April 28, 2025 • 67 mins
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(00:01):
You guys are talk people. I have a bird.
Oh you definitely got a bird post that shit on Instagram and
only fans right? Oh my gosh.
Hey, Poochie. Yes, yes, this is, this is
(00:22):
Nikita. So cute.
Oh yeah, yeah, She just got a trim.
She's all good, right? Feeling good?
My pug is over here, you guys like?
You guys are talk people. I have a bird.
Oh you definitely got a bird. You post that shit on Instagram
(00:45):
and only fans right? Different kind of bird.
Oh well, all right, so we got a Co host OMGH Bomb Heather, and
of course special guest Lily Leclair.
You you actually got interviewedby Perver Pete on this show a
(01:05):
while ago. Yes, that was good fun.
Yeah, except I'm pretty sure youdidn't show him your bird.
No, he did not get to see the bird.
Poor him, suck for him. So what kind of birds you got?
He's old. Look, no, he's a iligerous
(01:27):
macaw. So he's like a mini, Not a mini
macaw, but like a mid sized macaw.
Does your bird sing to you? He does the wiggle, wiggle,
wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, Yeah. Definitely need a bird that does
that. It's funny because I've thought
about like, I think the Internetwould love him, but I'm
(01:49):
terrified, you know? Remember what happened to Peanut
the squirrel recently? Yeah, they, someone reported
that this guy had this squirrel in this raccoon, and they were
euthanized. And I always had that in the
back of my head even before hearing about that, about how,
you know, what if someone falls in love with him and realizes,
(02:09):
like, what a commodity he is andcomes in and steals him?
So I'm like, terrified to put him on the Internet.
How I get it like some girls don't like to post their
boyfriends and stuff like I get it.
Exactly. Yeah, basically the same thing.
My precious. So wait a minute, what's the
bird's name? His name is Pascal.
(02:31):
Oh, Pascal. Oh, he's like, that's like, what
is he, South American? He I'm pretty sure he is from
South America from the pet store, but.
Oh, oh, oh, that's good, though.He's like, you know, what do you
call that? Like I was going to say
European, but obviously that's not European.
(02:52):
He's no. No, no, I think like like
Brazil, I'm. Pretty sure Brazil.
Nice. Yeah.
All right. That's good.
So speaking about birds, have you been posting your bird on
only Fans or no just? 1.
Not that bird. Either one.
(03:14):
That's yeah, that's that's kind of where I've been lately is on
only fans for select few that kind of been sticking around
while I've been going through kind of a hard last couple
years. So.
Can't relate, can't relate, we all go there.
But it's good to know like who does stick around and have those
quality over quantity sometimes too.
(03:37):
Absolutely. I'll want the.
Quantity. But it's not always about that.
So yeah. No, Absolutely, yeah.
But yeah, but you've been because, you know, because I
always do my research and shit and you know, I don't have shit
for you. Like where have you been?
What have you been doing? Yeah, it's funny.
(03:58):
I I wish I was coming on here saying I'm a millionaire now.
Been doing great. But no, I've had some mystery
health stuff. It's funny because we were going
to do the podcast last week and then I miscommunicated with my
sister. It's a good thing that happened
though, because an hour later I was rushed to the ERI had a COPD
(04:18):
episode. The closest I've yet been to
like it being lights out for me.So it's been a rough week.
Yeah, you almost died. Oh shit, that's fucked up.
Yeah. But yeah, so just been figuring
out, yeah, some health stuff and, and it's funny because when
(04:40):
we were talking about coming on and doing like a, you know, a
follow up, I was like, Oh my God.
Like, what am I going to say? But I guess I do have some
cautionary tales for the models given my experience.
And I think that's more valuablethan me saying I'm a millionaire
now. This is great.
Like. Yeah, the majority aren't
millionaires and have more cautionary shit going on.
(05:04):
Exactly. Damn shit.
I don't want to get too excited,but yeah, what happened?
Yeah, no. So I, I have some tales of
trying to get to the US and being only fans model that.
Yeah, that was kind of interesting.
I, I don't know how many like Canadian followers of the
(05:28):
channel there are, but I'm sure even from other parts of the
world, because US is usually where like all the cool events
and stuff like that are happening.
So yeah, you got to be a little bit more careful with explaining
what you're doing over there. And for myself, it was, I was
going to AVN, which is like the big, big of the award show and
(05:54):
then the Expo. And yeah, I, I don't, I like, I
wasn't, I like, I'm not a good liar.
So. And what I tried to do was, you
know, walk up to the TSA agent and try to be as like brief as
possible with, you know, I'm a content creator.
Because I'm not. Lying.
(06:16):
But I would say but I mean if you are but.
Yeah, but he kept asking more and more questions, which led me
to the backroom where you go andoh, my goodness.
Like, it is such a scary experience, especially if you
have like, I, I love to travel. And I'm thinking the end of the
(06:36):
US is such a a hub for even catching flights and stuff like
that. So yeah, it was a lot of
questioning. Luckily, I was kind of able to
dissociate a bit and really stayOK, even though I knew how high
the stakes were and I've heard stories of other models having
(06:57):
issues. And technically, like I wasn't
lying, I wasn't going to the US to work, but some some things
happened. I was supposed to be going for
longer I and then it ended up being like I'm just going for
the night, which is a huge red flag to them.
They literally thought I was coming into escort make money
(07:20):
and leaving. You dirty whore, how dare you do
that in America? Never.
No, no. And who knows, maybe America
will be home soon. I'll go to 51st state so who
knows but. But though this this is a
concern that I never even you know, like thought about because
(07:41):
I would I would be the same like, Oh, I'm the content
creator. You know, what's the problem?
Like, I guess they want to see alegit job.
I didn't know they were tight, so tight on that.
Yeah, Yeah. I think that well and fair
enough if if they're trying to prevent human trafficking and
stuff like that for happening, fair enough.
But at the end of the day and I'm so happy I could be tight
(08:03):
lipped because TSA does not needmy sass.
But as far as I know, if if cavity checks are still done,
ATSA agent would be more likely to get close to someone's ass
than I would from the comfort ofmy bedroom doing my own thing.
So it was extremely insulting having to again and again and
again state that yes Sir, I did all my taught in my bedroom for
(08:26):
cash. That does not equal
prostitution. Wait a minute, wait, wait, wait.
Back up. So, so like you, you want to get
into the US Were you just like crossing the border, like
flying, driving? Yeah, yeah.
I was flying. I was flying from Vancouver to
Vegas and they were convinced that yeah, because I think what
(08:50):
really flagged them was only coming for one night.
So they were convinced that that's what I was doing.
So then they go through the motions and it's funny because
like I have, because of the COPDI have all kinds of
inhalers, steroid inhalers and stuff like that.
So he's like opening up my medical bag and looking at all
this stuff kind of like like, what is this for?
(09:12):
What it. And I'm like I'm, I'm an
asthmatic like like. Yeah, because they're fucking
retarded and they see all these inhalers.
They're like she's doing drugs. They're invasive.
Yeah, yeah. And then to like, my fault.
I had three phones on me. Oh.
No trapper. You fucking where's your beeper,
(09:36):
you fucking drug dealer? OK but one phone is like my
regular phone. Second phone is to play
Crunchyroll because I love my anime, but my third phone won't
allow me to play Crunchyroll on it.
And it was my third phone that had the headphone Jack because
it's ancient. So I needed my music phone, my
(09:58):
anime phone, and my real phone. So he's asking what are all
these phones for? And I'm.
Yeah, that. That'd be my question.
Why don't you have an MP3 player, buddy?
Well, what's with this phone thing?
Like you don't have 3 phones forall your needs.
What do you mean? And so they're really do you
(10:19):
give us permission to go throughyour phone?
I don't have anything to hide. Go ahead, go ahead And I think
that they were so caught up in this trick looks so guilty.
But then I have my my manga, my spy X family manga book, my 3
phones that have three legit reasons why I have them.
My puffers. So I don't think they knew what
(10:41):
to make of me. Well, so is that how you got
away with it? Because I'm dying to know like.
I I I think so I think they likesaw the state of me and how I
was so OK, look through my stuffand and I knew don't bring toys,
don't bring anything like that. So I think they realize, OK,
(11:02):
this girl is a case of look so guilty, but maybe isn't.
But so I, I, so he was like, youknow what, I'm going to allow
you in. I don't have to, but I'm going
to allow you in. And he led me through the doors
and I was good to go. All right, all right, wait,
(11:23):
wait, wait, wait time out. We got to break this down
because I'm really interested inthis.
So, so you're, you're going up to the fucking TSA, you know,
just like. Doopy, doopy doop.
You got what, one bag? Yeah, just my yeah, I just got
my carry on. OK, so you gotta carry on like
Doopy, Doopy do you gotta carry on?
You put it in, you gotta go through the fucking the you
(11:44):
know, what's that? The metal detector or whatever.
So how's that go like? Yeah.
Like I cleared go through. Yeah, I cleared no problem.
I'm pretty sure that was actually to the time where I had
ATSA agent because you know, they do the random check where
they'll just open your bag and they'll do the quick the quick
search. Oh yeah, yeah.
Yeah, I got through that perfectly fine.
(12:06):
It was when I, I, I realized I got up to like I was next in
line and I walk eyes with the guy that I'm going up to see and
all of a sudden I just get this like sinking feeling in my chest
like something's going to happenhere.
Did wait before you continue? Did he look like a neckbeard?
(12:26):
He was one of the largest men I've ever seen in my life, and
his name was King King. King like KING.
Yes. He was he black?
Sounds black to me. He was he.
He just, you know, just. And he had the the the deepest
(12:50):
voice where I literally kept having to ask him to repeat
himself because my heart is now going like this.
And his like low voice, I'm barely able to make out what
he's saying. And, and he's looking at me
thinking, oh, I found one, let'sgo going to the back like.
(13:11):
And yeah, he, he wasn't the one that dealt with me after that,
though. There was another gentleman that
was there to greet me when I gotback there.
So. So King says something to his,
you know, partner or whatever. Is that how?
OK, What? What do you think?
He said he was like, oh, look atthis little white girl.
(13:33):
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm going to get her number.
I'm going to fucking hook this shit up.
I like to bang white girls, right?
Something like that probably. We'll make it like, I mean, if,
if it would have went that way, maybe it would have been a much
better experience. I mean, but no.
So like, OK, I think, yeah, I think we got one of them, one of
(13:53):
them fly by night escorts here trying to pop into Vegas and pop
back real quick. Oh, OK, Yeah, that makes sense.
It looks really. Obvious to them, but it really
wasn't like. Oh my God, yeah.
It was just so, so much stuff had gone on before ABN came up.
But I I told my friend that I was going to be there.
(14:17):
She'd helped me get my ticket and I I wasn't going to just not
show up. So I was like, OK, if I'm there
for the day and a half, fly out,like, you know, I've done what I
said I was going to do. I showed up.
But yeah, that that I'm assuming, is what really got
them wondering what my business was.
(14:39):
And. I've got a girlfriend that's a
flight attendant and she bops over like she went to Denmark
for one night one time like. But I guess since she's working,
it doesn't like she can just kind of cruise.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Maybe I need to become a flight
attendant? But she wasn't working when she
went overseas. Like, yeah, but they didn't.
(15:01):
I mean, I'm wondering like, she's never run into anything
like that and she does shit likethat all the time.
Okay, yeah, I guess that trust built with with the fact that
she was, Yeah. So, So what did King's boyfriend
say to you? Like what?
You know, like you're standing there, like I don't know what's
going on and what King's boyfriend say to you.
(15:22):
Well, he is asking, you know, like where, where do you plan on
staying? And that too, because I, I
booked on Airbnb, but it was a hotel.
So at first I'm saying like, I'mstaying at this hotel.
And then I've later on in the conversation said Airbnb and oh,
oh, well, I thought you said youwere staying at this hotel.
(15:43):
Like he thought he got me. And I'm like, well, no, Sir, you
can book people's suites in a hotel on Airbnb.
So, and I have all of this information if you'd like to see
it on my phone, which I'm allowing you to see, which they
never went through. I don't know quite what the
rules are if there has to be like a certain level of proof
before they start looking through the, the devices.
(16:06):
But he, they didn't, he didn't look through any of my devices,
just my, my, my bag. He pulled everything out.
It's probably their discretion, but we'll probably never know.
I mean, it's probably not defined anywhere.
You can't probably Google that, but.
Yeah. That that's actually a really
good question because I hate cops.
I watch those fucking cop videosof cops just looking stupid as
(16:28):
shit because they don't know thelaws.
But I've never seen anything about TSA.
So yeah, that might be it. It might still fall under the
you know, they just can't searchyour shit because they think you
might be something. Yeah, yeah.
I I figured because I said yes that that gave them the go
ahead. But I don't know if then, if he
(16:49):
never found anything, if I wouldhave been able to sue or I I
don't think so, but I I have no idea.
Yeah, it's, it doesn't seem likeat that point, but you said they
brought you into the backroom. Oh, how'd that go?
Is that like a Only Fans video that we could buy or no?
(17:09):
But yeah, here's the thing. Like, yeah, like I assume cavity
checks are still a thing. I that didn't happen to me.
Fortunately, no, that didn't happen to me.
That's fucked up. You don't get it on camera, man.
The words, they're so dehumanizing, right?
Yeah, yeah. And it's funny, the obviously he
(17:33):
did his TSA thing grilling me and all of that, but then he
really tried to push how, you know, you really should be doing
other things with your life likethis, this industry.
Like sure. That's neckbeard.
Come on, man. Oh, oh, you.
You should. You're much better than this.
(17:55):
You don't have to sell your bodyonline.
Like. It's.
People, man. Yeah, yeah, but it is, it's
funny because in reality, like he does, he gets more close to
ass, most likely giving cavity checks or something, than I ever
have doing this job. And I don't think he's getting
(18:17):
stopped at the border every timehe goes.
Or judged and preach to lectured.
Exactly. So why do they even have to do
that anymore? At the airports they have the
body scanner like. Yeah, and, and if you're going
to stop me, like I, I just can'tbelieve they didn't look through
my phone because if they were so, you know, thinking that this
(18:38):
was going down, obviously there would be messages and you know
what I mean? But no, didn't look through my
phone. I find that so weird.
Yeah, they asked your consent for that too.
Yeah, because he made it very clear.
Like you can turn around right now and then you're not getting
(18:59):
banned from the US, or we could find something and then you'll
have to apply to then be allowedto enter.
And then given the severity of what they found would dictate
whether or not I even had a chance to.
Never even looked through any ofyour 3 phones.
Yeah, yeah, I yeah, I don't knowwhat.
And because like I didn't flat out come out and say like I'm
(19:23):
going to the AVNSI said like I'mgoing to Resorts World, which is
where AVN was. So again, not lying, but if he'd
seen like my I'm pretty sure it was posted on my Twitter, which
do not ever do. Yeah, what can we have found
like? That's what, yeah, yeah.
So I would definitely say like if you are going to one of these
(19:46):
events from a different country,I know like it's good to pump it
up for your fans and stuff like that.
But before you go, I guess just because they are like that,
that's how they view this, is that if you do this from the
privacy of your bedroom, you must be a prostitute.
That's a lot of people do. Yeah, and, and again, like, I, I
(20:11):
truly feel like if this is to try to stop human trafficking,
like I feel bad for laughing about this guy, but at the end
of the day, I know that that's not at all what was happening
with me. So I just found it insulting
that I kept having to defend myself that I was no, I was not
going to meet up with men for for money and sex.
I. Would have been super offended
(20:32):
too and it takes a lot. So how long were you in this
ordeal? To be honest, because I was in
such like a dissociated state, II I'm assuming it was about 30
minutes, but it could have been less, could have been more.
Yeah. I don't know.
And it sucks because like just experiencing that and then
(20:53):
having to kind of dissociate andthen you're me just feeling so
relieved the just the chemicals going on in my brain.
It totally ruined the experiencebecause I was on such a weird
high from the whole ordeal beinglet in and what could have
happened. But it it, it did kind of it, it
wrecked the experience. I wasn't present.
(21:15):
I was up in the clouds somewherethe whole time.
Yeah, that 30 minutes probably felt like fucking 7 hours if it
was 30 minutes. I mean, that's.
Yeah. Yeah, man goes into like
protective mode, so. Yes.
Yeah. It was, yeah, it was intense.
So I would definitely do not go to one of these events for just
(21:38):
one night. Don't don't play 3 phones.
Smile, smile. This is a good cautionary.
Too. Yeah, only dirty horrors take 3
phones to Las Vegas, right? I mean, that's just a fact,
isn't? It for one night.
For one night yeah. Yeah, it's it's a busy.
(21:59):
Busy night. Yeah.
Would you do it? Again, no.
Yeah, definitely would do it differently next time.
But yeah. And maybe, yeah, research kind
of what your rights are in that situation.
I have no idea what my rights are.
I figured I surrendered all my rights the second I decided to
try to go into another country. I was kind of just under, under
(22:22):
their mercy. But I'm sure you have rights.
Oh, you, Oh absolutely, you definitely do have rights.
And from what? I'm not an expert or nothing,
but from what I've researched, like it doesn't matter what they
think, they have to prove that you're coming to America to
fucking solicit someone for sex.Like that's the bottom line.
(22:43):
They can fucking ask all the questions they want, all the
fucking, you know, interrogate you all they want, but it sounds
like these guys were actually pretty decent from what usually
American fucking. A lot worse.
Yeah, because they don't know the laws.
If they didn't search your phone, that tells me that they
knew they didn't have no proof on you or anything.
(23:05):
So if they start digging in yourphone, you could definitely sue
them for fucking having no proofthat you were doing anything.
They need a reasonable, reasonable suspicion to search
your shit. See that I would.
Then I would be sitting here a millionaire.
Yeah. Listen, I tell me about it.
(23:27):
I'm always because I watch theseTikTok videos with cops and
shit, I am praying every time I drive my car out of my fucking
house, I'm always praying a cop would pull me over because I'm
not doing nothing illegal. Because then, you know, because
they're so stupid and fucking there's people making fucking,
you know, 10s hundreds of thousands of dollars in America
because cops don't know the law.But that's a whole other.
(23:50):
Thing that would make for a goodviral video too.
Like people love videos of cops being dumb and.
Stuff. So I always have my phone right
next to me so I could just fucking.
It's all set. All I got to do is hit record.
I'm ready to go, alright. 'Cause I had three phones, I
should have picked 1 and hit record.
Yeah, you have three. What the?
(24:11):
Fuck would have paid for it on only fans is what he's saying.
Oh gosh, yeah, yeah. Do your research.
Are you allowed to record back there if so?
Oh, oh, I already know this. Yes, you are.
You're allowed to record anywhere you want in a public
space because that's considered a public space.
Because they're bringing you. They're inviting.
(24:32):
You in right to privacy or anything or it's not expected
privacy or? Anything like?
That right? Yeah.
In America you could record whatever you want.
They can't fucking unless. You're detained.
Like unless they tell you you'reunder arrest, there's no reason
you can't record. Even if you are under a right,
even if they say you're under arrest, you could still record
(24:52):
That's that's still, that's the First Amendment right that has
been I'm. Sorry, you're cops.
Yeah, I'm fucking. I'm all up on this shit because
I hate cops but. Yeah, yeah.
So, so when you're on US soil, then you as a Canadian, I would
get to fall under your gun. Absolutely.
Yeah. OK.
(25:14):
Yeah, this is America, baby. We fuck.
You might get some Canadian rights too under the embassy
depending on you know. Yeah, yeah.
That's. A good point, you should look
into that too. Yeah, yeah, yeah, even though if
you're going with the the the best intentions then and no
illegal intentions, yeah, I guess where all the story is,
(25:35):
yeah, know your, know your rights 'cause that that could
happen and that, yeah, it was scary. 100% because your whole
story was you weren't doing anything illegal, you weren't
going to do anything illegal, and yet they treat you like, you
know, like you're a fucking criminal.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it, it is rough because
like, I know the dangers of prostitution, so in a way I feel
(25:58):
like my intelligence was being attacked.
Like you know what I mean? Sure.
Absolutely. Yeah.
That's fucked up, man. Yeah.
Yeah. So, yeah, definitely.
Yeah, I guess bring it up on your rights before you go to
another country. And now I'm terrified because I
don't know if my admission that I do onlyfense has now landed me
(26:19):
on a like a sex worker list. I don't know.
I don't know, but this sounds like the star of a lawsuit to
me. I mean, you've been traumatized
from the American government. I don't know man.
We're traumatizing over here forreal.
Yeah, we might have to get a lawyer.
With the law, yeah. I haven't traveled since that
(26:41):
was my third time in like 6 months going to Vegas and I
haven't traveled since and and you know, maybe maybe that visit
with the TSA had something to dowith it so.
So the yeah, I'd. Be a little scared too.
Yeah. So the American government has
traumatized you into traveling anywhere?
That's right. Now you don't want to go
(27:04):
anywhere. It's so funny, though, because,
like, I love America so much that it's like, I wouldn't dream
of it. But for for those who actually,
yeah, like have lawyer money. Well, in America, there's plenty
of lawyers that'll take your case pro bono, yeah.
(27:24):
Yeah, or Facebook. Right, we should see if Jackie
Childs is available that that's a Seinfeld reference that's 20
years old. I you.
Know sounded familiar, but I it's just like.
Yeah, that's for old people likeme.
So but so you were travelling togo to the AVN Awards.
(27:46):
Yes, yeah, I was just going for the two, two days at the Expo.
Yeah, it is so much, so much sexiness.
It's so much fun there. I was so wish that my, my
experience getting there would have allowed me to like be more,
more present because it is. It's so much, so much naughty
(28:07):
fun. So the government, the American
government, ruined your experience?
Kill Damn Buzz kills. Absolutely.
Sounds like a lawsuit to me. I'm stuck on this lawsuit shit.
I'm. Sorry.
Well, maybe, yeah, maybe you canhit me up with some some info
after, who knows? Yeah, yeah, I'll see what
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lawyers are available. There's there's a few YouTube
lawyers that would love this shit.
Yeah. That's so like, I serious, I
thought I was just like a sitting duck like Oh well,
that's just, you know, another only fence model got drugged
through the dirt. Yeah, and for what though?
Like, you know, like you're coming over to prostitute
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yourself. Like wouldn't you be more?
I don't know. I don't know.
I'm. Just and even if she was that,
do they have to be that hardcorelike and why didn't they go
through the phone? I don't get.
That right? Yeah, yeah, obviously that's a
great point. Obviously they knew they didn't
have, you know, sufficient evidence to go through her phone
because then you know, that opens them up to fucking serious
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lawsuits. Right.
So they knew, but even even after that they they kept going
on you like try and ask you questions and shit.
Like even if after they didn't go through your phone, like they
were still busting your balls. Yeah, he would.
He would. He was totally doing good cop,
bad cop. Oh, you know, there's so much
other things you could be doing with your life.
You're young, this, that. And then so are you coming into
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the country to solicit for sex, like just blunt after playing
good cops? And I'm like, absolutely not,
Absolutely not every time, absolutely not like.
Straight off the bat, wow. Like, I can't name you one
person that was in Vegas that that that would have occurred
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with. Like there's nobody.
Like, absolutely not so. That's crazy that they just like
basically outright said are you a fucking whore?
Right. And so like, what if?
What if I was going to be a whore?
Like what if I just like but it's my like I consented to
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being divorced, so like what? I guess because technically
because I'm Canadian, I don't have a a worker's visa, then it
would be working illegally in the country, so they could have
got me there, right? Possibly, yeah, because in
certain area. Yeah, right.
I don't mean to cut your bank. No, no.
Yeah, In certain areas in Las Vegas, prostitution is legal,
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right, Heather? Yes, but I don't actually in
Vegas, but around Vegas, yeah. Yeah.
Oh shit, so so you could whar around in Vegas if you have a
workers permit apparently. Yeah, they have like the
brothels and stuff, but it's notlike on the downtown Strip or
anything, or in the town of Vegas.
It's another researchable thing that we should do, but it's
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close by. I mean, I would say like a hop,
skip and a jump 30 minutes or less.
But but we're not prostituting here.
Why do we like we're that's? What I'm saying, like, what if I
just wanted to actually go like,you know, be a little more but
not get paid for it, but, you know, have some fun?
But he even he even asked if I was planning on doing collabs
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with anybody while I was there. So.
Yeah. So collabing say I I had plans
to collab which I didn't had plans to collab with another
model that would be me entering the country to work, which would
have got me. Gotcha.
Yeah, you asked. That like what if you were Yeah,
wow, that makes. Sense so.
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So yeah, if you were, then you'dbe asked out like an asshole.
They'd be like, yo, fuck you, get out of here.
Yeah, and it's crazy because like too, like in my head, I
assumed that was more so you can't come into the country and
work illegally given that you'retaking a job from AUS citizen.
So in my head had to like that kind of was kind of a great area
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of, of congestive confusion because it's like, if this is
digital, how how does that work?Because if a a businessman takes
a call, work call in the US coming from Canada, his ass
ain't getting fucking kicked out.
But there, yeah, he's very made it very clear to me there is no
collabing going on in the US foronly fans if you are not from
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there, so. Oh wow.
Only in oh wow. Only inner US only.
Wow, we're getting super weird around here.
Yeah. Do you know the the the TSA
agent's name by any chance? I don't he wasn't as more
rememberable as King's. It was so shit to.
Call him out though. Well, yeah, I'd like to thank
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him for, you know, potentially stopping a Canadian whore from
taking a job away from an American whore.
I mean, thank God for that, right?
And, and all the wild like I, I remember recently like watching
a video of kind of the situationat the border at the time and
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just thinking how crazy this is,that all of this energy is being
wasted on me. No doubt.
I think that's it. But again, not my country, so
you know. We're getting so.
Weird that. Yeah, I mean, that's insane.
Like who? Like, all right, forget the.
Well, yeah, forget the legalities of it all.
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Like we're wasting our time on who you're banging.
And if money's involved. I don't know.
That just seems. Invasive and way personal.
Nosey. Not necessary.
Yeah. Well, yeah, can't.
Like, shouldn't you be looking for like, you know, serial
killers, terrorists, you know? Drug traffickers.
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Yeah. So, you know, people that are
actually potentially hurting, hurting Americans.
Yeah. I would have been helping if
that was the case. I was going for Wellness
purposes, you know, I would havebeen helping, I'm sure, but
that's that wasn't what I was doing.
But. But yeah, yeah, exactly.
So some Americans going to get to eat your Taco.
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What's wrong with that? Right, that's what I'm saying.
Yeah, yeah, I guess it was the slow day.
I was the only one in the backroom, so I guess it was a
slow day. And King thought he he fished
himself a slut. Say.
'Cause you gotta wonder, like, what do they get?
A a a little bonus every time they actually catch somebody?
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I don't know. I don't be like contemplating A
bribe's VH Get Me Out of here. After 30 minutes I would start
to think about that happening. Yeah, yeah, my, my whole thing
was is like I do not want to have to turn around and go home.
I just want to be as complicit as as possible.
And yeah. Yeah, I'm feeling a little
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sexual harassment here. Like, why only you?
Like, were there? What were there just a bunch of,
you know, fucking I don't know, like, why you?
And I wasn't like dressed cute like this.
Like I had big sweater, my hair in a messy bum.
Like, like I wasn't who was if someone was showing up to meet
me like that, like I was only getting pennies.
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So what's the point? Yeah.
I think the point is King wantedto bang a fucking white girl.
Were there other white girls in line?
I was too scared to turn around.I I swear like I was moments
from a panic attack when I realized like this isn't going
well. I don't know how to handle it.
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I haven't looked up my rights like stupid stupid stupid like.
Sounds like a A. Sounds like harassment of a
Canadian citizen to me. This sounds like a huge lawsuit.
Sure does. Sir, Right.
Don't you agree? I think, I think she got a huge
lawsuit. Yeah.
Is there what is that called when there's like a time window
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for for these kind of things to actually?
I don't know that much. Limitations.
Yeah. Statute.
Of limitations, yeah, that's important.
Yeah. I think it might be like a year,
five years, I don't know. Yeah, I.
Think sexual harassment is like five years 'cause I know, I
know, one of R Kelly's cases gotkicked out 'cause the statute of
limitations was over five years.But.
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Yeah. The crime, like certain ones,
like hardcore ones, like, you know, the RAPE ones like that,
that carries a longer statutes of limitations than something
like petty larceny or something.I don't know.
OK. Yeah, probably in America,
sexual harassment isn't a big deal.
But like, if King, you know, tried to stick his Wiener in
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your mouth or something, that might, you know, that would be
long cavity check. Yeah.
Oh, I bet he wanted to do a cavity check, right.
Yeah. We, we fucking.
We know your deal, King. And that's the thing, like given
that it 'cause I was saying yes,take it everything, look through
my stuff, would I have said yes to the cavity check?
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Do you have to also? I'm like what?
Cause no. I I think I would have I wanted
to go to the EBN. Holy shit.
And I know there's nothing up there, so go ahead.
That's funny. That's that's a good point too.
Yeah, because I'm thinking like,would I fuck no, I don't want
anyone digging in my butt hole, but.
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How bad, you know? Oh.
Yeah, exactly. Yeah.
How bad do you want to go? Like how?
Bad. Do you want it?
That's yeah, that's tough. That's a tough fucking
situation. Yeah, yeah, but at least it made
for an experience and advice forfor the the models wanting to
travel that because I'd heard that oh it's hard getting across
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the border. They found out you do only fans.
And I kind of thought, well, that's, that's dramatic.
That's dramatic for. Me to leave the country and come
back, you know, Yeah. Trouble coming back into Mexico
one time when they were changingthe laws about whether you
needed your passport or not at the time, like, I didn't need it
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to get into Mexico, but I did like, kind of needed to get back
into the States. So it was like a contention.
And so, yeah, that is a concern for me, your story.
Because what if I leave the country and come back and then
they find out I do only fans or something, I don't know.
I would just, yeah, I think because you're a citizen, I
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would, I would hope that they have to take you back no matter
what. Right.
Yeah, fuck. Sometimes they don't.
They're wild. Yeah, but yeah, definitely
research your rights and that that shit does happen.
Don't think that models are using it for to go viral.
Let's make a TikTok about how this happened.
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You know what I mean? No, like, that shit's real like.
Well, for the record, if you ever make it back to the States
and want to stay a couple of nights, we should definitely
collab. No, no, I would be so down like
it. Like I said, I I love the US.
I've been to Vegas a couple times, been to California and
that's why I like my heart was so like Oh my God this is a life
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changing thing that could happento me right now if they deem
something I've said meant sex for cash.
So. It could have been, it could
have gone southward really badly.
Could have been better. It could have been worse.
Like, a lot, yeah. Yeah, and I and like I said, I
haven't tried traveling since, so I have absolutely no idea if
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I have like. Listen, they really did
traumatize. Yeah, yeah, you sound like a
victim to me. Yeah, victim of the American
government. Oh no man, sounds like you
should sue. Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna, I'm maybe
I'll look into how, how long I have because that was not this
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January that passed the previousone.
So a year would be up. But if it's if you get the five
years, then maybe I, I should kind of look into that, even
even just for the the just of it, because it's not right.
It's very dehumanizing, especially given what I do have
on my phone. The idea of this man just
getting to see it all for free. That's.
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True and and you know everythingelse about my life that's on
there. I even said to him like my phone
is like my diary. This is dehumanizing but I have
nothing to hide and I figured ifI said no to that he'd be like
hey bitch you're out so. Probably for certain.
Yeah, yeah. The whole, that whole
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situation's fucked up, man. I mean, you know, there.
May be some YouTube lawyers willsee this or you know, he can
pass it along to his his lawyer buds just to watch and see what
they think. But yeah, it does sound really
fucked up. Yeah, yeah, I've, I've watched a
couple YouTube videos, but thesegirls were actually escorting.
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And and. Talked about, yeah.
I haven't talked about their experience.
As well. So I was like, OK, well, you
know, you're, you caught, you'recaught.
You know, you, you want to do the crown, you do the time, but
I I didn't really know exactly how bad it could get even for
just the lonely old only fans girl that just does solo play in
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her bedroom like. Wild work.
Yeah, and that that's that is funny to me too, because it's
like you really think that I would go all the way to Vegas to
do what I won't even like I've never been with a guy on my only
fans. Like that's never been a thing
that I've done, which, look, I'monly fans, go ahead and you'll
see that. But for some reason I'll go all
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the way for a night of escorting.
Yeah, that's kind of nuts. Like it should be based around
the content too but people here only fans and then immediate
sexual or negative connotation kind of like.
Yeah, yeah. No.
And I tried to say like I do what I do safely from my
bedroom. That's not a risk I feel is
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necessary to take, but he just kept asking.
He was highly intrigued. I think so, you know, but though
I did get almost a vibe that, and maybe it was the good cop,
bad cop. Maybe he had a younger sibling
or something, a sister that he maybe saw something in me and
maybe that's why I didn't get itwhere he was so mean to me or
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that was the good cop, bad cop scenario that he was trying to
play. I don't know.
Interesting perspective. Yeah, yeah.
But you might not get as lucky as as me crossing in and and you
could get a total asshole that really is like interrogate,
interrogate, interrogate. Yeah, he kind of ebbed and
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flowed with the weight, his style.
Well good. Did you get any pics at ABN?
I got a couple just of me like in front of the sign and stuff
like that. But after I was like, is someone
going to look through my phone coming back?
Like if I take a picture with somebody, are they going to be
like, you did him, you did her? Like I was like, oh God, do I
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want to have memories of this experience?
I don't know. And then we do Oh.
Jesus Christ. So, so wait a minute, Is that
why? Like, because you haven't posted
anything on like your Instagram in about a year.
Is that why? It's a, it's a huge, it was a
huge wake up call for me. It's, it's like I said, I like,
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I would love to travel the worldand in those moments I thought
that was going to be taken from me.
And I still don't know if that is a, a thing that I'll, I'll
have a problem with doing. So that did make me stop and,
and go, wow, like I, I need to be a little bit more thoughtful
about this, but I, I love this industry and like, I can't
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imagine myself doing much else. More so than not posting is
because of all the, the stuff that's been going on as far as
like my illnesses and stuff likethat.
And that's why I've just kind ofstuck to my only fans guys doing
services with them and just kindof coasting by for now.
(44:47):
But I've, I've recently got somespecialists and stuff like that
and really had to start taking whole COPD very seriously
because I've kind of been in denial the last five years since
being diagnosed with it. So I'm, I'm hoping that that'll
combined being properly medicated and stuff like that
for it. I'll get enough oxygen to my
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brain that I can think a little straighter and then I can be
back on, on sex Panther and stuff like that.
Because I do, I miss it so much.But if I can't give my all, like
I'm, I'm not just here for the money, like I am here for how
good I am at this job. And if I can't give my all, I'm
not going to have you pay me to to do anything.
(45:30):
So and agree with that I don't like to share that type of
energy if I'm not on at my best but I know other people do.
But like, you found your loyal, so that's really good.
Yeah. Really good perspective to have
to just, you know, you want it to be quality again, coming back
to the quality. Absolutely yeah, yeah.
And if you're good at this, you're meant to do this you you
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will obtain those fans and then if you have to take a time out
even if it's a year, a year and a half, then those guys will be
there. And when I, I, I logged onto a
sex Panther not too long ago because they got all these rules
now about you can't have a like a dildo in your profile picture,
that sort of thing. So I logged on so I could switch
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up my profile picture so I didn't lose my account.
And then I got flooded with and I'm just like, Oh my God.
Like I just want to be happy andhealthy and, and come back to
these guys because I miss them so much.
So wait a minute, why can't you show a dildo in your fucking
profile pic? Yeah, well.
It's weird because like about like four or five months ago, I
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got a notification saying you can't show, you know, you can't
have nudity at all. And it's like, okay, that I
mean, OK, so I, I changed it up and then I get another
notification not too long ago where it was like, you can't
have the rivets of your asshole showing.
You can't. You can't have toys.
(46:56):
On Sex Panther though. Yeah, for the, for your profile
pictures, like you're good to gofor like the feed.
But your profile pictures, they've definitely had what I'm
assuming is like Visa, MasterCard that the payment
processors really start laying down what they're allowing as
far as showing that kind of stuff.
(47:17):
But it's like, OK, so you can't have it here, Scroll down a bit
and there's my asshole. That's OK, like.
That's that's my question. So like if I go on to your sex
Panther I see your profile pic and if I scroll through your
shit can I see any dirty pics ofyou or do I have?
All right? That makes no sense.
Like if it was behind a paywall or some shit like that, that
(47:39):
would make sense. But if I'm scrolling and see
your fucking Hoo ha. And like yeah, the same minute,
minutes or seconds like. Exactly.
So I don't quite understand, I guess the rule is not in profile
pictures, not without them understanding.
But you Scroll down a bit and there's your feed photos.
So then you can you can see it all there.
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It it doesn't make sense, it really doesn't.
But them's the rule, so. Yeah, there's got to be
something behind it, I guess. But yeah, it doesn't make any
sense. What the fuck?
Yeah, yeah, absolutely. It's like I what, Pretty soon
we're all going to be all in hoodies and covered up and.
He masks. I don't know about that, but
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what the fuck? Yeah, fuck it.
I don't know man. You got to guess my cup size.
That could be a fun game though.Pasty.
It could be pasties. Yeah.
But But yeah, so yeah, things are things are going kind of
weird as far as that goes. But yeah, I just, yeah, I logged
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in to switch that up. And then I was like, I just want
to be OK and be OK to do this. And but I'm I'm hopeful that
that that's the light at the endof the title is coming now that
I'm taking my house super serious and I actually have some
specialists behind me. So that's yeah.
So is it your health, the healthreasons as to why you're, you
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know, like taking a step back? Is that the main reason?
Yeah, because when when obviously when you are having a
much harder time in your day-to-day trying to breathe and
you're not properly medicated, you're not getting proper oxygen
to your brain, you're so you're not making good healthy choices
(49:28):
that could then help you get healthier.
So I'm right now I've I've aftermy lease was up, I moved in with
my mom and she's really been been assisting me in, in all of
this, which sounds so pathetic because like I'm a grown ass
woman. And but yeah, when you lose a
(49:49):
function because like you're, you're not capable of thinking
straight, there goes your memory, there goes your ability
to make good choices and commit.And, and the you every Cam model
has heard it in the videos. Commitment to this is, is what
allows you to grow and thrive. And I knew that that commitment
was completely shot because justthe way that my brain was
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functioning. So yeah, like, it's take your
health seriously and and don't be in denial, even if you are
scared of maybe a diagnosis, because all you're going to do
is wither away. No matter how good you are at
this job, if you don't, if you don't have your your, your
mental capacities, you're, you're fogged.
(50:34):
Definitely going to have those like titanium, like steel traps,
yes, yeah. But of your mentals, you guys,
'cause it's super important. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed
and reach out if you need like to talk to somebody.
I'm always down to talk to people about like their mental
struggles or anything like that too.
(50:55):
So just know that. Yeah, yeah, know that, Yeah.
Communities, yeah, definitely, definitely needed and this,
especially after going through health stuff, 'cause yeah, yeah,
it sucks because you could, you could be amazing at this, but
yeah, you will. You will just slowly deteriorate
(51:16):
if you let your health go. So just take that so seriously.
Oh kudos to you for like being self aware and doing that so.
Do you, do you feel like you're on the path to like get back to
where you want to be or? I I do my last stint in the
hospital here, like the doctor really laid into me like the
(51:38):
severity of even going one day without taking my steroid
inhaler and, and in in my head. It's almost like, well, if I I
don't feel like I need it, it doesn't matter.
Take it like, so I'm, I am, I'm feeling like and to having,
having like a team behind you. Where is I?
(51:59):
I, I kind of just thought it wasme just all by my lonesome
trying to deal with this. But now I think the, the last
few stints going to the hospital, I think people have
understand like I'm not taking this seriously.
So they're going to have to kindof hover until I do, which,
yeah, after this last one, yeah,I'll, I'll do whatever it takes
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to not put myself in that position again.
And not only that, my poor mother having to go through that
and witness her daughter literally like, 'cause my, my
oxygen was so low, they couldn'teven administer me this the IV
steroid because your body has tobe at a certain percentage for
the to be able to accept the medication.
(52:46):
So it was like she literally washolding me up as I was like
breathing on like one muscle in my back.
Like it got. Yeah, but Beyond Scared Straight
definitely works. Yeah, my mother just got
diagnosed with COPD. Actually.
It's been a nightmare so. Yeah, it's, no, it's, it's,
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yeah, it's no joke. And it's not just asthma where I
thought, oh, it's asthma. It's like, no it's not.
Yeah, I thought she was like dying.
Not to be dramatic, but for likea second there.
I mean, she she thought she was dying too before she got
diagnosed, like recently. It's scary.
Yeah, yeah, it's, yeah, it's no joke.
(53:28):
Yeah. Yeah.
Take your health so serious, because without that you got
nothing. There's yeah, there's, it's not
related to what you have, but there's a YouTube creator, his
name is Austin Austin, Austin McConnell.
Austin McConnell, I think he hada heart issue and he actually
documents like he documents likehis struggle with it and like
(53:52):
what he went through and like, you know, it broke, it sounds
like same with you. Like it, it broke you down and
like you couldn't create and really want to.
And you might want to check him out just to see like, his
struggle, like what? Like, you know, because you
could probably relate, you know?Yeah, yeah.
And it's funny you see that because I thought I was like,
should I be maybe think what I'mfeeling up to it like, you know,
(54:16):
creating vlogs and stuff like that so that it does allow for
others to be more accepting of living life, still trying to
achieve your dreams even though you're diagnosed with something
that is kind of scary and all ofthat.
But I'm like, how about we just start with, yeah, being able to
maybe show up like one day a week on Sex Panther and take
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care of my Only Fans guys and gofrom there.
Yeah, your best, that's all you can do.
If you're if you're doing that and you're trying, then you're
doing so. Yeah, yeah, yeah, not giving up.
And, and like I said, I love this industry, so I'm definitely
not giving up on on it. So.
Oh. Girl.
Hell yeah, that's fucking great man.
(55:00):
So are you still doing your OnlyFans?
Yeah, yeah, mostly communicatingand doing services through my
direct messages. I'm not promoting it or anything
like that. But yeah, if anyone customs
video calls, I still will do that stuff.
But it is it is for like the select few that kind of stuck
through this whole ordeal with me.
(55:23):
Have you been yeah and also haveyou been posting any like vlog
type stuff about it or anything on your only fans or or you just
staying away from that? Yeah, but I, I do, I, I, I, I
feel like this experience has made me realize how important it
is for in especially in this industry, because I don't know
too many girls that are open about this.
(55:44):
And, and I think that that makesit so other people think they
maybe have to hide. So yeah, maybe maybe in the near
future or something like that will be coming.
But I've been pretty open with the with the guys 'cause
sometimes they'll want to do a show and I'll be like, I'm
sorry, but I'm not like there's no way.
(56:05):
Yeah, when it comes to that stuff, so good for you.
Yeah. That's smart.
Yeah, it sounds like people might enjoy that stuff.
Like, you know, 'cause like it's, it's so personal and like,
you know what I mean? Like customers will love that
and you know. Yeah, 'cause at the end of the
day, if you're doing this, this version of this and not, you
know, just doing porn, the guys,they want that connection and
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they want the humanity of it. So, yeah, don't be afraid to
open up about what's going on. You know, obviously there's
certain extent of, of how much maybe you should share.
You don't need to tell people your entire life story.
This is the Internet after all. But for as far as like illness
and stuff like that goes, like it's only going to make them
(56:50):
understand more as to why you'remaybe not around and stuff like
that. Because my fear is, is all these
guys think I've ran off with some rich guy.
I'm and I'm like living living up life like when it's like
actually is the exact opposite, like I'm so.
To the front, by the way, so. What's that?
(57:10):
Sorry. I said rich guys to the front,
by the way. Oh, just.
Come on down. Yeah, I had no idea because I
just assumed like, you know, youjust took a break and, you know,
because a lot of girls just takea break from everything.
I didn't know it was this serious.
That's. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
(57:30):
I wish. I wish I was a millionaire just
living my life, but it's not thecase.
Well, we'll get there. Hell yeah, you got to have that
fucking attitude, right? It's like, you know, like,
pretend it's 1986 Eye of the Tiger, right?
That's right. Sorry you guys are too young
for. That I got the eye of the tiger.
I got that one. Yeah, like what was that?
(57:52):
Rocky 4. Yeah.
Right. Yeah.
Yes. Sorry.
I'm sure there's lots of guys that they understand your
references, Gary, don't worry. Nobody understands anything I
say. It doesn't matter.
I'm I'm one for 2 so. All right, 50%.
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Nice, yeah. All right.
This Yeah, this has been great. This this wasn't the update I
was expecting, Lily. But I mean, I, I don't know, I
feel positive for you. Yeah, me too.
You have a. Good mentality about it and good
messages. Yeah, yeah, I was a little bit
(58:34):
nervous because I was like, thisis going to sound like a sob
story, but it. Doesn't it really doesn't.
You're staying positive about itand you're sharing.
Will help other girls not be ashamed too.
Probably. Hopefully.
Yeah. You know.
Yeah, definitely. Yeah.
Like you feel it too, Heather. Like her positivity, like, like
it wasn't like a Debbie Downer thing.
(58:55):
Like, oh, it was kind. Of like learning, yeah.
Yeah, because your positivity just like fucking like, you
know, like, yeah, I'm a fucking,you know, yeah, I'm struggling,
but I'm going to do this. I'm Yeah, you're a boss.
A boss. You got this.
So. Well, thanks guys.
Hell yeah. Man, always a hustler.
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So hopefully, hopefully, well, Idon't know, we definitely got to
do another update at some point because I'd love to hear their,
you know, the rest of your storyand everything.
Yeah, yeah, Hopefully after the summer I can, I can be a bit
more consistent with it all and then be in a much better place,
especially with the medications and stuff like that.
(59:37):
Like things should be getting a lot better, getting that oxygen
to the brain and and and, yeah, getting to live life again.
Yeah, God, we're. Rooting for you too.
Hell, again, we're rooting for you.
Yeah. If you were like a negative
(59:57):
Nancy or something now I'd be like, ah, fuck you, you know,
you're too negative. Yeah, that's, you know, but your
positivity, like fucking I guarantee your positivity not
only inspires, you know, other people struggling, but like, you
know, the people that support you, like your customers and
everything. Like, you know, that's got a
fucking like, yeah, fucking likesomeone this positive, like, how
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could you not support them? You know what I mean?
Yeah, yeah, like and and you areyour own worst enemy with the
negativity shit. So like I know like it's OK to
be down. Don't stay there because you
only go down, down, down, down like it's just you know, do do
your best to to. Sexy pose you guys sorry.
(01:00:44):
Oh, that's hot. If I was into bestiality.
Oh yeah, it's nice. Doing her reverse sneezes too.
So Well, thank you for honestly sharing and feeling comfortable
enough to share with us. I meant to say earlier that I'm
sure Gary does too, but I feel honored and special that you
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would come on and talk with us about this and share, you know,
your story about everything. Because I know you know, that
was very brave to do. And you know, I think he was
going to give you shit about notposting before you told the
truth. So.
Oh, no, no, no, no. Why would you think that?
(01:01:29):
No, because like, you know, people like they go off and do
their own thing and no I. Know hitting no, he wasn't going
to give you shit but. No I would never give anyone
shit, especially Oh my God, imagine if I did give her shit.
What an asshole. Anybody else to come on Cam girl
Diaries? Yeah, no one.
(01:01:51):
I fucking cancelled man. Of everything, of everything,
that that would be what cancels you.
Fuck yeah. No, he had no I'll intent at
all. No, he did mention that you
hadn't posted in a while so we did you know he was legit.
Just wondering. Yeah, yeah, 'cause what I didn't
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want to do is have more people flood and be like, bitch, what
is this like? If so, I was like, you know
what, just keep a little bit on the down low and just keep those
keep those guys somewhat happy as much as I can.
And then when I'm back, I'll I'll I'll be back in in posting
so. Meantime, just let them thirst,
(01:02:34):
it'll be all right. Yeah, I will.
And last thing I'll say is like,I would suggest like, yeah,
maybe talking about your situation.
I mean, you talked about here, obviously, but I mean, you know,
talk about your situation and everything.
Like, you know, it definitely itit makes you know it.
I don't know if it draws people to you, but like, it's so real.
(01:02:55):
And like, you know, everyone struggles with shit, especially,
you know, people with, you know,some severe shit like you got
like. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know this
is, it's weird because yeah, this is made me feel like so
much more solid in the idea of being more open so other girls
can be more open. And yeah, my favorite.
(01:03:17):
I was like, people are going to think I'm the pity me girl.
And it's like that is the last thing I want.
I want to be, this is my experience and and you can be
positive and still hopeful for the future.
So even though it was like I felt like I was in such a slump,
but being being optimistic and not allowing yourself to stay
down so important. Yeah.
(01:03:39):
It definitely shows like you, I didn't get any like fucking pity
party out of you. Yeah, you got to be conscious
about it and you're very self aware, so that's awesome.
Yeah, yeah. Like it's funny.
The only thing I've really, really done, like I keep adding
and adding to my little studio here and I'm like, so long as
this keeps growing, it means I haven't given up.
(01:04:00):
I'm like. That's right.
It's going to be like, come out with your.
So even if it's just small symbolisms like that to that,
that state that like you had, like you do still see a light at
the end of the tunnel, It's it is, it's really important.
Yeah. And I have goals and manifest
yes. I don't know, I I like your
(01:04:23):
setup. It's looking like you might be
like a podcast host or something.
Maybe you know, talking about your struggles or.
I had to remove all the pervy stuff from like the facility
because I I was like, this is a going on YouTube.
So I got a golden penis right there and I got a tiny monster
cock, black cock creature there that I had to like, make sure
(01:04:45):
wasn't in frame. A golden penis though.
Yeah. I, I, I don't want to show
because I don't want to get because I'm assuming that's not
allowed on we. Yeah.
We can show anything, we don't give a shit.
OK, it's. My hair, it's right here.
Yeah. Let's see that golden cob.
My mom made this for me. She made it.
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My mom, she gold flaked the penis.
That's nice. Yeah, she made it for me a
couple Easters ago. She's the best.
Mom ever. Thanks, Mom.
That was an Easter gift from your mom.
Yeah. She's she's the coolest.
She's creating me this custom pink paddle.
(01:05:28):
I'm really excited for it. Yeah, no, she's the, she's the
most amazing mom. You saved them for the last.
All right, we definitely have tohave you back because we got to
talk about your mom because that's and pink.
Paddles. Because yeah.
Yes, that is intense. It just happened to be right
next to me. Holy fuck can you?
(01:05:50):
Can someone hold that with one arm?
That looks like you got a fucking 2.
It is a little heavy, yeah. You you kind of want to hold it
like that, yeah. Yeah, because I'm, if I'm trying
to hit you, I'm getting you behind the knees because that's.
That's what I got. I was the pledge mom of my
sorority, so I had it like a very large pledge class.
All their names are on it, so. Oh, that's awesome.
(01:06:11):
So it wasn't your mom that made it.
You were the mom that. I was the mom and they made it
for me and I have spanked that little gentleman with it, so
that's nice. They like it.
So that's awesome. Whoa, whoa, whoa, now it's
getting too gay for me. I'm sorry.
I can't. You guys might have to do
another episode with just you 2 and me not here because that's,
(01:06:32):
you know, I'm all no homo. So sorry.
If I spank you with the pedal, that's not gay though.
I don't want to be spanked. The last time I was spanked I
was like, I don't know, like 9. You're right.
You're right. Yeah, I'm just not into that.
That's just not my thing. If you spanked me with the pedal
then. I'm probably hitting you behind
the knees because my arms are fucking weak.
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I'm very healthy. And you're old.
It's very heavy and you're. All right, all right.
Now it's just getting disrespectful.
Now we're I'm kidding. Huh, I honestly forgot how old
you are. All right, All right, Yeah.
Now that's the end of this episode.
We're not getting into all that.So, Lily, thanks for joining us.
(01:07:13):
Thank you for. Having me.
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You guys are talk people. I have a bird.
Oh you definitely got a bird post that shit on Instagram and
only fans right? Oh my gosh.
Hey, Poochie. Yes, yes, this is, this is
(00:22):
Nikita. So cute.
Oh yeah, yeah, She just got a trim.
She's all good, right? Feeling good?
My pug is over here, you guys like?
You guys are talk people. I have a bird.
Oh you definitely got a bird. You post that shit on Instagram
(00:45):
and only fans right? Different kind of bird.
Oh well, all right, so we got a Co host OMGH Bomb Heather, and
of course special guest Lily Leclair.
You you actually got interviewedby Perver Pete on this show a
(01:05):
while ago. Yes, that was good fun.
Yeah, except I'm pretty sure youdidn't show him your bird.
No, he did not get to see the bird.
Poor him, suck for him. So what kind of birds you got?
He's old. Look, no, he's a iligerous
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macaw. So he's like a mini, Not a mini
macaw, but like a mid sized macaw.
Does your bird sing to you? He does the wiggle, wiggle,
wiggle, wiggle, wiggle, Yeah. Definitely need a bird that does
that. It's funny because I've thought
about like, I think the Internetwould love him, but I'm
(01:49):
terrified, you know? Remember what happened to Peanut
the squirrel recently? Yeah, they, someone reported
that this guy had this squirrel in this raccoon, and they were
euthanized. And I always had that in the
back of my head even before hearing about that, about how,
you know, what if someone falls in love with him and realizes,
(02:09):
like, what a commodity he is andcomes in and steals him?
So I'm like, terrified to put him on the Internet.
How I get it like some girls don't like to post their
boyfriends and stuff like I get it.
Exactly. Yeah, basically the same thing.
My precious. So wait a minute, what's the
bird's name? His name is Pascal.
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Oh, Pascal. Oh, he's like, that's like, what
is he, South American? He I'm pretty sure he is from
South America from the pet store, but.
Oh, oh, oh, that's good, though.He's like, you know, what do you
call that? Like I was going to say
European, but obviously that's not European.
(02:52):
He's no. No, no, I think like like
Brazil, I'm. Pretty sure Brazil.
Nice. Yeah.
All right. That's good.
So speaking about birds, have you been posting your bird on
only Fans or no just? 1.
Not that bird. Either one.
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That's yeah, that's that's kind of where I've been lately is on
only fans for select few that kind of been sticking around
while I've been going through kind of a hard last couple
years. So.
Can't relate, can't relate, we all go there.
But it's good to know like who does stick around and have those
quality over quantity sometimes too.
(03:37):
Absolutely. I'll want the.
Quantity. But it's not always about that.
So yeah. No, Absolutely, yeah.
But yeah, but you've been because, you know, because I
always do my research and shit and you know, I don't have shit
for you. Like where have you been?
What have you been doing? Yeah, it's funny.
(03:58):
I I wish I was coming on here saying I'm a millionaire now.
Been doing great. But no, I've had some mystery
health stuff. It's funny because we were going
to do the podcast last week and then I miscommunicated with my
sister. It's a good thing that happened
though, because an hour later I was rushed to the ERI had a COPD
(04:18):
episode. The closest I've yet been to
like it being lights out for me.So it's been a rough week.
Yeah, you almost died. Oh shit, that's fucked up.
Yeah. But yeah, so just been figuring
out, yeah, some health stuff and, and it's funny because when
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we were talking about coming on and doing like a, you know, a
follow up, I was like, Oh my God.
Like, what am I going to say? But I guess I do have some
cautionary tales for the models given my experience.
And I think that's more valuablethan me saying I'm a millionaire
now. This is great.
Like. Yeah, the majority aren't
millionaires and have more cautionary shit going on.
(05:04):
Exactly. Damn shit.
I don't want to get too excited,but yeah, what happened?
Yeah, no. So I, I have some tales of
trying to get to the US and being only fans model that.
Yeah, that was kind of interesting.
I, I don't know how many like Canadian followers of the
(05:28):
channel there are, but I'm sure even from other parts of the
world, because US is usually where like all the cool events
and stuff like that are happening.
So yeah, you got to be a little bit more careful with explaining
what you're doing over there. And for myself, it was, I was
going to AVN, which is like the big, big of the award show and
(05:54):
then the Expo. And yeah, I, I don't, I like, I
wasn't, I like, I'm not a good liar.
So. And what I tried to do was, you
know, walk up to the TSA agent and try to be as like brief as
possible with, you know, I'm a content creator.
Because I'm not. Lying.
(06:16):
But I would say but I mean if you are but.
Yeah, but he kept asking more and more questions, which led me
to the backroom where you go andoh, my goodness.
Like, it is such a scary experience, especially if you
have like, I, I love to travel. And I'm thinking the end of the
(06:36):
US is such a a hub for even catching flights and stuff like
that. So yeah, it was a lot of
questioning. Luckily, I was kind of able to
dissociate a bit and really stayOK, even though I knew how high
the stakes were and I've heard stories of other models having
(06:57):
issues. And technically, like I wasn't
lying, I wasn't going to the US to work, but some some things
happened. I was supposed to be going for
longer I and then it ended up being like I'm just going for
the night, which is a huge red flag to them.
They literally thought I was coming into escort make money
(07:20):
and leaving. You dirty whore, how dare you do
that in America? Never.
No, no. And who knows, maybe America
will be home soon. I'll go to 51st state so who
knows but. But though this this is a
concern that I never even you know, like thought about because
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I would I would be the same like, Oh, I'm the content
creator. You know, what's the problem?
Like, I guess they want to see alegit job.
I didn't know they were tight, so tight on that.
Yeah, Yeah. I think that well and fair
enough if if they're trying to prevent human trafficking and
stuff like that for happening, fair enough.
But at the end of the day and I'm so happy I could be tight
(08:03):
lipped because TSA does not needmy sass.
But as far as I know, if if cavity checks are still done,
ATSA agent would be more likely to get close to someone's ass
than I would from the comfort ofmy bedroom doing my own thing.
So it was extremely insulting having to again and again and
again state that yes Sir, I did all my taught in my bedroom for
(08:26):
cash. That does not equal
prostitution. Wait a minute, wait, wait, wait.
Back up. So, so like you, you want to get
into the US Were you just like crossing the border, like
flying, driving? Yeah, yeah.
I was flying. I was flying from Vancouver to
Vegas and they were convinced that yeah, because I think what
(08:50):
really flagged them was only coming for one night.
So they were convinced that that's what I was doing.
So then they go through the motions and it's funny because
like I have, because of the COPDI have all kinds of
inhalers, steroid inhalers and stuff like that.
So he's like opening up my medical bag and looking at all
this stuff kind of like like, what is this for?
(09:12):
What it. And I'm like I'm, I'm an
asthmatic like like. Yeah, because they're fucking
retarded and they see all these inhalers.
They're like she's doing drugs. They're invasive.
Yeah, yeah. And then to like, my fault.
I had three phones on me. Oh.
No trapper. You fucking where's your beeper,
(09:36):
you fucking drug dealer? OK but one phone is like my
regular phone. Second phone is to play
Crunchyroll because I love my anime, but my third phone won't
allow me to play Crunchyroll on it.
And it was my third phone that had the headphone Jack because
it's ancient. So I needed my music phone, my
(09:58):
anime phone, and my real phone. So he's asking what are all
these phones for? And I'm.
Yeah, that. That'd be my question.
Why don't you have an MP3 player, buddy?
Well, what's with this phone thing?
Like you don't have 3 phones forall your needs.
What do you mean? And so they're really do you
(10:19):
give us permission to go throughyour phone?
I don't have anything to hide. Go ahead, go ahead And I think
that they were so caught up in this trick looks so guilty.
But then I have my my manga, my spy X family manga book, my 3
phones that have three legit reasons why I have them.
My puffers. So I don't think they knew what
(10:41):
to make of me. Well, so is that how you got
away with it? Because I'm dying to know like.
I I I think so I think they likesaw the state of me and how I
was so OK, look through my stuffand and I knew don't bring toys,
don't bring anything like that. So I think they realize, OK,
(11:02):
this girl is a case of look so guilty, but maybe isn't.
But so I, I, so he was like, youknow what, I'm going to allow
you in. I don't have to, but I'm going
to allow you in. And he led me through the doors
and I was good to go. All right, all right, wait,
(11:23):
wait, wait, wait time out. We got to break this down
because I'm really interested inthis.
So, so you're, you're going up to the fucking TSA, you know,
just like. Doopy, doopy doop.
You got what, one bag? Yeah, just my yeah, I just got
my carry on. OK, so you gotta carry on like
Doopy, Doopy do you gotta carry on?
You put it in, you gotta go through the fucking the you
(11:44):
know, what's that? The metal detector or whatever.
So how's that go like? Yeah.
Like I cleared go through. Yeah, I cleared no problem.
I'm pretty sure that was actually to the time where I had
ATSA agent because you know, they do the random check where
they'll just open your bag and they'll do the quick the quick
search. Oh yeah, yeah.
Yeah, I got through that perfectly fine.
(12:06):
It was when I, I, I realized I got up to like I was next in
line and I walk eyes with the guy that I'm going up to see and
all of a sudden I just get this like sinking feeling in my chest
like something's going to happenhere.
Did wait before you continue? Did he look like a neckbeard?
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He was one of the largest men I've ever seen in my life, and
his name was King King. King like KING.
Yes. He was he black?
Sounds black to me. He was he.
He just, you know, just. And he had the the the deepest
(12:50):
voice where I literally kept having to ask him to repeat
himself because my heart is now going like this.
And his like low voice, I'm barely able to make out what
he's saying. And, and he's looking at me
thinking, oh, I found one, let'sgo going to the back like.
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And yeah, he, he wasn't the one that dealt with me after that,
though. There was another gentleman that
was there to greet me when I gotback there.
So. So King says something to his,
you know, partner or whatever. Is that how?
OK, What? What do you think?
He said he was like, oh, look atthis little white girl.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm going to get her number.
I'm going to fucking hook this shit up.
I like to bang white girls, right?
Something like that probably. We'll make it like, I mean, if,
if it would have went that way, maybe it would have been a much
better experience. I mean, but no.
So like, OK, I think, yeah, I think we got one of them, one of
(13:53):
them fly by night escorts here trying to pop into Vegas and pop
back real quick. Oh, OK, Yeah, that makes sense.
It looks really. Obvious to them, but it really
wasn't like. Oh my God, yeah.
It was just so, so much stuff had gone on before ABN came up.
But I I told my friend that I was going to be there.
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She'd helped me get my ticket and I I wasn't going to just not
show up. So I was like, OK, if I'm there
for the day and a half, fly out,like, you know, I've done what I
said I was going to do. I showed up.
But yeah, that that I'm assuming, is what really got
them wondering what my business was.
(14:39):
And. I've got a girlfriend that's a
flight attendant and she bops over like she went to Denmark
for one night one time like. But I guess since she's working,
it doesn't like she can just kind of cruise.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. Maybe I need to become a flight
attendant? But she wasn't working when she
went overseas. Like, yeah, but they didn't.
(15:01):
I mean, I'm wondering like, she's never run into anything
like that and she does shit likethat all the time.
Okay, yeah, I guess that trust built with with the fact that
she was, Yeah. So, So what did King's boyfriend
say to you? Like what?
You know, like you're standing there, like I don't know what's
going on and what King's boyfriend say to you.
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Well, he is asking, you know, like where, where do you plan on
staying? And that too, because I, I
booked on Airbnb, but it was a hotel.
So at first I'm saying like, I'mstaying at this hotel.
And then I've later on in the conversation said Airbnb and oh,
oh, well, I thought you said youwere staying at this hotel.
(15:43):
Like he thought he got me. And I'm like, well, no, Sir, you
can book people's suites in a hotel on Airbnb.
So, and I have all of this information if you'd like to see
it on my phone, which I'm allowing you to see, which they
never went through. I don't know quite what the
rules are if there has to be like a certain level of proof
before they start looking through the, the devices.
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But he, they didn't, he didn't look through any of my devices,
just my, my, my bag. He pulled everything out.
It's probably their discretion, but we'll probably never know.
I mean, it's probably not defined anywhere.
You can't probably Google that, but.
Yeah. That that's actually a really
good question because I hate cops.
I watch those fucking cop videosof cops just looking stupid as
(16:28):
shit because they don't know thelaws.
But I've never seen anything about TSA.
So yeah, that might be it. It might still fall under the
you know, they just can't searchyour shit because they think you
might be something. Yeah, yeah.
I I figured because I said yes that that gave them the go
ahead. But I don't know if then, if he
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never found anything, if I wouldhave been able to sue or I I
don't think so, but I I have no idea.
Yeah, it's, it doesn't seem likeat that point, but you said they
brought you into the backroom. Oh, how'd that go?
Is that like a Only Fans video that we could buy or no?
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But yeah, here's the thing. Like, yeah, like I assume cavity
checks are still a thing. I that didn't happen to me.
Fortunately, no, that didn't happen to me.
That's fucked up. You don't get it on camera, man.
The words, they're so dehumanizing, right?
Yeah, yeah. And it's funny, the obviously he
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did his TSA thing grilling me and all of that, but then he
really tried to push how, you know, you really should be doing
other things with your life likethis, this industry.
Like sure. That's neckbeard.
Come on, man. Oh, oh, you.
You should. You're much better than this.
(17:55):
You don't have to sell your bodyonline.
Like. It's.
People, man. Yeah, yeah, but it is, it's
funny because in reality, like he does, he gets more close to
ass, most likely giving cavity checks or something, than I ever
have doing this job. And I don't think he's getting
(18:17):
stopped at the border every timehe goes.
Or judged and preach to lectured.
Exactly. So why do they even have to do
that anymore? At the airports they have the
body scanner like. Yeah, and, and if you're going
to stop me, like I, I just can'tbelieve they didn't look through
my phone because if they were so, you know, thinking that this
(18:38):
was going down, obviously there would be messages and you know
what I mean? But no, didn't look through my
phone. I find that so weird.
Yeah, they asked your consent for that too.
Yeah, because he made it very clear.
Like you can turn around right now and then you're not getting
(18:59):
banned from the US, or we could find something and then you'll
have to apply to then be allowedto enter.
And then given the severity of what they found would dictate
whether or not I even had a chance to.
Never even looked through any ofyour 3 phones.
Yeah, yeah, I yeah, I don't knowwhat.
And because like I didn't flat out come out and say like I'm
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going to the AVNSI said like I'mgoing to Resorts World, which is
where AVN was. So again, not lying, but if he'd
seen like my I'm pretty sure it was posted on my Twitter, which
do not ever do. Yeah, what can we have found
like? That's what, yeah, yeah.
So I would definitely say like if you are going to one of these
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events from a different country,I know like it's good to pump it
up for your fans and stuff like that.
But before you go, I guess just because they are like that,
that's how they view this, is that if you do this from the
privacy of your bedroom, you must be a prostitute.
That's a lot of people do. Yeah, and, and again, like, I, I
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truly feel like if this is to try to stop human trafficking,
like I feel bad for laughing about this guy, but at the end
of the day, I know that that's not at all what was happening
with me. So I just found it insulting
that I kept having to defend myself that I was no, I was not
going to meet up with men for for money and sex.
I. Would have been super offended
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too and it takes a lot. So how long were you in this
ordeal? To be honest, because I was in
such like a dissociated state, II I'm assuming it was about 30
minutes, but it could have been less, could have been more.
Yeah. I don't know.
And it sucks because like just experiencing that and then
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having to kind of dissociate andthen you're me just feeling so
relieved the just the chemicals going on in my brain.
It totally ruined the experiencebecause I was on such a weird
high from the whole ordeal beinglet in and what could have
happened. But it it, it did kind of it, it
wrecked the experience. I wasn't present.
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I was up in the clouds somewherethe whole time.
Yeah, that 30 minutes probably felt like fucking 7 hours if it
was 30 minutes. I mean, that's.
Yeah. Yeah, man goes into like
protective mode, so. Yes.
Yeah. It was, yeah, it was intense.
So I would definitely do not go to one of these events for just
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one night. Don't don't play 3 phones.
Smile, smile. This is a good cautionary.
Too. Yeah, only dirty horrors take 3
phones to Las Vegas, right? I mean, that's just a fact,
isn't? It for one night.
For one night yeah. Yeah, it's it's a busy.
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Busy night. Yeah.
Would you do it? Again, no.
Yeah, definitely would do it differently next time.
But yeah. And maybe, yeah, research kind
of what your rights are in that situation.
I have no idea what my rights are.
I figured I surrendered all my rights the second I decided to
try to go into another country. I was kind of just under, under
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their mercy. But I'm sure you have rights.
Oh, you, Oh absolutely, you definitely do have rights.
And from what? I'm not an expert or nothing,
but from what I've researched, like it doesn't matter what they
think, they have to prove that you're coming to America to
fucking solicit someone for sex.Like that's the bottom line.
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They can fucking ask all the questions they want, all the
fucking, you know, interrogate you all they want, but it sounds
like these guys were actually pretty decent from what usually
American fucking. A lot worse.
Yeah, because they don't know the laws.
If they didn't search your phone, that tells me that they
knew they didn't have no proof on you or anything.
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So if they start digging in yourphone, you could definitely sue
them for fucking having no proofthat you were doing anything.
They need a reasonable, reasonable suspicion to search
your shit. See that I would.
Then I would be sitting here a millionaire.
Yeah. Listen, I tell me about it.
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I'm always because I watch theseTikTok videos with cops and
shit, I am praying every time I drive my car out of my fucking
house, I'm always praying a cop would pull me over because I'm
not doing nothing illegal. Because then, you know, because
they're so stupid and fucking there's people making fucking,
you know, 10s hundreds of thousands of dollars in America
because cops don't know the law.But that's a whole other.
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Thing that would make for a goodviral video too.
Like people love videos of cops being dumb and.
Stuff. So I always have my phone right
next to me so I could just fucking.
It's all set. All I got to do is hit record.
I'm ready to go, alright. 'Cause I had three phones, I
should have picked 1 and hit record.
Yeah, you have three. What the?
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Fuck would have paid for it on only fans is what he's saying.
Oh gosh, yeah, yeah. Do your research.
Are you allowed to record back there if so?
Oh, oh, I already know this. Yes, you are.
You're allowed to record anywhere you want in a public
space because that's considered a public space.
Because they're bringing you. They're inviting.
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You in right to privacy or anything or it's not expected
privacy or? Anything like?
That right? Yeah.
In America you could record whatever you want.
They can't fucking unless. You're detained.
Like unless they tell you you'reunder arrest, there's no reason
you can't record. Even if you are under a right,
even if they say you're under arrest, you could still record
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That's that's still, that's the First Amendment right that has
been I'm. Sorry, you're cops.
Yeah, I'm fucking. I'm all up on this shit because
I hate cops but. Yeah, yeah.
So, so when you're on US soil, then you as a Canadian, I would
get to fall under your gun. Absolutely.
Yeah. OK.
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Yeah, this is America, baby. We fuck.
You might get some Canadian rights too under the embassy
depending on you know. Yeah, yeah.
That's. A good point, you should look
into that too. Yeah, yeah, yeah, even though if
you're going with the the the best intentions then and no
illegal intentions, yeah, I guess where all the story is,
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yeah, know your, know your rights 'cause that that could
happen and that, yeah, it was scary. 100% because your whole
story was you weren't doing anything illegal, you weren't
going to do anything illegal, and yet they treat you like, you
know, like you're a fucking criminal.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it, it is rough because
like, I know the dangers of prostitution, so in a way I feel
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like my intelligence was being attacked.
Like you know what I mean? Sure.
Absolutely. Yeah.
That's fucked up, man. Yeah.
Yeah. So, yeah, definitely.
Yeah, I guess bring it up on your rights before you go to
another country. And now I'm terrified because I
don't know if my admission that I do onlyfense has now landed me
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on a like a sex worker list. I don't know.
I don't know, but this sounds like the star of a lawsuit to
me. I mean, you've been traumatized
from the American government. I don't know man.
We're traumatizing over here forreal.
Yeah, we might have to get a lawyer.
With the law, yeah. I haven't traveled since that
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was my third time in like 6 months going to Vegas and I
haven't traveled since and and you know, maybe maybe that visit
with the TSA had something to dowith it so.
So the yeah, I'd. Be a little scared too.
Yeah. So the American government has
traumatized you into traveling anywhere?
That's right. Now you don't want to go
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anywhere. It's so funny, though, because,
like, I love America so much that it's like, I wouldn't dream
of it. But for for those who actually,
yeah, like have lawyer money. Well, in America, there's plenty
of lawyers that'll take your case pro bono, yeah.
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Yeah, or Facebook. Right, we should see if Jackie
Childs is available that that's a Seinfeld reference that's 20
years old. I you.
Know sounded familiar, but I it's just like.
Yeah, that's for old people likeme.
So but so you were travelling togo to the AVN Awards.
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Yes, yeah, I was just going for the two, two days at the Expo.
Yeah, it is so much, so much sexiness.
It's so much fun there. I was so wish that my, my
experience getting there would have allowed me to like be more,
more present because it is. It's so much, so much naughty
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fun. So the government, the American
government, ruined your experience?
Kill Damn Buzz kills. Absolutely.
Sounds like a lawsuit to me. I'm stuck on this lawsuit shit.
I'm. Sorry.
Well, maybe, yeah, maybe you canhit me up with some some info
after, who knows? Yeah, yeah, I'll see what
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lawyers are available. There's there's a few YouTube
lawyers that would love this shit.
Yeah. That's so like, I serious, I
thought I was just like a sitting duck like Oh well,
that's just, you know, another only fence model got drugged
through the dirt. Yeah, and for what though?
Like, you know, like you're coming over to prostitute
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yourself. Like wouldn't you be more?
I don't know. I don't know.
I'm. Just and even if she was that,
do they have to be that hardcorelike and why didn't they go
through the phone? I don't get.
That right? Yeah, yeah, obviously that's a
great point. Obviously they knew they didn't
have, you know, sufficient evidence to go through her phone
because then you know, that opens them up to fucking serious
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lawsuits. Right.
So they knew, but even even after that they they kept going
on you like try and ask you questions and shit.
Like even if after they didn't go through your phone, like they
were still busting your balls. Yeah, he would.
He would. He was totally doing good cop,
bad cop. Oh, you know, there's so much
other things you could be doing with your life.
You're young, this, that. And then so are you coming into
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the country to solicit for sex, like just blunt after playing
good cops? And I'm like, absolutely not,
Absolutely not every time, absolutely not like.
Straight off the bat, wow. Like, I can't name you one
person that was in Vegas that that that would have occurred
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with. Like there's nobody.
Like, absolutely not so. That's crazy that they just like
basically outright said are you a fucking whore?
Right. And so like, what if?
What if I was going to be a whore?
Like what if I just like but it's my like I consented to
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being divorced, so like what? I guess because technically
because I'm Canadian, I don't have a a worker's visa, then it
would be working illegally in the country, so they could have
got me there, right? Possibly, yeah, because in
certain area. Yeah, right.
I don't mean to cut your bank. No, no.
Yeah, In certain areas in Las Vegas, prostitution is legal,
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right, Heather? Yes, but I don't actually in
Vegas, but around Vegas, yeah. Yeah.
Oh shit, so so you could whar around in Vegas if you have a
workers permit apparently. Yeah, they have like the
brothels and stuff, but it's notlike on the downtown Strip or
anything, or in the town of Vegas.
It's another researchable thing that we should do, but it's
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close by. I mean, I would say like a hop,
skip and a jump 30 minutes or less.
But but we're not prostituting here.
Why do we like we're that's? What I'm saying, like, what if I
just wanted to actually go like,you know, be a little more but
not get paid for it, but, you know, have some fun?
But he even he even asked if I was planning on doing collabs
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with anybody while I was there. So.
Yeah. So collabing say I I had plans
to collab which I didn't had plans to collab with another
model that would be me entering the country to work, which would
have got me. Gotcha.
Yeah, you asked. That like what if you were Yeah,
wow, that makes. Sense so.
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So yeah, if you were, then you'dbe asked out like an asshole.
They'd be like, yo, fuck you, get out of here.
Yeah, and it's crazy because like too, like in my head, I
assumed that was more so you can't come into the country and
work illegally given that you'retaking a job from AUS citizen.
So in my head had to like that kind of was kind of a great area
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of, of congestive confusion because it's like, if this is
digital, how how does that work?Because if a a businessman takes
a call, work call in the US coming from Canada, his ass
ain't getting fucking kicked out.
But there, yeah, he's very made it very clear to me there is no
collabing going on in the US foronly fans if you are not from
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there, so. Oh wow.
Only in oh wow. Only inner US only.
Wow, we're getting super weird around here.
Yeah. Do you know the the the TSA
agent's name by any chance? I don't he wasn't as more
rememberable as King's. It was so shit to.
Call him out though. Well, yeah, I'd like to thank
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him for, you know, potentially stopping a Canadian whore from
taking a job away from an American whore.
I mean, thank God for that, right?
And, and all the wild like I, I remember recently like watching
a video of kind of the situationat the border at the time and
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just thinking how crazy this is,that all of this energy is being
wasted on me. No doubt.
I think that's it. But again, not my country, so
you know. We're getting so.
Weird that. Yeah, I mean, that's insane.
Like who? Like, all right, forget the.
Well, yeah, forget the legalities of it all.
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Like we're wasting our time on who you're banging.
And if money's involved. I don't know.
That just seems. Invasive and way personal.
Nosey. Not necessary.
Yeah. Well, yeah, can't.
Like, shouldn't you be looking for like, you know, serial
killers, terrorists, you know? Drug traffickers.
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Yeah. So, you know, people that are
actually potentially hurting, hurting Americans.
Yeah. I would have been helping if
that was the case. I was going for Wellness
purposes, you know, I would havebeen helping, I'm sure, but
that's that wasn't what I was doing.
But. But yeah, yeah, exactly.
So some Americans going to get to eat your Taco.
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What's wrong with that? Right, that's what I'm saying.
Yeah, yeah, I guess it was the slow day.
I was the only one in the backroom, so I guess it was a
slow day. And King thought he he fished
himself a slut. Say.
'Cause you gotta wonder, like, what do they get?
A a a little bonus every time they actually catch somebody?
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I don't know. I don't be like contemplating A
bribe's VH Get Me Out of here. After 30 minutes I would start
to think about that happening. Yeah, yeah, my, my whole thing
was is like I do not want to have to turn around and go home.
I just want to be as complicit as as possible.
And yeah. Yeah, I'm feeling a little
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sexual harassment here. Like, why only you?
Like, were there? What were there just a bunch of,
you know, fucking I don't know, like, why you?
And I wasn't like dressed cute like this.
Like I had big sweater, my hair in a messy bum.
Like, like I wasn't who was if someone was showing up to meet
me like that, like I was only getting pennies.
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So what's the point? Yeah.
I think the point is King wantedto bang a fucking white girl.
Were there other white girls in line?
I was too scared to turn around.I I swear like I was moments
from a panic attack when I realized like this isn't going
well. I don't know how to handle it.
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I haven't looked up my rights like stupid stupid stupid like.
Sounds like a A. Sounds like harassment of a
Canadian citizen to me. This sounds like a huge lawsuit.
Sure does. Sir, Right.
Don't you agree? I think, I think she got a huge
lawsuit. Yeah.
Is there what is that called when there's like a time window
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for for these kind of things to actually?
I don't know that much. Limitations.
Yeah. Statute.
Of limitations, yeah, that's important.
Yeah. I think it might be like a year,
five years, I don't know. Yeah, I.
Think sexual harassment is like five years 'cause I know, I
know, one of R Kelly's cases gotkicked out 'cause the statute of
limitations was over five years.But.
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Yeah. The crime, like certain ones,
like hardcore ones, like, you know, the RAPE ones like that,
that carries a longer statutes of limitations than something
like petty larceny or something.I don't know.
OK. Yeah, probably in America,
sexual harassment isn't a big deal.
But like, if King, you know, tried to stick his Wiener in
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your mouth or something, that might, you know, that would be
long cavity check. Yeah.
Oh, I bet he wanted to do a cavity check, right.
Yeah. We, we fucking.
We know your deal, King. And that's the thing, like given
that it 'cause I was saying yes,take it everything, look through
my stuff, would I have said yes to the cavity check?
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Do you have to also? I'm like what?
Cause no. I I think I would have I wanted
to go to the EBN. Holy shit.
And I know there's nothing up there, so go ahead.
That's funny. That's that's a good point too.
Yeah, because I'm thinking like,would I fuck no, I don't want
anyone digging in my butt hole, but.
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How bad, you know? Oh.
Yeah, exactly. Yeah.
How bad do you want to go? Like how?
Bad. Do you want it?
That's yeah, that's tough. That's a tough fucking
situation. Yeah, yeah, but at least it made
for an experience and advice forfor the the models wanting to
travel that because I'd heard that oh it's hard getting across
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the border. They found out you do only fans.
And I kind of thought, well, that's, that's dramatic.
That's dramatic for. Me to leave the country and come
back, you know, Yeah. Trouble coming back into Mexico
one time when they were changingthe laws about whether you
needed your passport or not at the time, like, I didn't need it
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to get into Mexico, but I did like, kind of needed to get back
into the States. So it was like a contention.
And so, yeah, that is a concern for me, your story.
Because what if I leave the country and come back and then
they find out I do only fans or something, I don't know.
I would just, yeah, I think because you're a citizen, I
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would, I would hope that they have to take you back no matter
what. Right.
Yeah, fuck. Sometimes they don't.
They're wild. Yeah, but yeah, definitely
research your rights and that that shit does happen.
Don't think that models are using it for to go viral.
Let's make a TikTok about how this happened.
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You know what I mean? No, like, that shit's real like.
Well, for the record, if you ever make it back to the States
and want to stay a couple of nights, we should definitely
collab. No, no, I would be so down like
it. Like I said, I I love the US.
I've been to Vegas a couple times, been to California and
that's why I like my heart was so like Oh my God this is a life
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changing thing that could happento me right now if they deem
something I've said meant sex for cash.
So. It could have been, it could
have gone southward really badly.
Could have been better. It could have been worse.
Like, a lot, yeah. Yeah, and I and like I said, I
haven't tried traveling since, so I have absolutely no idea if
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I have like. Listen, they really did
traumatize. Yeah, yeah, you sound like a
victim to me. Yeah, victim of the American
government. Oh no man, sounds like you
should sue. Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna, I'm maybe
I'll look into how, how long I have because that was not this
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January that passed the previousone.
So a year would be up. But if it's if you get the five
years, then maybe I, I should kind of look into that, even
even just for the the just of it, because it's not right.
It's very dehumanizing, especially given what I do have
on my phone. The idea of this man just
getting to see it all for free. That's.
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True and and you know everythingelse about my life that's on
there. I even said to him like my phone
is like my diary. This is dehumanizing but I have
nothing to hide and I figured ifI said no to that he'd be like
hey bitch you're out so. Probably for certain.
Yeah, yeah. The whole, that whole
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situation's fucked up, man. I mean, you know, there.
May be some YouTube lawyers willsee this or you know, he can
pass it along to his his lawyer buds just to watch and see what
they think. But yeah, it does sound really
fucked up. Yeah, yeah, I've, I've watched a
couple YouTube videos, but thesegirls were actually escorting.
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And and. Talked about, yeah.
I haven't talked about their experience.
As well. So I was like, OK, well, you
know, you're, you caught, you'recaught.
You know, you, you want to do the crown, you do the time, but
I I didn't really know exactly how bad it could get even for
just the lonely old only fans girl that just does solo play in
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her bedroom like. Wild work.
Yeah, and that that's that is funny to me too, because it's
like you really think that I would go all the way to Vegas to
do what I won't even like I've never been with a guy on my only
fans. Like that's never been a thing
that I've done, which, look, I'monly fans, go ahead and you'll
see that. But for some reason I'll go all
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the way for a night of escorting.
Yeah, that's kind of nuts. Like it should be based around
the content too but people here only fans and then immediate
sexual or negative connotation kind of like.
Yeah, yeah. No.
And I tried to say like I do what I do safely from my
bedroom. That's not a risk I feel is
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necessary to take, but he just kept asking.
He was highly intrigued. I think so, you know, but though
I did get almost a vibe that, and maybe it was the good cop,
bad cop. Maybe he had a younger sibling
or something, a sister that he maybe saw something in me and
maybe that's why I didn't get itwhere he was so mean to me or
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that was the good cop, bad cop scenario that he was trying to
play. I don't know.
Interesting perspective. Yeah, yeah.
But you might not get as lucky as as me crossing in and and you
could get a total asshole that really is like interrogate,
interrogate, interrogate. Yeah, he kind of ebbed and
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flowed with the weight, his style.
Well good. Did you get any pics at ABN?
I got a couple just of me like in front of the sign and stuff
like that. But after I was like, is someone
going to look through my phone coming back?
Like if I take a picture with somebody, are they going to be
like, you did him, you did her? Like I was like, oh God, do I
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want to have memories of this experience?
I don't know. And then we do Oh.
Jesus Christ. So, so wait a minute, Is that
why? Like, because you haven't posted
anything on like your Instagram in about a year.
Is that why? It's a, it's a huge, it was a
huge wake up call for me. It's, it's like I said, I like,
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I would love to travel the worldand in those moments I thought
that was going to be taken from me.
And I still don't know if that is a, a thing that I'll, I'll
have a problem with doing. So that did make me stop and,
and go, wow, like I, I need to be a little bit more thoughtful
about this, but I, I love this industry and like, I can't
(44:24):
imagine myself doing much else. More so than not posting is
because of all the, the stuff that's been going on as far as
like my illnesses and stuff likethat.
And that's why I've just kind ofstuck to my only fans guys doing
services with them and just kindof coasting by for now.
(44:47):
But I've, I've recently got somespecialists and stuff like that
and really had to start taking whole COPD very seriously
because I've kind of been in denial the last five years since
being diagnosed with it. So I'm, I'm hoping that that'll
combined being properly medicated and stuff like that
for it. I'll get enough oxygen to my
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brain that I can think a little straighter and then I can be
back on, on sex Panther and stuff like that.
Because I do, I miss it so much.But if I can't give my all, like
I'm, I'm not just here for the money, like I am here for how
good I am at this job. And if I can't give my all, I'm
not going to have you pay me to to do anything.
(45:30):
So and agree with that I don't like to share that type of
energy if I'm not on at my best but I know other people do.
But like, you found your loyal, so that's really good.
Yeah. Really good perspective to have
to just, you know, you want it to be quality again, coming back
to the quality. Absolutely yeah, yeah.
And if you're good at this, you're meant to do this you you
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will obtain those fans and then if you have to take a time out
even if it's a year, a year and a half, then those guys will be
there. And when I, I, I logged onto a
sex Panther not too long ago because they got all these rules
now about you can't have a like a dildo in your profile picture,
that sort of thing. So I logged on so I could switch
(46:13):
up my profile picture so I didn't lose my account.
And then I got flooded with and I'm just like, Oh my God.
Like I just want to be happy andhealthy and, and come back to
these guys because I miss them so much.
So wait a minute, why can't you show a dildo in your fucking
profile pic? Yeah, well.
It's weird because like about like four or five months ago, I
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got a notification saying you can't show, you know, you can't
have nudity at all. And it's like, okay, that I
mean, OK, so I, I changed it up and then I get another
notification not too long ago where it was like, you can't
have the rivets of your asshole showing.
You can't. You can't have toys.
(46:56):
On Sex Panther though. Yeah, for the, for your profile
pictures, like you're good to gofor like the feed.
But your profile pictures, they've definitely had what I'm
assuming is like Visa, MasterCard that the payment
processors really start laying down what they're allowing as
far as showing that kind of stuff.
(47:17):
But it's like, OK, so you can't have it here, Scroll down a bit
and there's my asshole. That's OK, like.
That's that's my question. So like if I go on to your sex
Panther I see your profile pic and if I scroll through your
shit can I see any dirty pics ofyou or do I have?
All right? That makes no sense.
Like if it was behind a paywall or some shit like that, that
(47:39):
would make sense. But if I'm scrolling and see
your fucking Hoo ha. And like yeah, the same minute,
minutes or seconds like. Exactly.
So I don't quite understand, I guess the rule is not in profile
pictures, not without them understanding.
But you Scroll down a bit and there's your feed photos.
So then you can you can see it all there.
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It it doesn't make sense, it really doesn't.
But them's the rule, so. Yeah, there's got to be
something behind it, I guess. But yeah, it doesn't make any
sense. What the fuck?
Yeah, yeah, absolutely. It's like I what, Pretty soon
we're all going to be all in hoodies and covered up and.
He masks. I don't know about that, but
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what the fuck? Yeah, fuck it.
I don't know man. You got to guess my cup size.
That could be a fun game though.Pasty.
It could be pasties. Yeah.
But But yeah, so yeah, things are things are going kind of
weird as far as that goes. But yeah, I just, yeah, I logged
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in to switch that up. And then I was like, I just want
to be OK and be OK to do this. And but I'm I'm hopeful that
that that's the light at the endof the title is coming now that
I'm taking my house super serious and I actually have some
specialists behind me. So that's yeah.
So is it your health, the healthreasons as to why you're, you
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know, like taking a step back? Is that the main reason?
Yeah, because when when obviously when you are having a
much harder time in your day-to-day trying to breathe and
you're not properly medicated, you're not getting proper oxygen
to your brain, you're so you're not making good healthy choices
(49:28):
that could then help you get healthier.
So I'm right now I've I've aftermy lease was up, I moved in with
my mom and she's really been been assisting me in, in all of
this, which sounds so pathetic because like I'm a grown ass
woman. And but yeah, when you lose a
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function because like you're, you're not capable of thinking
straight, there goes your memory, there goes your ability
to make good choices and commit.And, and the you every Cam model
has heard it in the videos. Commitment to this is, is what
allows you to grow and thrive. And I knew that that commitment
was completely shot because justthe way that my brain was
(50:12):
functioning. So yeah, like, it's take your
health seriously and and don't be in denial, even if you are
scared of maybe a diagnosis, because all you're going to do
is wither away. No matter how good you are at
this job, if you don't, if you don't have your your, your
mental capacities, you're, you're fogged.
(50:34):
Definitely going to have those like titanium, like steel traps,
yes, yeah. But of your mentals, you guys,
'cause it's super important. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed
and reach out if you need like to talk to somebody.
I'm always down to talk to people about like their mental
struggles or anything like that too.
(50:55):
So just know that. Yeah, yeah, know that, Yeah.
Communities, yeah, definitely, definitely needed and this,
especially after going through health stuff, 'cause yeah, yeah,
it sucks because you could, you could be amazing at this, but
yeah, you will. You will just slowly deteriorate
(51:16):
if you let your health go. So just take that so seriously.
Oh kudos to you for like being self aware and doing that so.
Do you, do you feel like you're on the path to like get back to
where you want to be or? I I do my last stint in the
hospital here, like the doctor really laid into me like the
(51:38):
severity of even going one day without taking my steroid
inhaler and, and in in my head. It's almost like, well, if I I
don't feel like I need it, it doesn't matter.
Take it like, so I'm, I am, I'm feeling like and to having,
having like a team behind you. Where is I?
(51:59):
I, I kind of just thought it wasme just all by my lonesome
trying to deal with this. But now I think the, the last
few stints going to the hospital, I think people have
understand like I'm not taking this seriously.
So they're going to have to kindof hover until I do, which,
yeah, after this last one, yeah,I'll, I'll do whatever it takes
(52:23):
to not put myself in that position again.
And not only that, my poor mother having to go through that
and witness her daughter literally like, 'cause my, my
oxygen was so low, they couldn'teven administer me this the IV
steroid because your body has tobe at a certain percentage for
the to be able to accept the medication.
(52:46):
So it was like she literally washolding me up as I was like
breathing on like one muscle in my back.
Like it got. Yeah, but Beyond Scared Straight
definitely works. Yeah, my mother just got
diagnosed with COPD. Actually.
It's been a nightmare so. Yeah, it's, no, it's, it's,
(53:06):
yeah, it's no joke. And it's not just asthma where I
thought, oh, it's asthma. It's like, no it's not.
Yeah, I thought she was like dying.
Not to be dramatic, but for likea second there.
I mean, she she thought she was dying too before she got
diagnosed, like recently. It's scary.
Yeah, yeah, it's, yeah, it's no joke.
(53:28):
Yeah. Yeah.
Take your health so serious, because without that you got
nothing. There's yeah, there's, it's not
related to what you have, but there's a YouTube creator, his
name is Austin Austin, Austin McConnell.
Austin McConnell, I think he hada heart issue and he actually
documents like he documents likehis struggle with it and like
(53:52):
what he went through and like, you know, it broke, it sounds
like same with you. Like it, it broke you down and
like you couldn't create and really want to.
And you might want to check him out just to see like, his
struggle, like what? Like, you know, because you
could probably relate, you know?Yeah, yeah.
And it's funny you see that because I thought I was like,
should I be maybe think what I'mfeeling up to it like, you know,
(54:16):
creating vlogs and stuff like that so that it does allow for
others to be more accepting of living life, still trying to
achieve your dreams even though you're diagnosed with something
that is kind of scary and all ofthat.
But I'm like, how about we just start with, yeah, being able to
maybe show up like one day a week on Sex Panther and take
(54:40):
care of my Only Fans guys and gofrom there.
Yeah, your best, that's all you can do.
If you're if you're doing that and you're trying, then you're
doing so. Yeah, yeah, yeah, not giving up.
And, and like I said, I love this industry, so I'm definitely
not giving up on on it. So.
Oh. Girl.
Hell yeah, that's fucking great man.
(55:00):
So are you still doing your OnlyFans?
Yeah, yeah, mostly communicatingand doing services through my
direct messages. I'm not promoting it or anything
like that. But yeah, if anyone customs
video calls, I still will do that stuff.
But it is it is for like the select few that kind of stuck
through this whole ordeal with me.
(55:23):
Have you been yeah and also haveyou been posting any like vlog
type stuff about it or anything on your only fans or or you just
staying away from that? Yeah, but I, I do, I, I, I, I
feel like this experience has made me realize how important it
is for in especially in this industry, because I don't know
too many girls that are open about this.
(55:44):
And, and I think that that makesit so other people think they
maybe have to hide. So yeah, maybe maybe in the near
future or something like that will be coming.
But I've been pretty open with the with the guys 'cause
sometimes they'll want to do a show and I'll be like, I'm
sorry, but I'm not like there's no way.
(56:05):
Yeah, when it comes to that stuff, so good for you.
Yeah. That's smart.
Yeah, it sounds like people might enjoy that stuff.
Like, you know, 'cause like it's, it's so personal and like,
you know what I mean? Like customers will love that
and you know. Yeah, 'cause at the end of the
day, if you're doing this, this version of this and not, you
know, just doing porn, the guys,they want that connection and
(56:27):
they want the humanity of it. So, yeah, don't be afraid to
open up about what's going on. You know, obviously there's
certain extent of, of how much maybe you should share.
You don't need to tell people your entire life story.
This is the Internet after all. But for as far as like illness
and stuff like that goes, like it's only going to make them
(56:50):
understand more as to why you'remaybe not around and stuff like
that. Because my fear is, is all these
guys think I've ran off with some rich guy.
I'm and I'm like living living up life like when it's like
actually is the exact opposite, like I'm so.
To the front, by the way, so. What's that?
(57:10):
Sorry. I said rich guys to the front,
by the way. Oh, just.
Come on down. Yeah, I had no idea because I
just assumed like, you know, youjust took a break and, you know,
because a lot of girls just takea break from everything.
I didn't know it was this serious.
That's. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
(57:30):
I wish. I wish I was a millionaire just
living my life, but it's not thecase.
Well, we'll get there. Hell yeah, you got to have that
fucking attitude, right? It's like, you know, like,
pretend it's 1986 Eye of the Tiger, right?
That's right. Sorry you guys are too young
for. That I got the eye of the tiger.
I got that one. Yeah, like what was that?
(57:52):
Rocky 4. Yeah.
Right. Yeah.
Yes. Sorry.
I'm sure there's lots of guys that they understand your
references, Gary, don't worry. Nobody understands anything I
say. It doesn't matter.
I'm I'm one for 2 so. All right, 50%.
(58:14):
Nice, yeah. All right.
This Yeah, this has been great. This this wasn't the update I
was expecting, Lily. But I mean, I, I don't know, I
feel positive for you. Yeah, me too.
You have a. Good mentality about it and good
messages. Yeah, yeah, I was a little bit
(58:34):
nervous because I was like, thisis going to sound like a sob
story, but it. Doesn't it really doesn't.
You're staying positive about itand you're sharing.
Will help other girls not be ashamed too.
Probably. Hopefully.
Yeah. You know.
Yeah, definitely. Yeah.
Like you feel it too, Heather. Like her positivity, like, like
it wasn't like a Debbie Downer thing.
(58:55):
Like, oh, it was kind. Of like learning, yeah.
Yeah, because your positivity just like fucking like, you
know, like, yeah, I'm a fucking,you know, yeah, I'm struggling,
but I'm going to do this. I'm Yeah, you're a boss.
A boss. You got this.
So. Well, thanks guys.
Hell yeah. Man, always a hustler.
(59:15):
So hopefully, hopefully, well, Idon't know, we definitely got to
do another update at some point because I'd love to hear their,
you know, the rest of your storyand everything.
Yeah, yeah, Hopefully after the summer I can, I can be a bit
more consistent with it all and then be in a much better place,
especially with the medications and stuff like that.
(59:37):
Like things should be getting a lot better, getting that oxygen
to the brain and and and, yeah, getting to live life again.
Yeah, God, we're. Rooting for you too.
Hell, again, we're rooting for you.
Yeah. If you were like a negative
(59:57):
Nancy or something now I'd be like, ah, fuck you, you know,
you're too negative. Yeah, that's, you know, but your
positivity, like fucking I guarantee your positivity not
only inspires, you know, other people struggling, but like, you
know, the people that support you, like your customers and
everything. Like, you know, that's got a
fucking like, yeah, fucking likesomeone this positive, like, how
(01:00:21):
could you not support them? You know what I mean?
Yeah, yeah, like and and you areyour own worst enemy with the
negativity shit. So like I know like it's OK to
be down. Don't stay there because you
only go down, down, down, down like it's just you know, do do
your best to to. Sexy pose you guys sorry.
(01:00:44):
Oh, that's hot. If I was into bestiality.
Oh yeah, it's nice. Doing her reverse sneezes too.
So Well, thank you for honestly sharing and feeling comfortable
enough to share with us. I meant to say earlier that I'm
sure Gary does too, but I feel honored and special that you
(01:01:07):
would come on and talk with us about this and share, you know,
your story about everything. Because I know you know, that
was very brave to do. And you know, I think he was
going to give you shit about notposting before you told the
truth. So.
Oh, no, no, no, no. Why would you think that?
(01:01:29):
No, because like, you know, people like they go off and do
their own thing and no I. Know hitting no, he wasn't going
to give you shit but. No I would never give anyone
shit, especially Oh my God, imagine if I did give her shit.
What an asshole. Anybody else to come on Cam girl
Diaries? Yeah, no one.
(01:01:51):
I fucking cancelled man. Of everything, of everything,
that that would be what cancels you.
Fuck yeah. No, he had no I'll intent at
all. No, he did mention that you
hadn't posted in a while so we did you know he was legit.
Just wondering. Yeah, yeah, 'cause what I didn't
(01:02:14):
want to do is have more people flood and be like, bitch, what
is this like? If so, I was like, you know
what, just keep a little bit on the down low and just keep those
keep those guys somewhat happy as much as I can.
And then when I'm back, I'll I'll I'll be back in in posting
so. Meantime, just let them thirst,
(01:02:34):
it'll be all right. Yeah, I will.
And last thing I'll say is like,I would suggest like, yeah,
maybe talking about your situation.
I mean, you talked about here, obviously, but I mean, you know,
talk about your situation and everything.
Like, you know, it definitely itit makes you know it.
I don't know if it draws people to you, but like, it's so real.
(01:02:55):
And like, you know, everyone struggles with shit, especially,
you know, people with, you know,some severe shit like you got
like. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know this
is, it's weird because yeah, this is made me feel like so
much more solid in the idea of being more open so other girls
can be more open. And yeah, my favorite.
(01:03:17):
I was like, people are going to think I'm the pity me girl.
And it's like that is the last thing I want.
I want to be, this is my experience and and you can be
positive and still hopeful for the future.
So even though it was like I felt like I was in such a slump,
but being being optimistic and not allowing yourself to stay
down so important. Yeah.
(01:03:39):
It definitely shows like you, I didn't get any like fucking pity
party out of you. Yeah, you got to be conscious
about it and you're very self aware, so that's awesome.
Yeah, yeah. Like it's funny.
The only thing I've really, really done, like I keep adding
and adding to my little studio here and I'm like, so long as
this keeps growing, it means I haven't given up.
(01:04:00):
I'm like. That's right.
It's going to be like, come out with your.
So even if it's just small symbolisms like that to that,
that state that like you had, like you do still see a light at
the end of the tunnel, It's it is, it's really important.
Yeah. And I have goals and manifest
yes. I don't know, I I like your
(01:04:23):
setup. It's looking like you might be
like a podcast host or something.
Maybe you know, talking about your struggles or.
I had to remove all the pervy stuff from like the facility
because I I was like, this is a going on YouTube.
So I got a golden penis right there and I got a tiny monster
cock, black cock creature there that I had to like, make sure
(01:04:45):
wasn't in frame. A golden penis though.
Yeah. I, I, I don't want to show
because I don't want to get because I'm assuming that's not
allowed on we. Yeah.
We can show anything, we don't give a shit.
OK, it's. My hair, it's right here.
Yeah. Let's see that golden cob.
My mom made this for me. She made it.
(01:05:06):
My mom, she gold flaked the penis.
That's nice. Yeah, she made it for me a
couple Easters ago. She's the best.
Mom ever. Thanks, Mom.
That was an Easter gift from your mom.
Yeah. She's she's the coolest.
She's creating me this custom pink paddle.
(01:05:28):
I'm really excited for it. Yeah, no, she's the, she's the
most amazing mom. You saved them for the last.
All right, we definitely have tohave you back because we got to
talk about your mom because that's and pink.
Paddles. Because yeah.
Yes, that is intense. It just happened to be right
next to me. Holy fuck can you?
(01:05:50):
Can someone hold that with one arm?
That looks like you got a fucking 2.
It is a little heavy, yeah. You you kind of want to hold it
like that, yeah. Yeah, because I'm, if I'm trying
to hit you, I'm getting you behind the knees because that's.
That's what I got. I was the pledge mom of my
sorority, so I had it like a very large pledge class.
All their names are on it, so. Oh, that's awesome.
(01:06:11):
So it wasn't your mom that made it.
You were the mom that. I was the mom and they made it
for me and I have spanked that little gentleman with it, so
that's nice. They like it.
So that's awesome. Whoa, whoa, whoa, now it's
getting too gay for me. I'm sorry.
I can't. You guys might have to do
another episode with just you 2 and me not here because that's,
(01:06:32):
you know, I'm all no homo. So sorry.
If I spank you with the pedal, that's not gay though.
I don't want to be spanked. The last time I was spanked I
was like, I don't know, like 9. You're right.
You're right. Yeah, I'm just not into that.
That's just not my thing. If you spanked me with the pedal
then. I'm probably hitting you behind
the knees because my arms are fucking weak.
(01:06:53):
I'm very healthy. And you're old.
It's very heavy and you're. All right, all right.
Now it's just getting disrespectful.
Now we're I'm kidding. Huh, I honestly forgot how old
you are. All right, All right, Yeah.
Now that's the end of this episode.
We're not getting into all that.So, Lily, thanks for joining us.
(01:07:13):
Thank you for. Having me.
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