October 22, 2025 • 50 mins
Bass forgets his digital recorder, which is discovered by Kendra, leading us to hear all about a day in her life.
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(00:51):
Turn off your alarm, Beth. You.
Oh, damn it. And he forgot his recorder
again. God, he's lucky he's so cute,
(01:14):
because otherwise he'd probably forget that too.
This is Supervisory Deputy US Marshall Bass Marlow.
Today is May 9th, 2023 and todayI'll be in the arches on
business. Please leave a message or if an
emergency please contact me on talk.
Group 4 sweetheart, you left your recorder.
(01:36):
You also left your alarm on during my day off waiting for
the test results. So you owe me in Kansas this
evening. It's lady's choice.
I'm not talking about the movie.I'll bring the quarter up to
lunch and you can pick it up there.
Well, hello and welcome to the Mudson Scott voicemail system.
(01:59):
Please enter your extension. Thanks.
Now please enter your passcode. Oh, boy.
You have 3 messages. Message 1.
Hello Doctor Jennings, I hope you're feeling better.
I wanted to let you know that Keg has voiced another word.
(02:19):
Same repeating cadence 3 times with a confidence level of
98.9%. The word is Braefos.
I'll also call the Deputy Marshall to let him know as
well. We all.
Miss you in the lab and hope to see you soon.
Delete it. Hold on for your second message.
(02:40):
Hello. Hello.
You have to speak up there, young lady.
Phone connections aren't the best down here.
And I really do hope this is QVCand not one of those Nigerian
Princess again. That was kerfuffle.
OK, the matter of hand. I'd like to order one of those
homedics Gal ultrasonic top field humidifiers.
(03:02):
It's awfully dry down here, you know, the skin is all itchy.
Item number V84538 in my My credit card number is 40.
One deleted. Hold on for your third message.
Good morning, Kendra, I know youtook the day off today for
testing and results. Just a reminder to be down here
(03:23):
by 9:00 AM so we can make the communications window later
today. We have everything set up with
John Hopkins in Baltimore and three of their best technicians
are standing by. We'll go ahead and get the final
samples from you then, and I'll have them run in parallel.
Don't forget to continue fastinguntil you come in.
Only water or black coffee, but none of the hash Browns or eggs
Miss Alice is cooking this morning.
(03:48):
Not again all righty the 9:00 AMsharp and normally I wouldn't be
able to say anything, but the deputy said I had his
permission. So just letting you know that
his was the last Test for a lot and it came back negative.
So let's get you in and make it negative across the board TA
take it handy. I'd be happy to replay that
(04:09):
message if you want just hit 2. If you want me to delete it,
please push 3. I'll also forward your message.
Gosh, no problem at all. Just push.
Forward the roof, the roof, the roofs is on fire.
We don't need no water. Let the little church Mouse.
(04:34):
I have not seen you in Age of Dog.
How have you been doing? Oh, morning, Mikhail.
Good to see you 2. I'm OK, I'm just enjoying some
tea and oatmeal now that that I'm able to.
Is Vinnie Church must be killed?Does not understand?
(04:56):
Did you not like the oatmeals before?
No, no, I, I just had to take some blood tests this morning,
so I couldn't eat anything untilafterward.
But even now I'm not very hungry, you know, just nervous.
Sounds very serious, I I will sit and and chat with you for a
(05:20):
bit. Give Russian comfort and support
and I would also offer cheer butI have left flash of vodka in my
birth this morning so everythingis OK with your health.
I'm that's why I took the test this morning to make sure I'm
(05:40):
all right. I've been not feeling call
myself for the past few weeks, this is just making sure it's
not serious. I see Me Kill has noticed over
the past few months you and Tovorish have become very
(06:01):
serious. Not the lovey dovey serious but
in your behaviors around stationserious.
Very how same goes weight of world is on your back.
That's certainly the truth. The winter season starting,
Bass's nomination and judicial hearings, troubles back in the
(06:23):
United States. My mother coming down here, It's
just one problem after another after another.
Plus, there's other things weighing on my mind.
That is a lot of weight. Church Moss, you are correct.
(06:46):
If you don't mind me saying, Mikkel also knows you to
overreach puppet man to buy as many others secret missions.
Secret mission. Everybody forgets Janitor gets
around station quite a bit. Mikkel sees you all heading
(07:09):
after a strange direction and I several times.
There's nothing to worry about. Mikkel is from Russia remember
we know how to keep our mouths shut.
So late night visits from KGB. You all know that's trying to be
good guys, sneaking around, keeping secrets and helping how
you can reel heroes of Hogan. I don't know that one, Mikkel.
(07:37):
Heroes of Hogan. He is about the Americans who
are captured by Germans in WorldWar 2, the sequel.
They are in the gulags until waris over.
But what the Germans do not knowis this is exactly where they
want to be. In an enemy prison camp?
That sounds horrible. Yeah, it's church Mass.
(07:58):
They had the whole under the grounds operation in camps and
that is not just switched in thewords either.
They dig tunnels, have secret rooms under the camp, they help
others who are captured to escape and foil many of the
German war plans by sneaking into the towns.
Colonel Hogan's and his men's actually ruined so many enemy
(08:19):
plans that the Americans want them to stay where they are.
They are vital for good of war effort.
What they do not think about though was weight of this
activity that they're being asked to do.
So much responsibility and information to pass on to the
Allies. What's very tricky is they also
(08:41):
must to be making sure they do not get Colonel like Glass and
Sergeant Fundingman sent to Russian front.
Germans are very scared of our front.
The Hogan and his heroes knew what they were doing was very
dangerous. If they were discovered, it
would be very bad for them. They'd probably be shot.
(09:04):
Very big risks. They were taking this.
This is what truly makes them the heroes.
Despite the danger, despite all the risks, they knew they were
only soldiers in the right places and also right times.
They knew they could do so much good for their country, for the
(09:25):
war. If they did nothing and just
wait for war to be over, who knows if it would be their site
that won. In many ways, I like to think
that Americans won World War 2. The sequel because of Hogan and
his men is like saying My dear Dado tells me he makes up one
(09:47):
time. Heavy is the head that wears the
many government secrets crown. I'm not sure that translates
properly. So I'm this Colonel Hogan.
Did he ever get caught with his secrets in hidden tunnels?
Oh, several times. The eyeglass Colonel and
(10:08):
Sergeant Fandeman almost find out that Gestapo came really
close one time, but yet they were successful until end of
show. You too.
You and these heroes, you are all in the right places in the
right times. Mikael does not know all these
(10:28):
secrets or hidden tunnels you have here, but I'm willing to
bet that if you did nothing withwhatever you know is happening,
you would not be comfortable with it.
No, you're right Mikael. I don't think I would be.
(10:50):
That helps. I appreciate your input as per
usual. This is what I do, a little
church mouse. I keep station clean as
whistles. I tried to write haiku points to
change worlds, and I remind all the smarty pants of highest form
of American contribution to art.The comedy television situation
(11:11):
show with it. Mikkel must check traps, he said
in the bathrooms. I might be onto the track of the
poop bandit. Now I'm definitely done with my
oatmeal. Good luck with your hunt.
I see nothing, I hear nothing. Miguel knows nothing.
(11:39):
Oh, good morning, Doctor Jennins.
How are we doing over here? I'm all right, Miss Alice.
How are you doing? Oh, I can't complain.
You know, could always be worse.But is there something wrong
with your oatmeal there? Oh, no, it tasted fine.
Stomach is just in knots today, I think.
(12:02):
Well, cripes almighty. Something tells me you've been
dropping a few pounds, though. Well, you're already such a tiny
little thing, you know, I sure hope if you're trying to slim
down, you're being careful aboutit.
No, no, not that. I'm just.
I must have a bug I'm working through.
Well, I hope it's not catching. Can't afford to be down at all,
(12:24):
not with Midwinter coming up in a few weeks.
There. Funny enough, Doctor Tim's
assured me this can't be transmitted person to person, so
you're safe. Well, if I wasn't a little
concerned before, gosh darn it, now I sure am worried.
Well, I saw Mikhail was just here talking to you and he
usually turns frown's right sideup quick, but guess even his
(12:49):
charms ain't working today, huh?I forget I'm not getting any
younger. I need to be sitting down more I
suppose. Well that just might be why this
was always one of the most comfortable places for me when I
was still really struggling withmy social anxiety sometimes.
(13:12):
Well, a lot of times I miss hearing people talk proper, like
back home in Minnesota. Oh, you know, I always meant to
ask you about that. So where exactly back home are
you from again? Well, technically I was born in
Oregon while my mother and dad were on speaking circuit for
(13:34):
universities. But my home where I was raised
until leaving for college was inWorthington, right by Lake
Okabina, close to the Iowa border.
A selfie gal then. I can't say I know Worthington
too well, though. I came from Redwood Falls.
But I guess no matter where you come from in Minnesota, the
(13:56):
saying is always the same. We don't have mosquitoes.
We've got we've got state birds.So what happened to your accent
then? My mother happened.
She was always a prim and properlady of fine breeding and
(14:18):
education from only the best stock of Cambridge.
Honestly she didn't care for anyof the American dialects.
Tried to put me and my siblings into private schools to learn
proper vocabulary. When I get mad, like really
flustered or angry, then the Minnesotan sneaks back.
Just ask Bass. Oh I darn couldn't believe it.
(14:41):
What about the accent coming back?
More than you getting all workedup there.
I just can't picture it. You're the sweetest little
Angel. Thank you, Miss Alice.
But it does happen, I promise. Well, you don't see.
OK, so what's the thing you missmost from back home, then?
(15:04):
Wow, that's tough. But you know, I really loved
going to Valley Fair, getting upearly on a Saturday and driving
the 3 1/2 hours up to Shakopee. Any trip up there was a was a
treat and, and her Big Brother would take us to all the rides
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and we could get all the candieswe could ever want.
And there was this fudge shop just to like the left of the
entrance and we could go in and get so many samples and we never
even bought a box. But just that like smell of
vanilla and, and then on the ride home, I remember the sky
(15:45):
being so clear. Once you hit 90 W and you were
between the towns, you could really start to see the Galaxy.
And then the Milky Way would just kind of hover in the
lights. And I think it was one of the
first times I really knew that Iwanted to learn everything there
was about it. Well, I I can hear you there,
(16:10):
sweetie. It really is pretty out there,
isn't it? OK, but I do have a follow up
question for you, and this is super important.
Casserole or hot dish. Oh, hot dish.
Come on. No contest.
Duck, duck, grey duck. Or if you went down to the Bar
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and Grill, what would you play? Oh, I never went to the bars
back home. I was way too shy, but I
remember one time my brother Devin won $100 playing pull
tabs. All right, if you're talking
pop, what's your flavor? Well, you know, I never turned
down a cold root beer. Unless it's winter and then it's
hot chocolate. Oh, there's our gal.
(16:55):
Knew we could get you to sneak it out.
That's about right there. Miss Alice, can I get your help
over here real quick, please? OK, then.
Time to head out, I suppose. I need to run so we can get
lunch ready here shortly. If you want to stick around,
though, I'll make you a juicy Lucy.
It's not on the menu, but anything for you, girl.
(17:16):
I have an appointment I need to get to shortly, and I'd like to
take a walk on the treadmill before that, so maybe later.
OK, then keep her between the ditches.
(17:56):
Oh, brilliant. Just what was missing from my
day visit from the from the member of the goody 2 Shoes
brigade. This matter, love.
Afraid you're putting on too many stones after eating all six
of those crisps you call dinner?I have a few minutes to waste.
Besides, I like walking. Helps my mind to focus, helps me
(18:18):
think and get centered. Also increases my memory, such
as how I never fully thanked youfor your involvement and having
my mother sent down here for a few weeks.
Oh you are quite welcome. Just sad the old girl couldn't
stay longer. Had both you and Marshmallow
positively on edge. You know you and I haven't
(18:42):
talked. I mean, like, not at all since
the first day I met you after you arrived at the dinner.
My boyfriend of course, has someboth obviously very strong
opinions in regard to you. But can I ask you a question?
Oh, this should be good for a laugh.
(19:03):
Go ahead. Are you happy?
Am I what? It's a simple question.
Are you happy? Not very many people see you on
station, and the few who do say you always sit alone in the
galley at Reno's bar during movie nights.
(19:26):
You sit by yourself with an air of don't get too close, hanging
in the air around you, hanging thick.
I don't fancy hanging around, and I have nothing in common
with any of you lot. I'm here to do my job, not
establish social connections. I remember when I was younger in
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my late teens and how all I wanted, no I wanted isn't
correct. All I could deal with was being
introverted. I'd look all around and see
others involved in conversationsand laughing and carrying on.
They always looked so happy and content and I couldn't have that
because of my anxiety. I thought I just wasn't wired to
(20:11):
be like that and a solitary lifeis what I was meant for.
It wasn't until many years laterI figured out that.
Interaction and friendship wasn't impossible for me to
have, just more difficult than for others.
It wasn't because I couldn't do it, but because I was forbidding
myself to leave what was then myown comfort zone like it was for
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me. I I think it's the same for you.
Isolation is a choice, not a condition.
It never has to strictly be that.
What in the bloody hell are you on about?
Are you honestly presuming to know me, doctor?
(20:53):
I think it's more about relatingthan knowing, really.
No, I'm not saying I know who you are and what motivates you,
but it doesn't take a scientist to make proper observations and
identify patterns, you know? I've really need to invest in
Airpods for when I'm in here. I get it, I promise you I do.
(21:15):
You're obviously a very intense individual, but you're
professional, you're dedicated and you're serious about what
you do, motivated and goal oriented.
Those are all great things to be, but at the end of the day,
(21:36):
what is it all for long term? What's the plan?
What about love? Love, Oh doctor, give me a
detachable shower head and proper water pressure and I have
that covered just fine. I'm not talking about strictly
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sex. I'm talking about love.
Finding someone, some woman or man or person to call your own.
Someone to tell all your wolves to and grow old with, watch
stupid legal procedural television together and
experience sunsets? Nope, not for me.
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Is that the choice you've determined is the right one for
you? Or is that just a corner your
life has painted itself into? One doesn't always need a life
partner to be complete. Look, why are we even having
this conversation again? Like I said, I don't really know
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you. I know what Bass has told me
about you, but that's all it is.But he knows of you.
Look, if there's anything I've learned recently, it's that
tomorrow isn't a promise to anybody.
So much of my life was spent alone because I thought that was
all that was possible. I didn't even try to look at
alternatives. And I can't get back those
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years, that decade and then some.
I can't get it back. And you have, what, 10 years on
me? How long have you been putting
everything else 1st and you last?
And what is that truly, really what you want and what's right
for you? Are you happy?
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Are you all right? What?
No. I mean, yes, just a lot on my
mind these days. But that's not what we're
talking about right now. This is about you.
I need to head to my appointment.
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Thanks for the chat. You know, if you ever want
somebody to talk to. Yep.
Cheers. Love.
Absolutely. We'll keep that in mind.
Right, OK then. So it's only natural to have
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these thoughts and more acutely given the last week.
How's it been going, by the way?The last week I feel like I've
had almost every single emotion that exists.
Sadness, depression, anger, resentment, fear.
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Lots of fear. All very powerful and very dark
emotions to have, especially oneafter the other.
I've been coping with all of those.
I tried throwing myself into my work for the first day or two.
That was a miserable failure. Try as I might to keep my mind
occupied, soon enough those darkand bad scenarios, worst case
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type of scenarios, would start to sneak into my head.
I was making too many mistakes. So I spoke with Doctor Jovak and
Zeke and they agreed to give me the rest of the week off.
Zeke got it immediately and I'm sure he still feels guilty so he
didn't need convincing Dr. Jovak.
Once I got him to focus and stoptalking about how he never knew
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tomatoes were a fruit not a vegetable he gave me leave as
well and I told him I was sick and he told me to avoid
vegetable juice as it had misleading ingredients.
After I had the time I've been sleeping in really late and not
eating all that much. I'm always tired and I've been
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having stress induced nausea or from the Q fever nausea.
I imagine every day it feels like it's on separate battle.
What's been the hardest part? Depends on the hour.
Mornings are the worst. Waking up, those first few
seconds when I forget, and then it all crashes back in.
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The waiting, the not knowing, the inevitability of it.
And there's the rest of the day where I get to sit and watch the
world move on, knowing my life is stuck on pause until those
damn results come back. So you feel trapped.
Yeah, yeah, I do. Everyone else got their answers
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and they're fine. They're free and I'm just here
holding my breath. That's a lot of weight to carry
alone. I'm not alone, not physically at
least. Bass has made sure of that.
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And how's that been? He's been incredible, more than
I could have ever asked for, butalso completely insufferable.
Insufferable how exactly? It's the hovering Sydney, the
constant, watchful presence. At first it was a relief, like I
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could lean on him and he wouldn't let me fall.
But then I started realizing I couldn't breathe.
Every time I turned around, he was there, ready to do whatever
he thought I needed before I even knew I needed it.
And his heart is in the right place, Sydney, I know that, but
still. All that, it sounds like someone
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who cares a great deal. Yes he does.
He really does. And that's why I had to make him
leave today. Told him to go do his job, take
a break from babysitting me. He bought me on it, of course,
but he went. And how do you feel now that
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he's gone to the day? Guilty.
Relieved. Both at the same time I guess.
I mean, I love that man Sydney, I do, but I just needed some
space, just a little bit of timeto sit with my own thoughts
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without him trying to shield me from them.
That's understandable. It's OK to need both comfort and
space. They aren't mutually exclusive.
Yesterday was the breaking point.
I snapped at him. I told him I didn't want dinner
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and that I wasn't hungry and he just looked at me for a long 2nd
and left and I thought maybe I'dfinally pushed him too far.
But 20 minutes later, he came back with grilled cheese and
tomato soup. I told him that over a year ago
in passing, that it was my favorite comfort food.
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That when I was a child, way up until a teenager when I got so
upset and everything was overwhelming, my father would go
make and bring me grilled cheeseand soup.
And Bass remembered that love. It is a grilled cheese sandwich
and tomato soup brought to you when you need it without having
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to ask. It was at that exact moment I
knew Sydney. Every fibre of my being told me
I'm going to marry that man. Kendra, that's a beautiful
realization. Yeah, it is.
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And yet you sent him away today.Because I needed to.
Because even with all that love,I need to handle some of this
alone. It's healthy, right?
Absolutely. Love isn't just about presence,
it's also about trust. Trusting that he'll be there
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when you need him, but also trust in yourself to stand on
your own when you need to. Exactly, exactly that.
I've told him that several timesand I think it may be starting
to sink in. I'm sure you already know this,
but Bass is a protector at work on station in his life, and it
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comes from a long line of protectors.
It's what he's trained to do andconditioned to react.
It's like how you look at information mostly from a
scientific perspective through the lens of logic of research
and study. You're saying I'm analytic and
bass is emotional? As with everything else out
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there, it it's how you take it all in.
I'd prefer to say you lead with your mind and Bass leads with
his heart. Opposites attract.
It's a tale as all this time you're really nervous about
these test results, and that's OK too.
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Natural even. But there are as many positive
emotions to apply as the negative ones you mentioned
before. I'm never going to get used to
you doing that, Sydney. It's eerie sometimes reading my
mind. Listening to your thoughts and
they're not the same thing. Still OK, positive stuff.
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Yes, I know there is a cure. If it's acute, then simple
medications we have here on station will resolve the
infection. And even if it's chronic, we can
still treat it. And given the infection, at
worst, it's still only a few months old.
So statistically speaking, Catherine said the chances of
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being chronic are remote. But.
It's still a scary place to be in, and I don't need to be a
mind listen to pick up on that one.
Would it make you feel any better to know that all the rest
of us felt the exact same way? That I felt the exact same way.
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A bit. I think it's more the
overarching effect, you know, the the one I wasn't expecting.
What is that? Questioning my own mortality.
It's a scary thing. I mean, sooner or later we all
reached the point where we know we aren't getting any younger
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and the days in front of us are less than the ones in the rear
of your mirror. Do you mind me asking you how
old you are, Kendra? I mean, yes, I was at your
birthday dinner last month, but I didn't want to be rude.
I'm 34. 34 Well, given the current lifespan of a woman in
these day and age 80 to 85 years, it's a bit early to be
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contemplating your old mortality, wouldn't you say,
doctor? So naturally the situation can
only make you rush to need to look internally, and I bet
that's been the number one thingoccupy in your mind maybe #2.
That and Q fever. Look, our time is almost up
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here. When did Doctor Tim say she
would have the results? In a little bit over an hour.
OK, may I make a recommendation,A request if you will?
Of course, Sydney, I trust you very much.
All right, thank you. Get the results and let me
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arrange to have the others gathered in the galley so you
can share them with all of us, just like we did with one
another. Don't have bass with you when
you get them. Continue to stand on your own
for this until afterwards. We'll either celebrate together
or we'll be there to support youand I'd be happy to make those
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arrangements if you'd like. Yeah, I'd like that.
Thank you. And for that hour until the
results are in, go to Reno's andget a drink and some pub food
because I can hear stomachs as well as thoughts and yours is
telling me you need something inthere.
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That sounds like a great idea. Thank you.
Sydney Hug. Hey, I'm never turned down a big
hug. Of course.
You hang in there, Kendra. You're going to get through this
too. And here you go, sweetheart.
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A club sandwich and a root beer.Wow, you, you're devoured
through those pretzels. I told you they were good,
didn't I? You know Reno, I just realized
you may be the only one on station other than Bass who
calls me sweetheart. I just noticed.
Now normally that would drive meup a wall, but from you it seems
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almost. Grandfatherly.
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, I get that quite a
bit, as you might have guessed. I don't mean nothing by it.
Obviously. I use a sweetheart young fella,
A mixy Dicks for a mix Webster. But when you get to be my age,
it never really comes out sounding like a put down or like
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I'm patronizing, you know, for me, every single one of you down
here like my grandkids. What about Arthur Wainwright?
You know, every single one of you here, except for Doctor
Lawrence Wainwright, are like mygrandkids.
Reno Not while I'm eating. I'm sorry, sorry, my comic
(36:20):
timing isn't what it used to be.I don't want to choke before I
get the test results. Test results huh?
Sorry to hear that. I've been hearing rumors around
and worries and medical. I never thought or realized that
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they might be talking about you.You OK, honey?
Well, that's the big question I'm dealing with.
Am I OK? I don't know, but thankfully I
should shortly. Is there anything I can do for?
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You no Reno. I don't.
I don't think so, but thank you for offering.
I'll know more about what's going on in just under an hour.
I noticed you've got the Marshalls recorded there with
you. You leave it behind again.
How many Times Now this season? Oh.
Jeez, that I'm aware of. I think it's like 7.
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I should have you get him one ofthose like bungee cords and we
can have him attach it and tie it onto his belt.
So I'll have it here the next hurt that flies in.
You know, we've got office poolson everything else around here.
Maybe I'd talk to Thomas and getus a pool going on the next day.
He leaves it's and where? Oh, Speaking of, how is the
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newest Marshall of these United States doing?
I haven't seen him here in the last few weeks.
The vote from the Senate isn't for another few weeks, so not
officially a Marshall yet. He doesn't like to show it, but
he's really not comfortable withthe amount of press he's getting
back in the world. That stunt by Franklin,
necessary as it was, certainly didn't help.
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And the renewed calls for ethicsinvestigations on many of the
senators and the Judicial committee is also being
attributed to him. That's right.
I, I remember hearing about thaton ICE FM News.
They're saying the I sheriff at now America sheriff and he's
putting notice out against crimeand corruption from street thugs
to crooked government politicians.
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Please don't let him hear you say that he feels he has enough
targets on him as it is. This is just additional
ammunition for detractors. OK, I understand he's he's a
very good man, but he's also a very humble young fella and I
don't want to embarrass him. Wow, you, you really are hungry.
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You're a devouring that sandwich.
Stress eating, I guess. Reno do you ever worry about
your health? Young lady, I just had my 81st
birthday not that long ago. The whole reason I'm running
this bar now, as opposed to all in cargo out there on the ice,
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is because of exactly that. Zeke was worried that all the
exertion in cold weather was going to, well, maybe keel over.
Oh, it is very safe to say that not a day goes by where I'm not
thinking about my health. 81, Jeez, you don't look it.
And I thought for sure Bass toldme something about you being
near 60 or something. Well, that is just about the
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nicest compliment I've received in a very long time.
Thank you for that. Yeah, I, I'd lied on my
application when I first came out here, worried about ageism
and stuff. I still feel bad that I lied to
the Marshall about that when theinterview with me.
So I lied. I told him that.
Yeah, no, I'm officially in the auctioneering club now.
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Well, congratulations, but don'tyou want to retire like you
certainly have earned it? Well, kinder, With all due
respect, I I don't agree that I have.
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Take it from an old timer, therecomes a day when you want to
start weighing the good deed you've done with.
Well, not so good for me. The scale is still tipped the
wrong direction for my liking atthis time.
Plus this place is my home. I don't have any other.
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I think Bass told me something one time, that you have a
daughter and a grandson. No, I absolutely do.
He's a cute little cuss too. I've really connected with them
since the Marshall got here and I chat with them once a week
over the video phone. But they have their lives and
they don't need some old coot upand in their apple carts.
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No, I I go back there and I'm just just an old man in an
apartment somewhere. Ain't nobody I know here.
I have purpose. All right?
That's daydreaming. Best to keep my mind focused on
the here and the now. Doctor Jennings, please report
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to medical Doctor Tim's. Office oh Lord, Firefighter Fred
said something last week about. Him having the gout, I hope it
ain't catching around. None nasty business that gal
Sasha your cute little. Caboose over to medical.
Doctor Jennings, thank you. Well, guess this is it.
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Wish me luck right now. Best of luck sweetheart.
Listen now, you you keep those positive thoughts and those
things will work themselves out.OK.
How much is the bill? No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
You don't worry about that. Now that one is on the House,
the only thing I ask is that youpop by later and just let me
know that everything is truly all right, OK?
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OK. Thanks, Reno.
I will. I promise.
It's going to be OK, kiddo. But it wasn't until cross
contamination from Johns Hopkinscame back that we could confirm
100%. I see.
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Kendra, I know this is a fierce load to be landed on you all at
once, but are you certain now you don't want me to call Bass
in? No, cat, please don't.
All right then, if that's your wish.
But I'll need you to give me your full attention now.
In nearly every circumstance, Dr. Patient confidentiality
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holds fast. But in cases like this one, I'm
duty bound to report the resultsto the NSF given the way to what
this means. I'm sorry, Kendra.
I hope you can see my side. I've no choice but to notify
them and to give my strongest medical recommendation that you
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be evacuated off station once the winter passes and transport
as possible. OK.
Are you with me now? Less Kendra, tell me back.
What did I just say to you? What?
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Right. So I'm ringing the Marshall to
come down here. No, no, cat.
I'm all right. You just told me.
Because of the positive result, you have to notify the National
Science Foundation. You are going to have me removed
from Amis and Scott for medical reasons.
I have to leave after the winteris over.
I heard you. It's like you said, it's a lot
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to digest all at once. I'm OK, I promise you.
Please hang up the line, please.All right.
You had me worried there. So you did.
Yeah. I just need to focus a second,
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get centred of it. Listen now, whether I send word
to the NSF tonight or weak henceit won't change a thing for
where we stand. So here's what I'd advise you as
your doctor. Go on down.
I know the lads are all hanging about.
They're fretting and waiting forword.
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They've been pestering me for half the day for any bit of
news. Yeah.
I, I told them I'd head down to the galley after getting the
results. They're all literally right next
door. It's dinner time and they're all
gathered together. I promised I'd stop by.
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I'll, I'll tell them all at once.
Oh, for sure. Promises or no promises, you do
what feels right to you. Now that you've got the truth of
it, go tell them all. Or just the Marshall, if that's
it's a bit easier. Zeke already pulled you off duty
till the day after tomorrow. So take the time, settle
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yourself. The rest can wait.
And in the morning, after you'vehad a bit of sleep, you come
back here and we'll set up your medical routine and all the
monitoring you'll need for the winter stretch ahead.
Yeah. Thank.
Thank you, Catherine. I appreciate it.
I'm. I'm going to head down to the
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galley now. Tell them, good woman, give me
number day and night. Darling, if it all feels too
much, you call me straight away.I'll be here for you.
Yeah, I will. Oh, here she is.
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Oh. No, Oh, oh, fuck me.
I'm so sorry. But but we've got this right?
It's curable, Catherine said. That even in a chronic situation
that we have antibiotics right here on the station and getting
you a meal on a program of twicedaily vacation and we can most
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likely resolve everything beforethere's any permanent damage to
your heart valves or maybe liver.
This isn't curable. You may not curable.
Dr. Tim's a positive that Q fever could be fully treated,
said said. Doxy something or hydra
something would do the trick. What the fuck happened?
(47:25):
I ain't apologizing for that one.
Lord, I pray for some good news.Where you at now, huh, Kendra?
Everybody, please, why don't we let Kendra sit down so she can
fully explain? OK, so let me get this straight.
I know you're burning. Science types has a clue what's
going on. Didn't notice the damn what the
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doctor was up to. Well, like that.
A kick in the teeth. Yes, That makes the station's
top gumshoe because I had it paid weeks ago and I thought
your folks were supposed to be the Brainy 1.
Johnson, I'm about to kick your teeth.
And if you don't, shut the fuck up.
I tested negative for Q fever. What?
What? Wait, wait, I thought you said I
didn't say anything. Thomas Bass here just
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immediately jumped into protector mode.
Look, can we please just sit like Sydney said.
Forgive me, Doctor, but I think we all heard you say I'm not
curable. Yeah, I'm really confused now.
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I mean yay no Q fever, but then what?
Oh. Oh, seriously?
No marks? No.
So y'all don't know this fairy godmothers can sniff stuff like
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Turn off your alarm, Beth. You.
Oh, damn it. And he forgot his recorder
again. God, he's lucky he's so cute,
(01:14):
because otherwise he'd probably forget that too.
This is Supervisory Deputy US Marshall Bass Marlow.
Today is May 9th, 2023 and todayI'll be in the arches on
business. Please leave a message or if an
emergency please contact me on talk.
Group 4 sweetheart, you left your recorder.
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You also left your alarm on during my day off waiting for
the test results. So you owe me in Kansas this
evening. It's lady's choice.
I'm not talking about the movie.I'll bring the quarter up to
lunch and you can pick it up there.
Well, hello and welcome to the Mudson Scott voicemail system.
(01:59):
Please enter your extension. Thanks.
Now please enter your passcode. Oh, boy.
You have 3 messages. Message 1.
Hello Doctor Jennings, I hope you're feeling better.
I wanted to let you know that Keg has voiced another word.
(02:19):
Same repeating cadence 3 times with a confidence level of
98.9%. The word is Braefos.
I'll also call the Deputy Marshall to let him know as
well. We all.
Miss you in the lab and hope to see you soon.
Delete it. Hold on for your second message.
(02:40):
Hello. Hello.
You have to speak up there, young lady.
Phone connections aren't the best down here.
And I really do hope this is QVCand not one of those Nigerian
Princess again. That was kerfuffle.
OK, the matter of hand. I'd like to order one of those
homedics Gal ultrasonic top field humidifiers.
(03:02):
It's awfully dry down here, you know, the skin is all itchy.
Item number V84538 in my My credit card number is 40.
One deleted. Hold on for your third message.
Good morning, Kendra, I know youtook the day off today for
testing and results. Just a reminder to be down here
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by 9:00 AM so we can make the communications window later
today. We have everything set up with
John Hopkins in Baltimore and three of their best technicians
are standing by. We'll go ahead and get the final
samples from you then, and I'll have them run in parallel.
Don't forget to continue fastinguntil you come in.
Only water or black coffee, but none of the hash Browns or eggs
Miss Alice is cooking this morning.
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Not again all righty the 9:00 AMsharp and normally I wouldn't be
able to say anything, but the deputy said I had his
permission. So just letting you know that
his was the last Test for a lot and it came back negative.
So let's get you in and make it negative across the board TA
take it handy. I'd be happy to replay that
(04:09):
message if you want just hit 2. If you want me to delete it,
please push 3. I'll also forward your message.
Gosh, no problem at all. Just push.
Forward the roof, the roof, the roofs is on fire.
We don't need no water. Let the little church Mouse.
(04:34):
I have not seen you in Age of Dog.
How have you been doing? Oh, morning, Mikhail.
Good to see you 2. I'm OK, I'm just enjoying some
tea and oatmeal now that that I'm able to.
Is Vinnie Church must be killed?Does not understand?
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Did you not like the oatmeals before?
No, no, I, I just had to take some blood tests this morning,
so I couldn't eat anything untilafterward.
But even now I'm not very hungry, you know, just nervous.
Sounds very serious, I I will sit and and chat with you for a
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bit. Give Russian comfort and support
and I would also offer cheer butI have left flash of vodka in my
birth this morning so everythingis OK with your health.
I'm that's why I took the test this morning to make sure I'm
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all right. I've been not feeling call
myself for the past few weeks, this is just making sure it's
not serious. I see Me Kill has noticed over
the past few months you and Tovorish have become very
(06:01):
serious. Not the lovey dovey serious but
in your behaviors around stationserious.
Very how same goes weight of world is on your back.
That's certainly the truth. The winter season starting,
Bass's nomination and judicial hearings, troubles back in the
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United States. My mother coming down here, It's
just one problem after another after another.
Plus, there's other things weighing on my mind.
That is a lot of weight. Church Moss, you are correct.
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If you don't mind me saying, Mikkel also knows you to
overreach puppet man to buy as many others secret missions.
Secret mission. Everybody forgets Janitor gets
around station quite a bit. Mikkel sees you all heading
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after a strange direction and I several times.
There's nothing to worry about. Mikkel is from Russia remember
we know how to keep our mouths shut.
So late night visits from KGB. You all know that's trying to be
good guys, sneaking around, keeping secrets and helping how
you can reel heroes of Hogan. I don't know that one, Mikkel.
(07:37):
Heroes of Hogan. He is about the Americans who
are captured by Germans in WorldWar 2, the sequel.
They are in the gulags until waris over.
But what the Germans do not knowis this is exactly where they
want to be. In an enemy prison camp?
That sounds horrible. Yeah, it's church Mass.
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They had the whole under the grounds operation in camps and
that is not just switched in thewords either.
They dig tunnels, have secret rooms under the camp, they help
others who are captured to escape and foil many of the
German war plans by sneaking into the towns.
Colonel Hogan's and his men's actually ruined so many enemy
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plans that the Americans want them to stay where they are.
They are vital for good of war effort.
What they do not think about though was weight of this
activity that they're being asked to do.
So much responsibility and information to pass on to the
Allies. What's very tricky is they also
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must to be making sure they do not get Colonel like Glass and
Sergeant Fundingman sent to Russian front.
Germans are very scared of our front.
The Hogan and his heroes knew what they were doing was very
dangerous. If they were discovered, it
would be very bad for them. They'd probably be shot.
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Very big risks. They were taking this.
This is what truly makes them the heroes.
Despite the danger, despite all the risks, they knew they were
only soldiers in the right places and also right times.
They knew they could do so much good for their country, for the
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war. If they did nothing and just
wait for war to be over, who knows if it would be their site
that won. In many ways, I like to think
that Americans won World War 2. The sequel because of Hogan and
his men is like saying My dear Dado tells me he makes up one
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time. Heavy is the head that wears the
many government secrets crown. I'm not sure that translates
properly. So I'm this Colonel Hogan.
Did he ever get caught with his secrets in hidden tunnels?
Oh, several times. The eyeglass Colonel and
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Sergeant Fandeman almost find out that Gestapo came really
close one time, but yet they were successful until end of
show. You too.
You and these heroes, you are all in the right places in the
right times. Mikael does not know all these
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secrets or hidden tunnels you have here, but I'm willing to
bet that if you did nothing withwhatever you know is happening,
you would not be comfortable with it.
No, you're right Mikael. I don't think I would be.
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That helps. I appreciate your input as per
usual. This is what I do, a little
church mouse. I keep station clean as
whistles. I tried to write haiku points to
change worlds, and I remind all the smarty pants of highest form
of American contribution to art.The comedy television situation
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show with it. Mikkel must check traps, he said
in the bathrooms. I might be onto the track of the
poop bandit. Now I'm definitely done with my
oatmeal. Good luck with your hunt.
I see nothing, I hear nothing. Miguel knows nothing.
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Oh, good morning, Doctor Jennins.
How are we doing over here? I'm all right, Miss Alice.
How are you doing? Oh, I can't complain.
You know, could always be worse.But is there something wrong
with your oatmeal there? Oh, no, it tasted fine.
Stomach is just in knots today, I think.
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Well, cripes almighty. Something tells me you've been
dropping a few pounds, though. Well, you're already such a tiny
little thing, you know, I sure hope if you're trying to slim
down, you're being careful aboutit.
No, no, not that. I'm just.
I must have a bug I'm working through.
Well, I hope it's not catching. Can't afford to be down at all,
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not with Midwinter coming up in a few weeks.
There. Funny enough, Doctor Tim's
assured me this can't be transmitted person to person, so
you're safe. Well, if I wasn't a little
concerned before, gosh darn it, now I sure am worried.
Well, I saw Mikhail was just here talking to you and he
usually turns frown's right sideup quick, but guess even his
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charms ain't working today, huh?I forget I'm not getting any
younger. I need to be sitting down more I
suppose. Well that just might be why this
was always one of the most comfortable places for me when I
was still really struggling withmy social anxiety sometimes.
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Well, a lot of times I miss hearing people talk proper, like
back home in Minnesota. Oh, you know, I always meant to
ask you about that. So where exactly back home are
you from again? Well, technically I was born in
Oregon while my mother and dad were on speaking circuit for
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universities. But my home where I was raised
until leaving for college was inWorthington, right by Lake
Okabina, close to the Iowa border.
A selfie gal then. I can't say I know Worthington
too well, though. I came from Redwood Falls.
But I guess no matter where you come from in Minnesota, the
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saying is always the same. We don't have mosquitoes.
We've got we've got state birds.So what happened to your accent
then? My mother happened.
She was always a prim and properlady of fine breeding and
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education from only the best stock of Cambridge.
Honestly she didn't care for anyof the American dialects.
Tried to put me and my siblings into private schools to learn
proper vocabulary. When I get mad, like really
flustered or angry, then the Minnesotan sneaks back.
Just ask Bass. Oh I darn couldn't believe it.
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What about the accent coming back?
More than you getting all workedup there.
I just can't picture it. You're the sweetest little
Angel. Thank you, Miss Alice.
But it does happen, I promise. Well, you don't see.
OK, so what's the thing you missmost from back home, then?
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Wow, that's tough. But you know, I really loved
going to Valley Fair, getting upearly on a Saturday and driving
the 3 1/2 hours up to Shakopee. Any trip up there was a was a
treat and, and her Big Brother would take us to all the rides
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and we could get all the candieswe could ever want.
And there was this fudge shop just to like the left of the
entrance and we could go in and get so many samples and we never
even bought a box. But just that like smell of
vanilla and, and then on the ride home, I remember the sky
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being so clear. Once you hit 90 W and you were
between the towns, you could really start to see the Galaxy.
And then the Milky Way would just kind of hover in the
lights. And I think it was one of the
first times I really knew that Iwanted to learn everything there
was about it. Well, I I can hear you there,
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sweetie. It really is pretty out there,
isn't it? OK, but I do have a follow up
question for you, and this is super important.
Casserole or hot dish. Oh, hot dish.
Come on. No contest.
Duck, duck, grey duck. Or if you went down to the Bar
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and Grill, what would you play? Oh, I never went to the bars
back home. I was way too shy, but I
remember one time my brother Devin won $100 playing pull
tabs. All right, if you're talking
pop, what's your flavor? Well, you know, I never turned
down a cold root beer. Unless it's winter and then it's
hot chocolate. Oh, there's our gal.
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Knew we could get you to sneak it out.
That's about right there. Miss Alice, can I get your help
over here real quick, please? OK, then.
Time to head out, I suppose. I need to run so we can get
lunch ready here shortly. If you want to stick around,
though, I'll make you a juicy Lucy.
It's not on the menu, but anything for you, girl.
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I have an appointment I need to get to shortly, and I'd like to
take a walk on the treadmill before that, so maybe later.
OK, then keep her between the ditches.
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Oh, brilliant. Just what was missing from my
day visit from the from the member of the goody 2 Shoes
brigade. This matter, love.
Afraid you're putting on too many stones after eating all six
of those crisps you call dinner?I have a few minutes to waste.
Besides, I like walking. Helps my mind to focus, helps me
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think and get centered. Also increases my memory, such
as how I never fully thanked youfor your involvement and having
my mother sent down here for a few weeks.
Oh you are quite welcome. Just sad the old girl couldn't
stay longer. Had both you and Marshmallow
positively on edge. You know you and I haven't
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talked. I mean, like, not at all since
the first day I met you after you arrived at the dinner.
My boyfriend of course, has someboth obviously very strong
opinions in regard to you. But can I ask you a question?
Oh, this should be good for a laugh.
(19:03):
Go ahead. Are you happy?
Am I what? It's a simple question.
Are you happy? Not very many people see you on
station, and the few who do say you always sit alone in the
galley at Reno's bar during movie nights.
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You sit by yourself with an air of don't get too close, hanging
in the air around you, hanging thick.
I don't fancy hanging around, and I have nothing in common
with any of you lot. I'm here to do my job, not
establish social connections. I remember when I was younger in
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my late teens and how all I wanted, no I wanted isn't
correct. All I could deal with was being
introverted. I'd look all around and see
others involved in conversationsand laughing and carrying on.
They always looked so happy and content and I couldn't have that
because of my anxiety. I thought I just wasn't wired to
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be like that and a solitary lifeis what I was meant for.
It wasn't until many years laterI figured out that.
Interaction and friendship wasn't impossible for me to
have, just more difficult than for others.
It wasn't because I couldn't do it, but because I was forbidding
myself to leave what was then myown comfort zone like it was for
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me. I I think it's the same for you.
Isolation is a choice, not a condition.
It never has to strictly be that.
What in the bloody hell are you on about?
Are you honestly presuming to know me, doctor?
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I think it's more about relatingthan knowing, really.
No, I'm not saying I know who you are and what motivates you,
but it doesn't take a scientist to make proper observations and
identify patterns, you know? I've really need to invest in
Airpods for when I'm in here. I get it, I promise you I do.
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You're obviously a very intense individual, but you're
professional, you're dedicated and you're serious about what
you do, motivated and goal oriented.
Those are all great things to be, but at the end of the day,
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what is it all for long term? What's the plan?
What about love? Love, Oh doctor, give me a
detachable shower head and proper water pressure and I have
that covered just fine. I'm not talking about strictly
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sex. I'm talking about love.
Finding someone, some woman or man or person to call your own.
Someone to tell all your wolves to and grow old with, watch
stupid legal procedural television together and
experience sunsets? Nope, not for me.
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Is that the choice you've determined is the right one for
you? Or is that just a corner your
life has painted itself into? One doesn't always need a life
partner to be complete. Look, why are we even having
this conversation again? Like I said, I don't really know
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you. I know what Bass has told me
about you, but that's all it is.But he knows of you.
Look, if there's anything I've learned recently, it's that
tomorrow isn't a promise to anybody.
So much of my life was spent alone because I thought that was
all that was possible. I didn't even try to look at
alternatives. And I can't get back those
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years, that decade and then some.
I can't get it back. And you have, what, 10 years on
me? How long have you been putting
everything else 1st and you last?
And what is that truly, really what you want and what's right
for you? Are you happy?
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Are you all right? What?
No. I mean, yes, just a lot on my
mind these days. But that's not what we're
talking about right now. This is about you.
I need to head to my appointment.
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Thanks for the chat. You know, if you ever want
somebody to talk to. Yep.
Cheers. Love.
Absolutely. We'll keep that in mind.
Right, OK then. So it's only natural to have
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these thoughts and more acutely given the last week.
How's it been going, by the way?The last week I feel like I've
had almost every single emotion that exists.
Sadness, depression, anger, resentment, fear.
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Lots of fear. All very powerful and very dark
emotions to have, especially oneafter the other.
I've been coping with all of those.
I tried throwing myself into my work for the first day or two.
That was a miserable failure. Try as I might to keep my mind
occupied, soon enough those darkand bad scenarios, worst case
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type of scenarios, would start to sneak into my head.
I was making too many mistakes. So I spoke with Doctor Jovak and
Zeke and they agreed to give me the rest of the week off.
Zeke got it immediately and I'm sure he still feels guilty so he
didn't need convincing Dr. Jovak.
Once I got him to focus and stoptalking about how he never knew
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tomatoes were a fruit not a vegetable he gave me leave as
well and I told him I was sick and he told me to avoid
vegetable juice as it had misleading ingredients.
After I had the time I've been sleeping in really late and not
eating all that much. I'm always tired and I've been
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having stress induced nausea or from the Q fever nausea.
I imagine every day it feels like it's on separate battle.
What's been the hardest part? Depends on the hour.
Mornings are the worst. Waking up, those first few
seconds when I forget, and then it all crashes back in.
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The waiting, the not knowing, the inevitability of it.
And there's the rest of the day where I get to sit and watch the
world move on, knowing my life is stuck on pause until those
damn results come back. So you feel trapped.
Yeah, yeah, I do. Everyone else got their answers
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and they're fine. They're free and I'm just here
holding my breath. That's a lot of weight to carry
alone. I'm not alone, not physically at
least. Bass has made sure of that.
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And how's that been? He's been incredible, more than
I could have ever asked for, butalso completely insufferable.
Insufferable how exactly? It's the hovering Sydney, the
constant, watchful presence. At first it was a relief, like I
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could lean on him and he wouldn't let me fall.
But then I started realizing I couldn't breathe.
Every time I turned around, he was there, ready to do whatever
he thought I needed before I even knew I needed it.
And his heart is in the right place, Sydney, I know that, but
still. All that, it sounds like someone
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who cares a great deal. Yes he does.
He really does. And that's why I had to make him
leave today. Told him to go do his job, take
a break from babysitting me. He bought me on it, of course,
but he went. And how do you feel now that
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he's gone to the day? Guilty.
Relieved. Both at the same time I guess.
I mean, I love that man Sydney, I do, but I just needed some
space, just a little bit of timeto sit with my own thoughts
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without him trying to shield me from them.
That's understandable. It's OK to need both comfort and
space. They aren't mutually exclusive.
Yesterday was the breaking point.
I snapped at him. I told him I didn't want dinner
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and that I wasn't hungry and he just looked at me for a long 2nd
and left and I thought maybe I'dfinally pushed him too far.
But 20 minutes later, he came back with grilled cheese and
tomato soup. I told him that over a year ago
in passing, that it was my favorite comfort food.
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That when I was a child, way up until a teenager when I got so
upset and everything was overwhelming, my father would go
make and bring me grilled cheeseand soup.
And Bass remembered that love. It is a grilled cheese sandwich
and tomato soup brought to you when you need it without having
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to ask. It was at that exact moment I
knew Sydney. Every fibre of my being told me
I'm going to marry that man. Kendra, that's a beautiful
realization. Yeah, it is.
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And yet you sent him away today.Because I needed to.
Because even with all that love,I need to handle some of this
alone. It's healthy, right?
Absolutely. Love isn't just about presence,
it's also about trust. Trusting that he'll be there
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when you need him, but also trust in yourself to stand on
your own when you need to. Exactly, exactly that.
I've told him that several timesand I think it may be starting
to sink in. I'm sure you already know this,
but Bass is a protector at work on station in his life, and it
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comes from a long line of protectors.
It's what he's trained to do andconditioned to react.
It's like how you look at information mostly from a
scientific perspective through the lens of logic of research
and study. You're saying I'm analytic and
bass is emotional? As with everything else out
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there, it it's how you take it all in.
I'd prefer to say you lead with your mind and Bass leads with
his heart. Opposites attract.
It's a tale as all this time you're really nervous about
these test results, and that's OK too.
(31:28):
Natural even. But there are as many positive
emotions to apply as the negative ones you mentioned
before. I'm never going to get used to
you doing that, Sydney. It's eerie sometimes reading my
mind. Listening to your thoughts and
they're not the same thing. Still OK, positive stuff.
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Yes, I know there is a cure. If it's acute, then simple
medications we have here on station will resolve the
infection. And even if it's chronic, we can
still treat it. And given the infection, at
worst, it's still only a few months old.
So statistically speaking, Catherine said the chances of
(32:16):
being chronic are remote. But.
It's still a scary place to be in, and I don't need to be a
mind listen to pick up on that one.
Would it make you feel any better to know that all the rest
of us felt the exact same way? That I felt the exact same way.
(32:37):
A bit. I think it's more the
overarching effect, you know, the the one I wasn't expecting.
What is that? Questioning my own mortality.
It's a scary thing. I mean, sooner or later we all
reached the point where we know we aren't getting any younger
(32:58):
and the days in front of us are less than the ones in the rear
of your mirror. Do you mind me asking you how
old you are, Kendra? I mean, yes, I was at your
birthday dinner last month, but I didn't want to be rude.
I'm 34. 34 Well, given the current lifespan of a woman in
these day and age 80 to 85 years, it's a bit early to be
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contemplating your old mortality, wouldn't you say,
doctor? So naturally the situation can
only make you rush to need to look internally, and I bet
that's been the number one thingoccupy in your mind maybe #2.
That and Q fever. Look, our time is almost up
(33:44):
here. When did Doctor Tim say she
would have the results? In a little bit over an hour.
OK, may I make a recommendation,A request if you will?
Of course, Sydney, I trust you very much.
All right, thank you. Get the results and let me
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arrange to have the others gathered in the galley so you
can share them with all of us, just like we did with one
another. Don't have bass with you when
you get them. Continue to stand on your own
for this until afterwards. We'll either celebrate together
or we'll be there to support youand I'd be happy to make those
(34:24):
arrangements if you'd like. Yeah, I'd like that.
Thank you. And for that hour until the
results are in, go to Reno's andget a drink and some pub food
because I can hear stomachs as well as thoughts and yours is
telling me you need something inthere.
(34:44):
That sounds like a great idea. Thank you.
Sydney Hug. Hey, I'm never turned down a big
hug. Of course.
You hang in there, Kendra. You're going to get through this
too. And here you go, sweetheart.
(35:11):
A club sandwich and a root beer.Wow, you, you're devoured
through those pretzels. I told you they were good,
didn't I? You know Reno, I just realized
you may be the only one on station other than Bass who
calls me sweetheart. I just noticed.
Now normally that would drive meup a wall, but from you it seems
(35:35):
almost. Grandfatherly.
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, I get that quite a
bit, as you might have guessed. I don't mean nothing by it.
Obviously. I use a sweetheart young fella,
A mixy Dicks for a mix Webster. But when you get to be my age,
it never really comes out sounding like a put down or like
(35:58):
I'm patronizing, you know, for me, every single one of you down
here like my grandkids. What about Arthur Wainwright?
You know, every single one of you here, except for Doctor
Lawrence Wainwright, are like mygrandkids.
Reno Not while I'm eating. I'm sorry, sorry, my comic
(36:20):
timing isn't what it used to be.I don't want to choke before I
get the test results. Test results huh?
Sorry to hear that. I've been hearing rumors around
and worries and medical. I never thought or realized that
(36:43):
they might be talking about you.You OK, honey?
Well, that's the big question I'm dealing with.
Am I OK? I don't know, but thankfully I
should shortly. Is there anything I can do for?
(37:04):
You no Reno. I don't.
I don't think so, but thank you for offering.
I'll know more about what's going on in just under an hour.
I noticed you've got the Marshalls recorded there with
you. You leave it behind again.
How many Times Now this season? Oh.
Jeez, that I'm aware of. I think it's like 7.
(37:30):
I should have you get him one ofthose like bungee cords and we
can have him attach it and tie it onto his belt.
So I'll have it here the next hurt that flies in.
You know, we've got office poolson everything else around here.
Maybe I'd talk to Thomas and getus a pool going on the next day.
He leaves it's and where? Oh, Speaking of, how is the
(37:51):
newest Marshall of these United States doing?
I haven't seen him here in the last few weeks.
The vote from the Senate isn't for another few weeks, so not
officially a Marshall yet. He doesn't like to show it, but
he's really not comfortable withthe amount of press he's getting
back in the world. That stunt by Franklin,
necessary as it was, certainly didn't help.
(38:13):
And the renewed calls for ethicsinvestigations on many of the
senators and the Judicial committee is also being
attributed to him. That's right.
I, I remember hearing about thaton ICE FM News.
They're saying the I sheriff at now America sheriff and he's
putting notice out against crimeand corruption from street thugs
to crooked government politicians.
(38:34):
Please don't let him hear you say that he feels he has enough
targets on him as it is. This is just additional
ammunition for detractors. OK, I understand he's he's a
very good man, but he's also a very humble young fella and I
don't want to embarrass him. Wow, you, you really are hungry.
(38:57):
You're a devouring that sandwich.
Stress eating, I guess. Reno do you ever worry about
your health? Young lady, I just had my 81st
birthday not that long ago. The whole reason I'm running
this bar now, as opposed to all in cargo out there on the ice,
(39:18):
is because of exactly that. Zeke was worried that all the
exertion in cold weather was going to, well, maybe keel over.
Oh, it is very safe to say that not a day goes by where I'm not
thinking about my health. 81, Jeez, you don't look it.
And I thought for sure Bass toldme something about you being
near 60 or something. Well, that is just about the
(39:40):
nicest compliment I've received in a very long time.
Thank you for that. Yeah, I, I'd lied on my
application when I first came out here, worried about ageism
and stuff. I still feel bad that I lied to
the Marshall about that when theinterview with me.
So I lied. I told him that.
Yeah, no, I'm officially in the auctioneering club now.
(40:02):
Well, congratulations, but don'tyou want to retire like you
certainly have earned it? Well, kinder, With all due
respect, I I don't agree that I have.
(40:22):
Take it from an old timer, therecomes a day when you want to
start weighing the good deed you've done with.
Well, not so good for me. The scale is still tipped the
wrong direction for my liking atthis time.
Plus this place is my home. I don't have any other.
(40:43):
I think Bass told me something one time, that you have a
daughter and a grandson. No, I absolutely do.
He's a cute little cuss too. I've really connected with them
since the Marshall got here and I chat with them once a week
over the video phone. But they have their lives and
they don't need some old coot upand in their apple carts.
(41:07):
No, I I go back there and I'm just just an old man in an
apartment somewhere. Ain't nobody I know here.
I have purpose. All right?
That's daydreaming. Best to keep my mind focused on
the here and the now. Doctor Jennings, please report
(41:32):
to medical Doctor Tim's. Office oh Lord, Firefighter Fred
said something last week about. Him having the gout, I hope it
ain't catching around. None nasty business that gal
Sasha your cute little. Caboose over to medical.
Doctor Jennings, thank you. Well, guess this is it.
(41:56):
Wish me luck right now. Best of luck sweetheart.
Listen now, you you keep those positive thoughts and those
things will work themselves out.OK.
How much is the bill? No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
You don't worry about that. Now that one is on the House,
the only thing I ask is that youpop by later and just let me
know that everything is truly all right, OK?
(42:21):
OK. Thanks, Reno.
I will. I promise.
It's going to be OK, kiddo. But it wasn't until cross
contamination from Johns Hopkinscame back that we could confirm
100%. I see.
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Kendra, I know this is a fierce load to be landed on you all at
once, but are you certain now you don't want me to call Bass
in? No, cat, please don't.
All right then, if that's your wish.
But I'll need you to give me your full attention now.
In nearly every circumstance, Dr. Patient confidentiality
(43:05):
holds fast. But in cases like this one, I'm
duty bound to report the resultsto the NSF given the way to what
this means. I'm sorry, Kendra.
I hope you can see my side. I've no choice but to notify
them and to give my strongest medical recommendation that you
(43:28):
be evacuated off station once the winter passes and transport
as possible. OK.
Are you with me now? Less Kendra, tell me back.
What did I just say to you? What?
(43:50):
Right. So I'm ringing the Marshall to
come down here. No, no, cat.
I'm all right. You just told me.
Because of the positive result, you have to notify the National
Science Foundation. You are going to have me removed
from Amis and Scott for medical reasons.
I have to leave after the winteris over.
I heard you. It's like you said, it's a lot
(44:12):
to digest all at once. I'm OK, I promise you.
Please hang up the line, please.All right.
You had me worried there. So you did.
Yeah. I just need to focus a second,
(44:36):
get centred of it. Listen now, whether I send word
to the NSF tonight or weak henceit won't change a thing for
where we stand. So here's what I'd advise you as
your doctor. Go on down.
I know the lads are all hanging about.
They're fretting and waiting forword.
(44:57):
They've been pestering me for half the day for any bit of
news. Yeah.
I, I told them I'd head down to the galley after getting the
results. They're all literally right next
door. It's dinner time and they're all
gathered together. I promised I'd stop by.
(45:19):
I'll, I'll tell them all at once.
Oh, for sure. Promises or no promises, you do
what feels right to you. Now that you've got the truth of
it, go tell them all. Or just the Marshall, if that's
it's a bit easier. Zeke already pulled you off duty
till the day after tomorrow. So take the time, settle
(45:39):
yourself. The rest can wait.
And in the morning, after you'vehad a bit of sleep, you come
back here and we'll set up your medical routine and all the
monitoring you'll need for the winter stretch ahead.
Yeah. Thank.
Thank you, Catherine. I appreciate it.
I'm. I'm going to head down to the
(45:59):
galley now. Tell them, good woman, give me
number day and night. Darling, if it all feels too
much, you call me straight away.I'll be here for you.
Yeah, I will. Oh, here she is.
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Oh. No, Oh, oh, fuck me.
I'm so sorry. But but we've got this right?
It's curable, Catherine said. That even in a chronic situation
that we have antibiotics right here on the station and getting
you a meal on a program of twicedaily vacation and we can most
(47:05):
likely resolve everything beforethere's any permanent damage to
your heart valves or maybe liver.
This isn't curable. You may not curable.
Dr. Tim's a positive that Q fever could be fully treated,
said said. Doxy something or hydra
something would do the trick. What the fuck happened?
(47:25):
I ain't apologizing for that one.
Lord, I pray for some good news.Where you at now, huh, Kendra?
Everybody, please, why don't we let Kendra sit down so she can
fully explain? OK, so let me get this straight.
I know you're burning. Science types has a clue what's
going on. Didn't notice the damn what the
(47:46):
doctor was up to. Well, like that.
A kick in the teeth. Yes, That makes the station's
top gumshoe because I had it paid weeks ago and I thought
your folks were supposed to be the Brainy 1.
Johnson, I'm about to kick your teeth.
And if you don't, shut the fuck up.
I tested negative for Q fever. What?
What? Wait, wait, I thought you said I
didn't say anything. Thomas Bass here just
(48:07):
immediately jumped into protector mode.
Look, can we please just sit like Sydney said.
Forgive me, Doctor, but I think we all heard you say I'm not
curable. Yeah, I'm really confused now.
(48:28):
I mean yay no Q fever, but then what?
Oh. Oh, seriously?
No marks? No.
So y'all don't know this fairy godmothers can sniff stuff like
(48:50):
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