August 24, 2025 • 17 mins
Susanne, from Germany, shares her story of moving from giving her body away to truly inhabiting it with presence and joy. Her journey is about meeting life — and love — with vulnerability, honesty, and openness.
Together with Britta’s reflections, we explore how desire, emotional presence, and courage to stay can transform intimacy from mere performance into deep connection.
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(00:08):
Welcome to 34. In this episode we will learn
more about Susanna, the woman who awakened.
Some people enter your life not to teach, but to.
Awaken. This is a story of Susanna.
She's not just 26, she's a womanwho carries lifetime in her
(00:31):
eyes. And when she opened herself, it
wasn't to be taken, but to be met.
They met as if they had always known each other, not just
attraction, but a magnetic recognition, as if something
inside them already knew before words had a chance to explain.
(00:53):
With her, everything could be spoken unfiltered.
Feelings, fears, fantasies. And when they kissed, time
folded. I love sex, she said.
But I rarely come with men. They need to really see me.
And you. You already do.
(01:15):
And he did, Not just with his eyes, but with his presence.
He listened with his whole body,felt where she opened, where she
trembled, where she waited. The first time they made love,
it was both primal and reverent.He kissed her like a ritual.
(01:39):
Her neck, her belly, the insights of her thighs, her
fingertips. And when he entered her, their
bodies answered yes. It wasn't just sex, it was an
opening. 10 orgasms, maybe more.Not just physical, but soulful,
(02:01):
deep, expansive, timeless. What's happening to me?
She whispered. She felt him still inside her
hours later, not as a memory, but as a hum beneath her skin.
What was built between them. Their intimacy didn't begin in
(02:24):
bed. It started in the words, in the
way he texted her, simple messages that made her breath
catch mid sentence, not dirty, but present.
I keep thinking about the sound you made when I kissed you
there. She would feel it in her body,
(02:45):
fingers sliding beneath the blanket, not to perform, but to
reconnect. It was foreplay, not just for
sex, but for meeting. And when they saw each other
again, it wasn't hunger that wrote them, it was a slow,
ripened desire. He touched her like he wrote.
(03:09):
She responded like a poem being read aloud.
She became wet from his voice alone, from how he looked at her
when she was vulnerable, from how he held her afterwards, as
if the orgasm was just the beginning.
They didn't just Make Love, theymade meaning.
(03:30):
And that's why eventually she nolonger knew where her skin ended
and his began. She began to see herself with
new eyes. It started in the mirror, not
with make up, but with her gaze.She looked at herself with
(03:50):
softness. She carried not just his memory,
but her own presence. Her work changed, her breath,
her boundaries. She said no without apology.
She met men's eyes not to invite, but to stand.
(04:11):
Sex had once been something she did.
Now it was something she carried.
She wasn't dependent on him, butthe way he had loved her, with
precision, words, attention had.It reminded her of something
sacred, that she deserved to be seen, not for what she gave, but
(04:37):
for who she was, where vulnerability was hiding.
One night, something cracked. He made a joke, something small,
about how she always took up so much space in the bed.
She laughed at first, that something inside recoiled, a
(05:01):
familiar echo, a part of her that had been called too much
before. Later, she whispered.
I've been held so many times, but not emotionally.
And when I dare, when it goes wrong, I want to crawl out of my
skin. I want to believe I can be all
(05:23):
of it, strong, horny, soft, sad,without being too much.
And he listened. You can be all of it, he said.
But I need to learn how to stay when it gets hard, and you need
to let me try without shutting down before I do.
(05:46):
And in that moment, they both understood vulnerability isn't
just what you offer, it's what you allow together.
The one who hid her soul, she carried her body like both
(06:07):
shield and invitation. She gave her body easily, but
her soul she kept guarded. Because someone who really sees
you can also really hurt you. So she gave just enough, let
them touch, let them want, but never let them in until him.
(06:32):
He didn't reach for her skin first.
He reached for which she had buried.
And that was the most forbidden thing of all.
I saw all of her, he said. Not just his shape, but the
fractures, the silence she grew up in, the tears.
She was never allowed to cry. She ran from that, maybe she
(06:54):
still is, but she remembers not the sex, not the climax, the
moment she was fully seen. And he stayed.
To Susanna, and to every woman who's learning that pleasure is
not a performance but a presence, You're not too much.
(07:18):
You're not too loud, too needy, too intense.
You are simply waiting to be met.
Not with hands that take, but with presence that stays.
Because the hardest thing is notto open.
It's to remain open when fear whispers this is too much.
(07:41):
It's to stay when every instincttells you to shut down, to
withdraw, to disappear, not to become avoidant, to not escape
into performance. Independence, Oregon.
Silence. So before.
(08:02):
We wrap up. I want to bring you back Rita
Kunsa. Who's a sexologist?
Relationship and intimacy coach and she's been listening very
closely to the story about Susanna.
Welcome back, Rita. Hello.
So what are your key takeaways? From the story about Susanna.
The key take away, when I listened to the story, what were
(08:25):
the 10 orgasms? You know, every story has this
one thing that's catchy about the specific story and it might
be another take away for somebody else listening to it.
But that's yeah, that it's possible.
I think Susanna was the woman who said, oh, I have a hard time
having an orgasm, right. And then with with this new
(08:47):
partner, she had 10 orgasms and probably was surprised herself
by this happening. Yeah, I think with her, I think
it was more about not seeing a way where she could normally
come during intercourse. Obviously when you touching
yourself or something like that,it was a different story opening
(09:09):
up and being present with a partner and talking in a way.
Which build? Trust, I think, was the key
thing for her. Yeah, I mean, now you're
bringing in the deeper level. So on a superficial level, sort
of the result was 10 orgasms. And when people go for sex
coaching, they come from the result, you know, they come from
(09:30):
the I want to reach this or that.
But then the deeper thing is in the story of Susanna, we heard
that she hadn't really opened upon a deeper level that she had.
What I've sort of heard between the lines is that she has had
sex before and maybe explored and probably even easily given
(09:53):
her her body away, but not her soul or, you know, a deeper,
more vulnerable part of herself.And so in this new relationship,
what happened was that she was felt, probably met and seen and
safe at a very deep level. And this is and again we are at
(10:15):
back to the body never lies. And This is why her body then
was suddenly capable of experiencing this deep
surrender. Very true.
I think the staying present and being in the moment and trusting
(10:36):
each other I think is a key component there that's.
Beautiful. So from a man's point of view,
what do you think a man can learn from this to become a
better partner? I was good.
I was about to give a mean answer somehow it's like, but
it's possible. Like and if if your partner
(11:00):
doesn't experience orgasms, if your female partner doesn't
experience orgasms, it's yes, some of it is her responsibility
and she can have us a learning curve.
But maybe it's also about you being able to learn something.
And so if in the past your partner has experienced orgasms
(11:25):
from intercourse or after being with you, she experiences it,
there might be things to look at.
And so it's not necessarily always about your skills.
Yeah, it could could also be anatomy working pretty well,
which is something that you cannot influence full stop.
But you can influence this. What does it need for you to be
(11:51):
calm and present and grounded and meeting your partner from
this point where it's not about being greedy or wanting to take
something, but really being withthe other person and tuning into
like listening through your bodyto the body of the other person.
(12:13):
And this is a skill. If everybody would develop it,
sex lives would be so much better all over the world.
But I think one thing here from you that I take away.
As well, it's not. It's not necessarily the
quantity of. Orgasms, that was.
The key. That was a result or an outcome
(12:35):
of it, but it's more about the quality, but also how you are
present and meeting each other and seeing each other.
And that actually results in in in the outcome.
But if you, I think a lot of guys in general can be very
focused on the climax point of either for themselves or maybe
for the women. But it's it's not necessarily
(12:55):
that that is the key thing, but it's sort of the journey there
where you stay in pressure moment.
Totally. I think the most again, I mean,
I, I feel like I keep repeating myself.
The most valuable thing that youcan gift yourself and your
partner is to be really there with what is happening.
(13:16):
And this is, this is going to beso satisfying for you and your
partner when both are present. And let me share with you from
the experience of a sex part that most people are not present
at all while having sex. Yeah, from what I know from the
(13:39):
Susana story as well as I think she.
She found it very easily to give.
Her body instead. Of actually her.
Emotions, her heart, right? And I think that's one of the
things that limited her. Yeah, and again, I feel like I
need to add it like is this, is this we're getting to this
point? So because you asked, what can I
(14:01):
take away from as a man? It's, I think that it's possible
for basic I again, I feel for most, for all women, it's
possible to experience incredible pleasure and
orgasmicness. And this is a take away.
And then also it's not your responsibility.
(14:21):
And yet it is. It's like both.
And that's. Where it is.
About how you beat meet each other, right?
I think that's the key thing there and how how you stay
present with each other. Yeah.
Beautiful. And then again, I mean, for
women, you sort of answer it right.
But are there are there any other things women can take with
(14:44):
them from the episode about Susana?
Well, as, as we said twice already, I think that a lot of
people give away their body and,but not their heart and not
their, yeah, heart or soul or however you want to call it,
like their deeper essence. And I, I know a lot of women
who've done it. I mean, we've listened to it and
(15:05):
other episodes as well. Like, OK, I give myself away for
the other, the other person's pleasure or a more superficial
official kind of pleasure for myself.
But then with the story of Susanna, to really take the
story as a North star, that it'spossible to experience other
(15:26):
much deeper level of feeling seen, feeling mad, trusting and
opening up your heart. And through opening up your
heart, also opening up your bodyand probably your pussy and your
aghastmicness on a deeper level.Great.
Thank you so much, Peter. Thank you, Henrik.
(15:55):
There is a part of us, in all ofus, that believes love will
vanish the moment we become fully visible.
So we hide, we give pieces, not the whole.
We touch, but we don't truly land.
But the real shift comes when wedare to stay, not just in the
(16:16):
soft moments, but in the trembling ones, but we resist
the urge to run and instead let ourselves be felt as we are,
unexplained, undiminished. To stay is an act of courage, to
let someone see the places we'vearmoured, the places we've
(16:39):
called too much. That is how intimacy is born,
not from perfection, but from presence that doesn't leave when
it gets hard. So stay, even when it's
uncomfortable, even when your old stories scream at you to
pull away. Stay with yourself, with your
(17:02):
body, with the one who dares to meet you there.
Because sometimes the moment we think we are too much is the
moment we're finally enough. In our next episode, we meet a
woman who never knew how to ask but what she needed until her
(17:23):
body began to break down. And how saying yes for the first
time became an act of survival. Welcome back to 34.
Welcome to 34. In this episode we will learn
more about Susanna, the woman who awakened.
Some people enter your life not to teach, but to.
Awaken. This is a story of Susanna.
She's not just 26, she's a womanwho carries lifetime in her
(00:31):
eyes. And when she opened herself, it
wasn't to be taken, but to be met.
They met as if they had always known each other, not just
attraction, but a magnetic recognition, as if something
inside them already knew before words had a chance to explain.
(00:53):
With her, everything could be spoken unfiltered.
Feelings, fears, fantasies. And when they kissed, time
folded. I love sex, she said.
But I rarely come with men. They need to really see me.
And you. You already do.
(01:15):
And he did, Not just with his eyes, but with his presence.
He listened with his whole body,felt where she opened, where she
trembled, where she waited. The first time they made love,
it was both primal and reverent.He kissed her like a ritual.
(01:39):
Her neck, her belly, the insights of her thighs, her
fingertips. And when he entered her, their
bodies answered yes. It wasn't just sex, it was an
opening. 10 orgasms, maybe more.Not just physical, but soulful,
(02:01):
deep, expansive, timeless. What's happening to me?
She whispered. She felt him still inside her
hours later, not as a memory, but as a hum beneath her skin.
What was built between them. Their intimacy didn't begin in
(02:24):
bed. It started in the words, in the
way he texted her, simple messages that made her breath
catch mid sentence, not dirty, but present.
I keep thinking about the sound you made when I kissed you
there. She would feel it in her body,
(02:45):
fingers sliding beneath the blanket, not to perform, but to
reconnect. It was foreplay, not just for
sex, but for meeting. And when they saw each other
again, it wasn't hunger that wrote them, it was a slow,
ripened desire. He touched her like he wrote.
(03:09):
She responded like a poem being read aloud.
She became wet from his voice alone, from how he looked at her
when she was vulnerable, from how he held her afterwards, as
if the orgasm was just the beginning.
They didn't just Make Love, theymade meaning.
(03:30):
And that's why eventually she nolonger knew where her skin ended
and his began. She began to see herself with
new eyes. It started in the mirror, not
with make up, but with her gaze.She looked at herself with
(03:50):
softness. She carried not just his memory,
but her own presence. Her work changed, her breath,
her boundaries. She said no without apology.
She met men's eyes not to invite, but to stand.
(04:11):
Sex had once been something she did.
Now it was something she carried.
She wasn't dependent on him, butthe way he had loved her, with
precision, words, attention had.It reminded her of something
sacred, that she deserved to be seen, not for what she gave, but
(04:37):
for who she was, where vulnerability was hiding.
One night, something cracked. He made a joke, something small,
about how she always took up so much space in the bed.
She laughed at first, that something inside recoiled, a
(05:01):
familiar echo, a part of her that had been called too much
before. Later, she whispered.
I've been held so many times, but not emotionally.
And when I dare, when it goes wrong, I want to crawl out of my
skin. I want to believe I can be all
(05:23):
of it, strong, horny, soft, sad,without being too much.
And he listened. You can be all of it, he said.
But I need to learn how to stay when it gets hard, and you need
to let me try without shutting down before I do.
(05:46):
And in that moment, they both understood vulnerability isn't
just what you offer, it's what you allow together.
The one who hid her soul, she carried her body like both
(06:07):
shield and invitation. She gave her body easily, but
her soul she kept guarded. Because someone who really sees
you can also really hurt you. So she gave just enough, let
them touch, let them want, but never let them in until him.
(06:32):
He didn't reach for her skin first.
He reached for which she had buried.
And that was the most forbidden thing of all.
I saw all of her, he said. Not just his shape, but the
fractures, the silence she grew up in, the tears.
She was never allowed to cry. She ran from that, maybe she
(06:54):
still is, but she remembers not the sex, not the climax, the
moment she was fully seen. And he stayed.
To Susanna, and to every woman who's learning that pleasure is
not a performance but a presence, You're not too much.
(07:18):
You're not too loud, too needy, too intense.
You are simply waiting to be met.
Not with hands that take, but with presence that stays.
Because the hardest thing is notto open.
It's to remain open when fear whispers this is too much.
(07:41):
It's to stay when every instincttells you to shut down, to
withdraw, to disappear, not to become avoidant, to not escape
into performance. Independence, Oregon.
Silence. So before.
(08:02):
We wrap up. I want to bring you back Rita
Kunsa. Who's a sexologist?
Relationship and intimacy coach and she's been listening very
closely to the story about Susanna.
Welcome back, Rita. Hello.
So what are your key takeaways? From the story about Susanna.
The key take away, when I listened to the story, what were
(08:25):
the 10 orgasms? You know, every story has this
one thing that's catchy about the specific story and it might
be another take away for somebody else listening to it.
But that's yeah, that it's possible.
I think Susanna was the woman who said, oh, I have a hard time
having an orgasm, right. And then with with this new
(08:47):
partner, she had 10 orgasms and probably was surprised herself
by this happening. Yeah, I think with her, I think
it was more about not seeing a way where she could normally
come during intercourse. Obviously when you touching
yourself or something like that,it was a different story opening
(09:09):
up and being present with a partner and talking in a way.
Which build? Trust, I think, was the key
thing for her. Yeah, I mean, now you're
bringing in the deeper level. So on a superficial level, sort
of the result was 10 orgasms. And when people go for sex
coaching, they come from the result, you know, they come from
(09:30):
the I want to reach this or that.
But then the deeper thing is in the story of Susanna, we heard
that she hadn't really opened upon a deeper level that she had.
What I've sort of heard between the lines is that she has had
sex before and maybe explored and probably even easily given
(09:53):
her her body away, but not her soul or, you know, a deeper,
more vulnerable part of herself.And so in this new relationship,
what happened was that she was felt, probably met and seen and
safe at a very deep level. And this is and again we are at
(10:15):
back to the body never lies. And This is why her body then
was suddenly capable of experiencing this deep
surrender. Very true.
I think the staying present and being in the moment and trusting
(10:36):
each other I think is a key component there that's.
Beautiful. So from a man's point of view,
what do you think a man can learn from this to become a
better partner? I was good.
I was about to give a mean answer somehow it's like, but
it's possible. Like and if if your partner
(11:00):
doesn't experience orgasms, if your female partner doesn't
experience orgasms, it's yes, some of it is her responsibility
and she can have us a learning curve.
But maybe it's also about you being able to learn something.
And so if in the past your partner has experienced orgasms
(11:25):
from intercourse or after being with you, she experiences it,
there might be things to look at.
And so it's not necessarily always about your skills.
Yeah, it could could also be anatomy working pretty well,
which is something that you cannot influence full stop.
But you can influence this. What does it need for you to be
(11:51):
calm and present and grounded and meeting your partner from
this point where it's not about being greedy or wanting to take
something, but really being withthe other person and tuning into
like listening through your bodyto the body of the other person.
(12:13):
And this is a skill. If everybody would develop it,
sex lives would be so much better all over the world.
But I think one thing here from you that I take away.
As well, it's not. It's not necessarily the
quantity of. Orgasms, that was.
The key. That was a result or an outcome
(12:35):
of it, but it's more about the quality, but also how you are
present and meeting each other and seeing each other.
And that actually results in in in the outcome.
But if you, I think a lot of guys in general can be very
focused on the climax point of either for themselves or maybe
for the women. But it's it's not necessarily
(12:55):
that that is the key thing, but it's sort of the journey there
where you stay in pressure moment.
Totally. I think the most again, I mean,
I, I feel like I keep repeating myself.
The most valuable thing that youcan gift yourself and your
partner is to be really there with what is happening.
(13:16):
And this is, this is going to beso satisfying for you and your
partner when both are present. And let me share with you from
the experience of a sex part that most people are not present
at all while having sex. Yeah, from what I know from the
(13:39):
Susana story as well as I think she.
She found it very easily to give.
Her body instead. Of actually her.
Emotions, her heart, right? And I think that's one of the
things that limited her. Yeah, and again, I feel like I
need to add it like is this, is this we're getting to this
point? So because you asked, what can I
(14:01):
take away from as a man? It's, I think that it's possible
for basic I again, I feel for most, for all women, it's
possible to experience incredible pleasure and
orgasmicness. And this is a take away.
And then also it's not your responsibility.
(14:21):
And yet it is. It's like both.
And that's. Where it is.
About how you beat meet each other, right?
I think that's the key thing there and how how you stay
present with each other. Yeah.
Beautiful. And then again, I mean, for
women, you sort of answer it right.
But are there are there any other things women can take with
(14:44):
them from the episode about Susana?
Well, as, as we said twice already, I think that a lot of
people give away their body and,but not their heart and not
their, yeah, heart or soul or however you want to call it,
like their deeper essence. And I, I know a lot of women
who've done it. I mean, we've listened to it and
(15:05):
other episodes as well. Like, OK, I give myself away for
the other, the other person's pleasure or a more superficial
official kind of pleasure for myself.
But then with the story of Susanna, to really take the
story as a North star, that it'spossible to experience other
(15:26):
much deeper level of feeling seen, feeling mad, trusting and
opening up your heart. And through opening up your
heart, also opening up your bodyand probably your pussy and your
aghastmicness on a deeper level.Great.
Thank you so much, Peter. Thank you, Henrik.
(15:55):
There is a part of us, in all ofus, that believes love will
vanish the moment we become fully visible.
So we hide, we give pieces, not the whole.
We touch, but we don't truly land.
But the real shift comes when wedare to stay, not just in the
(16:16):
soft moments, but in the trembling ones, but we resist
the urge to run and instead let ourselves be felt as we are,
unexplained, undiminished. To stay is an act of courage, to
let someone see the places we'vearmoured, the places we've
(16:39):
called too much. That is how intimacy is born,
not from perfection, but from presence that doesn't leave when
it gets hard. So stay, even when it's
uncomfortable, even when your old stories scream at you to
pull away. Stay with yourself, with your
(17:02):
body, with the one who dares to meet you there.
Because sometimes the moment we think we are too much is the
moment we're finally enough. In our next episode, we meet a
woman who never knew how to ask but what she needed until her
(17:23):
body began to break down. And how saying yes for the first
time became an act of survival. Welcome back to 34.
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