May 29, 2025 • 23 mins
On this episode of The Karen Kenney Show, I dive into something we all might bump-up against: those little "death wish" moments in our lives where we're not taking the best care of ourselves.
It all started with a crazy motorcycle ride I witnessed on 93 North, where this kid was weaving in and out of traffic at 120 miles an hour - totally reckless and dangerous!
That got me thinking about how we all have our own versions of the ol’ "death wish.”
Maybe it's ignoring medical advice, continuing unhealthy habits, or not prioritizing our physical and mental well-being.
I'm talking about those choices we make that deep down we know aren't serving us.
Things like not managing chronic conditions, skipping out on exercise, eating like crap, not getting enough rest, or creating unnecessary financial stress.
The real heartbeat of this episode is about having self-awareness and then breaking those patterns.
We know that our brains love familiar territory, which is why changing habits can feel so tough. But here's the deal: we have more control than we think!
By understanding how our neural pathways work and making small, consistent changes, over time - we can actually rewire our brain and create healthier habits.
Pretty cool, right?
So, this is an invitation to hit pause and to take a look at the different buckets in your life.
Where are you playing it kinda’ loose? What small choices are you making now that might make a big impact on your long-term health and happiness down the road?
What buckets/areas could use a little bit more of your positive attention?
This isn't about judgment - it's about being curious and loving yourself enough to make better choices.
Remember, every tiny step counts, and you are totally worth the effort! xo
KK’S KEY TAKEAWAYS:
• Our daily choices can slowly impact our long-term health.
• Reckless behavior isn't always dramatic, but even subtle stuff can be dangerous.
• The brain naturally prefers familiar patterns.
• Small, consistent actions can create new neural pathways in the brain over time.
• Self-awareness is the first step to making those meaningful changes.
• Resistance is a normal part of the human experience.
• Our health involves different buckets - mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual.
• Your personal development work affects more than just you.
• Compassionate self-reflection is more powerful than harsh self-criticism.
• Prioritizing self-care is an act of love.
• The Nest - Group Mentoring Program
BIO:
Karen Kenney is a certified Spiritual Mentor, Writer, Integrative Change Worker, Coach and Hypnotist. She’s known for her dynamic storytelling, her sense of humor, her Boston accent, and her no-BS, down-to-earth approach to Spirituality and transformational work.
KK is a wicked curious human being, a life-long learner, and has been an entrepreneur for over 20 years! She’s also a yoga teacher of 24+ years, a Certified Gateless Writing Instructor, and an author, speaker, retreat leader, and the host of The Karen Kenney Show podcast.
She coaches both the conscious + unconscious mind using practical Neuroscience, Subconscious Reprogramming, Integrative Hypnosis/Change Work, and Spiritual Mentorship. These tools help clients to regulate their nervous systems, remove blocks, rewrite stories, rewire beliefs, and reimagine what’s possible in their lives and business!
Karen encourages people to deepen their connection to Self, Source and Spirit in down-to-earth and actionable ways and wants them to have their own lived experience with spirituality and to not just “take her word for it”.
She helps people to shift their minds from fear to Love - using compassion, storytelling and humor. Her work is effective, efficient, memorable, and fun
KK’s been a student of A Course in Miracles...
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Karen Kenney (00:01):
Hey, welcome to the Karen Kenney show. I'm super duper excited to be here with you today, and thank you so much for tuning in. I realize it's been a while
since I've introduced myself. So if anybodyhere is new, Hi, it's nice to meet you. Oh, my God, I don't know how you got here. Maybe somebody referred you, or you stumbled
(00:24):
across me on Spotify or Instagram orwhatever. I don't know Apple podcast, but if you're listening, I appreciate that you're spending some time with me today. And you
know, it's always interesting when I try todo an introduction, because, like, I do a lot of things, right? I'm a spiritual mentor, I'm a writer, I'm a storyteller, I'm
a podcast host. I am a yoga teacher. I'vebeen a yoga teacher forever. I'm a hypnotist, I'm an integrative life coach, like, I'm a lot of things. It's a Thai Yoga
(00:52):
massage, like, all these things. But when Ido this show, what I'm really doing is kind of pulling from, like, just the experience of being human, and as a human who does the
kind of work that I do, and spiritualmentoring, and personal development and stuff like that, subconscious reprogramming, coaching, the unconscious mind, all that
stuff, and kind of bring it together withspirituality and storytelling. And so I always love to share, like a personal story, perhaps, and then share how it kind of
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universally applies to all of us, and alongthe way, drop some tools, some shifts in perception, right, from love to fear, I mean, from fear to love, that can help us to
maybe kind of come to understand ourselves alittle bit better, to spread a little more love in the world, to know why we do what we do, and think what we think, and say what we
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say, and believe what we believe, and tellthe stories that we tell about ourselves in the world around us and for me, like I said, I use this podcast as a vehicle to spread a
little more love in the world. So a littlemore kindness, you know what I mean, a little more compassion, a little more a little more invitation to, you know, be kind
to yourself and to others, into animals,etc. So just thank you so much for being here. So I'm gonna start. Let's have a little chat. Let's just have a little chat,
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shall we? So here's a little something.Here's a little something. You may or may not know about me, but I tend to be a fast driver. Now, I don't have any speeding
tickets on my record right now, you knowwhat I mean? I mean, I haven't gotten a speeding ticket in a really long time, but I do tend to drive fast, not unsafely, not
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like, insanely fast, but like, let's saythat you know the speed limit, 70. I'll probably like, that's what's allowed, you know, I'll probably push it like 76 so I can
get, you know, maybe 80. You know what I'msaying. So again. But I'm very mindful when I drive, I don't drive erratically, etc, but I do tend even, even when I was a kid, when
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I was in Home Ec. Oh, my God, my homeeconomics teacher, who taught us, I think she taught us sewing, for sure. I can't remember if she also taught us cooking, but
when we were learning how to sew, like onthe sewing machines, she would always yell at me for being such a lead foot, because I would always be like, Oh, my God, I would
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always step on it too hot, and it'd be like,you know, and she would often threatened, her big threat, my my teacher was so funny, and her big threat would be, don't make me
send you to Siberia. That was her way ofkind of like sending you over into the corner so you could just stop either interrupting the class or stop being a total
pain in her ass, you know what I mean. SoI've notoriously been a little bit of a lead foot. Now the reason, there's a reason why I'm telling you this, why should you give a
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shit? Because I'm about to make my point. Sothe other day, I was coming back from Massachusetts, driving up 93 north and those of you who are, like, local to the area, you
know, like, that's a pretty like, like afour lane highway, we also have, like, toll booths, you know, it's like, it's legit. It's a lot of cars and a lot of movement,
especially at the time of day. So I was kindof coming up from Lawrence, and it was probably like, maybe four ish in the afternoons. This is when the work traffic,
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like stats tell, you know, people gettingout of government jobs, the teachers, whatever. So I'm driving, and the traffic was moving, so it wasn't like crazy bad
traffic or anything like that. But there's alot of cars on the road. And you know how sometimes you can hear a thing be like a train, like a train coming down, like you
can hear it in the distance before you canactually put your eyeballs on it. So while I'm driving, all of a sudden, I can hear this, sound like this, okay, which we can
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easily recognize. It's not a mosquito. Whatcould it be? It's somebody on one of those, what some people would call them, crotch rockets, like one of those. Fast
motorcycles, right? Not like the Halley'snot the room, like the deep throttle, the throaty ones. This is like a z so I can hear it. I can hear the motorcycle coming way
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before I see it. And then all of a sudden, Ilook down and I'm doing like, you know, like 7880 miles an hour. I'm cruising, and all of a sudden this kid goes flying. Now I will
say at least they had a helmet on, but thiskid had, like, no leathers on, like no protective gear, no gloves, no like, he just had on, like, regular, like, Haha, pants or
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jeans or whatever he was wearing, and a Tshirt and a helmet. And when I tell you, this kid not only flew by me, like I was, like, going like 30, this kid flew by me. He
must, I swear to God, he must have beengoing like a buck 20. He must have been going like 120 miles an hour. He was flying. And not only was he a lying, he was weaving
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in and out of the cars, and he was so hellbent on going that fast and not wanting to go with the flow of traffic, you guys. So I'm in like, the probably, like the third
lane to the like that. Like, let's call itfrom the second lane from the left, right. So I'm not quite in the passing lane, but I'm still in the lane where everybody's
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moving fast, and then there's two lanes tomy right. Now the one to the the far right is usually the lane where people are going to be exiting, or people who drive a little
bit slower. This kid comes up on my leftVroom, like goes flying, cuts in front of me, and then shoots two lanes over, like weaves through cars, two lanes over, and
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then he's not happy there, so he goes intothe fucking breakdown lane. He drives in the breakdown lane, and he passes an 18 wheeler on the right in the breakdown lane. And
that's when I literally just blurted out.Now, I don't know if this is a saying that is universal or what's the word like by region, or if it's like, everybody across
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the United States says this thing, butsomething that was said all the time when I was a kid, and all of a sudden I blurred out, and I go, Jesus Christ, that kid has a
death wish. I was like, Jesus Christ, thatkid has a death wish. And I literally said a prayer for him. And I'm like, if he if his, I was like, Oh my God, if this kid's parents
is still alive, this kid has parents andthey saw this, they would be horrified. They would be terrified, terrified for this kid's life and safety. So when I said, this kid
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has a death wish,
I stopped. I didn't stop driving. But in myhead, like I had this moment, and I thought to myself, like, so then I hear this other voice that says, like, Yeah, him, him and
everybody else. And I thought to myself,That's a curious thing to hear or say or think, right? Like, in my head, I'm like, what's that about him and everybody else?
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And I started to think about how, yeah, nowmaybe this kids, and what that means when we say, you know, a person has a death wish, it usually means, it doesn't mean that they,
quote, unquote, really like want to die,like they're consciously trying to harm themselves or do it. It's that they're not thinking at all, and this is leading to
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really reckless behavior, dangerousbehavior, right? That's what that really means. If you see somebody like doing something stupid, like climbing a thing when
it's wet and slippery, and you're like,Jesus, this kid has a death wish, right? Because they're just not thinking they're doing something very reckless or dangerous,
okay? But at right, after I said that, Ithought to myself, how many things? Because it's really easy to focus on what other people are doing and to judge them, right?
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This is, this is what the ego mind does. Itloves to look at our brothers and sisters, our other humans that we share the planet with, or whatever, and judge, right? It
loves to kind of like, look at it and thenthrow its opinion on it, or its assessment, or whatever it is, right? It loves to go into shame and blame and guilt and blah,
blah, blah, whatever. And so I usually tryto take the awareness and immediately apply it as soon as I catch myself, like, bring it back to myself and ask myself the question,
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you know, and of course, in Miracles is aline, I'm paraphrasing, but it says something like, would you accuse yourself of the same thing, right? And I was like, Hey,
how many times have I ever driven, like,really fast? And I was like, yeah. I mean, honestly, I don't think I've ever driven that recklessly or dangerously. However, I.
We all, in our own kind of sick way, havethese little moments of death wish. And what I mean by that is, if we look at our lives, and we can look at it from a lot of
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different aspects, right? And I'll be usinglike other like situational people or whatever, in a moment too, but if we look at our lives, what are the things that we are
actively doing or not doing that are alsoprobably speeding up our mortality, right? Like I think about this. So let's, let's talk about a few examples. Let's say you
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have a friend who is like a type onediabetic, so they take insulin, they have to give themselves shot or keep track of their whatever, right? I was watching a show the
other day, and this person needed a medicalprocedure. They wanted to get a procedure done, and the doctor was aware that they were type one diabetic, and they said, Well,
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before we do this thing, we have to makesure that your blood sugars are good. And so the guy sat at hem and hawing, and the daughter, the guy's daughter, was also in
the room, and he was, she was like, Ah, he'snot that great at keeping up on it. And so they took his his blood his blood sugar levels, and it was supposed to be like,
let's say it was supposed to be like, I'mmaking this number up, but let's say it was supposed to be like 80 or whatever. Well, this guy's number was like 223, and the
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doctor was like, I'm so sorry. Like, Icannot work on you. I cannot operate on you. This is dangerous. Your first steps are. You have to go home and get your blood sugar
under control. And I just thought to myself,like, how many diet? And again, I'm not judging people at all, and this is more like just situational things, like examples to
kind of have us, like, maybe spurn our ownthoughts about ourselves and what areas right? I understand that insulin is wicked expensive, and it can be so hard for people
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to so again, this isn't a this isn't ajudgment on anybody's just an example, an idea. So, but how many people do you know who maybe have medical conditions, and they
were told you got to cut back on the salt,you got to cut back on the sugar, you got to come back on the booze, you got to cut back on the smoking, whatever it is. How many
people have been told like, Hey, if you keepdrinking, you're going to be dead soon, right? And they keep doing it, right? You know, you gotta stop smoking. You gotta stop
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vaping. You gotta stop putting that poison,that stuff in your body, your lungs can't take it. And you know, we've seen people, I've seen people with literally, like, like
oxygen up their nose, still power puffing,like, on a cigarette, you know, got emphysema, and they just keep doing it. And so our examples, personally might not be
that extreme, but it's not a bad thing oncein a while, right to take a look and say, like, oh yeah, where could I be making maybe different or better choices? You know, I
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know sometimes, like once, not once a year,but a lot of times, when you're going to get life insurance, they'll send, like, a nurse to your house, or they'll have you go to a
lab or something and get your blood workdone, because they want to know who they're insuring and, like, what kind of shenanigans you're up to, you know. Or sometimes, if you
were doing your annual doctor visit, like,they do your blood panel, and they'll come back and they'll say, you know, I know some people, they'll say, like, Okay, this was
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low, this was high. Like, for a lot ofpeople, it's cholesterol because, I mean, as a vegan, you know, I don't have that cholesterol issue. Now, I know some people,
they'll say it's genetic, it's hereditary,whatever. Again, I'm not judging people, but we are a nation that loves to eat. It's dead, these poor, dead, murdered animals,
right? And animal proteins creates, for alot of people issues in their cholesterol. They're eating eggs, they're eating butter, they're eating beef, they're eating
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whatever, like all these things, and it'snot, not so great. And they'll know like, Oh God, I really should be more mindful of my diet. So there are often things that we're
doing that. Maybe we shouldn't do thatagain. Maybe it's not so extreme that somebody would look at you and say, Oh my God, that person has a death wish. But it's
like these tiny little little choices, orthese bigger choices, maybe that on a daily basis are like adding up to an earlier demise. And we have to ask ourselves, like,
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why don't, why isn't our health or our wellbeing, you know, a priority? Because it's not just sometimes what we're doing, like what we're putting in our body, what we're
putting on our body, how we're doing things,you know, the quality of our the quality of our thoughts, our mental state, like all those things. But sometimes it's what we're
not doing, you know, sometimes people aretold, or we've been told, whoever, again, I'm not, you know, like, hey, you need to, you need to start getting your ass moving,
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and whether that's walking or going to aclass or going to the gym or whatever it is. And sometimes we're not doing the thing. Things. So sometimes we're doing things that
are speeding up our mortality, and sometimeswe're not doing the things that are kind of creating that. Like, again, you know, got a little, tiny Death Wish, because why aren't
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we doing the things that we know we need tobe doing? And this is a crux of, like, I mean, I kind of know the answer. A lot of times it's resistance, right? And resistance
can be a mother, right? My resistance can belike, whoo. It can be tough. And people will say to me, like, why do I do that? KK, like, Why do I self sabotage? Why do I keep doing
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this thing? I was like, because the this ishow the brain works. The brain tries to conserve energy by keeping you in the familiar to keeping you in the patterns it
is already learned things if you dosomething enough times in a particular way with enough emotion, repetition, repetition. This is why we say repetition is the mother
of all learning. But neurons in your brainthat keep firing together, they end up wiring together. And this is why, for a lot of people, they'll stop doing something
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right. They'll stop making better choices,and then they slip up one day, and then they're like, Marie, it's just like rolling downhill and back to the starting point,
because the brain is used to already doing athing so well, and that's why they say it it takes a certain amount of time to create a new habit, which to me, is just another way
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of saying of creating a new neural network,a new neural pathway in your brain, so that the new behavior becomes more familiar, and then that old synapsis weakens a little bit,
you know what I mean. But so this is reallyjust an invitation, like I said at the beginning of the show. You know, part of my desire with this show is to spread a little
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more love in the world. And one of the waysthat I spread love as a spiritual mentor and as a coach and all these things a yoga teacher is for people to have a better self
understanding, to know why like, to knowthemselves, to know not only their capital S self, their true self, like who you are, is one of God's kids in a divine being, in an
extension of the universe, you know,extension of love, but also to kind of keep an eye on that small s self, that ego personality, that the person you are, your
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behaviors you know, Like your patterns, yourstories, the the shenanigans you're up to. Because if you're not looking at yourself, if you're not looking at those,
those choices that you're making, whetherit's with your thoughts, your words, your actions, whatever, and you're just kind of walking around, I think of it like being in
a pinball machine. You're just a ball that'slike, bumping up against a bumper, and it's just shooting you over there, and then, like, and then you're just feeling at the
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mercy of the world, and it's like, why isthis happening to me? It's like, we can't control a lot of shit, but we can actually control more than we realize and more than
we think. So this episode is just anopportunity for us to maybe pause, like, hit the pause button and take a look at yourself in these different brackets, or these
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different buckets, as I sometimes call them,right, like, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, financially, in your relationships, your health, all these
things, like, take a look around and kind ofassess and say, hey, where am I making choices? Like, am I overspending all the time? Am I am I spending more than I earn?
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Am I running up my credit cards and creatingall this debt and then creating all this stress in my body? Like, am I finding myself getting anxious or having panic attacks
about money, about how I'm going to pay forthis thing, whatever? But then you're over here, and you're eating out every day of the week, and you're eating, like, fast food,
shitty food, stuff that's clogging up yourarteries, not doing you any favors. You know what I'm saying? Are you spending time, like, with with, like, there's lots of ways
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to have fun that are free, you know what Imean. So, like I said, there's 1000 different things we could look at. I can't keep you, know, I don't want to keep
blasting you with all these examples, but Ibet you've already thought of at least one thing, and bet you've already thought of at least one thing where maybe you haven't been
spending enough time getting good rest.You're not putting making your sleep in and a priority. Perhaps it's you're not taking time to develop a deeper relationship with
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self, source and spirit, right? Like you'renot making which? To me, the personal development work, the personal awareness work, the spiritual work, to me, it's the
most it's the most important thing, one ofthe most important things that we do on the planet. It's through that work that then we can serve others. You know what I mean,
having a sense of self and purpose and whyyou're here, and who you are and the things you want to shift and change that don't just affect you. They affect your family, they
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affect your neighbors, they affect yourcommunity, they affect your clients, they affect your business, etc, right? Your work, the work that you do in the world. So I
think it's really important stuff. So again,it might not be as extreme as that kit. Had on his motorcycle doing like a buck 20, flying down 93 and just weaving it. I
literally was like, whole I said a prayerright on the spot. I was like, Dear God, keep this kid safe, because this could end really bad. And I was like, I do not want to
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be traumatized driving by a scene where hehis brains are like, splattered all over the place. Because, oh, that was scary. It was scary. It was, like, scary. You know, it was
like, that fast. It was scary. I was like,oh my god, yeah. I mean, he could have gotten off on an exit, but I didn't see anything like driving home, so hopefully the
kid got home safe. But where in your lifeare you maybe playing it a little reckless and loose? Where are you kind of maybe, like, doing some things or not doing some
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things. And I don't use the word should off,like I don't try to should on people. And there are just some basics that we know we should be doing right for our well being and
our health and our sanity. And you know whatI'm saying, our relationships, and it's important that we hit the pause button once in a while and take a gander. Take a little
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peak seat. Take a look at who and how we'vebeen being right. How are we showing up in the world, and what's been the quality, the quality of our choices. It's important to
look at that stuff. So I hope this has beenhelpful. I always say I either want this show to like, educate, elevate, enlighten, entertain, to create, to create connection
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in some way, to enhance your life. You knowwhat I mean. So hopefully, if you're still listening, that this was helpful in some way, and if you if you got something from
it, and you can think of somebody else thatmight benefit from it. Please share this sucker with them. Just forward them. If you are somebody who watches this on YouTube,
just share them the link. Or if you listenon my website or on Apple, Spotify all the different 1000s of ways there is to listen, maybe you just forward them the link so they
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can check it out as well. So thank you somuch for tuning in. I really appreciate it. And if you want to know what I'm up to, the different ways that we could work together,
whether one to one or in a group situation.Just go to my website, Karen kenney.com, you'll see options for the nest, for the quest for, you know, work with me yoga.
There's a bunch of stuff that I'm that I'malways have going on. So I appreciate you. I'm sending you so much love. Thank you for being here wherever you go. May you leave
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the animals and the people and the planetand yourself the environment better than how you first find it wherever you go. May you and your energy and your presence and your
love and your curiosity, right, be ablessing. Bye. You.
Hey, welcome to the Karen Kenney show. I'm super duper excited to be here with you today, and thank you so much for tuning in. I realize it's been a while
since I've introduced myself. So if anybodyhere is new, Hi, it's nice to meet you. Oh, my God, I don't know how you got here. Maybe somebody referred you, or you stumbled
(00:24):
across me on Spotify or Instagram orwhatever. I don't know Apple podcast, but if you're listening, I appreciate that you're spending some time with me today. And you
know, it's always interesting when I try todo an introduction, because, like, I do a lot of things, right? I'm a spiritual mentor, I'm a writer, I'm a storyteller, I'm
a podcast host. I am a yoga teacher. I'vebeen a yoga teacher forever. I'm a hypnotist, I'm an integrative life coach, like, I'm a lot of things. It's a Thai Yoga
(00:52):
massage, like, all these things. But when Ido this show, what I'm really doing is kind of pulling from, like, just the experience of being human, and as a human who does the
kind of work that I do, and spiritualmentoring, and personal development and stuff like that, subconscious reprogramming, coaching, the unconscious mind, all that
stuff, and kind of bring it together withspirituality and storytelling. And so I always love to share, like a personal story, perhaps, and then share how it kind of
(01:20):
universally applies to all of us, and alongthe way, drop some tools, some shifts in perception, right, from love to fear, I mean, from fear to love, that can help us to
maybe kind of come to understand ourselves alittle bit better, to spread a little more love in the world, to know why we do what we do, and think what we think, and say what we
(01:41):
say, and believe what we believe, and tellthe stories that we tell about ourselves in the world around us and for me, like I said, I use this podcast as a vehicle to spread a
little more love in the world. So a littlemore kindness, you know what I mean, a little more compassion, a little more a little more invitation to, you know, be kind
to yourself and to others, into animals,etc. So just thank you so much for being here. So I'm gonna start. Let's have a little chat. Let's just have a little chat,
(02:11):
shall we? So here's a little something.Here's a little something. You may or may not know about me, but I tend to be a fast driver. Now, I don't have any speeding
tickets on my record right now, you knowwhat I mean? I mean, I haven't gotten a speeding ticket in a really long time, but I do tend to drive fast, not unsafely, not
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like, insanely fast, but like, let's saythat you know the speed limit, 70. I'll probably like, that's what's allowed, you know, I'll probably push it like 76 so I can
get, you know, maybe 80. You know what I'msaying. So again. But I'm very mindful when I drive, I don't drive erratically, etc, but I do tend even, even when I was a kid, when
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I was in Home Ec. Oh, my God, my homeeconomics teacher, who taught us, I think she taught us sewing, for sure. I can't remember if she also taught us cooking, but
when we were learning how to sew, like onthe sewing machines, she would always yell at me for being such a lead foot, because I would always be like, Oh, my God, I would
(03:23):
always step on it too hot, and it'd be like,you know, and she would often threatened, her big threat, my my teacher was so funny, and her big threat would be, don't make me
send you to Siberia. That was her way ofkind of like sending you over into the corner so you could just stop either interrupting the class or stop being a total
pain in her ass, you know what I mean. SoI've notoriously been a little bit of a lead foot. Now the reason, there's a reason why I'm telling you this, why should you give a
(03:53):
shit? Because I'm about to make my point. Sothe other day, I was coming back from Massachusetts, driving up 93 north and those of you who are, like, local to the area, you
know, like, that's a pretty like, like afour lane highway, we also have, like, toll booths, you know, it's like, it's legit. It's a lot of cars and a lot of movement,
especially at the time of day. So I was kindof coming up from Lawrence, and it was probably like, maybe four ish in the afternoons. This is when the work traffic,
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like stats tell, you know, people gettingout of government jobs, the teachers, whatever. So I'm driving, and the traffic was moving, so it wasn't like crazy bad
traffic or anything like that. But there's alot of cars on the road. And you know how sometimes you can hear a thing be like a train, like a train coming down, like you
can hear it in the distance before you canactually put your eyeballs on it. So while I'm driving, all of a sudden, I can hear this, sound like this, okay, which we can
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easily recognize. It's not a mosquito. Whatcould it be? It's somebody on one of those, what some people would call them, crotch rockets, like one of those. Fast
motorcycles, right? Not like the Halley'snot the room, like the deep throttle, the throaty ones. This is like a z so I can hear it. I can hear the motorcycle coming way
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before I see it. And then all of a sudden, Ilook down and I'm doing like, you know, like 7880 miles an hour. I'm cruising, and all of a sudden this kid goes flying. Now I will
say at least they had a helmet on, but thiskid had, like, no leathers on, like no protective gear, no gloves, no like, he just had on, like, regular, like, Haha, pants or
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jeans or whatever he was wearing, and a Tshirt and a helmet. And when I tell you, this kid not only flew by me, like I was, like, going like 30, this kid flew by me. He
must, I swear to God, he must have beengoing like a buck 20. He must have been going like 120 miles an hour. He was flying. And not only was he a lying, he was weaving
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in and out of the cars, and he was so hellbent on going that fast and not wanting to go with the flow of traffic, you guys. So I'm in like, the probably, like the third
lane to the like that. Like, let's call itfrom the second lane from the left, right. So I'm not quite in the passing lane, but I'm still in the lane where everybody's
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moving fast, and then there's two lanes tomy right. Now the one to the the far right is usually the lane where people are going to be exiting, or people who drive a little
bit slower. This kid comes up on my leftVroom, like goes flying, cuts in front of me, and then shoots two lanes over, like weaves through cars, two lanes over, and
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then he's not happy there, so he goes intothe fucking breakdown lane. He drives in the breakdown lane, and he passes an 18 wheeler on the right in the breakdown lane. And
that's when I literally just blurted out.Now, I don't know if this is a saying that is universal or what's the word like by region, or if it's like, everybody across
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the United States says this thing, butsomething that was said all the time when I was a kid, and all of a sudden I blurred out, and I go, Jesus Christ, that kid has a
death wish. I was like, Jesus Christ, thatkid has a death wish. And I literally said a prayer for him. And I'm like, if he if his, I was like, Oh my God, if this kid's parents
is still alive, this kid has parents andthey saw this, they would be horrified. They would be terrified, terrified for this kid's life and safety. So when I said, this kid
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has a death wish,
I stopped. I didn't stop driving. But in myhead, like I had this moment, and I thought to myself, like, so then I hear this other voice that says, like, Yeah, him, him and
everybody else. And I thought to myself,That's a curious thing to hear or say or think, right? Like, in my head, I'm like, what's that about him and everybody else?
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And I started to think about how, yeah, nowmaybe this kids, and what that means when we say, you know, a person has a death wish, it usually means, it doesn't mean that they,
quote, unquote, really like want to die,like they're consciously trying to harm themselves or do it. It's that they're not thinking at all, and this is leading to
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really reckless behavior, dangerousbehavior, right? That's what that really means. If you see somebody like doing something stupid, like climbing a thing when
it's wet and slippery, and you're like,Jesus, this kid has a death wish, right? Because they're just not thinking they're doing something very reckless or dangerous,
okay? But at right, after I said that, Ithought to myself, how many things? Because it's really easy to focus on what other people are doing and to judge them, right?
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This is, this is what the ego mind does. Itloves to look at our brothers and sisters, our other humans that we share the planet with, or whatever, and judge, right? It
loves to kind of like, look at it and thenthrow its opinion on it, or its assessment, or whatever it is, right? It loves to go into shame and blame and guilt and blah,
blah, blah, whatever. And so I usually tryto take the awareness and immediately apply it as soon as I catch myself, like, bring it back to myself and ask myself the question,
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you know, and of course, in Miracles is aline, I'm paraphrasing, but it says something like, would you accuse yourself of the same thing, right? And I was like, Hey,
how many times have I ever driven, like,really fast? And I was like, yeah. I mean, honestly, I don't think I've ever driven that recklessly or dangerously. However, I.
We all, in our own kind of sick way, havethese little moments of death wish. And what I mean by that is, if we look at our lives, and we can look at it from a lot of
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different aspects, right? And I'll be usinglike other like situational people or whatever, in a moment too, but if we look at our lives, what are the things that we are
actively doing or not doing that are alsoprobably speeding up our mortality, right? Like I think about this. So let's, let's talk about a few examples. Let's say you
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have a friend who is like a type onediabetic, so they take insulin, they have to give themselves shot or keep track of their whatever, right? I was watching a show the
other day, and this person needed a medicalprocedure. They wanted to get a procedure done, and the doctor was aware that they were type one diabetic, and they said, Well,
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before we do this thing, we have to makesure that your blood sugars are good. And so the guy sat at hem and hawing, and the daughter, the guy's daughter, was also in
the room, and he was, she was like, Ah, he'snot that great at keeping up on it. And so they took his his blood his blood sugar levels, and it was supposed to be like,
let's say it was supposed to be like, I'mmaking this number up, but let's say it was supposed to be like 80 or whatever. Well, this guy's number was like 223, and the
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doctor was like, I'm so sorry. Like, Icannot work on you. I cannot operate on you. This is dangerous. Your first steps are. You have to go home and get your blood sugar
under control. And I just thought to myself,like, how many diet? And again, I'm not judging people at all, and this is more like just situational things, like examples to
kind of have us, like, maybe spurn our ownthoughts about ourselves and what areas right? I understand that insulin is wicked expensive, and it can be so hard for people
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to so again, this isn't a this isn't ajudgment on anybody's just an example, an idea. So, but how many people do you know who maybe have medical conditions, and they
were told you got to cut back on the salt,you got to cut back on the sugar, you got to come back on the booze, you got to cut back on the smoking, whatever it is. How many
people have been told like, Hey, if you keepdrinking, you're going to be dead soon, right? And they keep doing it, right? You know, you gotta stop smoking. You gotta stop
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vaping. You gotta stop putting that poison,that stuff in your body, your lungs can't take it. And you know, we've seen people, I've seen people with literally, like, like
oxygen up their nose, still power puffing,like, on a cigarette, you know, got emphysema, and they just keep doing it. And so our examples, personally might not be
that extreme, but it's not a bad thing oncein a while, right to take a look and say, like, oh yeah, where could I be making maybe different or better choices? You know, I
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know sometimes, like once, not once a year,but a lot of times, when you're going to get life insurance, they'll send, like, a nurse to your house, or they'll have you go to a
lab or something and get your blood workdone, because they want to know who they're insuring and, like, what kind of shenanigans you're up to, you know. Or sometimes, if you
were doing your annual doctor visit, like,they do your blood panel, and they'll come back and they'll say, you know, I know some people, they'll say, like, Okay, this was
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low, this was high. Like, for a lot ofpeople, it's cholesterol because, I mean, as a vegan, you know, I don't have that cholesterol issue. Now, I know some people,
they'll say it's genetic, it's hereditary,whatever. Again, I'm not judging people, but we are a nation that loves to eat. It's dead, these poor, dead, murdered animals,
right? And animal proteins creates, for alot of people issues in their cholesterol. They're eating eggs, they're eating butter, they're eating beef, they're eating
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whatever, like all these things, and it'snot, not so great. And they'll know like, Oh God, I really should be more mindful of my diet. So there are often things that we're
doing that. Maybe we shouldn't do thatagain. Maybe it's not so extreme that somebody would look at you and say, Oh my God, that person has a death wish. But it's
like these tiny little little choices, orthese bigger choices, maybe that on a daily basis are like adding up to an earlier demise. And we have to ask ourselves, like,
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why don't, why isn't our health or our wellbeing, you know, a priority? Because it's not just sometimes what we're doing, like what we're putting in our body, what we're
putting on our body, how we're doing things,you know, the quality of our the quality of our thoughts, our mental state, like all those things. But sometimes it's what we're
not doing, you know, sometimes people aretold, or we've been told, whoever, again, I'm not, you know, like, hey, you need to, you need to start getting your ass moving,
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and whether that's walking or going to aclass or going to the gym or whatever it is. And sometimes we're not doing the thing. Things. So sometimes we're doing things that
are speeding up our mortality, and sometimeswe're not doing the things that are kind of creating that. Like, again, you know, got a little, tiny Death Wish, because why aren't
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we doing the things that we know we need tobe doing? And this is a crux of, like, I mean, I kind of know the answer. A lot of times it's resistance, right? And resistance
can be a mother, right? My resistance can belike, whoo. It can be tough. And people will say to me, like, why do I do that? KK, like, Why do I self sabotage? Why do I keep doing
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this thing? I was like, because the this ishow the brain works. The brain tries to conserve energy by keeping you in the familiar to keeping you in the patterns it
is already learned things if you dosomething enough times in a particular way with enough emotion, repetition, repetition. This is why we say repetition is the mother
of all learning. But neurons in your brainthat keep firing together, they end up wiring together. And this is why, for a lot of people, they'll stop doing something
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right. They'll stop making better choices,and then they slip up one day, and then they're like, Marie, it's just like rolling downhill and back to the starting point,
because the brain is used to already doing athing so well, and that's why they say it it takes a certain amount of time to create a new habit, which to me, is just another way
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of saying of creating a new neural network,a new neural pathway in your brain, so that the new behavior becomes more familiar, and then that old synapsis weakens a little bit,
you know what I mean. But so this is reallyjust an invitation, like I said at the beginning of the show. You know, part of my desire with this show is to spread a little
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more love in the world. And one of the waysthat I spread love as a spiritual mentor and as a coach and all these things a yoga teacher is for people to have a better self
understanding, to know why like, to knowthemselves, to know not only their capital S self, their true self, like who you are, is one of God's kids in a divine being, in an
extension of the universe, you know,extension of love, but also to kind of keep an eye on that small s self, that ego personality, that the person you are, your
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behaviors you know, Like your patterns, yourstories, the the shenanigans you're up to. Because if you're not looking at yourself, if you're not looking at those,
those choices that you're making, whetherit's with your thoughts, your words, your actions, whatever, and you're just kind of walking around, I think of it like being in
a pinball machine. You're just a ball that'slike, bumping up against a bumper, and it's just shooting you over there, and then, like, and then you're just feeling at the
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mercy of the world, and it's like, why isthis happening to me? It's like, we can't control a lot of shit, but we can actually control more than we realize and more than
we think. So this episode is just anopportunity for us to maybe pause, like, hit the pause button and take a look at yourself in these different brackets, or these
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different buckets, as I sometimes call them,right, like, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, financially, in your relationships, your health, all these
things, like, take a look around and kind ofassess and say, hey, where am I making choices? Like, am I overspending all the time? Am I am I spending more than I earn?
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Am I running up my credit cards and creatingall this debt and then creating all this stress in my body? Like, am I finding myself getting anxious or having panic attacks
about money, about how I'm going to pay forthis thing, whatever? But then you're over here, and you're eating out every day of the week, and you're eating, like, fast food,
shitty food, stuff that's clogging up yourarteries, not doing you any favors. You know what I'm saying? Are you spending time, like, with with, like, there's lots of ways
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to have fun that are free, you know what Imean. So, like I said, there's 1000 different things we could look at. I can't keep you, know, I don't want to keep
blasting you with all these examples, but Ibet you've already thought of at least one thing, and bet you've already thought of at least one thing where maybe you haven't been
spending enough time getting good rest.You're not putting making your sleep in and a priority. Perhaps it's you're not taking time to develop a deeper relationship with
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self, source and spirit, right? Like you'renot making which? To me, the personal development work, the personal awareness work, the spiritual work, to me, it's the
most it's the most important thing, one ofthe most important things that we do on the planet. It's through that work that then we can serve others. You know what I mean,
having a sense of self and purpose and whyyou're here, and who you are and the things you want to shift and change that don't just affect you. They affect your family, they
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affect your neighbors, they affect yourcommunity, they affect your clients, they affect your business, etc, right? Your work, the work that you do in the world. So I
think it's really important stuff. So again,it might not be as extreme as that kit. Had on his motorcycle doing like a buck 20, flying down 93 and just weaving it. I
literally was like, whole I said a prayerright on the spot. I was like, Dear God, keep this kid safe, because this could end really bad. And I was like, I do not want to
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be traumatized driving by a scene where hehis brains are like, splattered all over the place. Because, oh, that was scary. It was scary. It was, like, scary. You know, it was
like, that fast. It was scary. I was like,oh my god, yeah. I mean, he could have gotten off on an exit, but I didn't see anything like driving home, so hopefully the
kid got home safe. But where in your lifeare you maybe playing it a little reckless and loose? Where are you kind of maybe, like, doing some things or not doing some
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things. And I don't use the word should off,like I don't try to should on people. And there are just some basics that we know we should be doing right for our well being and
our health and our sanity. And you know whatI'm saying, our relationships, and it's important that we hit the pause button once in a while and take a gander. Take a little
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peak seat. Take a look at who and how we'vebeen being right. How are we showing up in the world, and what's been the quality, the quality of our choices. It's important to
look at that stuff. So I hope this has beenhelpful. I always say I either want this show to like, educate, elevate, enlighten, entertain, to create, to create connection
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in some way, to enhance your life. You knowwhat I mean. So hopefully, if you're still listening, that this was helpful in some way, and if you if you got something from
it, and you can think of somebody else thatmight benefit from it. Please share this sucker with them. Just forward them. If you are somebody who watches this on YouTube,
just share them the link. Or if you listenon my website or on Apple, Spotify all the different 1000s of ways there is to listen, maybe you just forward them the link so they
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can check it out as well. So thank you somuch for tuning in. I really appreciate it. And if you want to know what I'm up to, the different ways that we could work together,
whether one to one or in a group situation.Just go to my website, Karen kenney.com, you'll see options for the nest, for the quest for, you know, work with me yoga.
There's a bunch of stuff that I'm that I'malways have going on. So I appreciate you. I'm sending you so much love. Thank you for being here wherever you go. May you leave
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the animals and the people and the planetand yourself the environment better than how you first find it wherever you go. May you and your energy and your presence and your
love and your curiosity, right, be ablessing. Bye. You.
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