I Forgave Him and Released Him to the Holy Spirit

Rapper & producer P-Lo graduates college in the middle of his STUNNA tour, Love and Death finale on HBO, The Little Mermaid review, I got an opportunity to host an NBA event, I had to set a boundary with him, me and Chris get spiritual, and more!

Episode Transcript

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Just just oh my gosh, everythinghurts. Do you not care? Why

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is that? Why is that?Actually? I feel the same. Do
you well, I went to theJamie as guarantee you don't. Oh,
oh is that? Do you havea is there? Is there a midget
type dancing on your He's going forthe record. She says that, I
don't say that. Everything from thewaist down is throbbing. Like my legs
hurt so bad. Okay, literallylike getting run over by a garbage truck.

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It's something I daydream about, LikeI feel like that would be a
massage, like that would feel sogood, just like yeah, a big,
hefty garbage truck full full just roundthe block. Yes, just collected
all last house, last week's garbage, this week's garbage. Got to the
last house and it was like abulky pickup. There's couches on that bench.

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Yea, they got bed frames andwood with nails in it. Yeah,
and they're going full speed. They'renot even feel the speed. Love
it. Fuck them bead bumps andfuck them kids. And I'm just slowly
walking and I see it. I'mlike, hands out, Oh my glory,
take me literally of the garbage truck. Waiting fie think my eyes been

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off the show. I knew itbecause, you know what, I'm God's
favorite and I don't usually get acne, but I only get acne when I'm
about to start my period. Andwell one right here on my chinny chin
chip before any pain. I justfelt the pibble first, and I was
like, oh, she's coming.Oh around them? You name your period?
Is that a thing? Bloody Mary? Oh my god, you know

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it's funny. All the girls atwork, Bloody Maria. You know that's
actually a drink. It's a bloodyMary with Yeah, yeahs my favorite.
All the girls at work sink up. Oh yeah, we're like bluetooth.
No. We all think up.Like if you're with someone for like over
three days, Oh my god,out a lot the jeans. That sh

(02:38):
that shit. That shit is crazyto me. Like literally the other day,
I was in the back with likefour four girls and one of them
was like, I got my period. I swear to God. All them
like whiplash. They all broke theirneck and were like bitch me too,
and we were all struggling and theywere hurting, and I was just like
me, go home, everybody,go home. I don't I don't real

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talk. We should get time offfor our periods. Then the pain is
so bad like luckily, I meanmy first day is really bad, Like
my legs just throb, like mybody's aching so bad. It's not so
much the cramps, it's just likemy body is like really aching. Um.
But I remember my mom not anymore, but she used to get them.
Like I remember when I was younger, not even able to drive,

(03:21):
my mom would pull over like aweek I can't drive, and she had
to get like the dog had toprescribe for like eight hundred milligram ireprofan,
which it works, Like, ohmy god, what's that one? Stand
up? And they're like she's talkingabout getting a period, and how like
you should be able to like callyour job your boss and be like,
hey, my insides are falling outliterally and they should say, like you

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know what, just take off theweek. Literally. I'm literally bleeding so
much that I have to like changea tampon every two hours, like bro,
what? And I have to cometo work in pain and do this
and interact with people. Hi,okay everyone, I want I could kill

(04:05):
everybody. Here's post below my I'mso annoyed damn. You know what,
I don't give this thing. SoI salute you. I salute you.
Well say anytime I'm like emotional orsad, I'm like, wow, I'm

(04:26):
really in tune with my feelings.In the next day, I'm proud.
I'm like, ah, I wasn'tweak as bitch. I knew it.
Oh. No, periods not doingit for the culture, period period.
But let's see who is this isfor the culture? For the culture or

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the culture. This is where wepick a headline and ask if they shet
or he did it for the culture. Op tops. This man is doing
it for the culture. I gottashout out the homie Pilo. Um,
he's on this tour right now.Okay cool and I love that he took
all the homies with him. Um. When I first interviewed him when before
the album came out, right away, he was like I think I was

(05:10):
asking, like, you know,who were you most excited to have on
the features or whatever, like whatcan people expect on this album because it
wasn't out yet. You know MetchaKamaya and you know too short. But
he's like, oh, and uh, this guy Michael Sneed. He didn't
say this guy Michael Sneed. Hesaid Michael Sneed, and I think I
kind of acted like I knew whothat was, so I didn't say that,
but I wasn't like, oh,who is that? I just kind
of let him keep going, andhe was like, he's the truth.

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You gotta check him out. Andwhat have you met him? Michael Sneed?
Oh you haven't met him yet?No? Okay, reason I thought
you did. No, Okay,he's been on the station many times.
But I had him in for aninterview and click's right away. This guy
is super dope. He could singreally good, um, and he just
has a different flavor to him,I think because I just told you so

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much about him. But theater guy. Yeah he's a big, big,
big theater kidum. But yeah,his music is super dope. So Piolo
is the first one that put meon to him, and now he just
comes to the station sometimes to visitbecause like I introduced him to Van and
we're all just like having like argumentsbecause Mom likes to argue with us because
we're younger, and he swears goodn'ton anything because we don't, and we

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just argue about music. But himand his friends like came one time.
I remember Karina, who does ispart of our digital team. We were
doing like content for the Warriors andlike we're walking back, She's like,
oh yeah, Michael Sneeze coming inand I was like, oh my god,
I have an interview today, LikeI'm so not prepared, Like yeah,
this is not on my calendar.She's like, no, he's just
coming in. I was like,for what, just coming to visit.
I was like okay, cool,and like literally just had him kicking it.

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So very good people. But Pilotook him on his first tour,
like he's opening for him. MilesMedina, who's very popular, very talented
Bay Area DJ you brought out someother local people on tour with him.
I think Tweet went to a Idon't think she went on the full tour,
but she was added to a coupleof shows. So super doope.

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He just always puts on I think, you know, Lebressa came out on
a couple of shows. I feellike whenever he could bring, you know,
the people he came up with,he will or the people that he
thinks is dope. Yeah, Ifeel like he's always paved the way for
that. Where's he playing here?In the bay. Yeah, he did
the war Field, so he's alreadyuh, he already did it. It's
off the hook. I also Iwish I could have made it had to
work, but um, I sawthe cliffs like on Instagram and like everyone

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was just going crazy. It wassuper lit. Um and just like has
been everywhere lately. Like he hada cloud with McDonald's. What I know,
it's insane. It's part of theirAPI, like month okay cool.
I don't know exactly what it was, but now they did like a partnership.
I saw the video go up forthat. Um. He also cloud

(07:39):
was senior cistig. I don't knowif you've ever tried that. It's like
a yeah, oh really yeah yeah. Because they're at Sparks Social Lot,
which is like down the street fromthe station. Ye. Van actually put
me on and we ve doored Ashtonthem like crazy. It's like Filippino Burrito.

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Yeah, and so they have aPilo Rito. Oh shouts Pielo again.
I got to host his album releaseparty when it was at Thripe City,
so fun. It was like thewhole community came out because once one
it's at Chase Center. Yeah,that's where Thripe City Is. He was
outside and like just all the localvendors that were there, all the food
and like, it was just agood vibe through and through. It was

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so dope. But that was thefirst time they sold the Pilo rito and
I Hella wanted to get it,but it was so busy on the hostess
stage. I don't even know.Let me, let's let's go to it.
Google it. He literally made likea commercial for them. It's so
cute. I love that. Itwas like if the rice ain't in it,
then it ain't right. Like remixum. It looks super smack and

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though, and I guess they're bringingit back, like it's going to be
on the menu so you could actuallygo there and order it now. At
first I was just for the albumrelease party, but now it's on the
menu. So he's doing all thesethings. He's on tour, literally wall
on tour. On the low,he had went back to school and he
was graduated. Yeah, what didyou go to school for? I don't

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know what he majored in, buthe went to Contra Costa County like community
college. Yeah, and got hishat off. Go to school, everybody.
Yeah, he's good for you.I'm sure, I'm trying to see
it. Love us. Before that, he like stopped going to school because
he wanted to pursue music, andlike obviously is doing this thing, but
for him, I think to goback, yeah and finish is so dope.

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Um and literally on tour, Likehis last video was I think the
Vegas and Arizona recap. So yousee him like three am, finishing Arizona,
getting on a red eye flight backto the Bay Area to graduate shows
a graduation and then he goes ona flight back to Vegas to do his
show and literally the whole time juststays in his grad he answers the stage.

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I love I love that, socould you imagine? I think that's
so like I've always been really bigon like don't like at life like a
timeline shut out to Brenda from Alone, I forget her last name, but
she was like the president of likethe speech community, and she told me
that at a very young age andthat always stuck with me. Yeah,

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and I just like I love that, and you know, yeah, stop
going to school, I mean,stop going to you know, community college,
but you know, to pursue hismusic career is do big things.
He's always like collaborating with like theNiners. Now I got McDonald's on a
whole tour right now. Always stickstrue to the Bay Area and went back
to school to graduate. I thinkthat's so dope. So we gotta give
it up for pay for the culture, and it just goes to show it's

(10:33):
never too late to go back orto do anything you want to do.
Even if you had to put somethingon pause, it's never too late to
return to it when it's your timeto do that. Shout out to Peak.
Let's talk some TV. I justfinished Love and Death on HBO backs
now. I feel like I've talkedabout this multiple times. However, I've

(10:54):
had a delete multiple episodes because weare dumbb words, mostly me. I
mean Chris is one too, butnot in this moment. We like pressed.
I don't know someone was messing withthe board. You were me.
I feel like I triple culturple checked. I don't understand anyways, something was

(11:15):
going on and the stuff that wason live on the radio, like the
music and the commercials were bleeding intothe podcast randomly. So right now,
I just turned all the buttons offon the thing. While ninety four Nine's
like dead air right now because we'rerecording this podcast, so I feel like
this is my third time bringing itup. However, Love and Death on

(11:39):
HBO Max Candy mont Grammery story,Oh my good about this girl who did
a bad thing. You gotta watchit. I don't want to give any
spoilers, but um, it's basedon a true story. I think a
couple of years before this came out, there was one on Hulu where Jessica
Bill plays the main character, andI haven't watched it yet, but I
looked at the images and he definitelylooks more like Candy Montgomery. But in

(12:01):
the HBO one it's Elizabeth Olson andElizabeth Olsen is acting her ass off.
I've been talking about this, butthe season finale happened last night, and
oh it was a doozy. Okay, we are giving spoilers. The only
thing I'm going to spoil is,Okay, murder happens. If you look
up the real Canny Montgomery store,you can look it up yourself what it's

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all about. But in the beginningin the Hulu one, the murder already
happens. They jump right to thetrial, and that's how the show starts,
but in the HBO one, itdoesn't jump off right away like it
starts. You kind of get toknow all the characters that are evolved,
and then the crime happens, andthen the trial is like at the very
end. So when the crime hadhappened, it didn't show the murder scene,

(12:45):
like it shows her walking out ofthe house like full of blood,
but it didn't show what actually happened. But in the season finale, I
guess they were holding it till theend when she has to go on the
witness stand and talk. She istalking about what happen in that night or
that day and oh ice cream,but the entire time, well I guess

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she's kind of talking throughout, butit shows the playback of what happened,
like, Okay killed him, Shekilled him for sure? What do you
think? What do you think?Okay? So who do I guess?
Okay, I guess I gotta saythe martyr story. Okay, the actual
story, Well, the thing islike, um, she admits that she
she did the killing, but whatshe's fighting is that it was self defense.

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So basically, this bitch was sleepingwith her man and they live in
this like they're all like hardcore Christians. They live in this country, asked
town, they all like seeing outa choir. Everyone knows everyone. And
she has this friend, Betty Gore, and Alan Gore is her husband,
and she's like, hey, let'shave an affair Kenny Montgomery and she has
a husband too. They have anaffair, they end it, and now

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Betty Gore it thinks she's pregnant ortrying to get pregnant, and she connects
it out somehow and finds out thatthey had an affair. So when Candy
comes over one day, she askedher, like, yo, you're have
an a fair with my man.She's like obviously like Stunn, like,
oh my god, I'm so sorry. I guess I did, but I
promise you it's over. Betty goesto grab her axe and tries to kill
her. So I guess Candy actedin self defense. But the only thing

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is she did come for Candy forto kill her with an axe. Candy
was defending herself, but she hither like forty three times with ax.
Oh right, not quite an accident, right, Like I mean, I
guess that's the argument. And likepeople are like going back on this case
because I think there are some peoplewho think it's disgusting that she got off.

(14:39):
It's like stage to try to killher with an act first, but
forty three times to kill someone withan axe is crazy. Yeah, I
go, you are right in herokay. Yeah. And there's parts where
like before she takes a stand whereI don't know what they're called, but
the guy that you know currently enup the crime scene or like try to
inspect everything. Yeah, exactly,like it plaining some of the wounds and

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like some of them are just sogirls like that, and it shows pictures.
Oh no, like half of herface is off. Oh god,
like craffing her face is He said, it's all tissue and then he explains
how like I forgot what he's explaining, but basically this there's one wound to
the lake and like he says thatit had to have got stuck, how
deep it was, like she hadto like move her arm back to hit

(15:24):
her again. Oh god, Sothat part's already discussing. He's just describing
it. And like, so thisall these episodes, you don't see the
murder scenes. So this season finale, which I almost threw up, I
was screaming the tire Towe. Iwas like, like literally, it's like
I got home so like it's likeone am in the morning. My neighbors
are probably like, is this muchdying? I'm literally screaming the time because
it shows like the eggs going inthe middle of her fucking head. Oh

(15:46):
wow, it's gory. Blood iseverywhere, and she just like hammered away
on that. She literally like puther body into pieces. Uh in real
life life. In the documentary,she gets off not guilty. Oh wow,
I know the lawyer didn't have agood argument. Yeah, I mean,

(16:11):
yeah, that's that's what was painted. Yeah that it was self defense.
But it's just like forty three timesand it's crazy. But Elizabeth Olsen
Man, we're probably not going tostare for another ten years. But she
did her fucking thing. Like she'sjust such a good actress. There's parts
where she's showing so much emotion justin her eyes, like she's saying nothing
when like even like the scene whereshe says not guilty, you see us

(16:36):
like she like bends down and coversher mouth and you see a single tear
drop just fall. It's like sucha crazy scene. I'm like, oh,
this Nase is give me chill,Like, there's so many scenes where
she really does take my breath awayand gives me geese bumps. She was
in her bag, Elizabeth Olson.Bravoh, I forgot the other guy's name,
but the guy that plays the lawyeralso killed it. He definitely outperformed
all the male actors on the show. So watch Love and Death on HBO

(16:59):
Max. But trigger morning for theseason finale. Very gruesome murder scene.
I want to watch it. Andthe whole show is not gruesome at all.
And it's a limited series. It'sonly this one season obviously, and
I think it's just seven episodes.But they're all an hour long. Okay,
that's fine, it's a little long. But yeah, now that they're
all out, you could really watchthem because I know a lot of people
don't like to wait. Yeah,and yeah, usually I don't have that

(17:19):
problem, but I'm not gonna lie. It would be like Tuesday and I'm
like there's still not a new episode, Like i feel like it's been longer
than a week. Like I reallythis show had me in a chokehold.
So bravo to everyone that did that. How you feel about the case.
I would like to know because Iwas just like on Twitter, there some
people that are like, this isdiscussing like people are glamorising Kenny Montgomery when

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she's actually a horrible person, whichI agree, but also I'm kind of
like, yeah, that bit didattack her first though with the acts,
you know, yeah, that's kindof a hard conversation, especially like with
the Jeffrey Dahmer like show and roundingthat, like, but this girl's not
a serial killer, that's true.This is like one incident to people,

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and that's the lawyer because I thinkthey have like another doctor that goes up
there. Um, I feel akind of doctor, but like a psychologist
or whatever that thinks that she justhad a moment where she snapped like something
had happened to her. And whenshe was like four years old and her
I think she like got hit onher head, like when she got here
with the axe and she was veryscared yea, and like her mom told

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her. And then there's other partslike in the episode where people told her
and she like freaks out, likeshe yells, so she's like being told.
The fan the other lawyer was like, oh so Betty's like killed it
to pieces because she told her andlike there's headlines like the media was going
in on Candy momont gradmer saying she'sa terrible person. And like the last

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media headline, like the newspaper justsays what year was this? Like when
when was this said? You know? Uh? It was when Star Wars
came out? Which one I onlyknow because on like the day that she
died or killed her, she wasgoing to go take her kids to go
see Star Wars? Was it likethe newer ones or the older one?

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Marie? Uh? This happened atthe Wikipedia page. Candice Lynn Montgomery is
an American housewife accused of murdering herlover's wife, Betty Gore. The killing
took place in Wiley, Texas,on June thirteenth, nineteen eighty during the
Salt Gore was struck forty one timeswith the wood splitting as dum dum,

(19:29):
dumb damn. That's it crazy?No, But then I was like,
now this bishess, are of jailtime? Like forty one times, I
don't care, that's crazy. Fortyone times with an axe. It's no
longer self defense, bro, shestill roaming the streets, bitch. Guess
what she did afterwards? She gota TV show. This bitch became a
family therapist. She said, letme tell you something about Let me tell

(19:55):
you something about a communication, howwe communicate with each other. You do
not need to be know. Letme tell you what we should do.
Let me tell you how to heal. Let me show you what's right and
what's wrong. Received a great dealof criticism from the community. Crouch channe

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as Montgomery exited the courthouse following hervictim's father blah blah, but yeah,
damn. Shout out to Elizabeth Olsonlove. He shout out to Haney.
By bitch, the Little Mermaid isout in theaters now, bitch. You
know, yes, yesterday I waslike I was, I was solo tripping.

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I was like, you know what, let me just let me go,
let me go to the movie.I literally got lunch and the Cross
Street was a little the Alameda movietheater and it was like three fifteen.
The movie started at three thirty,and I was like, fuck it.
I said, fuck it, letme walk over. Let me watch this
little movie. Bitch. We criedabout five times. Oh my god.
It was just like I was gettingchoked up. I was tearing up,

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like just is it actually sad oris it just like beautiful, It's just
beautiful. It's just really brings meback to the time when I was a
kid. It's like every person I'veseen on Instagram stories that watched it said
they've sobbed God, God, Likeyou know, of course I watched.
I've watched. I watched everything aboutit, like leading up to like all

(21:21):
of the interviews, all of thebehind the scenes, like and they also
the same thing. Like she literally, like Hally Bailey like brought it,
brought her own like version to it. But right she she also acted her
a little ass off, and shesure did. She literally made you feel
like I don't know where, Idon't know how I want to go up
on that shore right now. Isthat how it goes? I don't know

(21:41):
that's how it goes. But she'sjust like just those words, and part
of your world is like so likeit connects to all of us. It
connects to that feeling of like don'tfucking stop. Don't stop, don't let
anybody tell you you cannot like getyour dreams, like you want to live
on land, you can do that. Do that. You just gotta go
to the stupid ass you could doit. Wait and then just like the

(22:07):
final risk, dude, but yougo for a girl, okay. And
also like they had like little fillersongs you know, to like connect it
all, and like they're all writtenby lin Manuel Miranda who did Hamilton,
Like you know, he's iconic too, and he also did in The Heights
and the musical movie that was newbut he genius. But also I think

(22:33):
so yes, I think so yes, yes, yes, yes, I
think so yes. Um okay.But also in the fucking end, like
the grand finale, the big scene, like I don't want to give everything.
I don't want to give it allaway. I mean we already spoiler,
like you know what, bitch,Yeah, you know the part when
Ursula like turntel a big they dothat, they do that. I was

(22:56):
like, I was so excited.They didn't show that part in any of
them in the pre Us, butgod, it was just so good.
And Aquafina as the Bird was reallyfunny, and the v dig the crab
Sebastian was really good. Oh mygod, Ursula Melissa McCarthy as Ursula,
Oh she I was gonna say,who's our Sla? Good? So fucking

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I can't I can't wait to gowatch it. God, oh my god,
amazing cast, amazing cast, HallieBailey, her voice, vocals,
gorgeous and everything. I haven't watchedit yet, but that performance of when
she did it at a Disneyland Isaw it. Yeah, that clip,
it was like she is a littlemermaid, she is a little angel.
I like voice yes, yes,and and like how they kind of did

(23:41):
it. Um you know, shecouldn't talk right for like a portion of
the movie. Yeah, but theyshe would have. She had like her
own songs. They gave her songsso like songs that she was thinking.
So she was still singing but likeshe wasn't speaking, but it was like
it was like a voiceover of hersongs of like what she's thinking. I
don't know, it was just itwas so good. Yeah. I ugly
cried about five different times throughout themovie just because it was so like heartwarming,

(24:06):
and I'm just like, bitch,I'm never gonna stop the good I'm
not gonna go watch it now whileI'm a period. Yeah, you should
honestly get that good cry out.It is so good. I'll go see
it again. I'm gonna do likea cinematography, Like the whole movie is
gorgeous, the whole fucking thing,the under the underwater part, like all
the you know. At first,I was like, I don't really like
this Flounder character. I don't reallylike this little ugly ass fish. Who's

(24:27):
an ugly ass fish. He lookedlike an ugly ass fish. But you
know what, it worked. Itworked like in the movie. It worked.
When they showed the poster of himFlounder, I was like, Oh,
get that fish away from here,get that fish away from me,
you know. Um. But likeeverything like it was honestly a spitting image

(24:48):
of the movie, like in thebeginning when they're running away from the shark,
like the sharks coming. Oh thevoice the character Flounder, Yeah,
he was cute. He was cute, TrEMBL it was really good. Like
his face at first. Okay,like when they did the Lion King like
the live action, I'm not Iwas not a fan. Yeah, I

(25:11):
didn't even see it. I guessI don't want to see the animal.
I don't want to see realized animals. I could go to a zoo.
Okay, you know, but theLion King his hands down the greatest Disney
movie. Yeah, it does notneed to be touched. I mean,
we love Beyonce. Okay, youknow in the beginning too, of every
Disney movie, you like, yousee the Castle, it's like and this

(25:33):
one they had like it was theCastle and in the back there was Pride
Rock and the Matterhorn. Oh,I don't know, something really small and
silly, but like I thought thatwas really cute. Yeah oh oh,
and then they like I don't know, this might just be me thinking,
but like they had a little doryfish swimming around, like, oh,
that's cool. What's I called Easteregg or whatever they didn't make like um

(25:56):
milana they had like crush. Yeah. I love those things. They put
them in every single movie. Yeah, I love it. I love Disney
for that. So I'm yeah,I'm very anti like the live action of
all these remakes. Yes, youknow they're already doing Wauna. The movie
hasn't even been out all that thatI would watch, like because I love
the Rock Yeah yeah yeah, Andlike this one, I want to see

(26:18):
Haley Bay and Haley Bailey. Sodude, it's so good. It was
so good. Um No, I'mjust trying to think, like, oh,
d dicks to us fashion, that'sso dope, Like you know it's
it's a kids movie, right,and you gotta like kind of putting your
put on, you like your yourimagination thinking cat, but you don't because
it's so believable. Like I'm like, oh my god, these little these

(26:40):
mermaids are fucking real as fuck.Man Oakland and the Little Mermaid. We
love to see it. Yeah,so dope, Oh my god. Sometimes
he comes to my work. I'veseen him at my work a couple of
times. Oh really, yeah,he's he's a rag. Yeah, well
not a rag, but I've seenhim a couple of times. No,
that's super cool. Okay, Sothe Little Mermaid out now in theaters.
I'm watch it. I'm might doit alone too and cry my eyes out.

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Honestly, I was happy I wentalone because I didn't want it were
looking at me. I was thelile Honors was old enough to go to
the movie theater. She won't understand, she won't get it. She won't
get at I don't know. Idon't even know if she watched the ORIGINALID
yet It's okay, this is better. I'm just kidding. Oh that the
you think? So the original isthe original. This is a beautiful reimagination

(27:25):
and even they had the bitch inthe end, remember, like Ursula turns
into the other bitch, that sidebitch. They even had that stupid bitch
in there and she kind of lookslike the cartoon like with the dumb like
black haired dumb bitch. And HallieBailey comes in like, pop up,
you ain't taking my motherfucking man bit, get my voice back, bitch.
Oh my god. I was like, yeah, get her, get her,

(27:48):
get her theater. How was thecrowd where people like it was children
and yes we did we did cover, Yes we come on. Um it
was like children like me and likelike thirty kids. I was just sitting
in the corner. Yeah, mylittle popcorn and my gummy worms to Oh

(28:11):
I love that. I can't waitto go watch it. I'm excited now.
So I think everyone on my Instagramhas been praising it like crazy.
I know it's the truth. Soeven halle v I'll do that this weekend.
Just her face, her facial expressions, like she is so innocent and
like the thing about the Little Mermaidis like it's showing strength and vulnerability,
like she's afraid to go up onland, but she's gonna do it.

(28:33):
She's gonna do it period and that'swhat That's how she lived your life,
and that's on Ariel. I said, bitch, if you wanted to go
to Taylor's, just tell her brotheryou want to go to Taylors. You
said that. Oh hell yeah,man, I laid it out right,
I said, I said, Isaid, I said, bitch, bitch,

(29:00):
I am having a very great dayand a very terrible day. Only
terrible because um, I have tobe a woman and get periods and it's
very painful. Honey, I'm awoman. Ever change the time I went
to the bar I went to Iwas at a wedding. I was at
a wedding and I was kind oftipsy and I went with my girlfriend.

(29:23):
We walked in to the bar andthe guy asked me for my drinking.
I want to beer and she's like, oh, I have a beer too,
And then he's like, oh,I'm sorry ladies first, and he
starts to pour her beer and I'ma little tipsy, and I just thought
I'd pop off and say, well, I'm a woman, honey, I'm
a woman. He liked to belike he didn't know whether to shit or

(29:47):
go blind. Yeah, he's him. There got him so good because honey,
I'm a what a woman? Yeah? It sucks. You don't want
this life was good? It's terrible. Um, what was I gonna say?
Oh, but having a great daybecause I got a d M.

(30:11):
Still unsure if I'm being spammed byyou guys. But Uninterrupted, which is
an athlete empowerment brand founded by LebronJames, heard of him. Okay branding.
They messaged me. They said,Hey, how's it going. This
is blah blah blah from the talentrelations team at Uninterrupted in spring Hill.

(30:37):
We'll love to you send We'll loveto send you details on a paid opportunity
to host an NBA Finals Game onewatch party in San Francisco that we're facilitating
for Google on this date. AndI mean, you guys now even wanting
to do more stuff with sports.I'm the end game host for the Santa
Cuse Warriors, and I'm on LinkedInevery day on like all these sports pages

(31:02):
trying to get more hosting gigs andany kind of sport. Honestly, I
don't even care if I don't watchthe sport. I just want to get
more involved. It's fun. Um, So I'm like, um, yes,
hell, yes, and we didthe messaging back and forth. He's
like, cool, we're gonna dropa contract dodoo and it's for some good
money. Ooh, it's it's agood little baggy. Let's go, honey.

(31:22):
And I did. I'm like,I don't know. To me,
I'm like, oh my god,this is still too good to be true.
I don't know. I don't know. But I have this website and
you know, you guys gives ittoo. I think it's called like true
people Search or True People Finder.It's legit. You put a number in
there and it's gonna tell you thename, the address, yeah, the
full name, the age. Andevery time someone texts me, because you

(31:44):
guys know, I like to deletetext messages. If I'm over the conversation,
that means it didn't happen. Andif I hate you enough, I'm
going to delete your number. Also, I never want to remember you.
So sometimes I'll get a non numbersand I'm like, let me find out
who this is. Text to me, let me remember who? Yeah,
before I say like, who's this? So I'll like always pull up True
people Search. I don't even knowthe website because like once the type and

(32:05):
true my Safari is already like weknow the website you guys in the comments,
do you do this? Because Ithink this is like fucking crazy sometimes
like it's like I don't like youthe wait, oh wait, who is
this? Now? I need toknow? And then you go to true
people Finder when they message it becauseI don't know who it is. I
don't want what if it really issomething, why not just keep the thread
so then you refer to it backlater? No, no, no,

(32:28):
because I don't want to message thesepeople too. That's another thing. I
can't trust myself exactly. Thank you, you're kidding it. So sometimes I'm
not sure, like what if it'sactually a cousin? You know, I
don't want to be like, whois this? Don't know who you are?
Yeah? Sorry? New number Ialways do about it? I don't
want to is Yeah, So Igo to Safari true people Finder put it

(32:51):
in. So this guy he gaveme his number two and his email saying,
you know, do you want toknow more information about it? So
I put his number in. Thenumber is his name? I looked up
as LinkedIn, looked up his Instagram. It all checks out. The email.
I went to another website that likeemail verification, the email, Um,
I mean they literally messaged me fromthe official Uninterrupted Instagram profile. Yeah,

(33:15):
it's not a chatbot AI. Sowhen they were we're going back and
forth on like the paying details,and when they said that they're going to
send me the contract, they saidthat they were going to mail it to
me, which I thought was weirdand my mom thought it was weird too.
Someone's like, don't give them youraddress, give them ours if anything,
but my mom like right away waslike I don't know. And I'm
like, well, they messaged mefor the Instagram count, Like would they

(33:36):
be able to do that for everysuspicions forever? I know, because I
love it. Yeah. I wastelling her, how, you know,
I looked up all the information.It checks out. She's like, okay,
but anyone could be using his infoto email you exactly way to go,
Mom. And I was like,well, could anyone be using the
official Instagram account to message me?Yeah? You never know the fuck?
My mom really said possibly if I'minto scamming. Okay, not Mom,

(34:00):
always, especially with everyone getting ablue mark these days. But then again,
I guess they wouldn't have the exactnumber of followers. And stuff.
Huh Like, yeah, it's comethrough. You could pay for a checkmark
now, sweetie, Like, no, I'm not doing I'm not like,
oh, I can tell if someonejust paid for a blue mark? Like

(34:20):
literally, why does Lebron James followthis account in like sweety seven and Night
goes along posts with HBO. Theycollab post with andre Ward because they have
like a film festival. They're behinda lot of those documentaries. Like Lebron
James has a show on HBO calledThe Shop where he gets like a bunch
of special It's so good. Yeah, it's really good. I hate to

(34:42):
root for anything Lebron, but ifI get this gig, I will be
saying all good things about Lebron.I think he really is one of the
best players. I'm not saying he'sthe goat, not the greatest of all
time, but he is up there. Who is the greatest of all Jordan
Duh okay um anyways, yeah,I'm like, no, this is this

(35:05):
is a visual cat. I'm clickingon it. They have one point one
million followers. They are like aglove posts with HBO. Andre Ward.
This is so that that was oneLike Okay, I think that's legit um
and just like googling everything. ButI was like, you know what,
let me at least call the flagshipstore that this is going to be held
at. Let me let me needsome investigating. Yeah. I was like,

(35:25):
hey, I gotta reached out aboutthis event happening at your store,
Like is this the real thing?And she was like, oh, yeah,
this is happening, and she's liketrying to sell me to vent.
I'm like, okay, yeah,I got reached out to host. Okay,
I heard. Okay, that's enough. I mean it sounds cool.
She was like, yeah, shekind of didn't. You can tell she
doesn't know a lot about basketball becauseshe was just like, yeah, some
NBA players supposed to be here.I forgot who it is. But that's
literally me. That's literally not me. Used to work in at AT and

(35:50):
T. That would have been me. Like yeah, I don't know,
yeah, Jordan, I think yeah, Michael, Mike, Mike, Mike,
mikey George, I don't know,Lebrine, yeah, Stephen, Stephen
hers for food like food like aspice. It's like, I don't know

(36:19):
they're gonna be there. She said, some of many players doesn't know who's
going so she's like, no,that's legit happening. And I met name
dropped the name and she was like, well, honestly, I'm just the
side of the store. But youknow there's also Google involved, and we
have third parties that are doing thetalent side. So you know, I'm
not sure like all the names,but this is happening. So I'm like,
Okay, I'm trusting it more.And then another thing that was big

(36:40):
to me, um, even thoughI'm still weird out about the address.
Um when they asked, like forthe payment, I was like, well,
they asked if I had an LLCand I don't, and I'm thinking
about getting one. I should probablyget one my cards yea, but yeah,
doing more hosting events like this anyways, Um, I said I don't,
but you know, I was likeI usually accept it. And they're
like, no, we need todo ach direct deposit. Girl like,

(37:02):
we don't do like you're banking androuting numbers. Yeah, yeah, that's
suspicious. That's a suspicious part.I feel like, don't giving away your
account routing number. Well that onebecause I remember when I did them.
That one's I feel like that's morelegit to me because it's like, oh,
they're probably gonna like want to taxyou later. Oh, like like
for the plow event. Like mostevents some stuff, you know, when

(37:24):
we do club events and whatever,it's just like what's your zel or But
like people, one was very legit. They made me like send them an
invoice. Okay, okay, Ihad to like say it to the company
and put my banking a rounting numberfor that, and yeah, I guess
because I'm new to this, likethe first time when Pelo's team told me
that because my friend worked for theteam, so okay, yea. Even

(37:44):
her message me and she's like themost legit person I know, like she
wouldn't play me. But even hersaying that, I was like I remember
going avon like is this normal,Like yeah, to give them my banking
account Mber, and like yeah account. He's like yeah, no, that
that means they're legit. He's likeI had to do that once too,
Like okay, my friend helped memake it voice heard, so that made
it more believable for me. Butyeah, we'll find out. I'll let

(38:06):
you guys know if I got robbedfor because I sent that today. I
sent it after hours, so theyhaven't got back to me yet because I
sent it at like seven pm myinvoice and head shots for the VET.
But I wish I use mine.No, she said, you don't even
look like that anymore. Oh whata real friend. And it is.

(38:28):
It is a little like darker cool, like it's not as bright. I
guess we could fix it, yea. I do usually use that one.
I love that. I know me. You need to take some I need
to definitely, definitely immediately, likeI literally just pulled stuff from my instagram
unfortunately, and Selena's head shot onthe website while you for nine I take
it in my backyard. That oneI don't have. I couldn't find that
one. There's another one that wasin that same photo shoot that is darker

(38:51):
than that's one I've been using.It wasn't in my backyard. In your
backyard, use it, but thatpicture that's on wild I for some reason
I don't have, and that probablywould have been a better one because it
is brighter. I think it's somewhereon my laptop anyway. But yeah,
I need to do that because yeah, the pictures I sound through okay,
but they're from my instagram. Ohgirl, Yeah, no, No,

(39:17):
they're not like filtered ones. They'relike clear ones. But still I don't
know. They're not like professional youknow, not to take it from a
camera camera, and they can justbe cooler like I need like a street
photo shoot, you know, likesomething cool. So I need to work
on that. But we'll see.I really hope this is legit because now
they have all my making it.I send it so exactly next week,

(39:43):
you guys will find out if Iget robbed. But check my Instagram because
I'll be promoting this event if it'slegit. But if it is legit,
I'm very excited to be a partof it because it's uninterrupted, it's Google,
It's like all these big brands.Yeah, we get to talk about
basketball, like, yeah, Ilove talking about basketball. If you are
all my Twitter, all I dois is live tweet the game. So

(40:04):
it's just a big thing and I'mhappy that. I mean, this is
the most I've ever gotten paid fora hosting gig. Today's price. Yesterday's
price is not today's price. Allright, bitch? Is this a billable
hour? That's what my boyfriend alwayssays. What does that mean a billable
hour? Or am I getting paidfor this. I love that this hour
amiable. I will start using that. Um So, that happened, Um,

(40:28):
I had to cut off a guidethe other day. What happened?
But I feel like I reclaimed mypower. Did you delete his number?
Did he take you back? Didyou go back to people Finders? So
this person I didn't say their number. I did once and then I deleted
it a long time ago. ButI always know his number, and I
do keep the thread in there whoit is. Um So, I'll give

(40:49):
you the backstory. I had atrainer. I love her, and she
had a boyfriend, and boyfriend hada friend, Yes, And one time
we went out and me and friendI personally didn't hit it off. Honestly,
I was like, way too soberfor the night. You know that
meme of like the guy shouting inthe girl's ear in the club, That
was him. I'm trying to havea whole conversation with me. I think
I've talked about this on a pastepisode. But then later, you know,

(41:15):
we were clicking whatever, and thenwe end up hanging out and it
was a really good time, buthe never asked for my number, and
then we end up hanging out againfor like Halloween last year, and he
had asked me for my number,so oh no, he said, he
told me to take down his number. And then so in the middle of

(41:35):
the week, I had message tomy number because we had a good time
and I would like to have agood time again. That all those in
my head like this is very new, right this guy. You guys,
we were texting like normal, andthen the conversation ended, and mind you,
I'm someone I'm okay with conversation.Conversations just ending naturally, Like I
hate when people try to like keepon a text conversation, like we don't

(41:58):
have to do that. They couldjust end like that's okay, Like,
yeah, we have lives, goodbye. So it's like I gave him my
number. We were texting woodoo,and then it kind of just naturally ended
it, which was fine. Sohe had messaged me again, uh,
towards the end of the week andlike was apologizing for his lack of communication,
and I was like, girl,I didn't think there was any lack

(42:22):
of communication. I was like,what are you talking about, Like,
I gave you my number. Wehad a conversation. It was cute.
Yeah, this was like two daysago. You're making it weird, making
it weird, And then I thinkwe definitely talked about this, but he
sent me a long text, nota super long text, but basically was
like, just let you know,I just got a relationship, so I'm
not really looking for anything, andthis whole spiel about that, okay,

(42:45):
And at first I was like,oh, like look at him being open
or whatever, honest, vulnerable,I guess, And then later like it
did rub me the wrong way becauseI'm like, one, we've hung out
literally one time, I am,I would like to hang out again,
so why and you gave me yournumber. I literally just gave you my
number, Like I feel like thatconversation is I would have respected more if

(43:07):
we hung out maybe a second orthird time, yeah, or if like
things started moving between us. Butwe literally haven't gone on like any date,
nothing, not even in a secondin person conversation. Yeah, and
you don't know if I'm looking fora relationship or not. And you didn't
actually didn't even care to ask me. You just like are oversharing for that
reason exactly, and like I don'tknow, maybe so you can have an

(43:28):
easy cop out down the road ifanything did happen exactly. I don't know.
And honestly, when I first readit, I was like, okay,
I was kind of almost like hewas saying like like get lost.
Yeah, He's like I'm gonna pumpthe brakes, but you're like, bitch,
I'm driving the bus, like likeit was the fun bi okay,
hello, even saying to respond withlike, I'm just a very good time

(43:52):
to hang out, Like we haven'tgot the first time. I would like
to hang out with you again.You know, we just got drinks.
I mean, I do want tohave more human connections with you. But
yeah, like whatever happens happens.I was kind of let's see where this
goes. And you're already like makingit complicated. It's already not fun.
Yeah, and we all hung outonce, so like but whatever I said,
no worries. Would always love tohear where you're coming from. With

(44:15):
a little white heart emoji. Myfriend told me to son that she was
like, the white heart is important. At it was okay, but then
the next weekend I hit me uplike, hey, let's hang out.
So it's like cool, but mindyou Okay, that time didn't work out,
and just throughout the weeks it justnever working out, Like we're always
hitting each other up, and there'sbeen times where you hit me up pretty

(44:37):
early, like in the middle ofthe day like hey, let's link up
tonight, like let's do something.I'm at the game, like let's wood
whoop. And it just ended upnever working out on both ends, you
know, And now I mind you. The last time hung out was lost
Holloway in October. Damn right,so yeah, now right, that's over

(45:00):
again. So he had hit meup at the beginning of the week to
hang out and I think I saidyeah first, but then end up being
too late and I was like,actually, let's reschedule. He am up
again the other day and he hitme up and I was like, oh,
sorry, I'm working late. Andthen he hit me up again,
said are you working late against night? And I said, oh, I'm
actually off at ten thirty tonight inthe city and he was like, all

(45:22):
I understand. I was like,well, ten thirties actually early for me,
Like I'm saying this can work.And then I'm like, um,
but you know tomorrow if you wantto try, or this weekend. He
was like tomorrow might not be good, but we can try. I'm just
kind of annoid, and and thenhe and then he was like oh,
I responded, I said, seeyou never, and then I put a

(45:44):
laughing emoji with a heart, right, and then he put LMAO, wackass
schedule, So tonight would be likeeleven thirty twelve. So I guess he's
like trying to work it out.But honestly, I'm like, I almost
want to tell this guy, like, you know, in the beginning,
I would be on be game tojust hang out with you, because you
know what, I forgot to mentiona couple weeks ago when he did hit

(46:05):
me up and when I had toldhim it was too late or I think
he was saying like, oh,it's getting late, I wouldn't be able
to stay long or something. I'mlike, ill, I know he's asking
for all the little details, okay, right, like, and I think
he kind of like made a commentof just like yeah, he basically said
he it wouldn't be able to staylong, and I was like, oh,

(46:25):
there, let's reschedule. Um.And I don't know, I don't
know if I'm feeling disrespective, butI am very like maybe in the beginning
I would have been down, likeyeah, cool, just come over,
let's you know, hang out orlet's hook up. But I'm like,
so much time has passed. Ifeel like I don't even know you anymore,
you know, like I'm tired,and I guess I'm I don't know.

(46:50):
I had like a reflecting moment likethis guy should take you out of
bitch, like it's it's too muchhas gone on. Well, I'm a
it's so hard for me to likesay that, but but I feel like
it's also like conflicting schedules. Idon't think it's like he desert doesn't want
to or you don't you do ordo not want to. It's just like
your schedules are conflicting. So Idon't know, I feel like I would
give it a little bit more.I mean, I guess I agree and

(47:14):
I don't agree. Like I'm alwayson this constant battle with myself because I'm
just like, Okay, sure,yeah, it's always conflicting schedules. But
at the same time, because it'salways conflicting, like it's if you were
to be like, hey, let'sget some drinks tonight, like there wouldn't
be a conflicting schedule, you knowwhat I mean, Yeah, like we'd
already be hanging out and then wecould like do what we want to do.
You see if you get like hereor whatever, you know what I

(47:34):
mean, I feels more set instone. Yeah, not just like oh,
let's possibly hit each other up tonight, you know, or I don't
know, like yeah yeah, yeahyeah, so um. But I don't
know why it was so hard forme to like word this to him or
how to say it. And Ilike reached out to my friend and like
my original message was going to beso over explaining like hey when we first

(47:55):
met, like I was going togo through a whole thing. Yeah,
and she was like, it's justsay this, and I'm like yeah,
and I'm like, I don't knowwhy it was so hard for me to
say that. And I think becauseI've been I think I've just been like
so busy lately that I've been likeI haven't even had time to date,
Like I have been asked on datesand I don't want to and like with
this guy, I feel like it'sjust easier because like we did click when

(48:17):
we hung out, and like thisis just easier for me to have you
over, you know, if youever want to come over or vice versa.
Yeah, nothing wrong with that,but it's also there's nothing wrong with
like hanging out with someone too,Like, yeah, I do want to
go out some dates sometimes, LikeI guess I'm just having that realization that
that is something I do want.Also, Yes, anyways, I literally
text him, I said, honestly, we've been having a hard time getting

(48:40):
it together on both ends, andit's been a while since I've seen you.
I think we're gonna I think ifwe're gonna see each other, you're
gonna have to take me out sometime. No hard feelings if that doesn't happen.
But it doesn't work for me.Bo they just said a boundary.
Yeah, he said, no worries. I understand, And you're right,
it is both our schedule. It'snot fair for me to put that on

(49:00):
you. This guy, I reallyI don't want to said judgment, but
I do feel like he is reallysweet but also still a fun boy,
Like he is the nicest fun boyyou'll ever meet, you know what I
mean, Like like I said,when I first met him, he's very
and he was like finding himself.Era just got a relationship. If I'm
sure he just wants to like bewild and crazy. Yeah, but also

(49:20):
is like going to be a gentleman, like he's not going to disrespect me.
It's like even his response, Idon't like him not acknowledging the whole
part of me saying to take meout and like really focusing on Yeah,
you're right, whatever you say.It's just like not fair to put that
on you, Like, Okay,I wasn't even I should have took out
even the whole part of me sayingon both ends like I was just me
trying to be nice. I don'tcan fuck about the schedules. But if

(49:43):
you want to help me take meout, make a plan, make a
finite plan. Yeah, Like,if you solid we're at played your cards
right in the beginning, you couldhave had it made like that. We
could have been doing what you wantwant to do and what I want to
do and we could have both beenhappy. But you didn't. You're the
one that was oversharing with me,making it weird right away and then not

(50:08):
following through you know, when wewere trying to do that, and now
I haven't seen you in almost overa year. Yeah, sorry, I
need some basic communication and like somekind of human connection before I let you
inside. Of my body, soyou're gonna have to take me out a
day. Sorry, yeah, yeah, exactly. I'm not comfortable you just
coming over right away, because whothe fuck are you actually? Exactly?

(50:31):
Oh my god. And I'm likemad at myself that I was even overthinking,
like sending this and I don't know, tell's my friend that like made
me say that. I know thisis not like a huge deal. This
should be like a regular thing.But I was like, it's like I
reclaimed my power in this moment,like dush tell me man this, yes,
yes, but in this situation likeI did. And that's the part

(50:53):
that I'm always in constant battle withmyself because I'm like, okay, but
just having them come over is nota bad thing either, if that's thing
that I wanted to do and wascomfortable with in the beginning, I was
because we did have a connection.I thought you were cool and this works
out for me in this moment,but that's no longer serving me anymore,
exactly, And this is where I'mat now, this is how it's gonna

(51:15):
be. Now I have him meetyour needs, and I think I'm just
having that moment. I've also beenreading this very spiritual book, and it
has me looking at relationships a lotdifferently. Wait what is it? Um?
All right, it's called a Returnto Love and it's about the Course
and Miracles, which is another book. Yeah, and it's it's very spiritual
book. Um, and it's it'sbasically like how like God is love and

(51:37):
all this stuff. But there isa part about relationships that does have me
looking at relationships differently, And likeone big part that stuck with me is
just how, um, basically likehow any human communication or interaction is a
relationship and like humans were meant toheal each other and learn from each other.
Yes, like that is the maingoal, Like he should learn from

(51:58):
someone and we should help each otherheal. So like if you're in a
relationship and you learn something from it, then it is a successful relationship.
So like a lot of people lookat breaking up or getting a divorce as
a failure, but that's if youlearn something from that, it's not a
failure. So that was like oneof the things that you had to understand.
And then too, you know,she went about how like before she

(52:20):
would always say how like her andher friends would complain that dating sucks,
like you know, the men outhere are like, it's just very hard.
And she said by us saying thatwe are blocking like learning from people
like and then she even said somethingthat I related to because it's like an
excuse I use all the time.But like even when we say stuff like,

(52:42):
oh, we're working on ourselves,we can't have a relationship. Like
when you say that you're blocking anyrelationship coming to you, because as humans,
we're always working on ourselves. Likeif you climb one mountain, you're
going to see another mountain and thatneeds to be climbed, you know,
like we're constantly doing that. Soit's not fair for yourself to be like,
well, I'm working on so Ican't do this because you're always going
to be working on yourself exactly.And also just because like say you finally

(53:06):
get to the point where you feelyou've worked on yourself and you're great,
and now you want to be withsomeone, it's like, well, eventually
you're gonna work on yourself again.You're gonna hit a low point exactly,
So what is a relationship not goingto work out? Then you just want
to meet someone that knows you atyour best point but unquote yeah, perfect
person yeah, like that's not thereal you though, Yeah, you know
what I mean. So that wasone, I know, yeah that that

(53:27):
really there was another one. Ican't think of it now. It's true
though, ebbs and flows, ebbsand flows. There's there's ups, there's
downs. And when you meet thatperson, or not even meet that person,
but any relationship, like you're gonnameet you're gonna come with some baggage.
You're gonna come with some some goodthings, you know, and so
is the other person, and youkind of just have to like learn how

(53:49):
to merge and fuse the two,like I don't know energies or like pros
and cons of that person, youknow, right, No, not everyone's
perfec. I totally like that though, of um yeah, not saying like
I have to work on myself,you know, like exactly, yeah,
it's us blocking our love exactly.I remember the other part that stuck with

(54:14):
me. Um, should I justforgot it again? Oh I know?
Okay, okay, So like whenwe ask um just exactly the same thing
of like exactly, people are puttingyour life for you to learn something like
this, will say I had askedGod for an intimate relationship like I'm ready

(54:37):
for a romantic partner and my nextrelationship, or you know, some guy
comes to me and he's not romanticat all. Like just because I asked
for that doesn't mean maybe that personwas made to teach me how to be
a more intimate partner and so likeso I could be ready for you know,
like, okay, God heard methat I want to intimate relationship.

(54:58):
I guess what, You're not readyto be a romantic partner. So I'm
gonna put this person in your lifeso you can learn how to do that.
And like that's me hearing your prayerand like it is going to happen
to you, but like you needto learn something first, and that's why
I put this person in your life. Yes. And it's like when we
make these excuses of like oh Ineed to work on myself or I need
to do this, or I'm notready for this, and I feel like

(55:19):
I've always in my back of myhead, even before reading this book,
I've talked about this before, likeI always say, I hate, hate,
hate, hate, and you know, whether it's a first date or
whatever. When someone asked me,are you looking for a relationship, and
I'm always in a constant battle withthis too, because it's like, well,
I don't know, like what doesthat mean? Like yeah, everything,
like things are gonna happen when ithappens, like right now. Sure,
I do like being single, andit's a hefty list of what I

(55:42):
like about it, And am Ilooking up? Am I? Like?
Am I actively searching for a boyfriendnow? But that doesn't mean if I
mean my soulmate tomorrow, I'm gonnabe like sorry now looking for a relationship
right now, Like I'm not goingto block that. I'm gonna let it
happen. And even on the oppositeside, like say yeah I'm ready for
a relationship doesn't mean I'm like,Okay, where's my boyfriend? Like next
guy, you're gonna be my boyfriend? You know. It's like so I

(56:02):
just hate that question. It's likelike we're so full of ourselves, like
we don't know what's gonna happen towhat it is. It's our like human
instinct to want an answer, towant to see the world in black and
white, to like say okay,I've got this, I'm gonna hold onto
it. But it's like that's thepart of life that's you have to do
is be it's scary being being vulnerable, being open, you know, like

(56:24):
it really is like you kind ofhave to like you you're kind of free
following in a relationship, like you'redon't know if they're gonna leave at any
moment, but for that moment,you just have to cherish it. At
least That's what I've learned with mycurrent relationship right now. It's like not
saying I'm worried he's gonna leave,or like, you know, maybe I
might find someone else too, butthere is always that like that that that

(56:49):
not thought, but that that optionthat it could anything could happen in life.
People Oh god, oh I know. No, I don't own anyone,
like when someone says that my man, my man, my man.
But like we've are here, weare here to experience each other. I
know. It's like and if we'reforever soulmates, like that's great too,

(57:14):
and we're gonna experience each other.But like, no one owns anyone period,
period, period period. It goesboth ways. You want to be
that proud, independent, fucking I'mgonna do my own thing, bitch,
well you gotta respect that on theother side too, like, well they're
gonna be that proud independent doing theirown thing too. But when you do
come together, you know, sharethat movement with each other. Yeah.

(57:35):
So I guess it is kind ofhave always looked our relationships, but it
is making me look inward because I'mlike, Okay, there's a lot of
stuff I do where I could beblocking anyone from like yeah, or me
learning from anyone else because I alreadypre judge people, and I already make
like my assumption of how things aregoing to go, like right away,
I'm like, no, this isI'm gonna use you for. This is
what I'm gonna do to this person. Yeah, And I like put everyone

(57:58):
in boxes and like I try tohave like so much control over my life
and I need to not do thatanymore. So that's what that's teaching me.
Wow, it's probably the trauma speaking. I only say that only time.
I'm not saying you specifically, butI do think like when we experience
things that are out of our control, maybe from a young age, you
know, well as we grow up, we're like, Okay, well I
gotta be in control everything. Igotta make sure my house is clean and

(58:20):
like everything's in it, it's perfectspot because maybe we didn't have that like
as a kid. Just just I'mprojecting a little bit, but yeah,
sounds like sounds coming. It's noteven you, you know, it's people
around me. Definitely family members aroundme. You know, I've seen like
oh shit and shit happened to them. And now as adults, they're like
everything is being the perfect place.I'm just like that's them trying to have

(58:43):
that sense of control back. Yeah, and it's like no, no,
no, girlfriend, like it,life is about like just flow, flowing,
flowing, going with the flow,and it sucks and it's scary and
it's hard, but it's hard outhere for you. And but one thing
also in the book, she likeexplained the situation where this guy stood her

(59:07):
up and it was like really shitty, but she just kept repeating to herself,
I forgive him and I release himto the Holy Spirit, and that's
like it's in God's hands. Butbasically, she said, when she kept
repeating that to herself, it turnedto a point where she forgot why she's
mad at him, not for good, but like all her energy focused on
like actually forgiving him, like becauseshe kept repeating that and I released him

(59:27):
to the Holy Spirit and like literallyso then like five times today I was
like, this person pissed me off, and I'm like, you know what,
I forgive them. And I reallysaid to the Holy Spirit, like
it's in God's hand and I justneed to work on or you know,
whatever God is to you, likein this book, it's like God is
love, but like God is likethe energy of the universe. Whatever you
God is to you, but it'slike it's above me, it's to the
higher power the situation. And I'mjust working on forgiving them. And like

(59:51):
they teach you in this book tolike say these in your weak moments of
like when you're most mad, whenyou're because those are the times it's harder
to do it. It's nigga thoughts, native negative thoughts, native thoughts,
the infiltrate I that was my lastconversation with my therapist before before I had
to cut it off because it's tooexpensive. But it was like, bitch,
what you're experiencing this is called negativethoughts. Bitch, you need to

(01:00:12):
literally like pain point then and sayno, it's not gonna happen. And
you just had the fucking word ofthe day. Forgiveness. Forgiveness is Mothers
saying, and I remember to theHoly Spirit. No, it's from just
friends, just friends forgiveness. Justfriends is Mothers with Anna Ferris, with

(01:00:37):
Annaferris. I never watched that?What was it? Good? I love
Anna Faris everybody. I thought wewatched it together. I don't think we
dead with. I don't like that'swhat it's called. Just friends or yeah,
just friends? Who the fucking bitter? She's just like a side character.

(01:01:00):
Just friends. Okay, I knowi'd never seen this movie with Ryan
Reynolds. Anyways, go on looksgood. I like Ryan Renolds. Never
mind, Yeah, we don't watchthat together. But whoever did watch I've
better crack it out listening. Iunderstood that reference. I did not.

(01:01:21):
But yeah, I'm just looking relationshipsdifferently and looking at myself differently and things
I need to be doing differently.But I feel like in doing that good
things are coming to me too.Like I've been letting stuff go and the
universe is breaking. Bitch. Thatis literally like physics, the law of
attraction. When you are have thisgood energy, that shit comes, the

(01:01:42):
gifts come, the presence presents thenext thing. I'm like you guys by
being account on my side and we'redoing more self reflecting in this moment.
You know what, forgive it,let it go. Yeah, like Elsa,
that bitch let it go and interruptedthe guy that hacked Lebron james Instagram

(01:02:06):
account and stole all my money.I forgive you when I release you to
the Holy state. This is todayin the bay. What's your host?
And Jelina? Have you heard ofthe Rose five k? M? No

(01:02:34):
like rose like bubbly, like ofthe vine? No five K like running?
Yes, M getting warmer warmer,So it's an event. I guess
what The main page says. TheRose five k will be held on Saturday,
July fifteenth in the beautiful Sonoma,California, starting and finishing in historic
Sonoma Plaza. Participants will enjoy thebest of the heart of the Sonoma Valley

(01:02:59):
run the Rose five before enjoying therest of the day in wine country.
Is are they going to pass outrose like during I think at the end
you get to it. I lovethat you guys. I've been rose sober
for a couple of weeks. Ohthat was like your jam. Yeah.
I say rose sober because I don'tdrink anything beside rose. Yeah, and
I'm also fucking lying because I've definitelydrinking other things. But I like to

(01:03:21):
think sometimes when I drink rose,I'm like, hmm, just a little
something. It's a little something nicefor me. Old juice. Yeah,
yeah, nothing crazy you count,Yeah, it's grape juice. I'll call
in this. Um. So,my best friend Audio said that to me.
I think she's gonna do that forher birthday. Like, at first
she's just gonna meet her, andthen she's like, we should avide our
moms, and then both of ourmoms were down. She's like, actually,

(01:03:44):
let's avide everyone. This is mybirthday of it. Yes, thing,
but this actually could be a bitch. Um, I'm doing something kind
of crazy. Starting next week,I'm going to be training four a half.
Thought, what is she back story? Guys, I'm a terrible runner.
What Like even in high school whenI played basketball, I did this

(01:04:05):
thing where I ran he'll first andmy boss I keep saying that my coach
had to tell me to like jumpon my tippy toes and like walk on
my toes throughout the day and thatreally did help him. By the end
of the year, I was liketen times faster. I was like Wow,
you really do run away faster whenyou run through toes first. But

(01:04:25):
obviously I lost that and like,I'm back to running like a weird ol.
So that's always been my thing.I do enjoy running, like especially
when the sun's out. I'm weird. I hate running in the cold.
I love running in the heat.I need to see it in liquid form
that this is working. I needto be sweating. I want the sun
to be out. I want toenjoy the day. Yeah, something about
the sun. You just want tobe in it, right, I love
it. So that's my Thinguere isdefinitely not a long form runner though.

(01:04:51):
I like to run stop, runstop, run stop, Like I could
run five miles, but running andstopping now all the way through? Yeah,
I think, who's doing this?Are you doing this alone? It's
a Nadia Naudia taxi? Would yoube down to do it? Half marathon?
And I was like, oh,I'm kind of a terrible runner,
but I'm up for the challenge.It's like me too, I can't run

(01:05:13):
for ship, so I think justthe challenge and like, you're a terrible
runner. I've never done anything likethis. Why not, bitch? A
little mermaid told us I know there'sa lot of datas out there. I
literally even talked about Boss. He'slike, I'm kind of eager to start
with the half marathon. I waslike, no, we're running a five
k first in July, so we'llsee. I mean, I might completely
failed, but I just want totry. Okay, Wait, I don't
know the difference. It's five khalf marathon. Like, what are the

(01:05:38):
miles and miles? I think afive k is only three miles? Okay,
yes, and a half marathon isthirteen miles. You're training to run
for thirteen? All right, gofor gold, bitch. Yeah, I
know I'm started from the bottom.Now we're here. So starting next week,

(01:06:00):
I'm gonna go to Lake Marriage twiceor three times a week and try
to run three miles. Oh mygod, I throw up. I remember
when I worked at Lake Chule.If I ever had a day shift and
didn't have to close, there waslike a period for like a whole month
straight I would run the lake andI got better and better, and like
eventually I was able to run itall the way through. But mind you,
that's only what is it? Isit three miles? It's like almost

(01:06:23):
three miles? Yeah, so Iremember the first time, I like did
it the whole way through. Ifeel so proud of myself. Do you
ever how long it took you?Yeah? Like almost a month? No,
I'm sorry. Like time, yeah, yeah, I don't know,
probably like ten minutes, ten elevenminutes. That's terrible for three miles.
Oh no, like a mile?Yeah yeah, yeah yeah, same,

(01:06:46):
Yeah, my mile time is notgreat. It's always been like ten eleven.
I used to be that kid,all right now, it's probably like
twenty right now, right. Iwas doing twelve thirteen minute miles in middle
school and they would shame me forit. I hated it. And when
I was an athlete, like Itold, I've been a notorious terrible runner.
Yeah. I love running outside,I love hiking, but I'm not
good at it. Yeah. Hey, well, congratulations is gonna be a

(01:07:11):
complete failure. She's going to bein her a strong cafe era another whole
This is just turned into the beachsegment again. Sorry, we said like
one little thing about the Bay area, but oh my gosh, no,
I forgot to mention my motherfucking idol. We posted me on Instagram and I
got to give her her flowers.I thought she for sure was not going

(01:07:31):
to respond, but she responded,you guys, Angie Martinez is the blueprint
to radio, Like, oh cool, people who are not into radio don't
know who that is. She wason the legendary Hot ninety seven for I
think probably over decades, like monymany years, she like literally built that
station. She's known to be thevoice of New York. Um, just

(01:07:56):
give you emphasis on my how bigshe was. Like when the Tupac and
Biggie beef was going on on andlike, and it was heated, like
East coast versus West coast Tupac whenI interview with anyone, and he decided
to go to Auntie Martine's house andinterview with her, and he was the
only person he would she would interviewwith. And Antie Martinez is so like
her ethics are just there, Likeobviously releasing that interview, she could have

(01:08:18):
made so much money, so muchpublicity, but I guess Pac was talking
so crazy it would have feeled theEast Coast West Coast beef. More to
this day, the ship is welldone over with Antie Martine still has not
released ad interview. Wow, that'scrazy. I was just going to ask,
where is it never released it.Wow, And she's such a good

(01:08:38):
interviewer. Yeah, Like I there'speople like Scottie six nine, for example,
trash music, trash. Some ofmy cousins love his music. Sorry
I don't, and like as aperson, like he's just a mess,
right, he's stupid. Right beforethe whole like snitching thing went down or
whatever, Antie Martinez had interviewed himand I was like, oh gosh,
that was the first time after watchingthe interview, was like, this guy

(01:09:00):
is just a kid. Like he'sjust a kid. He has a good
story, and like she really humanizedhim and like made him seem like a
really cool person. I'm I know, I might get a fact for this.
J Cole's not my favorite rapper.When I was like sixteen fifteen,
I wasn't obsessed with him and Ijust to me as a as a big
big rap fan. I think hehas like some bars that are unforgivable anyway,

(01:09:24):
Like some of the music puts meto sleep. I do like him,
and I don't like him. Mostlydon't like him though heard, but
I get why people do like him. I used to be in love with
him. This is a relationship,but I get it. Her interview with
Jole. I watched like ten times. It's such a good interview. Like
she's just so good at her job. She has some of the best interviews
now she has this podcast is calledin Real Life Her Lauren London one is

(01:09:45):
amazing. I know, we've beenon our spiritual tip, Like it's really
good. They talk about some realspiritual shit there. And she's kind of
like she's in her new phase ofher life because she's kind of done it
all. Yeah. On top ofall that stuff she's done, like becoming
a radio legend, like when shemoved from Hand ninety seven to Power one
on five. Power one of fiveis I heard radio station shout out too.
I guess it's artists station. It'slike the came y'all of New York

(01:10:08):
that are like the head haunchos,Like Power one of five runs that shit,
you know, like New York isnumber one. Yeah, the Breakfast
Club, Charlie Mae, the gaudThey're all on there. So she's on
there now. And like when shemade the announcement that she was leaving Hot
ninety seven, like New York stoppedlike it was a big thing. People
were crying the whole thing on theradio. I remember listening in like it
was a big deal, Like,oh shit, Angie's leaving Hot ninety seven,

(01:10:29):
Like she built that station. Yeah, now she's going to Power,
which is like the enemy. Youknow, it's like the competitor station.
So it was like a really bigdeal. But you know, she was
reaching a new era in her life. But even with all this, uh
being in a legendary on the radioand having these crazy interviews, there's just
more stuff. I'd say, likethey're Biggie's ten Crack commandments. These are
the ten Crack Commandments. That beatwas originally Angie Martinez beat on her radio

(01:10:55):
show. Like DJ Premier had toask Martinez for permission. Bigie had to
call in to ask if they canhave that be? Oh wow, I
think of one of my stupid jingleson the radio, Like I can imagine
like he's fucking like one of thebest rappers out calling me. That's crazy,
that's to be like, Yo,Angelia, can I use this be
a classic record with Wow? Andon top of just being all these legendary

(01:11:19):
tidbits of her in radio, thiswitch had a side music career. She
has a song called Ladies Night.It has the Brat on it, It
has Left Eye on it. Honestly, it's it's not my favorite song,
but it is like known to bea classic because it's like, uh,
you know, it's Ladies Night.It just has so many legends on it.
Feelings right, Yes, it wasthe first time, like not the

(01:11:42):
first time, but maybe one ofthe first times that all those I mean
Missy Elliott, the Brat, LeftEye, Edgie Martinez, look is Litkin's
record. Wow, all those queenson it. She was on there.
But she has a song called ifI Could Go, which recently was finally
available on streaming. It hasn't beenIf you like used to watch one six
Park back in the day, youknow this song because it was on there.
It's a little moo in the skyscarios something like that. He sounds

(01:12:06):
like jay Z. A lot ofpeople thought it was jay Z. It's
not jay Z. But it's sucha good record. It's so slept on.
It's one of those like really feelgood songs, and it's like nostalgic
for me. It brings me backto that when I was a kid watching
when Il six in Park. Butit actually slaps like if you read the
comments, people people who are notrappers had to side like in radio,
you would not think they're gonna beany good. Like Angie Martinez actually has

(01:12:26):
bars like she floats on these records. I'm saying, like she was like
very successful rap career, Like Idon't think her album did any good,
but she didn't have his like Sofor the longest if I could go,
was not on streaming, like,and it recently became on streaming. I
guess Elia wilson't make that happen.So I had just shared on my Instagram
like, oh my god, becauseI actually actively be posted about this,

(01:12:49):
I have to listen to the song. I still put it on in my
car and I have to listen toit on YouTube. So I literally posted,
oh my god, Angie Martinez Littlemofinally on streaming, and I said,
guys, I really be slapping thiscar the song on my whip on
YouTube, and she reposted it andshe only took two decades. Lol.

(01:13:10):
Please, for the love of God, someone make a TikTok challenge. Yeah,
she liked my postal focus. Shealso has a book that I read
like three times. Yeah, butobviously like fian Girl and like because she
reposted it. Like, you knownow our messages are open, and I'm
like, message her, I don'twant to be a little groupy and be
weird. But I was like,no, I have to, you know,

(01:13:31):
yes, And I'm like, she'sprobably never gonna open this or see
it, but I did. Isaid, I'm on it lmao. About
the TikTok challenge, I just said, also sidebar, I'm sure you get
these messages all the time. Idon't want to do too much, but
I've read your book multiple times andalways study your interviews. You're a huge
inspiration, if not the blueprint tome and many in this radio industry.
The fact that you got actual hitson the side on the side is just

(01:13:54):
insane. Lol. Thank you forthe repost. And I didn't think she
would like see it her like it, but she did coming back and she
said, think so much, Mama. I appreciate the love so much.
Xoxo with a hard emo. GOh, that's so nothing crazy, but
I definitely was fan girling out,Oh my god, that's iconic beautiful,
that's so cool, that's so cool. Yeah, no me by day,

(01:14:15):
Oh my god, a little fangirl, Oh my god, that's so
I mean a these artists every dayand I'm like, yeah, whatever,
but like honestly just not talking youtalking to your idol. But in her
book throughout, like she's talking abouther career. But in the beginning it
starts off with her having to writelike some half mile marathon. At the

(01:14:36):
end she finishes it and like it'sso proud of herself. Where this is
coming from, No, I justmade me think of it, but I
was like, I'm sure, likeI know what running does due to you,
like my mom had our running era, and it does change your mindset
big time. Yeah, um,so I do know that feeling. Obviously
never read a half marathon, butI'm sure there's gonna be something very rewarding

(01:14:57):
if I, you know, surprisemyself because I think I'm gonna fail to.
I'm like, I'll probably run alittle bit and then start walking.
You know, I'm proud of you, and who knows, that's awesome.
We'll see that. Michael Jordan oncesaid he miss one hundred percent of the
chances that you shot. That youshoot, he miss one hundred percent of
the baskets that you hit when youhit the backboard, you miss one hundred

(01:15:18):
percent of the ShaSS take boom,Michael Scott, Michael Jordan, Oh,
Michael Scotty, Wait it is MichaelJordan. No, the office. He
says that like he did it.Oh God, but Michael Jordan says it
right, yeah, yeah, yeah, okay, oh wait good, but
so does Michael Scott. Okay,I love that. I have to Yeah,

(01:15:44):
you mil a hundred percent of theshot down to take. That is
Wayne Gretzky. Michael Scott who saidit first? Michael Jordan for sure?
No, mmmm mmmmmmm well look atyeah it is this Wayne Gretzky person.
Interesting day, Michael Jordan everything,I'm Joe. I'm done with ourselves.

(01:16:16):
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