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going to hear a recap of some of the stories
we have been hearing on Navigating Narcissism. I want to
begin by thanking all of you for listening and tuning in.
Now let's dive into some updates from some of our
memorable interviews on this show. I'm sure most of you
know what we Work is, even if you didn't hear
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our episode was Ugo Umbawek, who talked about his experience
working with we Work and sort of the fallout of
what happened for him when everything fell apart. We Work
is obviously the mastermind of someone named Adam Newman, who
famously developed this company We Work from the ground up
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and built it a little bit too fast. This was
a company that it's heyday had a forty seven billion
dollar valuation, but they kind of got ahead of themselves.
The entire thing fell apart. Adam made sure he walked
off with a very very healthy dose of profits, but
many many others who held onto those options did not
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benefit in the same way. And there was a tremendous
of betrayal. And how could somebody let someone run a
company like this into the ground without any oversight. In
many ways, the story of We Work became a fable
about corporate mismanagement and the sort of grandiosity that we
were seeing in so many tech businesses that would rise
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out of nowhere and come crashing to the ground. So
here's where this story gets really really interesting. You think, okay,
Adam Newman made a mess of everything, Well, how about this, folks.
In the last few months, Adam has secured a three
hundred and fifty million dollar investment from Anderson Horowitz for
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company called Flow, his new venture. This investment is the
largest individual check Anderson Horowitz has ever written when funding
a company, and it values flow at more than one
billion dollars for it officially opens its doors. And this
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is in addition to another seventy million dollars he raised
for yet another company, a billion dollars a billion. I
have trouble getting an advance on my damn credit card,
and this guy who already drove one company in the
ground is getting a billion dollars. When I read that news,
I chuckled to myself and I thought, oh, my goodness,
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we do keep enabling grandiose folks, don't we. But I
also got a heaviness in me because I stopped to
think about the many people who were harmed when we
were crashed, people who had invested time to watch the
founder who had made the mess walk away with a
tremendous amount of money, and many of them left with
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very little after that happened. I really stopped to think
about what does this mean? And here's the thing, and
this is where it gets real complicated, and why understanding
these kinds of sort of grandiose, entitled folks gets very
complicated in the business space. Nobody can deny that Adam
Newman is a generator of fantastic ideas. His ideas are
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visionary and excellent. Is this guy's coming up with a
better mouse trap all the time? I can't doubt it? Right?
And this is where it gets so tricky. And one
thing that can make understanding charismatic, grandiose, arrogant, and egocentric
personalities so complicated is this concept of how multiple truths
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are operating. Adam Newman has great ideas and vision, that's
one truth. Adam Newman mismanaged We Work, that's another truth.
Adam Newman appeared to put himself before the folks who
worked at We Work and helped We Work in its ascendancy.
That appears to be a truth. Adam Newman's grandiosity got
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in the way of him being able to do the
drudgery and discipline of running and sustaining a business. Basically,
his were bigger than his stomach. His ego is bigger
than his empathy. That appears to be a truth. All
these things are happening at the same time. Now, what's interesting,
and my read on on observing and reading everything I
could on this case is that he appears to want validation,
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and so he may be very invested in getting it
closer to right this time. However, the people who want
to work for this company need to understand what they're
signing up for. Something I have said in the past
is that, especially when it comes to dating, for example,
there's no such thing as YELP for people. We cannot
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read reviews of people to find out how they've been
hurt by someone. So when we meet someone new, because
we often don't have access to the people in their past,
we're starting fresh. And can you imagine if you knew
what their past relationships were really like the same thing
happens here, except people know what this person's track record is.
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So anybody going into this workplace setting needs to you.
So I would say, with eyes wide open, understand what
they're signing up for. But the story of we work,
the story of Adam Newman and the people who work there,
they're a reminder as much as we want them to be,
these stories are not black and white. If people with
these personalities were just simple cartoon villains, then everyone could
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see these things coming. The multiple simultaneous truths mean that
depending on who you are in this new endeavor, this
this new company, you may prosper or you may get hurt.
And I'm sure some of your things wasn't that every company, Yeah,
but I think the level of which one could get
hurt could be more extreme when these personalities are on board.
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When a person works with a visionary but undisciplined later
someone like an Adam Newman, it's important to keep your
eyes wide open and not get caught up in sort
of the CULTI dynamics of it all. And for investors
just a thought, hey, you may want to listen to
our podcast episode. But for investors, I sure as hell
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hope that they put in sort of the grown up
clauses in their deal that allow them to put the
brakes on before it goes upside down or if it
goes upside down. We very much are living in the
era of the cult of personality, and so multiple endeavors
like this. I can see it. You read anything about
this investment, and people are saying, we like to believe
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in founders who may have learned from their mistakes. And
it's really interesting because when we reproduce that dynamic in
a relationship. I can't tell you how many times I've
sat in a therapy room with someone where people are saying, well,
they made a mistake, and I'd really like to think
that they've learned from it. I'm sure you do. And I,
as a therapist, don't get to tell someone how to
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live their lives, so I desperately often want to, and
I have to say I'm just going to breathe and
recognize that this client is going to get hurt again,
and my role in their life is really to help
them through navigating those broken pieces afterwards. This bet that
somebody is going to change that significantly when it comes
to these kinds of personalities is often not a good beat.
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I only wish any venture well. I think that this
venture is actually very thoughtful and it could benefit a
lot of people who, especially the way the housing market
is now, really deserve that benefit. So I think the
idea is great. The challenges, it's basically hubris. It's Icarus
flying too close to the sun. Basically Adam has been
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given a new set of wings, and the question is
is this time is he going to remember to not
fly as close to the sun. I really really hope
he does, because I can again his ideas are excellent.
This new idea is actually a really good idea, and
I hope again that the grown ups involved are not
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getting caught up in the grandiosity of it all and
can look at this with a more critical lens, because
I think in that way the only way something like
this is going to work. But there's also another piece
of fallout here. When somebody has been sort of harmed
by the decision making of someone in this case in
a workplace setting and actually took financial hits from that,
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and then watch the person who not only prospered getting
to prosper again, it can feel like a re betrayal
for people in these situations. The difficult thing with difficult
emotions is sometimes you just have to lean into them
and let them work their way through. You may just
watch with bated breath to see if it all blows
up again, or just sort of watch it and slowly
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learn to let it go and find your own peace
and your own path in the world. But again, it
is amazing to me what people are willing to look
past when money is involved. I sincerely hope this dude
has learned, because, like I said, his ideas are top flight,
and this idea would be really good for other people
if it takes off. But unfortunately, given what I know
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about these personality styles, I'm not so sure that this
is a horse, I would confidently bet on my recap
session will continue after this break. So, Heidi Russell was
a roommate story gone wrong, and this was well beyond
a roommate. This was a story of someone's home and
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life being fully infiltrated. She brought someone in to be
a short, short, short, less than thirty day tenant, and
then before she knew it, a pandemic happened, and various
policies and procedures meant that Heidi lost her own home
while a person who moved in and didn't pay rent
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got to live there rent free. You know how we
often talk about how antagonistic people get to live in
our minds rent free. Well, this was a case where
a real person was living in her real apartment rent free.
It was a complicated story, and when we left at
the end of the episode with Heidi, this person, this grifter,
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was still living in her apartment rent free. Heidi had
to find a new place to live and ended up
staying with a friend. Well, I was hoping Heidi would
get a good ending on this story, and I'd say
we kind of got a partial good ending. Upon hearing
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what the end of the story was, it was sort
of a half happy ending. So after finally getting a
court order to be able to evict this person from
her home, any of you listening would know this person,
this grifter, did not leave easily, even with notice, even
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with getting a decent amount of time to leave, being
told to pack, being told what the date was again
and again, she didn't. And so when that day finally came,
as you can imagine, not one thing was packed up,
and once again the chaos ensued, with the grifter trying
to hide and get away with it, and all kinds
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of things had to happen to finally get the grifter
out of the apartment. But it doesn't end there, because
these things never do. What ended up happening then was
because somebody lives in your apartment for three years, they're
going to have stuff. Heidi was left holding the bag
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on paying for the move, paying for storage to the
tune of thousands of dollars. Heidi has already financially wiped
out and now she was having to pay for a move.
She finally moved out over fifty boxes full of items,
and still is having to endure ongoing contact from this
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grifter who had taken over her life. Sadly, during that
period of time, Heidi was not able to access her apartment,
and in that period of time damage happened to her apartment.
So Heidi is also now having to hold the bag
on repairing and fixing and trying to make her apartment
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habitable again, so she still doesn't have a place to live.
Financially has been wiped out, is facing the cost of
the repairs, is carrying the costs of the move. So
Heidi will ultimately hopefully be able to return to her home.
But after something like this, and when this person is
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still out in the world and still making contact with her,
something like this changes you. It's not likely that Heidi
will really really ever feel fully safe when it comes
to these kinds of situations again. She may not be
able to get her financial footing in the same way again.
But the real legacy of loss for someone like Heidi
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after something like this is a loss of trust. This
was such an extreme situation, the very place that any
of us consider a sanctuary our home got literally infiltrated.
As Heidi moves forward, I do hope she's able to
find peace. Hers is a cautionary tale for many of
us who desperately want to trust, but may find that
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after a narcissistic relationship, it's hard to and often have
to be more discerning, because even in the episode, Heidi
was honest about feeling like some things weren't right, but
there were empathic parts of herselves seeing that the scripter
had a child that led to Heidi really wanting to
step up and do what felt like the right thing.
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We have very different relationships with empathy and compassion after
these relationships happen in our lives, and I have no
doubt that Heidi struggles with that from time to time
as well. Interestingly, Heidi not only did get her place back,
but not surprisingly, it wasn't easy. She's also now trying
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to work through the system to develop a roommate law
that would protect people in the future who find themselves
in these situations and are not able to remove a
person that they may have brought in to share expenses
into their homes but cannot remove from these situations. So, Heidi,
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I hope that you are able before long to be
back in your home, make it your own, burn some sage, Hid,
and I hope that you're able to find home, not
only in your physical home again, but that you're able
to sort of feel comfortable back in sort of your
own skin and in your own mind and in your
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own body, because these relationships can really really feel like
we no longer are safe anywhere anymore. I had the
privilege of talking with Mark Vicente, who was featured prominently
in the first season of The Vow, the HBO documentary
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about the Nexium Cult. It was a painful story because
so many people were harmed by Nexium, and Mark had
a very unique perch in all of this, a really
complicated space where he really really believed in it. He
had to grapple with the moral injury of recognizing that
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he brought people to it, and then the fear that
came from doing something about it, and doing it against
an organization that had absolutely no morals or ethics in
terms of how they would come at people who spoke
out against them. So you thought the story of the
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Vow was done, Oh no, no, there is much more,
And in season two of The Vow we get to
hear what happens after the Nexium cult is brought down.
It wasn't as simple as there's a trial and then
there's a sentence and everybody moves off into the sunset.
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What we often forget is some of the greatest grief, loss,
and hurt can happen after what looks like a resolution
to the world, as people have to grapple with lost friendships,
of seeing people who are still psychologically stuck in a space,
people who are still coming at you in an angry way,
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and then absorbing that this was once part of your life,
and even the idea that you may have brought people
into this situation that could have done them harm. As
people watch season two of The Vow, feedback that Mark
has been getting is that there are a lot of
people who are mad at the Loyalist So like the
people who still kind of are holding to the tenants
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of Nexium, the people who are still almost defending what
folks central to this, Keith Vneery and others were doing,
and they don't like that the Loyalists are getting airtime.
I found that it was so interesting that Mark is
so circumspect about why it was important for those Loyalists
to get that air time, because he said, that's where
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you can see we can speculate on cognitive dissonance, on
coercive control. But he said it's fascinating to see where
they're still stuck in it. Mark made such an interesting comment.
He actually has a podcast where he sort of breaks
down not only episodes of The Vow, but really talks
about these issues. And I highly recommend his podcast because
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he brings in some really unique insights of somebody who's
been so close to cult like structures is he's doing
these debunking episodes and he talks about it. One point
that Mark makes, which is such an interesting point, is
as you look at season two of The Vow, the loyalists,
the people who are sort of in some way still believers,
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still defenders, they actually look really calm and well put together.
But the people who are devastated by this, the people
who are speaking out about it, the people who recognize
the abuses, the gas lighting, the manipulation, and the coercion.
He's absolutely right. In season two, you can really see
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how raw their emotion is. You can see the harm
that this has done to them. And I agree with Mark.
I'm actually really glad they portrayed it that way. People
might think, like, why are you portraying the loyalist is
looking well put together, because that's what cognitive dissonance does
for us. When we justify a toxic situation, we can
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feel okay with it, like, well, of course this is
right and those people are absolutely wrong and this is
the truth and they have their issues, and however else
the person's rationalizing it. Any of you, any of you
who are listening to this, and maybe, for example, in
a toxic family system, it maybe you who recognizes how
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toxic it is. That you're the one who may actually
look far more frazzled when you're facing down the family
members who are either toxic or enabling the toxic person
and have totally doubled down, unbelieving that the unhealthy dynamics
are actually healthy. It's the person who sees it more
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clearly that is often the one who is struggling and
suffering more so, I actually thought that was really an
interesting way to portray it, and I really agree with
Mark's assessment of that. Mark has been doing this for years,
so in many ways, even what we see in part
two of The Vow is already in the past for him.
But when that story becomes public again for all of
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us who are watching The Vow Part two, it's it's current,
it's present, and he as Mark reflects on his life
and what this has been and how this is unfolded
for him, He reflects on You're reminded of the loss,
your remind of the lost friendships. You are being called
things like disloyal simply because he spoke out and he left,
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He left abuse, but he's being called disloyal. Mark reports,
not surprisingly that he's having bad dreams about the experience.
It's triggering, and what hurts most is watching the loyalists
literally tripling and quadrupling down on their ideology. And what's
hard is, after all that's happened, when the harms have
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been recorded, when the depths of how abusive and how
harmful what was happening in Nexium really really is that
people still think that the people who come out and
speak the truth about what happened, that they're the ones
who are bad, that they're the ones who are corrupt,
and they still hold Keith Ranieri up as this great
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and knowledgeable man. Many people would think that that would
leave Mark feeling angry, but the emotion that he reports
feeling is sadness. However, the good thing is is that
despite all of that, Mark is continuing to get really
good feedback from survivors of all kinds. One way to
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really see where Mark is coming from in the wake
of all that's happened, and even in the wake of
season two of The Vow. And again, it's a real
treat to listen to the podcast episodes after you watch
each episode of season two of The Vow. His new
podcast is called w t F is on My Mind?
Do tune in his really fascinating insights. And what's so
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fascinating is all these things he's saying about a cult,
if you listen to them from the perspective of being
in a toxic relationship or a toxic family, it all
rings true the same way Nexium, the way the sentences
were handed down, it's one of those few success stories
of justice, it really is. I remember when I heard
Keith Ranieri's sentence. I almost fell out of my chair
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because I thought, for sure, either as every good cult
leader does, he had tricked the jury, he had tricked
his attorney, he had tricked the judge. Certainly he had
tricked thousands of people before that, and so I was very,
very worried that not only would there not be an
appropriate sentence, that would mean that anybody who spoke against
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him would be living under a banner of fear for
the rest of their lives. So to see a sentence
that recognizes the number of people harmed and the depth
and the breath of the harm, that delivery of justice
is something we so rarely see in narcissistic relationships. So
I was glad to see that. But once again, remember
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that just because the sentence is handed down, just because
people separate from a toxic system, just because they get support.
As Mark says, the nightmares continue, did hurt continues, the
sadness continues, and the loss continues. Many survivors of narcissistic
relationships actually walk a rather lonely walk after the relationship
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is done or something happens to end it. A lot
of folks will say it's done, now, let it go.
It's simply not that simple. That's not how our nervous
systems work. We hold onto this stuff, and Mark and
other survivors will have to walk this path of healing
for a very very long time. So Keith Nieri, maybe
in jail, and we'll be in jail for the rest
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of his life, and that might be part of the past.
But like any traumatizing relationship. They never fully go away,
and so if you're somebody this had happened to watching
season two of a show or any news reports, it's
like bringing up these feelings again. Mark is having an
experience that many many survivors have, which is I still
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care about these people. I cared about them once. The
care doesn't just go away, and a lot of people think,
what's wrong with me? How can I care about people
who are willing two call me names to tell me
I'm terrible for merely speaking out about a truth that
people were being harmed. And as Mark goes through his
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process of healing, and despite how angry the Loyalists are
and the terrible things that they're saying, he does recognize
that he did once care about them, and it's painful
to watch them just saying so allied with harmful people
and to keep doing harmful things to other people. It
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is very, very difficult, whether you're in a narcissistic cult,
which is all cults, or you're in a narcissistic family
that you cared and many times still care about those people,
and it can be really really painful to watch people
you care about still continuing to be harmed or doing
harmful things because you want better for them. Part of
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the healing is grieving that and moving on from there.
We can watch salacious TV series like this, and many
people have said this about Nexium in the Vow is
that it's so easy to sort of write off it's
a sex cult. That's not what it just was. Certainly
that sells people to look at it, and it makes
people pay attention to it, but it was people who
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actually did enroll in something because they thought it was
part of their personal growth. They actually were committed to
trying to be better people. So it's really easy to
turn it into sort of something to kind of poke
fun at. But it's not and that salacious TV series.
That's real people and real feelings. And in many ways,
when we watch shows like this and let ourselves sort
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of be carried away by the salacious part, we run
that risk of dehumanizing survivors of these stories, which then
runs a risk of society at large dehumanizing the story
of survivors. And what's actually really really unsettling is that
the arm of Nexium that was responsible at that time
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for branding these women, for bringing women in in this
really coercive, unhealthy way called DOSS, that sub organization of
nexium DOSS that still exists. So these toxic groups, toxic patterns,
they all die hard. But I really do wish Mark
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the best in all of his ventures. He has become
sort of a one man narcissism wrecking machine, and I'm
just really honored to join him on parts of this
journey and watch him flourish in this space. We will
be right back with this recap session now. I just
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want to offer some briefer updates on other guests that
we had on navigating narcissism. Vanessa Riser, who famously ran
two d and eight five miles in her wedding dress
once before to spread awareness about narcissistic abuse, was back
at it again. Remember Vanessa is also a therapist and
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she really works not only with her individual clients, but
has a public voice speaking out about narcissistic abuse. And
she did another run in her wedding dress in the
state of New Jersey. She did it back in September
into October two and she ran from Trenton to Atlantic Highlands.
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The money she raised. Because this was also a virtual run,
there were people participating from all over the country, running
as it were the same lengths and distances or in
the same on the same days as Vanessa. As part
of this of this fight against not only narcissistic abuse
and recognizing these patterns relationships, but also raising awareness about
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domestic abuse and how narcissistic abuse and domestic abuse are
very closely allied situations. The money that was raised by
her run is going to her nonprofit fit organization, tell
a Therapist dot com. And the nice thing about her
organization is that it provides a listing of therapists who
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know how to work with clients experiencing narcissistic abuse and
has lists of referrals for folks all over the country.
I just think it's fantastic and as a real clincher,
Vanessa also has a book deal where she'll be talking
more about her knowledge and wisdom about narcissistic abuse and
parts of her own story. So congrats, Vanessa. It's been
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a pleasure to be in touch with you, to watch
all you're doing in this area and in a very
innovative and very evocative way, taking that wedding dress and
instead of it being a symbol of oh my goodness,
I might be getting stuck in something reminding us that
we can find our voices and we can also set
those boundaries and allow ourselves to thrive. So thank you, Vanessa,
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and let's we visit the story of Rebecca Humphries. Rebecca
Humphries is an actress and a writer based in the UK.
Rebecca had one of those interesting experiences which was sort
of the ultimate turning off of the gaslight, after being
gaslighted for years about her concerns and her suspicions in
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a relationship and being told repeatedly how psychotic and she
was and what's wrong with her, and slowly but surely
making herself smaller and smaller to survive in the relationship.
Her story played out publicly when her suspicions were confirmed
because a photograph of her partner kissing the woman that
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Rebecca suspected that he was having an inappropriate relationship with
ended up on the cover of all of the newspapers
in the UK. So it was a moment when everything
she knew to be true was true, and armed with
that new clarity and the strength, she really did find
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her voice. And rebecca story, in a very big way
shows us how people flourish when they get rid of
the voices that are invalidating them and silencing them. So
her career flourished, and she not only went on to
a role in season four of The Crown Check her Out,
she also has a hit acclaim play in London, and
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most importantly to me, her book is called Why Did
You Stay? A memoir about self worth. It was a
book where you find yourself on any given page crying
because you're both laughing and sad. You feel like you're
sitting with your best girlfriend just kicking it and laughing
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and crying about what they went through. I can't think
of a person out there who's been in a narcissistic
relationship who won't see pieces of themselves in rebecca story.
It is witty. I hope to goodness it gets turned
into a film because it's just really that good. But
Rebecca has now not only flourishing as a creative, as
a writer, as a performer, She's even spoken, as she
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said in front of the House of Comments, and there's
no doubt that Rebecca's voice in the space is going
to continue to proliferate and teach us that abuse in
relationships goes beyond physical abuse, and that she is now
again has worked with people at policy levels in highlighting
the insidious effect of gas lighting. So Rebecca is doing great,
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and stay tuned because I have a feeling we're going
to see more and more of her. And when you
do see her performing, you'll really see this light that
came out and you feel this tremendous pride because you
know what it came from and where she came from
and all of that. And so I find her story
inspiring and just watching her kill it ever since she
she got out of that toxic relationship. So those are
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the stories where we do know what has happened, and
as we can see more than anything else, these are
people who are not only healing themselves, but you'll notice
another thing. Almost all of them have gone on to
create amazing thing books, podcasts, work within the realm of policy.
What we see amongst survivors is inevitably they simply want
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to pay it forward, and that is the work and
that is the growth. A reminder that these relationships do
not steal our empathy, they do not steal our compassion.
But for the first time, we sometimes allow that empathy
and compassion not only do a U turn and we
take a little of it in for ourselves. Survivors will
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continue to care about the people they left behind, even
when they were hurt about them, and above all, they
remain focused on paying it forward to people who are
continuing to endure these experiences. So I think it's a
wake up call for all of us who have been
through narcissistic relationships or are supporting people in narcissistic relationships
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that there is not only life after these relationships. It's
a life with wings. It's a life where people thrive
and grow and finally get to realize the potential that
they often silenced while they were in these relationships. We
will continue to keep having these conversations with survivors of
all kinds, with stories of all kinds, to remind all
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of us that even though the world feels like a
toxic place, the survivors are the ones who keep the
lights on. Thanks again, a big thank you to our
executive producers Jada Pinkett Smith, Valen Jethro, Ellen Rakaton, and
Dr Rominey de Vassila. And thank you to our producer
Matthew Jones, associate producer Mara Dela Rosa, and consultant Kelly Ebling.
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And finally, thank you to our editors and sound engineers,
Devin Donnaghee and Calvin Bailiff,