Don’t Lose Yourself Trying to Get “There”

When my son was unwell, I lost myself.

I stopped sleeping.
I stopped moving my body.
I stopped even knowing how to find joy.

In the rare moments when he finally fell asleep, I sure as heck didn't sleep. I researched. Because I could feel him slipping further away from me and I was desperate to heal him.

Somewhere along the way, I stopped breathing.
I stopped knowing how to connect with my daughter, with Ty, with my own body.

I was holding my breath just trying to keep us all afloat.

And I know so many of you are in this place right now... trying to heal your own body, or your child’s body, and it is all-consuming. It becomes the only thing you can see. You pour every ounce of yourself into the symptoms, into the protocols, into the fear. And somewhere along the way, you stop living.

I want to share something with you that I didn’t understand back then...
His healing journey wasn’t separate from mine.
It never was.

And if I could go back… I would do it differently.
Not because I regret anything.
But because I know now that I didn’t have to lose myself in order to heal him.
In fact, I could have healed him faster (with more steadiness, more clarity, more grounded energy) if I hadn’t abandoned myself in the process.

That’s what this week’s episode is about.

I’m walking you through the raw, honest story of how we ended up living in a motorhome with no internet, how we nearly broke and then found each other again, how healing forced us to leave behind everything we thought we were supposed to be… so we could finally come home to ourselves.

And I’m sharing what I wish someone had told me back then.
That nothing in life is about the end result. Not the wedding day, not the symptom checklist, not the healed body.

It’s about how we live while we’re in it.
Who we are becoming.
And how we shift our focus back to what actually matters.

Because healing isn’t the finish line.

And if you hold your breath the whole way there just waiting for the perfect moment to finally feel peace, or presence, or joy? You will miss what it was all for.

This might be the most powerful episode I’ve ever recorded. And I really believe it’s going to meet you right where you are.

Thanks for listening! I would love to connect with you ♡

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Sending love and wellness from my family yours,
xx - Juniper Bennett
Founder of ōNLē ORGANICS