Ep. 133 September 3, 2013 will always be a date etched in my heart. It was the day I tried to end my life. At the time, I wasn’t grateful to still be here—I was angry, confused, and hurting. Recovery didn’t look like joy at first. It looked like surviving one day at a time, learning to breathe through the pain, and slowly discovering that life could hold meaning again.
In this episode of the Healthy Illness Podcast, I share what it’s like to live with that anniversary, how I prepare myself for heavy seasons, and the faith that carries me through. Matthew 5:16 reminds me to "Be the Light," even when it feels impossible.
If you’ve survived a suicide attempt, please know this: you are not alone, and it’s okay if your healing doesn’t look like anyone else’s. It’s okay if gratitude comes slowly. It’s okay if you’re still figuring it out.
🌱 In this conversation, I talk about:
How faith and community helped me rebuild my life
Strategies for facing emotionally charged anniversaries
The importance of self-care, mindfulness, and compassion
Why it’s okay to find joy again
💜 If you are struggling, please reach out: dial 988 for the Suicide Prevention Lifeline. And if nothing else, let this episode remind you: your life matters, and you are meant to be here.
Here are 5 practices I now hold onto:
Set gentle reminders — Mark my calendar before September to check in with myself, so I’m not blindsided by the date.
Be kind to yourself — I give myself permission to slow down and offer extra compassion during this time.
Layer self-care — more than the daily routine, I become intentional about truly filling my cup.
Release guilt with mindfulness — if I forget or don’t commemorate the day, I remind myself healing isn’t linear, and that’s okay.
Reevaluate afterward — I take time to reflect: Did what I tried this year work? Do I need to adjust for next time?
🌱 These steps don’t erase the pain, but they give me tools to stay present and move forward. Most importantly, they remind me that it’s okay to enjoy life again.
🎙️ Healthy Illness Podcast Credits:
Hosted by Coach Kelly Marie, founder of Front Seat Life LLC
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