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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Speaking of This is a great segue to our girl
talk session. So is there a time where you had
to take your cape off? And what I mean by
that is Black women have to bear the burden of
so much uh sometimes and whether it's children, family members, relationships, friendships, business,
whatever the case may be, you feel like you got
to do everything. You got to be superwoman, you got
to be everything to everybody all the time. And I know,
(00:23):
I know it's probably ten times more amplified being a
mom because them kids don't care what else going on.
Speaker 2 (00:38):
I need this, I need that absolutely real quick. Do
you think you're able to take your cape off?
Speaker 3 (00:42):
Absolutely? I've mastered it. I've mastered taking my cape off.
I will say because I crashed out before where I
didn't like the way things looked in my life. Once
I crashed out, and I was like, I would have
never crashed out if I asked for help, I would
have never cash out if I leved on community. I
got so many people that love me, my mom and
(01:03):
my daddy, my siblings, so I don't even allow myself
to If I got.
Speaker 2 (01:07):
The inkling, then I'm about to crash out.
Speaker 3 (01:09):
I'm going Homeyyad. I moved back to one of my
sister's house. In the quickness, I was about to crash out.
Speaker 2 (01:13):
Twenty twenty three.
Speaker 3 (01:14):
I called my big sister, say, hey, God, come stay
with you for a while. She said, I have a
room ready by the time you land. I know, I
about to crash out in Houston. I don't have no
family in Houston. I called my sister here in Atlanta. Hey, cod,
come stay with you for a while. Sure, I got
a room for you when.
Speaker 1 (01:26):
You get that cake.
Speaker 3 (01:27):
Gonna come off every time, because what happens when we
keep the cape on and we're overwhelmed, We're gonna fly right.
Speaker 2 (01:33):
Into the wall. I can't do it. I can't do it.
Speaker 3 (01:36):
I'm gonna ask for help every time because I know
that that's the only fair thing to do with you.
Speaker 2 (01:41):
People love you.
Speaker 3 (01:42):
Yeah, I know.
Speaker 1 (01:43):
They love me, and I know you wanting for me,
But I'm hiding the fact that I need help. It's
crazy that cake gonna come off every time for my family. Hey,
I need help with this, and that I feel like
like I gotched that I needed to hear that because
I have a hard time asking for help. That is
a problem area for me. I you know, the black
woman's syndrome is what I got call it where you
just automatically go into your default setting of strength, got it,
(02:07):
I can't do no it on taking it on it,
and then you find yourself like overwhelmed, overstimulated, depressed, sat
and you can't get out of it, like you dig
yourself in such a hole that you find yourself like
clawing to like.
Speaker 2 (02:19):
Get out of it, and you just I just throw
my hands up. Are you the oldest girl in your family?
I'm not the youngest.
Speaker 3 (02:25):
See, I'm the baby, and I'm the baby has made
it so colorable for me to just say, help me
with this.
Speaker 1 (02:32):
I'm the only girl.
Speaker 2 (02:36):
It's different. Like, I'm very spoiled my daddy.
Speaker 1 (02:40):
He taught me how to do literally everything so I
can take care of myself. I got work ethic, I'm
my hardwork and all that stuff. But if I don't
like the way this water.
Speaker 2 (02:48):
Tastes and my no, my daddy can fix it.
Speaker 1 (02:49):
I will call him right now and he's gonna fix
it because that's the relationship that I have with him.
Speaker 2 (02:54):
So I'm extremely spoiled.
Speaker 1 (02:56):
But he trained me to be so independent and also
too in the dating space. When you consistently feel like
you can't depend on when niggas are constantly letting you know, like,
well I have to nobody.
Speaker 2 (03:14):
Else can do it. I think that's my story. Nobody
can do it. I have to story.
Speaker 3 (03:19):
I'm the only one to get the job done. Yeah,
I don't know what nigga that could come back. Nobody
can pick up my shift. I think that'd be my problem.
Speaker 1 (03:28):
That's why I don't want to ask for help because
the stuff.
Speaker 2 (03:30):
That I need to do, you can't do it.
Speaker 1 (03:32):
I need you know you'll follow directions well either. I
see how you handle your life, So why would I guess.
Speaker 2 (03:40):
In my life? Absolutely not one thing I had to
get when you got.
Speaker 3 (03:45):
Somebody that I have to tell my tribe if you
want to help me, but you want to help me
the way that you want to help me instead of
the way that I need to be helping and not
trying to help me or.
Speaker 2 (03:53):
Trying to control me.
Speaker 3 (03:54):
So there's times where I'm like I need help with this,
but that you offering help with X y Z.
Speaker 2 (03:59):
I don't need help with that. I need help with this.
If you're gonna do this, to do this, don't come
telling them.
Speaker 1 (04:04):
How you're gonna do it, So yeah, I got I
got it.
Speaker 2 (04:11):
So it's like I love asking for help, especially now,
especially to know what it is. It's therapy.
Speaker 3 (04:19):
It's therapy though, because my therapist makes it so comfortable
for me to say, oh, you gotta, you gotta do this.
Speaker 2 (04:24):
You got She she.
Speaker 3 (04:25):
Creates the systems that I have now put in place
for me to have structure over my life. And once
we realize that the reason why my life looked the
way it did, with me constantly being burnt out of overwhelmed,
was because I had a bad problem with delegation.
Speaker 2 (04:38):
I feel like I'm the only one that can do
this thing.
Speaker 3 (04:40):
I don't trust you with this thing. So my therapist
is like, if you don't trust people with the thing,
then the thing ain't gonna get done because you're gonna
crash out. And it took about takeing crash outs for
me to be like, Okay, we're just gonna ask for
help for every little thing. I ask for help for
every little thing now, every girl, I'm working on it.
Speaker 2 (04:59):
You see the this ship good?
Speaker 3 (05:03):
Stressfully think about think about it this way. All of
the love that you've poured out into the world, all
of the friends that you showed up for all of
the family that can depend on you, everybody that can
call your phone. If you start asking for some of
them favors back that.
Speaker 2 (05:19):
Burden that come upon you. Because it ain't like I
didn't have no skin in the game to make help helping.
Speaker 3 (05:26):
I was like, okay, it's my turn, absolutely and being
in this this to love is powerful, but to be love,
that's that life changing ship. So it's got to be
in the season of receiving that love back, like you know,
letting people love you.
Speaker 1 (05:38):
Past the girl sermon on Sunday, when he said it
was people think.
Speaker 2 (05:54):
What he said.
Speaker 1 (05:55):
He said that people think that love is just a feeling,
but it's not action.
Speaker 2 (06:00):
And love is an action. When you love someone, that
means you gotta do stuff. You gotta do stuff, and you.
Speaker 1 (06:06):
Are saying, I want to take on the responsibility to
love you the correct way and whatever that way is,
it's action based.
Speaker 2 (06:12):
Love is an action word.
Speaker 1 (06:13):
Every time you think of that person, you should say,
I want to do you know what I'm saying, whenever
it is that they need done to make their life
a little easy because I love them, Yes, because I
love them, and so like I think I'm just kind
of realizing that, you know what I'm saying, with love
that like allow on.
Speaker 2 (06:28):
People to just exist.
Speaker 1 (06:29):
It's cool, But I notice that when they actually show
up for me, it's a.
Speaker 2 (06:34):
Different like yeah, feeling right there. Yeah, I'm starting to
think that that may nothing. May love people. I don't
think I've been loving it.
Speaker 1 (06:43):
You've been showing up for me friends, So I know
what I mean.
Speaker 2 (06:45):
That's different.
Speaker 1 (06:46):
I have a so you know what's so crazy this,
there's a difference in my girl friendships and relationships with men.
Speaker 2 (06:52):
You show up, You're consistent. I can count on you.
Speaker 1 (06:54):
I know exactly what a nae is gonna do every
single time I call her, I hang out with her.
Speaker 2 (06:59):
We need to work on something.
Speaker 1 (07:00):
I know exactly how you're gonna operate because you show
up the same way every single time.
Speaker 2 (07:03):
I don't mind showing up for you because I know
what I'm getting with you. These niggas be a new
nigga every week.
Speaker 1 (07:09):
Right now now, when I said your times, I don't
want to hear ship okay because.
Speaker 2 (07:20):
To anything I said are you married? You said no?
Speaker 1 (07:24):
Sheesus.
Speaker 2 (07:25):
The to you is she married? Because you gotta you
got to get creative with you, and you gotta ask them.
Speaker 1 (07:33):
Anybody who think they're in a relationship with you, do
you have any Are there any people on the planet
that share DNA with you that could possibly receive a
kidney on their bed? Because creative with these niggascause they're
live niggas will have wedding pictures up until you They
was at a yacht party. Oh oh, it was just
an all white weekend, barbecue weekend.
Speaker 2 (07:54):
And the girl be just as pregnant, just as pregnant.
Speaker 1 (07:56):
I'm bottling, honey, but I'm sorry. That was I'm gonna
do it. I'm gonna double up.
Speaker 2 (08:01):
My sishes was just taking my girl. Won't say it's
getting rough. It's rough, but no like that.
Speaker 1 (08:12):
That's the difference, you know, Like I am a heavy reciprocated.
Whatever you give me, I'm gonna give it back.
Speaker 2 (08:16):
Yeah, good bad.
Speaker 1 (08:19):
So just watch what you do because I'm once I
see it, I'm like, oh, so we don't.
Speaker 2 (08:23):
It'll be careful because I'm like turning roll. No, you
y'all know what it is. That's what it is right there.
But it's true though, it's true.
Speaker 1 (08:38):
That's how that's how I move, and so that's you know,
my friendships all the way they are, because that's.
Speaker 2 (08:42):
That's how we operate.
Speaker 1 (08:43):
Like I don't ask people for stuff that I'm not
willing to do. And I think maybe I need to
start calling it some favors because the way I almost
crash out, my mom came in and my mom, I
just went through this.
Speaker 2 (08:52):
The home is a safe space for me as well.
And so I was like, I don't have the energy
to go home.
Speaker 1 (08:57):
I can't do it. I can't drive myself home. I said, Mom,
come on.
Speaker 2 (09:01):
Just get on the plane, because you get on the plane.
Oh I'm sorry, Yeah, I'm my planers.
Speaker 1 (09:06):
Are originally from Memphis. I'm from Memphis, and so it's
like a six hour ride back home, and I wouldn't
mind taking it. I've driven home three four times a
year the past ten years. But this last time I
was like, I ain't.
Speaker 2 (09:17):
Gonna make it. Care I need you come get me.
And she was like, okay, well me and your dadd
are free, I said.
Speaker 3 (09:26):
Three. So I was like, you know, I need to
go to New York. I need to go to New York.
I was in Houston and then my friends they didn't
want me to leave. They was like, see if your
mom could come out here. So my mom came out
to Houston, and she assessed the situation, and she realized
that she didn't need to come see me.
Speaker 2 (09:39):
She needed to come get me. And she came and
she took.
Speaker 3 (09:41):
My ass back home. And and then I realized that
it wasn't my mom that I needed at the time,
it was my sister.
Speaker 2 (09:47):
Oh yeah. Sometimes sometimes you.
Speaker 3 (09:49):
Need parents, Sometimes you need friends, sometimes you need siblings.
All of those relationships are different. So I'm always very
aware of who I need in those moments, Like sometimes
I might call my mom when I might need my
sister to come through. Sometimes I might call my sister
when I need to talk to my dad. Like just
knowing who you need at that moment, you knew, like
I need my mom, I don't need my parents.
Speaker 1 (10:09):
I need my mom.
Speaker 2 (10:10):
Yeah, it's my daddy. Would have came, Yeah, he also
would have came in.
Speaker 1 (10:13):
He would have started trying to fix stuff. And I
don't need you to fix anything. I need your presence
and my mom always I always say this, My mom
is a silent, quiet strength. I knew what she was
gonna do when she came. I didn't expect anything from her.
I just needed her and so that worked out and
I'm here.
Speaker 2 (10:31):
Not in prison.
Speaker 3 (10:32):
My mom is the fixer, so when she comes she
wants to, I'll take care of this and I'll take
care of that. And my sisters are the nurturers. When
I'm I'm i'm an adult, I'm in my thirties, i'm
a mom, I'm a business owner, I'm touring the whole country.
But when I'm with my.
Speaker 2 (10:45):
Sisters, I'm the baby girl. I don't get none of that.
Speaker 3 (10:48):
Like I'm just you know, so sometimes.
Speaker 2 (10:54):
You need to be the baby.
Speaker 1 (10:55):
I do not have that space. But I'm going to
work around. Next time you come down.
Speaker 2 (11:00):
You we got that.
Speaker 1 (11:00):
Were gonna fixbody say I don't have that spect We're
gonna remedy that.
Speaker 2 (11:03):
Yeah. I like what you're talking about.
Speaker 1 (11:05):
I like you