January 24, 2025 • 28 mins
We invite you into an experience that promises to touch your heart and ignite your spirit. Our guest, Sarah Butler, a woman of unparalleled strength and resilience, pulls back the curtain on her tumultuous past marked by abuse, addiction, and a life in prostitution. From the relentless torment of her flashbacks to the tragic loss of her best friend, Sarah bares her soul in a raw and evocative manner. Her subsequent descent into drug addiction and the assault of toxic relationships paints a picture of a life once on the brink of destruction. Yet, in the shadows of her darkest moments, Sarah finds a spark of hope that ignites her journey to redemption.
Entering the second chapter of our conversation, we explore Sarah's transformative journey to recovery, which is as inspiring as it is compelling. Her life now finds solace and purpose in her profound faith in Jesus Christ, who played an instrumental role in her deliverance from her traumatic past. Sarah speaks of her mission to use her experiences to inspire and assist women who have endured similar trauma. This has led her to serve as a chaplain in prison ministry, a role she regards as a beacon of hope. Join us as Sarah unfolds her story, a testament to the power of faith and the unyielding strength of the human spirit. It's a tale of adversity and triumph that promises to uplift and inspire.werful testimony of Sarah, a resilient woman who managed to claw her way out of the depths of despair. Hear the raw and poignant details of her journey through abuse, addiction, and prostitution and how she managed to break free from this cycle of darkness. Sarah's story is a potent reminder that it's never too late for transformation, regardless of the mistakes we've made.
Join us for an intimate exploration of Sarah's spiritual transformation, a testament to the enduring power of faith and resilience. We discuss the battles that come with walking with God and the importance of holding on to those who have strayed. Sarah's tale of redemption, filled with joy, peace, and purpose in her relationship with Jesus Christ, is not just a personal victory but an inspiring beacon for all. Through her struggles and triumphs, Sarah shows us that no matter how dark the situation, the love of God can indeed defeat the enemy. Be prepared to be inspired, uplifted, and empowered.
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Announcer (00:01):
It's time now to get the hell out of your life.
A weekly broadcast with realpeople sharing real struggles
and offering real hope.
Today's show will encourage,inspire and empower you to face
life's challenges with a fullconfidence and renewed hope.
Now let's join our host, ronMyers.
The Provider.
Ron Meyers (00:21):
Hello, my friends, it is so good to be with you.
Often, we think we make so manymistakes that God could never
use us.
Well, that's not true.
Today you're going to hearSarah's story, a story of abuse,
prostitution, drug addictionand then redemption.
Sarah, i'm so glad you stoppedby the studios today.
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How are you doing?
Hi, i'm great.
Well, it's so good to see you.
I got your story a few weeksago and, wow, what a story.
Tell me, tell the listeners,what's your story.
Sarah Butler (00:53):
Well, thank you very much for having me.
My name is Sarah Butler and Ihave lived in South Mississippi
pretty much my entire life.
I was born into a very poorfamily.
When I was very, very young yes, around three or four years old
was being sexually abused by myuncle, who lived at my
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grandmother's house.
My grandmother kept us a lotwhen I was younger, and this
went on until I started school.
My mom didn't find out, so Igrew up immediately.
When I was very young, theenemy had already started trying
to throw stuff at me.
Ron Meyers (01:35):
Now who's the enemy?
Sarah Butler (01:36):
The enemy is Satan .
Ron Meyers (01:37):
Oh, okay.
Well, I didn't know if it meantyour uncle.
Sarah Butler (01:40):
Well, he was using him as part of his tool.
So as I was growing up, i had alot of verbal abuse, physical
abuse in the home with my mother, and that is the only
relationship that I saw.
So I thought that that was whata relationship was supposed to
look like.
And so my father he left alsowhen I was very, very young.
(02:04):
So I had rejection wounds,abuse, physical abuse, verbal
abuse from a very, very earlyage.
We get into my teenage years andit was very hard for me at a
young age to connect with peopleand to have those healthy
relationships or friendships.
So I really didn't have a lotand we moved around.
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So I really didn't have anyonethat was like a best friend or
anything like that.
So in my teenage years wefinally moved to a nice, stable
home.
I think I was in ninth gradeand my best friend she lived on
the next street.
We were like sisters, we wereinseparable And she was my best
friend for years.
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And I'll never forget my junioryear in high school.
My best friend got killed in acar accident.
Ron Meyers (02:55):
Oh, my goodness.
Sarah Butler (02:56):
So it was trauma, tragedy, one thing after another
when I was growing up.
I did not have a normalchildhood, a normal teenage
years, nothing my entire life.
So when that happened, iimmediately started turning to
alcohol, marijuana use.
I just I didn't want to dealwith it.
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I didn't want to feel the hurt,i didn't want to feel the pain.
And when I was a teenager itwas very strange because I knew
what had happened to me when Iwas a child, but the memories
weren't there.
So when I was about 18 or 19years old, it was just like a
ton of bricks came at me andthose flashbacks started coming
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one after another out of nowhere.
So I went into heavier drug usebecause I couldn't tolerate it.
Doctors couldn't help me, theycouldn't do anything for me.
They didn't know what it was atthe time This is before PTSD
was a thing.
So I just turned to heavy druguse and that heavy drug use led
to tons of promiscuity in mylife And eventually I ended up
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working in a strip club, whichled me to even deeper drug use.
Just to get through the shifts,i would have to drink, i would
have to do smoke, weed, dococaine, methamphetamines, mdma.
I was doing acid.
If there was anything on themarket that could have numb my
pain at the time, i was doing it.
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And eventually I ended up as anIV drug user as well And I was
living in the pits of hell andthere was no hope, there was no
light, like I had just grown upin this cycle of poverty and
abuse and it was so dark and Ididn't see any hope whatsoever.
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My first marriage he was afirefighter for Long Beach for
about 12 years and we tried tomake as much of a normal
marriage as we could.
He came from a broken past aswell, as did I, so it was just
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turmoil and chaos.
It was very toxic, but we tried, we really did.
But the drug use ended upcreeping into our home.
He lost his career.
I was done.
I was so done.
I'll never forget one night, meand him.
It started out just smallamounts and in the height of it
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we were doing a quarter ounce ofcocaine a weekend and I was
sitting in a chair in the cornerin my living room and I came
out of my body and I was lookingdown at myself.
And when I came back into mybody I told him.
I said we're getting rid of allof it now.
And he kind of looked at me.
I was calling everyone.
I said do you want some drugs?
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So I'm like trying to give itaway because I knew what just
happened to me was not normal atall.
Ron Meyers (05:55):
What happened to you ?
Sarah Butler (05:56):
I left my body.
I seriously think that I diedbecause I had done so much and
it scared me, it absolutelyterrified me.
So then I start searching foranswers.
What is this life really for?
And the more that I tried tosearch to get out of it, it was
like almost like the devilwanted to have a grip on me,
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almost not to let me out.
And then when I tried to getout of the drug use, the
suicidal thoughts would come.
And I'll never.
I've attempted suicide threetimes And the last time, when I
was in the hospital, my brothertold me.
He said, sarah, he said he justtold me this a year ago.
He said there's something youhave to know about when you were
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in that hospital room And Isaid, what do you mean?
He said there was an angel thatcame to that door and she told
me she had to come in your roomand pray over you.
And she was in there for a verylong time praying and
prophesying and speaking lifeover you.
So when the Bible tells us thatwe entertain angels, sometimes
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you do entertain angels, andsometimes they come even to help
us, and I truly think that I ama product of God had a bigger
plan and purpose for my life AndI just couldn't see it.
Yet I was going through all ofthis that I will never forget.
I've separated from my husband,and I walked into a little
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church in Kiln, mississippi, andit was something different.
I had been to church some whenI was a small child, so I knew
about Jesus.
I just didn't know that youcould have a real relationship
with him.
I didn't know that the HolySpirit was a real thing.
I didn't know that you couldfeel the tangible presence of
God here on earth.
And when I walked into thatchurch that day, something
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changed in me.
I don't know what it was, but Iknew I was a little intimidated
by it and a little fearful ofit, but I was very curious to
find out what was differentthere that I had never
experienced before.
And it was then, in 2005, thatthe Lord started tugging at my
heartstrings and he startedaligning things in my life.
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And it wasn't immediately thatI came out of that lifestyle
that I wanted to.
That's when the desire andthat's when he started really
giving me the tools.
That's when I picked up theword of God and really started
reading it for myself andstarted learning who Jesus
really was.
And in 2005 is really, when Iset out on a journey to find out
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if the word of God was real, iwanted to know that Jesus.
So still, even after 2005, itfelt like I just couldn't shake
it.
I could not.
I did not know how.
I didn't know anyone who washonest with me about issues and
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struggles that they were goingthrough, because even when I
would go to church, everyone wasalways so happy, but no one
ever acted like they hadstruggles like me.
So I felt like I was so brokenand that I could just never be
fixed.
So again, i had set out on thisjourney to seek Jesus and to
find him, if he really could befound, and the Lord, one day.
(09:18):
It was the most random thing.
I was in my house.
I was on the other side of thehouse getting ready and I just
had music playing and there wasa video that came on my TV and
it was so loud I could hear it.
I'd never heard preaching likethat.
I'd never heard those wordsbefore, but it was a pastor
called Isaiah Saldivar and I'dnever heard of this man before.
(09:41):
But he's on my TV and he'spreaching and he is talking
about deliverance And I'm likedeliverance, what is this?
So he's just, he's calling outall of these things torment in
the mind and just physical painand torment in your dreams and
just all of these things,suicidal thoughts and depression
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and heaviness which I struggledwith every day of my life.
Some days I couldn't even getout of bed.
I would sleep for weeks at atime if I did not have drugs to
get through.
So I started listening to thisman and I'm like God, if this is
real, if this is really realand this is what is going on
with me, help me get delivered.
So I prayed and I prayed and Iprayed.
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And it wasn't immediate becausethe Lord knew I still had
healing that I needed to dobefore I could walk that
deliverance out.
It was never like a one stopthing of, oh, i quit doing drugs
, but it was.
I didn't want to do them and myslip ups would come less
frequently.
I would go.
Sometimes I couldn't make itbut a week, and then the next
time I would make it a month,and then the next time I would
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make it three months, and thenthe next time six months.
So it was just longer periods.
It was like that endurance wasbeing built there and my
relationship with Jesus duringthat in my need, that I knew I
couldn't do the same thing.
I needed to do it on my own andit had to come from him.
So finally, i think I had tostart facing all of those things
(11:10):
, all of those years of painthat I had pushed so deep down
into myself that I had neverdealt with any of that hurt.
I had never dealt with any ofthat pain.
I just got messed up to notthink about it and deal with it.
So when I finally got sober,that was the hardest thing that
I'd ever had to do in my life,because the next two years of my
life was nothing but soulhealing Me, having to face all
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the bad decisions that I made me, having to make amends with all
the people that I had hurt inmy life, including my two
children that I had lost in theprocess.
That was the hardest two yearsof my life.
But once I had gone through allof that, the Lord put these
people in my life and theywalked me through deliverance
and I was set free when I say Iwas set free of a lot of demons.
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There was generational cursesthat was on my family.
There was things that I hadopened the door for myself and I
didn't believe it.
You can read the Bible and ittells about when Jesus would go
and cast out demons and thethings that would happen.
And even going into it, i'mlike I know the Word of God says
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it, but I don't really thinkthat this is real.
When I was laying on that floor, trembling, just like it says
in the Bible, i very muchbelieved in, but I was free.
For the first time in my life Iwas free.
Ron Meyers (12:32):
Amen.
What year was that?
Sarah Butler (12:34):
That was 2017.
Ron Meyers (12:35):
2017.
Yes, and now, from what Iunderstand, i got a call.
As you said, the man's name wasKeith.
He's on my board of directors.
He said you got to talk to thisyoung lady named Sarah.
She's a wild crazy Jesus freakbecause Jesus set her free.
Yes, and when we come back,we're going to tell the
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listeners what you're up to, butI want you to be able to talk
to someone out there that youjust connected with.
Okay.
Announcer (13:04):
Okay, You're listening to get the hell out of
your life with your host, RonMyers.
real stories, real strugglesand real hope.
Announcment (13:17):
In every war, there are casualties and wounded,
missing in action and POWs.
The spiritual war we, asChristians, are involved in is
no different.
Our walk with God can beglorious, but it also makes us
targets for the enemy's attacks.
So what is our duty when afellow soldier falls or is
trapped behind enemy lines?
That's when they need us most,and in most armies, the mission
is clear Go in and rescue thetroops in danger.
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But it's been said thatChristians are the only army
that shoots its wounded.
Instead, we must not give up onthose missing in action or
those wounded either by theirown actions or the actions of
others.
The worst thing we can do isattack them or give up on them,
because it's been proven manytimes that even those who've
deserted usually do return tothe ranks, but often, though,
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they are scarred, theyeventually prove to have more
wisdom, valor and honor thanbefore they left.
And shoot the wounded.
Ron Meyers (14:39):
Listeners, welcome back in the studios of Sarah
Butler and Sarah.
Wow, what a story.
But that is the whole point ofthis show.
You got the hell out of yourlife.
Sarah Butler (14:49):
I did.
Ron Meyers (14:50):
Is it good life now?
Sarah Butler (14:53):
It is an amazing life now.
Ron Meyers (14:54):
You're happy, aren't you?
Sarah Butler (14:56):
I am so happy and I'm so grateful every day to
Jesus Christ.
He has filled me.
I have so much joy, i have somuch peace, i have so much
purpose in my life.
Everything that the enemy toldme for all of those years that I
couldn't have, i do have in mylife now.
Ron Meyers (15:15):
You know some people that are skeptical of the power
of Jesus, skeptical of thechurch, skeptical of deliverance
.
They just heard your testimony.
So what do you tell someonethat says, well, that was her,
God chose her, He doesn't likeme or he I've done worse stuff
than her.
Sarah Butler (15:35):
I tell you that, Jesus Christ on the cross, if no
one else was to ever accept orreceive him, that he would have
done that on the cross just foryou.
You have value, you have worthand you have a plan and a
purpose that you were createdfor.
No matter what you're goingthrough, no one is ever too far
(15:56):
gone for the love of JesusChrist.
Ron Meyers (15:59):
You know you talked about destiny, your purpose,
during the breaks era.
You said that you're lookingover your life and all the
things you went through helpshape you into now what the
calling is in your life.
So what is the calling on yourlife?
Sarah Butler (16:15):
One morning I woke up with a burning desire, and
when I say a burning desire, itwas like my heart felt so full,
Like I was gonna go into jailministry And at the time there
was no door open for that.
And I'm like, okay, Lord.
I tried to talk to a few people, but it was door after door
that we close And one day,supernaturally, God opened the
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store and he put me in aposition that I could have never
gotten for myself.
I'm not qualified in the eyesof men, by any like I'm not
qualified, but God has qualifiedme And God can call you to
things and he can put you inpositions that you are not
qualified for.
But because you belong to himAnd but because his Holy spirit
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is teaching you and guiding you,he will put you where you need
to be if you are obedient and ifyou listen to his voice and
follow him daily.
Ron Meyers (17:10):
And you go to prison ministry.
What is it?
five, six days a week.
Sarah Butler (17:15):
Seven days a week.
Ron Meyers (17:16):
Seven days a week, and what do you?
Sarah Butler (17:17):
do?
I am a chaplain.
Ron Meyers (17:19):
You're a chaplain.
Sarah Butler (17:20):
I am.
Ron Meyers (17:21):
Now do you minister to just the women?
Sarah Butler (17:23):
Just the women right now.
Yes, we're actually trying toget more on board for the men,
because the men need it too.
But yes, I help women, womenwho have been in prostitution,
women who have been addicted,and I try to help them through
the word of God and to see whothey are.
And not just that, i'm tryingto help them be able to get an
education So they do find valuein themselves.
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I'm trying to help them evenwhen they get out.
We're trying to help them findhousing and clothing and stuff
like that as well.
Ron Meyers (17:54):
Do you think that a lot of people in your early life
and the women you work with inprison that they get into the
things they do because they seeno value in themselves, they
have no self-worth, they don'teven probably like themselves
Right?
Sarah Butler (18:10):
And there's a lot of past trauma.
Ron Meyers (18:13):
Past trauma.
Sarah Butler (18:14):
Trauma, soul wounds, that pain in your soul
that's caused from trauma andrejection and hurt and pain in
your past.
That also, that's what kept mebound there.
Ron Meyers (18:25):
So somebody right now is saying well, i have this
soul wounds, i hurt, i don't goto church, i can't go to your
prison ministry and talk to you,and they don't know what to do.
Right, this very minute Theyhurt so much.
What would you tell them?
Sarah Butler (18:43):
I would tell them right where you are.
Get on your knees and cry outto the Lord.
He hears you, right where youare.
That's how I got to him.
I was in my room, i was beingtormented, like it was awful
what I was going through, and Igot on my knees and I cried out
to the Lord and I said Lord,help me.
That was my cry, that was myplea to the Lord.
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Lord, help me.
If you are really real, help me.
And he did.
Ron Meyers (19:11):
I've had so many guests on over the many years
I've done this show and that isexactly the changing point in
their life.
They got on their knees andthey said Lord, if you're real,
help me.
Sarah.
there are some people that areso much in this dark hole that
the only way they think they canget out of the hole is to
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commit suicide.
If somebody out there is eventhinking of suicidal thoughts,
you said you did many times.
You had three attempts Right.
It has to be terrible when youget to that point in life.
Sarah Butler (19:47):
I felt like I had no hope and the enemy will speak
lies into your mind and I'llnever forget that.
Last time, before the angelcame into the room and prayed
and prophesied over me Beforethat attempt, i still remember
the thoughts so clearly.
So what is all of this for You?
live, you die.
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There's no purpose behind anyof it, just end it all.
And that was what just keptgoing through my mind.
The enemy will put thoughtsinto your mind, but that is why
it's so important to combat thatwith the word of God.
The word of God is the onlyoffensive weapon in the armor of
God that we have, and it is so,so powerful and it's so
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important to read the word ofGod, to know the word of God and
to use it, to speak it out loudover your mind, over your
circumstance.
Ron Meyers (20:37):
We are living in times to where some people have
said all the world's going tohell in the hand basket, and my
response is no.
God is raising a generation ofpeople that want to go and
proclaim to the world what he'sdone for them.
You and I, and so many otherhundreds and hundreds of people
I've interviewed, we've had alot of hell in our life, but we
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overcame it with the power ofJesus And now we are on fire to
go tell the world about them,because we've been where they
are and we know there's a betterlife out there.
Just hard sometimes becausesome people are so hard headed.
You can tell them.
what's that saying?
You can lead a horse to water,but you can't make them drink.
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So I want you to make someonedrink.
I want you to pray.
I want you to pray for ourlisteners right now.
This is for anyone out therethat just has some hell in your
life, sarah.
Sarah Butler (21:32):
Can I say something before I do pray?
Sure, the Lord is putting thison my heart right now to share
this with someone, someone whomight still be skeptical.
I was too So once I came to theLord and I walked in to, i
walked out of faith assembly formany years and I walked back in
a couple of years ago The firsttime I walked back into the
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church, like I knew, like okay,these people, they talk about
all of this stuff.
The Bible talks about all ofthis stuff.
Still, even after havingencounters with God up until
that point, i was stillskeptical about certain things.
I'm like what about all theseopen visions in the Bible?
You know what about those?
So let me tell you what God did.
So there was a situation I hadwalked into and I'm sitting
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there with my eyes closedbecause I could feel God trying
to do something, but I didn'tknow what it was at the moment.
So I just closed my eyes.
And the visions that they sayin the Bible, that all of the
people, all the different peopleElijah, ezekiel, peter, paul I
had an open vision.
So all of these things in theBible, I'm just telling you
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they're very real.
The power of God is very, veryreal And right now I am just
going to pray.
Lord Jesus, father, i justlifted up each and every one,
father, that are under the soundof my voice.
Right now, father, i just pray,god, for you to soften their
hearts, lord, give them eyes tosee and give them ears to hear.
Lord, for anyone that isstruggling right now, lord, with
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depression or anxiety andtorment, lord, i just pray for
your Holy Spirit, lord, to justcome over them right now, lord,
and just give them such peace,lord, just, father, fill them,
father, let your spirit pour outover them in their homes and in
their circumstances andsituations.
Right now, father, i just pray,right now, god, that your word
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will go forth and do everythingthat it is set out for it to
accomplish today, lord, on thisbroadcast, father, i just praise
you, lord, and I give you gloryand I exalt your Holy name,
king Jesus, amen.
Ron Meyers (23:34):
Wow, that's good.
Wow, I see the little mouseover in the corner of my office.
He's up dancing on his legs.
Now You healed him.
That little deacon.
Rat poison wasn't any match forJesus.
Amen, all right.
Wow, wow, very good.
Sarah, very good Sarah.
It seems like you've madeamends with people in your life.
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What about your ex-husband?
Did you make amends with him?
Sarah Butler (24:03):
No, sir.
So me and him separated when Idecided to get clean and
unfortunately he was never ableto get out and he died in
addiction.
Ron Meyers (24:13):
He died in addiction .
He died.
Ooh.
Sarah Butler (24:16):
My father, my son with no father and me with no
husband.
Ron Meyers (24:21):
So you are even on a stronger mission now.
I didn't know that part of thestory until you just said so.
So now, not only do you want tosave people from life without
Jesus, but to help them get offthese drugs in addiction.
Yes, all right.
How's everybody else in thefamily?
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How's the kids?
Sarah Butler (24:43):
They are great.
I've got a strong relationshipnow, as I mean, you know, when
you're coming out of addictionyou can't say, hey, i'm clean,
hey, i'm doing this, hey, i'mdoing that.
I've let my life in Jesus speakfor itself, and me living the
life that Jesus has created mefor has drawn my children back
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to me and our relationship isabsolutely amazing now.
Ron Meyers (25:08):
That's great.
I'm so glad and I'm so sorryfor what you went through in
your life, and then, at the sametime, look what God has done
with you now.
Sarah Butler (25:17):
I don't think I would have changed a thing.
It was hard and it wasdifficult, but it has made me
who I am today and I'm so muchstronger because of it, in my
faith, and who the Lord is.
It's unshakable and I don'tthink that I would have changed
any of it.
Ron Meyers (25:32):
So, sarah, if somebody wants to send you an
email or reach out to you,what's your email address?
Sarah Butler (25:39):
It is destined for his kingdom at gmailcom.
It's destined the E S T I N E Dfor his kingdom at gmailcom.
Ron Meyers (25:51):
All right, sarah.
Well, thank you, you're verygrateful.
Thank you for coming by andwe'll follow up and we'll talk
again.
We like fireballs to come intothis office.
Okay, thank you, you're welcome.
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The Provider.
Ron Meyers (00:21):
Hello, my friends, it is so good to be with you.
Often, we think we make so manymistakes that God could never
use us.
Well, that's not true.
Today you're going to hearSarah's story, a story of abuse,
prostitution, drug addictionand then redemption.
Sarah, i'm so glad you stoppedby the studios today.
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How are you doing?
Hi, i'm great.
Well, it's so good to see you.
I got your story a few weeksago and, wow, what a story.
Tell me, tell the listeners,what's your story.
Sarah Butler (00:53):
Well, thank you very much for having me.
My name is Sarah Butler and Ihave lived in South Mississippi
pretty much my entire life.
I was born into a very poorfamily.
When I was very, very young yes, around three or four years old
was being sexually abused by myuncle, who lived at my
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grandmother's house.
My grandmother kept us a lotwhen I was younger, and this
went on until I started school.
My mom didn't find out, so Igrew up immediately.
When I was very young, theenemy had already started trying
to throw stuff at me.
Ron Meyers (01:35):
Now who's the enemy?
Sarah Butler (01:36):
The enemy is Satan .
Ron Meyers (01:37):
Oh, okay.
Well, I didn't know if it meantyour uncle.
Sarah Butler (01:40):
Well, he was using him as part of his tool.
So as I was growing up, i had alot of verbal abuse, physical
abuse in the home with my mother, and that is the only
relationship that I saw.
So I thought that that was whata relationship was supposed to
look like.
And so my father he left alsowhen I was very, very young.
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So I had rejection wounds,abuse, physical abuse, verbal
abuse from a very, very earlyage.
We get into my teenage years andit was very hard for me at a
young age to connect with peopleand to have those healthy
relationships or friendships.
So I really didn't have a lotand we moved around.
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So I really didn't have anyonethat was like a best friend or
anything like that.
So in my teenage years wefinally moved to a nice, stable
home.
I think I was in ninth gradeand my best friend she lived on
the next street.
We were like sisters, we wereinseparable And she was my best
friend for years.
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And I'll never forget my junioryear in high school.
My best friend got killed in acar accident.
Ron Meyers (02:55):
Oh, my goodness.
Sarah Butler (02:56):
So it was trauma, tragedy, one thing after another
when I was growing up.
I did not have a normalchildhood, a normal teenage
years, nothing my entire life.
So when that happened, iimmediately started turning to
alcohol, marijuana use.
I just I didn't want to dealwith it.
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I didn't want to feel the hurt,i didn't want to feel the pain.
And when I was a teenager itwas very strange because I knew
what had happened to me when Iwas a child, but the memories
weren't there.
So when I was about 18 or 19years old, it was just like a
ton of bricks came at me andthose flashbacks started coming
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one after another out of nowhere.
So I went into heavier drug usebecause I couldn't tolerate it.
Doctors couldn't help me, theycouldn't do anything for me.
They didn't know what it was atthe time This is before PTSD
was a thing.
So I just turned to heavy druguse and that heavy drug use led
to tons of promiscuity in mylife And eventually I ended up
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working in a strip club, whichled me to even deeper drug use.
Just to get through the shifts,i would have to drink, i would
have to do smoke, weed, dococaine, methamphetamines, mdma.
I was doing acid.
If there was anything on themarket that could have numb my
pain at the time, i was doing it.
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And eventually I ended up as anIV drug user as well And I was
living in the pits of hell andthere was no hope, there was no
light, like I had just grown upin this cycle of poverty and
abuse and it was so dark and Ididn't see any hope whatsoever.
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My first marriage he was afirefighter for Long Beach for
about 12 years and we tried tomake as much of a normal
marriage as we could.
He came from a broken past aswell, as did I, so it was just
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turmoil and chaos.
It was very toxic, but we tried, we really did.
But the drug use ended upcreeping into our home.
He lost his career.
I was done.
I was so done.
I'll never forget one night, meand him.
It started out just smallamounts and in the height of it
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we were doing a quarter ounce ofcocaine a weekend and I was
sitting in a chair in the cornerin my living room and I came
out of my body and I was lookingdown at myself.
And when I came back into mybody I told him.
I said we're getting rid of allof it now.
And he kind of looked at me.
I was calling everyone.
I said do you want some drugs?
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So I'm like trying to give itaway because I knew what just
happened to me was not normal atall.
Ron Meyers (05:55):
What happened to you ?
Sarah Butler (05:56):
I left my body.
I seriously think that I diedbecause I had done so much and
it scared me, it absolutelyterrified me.
So then I start searching foranswers.
What is this life really for?
And the more that I tried tosearch to get out of it, it was
like almost like the devilwanted to have a grip on me,
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almost not to let me out.
And then when I tried to getout of the drug use, the
suicidal thoughts would come.
And I'll never.
I've attempted suicide threetimes And the last time, when I
was in the hospital, my brothertold me.
He said, sarah, he said he justtold me this a year ago.
He said there's something youhave to know about when you were
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in that hospital room And Isaid, what do you mean?
He said there was an angel thatcame to that door and she told
me she had to come in your roomand pray over you.
And she was in there for a verylong time praying and
prophesying and speaking lifeover you.
So when the Bible tells us thatwe entertain angels, sometimes
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you do entertain angels, andsometimes they come even to help
us, and I truly think that I ama product of God had a bigger
plan and purpose for my life AndI just couldn't see it.
Yet I was going through all ofthis that I will never forget.
I've separated from my husband,and I walked into a little
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church in Kiln, mississippi, andit was something different.
I had been to church some whenI was a small child, so I knew
about Jesus.
I just didn't know that youcould have a real relationship
with him.
I didn't know that the HolySpirit was a real thing.
I didn't know that you couldfeel the tangible presence of
God here on earth.
And when I walked into thatchurch that day, something
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changed in me.
I don't know what it was, but Iknew I was a little intimidated
by it and a little fearful ofit, but I was very curious to
find out what was differentthere that I had never
experienced before.
And it was then, in 2005, thatthe Lord started tugging at my
heartstrings and he startedaligning things in my life.
(08:10):
And it wasn't immediately thatI came out of that lifestyle
that I wanted to.
That's when the desire andthat's when he started really
giving me the tools.
That's when I picked up theword of God and really started
reading it for myself andstarted learning who Jesus
really was.
And in 2005 is really, when Iset out on a journey to find out
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if the word of God was real, iwanted to know that Jesus.
So still, even after 2005, itfelt like I just couldn't shake
it.
I could not.
I did not know how.
I didn't know anyone who washonest with me about issues and
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struggles that they were goingthrough, because even when I
would go to church, everyone wasalways so happy, but no one
ever acted like they hadstruggles like me.
So I felt like I was so brokenand that I could just never be
fixed.
So again, i had set out on thisjourney to seek Jesus and to
find him, if he really could befound, and the Lord, one day.
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It was the most random thing.
I was in my house.
I was on the other side of thehouse getting ready and I just
had music playing and there wasa video that came on my TV and
it was so loud I could hear it.
I'd never heard preaching likethat.
I'd never heard those wordsbefore, but it was a pastor
called Isaiah Saldivar and I'dnever heard of this man before.
(09:41):
But he's on my TV and he'spreaching and he is talking
about deliverance And I'm likedeliverance, what is this?
So he's just, he's calling outall of these things torment in
the mind and just physical painand torment in your dreams and
just all of these things,suicidal thoughts and depression
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and heaviness which I struggledwith every day of my life.
Some days I couldn't even getout of bed.
I would sleep for weeks at atime if I did not have drugs to
get through.
So I started listening to thisman and I'm like God, if this is
real, if this is really realand this is what is going on
with me, help me get delivered.
So I prayed and I prayed and Iprayed.
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And it wasn't immediate becausethe Lord knew I still had
healing that I needed to dobefore I could walk that
deliverance out.
It was never like a one stopthing of, oh, i quit doing drugs
, but it was.
I didn't want to do them and myslip ups would come less
frequently.
I would go.
Sometimes I couldn't make itbut a week, and then the next
time I would make it a month,and then the next time I would
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make it three months, and thenthe next time six months.
So it was just longer periods.
It was like that endurance wasbeing built there and my
relationship with Jesus duringthat in my need, that I knew I
couldn't do the same thing.
I needed to do it on my own andit had to come from him.
So finally, i think I had tostart facing all of those things
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, all of those years of painthat I had pushed so deep down
into myself that I had neverdealt with any of that hurt.
I had never dealt with any ofthat pain.
I just got messed up to notthink about it and deal with it.
So when I finally got sober,that was the hardest thing that
I'd ever had to do in my life,because the next two years of my
life was nothing but soulhealing Me, having to face all
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the bad decisions that I made me, having to make amends with all
the people that I had hurt inmy life, including my two
children that I had lost in theprocess.
That was the hardest two yearsof my life.
But once I had gone through allof that, the Lord put these
people in my life and theywalked me through deliverance
and I was set free when I say Iwas set free of a lot of demons.
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There was generational cursesthat was on my family.
There was things that I hadopened the door for myself and I
didn't believe it.
You can read the Bible and ittells about when Jesus would go
and cast out demons and thethings that would happen.
And even going into it, i'mlike I know the Word of God says
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it, but I don't really thinkthat this is real.
When I was laying on that floor, trembling, just like it says
in the Bible, i very muchbelieved in, but I was free.
For the first time in my life Iwas free.
Ron Meyers (12:32):
Amen.
What year was that?
Sarah Butler (12:34):
That was 2017.
Ron Meyers (12:35):
2017.
Yes, and now, from what Iunderstand, i got a call.
As you said, the man's name wasKeith.
He's on my board of directors.
He said you got to talk to thisyoung lady named Sarah.
She's a wild crazy Jesus freakbecause Jesus set her free.
Yes, and when we come back,we're going to tell the
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listeners what you're up to, butI want you to be able to talk
to someone out there that youjust connected with.
Okay.
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In every war, there are casualties and wounded,
missing in action and POWs.
The spiritual war we, asChristians, are involved in is
no different.
Our walk with God can beglorious, but it also makes us
targets for the enemy's attacks.
So what is our duty when afellow soldier falls or is
trapped behind enemy lines?
That's when they need us most,and in most armies, the mission
is clear Go in and rescue thetroops in danger.
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But it's been said thatChristians are the only army
that shoots its wounded.
Instead, we must not give up onthose missing in action or
those wounded either by theirown actions or the actions of
others.
The worst thing we can do isattack them or give up on them,
because it's been proven manytimes that even those who've
deserted usually do return tothe ranks, but often, though,
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they are scarred, theyeventually prove to have more
wisdom, valor and honor thanbefore they left.
And shoot the wounded.
Ron Meyers (14:39):
Listeners, welcome back in the studios of Sarah
Butler and Sarah.
Wow, what a story.
But that is the whole point ofthis show.
You got the hell out of yourlife.
Sarah Butler (14:49):
I did.
Ron Meyers (14:50):
Is it good life now?
Sarah Butler (14:53):
It is an amazing life now.
Ron Meyers (14:54):
You're happy, aren't you?
Sarah Butler (14:56):
I am so happy and I'm so grateful every day to
Jesus Christ.
He has filled me.
I have so much joy, i have somuch peace, i have so much
purpose in my life.
Everything that the enemy toldme for all of those years that I
couldn't have, i do have in mylife now.
Ron Meyers (15:15):
You know some people that are skeptical of the power
of Jesus, skeptical of thechurch, skeptical of deliverance
.
They just heard your testimony.
So what do you tell someonethat says, well, that was her,
God chose her, He doesn't likeme or he I've done worse stuff
than her.
Sarah Butler (15:35):
I tell you that, Jesus Christ on the cross, if no
one else was to ever accept orreceive him, that he would have
done that on the cross just foryou.
You have value, you have worthand you have a plan and a
purpose that you were createdfor.
No matter what you're goingthrough, no one is ever too far
(15:56):
gone for the love of JesusChrist.
Ron Meyers (15:59):
You know you talked about destiny, your purpose,
during the breaks era.
You said that you're lookingover your life and all the
things you went through helpshape you into now what the
calling is in your life.
So what is the calling on yourlife?
Sarah Butler (16:15):
One morning I woke up with a burning desire, and
when I say a burning desire, itwas like my heart felt so full,
Like I was gonna go into jailministry And at the time there
was no door open for that.
And I'm like, okay, Lord.
I tried to talk to a few people, but it was door after door
that we close And one day,supernaturally, God opened the
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store and he put me in aposition that I could have never
gotten for myself.
I'm not qualified in the eyesof men, by any like I'm not
qualified, but God has qualifiedme And God can call you to
things and he can put you inpositions that you are not
qualified for.
But because you belong to himAnd but because his Holy spirit
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is teaching you and guiding you,he will put you where you need
to be if you are obedient and ifyou listen to his voice and
follow him daily.
Ron Meyers (17:10):
And you go to prison ministry.
What is it?
five, six days a week.
Sarah Butler (17:15):
Seven days a week.
Ron Meyers (17:16):
Seven days a week, and what do you?
Sarah Butler (17:17):
do?
I am a chaplain.
Ron Meyers (17:19):
You're a chaplain.
Sarah Butler (17:20):
I am.
Ron Meyers (17:21):
Now do you minister to just the women?
Sarah Butler (17:23):
Just the women right now.
Yes, we're actually trying toget more on board for the men,
because the men need it too.
But yes, I help women, womenwho have been in prostitution,
women who have been addicted,and I try to help them through
the word of God and to see whothey are.
And not just that, i'm tryingto help them be able to get an
education So they do find valuein themselves.
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I'm trying to help them evenwhen they get out.
We're trying to help them findhousing and clothing and stuff
like that as well.
Ron Meyers (17:54):
Do you think that a lot of people in your early life
and the women you work with inprison that they get into the
things they do because they seeno value in themselves, they
have no self-worth, they don'teven probably like themselves
Right?
Sarah Butler (18:10):
And there's a lot of past trauma.
Ron Meyers (18:13):
Past trauma.
Sarah Butler (18:14):
Trauma, soul wounds, that pain in your soul
that's caused from trauma andrejection and hurt and pain in
your past.
That also, that's what kept mebound there.
Ron Meyers (18:25):
So somebody right now is saying well, i have this
soul wounds, i hurt, i don't goto church, i can't go to your
prison ministry and talk to you,and they don't know what to do.
Right, this very minute Theyhurt so much.
What would you tell them?
Sarah Butler (18:43):
I would tell them right where you are.
Get on your knees and cry outto the Lord.
He hears you, right where youare.
That's how I got to him.
I was in my room, i was beingtormented, like it was awful
what I was going through, and Igot on my knees and I cried out
to the Lord and I said Lord,help me.
That was my cry, that was myplea to the Lord.
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Lord, help me.
If you are really real, help me.
And he did.
Ron Meyers (19:11):
I've had so many guests on over the many years
I've done this show and that isexactly the changing point in
their life.
They got on their knees andthey said Lord, if you're real,
help me.
Sarah.
there are some people that areso much in this dark hole that
the only way they think they canget out of the hole is to
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commit suicide.
If somebody out there is eventhinking of suicidal thoughts,
you said you did many times.
You had three attempts Right.
It has to be terrible when youget to that point in life.
Sarah Butler (19:47):
I felt like I had no hope and the enemy will speak
lies into your mind and I'llnever forget that.
Last time, before the angelcame into the room and prayed
and prophesied over me Beforethat attempt, i still remember
the thoughts so clearly.
So what is all of this for You?
live, you die.
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There's no purpose behind anyof it, just end it all.
And that was what just keptgoing through my mind.
The enemy will put thoughtsinto your mind, but that is why
it's so important to combat thatwith the word of God.
The word of God is the onlyoffensive weapon in the armor of
God that we have, and it is so,so powerful and it's so
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important to read the word ofGod, to know the word of God and
to use it, to speak it out loudover your mind, over your
circumstance.
Ron Meyers (20:37):
We are living in times to where some people have
said all the world's going tohell in the hand basket, and my
response is no.
God is raising a generation ofpeople that want to go and
proclaim to the world what he'sdone for them.
You and I, and so many otherhundreds and hundreds of people
I've interviewed, we've had alot of hell in our life, but we
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overcame it with the power ofJesus And now we are on fire to
go tell the world about them,because we've been where they
are and we know there's a betterlife out there.
Just hard sometimes becausesome people are so hard headed.
You can tell them.
what's that saying?
You can lead a horse to water,but you can't make them drink.
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So I want you to make someonedrink.
I want you to pray.
I want you to pray for ourlisteners right now.
This is for anyone out therethat just has some hell in your
life, sarah.
Sarah Butler (21:32):
Can I say something before I do pray?
Sure, the Lord is putting thison my heart right now to share
this with someone, someone whomight still be skeptical.
I was too So once I came to theLord and I walked in to, i
walked out of faith assembly formany years and I walked back in
a couple of years ago The firsttime I walked back into the
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church, like I knew, like okay,these people, they talk about
all of this stuff.
The Bible talks about all ofthis stuff.
Still, even after havingencounters with God up until
that point, i was stillskeptical about certain things.
I'm like what about all theseopen visions in the Bible?
You know what about those?
So let me tell you what God did.
So there was a situation I hadwalked into and I'm sitting
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there with my eyes closedbecause I could feel God trying
to do something, but I didn'tknow what it was at the moment.
So I just closed my eyes.
And the visions that they sayin the Bible, that all of the
people, all the different peopleElijah, ezekiel, peter, paul I
had an open vision.
So all of these things in theBible, I'm just telling you
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they're very real.
The power of God is very, veryreal And right now I am just
going to pray.
Lord Jesus, father, i justlifted up each and every one,
father, that are under the soundof my voice.
Right now, father, i just pray,god, for you to soften their
hearts, lord, give them eyes tosee and give them ears to hear.
Lord, for anyone that isstruggling right now, lord, with
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depression or anxiety andtorment, lord, i just pray for
your Holy Spirit, lord, to justcome over them right now, lord,
and just give them such peace,lord, just, father, fill them,
father, let your spirit pour outover them in their homes and in
their circumstances andsituations.
Right now, father, i just pray,right now, god, that your word
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will go forth and do everythingthat it is set out for it to
accomplish today, lord, on thisbroadcast, father, i just praise
you, lord, and I give you gloryand I exalt your Holy name,
king Jesus, amen.
Ron Meyers (23:34):
Wow, that's good.
Wow, I see the little mouseover in the corner of my office.
He's up dancing on his legs.
Now You healed him.
That little deacon.
Rat poison wasn't any match forJesus.
Amen, all right.
Wow, wow, very good.
Sarah, very good Sarah.
It seems like you've madeamends with people in your life.
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What about your ex-husband?
Did you make amends with him?
Sarah Butler (24:03):
No, sir.
So me and him separated when Idecided to get clean and
unfortunately he was never ableto get out and he died in
addiction.
Ron Meyers (24:13):
He died in addiction .
He died.
Ooh.
Sarah Butler (24:16):
My father, my son with no father and me with no
husband.
Ron Meyers (24:21):
So you are even on a stronger mission now.
I didn't know that part of thestory until you just said so.
So now, not only do you want tosave people from life without
Jesus, but to help them get offthese drugs in addiction.
Yes, all right.
How's everybody else in thefamily?
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How's the kids?
Sarah Butler (24:43):
They are great.
I've got a strong relationshipnow, as I mean, you know, when
you're coming out of addictionyou can't say, hey, i'm clean,
hey, i'm doing this, hey, i'mdoing that.
I've let my life in Jesus speakfor itself, and me living the
life that Jesus has created mefor has drawn my children back
(25:04):
to me and our relationship isabsolutely amazing now.
Ron Meyers (25:08):
That's great.
I'm so glad and I'm so sorryfor what you went through in
your life, and then, at the sametime, look what God has done
with you now.
Sarah Butler (25:17):
I don't think I would have changed a thing.
It was hard and it wasdifficult, but it has made me
who I am today and I'm so muchstronger because of it, in my
faith, and who the Lord is.
It's unshakable and I don'tthink that I would have changed
any of it.
Ron Meyers (25:32):
So, sarah, if somebody wants to send you an
email or reach out to you,what's your email address?
Sarah Butler (25:39):
It is destined for his kingdom at gmailcom.
It's destined the E S T I N E Dfor his kingdom at gmailcom.
Ron Meyers (25:51):
All right, sarah.
Well, thank you, you're verygrateful.
Thank you for coming by andwe'll follow up and we'll talk
again.
We like fireballs to come intothis office.
Okay, thank you, you're welcome.
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