GECKMAIL: “I HAVE A SCAT FETISH”

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello, what's up? How's life? Thanks for being here. It's
Lyle Gecko Man. Welcome to the Therapy Gecko Podcast. I
normally take phone calls on this show with random, anonymous people,
but today, as I did a few days ago, I

(00:20):
will be reading viewer mail and pondering it. I'm glad
for those of you who listened to the episode with
my sister and left positive comments. Thank you, guys. I
appreciate it. She appreciated it, she had fun. And now
I'm here alone. I think I'd like to do more

(00:43):
of these things with other people. I might just do
them more with other people randomly in my life. You know,
there is a period of time where we had like
rappers on here and stuff like that, and I'm open
to that. But I'm also just like, you know, it
could be anyone, you know what I mean, Like some
guy from off the street wants to pe a guest

(01:04):
on the show and it's just me and him reading emails.
That could be good too. I don't know why guests
always have to be celebrities. Can't they just be this
whoever is walking around? That's kind of what the show is.
It's me and a guest, but the guest is kind
of whoever is walking around. Anyway, I'm gonna read some

(01:28):
viewer mail and talk to you guys, and hopefully it's
substantiative for the time that you're listening. Listening to it,
my voice just cracked. I'm gonna try to I'm gonna
do a lot more pondering than advice giving. I've been
giving a lot of advice, and I don't like it.

(01:48):
Every time I give advice, it's against my will. They're
actually not every time. Sometimes I give advice because I
genuinely believe in it. But there's been plenty times I
give advice because I'm like, I just have to say something,
and I hate that. I want to do that. So
if I from now on, if I'm reading, okay, so
throughout the time I'm reading these emails, if I'm prompted

(02:10):
to give advice, I'll do it. But if I fucking
don't know, I'm just gonna say I don't know. And
that's how I like to do it, you know what
I mean. I like to ponder the emails. I don't
know if I have an answer for things, but I
like pondering things. So I'm in the dark. I just
had some coffee. The vibe ants is kicking in. Let's

(02:32):
read some emails. Okay, this first one is from Jackson,
subject line, I think my coworker is watching me. Hey GEK,
longtime listener, first time mailer. I think my coworker is
watching me. I recently started working for a cannabis wholesale

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distribution center in Oregon and it's been an absolute blast.
While I was listening to one of your older episodes,
an another Sophie Cunningham ad came on, so I was
skipping the ad when one of my coworkers wrote in
our slack chat, he's on his phone, followed by he
put it down. What the fuck? I was confused, of course,

(03:16):
and I immediately called it out and they were very
embarrassed after they realized their mistake. I know they were
talking about me because their desk is diagonal to mine,
and I was the only male presenting person in that moment,
which means someone higher up told her to watch me,
or she wanted to watch me on her own volition,

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and I don't know what's worse. I talked to my
manager and when I asked, they said to not worry
about it, and that the coworker was talked to already. However,
I still feel like I keep spotting them watching my
moves when I'm just skipping ads or trying to select
an old episode to listen to. I really like this
job and don't want to be confrontational and call a

(04:00):
scene about something that could have been dealt with already?
Am I being paranoid? Should I be worried? Is it
chill now? PS? Please come back to Portland when you
tour again. I will be coming to Portland in June. Okay? Anyway, um, wow,
that's crazy. No, I think you should ask her. I
think you should ask her. Like, here's the weird thing, right,

(04:21):
is like this job sounds fucking what. I don't know.
What do you do? You work? No? Yeah, you work
for a cannabis wholesale Okay, all right, you said it's
been a blast. Okay, So if you're saying it's been
a blast, that means that this is a good job
and things are cool. I don't think it's being confrontational

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to be like, yo, are you listening to my fucking phone?
Like stop watching me? You know, And you don't have
to even be like that, And it doesn't even have
to be like a confrontational like what the fuck are
you doing? But you got to go in there and
find the information. You got to go in and be like, yo,

(05:04):
are you watching me? And if they say no, then
say are you sure you can tell me if you are?
And then maybe they say okay, I am, and then
you go, okay, I need you to stop doing that
or tell your manager or whatever, because if it truly

(05:26):
is like a chill work environment or like an absolute blast,
and I feel like it wouldn't be that big of
a deal to not confront but perhaps inquire as to
why this person is watching you. Maybe she likes you,
Maybe she has a crush on you. That could be
it too. Maybe she's in love with you, Jackson. Maybe

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she's admiring you. Maybe she's writing letters. Maybe she's thinking
about you. That could be it too, and which you
would want to know because maybe you maybe you love
her too, and you guys can get married and have
a baby. Okay. This is from Sour Candy, subject line

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fell in love with a red bearded colonizer, Send help,
Dear therapy, Gecko. I fell in love with a foreigner
in my own country. Parentheses, I'm Asian like full on,
aggressively handsome white man red beard Scottish accent. He works here,

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lives here, somehow made my dusty ass city feel like
the set of a slow indie romance. We dated, then didn't,
then did, then didn't again. We had dumb little rituals
inside jokes about orcas, fun facts pasted like love notes.
We roasted modern art and acted like we weren't two

(07:01):
nerds falling in love in public. He made coffee on
Sunday mornings like it was a sacrament. This is beautiful.
He also introduced me to your YouTube channel, said you'd
like therapy, getto and I did. Of course I did.
He knew me like that. So if the algorithm is
doing its thing, and by some chance he's watching this, Elle,
I know you watch this lizard man during dinner. If

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you see this, Hi, I love you and I'll probably
always miss you. What happened here? Okay, I'm investing in this,
so I want to keep reading anyways. But also I
cried like a lot, sometimes at him, sometimes next to him.
I was the I need reassurance or I will perish girly.

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He was the I love you, but i'm emotionally congested guy.
I spiraled, he vanished, rinse, repeat, and yet we kept trying.
We told ourselves it could work if we just tried
hard enough. We tried and it didn't. He said he'd
give one hundred percent, and I believed him. God, I

(08:05):
wanted to, and for like five business days it felt
real white business days whatever. But trying and being able
to are two different flavors of heartbreak. So now I'm
here eating sad noodles, writing to a man in a
lizard costume because there's nowhere for all this leftover love
to go. It's like emotional tupperware with no lid. Do

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I want him back? Do I just want the best
version of us? Do I need a lobotomy? Who knows anyway?
Send help or a lizard emoji? I'll take either yours
and cringe and healing g interesting. Whoo ah man, They're

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always there, really is. That's one of the toughest things
about love and relationships is that two people can be
so in love with each other and yet the logistics
of the universe just don't work out. I was talking

(09:12):
to someone about this because I met someone who was like,
I think that it's I met someone who was like,
I think the only reason a relationship doesn't work is
because two people don't love each other enough. And I
don't believe that. She was like, if you love each
other enough, you will make it work. And I don't know.

(09:35):
I'm really fucking just searching for the answers to those
questions myself. You know. It's like that, like love is
a choice, kind of a vibe, you know, And she
might be right in some cases, but everyone has their
own philosophy of it. The problem is you only get

(09:55):
fifty percent of the choice. I do believe that, Yeah,
people can be in love, but whatever, like external things
surrounding them, which don't even have to be things outside
of themselves. It could just be your personalities are incongruent

(10:17):
with each other and that just fucks everything up. That's
very possible. Okay. This next one is from Sam, subject line,
why do I drink so much Celsius? I love Celsius
so much it is affecting my life. Let me explain.

(10:38):
I have dealt with social anxiety my whole life, to
the point where I was basically mute in high school.
Since then, I cut back on caffeine and it seems
to help things substantially interesting. Maybe I should do that.
I'm twenty six now and my social life is pretty good.
But then I tried the Peach Vibe Celsius, and I've
been drinking one every day since. Every morning I wake

(11:00):
up and I crave a sip of that sweet peachy nectar.
I can't get enough. And I'm beginning to notice that
I am a lot more alert, but in an evil way, sometimes,
the way that takes away my presence and well being
and replaces it with overthinking and anxiety. I also picked
up a zin habit while working long days, so it

(11:23):
all compounds. That is to say, I know why I
drink it so much. It gives me a rush, and
I like it, even though it makes me feel weird.
Sometimes I'm trying not to let it overtake my life,
but it may. I know you partake in the occasion
of Celsius. Have you tried the Peach Vibe? What do
you think? Have you had issues with stimulants before? I

(11:47):
am not secretly a Celsius spokesperson. Please drink coffee if
you can. It's an expensive habit. Ooh, you have a
lot of thoughts about this stuff? Yes, so, I mean
I don't know. Man, it's hard because, uh, I mean
I'm on coffee right now. I was a big Celsius

(12:08):
guy and then I started taking vibance and now if
I drink a Celsius and the vibance, it probably will
kill me on days that I end up that I
skipped my vibance for whatever reason, I do a Celsius
and dude, I don't know. I'm not a doctor. I'm
a terrible guy for like for like medical advice. But

(12:29):
I'll just tell you my I'll just tell you my
experience with the stuff is that like I don't feel
normal if I'm not on some kind of stimulant. Like
I get really fucking depressed if I don't have coffee
or Celsius or vibance. Now that's probably not good or

(12:51):
it's just like, I mean, I have a weird brain, man,
I got all the you know whatever mental health issues
and all that shit in the ADHD. And I'll let
and uh, I'll be on vibeance, man, and I'll just
be like wow, holy Like I'll have like a minute
where I'm like, oh, okay, I understand I think how

(13:12):
most people maybe not most people, but like like I'll
see relaxed people and people just going about their lives,
not going insane, and I'll have a second where I'm like, oh, okay,
I think I know what that feels like, and I'll
have and that's that's about two hours of me on vibeance.
So it feels good, and it feels good when I'm

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in uh with the Celsius too, because it just, you
know how it is with ADHD, like you just can't
fucking do anything, and then when you get the feeling
that you actually have some control over your fucking life,
it makes you feel great, makes you feel like the
world's in some insane burden that you're like sissifhicianly rolling

(13:54):
the ball up the hill. You feel like you can
kind of pick the ball up and throw it across
the field. Now, Listen, I've always fantasized or thought that, like, hey,
what if I quit doing all that stuff? And I
just like took like a few months to get unaddicted to,

(14:17):
you know, a sugar and I eat salmon every day,
and I didn't, you know whatever whatever when I with
that secretly fix things for me. I don't know, maybe,
but every time I've tried to do that, I end
up feeling like shit. But I know I've been on
a I've been on caffeine for so long that I
don't really know how I feel like without it. And
I know that when you quit any kind of substances

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is strong withdrawal period that you have to really get through.
And every day feels like a year to me. So
when someone's like, oh, you got to give it two
months before you really can become unaddicted, I'm like, fuck you,
I don't have two months. That's two months. Let's that's

(15:00):
like my entire life for all I know. So, yeah,
this is this is just me ranting about my experience
with it, but I'm not I don't know if this
was helpful to you at all. It is interesting that
cutting back on caffeine helped you out with your social anxiety. Uh,
I'm trying to figure out what you mean when you
say that you are evil. You take it, takes away

(15:23):
your presence and replaces it with overthinking and anxiety. I
don't know. I feel I feel the opposite when I'm
on a stimulant, because like, if I'm just talking as
to someone and I'm not and I'm adhde, I'm really
not present I'm thinking about life and everything else. But
if I'm on the stimulant and I feel good and
someone some fucking guys talking to me about something that

(15:47):
i'll give a fuck about, I'll engage with him. I'd
be like, oh, interesting, I've never seen that before, but
I'll check it out. Oh, okay, you do B two
B marketing? SaaS interesting? Now? I how does marketing? Uh?
The kind of Facebook ads really work? And I'm not
even bullshitting when I'm doing that stuff. I'm really in it.
I'm like, and I'm in my head, I'm thinking, Wow,

(16:07):
I'm acting like such a normal human being and it's
happening so effortlessly, and I'm not thinking. I'm just I
just love love. I love being a normal human being.
It feels so fucking good. I don't know if I've
told this story on the podcast before, but I'll tell it.

(16:28):
I remember it was just like twenty twenty three or something.
I was going through a really hard time and it's
a lot of anxiety, a lot of overthinking, a lot
of mental health whatever. And I was I was at
some party or whatever, and I was sitting at a
table with these guys, and this one guy he's making

(16:50):
a sandwich and he puts some Dorito's on his sandwich,
and the other guy looks at him and is like, hey, man,
you like putting chips on your sandwich. And then the
guys with the sandwich, he's like, Oh, I love putting
chips on my sandwich. And then they start talking about

(17:10):
putting chips on their sandwich and they're and I'm watching
them have this conversation, and I'm just like, these two
guys are so deeply in the present right now, Like
I just felt. I was just I'm over fucking thinking everything,
and I'm watching them, and I'm like, these guys are
in the present right now, just like in life, talking
about putting chips on a sandwich, making jokes, they're brain whatever.

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You never know what's going on in someone's head. But
I was pretty goddamn sure that these two guys were
one hundred percent invested in that current moment, in the
conversation that they were having with each other about putting
chips on a sandwich. And I was observing this and
I fuck it, I had to go to their room.
I started crying because I was like, I fucking wish

(17:57):
I could do that. I wish I could be in
a fucking just normal conversation without thinking all this anxious,
crazy thoughts. And you know, I wish I could just
be sitting there having a conversation about chips in a
sandwich and not thinking about twenty other different horrible things.

(18:22):
And vibance gets me that point. So that's why I
like it. And I'm sure there's other chemically things or whatever.
But you know, if your brain is just wired in
a certain way where you it's just it's always somewhere else,
then I don't know, You're just I don't know. But yeah,

(18:45):
I've since I've since then been able to have plenty
of conversations about normal ass shit without freaking out. But anyway,
that was a long rant. Thanks for sending in your things, Sam,
I appreciate you. Okay. Another e mail, This one is
from Kalin, subject line fish farmer, Hey Gek, I called

(19:10):
you last week and actually got through, but somehow managed
to botch answering the phone correctly. I was calling to
talk to you about my experience moving across the country
to work at a fish hatchery. So far, it's been
a great experience. I feed fish and clean tanks every day,
and do some basic maintenance around the hatchery. It pays

(19:30):
well and my housing is provided, so it's a heck
of a way to save some money. I live at
the hatchery in my own house, right at the base
of the mountains. It is beautiful here. That said, I
have been getting rather homesick lately. Last week was especially
bad as my grandma passed away and I wasn't able
to go back for the funeral. This was really hard

(19:51):
for me, but my family reassured me that this is
what my grandma would want me to do. I missed
my family and friends quite a lot, but I am
still glad I'm trying this. Yes, thanks for reading this, Gech.
I've listened to you for years, but only tried reaching
out in the past week. I know you don't typically
call during your gek Mal episodes, but I'm going to
leave you my number with no expectations. Yours truly, fish farmer.

(20:13):
You know a fish farmer. I I'm really happy for you.
I am. I think that in life it's important to
have an ARC. I'm pro arc some people. Not everyone
wants to have an ARC. I get that the majority
of people even probably don't want to have arcs. But

(20:34):
I'm pro arc and part of an arc is that
you have to go on the hero's journey and leave
wherever you are so you can go on your arc.
And you did it, Fish Farmer, Yell left and the
trade off is that you're not going to be around

(20:54):
your friends and your family as much. But the good
news is you develop as a parson, and that's what
you really want because I'll see your friends of your family,
They're gonna, you know, have their own lives and be
doing their own thing. And I don't know, I just
feel like life is such a brief flash in the
pan that you want to see stuff and do stuff.

(21:16):
So I'm glad that you made the decision to move
across the country feeding fish cleaning tanks. That sounds nice, man,
Keep doing your thing, Fish Farmer. Sorry, I don't have
a whole lot to say about that. Okay, this is
I mean, I had things to say about that. I

(21:38):
gotta stop beating myself up, all right. This is from
Walker subject line the time in Indian Guru saved my bacon. Okay,
so me and my buddy had been experimenting with shrooms
for a minute, but the most we had ever taken
wasn't eighth, so we get the bright idea to go

(22:00):
on the hero's journey parentheses any dose above five grams
and do seven grams each. It was sub zero temperatures
and icy at shit. We took our shrooms and have
an absolute blast to the first half of the night.
About part way through the night, we go to walk
my friend's dog, and the snow, the air, and the

(22:22):
moon all have a crazy blood red tint to it,
and it freaked us the fuck out. We tried to
go to bed, but after twenty minutes he kicks me
out of his house because he's going through some emotional
shit and tripping hard. So I freak the fuck out
because it's midnight. I gotta be at work at seven,

(22:43):
and now I have to drive while tripping balls all
the way back home. I'm crying because if I get
pulled over, I'm going to jail. But the sub zero
temperatures and ice actually saved my ass because no cops
were out and about Okay, I'm gonna forre This is
really stupid, but anyway, whatever, Okay. As I'm driving home,

(23:07):
I start seeing demons flying at my windshield or reaching
out for why don't you just sleep into the car, dude,
turn on the fucking air conditioning and just sleep in
the car. Why are you driving home? This was stupid? Okay,
whatever I mean, I don't know why I'm lecturing you.
It's like you did it. You're already doing it. But

(23:28):
just next time this happens, just like, sleep in the car.
Turn the heater out and just sleep in the car.
Don't start driving. That's a terrible idea, especially with the
ice and the snow and all that shit. Okay, at
this point, I feel, okay, where was I? I start

(23:48):
seeing demons flying at my windshield or reaching out for me,
trying to make me crash Jesus Christ. But somehow I
managed to take every back road I know and make
it home safe and sound. At this point, I can
still feel the demons all around my property. I'm tossing
and turning and praying to keep them away from me
and my house. Then out of nowhere, I hear this
Indian guy's voice say, be calm, my child, You're a

(24:11):
protected sleep now, and I instantly pass the fuck out.
The next morning, I go to work and about the
shit a brick when the first thing that pops up
in my Google news is thousands of Indian temples closed
in wake of super blood moon for fear of evil spirits. Okay, well,

(24:35):
I don't know. I'm not trying to be your dad, Walker,
but just go to sleep in the car. Man. I
like mushrooms as much as the next guy. But just
go to sleep in the car. Dude, I don't think that.
I don't think an Indian. I don't understand how you're
saying that an Indian, this Indian guy saved you. I

(25:00):
don't think any of this is related. I think it
was all hallucinations. I think it was all a coincidence.
There's nothing cosmic about any of this. You weren't visited
by demons. You just got really high and drove around
and almost died. I'm sorry, let's just go to sleep

(25:23):
of the car next time. Walker, I'm a bummer. Sorry man,
all right? Anyway, This next email is from James Hey GEK,
hope existence is treating you well today. I wanted to
get an email to you to get your thoughts on

(25:46):
some life motivation stuff. I am a professional bassoonist slash composer.
Less than a year out of school. I finished my
master's degree. Last May. Lately, it has felt odd to
call myself a even though I have the skill set
because leaving Because since leaving school, work in music has

(26:06):
become sparse. I used to be getting calls regularly to
sub for local symphonies, but haven't received any in months.
I've had some recent success in composing, with six of
my compositions on the way to being published, but it
almost feels like false hope because while I enjoy writing,
I really want to share this music with others, and

(26:27):
I'm having a hard time believing my music will sell.
On top of this, I'm the main income supporting for
my family of parentheses, partner and two cats, so I've
had to take on non music jobs to help sussain myself.
I'm on my fourth job since graduating. I'm currently a
puzzle quality control technician. It's honestly an awesome job. Wait,

(26:49):
that's sick, I guess. I'm just wondering if you have
any advice on pushing the dream forward through all the
bullshit of life and ways that I can keep motivating
myself to do all this extra work for the thing
I love. Hmm, well, yeah, I have a few thoughts

(27:10):
about this. Is I think there's certain things that like,
if you really like doing them, you just can't not
do that, do it, you know what I mean? So like,
if you really like making music, I'm going to assume that,
like you just don't live in a world where you
don't do it, right, So you're gonna keep doing the work.

(27:32):
You're gonna keep making music. So at the end of
the day, right, it's like there's really there's really nothing
you can do except for keep doing the work and
then figuring out creative ways to market the work. But
it sounds to me like, you know, you've been a

(27:56):
musician for a long time, and I don't think that
that's going away anytime soon. So as long as I
know it's kind of fluffy, But as long as you
just keep doing the work and keep making the music,
if something is gonna happen, it'll happen. I think. Again,
it's about kind of how you choose to market yourself
and how you choose to kind of be smart about

(28:17):
the things that you're creating. But the fact that you're
creating it in general is a good sign. So, hmm,
how can I keep motivating myself to do all this
extra work for the thing I love, just love it,
just love doing it. Just I think that's I think
that's the only way you'll not get burnt out is

(28:39):
to just love what you're doing so much that you
can't not do it. That's my that's my best sort
of thought on that, even if it's a little frothy.
All right. This is from Margarita, subject line recurring dreams

(29:02):
and predictions for real life. Hey, Gek, I hope you're
having a good day and having healthy, consistent bowel movements.
You can call me Morbo. I'm emailing you because of
your recent podcast where in the gek Mal segment, someone
asked about a dream they had about their parents' plane
crash and whether that meant their parents were going to

(29:24):
die in real life, and you expressed your opinion that
dreams do not externally influence reality. I have a story
about a personal recurring dream that I have never been
able to fully understand. I don't necessarily agree or disagree
about the external influence of dreams, but this experience always

(29:45):
felt like more than just a coincidence. Every night for
about a year when I was four or five, I
had a comforting, predictable dream my grandpa would take me
down a long hallway to a vibrant, factory like playroom
filled with colorful turning gears, dials, and levers. He would

(30:07):
leave me there while he was at work, and I
would happily play until he returned at the end of
the day. The dream always ended with me running into
his arms and us walking hand in hand back down
the hallway, at which point I would wake up. However,
one night, the dream changed. We were walking down the

(30:27):
same hallway, but I felt dread and anxiety. I didn't
want to go into the room, but my grandpa insisted
he needed to go to work and dropped me off anyway.
The room was now rusty, jagged, and dull. I played
for what seemed like forever, but he never came back,
and I couldn't open the door to leave. That morning,

(30:50):
I ran to his room and tried to wake him
up to ask him to make me scrambled eggs, as
he did every day. He never woke up. He had
passed away from a heart attack during the night. I
was the first to discover him that morning. As a
five year old, I told my mother he was just
being lazy and not wanting to wake up because I
didn't understand what death was. For the next two or

(31:12):
three years, I had the same dream again, but this
time I was walking down the hallway alone and entering
the room, which fluctuated between rusty and colorful depending on
the day, always searching for my grandpa, but he was
never there. I would just play in the room alone
until I woke up. Eventually the dream stopped. While my

(31:34):
grandpa was a healthy, athletic man with no indication of sickness.
I'm not claiming the dream predicted his death, but I
often think back to why the dream changed so dramatically
the night he passed, seemingly warning me that he would
not be there anymore. I would love to know what
you think of this experience. I have a few more

(31:55):
scenarios of my recurring dreams suddenly changing the night before
something's significant happen to me, almost like a prediction or
a warming Thank you for reading this. I hope it
was interesting. That was interesting. What do I think about this?
I mean, I don't I'm listen. I'm pretty agnostic when
it comes to a lot of stuff. I'm very easily

(32:20):
I'm somewhat easily convinced of things that are supernatural in
a sense whether or not. What do I think? I mean?
I'm I think that's pretty crazy story. I'm I don't
know if I'm gonna go ahead and say that it
was a predictor of your grandpa's death, but I think

(32:44):
it is a pretty crazy coincidence. Nonetheless, thank you for
sharing that story. That was very interesting. Okay, here's a
real crazy one. This is from Solid Snake. Subject line,
I have a scat fetish and I will never be loved,

(33:06):
Hi Lyle. I will spare you any of the graphic
details regarding my condition. I really just want to share
what my life actually looks like to another living soul.
Maybe I'm not as crazy as I think I am.
I am a twenty eight year old Venezuelan man, really poor,
divorced parents, never went to college, never did anything meaningful

(33:27):
in life. At the moment, I live in Paraguay, where
I work in a cement factory. I live with my mother,
who also works in another factory. We earn barely enough
to pay our bills and basic stuff. Our life is
hard and we only have ourselves, but we keep going.
Besides working on a factory, I also enjoy making techno music, drawing,

(33:49):
furries and cinema. When my parents divorced, I became a
low self esteem, quiet kid, so I ended up developing
a creative side. I am bisexual, and as I grew up,
I developed a very unhealthy sexuality. I can only have
sexual pleasure by living traumas again and putting myself through

(34:09):
humiliating situations. When I was five years old, before the divorce,
I was playing Doggie in a side of the house
while my family was drinking polar and having a parilla
in the living room. What is a parilla? Uh, I

(34:30):
have no idea what that is. I guess a party.
I was told dogs were dirty and animals. I was
told dogs were dirty animals, and I concluded that dogs
eat their own shit and if I am playing doggie,
I had to go all the way. Next thing I know,
my dad walks in on me with a mouth full

(34:51):
of shit. My Johnny Bravo shirt all smeared with shit,
and he gets really angry. He grabs me by one
hand and drags me from the living room all the
way to the bedroom. My whole family sees me all
covered in shit with a stupid face, laughing and laughing.

(35:12):
That day was the day that I died. For the
first time, it felt like I died. I remember the
shame burning, the feeling that I fucked something up forever.
As I grew up, I learned to get turned on
by the thought of being dirty and a toilet for
other men. I had another similar episode in my teenage years.

(35:33):
Left my Gmail account, logged in on the family computer,
and my dad saw my stash of gay role plays
and my gay scat fetish porn stash while I was away.
I was never too close to my dad, but that
day I think I died for him for real. I
was fifteen at that time. After that, I got out

(35:54):
of home, found a job, and rented a house together
with my mom. She was always very accepting of who
I was. Now that we are here in Paraguay, I
haven't spoken to my dad in some time. He stopped
sending me messages a few birthdays ago and a few
Christmases ago. I'm glad he moved on. He didn't deserve
to have a six son like me. Right now, I

(36:16):
live a pretty normal life. Been at the factory for
four years, always passed as someone normal to my coworkers.
I don't have friends and don't go out much. I
have a side job of drawing scat fetish art for furries.
It pays well and it's nice. I have a problems
with opening up to others emotionally. I haven't had a

(36:36):
relationship since I was a teen and only have hookups
with strangers. I feel undeserving of love and mostly want
to be alone all the time. I don't think I
will ever find someone who will accept me for who
I am. Sometimes I want to try my fetish with
other men, but scat is a very high health risk fetish,
probably one of the most dangerous ones. It's a fetish

(36:59):
I experienced mostly through porn and masturbation and fantasy. I
don't see my life improving in any way. I think
I will continue to be poor and with all my
sex problems until I am old. My mom will die
and I will be alone. Is this life worth living? Who? Okay? Well, well,

(37:25):
solid snake, okay, give me just a moment too. Take
that one. In the Scots stuff and the and the like,
the eating poop stuff is not the I think it's
the question of is this life worth living? That is
like the the thing here? Is life worth living? I

(37:48):
don't know if I can answer this question. Obviously, this
is a person who needs a real therapist to talk
through a bunch of stuff. But I have some ponders.
I mean, clearly, this guy has a lot of stuff
going on with him that both internally and externally isolates

(38:13):
himself from other people. And I think it was brave
of you to write this email, Solid Snake, because you're
describing like really crazy fucked up stuff. But we live
in a world with really crazy fucked up stuff, man,

(38:37):
So you're probably not the only part whatever is going
on with you. You're not the only one. You might
be one of the few people brave enough to talk
about it, to write this email about it, but you're
not the only one. I mean, I mean, who were
you drawing this fetish scat furry porn for? You know,

(39:00):
think about that? Do you ever develop relationships with those people?
I'm not even talking about romantic relationships, but like, who
are you drawing this fucking porn for? Man? And what's
going on with the furries? And where are the furries
in Venezuela? Whatever the fuck is going on with you?
There's there's some community, and maybe for you it's the

(39:20):
furry community, maybe whatever, But there's other people who are
dealing with this stuff. And I think if I were you,
I would do whatever it fucking took to go in
search of those people. Even if even if it's just
the internet, man, even if it's just you and a

(39:42):
bunch of fucking shit eating furries hanging out on discord,
you gotta be able to find other people who have
the same problem as you. You have to because you
have no perspective right now, because you only know because
you have this crazy thing going on internally that you're

(40:04):
just dealing with alone, and it's just you and the
entire planet who looks at it and goes, this is
too much. This is crazy for me to deal with.
But if you, I mean, this is why they have
things like AA and you know, sex addicts anonymous and
all this stuff is so that people who have like
a problem they think they're alone with, they can get
perspective from other people. And you really need that. You

(40:26):
need that, like you desperately need that. And I think
you can find it. Where Who are these scat fetish
furry people that you're drawing the art with. Start first,
Start there, Start there, See if you can find other
people that have the same problem as you just like
start there is your life worth living? It's not a

(40:56):
good sign that I had to pause for that long,
But that doesn't mean that I leave. Your life isn't
worth living. I don't. It's your It's hard because I'm
a bit of a fucking uh hm hm hm Is
your life worth living? Actually? Give me let because if

(41:18):
you're listening to this right now, here is what I
will say. And I will say that because I don't
I don't like being uh unrealistic, Okay, I really like.
I don't like being like toxic positivity, and I don't
like going every life is amazing and beautiful and worth living.
I don't like doing that. But I will say this,
and I will say it with certainty, and I will

(41:41):
say it with conviction. To you, solid snake, if you're listening,
I a hundred percent believe that there are things out there,
be they people, places, meanings, and I believe this for everyone, people, places, meanings, work,

(42:11):
whatever it is. There's stuff out there that I don't
know about and that you don't know about. Where if
you kept living your life and you kept trying, and
you kept trying to expand outside of yourself and find

(42:33):
these people, places, things, whatever they are, there are people, places,
things that you may discover and then realize that, yes,
your life is worth living. And I believe that one
hundred percent. So even if you don't think that your
life is it, and this is applicable to fucking everyone,
even if you don't think that your life as it
is is worth living, I do believe that Again, if

(42:57):
you keep living it, and you keep trying to search
a little bit outside of yourself, whether that's going to therapy,
whether that's just saying fuck it and trying to make
the connections with people anyway, even if you don't feel
like it comes natural to you, like, the more you
just try to attempt outside of yourself, the greater chance

(43:18):
is that you'll discover again people, places, things, whatnot, thoughts,
brother things inside. I don't only talking about the external
things you might have. There's feelings that I don't fucking
know about, that you don't know about that might make
you think differently. You'll discover thought things inside of yourself
and outside of yourself that might make you believe that

(43:38):
your life is worth living. So that's what I would
say to you, because I can't tell you that your
life is worth living, because only you can decide that.
But what I can tell you is that I'm pretty
confident that you don't have all the information and all
of the experiences that can inform you whether or not

(44:02):
you think your life is worth living. Does that make sense?
I hope that makes sense. So look, there might be
an under I because listen, there might be some dungeon
in Venezuela where you can hang out with guys and
shit in each other's mouths all day and it and
then go to like get brunch afterwards, and it's amazing

(44:26):
and you're like Wow. Until until I found the Venezuelan
diarrhea dungeon, my life wasn't worth living. But now it is.
Now I have family and friends, now I got all
this whole thing. So I don't know, but you you
have to. You have to go in search. You have
to go in search of shit to make your life
worth living. You can't just give up. I mean you can,

(44:49):
But don't you want to know? Don't you want to know?
Don't you want to know? Don't you want to know
if you can live a life that's worth living too?
You want to at least try really hard to see
if maybe you can discover something that makes your life

(45:10):
worth living. That's what I would say to you, solid snake.
So good luck out there, man. All right, let's keep going.
This is from Mike, subject line Old English erectile dysfunction

(45:30):
Therapy Gecko. I am honored and esteemed to be writing
to you, Righteous Gecko, regarding a conundrum which has troubled
me for some time. It is a great desire of
mine to one day grace the presence of the Therapy
Gecko podcast, and I do hope that day is soon
to come. Okay, what's the thing. But for now, fair Gecko,

(45:53):
I write to you via digital messaging, and I beg
you to hearken my every word. I'm about to stop
reading this email, all right, I'll finish. I'm too deep
into it. For I am in love and have fostered
a growing relationship with the very maiden I had eyes
four in high school. Okay, you won me back, Mike.
Many a year. We have known each other and our

(46:14):
feelings are known to one another. She cares about me deeply,
but an unfortunate problem has dashed my hopes of claiming
her as my lady. For you see a dastardly case
of erectile dysfunction has stricken me, and a vile case
of it. Indeed, a virgin I am not. But with

(46:34):
this woman, whom I so adore, my heart simply gives way,
and I find myself fraught with trepidition. Half a dozen
nights we have gone to bed together, but alas my
nether regions freeze like stone from Medusa's horrid glare. Overcome
with nerves, I am and a rift that has caused
between us. I can feel within me this maiden has

(46:56):
feelings for me, but the lack of sex has caused
her to not want to date me. I love this girl,
and I think she loves me, but this ed is
an issue. Therapy, Gecko, Whatever shall I do? Ps. I
was embarrassed and only felt comfortable sharing this through medieval wordplay. Apologies. Dude,

(47:18):
take one of the pills. Have you taken the pills?
I've never taken any of the pills, but I know
there's pills. Try the pills man. We needed a Dick
pills sponsor on this show. Try one of the pill companies.
This blue cheo, I mean, I look this blue cheo,
see Alice. Let's take a pill man, it'll make your

(47:44):
dick work again. Is that? It is? That all we
have to say to this guy? I think it is.
It's a medical issue. Let me look up Okay, I'm
gonna look into Salis real quick Sealice generic side effects. Okay,

(48:05):
what are the side effects of cialis? Headache, back pain,
nasal congestion. Okay, it's not that bad, I don't think. Hey, man,
just take some Cialis you'll be Okay. You don't talk

(48:27):
like that when you're in bed with her, do you?
Maybe she likes that. I don't know. I don't know her.
She's probably a nice lady. Take Cialis, man. This is
from h subject line. I am living too many different lives, Lyle.
I am twenty three and have never felt more unsure
about my place in this world. While this is very

(48:48):
normal for someone my age, it feels very intense right now.
After over a year of looking for my ideal job
and something I am passionate for, I finally got it.
But every time I feel like I hit my stride
in it, I get knocked back down hard, and I
work fifty hours a week. I feel like part of
it may be the company, but I'm scared to leave
because I don't know if I'll be able to find

(49:09):
another job since it took so long to get this one.
At home, I struggle because I have a two year
old and a boyfriend waiting for me. I own my home,
but I'm never there to take care of things, and
when I get home, everyone needs my attention. I can't
get any time alone with myself or with my boyfriend.
It takes a toll when I have no energy or

(49:31):
time to go around, and most people my age don't
understand how it feels to be a parent and try
to maintain a committed relationship with your co parent. Meanwhile,
I have a crush on my coworker as well. Interesting
I feel like I'm just projecting because he is so
different from my current boyfriend. His values align a little

(49:51):
more with mine, and he is physically more my type.
I spend so much time working next to him. I
don't know how to not think about it. I'm trying
to let it run its course, but I have a
hard time. Partially because I am the type of person
to share my feelings it helps to get it off
my chest, but partially because I fear that I am
settling because I want to be there for my daughter.

(50:13):
Part of me knows there has to be someone better
out there for me. I come from the restaurant industry originally,
and I wish I could go back. I hated how
my growth was so stunted and the pay is not great,
but the schedule was perfect for my family. I still
had problems, but generally I was comfortable because I could
enjoy more of my time and food is one of
my passions. How do I choose between two passions? Now?

(50:37):
I am lost trying to figure out all these conflicting
ideas in my head. My mind feels like a garden
full of dying flowers and I can't figure out which
ones to water. Send help who. I said at the
beginning of this podcast that I wasn't gonna blindly throw
out advice just because I felt like I had to

(50:58):
say something and saw I'm not, but I will ponder this. Okay.
So she said something about maintaining a committed relationship with
her co parent. I am I to assume that the
two year old she has is with this boyfriend. I

(51:20):
think I'm gonna assume that she called him a co parent.
I okay, I think I think that the boyfriend is
the same person. Okay, all right, so you got you
had this kid when you were twenty one. So I
don't know how long you've been with your boyfriend. For
I can't tell you whether or not to leave your
boyfriend at the first sign of feeling like you're more

(51:46):
aligned with someone else. But I have a few thoughts.
I mean, I do think that like staying together for
the kids is kind of a recipe for like not

(52:07):
not a great relationship, Like do you like your boyfriend?
You know? Is the like, yeah, this is a shiny
new thing, and we're always gonna get distracted by shiny
new things, and there's always gonna be somebody that we're
more attracted to or more aligned with us. Like that's
just always gonna happen, right, So forget about the crush

(52:30):
for a second, and just like do you do we
do we like the boyfriend? Do you like him? Do
you want to be with him? Do you want to
be with him? Or do you are you just like
we gotta stay together or else this things are gonna
be weird with this kid, you know, because that's just
gonna because where does that go? That's a lifetime of

(52:50):
resentment right there. You know you're gonna be for sixteen
more years. You're just gonna be with this guy that
you don't where they like. But I don't know, I don't.
I can't really tell. I can't really tell from this
email whether or not you like your boyfriends. And I
mean that I don't. I don't mean that this email
is saying to me that you don't like your boyfriend.

(53:12):
But I just can't tell whether not you like him.
But yeah, there's always gonna be people that you're more
physically attracted to and whose values aligned with you more.
And also, you've you've probably been with if you had
the kid when you were twenty one, you've probably been
with this guy for since you were like, I don't know,
i'll give you the I'll give you nineteen. Maybe you've
probably been with this guy for at least a year

(53:32):
or two before you had the kid, so you know,
and especially because you're so young, you're like an ever
evolving person, so obviously your values and your boyfriend's values
are gonna change. You Guys evolve to be people. So
I don't know if that's advice, but that's a that's

(53:53):
my ponder. And then as far as the job, goes. Uh,
let me reread some of this. After a year of
working for my looking for my ideal job. After looking
for my ideal job, I finally got it. But every
time I feel like I hit my stride, I get
knocked back down hard. It's hard for me to answer

(54:14):
that without knowing what you mean by get knocked back
down hard? Who's are you? Are you being knocked down by? Like?
Oh fuck, I'm not as good at this as I
thought I was. Because if that's the case, I think
it's okay for you to just keep going and trying.
Or are you getting knocked back down? Because I don't know.
I don't really know what the industry is. Hm. I

(54:37):
come from the restaurant originally industry Originally. I wish I
could go back. Uh, the schedule is perfect for my family, hmm.
I fuck. I don't want to just give advice because
I feel like I have to say something I really don't.

(54:57):
This is hard. I'm it's so funny. It's funny to
do this because I'm so fucking indecisive in my personal
life that, like, it just feels crazy for me to
try to tell other people what to do with their lives.
But we again, we can ponder. I like a good pondering.
I'm gonna say this, h you're doing what you're doing,

(55:22):
what you're doing is so hard. You got a heart.
This is a hard life. This is a really hard life.
I can't speak to the job thing, but I would
just say that you should decide whether or not you
like your boyfriends, and it's okay if you don't. It's
okay if you don't like your boyfriend. It's not insane
for you and your boyfriend to break up. It's not
the worst thing that could possibly happen. You're twenty three
years old, you know it's not insane that the boyfriend

(55:46):
you had when you were young and as you get
older you drift apart. I'll just say, it's not insane.
It's not you know, me telling you what to do.
But where are we at here? Let's do a few more,
shall we? Okay? This is from Chao subject line story

(56:14):
about my ex. I met this girl in high school.
She wasn't just another student. I remember her as someone
who lit up the room when she laughed. So when
I immediately felt drawn to we became friends. Nothing more
at the time, just the kind of friendship that grows
in between classes, notes passed during boring lectures, and small

(56:34):
talk at the gate after school. But life moved on
and after graduation we lost touch. Years went by. One day,
while flipping through my old graduation book, her face caught
my eye. It was one of those random nostalgic moments
that catches you off guard. On impulse, I looked her
up on social media. Her profile popped up. She was married,

(56:55):
had a child. A small knot formed in my stomach,
but I clicked follow anyway. To my surprise, she accepted
and started reacting. Okay. To my surprise, she accepted, and
I started reacting to her stories, just casual, harmless likes

(57:16):
at first, a laughing emoji here, a heart there. I
don't know if I like where this is going. Then
one day she replied it was a simple message, but
it opened a floodgate. We started talking morning afternoon night.
Our conversations grew deeper, more intimate. It didn't take long
before we confessed old curiosities, feelings that maybe had always

(57:40):
been there under the surface. Eventually she agreed to meet up.
One dinner led to a kiss. One kiss led to
a night together, and soon we were seeing each other regularly.
She began confiding in me about her marriage, how broken

(58:00):
things were. Eventually she told me she was leaving her husband.
It wasn't a clean break it never is. There was stress, arguments, chaos,
but she did it, and after a period she moved
in with me, and her son came too. He was
twelve at the time, but kids have a way of
sensing where they're safe, and at some point he started

(58:21):
calling me dad. I didn't expect that, but it was
a good feeling. We became a family, me, her and
the boy. Those months together were messy but beautiful. I
thought we had something real. Then one day I came
home and she was gone, just like that, no big fight,

(58:44):
no warning. I called her desperate. She said she needed space,
that she wanted to live on her own again. I
didn't understand it, but I tried to respect it. And
after some time we started seeing each other again. But
it was different, now, more distant, more fit. She told
me she didn't want a relationship anymore, just sex, and

(59:05):
I went along with it. For a year and four
months I visited her apartment, no promises, no strings, just
that strange, haunting arrangement, and eventually I couldn't do it anymore.
I walked away, cut contact. I needed more than she
was willing to give. Time passed. A year later. You

(59:25):
guys are really good writers. There's been a lot of
really good, well written emails said to this show. I
appreciate you guys. Okay. Time passed. A year later. I
met someone new at university. Wait, you met someone new
at How old are you? Guys? Man? She had a
twelve year old son. How uh? Anyway, whatever I can't

(59:49):
get I'm not gonna try to get the timeline on this.
A year later, I met someone new at university. She
was warm, curious, and she listened, really listened. We started
going out. It was healthy, calm, something I hadn't known
I needed then. Just a few days ago, we were
talking about our pasts and I told her everything, the

(01:00:10):
whole strange, tangled story. She went quiet for a moment,
and that said something that floored me. She has a
coworker that has a wife with the name of my ex.
And we went to look at a photo and there
it was. He is the woman's husband, and they had
never actually split up with her. According to him, they

(01:00:31):
had a fight, sure, but they got back together, not
long after it had never lasted months, they had always
been officially together. It hit me like a punch in
the gut. All that time, all the pain and weird
relationship was built on a lie. But well I've kind
of started that. Wow, what a fucking story. Holy shit.

(01:00:54):
I don't I I don't think I can add anything
it could to this, right, Thank you for sharing that.
Holy fucking shit, man, that's crazy. Oh jeez, wow, I
mean yeah, I think here's the thing, right, It's like

(01:01:17):
when you meet the fact that you met this lady
while she was like already married and had a kid,
and then she started like it was. It feels like
by nature of the way that it started, you can
kind of predict how it ends. And people say that
about this kind of stuff, so but I don't know.
Every situation is kind of unique. That's a crazy story, man,

(01:01:42):
Thank you for sharing. Holy shit. I can't I can't
think of anything to add to this. It was fun,
It was fun, It was nice. It felt nice to
read it. What happened to the boy? Call in one time? Kyo,

(01:02:04):
we got to talk. Okay, let's see here, I probably
have time to do a couple more. You guys want
to listen to a couple more Getmels, let's do that.
This is from Jeremiah, subject line you can call me Jeremiah.
I've been going through a weird time with my girlfriend.

(01:02:25):
We've been together for three years, and this is the
longest relationship she's been in I have had, including her,
seven sexual partners. As I've had long term relationships mostly
and didn't lose my virginity until I was eighteen, she
has had many more, which she attributes to having a
very rough upbringing and treating sex as less of a
serious thing. We have amazing sex, definitely the best I've

(01:02:48):
ever had, and she says I'm the only person that
has ever made her finish. She also says we've had
more sex together than she has had with everyone else combined.
I sertifind myself feeling jealous of her past, not so
much jealous of her previous partners, but more that she's
had these variable experiences and I never did. I was
kind of a loser in high school, and even when

(01:03:09):
I did start finally having sex, it was only after
I got comfortable with someone. We've had a few deep
talks about this, and the last time we did, she
said she'd do pretty much anything to make me feel
better around my lack of experiences. She says that she
one hundred percent plans on spending the rest of her
life with me, so she'll do whatever it takes to

(01:03:30):
make it work. She suggested that maybe I should have
sex with other people, like a hooker, or that she'd
be open to a threesome with another girl. I don't
really know how to feel about those ideas. It sounds
kind of hot, but I also feel like it will
just inherently damage our relationship. Like, no matter what she
says about being okay with it, I think she will

(01:03:51):
be heartbroken or jealous, not to mention, I don't honestly
think I'll feel comfortable doing that with someone else. I
just wish there was a way I could be okay
with the imbalance between us without interfering with our relationship.
Like I wish I could just go back in time
and be more adventurous or whatever. It makes me feel
like inadequate or inferior to her. I know that's a
silly way to feel, and I'm not such shaming her.

(01:04:13):
I just feel like my ego is in danger. It's
just sort of a weird fomo. I guess interesting. See,
I I want to I want to dive deeper into
this with you, Jeremiah, because I want to know where
the fuck this thing is coming from. Like, you know,
who gives a shit? Right, Like if you feel yourself
like you if you really enjoy the sex life that

(01:04:37):
you're having with and you've had you've had seven sexual partners,
and I assume that this what if you've had Let
me say that, if you've had seven sexual partners and
this lady is the best sex that you've had of
those partners, you're fucking not missing anything, dude, You fucking

(01:04:59):
not miss seeing anything. Like if you can be if
you're in a relationship with a woman who really wants
to be with you, and you really want to be
with her, and she is the best sex that you've
ever had, you're doing fucking great. What if I please

(01:05:22):
listen to that. There's nothing there's no like crazy, any
any crazy Tinder hookup that you think you're missing out
on is nothing compared to what you have. You know,
and you're off, by the way, You're a really fucking
smart guy, right because listen, maybe your girl, maybe your
girlfriend is like the thing, the thing The thing about

(01:05:45):
her being like, I'll do anything to make you feel
better kind of makes it feel like, and you're smart,
you're keying into this. It kind of makes it feel
like she's genuinely just saying it because she wants because
she really likes you and wants you to stay, which
is a bad reason, you know, because because you're smart,
you're keying into the fact that she's not probably actually

(01:06:05):
cool with you having sex with a hooker or you
having a threesome with another girl. So you've you've approached
that situation very smartly. I feel so really, all this
is it is just you coming to terms with this
weird fomo that you have. But like, dude, I'm telling
you like that, there's you have nothing to be fomo about. Also,

(01:06:27):
it's not like this is the only girl that you've
ever had sex with. You had sex with six other people.
You know, you didn't lose your virginia until you're eighteen.
I didn't. I don't lose my virginia til I was eighteen.
Most a lot of people haven't lost to virginiay till
we're eighteen. It's not the I think you're you fear missing,
Like the thing you have fomo for it is. First

(01:06:50):
of all, it just doesn't it just doesn't exist. You
had sex with six other people and this is the best.
This lady was the best of the of all of them.
So I don't know, you sound like you know how
ridiculous this feeling is. But everything you're talking about is
just it's very it's like so normal, and you just

(01:07:12):
you ended up in the best scenario, right because you
don't want to be like you don't want to be
with another lady thinking about like sex you had with
another with a different lady, you know what I mean,
keep you're in. I just want Jeremiah, You're in a
good You're in a really good place. Dude, You're in

(01:07:33):
a really good place. Obviously, whatever is happening with you
is something internal that I don't think I can really fix.
But if you are hearing me say this, you're missing
out on nothing. Continue having great sex with your girlfriend,
tell her that you don't need to have a threesome
with another girl, and just fucking be in that you Also,

(01:07:54):
you don't even sound like you want to if your
whole thing is like you need to be uh really
comfortable with the person, and like you don't sound like
you're gonna want to like do those things anyway. So
just be in this relationship, like just you got to
get over this hang up. I don't know where it's
even coming from. I don't even think you know where

(01:08:15):
it's coming from. So you know, call in at some
point because I want to really examine this with you
because I'm very curious where this this is, where this
is coming from? Okay, folks, I think that's it for me.
I think that this was gek mail. I hope this
was a good episode. I uh, I had to kind
of record it in parts because I was feeling a

(01:08:36):
little insane. But we'll be back with the phone calls soon.
I've just been to home in Baltimore, so I've been
recording these audio only gek mails. Anyway, Thanks for bearing
with me, Thanks for listening to this, thanks for being here,
Thanks for sending me these emails. You can send me
more at therapy geckomail dot com. I'm putting my tour

(01:08:58):
together for twenty twenty six. I'm really excited about it.
Please go to therapy geckotour dot com and put your
information in there so I can tell you when I'm
coming to your city. That's it. That's all I have
to say. Thank you guys for emailing. I hope that
this was good. If you have thoughts about the show,

(01:09:18):
I'm I'm down. I'm down to do different kinds of stuff.
I want to experiment more with the podcast. So if
you have ideas or thoughts or whatever, I'm crazy. I
read all the Spotify comments. I really shouldn't, but I
do so if you have. If you have something to
say to me, I'll read it in the Spotify comments. Okay,

(01:09:38):
that's it. I'm gonna go. Thank you all, get blessed.
See you guys around the universe. Goes on the line,
making your phone calls every night, Goes, I just teaching
you loud in the line expert

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