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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello, and welcome to the Spirited Actor Podcast with me
Tracy Moore. I was a casting director for film and
TV and commercials for over thirty years. I transitioned to
a celebrity acting coach after I cast a film New
Jersey Drive with executive producer Spike Lee and director Nick Domez.
I auditioned every rapper from Biggie Smalls to Tupac, and
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I realized that rappers and musical artists they needed help
transitioning to acting. My clients consist of musical artists from
Buster Rhymes to Eve, Missy Elliott, Angela Yee from The
Breakfast Club, and Vanessa Simmons, to name a few. I
also coach sports stars and host as well. I feel
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I have the best of both worlds. As a casting director,
I know exactly what they're looking for, and as an
acting coach, I can coach you to be remembered in
that room. Now I know, I know actors want to
get the job. I get that, but being remembered by
casting director that is powerful. And now it's time for
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meditation of the day. The man who moves a mountain
begins by carrying away small stones. I want to start
off by just saying.
Speaker 2 (01:18):
Relax, relax.
Speaker 1 (01:22):
I know that there are glitches in the system at times, obstacles,
hurdles that we have to jump. However, you have to
find a place of knowing that everything is going to
be okay. You know, the cool thing about animals and
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babies is that they have no concept of time. Right.
Speaker 2 (01:47):
I used to have a dog that I loved.
Speaker 1 (01:49):
His name was Othello, and at the time I had Othello,
I was always on the road between Buster and Eve,
and sometimes it would be a couple of days, sometimes
it would be a couple of months. Regardless regardless of
how long it was, whenever I got to that door,
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Othello would treat me the same way as if I
had just left yesterday. You got to find a place
like that of knowing unconditional love. You've got to find
a place where you just know that everything is going
to be okay because things don't take overnight and there
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are no shortcuts. If you don't want to be shortchanged,
you got to move one stone at a time. You
have to take one step at a time, and you
have to believe that those steps are going to reach
the top of the mountain and your dreams will continue
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to come true. Today, I will continue to take small
steps for the larger picture. Before we get started, I'd
like to remind everyone to look out for my new show,
Inside the black Box. I'll be co hosting with the
great Joe Morton. We'll be on Crackle Network real soon.
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I'll keep you posted. Welcome to the Spirited Actor Podcast
with me Tracy Moore, Actors, writers, directors, producers. I'm calling
all creative beings to sit with me during this special
time with my very special guests that I can also
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call my friend. She accepted the assignment, created an assignment,
and is doing the assignment. And I am so happy
to have her on this show because I feel like
it is beyond a treat that you are going to
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experience today. It is beyond Jim's. The way that this
guest talks to you. She talks to your soul. So
just settle yourself for a moment and take in, be open,
take in everything that she's giving you, because it truly
is from her spirit, her soul, her love.
Speaker 2 (04:23):
That you can feel.
Speaker 1 (04:24):
Ladies and gentlemen, I want you to put your hands
together for the founder, creator, CEO of Guya Goddess. She's
going to tell you about that, Maria Marshall. Ladies and gentlemen, yes,
for real.
Speaker 3 (04:43):
Wow, what an intro, Tracy.
Speaker 2 (04:45):
I love you. I love you and you.
Speaker 3 (04:48):
Don't get to see each other.
Speaker 4 (04:50):
But I'm just so grateful for this moment to be
here and be sharing, you know, with you and the
whole spirit spirited actor podcast crew and our actress that
we have on today and just the world at large.
Speaker 3 (05:06):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (05:06):
Really, just any opportunity to share messages and light and love.
And you know, I've always felt so good from the moment.
Speaker 3 (05:14):
I met Tracy. You, Tracy, somebody.
Speaker 4 (05:16):
Pulled me into your acting class. I had no idea
what I was in store for. You started talking and
I'm like, yes, yes, yes, I was scripping my seat
because I wanted to jump up in front.
Speaker 3 (05:28):
Of the class. And wow, it's the scenes and all
that stuff. So this was pre pandemic for him.
Speaker 1 (05:34):
Yes, definitely, that's what the fun was because I could
see you in real life. Then after the pandemic everything
shut down. But like you said, you know, it's an energy.
It's so contagious, it's so comforting. And we are in
a time where I was talking to someone today about
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today's day fifty two.
Speaker 2 (05:58):
I believe of this for actors, not writers.
Speaker 1 (06:02):
Right, First, tell us who is Gayagadas and what the
climate that we're in right now, and what you feel
that we need.
Speaker 4 (06:16):
Well, I've had many incarnations, but my most recent incarnation
is to be a woman entrepreneur and lots to that story.
But here I am launching an empowerment brand, a healing brand,
and you.
Speaker 3 (06:34):
Know, healings on all levels. Right. I was an actor.
Speaker 4 (06:37):
I considered it myself always to be an actor actress,
and you know, I think this world well for the
company right now, I think we're we are situated at
a really pivotal time. I feel it's divine timing that
I should be where I'm at, that we all should
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be collectively where we're at, that our planet is where
she's at. Gay a goddess, mean spirit of the earth.
I am half Greek, it is Greek. I'm a writer,
I'm an expressor.
Speaker 3 (07:09):
I am a lover.
Speaker 4 (07:11):
I'm a lover of humankind. But I had to go
on my own healing journey. A lot of what happened
to me in my youth. I was able to pour
that into my acting. So it was useful in that sense.
But it also became useful in birthing this brand that
I believe has the capacity to heal and help and
uplift and shed share the light and be in the
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love and come out of the fear, which is the
opposite of love, because everything's love but fear. And so
you know, when we're in lack, when we're in a
writer's strike, when we're in an actor's strike, when we're
you know, not sure we're getting we're going to make
our rent to marrow those that fear will stop us
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from receiving the intuitive guidance and then no knowing our
In turn, our souls know everything already. We are knowing
me and we connect to our truth. We have an
internal compass tells us what's the next right step, how
to put faith in the universe, how to feel supported
from the universe, and when we're in fear that we
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don't hear those messages. So a big part of being
successful in life as an actress, actor, mother, anything you know,
is to be able to navigate from a place of
empowerment and your own power of your internal knowing. Because
we all have intuition which can be developed and trusted and.
Speaker 3 (08:40):
Further alied upon.
Speaker 4 (08:42):
I believe our planet is in at one of the
times of great awakening, and before you know, the sun
comes out.
Speaker 3 (08:53):
The heavy torrential down wo. Right, we're kind of in that, we're.
Speaker 4 (08:57):
Going to things are being revealed, we're having we're having
sort of AHAs and these are good even though they're
not going to seem good. They are good because it's uh,
it's in order for change to happen, we have to
weed out the old.
Speaker 3 (09:14):
What's what's restricting.
Speaker 4 (09:15):
Growth and expansion of consciousness across the planet. Is that
old paradigm stuff of fear and black and you know,
I'm not safe and we're competing and all that. So
we have to take that out. And how does that
get taken out? Some things have to come to the
surface and that that's where we are and it's actually
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all really good, although it doesn't seem that way. That's
where you know, if you connect to your intuition and
the faith is like, Okay, this is all happening for
a reason, right, And what's my partn this?
Speaker 3 (09:48):
Like, what's my.
Speaker 4 (09:49):
Sole journey in this moment when I'm learning through it all?
Where am I being asked to see it as an
opportunity as opposed to, Oh my god, this guy is
falling right.
Speaker 2 (10:02):
I was saying to.
Speaker 1 (10:05):
I'm so excited you guys, because I'm working with Maria
and I feel very blessed to have that opportunity with
her and one of the other producers we're working with.
We were talking about how, you know, I grew up
in this spiritual world, this thirst for conversations with God,
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this thirst for the power of now and the pop
all of doctor Wayne Dreyer. Your roneus O one my
first book I ever read. Then Louise Hayes heal your
you can heal your self. So I'm saying that to
say this was I'm talking eighty three to present day. However,
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when you look on Instagram, things are so oversaturated in
terms of like manifest and seven days say these twenty
words and manifest everything right now? So where is that?
And I know you were this person too. I know
we said that. You know, do you feel that because
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we're talking about the people that you're reaching are everyday people.
It's you know, there's it's universal. So a lot of
people spend so much time and attention on these phones
and they pick up these things and sometimes I feel
like they don't have and I'm like, I'm not who
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am I to judge? I feel like there's a foundation
that I built on from doctor Wayne Dryer to present day,
but that these things on Instagram are like here, put
some water in, stir it and it's going to be
done in five seconds.
Speaker 3 (11:48):
But let's I hear what you're saying.
Speaker 4 (11:51):
And I think, I think besides the context of all
of the study that you did, life is going to
give you opportunities to put this into practice, like, for instance, oh,
I should love myself.
Speaker 3 (12:06):
I should love myself. What is self love?
Speaker 4 (12:08):
And then all suddenly the day you realize, oh my god,
I don't love myself, and here's all the reasons why,
and just this affirmation alone is not going to fix it.
It is a journey. In order to love yourself. You
have to go to your childhood trauma. You have to
go to that first breakup, you have to go to
the day that your father whatever.
Speaker 5 (12:28):
You know.
Speaker 4 (12:28):
We all have our stories, we all have these masks
that we wear, and what we've truly are is an
aspect of the creator in a body, come here to
have lessons and experiences, right, and so that can be
fun but like the journey of self love for most
of us is not the easiest one. In fact that
I'm creating a Facebook group with guy a goddess so
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we can support each other along that way, and you
have to have the life experiences.
Speaker 3 (12:57):
It's lappy in the face and you're.
Speaker 4 (12:58):
Like, no, no, I need to love myself because I'm
going to keep meeting that treat me less then, because
deep down inside I believe that's what I'm worthy of.
Speaker 3 (13:08):
And how do you pull that out?
Speaker 4 (13:09):
Well, intellectually, I know I should have a guy who
has treats me like a goddess, right.
Speaker 2 (13:16):
Like you know, oh there are housekeepers.
Speaker 4 (13:20):
Yes, I'm attracting it right, belief system that I haven't
yet brought to my consciousness. And there's so many layers
to it's not even that, it's what about your lineage?
Speaker 2 (13:32):
What about all the women.
Speaker 4 (13:33):
That came before you that had relationships and men that
treated them less than What about the collective women who
are treated like how do we work on these multiple
individual and collective levels so that we can uplift ourselves?
Speaker 3 (13:49):
And the men also.
Speaker 1 (13:50):
Have a lot of healing to do, right, and it
balances out too, Like you said, it's what we are allowing,
what we are accepting. It's easy to blame other people
or situations for why we are where we are who
we are. However, there's this freedom and peace when you
start to be accountable. Like you said, I'll use myself
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as an example. I was diagnosed with allegedly arthritis last October,
and so when I started to do my due diligence,
it said sugar was the main cause, main cause for inflammation,
no reason in our dietbapah. So I said, you know what,
I've had a long decades of a relationship with sugar.
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Now it's time to end it. So when I decided that,
along with changing the pain level of my hip, it
also took weight off that I didn't think about or anticipate.
And then coming back into who I feel that I
know I am, the alignment, the manifestation, the communication is
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what I know it was to be when I came
here in eighty three with Mary Anne Williamson and all
my people. You know, so I feel like it's a
But it takes discipline absolutely, And how can you encourage
or what suggestions would you give actors creative beings to
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be disciplined.
Speaker 4 (15:25):
Oh for sure. And you know that was one of
the things. I just came from Omega Institute eight nine
day eight day Breath Training Healers levels one through five
with David Elliott who was an actor and a healer,
and his whole thing is love, love, love, love and
love of the stuff and the exchange that you then
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have with the universe. He said in his meditations, which
you can find on Spotify, is like why would people
do this?
Speaker 3 (15:53):
Dally?
Speaker 4 (15:54):
Because you notice, like you feel your spirit, you feel
the energy in your body, and you know the first
one is that I don't deserve or I'm too busy
and I don't deserve self love and self nurturance.
Speaker 3 (16:07):
The second thing.
Speaker 4 (16:08):
Is if you you know how you are energetically before
you do a practice and how you are after, then
why wouldn't you want that on a daily basis? And
you know it's also healing you, uplifting you, up leveling
you so you can attract more and more.
Speaker 3 (16:28):
Into your life, you can be more aligned.
Speaker 4 (16:30):
So, I mean, I think the advice that I would
give to people is to understand it doesn't have.
Speaker 3 (16:37):
To be an hour long.
Speaker 4 (16:38):
I mean, I've got good morning, I love you, three
month journal that I'm going to introduce to you know,
my goddess community. Because I wanted a daily practice of
self love. You know, I did breathwork daily, and my
breathwork daily was kind of like for me. I started
doing it daily because I needed to do it. I
was because stuff was coming up, trauma was coming up,
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like a lot of my chakras are shutting down. Those
are energetic centers. I'm a raking master, so I'm very
self aware of my energy, and so I had to
do it daily. Now I'm not even if I don't,
if I don't feel like, you know, I'm getting shut down,
I still do my breath work practice because I know
what it does for me. I would say for actors
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or so, you have to believe in yourselves, love yourselves,
be confident. You know, you don't want to bring your
troubles into an audition. You don't want to bring energy
negativity into an audition. These tools work great for actors
and being self aware and knowing how to pull in
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energies from the past that then cut them up and
throw them out after the audition's over, because you don't
want to see in pain or negative. If you need
to emote from that place or an audition, great, but
you also have to clear that out so that you
can be their highest vibration the time when you're not er.
Speaker 1 (18:03):
And you know what it sounds like. Where it starts,
It really starts with the self love. I was telling
a friend today that on the airplane you have to
put the oxygen mask on before you can help your child.
So you have to do that in order to be
able to service other people, you have to take care
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of yourself. And what I think about that is that
just what you said, We're busy.
Speaker 2 (18:30):
The time, you know.
Speaker 1 (18:31):
It's like you know, it does require a lot of
time to be disciplined to let's say, have a facial
and nightly facial routine, you know, or an exercising program,
or just to meditate. But like you said, the advantages
are priceless when you sit down and take those moments.
What are ways that actors can start to implement these
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things in their lives where because I want you to
talk about the breathing. After that they can breath, you know,
and relax and let go.
Speaker 2 (19:06):
That's saving.
Speaker 4 (19:07):
Yeah, I mean there's so many The breath is super powerful.
But as you know, I'm I practice reiki, there's crystals,
there's energetic techniques that.
Speaker 3 (19:18):
They can use.
Speaker 4 (19:20):
I believe the more conscious and self aware you are
that you become, you know, the better chance you have
at attracting everything you want into your life. And fear,
the fear, the fear of failure, the fear of rejection,
the fear of not being good enough, like that has
to be addressed.
Speaker 3 (19:39):
You can do that through the breath.
Speaker 4 (19:42):
Through the breath you can get you can let go
of all of those experiences because those that fear is
built on the past and also what society projects at us.
So through the breath you can really work on embodying
more of your light, feeling more of the power of
your higher self. That is the vibration you feel in
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your body when you do this breath work. People feel energy,
that's their soul. And you know so I think like
if you were to say to an actor Tracy, all
you need to do is twenty minutes of breath work
daily and by such and such a time you'll have
a job or such and such a time you will
have the partnership of your dreams.
Speaker 3 (20:24):
Every they'd be on it, right, yeah, yeah, yeah, And
I want to say that.
Speaker 4 (20:30):
It's true because when you clear out all of the debris,
all of the things that make you feel not worthy,
that's when you really get down to business. I mean
the business of attraction. Attracting what is meant for your soul?
You know, that's what we're here for. We come down
to have these human experiences, but as a soul.
Speaker 3 (20:52):
So let's get on with it, right. So I put
it off.
Speaker 4 (20:56):
It's so easy to stay the same status quo. But
status quo, the work is work. I'm not going to
I can't even be uncomfortable. And I cry a lot.
I've cried a lot. If I had jars of tears,
oh no.
Speaker 3 (21:13):
But somebody in MAUI was wearing around her heart her
jar of tears. I was like, oh my god.
Speaker 2 (21:20):
I had a challenge.
Speaker 4 (21:21):
But what I let go each tier, it was a release.
What I released from my heart is grief and resentment
and non forgiveness built me higher and high. So, you guys,
I quit acting because I was afraid of failing in
musical theater department. I loved it. I did not believe
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in myself. Do I sound like a woman today who
doesn't believe in herself?
Speaker 6 (21:48):
How did I get her right practice, through the through
the practice, and now I'm doing things I'm like, am
I crazy?
Speaker 4 (21:59):
Like the audacity of myself? That's my talk at New
Life Expo. But you know, how did I uproot the
fear was through through all of these tools and being
willing to show up for myself, being willing to take
the journey.
Speaker 3 (22:16):
Not everybody's going to choose it. That's okay, you know,
it's okay.
Speaker 4 (22:20):
Maybe not everything meant to get from here to here
in this lifetime, I don't know, but I know in
order for me to do what I know I'm here
to do, I to love myself and I have to
teach women how to connect to that as well and
men as well down the road.
Speaker 3 (22:37):
Right now, we're starting off with the women.
Speaker 1 (22:38):
So I.
Speaker 4 (22:40):
Just think everything you do translates everything you do to
love yourself because you become a brighter, lighter light for people.
Speaker 3 (22:49):
And when you are loving yourself, not only.
Speaker 4 (22:51):
You're healing yourself, but you're emanating that around you. And
it's so magnetizing.
Speaker 1 (22:59):
And one of the things that I really want to
just talk about, because you've said it a couple of times,
in terms of our self worth and what we're deserving of.
And my experience, so many actors don't feel worthy, don't
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feel deserving of. And it's interesting because if you read
a lot of you know, successful whether it's actors or politicians, whatever,
they've had a traumatizing traumatic, some type of childhood that
has something they grabbed onto faith of a mustard seed
to get through practice and then become be where they
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are today. I would say it's a large part of
the actors that I come in contact their journey, and
some of it is let me prove, And I try
to diffuse that because that's like you said, But where
does that where does that come from? You know, that
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that feeling of you know, I know I'm talented, I
know I have a great voice. I get these accolades.
But should I share it or am I?
Speaker 2 (24:21):
You know?
Speaker 4 (24:21):
Because you mean, the lack of the confidence and the
last come from it typically comes from childhood, early childhood experiences.
First of all, anybody who's ever been in a you know,
parents they do the best they can. Some of them,
some of them are abusive, some of them are emotionally withholding.
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You know, my mother never said I love you until
I was thirty five, and I never got a hugger kiss,
and she pushed me away when I put my hand
in her pocket because it was freezing, and she said, oh, she.
Speaker 3 (24:56):
Was amazing woman and loved her children.
Speaker 4 (24:58):
Really just didn't feel comfortab with emotional demonstration. And my
father and when I was seven and he was abusive,
beat the crap out of all of us, and he
was abusive to my mother. And then you know, I
had this fear relationship with men, so all through my
whole life I accepted them from men. I mean, I'm
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telling you, I think I'm just turning the key on
that one. And that's a long journey. But also how
much of it had to do with my mother and
my grandmother and her mother. What happened to do my
grandfather and that side of the family. Remember we come
in also with programming, but also DNA. It's in our DNA,
so there's multiple levels to work on things, and you know,
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it can be fun, it's like a traveling but I think,
you know, look at if you talk to anybody who's
in any kind of program, addiction programming, at least half
of the people are talking about, you know.
Speaker 3 (25:57):
Sexual violation. So that's another thing.
Speaker 4 (26:00):
What is love now sometimes people go in that direction
because they think that's love and you know, invite that
into their life over and over and over.
Speaker 3 (26:11):
That's going to stop you from loving yourself. The shame accumulation.
It was my fault. So there's a lot of stories.
There's a lot that happens to us.
Speaker 4 (26:19):
There's a lot of societal programs, Oh, you can't be
successful if you're not this tall and this body shape
and this kind of skin color, hair color or eye
color or whatever.
Speaker 3 (26:31):
You know, And it's really hard rejection.
Speaker 4 (26:34):
It was a very hard, you know, energy to deal
with when you're dealing with self worth and self esteem issues.
Because I dealt with so I know, like, oh my god,
I that's why I never had a dream. People would say,
what's your dream? And I'm like, I don't have one,
And I.
Speaker 3 (26:53):
Knew I should, like why.
Speaker 4 (26:56):
Oh, Because if I dared to dream and I fail,
it would only prove what I already thought about myself,
which was I wasn't worthy and I couldn't.
Speaker 3 (27:06):
Bear to feel that. It would hurt so much. So
what did I do?
Speaker 4 (27:11):
I played it safe and I played it small, and
I did things I could nail.
Speaker 3 (27:15):
I can stuart down. I was. You know, I could
at a.
Speaker 4 (27:22):
Party pretty like dress beautifully, I could like what I
could do.
Speaker 3 (27:27):
I could have the perfect children and the perfect you know.
Speaker 4 (27:29):
That's those that kept me busy for a really long time.
I laugh at myself and I write about a Confessions
of a Helicopter mom and my my.
Speaker 3 (27:39):
Articles and stuff. I love that, but it you know,
now I see it so obvious.
Speaker 4 (27:44):
That what I'm crew to get here, and so just
knowing that you've got stuff to work on. Hey, that's
the first step, just to call it. Oh, I don't
have self worth and may be prohibiting me in some
areas from moving forward.
Speaker 3 (28:03):
Okay, now it's tappened to myself. What do I think?
What keeps showing up in my realm?
Speaker 2 (28:10):
Oh?
Speaker 3 (28:11):
God, five people spoke to.
Speaker 4 (28:12):
Me about this this class or this coach or this
breath group session.
Speaker 3 (28:18):
You know, like spirit will give us. Well, Tapa, are
we listening? Ye?
Speaker 4 (28:22):
Get out of fear so you can hear your higher
self talking to you and guiding you. Because if you
ask for help, it will come. You want to be
a ople to receive the message, so you know, definitely
ask for help. I never did. I was very proud
and very angry at God. Most I was enraged, so
I never asked for help today, God, can you put
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me through this intersection? No, I mean yes, I don't
ask for trivial I mean you can ask for trivial things.
Speaker 3 (28:52):
There's no judgment, but.
Speaker 4 (28:55):
Asking for help, knowing it'll come, knowing support is always there.
Feeling you are beloved, child of the universe, You are loved.
You came in as love, you are love. How could
you be anything but worthy? And that was in conversations
with Neil Donald Walsh when I heard her say that,
as an aspect of the creator, how could you be
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anything but worthy? And I stopped the tape and I
started bawling and screaming at the universe.
Speaker 3 (29:24):
Every day I used the F word.
Speaker 4 (29:26):
And that's the next morning I got a download for
a musical which is her writing.
Speaker 3 (29:32):
The next day I met the directory that was That
was a long time.
Speaker 4 (29:36):
So it's still really But the minute you're willing to
step into your truth, the universe is in that.
Speaker 3 (29:44):
I am a kick, I am an amazing actress.
Speaker 4 (29:48):
I am an amazing and worthy of a career that
fills my heart and my soul and my expression because
I have so much valuable things to say that my
heart wants me to just put out there for the universe.
I am important. What I have to say is important.
What I have to bring through me is important. And
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claim that every day before the audition, after the audition,
whether you get it or not. And I, like somebody said,
rejection is just redirection.
Speaker 2 (30:20):
That's it, that's it. Oh my god, my soul is
so full, so fool. Thank you, Maria.
Speaker 1 (30:29):
And I was going to ask you to give some advice,
but you just fell right in and gave some magnificent tips.
So I pray that all of you documented, whether through
your phone or you wrote it down. It's really really
super important. I'm going to now bring on two of
our actors who are going to ask you questions.
Speaker 2 (30:48):
So let's see, Hey, has some me?
Speaker 3 (30:59):
Hello, how are you?
Speaker 1 (31:00):
I'm great, It's good to see you, and it's good
to see Catherine. So this is Maria Marshall. You guys
have the pleasure. I this is my gift and you
guys heard it line yes, But uh well let's start
with Catherine.
Speaker 2 (31:20):
So Catherine, you have a question for Maria.
Speaker 3 (31:23):
I sure do.
Speaker 7 (31:24):
I first of all, nice to meet you. Everything you said,
I was like, oh my god, it was like hitting
it right on the nail, because like, right now, I
feel like I'm going through a process of self healing
and self love. And I always considered myself to be
a healer and somebody who nurtures my friendships and pours
into my my.
Speaker 3 (31:45):
My friend's cups.
Speaker 7 (31:46):
But as of lately, I felt drained and like I
felt like I don't want to be a healer anymore.
How do you have you ever experienced that? And how
do you cope with that?
Speaker 2 (31:57):
Yes?
Speaker 4 (31:58):
Yes, absolutely, thank you for the question. And first of all,
for five years, I volunteered reiki at a homeless shelter
for women and children, and I did two days a week.
I was there and I was energetically very dreaming because
there was a lot of you know, negativity and I
won't go into it, but the people that I came
to serve really received me and receive to my love.
Speaker 3 (32:19):
And that was my first start for self.
Speaker 4 (32:23):
Love because I realized if I could show up and
give this to total love on total strangers, I could
find something lovable about me. And that was sort of
my first sort of foray into valuing myself as a healer.
I have a sort of human design type that I
can only be around people for so long and then
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I have to go into hermit mode, recharge and restore.
The one thing I would really recommend is that you
always you know whether you're giving somebody a piece of conversation.
If you're a healer, your energy's going out, so you
always want to ground and you owe always want to
work with sage. Clean your energies, clean other people's energies,
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and make sure that you're also receiving, because if you're
just giving, giving, giving, you're giving vital life force, energy
of yours to that person, and you're going to be
worn out for it. So you also can call on allies.
You can work with plants, you can work with angels,
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you can work with spirits, you can call on archangel Michael, like,
decide who's going to help and flow through you, because
spirit's always coming through you, so you can have other
Spirit doesn't just have to come from you personally. Okay,
not to give everything away for free as well, because
then you're not filling your cup and that will also
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then keep perpetuating this I'm not worthy cycle because you're
not receiving. You have to receive, and you know, if
they can't afford to pay you, so it could be
something else like hey, come and walk.
Speaker 3 (34:02):
My dog or bring me a crystal or something.
Speaker 1 (34:06):
Thank you that was amazing, Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 2 (34:09):
Yeah, thanks Catherine Hasami, Hi.
Speaker 5 (34:14):
There, Well, thank you for being here number one. It's
been very enlightening and very healing in itself.
Speaker 3 (34:22):
The topic of self worth is.
Speaker 5 (34:25):
Very near and dear to me because I grew up.
I grew up as if success is the only way
you'll feel enough, that's it, you know, And if you
don't have success, then you're not worthy and you're not enough, right.
So that's how I I was, you know, I was
marinating all these things about okay, what are you doing now?
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Are you good enough?
Speaker 1 (34:45):
Now?
Speaker 5 (34:46):
Well? How mumuch have you progressed, you know, in your
life in your career? And are you good enough right now?
You have no success? You aren't right? Oh yeah, So
I just started healing like a year and a half ago.
It's actually really new to me because I also grew
up where therapy was not a thing. Healing was not
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a thing, you know, emotional maturity was absent, and so
for me, I'm really on this this tour of self
forgiveness because I realized I would go like opposite to you. Actually,
I would go out and that's how I get my energies.
I would go out, and I realized I was silencing
a lot of things. I was silencing, you know, the
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darkness that was going on inside, right, And I had
to learn to sit for long enough to deal with
the emotions that were going on and feel the pain,
just feel whatever it is. And so for me, I
guess my question would be, what is your advice on
self forgiveness and moving on from certain things that you've
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done in the past that you know your mistakes.
Speaker 3 (35:58):
Oh that's a great question, Uestion.
Speaker 4 (36:00):
Thank you, and I really acknowledge you for shouting, you know,
really naming this this limiting belief system that the masculine
has dealt with, which is you are only as.
Speaker 3 (36:12):
Successful as the dollars you have in a bank.
Speaker 4 (36:14):
And I want to say, on some level, some of
these lies and programs have been perpetrated to keep us small.
Speaker 3 (36:22):
Women are only beautiful if they look like this.
Speaker 4 (36:24):
Men are only successful if they have this, you know,
because if we knew how powerful we were and wouldn't
so we control us So the question about dealing with
the forgiveness of the self, Wow, I profound question because
I found in forgiveness my most the hardest person to
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forgive was me because I experience all this pain.
Speaker 3 (36:50):
I let this happen.
Speaker 4 (36:51):
I let that happen, and now my heart is broken
and I'm wretching with like tears, how like mad at
And that obviously has to be changed. And you have
to first acknowledge yourself for being willing and courageous to
go on this dark night of the soul and to
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look at your stuff.
Speaker 2 (37:15):
Do you know how many.
Speaker 4 (37:15):
People just keep blocking it out, you know, through addictions
and through you know, pushing it down, pretending like everything's
fine when it's not.
Speaker 2 (37:25):
So.
Speaker 4 (37:26):
I acknowledge you for being willing to go there and
being willing and just having the intention to forgive yourself,
and understand also that you created everything that showed up
in your life for a reason. Life happens for you,
not to you, And what seemed like a terrible experience
(37:47):
could have been your biggest teacher that your soul was
like I really want to go to Earth and I
really want to feel this, So there is no right
or wrong pain.
Speaker 3 (37:58):
The light the dark.
Speaker 4 (37:59):
We live in a dual let's stick society, and so
the darkness teaches us as much as the life does,
sometimes more so. Acknowledging yourself with the lessons, patting yourself
on the back. Oh I got that one now, Oh
now I see this lesson.
Speaker 3 (38:15):
Okay, So what am I going to do?
Speaker 4 (38:16):
So I don't have to keep repeating it because I
got to get it, or I'm going to keep repeating
the lesson. You know, I keep attracting women like this,
or I keep attracting women that I want to be
my mother, or whatever the story is.
Speaker 2 (38:29):
Mother yourself.
Speaker 4 (38:30):
Find the love within yourself. You are already complete. You
are a complete being of love. You don't need it'd
be great to have a partner. You don't need it,
you don't need anything. You are already complete onto yourself.
When you love that yourself unconditionally, you work on it
every day, you'll start to see your reality is changing.
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People are changing, job opportunities are changing. The world is
showing you evidence of the way you feel about yourself.
Speaker 3 (38:57):
The world will not support a lie.
Speaker 4 (38:59):
So if you say I'm not worthy of this in
your heart, even in your subconscious, it cannot show up
for you, because a universe's job is just to read you.
Your thoughts, your words, are actions, are manifestation. It's like
a big computer and spit out evidence based on you.
So you want to change your reality. You got to
change you or embody, really the truth of who you are,
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the real truth, you know, and get in touch with
that part of you.
Speaker 3 (39:27):
Is there anything else on the forgiveness piece.
Speaker 5 (39:32):
No, it's just you know, I just grew up that way,
and I grew up just hearing a lot of you know,
things like hey, this is what a man is supposed
to be, this is you know, what they're supposed to feel.
Speaker 3 (39:42):
Nothing.
Speaker 4 (39:43):
Well, forgive them, forgive them for not And I love
this quote from Paul Saintings Guides is forget anybody in
your life, forgive them.
Speaker 3 (39:51):
For not being who you wanted them to be.
Speaker 2 (39:56):
You know, but.
Speaker 3 (39:57):
They showed up that way.
Speaker 4 (40:00):
And you experience it means on some level, you know,
you asked for that experience to grow and learn through.
So that's more empowering than oh God, I had an
abusive father. Oh no, I wrote a script and he
came in to fill that place. And it was hard
to get someone, but he came from another star system
to play that abusive father. Thank you, and that set
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me up for all the experiences I would have of
disempowerment through the masculine, so I could then move away
from it, recreate myself and start gya goddess.
Speaker 3 (40:31):
You know.
Speaker 4 (40:32):
That's the way I tell the story today. And I
kind of knew it, you know, through a lot of teachings.
So there's a lot of teachings out there that will
support you in in understanding how you create as a
spiritual being and how you can use the tools of
manifestation consciously.
Speaker 2 (40:52):
Oh my god, do.
Speaker 1 (40:53):
You understand why I love her? Catherine? Do you understand
the understand and this is something and I mean, I, oh,
you guys need to hear this stuff. You guys need
to just settle your souls and just you know, know
that you're okay. And Hassani, I know that for me,
you know, growing up and you know, just in the
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late sixties and going to Catholic school and this and
so robotic. Just when I got out of college and
read Conversations with God. It's saved my life because all this,
the Catechism, the teaching, it was like this is about control, man. Yeah,
(41:37):
so my mother was religious. Every Friday we had to
have fish. Every Friday, we had to have fish. If
we didn't have fish, oh lord.
Speaker 2 (41:44):
I don't know what would have happened if we didn't
have It's just crazy.
Speaker 1 (41:48):
So Maria is free, freeing of the soul, the spirit,
and just an abundance of love.
Speaker 2 (41:56):
Maria, we have to go.
Speaker 1 (41:58):
I'm so sad because as I knew, I knew, and
I'm percolating the ideas right now just let you know.
But I just want to say thank you so much
for this gift, this gift that never never ever stops giving. Ever,
it's in her, It's in her, in her d in it.
Speaker 3 (42:21):
We actually all are this.
Speaker 4 (42:23):
We really are all of this, all of me you are,
and it's about getting.
Speaker 3 (42:30):
Down to it, right.
Speaker 2 (42:31):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:32):
I have had such a good time. I feel so
much love.
Speaker 4 (42:36):
I feel so much you know, understanding and compassion, and
I love sharing my journey.
Speaker 3 (42:43):
Because you know, I love helping. I've always loved it.
Speaker 4 (42:46):
So you know, just thank you guys, your great questions
and for making this possible. Tracy, I love, course love you,
and don't talk like this at the end.
Speaker 2 (42:56):
This is just the beginning. Yes, I have ideas is
sit back.
Speaker 6 (43:01):
Maria, I can see it energetically in your field.
Speaker 3 (43:08):
No, this is beautiful, even busier.
Speaker 2 (43:11):
Oh my god. Well well you said it.
Speaker 1 (43:14):
Ladies and gentlemen, I want you again to put chance
together again for DIY. I got a CEO, founder and
just a spirit.
Speaker 2 (43:22):
Of love, Maria Martall.
Speaker 1 (43:25):
And when we come back from the Spirited Actor Podcast,
when we come back with the Spirited Actor Podcast with
me Tracy Moore, I'm going to talk about and give
some love.
Speaker 2 (43:34):
And now it's time to give love.
Speaker 1 (43:38):
One of the things that I love to talk about
with my children is the fact that I am still growing.
I am still evolving as a spiritual being, not as
a human being, because that's the experience as a spiritual
person that I am having, is this human experience. And
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with in this human experience, is there are flaws in
this human experience. I don't have all the answers, and
I don't choose to It's okay to grow, it's okay
to learn, It's okay to have a new experience, study
something different, create something different, reinvent yourself. Look at all
(44:23):
the possibilities that lie within you. There is allegedly a
scientific fact that we only use ten percent of our brain.
Don't let that fact be proven correct. Every day, challenge
yourself with something new, walk to work a different way,
(44:45):
buy a different type of magazine, Experience something different on
your palate. Every day brings a new experience.
Speaker 2 (44:57):
Enjoy it, don't forget to look at For us.
Speaker 1 (45:00):
On our new show, Inside the Black Box, my co
host will be Joe the Legend Morton. It's going to
be the Spirited Actor Podcast on Steroids.
Speaker 2 (45:11):
We'll be streaming on the Crackle network. I'll keep you posted.
Speaker 1 (45:14):
Thank you for joining us on the Spirited Actor Podcast
with me Tracy Moore. I look forward to our next
Spirited Podcast.
Speaker 2 (45:23):
Thank you,
Hello, and welcome to the Spirited Actor Podcast with me
Tracy Moore. I was a casting director for film and
TV and commercials for over thirty years. I transitioned to
a celebrity acting coach after I cast a film New
Jersey Drive with executive producer Spike Lee and director Nick Domez.
I auditioned every rapper from Biggie Smalls to Tupac, and
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I realized that rappers and musical artists they needed help
transitioning to acting. My clients consist of musical artists from
Buster Rhymes to Eve, Missy Elliott, Angela Yee from The
Breakfast Club, and Vanessa Simmons, to name a few. I
also coach sports stars and host as well. I feel
(00:45):
I have the best of both worlds. As a casting director,
I know exactly what they're looking for, and as an
acting coach, I can coach you to be remembered in
that room. Now I know, I know actors want to
get the job. I get that, but being remembered by
casting director that is powerful. And now it's time for
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meditation of the day. The man who moves a mountain
begins by carrying away small stones. I want to start
off by just saying.
Speaker 2 (01:18):
Relax, relax.
Speaker 1 (01:22):
I know that there are glitches in the system at times, obstacles,
hurdles that we have to jump. However, you have to
find a place of knowing that everything is going to
be okay. You know, the cool thing about animals and
(01:42):
babies is that they have no concept of time. Right.
Speaker 2 (01:47):
I used to have a dog that I loved.
Speaker 1 (01:49):
His name was Othello, and at the time I had Othello,
I was always on the road between Buster and Eve,
and sometimes it would be a couple of days, sometimes
it would be a couple of months. Regardless regardless of
how long it was, whenever I got to that door,
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Othello would treat me the same way as if I
had just left yesterday. You got to find a place
like that of knowing unconditional love. You've got to find
a place where you just know that everything is going
to be okay because things don't take overnight and there
(02:33):
are no shortcuts. If you don't want to be shortchanged,
you got to move one stone at a time. You
have to take one step at a time, and you
have to believe that those steps are going to reach
the top of the mountain and your dreams will continue
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to come true. Today, I will continue to take small
steps for the larger picture. Before we get started, I'd
like to remind everyone to look out for my new show,
Inside the black Box. I'll be co hosting with the
great Joe Morton. We'll be on Crackle Network real soon.
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I'll keep you posted. Welcome to the Spirited Actor Podcast
with me Tracy Moore, Actors, writers, directors, producers. I'm calling
all creative beings to sit with me during this special
time with my very special guests that I can also
(03:40):
call my friend. She accepted the assignment, created an assignment,
and is doing the assignment. And I am so happy
to have her on this show because I feel like
it is beyond a treat that you are going to
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experience today. It is beyond Jim's. The way that this
guest talks to you. She talks to your soul. So
just settle yourself for a moment and take in, be open,
take in everything that she's giving you, because it truly
is from her spirit, her soul, her love.
Speaker 2 (04:23):
That you can feel.
Speaker 1 (04:24):
Ladies and gentlemen, I want you to put your hands
together for the founder, creator, CEO of Guya Goddess. She's
going to tell you about that, Maria Marshall. Ladies and gentlemen, yes,
for real.
Speaker 3 (04:43):
Wow, what an intro, Tracy.
Speaker 2 (04:45):
I love you. I love you and you.
Speaker 3 (04:48):
Don't get to see each other.
Speaker 4 (04:50):
But I'm just so grateful for this moment to be
here and be sharing, you know, with you and the
whole spirit spirited actor podcast crew and our actress that
we have on today and just the world at large.
Speaker 3 (05:06):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (05:06):
Really, just any opportunity to share messages and light and love.
And you know, I've always felt so good from the moment.
Speaker 3 (05:14):
I met Tracy. You, Tracy, somebody.
Speaker 4 (05:16):
Pulled me into your acting class. I had no idea
what I was in store for. You started talking and
I'm like, yes, yes, yes, I was scripping my seat
because I wanted to jump up in front.
Speaker 3 (05:28):
Of the class. And wow, it's the scenes and all
that stuff. So this was pre pandemic for him.
Speaker 1 (05:34):
Yes, definitely, that's what the fun was because I could
see you in real life. Then after the pandemic everything
shut down. But like you said, you know, it's an energy.
It's so contagious, it's so comforting. And we are in
a time where I was talking to someone today about
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today's day fifty two.
Speaker 2 (05:58):
I believe of this for actors, not writers.
Speaker 1 (06:02):
Right, First, tell us who is Gayagadas and what the
climate that we're in right now, and what you feel
that we need.
Speaker 4 (06:16):
Well, I've had many incarnations, but my most recent incarnation
is to be a woman entrepreneur and lots to that story.
But here I am launching an empowerment brand, a healing brand,
and you.
Speaker 3 (06:34):
Know, healings on all levels. Right. I was an actor.
Speaker 4 (06:37):
I considered it myself always to be an actor actress,
and you know, I think this world well for the
company right now, I think we're we are situated at
a really pivotal time. I feel it's divine timing that
I should be where I'm at, that we all should
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be collectively where we're at, that our planet is where
she's at. Gay a goddess, mean spirit of the earth.
I am half Greek, it is Greek. I'm a writer,
I'm an expressor.
Speaker 3 (07:09):
I am a lover.
Speaker 4 (07:11):
I'm a lover of humankind. But I had to go
on my own healing journey. A lot of what happened
to me in my youth. I was able to pour
that into my acting. So it was useful in that sense.
But it also became useful in birthing this brand that
I believe has the capacity to heal and help and
uplift and shed share the light and be in the
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love and come out of the fear, which is the
opposite of love, because everything's love but fear. And so
you know, when we're in lack, when we're in a
writer's strike, when we're in an actor's strike, when we're
you know, not sure we're getting we're going to make
our rent to marrow those that fear will stop us
(07:56):
from receiving the intuitive guidance and then no knowing our
In turn, our souls know everything already. We are knowing
me and we connect to our truth. We have an
internal compass tells us what's the next right step, how
to put faith in the universe, how to feel supported
from the universe, and when we're in fear that we
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don't hear those messages. So a big part of being
successful in life as an actress, actor, mother, anything you know,
is to be able to navigate from a place of
empowerment and your own power of your internal knowing. Because
we all have intuition which can be developed and trusted and.
Speaker 3 (08:40):
Further alied upon.
Speaker 4 (08:42):
I believe our planet is in at one of the
times of great awakening, and before you know, the sun
comes out.
Speaker 3 (08:53):
The heavy torrential down wo. Right, we're kind of in that, we're.
Speaker 4 (08:57):
Going to things are being revealed, we're having we're having
sort of AHAs and these are good even though they're
not going to seem good. They are good because it's uh,
it's in order for change to happen, we have to
weed out the old.
Speaker 3 (09:14):
What's what's restricting.
Speaker 4 (09:15):
Growth and expansion of consciousness across the planet. Is that
old paradigm stuff of fear and black and you know,
I'm not safe and we're competing and all that. So
we have to take that out. And how does that
get taken out? Some things have to come to the
surface and that that's where we are and it's actually
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all really good, although it doesn't seem that way. That's
where you know, if you connect to your intuition and
the faith is like, Okay, this is all happening for
a reason, right, And what's my partn this?
Speaker 3 (09:48):
Like, what's my.
Speaker 4 (09:49):
Sole journey in this moment when I'm learning through it all?
Where am I being asked to see it as an
opportunity as opposed to, Oh my god, this guy is
falling right.
Speaker 2 (10:02):
I was saying to.
Speaker 1 (10:05):
I'm so excited you guys, because I'm working with Maria
and I feel very blessed to have that opportunity with
her and one of the other producers we're working with.
We were talking about how, you know, I grew up
in this spiritual world, this thirst for conversations with God,
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this thirst for the power of now and the pop
all of doctor Wayne Dreyer. Your roneus O one my
first book I ever read. Then Louise Hayes heal your
you can heal your self. So I'm saying that to
say this was I'm talking eighty three to present day. However,
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when you look on Instagram, things are so oversaturated in
terms of like manifest and seven days say these twenty
words and manifest everything right now? So where is that?
And I know you were this person too. I know
we said that. You know, do you feel that because
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we're talking about the people that you're reaching are everyday people.
It's you know, there's it's universal. So a lot of
people spend so much time and attention on these phones
and they pick up these things and sometimes I feel
like they don't have and I'm like, I'm not who
(11:34):
am I to judge? I feel like there's a foundation
that I built on from doctor Wayne Dryer to present day,
but that these things on Instagram are like here, put
some water in, stir it and it's going to be
done in five seconds.
Speaker 3 (11:48):
But let's I hear what you're saying.
Speaker 4 (11:51):
And I think, I think besides the context of all
of the study that you did, life is going to
give you opportunities to put this into practice, like, for instance, oh,
I should love myself.
Speaker 3 (12:06):
I should love myself. What is self love?
Speaker 4 (12:08):
And then all suddenly the day you realize, oh my god,
I don't love myself, and here's all the reasons why,
and just this affirmation alone is not going to fix it.
It is a journey. In order to love yourself. You
have to go to your childhood trauma. You have to
go to that first breakup, you have to go to
the day that your father whatever.
Speaker 5 (12:28):
You know.
Speaker 4 (12:28):
We all have our stories, we all have these masks
that we wear, and what we've truly are is an
aspect of the creator in a body, come here to
have lessons and experiences, right, and so that can be
fun but like the journey of self love for most
of us is not the easiest one. In fact that
I'm creating a Facebook group with guy a goddess so
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we can support each other along that way, and you
have to have the life experiences.
Speaker 3 (12:57):
It's lappy in the face and you're.
Speaker 4 (12:58):
Like, no, no, I need to love myself because I'm
going to keep meeting that treat me less then, because
deep down inside I believe that's what I'm worthy of.
Speaker 3 (13:08):
And how do you pull that out?
Speaker 4 (13:09):
Well, intellectually, I know I should have a guy who
has treats me like a goddess, right.
Speaker 2 (13:16):
Like you know, oh there are housekeepers.
Speaker 4 (13:20):
Yes, I'm attracting it right, belief system that I haven't
yet brought to my consciousness. And there's so many layers
to it's not even that, it's what about your lineage?
Speaker 2 (13:32):
What about all the women.
Speaker 4 (13:33):
That came before you that had relationships and men that
treated them less than What about the collective women who
are treated like how do we work on these multiple
individual and collective levels so that we can uplift ourselves?
Speaker 3 (13:49):
And the men also.
Speaker 1 (13:50):
Have a lot of healing to do, right, and it
balances out too, Like you said, it's what we are allowing,
what we are accepting. It's easy to blame other people
or situations for why we are where we are who
we are. However, there's this freedom and peace when you
start to be accountable. Like you said, I'll use myself
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as an example. I was diagnosed with allegedly arthritis last October,
and so when I started to do my due diligence,
it said sugar was the main cause, main cause for inflammation,
no reason in our dietbapah. So I said, you know what,
I've had a long decades of a relationship with sugar.
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Now it's time to end it. So when I decided that,
along with changing the pain level of my hip, it
also took weight off that I didn't think about or anticipate.
And then coming back into who I feel that I
know I am, the alignment, the manifestation, the communication is
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what I know it was to be when I came
here in eighty three with Mary Anne Williamson and all
my people. You know, so I feel like it's a
But it takes discipline absolutely, And how can you encourage
or what suggestions would you give actors creative beings to
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be disciplined.
Speaker 4 (15:25):
Oh for sure. And you know that was one of
the things. I just came from Omega Institute eight nine
day eight day Breath Training Healers levels one through five
with David Elliott who was an actor and a healer,
and his whole thing is love, love, love, love and
love of the stuff and the exchange that you then
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have with the universe. He said in his meditations, which
you can find on Spotify, is like why would people
do this?
Speaker 3 (15:53):
Dally?
Speaker 4 (15:54):
Because you notice, like you feel your spirit, you feel
the energy in your body, and you know the first
one is that I don't deserve or I'm too busy
and I don't deserve self love and self nurturance.
Speaker 3 (16:07):
The second thing.
Speaker 4 (16:08):
Is if you you know how you are energetically before
you do a practice and how you are after, then
why wouldn't you want that on a daily basis? And
you know it's also healing you, uplifting you, up leveling
you so you can attract more and more.
Speaker 3 (16:28):
Into your life, you can be more aligned.
Speaker 4 (16:30):
So, I mean, I think the advice that I would
give to people is to understand it doesn't have.
Speaker 3 (16:37):
To be an hour long.
Speaker 4 (16:38):
I mean, I've got good morning, I love you, three
month journal that I'm going to introduce to you know,
my goddess community. Because I wanted a daily practice of
self love. You know, I did breathwork daily, and my
breathwork daily was kind of like for me. I started
doing it daily because I needed to do it. I
was because stuff was coming up, trauma was coming up,
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like a lot of my chakras are shutting down. Those
are energetic centers. I'm a raking master, so I'm very
self aware of my energy, and so I had to
do it daily. Now I'm not even if I don't,
if I don't feel like, you know, I'm getting shut down,
I still do my breath work practice because I know
what it does for me. I would say for actors
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or so, you have to believe in yourselves, love yourselves,
be confident. You know, you don't want to bring your
troubles into an audition. You don't want to bring energy
negativity into an audition. These tools work great for actors
and being self aware and knowing how to pull in
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energies from the past that then cut them up and
throw them out after the audition's over, because you don't
want to see in pain or negative. If you need
to emote from that place or an audition, great, but
you also have to clear that out so that you
can be their highest vibration the time when you're not er.
Speaker 1 (18:03):
And you know what it sounds like. Where it starts,
It really starts with the self love. I was telling
a friend today that on the airplane you have to
put the oxygen mask on before you can help your child.
So you have to do that in order to be
able to service other people, you have to take care
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of yourself. And what I think about that is that
just what you said, We're busy.
Speaker 2 (18:30):
The time, you know.
Speaker 1 (18:31):
It's like you know, it does require a lot of
time to be disciplined to let's say, have a facial
and nightly facial routine, you know, or an exercising program,
or just to meditate. But like you said, the advantages
are priceless when you sit down and take those moments.
What are ways that actors can start to implement these
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things in their lives where because I want you to
talk about the breathing. After that they can breath, you know,
and relax and let go.
Speaker 2 (19:06):
That's saving.
Speaker 4 (19:07):
Yeah, I mean there's so many The breath is super powerful.
But as you know, I'm I practice reiki, there's crystals,
there's energetic techniques that.
Speaker 3 (19:18):
They can use.
Speaker 4 (19:20):
I believe the more conscious and self aware you are
that you become, you know, the better chance you have
at attracting everything you want into your life. And fear,
the fear, the fear of failure, the fear of rejection,
the fear of not being good enough, like that has
to be addressed.
Speaker 3 (19:39):
You can do that through the breath.
Speaker 4 (19:42):
Through the breath you can get you can let go
of all of those experiences because those that fear is
built on the past and also what society projects at us.
So through the breath you can really work on embodying
more of your light, feeling more of the power of
your higher self. That is the vibration you feel in
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your body when you do this breath work. People feel energy,
that's their soul. And you know so I think like
if you were to say to an actor Tracy, all
you need to do is twenty minutes of breath work
daily and by such and such a time you'll have
a job or such and such a time you will
have the partnership of your dreams.
Speaker 3 (20:24):
Every they'd be on it, right, yeah, yeah, yeah, And
I want to say that.
Speaker 4 (20:30):
It's true because when you clear out all of the debris,
all of the things that make you feel not worthy,
that's when you really get down to business. I mean
the business of attraction. Attracting what is meant for your soul?
You know, that's what we're here for. We come down
to have these human experiences, but as a soul.
Speaker 3 (20:52):
So let's get on with it, right. So I put
it off.
Speaker 4 (20:56):
It's so easy to stay the same status quo. But
status quo, the work is work. I'm not going to
I can't even be uncomfortable. And I cry a lot.
I've cried a lot. If I had jars of tears,
oh no.
Speaker 3 (21:13):
But somebody in MAUI was wearing around her heart her
jar of tears. I was like, oh my god.
Speaker 2 (21:20):
I had a challenge.
Speaker 4 (21:21):
But what I let go each tier, it was a release.
What I released from my heart is grief and resentment
and non forgiveness built me higher and high. So, you guys,
I quit acting because I was afraid of failing in
musical theater department. I loved it. I did not believe
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in myself. Do I sound like a woman today who
doesn't believe in herself?
Speaker 6 (21:48):
How did I get her right practice, through the through
the practice, and now I'm doing things I'm like, am
I crazy?
Speaker 4 (21:59):
Like the audacity of myself? That's my talk at New
Life Expo. But you know, how did I uproot the
fear was through through all of these tools and being
willing to show up for myself, being willing to take
the journey.
Speaker 3 (22:16):
Not everybody's going to choose it. That's okay, you know,
it's okay.
Speaker 4 (22:20):
Maybe not everything meant to get from here to here
in this lifetime, I don't know, but I know in
order for me to do what I know I'm here
to do, I to love myself and I have to
teach women how to connect to that as well and
men as well down the road.
Speaker 3 (22:37):
Right now, we're starting off with the women.
Speaker 1 (22:38):
So I.
Speaker 4 (22:40):
Just think everything you do translates everything you do to
love yourself because you become a brighter, lighter light for people.
Speaker 3 (22:49):
And when you are loving yourself, not only.
Speaker 4 (22:51):
You're healing yourself, but you're emanating that around you. And
it's so magnetizing.
Speaker 1 (22:59):
And one of the things that I really want to
just talk about, because you've said it a couple of times,
in terms of our self worth and what we're deserving of.
And my experience, so many actors don't feel worthy, don't
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feel deserving of. And it's interesting because if you read
a lot of you know, successful whether it's actors or politicians, whatever,
they've had a traumatizing traumatic, some type of childhood that
has something they grabbed onto faith of a mustard seed
to get through practice and then become be where they
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are today. I would say it's a large part of
the actors that I come in contact their journey, and
some of it is let me prove, And I try
to diffuse that because that's like you said, But where
does that where does that come from? You know, that
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that feeling of you know, I know I'm talented, I
know I have a great voice. I get these accolades.
But should I share it or am I?
Speaker 2 (24:21):
You know?
Speaker 4 (24:21):
Because you mean, the lack of the confidence and the
last come from it typically comes from childhood, early childhood experiences.
First of all, anybody who's ever been in a you know,
parents they do the best they can. Some of them,
some of them are abusive, some of them are emotionally withholding.
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You know, my mother never said I love you until
I was thirty five, and I never got a hugger kiss,
and she pushed me away when I put my hand
in her pocket because it was freezing, and she said, oh, she.
Speaker 3 (24:56):
Was amazing woman and loved her children.
Speaker 4 (24:58):
Really just didn't feel comfortab with emotional demonstration. And my
father and when I was seven and he was abusive,
beat the crap out of all of us, and he
was abusive to my mother. And then you know, I
had this fear relationship with men, so all through my
whole life I accepted them from men. I mean, I'm
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telling you, I think I'm just turning the key on
that one. And that's a long journey. But also how
much of it had to do with my mother and
my grandmother and her mother. What happened to do my
grandfather and that side of the family. Remember we come
in also with programming, but also DNA. It's in our DNA,
so there's multiple levels to work on things, and you know,
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it can be fun, it's like a traveling but I think,
you know, look at if you talk to anybody who's
in any kind of program, addiction programming, at least half
of the people are talking about, you know.
Speaker 3 (25:57):
Sexual violation. So that's another thing.
Speaker 4 (26:00):
What is love now sometimes people go in that direction
because they think that's love and you know, invite that
into their life over and over and over.
Speaker 3 (26:11):
That's going to stop you from loving yourself. The shame accumulation.
It was my fault. So there's a lot of stories.
There's a lot that happens to us.
Speaker 4 (26:19):
There's a lot of societal programs, Oh, you can't be
successful if you're not this tall and this body shape
and this kind of skin color, hair color or eye
color or whatever.
Speaker 3 (26:31):
You know, And it's really hard rejection.
Speaker 4 (26:34):
It was a very hard, you know, energy to deal
with when you're dealing with self worth and self esteem issues.
Because I dealt with so I know, like, oh my god,
I that's why I never had a dream. People would say,
what's your dream? And I'm like, I don't have one,
And I.
Speaker 3 (26:53):
Knew I should, like why.
Speaker 4 (26:56):
Oh, Because if I dared to dream and I fail,
it would only prove what I already thought about myself,
which was I wasn't worthy and I couldn't.
Speaker 3 (27:06):
Bear to feel that. It would hurt so much. So
what did I do?
Speaker 4 (27:11):
I played it safe and I played it small, and
I did things I could nail.
Speaker 3 (27:15):
I can stuart down. I was. You know, I could
at a.
Speaker 4 (27:22):
Party pretty like dress beautifully, I could like what I
could do.
Speaker 3 (27:27):
I could have the perfect children and the perfect you know.
Speaker 4 (27:29):
That's those that kept me busy for a really long time.
I laugh at myself and I write about a Confessions
of a Helicopter mom and my my.
Speaker 3 (27:39):
Articles and stuff. I love that, but it you know,
now I see it so obvious.
Speaker 4 (27:44):
That what I'm crew to get here, and so just
knowing that you've got stuff to work on. Hey, that's
the first step, just to call it. Oh, I don't
have self worth and may be prohibiting me in some
areas from moving forward.
Speaker 3 (28:03):
Okay, now it's tappened to myself. What do I think?
What keeps showing up in my realm?
Speaker 2 (28:10):
Oh?
Speaker 3 (28:11):
God, five people spoke to.
Speaker 4 (28:12):
Me about this this class or this coach or this
breath group session.
Speaker 3 (28:18):
You know, like spirit will give us. Well, Tapa, are
we listening? Ye?
Speaker 4 (28:22):
Get out of fear so you can hear your higher
self talking to you and guiding you. Because if you
ask for help, it will come. You want to be
a ople to receive the message, so you know, definitely
ask for help. I never did. I was very proud
and very angry at God. Most I was enraged, so
I never asked for help today, God, can you put
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me through this intersection? No, I mean yes, I don't
ask for trivial I mean you can ask for trivial things.
Speaker 3 (28:52):
There's no judgment, but.
Speaker 4 (28:55):
Asking for help, knowing it'll come, knowing support is always there.
Feeling you are beloved, child of the universe, You are loved.
You came in as love, you are love. How could
you be anything but worthy? And that was in conversations
with Neil Donald Walsh when I heard her say that,
as an aspect of the creator, how could you be
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anything but worthy? And I stopped the tape and I
started bawling and screaming at the universe.
Speaker 3 (29:24):
Every day I used the F word.
Speaker 4 (29:26):
And that's the next morning I got a download for
a musical which is her writing.
Speaker 3 (29:32):
The next day I met the directory that was That
was a long time.
Speaker 4 (29:36):
So it's still really But the minute you're willing to
step into your truth, the universe is in that.
Speaker 3 (29:44):
I am a kick, I am an amazing actress.
Speaker 4 (29:48):
I am an amazing and worthy of a career that
fills my heart and my soul and my expression because
I have so much valuable things to say that my
heart wants me to just put out there for the universe.
I am important. What I have to say is important.
What I have to bring through me is important. And
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claim that every day before the audition, after the audition,
whether you get it or not. And I, like somebody said,
rejection is just redirection.
Speaker 2 (30:20):
That's it, that's it. Oh my god, my soul is
so full, so fool. Thank you, Maria.
Speaker 1 (30:29):
And I was going to ask you to give some advice,
but you just fell right in and gave some magnificent tips.
So I pray that all of you documented, whether through
your phone or you wrote it down. It's really really
super important. I'm going to now bring on two of
our actors who are going to ask you questions.
Speaker 2 (30:48):
So let's see, Hey, has some me?
Speaker 3 (30:59):
Hello, how are you?
Speaker 1 (31:00):
I'm great, It's good to see you, and it's good
to see Catherine. So this is Maria Marshall. You guys
have the pleasure. I this is my gift and you
guys heard it line yes, But uh well let's start
with Catherine.
Speaker 2 (31:20):
So Catherine, you have a question for Maria.
Speaker 3 (31:23):
I sure do.
Speaker 7 (31:24):
I first of all, nice to meet you. Everything you said,
I was like, oh my god, it was like hitting
it right on the nail, because like, right now, I
feel like I'm going through a process of self healing
and self love. And I always considered myself to be
a healer and somebody who nurtures my friendships and pours
into my my.
Speaker 3 (31:45):
My friend's cups.
Speaker 7 (31:46):
But as of lately, I felt drained and like I
felt like I don't want to be a healer anymore.
How do you have you ever experienced that? And how
do you cope with that?
Speaker 2 (31:57):
Yes?
Speaker 4 (31:58):
Yes, absolutely, thank you for the question. And first of all,
for five years, I volunteered reiki at a homeless shelter
for women and children, and I did two days a week.
I was there and I was energetically very dreaming because
there was a lot of you know, negativity and I
won't go into it, but the people that I came
to serve really received me and receive to my love.
Speaker 3 (32:19):
And that was my first start for self.
Speaker 4 (32:23):
Love because I realized if I could show up and
give this to total love on total strangers, I could
find something lovable about me. And that was sort of
my first sort of foray into valuing myself as a healer.
I have a sort of human design type that I
can only be around people for so long and then
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I have to go into hermit mode, recharge and restore.
The one thing I would really recommend is that you
always you know whether you're giving somebody a piece of conversation.
If you're a healer, your energy's going out, so you
always want to ground and you owe always want to
work with sage. Clean your energies, clean other people's energies,
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and make sure that you're also receiving, because if you're
just giving, giving, giving, you're giving vital life force, energy
of yours to that person, and you're going to be
worn out for it. So you also can call on allies.
You can work with plants, you can work with angels,
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you can work with spirits, you can call on archangel Michael, like,
decide who's going to help and flow through you, because
spirit's always coming through you, so you can have other
Spirit doesn't just have to come from you personally. Okay,
not to give everything away for free as well, because
then you're not filling your cup and that will also
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then keep perpetuating this I'm not worthy cycle because you're
not receiving. You have to receive, and you know, if
they can't afford to pay you, so it could be
something else like hey, come and walk.
Speaker 3 (34:02):
My dog or bring me a crystal or something.
Speaker 1 (34:06):
Thank you that was amazing, Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 2 (34:09):
Yeah, thanks Catherine Hasami, Hi.
Speaker 5 (34:14):
There, Well, thank you for being here number one. It's
been very enlightening and very healing in itself.
Speaker 3 (34:22):
The topic of self worth is.
Speaker 5 (34:25):
Very near and dear to me because I grew up.
I grew up as if success is the only way
you'll feel enough, that's it, you know, And if you
don't have success, then you're not worthy and you're not enough, right.
So that's how I I was, you know, I was
marinating all these things about okay, what are you doing now?
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Are you good enough?
Speaker 1 (34:45):
Now?
Speaker 5 (34:46):
Well? How mumuch have you progressed, you know, in your
life in your career? And are you good enough right now?
You have no success? You aren't right? Oh yeah, So
I just started healing like a year and a half ago.
It's actually really new to me because I also grew
up where therapy was not a thing. Healing was not
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a thing, you know, emotional maturity was absent, and so
for me, I'm really on this this tour of self
forgiveness because I realized I would go like opposite to you. Actually,
I would go out and that's how I get my energies.
I would go out, and I realized I was silencing
a lot of things. I was silencing, you know, the
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darkness that was going on inside, right, And I had
to learn to sit for long enough to deal with
the emotions that were going on and feel the pain,
just feel whatever it is. And so for me, I
guess my question would be, what is your advice on
self forgiveness and moving on from certain things that you've
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done in the past that you know your mistakes.
Speaker 3 (35:58):
Oh that's a great question, Uestion.
Speaker 4 (36:00):
Thank you, and I really acknowledge you for shouting, you know,
really naming this this limiting belief system that the masculine
has dealt with, which is you are only as.
Speaker 3 (36:12):
Successful as the dollars you have in a bank.
Speaker 4 (36:14):
And I want to say, on some level, some of
these lies and programs have been perpetrated to keep us small.
Speaker 3 (36:22):
Women are only beautiful if they look like this.
Speaker 4 (36:24):
Men are only successful if they have this, you know,
because if we knew how powerful we were and wouldn't
so we control us So the question about dealing with
the forgiveness of the self, Wow, I profound question because
I found in forgiveness my most the hardest person to
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forgive was me because I experience all this pain.
Speaker 3 (36:50):
I let this happen.
Speaker 4 (36:51):
I let that happen, and now my heart is broken
and I'm wretching with like tears, how like mad at
And that obviously has to be changed. And you have
to first acknowledge yourself for being willing and courageous to
go on this dark night of the soul and to
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look at your stuff.
Speaker 2 (37:15):
Do you know how many.
Speaker 4 (37:15):
People just keep blocking it out, you know, through addictions
and through you know, pushing it down, pretending like everything's
fine when it's not.
Speaker 2 (37:25):
So.
Speaker 4 (37:26):
I acknowledge you for being willing to go there and
being willing and just having the intention to forgive yourself,
and understand also that you created everything that showed up
in your life for a reason. Life happens for you,
not to you, And what seemed like a terrible experience
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could have been your biggest teacher that your soul was
like I really want to go to Earth and I
really want to feel this, So there is no right
or wrong pain.
Speaker 3 (37:58):
The light the dark.
Speaker 4 (37:59):
We live in a dual let's stick society, and so
the darkness teaches us as much as the life does,
sometimes more so. Acknowledging yourself with the lessons, patting yourself
on the back. Oh I got that one now, Oh
now I see this lesson.
Speaker 3 (38:15):
Okay, So what am I going to do?
Speaker 4 (38:16):
So I don't have to keep repeating it because I
got to get it, or I'm going to keep repeating
the lesson. You know, I keep attracting women like this,
or I keep attracting women that I want to be
my mother, or whatever the story is.
Speaker 2 (38:29):
Mother yourself.
Speaker 4 (38:30):
Find the love within yourself. You are already complete. You
are a complete being of love. You don't need it'd
be great to have a partner. You don't need it,
you don't need anything. You are already complete onto yourself.
When you love that yourself unconditionally, you work on it
every day, you'll start to see your reality is changing.
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People are changing, job opportunities are changing. The world is
showing you evidence of the way you feel about yourself.
Speaker 3 (38:57):
The world will not support a lie.
Speaker 4 (38:59):
So if you say I'm not worthy of this in
your heart, even in your subconscious, it cannot show up
for you, because a universe's job is just to read you.
Your thoughts, your words, are actions, are manifestation. It's like
a big computer and spit out evidence based on you.
So you want to change your reality. You got to
change you or embody, really the truth of who you are,
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the real truth, you know, and get in touch with
that part of you.
Speaker 3 (39:27):
Is there anything else on the forgiveness piece.
Speaker 5 (39:32):
No, it's just you know, I just grew up that way,
and I grew up just hearing a lot of you know,
things like hey, this is what a man is supposed
to be, this is you know, what they're supposed to feel.
Speaker 3 (39:42):
Nothing.
Speaker 4 (39:43):
Well, forgive them, forgive them for not And I love
this quote from Paul Saintings Guides is forget anybody in
your life, forgive them.
Speaker 3 (39:51):
For not being who you wanted them to be.
Speaker 2 (39:56):
You know, but.
Speaker 3 (39:57):
They showed up that way.
Speaker 4 (40:00):
And you experience it means on some level, you know,
you asked for that experience to grow and learn through.
So that's more empowering than oh God, I had an
abusive father. Oh no, I wrote a script and he
came in to fill that place. And it was hard
to get someone, but he came from another star system
to play that abusive father. Thank you, and that set
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me up for all the experiences I would have of
disempowerment through the masculine, so I could then move away
from it, recreate myself and start gya goddess.
Speaker 3 (40:31):
You know.
Speaker 4 (40:32):
That's the way I tell the story today. And I
kind of knew it, you know, through a lot of teachings.
So there's a lot of teachings out there that will
support you in in understanding how you create as a
spiritual being and how you can use the tools of
manifestation consciously.
Speaker 2 (40:52):
Oh my god, do.
Speaker 1 (40:53):
You understand why I love her? Catherine? Do you understand
the understand and this is something and I mean, I, oh,
you guys need to hear this stuff. You guys need
to just settle your souls and just you know, know
that you're okay. And Hassani, I know that for me,
you know, growing up and you know, just in the
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late sixties and going to Catholic school and this and
so robotic. Just when I got out of college and
read Conversations with God. It's saved my life because all this,
the Catechism, the teaching, it was like this is about control, man. Yeah,
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so my mother was religious. Every Friday we had to
have fish. Every Friday, we had to have fish. If
we didn't have fish, oh lord.
Speaker 2 (41:44):
I don't know what would have happened if we didn't
have It's just crazy.
Speaker 1 (41:48):
So Maria is free, freeing of the soul, the spirit,
and just an abundance of love.
Speaker 2 (41:56):
Maria, we have to go.
Speaker 1 (41:58):
I'm so sad because as I knew, I knew, and
I'm percolating the ideas right now just let you know.
But I just want to say thank you so much
for this gift, this gift that never never ever stops giving. Ever,
it's in her, It's in her, in her d in it.
Speaker 3 (42:21):
We actually all are this.
Speaker 4 (42:23):
We really are all of this, all of me you are,
and it's about getting.
Speaker 3 (42:30):
Down to it, right.
Speaker 2 (42:31):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:32):
I have had such a good time. I feel so
much love.
Speaker 4 (42:36):
I feel so much you know, understanding and compassion, and
I love sharing my journey.
Speaker 3 (42:43):
Because you know, I love helping. I've always loved it.
Speaker 4 (42:46):
So you know, just thank you guys, your great questions
and for making this possible. Tracy, I love, course love you,
and don't talk like this at the end.
Speaker 2 (42:56):
This is just the beginning. Yes, I have ideas is
sit back.
Speaker 6 (43:01):
Maria, I can see it energetically in your field.
Speaker 3 (43:08):
No, this is beautiful, even busier.
Speaker 2 (43:11):
Oh my god. Well well you said it.
Speaker 1 (43:14):
Ladies and gentlemen, I want you again to put chance
together again for DIY. I got a CEO, founder and
just a spirit.
Speaker 2 (43:22):
Of love, Maria Martall.
Speaker 1 (43:25):
And when we come back from the Spirited Actor Podcast,
when we come back with the Spirited Actor Podcast with
me Tracy Moore, I'm going to talk about and give
some love.
Speaker 2 (43:34):
And now it's time to give love.
Speaker 1 (43:38):
One of the things that I love to talk about
with my children is the fact that I am still growing.
I am still evolving as a spiritual being, not as
a human being, because that's the experience as a spiritual
person that I am having, is this human experience. And
(43:59):
with in this human experience, is there are flaws in
this human experience. I don't have all the answers, and
I don't choose to It's okay to grow, it's okay
to learn, It's okay to have a new experience, study
something different, create something different, reinvent yourself. Look at all
(44:23):
the possibilities that lie within you. There is allegedly a
scientific fact that we only use ten percent of our brain.
Don't let that fact be proven correct. Every day, challenge
yourself with something new, walk to work a different way,
(44:45):
buy a different type of magazine, Experience something different on
your palate. Every day brings a new experience.
Speaker 2 (44:57):
Enjoy it, don't forget to look at For us.
Speaker 1 (45:00):
On our new show, Inside the Black Box, my co
host will be Joe the Legend Morton. It's going to
be the Spirited Actor Podcast on Steroids.
Speaker 2 (45:11):
We'll be streaming on the Crackle network. I'll keep you posted.
Speaker 1 (45:14):
Thank you for joining us on the Spirited Actor Podcast
with me Tracy Moore. I look forward to our next
Spirited Podcast.
Speaker 2 (45:23):
Thank you,
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