Lesson 1. Memories

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Taking a look into a structured mind of brokenness. 

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Episode Transcript

SPEAKER_00 (00:05):
Have you ever been lost in your thoughts?
Randomness?
A thought pops into your headand you don't know where it came
from.
Many times it's your past.

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Things that have happened thathave not let you go.
Why have they hung on?
In order for us to understandwhere we need to go with this
thought, we must understandwhere these thoughts are held.

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The picture I want to paint isthat our minds are made up of a
foyer.
The foyer itself is a large roomwith a counter.
with the large elevator to theleft that allows us to go down
to the depths of our thoughtsand a staircase to the right, a
slower process.

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As we begin to go down thecellar, we reach our first
subfloor.
In this subfloor, there'smemories, memories that have
been organized.
These memories were once a mess,and they were thrown around in
the hallway.
Doors were open with junkeverywhere.

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Stepping over with thepossibility of rolling an ankle.
Well, what does it look likewhen you roll an ankle on a
memory?
Part of that is called trauma.
Now, where do we start?
Much like myself, I wanted tofix everything.

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I wanted to clean, everything.
And unlike our garage, we can'tjust throw everything away.
We must scrutinize and walkthrough every single piece of
paper that's stored withinourselves and determine if it's
worth keeping or tossing.

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Now, let's visit a memory inhere.
When I was a child, I had afriend.
I'll save his name.
But He had no bike, and I had abike.
And he decided he wanted to jumpmy bike, and this is how we met.

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I created a ramp for myself, andhim off in the distance looked
at me.
Possibly in admiration for thebike that I once had.
But also, like a young boy, hiscompetitive spirit wanted to
endure against mine.

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As we traded off, the distancewe landed got further.
Not sure if we were actuallygoing as far as we thought we
were, but we were definitelyhaving fun.
The evening went on, andeventually it was time for me to
go inside and for him to gohome.
I asked him, where do you live?

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When did you guys move here?
He proceeded to tell me thatthey had recently moved in.
and that his father had justdied.
I think that was his way oftelling me that they used the
money, possibly from insurance,to move here.
This was their new life.
He made a small facialexpression, but either way, we

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didn't shake hands and we didn'tfist bump.
We were probably about two feetaway and we just waved at each
other goodbye.
Let's end that memory there.
And how about we just step outof that room?
When I look back into that roomand I look through the threshold

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of that door and I see the stillframe of two young boys smiling
and laughing, sweaty and dusty,possibly from falling and
dragging our feet through thedust, a memory that probably
most of us have had on our BMXbikes.
But I see happiness.

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One of the things with thismemory is that that very friend
was murdered 12 years later.
That memory tries to overshadowthis memory of the bike.
When I look back at my friendand the way his life ended, it
angered me.
And it still does anger me.

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I think about him often.
But when I step back into thismemory and I look, there's no
anger in there.
There's only joy and happiness.
Sometimes anger had tried tocreep in.
It gets me mad.
It gets me sad.
And that very memory becomessomething totally different.

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Not what it was that day.
If there was anything that Iwould change that day, it would
be the way we said goodbye.
I most likely just would havegave him a hug.
We don't really realize how muchwe care about somebody, as they
say, until they're gone.

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Well, that's the memory.
One of the things that memorieslike that do to us, it allows us
to see how we can isolate whathas happened in those moments
without corruption, withoutallowing outside influences to
come in, just a memory trappedin time.
As we glance into the room andwe look to the left and we see

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the elevator, We look to theright and we see the staircase,
both leading back up to thefoyer and down to other levels.
We also notice that there's morerooms.
More rooms to be able to checkmemories.
How messy are they?
How clean are they?
Well, in this memory, there's somuch that we can't touch.

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It's almost like a museum.
We walk in and we walk out.
We don't do anything butobserve.
And that is reflection,observation, and clarity.
That's what we need in thislife.
When we look back, yes, there'smoments that might have
traumatized us in other areas.
And it also allows us to havegratitude, to be thankful that

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there was actually good momentsin our life.
Not everything was and is ashorrible as it may seem.
That inventory that we takeallows us to start banking good
ideas.
yes we've probably heard aboutthe emotional bank but this is
greater than that this issomething that is an investment

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into ourselves investment intothe cleanliness of our minds and
the clarity and the way weprocess and the way we file the
way we organize if it matters toyou now let's just take one more
look in there do you seeyourself in there do you see a
memory that reminds you ofsomething, maybe that's been

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corrupted, maybe that's beenchanged, maybe something that we
learned later on that feels thatlife is not fair.
Well, it's not.
And this life is very cruel.
But in this memory, it wasn't.
In this memory, it washappiness.

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It was a moment that I get toshare and I had with my friend.
So, maybe you feel lost today.
But if we do, understand thatyou can be found.
Maybe you're feeling loved.
But you are loved.
It's not just about someone outthere caring about you.

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This very podcast is about mecaring about you.
And I don't even know you.
I represent something greaterthan just myself.
I represent something greaterthan just a feeling.
And I hope that as we get toknow each other, I can share
exactly what that is.
I hope you have a great day.

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God bless you.
Goodbye.
I am the Timesmith.