July 30, 2025 • 17 mins
Episode 18
surviving childhood traumas.
.anger was my mother tongue
discipline your disappointments
peace never really left you...
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SPEAKER_00 (00:00):
Hello and a huge big Scottish welcome.
Episode 18, Sleepless inGranada.
I had another really busymorning.
Here in Spain, the lifestyle isso much more relaxed than in
Britain.
I absolutely love it.
The sky is the deepest turquoiseblue and the sun continues to
(00:21):
shine.
And feelings of happiness justwash over me for no reason.
Gosh, where has this year gone?
Soon it will be August.
Do you know something?
There are only two people inthis world that I need to make
proud.
And that is the eight-year-oldme and the 80-year-old me.
(00:42):
I have come to realise that youcan never break a great spirit,
no matter what shit life throwsat you.
You still maintain the highestlevel of positivity.
And it's because of that spirit.
When I was a small child, Iremember feeling ashamed.
I had no idea what this feelingwas that walked with me every
(01:05):
day to school.
I hated it when I had to say myname out loud.
I didn't ever want to drawattention to myself.
I was an intelligent, happy andkind little girl.
I was so painfully shy.
And I was also so very wary ofstrangers until I trusted.
In my head, I always calledmyself Penny Smith.
(01:31):
My own name has 26 letters andmy surname is so very unusual.
I wished the ground would openup and swallow me.
when I was asked my name.
Today, I absolutely love my veryunique name and I'm very proud
of it and I'm very proud of me.
Today, I'll chat about thecomplete wall of silence that
(01:56):
families put up within adysfunctional family system,
especially when thedysfunctional member is being
led by a narcissistic, abusivemonster.
What that family won't do is getfrustrated or even angry at the
person who is the abusive,harmful and hurtful one.
(02:16):
They get angry at the personthat calls out the abuse.
There's nothing right aboutthis.
You're probably all saying, why?
Why would they do that?
Family is very much aboutappearances.
Keeping the image that thefamily are healthy, strong and
loving.
And this image matters way moreto the family than any
(02:38):
individual.
This is so hurtful if you arethe one who has spoken up.
You then find that you are theproblem.
The people you thought loved andcared for you.
They don't protect you, in fact.
They turn their backs on you andcontrol and protect the
manipulative controlling person.
It's all about face.
(02:59):
It's all about image.
And it's all about appearances.
When you are the truth teller,know that you are not toxic for
telling the truth.
You're not being dramatic.
You're not being too sensitive.
In toxic settings, the truthteller becomes the threat.
They all want you to stopspeaking.
but you were never the problem.
(03:21):
You're the alarm clock that theytried so hard to smash.
There will be much eye rolling.
They will tell you to stop beingso angry.
At first, truth tellers have towalk alone.
You saw the cracks when everyoneelse was pretending.
You're very brave for breakingthat dysfunctional family cycle.
You have integrity.
(03:41):
Healing starts when you stopasking people who benefit from
your silence to validate yourtruth.
You are your truth.
Stop regretting the past.
There's nothing you can do aboutit.
Don't forget it.
The past is now a memory.
Learn from it and get betterfrom it so you don't make the
(04:02):
same mistakes again.
Stop regretting the past.
Don't dwell there.
Don't worry about the future.
85% of the shit you think aboutand worry about on a daily basis
will never happen.
Stop wasting your energy andyour time.
Stop looking for your happinessin other people.
Other people can't make youhappy.
(04:23):
It's just impossible.
Happiness is absolutely a 100%inside job and I should know.
Expecting people in your life todo what you would do in a
situation will only lead to yourdecision Disappointment, not
theirs.
They are getting on with theirown lives, so let people be who
they are, and either you acceptor you don't.
(04:48):
What expectation has beenstealing your peace?
Like a thief in the night, theycreep in because your lack of
boundaries gave them permission.
Did their noisy drama draw youin?
Did they disturb yourtranquility?
Just because they came a callingdoesn't mean that you have to
answer.
Learn to protect your energy andyour peace.
(05:09):
You're not responsible for theirhappiness.
When you finally choose peace,there will be a lot of goodbyes.
There'll be a lot of tears.
The day you trade expectationsfor appreciation is the day you
become wealthy.
Because as long as you'reexpecting things, you're going
to be so, so disappointed.
Expecting the people in yourlife to act in a certain way.
(05:31):
Don't be.
If you're only happy when theybehave in a certain way, you'll
hardly ever be happy.
How about appreciation?
Now that's the game.
Because when you startappreciating the tiniest little
things in your life, you havegifts that nobody else has.
My magic moments are the vistafrom my bedroom window each
(05:54):
morning when I open up myblinds.
UNKNOWN (05:57):
Ah!
SPEAKER_00 (05:57):
Ah, my furry friend's unconditional love as
we embrace the day on ourriverside walks.
The fresh air that I breathe andmy health.
What are your magic moments?
The hard truth is people willalways take everything that you
have to offer if you don't knowwhen to stop and say enough is
enough.
(06:17):
Kindness without limits willdrain your spirit, your time and
your strength.
When you constantly give, peoplestop appreciating what you offer
and they start to expect it.
What you feel is what youattract.
If you assume that you'relacking, that's exactly what
you'll be waking up to everymorning.
(06:39):
You keep looking for someoneelse to blame.
You keep looking for someoneelse to explain.
You must look inside yourselffor the answers.
You can't keep pouring from yourempty glass.
Your kindness will cost you morethan you're willing to pay.
You'll eventually lose sight ofyour own needs.
You are sacrificing your ownpeople and joy in the endless
(07:02):
pursuit of keeping others inyour life happy.
When you learn to be whole,healthy and happy for you, for
you yourself, this changeseverything.
When I stopped reacting, when Istopped explaining myself,
something very powerfulhappened.
People instantly lost all powerover me.
(07:23):
It was almost immediate and it'sincredible to watch the shift.
They didn't require me to besilent.
They craved my reaction, mydefensiveness, my desperation to
make myself understood, myemotional outburst.
This is what they fed off.
They fed off all that energy.
(07:44):
When you stop giving to them,you starve their supply.
They have nothing to work with.
They have nothing to use againstyou and they cannot manipulate
you anymore.
Some people unconsciously buildthe relationship around
provoking reactions from others.
This gives them a sense of powerand importance.
(08:06):
They need you upset to feel incontrol.
The moment you stop playing thisgame, you take away all their
power.
Not by bending over backwards,not by fighting harder.
It's by not fighting at all.
Now that's powerful.
And now a short piece of writingby the incredible Rose Brick.
(08:27):
And it's called InheritedHunger.
Women fall out of love little bylittle, like the drip drop of a
broken tap.
The tears run out slowly untilthere's nothing left.
Women fall out of love after thehundredth time of trying to talk
it out and they won't even turnaround to look at us.
(08:50):
Women fall out of love afterwe've convinced ourselves over
and over and over again that itreally wasn't that bad, but
every day we carry the weight ofour needs not being met.
Women fall out of love little bylittle, building a wall to
protect our hearts out of thefallen stones that used to be a
(09:11):
mountain of love.
Women don't wake up one day anddecide we're done.
We give all of ourselves untilwe realize it will never be
enough.
Whoa that still gives meshivers.
Listen with your ears and notyour triggers.
This is how I learned todiscipline my disappointments.
(09:31):
If you don't learn how todiscipline your disappointments
you will fuck up and sabotageevery relationship you
especially the relationship youhave with yourself.
This is the only reason yousuffer in your mind.
This is the root cause.
This sentence has caused youmore problems in your life than
(09:53):
you have ever realized you needthings to be in order you need
them to be in order to keep yourpeace that's it that's the huge
problem because when thingsdon't go the way you need them
to go you lose your peace sowhat does that actually tell me
you never really had any peaceyou had dependency dependency on
(10:15):
the outside world going how youneeded it to go, so the inside
of you could feel fine.
And here's the thing.
Peace never really left you.
You just turned your back on itbecause you felt you needed
something else in order to feelgood.
But you were already fine.
Peace isn't out there.
It's in here.
It's in your core.
(10:36):
It's in your heart.
The minute you stop needing lifeto behave, you return to peace
that's inside you.
People don't suffer because ofwhat is happening.
People suffer because they needit to be a certain way, their
way.
And when it's not, they resistit.
The objection is the suffering.
(10:57):
You think you're upset becausethey didn't call you back or
ended the relationship suddenlyor simply because life wasn't
going your way or becausesomeone had a different opinion
to yours and it goes on and on.
But really you're upset becauseyou made up this narrative in
your head about how thingsshould have gone and you're
(11:17):
clinging on to it.
The mind whispers, this isn'tthe way things are meant to
happen and you believe it.
This is where most peopledestroy relationships.
You just can't handledisappointments.
You then punish your person fornot reading your mind.
You shut down.
You withhold and withdraw.
You emotionally spike.
(11:38):
Then you blame the partner fornot regulating them.
Now it's no longer a partner.
It's a parent-child dynamic.
Your partner is now youremotional manager, constantly
regulating.
De-escalating, tiptoeing,walking on eggshells, trying to
keep you stable because youdon't have the ability to sit
with.
(11:59):
This didn't go my way.
So you'll continue to throw yourtoys out of the pram.
Your partner didn't sign up forany of this shit.
If you don't learn to disciplineyour disappointments, your
partner will start to resentyou.
It will become impossible andthey will become exhausted and
eventually, and sadly, they willleave you.
(12:21):
You stop needing reality toshift so your nervous system can
stabilize.
You fix it by freeing yourselffrom needing them to change in
order for you to feel okay.
You consciously let go.
You stop clinging.
You stay.
You show up, not from control,but from calmness and
transparency, that energy, thatpeace.
(12:44):
will take the entirerelationship to a whole new
level.
Not because you forced it, butbecause you yielded the need to.
Peace is so much more valuablethan being right.
So what is this shift?
You stop needing the world to goyour way in order for you to
feel fine.
You stop grasping for control.
You stop externalising love.
(13:07):
You stop expecting people inyour life to give you what you
won't give yourself.
Sometimes we unconsciously tryto impose deals in our
relationship without speaking ofthem.
Stop handing the person in yourlife the silent rule book that
they never agreed to follow inthe first place and then blame
them when they break all therules.
(13:27):
that's not connection that'scontrol control always leads to
suffering the only place thatpeace ever lives is in stillness
if your peace is conditional onoutcomes that's not peace it's
just simply acting so let it gojust let it go control your
disappointments before theybecome patterns before they
(13:51):
become cycles before it becomesthe very thing that annihilates
the very people you say you loveso much.
A mistake repeated more thanonce is a decision.
A mistake repeated more thantwice is a habit.
And a mistake repeated more thanthree times, that's your
character.
Mistakes happen.
(14:12):
We're all human.
But a mistake that is constantlyrepeated isn't a mistake
anymore.
It's part of who you really are.
There are five types of human weall need in our We need a
comforter, a confronter, acounsellor, a challenger.
and a celebrator, a comfort.
(14:32):
We all need a comfort in lifebecause life is guaranteed to
hurt us.
And we need someone there tocomfort us because if you don't
have someone there to comfortyou, you'll end up going to the
person who hurt you to heal andconsole you.
We need a confronter in ourlife.
This is someone who will tellyou when you're wrong.
(14:53):
You need this person to play therole, to confront you when you
fuck up.
A challenger.
Someone who listens, loves andlives their life so greatly.
It challenges you to be a betterversion of you.
A counsellor.
You desperately need acounsellor.
Someone who is full of wisdomand truth.
(15:13):
Someone who will give you a wiseidea.
Lastly, a celebrator.
You need a celebrator in yourlife.
Someone who will not let you gothrough a day without
celebrating your small and yourlarge victories.
One of the people in your lifecan play multiple roles and
multiple people can fill thesame role but if you have people
(15:34):
in your life who are playingnone of these specific roles ask
yourself this are they justtaking up space in your life
identify tag and share thepeople in your life that are
playing these incredible roleswe all need these people in our
lives before judging orcritiquing before you draw any
conclusions about what's goingon in someone else's life
(15:56):
remember you only know what youthink you know.
Anger was my mother tongue andthat fire had roots that rose
from silence, dismissal andunheard needs.
Anger carried everything my tinybody couldn't say out loud.
It was my communication.
Raw, urgent and real.
(16:17):
My burden was just too heavy forme to carry.
Too much, too soon.
No one explained and no oneshowed me how to hold it.
Huge feelings with no names, noroadmap and and no mirror, just
a little child trying to makesense of all this chaos around
her.
Healing looks like this.
You don't have to silent screamanymore.
(16:37):
You get to feel your firewithout burning everything else
down.
You get to stay true to you withno need to prove your worth
through pain.
You have always been whole.
Survival was your brilliance inmotion.
Now you get to know how to live,really live.
Everything I chat about in mypodcast are simply my points of
(16:58):
view and my lived experiences.
I'm no expert.
Thank you for listening to thisepisode.
I would really love to hear fromyou.
Email sleeplessingrenada atyahoo.com.
Next episode to follow soon.
Hello and a huge big Scottish welcome.
Episode 18, Sleepless inGranada.
I had another really busymorning.
Here in Spain, the lifestyle isso much more relaxed than in
Britain.
I absolutely love it.
The sky is the deepest turquoiseblue and the sun continues to
(00:21):
shine.
And feelings of happiness justwash over me for no reason.
Gosh, where has this year gone?
Soon it will be August.
Do you know something?
There are only two people inthis world that I need to make
proud.
And that is the eight-year-oldme and the 80-year-old me.
(00:42):
I have come to realise that youcan never break a great spirit,
no matter what shit life throwsat you.
You still maintain the highestlevel of positivity.
And it's because of that spirit.
When I was a small child, Iremember feeling ashamed.
I had no idea what this feelingwas that walked with me every
(01:05):
day to school.
I hated it when I had to say myname out loud.
I didn't ever want to drawattention to myself.
I was an intelligent, happy andkind little girl.
I was so painfully shy.
And I was also so very wary ofstrangers until I trusted.
In my head, I always calledmyself Penny Smith.
(01:31):
My own name has 26 letters andmy surname is so very unusual.
I wished the ground would openup and swallow me.
when I was asked my name.
Today, I absolutely love my veryunique name and I'm very proud
of it and I'm very proud of me.
Today, I'll chat about thecomplete wall of silence that
(01:56):
families put up within adysfunctional family system,
especially when thedysfunctional member is being
led by a narcissistic, abusivemonster.
What that family won't do is getfrustrated or even angry at the
person who is the abusive,harmful and hurtful one.
(02:16):
They get angry at the personthat calls out the abuse.
There's nothing right aboutthis.
You're probably all saying, why?
Why would they do that?
Family is very much aboutappearances.
Keeping the image that thefamily are healthy, strong and
loving.
And this image matters way moreto the family than any
(02:38):
individual.
This is so hurtful if you arethe one who has spoken up.
You then find that you are theproblem.
The people you thought loved andcared for you.
They don't protect you, in fact.
They turn their backs on you andcontrol and protect the
manipulative controlling person.
It's all about face.
(02:59):
It's all about image.
And it's all about appearances.
When you are the truth teller,know that you are not toxic for
telling the truth.
You're not being dramatic.
You're not being too sensitive.
In toxic settings, the truthteller becomes the threat.
They all want you to stopspeaking.
but you were never the problem.
(03:21):
You're the alarm clock that theytried so hard to smash.
There will be much eye rolling.
They will tell you to stop beingso angry.
At first, truth tellers have towalk alone.
You saw the cracks when everyoneelse was pretending.
You're very brave for breakingthat dysfunctional family cycle.
You have integrity.
(03:41):
Healing starts when you stopasking people who benefit from
your silence to validate yourtruth.
You are your truth.
Stop regretting the past.
There's nothing you can do aboutit.
Don't forget it.
The past is now a memory.
Learn from it and get betterfrom it so you don't make the
(04:02):
same mistakes again.
Stop regretting the past.
Don't dwell there.
Don't worry about the future.
85% of the shit you think aboutand worry about on a daily basis
will never happen.
Stop wasting your energy andyour time.
Stop looking for your happinessin other people.
Other people can't make youhappy.
(04:23):
It's just impossible.
Happiness is absolutely a 100%inside job and I should know.
Expecting people in your life todo what you would do in a
situation will only lead to yourdecision Disappointment, not
theirs.
They are getting on with theirown lives, so let people be who
they are, and either you acceptor you don't.
(04:48):
What expectation has beenstealing your peace?
Like a thief in the night, theycreep in because your lack of
boundaries gave them permission.
Did their noisy drama draw youin?
Did they disturb yourtranquility?
Just because they came a callingdoesn't mean that you have to
answer.
Learn to protect your energy andyour peace.
(05:09):
You're not responsible for theirhappiness.
When you finally choose peace,there will be a lot of goodbyes.
There'll be a lot of tears.
The day you trade expectationsfor appreciation is the day you
become wealthy.
Because as long as you'reexpecting things, you're going
to be so, so disappointed.
Expecting the people in yourlife to act in a certain way.
(05:31):
Don't be.
If you're only happy when theybehave in a certain way, you'll
hardly ever be happy.
How about appreciation?
Now that's the game.
Because when you startappreciating the tiniest little
things in your life, you havegifts that nobody else has.
My magic moments are the vistafrom my bedroom window each
(05:54):
morning when I open up myblinds.
UNKNOWN (05:57):
Ah!
SPEAKER_00 (05:57):
Ah, my furry friend's unconditional love as
we embrace the day on ourriverside walks.
The fresh air that I breathe andmy health.
What are your magic moments?
The hard truth is people willalways take everything that you
have to offer if you don't knowwhen to stop and say enough is
enough.
(06:17):
Kindness without limits willdrain your spirit, your time and
your strength.
When you constantly give, peoplestop appreciating what you offer
and they start to expect it.
What you feel is what youattract.
If you assume that you'relacking, that's exactly what
you'll be waking up to everymorning.
(06:39):
You keep looking for someoneelse to blame.
You keep looking for someoneelse to explain.
You must look inside yourselffor the answers.
You can't keep pouring from yourempty glass.
Your kindness will cost you morethan you're willing to pay.
You'll eventually lose sight ofyour own needs.
You are sacrificing your ownpeople and joy in the endless
(07:02):
pursuit of keeping others inyour life happy.
When you learn to be whole,healthy and happy for you, for
you yourself, this changeseverything.
When I stopped reacting, when Istopped explaining myself,
something very powerfulhappened.
People instantly lost all powerover me.
(07:23):
It was almost immediate and it'sincredible to watch the shift.
They didn't require me to besilent.
They craved my reaction, mydefensiveness, my desperation to
make myself understood, myemotional outburst.
This is what they fed off.
They fed off all that energy.
(07:44):
When you stop giving to them,you starve their supply.
They have nothing to work with.
They have nothing to use againstyou and they cannot manipulate
you anymore.
Some people unconsciously buildthe relationship around
provoking reactions from others.
This gives them a sense of powerand importance.
(08:06):
They need you upset to feel incontrol.
The moment you stop playing thisgame, you take away all their
power.
Not by bending over backwards,not by fighting harder.
It's by not fighting at all.
Now that's powerful.
And now a short piece of writingby the incredible Rose Brick.
(08:27):
And it's called InheritedHunger.
Women fall out of love little bylittle, like the drip drop of a
broken tap.
The tears run out slowly untilthere's nothing left.
Women fall out of love after thehundredth time of trying to talk
it out and they won't even turnaround to look at us.
(08:50):
Women fall out of love afterwe've convinced ourselves over
and over and over again that itreally wasn't that bad, but
every day we carry the weight ofour needs not being met.
Women fall out of love little bylittle, building a wall to
protect our hearts out of thefallen stones that used to be a
(09:11):
mountain of love.
Women don't wake up one day anddecide we're done.
We give all of ourselves untilwe realize it will never be
enough.
Whoa that still gives meshivers.
Listen with your ears and notyour triggers.
This is how I learned todiscipline my disappointments.
(09:31):
If you don't learn how todiscipline your disappointments
you will fuck up and sabotageevery relationship you
especially the relationship youhave with yourself.
This is the only reason yousuffer in your mind.
This is the root cause.
This sentence has caused youmore problems in your life than
(09:53):
you have ever realized you needthings to be in order you need
them to be in order to keep yourpeace that's it that's the huge
problem because when thingsdon't go the way you need them
to go you lose your peace sowhat does that actually tell me
you never really had any peaceyou had dependency dependency on
(10:15):
the outside world going how youneeded it to go, so the inside
of you could feel fine.
And here's the thing.
Peace never really left you.
You just turned your back on itbecause you felt you needed
something else in order to feelgood.
But you were already fine.
Peace isn't out there.
It's in here.
It's in your core.
(10:36):
It's in your heart.
The minute you stop needing lifeto behave, you return to peace
that's inside you.
People don't suffer because ofwhat is happening.
People suffer because they needit to be a certain way, their
way.
And when it's not, they resistit.
The objection is the suffering.
(10:57):
You think you're upset becausethey didn't call you back or
ended the relationship suddenlyor simply because life wasn't
going your way or becausesomeone had a different opinion
to yours and it goes on and on.
But really you're upset becauseyou made up this narrative in
your head about how thingsshould have gone and you're
(11:17):
clinging on to it.
The mind whispers, this isn'tthe way things are meant to
happen and you believe it.
This is where most peopledestroy relationships.
You just can't handledisappointments.
You then punish your person fornot reading your mind.
You shut down.
You withhold and withdraw.
You emotionally spike.
(11:38):
Then you blame the partner fornot regulating them.
Now it's no longer a partner.
It's a parent-child dynamic.
Your partner is now youremotional manager, constantly
regulating.
De-escalating, tiptoeing,walking on eggshells, trying to
keep you stable because youdon't have the ability to sit
with.
(11:59):
This didn't go my way.
So you'll continue to throw yourtoys out of the pram.
Your partner didn't sign up forany of this shit.
If you don't learn to disciplineyour disappointments, your
partner will start to resentyou.
It will become impossible andthey will become exhausted and
eventually, and sadly, they willleave you.
(12:21):
You stop needing reality toshift so your nervous system can
stabilize.
You fix it by freeing yourselffrom needing them to change in
order for you to feel okay.
You consciously let go.
You stop clinging.
You stay.
You show up, not from control,but from calmness and
transparency, that energy, thatpeace.
(12:44):
will take the entirerelationship to a whole new
level.
Not because you forced it, butbecause you yielded the need to.
Peace is so much more valuablethan being right.
So what is this shift?
You stop needing the world to goyour way in order for you to
feel fine.
You stop grasping for control.
You stop externalising love.
(13:07):
You stop expecting people inyour life to give you what you
won't give yourself.
Sometimes we unconsciously tryto impose deals in our
relationship without speaking ofthem.
Stop handing the person in yourlife the silent rule book that
they never agreed to follow inthe first place and then blame
them when they break all therules.
(13:27):
that's not connection that'scontrol control always leads to
suffering the only place thatpeace ever lives is in stillness
if your peace is conditional onoutcomes that's not peace it's
just simply acting so let it gojust let it go control your
disappointments before theybecome patterns before they
(13:51):
become cycles before it becomesthe very thing that annihilates
the very people you say you loveso much.
A mistake repeated more thanonce is a decision.
A mistake repeated more thantwice is a habit.
And a mistake repeated more thanthree times, that's your
character.
Mistakes happen.
(14:12):
We're all human.
But a mistake that is constantlyrepeated isn't a mistake
anymore.
It's part of who you really are.
There are five types of human weall need in our We need a
comforter, a confronter, acounsellor, a challenger.
and a celebrator, a comfort.
(14:32):
We all need a comfort in lifebecause life is guaranteed to
hurt us.
And we need someone there tocomfort us because if you don't
have someone there to comfortyou, you'll end up going to the
person who hurt you to heal andconsole you.
We need a confronter in ourlife.
This is someone who will tellyou when you're wrong.
(14:53):
You need this person to play therole, to confront you when you
fuck up.
A challenger.
Someone who listens, loves andlives their life so greatly.
It challenges you to be a betterversion of you.
A counsellor.
You desperately need acounsellor.
Someone who is full of wisdomand truth.
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Someone who will give you a wiseidea.
Lastly, a celebrator.
You need a celebrator in yourlife.
Someone who will not let you gothrough a day without
celebrating your small and yourlarge victories.
One of the people in your lifecan play multiple roles and
multiple people can fill thesame role but if you have people
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in your life who are playingnone of these specific roles ask
yourself this are they justtaking up space in your life
identify tag and share thepeople in your life that are
playing these incredible roleswe all need these people in our
lives before judging orcritiquing before you draw any
conclusions about what's goingon in someone else's life
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remember you only know what youthink you know.
Anger was my mother tongue andthat fire had roots that rose
from silence, dismissal andunheard needs.
Anger carried everything my tinybody couldn't say out loud.
It was my communication.
Raw, urgent and real.
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My burden was just too heavy forme to carry.
Too much, too soon.
No one explained and no oneshowed me how to hold it.
Huge feelings with no names, noroadmap and and no mirror, just
a little child trying to makesense of all this chaos around
her.
Healing looks like this.
You don't have to silent screamanymore.
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You get to feel your firewithout burning everything else
down.
You get to stay true to you withno need to prove your worth
through pain.
You have always been whole.
Survival was your brilliance inmotion.
Now you get to know how to live,really live.
Everything I chat about in mypodcast are simply my points of
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view and my lived experiences.
I'm no expert.
Thank you for listening to thisepisode.
I would really love to hear fromyou.
Email sleeplessingrenada atyahoo.com.
Next episode to follow soon.
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