October 28, 2025 • 46 mins
TRIGGER WARNING this podcast speaks about suicide and mental health.
a podcast that i have been waiting to do! i have the beautiful Valentina Damas as she walks us through her life growing up, battling mental health, being in the psych-ward and experiencing the love of God over her life and now as a mother and married. finding the balance as life starts throwing waves at her.
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Speaker 1 (00:06):
Welcome back to the Overcome for podcast. I'm your host,
Jennica Lopez. Thank you guys so much for choosing to
listen and watch to today's episode. If you clicked on
today's episode, you guys already know who my special guest is.
We have the beautiful Valentina Damas. That is such a
nice last name you got her from, Jacob, Yes, so nice.
Speaker 2 (00:24):
My birth else, my maiden name was Kana's and then
so it literally changed a little bit. But I love that.
Speaker 1 (00:32):
I love for the ladies, for the girls. I'm super
excited to have you. I'm so glad that we actually
planned this. You guys. We had already been texting and
I saw that she was in La and I was like, look,
I want to hang out. If you want to do
the podcastlets do. If you don't, that's really fine, let's
do it or not, let's just chill me. But it
all worked out God's plan. We're here now. Can we mention?
(00:55):
Can I tell them about what you were telling me?
Speaker 2 (00:57):
Why are you such hotels and stuff? Oh?
Speaker 1 (00:59):
Yeah, yeah, Okay, so we were like talking, dude. First
of all, okay, first we're gonna make we're breaking cakes together. Okay,
no specific recipe, but the heart, this is so cute.
Speaker 2 (01:11):
Were even give me that heart? Oh my goodness?
Speaker 1 (01:13):
And then that's hars I have already yet. Well, we
don't really need the frosty get but drubbery. Anyways, we
were planning everything else. She's like, dude, the hotel I
was staying in hud mold And I'm like no, and
I didn't. You guys had just posted the whole old situation.
Can you please walk me through that at like, because
I said, but obviously people some people, you know.
Speaker 2 (01:33):
Yeah, yeah, So long story short, we found mold in
our home. I was I was sick for almost three
whole months without even knowing why, like sick, how like sick? Okay,
as in like a lot of allergy symptoms at first,
so it GI is running nose congestion, shortens of breath,
and then I started getting brain fog. I started getting
(01:54):
running panic attacks all over again, which I stopped having
up like a long time ago diarrhea, nausea. My hair
was shdding more than it was supposed to, you know,
because I'm postparted them, you know, but it was like
shdding a lot more than it was already. Fatigue anxiety.
It was like all the things we can think of
(02:16):
that molts can make you sick. I had all symptoms,
but I didn't know. I thought it was just like that,
my allergies racking up because we were in Miami for
a while and then we came back to Houston. But
then long story shore one day we were watching the
return Pretty Love.
Speaker 1 (02:30):
Yeah, what team are you tea?
Speaker 2 (02:32):
Conrad? Okay, but.
Speaker 1 (02:36):
I live in a house with the hater, so I go, yes,
that's pretty sad.
Speaker 2 (02:43):
So we were I was with them my friends at
my house. We're watching the Return Pretty and then one
of my friends had like a bag of her clothes
in her car and she was like, I'm gonna bring
it out so you guys can like have some right,
and we all tried it on, but we didn't have
a way to see ourselves because the mirror that I
had was in my room, and so we went to
my room. We got the mirror out of the out
of the room. My friend pulled like put it out
(03:05):
and then long and behold, there was mold all over
behind our mirror, like all over. Like it wasn't like
all is this mold? No, it was like all over,
So that was that, and I started sobbing my eyes
off because it was kind of like justifying how I
was feeling, you know, because every single doctor I would
(03:26):
go to there like, oh, it's just anxiety, yeah, and
I'm like anxiety. No, I knew something was wrong, and
so do I pour the rest and I'm like, he's right.
Speaker 3 (03:37):
We had baby Matteo here, he's here. If you hear her, guys,
he's adorable anyways, cute, he.
Speaker 2 (03:44):
Says, you're talking about it.
Speaker 1 (03:47):
He looks.
Speaker 2 (03:50):
So yeah. That's how I found out I had mold
poisoning and I'm so recovering from it. And then I
touched on in La and I get a stomach virus
and I'm being sick with that. Well, I'm not taking more.
I have my period ofge. It just been back to
back to back stuff and I'm like I cannot catch
a break.
Speaker 1 (04:06):
That thing is following you. And then you have the baby.
Speaker 2 (04:09):
And then the baby, yes, the baby. Thankfully he never
got sick. I'm so grateful that it was just me
and not even my husband got sick. But imagine me
was being sicken and the baby having poisoning too, and
like not knowing.
Speaker 1 (04:23):
Why it was you would have been bad.
Speaker 2 (04:28):
Like you.
Speaker 1 (04:28):
Okay, So the reason why I know of you and
obviously Jaco and your family and everything. First of all,
congratulations on all of your guys' success. You guys have
been so influential. The reason why I like felt more connected,
why I generally love your guys's content, is because of
how bold specifically well yeah, both of you guys, But
speaking about you is like you guys are so bold
(04:49):
about talking about God, like and obviously everybody has their
own testimony, right, Yeah, I just want to know what
what led you to God in the first place, you know,
like there's always that one staple moment where like, you
know what, like I have no other choice but to
run a God.
Speaker 2 (05:09):
Yeah, man, my my testimony is is kind of a lot.
But to give you like a long story shot from
the beginning, I've been Christian since I was ten years old,
so I grew up in the church. But then I
started kind of like not believing in Him when I
was in middle school, no high school, sorry, it was
like my sophomore or freshman year of high school. I
started learning about like like the world and like how
(05:31):
it could have been like from the Big Bang and like,
you know, all that stuff, and I was already away
from God like for a while, and that kind of
like made me curious and doubt him even more. And
so there was a moment in high school where I
just stopped believing in God like all together. I was like, God,
is God even real? This isn't that I would like
doubt him a lot, but there was a lot that
(05:54):
I went through in my life that kind of like
made me run to him. But I think think one
of the moments that kind of like was I guess
the scariest that I was like, man like, I need
to like get right is whenever I tried to end
my life my senior year. I think that was more
like of a wake up call. I was in a
really bad relationship at the time, and that I thankfully
(06:16):
obviously ended that relationship. I was bold enough to end it.
And then after that I was like, man, like, what
am I doing? You know, Like I'm out of high school.
I hate my life, you know. And so I feel
like after that, my relationship got better, I started going
to church more, I started focusing more on myself. Obviously,
there was a lot of ups and downs after that,
but I think the moment that I got super super
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close to God and I was like, you know what
I needed to vote myself to completely was with Jaco.
Actually he got close to God, and then I was
like getting close church to God too. And at the
age of twenty one, I think I rededicated my life
to Jesus. We got baptized together, and.
Speaker 1 (06:53):
Yes, okay, was that you guys already knew, like you
guys liked each other. That's when you guys, Yeah, we were.
Speaker 2 (06:58):
Living in la in an apartment together, so we already together.
Like yeah, yeah, yeah, we were very much already in love.
But yeah, there was a lot of moments in my
life where I was like I need Jesus and I
would just backside so much too, Like I think we
all have abody, yeah, like everybody, you know, especially being
a young Christian girl growing up like ten years old
in Miami, Like you're It's just I went through a lot.
(07:18):
My parents would and I would always fight. It's just
so much. To my testimony, we can bear all.
Speaker 1 (07:22):
Day, girl, I'm here for it.
Speaker 2 (07:25):
I too can be here all day. But yeah, long
story short, like I didn't have a great relationship with
my parents growing up because my mom and I bumped
heads so much. It was like we were like this,
but then we were super alike and so we would
always fight and like that was the problem. Yes, yes,
we were literally the copy and paste. We looked the same,
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we acted the same, our attitudes were the same. So
I think a lot of that. Like literally the day
I went to the psych word because I had to
go to a psychquard when I tried any of my life,
my mom had actually like called a cousin of mine
that was a police officer. And at the time, I'm
like why would she ever? Like why would you do that?
But obviously I'm like threatening my life, Like she had
(08:07):
to like seek help. How were you? I was seventeen eighteen, okay, Yeah,
And so that was another like moment in my life
where I was like, oh, shoot, like my family and
I aren't good, Like my life isn't good, you know.
And so yeah, after that moment, like there is a
lot that happened with my family and I and we
you know, got closer together. They forgave me for a
(08:29):
lot of them I did to them. I forgave them
for some stuff that they did to me. And yeah,
I feel like Jesus. He's so good, because man, I
don't know how I'm standing here today. But there's so
much I'm like, I feel like I'm just going everywhere.
But it's just like my family wasn't good, Like my
I had a lot of like trauma with relationships. It's
so much, girl. But I ran to Jesus because I
(08:50):
was like, what am I doing? I'm anxious all the time,
I'm panicking all the time, I'm depressed all the time.
And yeah, he saved my life.
Speaker 1 (08:57):
Literally. Okay, so this Drake came in picture when twenty
twenty before you guys, you recommitted together.
Speaker 2 (09:04):
Yes, we met in twenty twenty one of January. January
twenty twenty one, and I was still like I had
it was like it's like four years ago.
Speaker 1 (09:13):
This was still like recent, very recent.
Speaker 2 (09:15):
Girl. I we're already married with the baby.
Speaker 1 (09:18):
Like when you say, like all the stuff that you've
been through and then you're like, whoa, that wasn't it
feels like a long time ago. But it was like
if you really put it into protective like it was,
it was close.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
Yes, dude, it was insane and thankfully like when when
I met him, like I was already going to church
and stuff because I had gone through another toxic relationship
and me trying to get like all the little bits
of it. And we met and yeah, a little that
wasn't January twenty twenty one, and we committed our life
to Jesus like August of that same year. So it
(09:48):
was like it was like pretty like like wait, and
I feel like that's the way God wanted it to be,
because I'm grateful because if not, we would have gone
through way more things than that we went through already
because we were so toxic. That's so that's another thing.
We were so toxic and stuff. But yeah, because you imagine,
like we had our other relationships, like you know, baggages
coming into this relationship, and so yeah, we were it
(10:09):
was just bad like always like arguing. Jealousy, I don't know, Yeah,
jealousy was one of the things on both parts. Oh
my gosh, we were so jealous of each other like
things and people around and oh my gosh, just bickering
and just like it was just toxic. And then when
we got close to God, like thankfully, like we started
communicating more, you know, the jealous he started going away.
(10:30):
Like it was like we felt the peace of God
and we were just so grateful.
Speaker 1 (10:35):
And then.
Speaker 2 (10:37):
A year later is when we got engaged, so everything was.
Speaker 1 (10:40):
Like this God was like you know how some people
make fun of Christians or they say like, oh, you
guys got too married so fast or whatever, and it's like, oh,
just because you guys want to like, no, that's not it.
I just feel like when when you know and.
Speaker 2 (10:52):
You know, thank you, right, yeah, I really was that like.
Speaker 1 (10:56):
A misconception or like misunderstanding for you guys as well.
Speaker 2 (10:59):
My gosh one percent. And I think I say that
because we already talked about how we were waiting, like right,
like we had stopped and then we waited right, But
before that we were we were doing it all the time,
you know what, I'm being honest, And so it wasn't
about that. It was just the fact the fact that
we knew we wanted to be with each other and
why wait, you know, and we had a wedding planner.
So we got engaged like a year and a half
(11:20):
into our relationship, and then we got married eight months
after we got engaged, so everything happened pretty fast. But
we were also like not old, but we were like inner,
I was like twenty three twenty four and she was
twenty five twenty four to twenty five. So I was like, bro,
like people are each getting married and engaged, like you know,
we were just like always like gonna have opinions.
Speaker 1 (11:39):
Yeah that that And I'm just like even if, like
in like a Christian perspective, like I feel like God
plants a specific person and you just know that that's
what it's meant to be. Yeah, and like and it's
it's it's the beautiful part, like God ordained it. Like Okay,
this is it. Like if you want to and you're
not supposed to, li went in whatever, Yeah yeah, yeah
(12:01):
got it. Got no. But like you guys redeemed that situation.
I saw that you guys had stopped and like you know,
chose to wait again and that I love that because
I and I'm no people that do that, So it's
not anything that's crazy out in the norm. And I
would do that because I'm not I'm not a virgin
like you know, like but ideally I would love to
(12:22):
wait some marriage. I would love to like keep it sacred.
But I know that I'm a normal human and I
could sit and like whatever, and you know, sometimes you know,
some overpower is good and that it gets in the way,
but ideally the plan is that I would love to.
So I'm like, dude, I think that's so beautiful and
the way that your guys' wedding played out too, and
like I saw how viral went and then it went
(12:43):
viral because people are haters and like they don't get
the concept or whatever. Yes, I want to know your
mind and your process through not through that day whatever.
I'm assuming it was beautiful or whatever. It was amazing,
but likeing and reading all the comments about it.
Speaker 2 (13:02):
Okay, so we got a lot of love for the
wedding in itself, right, everybody of our supports, Oh my god,
show beautiful, whatever. But then the clip of us worshiping
and our wedding went viral right right right, and then
it started hitting other people's for your page. We didn't
know us, and I was like, man, like it went
like very viral and people were hating because.
Speaker 1 (13:20):
You guys were like the I feel like you guys
were like the first people to actually do that. And
then now like I see people getting married and they're
doing it more often.
Speaker 2 (13:26):
Yeah, I have seen a lot more people like worshiping
in their wedding day. I love that, Yeah, and I
feel like that's something that we really wanted to do,
is honor God in our wedding day. And people were
calling in like performative, people were saying, I don't know,
people were seeing a lot of stuff, and it kind
of hurt me because that day was the first time
ever that Jaco cried after like not crying for like
ten plus years. Like he was sobbing his eyes out,
(13:49):
and I was like, man, like, y'all really trying to
take this beautiful moment away from us. So it sucked.
But then I tried not to pay attention to it
and just think about like it was beautiful for us,
like our guests were there, everybody we loved were yeah,
you know, and.
Speaker 1 (14:01):
Trying to make it about the bad thing.
Speaker 2 (14:02):
Yeah, because people just don't get it. Yeah, they're not
gonna get it.
Speaker 1 (14:05):
Yeah, And I see that. I'm like, you guys are
really like mad about something that's actually beautiful, like actually good,
Like what one how is it harming anybody? But I
think that's so beautiful, And honestly, I admire your guys' boldness,
Like I see that more than anything else. And I
love how centative is, Like, how how is that? How
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do you guys keep that alive in your marriage?
Speaker 2 (14:31):
Well, man, we've been stuggling so much these past three months,
like we know, with my health and like the whole
old situation and stuff. So it's been it's been really
hard and I can cry about it, but it's okay. Yeah,
it's been. It's been kind of tough these past few
days or months, and so sorry, it's just it just
hurts because like we were doing so good, you know,
(14:52):
going to church and like, you know, like our relationship
with God and everything, and but I feel like recently
we've just been from place to place and and moving around,
and like we really haven't been having time, you know,
to focus on the things we want to focus on.
So it's just been a lot of weight on our shoulders. Sorry.
So it feels like something that we're supposed to like enjoy,
(15:13):
you know, is which is like being first time parents
and like having her home, Like we can't do it
to the full extent. But besides that, I feel like
keeping God to in the center of our marriage, regardless
of all the things happening around us, is so important
for us because if not, we would be going insane
right now. Like I've been sick for three months and
my husband is the best ever. Like if you like,
(15:36):
please marry the right person, because I married the right
person and I'm so grateful for him because.
Speaker 1 (15:41):
You men did I honestly, I saw your whole birth
video and everything. I'm like, wow, that's great. Yeah, praying
over you and just like holding on to you. And
I think that us woman struggle with not we struggle
with just like not that the feeling of being loved,
but feeling like like an immense amount like wow, like yes,
(16:03):
like okay, it's like love. Love is love, like we
want to be loved. But the way that I feel
like he loves you is so beautiful and it's like wow,
Like example, everybody, I think I even coms. I'm like,
ladies and gentlemen, this is a man of God, right.
I was like cop it up very well, like that's
how it should be. Yes, no, but.
Speaker 2 (16:27):
He I don't know.
Speaker 1 (16:28):
I don't know why I you don't feel and maybe
this is out of context. Maybe I will put this
in the episode. But you don't feel like because all
of that is happening, because you guys are moving to
place a place you don't think that's like God.
Speaker 2 (16:39):
Telling you guys to move somewhere for sure. Oh no, yeah,
I feel like I had already confirmed it to us.
We were in Miami for two months because I just
didn't want to leave Miami, so we were there for
for longer than we should have said. And so when
we were there, we're like, man, like, maybe we should
leave Houston. We went back to Houston, and then that's
when I got sick from the mold.
Speaker 1 (16:58):
Girl that's already want I feel, yes.
Speaker 2 (17:02):
And so now after dealing with the mold and having
you know, like having a mold inspector come in and
like check out the house and stuff, and us being
for sure like we don't we for sure to want
to like live in that house, And so I don't
know if we're gonna maybe get another house in Houston.
But it's looking like Houston is just not it for
us anymore. Like I feel like we're gonna have to
(17:23):
move to another state. And I feel like God is
calling us somewhere else, and I feel it really heavy.
I don't know where yet, but maybe California.
Speaker 1 (17:30):
We really loved Where did you live around here?
Speaker 2 (17:36):
Never again? I love this area. This is like this
seems really nice and peaceful. Yeah, down La was not it?
Speaker 3 (17:42):
It's when yes, yes, like we're you know, we're married,
we have kids, like yeah, you know, no more, thank you.
Speaker 2 (17:49):
Even when we were there and we were like obviously younger,
we weren't even engaged yet. We were always in the
apartment watching TV and watching movies because down like so
many things got going on, like it wasn't it, But yeah,
we want them back. Maybe I don't know, maybe Miami.
Maybe I don't know, but he's saying.
Speaker 1 (18:03):
Honest, say I've thought about Miami too. Really yeah, like
a couple of years ago. I'm like, I love I
love Miami. That's like my second home. Like but because
my friends, my best friend's family's over there, so I
go with her all the time, like they love me,
Like I have friends over there. Like it's just you
come alive, like something's yes, something's different, like the air
like yes it does something can't meet. I'm like, I
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do want to be at the beach, like I want
to be a company like whatever. Anyways, I always thought
about moving to Miami. I was looking into buying places
like yeah, but I'm like, no, I ended up buying
a house here. Whatever. Miami's always been on my heart
and mind. But I love it. I love it here
and I'm close with my family, so I'm just like
you know, but Miami's.
Speaker 2 (18:46):
A good spot and I have my parents there.
Speaker 1 (18:49):
YEA wait, but does he have his family and Houston he.
Speaker 2 (18:52):
Has his mom, his dad and his brother and like
an aunt and that thing. That's it. So but it's
just Myami for me is just like home, and I
haven't gotten to experience like living with my in the
same city as my parents with like Matthew and like
you know that now that their grandparents like. But it
does like kind of really stuck because then his mom
is in Houston, so it's like it was just a lot.
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But I feel like for sure we were in Houston
for a while, and I feel like we just need
to close that chapter and move on somewhere else because
we always knew that Houston was in like our for
our home, like we already we already knew we wanted
to go somewhere else. So I really feel it in
my spirit that God is calling us somewhere else because
getting sick for mold for that long, everything happening he's
like pulling out he's a girl.
Speaker 1 (19:35):
And then he went to Miami.
Speaker 2 (19:37):
From there, he stayed in Houston, but we were like, yeah,
we went to my mother in laws and now we're
still in Houston, but we're staying with our best friends
at their house. Yeah, we haven't gone back to Miami. Well,
we went. We went actually for because I had a
promo over there, but it was like a quick visit
and then it was had because I'm like, men have
to go back to our moldy like Houston. So we
(19:57):
ed to go back to Houston.
Speaker 1 (19:59):
Yes, I see Mouldy sounds like a city like it could.
Speaker 2 (20:03):
Be althy Houston.
Speaker 1 (20:06):
I I was gonna say, yeah, honestly, yeah, I mean
you already know you guys know once you start praying
and asking for conformation, dude, it'll come to you.
Speaker 2 (20:14):
And God, I'll tell you it happens.
Speaker 1 (20:16):
Honestly, those those moments triped me out, though. I'm like, okay, wait,
are we being for Rover now?
Speaker 2 (20:22):
Is that really happening? Oh my gosh, Yeah.
Speaker 1 (20:26):
I want to talk about Okay, you mentioned the psyche word,
and that's crazy because I have somebody in my life
where they're like, oh do you want to send to
the hospital or whatever. I'm like, I don't know, but
I want to know what that was like for you, Like,
oh my god, Like I like I didn't what ye like,
did it scare you? What was it? What you said
that it was a lot of anxiety and like you're
(20:46):
way apart from God at that time, So what else
led you there? It was that you want to take
your life?
Speaker 2 (20:53):
Yes, yeah, yeah, yeah it was it was that it
was a lot of depression and anxiety. I was in
a bad relationship too, and yeah, I was just young
and just going through a lot mentally. I had just
like gone through like I talked about it before, like
the whole like edible situation where like I got like really.
Speaker 1 (21:09):
High and like do you realization?
Speaker 2 (21:11):
Yes, that was the main reason why I wanted to
just end it all, because it literally makes you go insane,
like you are not yourself. Like I thought, I wasn't real.
I felt like life wasn't real. It's really hard to
explain to people, and like when I try to explain it,
it's hard. But then that day I got like I
had somebody like do something to me that I didn't
approve of too, So it was really traumatizing all around.
(21:33):
So it was a law back to back and I
just didn't want to live anymore. And so my mom
got worried. She called my cousin that was a cop
and she came to the house and she was like, hey,
look like I love you, but like if you're gonna
harm yourself, like I have to call the cops on you,
Like I have to do it.
Speaker 1 (21:50):
My cousin is a more yeah, like moral like part
of the morals.
Speaker 2 (21:54):
Because she had to, yeah, And so I was like crying, sobbing.
I'm like I don't want to go, like please, I like,
don't take me over there, whatever, but that she still
had to do it because I was threading in my life.
I the police came, they took my phone. It was
like really traumatizing. They took my phone. They put me
in handcuffs because it was like protocol that I couldn't
be behind like sitting in the back of a cop
(22:16):
car without any handcuffs. No, my old best friend was
at my house at that time because she was like
there trying to calm everything down. My mom was there,
my sister, I think my dad was working, and I
remember the cop car like I was in the cop
car already with my handcuffs, and I remember like going
like this to like the window. I laugh about it
now because it was just like it's okay to laugh,
you know, but I was going like this saw me crying.
My best friend was like, I love you so much,
(22:38):
and I was like I love you. It was like
it was like this whole movie. It was like a movie, bro,
Like we go to the psych word. I pull up
and they tell me to take all my clothes off,
to take my earrings off. I do it. I put
my stuff in the bag. I go into room with
a kid. You not like ten other people that were
actually like going insane. Like there was somebody with like
blott all over their stuff. There was somebody who was
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like saying a bunch of stuff over and over like
they were like actually like like actually going insane. I
used to cry about this, so it's good that I'm not,
but yeah, it was traumatizing. I stepped in a little
chair with all these people around me, and I'm like
what am I doing here? All I wanted to do
was literally die. I didn't want to do anything. And
he harmed anybody else because that's what it felt like
these people wanted to harm me. I'm like, please get
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away from.
Speaker 1 (23:21):
Me, Like how many days were you there for?
Speaker 2 (23:22):
Thank god? Only a night? Okay, because the next day
a doctor like, yeah, just kidding, guys, I'm good, I know.
So as psychologists came and like kind of like evaluated everybody,
and then he evaluated me, and I'm like stopping crying
to him, and he was like I can tell like
you're anxious, and you're like, you know, you're going through
a lot, Like do you really want to end your life?
And I'm like I think, I mean I did, but
(23:44):
like whatever, I just was talking to him. I just
wanted to get the heck out of there, right, And
he's like, well, by the way you're saying an everything
right now, it doesn't seem like you're gonna like do
any harm to yourself today or tomorrow, so I can
like discharge you. And I'm like, thank you lord. So yeah,
I got this charged with hom picked me up and
then yeah, it was traumatizing, traumatizing.
Speaker 1 (24:05):
Yeah, but I think that you need your wake up call, yeah,
because you didn't want to after that, right, I've had
like moments where I'm like very depressed and thought about
suicide again, but not to the point where I'm like
about to do it, if that makes sense, you know.
Speaker 2 (24:20):
I feel like, yeah, I feel like life still was
a little hard. Little it was really hard after that still,
but it didn't get to that point where I was
like about two, you know, but it's okay. Like life,
we always gonna have like ups and downs and stuff.
But I'm just grateful that in the moment, it was scary,
but I'm grateful that it happened because it kind of
did wake me up, but it didn't take that depression away.
(24:43):
I was very depressed, you know, but thankfully I'm okay now,
you know, even going through all this stuff, like I've
been really sad, but yeah, it was really dramatizing. And
I don't know how people do it where they stay
in those seche words for like days and weeks or months.
Speaker 1 (25:00):
Yeah, yeah, no, And I never got to that point,
Like I've doped with depression of anxiety to and I've
also reached to that limit point also, and I'm just like,
by the grace of God, I'm.
Speaker 2 (25:15):
Like, God, you have a you have.
Speaker 1 (25:18):
The will and the plan, and I'm just like, now
that I'm alive, here standing here right now, I'm like,
I'm so grateful that I've made it this far.
Speaker 2 (25:24):
Yeah, like to be.
Speaker 1 (25:25):
Able to see everything like the idea that God had
planned already, It's like wow, Like to be able to like, yeah,
to make it this far and to see like wow,
I almost wanted to risk it yeah before that, Like
did you have have you thought of now that you
have your baby? Like your marriage?
Speaker 2 (25:41):
Every hope? The words run out of my mouth because
I post a lot, not a lot about it anymore,
but like I us supposed to. Like like if I
would have if my life ended when I was seventeen,
like I wouldn't have accomplished everything I accomplished. I wouldn't
have known that it was going to get better. You
know that I was going to have a happy ending
in a relationship. I was gonna get married and have
like my tell like you know, happy ending and my baby.
(26:02):
Like I it makes me want to cry because I
was in such a dark place and like I really
thought that it was like it for like I really thought,
like my life is ruined, like it's not gonna get better.
I didn't see a future for myself. I really just
wanted to end it. On and I felt like doing
it was gonna like make everyone around me happy. I
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saw so much.
Speaker 1 (26:25):
I'm like yes, And it's like then you think about
it now, like now that we know God and now
that we've like do the enemy like such a lie
in your head like literally imagine like say like you're
like depressed now or before, and like you get close
to that thought, it's like it still peaks there, like
it's still playing with you, like poking at you to
(26:48):
see how much like okay, how much am I going
to get out of her to actually do it? And
it's like the joy that that it brings to somebody
else is like dude, like no, like no, I understand
you completely like now, like and I had that realization
this last birthday where I'm just like wow, I feel
really loved like yes, like I'm like, wow, I'm so loved,
like thank God I'm here, like I never like I
(27:12):
don't know, like it's so hard to explain. And it's
like now that like I'm so like God is my
center focus. It's like I'm so overwhelmed with joy, like
I'm so grateful to be alive and like wow, like
thank you God, like and I'm like I'm looking so
forward to the future. Yeah, wow God, Like okay, like
I know I could do hard things, yes, like okay,
(27:33):
but don't let it get harder. Yes, but I'm excited,
Like tell me, like what's going Like you know what
I mean?
Speaker 2 (27:38):
Yes, I was tolding. I'm like, I'm tired of being
the strongest soldier, Like please.
Speaker 1 (27:41):
Do say that all the time. I'm like, who signed
me up on this list?
Speaker 2 (27:46):
To me? Like I asked, like after everything I've been that,
I'm like, Okay, I know for a fact I'm gonna
have an easy like birth at least no fifty one hours.
And it was carter, you thought and it was like
just the old thing, like I've been sick, and I said,
I was okay, like a little bit ago, but I
loow key was like I've been really depressed, like very
depressed before where I have thought about suicide again and
(28:08):
it hurts because I have a family now and I
have my husband and my baby. But whenever you're like
not healthy, I feel like nothing else matters but your health. Yeah,
And it's like I felt like I was dying at
one point, Like I was like I can't figure out
what's wrong with me. The doctors are telling me, I'm
just anxious, but my body was low key like it
(28:30):
was slowly rejecting itself like I was getting poisoned and
I didn't know it.
Speaker 1 (28:34):
I was that they wouldn't know, like yes, like the doctor.
Speaker 2 (28:39):
Like why you're a doctor. And I guess like all
those tests that they would do, like they don't have
like anything where they can see any toxins in your
body or something. My bloody work would come back fine.
My heart and all my lungs would come back fine.
Like I'm like, something is wrong man, like something.
Speaker 1 (28:53):
Like it wasn't like anybody else. It was just you, just.
Speaker 2 (28:56):
Me, just me. Jacob was fine. He did have some
symptoms that we talk about it. He had some symptoms
like a little bit of like like a sty He
gets sies now and he used to never get sties.
Little stuff like that where I'm like maybe that was
the mold. But the baby perfectly fine, thank Jesus. Yeah,
(29:16):
it's been tough.
Speaker 1 (29:16):
And like that pressure is a mom right now. Like
even if if it was just like you guys, like
I feel like it wouldn't be as like hey, but
like now that you have a baby with life, like
as a mom.
Speaker 2 (29:26):
Oh my gosh, besides the mold stuff, like, besides that
amazing my baby. I can cry again because he changed
my life. Like I've always like, for those who know me,
I've always wanted to be a mom, Like it was
always like Valentina was meant to be a mom, She's
meant to be a wife like I that was my goal. Like, yeah,
I always had my other goals, but I always was
(29:47):
meant to be a mom and a wife. So becoming
a mom was a dream come true. It was like, yes, yes,
we tried for like three months and boom, he got pregnant,
and it was it was everything I could have ever
dreamed of. Like, obviously it's hard, all right, Obviously it's
it's hard, especially as the first time parent, Like you
(30:07):
don't know what you're doing, so you're figuring things out
as the baby's also figuring himself out, and he doesn't
know what he's doing either, and so it has been
the best thing ever. We're completely in love. He gives
us baby fever all the time.
Speaker 1 (30:20):
Honestly, he gives me baby too, and I'm like, I'm
missing a step.
Speaker 2 (30:23):
I need to get married first.
Speaker 1 (30:24):
I didn't find a man first, but like he's like adorable.
Speaker 2 (30:28):
Like oh, like he can't into the house.
Speaker 1 (30:31):
You guys, I'm in love with him, Like I just
want to I want to bite these little thighs like.
Speaker 2 (30:34):
Yes, yes, which we do all the time. I looks out.
He's like, oh please, like yeah, it's been it's been
a dream, like I always told you. I'm like, babe,
like our life would have been so boring if we
didn't have Matthew, Like our life before was so great.
Speaker 1 (30:53):
And she's like I was already tired of you.
Speaker 2 (30:56):
Our life was so fun before obviously, like we did
a lot, like before we had a baby, but then
we think about it now, how much better it is,
And I'm like wow, Like our life is so good
with Matthew, Like he makes us laugh.
Speaker 1 (31:07):
Like even in the midst of all this, like you
imagine taking him out and.
Speaker 2 (31:10):
Oh my gosh, man, it's like he was like the
little like missing puzzle piece in her life.
Speaker 1 (31:15):
Okay, is it so good that you want another one?
Speaker 2 (31:18):
Yes? Just not anytime soon? Okay, like not even like
two years from We need to like chill and like
just appreciate Matthew because like I said, it's it's hard,
like him getting sick for the first time, like figuring
things out, Like it's just a lot. So I feel
like once he gets a little older, we have more
of a routine, and you know, we're getting used to
him getting sick and all these things. We're like, Okay,
(31:38):
we're probably gonna be like, let's have another baby.
Speaker 1 (31:40):
It's like, is it like like you're scared? Like you're
like because my mom would always tell me, like you
didn't come with a manual exactly, like you just like
wondering what everything is, Like, what's wrong about I'm googling.
Speaker 2 (31:51):
Things all the time? Is it okay if my babe
does this? Is it okay? If he's this?
Speaker 1 (31:54):
I'm like, and you're an anxious person, So you're girl
in the same wonder. So you called your mom for
mother's there.
Speaker 2 (32:01):
Yes, saw me crying my eyes out, apologizing mm hmm,
and she was sobbing her eyes out and she was like,
is that your mommy? Like no, not. The prokop is
like we already had these conversations before, but I think
as a mom, like all those things already had amplified,
and like I was like even more grateful for her
because yeah, like you're a mom, and you can't even
imagine your kids doing how the things that you did
(32:22):
to your parents, you know, So I apologize and I'm like, wow,
I appreciate her and my mom and my dad so
much more now, Like I I wish I could go
back in time and not do certain things and not
talk back to them, not like be like but why
like you you're so annoying. Like I understand. I come.
Everything they ever did that I was annoying, I understand.
Speaker 1 (32:40):
And that's how he's still a baby. Yeah he's not
even one, is he?
Speaker 2 (32:44):
No, he's eight months? Girl, don't even Yes, Oh my god.
I'm hoping that I broke that generational curse and that
I'm amazing.
Speaker 1 (32:55):
Because I'm not even lie. I love that you said that.
I feel like this generation how old are you?
Speaker 2 (33:00):
Twenty six? Okay?
Speaker 1 (33:01):
I just turned twenty eight. I feel like that generation,
like is the generation of breaking generational courses. I agree, right,
Like there's something like I'm like, there's my friend is
having a baby too, but like his dad is like,
you know, very religious, and like it's just a lot
of things and just like a lot of toxicity and
(33:22):
like things that you know, I'm like, but you guys
are breaking that like it's a healthy it's a healthy family,
you know, Like I feel like the ones we were
raised with we're a little bit toxic or like something
would always happen or like you know, but like now
that we've learned and that we see, like I feel
like this is it, Like this is going to be healthy,
and then our kids are gonna be able to say like,
oh wow, like my kids my parents were healthy, like
(33:43):
they stay together type thing. Yes, right right.
Speaker 2 (33:47):
I told him all the time, like we're gonna break
so many generational curses. Like thankfully my parents have been
together since always, but obviously they went through a lot
and I saw that growing up, like yeah, fighting and
just like arguments and stuff and the grace of God,
like their marriage was restored and everything, you know is okay.
But he grew up in a broken home, you know,
with Peo War's parents, And so I'm like we always
(34:08):
knew it, like before we got married, like we were
like we need to like break that curse. We need
to pray over this, break these because our kids.
Speaker 1 (34:15):
It's real. No, it's real, Like you have to That's
why when she said, like you have to be selective
of your partner, like and know that you know that
they're healed or not fully Yeah, well, yeah, that they're healed,
that they that Jesus is the center other lives and
what the baggage that they come with, and to pray
against it and like understanding, like you have to pick
(34:36):
the right person and to know because if they're carrying
the stuff that they grew up with also like or
that they haven't learned from it, it changes things. It's scary.
Speaker 2 (34:45):
And then they're gonna carry that on to your kids.
And no, no, no, man.
Speaker 1 (34:49):
You guys, I know people are like, no, you guys
are ridiculous. No, trust me, Like, no, we're not.
Speaker 2 (34:56):
Yep, like we know the truth.
Speaker 1 (34:58):
I'm gonna take these out. Oh actually, hold on, I
think yours. Yeah, we still need a lot of time.
I have a couple of rapid fire questions. There's gonna
be deep ones. Okay, well the first ones are not.
The deep ones are take a little aisle, so they're
not rapid fire, but they are. Then we have a
little fun one. Okay, okay, one, what does happiness mean
to you?
Speaker 2 (35:18):
What does happiness mean to me? Wow, that's really sweet
to me. What is happiness mean to me. I think
it just I don't know, Like I don't know. Happiness
is something that I've felt, thankfully for a long time now,
thankfully and I get you know, not any type of depression,
but my my son, my Jesus, like peace. Yeah, that's
(35:42):
what happiness is to me.
Speaker 1 (35:43):
I think that you have fought for peace for so long. Yeah,
that is just like now that even have you been
in this space where you're just like this is too peaceful?
Speaker 2 (35:53):
Girl, I thought it was only one. I always to
them like this is like is gonna happen?
Speaker 1 (35:59):
Like I got I got the chills even saying that,
like it's too good to be.
Speaker 2 (36:02):
True, like like like where's the chaos?
Speaker 1 (36:04):
Yes, Like we're so used to bad things happening.
Speaker 2 (36:06):
Bro, when we were very toxic in the in a relationship,
that's how it used to be, like very toxic, right,
So when we got really healed and like everything was
perfectly not perfectly right, but like we were like communicating
and everything, I'm like I got to where like we
haven't fought in a long time, like you know what's
going on? I was I was like always like expecting
that like chaos, but no, one never came you know. So,
(36:29):
Oh it feels so good to like say that. Yeah,
I've been fighting for that piece and I haven't Obviously
there's been stuff going on in my life. I tried to.
Speaker 1 (36:36):
Dig my piece, but you're always have that piece.
Speaker 2 (36:39):
Yes, Yes, I always say that.
Speaker 1 (36:42):
Yeah, I believe that always passes through. What's something you
want to be remembered for.
Speaker 2 (36:48):
Something that I want to be remembered for is like
my relationship with God and like the amount of people
like helped with mental health. I think that's the main
thing because when I was going through a lot of
mental health struggles, like I never had somebody to like
helped me, and I didn't have anybody on social media
that I can like look up videos for about like
what specifically what I was going through. So I feel
(37:08):
like that is what I wouldn't be remembered for, like
not anything like else, like numbers, Like I don't care
about none of that. I just want to be known, Like, Okay,
like while she helped a lot of people with mental health,
and like she continues to do it even after like
I passed, you know.
Speaker 1 (37:22):
Last one of these ones. Okay, what's one thing you
wish people understood about you?
Speaker 2 (37:27):
Oh, my gosh, one thing that people understood about me. Okay,
I think I think I would say whenever I was
getting a lot of hate in the beginning of my
influencing career, I was getting a lot of hate because
I was always around the guys and like I was
with Jake, and I feel like I was really misunderstood
(37:49):
because nobody really knew like everything that I was going through.
Like I was going through a lot of like trust
issues with like other relationships I had. I was going
through a lot of like just things of like my own.
So I feel like I was always really mis understood
in the beginning because people just hate it on me
just by simply being Jaco's girlfriend or being around a
lot and just being like annoying or all these things.
(38:09):
But I internally, I was already battling a lot of
anxiety and depression, and I yeah, felt like I couldn't
be alone because I feel like something bad was going
to happen, Like I was struggling a lot. So I
think I would say that because I would get so
much for no reason. I'm like, man, I'm just living
my life.
Speaker 1 (38:23):
I'm just a girl.
Speaker 2 (38:24):
Yes, I'm just a girl and a girlfriend. And because
my boyfriend wants me to be there, you know, And
I was going through a lot back then, and so
I think that for sure. Yeah, it was hard.
Speaker 1 (38:35):
Yeah, I get honestly, Yeah, I say it all the time,
and it's so it exists, frustrating and it's annoying. But
it's like at the end of the day I was
saying this today, I'm like, as long as God knows
my intentions, my heart and my family, Like, I really
don't have anything else.
Speaker 2 (38:49):
To worry about, you know. I'm sorry really thinking that
recently too, so I've been living more at peace with
that too. I just don't pay attention to that.
Speaker 1 (38:56):
Okay, we have rapid fire ready? Oh, yes, what's your
favorite ice cream? They were strawberry really for ice cream?
Speaker 2 (39:03):
Yes, I still love chocolate and then chocolate. The micraine
one time because I had too much and I didn't
know I could give you a migraine, really did. I
had to.
Speaker 1 (39:12):
I learned something.
Speaker 2 (39:13):
He was like, did you have chocolate each other? I
said yeah, and he was like, yeah, you're having a
migraine from chocolate. And I haven't had that any ever
since because I'm you're afraid bad migraine. It was so bad.
Speaker 1 (39:24):
Wow. So they could tell you were have a migraine
because of trauma, but they can't tell you you have.
Speaker 2 (39:29):
Old kissed me off. Yes that's crazy.
Speaker 1 (39:34):
Okay. If you could be an animal for a day,
what would you, babe?
Speaker 2 (39:37):
Oh, it would be I love whales or elephants. Oh yes,
although I'm like terrified of the ocean. I have like
what is it called, like the fear of ocean, like
a phobia? Yes, like completely scared. But I love whales
and elephants, so probably an elephant yet love it? Love it.
Coffee or tea? Either really bring coffee or tea because
(39:57):
I used to have a lot of anxiety and it
makes me jittery. And I know tease. Have sometimes a
caffeine too, Yeah yeah, yeah, I don't do them. I do.
I do sometimes drink camon mil tea know what it is,
but does not caffeine. So I guess.
Speaker 1 (40:08):
Te guilty Pleasure TV show right now?
Speaker 2 (40:14):
Oh my gosh. I always watch Cray's Anatomy always like
my comfort show.
Speaker 1 (40:18):
Whoa, We're very much like look that is literally that
and how I met your mother? Did you ever watch
your brother?
Speaker 2 (40:25):
No? I watched the Disney Ones I'm like, you know
what the how I'm meant, what is it? The one
wants to bring a carpenter? Is that the same one? No?
And that's born, Like we know that's not the same one. No. No,
I never watched that one but that one? And actually
are we watching the Flash right now? Because I just
I love like DC and stuff, but Gray's anatomy, d C.
I Marvel. I just love the Flash. Okay, the Flash
(40:47):
and DC has my heart. But I love Marvel more. Okay,
Marble Girl going through.
Speaker 1 (40:51):
Okay, love Marvel too. Okay, okay, So if you could
have any superpower, what would you be? What would it be?
Speaker 2 (40:59):
I think read people's mind were flying ooh or no no, no, no,
you know what teleporting, because then I want to have
to go on an airplane. I hate airplanes. No, teleporting
because I hate airplanes. I'm terrified. So Telli porting, I
just oh, you need to go to this place and
I just go like that. Okay.
Speaker 1 (41:15):
One your favorite childhood cartoon cartoon.
Speaker 2 (41:19):
Cartoon, Mam mom, I would say like the Powerpuff Girls, Yes,
specifically Blossom Blossom, Yes, I think that's what I would say. Yeah,
I love bubbles. Bubbles is kids too. I was always like,
I'm blossom. I think blossom.
Speaker 1 (41:36):
Okay, best snack to bingewock with like something. You always
grab your watching grays and at me, what are you
picking to eat?
Speaker 2 (41:42):
Ooh ooh, this is funny. I used to always get
like lugibles like the ham and cheese. Yeah, lugibles, and
maybe some like chips, some like tortilla no no, some
what is it called? What are those chips called? The
live chips? Tostinos? Tostinos chips. Yes, those are my one
(42:05):
of my favorites.
Speaker 1 (42:06):
Okay. One thing that's always in your bag A lot
of stuff, but one thing that has to be like
you know that it's in there.
Speaker 2 (42:15):
It has to be.
Speaker 1 (42:15):
It has to be in there, like you're not leaving
the house without it without it.
Speaker 2 (42:20):
Wow, I lot of crap, like if you look at
my background, don't have so much stuff?
Speaker 1 (42:24):
And now that you're a mom too, yes girl, yeah,
I know.
Speaker 2 (42:29):
What can I say? I would say like made klos
because I'm always replying my l class. My lips are
always like chats.
Speaker 1 (42:35):
Okay, last song you played on repeat?
Speaker 2 (42:39):
You can yes?
Speaker 1 (42:41):
Love that. I didn't love the second album, do you?
Speaker 2 (42:43):
I never really listened to it. I rest and it
was just kind of like the first one, love Ukon
Love the whole album and yes, okay, last one.
Speaker 1 (42:53):
If you can ask God one thing, it could be serious,
it could be funny. Okay, maybe anything, and you received
your answer right now. What would what are you asking
him anything?
Speaker 2 (43:05):
If I can ask him anything? If I'm having a
girl in the future, oh, because I've had a lot
of dreams that I'm pregnant with the girl and people
having dreams about me being pregnant with the girl, I
feel I don't even need to ask him. Feel like
that's heard of confirmation. Yeah, maybe where I'm moving tom
to next year. Yeah, I would want to know that A.
Speaker 1 (43:24):
Nice love that that's fun?
Speaker 2 (43:26):
Yeah, yeah, I love that.
Speaker 1 (43:27):
Do you want I'm just gonna grab a four?
Speaker 2 (43:29):
Do you want a four? Just pick at it like
I'm gonna cut it. Yeah, or I'm like I even
can grab it's like give it to me like that.
Speaker 1 (43:37):
Well those are our cakes, you guys. Okay, I do
this thing at the end of the podcast. Okay, bibe
overs of the Day, I always do. I always picked
like a byeovers.
Speaker 2 (43:45):
But first I'm going to take a big ass bite.
Sorry you took a bite. Okay, literally, I'm gonna.
Speaker 1 (43:53):
It's warm. We probably should have waited, but it's fine.
Speaker 2 (43:56):
Mmm, I'm even four. I'm so good. Wow. I love strawberry.
You did it.
Speaker 1 (44:06):
You did you did that, you did that.
Speaker 2 (44:09):
You picked it out though, yeah, but you made it.
You did the hard word, m ma'am. Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1 (44:16):
It's like a girl's dinner. Yes, girls dinner.
Speaker 2 (44:19):
I'm not really a sweet person, but with cake, girl,
mm hmmm, give me all that.
Speaker 1 (44:24):
I love chocolate. I love anything sweet. M wow mm hmmm.
Speaker 2 (44:29):
Wow. Wow, you're a period right now too, So.
Speaker 1 (44:36):
Okay. Bible Verse of the Day. Oh wait, that was
the wrong one right there, Okay, Psalms twenty three four.
When I walk the darkest valley, I will not be
afraid for your beside me, your road, and your staff protect.
Speaker 2 (44:52):
And comfort me.
Speaker 1 (44:54):
Thank you God. I think that's pretty self expanded story,
you guys. Yeah, that's like, no need to explain.
Speaker 2 (44:59):
God is with you.
Speaker 1 (45:00):
Yes, and every single season and every single era of
our lives. When we feel like we're in a valley
right now, we are walking towards something beautiful, a light,
the mountain that God has for us, and we just
cannot keep. We cannot give up. We cannot give up
on the plan or having or quit having faith.
Speaker 2 (45:21):
We cannot. All right, Well, thank you so much for love,
for being here.
Speaker 1 (45:28):
It was so fun. I'm grateful that we were able
to do this, it was so amazing. Thank you for
being so vulnerable and sharing your story and love that
we're very much alike. There's like things are just like Bookie.
I'm like, but I think it was it was beautiful.
I think it was God plan and I'm just grateful.
So thank you, thank you, Thank you. Loved having Matthew
(45:49):
and Jacob wherever they are there somewhere in this.
Speaker 2 (45:53):
Change.
Speaker 1 (45:55):
Make sure you guys follow her, follow their family channel
what is it called Jacob all right, Drake go and
bam all her social mediasmas ladies, right, ladies, there you go.
But yes, make sure you guys like and comment and
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next Tuesday.
Speaker 2 (46:21):
M
Welcome back to the Overcome for podcast. I'm your host,
Jennica Lopez. Thank you guys so much for choosing to
listen and watch to today's episode. If you clicked on
today's episode, you guys already know who my special guest is.
We have the beautiful Valentina Damas. That is such a
nice last name you got her from, Jacob, Yes, so nice.
Speaker 2 (00:24):
My birth else, my maiden name was Kana's and then
so it literally changed a little bit. But I love that.
Speaker 1 (00:32):
I love for the ladies, for the girls. I'm super
excited to have you. I'm so glad that we actually
planned this. You guys. We had already been texting and
I saw that she was in La and I was like, look,
I want to hang out. If you want to do
the podcastlets do. If you don't, that's really fine, let's
do it or not, let's just chill me. But it
all worked out God's plan. We're here now. Can we mention?
(00:55):
Can I tell them about what you were telling me?
Speaker 2 (00:57):
Why are you such hotels and stuff? Oh?
Speaker 1 (00:59):
Yeah, yeah, Okay, so we were like talking, dude. First
of all, okay, first we're gonna make we're breaking cakes together. Okay,
no specific recipe, but the heart, this is so cute.
Speaker 2 (01:11):
Were even give me that heart? Oh my goodness?
Speaker 1 (01:13):
And then that's hars I have already yet. Well, we
don't really need the frosty get but drubbery. Anyways, we
were planning everything else. She's like, dude, the hotel I
was staying in hud mold And I'm like no, and
I didn't. You guys had just posted the whole old situation.
Can you please walk me through that at like, because
I said, but obviously people some people, you know.
Speaker 2 (01:33):
Yeah, yeah, So long story short, we found mold in
our home. I was I was sick for almost three
whole months without even knowing why, like sick, how like sick? Okay,
as in like a lot of allergy symptoms at first,
so it GI is running nose congestion, shortens of breath,
and then I started getting brain fog. I started getting
(01:54):
running panic attacks all over again, which I stopped having
up like a long time ago diarrhea, nausea. My hair
was shdding more than it was supposed to, you know,
because I'm postparted them, you know, but it was like
shdding a lot more than it was already. Fatigue anxiety.
It was like all the things we can think of
(02:16):
that molts can make you sick. I had all symptoms,
but I didn't know. I thought it was just like that,
my allergies racking up because we were in Miami for
a while and then we came back to Houston. But
then long story shore one day we were watching the
return Pretty Love.
Speaker 1 (02:30):
Yeah, what team are you tea?
Speaker 2 (02:32):
Conrad? Okay, but.
Speaker 1 (02:36):
I live in a house with the hater, so I go, yes,
that's pretty sad.
Speaker 2 (02:43):
So we were I was with them my friends at
my house. We're watching the Return Pretty and then one
of my friends had like a bag of her clothes
in her car and she was like, I'm gonna bring
it out so you guys can like have some right,
and we all tried it on, but we didn't have
a way to see ourselves because the mirror that I
had was in my room, and so we went to
my room. We got the mirror out of the out
of the room. My friend pulled like put it out
(03:05):
and then long and behold, there was mold all over
behind our mirror, like all over. Like it wasn't like
all is this mold? No, it was like all over,
So that was that, and I started sobbing my eyes
off because it was kind of like justifying how I
was feeling, you know, because every single doctor I would
(03:26):
go to there like, oh, it's just anxiety, yeah, and
I'm like anxiety. No, I knew something was wrong, and
so do I pour the rest and I'm like, he's right.
Speaker 3 (03:37):
We had baby Matteo here, he's here. If you hear her, guys,
he's adorable anyways, cute, he.
Speaker 2 (03:44):
Says, you're talking about it.
Speaker 1 (03:47):
He looks.
Speaker 2 (03:50):
So yeah. That's how I found out I had mold
poisoning and I'm so recovering from it. And then I
touched on in La and I get a stomach virus
and I'm being sick with that. Well, I'm not taking more.
I have my period ofge. It just been back to
back to back stuff and I'm like I cannot catch
a break.
Speaker 1 (04:06):
That thing is following you. And then you have the baby.
Speaker 2 (04:09):
And then the baby, yes, the baby. Thankfully he never
got sick. I'm so grateful that it was just me
and not even my husband got sick. But imagine me
was being sicken and the baby having poisoning too, and
like not knowing.
Speaker 1 (04:23):
Why it was you would have been bad.
Speaker 2 (04:28):
Like you.
Speaker 1 (04:28):
Okay, So the reason why I know of you and
obviously Jaco and your family and everything. First of all,
congratulations on all of your guys' success. You guys have
been so influential. The reason why I like felt more connected,
why I generally love your guys's content, is because of
how bold specifically well yeah, both of you guys, But
speaking about you is like you guys are so bold
(04:49):
about talking about God, like and obviously everybody has their
own testimony, right, Yeah, I just want to know what
what led you to God in the first place, you know,
like there's always that one staple moment where like, you
know what, like I have no other choice but to
run a God.
Speaker 2 (05:09):
Yeah, man, my my testimony is is kind of a lot.
But to give you like a long story shot from
the beginning, I've been Christian since I was ten years old,
so I grew up in the church. But then I
started kind of like not believing in Him when I
was in middle school, no high school, sorry, it was
like my sophomore or freshman year of high school. I
started learning about like like the world and like how
(05:31):
it could have been like from the Big Bang and like,
you know, all that stuff, and I was already away
from God like for a while, and that kind of
like made me curious and doubt him even more. And
so there was a moment in high school where I
just stopped believing in God like all together. I was like, God,
is God even real? This isn't that I would like
doubt him a lot, but there was a lot that
(05:54):
I went through in my life that kind of like
made me run to him. But I think think one
of the moments that kind of like was I guess
the scariest that I was like, man like, I need
to like get right is whenever I tried to end
my life my senior year. I think that was more
like of a wake up call. I was in a
really bad relationship at the time, and that I thankfully
(06:16):
obviously ended that relationship. I was bold enough to end it.
And then after that I was like, man, like, what
am I doing? You know, Like I'm out of high school.
I hate my life, you know. And so I feel
like after that, my relationship got better, I started going
to church more, I started focusing more on myself. Obviously,
there was a lot of ups and downs after that,
but I think the moment that I got super super
(06:37):
close to God and I was like, you know what
I needed to vote myself to completely was with Jaco.
Actually he got close to God, and then I was
like getting close church to God too. And at the
age of twenty one, I think I rededicated my life
to Jesus. We got baptized together, and.
Speaker 1 (06:53):
Yes, okay, was that you guys already knew, like you
guys liked each other. That's when you guys, Yeah, we were.
Speaker 2 (06:58):
Living in la in an apartment together, so we already together.
Like yeah, yeah, yeah, we were very much already in love.
But yeah, there was a lot of moments in my
life where I was like I need Jesus and I
would just backside so much too, Like I think we
all have abody, yeah, like everybody, you know, especially being
a young Christian girl growing up like ten years old
in Miami, Like you're It's just I went through a lot.
(07:18):
My parents would and I would always fight. It's just
so much. To my testimony, we can bear all.
Speaker 1 (07:22):
Day, girl, I'm here for it.
Speaker 2 (07:25):
I too can be here all day. But yeah, long
story short, like I didn't have a great relationship with
my parents growing up because my mom and I bumped
heads so much. It was like we were like this,
but then we were super alike and so we would
always fight and like that was the problem. Yes, yes,
we were literally the copy and paste. We looked the same,
(07:45):
we acted the same, our attitudes were the same. So
I think a lot of that. Like literally the day
I went to the psych word because I had to
go to a psychquard when I tried any of my life,
my mom had actually like called a cousin of mine
that was a police officer. And at the time, I'm
like why would she ever? Like why would you do that?
But obviously I'm like threatening my life, Like she had
(08:07):
to like seek help. How were you? I was seventeen eighteen, okay, Yeah,
And so that was another like moment in my life
where I was like, oh, shoot, like my family and
I aren't good, Like my life isn't good, you know.
And so yeah, after that moment, like there is a
lot that happened with my family and I and we
you know, got closer together. They forgave me for a
(08:29):
lot of them I did to them. I forgave them
for some stuff that they did to me. And yeah,
I feel like Jesus. He's so good, because man, I
don't know how I'm standing here today. But there's so
much I'm like, I feel like I'm just going everywhere.
But it's just like my family wasn't good, Like my
I had a lot of like trauma with relationships. It's
so much, girl. But I ran to Jesus because I
(08:50):
was like, what am I doing? I'm anxious all the time,
I'm panicking all the time, I'm depressed all the time.
And yeah, he saved my life.
Speaker 1 (08:57):
Literally. Okay, so this Drake came in picture when twenty
twenty before you guys, you recommitted together.
Speaker 2 (09:04):
Yes, we met in twenty twenty one of January. January
twenty twenty one, and I was still like I had
it was like it's like four years ago.
Speaker 1 (09:13):
This was still like recent, very recent.
Speaker 2 (09:15):
Girl. I we're already married with the baby.
Speaker 1 (09:18):
Like when you say, like all the stuff that you've
been through and then you're like, whoa, that wasn't it
feels like a long time ago. But it was like
if you really put it into protective like it was,
it was close.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
Yes, dude, it was insane and thankfully like when when
I met him, like I was already going to church
and stuff because I had gone through another toxic relationship
and me trying to get like all the little bits
of it. And we met and yeah, a little that
wasn't January twenty twenty one, and we committed our life
to Jesus like August of that same year. So it
(09:48):
was like it was like pretty like like wait, and
I feel like that's the way God wanted it to be,
because I'm grateful because if not, we would have gone
through way more things than that we went through already
because we were so toxic. That's so that's another thing.
We were so toxic and stuff. But yeah, because you imagine,
like we had our other relationships, like you know, baggages
coming into this relationship, and so yeah, we were it
(10:09):
was just bad like always like arguing. Jealousy, I don't know, Yeah,
jealousy was one of the things on both parts. Oh
my gosh, we were so jealous of each other like
things and people around and oh my gosh, just bickering
and just like it was just toxic. And then when
we got close to God, like thankfully, like we started
communicating more, you know, the jealous he started going away.
(10:30):
Like it was like we felt the peace of God
and we were just so grateful.
Speaker 1 (10:35):
And then.
Speaker 2 (10:37):
A year later is when we got engaged, so everything was.
Speaker 1 (10:40):
Like this God was like you know how some people
make fun of Christians or they say like, oh, you
guys got too married so fast or whatever, and it's like, oh,
just because you guys want to like, no, that's not it.
I just feel like when when you know and.
Speaker 2 (10:52):
You know, thank you, right, yeah, I really was that like.
Speaker 1 (10:56):
A misconception or like misunderstanding for you guys as well.
Speaker 2 (10:59):
My gosh one percent. And I think I say that
because we already talked about how we were waiting, like right,
like we had stopped and then we waited right, But
before that we were we were doing it all the time,
you know what, I'm being honest, And so it wasn't
about that. It was just the fact the fact that
we knew we wanted to be with each other and
why wait, you know, and we had a wedding planner.
So we got engaged like a year and a half
(11:20):
into our relationship, and then we got married eight months
after we got engaged, so everything happened pretty fast. But
we were also like not old, but we were like inner,
I was like twenty three twenty four and she was
twenty five twenty four to twenty five. So I was like, bro,
like people are each getting married and engaged, like you know,
we were just like always like gonna have opinions.
Speaker 1 (11:39):
Yeah that that And I'm just like even if, like
in like a Christian perspective, like I feel like God
plants a specific person and you just know that that's
what it's meant to be. Yeah, and like and it's
it's it's the beautiful part, like God ordained it. Like Okay,
this is it. Like if you want to and you're
not supposed to, li went in whatever, Yeah yeah, yeah
(12:01):
got it. Got no. But like you guys redeemed that situation.
I saw that you guys had stopped and like you know,
chose to wait again and that I love that because
I and I'm no people that do that, So it's
not anything that's crazy out in the norm. And I
would do that because I'm not I'm not a virgin
like you know, like but ideally I would love to
(12:22):
wait some marriage. I would love to like keep it sacred.
But I know that I'm a normal human and I
could sit and like whatever, and you know, sometimes you know,
some overpower is good and that it gets in the way,
but ideally the plan is that I would love to.
So I'm like, dude, I think that's so beautiful and
the way that your guys' wedding played out too, and
like I saw how viral went and then it went
(12:43):
viral because people are haters and like they don't get
the concept or whatever. Yes, I want to know your
mind and your process through not through that day whatever.
I'm assuming it was beautiful or whatever. It was amazing,
but likeing and reading all the comments about it.
Speaker 2 (13:02):
Okay, so we got a lot of love for the
wedding in itself, right, everybody of our supports, Oh my god,
show beautiful, whatever. But then the clip of us worshiping
and our wedding went viral right right right, and then
it started hitting other people's for your page. We didn't
know us, and I was like, man, like it went
like very viral and people were hating because.
Speaker 1 (13:20):
You guys were like the I feel like you guys
were like the first people to actually do that. And
then now like I see people getting married and they're
doing it more often.
Speaker 2 (13:26):
Yeah, I have seen a lot more people like worshiping
in their wedding day. I love that, Yeah, and I
feel like that's something that we really wanted to do,
is honor God in our wedding day. And people were
calling in like performative, people were saying, I don't know,
people were seeing a lot of stuff, and it kind
of hurt me because that day was the first time
ever that Jaco cried after like not crying for like
ten plus years. Like he was sobbing his eyes out,
(13:49):
and I was like, man, like, y'all really trying to
take this beautiful moment away from us. So it sucked.
But then I tried not to pay attention to it
and just think about like it was beautiful for us,
like our guests were there, everybody we loved were yeah,
you know, and.
Speaker 1 (14:01):
Trying to make it about the bad thing.
Speaker 2 (14:02):
Yeah, because people just don't get it. Yeah, they're not
gonna get it.
Speaker 1 (14:05):
Yeah, And I see that. I'm like, you guys are
really like mad about something that's actually beautiful, like actually good,
Like what one how is it harming anybody? But I
think that's so beautiful, And honestly, I admire your guys' boldness,
Like I see that more than anything else. And I
love how centative is, Like, how how is that? How
(14:27):
do you guys keep that alive in your marriage?
Speaker 2 (14:31):
Well, man, we've been stuggling so much these past three months,
like we know, with my health and like the whole
old situation and stuff. So it's been it's been really
hard and I can cry about it, but it's okay. Yeah,
it's been. It's been kind of tough these past few
days or months, and so sorry, it's just it just
hurts because like we were doing so good, you know,
(14:52):
going to church and like, you know, like our relationship
with God and everything, and but I feel like recently
we've just been from place to place and and moving around,
and like we really haven't been having time, you know,
to focus on the things we want to focus on.
So it's just been a lot of weight on our shoulders. Sorry.
So it feels like something that we're supposed to like enjoy,
(15:13):
you know, is which is like being first time parents
and like having her home, Like we can't do it
to the full extent. But besides that, I feel like
keeping God to in the center of our marriage, regardless
of all the things happening around us, is so important
for us because if not, we would be going insane
right now. Like I've been sick for three months and
my husband is the best ever. Like if you like,
(15:36):
please marry the right person, because I married the right
person and I'm so grateful for him because.
Speaker 1 (15:41):
You men did I honestly, I saw your whole birth
video and everything. I'm like, wow, that's great. Yeah, praying
over you and just like holding on to you. And
I think that us woman struggle with not we struggle
with just like not that the feeling of being loved,
but feeling like like an immense amount like wow, like yes,
(16:03):
like okay, it's like love. Love is love, like we
want to be loved. But the way that I feel
like he loves you is so beautiful and it's like wow,
Like example, everybody, I think I even coms. I'm like,
ladies and gentlemen, this is a man of God, right.
I was like cop it up very well, like that's
how it should be. Yes, no, but.
Speaker 2 (16:27):
He I don't know.
Speaker 1 (16:28):
I don't know why I you don't feel and maybe
this is out of context. Maybe I will put this
in the episode. But you don't feel like because all
of that is happening, because you guys are moving to
place a place you don't think that's like God.
Speaker 2 (16:39):
Telling you guys to move somewhere for sure. Oh no, yeah,
I feel like I had already confirmed it to us.
We were in Miami for two months because I just
didn't want to leave Miami, so we were there for
for longer than we should have said. And so when
we were there, we're like, man, like, maybe we should
leave Houston. We went back to Houston, and then that's
when I got sick from the mold.
Speaker 1 (16:58):
Girl that's already want I feel, yes.
Speaker 2 (17:02):
And so now after dealing with the mold and having
you know, like having a mold inspector come in and
like check out the house and stuff, and us being
for sure like we don't we for sure to want
to like live in that house, And so I don't
know if we're gonna maybe get another house in Houston.
But it's looking like Houston is just not it for
us anymore. Like I feel like we're gonna have to
(17:23):
move to another state. And I feel like God is
calling us somewhere else, and I feel it really heavy.
I don't know where yet, but maybe California.
Speaker 1 (17:30):
We really loved Where did you live around here?
Speaker 2 (17:36):
Never again? I love this area. This is like this
seems really nice and peaceful. Yeah, down La was not it?
Speaker 3 (17:42):
It's when yes, yes, like we're you know, we're married,
we have kids, like yeah, you know, no more, thank you.
Speaker 2 (17:49):
Even when we were there and we were like obviously younger,
we weren't even engaged yet. We were always in the
apartment watching TV and watching movies because down like so
many things got going on, like it wasn't it, But yeah,
we want them back. Maybe I don't know, maybe Miami.
Maybe I don't know, but he's saying.
Speaker 1 (18:03):
Honest, say I've thought about Miami too. Really yeah, like
a couple of years ago. I'm like, I love I
love Miami. That's like my second home. Like but because
my friends, my best friend's family's over there, so I
go with her all the time, like they love me,
Like I have friends over there. Like it's just you
come alive, like something's yes, something's different, like the air
like yes it does something can't meet. I'm like, I
(18:27):
do want to be at the beach, like I want
to be a company like whatever. Anyways, I always thought
about moving to Miami. I was looking into buying places
like yeah, but I'm like, no, I ended up buying
a house here. Whatever. Miami's always been on my heart
and mind. But I love it. I love it here
and I'm close with my family, so I'm just like
you know, but Miami's.
Speaker 2 (18:46):
A good spot and I have my parents there.
Speaker 1 (18:49):
YEA wait, but does he have his family and Houston he.
Speaker 2 (18:52):
Has his mom, his dad and his brother and like
an aunt and that thing. That's it. So but it's
just Myami for me is just like home, and I
haven't gotten to experience like living with my in the
same city as my parents with like Matthew and like
you know that now that their grandparents like. But it
does like kind of really stuck because then his mom
is in Houston, so it's like it was just a lot.
(19:14):
But I feel like for sure we were in Houston
for a while, and I feel like we just need
to close that chapter and move on somewhere else because
we always knew that Houston was in like our for
our home, like we already we already knew we wanted
to go somewhere else. So I really feel it in
my spirit that God is calling us somewhere else because
getting sick for mold for that long, everything happening he's
like pulling out he's a girl.
Speaker 1 (19:35):
And then he went to Miami.
Speaker 2 (19:37):
From there, he stayed in Houston, but we were like, yeah,
we went to my mother in laws and now we're
still in Houston, but we're staying with our best friends
at their house. Yeah, we haven't gone back to Miami. Well,
we went. We went actually for because I had a
promo over there, but it was like a quick visit
and then it was had because I'm like, men have
to go back to our moldy like Houston. So we
(19:57):
ed to go back to Houston.
Speaker 1 (19:59):
Yes, I see Mouldy sounds like a city like it could.
Speaker 2 (20:03):
Be althy Houston.
Speaker 1 (20:06):
I I was gonna say, yeah, honestly, yeah, I mean
you already know you guys know once you start praying
and asking for conformation, dude, it'll come to you.
Speaker 2 (20:14):
And God, I'll tell you it happens.
Speaker 1 (20:16):
Honestly, those those moments triped me out, though. I'm like, okay, wait,
are we being for Rover now?
Speaker 2 (20:22):
Is that really happening? Oh my gosh, Yeah.
Speaker 1 (20:26):
I want to talk about Okay, you mentioned the psyche word,
and that's crazy because I have somebody in my life
where they're like, oh do you want to send to
the hospital or whatever. I'm like, I don't know, but
I want to know what that was like for you, Like,
oh my god, Like I like I didn't what ye like,
did it scare you? What was it? What you said
that it was a lot of anxiety and like you're
(20:46):
way apart from God at that time, So what else
led you there? It was that you want to take
your life?
Speaker 2 (20:53):
Yes, yeah, yeah, yeah it was it was that it
was a lot of depression and anxiety. I was in
a bad relationship too, and yeah, I was just young
and just going through a lot mentally. I had just
like gone through like I talked about it before, like
the whole like edible situation where like I got like really.
Speaker 1 (21:09):
High and like do you realization?
Speaker 2 (21:11):
Yes, that was the main reason why I wanted to
just end it all, because it literally makes you go insane,
like you are not yourself. Like I thought, I wasn't real.
I felt like life wasn't real. It's really hard to
explain to people, and like when I try to explain it,
it's hard. But then that day I got like I
had somebody like do something to me that I didn't
approve of too, So it was really traumatizing all around.
(21:33):
So it was a law back to back and I
just didn't want to live anymore. And so my mom
got worried. She called my cousin that was a cop
and she came to the house and she was like, hey,
look like I love you, but like if you're gonna
harm yourself, like I have to call the cops on you,
Like I have to do it.
Speaker 1 (21:50):
My cousin is a more yeah, like moral like part
of the morals.
Speaker 2 (21:54):
Because she had to, yeah, And so I was like crying, sobbing.
I'm like I don't want to go, like please, I like,
don't take me over there, whatever, but that she still
had to do it because I was threading in my life.
I the police came, they took my phone. It was
like really traumatizing. They took my phone. They put me
in handcuffs because it was like protocol that I couldn't
be behind like sitting in the back of a cop
(22:16):
car without any handcuffs. No, my old best friend was
at my house at that time because she was like
there trying to calm everything down. My mom was there,
my sister, I think my dad was working, and I
remember the cop car like I was in the cop
car already with my handcuffs, and I remember like going
like this to like the window. I laugh about it
now because it was just like it's okay to laugh,
you know, but I was going like this saw me crying.
My best friend was like, I love you so much,
(22:38):
and I was like I love you. It was like
it was like this whole movie. It was like a movie, bro,
Like we go to the psych word. I pull up
and they tell me to take all my clothes off,
to take my earrings off. I do it. I put
my stuff in the bag. I go into room with
a kid. You not like ten other people that were
actually like going insane. Like there was somebody with like
blott all over their stuff. There was somebody who was
(22:58):
like saying a bunch of stuff over and over like
they were like actually like like actually going insane. I
used to cry about this, so it's good that I'm not,
but yeah, it was traumatizing. I stepped in a little
chair with all these people around me, and I'm like
what am I doing here? All I wanted to do
was literally die. I didn't want to do anything. And
he harmed anybody else because that's what it felt like
these people wanted to harm me. I'm like, please get
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away from.
Speaker 1 (23:21):
Me, Like how many days were you there for?
Speaker 2 (23:22):
Thank god? Only a night? Okay, because the next day
a doctor like, yeah, just kidding, guys, I'm good, I know.
So as psychologists came and like kind of like evaluated everybody,
and then he evaluated me, and I'm like stopping crying
to him, and he was like I can tell like
you're anxious, and you're like, you know, you're going through
a lot, Like do you really want to end your life?
And I'm like I think, I mean I did, but
(23:44):
like whatever, I just was talking to him. I just
wanted to get the heck out of there, right, And
he's like, well, by the way you're saying an everything
right now, it doesn't seem like you're gonna like do
any harm to yourself today or tomorrow, so I can
like discharge you. And I'm like, thank you lord. So yeah,
I got this charged with hom picked me up and
then yeah, it was traumatizing, traumatizing.
Speaker 1 (24:05):
Yeah, but I think that you need your wake up call, yeah,
because you didn't want to after that, right, I've had
like moments where I'm like very depressed and thought about
suicide again, but not to the point where I'm like
about to do it, if that makes sense, you know.
Speaker 2 (24:20):
I feel like, yeah, I feel like life still was
a little hard. Little it was really hard after that still,
but it didn't get to that point where I was
like about two, you know, but it's okay. Like life,
we always gonna have like ups and downs and stuff.
But I'm just grateful that in the moment, it was scary,
but I'm grateful that it happened because it kind of
did wake me up, but it didn't take that depression away.
(24:43):
I was very depressed, you know, but thankfully I'm okay now,
you know, even going through all this stuff, like I've
been really sad, but yeah, it was really dramatizing. And
I don't know how people do it where they stay
in those seche words for like days and weeks or months.
Speaker 1 (25:00):
Yeah, yeah, no, And I never got to that point,
Like I've doped with depression of anxiety to and I've
also reached to that limit point also, and I'm just like,
by the grace of God, I'm.
Speaker 2 (25:15):
Like, God, you have a you have.
Speaker 1 (25:18):
The will and the plan, and I'm just like, now
that I'm alive, here standing here right now, I'm like,
I'm so grateful that I've made it this far.
Speaker 2 (25:24):
Yeah, like to be.
Speaker 1 (25:25):
Able to see everything like the idea that God had
planned already, It's like wow, Like to be able to like, yeah,
to make it this far and to see like wow,
I almost wanted to risk it yeah before that, Like
did you have have you thought of now that you
have your baby? Like your marriage?
Speaker 2 (25:41):
Every hope? The words run out of my mouth because
I post a lot, not a lot about it anymore,
but like I us supposed to. Like like if I
would have if my life ended when I was seventeen,
like I wouldn't have accomplished everything I accomplished. I wouldn't
have known that it was going to get better. You
know that I was going to have a happy ending
in a relationship. I was gonna get married and have
like my tell like you know, happy ending and my baby.
(26:02):
Like I it makes me want to cry because I
was in such a dark place and like I really
thought that it was like it for like I really thought,
like my life is ruined, like it's not gonna get better.
I didn't see a future for myself. I really just
wanted to end it. On and I felt like doing
it was gonna like make everyone around me happy. I
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saw so much.
Speaker 1 (26:25):
I'm like yes, And it's like then you think about
it now, like now that we know God and now
that we've like do the enemy like such a lie
in your head like literally imagine like say like you're
like depressed now or before, and like you get close
to that thought, it's like it still peaks there, like
it's still playing with you, like poking at you to
(26:48):
see how much like okay, how much am I going
to get out of her to actually do it? And
it's like the joy that that it brings to somebody
else is like dude, like no, like no, I understand
you completely like now, like and I had that realization
this last birthday where I'm just like wow, I feel
really loved like yes, like I'm like, wow, I'm so loved,
like thank God I'm here, like I never like I
(27:12):
don't know, like it's so hard to explain. And it's
like now that like I'm so like God is my
center focus. It's like I'm so overwhelmed with joy, like
I'm so grateful to be alive and like wow, like
thank you God, like and I'm like I'm looking so
forward to the future. Yeah, wow God, Like okay, like
I know I could do hard things, yes, like okay,
(27:33):
but don't let it get harder. Yes, but I'm excited,
Like tell me, like what's going Like you know what
I mean?
Speaker 2 (27:38):
Yes, I was tolding. I'm like, I'm tired of being
the strongest soldier, Like please.
Speaker 1 (27:41):
Do say that all the time. I'm like, who signed
me up on this list?
Speaker 2 (27:46):
To me? Like I asked, like after everything I've been that,
I'm like, Okay, I know for a fact I'm gonna
have an easy like birth at least no fifty one hours.
And it was carter, you thought and it was like
just the old thing, like I've been sick, and I said,
I was okay, like a little bit ago, but I
loow key was like I've been really depressed, like very
depressed before where I have thought about suicide again and
(28:08):
it hurts because I have a family now and I
have my husband and my baby. But whenever you're like
not healthy, I feel like nothing else matters but your health. Yeah,
And it's like I felt like I was dying at
one point, Like I was like I can't figure out
what's wrong with me. The doctors are telling me, I'm
just anxious, but my body was low key like it
(28:30):
was slowly rejecting itself like I was getting poisoned and
I didn't know it.
Speaker 1 (28:34):
I was that they wouldn't know, like yes, like the doctor.
Speaker 2 (28:39):
Like why you're a doctor. And I guess like all
those tests that they would do, like they don't have
like anything where they can see any toxins in your
body or something. My bloody work would come back fine.
My heart and all my lungs would come back fine.
Like I'm like, something is wrong man, like something.
Speaker 1 (28:53):
Like it wasn't like anybody else. It was just you, just.
Speaker 2 (28:56):
Me, just me. Jacob was fine. He did have some
symptoms that we talk about it. He had some symptoms
like a little bit of like like a sty He
gets sies now and he used to never get sties.
Little stuff like that where I'm like maybe that was
the mold. But the baby perfectly fine, thank Jesus. Yeah,
(29:16):
it's been tough.
Speaker 1 (29:16):
And like that pressure is a mom right now. Like
even if if it was just like you guys, like
I feel like it wouldn't be as like hey, but
like now that you have a baby with life, like
as a mom.
Speaker 2 (29:26):
Oh my gosh, besides the mold stuff, like, besides that
amazing my baby. I can cry again because he changed
my life. Like I've always like, for those who know me,
I've always wanted to be a mom, Like it was
always like Valentina was meant to be a mom, She's
meant to be a wife like I that was my goal. Like, yeah,
I always had my other goals, but I always was
(29:47):
meant to be a mom and a wife. So becoming
a mom was a dream come true. It was like, yes, yes,
we tried for like three months and boom, he got pregnant,
and it was it was everything I could have ever
dreamed of. Like, obviously it's hard, all right, Obviously it's
it's hard, especially as the first time parent, Like you
(30:07):
don't know what you're doing, so you're figuring things out
as the baby's also figuring himself out, and he doesn't
know what he's doing either, and so it has been
the best thing ever. We're completely in love. He gives
us baby fever all the time.
Speaker 1 (30:20):
Honestly, he gives me baby too, and I'm like, I'm
missing a step.
Speaker 2 (30:23):
I need to get married first.
Speaker 1 (30:24):
I didn't find a man first, but like he's like adorable.
Speaker 2 (30:28):
Like oh, like he can't into the house.
Speaker 1 (30:31):
You guys, I'm in love with him, Like I just
want to I want to bite these little thighs like.
Speaker 2 (30:34):
Yes, yes, which we do all the time. I looks out.
He's like, oh please, like yeah, it's been it's been
a dream, like I always told you. I'm like, babe,
like our life would have been so boring if we
didn't have Matthew, Like our life before was so great.
Speaker 1 (30:53):
And she's like I was already tired of you.
Speaker 2 (30:56):
Our life was so fun before obviously, like we did
a lot, like before we had a baby, but then
we think about it now, how much better it is,
And I'm like wow, Like our life is so good
with Matthew, Like he makes us laugh.
Speaker 1 (31:07):
Like even in the midst of all this, like you
imagine taking him out and.
Speaker 2 (31:10):
Oh my gosh, man, it's like he was like the
little like missing puzzle piece in her life.
Speaker 1 (31:15):
Okay, is it so good that you want another one?
Speaker 2 (31:18):
Yes? Just not anytime soon? Okay, like not even like
two years from We need to like chill and like
just appreciate Matthew because like I said, it's it's hard,
like him getting sick for the first time, like figuring
things out, Like it's just a lot. So I feel
like once he gets a little older, we have more
of a routine, and you know, we're getting used to
him getting sick and all these things. We're like, Okay,
(31:38):
we're probably gonna be like, let's have another baby.
Speaker 1 (31:40):
It's like, is it like like you're scared? Like you're
like because my mom would always tell me, like you
didn't come with a manual exactly, like you just like
wondering what everything is, Like, what's wrong about I'm googling.
Speaker 2 (31:51):
Things all the time? Is it okay if my babe
does this? Is it okay? If he's this?
Speaker 1 (31:54):
I'm like, and you're an anxious person, So you're girl
in the same wonder. So you called your mom for
mother's there.
Speaker 2 (32:01):
Yes, saw me crying my eyes out, apologizing mm hmm,
and she was sobbing her eyes out and she was like,
is that your mommy? Like no, not. The prokop is
like we already had these conversations before, but I think
as a mom, like all those things already had amplified,
and like I was like even more grateful for her
because yeah, like you're a mom, and you can't even
imagine your kids doing how the things that you did
(32:22):
to your parents, you know, So I apologize and I'm like, wow,
I appreciate her and my mom and my dad so
much more now, Like I I wish I could go
back in time and not do certain things and not
talk back to them, not like be like but why
like you you're so annoying. Like I understand. I come.
Everything they ever did that I was annoying, I understand.
Speaker 1 (32:40):
And that's how he's still a baby. Yeah he's not
even one, is he?
Speaker 2 (32:44):
No, he's eight months? Girl, don't even Yes, Oh my god.
I'm hoping that I broke that generational curse and that
I'm amazing.
Speaker 1 (32:55):
Because I'm not even lie. I love that you said that.
I feel like this generation how old are you?
Speaker 2 (33:00):
Twenty six? Okay?
Speaker 1 (33:01):
I just turned twenty eight. I feel like that generation,
like is the generation of breaking generational courses. I agree, right,
Like there's something like I'm like, there's my friend is
having a baby too, but like his dad is like,
you know, very religious, and like it's just a lot
of things and just like a lot of toxicity and
(33:22):
like things that you know, I'm like, but you guys
are breaking that like it's a healthy it's a healthy family,
you know, Like I feel like the ones we were
raised with we're a little bit toxic or like something
would always happen or like you know, but like now
that we've learned and that we see, like I feel
like this is it, Like this is going to be healthy,
and then our kids are gonna be able to say like,
oh wow, like my kids my parents were healthy, like
(33:43):
they stay together type thing. Yes, right right.
Speaker 2 (33:47):
I told him all the time, like we're gonna break
so many generational curses. Like thankfully my parents have been
together since always, but obviously they went through a lot
and I saw that growing up, like yeah, fighting and
just like arguments and stuff and the grace of God,
like their marriage was restored and everything, you know is okay.
But he grew up in a broken home, you know,
with Peo War's parents, And so I'm like we always
(34:08):
knew it, like before we got married, like we were
like we need to like break that curse. We need
to pray over this, break these because our kids.
Speaker 1 (34:15):
It's real. No, it's real, Like you have to That's
why when she said, like you have to be selective
of your partner, like and know that you know that
they're healed or not fully Yeah, well, yeah, that they're healed,
that they that Jesus is the center other lives and
what the baggage that they come with, and to pray
against it and like understanding, like you have to pick
(34:36):
the right person and to know because if they're carrying
the stuff that they grew up with also like or
that they haven't learned from it, it changes things. It's scary.
Speaker 2 (34:45):
And then they're gonna carry that on to your kids.
And no, no, no, man.
Speaker 1 (34:49):
You guys, I know people are like, no, you guys
are ridiculous. No, trust me, Like, no, we're not.
Speaker 2 (34:56):
Yep, like we know the truth.
Speaker 1 (34:58):
I'm gonna take these out. Oh actually, hold on, I
think yours. Yeah, we still need a lot of time.
I have a couple of rapid fire questions. There's gonna
be deep ones. Okay, well the first ones are not.
The deep ones are take a little aisle, so they're
not rapid fire, but they are. Then we have a
little fun one. Okay, okay, one, what does happiness mean
to you?
Speaker 2 (35:18):
What does happiness mean to me? Wow, that's really sweet
to me. What is happiness mean to me. I think
it just I don't know, Like I don't know. Happiness
is something that I've felt, thankfully for a long time now,
thankfully and I get you know, not any type of depression,
but my my son, my Jesus, like peace. Yeah, that's
(35:42):
what happiness is to me.
Speaker 1 (35:43):
I think that you have fought for peace for so long. Yeah,
that is just like now that even have you been
in this space where you're just like this is too peaceful?
Speaker 2 (35:53):
Girl, I thought it was only one. I always to
them like this is like is gonna happen?
Speaker 1 (35:59):
Like I got I got the chills even saying that,
like it's too good to be.
Speaker 2 (36:02):
True, like like like where's the chaos?
Speaker 1 (36:04):
Yes, Like we're so used to bad things happening.
Speaker 2 (36:06):
Bro, when we were very toxic in the in a relationship,
that's how it used to be, like very toxic, right,
So when we got really healed and like everything was
perfectly not perfectly right, but like we were like communicating
and everything, I'm like I got to where like we
haven't fought in a long time, like you know what's
going on? I was I was like always like expecting
that like chaos, but no, one never came you know. So,
(36:29):
Oh it feels so good to like say that. Yeah,
I've been fighting for that piece and I haven't Obviously
there's been stuff going on in my life. I tried to.
Speaker 1 (36:36):
Dig my piece, but you're always have that piece.
Speaker 2 (36:39):
Yes, Yes, I always say that.
Speaker 1 (36:42):
Yeah, I believe that always passes through. What's something you
want to be remembered for.
Speaker 2 (36:48):
Something that I want to be remembered for is like
my relationship with God and like the amount of people
like helped with mental health. I think that's the main
thing because when I was going through a lot of
mental health struggles, like I never had somebody to like
helped me, and I didn't have anybody on social media
that I can like look up videos for about like
what specifically what I was going through. So I feel
(37:08):
like that is what I wouldn't be remembered for, like
not anything like else, like numbers, Like I don't care
about none of that. I just want to be known, Like, Okay,
like while she helped a lot of people with mental health,
and like she continues to do it even after like
I passed, you know.
Speaker 1 (37:22):
Last one of these ones. Okay, what's one thing you
wish people understood about you?
Speaker 2 (37:27):
Oh, my gosh, one thing that people understood about me. Okay,
I think I think I would say whenever I was
getting a lot of hate in the beginning of my
influencing career, I was getting a lot of hate because
I was always around the guys and like I was
with Jake, and I feel like I was really misunderstood
(37:49):
because nobody really knew like everything that I was going through.
Like I was going through a lot of like trust
issues with like other relationships I had. I was going
through a lot of like just things of like my own.
So I feel like I was always really mis understood
in the beginning because people just hate it on me
just by simply being Jaco's girlfriend or being around a
lot and just being like annoying or all these things.
(38:09):
But I internally, I was already battling a lot of
anxiety and depression, and I yeah, felt like I couldn't
be alone because I feel like something bad was going
to happen, Like I was struggling a lot. So I
think I would say that because I would get so
much for no reason. I'm like, man, I'm just living
my life.
Speaker 1 (38:23):
I'm just a girl.
Speaker 2 (38:24):
Yes, I'm just a girl and a girlfriend. And because
my boyfriend wants me to be there, you know, And
I was going through a lot back then, and so
I think that for sure. Yeah, it was hard.
Speaker 1 (38:35):
Yeah, I get honestly, Yeah, I say it all the time,
and it's so it exists, frustrating and it's annoying. But
it's like at the end of the day I was
saying this today, I'm like, as long as God knows
my intentions, my heart and my family, Like, I really
don't have anything else.
Speaker 2 (38:49):
To worry about, you know. I'm sorry really thinking that
recently too, so I've been living more at peace with
that too. I just don't pay attention to that.
Speaker 1 (38:56):
Okay, we have rapid fire ready? Oh, yes, what's your
favorite ice cream? They were strawberry really for ice cream?
Speaker 2 (39:03):
Yes, I still love chocolate and then chocolate. The micraine
one time because I had too much and I didn't
know I could give you a migraine, really did. I
had to.
Speaker 1 (39:12):
I learned something.
Speaker 2 (39:13):
He was like, did you have chocolate each other? I
said yeah, and he was like, yeah, you're having a
migraine from chocolate. And I haven't had that any ever
since because I'm you're afraid bad migraine. It was so bad.
Speaker 1 (39:24):
Wow. So they could tell you were have a migraine
because of trauma, but they can't tell you you have.
Speaker 2 (39:29):
Old kissed me off. Yes that's crazy.
Speaker 1 (39:34):
Okay. If you could be an animal for a day,
what would you, babe?
Speaker 2 (39:37):
Oh, it would be I love whales or elephants. Oh yes,
although I'm like terrified of the ocean. I have like
what is it called, like the fear of ocean, like
a phobia? Yes, like completely scared. But I love whales
and elephants, so probably an elephant yet love it? Love it.
Coffee or tea? Either really bring coffee or tea because
(39:57):
I used to have a lot of anxiety and it
makes me jittery. And I know tease. Have sometimes a
caffeine too, Yeah yeah, yeah, I don't do them. I do.
I do sometimes drink camon mil tea know what it is,
but does not caffeine. So I guess.
Speaker 1 (40:08):
Te guilty Pleasure TV show right now?
Speaker 2 (40:14):
Oh my gosh. I always watch Cray's Anatomy always like
my comfort show.
Speaker 1 (40:18):
Whoa, We're very much like look that is literally that
and how I met your mother? Did you ever watch
your brother?
Speaker 2 (40:25):
No? I watched the Disney Ones I'm like, you know
what the how I'm meant, what is it? The one
wants to bring a carpenter? Is that the same one? No?
And that's born, Like we know that's not the same one. No. No,
I never watched that one but that one? And actually
are we watching the Flash right now? Because I just
I love like DC and stuff, but Gray's anatomy, d C.
I Marvel. I just love the Flash. Okay, the Flash
(40:47):
and DC has my heart. But I love Marvel more. Okay,
Marble Girl going through.
Speaker 1 (40:51):
Okay, love Marvel too. Okay, okay, So if you could
have any superpower, what would you be? What would it be?
Speaker 2 (40:59):
I think read people's mind were flying ooh or no no, no, no,
you know what teleporting, because then I want to have
to go on an airplane. I hate airplanes. No, teleporting
because I hate airplanes. I'm terrified. So Telli porting, I
just oh, you need to go to this place and
I just go like that. Okay.
Speaker 1 (41:15):
One your favorite childhood cartoon cartoon.
Speaker 2 (41:19):
Cartoon, Mam mom, I would say like the Powerpuff Girls, Yes,
specifically Blossom Blossom, Yes, I think that's what I would say. Yeah,
I love bubbles. Bubbles is kids too. I was always like,
I'm blossom. I think blossom.
Speaker 1 (41:36):
Okay, best snack to bingewock with like something. You always
grab your watching grays and at me, what are you
picking to eat?
Speaker 2 (41:42):
Ooh ooh, this is funny. I used to always get
like lugibles like the ham and cheese. Yeah, lugibles, and
maybe some like chips, some like tortilla no no, some
what is it called? What are those chips called? The
live chips? Tostinos? Tostinos chips. Yes, those are my one
(42:05):
of my favorites.
Speaker 1 (42:06):
Okay. One thing that's always in your bag A lot
of stuff, but one thing that has to be like
you know that it's in there.
Speaker 2 (42:15):
It has to be.
Speaker 1 (42:15):
It has to be in there, like you're not leaving
the house without it without it.
Speaker 2 (42:20):
Wow, I lot of crap, like if you look at
my background, don't have so much stuff?
Speaker 1 (42:24):
And now that you're a mom too, yes girl, yeah,
I know.
Speaker 2 (42:29):
What can I say? I would say like made klos
because I'm always replying my l class. My lips are
always like chats.
Speaker 1 (42:35):
Okay, last song you played on repeat?
Speaker 2 (42:39):
You can yes?
Speaker 1 (42:41):
Love that. I didn't love the second album, do you?
Speaker 2 (42:43):
I never really listened to it. I rest and it
was just kind of like the first one, love Ukon
Love the whole album and yes, okay, last one.
Speaker 1 (42:53):
If you can ask God one thing, it could be serious,
it could be funny. Okay, maybe anything, and you received
your answer right now. What would what are you asking
him anything?
Speaker 2 (43:05):
If I can ask him anything? If I'm having a
girl in the future, oh, because I've had a lot
of dreams that I'm pregnant with the girl and people
having dreams about me being pregnant with the girl, I
feel I don't even need to ask him. Feel like
that's heard of confirmation. Yeah, maybe where I'm moving tom
to next year. Yeah, I would want to know that A.
Speaker 1 (43:24):
Nice love that that's fun?
Speaker 2 (43:26):
Yeah, yeah, I love that.
Speaker 1 (43:27):
Do you want I'm just gonna grab a four?
Speaker 2 (43:29):
Do you want a four? Just pick at it like
I'm gonna cut it. Yeah, or I'm like I even
can grab it's like give it to me like that.
Speaker 1 (43:37):
Well those are our cakes, you guys. Okay, I do
this thing at the end of the podcast. Okay, bibe
overs of the Day, I always do. I always picked
like a byeovers.
Speaker 2 (43:45):
But first I'm going to take a big ass bite.
Sorry you took a bite. Okay, literally, I'm gonna.
Speaker 1 (43:53):
It's warm. We probably should have waited, but it's fine.
Speaker 2 (43:56):
Mmm, I'm even four. I'm so good. Wow. I love strawberry.
You did it.
Speaker 1 (44:06):
You did you did that, you did that.
Speaker 2 (44:09):
You picked it out though, yeah, but you made it.
You did the hard word, m ma'am. Mm hmmm.
Speaker 1 (44:16):
It's like a girl's dinner. Yes, girls dinner.
Speaker 2 (44:19):
I'm not really a sweet person, but with cake, girl,
mm hmmm, give me all that.
Speaker 1 (44:24):
I love chocolate. I love anything sweet. M wow mm hmmm.
Speaker 2 (44:29):
Wow. Wow, you're a period right now too, So.
Speaker 1 (44:36):
Okay. Bible Verse of the Day. Oh wait, that was
the wrong one right there, Okay, Psalms twenty three four.
When I walk the darkest valley, I will not be
afraid for your beside me, your road, and your staff protect.
Speaker 2 (44:52):
And comfort me.
Speaker 1 (44:54):
Thank you God. I think that's pretty self expanded story,
you guys. Yeah, that's like, no need to explain.
Speaker 2 (44:59):
God is with you.
Speaker 1 (45:00):
Yes, and every single season and every single era of
our lives. When we feel like we're in a valley
right now, we are walking towards something beautiful, a light,
the mountain that God has for us, and we just
cannot keep. We cannot give up. We cannot give up
on the plan or having or quit having faith.
Speaker 2 (45:21):
We cannot. All right, Well, thank you so much for love,
for being here.
Speaker 1 (45:28):
It was so fun. I'm grateful that we were able
to do this, it was so amazing. Thank you for
being so vulnerable and sharing your story and love that
we're very much alike. There's like things are just like Bookie.
I'm like, but I think it was it was beautiful.
I think it was God plan and I'm just grateful.
So thank you, thank you, Thank you. Loved having Matthew
(45:49):
and Jacob wherever they are there somewhere in this.
Speaker 2 (45:53):
Change.
Speaker 1 (45:55):
Make sure you guys follow her, follow their family channel
what is it called Jacob all right, Drake go and
bam all her social mediasmas ladies, right, ladies, there you go.
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