June 3, 2025 • 21 mins
In this episode I talk about what your life is showing you that is not working? What do you need to let go of, what stays? The evidence is staring you in the face! Accept it!
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Rachel Brady's video (00:00):
Conscious but Grounded is a podcast about
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spirituality, high vibe livingin the real world.
I ask questions like, how do weconnect to the magic?
The spirit, the source, theuniverse, but with our feet
firmly planted on the ground.
How do we show up in a consciousway and harness that to make
big, paradigm busting change inthe day to day of our lives?
(00:22):
I'm Rachel Brady, mum of three,yoga teacher and embodiment
coach.
This is the place where I'll bereflecting and exploring big,
deep questions, all with a pinchof self deprecation, a few
proper lols, and a lot of reallife.
Join me.
Hi, welcome back to ConsciousBook Grounded.
This is my podcast.
I'm Rachel Brady, and I'm a momof three, and this is my podcast
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all about, oh, spirituality inthe real world.
Being a householder in thespiritual sense.
Oh, and actually in the realworld sense.
You know, I'm a homemaker firstand foremost.
I'm a stay at home mom, but I'vealways been doing this.
Kind of bit on the side stuffand it's, um, content creation
and it's really morphed intomuch more of like a spiritual
(01:07):
holistic wellbeing angle.
And you know, it, my podcast iscalled Conscious but Grounded.
And that really represents to methe fact that, yeah, we can be
conscious, we can be spiritual,we can be.
Awakened or looking for that,you know, we can be searchers
and seekers, but we've stillgotta have our feet on the
ground.
And if we don't, then life willforce us to anyway.
(01:29):
And that's kind of what I wantedto talk about today.
So, oh, I've been through somestuff recently and I am really
at a point where I'm pausing,going inward with my coach,
Karen Jackson, who I have tohave on here soon, because
we've.
Had to rearrange it a couple oftimes.
(01:49):
I think they're both my fault.
Again, that's another sign ofwhat I'm about to talk about.
Um, and she's helping me verymuch, um, move forward and
create a business that I canactually show up for.
And, and so, you know, I, I havea substack called the Yoga
Householder.
Please go and check it out.
I'm, I'm starting to share a lotmore homey stuff on there.
(02:13):
I posted.
To the recipe the other day.
I'm gonna go on later and post arecipe.
Uh, but also it's always throughthe eyes.
It's always through the lens ofa householder.
It's always through the lens ofyoga.
I recently did a post, it's beenquite popular actually, um,
about my sober journey andthrough the eyes of the Yoga
Sutras, and hopefully I'm, I'm,I'm writing in such a way that
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you can understand these thingstoo.
Don't worry about rememberingthe Sanskrit words.
You don't have to do that.
I just, I have to do that.
But you don't have to do that.
So hopefully I've landed thoseideas in a way that everyone can
understand.
So like I say, I am a mom ofthree.
This might be the first timeyou've listened to me or come
across me.
So I have two teenagers and a6-year-old.
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And I live in the Pete district.
I was in digital marketing foryears and then I became a mum,
and I became a mum blogger justby accident.
I just started blogging one dayabout family food, uh, and, and
really enjoyed it and it grew.
And God, that's a really goodexample of like, yeah, just
follow your heart and then yourdharma will come.
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And that has been my dharma fora long time.
It became a YouTube channel andwithout any straining or effort
from me.
Just literally, I just.
Really ebbed and flowed, whichisn't recommended.
And I have to say, the periodswhen I was consistent, I sh, you
know, exponentially grew.
Um, however, I, I moved awayfrom that because of my own, you
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know, I've talked about it onthis podcast because of my own
challenges.
I had depression episodes, andthen I also had, was diagnosed
with A DHD and my, my focusbecame healing and it became,
you know, I embodied it to sucha degree.
I wanted to share.
It with the world.
And in a way that's probablypart of my problem is I have
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this thing where I'm like, oh myGod, I love this so much.
Like, this is my thing.
Like this is what I'm gonna dofor a living.
I can do that about everything.
Right?
So like I'm on my way to a yogastudio and I, I had a meeting
arranged to franchise this yogastudio as a business.
And then I, I have to do, I haveto go and try the thing on and
then realize, oh, maybe it's notfor me.
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Um, and the reason I canceledthat meeting and the reason I
was like.
Yeah, I don't actually thinkthis is for me is because of
what I'm about to talk aboutbecause it's not realistic for
the stage I'm at now.
Um, it's, you know, I feel I'mmaking some pivots in my
business.
Everyone's like, what again?
But like, actually I can't dothis any other way.
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This business is me.
And I know it's frustrating forpeople, but I was really pushing
and grinding these, you know,weekly, twice weekly yoga
classes.
For a very small audience.
I know, I know that that is thereality of what you've got to do
to make the classes grow.
And every yoga teacher I'vespoken to has that experience.
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There's nothing unusual there.
Fine.
Um, but what was happening is,was it was just becoming
apparent that this wasn't aviable thing for me.
Not just financially, becausethat's not what this is about at
this stage.
Uh, it's about me finding.
My expression of my dharma rightnow, um, in its newest form.
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And I feel like this pivot I'vedone is really a lot closer to
what I am actually meant to besharing with you guys, which is
holistic, spiritual self-care.
Oh, excuse me, hang on,sneezing.
Ooh.
A little movement of energythere.
Uh, holistic self-care and also,you know, holistic self-care and
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homemaking.
That's what I've always beenabout.
The holistic side has been myexpertise.
I focus on the last five yearsI've gained a lot of expertise.
Things like the essential oils,things like running a home in a
holistic way, and also adding inthose things like yo practices,
uh, and also, you know, just,just creating content around how
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hard it is to be.
Someone who's conscious, who'sawakened, who's spiritual and
living a holistic life, but alsotrying to balance that with
their own sanity.
Um, because as women, there's alot put on us, right?
Um, so yeah, what happened was,I actually shared about it in
the alcohol Yo post.
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What happened?
A recent attempt?
Well, I did, I taught year inonline.
It was fine, it was great.
Uh, but I was constantly beinginterrupted by my 6-year-old.
So much so that.
It really stressed me out and Iended up having a cigarette and
a glass of wine after the inclass, which is actually quite
funny.
Um, but I'm fine.
It's all good.
I'm totally fine.
Um, I write more about my soberjourney and realizations about
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that on that blog post.
If you wanna have a look at it,it's on my, uh, yoga's, on my
substack work, which is atRachel Brady yoga.substack.com.
And my actual substacknewsletter is called The Yoga
Householder.
It's like a blog and you get itby, you get the post by email.
Um.
And it was just like, you know,I talked it through in my, I, I
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had a really, really dark nightof the soul the night before,
the dark night of the soul.
My little one had a huge, very,I mean, I'm not gonna mince my
words, it was a violentmeltdown.
Uh, and he's always been mymirror.
He is my mirror, right?
Like the kid that's the hardestwork is always the one that's
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gonna heal you the most.
If you lean into it and it'sgonna, that kid's gonna bring up
your.
Shadows and that kid's gonnabring up your shit and you are
gonna wanna chuck that kidsometimes in the bin.
But also it's the kid that youkind of just melt with as well.
I mean, you melt with all yourkids and you want to chuck them
all in the bin at some point.
But, um, yeah, he had a meltdownevery, something so small and it
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made me realize like, God, I'mso exhausted from just this
drive and pushing to create thisyoga business.
Um, that I'm forcing to takeshape and that looks a certain
way.
Um, and it's making me so tiredthat I have no capacity to deal
with his fluctuations in moodand emotional dysregulation that
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come with being neurodivergent.
And I'm also neurodivergentmyself.
Um, and I'm, I've talked aboutthat many times on here.
I do, I am diagnosed A-D-H-D-O,but I also believe I have, um, I
also believe that I.
I have a level of autism inthere as well and I saw a post
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on Instagram yesterday talkingabout A DHD dominant or DHD, uh,
where both are the present, butit's a DHD dominant and how hard
that is to diagnose and how hardit is for the person with it,
uh, because they're constantlysecond guessing themselves.
Or how can I be autistic whenI'm this, this, and this.
That's me.
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Like I literally dropped thewhole autism question mark thing
for a while'cause it was drivingme.
Insane.
And then I keep seeing poststhat I'm like, geez, I really,
really, really identify withthis.
And this constant cognitivedissonance, this constant
confusion, this constant, I knowI need to do this and I want to
do this, and today I feel like Ican do this.
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And then not being able tofollow through because of the
levels of exhaustion and justhow much I have on my plate
with, um, you know, two of mythree kids are neurodivergent.
Um.
They show up very differently.
I'm neuro divergent two, so lifeis extra hard.
Um, you know, I have aneurotypical child and believe
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you, me, raising her is a loteasier, um, because she's very
self-sufficient and, uh, sportyand does all the extra
activities and things.
And I look at other people withkids who are all like that and
I'm like, it is easier.
It, it is easier.
So, you know, for parents ofneuro kids who are also new.
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Selves, I see you.
This is hard.
And also it is like the yogahouseholder thing of like, we've
got to put, if you are a truehousehold, it's like you live
your spirituality through thetasks of your life.
It doesn't mean that you're a ahomemaker.
Everybody thinks that.
And I'm constantly clarifyingthat's not the case.
However, I play on that as mytitle'cause I am mainly a ho a
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homemaker.
Uh, and everyone also talksabout the householder stage.
You know?
Yes, it's a stage, but.
I mean, aren't we all in thatstage?
I mean, how many of us willevolve that stage into being an
actual nun or a priest orwhatever, which is the person
who's on a spiritual path, whoisn't a householder, in case you
didn't know.
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Um, so all of this stuff isconverging to a point, right?
It's all like, you know, mycoach said to me after this dark
night of the soul, I didn't dealvery well with this meltdown.
I said, look, I'm not in a placewhere I can even run this
business right now.
Like I'm, I don't even.
Know if I can teach online yoga,it's, it's really, really hard
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to get my shit together.
My back went into spasm the dayafter this meltdown had happened
because it caused such anemotional reaction in me.
Um, I couldn't teach that day'cause my back went in spasm.
But not only that, my son endedup being off school because he
was so, when he's had a meltdownlike that and we've had a come
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to Jesus kind of moment, it's.
A lot and like, and then I cantell he needs me the next day
and I need him to be honest,even though I also needed a day
off.
And so I had to cancel my classagain.
And I, I'm, I'm thereforebecoming so inconsistent and
unreliable.
This has been a massive theme inmy life.
I'm very inconsistent andunreliable, flaky, for want of a
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better word.
And then I have a shame spiralabout the flakiness.
But also I'm dealing with thingslike borderline, you know,
chronic fatigue that I'm lookinginto at the.
Minute, um, that I'm trying tomanage, um, with Iur vda and
with Healthy Living and Sobrietyand just being okay with
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resting.
You know, I've got a lot on myplate when I run and I've got
this brain tumor thing, which isbenign, but it does have an
effect on me.
It causes these migraines or Iliterally can't do anything.
Um, I've got, when I reflectthis to a doctor and just kind
of give them, give them a quickrun down, they're like, yeah,
you've really got a lot on yourplate.
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And it always makes me cry'causeI'm like, yeah, thank you.
I have like, but I'll, I willinternally tell myself, you
haven't, you haven't got a loton your plate.
Get your shit together, you knowthat in a critic.
Um, and so eventually, anyway, Ifed this back to my coach and
she was like, you are just notat a place right now where you
can show up consistently toteach yoga and.
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You know, just take a step back,use this container that I'm in
with her to really go in andreally tend to myself.
And she was like, stop blendingall of your kind of personal,
normal householder problemsright now with your business.
Because she was like, you know,yoga teachers have issues in the
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family.
Everyone has issues in thefamily.
They're all normal.
It doesn't mean you're a failureas a human being, you know?
Uh, and I was like, I feel likea fraud because I'm like.
I didn't deal with the tantrumvery well.
I didn't stay calm.
I was supposed to be teachingyoga, you know, and it's like we
had a really good chat about itand it, it's been invaluable and
I've taken this time and sheasked me all the right questions
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and I journaled on them and it'slike, all of this is spiritual,
right?
All of this is yoga.
My main thing that I'mpassionate about with yoga is,
you know, if I could just tellpeople one thing about yoga,
it's like, it's not just thetwisty poses and the Asana
practice, you know, I.
It time and time again in here,it's the yamas and the armors.
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It's the eight limbs, it'smeditation, it's breath work,
but it's all about therealization that we are not just
this body and this lash like weare more than that.
Um, and that's what I want tokind of help teach people, and I
can do that through my content.
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Don't get me wrong, I love Asanaand I want it to be part of what
I teach.
Um.
And that is gonna lookdifferent, but also it's gonna
be probably better for somepeople.
You know, someone came to a yogaclass last week and was like, I
can't do next week.
I can't do this time, I can't dothat time.
And so what I'm gonna do goingforward is put together an
on-demand schedule.
So if you like me and what Italk about and you try a yoga
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class and you like it, you cansign up.
And I'll probably have like anon demand practice that I send
once a month, a new one for avery small amount of money, uh,
with some other practices inthere as well.
So that you can start toactually live your yoga off the
map, which is my ultimate goal,uh, for myself and for anyone
that's interested in my work.
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Um, and so also blending thatwith the holistic homemaking
stuff, which to me is yoga.
You know, talk about a himsa nonharming the first Yama.
Well, let's detox our homes.
Let's detox our bodies.
Let's, let's not keep usingproducts and, you know, that are
causing us harm.
This is one of the things I'mpassionate about.
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So just.
Lending all those interested ofmine is, is the way I'm gonna go
with it now, which is stillRachel Brady Yoga.
Like nothing much really haschanged.
Uh, I just won't be teachinglive asset and practice at this
time.
I will still do my, uh, sacredSundays, my retreats.
The next one is on the 8th ofJune, and we're actually, if
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people want to, and if peoplesign up for this part of it, uh,
with, there's the offer of goingon a hike afterwards for anyone
who's interested.
So the 8th of June, that's inthe P district.
And then also.
I'm gonna keep doing my seasonalday retreats.
And the reason I can do those isbecause they're left.
They're not twice a week.
Uh, I create space around themso that I'm calm when I go.
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And so that maybe, you know, youknow, I create little thing
boundaries around myself so thatI'm in the right head space when
I go.
My husband is there to take thekids and so on and so on.
So it's much more doable justhaving a sip of coffee there.
Um, and that's what I wanted toshare about today.
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So realizing that, you know,taking the evidence before me,
the evidence is I cannot copewith the live classes right now.
So I wonder if reflecting itback to you, you know, what's
the evidence showing you rightnow about your life that you
need to change, that you need topivot?
How can you lean into yourhouseholder duties, whether
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that's your career, that's ahouseholder duty, by the way.
It's not always about the house.
You know, your kids, yourrelationship.
How can you be more.
Devoted to those things and seethose things as meaningful and
worthwhile because they are someaningful and worthwhile.
Uh, your contribution to yourfamily, um, and all of those
things.
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Thinking about how you can liveyour yoga off the mat.
Thinking about how you can be abetter person every day in
different ways in being cleaner,spiritually cleaner, you know,
in the home.
Yesterday I felt a deep need tocleanse all of my kitchen
cupboards.
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Sorry, I only really need todrink this coffee before I get
to my yoga class.
And, um.
It was amazing and I did it andI got my new, I got a doTERRA
order with some on guardcleaning concentrate and some
new oils.
And I used wild art andpeppermint in my simple cleaning
spray that I make, that I usefor every single thing.
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And I unpacked all of my kitchencupboards and got rid of all the
crap.
Well, there wasn't much therethat was crap.
You know, just like all themanky things that had kind of
gone a bit funny.
I was like, right, get rid ofthat.
Uh, and like cleaned it all outand.
Do you know what energeticallyit feels incredible.
Like you walk into the kitchen,it's just like, wow.
And I've not even finished.
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I've still got to do the drawersand the big shelf, so I'm not
even finished.
Um, but I spent about threehours doing it and it felt like,
wow.
It felt like cleansed, like Ifelt deeply cleansed.
And when I emptied a cupboard,cleaned it all out with this
gorgeous spray and everything,smells like my daughter's friend
was over.
And she was like, wow,everything smells so amazing.
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And I was like, I know, right?
I've just like cleaned, cleansedthe kitchen.
Um, and I cleansed it all out.
And also, as I'm cleansing withthis, with this homemade
product, this cl this cleaningspray with the added extra
essential oil.
You know that those essentialoils are going into my system.
So instead of not, not, it's notjust doing harm.
It's not just not doing harm,it's doing good.
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It's relaxing me.
I listened to a beautifulpodcast while I was doing it,
and then, do you know what I didafter that?
I took a nap and it was reallynecessary.
And this is self-care.
This is holistic self-care.
Claiming is an act of self care.
I've written a blog post aboutthat before.
And you know what as well?
When you take all the stuff outof your cupboards, you might
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only get rid of one jar.
You put a.
All back and there's a thirdmore space and you're like, wow.
Literally by taking them out,wiping it down and putting them
back in the correct kind ofzones, like this zone is for
like things that you have ontoast or this zones, oils and
vinegars, and I'm not evenputting them in little trays or
boxes or anything.
I'm like, how is that created somuch more space?
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And it's because we're not justlobbying things in the cupboard,
right?
Things are actually stood up,right?
Things are actually pushed intoa corner or in these little sos
and I just thought I.
I'm creating space in my bodyand my mind and my soul by
cleaning and de and cleansingand decluttering, and this is
something I'm not naturally verygood at.
I I want to be, and it deeplyfeeds my soul.
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I need to work on it.
And this is the ADHD slashautism kind of counterbalancing
each other all the time andfighting with each other all the
time.
Um, and it really helps to healmy soul to do that, and that's
an important act of self-care.
So I'm gonna go guys, because Ineed to rush and I'm gonna, I
don't even think I'm gonna makethis yoga class, to be honest,
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so I might end up sitting in acafe and working, which is fine.
Um, I love you so much.
I'm so, I'm so kind of tornabout this podcast.
I love doing it.
Um, but I'm, again, I'm not,I've not got round to sharing it
properly yet.
So please do.
If you do listen to thispodcast, let me know.
Please let me know, is itresonating?
Please ask me like, what do youthink about this?
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Or could you record on that?
I'm going to be sharing a lotmore about essential oils.
I'm finally gonna get round tofinishing my aromatherapy
course.
I'm gonna be talking more aboutthe oils.
In fact, I might actually do aseparate podcast.
Just about oils, individualoils, every episode and
individual individual oil.
I'm also gonna be creating a 10part oils program that's gonna
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be really, really, really good,and I'm so excited about it, and
you will be able to get that forfree.
When you buy an oils kit off me,a specific oils kit.
So let me know if that's, uh,piqued your interest and I will
send you information on that assoon as it's ready.
I love you so much.
Have an amazing day.
I am not gonna make this yogaclass.
Oh god, I give up.
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It was for 7:30 AM It says I'mgonna get to the car park at 7
29.
Like I cannot get from the carpark to the studio in like 30
seconds.
The door shuts at seven 30, soAlright guys, I'll leave it
there.
I love you so much.
Bye.
Conscious but Grounded is a podcast about
(00:02):
spirituality, high vibe livingin the real world.
I ask questions like, how do weconnect to the magic?
The spirit, the source, theuniverse, but with our feet
firmly planted on the ground.
How do we show up in a consciousway and harness that to make
big, paradigm busting change inthe day to day of our lives?
(00:22):
I'm Rachel Brady, mum of three,yoga teacher and embodiment
coach.
This is the place where I'll bereflecting and exploring big,
deep questions, all with a pinchof self deprecation, a few
proper lols, and a lot of reallife.
Join me.
Hi, welcome back to ConsciousBook Grounded.
This is my podcast.
I'm Rachel Brady, and I'm a momof three, and this is my podcast
(00:45):
all about, oh, spirituality inthe real world.
Being a householder in thespiritual sense.
Oh, and actually in the realworld sense.
You know, I'm a homemaker firstand foremost.
I'm a stay at home mom, but I'vealways been doing this.
Kind of bit on the side stuffand it's, um, content creation
and it's really morphed intomuch more of like a spiritual
(01:07):
holistic wellbeing angle.
And you know, it, my podcast iscalled Conscious but Grounded.
And that really represents to methe fact that, yeah, we can be
conscious, we can be spiritual,we can be.
Awakened or looking for that,you know, we can be searchers
and seekers, but we've stillgotta have our feet on the
ground.
And if we don't, then life willforce us to anyway.
(01:29):
And that's kind of what I wantedto talk about today.
So, oh, I've been through somestuff recently and I am really
at a point where I'm pausing,going inward with my coach,
Karen Jackson, who I have tohave on here soon, because
we've.
Had to rearrange it a couple oftimes.
(01:49):
I think they're both my fault.
Again, that's another sign ofwhat I'm about to talk about.
Um, and she's helping me verymuch, um, move forward and
create a business that I canactually show up for.
And, and so, you know, I, I havea substack called the Yoga
Householder.
Please go and check it out.
I'm, I'm starting to share a lotmore homey stuff on there.
(02:13):
I posted.
To the recipe the other day.
I'm gonna go on later and post arecipe.
Uh, but also it's always throughthe eyes.
It's always through the lens ofa householder.
It's always through the lens ofyoga.
I recently did a post, it's beenquite popular actually, um,
about my sober journey andthrough the eyes of the Yoga
Sutras, and hopefully I'm, I'm,I'm writing in such a way that
(02:36):
you can understand these thingstoo.
Don't worry about rememberingthe Sanskrit words.
You don't have to do that.
I just, I have to do that.
But you don't have to do that.
So hopefully I've landed thoseideas in a way that everyone can
understand.
So like I say, I am a mom ofthree.
This might be the first timeyou've listened to me or come
across me.
So I have two teenagers and a6-year-old.
(02:58):
And I live in the Pete district.
I was in digital marketing foryears and then I became a mum,
and I became a mum blogger justby accident.
I just started blogging one dayabout family food, uh, and, and
really enjoyed it and it grew.
And God, that's a really goodexample of like, yeah, just
follow your heart and then yourdharma will come.
(03:19):
And that has been my dharma fora long time.
It became a YouTube channel andwithout any straining or effort
from me.
Just literally, I just.
Really ebbed and flowed, whichisn't recommended.
And I have to say, the periodswhen I was consistent, I sh, you
know, exponentially grew.
Um, however, I, I moved awayfrom that because of my own, you
(03:41):
know, I've talked about it onthis podcast because of my own
challenges.
I had depression episodes, andthen I also had, was diagnosed
with A DHD and my, my focusbecame healing and it became,
you know, I embodied it to sucha degree.
I wanted to share.
It with the world.
And in a way that's probablypart of my problem is I have
(04:03):
this thing where I'm like, oh myGod, I love this so much.
Like, this is my thing.
Like this is what I'm gonna dofor a living.
I can do that about everything.
Right?
So like I'm on my way to a yogastudio and I, I had a meeting
arranged to franchise this yogastudio as a business.
And then I, I have to do, I haveto go and try the thing on and
then realize, oh, maybe it's notfor me.
(04:25):
Um, and the reason I canceledthat meeting and the reason I
was like.
Yeah, I don't actually thinkthis is for me is because of
what I'm about to talk aboutbecause it's not realistic for
the stage I'm at now.
Um, it's, you know, I feel I'mmaking some pivots in my
business.
Everyone's like, what again?
But like, actually I can't dothis any other way.
(04:48):
This business is me.
And I know it's frustrating forpeople, but I was really pushing
and grinding these, you know,weekly, twice weekly yoga
classes.
For a very small audience.
I know, I know that that is thereality of what you've got to do
to make the classes grow.
And every yoga teacher I'vespoken to has that experience.
(05:09):
There's nothing unusual there.
Fine.
Um, but what was happening is,was it was just becoming
apparent that this wasn't aviable thing for me.
Not just financially, becausethat's not what this is about at
this stage.
Uh, it's about me finding.
My expression of my dharma rightnow, um, in its newest form.
(05:31):
And I feel like this pivot I'vedone is really a lot closer to
what I am actually meant to besharing with you guys, which is
holistic, spiritual self-care.
Oh, excuse me, hang on,sneezing.
Ooh.
A little movement of energythere.
Uh, holistic self-care and also,you know, holistic self-care and
(05:52):
homemaking.
That's what I've always beenabout.
The holistic side has been myexpertise.
I focus on the last five yearsI've gained a lot of expertise.
Things like the essential oils,things like running a home in a
holistic way, and also adding inthose things like yo practices,
uh, and also, you know, just,just creating content around how
(06:14):
hard it is to be.
Someone who's conscious, who'sawakened, who's spiritual and
living a holistic life, but alsotrying to balance that with
their own sanity.
Um, because as women, there's alot put on us, right?
Um, so yeah, what happened was,I actually shared about it in
the alcohol Yo post.
(06:35):
What happened?
A recent attempt?
Well, I did, I taught year inonline.
It was fine, it was great.
Uh, but I was constantly beinginterrupted by my 6-year-old.
So much so that.
It really stressed me out and Iended up having a cigarette and
a glass of wine after the inclass, which is actually quite
funny.
Um, but I'm fine.
It's all good.
I'm totally fine.
Um, I write more about my soberjourney and realizations about
(06:58):
that on that blog post.
If you wanna have a look at it,it's on my, uh, yoga's, on my
substack work, which is atRachel Brady yoga.substack.com.
And my actual substacknewsletter is called The Yoga
Householder.
It's like a blog and you get itby, you get the post by email.
Um.
And it was just like, you know,I talked it through in my, I, I
(07:20):
had a really, really dark nightof the soul the night before,
the dark night of the soul.
My little one had a huge, very,I mean, I'm not gonna mince my
words, it was a violentmeltdown.
Uh, and he's always been mymirror.
He is my mirror, right?
Like the kid that's the hardestwork is always the one that's
(07:40):
gonna heal you the most.
If you lean into it and it'sgonna, that kid's gonna bring up
your.
Shadows and that kid's gonnabring up your shit and you are
gonna wanna chuck that kidsometimes in the bin.
But also it's the kid that youkind of just melt with as well.
I mean, you melt with all yourkids and you want to chuck them
all in the bin at some point.
But, um, yeah, he had a meltdownevery, something so small and it
(08:04):
made me realize like, God, I'mso exhausted from just this
drive and pushing to create thisyoga business.
Um, that I'm forcing to takeshape and that looks a certain
way.
Um, and it's making me so tiredthat I have no capacity to deal
with his fluctuations in moodand emotional dysregulation that
(08:28):
come with being neurodivergent.
And I'm also neurodivergentmyself.
Um, and I'm, I've talked aboutthat many times on here.
I do, I am diagnosed A-D-H-D-O,but I also believe I have, um, I
also believe that I.
I have a level of autism inthere as well and I saw a post
(08:51):
on Instagram yesterday talkingabout A DHD dominant or DHD, uh,
where both are the present, butit's a DHD dominant and how hard
that is to diagnose and how hardit is for the person with it,
uh, because they're constantlysecond guessing themselves.
Or how can I be autistic whenI'm this, this, and this.
That's me.
(09:11):
Like I literally dropped thewhole autism question mark thing
for a while'cause it was drivingme.
Insane.
And then I keep seeing poststhat I'm like, geez, I really,
really, really identify withthis.
And this constant cognitivedissonance, this constant
confusion, this constant, I knowI need to do this and I want to
do this, and today I feel like Ican do this.
(09:32):
And then not being able tofollow through because of the
levels of exhaustion and justhow much I have on my plate
with, um, you know, two of mythree kids are neurodivergent.
Um.
They show up very differently.
I'm neuro divergent two, so lifeis extra hard.
Um, you know, I have aneurotypical child and believe
(09:56):
you, me, raising her is a loteasier, um, because she's very
self-sufficient and, uh, sportyand does all the extra
activities and things.
And I look at other people withkids who are all like that and
I'm like, it is easier.
It, it is easier.
So, you know, for parents ofneuro kids who are also new.
(10:18):
Selves, I see you.
This is hard.
And also it is like the yogahouseholder thing of like, we've
got to put, if you are a truehousehold, it's like you live
your spirituality through thetasks of your life.
It doesn't mean that you're a ahomemaker.
Everybody thinks that.
And I'm constantly clarifyingthat's not the case.
However, I play on that as mytitle'cause I am mainly a ho a
(10:40):
homemaker.
Uh, and everyone also talksabout the householder stage.
You know?
Yes, it's a stage, but.
I mean, aren't we all in thatstage?
I mean, how many of us willevolve that stage into being an
actual nun or a priest orwhatever, which is the person
who's on a spiritual path, whoisn't a householder, in case you
didn't know.
(11:01):
Um, so all of this stuff isconverging to a point, right?
It's all like, you know, mycoach said to me after this dark
night of the soul, I didn't dealvery well with this meltdown.
I said, look, I'm not in a placewhere I can even run this
business right now.
Like I'm, I don't even.
Know if I can teach online yoga,it's, it's really, really hard
(11:21):
to get my shit together.
My back went into spasm the dayafter this meltdown had happened
because it caused such anemotional reaction in me.
Um, I couldn't teach that day'cause my back went in spasm.
But not only that, my son endedup being off school because he
was so, when he's had a meltdownlike that and we've had a come
(11:45):
to Jesus kind of moment, it's.
A lot and like, and then I cantell he needs me the next day
and I need him to be honest,even though I also needed a day
off.
And so I had to cancel my classagain.
And I, I'm, I'm thereforebecoming so inconsistent and
unreliable.
This has been a massive theme inmy life.
I'm very inconsistent andunreliable, flaky, for want of a
(12:06):
better word.
And then I have a shame spiralabout the flakiness.
But also I'm dealing with thingslike borderline, you know,
chronic fatigue that I'm lookinginto at the.
Minute, um, that I'm trying tomanage, um, with Iur vda and
with Healthy Living and Sobrietyand just being okay with
(12:27):
resting.
You know, I've got a lot on myplate when I run and I've got
this brain tumor thing, which isbenign, but it does have an
effect on me.
It causes these migraines or Iliterally can't do anything.
Um, I've got, when I reflectthis to a doctor and just kind
of give them, give them a quickrun down, they're like, yeah,
you've really got a lot on yourplate.
(12:47):
And it always makes me cry'causeI'm like, yeah, thank you.
I have like, but I'll, I willinternally tell myself, you
haven't, you haven't got a loton your plate.
Get your shit together, you knowthat in a critic.
Um, and so eventually, anyway, Ifed this back to my coach and
she was like, you are just notat a place right now where you
can show up consistently toteach yoga and.
(13:08):
You know, just take a step back,use this container that I'm in
with her to really go in andreally tend to myself.
And she was like, stop blendingall of your kind of personal,
normal householder problemsright now with your business.
Because she was like, you know,yoga teachers have issues in the
(13:30):
family.
Everyone has issues in thefamily.
They're all normal.
It doesn't mean you're a failureas a human being, you know?
Uh, and I was like, I feel likea fraud because I'm like.
I didn't deal with the tantrumvery well.
I didn't stay calm.
I was supposed to be teachingyoga, you know, and it's like we
had a really good chat about itand it, it's been invaluable and
I've taken this time and sheasked me all the right questions
(13:50):
and I journaled on them and it'slike, all of this is spiritual,
right?
All of this is yoga.
My main thing that I'mpassionate about with yoga is,
you know, if I could just tellpeople one thing about yoga,
it's like, it's not just thetwisty poses and the Asana
practice, you know, I.
It time and time again in here,it's the yamas and the armors.
(14:12):
It's the eight limbs, it'smeditation, it's breath work,
but it's all about therealization that we are not just
this body and this lash like weare more than that.
Um, and that's what I want tokind of help teach people, and I
can do that through my content.
(14:33):
Don't get me wrong, I love Asanaand I want it to be part of what
I teach.
Um.
And that is gonna lookdifferent, but also it's gonna
be probably better for somepeople.
You know, someone came to a yogaclass last week and was like, I
can't do next week.
I can't do this time, I can't dothat time.
And so what I'm gonna do goingforward is put together an
on-demand schedule.
So if you like me and what Italk about and you try a yoga
(14:57):
class and you like it, you cansign up.
And I'll probably have like anon demand practice that I send
once a month, a new one for avery small amount of money, uh,
with some other practices inthere as well.
So that you can start toactually live your yoga off the
map, which is my ultimate goal,uh, for myself and for anyone
that's interested in my work.
(15:17):
Um, and so also blending thatwith the holistic homemaking
stuff, which to me is yoga.
You know, talk about a himsa nonharming the first Yama.
Well, let's detox our homes.
Let's detox our bodies.
Let's, let's not keep usingproducts and, you know, that are
causing us harm.
This is one of the things I'mpassionate about.
(15:38):
So just.
Lending all those interested ofmine is, is the way I'm gonna go
with it now, which is stillRachel Brady Yoga.
Like nothing much really haschanged.
Uh, I just won't be teachinglive asset and practice at this
time.
I will still do my, uh, sacredSundays, my retreats.
The next one is on the 8th ofJune, and we're actually, if
(15:58):
people want to, and if peoplesign up for this part of it, uh,
with, there's the offer of goingon a hike afterwards for anyone
who's interested.
So the 8th of June, that's inthe P district.
And then also.
I'm gonna keep doing my seasonalday retreats.
And the reason I can do those isbecause they're left.
They're not twice a week.
Uh, I create space around themso that I'm calm when I go.
(16:18):
And so that maybe, you know, youknow, I create little thing
boundaries around myself so thatI'm in the right head space when
I go.
My husband is there to take thekids and so on and so on.
So it's much more doable justhaving a sip of coffee there.
Um, and that's what I wanted toshare about today.
(16:38):
So realizing that, you know,taking the evidence before me,
the evidence is I cannot copewith the live classes right now.
So I wonder if reflecting itback to you, you know, what's
the evidence showing you rightnow about your life that you
need to change, that you need topivot?
How can you lean into yourhouseholder duties, whether
(17:01):
that's your career, that's ahouseholder duty, by the way.
It's not always about the house.
You know, your kids, yourrelationship.
How can you be more.
Devoted to those things and seethose things as meaningful and
worthwhile because they are someaningful and worthwhile.
Uh, your contribution to yourfamily, um, and all of those
things.
(17:21):
Thinking about how you can liveyour yoga off the mat.
Thinking about how you can be abetter person every day in
different ways in being cleaner,spiritually cleaner, you know,
in the home.
Yesterday I felt a deep need tocleanse all of my kitchen
cupboards.
(17:42):
Sorry, I only really need todrink this coffee before I get
to my yoga class.
And, um.
It was amazing and I did it andI got my new, I got a doTERRA
order with some on guardcleaning concentrate and some
new oils.
And I used wild art andpeppermint in my simple cleaning
spray that I make, that I usefor every single thing.
(18:03):
And I unpacked all of my kitchencupboards and got rid of all the
crap.
Well, there wasn't much therethat was crap.
You know, just like all themanky things that had kind of
gone a bit funny.
I was like, right, get rid ofthat.
Uh, and like cleaned it all outand.
Do you know what energeticallyit feels incredible.
Like you walk into the kitchen,it's just like, wow.
And I've not even finished.
(18:23):
I've still got to do the drawersand the big shelf, so I'm not
even finished.
Um, but I spent about threehours doing it and it felt like,
wow.
It felt like cleansed, like Ifelt deeply cleansed.
And when I emptied a cupboard,cleaned it all out with this
gorgeous spray and everything,smells like my daughter's friend
was over.
And she was like, wow,everything smells so amazing.
(18:44):
And I was like, I know, right?
I've just like cleaned, cleansedthe kitchen.
Um, and I cleansed it all out.
And also, as I'm cleansing withthis, with this homemade
product, this cl this cleaningspray with the added extra
essential oil.
You know that those essentialoils are going into my system.
So instead of not, not, it's notjust doing harm.
It's not just not doing harm,it's doing good.
(19:05):
It's relaxing me.
I listened to a beautifulpodcast while I was doing it,
and then, do you know what I didafter that?
I took a nap and it was reallynecessary.
And this is self-care.
This is holistic self-care.
Claiming is an act of self care.
I've written a blog post aboutthat before.
And you know what as well?
When you take all the stuff outof your cupboards, you might
(19:25):
only get rid of one jar.
You put a.
All back and there's a thirdmore space and you're like, wow.
Literally by taking them out,wiping it down and putting them
back in the correct kind ofzones, like this zone is for
like things that you have ontoast or this zones, oils and
vinegars, and I'm not evenputting them in little trays or
boxes or anything.
I'm like, how is that created somuch more space?
(19:48):
And it's because we're not justlobbying things in the cupboard,
right?
Things are actually stood up,right?
Things are actually pushed intoa corner or in these little sos
and I just thought I.
I'm creating space in my bodyand my mind and my soul by
cleaning and de and cleansingand decluttering, and this is
something I'm not naturally verygood at.
I I want to be, and it deeplyfeeds my soul.
(20:11):
I need to work on it.
And this is the ADHD slashautism kind of counterbalancing
each other all the time andfighting with each other all the
time.
Um, and it really helps to healmy soul to do that, and that's
an important act of self-care.
So I'm gonna go guys, because Ineed to rush and I'm gonna, I
don't even think I'm gonna makethis yoga class, to be honest,
(20:31):
so I might end up sitting in acafe and working, which is fine.
Um, I love you so much.
I'm so, I'm so kind of tornabout this podcast.
I love doing it.
Um, but I'm, again, I'm not,I've not got round to sharing it
properly yet.
So please do.
If you do listen to thispodcast, let me know.
Please let me know, is itresonating?
Please ask me like, what do youthink about this?
(20:53):
Or could you record on that?
I'm going to be sharing a lotmore about essential oils.
I'm finally gonna get round tofinishing my aromatherapy
course.
I'm gonna be talking more aboutthe oils.
In fact, I might actually do aseparate podcast.
Just about oils, individualoils, every episode and
individual individual oil.
I'm also gonna be creating a 10part oils program that's gonna
(21:16):
be really, really, really good,and I'm so excited about it, and
you will be able to get that forfree.
When you buy an oils kit off me,a specific oils kit.
So let me know if that's, uh,piqued your interest and I will
send you information on that assoon as it's ready.
I love you so much.
Have an amazing day.
I am not gonna make this yogaclass.
Oh god, I give up.
(21:37):
It was for 7:30 AM It says I'mgonna get to the car park at 7
29.
Like I cannot get from the carpark to the studio in like 30
seconds.
The door shuts at seven 30, soAlright guys, I'll leave it
there.
I love you so much.
Bye.
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