March 1, 2023 • 61 mins
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Slash, donate, give what youcan and be honest.
Resist the onuses of ego andcivilization.
Give up the grind.
We all die in the end, but itdoesn't have to be from
loneliness.
You deserve rapture,inspiration and decadence.
You're entitled to your questfor self-realization.
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You need to go feral.
We'll show you how and how toget away with it.
We're the people of thescreaming release, pushing back
on the prohibition againstecstasy and helping you destroy
the ideas that inhibit yourpleasure.
You're listening to K-Chung,los Angeles 1630 AM on the
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World Wide Web.
This is normally the time slotfor Emerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes, the website for whichis medicated-minutescom, which
is medicated-minutescom, buttoday it has been commandeered
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by the people of the screamingrelease and we think it will
become apparent why this wasnecessary.
We need to get our heads out ofour asses immediately.
This is an emergency crisissituation.
It could not wait one monthlonger.
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Ego and civilization makeunreasonable demands of us, as
shown by the reaction right nowto the Adderall shortage.
Either the FDA is utterlyincompetent or they're trying to
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teach us a lesson by makingsome people really, really
suffer and annoying everyoneelse and compromising their
ability to play into the verysystem that the FDA is very much
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a part of.
It's rich to act shocked thatpeople want more amphetamines
when your economic policy, asyou've decreed it, is let's work
everybody to death.
Yes, they're gonna want speedShocking, and if you are going
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to look down your nose and becondescending about it, you're
trying to have it both ways, andboth of those ways are terrible
.
Terrence McKenna advised hisreaders to check out.
In a sense, he said the cultureis not your friend.
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Create your own roadshow.
We believe that he was headedin the right direction, but did
not go far enough.
The people of the Screamingrelease would advocate something
more serious and yet morejoyous, more free, more fun,
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more wild and ecstatic.
Go feral and get away with it.
That's what we believe in.
We are pushing back against theprohibition against ecstasy and
we're being honest about itright now, because it's time to
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cut through the static.
Honesty is dangerous.
100% honesty will almostcertainly get you imprisoned or
assassinated.
Ecstasy is dangerous too.
There is risk inherent inanything worth doing.
Ecstasy is not necessarily fun.
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It can be found in the placeswhere God and the devil are
roommates and the soul is seizedand shaken.
The whole point of therollercoaster ride is the
screaming.
If you're on a hell trip, callit by its name.
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It is not some kind ofchallenging educational
experience.
It is not some kind ofchallenging educational
experience.
That's hell and that's agonyand sheer terror and you are
really living.
So don't miss out on it.
Don't deny yourself thatexperience.
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Obviously, certain drugs are ofgreat utility.
When claiming your ecstasy andpursuing the screaming release,
some people get hooked, asdefined by when something starts
screwing up other parts of yourlife, and a lot of people do
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that with all kinds of things.
That is a misdirected searchfor love and rising above and
touching something sublime.
The good news is, first of all,we got the good drugs here at
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the Hacienda the screamingrelease.
We got the real uncut dope.
And also, although drugs are fun, they are essentially a dead
end.
They will not save you, noteven psychedelics.
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There's a better way and wehave it, and you can have what
we have it.
And you can have what we havewithout the infantilizing
sloganeering that you get in12-step programs, but rather
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with the exuberant shared effortof getting jacked by pushing
back on the prohibition againstecstasy.
Your self-realization, pleasureand decadence are up to you.
You must pursue those things onyour own.
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Society has no use for theliberated extreme individual.
Destroy the ideas that inhibityour pleasure.
Don't wait for someone to swoopin and remove them.
This is war, and sometimes yourbest strategy might be losing
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your mind.
In many situations losing yourmind is the least of your
problems and driving yourselfcrazy is the logical next move.
Find the other mutant monkeysthat were some evil scientists
back in the day, when they couldget away with stuff like this,
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that made little alterations tothe brains of certain monkeys in
a monkey social group.
The monkeys had no way ofknowing which monkeys had had
the alterations and which oneshad not.
But when they put all themonkeys together, which monkeys
do you think socialized witheach other?
Yes, it was the ones with thealtered brains.
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So find the mutant monkeys likeyou that are screwed up in the
same beautiful way and when thishappens, you will start seeing
some weird and phenomenal things.
You will start seeing some weirdand phenomenal things and there
is no responsibility to sharethose experiences with people
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that can't handle them, don'tlie about it unless you have to
Never initiate violence, everincluding emotional cruelty,
unless A you absolutely have toand B you know you're going to
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win.
Your responsibilities are yourown quest for self-realization
and supporting others who are ontheir respective quests for
self-realization in anatmosphere of mutual respect.
And also finding your screamingrelease.
Find your ecstasy.
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Release the beast.
Let the junkyard dog off thechain if it is dehydrated.
Get on that.
Nurse it back to health.
We are all entitled to healing,inspiration and connection, and
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if it doesn't pencil out foryour boss, all the better.
Really loving yourself, reallyloving the monster inside you,
is a radical act inside you is aradical act and you will learn
this in the extended and wildlysatisfying slut phase that you
undertake as you have your funand take the path of indulgence
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in pursuit of your screamingrelease.
Every alley blowjob is a sacredact and screaming release is
the goal.
Be the filthy animal you wereborn to be.
Go full bore.
That's a pun B-O-A-R.
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Be a person of the screamingrelease.
It's the least you can do foryourself under these truly
horrifying conditions.
You know, it seems like thisperson is just not good for you.
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The two of you together is nothealthy or safe, and it's not
that there's anything wrong witheither of the two of you
individually, but this dynamicis just killing you.
It's been grinding you down formonths.
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It's the only thing we'vereally talked about, and I think
when someone is just not rightfor you and your life, where you
are right now, and doesn'tbelong in your space, the thing
to do is just forget about them.
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Don't get mad, don't try torefine or redefine the
relationship.
Just forget about them and youcan do it.
It.
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I know it seems hard, but whenyou think about it.
You forget about things all thetime, and when you forget about
something or someone, whathappens?
Where does that person go inyour mind, like someone you knew
in elementary school when youwere seven years old, or
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something you wanted, some dreamyou used to have.
Maybe it was fleeting, maybe itjust didn't work out, but at
some point you just let it goand then it just wasn't a big
part of your life anymore.
And sometimes that's a passivething.
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You just start thinking aboutsomething else and that drives
out the old thing that didn'twork and wasn't working.
But sometimes you can choose toforget.
I invite you to examine andexplore the process that goes
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down in your mind, in your self,in your heart, when you just
forget about something and thenfind that image of this person
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that you've invested all of thispower in, that's been taking up
so much energy and so muchspace, and pull the pull-up.
Just visualize that image turnsblack and white,
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two-dimensional, and you see itgetting smaller and smaller and
smaller, frozen, with afrightened expression on the
face, because they can't move,they can't control you or hurt
you anymore and they just keepgetting smaller and smaller and
with that, any doubt that youhave in these words, or your
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ability to just forget it.
Just let this person go out ofyour life, let the air out of
this.
We're wrong about almosteverything.
Sometimes we realize that we'rewrong and we can course correct
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and try something new, andthat's what makes life wonderful
, that's what makes life worthliving, that keeps us curious
and alive.
And sometimes we're even wrongabout the people that we love,
or someone could be right for usat one time and then so, so
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wrong, as time goes on and wegrow and they don't.
And I know that you've grownand I know that it's painful and
I know that this is sad and ithurts.
But it's also a good this andbe honest, there is, as you're
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probably aware by now, a deeperinner level, deeper inner level.
You're perfectly welcome tohang out on the periphery for as
long as you want.
There's a lot of fun to be hadthere.
In fact, I spent many yearsjust hanging out, breaking bread
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, shooting it up, having fun onthe periphery of the people, of
the Screaming Release, andthat's all fine and good.
That's where you want to be.
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There are also inner layers andrealms and stuff that most
people will never get to see andat this point you're aware of
that and perhaps you'reconsidering making the jump.
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I would advise caution.
I would advise reflection.
Possibly some form ofmeditation.
I'm kind of done with justsitting meditation.
I like chanting, I likeenergized, embodied meditations,
sometimes involving sexual acts, or at least a good, solid
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workout.
But make sure that you reflect.
Get a deep tissue massage,perhaps Go for a long run.
Pay attention to what your bodywants.
I know I didn't always tune inwell to what my body was trying
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to tell me Initially.
There was a time early on in mylife when my body pretty much
always told me no.
That was the best that I couldget out of.
My body was no to everything,because I was scared all the
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time.
I didn't know how to draw anycomfort or any inspiration that
would alleviate that.
I felt controlled by forcesthat I was powerless to push
back against.
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I didn't understand my ownrealm of control.
I didn't understand my ownrealm of control.
It was just fight, flight,freeze or appease all the time,
usually freeze and appease.
I did a lot of groveling andthat did not feel good and I
just got used to my body alwayssaying no and I would do things
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anyway, on on a dare or becauseof peer pressure, because
everyone else was doing it, orto desensitize myself.
I wanted to scare myself.
I wanted to scare the crap outof myself.
I wanted to get strong.
I conflated that with goingnumb.
I conflated that with going no.
Maybe you got a little bit ofthat in you.
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I would say it's possible, ifnot probable, if not a
possibility, approaching acertainty, that a lot is getting
lost in translation and itcould feel like every sensation,
every signal from your body,your heart, means no.
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If that's the case, then youmight want to sit with this for
a good while, really reflect,really feel into it.
Don't feel like you have torationalize.
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Just be aware when you'remaking up a story about it.
If you feel like you're fallingasleep, notice how it is that
you feel sleepy.
Notice the details of thatexperience.
Notice how it is that you feelsleepy.
Notice the details of thatexperience.
And if you feel like yawning, Istrongly encourage that.
I believe that yawning is thefinest form of prayer.
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The point is figure out what youwant.
If you don't know what you want, you are lost in the woods and
at the mercy of the people thatyou're going to attract into
your life.
In that state and those are notthe best people Even the best
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people can leave a lot to bedesired on a typical day.
You've got to trust people tobe human and you've got to trust
yourself as the person thatknows you best, that you know
best, that is into a lot of thesame sex stuff that you are,
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that listens and pays attentionand is the person that is
guaranteed to have your back onyour quest for self-realization
and screaming release if thatrelationship is in good standing
.
And if it's not, you want toget it there.
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So take all the time that ittakes to get that humming street
legal, seaworthy, off therunway and in the sky, in orbit,
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exploring space.
Get it working and moving and,when it's on, do justice to the
genius in your genes and achieveenough screaming release to
know what you're really allabout and if entry into the
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inner realms of the people ofthe screaming release is for you
.
And if that turns out to be thecase, then let us know.
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Thank you, to be continuedconvenience Never give a
straight answer unless it's no.
Always be less invested with asoft place to land and a backup
plan.
Test people scare them away andwatch the movies you want to
see.
You're a non-sequitur inside asexy biohazard suit.
Expect the worst and you'llstill get hurt, but you won't
feel stupid.
Remember you're always right.
No one else matters.
Here you are.
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Welcome to the inner circle,the inner sanctum of the people
of the Screaming Release.
You've made the jump,congratulations.
You might find that you belonghere, that you resonate with
these ideas and you can put themto good use.
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You might be sickened andhorrified, in which case it's
probably too late to go back.
You could try.
There are certainly ways thatyou can blot out your
consciousness and eventuallythings may seem to get back to
normal.
But if that's the kind of thingthat you crave normalcy, stasis
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, security you may have alreadyscrewed up by coming in.
That's not what we're about.
The people of the ScreamingRelease outwardly represent
pushing back on the prohibitionagainst ecstasy.
That's the bait.
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What we advocate for, in truth,fundamentally at the heart of
it, at the essence, is chaos,confusion and consternation,
because nature is good.
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Safety, the false sense ofsecurity, prohibitions on
freedom and the imposition ofcontrol by people who do not
have the intelligence, thesophistication, the
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understanding to run our livesthe way that they think they do,
as indicated by the fact thatthey are trying to run our lives
and being blatant about it.
We're always rooting for chaos.
That's really the only solution.
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Every force creates counterforces.
Every action provokes areaction, which is why every
solution to any problem justcauses more problems.
Everything is part of theproblem.
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That's the law of the land.
That's the basic truth ofthings and, yes, it's scary.
That's how you know you'realive.
One thing I probably should haveprefaced this with, and
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something you need to know as aperson of the screaming release,
is you do not have to saythings straight out.
You do not have to share yourtrue beliefs.
First of all, nobody cares.
It doesn't matter what youbelieve in your heart of hearts.
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People will draw conclusionsabout you based on how you make
them feel and how you affecttheir lives.
Nobody cares what you reallythink and you really have
nothing to gain by sharing it inmost situations, because you
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don't want philosophicalintimacy with most people, and
most people do not wantphilosophical intimacy with you.
They don't care what you think.
What most people want is to becontrolled and infantilized.
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People pay medical specialistshundreds of dollars an hour to
treat them like children.
Anything that smacks ofchildhood regression is forever
and always in high demand andgoes for a premium price.
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So people want to be controlled, and they will show you how to
control them.
If you're paying attention.
If you haven't noticed howbadly people want to be
controlled, tune into that.
That's the first thing you wantto do.
Improve your radar and yourability to notice the ways in
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which people are begging to besubjugated and offering you the
resources to do it.
People are bad at being animals.
We're probably the only animalthat's not thoroughly competent
and doing the best that itpossibly can, which is how we've
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created the conditions for ourown annihilation.
Because what we crave most ofall is that relief.
We suffer and we make upstories, and most people spend
most of their time craving andseeking out oblivion, most of
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their time craving and seekingout a boy band.
Because the human condition isa nightmare.
There's no way out.
It does not get better, it getsworse the further in you go and
people want to destroythemselves.
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And the best way to controlpeople and the best way to get
what you want is to help peopleget what they want, with the
knowledge in mind that gettingwhat they want is pretty much
guaranteed to destroy.
You want to be cool about it.
Don't make sudden moves.
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Don't explain to people whatyou're doing unless you're
hiding it in plain sight.
Just figure out how to controlthem.
Figure out what they think theywant, what they really want,
where the overlap is there, andthen help them get it, and that
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will eat them alive.
And you can avail yourself oftheir resources, their energy,
get your protein that way, haveyour rotating cast of disciples.
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That requires making peoplefeel good.
Rotating cast of disciples thatrequires making people feel
good and that's why I like tomake an example of narcissists
that try to get involved withthe people in the Screaming
Release, because y'all screw itup for the rest of us.
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Whatever strength andself-confidence you have is a
millimeter deep and you justhave to be cruel and obvious and
stupid in the way that you goafter people and try to control
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them, and it's pathetic.
It's aesthetically disgustingto me.
And when the time comes to makean example of somebody, it's
going to be one of you, becausehumiliation works on you.
You are simple that way.
I love to fail.
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The world is my laboratory.
I learn so much and get so muchinspiration from the things
that make me feel small andinsignificant and worthless.
Even If it doesn't, it's not agood learning experience and it
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is good to be king, but ifyou're the smartest person in
the room, you're not in theright room for learning.
You're not in the right roomfor learning.
So if you limit yourself andyou're basically a narcissist
and a creep, I will come at youand you're not going to like it.
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The most important thing toremember, as a person of the
screaming release, is that noone really likes you.
That's a tough one, but it isworth keeping very much in mind
at all times.
Nobody likes you, nobody cares.
You are alone in the world.
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People care about what you cando for them.
They care about how you makethem feel about themselves, how
you fit into the scheme of theirlives.
Once you've really figured thatout, you can do pretty much
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anything you want, and way, waymore than you ever thought you
were capable of, I'm sorry.
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Once you've sussed out thereality that nature is good.
People are self-interested andnot good at it.
They're basically incompetentcowards and no one really likes
you.
The next thing that you need toknow and integrate and
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internalize and live by anddream about is that no one is
innocent.
No one is anywhere close.
So, um, do not be patheticenough to sacrifice your dignity
by trying to fit the reality ofyour experience into righteous
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moral platitudes.
If you've been paying anyattention and you have lived at
all and have had any sort of alife worth living, you know that
it ain't that simple and youknow what people are capable of,
mostly on the low end, and youknow that no one is innocent.
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And if there was such a thingas justice and there was the
possibility of itsimplementation, every single
person alive would be crushed,and no one really wants that.
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Moral righteousness is usuallyeither aesthetic disgust, which
is fine, just call it by itsname or somebody's telling on
themselves and giving youvaluable information.
Should you decide to controlthem?
And giving you valuableinformation?
Should you decide to controlthem by helping them get what
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they want?
You can rely on people to behuman, to be true to human
nature, to look out forthemselves first, last and
always, to suffer and tellstories and be bad at most of
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the things that they do and bewrapped up in their egos enough
that it makes it very hard tolearn new things.
They get very stuck onerroneous conclusions that they
drew in early childhood.
You can rely on people to bestraight garbage until further
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notice, and that is a powerfulthing to recognize.
It's something to always keepin mind and it's something to
apply to yourself.
Perhaps most of all, it isimportant to know your own
strengths.
Know your own strengths if youare willing to choose gazing
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into the abyss over, distractingyourself and lying to yourself.
That is a strength.
Kudos, mazel tov, you are onyour way, but you also have to
acknowledge your weaknesses, andthat could be the basic vices
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gambling, drugs, this, that andthe other thing Overwork quite
popular right now.
Whatever it is that you do as aform of self-destruction.
Another one that you see a lotof is self-sacrifice, the
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addiction to martyrdom.
People love to play that gamebecause people hate to be in
control.
They want to play, follow theleader, they want someone else
to make their decisions, theywant to be infantilized, and
that makes it easy.
So do people the favor ofletting them self-sacrifice on
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your behalf if that is somethingthat they want.
Just watch your back, becausenobody really likes martyrs, for
good reason.
You can't trust them.
They can't even handle theirown business.
Know your own weaknesses.
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Know your own weaknesses.
If you have tendencies towardself-sabotage, self-pity,
self-limitation, just know thatMost people do.
It is common.
It is picked up early on.
It is an adaptation strategyfor some people that are in
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unfortunate environments whereit can feel like someone's mood
swings have the sway of naturaldisasters or they're trying to
make sense out of chaos andbeing foolish children.
They think that that's possibleand they try to spot patterns,
because that's what our brainsdo we're telling ourselves
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stories and rationalizing oursimple-minded, self-interested
beliefs.
That's a weakness.
Acknowledge it.
See what you can do with it.
Acknowledge it, see what youcan do with it.
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It's all graced, it's all ofvalue.
Figure out where you are in thehierarchy, because you're on
there, you're in there somewhere.
Figure out where you arerelative to whoever you happen
to be dealing with and proceedaccordingly.
Power in one situation does notwork like power in another
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situation.
Understand status, socialdynamics, set and setting, adapt
.
If you just try to strong-armeveryone you run into, that's a
short ride.
Know what sorts of people youprefer to control.
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What kind of suckers whet yourappetite, because occasionally
you can find the particularlyweak-minded people, religious
true believers.
You're dead-enders, hardcoresuckers, very easy to manipulate
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, just begging for it.
Want to be constantly reassuredthat someone else is running
their lives.
Those people are snacks.
They're the slim jims of thehuman race, not very nutritious.
You don't want an army full ofthose people.
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Manipulate people that you havea little bit of respect and
affection for Keeps things sexy.
Know what sorts of people youhave that kind of affinity for.
It's probably reciprocal onsome level.
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But once you control people,they will expect miracles.
The good news is that there aremiracles happening everywhere
all the time.
Happening everywhere all thetime.
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Miracles are the most mundanething that I can think of
offhand.
So spot mundane miracles,synchronicities, little
mysteries of life and takecredit for them.
Put your name on it, put yourspin on it, make it yours.
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That should be good enough formost of your downline.
Your colleagues in the peopleof the Screaming release will,
of course, know what you're upto and I recommend staying on
the level in our meetings.
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They're infrequent.
There's a lot going on on ourDiscord.
That's fun.
There's some hilarious insidejokes on the inner circle of the
Screaming Release Discord thatwe've been running into the
ground for months and months andmonths.
If you have not joined theDiscord yet, get on that.
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Show a sense of joy and goodspirit, no matter what you're
doing, even when you are beingcruel.
In fact, that's when it's themost important.
I am a sadist, but I'm a sadistwith a heart of gold.
It means the world when I getto be mean to someone and if
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someone invites that, I lovethat and I have some gratitude.
I am human, after all.
Be of good spirit, but don'tsay things straight out.
You don't have to shareeverything.
You don't have to tell everyoneeverything that you think,
especially about yourself.
Shut up once in a while.
Speaker 3 (46:31):
So sorry to do this but I need to talk to someone
who gets it.
So welcome to the Toby show.
There's this girl who broke myheart.
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It stayed broken for a week.
Then we got back together.
She's chubby, but in a hot way,like a chubby version of me.
Compared to me, everyone ischubby, thank you.
Cigarettes and cocaine.
Also tan everyone is tan,compared to me.
Anyway, jimmy hooked up withher.
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He wanted to do a threesome.
We ended up kicking him out ofbed and kept going until the sun
came up.
So much cocaine it was rad.
Then we started hooking up justthe two of us, and didn't tell
Jimmy.
I told him she disappeared.
Then he saw us having drinkstogether and I told him she just
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got back in town and we werecatching up.
Whatever, who cares?
Anyway, I don't really want toget into it, but she's got
issues, major ones Danger toherself and others.
She can threaten herself allshe wants.
I'm over it.
From now on, I only care aboutme.
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Our sex is still amazing.
Of course, I'm trying to figureout how to dump her without her
flipping out, but when she'sgone I think I'm gonna be into
girls.
For now, or maybe from now on,girls are hotter and they're
better people.
That doesn't take much.
Like you, you're the best andyou're a girl so cool and funny.
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I need you to stop talkingabout what happened on Friday.
(48:52):
Jimmy doesn't know about it,sarah and Val don't either.
It's just you and me and them.
They all think I'm being goodand I want to keep it that way.
Everyone thinks I'm behavingnow and I don't want anyone to
know I spent the night at theirhotel or that I met the boys
before you did.
I need total discretion.
I'm sorry, but I think youunderstand.
Speaker 4 (49:16):
Oh, okay.
So the story is I've been withScotty for a while now.
I want to get our storystraight.
Speaker 3 (49:24):
Well, no, you're right.
But let's get creative for asecond.
Maybe your friend got you intothe event and you had a plus one
, which is where I come in.
You just wanted a cute, coolgirl for backup.
I told Jimmy, I crashed on yourcouch.
He's stupid and who caresReally?
I'm so over it.
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But just so you know, this ison lockdown.
I've told six differentversions of this story, that's
it.
I'm covering my ass here, youknow, as one does.
Speaker 4 (50:01):
Yeah, I won't tell anyone.
I got your back Total lockdownfor sure.
Speaker 3 (50:07):
By the way, have you heard from Grenadine?
Well, I want coke that costsmoney, which comes from work.
I also kind of want to work.
It's weird, horny, I guess.
So yeah, maybe she's taking theday off.
I don't know, I'm getting pissyabout it.
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I was going down on my ex lastnight.
It's a long story.
Anyway, she started her period.
I thought of you.
I'd totally go down on you ifit wouldn't feel like going down
on my sister.
I think maybe I'm good luck,fingers crossed.
I've got back-to-backmulti-hour appointments, but I
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should be done around midnight.
If you're up, let me know ifyou wanna hang.
Oh, and all this stays secret.
Obviously I'm trying to makethings work with Catherine,
which means I'm lying about work, sex with other people not for
money and my drug problem.
You know as one does.
Speaker 1 (51:17):
You know, a lot of people have asked me are you a
satanic Buddhist?
And I mentioned, I believe,believe that I am with the
people of the screaming release.
You know this.
I make no secret of it.
I also have nothing against thefirst church of the satanic
buddha or satanic buddhism as athing.
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I agree and resonate with a lotof the ideas.
There's a lot of the ideas.
There's a lot of overlap.
We believe some of the samethings.
I am particularly interested inthe satanic part of it.
The Buddhist stuff is kind ofdepressing.
Life is suffering, you sufferfor lifetime after lifetime and
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then maybe you get enlightened,but probably not.
But the only way to getenlightened is to just purge all
the fun out of your life.
Yeah, I don't know about that,but I've always been curious
about Satan, been curious aboutSatan the Beast.
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I was a metalhead growing up andI've done a little research
into how Satan got started.
I don't think Satan is a realcreature or entity that actually
exists, but I think Satan is apotent symbol and an interesting
fictional character.
A lot of fictional charactersare more interesting than a lot
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of the real people I know.
Maybe I need to hang out withmore interesting people, but
anyway, I think it's fair to saythat Satan is more interesting
than anybody I know, perhapswith one or two exceptions, but
definitely in the conversationfor the most interesting
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character, the most interestingidea to have ever been conceived
.
And Satan featured inRevelations and I've read
Revelations, I read the wholeBible back to back.
When I wondered if I was aChristian and I am definitely
not.
I know that now, after readingthe Bible back to back it has
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that effect if you're trying totake it seriously.
But Satan is in Revelations,which is the most awesome book
of the Bible.
Whoever wrote that was real,real, high and wigging out.
And the origins of Satan arereally interesting.
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The origins of Satan are reallyinteresting.
Lucifer is translated from theHebrew word halal, which means
light and brightness as aquality of light, and Satan got
started as an angel right nextto God.
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He was God's right-hand angeland then was defrocked and
condemned and drummed out forkind of weird ambiguous reasons.
He thought that perhaps hecould outshine the Master.
(54:48):
It's not clear what he actuallydid.
There are different versions ofthe story, but it was mostly
just for having the thought thatmaybe he's more godlike than
God.
Maybe God is full of it.
(55:08):
What happens if we just don'ttake god seriously?
If we uh turn it into a joke,try it, see what happens.
That's what happened, what gotLucifer cast out.
(55:31):
And I think about that a lotbecause I don't see what's wrong
with that.
I don't see how levity andhumor and taking things lightly
and having fun is a problem, andI especially don't see how an
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omniscient, omnipotent,benevolent God has that kind of
insecurity, like don't eventhink about outshining the
master.
You would think God wouldwelcome a challenge.
I mean he's going to win everytime.
If the hype is to be believed,maybe God is hiding something or
(56:22):
just really insecure In thiskind of pathetic way, like a
narcissism you might call it.
And you know, should luciferwho, um, you know it's important
to have people who push yourbuttons and call you out and
(56:47):
even bust on you sometimes, likethat's.
I think it's an important partof friendship.
It's honesty and openness.
And yeah, I mean peopleespecially.
You know people that are likethis.
The elite will compete in afriendly way.
They challenge each other.
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That makes us stronger andsmarter and more able to deal
with challenges when they comefrom people who do not have our
best interests at heart are noton our side.
I don't think the punishmentfit the crime.
I don't even know that therewas a crime.
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I am the man behind the dream,the producer, director, writer,
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Thank you to the people of thescreaming release for providing
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off from being emerson dameronand being your dancing monkey
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Normally, I'm happy to do thatbecause I like you and I want
you to be entertained.
Your amusement is the mostimportant thing in the world to
me.
I care very little aboutanything else, but sometimes I
need a break.
So thank you to the people ofthe Screaming Release for giving
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Take a beat, breathe into theexperience of being here and ask
yourself what am I so afraid of?
Maybe you're afraid of missingsome essential life experience.
You're afraid you already have,or that it doesn't matter
because nothing does.
Maybe it's nothing, maybeyou're just a regular nerves
McGee.
Or maybe you're afraid of yourown glorious cataclysmic power,
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the riotous multitudes youcontain.
You are smart enough to knowhow nearly infinitely ignorant
you are, but you're not toosmart to be hot, and you may
already be a satanic Buddhist.
Nothing is good or bad inisolation, only in context.
The Buddha and the Beastmasterare a good team.
This, right here, is all youget.
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Slash, donate, give what youcan and be honest.
Resist the onuses of ego andcivilization.
Give up the grind.
We all die in the end, but itdoesn't have to be from
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You deserve rapture,inspiration and decadence.
You're entitled to your questfor self-realization.
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You need to go feral.
We'll show you how and how toget away with it.
We're the people of thescreaming release, pushing back
on the prohibition againstecstasy and helping you destroy
the ideas that inhibit yourpleasure.
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by the people of the screamingrelease and we think it will
become apparent why this wasnecessary.
We need to get our heads out ofour asses immediately.
This is an emergency crisissituation.
It could not wait one monthlonger.
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Ego and civilization makeunreasonable demands of us, as
shown by the reaction right nowto the Adderall shortage.
Either the FDA is utterlyincompetent or they're trying to
(02:40):
teach us a lesson by makingsome people really, really
suffer and annoying everyoneelse and compromising their
ability to play into the verysystem that the FDA is very much
(03:01):
a part of.
It's rich to act shocked thatpeople want more amphetamines
when your economic policy, asyou've decreed it, is let's work
everybody to death.
Yes, they're gonna want speedShocking, and if you are going
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to look down your nose and becondescending about it, you're
trying to have it both ways, andboth of those ways are terrible
.
Terrence McKenna advised hisreaders to check out.
In a sense, he said the cultureis not your friend.
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Create your own roadshow.
We believe that he was headedin the right direction, but did
not go far enough.
The people of the Screamingrelease would advocate something
more serious and yet morejoyous, more free, more fun,
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more wild and ecstatic.
Go feral and get away with it.
That's what we believe in.
We are pushing back against theprohibition against ecstasy and
we're being honest about itright now, because it's time to
(04:39):
cut through the static.
Honesty is dangerous.
100% honesty will almostcertainly get you imprisoned or
assassinated.
Ecstasy is dangerous too.
There is risk inherent inanything worth doing.
Ecstasy is not necessarily fun.
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It can be found in the placeswhere God and the devil are
roommates and the soul is seizedand shaken.
The whole point of therollercoaster ride is the
screaming.
If you're on a hell trip, callit by its name.
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It is not some kind ofchallenging educational
experience.
It is not some kind ofchallenging educational
experience.
That's hell and that's agonyand sheer terror and you are
really living.
So don't miss out on it.
Don't deny yourself thatexperience.
(05:45):
Obviously, certain drugs are ofgreat utility.
When claiming your ecstasy andpursuing the screaming release,
some people get hooked, asdefined by when something starts
screwing up other parts of yourlife, and a lot of people do
(06:07):
that with all kinds of things.
That is a misdirected searchfor love and rising above and
touching something sublime.
The good news is, first of all,we got the good drugs here at
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the Hacienda the screamingrelease.
We got the real uncut dope.
And also, although drugs are fun, they are essentially a dead
end.
They will not save you, noteven psychedelics.
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There's a better way and wehave it, and you can have what
we have it.
And you can have what we havewithout the infantilizing
sloganeering that you get in12-step programs, but rather
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with the exuberant shared effortof getting jacked by pushing
back on the prohibition againstecstasy.
Your self-realization, pleasureand decadence are up to you.
You must pursue those things onyour own.
(07:40):
Society has no use for theliberated extreme individual.
Destroy the ideas that inhibityour pleasure.
Don't wait for someone to swoopin and remove them.
This is war, and sometimes yourbest strategy might be losing
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your mind.
In many situations losing yourmind is the least of your
problems and driving yourselfcrazy is the logical next move.
Find the other mutant monkeysthat were some evil scientists
back in the day, when they couldget away with stuff like this,
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that made little alterations tothe brains of certain monkeys in
a monkey social group.
The monkeys had no way ofknowing which monkeys had had
the alterations and which oneshad not.
But when they put all themonkeys together, which monkeys
do you think socialized witheach other?
Yes, it was the ones with thealtered brains.
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So find the mutant monkeys likeyou that are screwed up in the
same beautiful way and when thishappens, you will start seeing
some weird and phenomenal things.
You will start seeing some weirdand phenomenal things and there
is no responsibility to sharethose experiences with people
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that can't handle them, don'tlie about it unless you have to
Never initiate violence, everincluding emotional cruelty,
unless A you absolutely have toand B you know you're going to
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win.
Your responsibilities are yourown quest for self-realization
and supporting others who are ontheir respective quests for
self-realization in anatmosphere of mutual respect.
And also finding your screamingrelease.
Find your ecstasy.
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Release the beast.
Let the junkyard dog off thechain if it is dehydrated.
Get on that.
Nurse it back to health.
We are all entitled to healing,inspiration and connection, and
(10:16):
if it doesn't pencil out foryour boss, all the better.
Really loving yourself, reallyloving the monster inside you,
is a radical act inside you is aradical act and you will learn
this in the extended and wildlysatisfying slut phase that you
undertake as you have your funand take the path of indulgence
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in pursuit of your screamingrelease.
Every alley blowjob is a sacredact and screaming release is
the goal.
Be the filthy animal you wereborn to be.
Go full bore.
That's a pun B-O-A-R.
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Be a person of the screamingrelease.
It's the least you can do foryourself under these truly
horrifying conditions.
You know, it seems like thisperson is just not good for you.
(11:40):
The two of you together is nothealthy or safe, and it's not
that there's anything wrong witheither of the two of you
individually, but this dynamicis just killing you.
It's been grinding you down formonths.
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It's the only thing we'vereally talked about, and I think
when someone is just not rightfor you and your life, where you
are right now, and doesn'tbelong in your space, the thing
to do is just forget about them.
(12:25):
Don't get mad, don't try torefine or redefine the
relationship.
Just forget about them and youcan do it.
It.
(12:51):
I know it seems hard, but whenyou think about it.
You forget about things all thetime, and when you forget about
something or someone, whathappens?
Where does that person go inyour mind, like someone you knew
in elementary school when youwere seven years old, or
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something you wanted, some dreamyou used to have.
Maybe it was fleeting, maybe itjust didn't work out, but at
some point you just let it goand then it just wasn't a big
part of your life anymore.
And sometimes that's a passivething.
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You just start thinking aboutsomething else and that drives
out the old thing that didn'twork and wasn't working.
But sometimes you can choose toforget.
I invite you to examine andexplore the process that goes
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down in your mind, in your self,in your heart, when you just
forget about something and thenfind that image of this person
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that you've invested all of thispower in, that's been taking up
so much energy and so muchspace, and pull the pull-up.
Just visualize that image turnsblack and white,
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two-dimensional, and you see itgetting smaller and smaller and
smaller, frozen, with afrightened expression on the
face, because they can't move,they can't control you or hurt
you anymore and they just keepgetting smaller and smaller and
with that, any doubt that youhave in these words, or your
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ability to just forget it.
Just let this person go out ofyour life, let the air out of
this.
We're wrong about almosteverything.
Sometimes we realize that we'rewrong and we can course correct
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and try something new, andthat's what makes life wonderful
, that's what makes life worthliving, that keeps us curious
and alive.
And sometimes we're even wrongabout the people that we love,
or someone could be right for usat one time and then so, so
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wrong, as time goes on and wegrow and they don't.
And I know that you've grownand I know that it's painful and
I know that this is sad and ithurts.
But it's also a good this andbe honest, there is, as you're
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probably aware by now, a deeperinner level, deeper inner level.
You're perfectly welcome tohang out on the periphery for as
long as you want.
There's a lot of fun to be hadthere.
In fact, I spent many yearsjust hanging out, breaking bread
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, shooting it up, having fun onthe periphery of the people, of
the Screaming Release, andthat's all fine and good.
That's where you want to be.
(17:39):
There are also inner layers andrealms and stuff that most
people will never get to see andat this point you're aware of
that and perhaps you'reconsidering making the jump.
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I would advise caution.
I would advise reflection.
Possibly some form ofmeditation.
I'm kind of done with justsitting meditation.
I like chanting, I likeenergized, embodied meditations,
sometimes involving sexual acts, or at least a good, solid
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workout.
But make sure that you reflect.
Get a deep tissue massage,perhaps Go for a long run.
Pay attention to what your bodywants.
I know I didn't always tune inwell to what my body was trying
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to tell me Initially.
There was a time early on in mylife when my body pretty much
always told me no.
That was the best that I couldget out of.
My body was no to everything,because I was scared all the
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time.
I didn't know how to draw anycomfort or any inspiration that
would alleviate that.
I felt controlled by forcesthat I was powerless to push
back against.
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I didn't understand my ownrealm of control.
I didn't understand my ownrealm of control.
It was just fight, flight,freeze or appease all the time,
usually freeze and appease.
I did a lot of groveling andthat did not feel good and I
just got used to my body alwayssaying no and I would do things
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anyway, on on a dare or becauseof peer pressure, because
everyone else was doing it, orto desensitize myself.
I wanted to scare myself.
I wanted to scare the crap outof myself.
I wanted to get strong.
I conflated that with goingnumb.
I conflated that with going no.
Maybe you got a little bit ofthat in you.
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I would say it's possible, ifnot probable, if not a
possibility, approaching acertainty, that a lot is getting
lost in translation and itcould feel like every sensation,
every signal from your body,your heart, means no.
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If that's the case, then youmight want to sit with this for
a good while, really reflect,really feel into it.
Don't feel like you have torationalize.
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Just be aware when you'remaking up a story about it.
If you feel like you're fallingasleep, notice how it is that
you feel sleepy.
Notice the details of thatexperience.
Notice how it is that you feelsleepy.
Notice the details of thatexperience.
And if you feel like yawning, Istrongly encourage that.
I believe that yawning is thefinest form of prayer.
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The point is figure out what youwant.
If you don't know what you want, you are lost in the woods and
at the mercy of the people thatyou're going to attract into
your life.
In that state and those are notthe best people Even the best
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people can leave a lot to bedesired on a typical day.
You've got to trust people tobe human and you've got to trust
yourself as the person thatknows you best, that you know
best, that is into a lot of thesame sex stuff that you are,
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that listens and pays attentionand is the person that is
guaranteed to have your back onyour quest for self-realization
and screaming release if thatrelationship is in good standing
.
And if it's not, you want toget it there.
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So take all the time that ittakes to get that humming street
legal, seaworthy, off therunway and in the sky, in orbit,
(23:11):
exploring space.
Get it working and moving and,when it's on, do justice to the
genius in your genes and achieveenough screaming release to
know what you're really allabout and if entry into the
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inner realms of the people ofthe screaming release is for you
.
And if that turns out to be thecase, then let us know.
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Thank you, to be continuedconvenience Never give a
straight answer unless it's no.
Always be less invested with asoft place to land and a backup
plan.
Test people scare them away andwatch the movies you want to
see.
You're a non-sequitur inside asexy biohazard suit.
Expect the worst and you'llstill get hurt, but you won't
feel stupid.
Remember you're always right.
No one else matters.
Here you are.
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Welcome to the inner circle,the inner sanctum of the people
of the Screaming Release.
You've made the jump,congratulations.
You might find that you belonghere, that you resonate with
these ideas and you can put themto good use.
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You might be sickened andhorrified, in which case it's
probably too late to go back.
You could try.
There are certainly ways thatyou can blot out your
consciousness and eventuallythings may seem to get back to
normal.
But if that's the kind of thingthat you crave normalcy, stasis
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, security you may have alreadyscrewed up by coming in.
That's not what we're about.
The people of the ScreamingRelease outwardly represent
pushing back on the prohibitionagainst ecstasy.
That's the bait.
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What we advocate for, in truth,fundamentally at the heart of
it, at the essence, is chaos,confusion and consternation,
because nature is good.
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Safety, the false sense ofsecurity, prohibitions on
freedom and the imposition ofcontrol by people who do not
have the intelligence, thesophistication, the
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understanding to run our livesthe way that they think they do,
as indicated by the fact thatthey are trying to run our lives
and being blatant about it.
We're always rooting for chaos.
That's really the only solution.
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Every force creates counterforces.
Every action provokes areaction, which is why every
solution to any problem justcauses more problems.
Everything is part of theproblem.
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That's the law of the land.
That's the basic truth ofthings and, yes, it's scary.
That's how you know you'realive.
One thing I probably should haveprefaced this with, and
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something you need to know as aperson of the screaming release,
is you do not have to saythings straight out.
You do not have to share yourtrue beliefs.
First of all, nobody cares.
It doesn't matter what youbelieve in your heart of hearts.
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People will draw conclusionsabout you based on how you make
them feel and how you affecttheir lives.
Nobody cares what you reallythink and you really have
nothing to gain by sharing it inmost situations, because you
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don't want philosophicalintimacy with most people, and
most people do not wantphilosophical intimacy with you.
They don't care what you think.
What most people want is to becontrolled and infantilized.
(29:23):
People pay medical specialistshundreds of dollars an hour to
treat them like children.
Anything that smacks ofchildhood regression is forever
and always in high demand andgoes for a premium price.
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So people want to be controlled, and they will show you how to
control them.
If you're paying attention.
If you haven't noticed howbadly people want to be
controlled, tune into that.
That's the first thing you wantto do.
Improve your radar and yourability to notice the ways in
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which people are begging to besubjugated and offering you the
resources to do it.
People are bad at being animals.
We're probably the only animalthat's not thoroughly competent
and doing the best that itpossibly can, which is how we've
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created the conditions for ourown annihilation.
Because what we crave most ofall is that relief.
We suffer and we make upstories, and most people spend
most of their time craving andseeking out oblivion, most of
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their time craving and seekingout a boy band.
Because the human condition isa nightmare.
There's no way out.
It does not get better, it getsworse the further in you go and
people want to destroythemselves.
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And the best way to controlpeople and the best way to get
what you want is to help peopleget what they want, with the
knowledge in mind that gettingwhat they want is pretty much
guaranteed to destroy.
You want to be cool about it.
Don't make sudden moves.
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Don't explain to people whatyou're doing unless you're
hiding it in plain sight.
Just figure out how to controlthem.
Figure out what they think theywant, what they really want,
where the overlap is there, andthen help them get it, and that
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will eat them alive.
And you can avail yourself oftheir resources, their energy,
get your protein that way, haveyour rotating cast of disciples.
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That requires making peoplefeel good.
Rotating cast of disciples thatrequires making people feel
good and that's why I like tomake an example of narcissists
that try to get involved withthe people in the Screaming
Release, because y'all screw itup for the rest of us.
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Whatever strength andself-confidence you have is a
millimeter deep and you justhave to be cruel and obvious and
stupid in the way that you goafter people and try to control
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them, and it's pathetic.
It's aesthetically disgustingto me.
And when the time comes to makean example of somebody, it's
going to be one of you, becausehumiliation works on you.
You are simple that way.
I love to fail.
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The world is my laboratory.
I learn so much and get so muchinspiration from the things
that make me feel small andinsignificant and worthless.
Even If it doesn't, it's not agood learning experience and it
(34:02):
is good to be king, but ifyou're the smartest person in
the room, you're not in theright room for learning.
You're not in the right roomfor learning.
So if you limit yourself andyou're basically a narcissist
and a creep, I will come at youand you're not going to like it.
(34:28):
The most important thing toremember, as a person of the
screaming release, is that noone really likes you.
That's a tough one, but it isworth keeping very much in mind
at all times.
Nobody likes you, nobody cares.
You are alone in the world.
(34:49):
People care about what you cando for them.
They care about how you makethem feel about themselves, how
you fit into the scheme of theirlives.
Once you've really figured thatout, you can do pretty much
(35:14):
anything you want, and way, waymore than you ever thought you
were capable of, I'm sorry.
(35:56):
Once you've sussed out thereality that nature is good.
People are self-interested andnot good at it.
They're basically incompetentcowards and no one really likes
you.
The next thing that you need toknow and integrate and
(36:20):
internalize and live by anddream about is that no one is
innocent.
No one is anywhere close.
So, um, do not be patheticenough to sacrifice your dignity
by trying to fit the reality ofyour experience into righteous
(36:45):
moral platitudes.
If you've been paying anyattention and you have lived at
all and have had any sort of alife worth living, you know that
it ain't that simple and youknow what people are capable of,
mostly on the low end, and youknow that no one is innocent.
(37:12):
And if there was such a thingas justice and there was the
possibility of itsimplementation, every single
person alive would be crushed,and no one really wants that.
(37:34):
Moral righteousness is usuallyeither aesthetic disgust, which
is fine, just call it by itsname or somebody's telling on
themselves and giving youvaluable information.
Should you decide to controlthem?
And giving you valuableinformation?
Should you decide to controlthem by helping them get what
(37:58):
they want?
You can rely on people to behuman, to be true to human
nature, to look out forthemselves first, last and
always, to suffer and tellstories and be bad at most of
(38:22):
the things that they do and bewrapped up in their egos enough
that it makes it very hard tolearn new things.
They get very stuck onerroneous conclusions that they
drew in early childhood.
You can rely on people to bestraight garbage until further
(38:44):
notice, and that is a powerfulthing to recognize.
It's something to always keepin mind and it's something to
apply to yourself.
Perhaps most of all, it isimportant to know your own
strengths.
Know your own strengths if youare willing to choose gazing
(39:10):
into the abyss over, distractingyourself and lying to yourself.
That is a strength.
Kudos, mazel tov, you are onyour way, but you also have to
acknowledge your weaknesses, andthat could be the basic vices
(39:34):
gambling, drugs, this, that andthe other thing Overwork quite
popular right now.
Whatever it is that you do as aform of self-destruction.
Another one that you see a lotof is self-sacrifice, the
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addiction to martyrdom.
People love to play that gamebecause people hate to be in
control.
They want to play, follow theleader, they want someone else
to make their decisions, theywant to be infantilized, and
that makes it easy.
So do people the favor ofletting them self-sacrifice on
(40:23):
your behalf if that is somethingthat they want.
Just watch your back, becausenobody really likes martyrs, for
good reason.
You can't trust them.
They can't even handle theirown business.
Know your own weaknesses.
(40:44):
Know your own weaknesses.
If you have tendencies towardself-sabotage, self-pity,
self-limitation, just know thatMost people do.
It is common.
It is picked up early on.
It is an adaptation strategyfor some people that are in
(41:06):
unfortunate environments whereit can feel like someone's mood
swings have the sway of naturaldisasters or they're trying to
make sense out of chaos andbeing foolish children.
They think that that's possibleand they try to spot patterns,
because that's what our brainsdo we're telling ourselves
(41:28):
stories and rationalizing oursimple-minded, self-interested
beliefs.
That's a weakness.
Acknowledge it.
See what you can do with it.
Acknowledge it, see what youcan do with it.
(41:49):
It's all graced, it's all ofvalue.
Figure out where you are in thehierarchy, because you're on
there, you're in there somewhere.
Figure out where you arerelative to whoever you happen
to be dealing with and proceedaccordingly.
Power in one situation does notwork like power in another
(42:13):
situation.
Understand status, socialdynamics, set and setting, adapt
.
If you just try to strong-armeveryone you run into, that's a
short ride.
Know what sorts of people youprefer to control.
(42:36):
What kind of suckers whet yourappetite, because occasionally
you can find the particularlyweak-minded people, religious
true believers.
You're dead-enders, hardcoresuckers, very easy to manipulate
(43:03):
, just begging for it.
Want to be constantly reassuredthat someone else is running
their lives.
Those people are snacks.
They're the slim jims of thehuman race, not very nutritious.
You don't want an army full ofthose people.
(43:27):
Manipulate people that you havea little bit of respect and
affection for Keeps things sexy.
Know what sorts of people youhave that kind of affinity for.
It's probably reciprocal onsome level.
(43:49):
But once you control people,they will expect miracles.
The good news is that there aremiracles happening everywhere
all the time.
Happening everywhere all thetime.
(44:12):
Miracles are the most mundanething that I can think of
offhand.
So spot mundane miracles,synchronicities, little
mysteries of life and takecredit for them.
Put your name on it, put yourspin on it, make it yours.
(44:36):
That should be good enough formost of your downline.
Your colleagues in the peopleof the Screaming release will,
of course, know what you're upto and I recommend staying on
the level in our meetings.
(44:58):
They're infrequent.
There's a lot going on on ourDiscord.
That's fun.
There's some hilarious insidejokes on the inner circle of the
Screaming Release Discord thatwe've been running into the
ground for months and months andmonths.
If you have not joined theDiscord yet, get on that.
(45:22):
Show a sense of joy and goodspirit, no matter what you're
doing, even when you are beingcruel.
In fact, that's when it's themost important.
I am a sadist, but I'm a sadistwith a heart of gold.
It means the world when I getto be mean to someone and if
(45:43):
someone invites that, I lovethat and I have some gratitude.
I am human, after all.
Be of good spirit, but don'tsay things straight out.
You don't have to shareeverything.
You don't have to tell everyoneeverything that you think,
especially about yourself.
Shut up once in a while.
Speaker 3 (46:31):
So sorry to do this but I need to talk to someone
who gets it.
So welcome to the Toby show.
There's this girl who broke myheart.
(46:53):
It stayed broken for a week.
Then we got back together.
She's chubby, but in a hot way,like a chubby version of me.
Compared to me, everyone ischubby, thank you.
Cigarettes and cocaine.
Also tan everyone is tan,compared to me.
Anyway, jimmy hooked up withher.
(47:17):
He wanted to do a threesome.
We ended up kicking him out ofbed and kept going until the sun
came up.
So much cocaine it was rad.
Then we started hooking up justthe two of us, and didn't tell
Jimmy.
I told him she disappeared.
Then he saw us having drinkstogether and I told him she just
(47:38):
got back in town and we werecatching up.
Whatever, who cares?
Anyway, I don't really want toget into it, but she's got
issues, major ones Danger toherself and others.
She can threaten herself allshe wants.
I'm over it.
From now on, I only care aboutme.
(48:01):
Our sex is still amazing.
Of course, I'm trying to figureout how to dump her without her
flipping out, but when she'sgone I think I'm gonna be into
girls.
For now, or maybe from now on,girls are hotter and they're
better people.
That doesn't take much.
Like you, you're the best andyou're a girl so cool and funny.
(48:27):
I need you to stop talkingabout what happened on Friday.
(48:52):
Jimmy doesn't know about it,sarah and Val don't either.
It's just you and me and them.
They all think I'm being goodand I want to keep it that way.
Everyone thinks I'm behavingnow and I don't want anyone to
know I spent the night at theirhotel or that I met the boys
before you did.
I need total discretion.
I'm sorry, but I think youunderstand.
Speaker 4 (49:16):
Oh, okay.
So the story is I've been withScotty for a while now.
I want to get our storystraight.
Speaker 3 (49:24):
Well, no, you're right.
But let's get creative for asecond.
Maybe your friend got you intothe event and you had a plus one
, which is where I come in.
You just wanted a cute, coolgirl for backup.
I told Jimmy, I crashed on yourcouch.
He's stupid and who caresReally?
I'm so over it.
(49:45):
But just so you know, this ison lockdown.
I've told six differentversions of this story, that's
it.
I'm covering my ass here, youknow, as one does.
Speaker 4 (50:01):
Yeah, I won't tell anyone.
I got your back Total lockdownfor sure.
Speaker 3 (50:07):
By the way, have you heard from Grenadine?
Well, I want coke that costsmoney, which comes from work.
I also kind of want to work.
It's weird, horny, I guess.
So yeah, maybe she's taking theday off.
I don't know, I'm getting pissyabout it.
(50:29):
I was going down on my ex lastnight.
It's a long story.
Anyway, she started her period.
I thought of you.
I'd totally go down on you ifit wouldn't feel like going down
on my sister.
I think maybe I'm good luck,fingers crossed.
I've got back-to-backmulti-hour appointments, but I
(50:52):
should be done around midnight.
If you're up, let me know ifyou wanna hang.
Oh, and all this stays secret.
Obviously I'm trying to makethings work with Catherine,
which means I'm lying about work, sex with other people not for
money and my drug problem.
You know as one does.
Speaker 1 (51:17):
You know, a lot of people have asked me are you a
satanic Buddhist?
And I mentioned, I believe,believe that I am with the
people of the screaming release.
You know this.
I make no secret of it.
I also have nothing against thefirst church of the satanic
buddha or satanic buddhism as athing.
(51:42):
I agree and resonate with a lotof the ideas.
There's a lot of the ideas.
There's a lot of overlap.
We believe some of the samethings.
I am particularly interested inthe satanic part of it.
The Buddhist stuff is kind ofdepressing.
Life is suffering, you sufferfor lifetime after lifetime and
(52:07):
then maybe you get enlightened,but probably not.
But the only way to getenlightened is to just purge all
the fun out of your life.
Yeah, I don't know about that,but I've always been curious
about Satan, been curious aboutSatan the Beast.
(52:35):
I was a metalhead growing up andI've done a little research
into how Satan got started.
I don't think Satan is a realcreature or entity that actually
exists, but I think Satan is apotent symbol and an interesting
fictional character.
A lot of fictional charactersare more interesting than a lot
(52:57):
of the real people I know.
Maybe I need to hang out withmore interesting people, but
anyway, I think it's fair to saythat Satan is more interesting
than anybody I know, perhapswith one or two exceptions, but
definitely in the conversationfor the most interesting
(53:18):
character, the most interestingidea to have ever been conceived
.
And Satan featured inRevelations and I've read
Revelations, I read the wholeBible back to back.
When I wondered if I was aChristian and I am definitely
not.
I know that now, after readingthe Bible back to back it has
(53:41):
that effect if you're trying totake it seriously.
But Satan is in Revelations,which is the most awesome book
of the Bible.
Whoever wrote that was real,real, high and wigging out.
And the origins of Satan arereally interesting.
(54:04):
The origins of Satan are reallyinteresting.
Lucifer is translated from theHebrew word halal, which means
light and brightness as aquality of light, and Satan got
started as an angel right nextto God.
(54:26):
He was God's right-hand angeland then was defrocked and
condemned and drummed out forkind of weird ambiguous reasons.
He thought that perhaps hecould outshine the Master.
(54:48):
It's not clear what he actuallydid.
There are different versions ofthe story, but it was mostly
just for having the thought thatmaybe he's more godlike than
God.
Maybe God is full of it.
(55:08):
What happens if we just don'ttake god seriously?
If we uh turn it into a joke,try it, see what happens.
That's what happened, what gotLucifer cast out.
(55:31):
And I think about that a lotbecause I don't see what's wrong
with that.
I don't see how levity andhumor and taking things lightly
and having fun is a problem, andI especially don't see how an
(55:56):
omniscient, omnipotent,benevolent God has that kind of
insecurity, like don't eventhink about outshining the
master.
You would think God wouldwelcome a challenge.
I mean he's going to win everytime.
If the hype is to be believed,maybe God is hiding something or
(56:22):
just really insecure In thiskind of pathetic way, like a
narcissism you might call it.
And you know, should luciferwho, um, you know it's important
to have people who push yourbuttons and call you out and
(56:47):
even bust on you sometimes, likethat's.
I think it's an important partof friendship.
It's honesty and openness.
And yeah, I mean peopleespecially.
You know people that are likethis.
The elite will compete in afriendly way.
They challenge each other.
(57:07):
That makes us stronger andsmarter and more able to deal
with challenges when they comefrom people who do not have our
best interests at heart are noton our side.
I don't think the punishmentfit the crime.
I don't even know that therewas a crime.
(57:27):
This has been a special SpawnConedition of Emerson Dameron's
Medicated Minutes, commandeeredby the people of the Screaming
Release.
The music has been by OmuSounds.
I'm Emerson Dameron.
I am the man behind the dream,the producer, director, writer,
host, on-air talent and almosteverything else on Emerson
(57:54):
Dameron's Medicated Minutes.
The website where you can hearold episodes is
medicated-minutescom.
You can subscribe, leave afive-star review on Apple
Podcasts or wherever you getyour podcasts.
That will expose more people tothe show, which will make the
(58:16):
world a brighter place.
Thank you to the people of thescreaming release for providing
the content for this show andgiving me some much needed time
off from being emerson dameronand being your dancing monkey
(58:37):
who bleeds for yourentertainment.
Normally, I'm happy to do thatbecause I like you and I want
you to be entertained.
Your amusement is the mostimportant thing in the world to
me.
I care very little aboutanything else, but sometimes I
need a break.
So thank you to the people ofthe Screaming Release for giving
(59:01):
me that opportunity and thankyou to K-Chung Los Angeles, the
station of which this show is aproduction.
1630 AM on the ground and inthe air and at kchungradioorg on
(59:21):
the internet.
Worldwide.
Levity saves lives.
© BF-WATCH TV 2021.
(01:00:12):
Take a beat, breathe into theexperience of being here and ask
yourself what am I so afraid of?
Maybe you're afraid of missingsome essential life experience.
You're afraid you already have,or that it doesn't matter
because nothing does.
Maybe it's nothing, maybeyou're just a regular nerves
McGee.
Or maybe you're afraid of yourown glorious cataclysmic power,
(01:00:38):
the riotous multitudes youcontain.
You are smart enough to knowhow nearly infinitely ignorant
you are, but you're not toosmart to be hot, and you may
already be a satanic Buddhist.
Nothing is good or bad inisolation, only in context.
The Buddha and the Beastmasterare a good team.
This, right here, is all youget.
(01:01:00):
Life is for living up down,across, diagonally, sideways,
because nothing matters.
You may already be a SatanicBuddhist.
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