September 8, 2024 • 38 mins
Welcome to another episode of Reggie's Expressions! In this episode, Reggie shares a personal story and reflects on his experiences over the past week. He also discusses the upcoming season break and the importance of taking time off to recharge.
Reggie opens up about his feelings of exhaustion and apathy, exploring the complexity of emotions using the emotion wheel. He dives into his need for validation and how it impacts his personal and professional life.
The episode also delves into Reggie's relationship with Carlos, highlighting a recent disagreement during a trip to Legoland. Reggie talks about the dynamics of their relationship, the importance of communication, and how they navigate conflicts.
Additionally, Reggie touches on his hair journey, the challenges of dealing with unsolicited opinions, and his commitment to self-expression. He emphasizes the importance of supporting each other and understanding personal boundaries.
Tune in to hear Reggie's candid reflections and gain insights into managing emotions and relationships. Don't forget to follow Reggie on social media and share the podcast with friends!
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Music.
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What's up it's time for another episode of Reggie's
Expressions thank you to everybody who listened last week I
appreciate it and yeah I'm ready to tell
another personal story and you know
talk about some experiences and just kind of my overall
week I'm gonna I want to let you guys
know I think I'm gonna give this season 15 episodes
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so that would put me at three more
from this point unless last week was 12
i have to take a look it's not something i
need to know right now but i'm gonna do either two to three more episodes from
this point and then i will be on the break for the rest of the year so that'll
give you guys opportunity to go back and listen to some of the old episodes
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and i may do some quick you know updates here and there you know,
from time to time, just to check in with you guys.
So you're not like completely gone.
I got some vacations that's coming up pretty soon.
And I just want to really want to focus on the rest of the year,
you know, banging that out, getting into the last quarter.
And then I can come back focused and refreshed at the beginning of the year.
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So that'll be coming up soon.
I will let you guys know that last episode and then we'll carry on to season number nine.
So, you know, Well, I'm going to start off by talking about my sentiment today.
Today, I'm a little, I don't know why I just paused, but exhausted is the word that comes up for me.
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I'm going to pull up the emotion wheel really quickly.
Let's see. I don't know if you guys heard about the emotion wheel,
but it kind of, you know, when we talk about emotions, emotions can be very complicated at times.
And, you know, because of our, not everybody, you know, some of you guys might
be pros in this, but some of us have limited access to, you know,
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what being tired might include, you know, or exhausted.
It could be, you know, a source of something else. So the feeling that we come
up with is, you know, a symptom of another, you know, feeling.
So, you know, the wheel kind of helps you with helping you navigate through
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some of those more complex feelings.
So let me see here.
And it's a circle. It's a wheel.
Vulnerable, empty.
Let's see. Embarrassed.
Worthless. These are just examples. These aren't my, my specific feelings and
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it may not even have exhausted on there. Hold on.
Hateful, frustrated, distant, critical, depressed, lonely, optimistic, accepted.
Let's see. Enraged, embarrassed, resentful, apathetic.
I think, yeah, apathetic. and
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it said you know it's
apathetic is on the basis of
being bored and then being bored is on the basis of being sad so that's interesting
yeah i would have to say i'm a little apathetic with this whole process and
what i mean by that is i feel like right now just it always goes back to the numbers for me.
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You know, I start thinking about like, oh, you know, growth and things of that
nature. And then it gets to a period where it happens to slow down.
And then I started thinking like, oh, you need to do, you need to promote more,
you know, and I have a website.
I have a Facebook page for those of you who may not know. I miss Reggie's expressions
on Facebook. I don't think I ever talk about it here.
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I talk about my personal Facebook page. I talk about my TikTok TikTok and I
talk about Instagram, but I don't talk about my Facebook page.
I post every week, my new episodes.
And, you know, I guess, you know, I mean, I would have to say that I'm,
I would say that I'm bored and I'm indifferent also for the process because
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it's like, what am I doing this for?
And it goes back to my desire of affirmations.
Like I need to be affirmed a lot a good friend
of mine uh actually made me realize
that you know i i had a question just
and i understand you know people may not have the capacity sometimes to ask
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these questions and i should really consider that it's not that they're being
dismissive when they you know when they fail to answer it's more or less you
know they just don't understand the reason behind the question,
but I asked a friend today, not today, but a couple of days ago,
I was like, you know, I'm not a good friend.
And then it became more or less a situation of, well, you know,
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if you weren't a good friend, it wouldn't be, you wouldn't be somebody I would hang around.
And, you know, it goes back to how they felt about, you know,
me being around and I, you know, sometimes I just need validation,
you know, in work, I'm probably in high maintenance employee just because I
need constant validation of, you know, my contribution to what I'm doing.
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So that's probably something I need to talk to my therapist.
I do have an appointment on the 17th about it.
So it's something I probably need to talk to my therapist about on why I feel
like I need validation a lot. And I mean, a lot of times, you know,
your adulthood is informed by your childhood.
So, you know, it probably has a lot to do with the way I was raised and how
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I felt invalidated or, you know, how I felt like I wasn't, you know, considered,
you know, probably a bit of abandonment in there that I need to take some time
to, you know, get to know and understand.
Understand but yeah my recommendation to y'all would
be to make sure that you take a
look at the will the the the feelings will hold on one second yeah i noticed
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sometimes when i'm listening back to the episode the audio will cut and i think
that it's because of the you know my screen will go dark after a certain amount
of minutes but you know but i want to explain this will a little bit bit more.
So it is one, two, three sections. Okay.
So the first outer section of the circle will have words like devastated, insecure,
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jealous, resentful, violated, furious, enraged, just to name a few. Okay.
That is on the side of anger. Okay.
Anger is the emotion that comes up for you.
And there's many different things that could, you know, cause those outer feelings
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of, you know, embarrassment, devastation, you know, insecure,
so on and so forth. So anger is your circle.
So once you identify what you are around the circle, you then go to the deeper color of that circle.
So we're dealing with the realm of anger with those ones that I mentioned.
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So, you know, being embarrassed could also, you know, teeter on being hurt.
Being hurt could be devastated or teeter on anger, anger, hurt can teeter on anger.
And, you know, your feeling embarrassment could come from hurt,
could come from, you know, a potential of threatened, hateful,
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mad, aggressive, frustrated, distant, critical.
And, you know, the idea is that, you know, sometimes when we say,
man, I'm feeling I'm feeling I'm angry, you know, and you have to take a look like, why are you angry?
You know, is it because you feel embarrassed?
Is it because you feel jealous? Is it because you feel violated?
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Do you feel enraged? Do you feel and then under that gamut, it gives you,
you know, other words that, you know, may associate your anger to,
you know, exactly pinpoint, you know, like hurt, threaten, hateful.
Mad, aggressive, frustrated, distant, and critical.
On the lighter side of things, you got happy. Why do you feel happy?
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You can be joyful. You can be interested. You can be proud, accepted,
powerful, peaceful, intimate, and optimistic.
And then you have other things within the circle, the outer part of the circle
where you have liberated, ecstatic, amused, inquisitive, important,
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confident, respected, fulfilled,
loving, hopeful that could inform your your happiness.
And then you also have surprise, fear and then sadness.
Sadness so a lot of times when
I'm anxious I'll you know I've the best
way to explain it would be I'm fearful of something but
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you know sometimes it could be you know I'm feeling insecure or anxious or overwhelmed
it could be terrified frightened so it's just a good way to kind of you know
get more of an understanding I was saying earlier that you know I was exhausted tired Tired,
where would tired be on the wheel?
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Surprise.
I don't know if it would be on here. But it, disgust, anger, hateful, worry.
I mean, it could be anxious. It could be, you know, out of fear.
Surprise, happiness, sad, bored, judgmental.
So anyway, I was looking for something specific. I was saying that I was tired
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or exhausted, but what I mean when I say that, because I'm having a tough time
trying to explain, because it's not tired in the sense of like,
oh, I just woke up and I'm sleepy tired.
It's just more or less like, you know, you, you, you do things and you want
people to acknowledge it, which again, goes back to the affirmation part of it.
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And then you feel like you're, you know, there's no, there's no acknowledgement
of, of, you know, what, what's to be done. And sometimes it's just a little,
you know, I just kind of beat myself up.
And, you know, sometimes, you know, in the past, I've done hiatus,
you know, where I'm like, fuck it, they won't, you know, they won't care,
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you know, me being gone, they won't, you know, so what?
And, you know, I just have to really sometimes, you know, rein in those emotions,
because, you know, I mean, I do, in the general sense of things,
I know, I may not have a big ass audience, but I know that I'm speaking to at
least one person. you know, because.
Weekly when I put the episodes out, you know, I do see people,
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you know, going and listening to the episode, you know, even with my husband,
you know, listening to it, it helps him gain a perspective about certain things
that, you know, I might not have been able to explain to him in the best way possible.
So, you know, it's helpful in that instance.
And, you know, my friends are very supportive, you know, with listening,
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or at least they tell me that they do, but I say, At least they tell me that they do.
I should have just received that. My friends are really supportive when they listen. Full stop.
So this week for me has been was a short week. I was off on Monday and I worked
Tuesday through Friday.
I had to take Carlos to a outpatient outpatient.
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I don't know what it's doing. I don't know why it's stopping and pausing.
So if you guys hear that, my apologies.
But, you know, he had an outpatient procedure. I had to leave early on Saturday
or Friday just to make sure he was good to go.
And it was it was a, you know, maybe 30 minute procedure, 15, 20 minute procedure.
We waited longer, you know, than we did.
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We waited longer in the wait line in the wait waiting area than we did to go back and get seen,
you know i go back there for more support and also ask questions in terms of
like what is this going to do how will this help him um you know what's the
aftercare of it all you know just because you know i'm just curious about how
how you know his recovery is going to be carlos you know.
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Carlos suffers with severe arthritis.
He has a herniated disc and, you know, many can speculate it's just general
wear and tear of age and things of that nature.
But, you know, I think we also have to put in the caveat that Carlos has been
working since he was 11 years old.
So he's been working for well over 40 years and, you know, his body is quite
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tired and needs to relax. So So he had that. He had that procedure.
So my week was truncated anyway, just for only having four days and then even
more short because I didn't work, you know, the full 32 hours.
Well, no, I mean, I worked a longer week, a longer weekday.
So on Tuesday, I think I did 10 hours. On Wednesday, I did another 30 minutes.
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And then okay so on and so forth so anyway
Carlos uh he's on the
mend he did have some soreness and pain from
the injections that he had they basically burned his
his nerves that they think was causing the pain and you know this will give
him long term you know anywhere from six months to a year and my hope is that
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you know we could uh continue that you know uh the procedure or I don't want
to do anything like permanently where he'll have to have surgery.
But, you know, the choice is his. I can just make my suggestions on what I think.
But honestly, I don't think surgery is the answer,
you know, especially when it comes to bad things, because, you know,
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you have to worry about the, you know, the surgery area and the correction,
you know, the strain that's going to have on the body and all those things. But he's doing good.
And yesterday we went to Legoland. land, we had a really fantastic time. I enjoyed myself.
Carlos enjoyed himself. We did have a little bit of a disagreement between each other.
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And this is really for me to kind of, you know, flesh it out a little bit for
him to be able to understand, like, where I'm coming from.
And, you know, maybe maybe, you know, spread some insight in our relationship.
Since Carlos and I, I'm very analytical, very in in tune with how I feel.
And I think with Carlos being a Spanish speaker, he has to sometimes kind of
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go inside and try to guess what people mean when they don't say what they say.
Because, you know, he's he's been burned by that when it comes to English,
you know, thinking one thing means one thing and it doesn't, you know.
And the problem that we have sometimes when it comes to our relationship is the part where we,
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when it comes to matters of the heart, where he will assume certain things that
I never said and will internalize those things.
And the thing about me is if it's something I'm going to say or something I
feel strongly about, I will say it.
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You know, I don't have a problem with doing so, you know, and it be received by him.
But sometimes, you know, there's internal dialogue that happens among myself
and, you know, among him where, you know, he may think that I'm feeling one
way and and I feel something else.
So the conflict happened was we were at.
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Lego land and i don't need anybody to you know say anything about what they think it may be,
but i will say there's me being 300 something pounds
walking around for three hours when it's 91 degrees that's not fun for me i
immediately started to sweat because of how hot it is and i've always been a
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sweater that's not something that's new so you know carlos would look at me
He was like, damn, you're wet.
And then he's not. He's complete opposite.
So by hour three, I'm like, I'm hungry and I'm tired. So I'm just,
you know, I'm, you know, drawing into myself and, you know, I'm not as talkative as I once was.
And, you know, again, we had a disagreement about whether we,
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you know, he didn't want to double walk. I wanted to go one, go to one side.
And he was like, no, we need to go here. And we ended up not finding the place
that we needed to find, which was the botanical gardens that he was looking
for. We completely missed that.
We didn't end up going because, you know, afterwards he got upset and was like,
okay, we can just go home then.
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And then me and, you know, I was like, well, Well, you know,
at the end of the day, it wasn't, you know, Legoland wasn't something that I had picked for the day.
And that wasn't the trust me, that was not the issue.
The issue was more or less like, hey, I want to do what you want to do when
it comes to like decisions like, you know, the dynamic between Carlos and I
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is I'm the decision maker. He's the go with the floor.
And sometimes, you know, being the decision maker can add extra pressure.
And, you know, it makes me feel like I can't, I don't really consider what he feels.
And I don't like how that feels. So, you know, I will, you know,
have him decide and he wanted to go.
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And I said, you know, okay, well, you're not hurting me.
I was, and I know I was being hurtful with those words, but I said,
you're not hurting me. You know, we can leave.
You wanted to come here not me and in reality I mean I wanted to come because he wanted to come.
I should have made more of an effort to stick around and stay,
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which means we're going to have to go back at some point.
But that was kind of the contention there between us.
And, you know, for me, you know, I brought the fact that sometimes,
you know, Carlos can overdo things and he doesn't really consider his own care. air.
And, you know, two or three days later or a day later, his body is like screaming
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at him saying, hey, you shouldn't have done these things.
And it's become something I have to care for, you know.
And it's not because he's ignorant to it. He's aware of it.
But, you know, he pushes through because he feels like, hey,
that's what I need to do in this. I don't want to complain.
I want to think about my pain. I want to have fun. But you need to consider
that before you go in and do things.
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We have been on rides that jolts us around and, you know, bops us around,
which was making me sore.
And when I got out of the car yesterday, I was not, my feet were hurting,
not like painful, but just like achiness in my body.
So, you know, you know, the, the, the disagreement went further into why are we arguing about this?
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And to me, it's a disagreement argue, Let's give it the same word.
You know, he looks at it as arguing. So it's arguing. He reacts in that way.
To give you all a little bit more context, Carlos does not like to argue.
He's a very quiet person.
He draws into himself whenever he feels there's confrontation.
And me, I personally feel, hey, confrontation is is inevitable.
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I'm not going to, you know, you know, stifle myself at the expense of not wanting
to be in a conflict. And sometimes conflict leads to understanding.
And that's something that we struggle with, you know, pretty regularly whenever
we get into disagreements.
And, you know, I said something to him about me, like he didn't seem like he was concerned about me.
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And, you know, just like, and I know that.
Well, I can't say I know that to be true. But, you know, when I he said that
he mentioned that he was hungry, I did hear him say that, but not at one at
one point we stopped and we continue to go.
And it was more of a mission of trying to finish as opposed to like,
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let's eat, take a step back and then we can go and hit up all the places because
it's likely we won't go to this place again.
You know what I'm saying? Because it's it's for children, you know.
And so anyway, that was the disagreement. We ended up, you know,
seeing eye to eye that, you know, sometimes,
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you know, the, there's a big misunderstanding and, you know,
there's a big issue with, you know, both of us standing on business,
if you will, about how, you know.
How we feel. And, you know, it's not always like, it's difficult for me to kind
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of explain because sometimes these things don't come, you know,
with the full resolution.
It's just the understanding that we both care for each other and,
you know, your concern is, you know, just as important as my concern.
And, you know, this isn't a disagreement per se to where we,
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you know, have to just, you know, move and go our own separate ways.
It's just a disagreement for us to learn things about each other,
you know, in terms of your perspective, like when it comes to eating,
Carlos is like, I only eat twice a day.
I eat once in the morning and then once in the afternoon, I don't need to eat during the day.
So when he's out and about, you know, he doesn't think about it.
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Me on the other hand, I eat three times a day for the most part and have a snack here and there.
And I made the decision that, Hey, you know, if that's going to be the case,
And maybe when we go out, I can say it one o'clock, you know,
we need to eat and rest for an hour and then we can go back and hit it hard.
You know what I'm saying?
Because this would be the second outing that we had because we did Aquatica.
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This will be the second outing that we had that, you know, there was a disagreement
in terms of, you know, ready to go. Who ain't ready to go?
Because we didn't eat at all. We were at Aquatica and it was because it was
good. Well, anything in Florida, whenever you're being a tourist,
it's going to be expensive.
So I say all this to say that, you know, there are different,
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unique, specific things that happen in your relationship that aren't all be
all end all. They're just more or less for understanding.
Take it as that and just continue to move towards greatness and,
you know, move towards, you know, making sure you care for that person in the
best way they want you to.
So yeah so we got done yesterday we went to this place called Glory Days which
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was decent it had some chicken,
chicken they had chicken wings and a lot of American food it was okay I mean
I give it a 5 out of 10 they were alright the margarita Carlos had was really good.
And I mean, the burger that I had was actually really good, but I think they
had a lot to do with the blue cheese that they use. It was super good.
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They had these pieces of bread. I swear when they brought their food out,
it was like a motherfucking buffet.
You know what I'm saying? Like it was a lot of shit.
And, you know, whatever. We we ate it and then we left to drove back home.
We actually had enough time to take a shower, take a nap for a little bit.
It and you know ate he didn't eat
much the medicine or
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or whatever the procedure has him feeling nauseated he he has nausea so he didn't
want to eat too much so he didn't and it went to bed so yeah we cool you know
i i made sure to let carlos know that i i will never leave after an argument.
Like that's not, you know, well, I'm not going to even say unless there's,
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there are obviously certain things, certain situations where I was like,
no, that's unacceptable.
But you know, I'm not going to leave you because we had a disagreement,
you know what I'm saying? And I think for him, it's, it's, he fears that.
I don't know if I've ever talked about our relationship as deep as I have today,
but I'm having this conversation because I want y'all I don't know.
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I mean, Carlos and I, I mean, obviously y'all know we aren't perfect,
but, you know, at the same time, too, we are just like every other couple there
is out there, whether you're gay or straight, queer, it doesn't matter.
Our relationship is the same.
So or similar when, you know, we have our ups and downs and stuff like that.
You know, it's not any mythical thing that's different about what we do versus
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what, you know, what other relationships do.
And this is just to give people insight that, hey, sometimes you're going to
argue and it's going to feel like it's the end of the world.
But in reality, it's not.
It's OK. It's just the next step of learning who that person is about something.
So my hair, you know, and I'm going to quickly go to this. I'll probably give
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this another eight minutes because we're at 27 minutes so far.
My hair, I mean, I wouldn't say that it caused some, you know, drama. It didn't.
And I'm going to be honest, sometimes like, you know, kind of going back to
like, what am I doing this for?
Sometimes it's like, who the fuck do I even have that thought process and just
like friendships and stuff like that, like that.
Like, who the fuck do I think I am to be able to say this?
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And you know I'm just a human being who
just has opinions and thoughts and sometimes they're wrong and sometimes
they're right or sometimes it's just for understanding
but you know I my hair
right now I think looks the best that
it's looked in a long time I'm very proud of it
I don't like the fact that when I comb my hair
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I am getting you know breakage but
I don't know if that's because of dryness or if that
is because you know maybe
my hair is thinning i don't know my hair
but whenever i go and i decide to comb my hair you know to try to detangle some
of the stuff that's out of it you know you know i'll see you know little itty
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bitty curls like oh man is that you know pop it out of my head but i say that
to say there was no controversy with my hair but i had
And I was told by quite a few of my friends that this might not be.
Well, I was yeah, I was told by a few of my friends that this might not be the
look I should go for that, you know, I should move past it.
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And I just wanted to say, as I said, and I said it in my Facebook page and I
wasn't really, you know, I'm not I don't like to be confrontational for any reason.
But there's certain things that kind of will draw a reaction out of me.
And, you know, when it comes to talking about somebody's appearance, I'm just not on that.
You know what I'm saying? Like, I don't people when people how people choose
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to show up in the world is completely their own choice.
And I think it's completely off limits for us to be able to say the way you
show up is not, you know, not it.
You know what I'm saying? man, you know, without knowing what I,
well, I was, I initially said my addendum yesterday was that without knowing
that person that well, and that's not even it, I don't give a damn if you're
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a friend of mine for years.
I might not, I don't, I might not ever feel comfortable with you talking about my appearance.
Now, let me put it in perspective. I sent pictures to friends.
So I left the door open, you know, in terms of like, Hey, what's your thoughts?
You know, it was completely open, ambiguous.
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And, you know, at the end of the day, for me, it was just like,
I, this is, this is something that I do that I share in my life.
You know what I'm saying?
My, my, my siblings, Siblings, my friends are like siblings sometimes.
And, you know, it just, sometimes I, you know, I don't have anybody else to,
well, I don't want to say it like that.
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I was going to say, sometimes I don't have anybody else to send it to.
That's, that's, that's not how I want to say it. But I would do this to siblings.
And a lot of my friends has kind of stepped up as siblings in a way,
you know, you know, since I don't have a really close family relationship.
And, you know, some feel, you know, compelled to tell me, you know,
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the truth about something that they think I might not have considered.
But as I said it on Facebook and I'm saying it now, I personally have made a decision.
And by the time you guys are seeing it, it's something I've considered for a
long time and I'm not really looking for any approval.
And I guess I should say that like, you know, precursor, I don't really care
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about what you think about it.
Just here's what I'm doing right now, you know, and, you know,
when it comes to people's appearance, it's just to me, it's off limits type thing.
And, you know, I had some feelings about what someone said, you know,
about, you know, what they thought I was doing.
And, you know, it just made me feel some type of way. And I just don't.
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It just made me feel it just made me have this rule moving forward that when
it comes to appearance things, it's not something that I'm willing to do.
Like, I'm not going to send pictures of my hair anymore. I'm not going to send pictures of my haircut.
I'm not going to send pictures, you know, what outfit I'm wearing,
because that just gives people, you know, the feeling of the free reign to think
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that they can just do whatever, you know, they want to do and or say whatever they want to say.
And that's just not an environment that I'm trying to create.
So it is what it is. Because, you know, I love my friends deeply and dearly.
And sometimes, you know, you have to let them know, you know, when things bother you.
And it wasn't like a hurt feeling thing. It was just more or less like,
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you know, the way it was said.
And I'm intentionally being vague about it because I don't, you know,
want anybody to feel like they're being called out. But yeah.
You know, it was just one of those situations where I was just like,
like, what are you trying to say?
You know, just say it. You don't think it's nice because I'm losing hair.
OK, you know, let's let's not say, well, that that that's not it.
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You know, let's let's say what we want to say.
And, you know, I'm going to let you know I'm going to make my decision to do do it anyway.
It don't matter. You know, and these are small first world problems.
They aren't anything to find or to get upset about.
But sometimes these things can, you know, they can affect you.
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You know, you don't speak up about it.
Your body remembers, you know, even when you don't. I say that often.
So that's all I had. You know, I mean, other than that, I'm loving my hair. I'm loving the curls.
It's transformed in a way that I didn't expect.
I'm hoping that it continues to grow because I do want to get some hang time,
you know, with my hair. I want it to grow.
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And I'm making a commitment to not cut it, you know, for the rest of the year and see where we end.
And, you know, obviously, I will let you guys know on the journey in terms of
what it is and how it's going to work out.
And, you know, I appreciate you guys rocking with me so much and,
you know, being supportive in any way, shape or form that you can,
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you know, be supportive.
Tell a friend, tell a friend, tell a friend about the podcast.
That's the best way to help to get more downloads, to get more things,
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You know, I do feel like it's, it's good work. It's good times.
And I think that I'm putting out really good content and I think you guys like
it too, which is why y'all tune in so much.
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Music.
Music.
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What's up it's time for another episode of Reggie's
Expressions thank you to everybody who listened last week I
appreciate it and yeah I'm ready to tell
another personal story and you know
talk about some experiences and just kind of my overall
week I'm gonna I want to let you guys
know I think I'm gonna give this season 15 episodes
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so that would put me at three more
from this point unless last week was 12
i have to take a look it's not something i
need to know right now but i'm gonna do either two to three more episodes from
this point and then i will be on the break for the rest of the year so that'll
give you guys opportunity to go back and listen to some of the old episodes
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and i may do some quick you know updates here and there you know,
from time to time, just to check in with you guys.
So you're not like completely gone.
I got some vacations that's coming up pretty soon.
And I just want to really want to focus on the rest of the year,
you know, banging that out, getting into the last quarter.
And then I can come back focused and refreshed at the beginning of the year.
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So that'll be coming up soon.
I will let you guys know that last episode and then we'll carry on to season number nine.
So, you know, Well, I'm going to start off by talking about my sentiment today.
Today, I'm a little, I don't know why I just paused, but exhausted is the word that comes up for me.
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I'm going to pull up the emotion wheel really quickly.
Let's see. I don't know if you guys heard about the emotion wheel,
but it kind of, you know, when we talk about emotions, emotions can be very complicated at times.
And, you know, because of our, not everybody, you know, some of you guys might
be pros in this, but some of us have limited access to, you know,
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what being tired might include, you know, or exhausted.
It could be, you know, a source of something else. So the feeling that we come
up with is, you know, a symptom of another, you know, feeling.
So, you know, the wheel kind of helps you with helping you navigate through
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some of those more complex feelings.
So let me see here.
And it's a circle. It's a wheel.
Vulnerable, empty.
Let's see. Embarrassed.
Worthless. These are just examples. These aren't my, my specific feelings and
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it may not even have exhausted on there. Hold on.
Hateful, frustrated, distant, critical, depressed, lonely, optimistic, accepted.
Let's see. Enraged, embarrassed, resentful, apathetic.
I think, yeah, apathetic. and
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it said you know it's
apathetic is on the basis of
being bored and then being bored is on the basis of being sad so that's interesting
yeah i would have to say i'm a little apathetic with this whole process and
what i mean by that is i feel like right now just it always goes back to the numbers for me.
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You know, I start thinking about like, oh, you know, growth and things of that
nature. And then it gets to a period where it happens to slow down.
And then I started thinking like, oh, you need to do, you need to promote more,
you know, and I have a website.
I have a Facebook page for those of you who may not know. I miss Reggie's expressions
on Facebook. I don't think I ever talk about it here.
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I talk about my personal Facebook page. I talk about my TikTok TikTok and I
talk about Instagram, but I don't talk about my Facebook page.
I post every week, my new episodes.
And, you know, I guess, you know, I mean, I would have to say that I'm,
I would say that I'm bored and I'm indifferent also for the process because
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it's like, what am I doing this for?
And it goes back to my desire of affirmations.
Like I need to be affirmed a lot a good friend
of mine uh actually made me realize
that you know i i had a question just
and i understand you know people may not have the capacity sometimes to ask
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these questions and i should really consider that it's not that they're being
dismissive when they you know when they fail to answer it's more or less you
know they just don't understand the reason behind the question,
but I asked a friend today, not today, but a couple of days ago,
I was like, you know, I'm not a good friend.
And then it became more or less a situation of, well, you know,
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if you weren't a good friend, it wouldn't be, you wouldn't be somebody I would hang around.
And, you know, it goes back to how they felt about, you know,
me being around and I, you know, sometimes I just need validation,
you know, in work, I'm probably in high maintenance employee just because I
need constant validation of, you know, my contribution to what I'm doing.
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So that's probably something I need to talk to my therapist.
I do have an appointment on the 17th about it.
So it's something I probably need to talk to my therapist about on why I feel
like I need validation a lot. And I mean, a lot of times, you know,
your adulthood is informed by your childhood.
So, you know, it probably has a lot to do with the way I was raised and how
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I felt invalidated or, you know, how I felt like I wasn't, you know, considered,
you know, probably a bit of abandonment in there that I need to take some time
to, you know, get to know and understand.
Understand but yeah my recommendation to y'all would
be to make sure that you take a
look at the will the the the feelings will hold on one second yeah i noticed
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sometimes when i'm listening back to the episode the audio will cut and i think
that it's because of the you know my screen will go dark after a certain amount
of minutes but you know but i want to explain this will a little bit bit more.
So it is one, two, three sections. Okay.
So the first outer section of the circle will have words like devastated, insecure,
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jealous, resentful, violated, furious, enraged, just to name a few. Okay.
That is on the side of anger. Okay.
Anger is the emotion that comes up for you.
And there's many different things that could, you know, cause those outer feelings
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of, you know, embarrassment, devastation, you know, insecure,
so on and so forth. So anger is your circle.
So once you identify what you are around the circle, you then go to the deeper color of that circle.
So we're dealing with the realm of anger with those ones that I mentioned.
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So, you know, being embarrassed could also, you know, teeter on being hurt.
Being hurt could be devastated or teeter on anger, anger, hurt can teeter on anger.
And, you know, your feeling embarrassment could come from hurt,
could come from, you know, a potential of threatened, hateful,
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mad, aggressive, frustrated, distant, critical.
And, you know, the idea is that, you know, sometimes when we say,
man, I'm feeling I'm feeling I'm angry, you know, and you have to take a look like, why are you angry?
You know, is it because you feel embarrassed?
Is it because you feel jealous? Is it because you feel violated?
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Do you feel enraged? Do you feel and then under that gamut, it gives you,
you know, other words that, you know, may associate your anger to,
you know, exactly pinpoint, you know, like hurt, threaten, hateful.
Mad, aggressive, frustrated, distant, and critical.
On the lighter side of things, you got happy. Why do you feel happy?
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You can be joyful. You can be interested. You can be proud, accepted,
powerful, peaceful, intimate, and optimistic.
And then you have other things within the circle, the outer part of the circle
where you have liberated, ecstatic, amused, inquisitive, important,
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confident, respected, fulfilled,
loving, hopeful that could inform your your happiness.
And then you also have surprise, fear and then sadness.
Sadness so a lot of times when
I'm anxious I'll you know I've the best
way to explain it would be I'm fearful of something but
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you know sometimes it could be you know I'm feeling insecure or anxious or overwhelmed
it could be terrified frightened so it's just a good way to kind of you know
get more of an understanding I was saying earlier that you know I was exhausted tired Tired,
where would tired be on the wheel?
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Surprise.
I don't know if it would be on here. But it, disgust, anger, hateful, worry.
I mean, it could be anxious. It could be, you know, out of fear.
Surprise, happiness, sad, bored, judgmental.
So anyway, I was looking for something specific. I was saying that I was tired
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or exhausted, but what I mean when I say that, because I'm having a tough time
trying to explain, because it's not tired in the sense of like,
oh, I just woke up and I'm sleepy tired.
It's just more or less like, you know, you, you, you do things and you want
people to acknowledge it, which again, goes back to the affirmation part of it.
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And then you feel like you're, you know, there's no, there's no acknowledgement
of, of, you know, what, what's to be done. And sometimes it's just a little,
you know, I just kind of beat myself up.
And, you know, sometimes, you know, in the past, I've done hiatus,
you know, where I'm like, fuck it, they won't, you know, they won't care,
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you know, me being gone, they won't, you know, so what?
And, you know, I just have to really sometimes, you know, rein in those emotions,
because, you know, I mean, I do, in the general sense of things,
I know, I may not have a big ass audience, but I know that I'm speaking to at
least one person. you know, because.
Weekly when I put the episodes out, you know, I do see people,
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you know, going and listening to the episode, you know, even with my husband,
you know, listening to it, it helps him gain a perspective about certain things
that, you know, I might not have been able to explain to him in the best way possible.
So, you know, it's helpful in that instance.
And, you know, my friends are very supportive, you know, with listening,
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or at least they tell me that they do, but I say, At least they tell me that they do.
I should have just received that. My friends are really supportive when they listen. Full stop.
So this week for me has been was a short week. I was off on Monday and I worked
Tuesday through Friday.
I had to take Carlos to a outpatient outpatient.
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I don't know what it's doing. I don't know why it's stopping and pausing.
So if you guys hear that, my apologies.
But, you know, he had an outpatient procedure. I had to leave early on Saturday
or Friday just to make sure he was good to go.
And it was it was a, you know, maybe 30 minute procedure, 15, 20 minute procedure.
We waited longer, you know, than we did.
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We waited longer in the wait line in the wait waiting area than we did to go back and get seen,
you know i go back there for more support and also ask questions in terms of
like what is this going to do how will this help him um you know what's the
aftercare of it all you know just because you know i'm just curious about how
how you know his recovery is going to be carlos you know.
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Carlos suffers with severe arthritis.
He has a herniated disc and, you know, many can speculate it's just general
wear and tear of age and things of that nature.
But, you know, I think we also have to put in the caveat that Carlos has been
working since he was 11 years old.
So he's been working for well over 40 years and, you know, his body is quite
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tired and needs to relax. So So he had that. He had that procedure.
So my week was truncated anyway, just for only having four days and then even
more short because I didn't work, you know, the full 32 hours.
Well, no, I mean, I worked a longer week, a longer weekday.
So on Tuesday, I think I did 10 hours. On Wednesday, I did another 30 minutes.
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And then okay so on and so forth so anyway
Carlos uh he's on the
mend he did have some soreness and pain from
the injections that he had they basically burned his
his nerves that they think was causing the pain and you know this will give
him long term you know anywhere from six months to a year and my hope is that
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you know we could uh continue that you know uh the procedure or I don't want
to do anything like permanently where he'll have to have surgery.
But, you know, the choice is his. I can just make my suggestions on what I think.
But honestly, I don't think surgery is the answer,
you know, especially when it comes to bad things, because, you know,
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you have to worry about the, you know, the surgery area and the correction,
you know, the strain that's going to have on the body and all those things. But he's doing good.
And yesterday we went to Legoland. land, we had a really fantastic time. I enjoyed myself.
Carlos enjoyed himself. We did have a little bit of a disagreement between each other.
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And this is really for me to kind of, you know, flesh it out a little bit for
him to be able to understand, like, where I'm coming from.
And, you know, maybe maybe, you know, spread some insight in our relationship.
Since Carlos and I, I'm very analytical, very in in tune with how I feel.
And I think with Carlos being a Spanish speaker, he has to sometimes kind of
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go inside and try to guess what people mean when they don't say what they say.
Because, you know, he's he's been burned by that when it comes to English,
you know, thinking one thing means one thing and it doesn't, you know.
And the problem that we have sometimes when it comes to our relationship is the part where we,
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when it comes to matters of the heart, where he will assume certain things that
I never said and will internalize those things.
And the thing about me is if it's something I'm going to say or something I
feel strongly about, I will say it.
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You know, I don't have a problem with doing so, you know, and it be received by him.
But sometimes, you know, there's internal dialogue that happens among myself
and, you know, among him where, you know, he may think that I'm feeling one
way and and I feel something else.
So the conflict happened was we were at.
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Lego land and i don't need anybody to you know say anything about what they think it may be,
but i will say there's me being 300 something pounds
walking around for three hours when it's 91 degrees that's not fun for me i
immediately started to sweat because of how hot it is and i've always been a
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sweater that's not something that's new so you know carlos would look at me
He was like, damn, you're wet.
And then he's not. He's complete opposite.
So by hour three, I'm like, I'm hungry and I'm tired. So I'm just,
you know, I'm, you know, drawing into myself and, you know, I'm not as talkative as I once was.
And, you know, again, we had a disagreement about whether we,
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you know, he didn't want to double walk. I wanted to go one, go to one side.
And he was like, no, we need to go here. And we ended up not finding the place
that we needed to find, which was the botanical gardens that he was looking
for. We completely missed that.
We didn't end up going because, you know, afterwards he got upset and was like,
okay, we can just go home then.
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And then me and, you know, I was like, well, Well, you know,
at the end of the day, it wasn't, you know, Legoland wasn't something that I had picked for the day.
And that wasn't the trust me, that was not the issue.
The issue was more or less like, hey, I want to do what you want to do when
it comes to like decisions like, you know, the dynamic between Carlos and I
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is I'm the decision maker. He's the go with the floor.
And sometimes, you know, being the decision maker can add extra pressure.
And, you know, it makes me feel like I can't, I don't really consider what he feels.
And I don't like how that feels. So, you know, I will, you know,
have him decide and he wanted to go.
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And I said, you know, okay, well, you're not hurting me.
I was, and I know I was being hurtful with those words, but I said,
you're not hurting me. You know, we can leave.
You wanted to come here not me and in reality I mean I wanted to come because he wanted to come.
I should have made more of an effort to stick around and stay,
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which means we're going to have to go back at some point.
But that was kind of the contention there between us.
And, you know, for me, you know, I brought the fact that sometimes,
you know, Carlos can overdo things and he doesn't really consider his own care. air.
And, you know, two or three days later or a day later, his body is like screaming
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at him saying, hey, you shouldn't have done these things.
And it's become something I have to care for, you know.
And it's not because he's ignorant to it. He's aware of it.
But, you know, he pushes through because he feels like, hey,
that's what I need to do in this. I don't want to complain.
I want to think about my pain. I want to have fun. But you need to consider
that before you go in and do things.
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We have been on rides that jolts us around and, you know, bops us around,
which was making me sore.
And when I got out of the car yesterday, I was not, my feet were hurting,
not like painful, but just like achiness in my body.
So, you know, you know, the, the, the disagreement went further into why are we arguing about this?
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And to me, it's a disagreement argue, Let's give it the same word.
You know, he looks at it as arguing. So it's arguing. He reacts in that way.
To give you all a little bit more context, Carlos does not like to argue.
He's a very quiet person.
He draws into himself whenever he feels there's confrontation.
And me, I personally feel, hey, confrontation is is inevitable.
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I'm not going to, you know, you know, stifle myself at the expense of not wanting
to be in a conflict. And sometimes conflict leads to understanding.
And that's something that we struggle with, you know, pretty regularly whenever
we get into disagreements.
And, you know, I said something to him about me, like he didn't seem like he was concerned about me.
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And, you know, just like, and I know that.
Well, I can't say I know that to be true. But, you know, when I he said that
he mentioned that he was hungry, I did hear him say that, but not at one at
one point we stopped and we continue to go.
And it was more of a mission of trying to finish as opposed to like,
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let's eat, take a step back and then we can go and hit up all the places because
it's likely we won't go to this place again.
You know what I'm saying? Because it's it's for children, you know.
And so anyway, that was the disagreement. We ended up, you know,
seeing eye to eye that, you know, sometimes,
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you know, the, there's a big misunderstanding and, you know,
there's a big issue with, you know, both of us standing on business,
if you will, about how, you know.
How we feel. And, you know, it's not always like, it's difficult for me to kind
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of explain because sometimes these things don't come, you know,
with the full resolution.
It's just the understanding that we both care for each other and,
you know, your concern is, you know, just as important as my concern.
And, you know, this isn't a disagreement per se to where we,
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you know, have to just, you know, move and go our own separate ways.
It's just a disagreement for us to learn things about each other,
you know, in terms of your perspective, like when it comes to eating,
Carlos is like, I only eat twice a day.
I eat once in the morning and then once in the afternoon, I don't need to eat during the day.
So when he's out and about, you know, he doesn't think about it.
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Me on the other hand, I eat three times a day for the most part and have a snack here and there.
And I made the decision that, Hey, you know, if that's going to be the case,
And maybe when we go out, I can say it one o'clock, you know,
we need to eat and rest for an hour and then we can go back and hit it hard.
You know what I'm saying?
Because this would be the second outing that we had because we did Aquatica.
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This will be the second outing that we had that, you know, there was a disagreement
in terms of, you know, ready to go. Who ain't ready to go?
Because we didn't eat at all. We were at Aquatica and it was because it was
good. Well, anything in Florida, whenever you're being a tourist,
it's going to be expensive.
So I say all this to say that, you know, there are different,
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unique, specific things that happen in your relationship that aren't all be
all end all. They're just more or less for understanding.
Take it as that and just continue to move towards greatness and,
you know, move towards, you know, making sure you care for that person in the
best way they want you to.
So yeah so we got done yesterday we went to this place called Glory Days which
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was decent it had some chicken,
chicken they had chicken wings and a lot of American food it was okay I mean
I give it a 5 out of 10 they were alright the margarita Carlos had was really good.
And I mean, the burger that I had was actually really good, but I think they
had a lot to do with the blue cheese that they use. It was super good.
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They had these pieces of bread. I swear when they brought their food out,
it was like a motherfucking buffet.
You know what I'm saying? Like it was a lot of shit.
And, you know, whatever. We we ate it and then we left to drove back home.
We actually had enough time to take a shower, take a nap for a little bit.
It and you know ate he didn't eat
much the medicine or
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or whatever the procedure has him feeling nauseated he he has nausea so he didn't
want to eat too much so he didn't and it went to bed so yeah we cool you know
i i made sure to let carlos know that i i will never leave after an argument.
Like that's not, you know, well, I'm not going to even say unless there's,
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there are obviously certain things, certain situations where I was like,
no, that's unacceptable.
But you know, I'm not going to leave you because we had a disagreement,
you know what I'm saying? And I think for him, it's, it's, he fears that.
I don't know if I've ever talked about our relationship as deep as I have today,
but I'm having this conversation because I want y'all I don't know.
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I mean, Carlos and I, I mean, obviously y'all know we aren't perfect,
but, you know, at the same time, too, we are just like every other couple there
is out there, whether you're gay or straight, queer, it doesn't matter.
Our relationship is the same.
So or similar when, you know, we have our ups and downs and stuff like that.
You know, it's not any mythical thing that's different about what we do versus
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what, you know, what other relationships do.
And this is just to give people insight that, hey, sometimes you're going to
argue and it's going to feel like it's the end of the world.
But in reality, it's not.
It's OK. It's just the next step of learning who that person is about something.
So my hair, you know, and I'm going to quickly go to this. I'll probably give
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this another eight minutes because we're at 27 minutes so far.
My hair, I mean, I wouldn't say that it caused some, you know, drama. It didn't.
And I'm going to be honest, sometimes like, you know, kind of going back to
like, what am I doing this for?
Sometimes it's like, who the fuck do I even have that thought process and just
like friendships and stuff like that, like that.
Like, who the fuck do I think I am to be able to say this?
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And you know I'm just a human being who
just has opinions and thoughts and sometimes they're wrong and sometimes
they're right or sometimes it's just for understanding
but you know I my hair
right now I think looks the best that
it's looked in a long time I'm very proud of it
I don't like the fact that when I comb my hair
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I am getting you know breakage but
I don't know if that's because of dryness or if that
is because you know maybe
my hair is thinning i don't know my hair
but whenever i go and i decide to comb my hair you know to try to detangle some
of the stuff that's out of it you know you know i'll see you know little itty
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bitty curls like oh man is that you know pop it out of my head but i say that
to say there was no controversy with my hair but i had
And I was told by quite a few of my friends that this might not be.
Well, I was yeah, I was told by a few of my friends that this might not be the
look I should go for that, you know, I should move past it.
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And I just wanted to say, as I said, and I said it in my Facebook page and I
wasn't really, you know, I'm not I don't like to be confrontational for any reason.
But there's certain things that kind of will draw a reaction out of me.
And, you know, when it comes to talking about somebody's appearance, I'm just not on that.
You know what I'm saying? Like, I don't people when people how people choose
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to show up in the world is completely their own choice.
And I think it's completely off limits for us to be able to say the way you
show up is not, you know, not it.
You know what I'm saying? man, you know, without knowing what I,
well, I was, I initially said my addendum yesterday was that without knowing
that person that well, and that's not even it, I don't give a damn if you're
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a friend of mine for years.
I might not, I don't, I might not ever feel comfortable with you talking about my appearance.
Now, let me put it in perspective. I sent pictures to friends.
So I left the door open, you know, in terms of like, Hey, what's your thoughts?
You know, it was completely open, ambiguous.
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And, you know, at the end of the day, for me, it was just like,
I, this is, this is something that I do that I share in my life.
You know what I'm saying?
My, my, my siblings, Siblings, my friends are like siblings sometimes.
And, you know, it just, sometimes I, you know, I don't have anybody else to,
well, I don't want to say it like that.
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I was going to say, sometimes I don't have anybody else to send it to.
That's, that's, that's not how I want to say it. But I would do this to siblings.
And a lot of my friends has kind of stepped up as siblings in a way,
you know, you know, since I don't have a really close family relationship.
And, you know, some feel, you know, compelled to tell me, you know,
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the truth about something that they think I might not have considered.
But as I said it on Facebook and I'm saying it now, I personally have made a decision.
And by the time you guys are seeing it, it's something I've considered for a
long time and I'm not really looking for any approval.
And I guess I should say that like, you know, precursor, I don't really care
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about what you think about it.
Just here's what I'm doing right now, you know, and, you know,
when it comes to people's appearance, it's just to me, it's off limits type thing.
And, you know, I had some feelings about what someone said, you know,
about, you know, what they thought I was doing.
And, you know, it just made me feel some type of way. And I just don't.
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It just made me feel it just made me have this rule moving forward that when
it comes to appearance things, it's not something that I'm willing to do.
Like, I'm not going to send pictures of my hair anymore. I'm not going to send pictures of my haircut.
I'm not going to send pictures, you know, what outfit I'm wearing,
because that just gives people, you know, the feeling of the free reign to think
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that they can just do whatever, you know, they want to do and or say whatever they want to say.
And that's just not an environment that I'm trying to create.
So it is what it is. Because, you know, I love my friends deeply and dearly.
And sometimes, you know, you have to let them know, you know, when things bother you.
And it wasn't like a hurt feeling thing. It was just more or less like,
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you know, the way it was said.
And I'm intentionally being vague about it because I don't, you know,
want anybody to feel like they're being called out. But yeah.
You know, it was just one of those situations where I was just like,
like, what are you trying to say?
You know, just say it. You don't think it's nice because I'm losing hair.
OK, you know, let's let's not say, well, that that that's not it.
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You know, let's let's say what we want to say.
And, you know, I'm going to let you know I'm going to make my decision to do do it anyway.
It don't matter. You know, and these are small first world problems.
They aren't anything to find or to get upset about.
But sometimes these things can, you know, they can affect you.
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You know, you don't speak up about it.
Your body remembers, you know, even when you don't. I say that often.
So that's all I had. You know, I mean, other than that, I'm loving my hair. I'm loving the curls.
It's transformed in a way that I didn't expect.
I'm hoping that it continues to grow because I do want to get some hang time,
you know, with my hair. I want it to grow.
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And I'm making a commitment to not cut it, you know, for the rest of the year and see where we end.
And, you know, obviously, I will let you guys know on the journey in terms of
what it is and how it's going to work out.
And, you know, I appreciate you guys rocking with me so much and,
you know, being supportive in any way, shape or form that you can,
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you know, be supportive.
Tell a friend, tell a friend, tell a friend about the podcast.
That's the best way to help to get more downloads, to get more things,
you know, on, because I feel like I do have a hidden gem here.
You know, I do feel like it's, it's good work. It's good times.
And I think that I'm putting out really good content and I think you guys like
it too, which is why y'all tune in so much.
(32:24):
So I want to continue that. So yeah, tell a friend, tell everybody,
please write a review on any of the places that you listen to it.
If you listen to iTunes or not iTunes, but podcasts on Apple,
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(32:48):
Any support is awesome, necessary. It doesn't always have to be financial.
You know, financial is nice, but, you know, just supporting with your listening
ears and, you know, commenting and feedback, you know, is greatly appreciated.
So thank you so much for doing so. So I'm going to go ahead and go.
You guys enjoy the rest of your day. It's been another episode of Raising Expressions.
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You can find me at A-R-E underscore E-L underscore Socorro Garner on Instagram.
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We greatly appreciate it.
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Got a couple of things on there. I want to grow the crowd right now. It's completely free.
And we'll talk about what happens later on. So thank you guys so much.
Enjoy the rest of your day and I'll catch you on the flip side. Peace.
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