June 22, 2025 • 9 mins
This episode provided me the opportunity to step into my self-confidence with peaceful authority and record my first video podcast.
In this episode, I discuss how the layers of my internal and external worlds contributed to creating this episode. Additionally, I express how allowing myself to make mistakes as I navigate this new world is important to my creative process.
Thank you for listening and/or watching! I'm looking forward to sharing more in this format.
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Episode Transcript
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(00:00):
Welcome back to Planet Phoenix.
So this particular episode is a milestone episode for myself, specifically because it's myfirst video podcast.
This has been a long time in the making and trying to think what's the best way to expresswhy it's taken so long.
There are a lot of layers to it.
(00:20):
First is fear.
I was afraid, regardless of seeing
hundreds of thousands of millions of people who are doing video podcasts and live streams.
I was not ready to put myself out there in this kind of...
in this kind of way, basically.
And it's taken quite the road of inner work to get to this level of comfort to be able toshare myself this transparently.
(00:43):
Most of my episodes, all of my episodes have specifically been scripted and audio only.
And that was such a great bridge because ultimately allowed me the practice to gain theconfidence necessary to do this here today.
And
Even in this moment, you know, I feel like it's going well so far.
This feels like a good video podcast so far, but there is a part of me that is nervous.
(01:08):
And I think that's going to be part of the process for a while while I get my bearings inthis world.
What prompted me to finally do this was also Laird.
It felt like in the last few weeks, I have just felt this direction as far as coming tothis video podcast world and putting myself out there more specifically.
(01:29):
over the weekend, well, I would say late last week, I was inspired by a story from mynephew who had a baseball tournament.
And in the baseball tournament, he was really before they even left the house, my nephewexpressed that he did not want to go to the baseball tournament.
He was adamant about it.
And my sister, his mom said, no, you're going to go to the baseball tournament.
(01:52):
And so they went to the baseball tournament and they ended up winning second place andthey ended up getting a medal and a ring and on the drive home.
My nephew said to my sister, his mom, and I'm paraphrasing here, mommy, thank you so muchfor pushing me to go.
And he had such gratitude.
He realized, you this young child had this understanding that he was doing something thathe was uncomfortable with and it completely paid out.
(02:20):
So that really inspired me to do this today.
And so I thank my nephew and my sister and I look forward to sharing this with them sothat they can enjoy and also understand how they helped another person boost their
confidence.
I titled this episode, The Time Is Now, because it is, the time is now and it reallyfeels.
(02:41):
very good to be able to do this and allow myself the space to make mistakes.
This is my first video podcast, as I've stated two or three times already, but I'm doingit from my childhood room.
This is literally the room that I grew up in and it's quite the cycle of being able to dosomething like this in this particular room.
(03:03):
didn't prepare anything.
kind of went against the podcaster way of planning my content for this episode.
And I really, the only thing I planned on doing was speaking from my heart.
And while I was thinking about that aspect, I thought of a very straightforward yetmeaningful knowingness in me is I'm tired of being afraid.
(03:28):
It's exhausting to constantly be in a state of fear about being myself.
You know, I'm tired of being afraid of being myself.
I lived a long life so far and a lot of it's been being afraid of who I am and beingjudged by others.
And to call my show Planet Phoenix and remain behind the veil or behind the scenes,
(03:50):
kinda doesn't commit to the importance of what the Phoenix and who the Phoenix is and thePhoenix being a being of renewal and rebirth and this is one of those steps for me to be
able to do that so I'm taking the steps to do it and I'm gonna be distributing this acrossa couple of platforms I'm not gonna bog you down with where it lives you can
(04:14):
You know, just simply go to my website, plantaphenix.co and you can find all the placeswhere my podcasts and my blog live.
The other thing that's kind of coming into me right now is this importance of compassionright now.
The external world that I live in, you live in, we all live in, it's literally andmetaphorically on fire right now and there is a lot of pain happening.
(04:39):
And I have found that compassion for myself is...
one of the most important aspects of my own growth.
And by being compassionate to myself and my fear and my pain and my trauma, it allows meto be more compassionate to the people around me, regardless of perspective, regardless of
I agree or disagree with someone.
(05:00):
Ultimately, that compassion allows me to be more for myself.
And...
That's a message that I think is very timely with everything going on.
So I've made this request before on this show and to other people in my day to day.
And it's just a request is be compassionate with yourself right now more than ever.
(05:21):
Be patient with yourself.
If you need to just feel sadness or if you need to feel anger, be that, you know.
I further request, please don't take it out on somebody.
That's gonna make matters a bit more challenging for you down the road.
But be compassionate to yourself, be patient with yourself.
You deserve it.
It's imperative that you give yourself that love because you don't need to suffer.
(05:45):
I don't need to suffer.
And by allowing ourselves to be compassionate with ourselves, we can release thatsuffering from our lives and
and do what matters most, be it your job, your family, of both.
I recently wrote a blog post that I started a new job last, last May, which seems like itwas six years ago already.
Not because the job is bad, but because time is just weird again.
(06:09):
And it has given me the opportunity to really
work again.
You know, I've, like to consider myself a hard worker.
I would say that this job has helped shaken loose some old muscles that I used to havewhere you have to think on the fly and then in parallel be a caregiver to these dogs.
(06:34):
Some dogs are elderly and they must
move slower, you know, I have to take my time with them.
I can't rush them.
This isn't, it may be a 15 minute or 30 minute walk, but to them it's time to go outside.
And by being compassionate to their needs, again, I take it as an opportunity to look atmyself is how can I be compassionate to my own needs as well?
(06:56):
I'm pausing because...
I'm appreciating what I'm doing right now in this moment.
I'm grateful.
I'm very grateful.
I'm grateful for the work that I've done to get here.
I'm grateful to all the people.
It's a beautiful thing to be able to say there's such a high degree of the amount ofpeople in my life who've helped me get here and that this is a very important milestone
(07:21):
moment.
for my life, so I'm recording this I'm kind of just taking the moment to be grateful forthis experience and Being creative being passionate And realizing that as afraid as I have
been with this idea of being a Video podcaster and how much time I've spent avoiding doingthis
(07:44):
and how much time I spent in the fear of that, which is ultimately just my own internalsuffering.
No one was forcing me to not do this.
I was forcing myself not to do this.
And it's, I have this really, maybe it's corny, I don't know.
Many people have heard me say it over the years.
And it's kind of a paraphrase from probably someone else very much more wise than me.
(08:06):
But.
Fear is the first step towards courage or fear is an indication that you're about to dosomething amazing.
And this is my amazing.
This episode is my amazing.
This show, this blog is my amazing.
So the fear is like leaving me right now as I record this and it feels very liberatingbecause I'm doing this from my heart.
(08:32):
And, uh, you know, that's the truth.
So I can see that on the recorder, it's about 11 minutes so far, which that, that flew by.
And I think for this episode, uh, that's a good first episode as far as a video podcast.
It's a first, first episode.
(08:53):
I think it's a pretty good and I've learned a lot already.
So I'm going to, I'm going to end it there.
and say thank you for listening.
Thank you to all of those who have contributed to helping me and assisting me to get tothis point.
The people that are in my present as well as every single person from my past, regardlessof what our relationship was or has been or currently is, you've all contributed and
(09:20):
helped me gain the self-confidence
within myself to know that I can do this.
So I will say goodbye for now and please feel free to reach out planetphoenix.co all of myinformation is on there.
There are various ways that you can reach out to me by email, a contact form, socialmedia, know that you're welcome.
(09:47):
and please be patient if it's a bit of a delay, because I'll be at work during the week.
All right, thank you so much for listening.
I appreciate your time.
Welcome back to Planet Phoenix.
So this particular episode is a milestone episode for myself, specifically because it's myfirst video podcast.
This has been a long time in the making and trying to think what's the best way to expresswhy it's taken so long.
There are a lot of layers to it.
(00:20):
First is fear.
I was afraid, regardless of seeing
hundreds of thousands of millions of people who are doing video podcasts and live streams.
I was not ready to put myself out there in this kind of...
in this kind of way, basically.
And it's taken quite the road of inner work to get to this level of comfort to be able toshare myself this transparently.
(00:43):
Most of my episodes, all of my episodes have specifically been scripted and audio only.
And that was such a great bridge because ultimately allowed me the practice to gain theconfidence necessary to do this here today.
And
Even in this moment, you know, I feel like it's going well so far.
This feels like a good video podcast so far, but there is a part of me that is nervous.
(01:08):
And I think that's going to be part of the process for a while while I get my bearings inthis world.
What prompted me to finally do this was also Laird.
It felt like in the last few weeks, I have just felt this direction as far as coming tothis video podcast world and putting myself out there more specifically.
(01:29):
over the weekend, well, I would say late last week, I was inspired by a story from mynephew who had a baseball tournament.
And in the baseball tournament, he was really before they even left the house, my nephewexpressed that he did not want to go to the baseball tournament.
He was adamant about it.
And my sister, his mom said, no, you're going to go to the baseball tournament.
(01:52):
And so they went to the baseball tournament and they ended up winning second place andthey ended up getting a medal and a ring and on the drive home.
My nephew said to my sister, his mom, and I'm paraphrasing here, mommy, thank you so muchfor pushing me to go.
And he had such gratitude.
He realized, you this young child had this understanding that he was doing something thathe was uncomfortable with and it completely paid out.
(02:20):
So that really inspired me to do this today.
And so I thank my nephew and my sister and I look forward to sharing this with them sothat they can enjoy and also understand how they helped another person boost their
confidence.
I titled this episode, The Time Is Now, because it is, the time is now and it reallyfeels.
(02:41):
very good to be able to do this and allow myself the space to make mistakes.
This is my first video podcast, as I've stated two or three times already, but I'm doingit from my childhood room.
This is literally the room that I grew up in and it's quite the cycle of being able to dosomething like this in this particular room.
(03:03):
didn't prepare anything.
kind of went against the podcaster way of planning my content for this episode.
And I really, the only thing I planned on doing was speaking from my heart.
And while I was thinking about that aspect, I thought of a very straightforward yetmeaningful knowingness in me is I'm tired of being afraid.
(03:28):
It's exhausting to constantly be in a state of fear about being myself.
You know, I'm tired of being afraid of being myself.
I lived a long life so far and a lot of it's been being afraid of who I am and beingjudged by others.
And to call my show Planet Phoenix and remain behind the veil or behind the scenes,
(03:50):
kinda doesn't commit to the importance of what the Phoenix and who the Phoenix is and thePhoenix being a being of renewal and rebirth and this is one of those steps for me to be
able to do that so I'm taking the steps to do it and I'm gonna be distributing this acrossa couple of platforms I'm not gonna bog you down with where it lives you can
(04:14):
You know, just simply go to my website, plantaphenix.co and you can find all the placeswhere my podcasts and my blog live.
The other thing that's kind of coming into me right now is this importance of compassionright now.
The external world that I live in, you live in, we all live in, it's literally andmetaphorically on fire right now and there is a lot of pain happening.
(04:39):
And I have found that compassion for myself is...
one of the most important aspects of my own growth.
And by being compassionate to myself and my fear and my pain and my trauma, it allows meto be more compassionate to the people around me, regardless of perspective, regardless of
I agree or disagree with someone.
(05:00):
Ultimately, that compassion allows me to be more for myself.
And...
That's a message that I think is very timely with everything going on.
So I've made this request before on this show and to other people in my day to day.
And it's just a request is be compassionate with yourself right now more than ever.
(05:21):
Be patient with yourself.
If you need to just feel sadness or if you need to feel anger, be that, you know.
I further request, please don't take it out on somebody.
That's gonna make matters a bit more challenging for you down the road.
But be compassionate to yourself, be patient with yourself.
You deserve it.
It's imperative that you give yourself that love because you don't need to suffer.
(05:45):
I don't need to suffer.
And by allowing ourselves to be compassionate with ourselves, we can release thatsuffering from our lives and
and do what matters most, be it your job, your family, of both.
I recently wrote a blog post that I started a new job last, last May, which seems like itwas six years ago already.
Not because the job is bad, but because time is just weird again.
(06:09):
And it has given me the opportunity to really
work again.
You know, I've, like to consider myself a hard worker.
I would say that this job has helped shaken loose some old muscles that I used to havewhere you have to think on the fly and then in parallel be a caregiver to these dogs.
(06:34):
Some dogs are elderly and they must
move slower, you know, I have to take my time with them.
I can't rush them.
This isn't, it may be a 15 minute or 30 minute walk, but to them it's time to go outside.
And by being compassionate to their needs, again, I take it as an opportunity to look atmyself is how can I be compassionate to my own needs as well?
(06:56):
I'm pausing because...
I'm appreciating what I'm doing right now in this moment.
I'm grateful.
I'm very grateful.
I'm grateful for the work that I've done to get here.
I'm grateful to all the people.
It's a beautiful thing to be able to say there's such a high degree of the amount ofpeople in my life who've helped me get here and that this is a very important milestone
(07:21):
moment.
for my life, so I'm recording this I'm kind of just taking the moment to be grateful forthis experience and Being creative being passionate And realizing that as afraid as I have
been with this idea of being a Video podcaster and how much time I've spent avoiding doingthis
(07:44):
and how much time I spent in the fear of that, which is ultimately just my own internalsuffering.
No one was forcing me to not do this.
I was forcing myself not to do this.
And it's, I have this really, maybe it's corny, I don't know.
Many people have heard me say it over the years.
And it's kind of a paraphrase from probably someone else very much more wise than me.
(08:06):
But.
Fear is the first step towards courage or fear is an indication that you're about to dosomething amazing.
And this is my amazing.
This episode is my amazing.
This show, this blog is my amazing.
So the fear is like leaving me right now as I record this and it feels very liberatingbecause I'm doing this from my heart.
(08:32):
And, uh, you know, that's the truth.
So I can see that on the recorder, it's about 11 minutes so far, which that, that flew by.
And I think for this episode, uh, that's a good first episode as far as a video podcast.
It's a first, first episode.
(08:53):
I think it's a pretty good and I've learned a lot already.
So I'm going to, I'm going to end it there.
and say thank you for listening.
Thank you to all of those who have contributed to helping me and assisting me to get tothis point.
The people that are in my present as well as every single person from my past, regardlessof what our relationship was or has been or currently is, you've all contributed and
(09:20):
helped me gain the self-confidence
within myself to know that I can do this.
So I will say goodbye for now and please feel free to reach out planetphoenix.co all of myinformation is on there.
There are various ways that you can reach out to me by email, a contact form, socialmedia, know that you're welcome.
(09:47):
and please be patient if it's a bit of a delay, because I'll be at work during the week.
All right, thank you so much for listening.
I appreciate your time.
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