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Speaker 1 (00:12):
I heard podcasts, hear more kiss podcasts, playlists and listen
live on the Freeheart as good Times.
Speaker 2 (00:30):
Yes, we've got the Wall of truth. Cory's got to
select one of these ms. They all have questions that
he must answer truthfully.
Speaker 3 (00:39):
Here we go.
Speaker 2 (00:40):
All right, thank you for the microphone.
Speaker 3 (00:45):
All right, what's what's good question? Okay?
Speaker 1 (00:48):
Oh right?
Speaker 3 (00:51):
What what was the most difficult part of being in
your dad for.
Speaker 4 (00:56):
You're still playing when you became a father?
Speaker 3 (00:58):
Yeah, so montage was in nineties, so she's she's an
April baby, and that year I was actually in Origin,
So she was born in April and Origins pretty much
straight up after in May.
Speaker 4 (01:12):
Yeah, that would have been hard.
Speaker 3 (01:14):
Yeah, it was hard because you know, she was a
nicky baby. So the first seven days or first week,
you know whatever, she was in that nicky. So for them,
they said for me to go down and hold her
as much as I possibly could.
Speaker 2 (01:27):
And for those that understand nicku, that's they're basically in
a little cabinet.
Speaker 3 (01:30):
Yeah, it's called intensive care unit, that's what. And like
it was just because she was born three weeks early
four weeks, so her lungs just weren't fully developed. So
it's scary as hell when your baby comes out purple,
but she's in there. And yeah, so I spent it's
been the good part of six weeks of probably the
first two months of her life away. Yeah, so I
(01:52):
never really saw her. And then yeah, and I was
probably home for the week or two or whatever. But
and then I origin, like, you're away a lot, and yeah,
it was just it was really hard because when I
came back, I remember, you know, trying to do the
things were doing before I left, and settling her and
(02:12):
doing the same, and it just it, I couldn't. I
couldn't do it. She just screamed hated me, and I thought, yeah,
she just I really thought she hated me, and I
just didn't want me, didn't know who I was.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
Why did you think that?
Speaker 3 (02:24):
Well, I just couldn't settle her. I couldn't. I tried
so hard, and she wasn't easy easy baby had all monty.
But you know, like if usually like when Teagan held I,
she'd stop as soon as I'd give it a tea
and she'd just stopped crying. And it just rattled me. Hay,
like I just broke down. I was Yeah, I was rattled.
I just started crying, like, got no idea, Like she
(02:47):
doesn't love me, she doesn't like me, she doesn't know
who I am. And yeah, it actually really it really
hurt me, to be honest, and yeah, yeah taking she
was great. She's like, you know, it's obviously haven't been here,
so you know, she's not used to having someone else
and other people you know, you were around. So yeah,
it took it. It would have taken easily a good
(03:08):
week or so, like have you been yeah for it
to go back. But I just remember those first few days.
Speaker 4 (03:14):
It was.
Speaker 3 (03:15):
It was really shit. It was a shit feeling. It
really was. Honestly, I thought she had no idea who
I was and didn't like me, and I do think.
Speaker 4 (03:24):
I think it's interesting with guys because we have these
big hormonal rushes, right, whether you give birth naturally or
a cesarean, when that baby touches your skin, something physically
changes within you. It just does because that child has
been growing inside you. And yet you guys have been watching.
Do you get so when Monty was put on your
chest for the first time, did you what did you feel? Oh?
Speaker 3 (03:47):
I thought it was really cool. I loved it because obviously,
you know, she went straight down and they said, oh,
you know it teaking. You can't say I was one
that was going down there. So I got the holder
for like the first sort of first few days, like
most of the tea didn't really get to happen, not
for a while. And yeah, I loved it. It was
so cool. It was nice just sitting there.
Speaker 2 (04:08):
Did you feel the pressure? Man?
Speaker 4 (04:09):
I felt so much pressure.
Speaker 3 (04:11):
I was sweating and I'm sitting in like a nice
kill room and I'm stripping.
Speaker 2 (04:15):
Sweat like pressures, pressure to do you just remember thinking.
I just remember holding raph and just going, oh my,
like I am responsible. I am responsible for this forever now, forever.
And I just hadn't hit me until then. I was like,
I've got to keep you alive. I've got to do
everything I can to make sure that you're okay for
the rest of your life.
Speaker 3 (04:35):
And it's just like it just hit me. It's scared
out of me. Yeah, like everything for me just changed completely.
I'm like, well, you're my you know, everything's for you
for you Like that's yeah, yeah, like you're right, it
just changes. And that's why I struggled a lot when
I got back, because you know, I thought I had
(04:55):
a good little routine and down pattern routine. Yeah. I
just I love being able to do that because you know,
it means I'm doing a good job.
Speaker 4 (05:04):
But so tell me what shifted. You just spent more
time with her?
Speaker 3 (05:08):
Yeah, I just had to. When you come out of origin,
you get a bit of time. So about four or
five days at home with her constantly, and I just
try to spend as much time as possible with her.
It broke me, It really did it hurt because you know,
for three four days, it just I honestly felt like,
who are you? Like every time I gave a teaking
to stop?
Speaker 2 (05:27):
Yeah, yeah, and Portigan, she's finally putting down one crying
baby and then she has to come over, come, Cory,
come here.
Speaker 4 (05:39):
You would say that Monty is a daddy's.
Speaker 5 (05:41):
Girl now yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, definitely, because I think
her teaking and Monty so like they're too smart for
each other, have their own little connection.
Speaker 2 (05:59):
I can't trick Mammy to talk to this idiot.
I heard podcasts, hear more kiss podcasts, playlists and listen
live on the Freeheart as good Times.
Speaker 2 (00:30):
Yes, we've got the Wall of truth. Cory's got to
select one of these ms. They all have questions that
he must answer truthfully.
Speaker 3 (00:39):
Here we go.
Speaker 2 (00:40):
All right, thank you for the microphone.
Speaker 3 (00:45):
All right, what's what's good question? Okay?
Speaker 1 (00:48):
Oh right?
Speaker 3 (00:51):
What what was the most difficult part of being in
your dad for.
Speaker 4 (00:56):
You're still playing when you became a father?
Speaker 3 (00:58):
Yeah, so montage was in nineties, so she's she's an
April baby, and that year I was actually in Origin,
So she was born in April and Origins pretty much
straight up after in May.
Speaker 4 (01:12):
Yeah, that would have been hard.
Speaker 3 (01:14):
Yeah, it was hard because you know, she was a
nicky baby. So the first seven days or first week,
you know whatever, she was in that nicky. So for them,
they said for me to go down and hold her
as much as I possibly could.
Speaker 2 (01:27):
And for those that understand nicku, that's they're basically in
a little cabinet.
Speaker 3 (01:30):
Yeah, it's called intensive care unit, that's what. And like
it was just because she was born three weeks early
four weeks, so her lungs just weren't fully developed. So
it's scary as hell when your baby comes out purple,
but she's in there. And yeah, so I spent it's
been the good part of six weeks of probably the
first two months of her life away. Yeah, so I
(01:52):
never really saw her. And then yeah, and I was
probably home for the week or two or whatever. But
and then I origin, like, you're away a lot, and yeah,
it was just it was really hard because when I
came back, I remember, you know, trying to do the
things were doing before I left, and settling her and
(02:12):
doing the same, and it just it, I couldn't. I
couldn't do it. She just screamed hated me, and I thought, yeah,
she just I really thought she hated me, and I
just didn't want me, didn't know who I was.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
Why did you think that?
Speaker 3 (02:24):
Well, I just couldn't settle her. I couldn't. I tried
so hard, and she wasn't easy easy baby had all monty.
But you know, like if usually like when Teagan held I,
she'd stop as soon as I'd give it a tea
and she'd just stopped crying. And it just rattled me. Hay,
like I just broke down. I was Yeah, I was rattled.
I just started crying, like, got no idea, Like she
(02:47):
doesn't love me, she doesn't like me, she doesn't know
who I am. And yeah, it actually really it really
hurt me, to be honest, and yeah, yeah taking she
was great. She's like, you know, it's obviously haven't been here,
so you know, she's not used to having someone else
and other people you know, you were around. So yeah,
it took it. It would have taken easily a good
(03:08):
week or so, like have you been yeah for it
to go back. But I just remember those first few days.
Speaker 4 (03:14):
It was.
Speaker 3 (03:15):
It was really shit. It was a shit feeling. It
really was. Honestly, I thought she had no idea who
I was and didn't like me, and I do think.
Speaker 4 (03:24):
I think it's interesting with guys because we have these
big hormonal rushes, right, whether you give birth naturally or
a cesarean, when that baby touches your skin, something physically
changes within you. It just does because that child has
been growing inside you. And yet you guys have been watching.
Do you get so when Monty was put on your
chest for the first time, did you what did you feel? Oh?
Speaker 3 (03:47):
I thought it was really cool. I loved it because obviously,
you know, she went straight down and they said, oh,
you know it teaking. You can't say I was one
that was going down there. So I got the holder
for like the first sort of first few days, like
most of the tea didn't really get to happen, not
for a while. And yeah, I loved it. It was
so cool. It was nice just sitting there.
Speaker 2 (04:08):
Did you feel the pressure? Man?
Speaker 4 (04:09):
I felt so much pressure.
Speaker 3 (04:11):
I was sweating and I'm sitting in like a nice
kill room and I'm stripping.
Speaker 2 (04:15):
Sweat like pressures, pressure to do you just remember thinking.
I just remember holding raph and just going, oh my,
like I am responsible. I am responsible for this forever now, forever.
And I just hadn't hit me until then. I was like,
I've got to keep you alive. I've got to do
everything I can to make sure that you're okay for
the rest of your life.
Speaker 3 (04:35):
And it's just like it just hit me. It's scared
out of me. Yeah, like everything for me just changed completely.
I'm like, well, you're my you know, everything's for you
for you Like that's yeah, yeah, like you're right, it
just changes. And that's why I struggled a lot when
I got back, because you know, I thought I had
(04:55):
a good little routine and down pattern routine. Yeah. I
just I love being able to do that because you know,
it means I'm doing a good job.
Speaker 4 (05:04):
But so tell me what shifted. You just spent more
time with her?
Speaker 3 (05:08):
Yeah, I just had to. When you come out of origin,
you get a bit of time. So about four or
five days at home with her constantly, and I just
try to spend as much time as possible with her.
It broke me, It really did it hurt because you know,
for three four days, it just I honestly felt like,
who are you? Like every time I gave a teaking
to stop?
Speaker 2 (05:27):
Yeah, yeah, and Portigan, she's finally putting down one crying
baby and then she has to come over, come, Cory,
come here.
Speaker 4 (05:39):
You would say that Monty is a daddy's.
Speaker 5 (05:41):
Girl now yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, definitely, because I think
her teaking and Monty so like they're too smart for
each other, have their own little connection.
Speaker 2 (05:59):
I can't trick Mammy to talk to this idiot.
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