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Rachel Brady's video (00:01):
Conscious
but Grounded is a podcast about
spirituality, high vibe livingin the real world.
I ask questions like, how do weconnect to the magic?
The spirit, the source, theuniverse, but with our feet
firmly planted on the ground.
How do we show up in a consciousway and harness that to make
big, paradigm busting change inthe day to day of our lives?
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I'm Rachel Brady, mum of three,yoga teacher and embodiment
coach.
This is the place where I'll bereflecting and exploring big,
deep questions, all with a pinchof self deprecation, a few
proper lols, and a lot of reallife.
Join me.
Hi there.
Welcome back to Conscious, butGrounded.
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Gosh, I feel like I've been awayfor a little while.
Um, and well, I have been awayfor a little while because I was
so consistent to start with.
I've not put, um, any, any, uh,boundaries around when I'm gonna
record'cause that's not gonnawork for me right now saying,
you know, new weekly episodesand, or, or daily episodes or
anything like that.
I'm just recording as the energyflows.
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And as it happens, I always pickup to record when I'm in this
stage of my cycle, always.
There's no coincidence there.
However, I don't feel amazing.
I've got a bug.
I just cannot shake this bug.
The kids had it, and then I'vehad it.
It's like a tummy ache and asore throat.
I.
But, um, yeah, I'm back and I'min the car and it seems to be a
good time to record when I'm inthe car.
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I'm traveling to Sheffield,which is 30 minutes away from
where I live.
So it is like the perfect time.
Um, and I was thinking aboutwhat I want to talk about and
what I want to do and what thispodcast is, and also my sub
stack.
So if you like my, just toquickly say, if you like my, um,
podcast, then you'll probablylike my substack.
My substack is the yogahouseholder.
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So that's like aboutspirituality in life.
Very much the same as thisslightly different lens, but
very much the same.
It's just me sharing my ideas,my thoughts on things like
spirituality, being a mom,things like that.
Yoga, obviously through the lensof yoga.
And this is through the lens ofjust wider spirituality.
Um, so what, what, what I'vebeen going through recently.
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Is very much still this autism.
Um, yeah, my son's autismdiagnosis and my subsequent
processing of that.
And honestly, this sounds veryselfish, but like my, through my
own lens of neuro, uh,divergence, you know, I am a
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neurodivergent.
Woman, I have a DHD and throughme contemplating whether I am
also autistic.
Does it even matter?
Do want a diagnosis?
And what I've been and how thishas been showing up in the, in
the 3D world, in the practicalworld, which is what this
website is about, likebalancing, balancing all of the
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spiritual, all of the ether, allof those.
Things with, with, you know, dayto day life.
Um, how that's showing up is howdoes this affect me in my life?
How does, how can I create alife that I can actually manage?
How can I extend that into thebusiness?
Because my, my business has tobe completely part of my life.
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That's just who I am.
Like it has to roll from onething to the other.
I've always just, that's just,I.
Can't go out and do a businessright now that's completely
different to my life.
Um, I just don't have thebandwidth for that.
And I also believe, like mydharma, so in yoga we talk about
dharma, which, which for want ofa better description, kind of
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means life purpose.
It's not exactly that.
Um, but it's, you know, for thepurposes of this conversation,
it's the easiest way to describeit.
So it's like, um, your dorm, uh,the thing that you are here to
express.
Um, and.
I've talked about this before.
I think I recommended SaharaRose's book.
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Discover Your Dharma.
That's really good.
Um, and I've been kind ofobsessed with it, obsessed with
like, what am I here to do?
And I think it's because it canonly be something that fits
around my specific brain and howI show up in the world.
So the reason I think that myblog and my YouTube channel was
successful in its own small wayor successful, uh, is because I,
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it was just me living my lifeand like sharing that.
And I am a natural born sheer.
Like that's just who I am.
And, and, and it doesn't comewithout its problems like
privacy and impacting on otherpeople and impacting on myself,
um, and boundaries and thingslike that.
But also I have to just acceptthat that's just who I am as
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much as sometimes I go, yeah,I'm not in the mood to do that
today.
Nobody asks for it, obviously,but it's just, it's just what
comes through me authentically.
So I believe that your dharma isjust what comes through you
authentically what, um, yoursoul is here to express.
And so this whole autismquestion has got me thinking
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like, you know, for example,okay, so I finally settled on,
okay, it's yoga, it'sspirituality.
That's, that's where I'm at nowbecause I, I've been
transitioning from this kind offood mommy blogger through the
experiences of, of the healingprocess that I've been through,
um, which has been aboutdiscovering my authentic.
Itself, it's probably linked alot to perimenopause, it's links
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to the process of quittingalcohol.
Um, and, um, yeah, it's reallyhard to thread all this
together, but I hope I'm doingthat okay.
But I do keep wandering off andthinking, hang on, what am I
saying here?
What I, what I want to talkabout really is like the, my
Dharma and it's such a, a strongspiritual subject.
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Um, you know, what are we.
Here for, and what I've beencontemplating and why I've kind
of been away for a little whileand what's been going around in
my head is, what am I here for?
What do I want my life to looklike?
How can I contribute to societyin a way that doesn't make me
ill?
Um, and, and how can Iprioritize my family?
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So that's the household a bit.
So like what I was doing when Iwas sharing my recipes and my
um.
My recipes and my thoughts andthings like that on YouTube all
around family, and then it kindof spread a bit more into
wellbeing.
It started off with family foodand it kind of just ebb and
flowed with those subjects.
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What I was doing there was justkind of being a householder, a
householder in spiritual terms.
We've talked about this before,I think is, um, someone who's
living a spiritual path, who'swalking a yogic path, for
example.
It doesn't have to be yoga, but.
A spiritual path, but isn'tliving as a nun or a Hmong
court.
They can't devote their entirelife to it.
They have a job or they have afamily.
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You know, most people,basically, if you're on a
spiritual path and you're notdevoting 100% of your life to
it, you're a householderbasically.
Um, and I very much relate tothat term because also
household, if you said it now,what people would probably
assume it meant, it means,although it's not in, it's not
massively in modern, in, in useoutside of spiritual circles,
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I've noticed is a household, youwould think, oh, it's more of a
modern take on the wordhomemaker maybe.
And sometimes it's used that wayas well in spiritual circles.
But I very much relate.
It very much feels like a goodterm for me and where I'm at
because my first priority is an.
Has to be my family.
It has to be my home, my family.
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When I veer too much off intothe business, which because of
my Neurodiverse, neurodivergent,sorry, brain, I saw an amazing
post on Instagram, but the otherday I'll share it is what
happens is you go into thisobsessive hyperfocus, create
state and, and you create themost amazing stuff and you're
like on fire in your business.
Because you're so in a highfocused state.
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You or the thing, you drop theball, you drop the ball, you're
too exhausted to take your kidsto club or something.
Or you know, you forget they'vegotta play that day and they've
got to have this and that.
Uh, the quality of the mealsthat you're booking slips, you
know, you, the bedtime routinethat you were trying so hard
with, with your youngest slips,um, you start to become snappy
around them because you areputting all into your business.
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And so what Nigel Lawson, thatNigel Lawson.
Quote, I think it is, I dunno ifshe actually said it, but
apparently she said, you canonly ever do two things really
well.
So it can be your career andyour family, or it can be your
marriage and your family, or itcan be your marriage and your
career.
And so I really, that reallyresonates.
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Um, so it's not, it might not bethat you neglecting your kids,
you might be neglecting yourrelationship anyway.
I have to find some kind ofbalance.
And balance is hard when you'reneurodivergent.
It really is hard.
Um.
So if you like, even though I'mnot diagnosed, the kind of more
autistic style style of my braincraves routine and craves that
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kind of 6:00 AM daily sader, youknow, and then moving through to
like getting the kids ready.
And then I, like, I write theseroutines out about once a week
and I find it very hard becausethe A DHD side of my brain to
actually stick to them.
Um, and also my energy ebbs andflows, so I can't work in
routine.
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So what all.
All this is going towards islike, how do we find a dharma
that not just ticks the boxesintellectually.
Like we go through the process,we take the quiz, oh, we're a
visionary teacher.
Oh, we're this, we're that.
And, and, and what's alwaysapparent in these quizzes for,
for your discovery or dharmatype thing is like, what's your
life purpose?
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Quizzes is like, there's alwaysa theme there of like, what have
you been through that you canhelp other people with, right?
Um, so it's not just what areyou interested in?
It's like, what have you beenthrough?
And so my thing has always beenlike, okay, well it's like
healing other women, healingpeople.
And it's like, okay with what?
Uh, and so it's like, okay,neurodiversity or healing or
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alcohol or yoga.
So that's been part of it too.
Um, so where I've been goingwith all of this is like, how
does this new neurodivergentinformation or inclination
affect.
Me, well, I've been reading thebook, unmasking Autism by Devon
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Christ.
I'm repeating myself a lot here.
The last few episodes have beenabout this because I feel like I
can only make content about whatI'm going through right then at
that time.
Um, but really this book couldapply to anybody.
Like it's such an amazing book.
I highly recommend it.
To everybody, and it's aboutlike the process of just showing
up as your absolute realist,truest self, and having
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braveness to be your authenticself and put up boundaries and
speak your truth and removeyourself from toxic situations.
And don't, you know, don't livefor the people.
Um, don't feel like you've gotto fit in all these different
things.
And I realize I've been doingthat in my business.
I, as we all do, you know, we,we, we read a book or we see a
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technique.
Or a strategy that goes, this isthe way to run our yoga
business.
You have to show up and teach inperson X times a week.
You have to do this, you have todo that.
It's exhausting.
And I've known innately for sometime that I don't know if I can
show up in that way, but I stilladore yoga and it's been my,
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it's been the path that'sresonated and worked for me most
closely.
Like as with anything, it dropsoff.
Like my Asana practice hasdropped off quite a bit recently
'cause I've been feeling ill.
But I've been meditating twice aday.
Uh, I've only missed the twice aday thing.
Twice I think.
So I've been doing that 32 daysnow, twice a day.
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Uh, and only I've not missed aday, if that makes sense.
But I've missed two days where Ihaven't done it twice.
And I guess that's why it's agood thing that you do it twice,
because then you're like, well,I still meditated, but I didn't
do the double right.
So I'm doing all the stuff, butmy, my physical practice has
dropped off.
And it's like, I've beenlooking.
At doing more kind of work ormore leaning into more of the
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neurodiversity exploration.
So I looked at doing a master'sor a postgraduate diploma with
Sheffield Hall University.
I sat down and had a chat withthe guy that runs the course and
write and wrote the course.
And it really did soundfascinating and I'm thinking,
right, I could maybe do somework around creating a neuro
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affirming yoga space, but moreso, I mean, I have to
investigate everything I have.
That's just who I am.
I have to go, I have to have themeeting, I have to knock on the
door, I have to make theapplication, and then I decide
whether I want to do it or not.
I've done this several timeswith several things, all kind of
career related as well.
Um, and what, where I've come totoday is kind of full circle.
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So I've really enjoyed thisprocess even though it's been
hard because I've been like,hang on, do I.
Continue.
First of all, this yogabusiness.
Um, do I continue this, uh, yogabusiness in the way that I have
been running it?
That's the question one thatI've been thinking of.
And so I've been very muchrealizing that I want to make
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changes in my yoga business.
So I love teaching online.
Like I really, really love it.
And that's probably to do withmy neurodivergence.
I know it's not everybody's cupof tea, but I also know.
Even though it can feel like abit of a drudge and a bit of a
ugh, like lugging my back, back,uh, to the very small class that
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I'm teaching in person at theminute, that, that's important
too.
Um, but limiting the amount ofin-person classes that I do, uh,
reducing the in-person stuff,really building a life around
the fact that I want to spendmost time on my own, which I do.
That keeps me sane.
The school holidays is when thewheels always come off.
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And, you know, factoring in theother things that work really
well.
For example, I've been doingtarot readings.
I've not put them on my websiteas an offering yet because I'm
still kind of in practice mode.
I haven't certified yet.
Um, I've been doing them for myyoga audience, uh, my yoga
customers as a freebie becausethey booked on the seasonal day
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retreats.
So I'll share the link to thosebelow.
So if you book onto the seasonalday retreats, um, then you get a
free kind of tarot reading.
So I was gonna do them over.
Zoom and I realized I can'tchannel when I'm live over Zoom
with somebody.
I'm too in the moment with theperson because I'm focusing so
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much on being in, on being therewith that person.
I need to get into my own spacewith nobody else there.
Sage, C all of theaccoutrements, um, that aren't
the tools themselves.
They're just the accoutrementsthat help me get into that
space.
And I, I have to do the readingon my own.
And I realized that.
And, and I had to be brave andtell people that had booked on,
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listen, I know we've got a Zoomcall booked, but I'm actually
gonna do this over voice noteafter I've done the reading.
'cause I need to be on my ownfor the reading.
And also it takes away too muchof my opinion.
It it's very much delivering thereading and then leaving them to
digest it in their own time.
So that's a decision, forexample, that works very much
around my authentic self as aneuro divergent individual.
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But I also feel like this workapplies to.
Everybody.
So my coach, Karen, who I'm soexcited, we're recording next
week for the podcast.
It was supposed to be this week,uh, but I couldn't do it this
week.
And then, yeah, she's coming onnext week.
Her work is all about, and sheuses the lens of human design
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rather than the lens ofneurodiversity.
Same thing really.
I mean, it's not.
Same thing, but it's verysimilar.
So she has always, she's workedwith me for years and she can
see me and she knows, she'slike, she never tells me what to
do, but she, she knows.
So I'm a projector in humandesign, and the projector
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shares, whether you're like, I'ma projector and I'm all about
being a projector.
The traits of a projector arevery similar to the traits of an
autistic person or aneurodivergent person.
I would say likes being alone,very limited access to energy
apart from when they're in thehyperfocus, um, things like
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that.
And so she isn't aneurodivergent coach.
However, I feel like a lot ofspiritual practitioners and
healers are neurodivergent.
And this is an interest area ofmine that I did think about.
Well, I could study that atuniversity, you know, I could do
research on that at university,but what, how that kind of plays
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into what I'm talking about.
Today is like when, when you'redoing these discovery or Dharma
books and quizzes and thingslike that, there's a lot of,
they are all kind of cookiecutter approaches.
They're like, okay, so you are ateacher, a visionary.
And then I, I mean, I've paidthousands and I mean thousands
saying, do it this way, do itthat way.
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And they might work forneurotypical people or for like,
you know, generators,manifesting generators.
That type of profile in humandesign.
Um.
But I feel like you have tobuild a business around your
life.
So especially as householders,which everyone who's listening
to this is, I'm pretty sure,like, unless there's like a
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full-time, you know, nun or monkor mon listeners to this, um,
like we have to buildbusinesses.
If we are here to show up forour dharma in that life purpose,
soul, enriching, we are here todeliver our soul's true purpose
like.
And I realized that is aprivilege, by the way, we are
privileged when we're doingthat.
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But wouldn't it be marvelous andwonderful if everybody could do
that?
Uh, so I'm just noting that I,we are privileged, I am
privileged to be able to dothat.
I know so many of us, and Ithink I've mentioned it before
in an episode, like if you arewanting so much to live your
soul's true purpose, but thereality is right now you're
doing some hours in a shop oryou're doing some hours in a
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pub, then massive respect toyou.
Like what commitment is that?
Like, that's mind blowing to me.
Um, and you know, if I didn'thave a husband with a decent
job, if I didn't have kids atschool, I think I'd be doing the
same, um, because we have to payour bills.
And that's hard.
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Like a lot of this.
Spiritual work.
Yoga teaching's a great exampleof like poorly paid spiritual
work.
Geez, really badly paid, likeincredibly hard to make any
money whatsoever.
Uh, which is hence why peoplediversify.
Like you don't make money out ofteaching yoga.
You, you make money out of yogateacher trainings and retreats.
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That might be an interestingepisode.
Further down the line, but I, inmy business journey as a yoga
teacher at the minute, I'm verymuch just starting out.
Um, so you know, my first love,I would say I love teaching
yoga.
I see it as an extension of myown yoga experience and journey.
I feel like my.
First Dharma.
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My first purpose is this.
I feel like I'm a contentcreator, which is why I'm
constantly, always changing myyoga, my, uh, Instagram bio to
like creator, yoga teacher andexplorer and creator, because I
don't, I'm still figuring itout.
Like, I don't know.
I don't really know if I'm acoach.
I don't know.
I think I'm a pretty good yogateacher, but I don't think that
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being our yoga teacher is myfull dharmic expression.
I feel like I love being on myown.
I love, you know, what I'vegotten into recently is
gardening.
So I know that when I'm in thisstate of like, oh, there's
something happening.
There's an upgrading happening,or a shift happening, or a pivot
happening or something, it'slike, hold steady, hold steady,
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and what I've.
Tried to do is instead of, youknow, I've explored a few
things, but is like, really getoutside, get in the garden.
I've been teaching my Gods Codesmini masterclass, which will be
available soon as a, just aprerecorded seven part podcast.
I've been doing like the liveweekly version, um, and really
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working through the chakrasthinking what do I need, what do
I need in the chakra in thisarea?
And, um, part of the root chakrawork.
It is like, get outside, getyour hands in the earth.
And so I uprooted a veg bed.
Uh, one of the veg beds wascovered in like, brambles, and
it was like really heavy, hardwork, but it was really good for
my mind to just be like, get myhands in the dirt, you know?
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Um, and what I'm gonna do thereis grow some cut flowers.
So I've, I've signed up forsomething called The Flower
Club.
The flower project, I think itis.
Uh, and I need.
More things in my life thataren't about my business, that
aren't about my family.
They're just about pleasure.
They're just about enjoyment.
Uh, so I'm digressing again, butthat is part of your dharma is
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like have a healthy relationshipwith it.
Like your life purpose reallyall relies on you being well,
and, and a way to do well is todo things that you enjoy just
for the creativity of it and thebeauty of it.
And I mean, I've really beenloving Meghan Markle new show
and like I will not hear a badword against her that I'm gonna
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do an episode on about how muchI hate women hating on women
anyway.
But um.
It really, really gave memassive, massive pleasure to
watch that show and reminded meabout my absolute love of
homemaking and how that willnever go.
And so I'm hoping to bring moreof that stuff to the yoga
householder, especially throughthe new interest in like growing
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cut flowers and things likethat.
You know, I still love cooking.
I love being a householder.
I really do, and it's aprivilege to be able to do it.
And so that's part of my dharma.
It really is like, that is partof my dharma.
And part of my dharma is I guessit's like finding people who are
like me, who love like growingflowers and cooking food, but
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who are spiritual and want toleave a legacy in the world.
So the reason I was exploringthe autism, uh, masters and the
autism postgraduate diploma,well worth checking that out by
the way, at Sheffield, HarlemUniverse.
The do a distance learning oneand in person, um.
What I was thinking is, oh, thisis like a super grounded way to
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like bring in my own experienceand then land it and match it
with my yoga.
And so I thought this is a goodsubject for, um, for the
podcast.
Uh, because it's like, and, andI still might do that by the
way.
Like I think I would love tolearn more about how to create a
neuro affirming yoga space andthen have a specific yoga group,
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um, or practice or gathering orcollective of something, uh, for
that like yoga to help with, um,you know, to help and also to
create spaces that are justeasier for neurodiverse people.
People to be in because this is,this is the other thing I've
been wrestling with.
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So I've been looking into Avedafor ages.
Like should I study Aveda?
Aveda is a sub sister science toyoga.
It's all about food andlifestyle.
It was, it's the oldest medicinepractice in um.
A lot of western medicine waslike based around it, like years
ago.
Um, but here's the thing thatput me off it, and I still
haven't got a clear answer onthis yet, and it's whether or
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not I, a Vida seesneurodiversity as something to
be cured and I was reading andreading online trying to find
information.
And until I find thatinformation, I don't think I can
move forward with learning inthat area.
Because I feel very stronglythat, um, I believe it's called
like the social model ofdisability, that neurodiversity
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is here, uh, as a diverse brain,not a wrong brain, not something
that needs to be cured.
Like I think we're shifting thisperspective now, uh, from, you
know, these aren't disorders.
However, they are differencesand we are disabled in a world
that's made for neuro.
Typical people, but there's anuance there, which is, uh, the
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social model versus the medicalmodel of disability.
Anyway, yet another digression,but it's all related, right?
So I see that like there's, youknow, I found one person that
talks about neuro affirming yogaspaces and I was like, wow,
there's an opportunity here.
How conscious, but grounded isthat Like, that's like there's a
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spiritual.
Reasoning here.
There's a spiritual reason forthis, but it's also super
grounded.
And I said to the guy, like theguy who the course leader, I was
like, I want to like put mylearnings to use in some way.
And I get, you know, when peoplesay, what's your legacy?
It's mainly something that mensay to be honest.
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Like, what's your legacy?
What do you want to leave in theworld?
Like what?
What's your legacy that.
That, you know, what's the endgame here?
And I'm like, I try to flow abit more nowadays and not think
so much in that male mindsetway.
Um, like follow the breadcrumbsand create from the heart.
And that's, you know, what,what's good will come or what's
needed will come.
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Um, and yeah, so I guess, butthinking about that, like, I
would like to use my skills in away that serves people.
And I know it serves people tocome to a yoga class.
I know it serves people to comeon a retreat.
I know that.
I know that, I know that.
But I also would love a morekind of physical, tangible,
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whether it's a book, whetherit's a, and I feel like it's
gotta come from my ownexperience.
And so far, the biggest story.
That I have to tell one that'slasted my whole lifetime is my
story of undiagnosed neurodivert.
City or neurodivergence.
I get those wrong all the timeand I feel like, obviously I'm
not alone in that like this.
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I speak to so many women and myunique lens is the spiritual
lens.
And so yeah, I guess I'mapproaching where I need to go
to, uh, which is thehairdressers.
Hooray, who doesn't love goingto hairdressers.
Um, a little bit of socializingtime, but not too much.
Um, yeah, so I, I guess what Ithink I'll call this episode is,
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um.
Something to do with dharma,like what's your dharma?
Like, how do we, um.
You know, how do we engage withour dharma and explore our
dharma in a way that trulyserves us with the knowledge?
Now that neurodiversity ain'tthat diverse.
It ain't that rare.
It's diverse, but it ain't thatrare, right?
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Like I think we're realizing.
Oh, like a shit load of boys areactually neurodiverse.
And I think there's a gap therethat when we, when we do these
career quizzes and we do theselike spiritual dharma quizzes,
like we're not taking that intoaccount.
And so whether you look at itthrough the lens of human design
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or neurodiversity, how can webuild lives and careers?
Honoring our unique householderstatus and also that are going
to energize us and not drain us.
And so I feel like that's a goodplace to leave it.
Thank you for listening.
I need to share this podcastmore.
I starred and.
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To Grand Page, by the way, atConscious Book, grand podcast.
And I literally just like poppeda few clips on there.
It looks dreadful.
It's really dark.
I need to change the covers.
I need to make it look nicer.
I need to be braver aboutsharing this podcast.
And I think it's because I'vegot a belief somehow down there
in my dark shadows that, thatit's rubbish and that I, and you
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know, so please, like, if you'reenjoying this and you've
listened to this, please doleave a review.
Like just.
Let me know that like, this isactually resonating with
someone.
Um, because what I would say tosomebody if they said, that's
me, is like, just keep doing it.
Just keep doing it.
Like it's not gonna be amazingfrom the first go.
And if anything I say to people,just listen to the ones with the
interviews.
They're really good.
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So follow the new podcast,Instagram at Conscious Book
Grounded podcast.
Go follow my substack at, uh.
substack.com/rachel Radio Yoga.
And on there it's called theYoga Household.
I'll leave a link below.
Um, alright guys, wish me a lookat the hairdressers.
Okay, see you later.
Bye.