September 16, 2022 • 12 mins
Interludes are short segments between regular episodes with no editing but WITH leather creaking. It's a chance to hear a little more about what's going on in my life. In this interlude, I talk about my journey locking my cock up in chastity.
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Edge (00:00):
Welcome to full cow, a podcast about leather kink and
(00:03):
BDSM. My name is edge Mypronouns are he him, and I am
your host. And this is anotherinterlude. The episode between
episodes presented raw andunedited, but with leather
Langlands creaking. Now, as Irecord this on Labor Day,
(00:23):
September 5, my cock has beenlocked in chastity for 18 days.
Now, this isn't something I haveshared widely or freely only
with people who are very closeto me, or in some protected
spaces. And that's because Ifeel that chastity has been
relentlessly and I would argueerroneously coded as submissive.
(00:48):
So I wanted to share myexperience to sort of open up
that conversation a little bit.
So why did I decide to lock upmy cock? The truth is, I have
been always curious aboutchastity, because I'm curious to
find out what I would becomelike with that accumulation of
sexual energy. I'm someone whoshoots just extraordinarily
(01:09):
easily. So it's very easy for meto get off, it's very easy for
me to spend my sexual energyright away. But what would it be
like if it built up? And I'vealways been curious, you know,
would it make me moreaggressive, more aggressively
dominant? Would it bring outsome submissive aspect? I don't
know. So I wanted to find out.
(01:31):
And right now I am completelyunencumbered in terms of
relationships. So it seemed likethe perfect time to do it,
because being in chastity reallydoesn't have an impact on
someone else important in mylife. The other primary reason I
wanted to do this is because Ido expect to have a colored boy
at some point, and I expect himto probably be locked in
(01:54):
chastity. And everything else Imight do to that boy, I have
experienced myself, I have beentied up, I have done I've eaten
cigar smoke and ash, I've beenbeaten. But I've never been
locked in chastity long term. SoI did not like the idea of
subjecting that to a boy withoutreally knowing what it's like.
(02:15):
So I'm trying to get thatperspective so that when I do
have a boy and I do lock him,then I can really understand
where he is, and help supporthim through that part of his
journey. All of this is reallywonderful. But I've been
hesitant to speak about it alot. Because I'm so fearful that
(02:37):
people will feel it makes mesomehow less dominant. And
that's simply not true, right?
You know, as my experiencesuggest, it's not important
whether or not someone islocked, need to know why they're
locked, and who has the key. Andthose are the critical
questions. Are they lockedbecause of submission? Does
someone else have the key? Well,then that is quoted as
(02:59):
submissive. But I have the key.
And I am logged not assubmission but to learn other
things. All of this reallyreminds me of a series I did
recently on the Twitter and theInstagram, about thinking about
toys as tools, and I focusedthat series on hoods. But the
lesson is much larger, larger.
And I think it's important tothink about chastity as a tool.
(03:22):
And as a tool. Lots of differentpeople can use it for lots of
different reasons. And in fact,I know people who have been in
chastity for a number ofreasons, including they want it
to learn how to come hands free,they want it to learn how to
have an anal orgasm. They justwant it to jack off less. They
(03:42):
want it to really trainthemselves to come not by
jacking off, but in a hole. Orthey want it to train themselves
to extract pleasure, not fromgenital sex, but from kink
itself and from intimacy. Andmore, right there are lots of
reasons. So if we think aboutchastity is a tool that it's
available to anyone depending onwhat your goals are, and what
(04:05):
you want to do with it. And it'sreally not inherently related to
questions of dominance orsubmission or top or bottom. So
what is my journey been like?
Interesting, I decided to gowith the Cobra cage because I
knew all the chastity boys.
Every chastity boy I know iswearing a cobra now. So it's
(04:29):
sort of the IT cage right? It'smade by kink 3d I will put a
link in the show notes.
Famously, the cobra is a littlehard to size. And I did
experience that but it is worthit. It is extraordinarily
extraordinarily comfortable. Andyou know, I've had this interest
(04:51):
in chastity for years and yearsand years I have in the play
cabinet a whole level ofchastity devices I've tried. So
So many devices, and I've neverfound one that felt so
comfortable. And the guys atKing 3d are super helpful in
terms of figuring out sizing.
And you know, as I was trying tofind something that really would
work for me, they also gave methe most brilliant piece of
(05:16):
advice, which is that, again,chastity is not meant to be
inescapable or impossible, it ismeant as a tool to remind you of
a certain commitment. And Ithought, wow, that was really
kind of brilliant. That's beenstaying in my head through this
journey. Super comfortable,nighttime hard ons, who, at
first, those were not fun. I'dwake up in pain, my poor balls
(05:41):
would be stretched, likeawkwardly straining in the cage,
I would make it to the bathroom,I would pee, my cock will come
down a little bit. I consultedwith a boy I know who has done
long term chastity for someadvice on that he's like, Hey,
believe it or not, the body justadjusts. And that goes away. And
my experience suggests that istrue, I still wake up a couple
(06:02):
times a night to pee, becauseyou know, I'm in my early 50s.
That's what you do when you'rein your early 50s. But it's not
painful. I don't know that I'mgetting hard. Not sure I'm
getting those nighttimeerections. What I am getting is
sort of hot and horny. Becausethe physical sensation of
(06:24):
chastity is wonderful, you haveto realize it's like someone
holding your cock every minuteof every day. And that can of
course drive you crazy. Or itcan just feel extraordinarily
erotic if you put your attentiondown to your crotch and onto the
cage. And really focus on thefact that something is holding
(06:47):
your cock touching it at alltimes. Overall, I would say my
journeys been, you know, alittle bit easier because I have
a super, super variable sexdrive. And for a couple of
reasons right now, at this stageof my life, I'm just not super
horny. So it's pretty easy tostay locked. I imagine this
(07:08):
would be challenging for someonewith a higher sex drive, or
maybe challenging for me with ahigher sex drive, perhaps I will
find out. I will say part ofwhat's cool is, you know, I tend
to pre come a fair amount. Butit's like my cock is leaking pre
calm all the time, which isreally hot, because it's kind of
(07:29):
loopy and slimy down there. Andeverything's getting just sort
of pre cut malicious. And I likethat I find it deeply erotic. So
where am I going with this? Youknow, I'm on day 18. My goal is
to do at least four weeks or 30days, something like that. And
(07:50):
then I don't know, I willprobably unlock at some point.
Certainly I have alreadyunlocked and will continue to
unlock when I have boys. But atthis stage of my life, I'm not
playing a lot. I'm not meetinganyone. And that's not an issue.
I'm really also very curiousabout a quote unquote ruined
orgasm, which I've read aboutI've heard about, but I think
(08:12):
that will be very curioussensation. And my understanding
of it is very much like milking.
So even better than milking, Isuppose the way it's been
described to me is you build upand up and you feel like you're
about to have an orgasm. Andthen it just disappears. And
(08:32):
some come just patheticallydribbles out your cock. I don't
know why that sounds soincredibly hot and ironically
appealing to me. But I do wantto find out what that's like.
Again, particularly because atsome point, I will have a boy
who will be milked, or whoseorgasms will be ruined. So it's
(08:52):
good for me to know both how toprompt that. And then what that
experience is like. So my planis to do that somewhere between
three to four weeks now I'm toldfrom a couple of reliable,
chaste sources that somethinginteresting happens around week
three.
And it's been described invarious ways that you know,
(09:15):
because you can get pleasurethrough your cock you start
looking through pleasure forpleasure through service or
other things. What I'm startingto find here on day 18 Is that
the device itself is becoming socomfortable as to almost
disappear. It just feels like Ihave a large lump in my crotch,
(09:35):
which I guess doesn't sounderotic. But it's there's
something for me appealing aboutit. I don't know why. I think a
lot of this is because you know,I have experienced so much
sexually. I have had such ablessed leather kink journey,
that there isn't a whole lot ofnew vistas for me to explore and
this is one this is somethingI've not done. I don't know
(09:57):
where this goes. And mosteverything else I do sexually I
know exactly where it goes, Iknow exactly how to get there.
So this is fascinating for mebecause I don't know what's
going to happen to me aroundweek three or four, I don't
know. Am I going tospontaneously shoot in the
middle of the night from a wetdream? I don't know, am I gonna
(10:19):
be able to get a ruined orgasm?
Am I gonna? Like, I don't know.
And then not knowing for me isso deeply erotic and
pleasurable. Um, I will say thatright now on day 18, I love the
feeling of being locked up,adjust, feels good. And not in,
(10:40):
I guess, just some extent on apsychological sense. But
physically, I'm enjoying thesensation. And so part of me at
this stage in the journeyimagines that this might be
something I do. And I don't knowif I will keep myself locked
forever. Or periodically, maybeif I have a scene coming up,
(11:01):
I'll lock for a few weeks tokind of build up and save that
energy. Maybe when I end up witha partner, and that partner will
be my keyholder is a reallyextraordinarily special form of
intimacy. I don't know. Andagain, the not knowing is so
blessedly beautiful. I think thelesson I hope you take away from
(11:23):
this is all there are a couple.
The first is any toy is a tool,and is not automatically coded
to a particular sexual or kinkposition or identity. It's
simply a tool that is usefuldepending upon the goals you
have. I think the other reallesson is to keep exploring,
keep being curious about yourown sexuality, your own kink,
(11:48):
and see where it leads youbecause it's this stage of my
journey. It is the most excitingthing I have in my life at the
moment is new discoveries, newlessons about myself, about how
my sexual energy operates aboutwhat I can do with it. I just
love that. I love that. Andthat's what I have for you now.
(12:10):
It's my chastity journey. Andgoodness, you're not going to
hear this for a couple of weeks,but hopefully, I might still be
locked at that point. But ifnot, perhaps I'll do an update.
A couple interludes from now. Ihope wherever you are, you're
enjoying either Labor Day orMonday, or enjoying whatever day
(12:33):
it is in the future when you'relistening to this. And as always
an ever I really hope yourleather journey is rich and
rewarding and safe andfulfilling.
Welcome to full cow, a podcast about leather kink and
(00:03):
BDSM. My name is edge Mypronouns are he him, and I am
your host. And this is anotherinterlude. The episode between
episodes presented raw andunedited, but with leather
Langlands creaking. Now, as Irecord this on Labor Day,
(00:23):
September 5, my cock has beenlocked in chastity for 18 days.
Now, this isn't something I haveshared widely or freely only
with people who are very closeto me, or in some protected
spaces. And that's because Ifeel that chastity has been
relentlessly and I would argueerroneously coded as submissive.
(00:48):
So I wanted to share myexperience to sort of open up
that conversation a little bit.
So why did I decide to lock upmy cock? The truth is, I have
been always curious aboutchastity, because I'm curious to
find out what I would becomelike with that accumulation of
sexual energy. I'm someone whoshoots just extraordinarily
(01:09):
easily. So it's very easy for meto get off, it's very easy for
me to spend my sexual energyright away. But what would it be
like if it built up? And I'vealways been curious, you know,
would it make me moreaggressive, more aggressively
dominant? Would it bring outsome submissive aspect? I don't
know. So I wanted to find out.
(01:31):
And right now I am completelyunencumbered in terms of
relationships. So it seemed likethe perfect time to do it,
because being in chastity reallydoesn't have an impact on
someone else important in mylife. The other primary reason I
wanted to do this is because Ido expect to have a colored boy
at some point, and I expect himto probably be locked in
(01:54):
chastity. And everything else Imight do to that boy, I have
experienced myself, I have beentied up, I have done I've eaten
cigar smoke and ash, I've beenbeaten. But I've never been
locked in chastity long term. SoI did not like the idea of
subjecting that to a boy withoutreally knowing what it's like.
(02:15):
So I'm trying to get thatperspective so that when I do
have a boy and I do lock him,then I can really understand
where he is, and help supporthim through that part of his
journey. All of this is reallywonderful. But I've been
hesitant to speak about it alot. Because I'm so fearful that
(02:37):
people will feel it makes mesomehow less dominant. And
that's simply not true, right?
You know, as my experiencesuggest, it's not important
whether or not someone islocked, need to know why they're
locked, and who has the key. Andthose are the critical
questions. Are they lockedbecause of submission? Does
someone else have the key? Well,then that is quoted as
(02:59):
submissive. But I have the key.
And I am logged not assubmission but to learn other
things. All of this reallyreminds me of a series I did
recently on the Twitter and theInstagram, about thinking about
toys as tools, and I focusedthat series on hoods. But the
lesson is much larger, larger.
And I think it's important tothink about chastity as a tool.
(03:22):
And as a tool. Lots of differentpeople can use it for lots of
different reasons. And in fact,I know people who have been in
chastity for a number ofreasons, including they want it
to learn how to come hands free,they want it to learn how to
have an anal orgasm. They justwant it to jack off less. They
(03:42):
want it to really trainthemselves to come not by
jacking off, but in a hole. Orthey want it to train themselves
to extract pleasure, not fromgenital sex, but from kink
itself and from intimacy. Andmore, right there are lots of
reasons. So if we think aboutchastity is a tool that it's
available to anyone depending onwhat your goals are, and what
(04:05):
you want to do with it. And it'sreally not inherently related to
questions of dominance orsubmission or top or bottom. So
what is my journey been like?
Interesting, I decided to gowith the Cobra cage because I
knew all the chastity boys.
Every chastity boy I know iswearing a cobra now. So it's
(04:29):
sort of the IT cage right? It'smade by kink 3d I will put a
link in the show notes.
Famously, the cobra is a littlehard to size. And I did
experience that but it is worthit. It is extraordinarily
extraordinarily comfortable. Andyou know, I've had this interest
(04:51):
in chastity for years and yearsand years I have in the play
cabinet a whole level ofchastity devices I've tried. So
So many devices, and I've neverfound one that felt so
comfortable. And the guys atKing 3d are super helpful in
terms of figuring out sizing.
And you know, as I was trying tofind something that really would
work for me, they also gave methe most brilliant piece of
(05:16):
advice, which is that, again,chastity is not meant to be
inescapable or impossible, it ismeant as a tool to remind you of
a certain commitment. And Ithought, wow, that was really
kind of brilliant. That's beenstaying in my head through this
journey. Super comfortable,nighttime hard ons, who, at
first, those were not fun. I'dwake up in pain, my poor balls
(05:41):
would be stretched, likeawkwardly straining in the cage,
I would make it to the bathroom,I would pee, my cock will come
down a little bit. I consultedwith a boy I know who has done
long term chastity for someadvice on that he's like, Hey,
believe it or not, the body justadjusts. And that goes away. And
my experience suggests that istrue, I still wake up a couple
(06:02):
times a night to pee, becauseyou know, I'm in my early 50s.
That's what you do when you'rein your early 50s. But it's not
painful. I don't know that I'mgetting hard. Not sure I'm
getting those nighttimeerections. What I am getting is
sort of hot and horny. Becausethe physical sensation of
(06:24):
chastity is wonderful, you haveto realize it's like someone
holding your cock every minuteof every day. And that can of
course drive you crazy. Or itcan just feel extraordinarily
erotic if you put your attentiondown to your crotch and onto the
cage. And really focus on thefact that something is holding
(06:47):
your cock touching it at alltimes. Overall, I would say my
journeys been, you know, alittle bit easier because I have
a super, super variable sexdrive. And for a couple of
reasons right now, at this stageof my life, I'm just not super
horny. So it's pretty easy tostay locked. I imagine this
(07:08):
would be challenging for someonewith a higher sex drive, or
maybe challenging for me with ahigher sex drive, perhaps I will
find out. I will say part ofwhat's cool is, you know, I tend
to pre come a fair amount. Butit's like my cock is leaking pre
calm all the time, which isreally hot, because it's kind of
(07:29):
loopy and slimy down there. Andeverything's getting just sort
of pre cut malicious. And I likethat I find it deeply erotic. So
where am I going with this? Youknow, I'm on day 18. My goal is
to do at least four weeks or 30days, something like that. And
(07:50):
then I don't know, I willprobably unlock at some point.
Certainly I have alreadyunlocked and will continue to
unlock when I have boys. But atthis stage of my life, I'm not
playing a lot. I'm not meetinganyone. And that's not an issue.
I'm really also very curiousabout a quote unquote ruined
orgasm, which I've read aboutI've heard about, but I think
(08:12):
that will be very curioussensation. And my understanding
of it is very much like milking.
So even better than milking, Isuppose the way it's been
described to me is you build upand up and you feel like you're
about to have an orgasm. Andthen it just disappears. And
(08:32):
some come just patheticallydribbles out your cock. I don't
know why that sounds soincredibly hot and ironically
appealing to me. But I do wantto find out what that's like.
Again, particularly because atsome point, I will have a boy
who will be milked, or whoseorgasms will be ruined. So it's
(08:52):
good for me to know both how toprompt that. And then what that
experience is like. So my planis to do that somewhere between
three to four weeks now I'm toldfrom a couple of reliable,
chaste sources that somethinginteresting happens around week
three.
And it's been described invarious ways that you know,
(09:15):
because you can get pleasurethrough your cock you start
looking through pleasure forpleasure through service or
other things. What I'm startingto find here on day 18 Is that
the device itself is becoming socomfortable as to almost
disappear. It just feels like Ihave a large lump in my crotch,
(09:35):
which I guess doesn't sounderotic. But it's there's
something for me appealing aboutit. I don't know why. I think a
lot of this is because you know,I have experienced so much
sexually. I have had such ablessed leather kink journey,
that there isn't a whole lot ofnew vistas for me to explore and
this is one this is somethingI've not done. I don't know
(09:57):
where this goes. And mosteverything else I do sexually I
know exactly where it goes, Iknow exactly how to get there.
So this is fascinating for mebecause I don't know what's
going to happen to me aroundweek three or four, I don't
know. Am I going tospontaneously shoot in the
middle of the night from a wetdream? I don't know, am I gonna
(10:19):
be able to get a ruined orgasm?
Am I gonna? Like, I don't know.
And then not knowing for me isso deeply erotic and
pleasurable. Um, I will say thatright now on day 18, I love the
feeling of being locked up,adjust, feels good. And not in,
(10:40):
I guess, just some extent on apsychological sense. But
physically, I'm enjoying thesensation. And so part of me at
this stage in the journeyimagines that this might be
something I do. And I don't knowif I will keep myself locked
forever. Or periodically, maybeif I have a scene coming up,
(11:01):
I'll lock for a few weeks tokind of build up and save that
energy. Maybe when I end up witha partner, and that partner will
be my keyholder is a reallyextraordinarily special form of
intimacy. I don't know. Andagain, the not knowing is so
blessedly beautiful. I think thelesson I hope you take away from
(11:23):
this is all there are a couple.
The first is any toy is a tool,and is not automatically coded
to a particular sexual or kinkposition or identity. It's
simply a tool that is usefuldepending upon the goals you
have. I think the other reallesson is to keep exploring,
keep being curious about yourown sexuality, your own kink,
(11:48):
and see where it leads youbecause it's this stage of my
journey. It is the most excitingthing I have in my life at the
moment is new discoveries, newlessons about myself, about how
my sexual energy operates aboutwhat I can do with it. I just
love that. I love that. Andthat's what I have for you now.
(12:10):
It's my chastity journey. Andgoodness, you're not going to
hear this for a couple of weeks,but hopefully, I might still be
locked at that point. But ifnot, perhaps I'll do an update.
A couple interludes from now. Ihope wherever you are, you're
enjoying either Labor Day orMonday, or enjoying whatever day
(12:33):
it is in the future when you'relistening to this. And as always
an ever I really hope yourleather journey is rich and
rewarding and safe andfulfilling.
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