Birth Trauma, Postpartum Descent, and the 40 Days That Brought Me Back

I waited six months to tell this story.

Not because I didn’t want to — but because I wasn’t ready.

What began as a planned home birth became a multi-layered emergency:

a transfer to the hospital, a C-section under general anesthesia, and the beginning of the most sacred unraveling of my life.

Yes — it was traumatic. But not in the way we usually think of trauma.

It wasn’t just medical. It was spiritual.

It was a death of identity and the slow, sacred rebirth that followed.

What saved me wasn’t a tool or a technique.

It was the 40-day portal of Zuo Yue Zi — a practice rooted in ancestral wisdom that gave me stillness when I had nothing left.

This is not just a birth story.

It’s an offering for any woman walking through fire — and finding her way back to herself.

In this episode, I share:

• My 14-hour home labor and the moment everything changed.

• The surrender of an unexpected hospital transfer and emergency C-section.

• The spiritual shock of postpartum — and why no one prepares you for it.

• Why I chose to honor Zuo Yue Zi, the 40-day cocoon of ancestral stillness.

• How Chinese Medicine held me when nothing else could.

• What I’ve learned about trauma, identity rupture, and true recovery.

If you’ve ever felt lost, broken open, or unsure how to come back — this episode is a hand held out in the dark.