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Speaker 1 (00:00):
You say you want
peace and clarity and healing,
and I believe that you do.
But part of you is alsosecretly slamming on the brakes
and that part of you isn'tsabotaging you, although it
looks like it.
It's protecting you fromsomething.
So how do you stop fightingthat part of you and start
working with it so you can havethe post-divorce life you want?
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Hi love, welcome to DearDivorce Diary, the podcast
helping divorcees go beyond talktherapy to process your grief,
find the healing you crave andbuild back your confidence.
I'm your host, dawn Wiggins, atherapist, coach, integrative
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healer and divorcee.
Join me for a fresh approach tohealing grief and building your
confidence after divorce.
This episode is reallycompletely inspired by the
conversations I've had with somany of you, or Coach Tiffany
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has had with so many of you overthe last weeks and months, as
we've been enrolling ourpersonalized program, a
Different D Word, and coming outof this enrollment period, we
are on fire Like.
We are more inspired and onfire as a team around this
program and the women it servesmore than ever.
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We learned so much thisenrollment period about
personalizing a program, aboutyou, our listeners and about the
things that are blocking youfrom having the life that you
want, and so, in the inspirationof this episode, I wanted to
talk about how to manifest avision over the next several
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months.
There are many of you who havesaid I'd really like to enroll
in the fall, but I know that ifwe don't take very intentional
steps between now and the fall,the fall is going to show up in
a blink and you won't be readyand we won't be ready to receive
you.
Right, there is capacity work.
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Have you heard that phrase onthe tiki taki or on Instagram
lately?
Right, there's this work to doto expand your capacity to
receive.
And so what producer Joy and Idid over here was, well, plan
this podcast episode wherenumber one we are going to talk
about the truth, aboutresistance.
Right, because we're toldresistance is often something to
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push through.
But what if it's actually amessage from your nervous system
?
And so, in this episode, I'mgoing to show you how to decode
that resistance so that itdoesn't feel like a blockage or
a failure and it starts to feellike a clue.
And then, later in the episode,we're going to talk about the
most common post-divorce pattern, and what I see all the time is
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that when you get out of apainful marriage and you are
finally free to heal, and thenyou find yourself stuck in the
work, unconsciously living fromnegative beliefs or numbing out
to just try to keep your headabove water.
If that's you, don't panic.
I'll walk you through whythat's happening and how to
gently shift it.
And what we are doing as a teamover here to continue to shift
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our capacity and to receive andto serve you in the fall is we
are going through somemanifestation steps.
We have created this veryintentional vision board that
lives in our headquarters, witheach of the names of the women
we have been in touch withlately, right?
And so, if you have not yetbeen in touch with us about a
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different D word, ourpersonalized program, even
though enrollment is technicallyclosed, we're still building
our list and building ourcommunity for joining in the
fall.
So feel free to scroll down tothe show notes and click the
form and do the thing right,because we want you on our
vision board, we want you partof our intentional manifestation
process, we want to coach youthrough removing any resistance.
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You have to making a massivecommitment like that, right?
So let's dig into talking aboutthe truth, about resistance.
It is a message from yournervous system when you feel
fear, tension, resistance,blockage.
There is in there a negativebelief that lives in your
subconscious mind about what'spossible for you, and so that
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negative belief may soundsomething like this I am not
enough, there is not enough, Icannot have what I want.
I cannot trust this thing.
I cannot trust myself and mydecision making.
That's not possible for me.
The working gal can't get aheadright.
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There are negative beliefs thatyou have, for whatever reason,
inherited as yours, whether theystarted as yours or you got
them from somebody else.
Right, you have claimed them.
And now, when you try to makedecisions that run counter to
those beliefs, you are going tofeel resistance Because your
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nervous system, your reticularactivating system, their job is
to protect you and they aregoing to function based on your
belief system.
And our belief systems arethoughts we've rehearsed over
and over and over again.
And so if you had a traumaticchildhood at all or a traumatic
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marriage, and your endocrinesystem has been delivering you
stress, chemicals and hormonesdirectly associated with that,
and you have told yourselfstories about what's possible
for you and what's not, enoughtimes you have come to believe
them, you can be in a seasonwhere you want to claim better
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for yourself and yoursubconscious mind is going to
say that is not the agreement wemade love, that is not the
agreement, and you're going tofeel it as resistance, fear to
move forward, fear to take thenext step, fear that you know
you can't do the thing that you,on one hand, one part of you,
feels like this is a no-brainer,this is, it'll be fine, it'll
be great, it'll be wonderful,right?
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So I want you to start lookingat resistance right as a clue
that there's a negative belief,or more probably, more than one,
inside of you that needs to beidentified.
The most common post-divorcepattern that I see is women who
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get out of a painful marriageand they're finally free to heal
, and then she gets stuck in thework, right?
So let's walk through togetherwhat's happening and how to
shift it, right.
So this is piggybacking on ourTuesday episode about where your
manifestations are breakingdown.
But I'm going to help you.
I'm going to, with you, do itwith you, drop into the body and
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walk you through how I shift orhow I work with resistance in
my body.
Okay, so for funsies, let's workwith, for now, the idea of
perhaps joining our program inthe fall.
Right, it's a bespoke,personalized program that we
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guarantee is going to get you tothis place of peace and clarity
and healing.
But you have some resistance inyour body about what's possible
.
And for my guys out there thatare listening because we have
some amazing guy listenersfriend, you can still do this
exercise, right, and you cancall in whatever the perfect
healing process is going to befor you.
So you know, just because maybeyou can't join this particular
program, like there's stillabout, there's still this
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process about believing that theperfect healing process exists
for you, right?
Okay, so now I want you to takea big deep breath and if you
don't want to do the topic ofjoining the program, you can
pick something different, right,but I want you to drop into
your body and I want you toconnect with whatever resistance
you feel.
Okay, so I'm working withsomething, a different
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resistance, right, because weare the program, so I can't work
with resistance around joiningthe program.
But when I feel resistance in mybody, the first thing I want to
check out is what are thenegative beliefs that I have
activated?
For me, it's probably oftensomething around control, like
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I'm going to lose control andthat's going to cause me to be
unsafe, not be able to protectmyself.
So I want you to notice whatkind of negative beliefs do you
have?
Is it something aboutprotecting yourself, trust,
safety, something bad happening?
They're having enough, beingenough, being able to get what
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you want, things working out foryou.
What are the negative beliefsyou have?
And so then, rather than resistwhatever feelings there are
about that, we want to welcomethem in.
Okay, I have big scary feelingsabout losing control and not
being able to protect myself.
We could sort of hear howthat's a trauma thought and I
bet you relate to it a lot,right, especially coming out of
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traumatic marriages.
That is such a common feeling.
And so if I notice that there'sa really strong negative belief
in there because when I look atthat I'm like actually I know
that that's not true, although Iam getting a different flavor
of it today Like I can see wherethere's a little more work that
I could do around being able toprotect myself, right.
So we want to acknowledge anywork there is to do around
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shifting negative beliefs intopositive ones.
Actually, I've gotten reallygood at protecting myself,
protecting my energy.
Actually, I've gotten reallygood at choosing rather than
waiting to be chosen.
I've gotten really good atexpressing myself or setting
boundaries.
I've gotten really good atthose things and nothing
horrible has happened.
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I love to add some bilateralstimulation, some immersive
journaling when I'm doing this,some somatics.
Maybe I need to hum, maybe Ineed to punch something, throw
something, maybe I need to gruntor growl or move my body and I
want to play with thisresistance and I want to gently
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help my reticular activatingsystem.
Notice that I have theintention to shift this negative
belief into a positive one.
Now, very often we have to comeback to this work over and over
and over again, shifting thisnegative belief into a positive
one, and we have to.
We must use somatic techniquesto do that.
We've talked a lot aboutsomatic techniques.
Emdr is a somatic technique.
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Homeopathy creates a somaticoutcome.
Ifs has a lot of somaticcomponents.
Eft has somatic components,pillow throwing somatic right.
Like we have to use somatictechniques to do this work and
we can't say, oh, we're justgoing to do it once and never
come back to it, because thatnegative belief is going to
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shift over time.
So what is the negative beliefabout joining a personalized
program that you need to shiftover these next few months.
And then I want you to noticethe common emotional patterns
tied to that.
For me, it's this little sortof panicky anxiety.
What is it for you?
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And so, if you can't feel thepanicky anxiety or whatever your
particular emotion is, thenthere's that.
Then the clue is ah, you needto create a safer environment
for those feelings to come up.
How can you do that?
If you can feel the feelingsgreat, can you just sit with
them for a moment?
Hello, fear.
And then what would you preferto believe?
I would prefer to believe thatI am divinely held.
I would prefer to believe thatmy God is not a God of chaos,
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that I am being called to expandmy capacity to receive good
things.
I would like to take some deepbreaths and allow my nervous
system to feel me reprogrammingmy beliefs.
Have you seen any of thosedesign images where there are
two squares and they're bothgray and they're the same shade
of gray, but they look very,very different shades of gray
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because there's a line down themiddle that's shaded and it
causes our mind to perceive twodifferent colors of gray.
This is what working withresistance is we have taught our
mind to perceive the world oneway, and we are gently working
with the resistance to help itperceive the world a different
way.
When you think about being heldby the universe, being held by
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our coaching team, being held by, you know, a group of women who
will get you from here to there, what comes up?
What comes up about feelingtruly seen, about being
vulnerable, about having to feelfeelings on a consistent basis.
What are the negative beliefsthere?
What are the negative emotionsthat you're wanting to run away
from?
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And now, as I've felt throughthese feelings, I've learned the
negative beliefs.
Maybe I've done a littlejournaling, maybe a little
butterfly tapping.
Now I'm gonna intentionallyreach for joy and for positive
thoughts.
Right, because our tendency isto really be in tune with what
could go wrong, but not reallyin tune with what could go right
.
And so, what could go right?
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I could get my life back.
I could feel powerful, I couldfeel supported, I could feel
safe.
I could, one step at a time,experience solutions coming to
me day after day after day.
I could experience relaxing.
I could experience letting goof being hypervigilant and
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having to figure it all out.
I could learn how to trustmyself and people and the world
around me, so I don't feelfreaked out all the stinking
time.
And so this is your call toaction is to practice sitting
with the resistance andexploring these layers of it,
the layers of beliefs, thelayers of tendency to negatively
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predict versus positivelypredict, the layers of emotions
you're avoiding, when we can sitwith those emotions and be like
, huh, okay, yeah, could go.
Worst case scenario it could,it could, but what about the
emotions that could go.
Best case scenario, and that'swhat we're missing, right, is
the rehearsing of what it feelslike for it to be best case
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scenario, and that's what we'remissing, right, is the
rehearsing of what it feels likefor it to be best case scenario
, and that's why manifestationsoften don't come to pass,
because we're not good atrehearsing best case scenario in
an embodied way.
So what could it feel like toactually have what you want?
What could that feel like?
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Now, if we are not best friendson Instagram yet, this is an
invitation to jump on Instagramat Dawn Wiggins and send me a DM
.
What does the perfectpersonalized healing program
look like for you?
Because if I'm walking usthrough a guided visualization
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of a beach walk, your beach isgoing to look different than my
beach, right?
I am so curious.
What's in your mind's eye, whatdoes it feel like in your body
to anticipate a perfectpersonalized program that gets
you from here to there?
What's that feel like in yourbody?
Can you practice that sensationand maybe close your eyes and
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send me a voice note right, hitrecord and voice note it,
because from that place of eyesclosed, you can be more in touch
with how it feels, the somaticelements of what it feels like
to have a perfectly personalizedprogram.
You want to get from here tothere.
You want peace, clarity andhealing.
I know that, I believe you, Itrust that.
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But, as someone else said to me, I feel like I've taken the car
apart Dawn and I don't know howto put it back together.
And I think that's because wedon't know how to embody
positive anticipation.
We know how to avoid, we knowhow to deny, we know how to
suppress.
We don't know how to embodypositive visualization.
So let's drop into thisresistance, let's help it shift
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from the negative into thepositive and then reach out to
me and share what you're tunedinto about a perfect
personalized program for you.
Can't wait to connect.
Talk soon.
Peace, dear Divorce Diary is apodcast by MyCoachDawn.
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