Conversations with a Narcissist

Recorded January 30, 2025

I am well acquainted with the grief process, and this is my day of acceptance. My mind is relentless, not to fix him, but for my journey and breaking the cycles of abuse in my family. 

We cannot heal that which we cannot label or identify. I needed to understand why we had these experiences for my own healing, protection, and education of my children. This recordin...

Recorded January 18, 2024

Quite frankly, I don’t care is someone doesn’t have empathy, just be honest, don’t play stupid games, and handle your responsibilities. We have children. I wasn’t trying to have a relationship. I was trying to provide for our family.

We all interact with narcissists, and most of the time it’s not a problem but he would actively destroy anything I created, UNLESS he...

Recorded October 12, 2023

Our vibe or energy is contagious. We become what we are around or we become very self-aware and learn to play the game.

We travel the spiritual journey alone. In the aloneness, we find ourselves. Narcissists find a void. Both are on an internal spiritual journey, but only one can see a world or people outside themselves. 

If you deeply care about peop...

Recorded September 20, 2023

OMG. JUST ASK A FCKING QUESTION. This cycle is so painful. He would express care and ask questions, to get me to open up. Then, at my most vulnerable moment, he attacks. He has read dozens of books on communication and self-help but only got worse.

*My understanding of narcissism in this recording is not correct.

Narcissists have two types of desir...

Recorded September 16, 2023

Yuck, I’m playing the game. Too careful. Mother. Too patient. Teacher. A month prior, my oldest daughter and I were stopped in traffic and rear ended at a fairly high speed. We were very fortunate to not have major injuries however the doctor appointments were a full time job for about three months and the settlement took over a year to finalize. Being injured meant I was comp...

Recorded August 30, 2023

My existence is evidence of the irony of faith; a knowing that surpasses understanding. From my earliest memories, I’ve known God. In many regards, my faith has made me fearless, which makes me a magnet for sinister delight.

Discernment is the ability to judge well, but society has taught us not to judge. For women this belief is deadly. Being fearless without disce...

Recorded August 15, 2023

Over the years, he has been to so many specialists trying to figure out what’s happening with his brain, memory, and comprehension. Brain scans, chiropractors, allergy specialists, a few random therapists, no one had answers. The accidents, misunderstandings, lost money and other important items, and mistakes were so common, I couldn’t clean up messes fast enough. Not a month wou...

Recorded September 7, 2021

We had been through so much together, my mother’s death, the anti-trafficking movement, our son’s life-threatening illness, and a hurricane. We clung to each other and had survived the darkness, but when things were slightly more stable… he leaves. I felt like it was my fault. I brought up my pain too much, but the pain never stopped. I was relieved he was leaving, yet the resp...

Recorded August 7, 2021

He created opportunities to hurt me deeply; spending weeks or months, bringing me flowers, and writing love notes. He never really wanted sex, but almost always sexual. In 19 years, neither of us cheated. I thought that was a good thing, but I now realize it was a sign of a much bigger issue. When I would share something with him or be vulnerable, he would use that as an opportuni...