Giving Grace with Big Repo

Big Bank and special guest Big Repo the World have a deep conversation about his journey from a challenging upbringing, his experiences in prison and the impact on his perspective. They dive into trust issues, the value of genuine friendships, the expectations placed on relationships in today's society, the sense of entitlement that can arise from success, the importance of accountability in personal connections and much more. Tune in and join the conversation in the socials below.

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Speaker 1 (00:01):
It gets no better than this.

Speaker 2 (00:04):
You are now in June respectives with big Bang.

Speaker 3 (00:10):
Let's get straight to it.

Speaker 1 (00:12):
Be your hearth thing itself. No matter what, nobody can
be a better you than you. Welcome to perspective Bank.

Speaker 4 (00:18):
I am big bank, and today I got my brother
with me. Man, my twin report the world. What's up
with a twin?

Speaker 1 (00:25):
How you feeling? Hey? Now?

Speaker 4 (00:28):
Always always asking him when I say how you feel?
Let me try to check on a nigga mental then
by you being a geminis.

Speaker 1 (00:34):
Which one you here today? I'm the cool one today?

Speaker 3 (00:37):
All right?

Speaker 1 (00:38):
Cool to Jesus, I'm graceful one today. Where you're mental
at right now? I think it's good.

Speaker 3 (00:46):
I think I'm working on a lot, so it's spread out,
but it's balanced, Okay. What I mean.

Speaker 1 (00:54):
For people watching him might not know you here?

Speaker 3 (00:56):
Tell me who you are, where you're from, which you represent,
how you came, where you're going.

Speaker 1 (01:00):
For the world.

Speaker 3 (01:01):
South side of Atlanta. M I grew up on the
South man, me and my guys. Either way, my fear,
you know that's me gas house buminati.

Speaker 1 (01:16):
Hm. I carry a lot here, a lot with me.
You know. It's a whole lot of people. I'm from
the south Side. Tell us a little bit like what
led you to here today? Like with your journey and ship,
single mom, mom, dad, like how you grew up?

Speaker 3 (01:34):
For sure, I grew up a single mom like most
of us. But you know, my mama's true. You know
what I'm saying come from I'm really my mamaver you
know what I mean, just a male version.

Speaker 1 (01:49):
But everything I got going on, I got it from.
You know how she was outside like how I am
now my age.

Speaker 3 (01:57):
She had security companies that ran a bunch of the
security contracts for clubs in the city and have relationships
with you, and you know she dolls in forty Street.

Speaker 1 (02:07):
You know.

Speaker 3 (02:08):
So she exposed me to kind of what I am today.
I know exactly who I am because of my MoMA.
That's why I about to ask you what you think
shape the moja to the man you was today? I
have to say, probably being impressed with what my mama did,
not what she told me to do. Yeah, you know
what I'm saying. I was always impressed with what she did.

(02:28):
She told me to do something totally different. She told
me to, you know, play baseball when school baseball scholarships.
She played she make good grades and I did them
things too, But I always wanted to do what she did,
not necessarily what she told me to do. I end
up doing the same thing. Night life, music, entertainment, everything

(02:50):
that she was involved in. She tried to get me
to do something else. Then what we always do with
our kids. Don't try to stir them, but they watching
like that the way this shit you doing that I
don't want to do, And I'm impressed, don't be. If
she wasn't impressive, I probably would have listened. Yeah, like impress.
You know what I'm saying. I'm around, I'm around what's

(03:11):
going on at a real young gage. So she spokes
me to it. I think even after school, when I
could have went and did other things and play ball,
I chose to come back and do what she was doing.

Speaker 1 (03:20):
Music.

Speaker 3 (03:21):
You remember, Yeah, what what you think kept you from?
Like going down the wrong PAIRB Like going in.

Speaker 4 (03:27):
The streets, like super streets, Like I know he's in
the street, but like you know, crashing out in the streets,
you know, because it's two different paths of the street.

Speaker 1 (03:36):
Niggas.

Speaker 4 (03:36):
All street niggas get out there and get some money
and been in some street niggas to get out there
and just.

Speaker 1 (03:42):
I think it's just really her.

Speaker 3 (03:46):
I think we all have we all possessed the capacity
to crash out as bad as the next person. But
it's just you know, who's looking at us. You know,
when I got in trouble, I went to prison, I
was probably more embarrassed for how I made my mama
looked then I was actually what I had done.

Speaker 1 (04:04):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (04:05):
It's just, you know, so kind of trying to carry
I ain't have relationship with my daddy, but just trying
to carry my mama reputation and legacy a certain type
of way. I think that's kind of what made me
just want to get some money, you know, and do
things to impress her and make up. So did you
go before or after she had the studio on the

(04:26):
West Side?

Speaker 1 (04:27):
I think you went.

Speaker 3 (04:29):
After?

Speaker 1 (04:29):
Yeah, what Yeah, it was.

Speaker 3 (04:31):
It was the same year. It was the year before
she passed. You know, when she passed, I was in prison.
Vested me up because I just talked to him, like
the day before he told me he was gonna be
all right, and then the next day when.

Speaker 1 (04:41):
I called the check on him, he had passed. You
I was out here with him. I was still damn.

Speaker 3 (04:45):
Fifteen to eighteen.

Speaker 1 (04:47):
I didn't fix you while he was in there. Should
be crazy.

Speaker 3 (04:53):
Man. You don't know who with you for real until
you're in a position where you're not asset to people.
You know, everybody. When you an asset, everybody love you.
When you know what I'm saying, you can you can
provide a service or something for somebody just in some capacity.
They mess with you, man, But when you ain't really
an asset, man, everybody do you wrong?

Speaker 4 (05:14):
Everybody do you wrong? But do you think the mans
your son? Do you think God makes sure a nigga
go through that?

Speaker 3 (05:19):
To see? I think he did with me. I had
to see. It's a lot of people who it's not
real too because they haven't went through it. And it's
some people that will never go through it. You know,
you could tell somebody your story or something you went through.
I could tell somebody your story something I went through,
and to them, it's.

Speaker 1 (05:37):
Just like what you know what I'm saying, ain't no way.

Speaker 3 (05:42):
Well, this is like our real life, these real experiences,
really things that we went through a far fits to
some people the way that we came up. It's reality
and enduring all that, yeah, reality, but we still even
minorities in that aspect because the rest of people ain't
used to going through all that.

Speaker 1 (06:01):
All the guns and shooting and drugging. That's that's television.
That's the stuff. Movies are made for a lot of people.

Speaker 3 (06:07):
Your life, movies is made of real You can play
some of yourself and some of your own.

Speaker 1 (06:13):
Some of you. I seemed like that slip you know,
God for real? Let me let me so, what was
that moment when you were like, and I ain't going
back jail? Ain't like?

Speaker 3 (06:26):
What did you make your mind up in there when
you got out?

Speaker 1 (06:28):
You?

Speaker 3 (06:29):
When I was in there for them girls had me
messed up when I was there, I can so I
think I just decided I ain't going to prison no
more because I just I'm too I'm not mostly equipped
to be prince nigga. Man, I'll be in there me enough.

Speaker 1 (06:47):
Hell report. I mean, I'm worried about who he you
say whatever you want to saying. I'm worried about who.
I ain't want of them nigga who just yeah that
losing weight and ship.

Speaker 3 (07:01):
Leave this west?

Speaker 1 (07:03):
I got.

Speaker 3 (07:04):
I think I think when I when I've got my emotion,
It got myself.

Speaker 1 (07:11):
Oh man, I was up in there.

Speaker 3 (07:12):
I might have slept three hours a day. You know, man,
you don't want to get up. You don't want to
FaceTime me.

Speaker 1 (07:18):
Why you don't want to say time?

Speaker 3 (07:21):
What are you doing?

Speaker 1 (07:23):
What are you doing?

Speaker 3 (07:24):
I'm gonna tell you what's crazy. This got pregnant while
I was in there. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (07:29):
So you pushed out, You a bitch to go to
the dick.

Speaker 3 (07:32):
Man.

Speaker 1 (07:32):
You know how I'm heling business.

Speaker 3 (07:34):
I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing on my
end as much as I.

Speaker 1 (07:38):
Can from in here. Yeah, you know what I'm saying.
But I just learned.

Speaker 3 (07:43):
This is This is what really straight up, it's a
lot of reasons not to go to prison. Man.

Speaker 1 (07:48):
My reasoning is that I feel like it's my philosophy
that Jody is a motherfucker.

Speaker 3 (07:55):
Man. And no matter how much reassurance you're giving somebody verbally,
you know what I'm saying over the phone, You can't
beat the.

Speaker 1 (08:05):
Guy sitting next to her at work, man.

Speaker 3 (08:08):
You can't beat the guy who ride the train with
her every morning and tell us she beautiful and every
now and then he got a rose for or you
know what I'm saying. When she upset, he's right there
to patter on the back and say you want to
go to lunch and just beat her that physical comfort?
Did a woman do need? You just can't beat that
no matter how much you talking to him. I just
feel like physical undefeated when it comes to woman, that

(08:31):
physical reassurance. So I want to be around you know,
hug Man when O Jody do so? Knowing so knowing
that like left though, like.

Speaker 1 (08:45):
Did make you question everybody?

Speaker 3 (08:47):
Yeah? Like every every everything? It makes you real what
they call it strict? I think that's what girls be
calling me now, like you strict?

Speaker 1 (08:59):
You bet her.

Speaker 3 (09:00):
I don't think I'm bitter. I think just now I'm
not gullible or green. And then sometimes my obsession with
not being gullible or green is a bit overbearing because
you might not even be doing something, but I think
you're doing something I think everybody doing to You know
what I'm saying, it's like what you up to even

(09:21):
if you ain't up to none?

Speaker 1 (09:23):
What you think that is? I don't think it's in security.
I think it's just giving me spirit. You know what
I'm saying, It's PTSD more than this insecurity. It's you
know what I'm saying. PTSD come in different forms, you know.

Speaker 3 (09:36):
And if I've been through a stage in my life
where the person that I trusted the most probably hurt
me the most, have betrayed me the most, I'm gonna
have trauma for that, mental trauma for me. It's not
everybody's responsibility to deal with it. But if you're gonna
deal with me, it's something that we're gonna have to

(09:56):
work through, you know, just like if you went through
something in the practice. Woman went through some of the
past awayship. You know what I'm saying, and I gotta
I have to show you that you got to reassure her.

Speaker 1 (10:09):
Yeah, that's not me and that's not what I'm on.
And I get it.

Speaker 3 (10:12):
I gotta give you grace, you know what I'm saying,
and let you know, Hey, all right, I get it.

Speaker 1 (10:16):
That isn't really what I'm on. That ain't what you
know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (10:23):
So well, girling now with the baby, what shit man
trying to come back? That's that's the most that's the
most insulting part though, See.

Speaker 1 (10:31):
Again when you got it, Yeah, you tried to see
if it was still there.

Speaker 3 (10:40):
It wasn't even about it still being there. It was
like it really was more like a ha ha. Really,
you know what I'm saying, she got pregnant. It's somebody
who I'm you know you and you know we in jail.

Speaker 1 (10:52):
We talked that good talk. So I'm we married, you know.
You know, Hey, y'all hold up my girl. Bro. I
niggas thought that was trill by for real.

Speaker 3 (11:05):
I's sorry, baby, you know how he is? Man, Muffy,
I'm saying it's a lot. I used to be there
giving niggas advice. Oh, man, nigga, and I nig being
there on the phone. Tell me might walk on to

(11:29):
a hey, brother, and I see, I don't go through
all that with my girl. You know. See I got
a good one. Yeah, you know what I'm saying, man,
But I don't talk to her. How you talking to
you know what I'm saying. You bringing this list of
your chain game to her?

Speaker 1 (11:45):
Bro? He all this on her? Brother? You gotta just
treat that woman like a lady. Ye, speak life into her, bro,
It's howking fucking.

Speaker 3 (12:07):
Hey, So did they did you find out and they
found that in the other shoes?

Speaker 1 (12:12):
Fucking oh so I got like one partner. You know,
you up everybody know you.

Speaker 3 (12:21):
Know you talk to buds of post. You know what
I'm saying, Come you little you know that's that's your community.
When you locked up. You know what I'm saying, Yo, Yo,
your unit, that's your community. So you y'all allady know
each other a little bit, you know what I'm saying.
And I'm the nigga of the fool.

Speaker 1 (12:35):
There's been ahead to give a nigga relationship by on
how it worked.

Speaker 3 (12:39):
And then you know, I end up getting pregnant. Man,
I was damned on suicide watching it.

Speaker 1 (12:44):
Damn and their motherfucker Like God.

Speaker 3 (12:47):
Then I tell my boy, he just we just smoked
through it. Man.

Speaker 1 (12:52):
I did a lot of percocets and smoking and that's
how we did to get through it.

Speaker 3 (12:57):
And then I end up to another female through the Instagram.
But I was in there and she kind of got
me through it, you know what I'm saying. But at
first I was messed up, so old girl she was
just cold by it. She was cold hearted, like, oh, yes,
what she saying. Oh it was bad man, listen man,
the lady. So when she got pregnant, I knew that

(13:21):
I was gonna find out.

Speaker 1 (13:22):
This is real, This is real, true story. You embarrassing me.

Speaker 3 (13:25):
But listen, so uh.

Speaker 1 (13:33):
Look look what she.

Speaker 3 (13:35):
Do to me back many is just he hard with
me on so she gets pregnant on me and don't
want me to know she got pregnant. Yeah, man, shot
had caused. The prison tells the prison I got a contra.

Speaker 1 (13:52):
Man, Hey, the man got phones. The man got oo.

Speaker 3 (13:57):
I'm in my work detail, work detail in Valdosta State
Prison and then my work detail I worked at the
chemical plane.

Speaker 1 (14:04):
I walked back in.

Speaker 3 (14:05):
He folks tore my shit up. You know what I'm saying,
go in there. They lock me up there. One of
my own found my phones.

Speaker 1 (14:10):
Everything.

Speaker 3 (14:11):
I'm in just the whole for like maybe like seventy
They gave me ninety days in the whole. I'm in
there like seventy days before. A lieutenant came by and
was talking to me because you know, someone be cool.

Speaker 1 (14:23):
I'm like, bro, what what what made time to just
shake my ship down?

Speaker 3 (14:26):
He say, Man, somebody called from the streets on somebody
called from the street on the nigga in prison.

Speaker 1 (14:32):
Man told him, I got a phone.

Speaker 3 (14:34):
You know what I'm saying. And then I get out.
I get I had I had a phone bard around it.
You know what I'm saying, I get out, go deepail.
I wanted my phone from a little chip in. You know,
I'm trying to hit up. I'm blocked on every you
know what I'm saying. Everything, So I end up making
a make a fake Facebook.

Speaker 5 (15:08):
Yeah, out MANI out make a fake Facebook, bro, And
she accepted it.

Speaker 3 (15:14):
Motherfuckers?

Speaker 1 (15:15):
So what what?

Speaker 3 (15:17):
What?

Speaker 1 (15:17):
What the profile was? What was the name? It was
like Rerin's old Jones, It like that. I was some
very fly nigga.

Speaker 3 (15:28):
You know. I did my part, you know, with my
catfish ship. I got damn put a whole page together,
you know. And she accepted the page. And I'm going through.
How I find out she's pregnant. I'm I'm you're a
Gemini too, so you know, like we real like. So
what I do is I go through her pictures and

(15:48):
then on one of her pictures, one of her homegirls
here commented, m hm, oh my god, just so beautiful.
I can't wait, and then she wrote a date after
the comment. I swear nobody ever said she's pregnant.

Speaker 1 (16:05):
Look how I found out? And I was dead right.

Speaker 3 (16:09):
The homegirl said, oh my god, you're so beautiful. I
can't wait, and she wrote a date. The date was
six months from that time. But I had just done
three hold yesterdays in the hole that nine months, so
I went, you can't wait. They went to the whole
three months ago. Six months from now, that'll be March hime.

(16:32):
Much to hell, it's bitch pregnant. I called my sister
and I got my sister the three where she hadn't
blocked my sister, and I said, bit you pregnant?

Speaker 1 (16:44):
Who told you that? Don't call my phone again. Don't
call it, tell you that the phone with me and I.

Speaker 3 (16:49):
Called a prison again.

Speaker 1 (16:50):
I ain't talked to it no more.

Speaker 3 (16:52):
I just it was just that cold like this.

Speaker 1 (16:55):
Damn, what's up? Uh crazy? Said Hell that's brother. Oh
she was one of us. It was June fifteen. Oh yeah,
she crazy fifteen. Damn Well look, so.

Speaker 3 (17:13):
Uh I get out. That's why I said, if you
do me wrong, I know we we like minded. You
do me wrong, I respect it. If you stand on her.
The biggest insult is to do me wrong and then
try to come back and do it. Because now you
trying me, you ain't even standing on it. You know

(17:33):
what I'm saying, And that's how I felt. That's why
I had to you know what I'm saying, Like I
think that's probably why I hit her, just to treat.

Speaker 1 (17:41):
Her bad respectfully, you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (17:44):
When when she came, I had to hit her. But
I had to hit her because I kind of wanted
to sloat out like I don't want to hit her
like she ain't nothing like, not like when I was
in love with her.

Speaker 1 (17:53):
I'm like, you, look at you, stupid. Now you got
a baby, nobody to take care of you, nothing. What
do go to?

Speaker 3 (18:00):
He won't messing with it no more?

Speaker 1 (18:01):
Yeah, dead beat John.

Speaker 3 (18:03):
So she go from a guy handling business, go have
a baby with a dead beat John. I get I
get out of prison. Then you this is the worst
mistake in my life. I can't believe I did this.

Speaker 1 (18:14):
And now I'm overly and salted. But you ain't. You
wasn't to go for this ship, no never, Yeah, but
you still had to go that. I gotta make you
feel my pain a little bit. Yeah yeah, yeah, come on,
get get out.

Speaker 3 (18:29):
You gotta go four in the morning, get him out
of here. Yeah, ain't no lay up nothing beat it, yeah,
scram you know what I'm saying. But that's just because
that was my life, you know, I dam I'm glad
you ain't get out and trying to make that your
baby and all that man your fiance, Man, that ship
was my style. Man for what when I was at

(18:50):
my lowest points, you wasn't messing with me. You and
did your thing. You gotta stand on it.

Speaker 1 (18:54):
What you value the most in friendship relationship?

Speaker 3 (18:58):
H h genuosity. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (19:07):
I just value real friendship.

Speaker 3 (19:10):
You know what I mean.

Speaker 1 (19:11):
It's so much like it's so much fake ship. I
value ship like all little Dad.

Speaker 3 (19:18):
You know Dave, I love Dave two my man to
y'all type of relationship or relationship like I got, like
my brother Chad Chack got it Like it's just certain relationships.

Speaker 1 (19:27):
It's just different. You know how nigga be your friend,
but he and your friend? How he your friend? It's
my man, she's my friend and I love you too,
but you know my friend then my.

Speaker 3 (19:37):
Man, he gonna he gonna shake something for real about me,
like out of the love, not out of the opportunity
that could comfort doing something funny. Friends is just there
for you. Man.

Speaker 1 (19:48):
Just the other day, my partner, I guess he out
of town or something.

Speaker 3 (19:52):
His sister, she's seven months pregnant. She called a flat
tiring in Union City. I'm indicator. She takes me like midnight,
like I got a flat time and in your city.
I jump up and go change your tie. But it's
my best friend's sister. You know what I'm saying. I
ain't even calling about it. I don't even say you
sister got a flat. We still ain't talking. It's like
two three days ago. It's my it's my brother sister.

(20:12):
So you just got to be there for your folks
here all because even when it it's like a it's
like your friends are really your family. You ain't choose,
so now your friends is more than more. You know
what I'm saying, Like I ain't I love my relatives.

Speaker 1 (20:31):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (20:31):
And I say this all the time.

Speaker 1 (20:33):
My mama life when I said, but I didn't choose nothing,
y'all folks.

Speaker 3 (20:37):
So at the end of the day, you know what
I'm saying, this is my family, my family, family, all
my relatives.

Speaker 1 (20:45):
And I do love y'all. Don't get this.

Speaker 3 (20:46):
We related. We related. You know what I'm saying, You
my mama sister's son.

Speaker 1 (20:51):
Though I ain't have nothing to do with it. I
didn't choose that.

Speaker 3 (20:54):
It's my man, this is my my brother. I chose
it for me.

Speaker 1 (20:58):
I said that.

Speaker 4 (20:59):
I said that you want to I said, we gotta
look back on family and friends from the dirt.

Speaker 1 (21:04):
Like if I was adult, would I choose you as
my friend?

Speaker 3 (21:08):
We most of the people, we wouldn't choose, like we
try to tolerate people that we feel like we're supposed
to tolerate.

Speaker 1 (21:15):
Well, most motherfucker. You wouldn't fuck with that motherfucker if
you just met him today. Do you got that? Fuck it?

Speaker 4 (21:21):
But know, like like immediately, like you know, because I
got that. But you know what I'm saying, like, I
ain't like I condemn the f I did that to say,
fuck bro, it don't matter. Man, I swear to God,
that's a gift of the curse. Though yeah, I think
I said that all the time.

Speaker 3 (21:38):
One of the greatest got gifts that guy gave me
is never mind.

Speaker 1 (21:43):
Oh look, come on explain it. Never mind. That's it
right there. That's one of the greatest gifts he gave
me I had. I'm a real deal life squeeze. I
can love you to death and never mean and I
meant both O us in love with you, and I swear.

Speaker 3 (22:02):
To god, I'm not now explaining ship because how does
shit go like that?

Speaker 1 (22:06):
It's just a Gemini in us.

Speaker 3 (22:08):
It's like you gotta meet me there reciprocity, Like you
gotta really meet me right there.

Speaker 1 (22:12):
No, I know what you said. I want you to
like saying.

Speaker 3 (22:15):
I'm saying you, but I'm saying the person. Okay, you
know what I'm saying. It's like, if I'm like here
with it with you, you got to be there with
me with it and we rocking. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (22:24):
All respect, dude, I ain't gonn say too much dollar
respect for my child mama. That was a fast, high.

Speaker 3 (22:28):
Pace relationship, full of bullshit, full of good shit fun.
The minute we got together, we were together and we
was locked in. We were together five years after that. Yeah,
my most successful, funniest, best relationship in my life up
to now. It's the badst best relationship.

Speaker 1 (22:42):
In my life. We was rolling with it, you know
what I'm saying. She met me there has she not
met me. What my energy was that she'd have been
a never mind too. You'll see somebody or you'll see
a woman he's like, Dang, I like you, Dang, I'm
into you.

Speaker 3 (22:54):
You go to playing.

Speaker 1 (22:55):
You got about seventy two hours to be in love
with me. In about seventy two hours, you need to
be a full blown love. I won't change my mind.
I don't want to do this, no boy.

Speaker 3 (23:04):
And when I told you how I felt over the
day on the first day I saw you, when I
told you I loved you, and you looked at me
like I was crazy.

Speaker 1 (23:14):
I meant that.

Speaker 3 (23:16):
I know what I like, I know what I want you.
Look at you. You fine, we're talking there talk, I'm
learning you intelligent, you know what I'm saying. I'm looking
at you very sexey.

Speaker 1 (23:26):
What else? I love you?

Speaker 3 (23:28):
I love you anything else? Anything? Look to teach from there,
you get you to Okay. If I want you to something,
I want you to look a certain type of way,
I could just put you in. Yeah, you know what
I'm saying. You know, you know it'd be tough for
me with dealing with like women who like you know,
I think they got it going on because that.

Speaker 1 (23:46):
Ain't what I'm looking for for a woman, you know
what I'm saying, So it can make you whatever I
want to make.

Speaker 3 (23:50):
When women be trying to be impresion and you are imprincipent,
I think it's super impressive that women are doing stuff
and they great, and they got these good jobs and
all this money and stuff. That's never been the person
that draw me to a woman. I'm gonna treat I'm
gonna treat the pulpd same way I treat it. But
y'all not getting treated no difference. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (24:07):
The kids do I like you?

Speaker 3 (24:08):
You know what I'm saying. Have you put yourself and
put yourself in my heart and my almost and the
point the way I feel responsible for you? Because if
I feel responsible for you, I'm gonna do everything I
need for you. So regardless of what you got, I'm
gonna come through. I'm not dating a woman for me.
What what's what's the ship that you just can't turn
away from? Like if she got these type of days
like what she got me?

Speaker 1 (24:29):
Oh mile, I like a mile, like a real mile,
just carry it like gracefully, like who she find she
don't even want to be and she don't even want
to be. She like a hookah girl or something like this.
You know, you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (24:48):
I'm just saying to something mild like that. She just
do some basic something. Not call it basic, no job,
but she just do something. She wa get stopped up
fine as a fun just find it. Don't don't even
know it, but don't even wet it. She just she
just naturally just just yeah, it's a but it'd be
an air about a woman and every woman don't god like,
you could see something you like, damn she fine. You

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ever seen something you ever seen somebody like I think
it's just all in how women carried. You ever seen
a dude possibly cussing somebody out and it was funny
cussing the female out you seem like look like and
then you ever seen a dude talking to a female
and it makes you want to intervene. It's that was her.

Speaker 1 (25:30):
They ain't have nothing to do with you.

Speaker 3 (25:31):
Her air was different her or but hay up, why
are you talking to that later like that? You know
what I'm saying, I've done it. I've been the one laughing.
I've been the one intervening because it was all on
how the woman was carried receiving it. You feel like
that wasn't that's not warranted because you see a.

Speaker 1 (25:48):
Bitch that Yeah, she deserved it. Yeah, now you're right.

Speaker 3 (25:51):
You know what I'm saying. She walked through here and
she got on something real classy and the dude reach
over and grab the ass and she tweak out, like, hey,
what is you doing lady? She walked through the ass
out of the nigga might have an attention.

Speaker 1 (26:03):
It's like.

Speaker 3 (26:06):
You hep wrong, But I mean, like what you thought
it was gonna do?

Speaker 1 (26:11):
Hey, let me see, So what what do you think?
What do you think that like? From traditional to Martin Like,
what's the what's that?

Speaker 3 (26:22):
How did that shift? Where that shift that like traditional
people and Martin people? Social media I think before then
enhanced it.

Speaker 1 (26:33):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (26:34):
Yeah, I think they got to a point of where
they wanted to be like us more than they wanted
to be better than us. I think women always wanted
to be better than us. It was always they took
pride in kind of being better than us. And then
I think they started taking pride and saying that we
could do it too, but we could be the same.

Speaker 1 (26:54):
But what made these nigga turn the bitch it though,
I think, what if the wrong the roads just flipped
one of us.

Speaker 3 (27:02):
Gotta be.

Speaker 1 (27:08):
Somebody nobody's work.

Speaker 3 (27:11):
Somebodys niggas just niggas just folded man. Niggas folded man
because they possessed the thing that guys want more than
anything in the world than when it's being pushed it
they should carry it, you know, bad Girl's style. It's
like it turned a lot of me.

Speaker 1 (27:30):
It's frail.

Speaker 3 (27:31):
It's hard because a lot of needgas act hard. But
you know they tender chicken tender for real. Yeah, I'm tender.

Speaker 1 (27:42):
But you but you you never made yes.

Speaker 3 (27:45):
But I'm never mind. I'm a different type of tender.
I'm tender for what's mine, Oh for sure, you know
what I'm saying. And then once you out, once you
outside of their space, I could care less, baby like
you can't do nothing but embarrass yourself from here trying
to make me mad.

Speaker 1 (27:58):
Facts, you know what I'm saying. The only thing you're doing,
and you breaking that ship down. You're breaking that ship down, bro,
when you with my carrying my concern Oh man, you
killing me? Oh yeah, you know what I'm saying. But
once you outside of that, and I'm not.

Speaker 3 (28:11):
Even looking at once I put you outside of that.
Once I put you outside of that, it's, oh, I
can't care this. You're not hurting me.

Speaker 1 (28:19):
You embarrassing yourself.

Speaker 3 (28:22):
You know?

Speaker 1 (28:23):
So could you.

Speaker 3 (28:25):
Could you date a woman like that was just the
bread woman?

Speaker 1 (28:33):
Yeah? Because so I ain't good at that, you know
what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (28:40):
I can date a woman that's the bread winner, but
that's gonna be irrelevant because I'm still gonna do what
I feel like i'm supposed to.

Speaker 1 (28:45):
Be doing, even if she makes more money than me.

Speaker 3 (28:48):
I struggle with that, Like Exus, anybody will tell you
then with me, they tell you like she could tell
me she's taking me.

Speaker 1 (28:56):
Out and I still end up paying the tabs.

Speaker 3 (28:58):
You know what I'm saying. Even though it was like,
hey babe, I want to take you out today, I'm
like cool, Okay, Then when that lady bring the.

Speaker 1 (29:04):
Receipt, I'm still gonna pay. Yeah, you know what I'm saying,
just just the person I am, even.

Speaker 3 (29:09):
If I know you can afford it, Even though if
I know you're supposed to be taking me out, I
just feel like less of a nigga.

Speaker 1 (29:15):
You know what I'm saying, Just why you're going the person?

Speaker 3 (29:18):
You know what I'm saying. You can go in that person,
but you can't really go in that person in front
of me like that too much because I feel like
less of them.

Speaker 1 (29:25):
Man, bring me something, bring me something, bring something, but
you can't.

Speaker 3 (29:30):
How I look this lady that brought a receipt and
she had it to you, I'm gonna cuss her out
even if you was supposed to be paying?

Speaker 1 (29:37):
Hey, baby, what you know what type of nigga? I
look like.

Speaker 3 (29:41):
I need to know.

Speaker 1 (29:43):
I had a lady do that, like a couple of
weeks ago. I'm sitting there evening with say, so, how
should I do the tail?

Speaker 3 (29:48):
Put it on separate tails?

Speaker 1 (29:49):
I'm like, it's just me and her baby?

Speaker 3 (29:50):
Why you thought I wasn't paying the fuck?

Speaker 1 (29:53):
I look like what you think made women feel so
entitled these day? Oh mhmm. The man who weren't getting
women before they had paper? Well you cracking codes around

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your mother? And what it is?

Speaker 4 (30:15):
The man who wasn't getting women niggas who made the
made made puss it valuable? Who niggas who put the
value on pushing like now, the prostitution was different. Niggas
doing whatever they run tell what niggas thought, like me
and a bitch and feel like offen the spinding, spend
a dime on they hold the first day or this
and that that ship fucked the game up?

Speaker 3 (30:33):
But who Foster?

Speaker 1 (30:36):
You know what he doing? I mean that what he
be rapping about that? But like I ain't know this
like his music, that was what he doing? Is he
be talking about it in the songs like Barbs the House?
Why I don't I ain't.

Speaker 3 (30:49):
I don't know sid to be talking about buying bits
and ship like and you were crazy and broken? If
you ain't.

Speaker 1 (30:55):
I love his music, but I still listen like I
ain't gonna buy that. I'm not gonna do that. I
don't think I'm doing. I ain't gonna partake in that one.
I like you gotta like me, you know what I'm saying.
I can't. I gotta feel you like me too. You
gotta show me you like.

Speaker 3 (31:10):
I know you like me.

Speaker 1 (31:11):
I like woman who liked me me too. If you
ask me my type, that's my type of one who
liked me. Yeah, I want what I.

Speaker 3 (31:17):
Said that you like me?

Speaker 1 (31:18):
That's what?

Speaker 3 (31:19):
Oh? I love you?

Speaker 1 (31:19):
You like me, I love you hard like me. All
that trying to pocket check me. I got here bench
you let's go here.

Speaker 3 (31:27):
You trying to see if it's here. It's here, Like,
stop trying to pocket chick me. But it's so many
men who feel Okay, dang, I wasn't ever able to
get these girls.

Speaker 1 (31:38):
You know what I'm saying. And now I'm you know
what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (31:40):
I'm grown. I'm having paid all they wanted some pay.
Now you'll see him out with a woman you know
he don't belong with. You.

Speaker 1 (31:47):
Ever seen two motherfuckers out and you're like, what the
there y'all doing?

Speaker 3 (31:53):
That ship? That would be looking like they don't even
be looking good, just be looking like, what the hell
y'all doing? Said, it's my boyfriend, what a home, got
some paper, Then he got a new car, and he
got a burke, and he got everything else.

Speaker 1 (32:10):
I want to do for you. I did a lot
for my child mother.

Speaker 3 (32:13):
I still do, you know what I'm saying, But it's
somebody who I don't mess with me. I can't wait
to do things for somebody who don't mess with me.
I don't even know why you feel like I should
be giving you something.

Speaker 1 (32:27):
What you think made.

Speaker 3 (32:28):
Niggas start feeling tight up for other niggas success like
niggas same ship.

Speaker 1 (32:33):
Like on the other hand, white feeling tighter for other
niggas like how like how you might have a friend
like bro, I knew you reapover you fucked up? Like
what they think they supposed to get cause they knew
you when you was broke. You ain't gonna like my
answer to that.

Speaker 3 (32:52):
This my folks, everything hell because I don't know you
because I know you, not you, I ain't talking about
see what I just said that we're talking about, my folks.

Speaker 1 (33:03):
I'm just saying. I'm saying, like in general, like not
not somebody locked in with that my faults.

Speaker 4 (33:10):
That's different because you because because we locked in, that
means you you went on a journey with me, That's right,
That's totally different. I'm saying like a motherfucker a relative,
you know what I'm saying, Or a motherfucker that just
knew you.

Speaker 3 (33:22):
I just know you. You know how people you ever
heard him on the fuckers say like I knew him
when he was but they ain't never hung together nothing.
Just motherfucker knew back in.

Speaker 1 (33:30):
School because we were trying to say your real name,
but they don't know you for real. Yeah, like I
knew you, like I like I know him, Like you're
talking about LaMarsh first off? How you doing that?

Speaker 3 (33:41):
Yeah, like we get it.

Speaker 5 (33:42):
You went to middle school with the niggas. Try to
go by a big bang black exactly. You get what
I'm saying like that like what that means though, But
they not really everybody. So when you heard, like you hard?

Speaker 1 (33:54):
So guess what every day I tell got on the
way here.

Speaker 3 (33:58):
You know what I'm saying, I try to Champ. You know,
champing'side guy. You know I talked to somebody else. I'm like, shit,
I'm gonna go do this interview with Bank. Oh yeah,
why I know? But okay, get I get it. Nigga
you want to associate their self the greatness of you
know what I'm saying. I've been walking in the club.
I know you've been walking in the club. And the
nigga who did not pull up to the club which

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you saw you and he knew just if he just
walked close enough to you, he good.

Speaker 1 (34:24):
He's great.

Speaker 3 (34:25):
So it's flattering you in a sense, and I don't
take offense to it when it happens to me because
I know you know what I'm saying that it's really
like you know what I'm saying, It's like oration, but
at the same time, you're not really unto about the.

Speaker 1 (34:37):
Sours, not not though I'm talking like the sours like
motherfucker know, like I'm not. They not no longer.

Speaker 3 (34:45):
They don't have the access that they feel like they
once had. Basically you get what I'm saying, Like, we
see how I'm trying.

Speaker 1 (34:51):
To put this. There's a reason that they don't have
the access to you no more.

Speaker 3 (34:55):
Whatever they did though, right, Yeah, anybody in your life
because we Gemini bro We the best people to ever live.
You know, I'm never mind facts, facts, thanks, most successful,
smartest people to ever live, craziest Einstein was a Gemini.
I ain't gonna do all that, but we're the ones,

(35:15):
We're the chosen people. Yeah, I agree, you know what
I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (35:18):
I agree.

Speaker 3 (35:19):
We're not leaving nobody behind that didn't make us, baby,
nobody didn't.

Speaker 1 (35:29):
I I've never broke up in all my relationships. Have
you noticed in another conversations? I ain't told you when
I left left for a woman. I've never broke up
with nobody in my life, never broke up with one.
I believe you stick, stay and figure it out no
matter how it's going. I've never broke up with a woman.

Speaker 3 (35:48):
I might have done things to cause somebody to leave
me when I withdrew myself from the relationship, but most
of me. But I've never been the one to say
I want to end a relationship. I don't end relationships.
I let us the people in them and then make
them stand on it. Thanks in relationships, we can fix
it as long as we willing to fix it, matter
it's a friendship, an intimate relationship, business relationship.

Speaker 1 (36:12):
You know, I don't really I'm different on that.

Speaker 4 (36:16):
Button the other button because I because I because I
had to search inside myself to see what was holding
me back. You know what I'm saying now now that
I done cleared out, cleared my path can't hold me
back but me. Now you get what I'm saying, because
you know and then like you say, we so we
we we think we are nurturers and fixers, like we're

(36:37):
gonna spend time trying to fix some motherfucker that can't
be fixed and be breaking ourselves.

Speaker 3 (36:42):
Fact, that's a fact that see It's scary when you
say that, because we also operate in a realm where
we almost got to give people grace. So it's like
we're riding the line of where do I'm trying to
learn more to be more gracious, to give people a
little more because I've always been fuck it, I've always

(37:02):
been turn up, fuck you need it. So now I'm
in a space where it's like sometimes people people will
fuck over you and not my My problem is the
people to fuck over me with intent to fuck over me.
I guess what intent means a lot exactly, but I
guess what I do. The greatest part, You're right, because
guess what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna tell you over

(37:23):
and over again. Just gonna do that like that right now,
gonna make me.

Speaker 4 (37:27):
Be different towards you. So if you lie to me
or some ship like that or do like that, just
don't say nothing. Just me just a lack of accountability,
a liar. Hey, I can only because because you know
how my mind go. If you're a lie for me,
you're a lie to me, you steal from me, you're
you're fucking around, and call call call the chain game
and get my motherfucking phone to it. You know what

(37:48):
I'm saying, Whatever you'll do some ship like that.

Speaker 3 (37:50):
You'll get breakant on a nigga and think, you know
what I'm saying, my fiance, you you'll do some sucker ship.
So but all that time, I'm pretty sure there was
something there before that that that a nigga could have been, like,
you know what, this ain't that, and you could have
some ship already.

Speaker 1 (38:05):
They're ready to ride for real.

Speaker 4 (38:08):
So I feel like I'm not finna no longer keep
ship around that's blocking the ship.

Speaker 1 (38:13):
They could be around that ship in the way.

Speaker 3 (38:19):
It's strong, but it's hard because sometimes the ship that
is blocking the ship that could be around, and the
ship that you won't around.

Speaker 1 (38:26):
But what you want ain't always good for a man,
I know. But people won't what they want.

Speaker 3 (38:31):
You're right, they say, say, the heart won't what It
won't what you need though, even when it's bad for you.
Because invest the case, a lot of women wouldn't be
with the person that they with, but the heart won't
won't and they know they could go another route and
have a whole different with the girls.

Speaker 1 (38:48):
Like bad dudes.

Speaker 3 (38:49):
She want a bad guy. She on a street niggas.
She want a nigga get some page when she really
probably better off with the corporate guy.

Speaker 1 (38:56):
That ain't what she want. It ain't it don't do
nothing for us.

Speaker 3 (38:59):
She see a nigg like us.

Speaker 4 (39:00):
It's like, I like that, but that's fulfilling though, I'm saying, like, look,
as a man, you can't be fulfilled by something that
on line with your purpose.

Speaker 1 (39:10):
That's the truth.

Speaker 3 (39:12):
So at the end of the day, like I can
want you, but I'm not fulfilled if this ship don't
line with my purpose.

Speaker 1 (39:18):
That's friend, family, whatever. Bro, that's just what it is. Bro.

Speaker 3 (39:22):
Like, So that woman could have showed you all if
that baby, that woman had had that baby, you should still.

Speaker 1 (39:27):
Be trying to get her grace. Is she just fucked?
That's how heart is. You can't saying it's like baby, bitch,
I gotta see this baby every day, so excuse the
fucking yeah. I was prepared to excuse the fuck yeah,
but now I gotta.

Speaker 3 (39:42):
I can't deal with that, like I'm gonna be sucker
sam doing that. So that dropped the line. And a
nigga go try to fuck it and see like you
schluggling and then out.

Speaker 1 (39:53):
But you want to see.

Speaker 4 (39:53):
Though, But that shit just in the line, if and
on line we gotta leave behind, bro. Fact that with family,
and that's with everything. Bro, that's with jobs, that's with everything.

Speaker 3 (40:06):
Because we hold on to some ship so long, then
we look up fifty years from there, like I see
why I went wrong when you had a chance to
do because it's always right there in your face to
remix it.

Speaker 1 (40:17):
You know what I'm saying. That was my prayer.

Speaker 4 (40:19):
But I pray this ship every morning there and night
or move but don't belong. Help me accept the things
that do. Because what we do is when we started
moving ship, we'll.

Speaker 1 (40:28):
Block it out, like we'll close our heart's warning loud
and nothing.

Speaker 3 (40:31):
Then he'll open my ship so I can get the
right ship to come in and release that other ship.

Speaker 1 (40:39):
H Hard. I'm just keeping it on home up brother,
because we'll get stuck. Huh.

Speaker 3 (40:46):
Go ahead, do I got therapist. I'm a therapist over
you got it because it's the top. You got your ship,
your ship open. Peete palls.

Speaker 1 (40:57):
It's like you you know.

Speaker 3 (41:00):
All and stuff like that said, you know, not that
type of podcast, but but you know what I'm saying,
I'm listening.

Speaker 1 (41:15):
I'm impressed with.

Speaker 3 (41:16):
It, like you're talking from enonum plants and walking trails
and drinking them beat juices and and celeeries and ship. Bro,
I'm telling you you're seeing it different.

Speaker 4 (41:25):
Telling niggas is lying. Don't be I don't want to
seem like sound like they don't woke niggas. But I
didn't know, bro, because what caused anxiety other people, not yourself.
You wake up and you beat like when you alone,
don't you be at your best? A lot of people
can't be at be be alone. I'll be at peace,
like like I play mad when somebody call me just

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so they can leave alone.

Speaker 1 (41:46):
She ain't really feeling. I'm gonna talking, hang up the
phone by myself. You know what I'm saying. That's how
it is.

Speaker 3 (41:53):
The ferator out of nowhere and do it. Dance, moll,
dance niggas, cause that's what your happenings said. Within yourself
and gravel water. That means you create your own happiness, right.
Other people look for other people to make them happen.
I got a God gave me a gift that I'll

(42:14):
be happy with them, like I laugh at joke. Nigga
be riding the car laughing this.

Speaker 1 (42:18):
Ship for nothing.

Speaker 5 (42:19):
I told you I was bugging up on the way
here on my head, just cracking up about that ship.

Speaker 3 (42:25):
Yeah exactly.

Speaker 1 (42:26):
I was like, man, this funny here. Somebody was sitting
next to me and thought I was crazy. Bruh, I
answered myself. And all that I hear. You gotta have
some conversations with yourself. You better.

Speaker 3 (42:37):
A lot of people can't deal with theyself brow they
know they ain't being themself.

Speaker 1 (42:41):
I'll be in the middle of problems having conversations with
myself too.

Speaker 3 (42:44):
They don't even know. Man.

Speaker 1 (42:46):
I'd be looking then at the nigga want and it
could be a confrontational issue.

Speaker 3 (42:50):
I'd be having a conversation with myself like man, but no, yeah, no, man,
you little boy, go on ahead, let him make it.

Speaker 1 (43:02):
And then the other side be like, you know, he
can't make it if you don't want him to make it. Yeah,
this side be like, he gotta make it. You gotta
make it because your little man gotta make it. Do
you think a man with no ambition? And then.

Speaker 3 (43:20):
Did you know, like a broken nigga, do you think
he can find find himself? I don't think they can
find theyself when they make it a responsibility for them
to find themselves and not for somebody else to do it.
You know a lot of people with you know, broken

(43:42):
ambition or no drive to really do stuff. A lot
of times they look into other people to be the
source of their greatness. You gotta be the source of
your own great you know. And everybody else wants. Everybody
wants to alley you don't. Nobody want to jump and dunk.
Everybody won't be like, turn me up. You know that

(44:04):
what Niggas was saying, turn me up? You know you
mean telling yourself jump.

Speaker 1 (44:09):
Get in the gym, work on your legs. You know
what I'm saying, work on your core.

Speaker 4 (44:14):
Look, one day you would be jumping from the free
throw line. But everybody want to tell you where you
think that mentality come from?

Speaker 3 (44:25):
M Probably broken mentalities and people just telling them what
they couldn't do often or the things that they're seeing
in front of them being so great that they don't
believe that they could accomplish them for theirselves. Sometimes you
would think something just bigger than you, and once you
think it's bigger than you, it's bigger than you. You know,

(44:49):
you gotta put yourself in a minor in a space
where you feel like you can do anything or achieve anything.
A million dollars possible, ten million possible, one hundred million possible,
But you're only gonna don't get to where you really
feel like within your mind it's possible.

Speaker 1 (45:04):
Do you think your upbringing, your environment play a part
and your ambition? Yeah, for sure, Mom Dukes, you know
what I'm saying, Mom Dukes. So what about other people
like you think the way they was raised?

Speaker 3 (45:19):
Yeah, Mom Dukes. You know, I think it always started
with Mom Dukes. And if you got a dad, you
know what I'm saying. I always say, Mom.

Speaker 1 (45:28):
Duke, because I ain't had a dad part around like that.
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (45:31):
I had my big brothers and unks and shit, and
I definitely was inspired by watching y'all and watching them too, Like, Okay,
this is it.

Speaker 1 (45:40):
You know what I'm saying. Basically, you know what I'm saying.
I was raised around some big shit.

Speaker 3 (45:46):
You know what I'm saying, some people doing great, big things.
You can get an accomplishing big things. So I just
feel like it's what you're exposed to and exposed is important.
That's really what it is.

Speaker 1 (45:58):
My mom exposed me to every thing, so I can
do a little bit of everything. I got some friends
who right now their life is super boxed.

Speaker 3 (46:07):
Inn It's real, you know, pe coach who you know
what I'm saying, type like it ain't you could be
a pee coach.

Speaker 1 (46:14):
You might corrupt, he might could be a corporate nigga.
He might conduce it. It's just real, like they stuck
in a lane.

Speaker 3 (46:25):
What's the most important lesson you learned through life? If
you could just part one out.

Speaker 1 (46:30):
Like mm hmm.

Speaker 3 (46:35):
Most important, that's probably monitor the people that you will
do anything for and make sure that they're willing to

(46:59):
go to the same extent for you. Acts because we
give so much, you know what I'm saying, that we
will forget that we're supposed to be receiving. Two. You know,
I've been in a lot of situations where I've done
the most of people and needed something done for myself

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and everybody went ghost on me. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (47:25):
Then it get figured out.

Speaker 3 (47:26):
But I feel like that as a man, that lesson
has always taught me to just make sure you always
have someone, make sure I'm always able to.

Speaker 1 (47:35):
What's your definition of success? Being able to provide for
your family. Rich.

Speaker 3 (47:44):
Success and rich is being able to do whatever it
is that you want to do, whenever you want to
do it, not to the level of nobody else.

Speaker 1 (47:55):
You can be rich. You can be rich with two
hundred thousands.

Speaker 3 (48:00):
If your life and in your mind and everything that
you want to do you can accomplish with just that
two hundred thousand. Your family straight, you can make trips,
you can you can you.

Speaker 1 (48:08):
Can be rich at two hundred thousands. You can be
some people to them rich won't be the two million.
Some people rich and won't be till they get to
ten million. But I think riches just successful for yourself
is just being able to do everything that you want
to do for yourself, not necessarily living up to other
people's standards of what they consider success and rich is
it's a self thing because you accomplish everything that you

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want it for yourself, you succeeded facts.

Speaker 3 (48:35):
I think it's the same, probably gonna be the same answer.

Speaker 1 (48:37):
What you think your definition of happiness is, that's a
hard question. I can't say that's a hard happiness. It's
hard for me to eaven.

Speaker 3 (48:48):
I think I think me as a person, I still
haven't even got there yet. It's even answer that because
I find most of my happiness in making other people happy,
that I really still thirty five hadn't even figured out
what makes me happy other.

Speaker 1 (49:04):
Other than making other people. Damn.

Speaker 4 (49:08):
So you got that Superman syndrome our death too at
thirty five. Superman syndrome is a real thing, you know that, right,
And you can fix everybody else problem. Do you realize
that you got to fix your own problem first? And
you won't even know what our problem is until we
look deep as out what you think your what the definition.

Speaker 3 (49:26):
Of piece is?

Speaker 1 (49:26):
Though?

Speaker 3 (49:28):
What peace?

Speaker 1 (49:29):
My definition of piece? What's your definition of piece?

Speaker 3 (49:33):
Shit?

Speaker 4 (49:34):
Waking up going to the friserator dancing like you said?
You know what I'm saying. I'll be at peace bro
right now. My definition of piece, bro is right, I
promise you, bro, right.

Speaker 3 (49:47):
Only thing that that kind of rid of me right
now when I be thinking of that nigga day bro
underan that Bro, I'm at peace. Bro. I don't give
a fuck. I think the definition of piece is not
giving a fuck about nothing, being able to adapt to
any situation. So I probably just like the same with

(50:08):
the happiness. I probably had to reach the full level
of piece shit. I give a fuck a lot about
a lot of stuff. You know that shit caused anxiety,
like like.

Speaker 1 (50:19):
They passed at the same time my brother Inky passed.

Speaker 3 (50:22):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (50:24):
I've seen that.

Speaker 3 (50:25):
You know what I'm saying. So it's it's like all
my peace and everything, I gotta get selfish, I gotta
get there.

Speaker 1 (50:35):
Yep. You know, yeah, I ain't there. I know I'm
not there because all.

Speaker 3 (50:38):
My peace I find and making sure everybody else is
at peace, and all my happiness I find watch my
son open his gifts. You know what I'm saying, or
doing something.

Speaker 1 (50:50):
I'm happy when if I wake.

Speaker 3 (50:53):
Up on Wednesday and I'm just laying there and I go,
we cash out my baby mama thousand off. You know
what I'm saying, is she gonna say that, thank you?

Speaker 1 (51:04):
Happy right there?

Speaker 3 (51:05):
You know what I'm saying. Look, that's where all my
happiness that's momentarily happenings. Yeah, but it's all in what
about internally, like we all have happy moments like internally
like you know, like I just sit here by myself
all day and why seeing and laugh at Trump? You
know what I'm saying, I'm just chilling, bro, Like.

Speaker 1 (51:26):
What about that?

Speaker 4 (51:27):
Like like even social media, my social media done right now?
BRID feel the best I ever felt.

Speaker 1 (51:33):
Elma.

Speaker 3 (51:34):
I'm trying to get it back, but it's just like
fuck that she really?

Speaker 1 (51:40):
I know the folks wo get it.

Speaker 3 (51:41):
Back for me.

Speaker 1 (51:43):
Yeah, but.

Speaker 3 (51:45):
I know a guy. But I think when me with
finding peace, I have to learn back to what I said,
it's more selflessness. I think that too much of how
I feel it is based upon how others feel.

Speaker 1 (52:04):
Yeah, you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (52:06):
As a man, I've made it a point to just
be the provider and be the protector and be the
everything to everybody else that I haven't even probably even
open myself up to even being properly seen or heard
by somebody else. Is that a form of seeking? Seeking
validational I was? I would say so, I would say

(52:29):
that validates me to myself. Somebody said something to me
like my kids straight on, folks, straight you know, that's
what validates me is a man, And I think it
probably goes back to not having that around as a
as a kid. The only thing I want to do
is just to be the man is there for his folks,

(52:52):
because I ain't have it in fact, you know what
I'm saying. So it's like, I feel like, as long
as I'm the man, it's around for my kids, around
for my child's mother, and I can make sure that
everybody's okay, my friends, my folks, my coase, intermediate folks,
and I'm doing something greater than what was done to me.
But it's gonna come a time that you're gonna be

(53:13):
sending in the space once and feel like, because you know,
when you're that person, people feel like you don't eat nobody.
You know what I'm saying, You that person. Yeah, so
you're gonna come a time you're gonna be sending in
the spacelight. If I an'll call for motherfucker, I don't
nobody call me.

Speaker 4 (53:28):
If I don't do, if I don't do for me,
ain't nobody gonna do for me, then that shit feels
worse than anything.

Speaker 1 (53:34):
That's how that's how it is right now with me.

Speaker 3 (53:38):
I ain't know what you got.

Speaker 1 (53:39):
I mean, perspective therapy, but that's really what that's how
it is for me.

Speaker 3 (53:43):
Though that's one hundred If I really and I got
people that will tell me they love me, I got
people that I love and I know I'll go to
the first day stick for but I know that I
have to figure it out because.

Speaker 1 (53:55):
I've made the calls before and it ain't you.

Speaker 3 (53:58):
Know what I'm saying With people like us, I can
have two people to call. I could be needing to
call you for help and needing to be called or
help for help. But if I call you for helping,
you don't get to me. I ain't even gonna call her. Yeah,
I'm all right figure it out when I know I
had other resources of other people that I probably could
have called.

Speaker 1 (54:18):
But when I called you for help and you wasn't
there for me, I.

Speaker 3 (54:21):
Just was discouraged with the whole get held portion of
it any because now I'm I'm just figured it out myself.

Speaker 1 (54:28):
I always been on figure it out myself.

Speaker 6 (54:31):
Man.

Speaker 3 (54:33):
Now no facts fact, but that ship you gotta he
gotta bro lemta tell you what I did. One day, bro,
I just went through my cashut, my zeal, my Apple pay.
It was all since I ain't received a motherfucker like

(54:57):
for years, like since that ship been a live, since
them cans up, I ain't getting them a sense and shit,
if some came in, it was like a transaction, not
no gesture. I just seen all the damn gestures I sent.
That's when I'm at now. I'm trying to like be
I'm open, open myself up to Like I just said,

(55:19):
I don't know how to let people do stuff for me.
That's what I meant. I'm trying to get to a
point or a space to wear not only do I
allow it, but I kind of expected require it for myself. Yeah,
because I know I'm gonna pour everything into other individuals,
So I think I just gotta I'm working to get

(55:40):
to a space to where I make sure that people
pouring back into me too.

Speaker 1 (55:42):
You know we're gonna give, and you've been and gave
it all the way. Then they gave it all the way.
But I gave it away. I had to hit bottom
and see that. Bro.

Speaker 3 (55:51):
It's like man, I said, to the point, it's like,
you gotta look at yourself like a bank account. Bro.
If you just keep making withdraws and know the puzz
the I'm gonna be empty to jack at the truth,
like you just keep pawing in the everybody just pawing.
You ain't gonna be empty and you ain't even situate
yourself to get nobody to pour into you because you

(56:12):
you felt like, oh I got it, I can handle.
Its gonna come a time a nigga gonna need somebody,
You're gonna crash.

Speaker 1 (56:17):
It ain't nobody else.

Speaker 3 (56:18):
But what what what when when you need somebody, you
you like me, your mind is like me, and you
needed somebody then they wasn't there.

Speaker 1 (56:30):
So you you just become accustomed just doing it yourself.
It's just like I've never been a group project, and
you might always would just rather me do it.

Speaker 3 (56:38):
I'm gonna get us to a but guess what, you
know what I mean say it is doing. It's gonna
it's gonna hope this resonate with you. If I wasn't
doing so much, I wouldn't need nobody because I know
how to get it. So if I just pouring to myself,
if I saved a bunch of them yes's and termine
the nose, I can tell.

Speaker 4 (56:57):
Myself, yes, you get what I'm saying because I said
yes so many times in the past that I don't
I see myself telling my kids no, seeing myself know
from a bunch of yesters that I said that that
didn't mean nothing.

Speaker 3 (57:14):
You get what I'm saying, so.

Speaker 1 (57:15):
We so at the end of the day, we ain't
never need nobody to help us.

Speaker 3 (57:18):
Just imagine we used if we if we took the
ship that we was giving away and poured it into us,
a little bit of selfis broll man.

Speaker 1 (57:27):
I got this ship called.

Speaker 3 (57:30):
That's a word with a word. So i'ma call out
some words.

Speaker 1 (57:34):
Just first word come your head, curiosity, the cat.

Speaker 7 (57:49):
I thought aboutability, longevity, wellness, hell, leadership, ambitions, creativity, spontaneity, growth, development, resilient, perseverance, collaboration,

(58:15):
team work, technology, advancing, adventure, exploration, diversity, culture, learning, listening, nature,

(58:37):
world inspiration, admirable, balance.

Speaker 1 (58:45):
Stability, empathy, h relating character, overcome mm hmm, wisdom.

Speaker 3 (59:01):
Transformation, change, gratitude, success, I stay, achievement, health, well.

Speaker 2 (59:18):
Connection mhm, platonic purpose mm hm, freedom, successful, motivational.

Speaker 6 (59:40):
Thank mm hmm, and compassion, love, integrity, fatherhood, perspective, I understanding, opinion.

Speaker 1 (01:00:13):
That's hard.

Speaker 3 (01:00:15):
You got some good air, retail, some good air work,
And it was one of these words stuck out to you,
though it made you like damn.

Speaker 1 (01:00:23):
Which one was the one that stuck me the most?
You said, one is stuck the most that's.

Speaker 3 (01:00:31):
I think it was.

Speaker 1 (01:00:34):
Was it purpose? Purpose?

Speaker 3 (01:00:40):
Yeah, it was inspirational.

Speaker 1 (01:00:41):
You're right appreciate that because just finding one word for inspiration,
we inspired by so much. You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:00:53):
I'm inspired by my mama, inspired by my uncles, I'm
inspired by you, inspired by entrepreneurs. I'm inspired by people
to get up every day and just go work a job.

Speaker 1 (01:01:05):
Facts. You know what I'm saying, that's inspiration.

Speaker 3 (01:01:07):
I know folks right now who did broke and won't
do it, so we can find inspiration in so many things.
I think that's why it's.

Speaker 1 (01:01:19):
We got some inspiration in God, inspiration in your children.

Speaker 3 (01:01:25):
I think, I think out of the day's message, we
gotta find inspiration within ourselves. Yeah, that's where you's time
to be selfish. Bro real did it off for everybody else,
And I ain't saying it in a negative way. The
people that deserve it. Man, We're gonna always do for
the people that deserve.

Speaker 1 (01:01:40):
My motherfucker is just bro my cup is empty. I
ain't got no some drips for We read books. Yeah,
what's your favorite? I do books of the week, and
I'm gonna let you choose.

Speaker 3 (01:01:54):
Ah, Well, it's different types of books.

Speaker 4 (01:01:58):
So what type of just whatever whatever, and it's life changing.
Somebody can might read and it might touch them, pulls.

Speaker 3 (01:02:08):
Think everybody.

Speaker 1 (01:02:09):
Subtle Hard, Not Giving the Fucker is a good book.
Yeah for sure, I got it down there.

Speaker 3 (01:02:13):
I read that when all the Laws uh seduction power.
You know, those are good reads. And then gets in
the novels. I like Sydney Sheldon author. Yeah, reading his books,

(01:02:34):
the stories, It's like you're learning and reading at the
same time. Okay, So for those who just like regular novels,
I was just anything Sitney Shelter but self helpful, Subtle Hart,
Not Giving the the Laws of Power. I feel like
that was a great boost that many need to read.

Speaker 1 (01:02:54):
You know what I'm saying. Just in they help you
with relationships, help you with life.

Speaker 3 (01:03:00):
You tapped into the way to experience. Man, that's ship
different that ship, that's a different one. Tell me about it, ship,
I'm gonna.

Speaker 1 (01:03:13):
Get it to you at the end of help to
give your mind. Man, I appreciate you. Bro. If you
give your get your younger self some game, what would you.

Speaker 8 (01:03:21):
Tell yourself, slow down, chill out, your break, just just
vibe svibe.

Speaker 1 (01:03:33):
Out of But then again, man, man the god. But
because m mashing the gas then made me see it
how I see it. Now needed all the real ship
I needed college I needed, you know.

Speaker 3 (01:03:55):
What I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (01:03:57):
They balanced balanced it out. Yeah, yeah, to feed both
sides of your thread. I seen it all. You know
what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:04:05):
I'm grateful to myself for my shortcomings too, because I've
seen some things I know I don't ever want to
see again.

Speaker 1 (01:04:14):
And until you experience things sometimes it's just not real.

Speaker 3 (01:04:18):
That made it real to myself. Acts you know, and
shot in the prison, been through things I know I
don't ever want to go through me. Whether I ended
up on the good side of the bad side or not.
It's just certain things I never want for myself. With
my son now, I got you know what I'm saying.
I just you just say I called you yesterday. But

(01:04:39):
it's too much ice out here. But listen, man, some
get if by something take me out, you got to
give the risk. I gotta be minimal. I had getting
took out. What have you?

Speaker 1 (01:04:50):
Your dad? This nigga died in the Iceland trying to
go see a little bit. I'm not coming there.

Speaker 3 (01:04:55):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (01:04:56):
Everybody rushing to get up back out the house last night.

Speaker 3 (01:04:58):
I'm like, I still looked at it.

Speaker 1 (01:05:00):
It ain't about that I can't.

Speaker 3 (01:05:02):
I can go, but I want to minimize risks for
my baby Facts. So fucking it's a little slippery, I'm
gonna go when it ain't so slippery, really, because I
gotta be here for him, you know.

Speaker 4 (01:05:14):
Then, I thank you, dope, bro. I appreciate you putting
up only man. I appreciate you to let them know
where to follow you at that shit Pep tep in with.

Speaker 3 (01:05:23):
A report the world on Instagram, social media Twitter the
same thing, Report the world, man, y'all can catch me.

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Speaker 3 (01:05:41):
I know what she needs.

Speaker 1 (01:05:42):
I got all of that, man, So.

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