A spoken word piece about family wounds, estrangement, and choosing to live unapologetically.
From Elvis dying on Mount Marcy to stalking Death Valley stars—this is what shameless looks like when you stop trying to be the son they ordered.
👉 Gift Season Special: “every clock is a handgun pointed at my head”
https://a.co/d/3e0Uc7i
Raw poetry & art exploring autistic innocence and experience. Perfect for:
* Your autistic or ADHD someone (the gift of being seen)
* That someone who isn’t... and wants to understand (the gift of connection)
👉 Get the chapbook:
https://a.co/d/3e0Uc7i
👉 Full text & community: https://substack.com/@johnnyprofane1
👉 Live Autistic Truth playlist:https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL_812RrZO_QWB-WHVZRBe-hjr37UNPxdb
Chapters:
0:00 Family Is Complex for Me0:11 Living Life Perfectly Shameless0:45 Mount Marcy to Death Valley1:28 No Mask Hides the Pain
Recorded live, November 2024. Minimal edits—this is what authentic sounds like.
#ActuallyAutistic #ADHD #SpokenWord #FamilyDysfunction #AutisticPoetry #NeurodivergentVoices #AutisticAF
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AutisticAF Out Loud
Not here to inspire you. Here to give you an experience of a life.
Born to raise hell. Autistic style.
Transcript
Family is complex for me, Autistic Plus ADHD. So I call this one, Shameless.
Live long enough Ya get a lot right, Get a lot wrong. Get to know Well enough Ya can’t be a saint Lurking in shadow… Living life perfectly Shameless. Shameless. Oh let me be Shameless… No sun sets On a painless life, So no moon shines On a stainless wife. Oh let me be… come Shameless. Scaling Mount Marcy That night as Elvis died, Got branded a Mountebank As my sister grew colder. Stalking Death Valley Same sister… now dead… to me Same stars… chill my shoulders Now living life perfectly Shameless… Shameless. Oh let me be Shameless… No peak caps An aimless life, And no grave ever filled By a blameless knife. Oh let me be… come Shameless… No mask hides The pain in life, So no words can Explain my fight. So, let me Be… come Shameless.
I hate it, I love that one.
This year, give the gift of being seen… to your autistic or ADHD someone.
Or the gift of connection to someone…. who isn’t.
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