February 1, 2023 • 46 mins
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When you get what you want, be prepared to freak out, but don't be afraid to shine. Transmute your mojo and channel your mental power like a ray of Southern California sunshine through a magnifying glass on the second full weekend of July.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
If you're lonely, lost or discombobulated, take a
moment to just hang out, breathein and out and naturally
express the powerful polarityinherent in all things.
Maybe you're nervous.
Maybe you tell yourself I don'tknow what I want, but I know I
don't deserve it.
Hear that inner bully who tellsyou to go to hell, and go there
.
We're going to have a greattime.
Dinner starts at 8.
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Dionysian Bacchanal to followFor Buddha.
We learn to release ourattachments From Satan.
We get a flamethrower for ourcarnal passions.
The bad news is you're wrongabout everything.
The good news is you're free.
So let your life force give youstrength and engorge your sex
organs.
Know what you want and go getit.
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Become the sexy Buddhabeastmaster you already are.
And become the sexy BuddhaBeastmaster you already are.
Hi, I'm Emerson Dameron and I'ma sadist.
I used to think it would bebetter if I felt bad about it,
but that wasn't much fun.
Now I've made peace with mysick mind because I'm a sadist
with a heart of gold.
I still carry around a lot offrustration and I want to take
it out on someone who loves it.
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I want to hurt you in the waysthat most help you.
I tend to be very hard onmyself.
It's good practice for what Iwant to do to you.
Consent is, of course, crucial,but also insufficient.
I would never make you doanything.
I want you to beg for it.
That's because I'm a sadistwith a soul of a poet, the mind
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of a wizard and a heart of arugged gold, and it means the
world to me.
When you let me be mean to you,we are slathering on the
sunscreen and we're ready to seeyou shine.
When you're scared to feel toogood, you make yourself feel bad
for a sense of security.
When you feel bad and bored.
In this way, there's no risk.
This is what you're used to,and it's easy to make excuses
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for yourself and you've hurtsomeone else.
After all, you're so small.
What harm could you do?
As a lifestyle, it's ignorantand curious and exhausting.
You deserve better and wedeserve better from you.
So take a big gamble on yourglorious full potential In the
land of the showering sunshine.
You won't be in the risk zoneforever.
Pretty, you'll own the casino.
Understand the stories you tellyourself about yourself.
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Chart your current location andtake a vacation on the opposite
extreme.
When things go well, beprepared to freak out If it
doesn't work out, then get whatyou want again and hang tough
Until you've arrived in the landof the showering sunshine.
To experience true freedom andpeace with the universe is a
radical act.
This is how we do it inParadise City.
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Hey you, I'm Emerson Dameron andthis is LA's number one
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, is Emerson Dameron's MedicatedMinutes, a production of
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Let's get into this.
Take me down to the ParadiseCity, where the romantics are
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wounded, the cynics are wittyand levity saves lives.
My name is Emerson Dameron.
The name of this program isEmerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes Medicated-Minutescom.
As I mentioned, it's aproduction of K-Chung Los
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Angeles, k-chung Radioorg or1630 AM in certain parts of
Chinatown, downtown andoccasionally a sliver of Echo
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Park, if the weather is bad, injust the perfect way.
The music is by Chris Rogersand Visions of the Universe, and
everything else is by me.
I'm Emerson Dameron, cynic,romantic.
You're a witty and woundedleading man fueled by
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technicolor dreams and playfulbanter, hungry love, thirsty for
power.
And I don't know you.
But I know the most salientthing about you, and that is
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that you are afraid to shine.
You live in mortal fear ofmanifesting your full potential
and that's why you keep yourselfsmall.
And when you reach the limitsof your tolerance for feeling
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good, feeling your oats, feelingyour own power, you make
yourself feel bad out of acraving for familiarity and
security.
Because in some sense it'seasier to feel bad in a familiar
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way Notice the word family inthere.
It's easier to feel bad in theways in which you've grown
accustomed than it is to feelgood and come into your own
power, because so many thingscould happen if you really
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started to shine.
You could give someone a mildheadache with the brightness.
People might have to lather onsome sunscreen in order to
handle it, and you mightalienate people that see life as
a zero-sum competition andthink that your gain is their
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loss.
They might try to hurt you.
That is the risk you run whenyou understand your story and
begin to rewrite it and callyourself out on the lies that
you tell yourself and askyourself what else could I be
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wrong about?
You could release the monsterthat you've been harboring.
That is one of the reasons thatyou're so afraid, and I know
this quite well.
When things get good, you canexpect to freak the hell out.
When you're about to get whatyou want, if you're anything
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like me, that's when the panickicks in, and I have screwed
that up for myself.
I've been so close to gettingwhat I wanted on multiple
occasions and I just had tolearn the lesson that, yes,
things are going to get scary.
You're in the zone of risk whenthings are really going your
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way, and it's just so mucheasier.
It can seem at those times tofeel bad because it's relatively
risk-free, there is nodiscomfort that you're not
already accustomed to feeling,and when you small, it's easy to
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excuse yourself when you treatpeople poorly because, after all
, you're so weak.
What real, significant damagecould such an ineffectual
non-entity as yourself really beguilty of perpetrating?
When you move into your power,you take on some responsibility.
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You release the monster and youdon't know exactly what you're
going to get.
It's been locked in thebasement for a long time.
It might be frustrated andangry, and some people's
monsters are quite dangerous andugly and scary.
I would wager that your monsteris more a silly monster and I,
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when you let it out to do its,it's probably just going to add
to the entertainment value thatwe'll all get from watching you
shine, which is what you oweyourself and the rest of us Is
to live at your full potentialand up.
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Next it is time for a uh, asegment that we call ask a
sadist, which is a round of q awith me, your host emerson
dameron, a sadist with a heartof rugged gold.
I want to hurt you in the waysthat help you most, only by the
most exquisitely enthusiasticconsent.
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That's right.
You have to beg for it, but Iwill field your burning, itching
, lacerating questions here on.
Ask a Sadist on EmersonDameron's Medicaid in Minutes.
Dear Sadist, what does successmean to you?
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Success to me is not a state ofbeing, it's not a goal, it's
not somewhere you are, it's notsomewhere you have to get to.
Success is a series of actionsand choices culminating in a
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deliberate decision toconcentrate the rays of my
cruelty and my carnal passionsthrough a magnifying glass.
Success is a process ofelimination.
It's the rejection of insipidmoralism and the decision to
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follow your depraved anddecadent passions wherever they
may lead, to be heedless of allthat contradicts pleasure's
divine laws that are inscribedin your DNA.
You know their songs by heart.
It's just a process offorgetting all of the
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distractions from the sound andrhythm and melody of that
beautiful music.
Dear sadist, if you're so smart,why aren't you happy?
I don't think we know eachother.
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Anonymous interlocutor, youcertainly don't know me.
It's fair to say that I mightbe operating at a level of
sophistication that isunfamiliar to you and that you
do not fully understand.
In my experience, the smarter Iget, the more I hone my senses
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and incorporate integrate wisdomthat I've gathered about the
world, the more excited andlibertine my accursed mind
becomes.
And if you want what I have, ifyou're ready to cross that
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Rubicon, then explore andenlarge the sphere of your taste
and whimsy.
And if you insist on sufferingwhich a lot of you obviously do
you will not admit it openly.
And yet I observe you behave inways that are pretty much
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guaranteed to make you suffer,in ways that are pretty much
guaranteed to make you suffer Ifyou insist on suffering and
taking actions that you know aregoing to mire your ass in
misery and walking right intothat meat grinder day after day.
All I ask is that you sufferlike you mean it, suffer on
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purpose, suffer with intent inthe ways that bring you closer
to accomplishing whateverliberation it is that you seek
from the practice of suffering.
Dear sadist, would you rathersee the future or change the
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past?
If your past is a place ofunhappy memories which does
apply to mine Let those badfeelings fuel your frustration
and drive you forward into adecadent and liberated future.
The future is open.
Your duty is to defile it, andif you don't know your place or
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where you fit in or belong, Iwill find it for you and.
I will put you there.
This has been Ask a Sadist onEmerson Dameron's Medicaid,
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reminding you that to pursue andto have true freedom, peace
with the universe and boundlessprosperity is a radical act, and
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that's how we do it here inParadise City.
As a creative person, as acreator of your own reality, I
think it's your job right now,most prominently, to bring back
danger, bring back a little bitof risk, because it's later in
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the day than we care to admit toourselves and the stakes are
higher than we typicallyrecognize.
We are in danger of gettingwhat we want and we have to
prepare for the freakout and wehave to figure out how to be
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kind to ourselves in a way thatallows us to make the transition
into actualizing our fullpotential, because it does take
a little bit of understanding.
And we're so used to torturingourselves that it's shocking the
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amount of energy that opens upwhen you just stop doing that
and join us here in ParadiseCity, the place beyond your
conscious competence, which iswhere even the best and the
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brightest tend to get stuck.
There's another place, andthat's Paradise City, where the
thing that you love to do themost, the thing that you're best
at, intersects with the needsof your people.
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The needs of your people, noteven the world Screw the world
Just your people that you findin Paradise City.
And in order to get there, justplease remember you are loving,
you are loved, you are going tobe okay, your contributions are
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valued, your work and your lifewill be their own reward.
In Paradise City, there is nosales or income tax.
Every day there's a ticker tapeparade, with nightly
entertainment provided by a VWvan full of clowns and
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recovering sex addicts.
In Paradise City, death isnothing to fear.
It's simply the ultimate formof physical comedy.
Welcome to Paradise City.
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Make yourself at home.
There's a better way to abetter place.
If you raise the bar on whatyou allow yourself to achieve,
feel the fear of your fullpotential and let that fuel your
ass to move forward.
Your impediments aren't whatyou think they are.
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Your higher power is you.
Power is you.
Your original sin, such as itis, is letting your parents and
other bullies and naysayers andthe limitations of the culture
convince you otherwise.
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So if you're lonely and lost,chart your location, take a
vacation.
On the opposite extreme, getcurious and join us in Paradise
City.
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First invocation Sing to me, losAngeles, in your fractal
impermanence, your sprawlingnightmares and all your little
absurdities.
Sing to me of fires, riots,earthquakes and floods that wash
away the pain and shards ofbroken dreams.
Sing to me of coke sweats,coagulant orgies and long nights
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in the hills.
Sing to me of long lines at theDMV, of puff pastries and
restaurants Built to resemblethe foods that are served there.
Seen to me of traffic jams andcool creative types who never
cross the 405 for any reason.
Seen to me of recovery groups,cacao drinks and cool cults to
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join enjoying.
This is the A story Letting herknow of his return from the
beach.
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He'd been out there all daypursuing his extramarital affair
, the most recent one whileshe'd been at home, screwing two
of his clients, or two guysthat worked for one of the
companies with one another,because they always gave each
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other plenty of time to hide theevidence, as if they didn't
want to accidentally barge in onone another and break the game,
like they knew they'd lost theattraction years ago but wanted
to keep the charade going fortax purposes and really saw no
point in hurting or humiliatingone another that badly.
This is the B story.
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There are already threenon-sectarian churches involved,
along with a half-dozensuburban fire departments.
Two long-term frenemiesorganizing the
mother-of-all-bake sales.
A kid selling muffins at asignificant markup.
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A life coach celebrating aclient's remarkable triumph of
the will.
Three bored teenagers throwingeggs at each other because
that's something they can dothat doesn't violate anyone's
probation.
A drunken Marxist swaying inthe winds of change.
An internet service providerand a Volkswagen van full of
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clowns and recovering sexaddicts, pamphleteers from the
First Church of the SatanicBuddha and a Volkswagen van full
of clowns and recovering sexaddicts, pamphleteers from the
First Church of the SatanicBuddha and the people of the
Screaming Release.
Speaker 2 (25:26):
This is the sea story .
Speaker 1 (25:29):
He emerged onto the terrace, the voices ceased.
He took a beat, took a breathinvoluntarily, giggled and
smirked at a dirty joke he'dheard earlier in the day, then
regained his composure, got ittogether, cleared his throat my
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friend, he said, impressed withhis own resonance and reverb.
Like you, I've waited for thismoment.
I've been hopeful, yes, but notwithout some fear and
trepidation.
I knew this would be one ofthose before and after
experiences, one of those linesof demarcation where nothing is
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quite the same on the other side, except, of course, for the
things that are D story.
I mean, they really love itMore than I would have dared
hope.
Like I always assumed that whensuccess came to me as I always
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assumed that it would it wouldbe for doing something that I
was proud of.
I never thought that fame andfortune would find me through a
dashed-off notion.
I immediately regretted andonly executed on due to
exhaustion and a lack of otherideas.
And yet here we are.
All the kids are going crazyfor the worst thing I ever
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followed through on and youdon't hear me complaining I'll
take the money in a heartbeat.
Not selling out is anantiquated luxury at this point,
and now I never have to worryabout money again.
I can just sit in one corner ofmy mansion and make art all day
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and most of my problems aregone.
I will have new ones.
They will be relatively minor.
This will open up massiveopportunities for me, as well as
invites to Caligula and orgiesin the hills.
I'll share the wealth.
It's just interesting howthings work out.
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E story Xena decides she wantsto go home and she can come and
go as she likes.
That's always been part of thedeal.
She knows Amber isn't happy tosee her go and she lashes out at
Amber a little bit to offsetsome of the guilt that she feels
she should not be feeling.
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But Xena doesn't do regrets orapologies.
She takes care of herself inthe moment.
Anything else she can deal withlater.
Free of the burden of beingthere physically, she finds
herself able to chill out on thelong ride home more than she's
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been able to chill out in a hotminute.
It was time to go sometime ago.
F story I can say now what Idared not say then.
I was a prick.
I was hurt and humiliated.
In the aftermath of that Istill think that you handled it
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poorly, but I wanted more fromyou than I was willing to admit
or acknowledge.
I was selfish, possessive andpassive-aggressive.
I wasn't taking care of myselfor properly dressing my own
wounds in advance of ourrendezvous.
I wasn't taking care of myselfor properly dressing my own
wounds in advance of ourrendezvous.
I wasn't ready to get what Iwanted before and I wanted to
make up for blowing it.
I wanted to believe that waspossible.
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I couldn't move on and makespace for the pain you're in or
anything else that could comeafter this.
And I'm sorry, speak to me.
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Los Angeles, city of five sidehustles where you can make up a
job and then have it where youcan be whatever you want find
whatever tribe you want to be inand make lifelong friends.
You see maybe twice a year, youthat dances in strip mall
parking lots, rants on VeniceBeach and never gives up on your
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big dream, even if that meansbreaking it down into dozens of
little dreams.
The city that never stopsloving you and never remembers
your name.
City of hungry ghosts, flamingvans and showering sunshine.
One of the things I want to dobefore I leave Los Angeles which
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I keep threatening in my mindto do is just take a full day
and do nothing but ride Angel'sFlight up and down back and
forth and just do that all dayand think about life.
So I will do that before Ileave.
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Downtown was the firstneighborhood that I lived in.
The second time I moved to LosAngeles I wasn't expecting the
rents to be so high.
I went to Chicago to ride outthe recession and when I came
back I was expecting there to bea little bit of inflation.
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But I didn't expect it to bequite so hard to put down first,
last and deposit.
So I ended up spending maybethree months in an establishment
in the arts district calledPodshare, which is not a youth
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hostel and it's not a cult.
They're very adamant about bothof those things.
What it is is it's kind of likea submarine cabin.
It's a bunch of bunk beds andyou rent out the bunk bed by the
night at a reasonable price.
And it's also a panopticon,because anywhere in Podshare
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you're going to be privy toeverything else that goes on in
Podshare.
And that's by design, becausetheir motto is end-world
loneliness.
And the way that they do thisis by the radical elimination of
privacy.
There is no privacy inside ofPodshare except for the
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bathrooms and that's extremelyiffy.
And I got pretty brutallydepressed after I'd been in
Podshare for a number of weeks.
Things were just not going myway on a number of levels.
And I remember speaking withthe founder of Podshare, who's a
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wonderful person, lover todeath.
We have some philosophicaldifferences and I remember the
topic of depression came upbecause that's one of my areas
of expertise, and I remember shesaid do you think that pod
share could be a cure fordepression?
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Because how can you bedepressed when you're constantly
surrounded by friends?
And the obvious answer to thatis no.
Podshare is not a cure fordepression.
There will not be any clinicaltrials because it will not work
better than a placebo, possiblyworse, but Podshare is an
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inconvenient place to killyourself Because, as much as I'd
lost interest in living, I ampolite to the bitter end and
there's no way you can killyourself in Podshare without
traumatizing a bunch of people.
So I managed to survive, ifonly because of that, long
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enough to eventually move toHollywood during COVID, where I
developed a morbid fascinationwith the Hollywood Walk of Fame
because that was my walk, asboth my marriage and the origin
of civil society were collapsingat once.
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I was walking around the Walkof Fame, which is a very
outward-facing place, so it wasjust extremely eerie and sleazy,
and what I learned is that whenguests come from out of town,
don't take them to the HollywoodWalk of Fame unless they
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specifically ask you to, becauseits charm is lost on a lot of
people.
Speaker 2 (34:32):
So a friend of mine was going on a trip of a
lifetime and it was somewhere Ihad never been and I never
wanted to go.
So I asked my friend to takesome personal items of mine and
she went over there and I justsaw her a couple days ago and
she brought back a bunch ofstuff and, when she was done,
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explaining to me all thedifferent items that she got
from the Holy Land not Jerusalem, not India, so it leaves you a
little bit open forinterpretation I asked her well,
where's my jewelry Silence?
Where's my jewelry Silence?
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She says you were.
That's a nice.
I thought to myself.
Oh shit, she left my itemsabroad.
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Now, mind you, some of thethings can be replaced.
One of the things came fromLondon and another piece came
from a first love that passedaway in 2011.
She looks at me and says I leftit.
I think I'm gonna leave it.
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Literally, it was like a punchin the throat and I was sitting
there absorbing the fact thatthere were these items that you
can't replace and I didn't wanther to feel like absolute shit,
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so I started processing itreally quickly, okay, okay.
Now, the timing of this ispretty funny because I've been
trying to teach my daughter thetopic of easyuzukan.
It was kind of an alchemicalprocess in the fact that these
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items were now immersed in waterand sand where they are.
I had no idea this was going tohappen and it actually, funny
enough, caused a lot ofprogression in my life.
I shipped for the better,unbeknownst to me and
unbeknownst to the fact thatthese items are now somewhere
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over around.
Speaker 1 (37:15):
Thank you.
Southern California is a landof showering sunshine and a
radical relationship withimpermanence.
This has been Emerson Dameron'sMedicated Minutes, a production
of K-Chung, los Angeleskchungradioorg.
The dedicated site for the showis medicated-minutescom.
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Music is by Visions of theUniverse and Chris Rogers.
Everything else is by me.
I'm Emerson Dameron, the writer, producer, director of the
Talent.
The writer, producer, director,the talent, the witty, cynic
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and wounded romantic hero ofEmerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes.
We have the talk show.
Experiment will continue apacein the following segments.
We have Auto Naughty Anonymouscoming up, as well as Long Rocks
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on the Beach.
Thank you to Julie and Kern andeverybody at K-Chung for
putting this together.
Thanks for Permanent for havingus, thanks for showing up.
All I ask is that you're you benot afraid to shine and manifest
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your full potential, becauseyou're always right and no one
else matters.
Levity saves lives.
Thank you.
It's a tough racket.
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There are billions of people inthe world and most of them are
needy and loud, but if you playyour cards right, you can get
attention.
The easiest way is to screw upyour life and make someone
rescue you, then thrill to theirfrustration and anger, bask in
their inevitable forgiveness andenjoy the freedom that comes
from lowering everyone'sexpectations.
You can also get attention bysuffering, but you have to
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suffer a lot more than anyoneelse around you.
Don't tell people what you want, but do get mad when they don't
know.
People love it when you listento them, so listen, take their
advice.
Then this is the important partget enraged at them.
When everything goes wrong foryou, they'll have to fix it for
you because they feel guilty,and you'll once again gorge on
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the attention.
Have your own opinions bad onesabout everything.
No one respects people who aretoo agreeable and go along with
the crowd, so make sure younever do Beat yourself, but
don't kill yourself, but do talkabout it.
People have to take youseriously either way, and you
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can threaten suicide as manytimes as you want, it never gets
old.
Pit people against one another.
You'll get attention fromothers if you force them to
compete for yours and when theytear each other apart, that
clears the field and getseveryone paying attention to
what really matters.
You have fun out there.
Empower yourself, take controlof your self-care, release your
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powerful inner healer.
Restore your faith in thefuture.
Have digressive and circuitousall-night conversations with
geniuses who love you.
Don't feel good about yourself.
Feel great about yourself foran entire half hour.
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You deserve pure uncut cocaine.
Learn to say no.
Say no to bad jobs, no toone-way relationships.
Don't pay taxes or parkingfines or show up for boring
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social engagements if you don'twanna Refuse to get peed on,
figuratively or otherwise.
Never say never or no or yes.
Learn how to say no toeverything, no or yes.
Learn how to say no toeverything.
Know when to walk away.
Know when to run.
If your city is dead, move toAtlanta.
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If you can't do that, move toKathmandu.
If you hate your job seriouslyfor real, quit.
There's so much important workto be done in the world right
now.
If your relationship has gonerotten, break up.
It's hard to find good porn, butit's out there.
You can't get back your timeand if you waste a lot of it,
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you'll have a hell of a timegetting back your dignity.
If you think it's time to go,it probably is.
Never forget.
You can always just quit and ifyou change your mind, you can
always find some other lousysituation.
It's hard, it's scary.
Do the damn thing Got rid of.
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I sit in a dark blue sedan.
Sun came up.
We waited with great patiencefor a man who had previously
promised to arrive in greathaste, or so it was said on the
application he filled out inhandwriting that was hard to
read a scrawl composed in blueink with doodles of mushrooms at
the margins, as though hehadn't expected anyone else to
actually read it.
Martians are groovy, I'm told.
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They love the old hits that therest of us have forgotten,
plugged into the past as theyare and largely uninterested in
chasing trends, preferring styleover fashion.
You've been listening to EmersonDameron's Medicated Minutes
medicated-minutescom, aproduction of K-Chung kchungung
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Radio dot O-R-G 1630 AM.
K-chung, los Angeles.
I'm Emerson Dameron, I'm thehost.
Thanks to Kern, julie,permanent Records, kurt at
Inspirato Projecto, chris Rogersand Visions of the Universe for
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doing the music.
Everyone who came out to thefirst of its kind, kei Chung
talk show, experiment.
Live at Permanent Records.
If it happens again, be there.
Levity saves lives, thank you.
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Take a beat, breathe into theexperience of being here and ask
yourself what am I so afraid of?
Maybe you're afraid of missingsome essential life experience.
You're afraid you already have,or that it doesn't matter
because nothing does.
Maybe it's nothing.
Maybe you're just a regularnerves McGee.
Or maybe you're afraid of yourown glorious cataclysmic power,
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the riotous multitudes youcontain.
You are smart enough to knowhow nearly infinitely ignorant
you are.
But you're not too smart to behot, and you may already be a
satanic Buddhist.
Nothing is good or bad inisolation, only in context.
The Buddha and the Beastmasterare a good team.
This, right here, is all youget.
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Life is for living up downacross, diagonally, sideways,
because nothing matters.
You may already be a satanicBuddhist.
If you're lonely, lost or discombobulated, take a
moment to just hang out, breathein and out and naturally
express the powerful polarityinherent in all things.
Maybe you're nervous.
Maybe you tell yourself I don'tknow what I want, but I know I
don't deserve it.
Hear that inner bully who tellsyou to go to hell, and go there
.
We're going to have a greattime.
Dinner starts at 8.
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Dionysian Bacchanal to followFor Buddha.
We learn to release ourattachments From Satan.
We get a flamethrower for ourcarnal passions.
The bad news is you're wrongabout everything.
The good news is you're free.
So let your life force give youstrength and engorge your sex
organs.
Know what you want and go getit.
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Become the sexy Buddhabeastmaster you already are.
And become the sexy BuddhaBeastmaster you already are.
Hi, I'm Emerson Dameron and I'ma sadist.
I used to think it would bebetter if I felt bad about it,
but that wasn't much fun.
Now I've made peace with mysick mind because I'm a sadist
with a heart of gold.
I still carry around a lot offrustration and I want to take
it out on someone who loves it.
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I want to hurt you in the waysthat most help you.
I tend to be very hard onmyself.
It's good practice for what Iwant to do to you.
Consent is, of course, crucial,but also insufficient.
I would never make you doanything.
I want you to beg for it.
That's because I'm a sadistwith a soul of a poet, the mind
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of a wizard and a heart of arugged gold, and it means the
world to me.
When you let me be mean to you,we are slathering on the
sunscreen and we're ready to seeyou shine.
When you're scared to feel toogood, you make yourself feel bad
for a sense of security.
When you feel bad and bored.
In this way, there's no risk.
This is what you're used to,and it's easy to make excuses
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for yourself and you've hurtsomeone else.
After all, you're so small.
What harm could you do?
As a lifestyle, it's ignorantand curious and exhausting.
You deserve better and wedeserve better from you.
So take a big gamble on yourglorious full potential In the
land of the showering sunshine.
You won't be in the risk zoneforever.
Pretty, you'll own the casino.
Understand the stories you tellyourself about yourself.
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Chart your current location andtake a vacation on the opposite
extreme.
When things go well, beprepared to freak out If it
doesn't work out, then get whatyou want again and hang tough
Until you've arrived in the landof the showering sunshine.
To experience true freedom andpeace with the universe is a
radical act.
This is how we do it inParadise City.
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Hey you, I'm Emerson Dameron andthis is LA's number one
avant-garde personal developmentprogram, which, needless to say
, is Emerson Dameron's MedicatedMinutes, a production of
K-Chung Los Angeles.
K-chung Radio dot O-R-G 1630 AM.
Medicated dash minutes dot com.
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And oh my goodness, we have avery special treat on this
edition of the program, the bulkof which was recorded live at
the Permanent Records Roadhouseover in Highland Park on the
east side of Los Angeles, aspart of the first-of-its-kind
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K-Chung live talk showexperiment, which included me,
otto Naughty Anonymous answeringyour questions and Long Rocks
on the Beach interviewing thejourneyman musician David Pahoe,
and it was a blast.
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My recommendation to you wouldbe to go ahead and cancel all of
your plans, anything on yoursocial calendar indefinitely, to
make absolutely sure that youdo not miss this when it happens
again, be there.
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Thanks to Julie Doyle for doingmost of the work in organizing
this thing.
Thanks to Kern Hogg for hostingand producing, thanks to Kurt
and everyone else at Permanentfor holding space, as we say, in
the energy circles in which Isip my cacao and practice
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various healing modalities.
And thanks, perhaps most of all, to Kurt from Inspirato
Projecto who captured the liveaudio that you're going to hear.
We were going to have asoundboard recording and despite
our best intentions, that didnot work out.
But Kurt came through with thisofficial bootleg recording and,
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Cool stuff.
We have audio plays andcommunity panel discussions
tackling the important issues.
If you happen to be in thatarea, check it out.
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So if you want to help us outand this show also is a
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So the best way to say thankyou is to go to kchungradiocom
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Let's get into this.
Take me down to the ParadiseCity, where the romantics are
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wounded, the cynics are wittyand levity saves lives.
My name is Emerson Dameron.
The name of this program isEmerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes Medicated-Minutescom.
As I mentioned, it's aproduction of K-Chung Los
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Angeles, k-chung Radioorg or1630 AM in certain parts of
Chinatown, downtown andoccasionally a sliver of Echo
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Park, if the weather is bad, injust the perfect way.
The music is by Chris Rogersand Visions of the Universe, and
everything else is by me.
I'm Emerson Dameron, cynic,romantic.
You're a witty and woundedleading man fueled by
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technicolor dreams and playfulbanter, hungry love, thirsty for
power.
And I don't know you.
But I know the most salientthing about you, and that is
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that you are afraid to shine.
You live in mortal fear ofmanifesting your full potential
and that's why you keep yourselfsmall.
And when you reach the limitsof your tolerance for feeling
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good, feeling your oats, feelingyour own power, you make
yourself feel bad out of acraving for familiarity and
security.
Because in some sense it'seasier to feel bad in a familiar
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way Notice the word family inthere.
It's easier to feel bad in theways in which you've grown
accustomed than it is to feelgood and come into your own
power, because so many thingscould happen if you really
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started to shine.
You could give someone a mildheadache with the brightness.
People might have to lather onsome sunscreen in order to
handle it, and you mightalienate people that see life as
a zero-sum competition andthink that your gain is their
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loss.
They might try to hurt you.
That is the risk you run whenyou understand your story and
begin to rewrite it and callyourself out on the lies that
you tell yourself and askyourself what else could I be
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wrong about?
You could release the monsterthat you've been harboring.
That is one of the reasons thatyou're so afraid, and I know
this quite well.
When things get good, you canexpect to freak the hell out.
When you're about to get whatyou want, if you're anything
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like me, that's when the panickicks in, and I have screwed
that up for myself.
I've been so close to gettingwhat I wanted on multiple
occasions and I just had tolearn the lesson that, yes,
things are going to get scary.
You're in the zone of risk whenthings are really going your
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way, and it's just so mucheasier.
It can seem at those times tofeel bad because it's relatively
risk-free, there is nodiscomfort that you're not
already accustomed to feeling,and when you small, it's easy to
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excuse yourself when you treatpeople poorly because, after all
, you're so weak.
What real, significant damagecould such an ineffectual
non-entity as yourself really beguilty of perpetrating?
When you move into your power,you take on some responsibility.
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You release the monster and youdon't know exactly what you're
going to get.
It's been locked in thebasement for a long time.
It might be frustrated andangry, and some people's
monsters are quite dangerous andugly and scary.
I would wager that your monsteris more a silly monster and I,
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when you let it out to do its,it's probably just going to add
to the entertainment value thatwe'll all get from watching you
shine, which is what you oweyourself and the rest of us Is
to live at your full potentialand up.
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Next it is time for a uh, asegment that we call ask a
sadist, which is a round of q awith me, your host emerson
dameron, a sadist with a heartof rugged gold.
I want to hurt you in the waysthat help you most, only by the
most exquisitely enthusiasticconsent.
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That's right.
You have to beg for it, but Iwill field your burning, itching
, lacerating questions here on.
Ask a Sadist on EmersonDameron's Medicaid in Minutes.
Dear Sadist, what does successmean to you?
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Success to me is not a state ofbeing, it's not a goal, it's
not somewhere you are, it's notsomewhere you have to get to.
Success is a series of actionsand choices culminating in a
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deliberate decision toconcentrate the rays of my
cruelty and my carnal passionsthrough a magnifying glass.
Success is a process ofelimination.
It's the rejection of insipidmoralism and the decision to
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follow your depraved anddecadent passions wherever they
may lead, to be heedless of allthat contradicts pleasure's
divine laws that are inscribedin your DNA.
You know their songs by heart.
It's just a process offorgetting all of the
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distractions from the sound andrhythm and melody of that
beautiful music.
Dear sadist, if you're so smart,why aren't you happy?
I don't think we know eachother.
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Anonymous interlocutor, youcertainly don't know me.
It's fair to say that I mightbe operating at a level of
sophistication that isunfamiliar to you and that you
do not fully understand.
In my experience, the smarter Iget, the more I hone my senses
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and incorporate integrate wisdomthat I've gathered about the
world, the more excited andlibertine my accursed mind
becomes.
And if you want what I have, ifyou're ready to cross that
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Rubicon, then explore andenlarge the sphere of your taste
and whimsy.
And if you insist on sufferingwhich a lot of you obviously do
you will not admit it openly.
And yet I observe you behave inways that are pretty much
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guaranteed to make you suffer,in ways that are pretty much
guaranteed to make you suffer Ifyou insist on suffering and
taking actions that you know aregoing to mire your ass in
misery and walking right intothat meat grinder day after day.
All I ask is that you sufferlike you mean it, suffer on
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purpose, suffer with intent inthe ways that bring you closer
to accomplishing whateverliberation it is that you seek
from the practice of suffering.
Dear sadist, would you rathersee the future or change the
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past?
If your past is a place ofunhappy memories which does
apply to mine Let those badfeelings fuel your frustration
and drive you forward into adecadent and liberated future.
The future is open.
Your duty is to defile it, andif you don't know your place or
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where you fit in or belong, Iwill find it for you and.
I will put you there.
This has been Ask a Sadist onEmerson Dameron's Medicaid,
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reminding you that to pursue andto have true freedom, peace
with the universe and boundlessprosperity is a radical act, and
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that's how we do it here inParadise City.
As a creative person, as acreator of your own reality, I
think it's your job right now,most prominently, to bring back
danger, bring back a little bitof risk, because it's later in
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the day than we care to admit toourselves and the stakes are
higher than we typicallyrecognize.
We are in danger of gettingwhat we want and we have to
prepare for the freakout and wehave to figure out how to be
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kind to ourselves in a way thatallows us to make the transition
into actualizing our fullpotential, because it does take
a little bit of understanding.
And we're so used to torturingourselves that it's shocking the
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amount of energy that opens upwhen you just stop doing that
and join us here in ParadiseCity, the place beyond your
conscious competence, which iswhere even the best and the
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brightest tend to get stuck.
There's another place, andthat's Paradise City, where the
thing that you love to do themost, the thing that you're best
at, intersects with the needsof your people.
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The needs of your people, noteven the world Screw the world
Just your people that you findin Paradise City.
And in order to get there, justplease remember you are loving,
you are loved, you are going tobe okay, your contributions are
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valued, your work and your lifewill be their own reward.
In Paradise City, there is nosales or income tax.
Every day there's a ticker tapeparade, with nightly
entertainment provided by a VWvan full of clowns and
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recovering sex addicts.
In Paradise City, death isnothing to fear.
It's simply the ultimate formof physical comedy.
Welcome to Paradise City.
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Make yourself at home.
There's a better way to abetter place.
If you raise the bar on whatyou allow yourself to achieve,
feel the fear of your fullpotential and let that fuel your
ass to move forward.
Your impediments aren't whatyou think they are.
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Your higher power is you.
Power is you.
Your original sin, such as itis, is letting your parents and
other bullies and naysayers andthe limitations of the culture
convince you otherwise.
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So if you're lonely and lost,chart your location, take a
vacation.
On the opposite extreme, getcurious and join us in Paradise
City.
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First invocation Sing to me, losAngeles, in your fractal
impermanence, your sprawlingnightmares and all your little
absurdities.
Sing to me of fires, riots,earthquakes and floods that wash
away the pain and shards ofbroken dreams.
Sing to me of coke sweats,coagulant orgies and long nights
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in the hills.
Sing to me of long lines at theDMV, of puff pastries and
restaurants Built to resemblethe foods that are served there.
Seen to me of traffic jams andcool creative types who never
cross the 405 for any reason.
Seen to me of recovery groups,cacao drinks and cool cults to
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join enjoying.
This is the A story Letting herknow of his return from the
beach.
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He'd been out there all daypursuing his extramarital affair
, the most recent one whileshe'd been at home, screwing two
of his clients, or two guysthat worked for one of the
companies with one another,because they always gave each
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other plenty of time to hide theevidence, as if they didn't
want to accidentally barge in onone another and break the game,
like they knew they'd lost theattraction years ago but wanted
to keep the charade going fortax purposes and really saw no
point in hurting or humiliatingone another that badly.
This is the B story.
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There are already threenon-sectarian churches involved,
along with a half-dozensuburban fire departments.
Two long-term frenemiesorganizing the
mother-of-all-bake sales.
A kid selling muffins at asignificant markup.
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A life coach celebrating aclient's remarkable triumph of
the will.
Three bored teenagers throwingeggs at each other because
that's something they can dothat doesn't violate anyone's
probation.
A drunken Marxist swaying inthe winds of change.
An internet service providerand a Volkswagen van full of
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clowns and recovering sexaddicts, pamphleteers from the
First Church of the SatanicBuddha and a Volkswagen van full
of clowns and recovering sexaddicts, pamphleteers from the
First Church of the SatanicBuddha and the people of the
Screaming Release.
Speaker 2 (25:26):
This is the sea story .
Speaker 1 (25:29):
He emerged onto the terrace, the voices ceased.
He took a beat, took a breathinvoluntarily, giggled and
smirked at a dirty joke he'dheard earlier in the day, then
regained his composure, got ittogether, cleared his throat my
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friend, he said, impressed withhis own resonance and reverb.
Like you, I've waited for thismoment.
I've been hopeful, yes, but notwithout some fear and
trepidation.
I knew this would be one ofthose before and after
experiences, one of those linesof demarcation where nothing is
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quite the same on the other side, except, of course, for the
things that are D story.
I mean, they really love itMore than I would have dared
hope.
Like I always assumed that whensuccess came to me as I always
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assumed that it would it wouldbe for doing something that I
was proud of.
I never thought that fame andfortune would find me through a
dashed-off notion.
I immediately regretted andonly executed on due to
exhaustion and a lack of otherideas.
And yet here we are.
All the kids are going crazyfor the worst thing I ever
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followed through on and youdon't hear me complaining I'll
take the money in a heartbeat.
Not selling out is anantiquated luxury at this point,
and now I never have to worryabout money again.
I can just sit in one corner ofmy mansion and make art all day
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and most of my problems aregone.
I will have new ones.
They will be relatively minor.
This will open up massiveopportunities for me, as well as
invites to Caligula and orgiesin the hills.
I'll share the wealth.
It's just interesting howthings work out.
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E story Xena decides she wantsto go home and she can come and
go as she likes.
That's always been part of thedeal.
She knows Amber isn't happy tosee her go and she lashes out at
Amber a little bit to offsetsome of the guilt that she feels
she should not be feeling.
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But Xena doesn't do regrets orapologies.
She takes care of herself inthe moment.
Anything else she can deal withlater.
Free of the burden of beingthere physically, she finds
herself able to chill out on thelong ride home more than she's
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been able to chill out in a hotminute.
It was time to go sometime ago.
F story I can say now what Idared not say then.
I was a prick.
I was hurt and humiliated.
In the aftermath of that Istill think that you handled it
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poorly, but I wanted more fromyou than I was willing to admit
or acknowledge.
I was selfish, possessive andpassive-aggressive.
I wasn't taking care of myselfor properly dressing my own
wounds in advance of ourrendezvous.
I wasn't taking care of myselfor properly dressing my own
wounds in advance of ourrendezvous.
I wasn't ready to get what Iwanted before and I wanted to
make up for blowing it.
I wanted to believe that waspossible.
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I couldn't move on and makespace for the pain you're in or
anything else that could comeafter this.
And I'm sorry, speak to me.
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Los Angeles, city of five sidehustles where you can make up a
job and then have it where youcan be whatever you want find
whatever tribe you want to be inand make lifelong friends.
You see maybe twice a year, youthat dances in strip mall
parking lots, rants on VeniceBeach and never gives up on your
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big dream, even if that meansbreaking it down into dozens of
little dreams.
The city that never stopsloving you and never remembers
your name.
City of hungry ghosts, flamingvans and showering sunshine.
One of the things I want to dobefore I leave Los Angeles which
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I keep threatening in my mindto do is just take a full day
and do nothing but ride Angel'sFlight up and down back and
forth and just do that all dayand think about life.
So I will do that before Ileave.
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Downtown was the firstneighborhood that I lived in.
The second time I moved to LosAngeles I wasn't expecting the
rents to be so high.
I went to Chicago to ride outthe recession and when I came
back I was expecting there to bea little bit of inflation.
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But I didn't expect it to bequite so hard to put down first,
last and deposit.
So I ended up spending maybethree months in an establishment
in the arts district calledPodshare, which is not a youth
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hostel and it's not a cult.
They're very adamant about bothof those things.
What it is is it's kind of likea submarine cabin.
It's a bunch of bunk beds andyou rent out the bunk bed by the
night at a reasonable price.
And it's also a panopticon,because anywhere in Podshare
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you're going to be privy toeverything else that goes on in
Podshare.
And that's by design, becausetheir motto is end-world
loneliness.
And the way that they do thisis by the radical elimination of
privacy.
There is no privacy inside ofPodshare except for the
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bathrooms and that's extremelyiffy.
And I got pretty brutallydepressed after I'd been in
Podshare for a number of weeks.
Things were just not going myway on a number of levels.
And I remember speaking withthe founder of Podshare, who's a
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wonderful person, lover todeath.
We have some philosophicaldifferences and I remember the
topic of depression came upbecause that's one of my areas
of expertise, and I remember shesaid do you think that pod
share could be a cure fordepression?
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Because how can you bedepressed when you're constantly
surrounded by friends?
And the obvious answer to thatis no.
Podshare is not a cure fordepression.
There will not be any clinicaltrials because it will not work
better than a placebo, possiblyworse, but Podshare is an
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inconvenient place to killyourself Because, as much as I'd
lost interest in living, I ampolite to the bitter end and
there's no way you can killyourself in Podshare without
traumatizing a bunch of people.
So I managed to survive, ifonly because of that, long
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enough to eventually move toHollywood during COVID, where I
developed a morbid fascinationwith the Hollywood Walk of Fame
because that was my walk, asboth my marriage and the origin
of civil society were collapsingat once.
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I was walking around the Walkof Fame, which is a very
outward-facing place, so it wasjust extremely eerie and sleazy,
and what I learned is that whenguests come from out of town,
don't take them to the HollywoodWalk of Fame unless they
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specifically ask you to, becauseits charm is lost on a lot of
people.
Speaker 2 (34:32):
So a friend of mine was going on a trip of a
lifetime and it was somewhere Ihad never been and I never
wanted to go.
So I asked my friend to takesome personal items of mine and
she went over there and I justsaw her a couple days ago and
she brought back a bunch ofstuff and, when she was done,
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explaining to me all thedifferent items that she got
from the Holy Land not Jerusalem, not India, so it leaves you a
little bit open forinterpretation I asked her well,
where's my jewelry Silence?
Where's my jewelry Silence?
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She says you were.
That's a nice.
I thought to myself.
Oh shit, she left my itemsabroad.
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Now, mind you, some of thethings can be replaced.
One of the things came fromLondon and another piece came
from a first love that passedaway in 2011.
She looks at me and says I leftit.
I think I'm gonna leave it.
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Literally, it was like a punchin the throat and I was sitting
there absorbing the fact thatthere were these items that you
can't replace and I didn't wanther to feel like absolute shit,
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so I started processing itreally quickly, okay, okay.
Now, the timing of this ispretty funny because I've been
trying to teach my daughter thetopic of easyuzukan.
It was kind of an alchemicalprocess in the fact that these
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items were now immersed in waterand sand where they are.
I had no idea this was going tohappen and it actually, funny
enough, caused a lot ofprogression in my life.
I shipped for the better,unbeknownst to me and
unbeknownst to the fact thatthese items are now somewhere
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over around.
Speaker 1 (37:15):
Thank you.
Southern California is a landof showering sunshine and a
radical relationship withimpermanence.
This has been Emerson Dameron'sMedicated Minutes, a production
of K-Chung, los Angeleskchungradioorg.
The dedicated site for the showis medicated-minutescom.
(37:38):
Music is by Visions of theUniverse and Chris Rogers.
Everything else is by me.
I'm Emerson Dameron, the writer, producer, director of the
Talent.
The writer, producer, director,the talent, the witty, cynic
(37:59):
and wounded romantic hero ofEmerson Dameron's Medicated
Minutes.
We have the talk show.
Experiment will continue apacein the following segments.
We have Auto Naughty Anonymouscoming up, as well as Long Rocks
(38:20):
on the Beach.
Thank you to Julie and Kern andeverybody at K-Chung for
putting this together.
Thanks for Permanent for havingus, thanks for showing up.
All I ask is that you're you benot afraid to shine and manifest
(38:42):
your full potential, becauseyou're always right and no one
else matters.
Levity saves lives.
Thank you.
It's a tough racket.
(39:02):
There are billions of people inthe world and most of them are
needy and loud, but if you playyour cards right, you can get
attention.
The easiest way is to screw upyour life and make someone
rescue you, then thrill to theirfrustration and anger, bask in
their inevitable forgiveness andenjoy the freedom that comes
from lowering everyone'sexpectations.
You can also get attention bysuffering, but you have to
(39:24):
suffer a lot more than anyoneelse around you.
Don't tell people what you want, but do get mad when they don't
know.
People love it when you listento them, so listen, take their
advice.
Then this is the important partget enraged at them.
When everything goes wrong foryou, they'll have to fix it for
you because they feel guilty,and you'll once again gorge on
(39:46):
the attention.
Have your own opinions bad onesabout everything.
No one respects people who aretoo agreeable and go along with
the crowd, so make sure younever do Beat yourself, but
don't kill yourself, but do talkabout it.
People have to take youseriously either way, and you
(40:06):
can threaten suicide as manytimes as you want, it never gets
old.
Pit people against one another.
You'll get attention fromothers if you force them to
compete for yours and when theytear each other apart, that
clears the field and getseveryone paying attention to
what really matters.
You have fun out there.
Empower yourself, take controlof your self-care, release your
(40:33):
powerful inner healer.
Restore your faith in thefuture.
Have digressive and circuitousall-night conversations with
geniuses who love you.
Don't feel good about yourself.
Feel great about yourself foran entire half hour.
(40:55):
You deserve pure uncut cocaine.
Learn to say no.
Say no to bad jobs, no toone-way relationships.
Don't pay taxes or parkingfines or show up for boring
(41:17):
social engagements if you don'twanna Refuse to get peed on,
figuratively or otherwise.
Never say never or no or yes.
Learn how to say no toeverything, no or yes.
Learn how to say no toeverything.
Know when to walk away.
Know when to run.
If your city is dead, move toAtlanta.
(41:39):
If you can't do that, move toKathmandu.
If you hate your job seriouslyfor real, quit.
There's so much important workto be done in the world right
now.
If your relationship has gonerotten, break up.
It's hard to find good porn, butit's out there.
You can't get back your timeand if you waste a lot of it,
(42:00):
you'll have a hell of a timegetting back your dignity.
If you think it's time to go,it probably is.
Never forget.
You can always just quit and ifyou change your mind, you can
always find some other lousysituation.
It's hard, it's scary.
Do the damn thing Got rid of.
(42:21):
I sit in a dark blue sedan.
Sun came up.
We waited with great patiencefor a man who had previously
promised to arrive in greathaste, or so it was said on the
application he filled out inhandwriting that was hard to
read a scrawl composed in blueink with doodles of mushrooms at
the margins, as though hehadn't expected anyone else to
actually read it.
Martians are groovy, I'm told.
(42:43):
They love the old hits that therest of us have forgotten,
plugged into the past as theyare and largely uninterested in
chasing trends, preferring styleover fashion.
You've been listening to EmersonDameron's Medicated Minutes
medicated-minutescom, aproduction of K-Chung kchungung
(43:08):
Radio dot O-R-G 1630 AM.
K-chung, los Angeles.
I'm Emerson Dameron, I'm thehost.
Thanks to Kern, julie,permanent Records, kurt at
Inspirato Projecto, chris Rogersand Visions of the Universe for
(43:28):
doing the music.
Everyone who came out to thefirst of its kind, kei Chung
talk show, experiment.
Live at Permanent Records.
If it happens again, be there.
Levity saves lives, thank you.
(44:30):
Take a beat, breathe into theexperience of being here and ask
yourself what am I so afraid of?
Maybe you're afraid of missingsome essential life experience.
You're afraid you already have,or that it doesn't matter
because nothing does.
Maybe it's nothing.
Maybe you're just a regularnerves McGee.
Or maybe you're afraid of yourown glorious cataclysmic power,
(44:56):
the riotous multitudes youcontain.
You are smart enough to knowhow nearly infinitely ignorant
you are.
But you're not too smart to behot, and you may already be a
satanic Buddhist.
Nothing is good or bad inisolation, only in context.
The Buddha and the Beastmasterare a good team.
This, right here, is all youget.
(45:18):
Life is for living up downacross, diagonally, sideways,
because nothing matters.
You may already be a satanicBuddhist.
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