locust of eaten locusts
are horrible bugs that don't leave anything living. When they
come through, they take everything. And everything has been taken
from Sophia, Lord, her dignity, her faith, her mother, her father,
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her money, her peace of mind. It's all been stripped bare.
And Father, I know she feels very alone right now.
I pray God that you would bring good people, godly
people to surround her, to protect her, to encircle her.
Send somebody who will be a mother figure to her.
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Send somebody who will be a father figure to her.
Send somebody who will be a sister and a brother
to her, a family, Lord, that you create to help
her and her children to grow stronger. Father, I pray
that tonight she would finally finally be able to sleep peacefully,
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that the corticol levels that are through the roof, the
anxiety that's through the roof, the peace that she desperately
tries to find, Lord, that you would take away the stress,
take away the noise, and bring her peace. I ask
this in your precious and your holy name, Amen.
Speaker 2 (22:56):
Nam Pollokle currently needs a lie.
Speaker 1 (23:00):
God loves you. He doesn't want you to be anxious.
He doesn't want your mind racing and your heart racing.
He doesn't want any of that for you. He wants
you to have peace and have it in abundance. He
wants you to know that you know that you know
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that you are safe in His arms.
Speaker 4 (23:23):
Thank you so much for answering.
Speaker 1 (23:26):
You're welcome. God bless you, Honey. I want you to
hear me carefully when I say this. If you've listened
to this podcast up to this point, I want you
to listen very carefully what I'm going to share with you,
and I want you to hang on to it for
the rest of your life. God will never leave you
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nor forsake you. Let me say that again. God will never, never,
ever ever leave you, nor will he ever forsake Thank you.
Sometimes it feels like it. I can remember all too
clearly learning that my son had passed. But even in
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that moment, when I was screaming from the depths of
my soul, I felt God holding me. I know he
was with me, and I know he has never left me.
Sometimes we find ourselves in difficult situations. Sometimes we have
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to realize that we put ourselves there. It's a hard
thing to admit. Boy, I have had to admit that
I have put myself some really bad situations, and I
have hurt people along the way. God's asking you to
turn it all over to him. He is watching over you,
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He is waiting for you. He is waiting for you
right now to reach up and say, Lord Jesus, I
need you, I need help. I need you to help
me sort through this. I can't do it on my own.
Ask God for the guidance, Ask him for the help,
Ask him for the love that you are missing. Ask
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him into your heart, Ask him to be your lord
and savior. Ask him to write your name in the
Book of life. Ask him to be with you, to
join with you, to never leave you, nor forsake you.
Ask him, I promise he will respond. He's already responding.
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He's been waiting for this moment. He's been waiting for
your heart, patiently waiting. God bless you until next time.
Speaker 2 (25:48):
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