Daddy On The Moon; loving fear.

when I was a little girl, before I had any understanding that most of us never do exactly what we say we want to do, my dad told me if he ever had the chance he would 100% go to the moon. I was absolutely horrified. But even in my panic, even in my steadfast objection- I remember his eyes.

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Episode Transcript

(00:01):
Hello, hello and welcome to another episode of Help Me See.
Today's gonna be a short one.
I, um, I really haven't had a lot of energy lately, um, have not been doing well, and I've been really, really struggling with some things that I'm not quite ready to discuss.

(00:21):
Mostly because.
There would be no point.
I would just be blubbering so hard you wouldn't be able to understand me.
And, um, just the kind of tired and exhausted where just speaking feels like a lot.
And that's where I'm at.
So, um, I, I did some writing on Substack and this will be the accompanying audio clip for it.

(00:44):
But if you want to read the words, 'cause the words came first.
Uh.
Just click on the link in the notes and you'll be able to read and see the visuals from this episode.
This episode, it's called Daddy on the Moon because I was inspired to write about a really visceral memory that I had as a little girl because recently, my son actually displayed the same look of horror.

(01:16):
When we were having a conversation with, my partner and my other son about going to the moon and he was like all panicked we're not going right mommy.
We're not going.
I remember when I was a little girl, how my dad had talked about if he ever got the chance he would 100% go to the moon and I.

(01:41):
Didn't understand that, like the odds of that actually happening were pretty much none.
And, um, I was really, really, truly horrified and felt sick about it.
I was so scared.
Um, and I just remember this confusion because this is, who is this man? Like my, my father, who is worried about the most? Specific, tiny to the huge crazy things all, all of a sudden you're willing to put all of that down and just risk everything on such a dangerous event experience.

(02:22):
but I also couldn't deny being entranced by how much joy it.
Was very evident that it gave him the idea of going and seeing earth from space.
And, um, so yeah, I just, with, with this writing, I kind of dove a little bit into where is that place? Maybe not physical and literal as outer space, but like where is that inner space where fear dissipates, against all odds because.

(03:00):
You know, whatever that life force is inside of you just swallows it.
Um, and yeah, and just sitting down writing about it, helped me get to the place where I realize how it's not about finding something.

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That you love so much that all of a sudden your fear disappears.
But it's almost like the fear is a, a, a key to unlock your greatest everything and, um, how it's much more about softening into your fear and being.

(03:49):
Willing to look at it more intimately, willing to look at it differently versus some adversarial relationship that you must overcome.
So that's what I have for you today.
If you're interested in reading more of the specifics, just head to the link in the show notes on Substack and you can subscribe there.
It's free and every week you get the podcast episode, well, every week.

(04:12):
I'm not even doing this any every week anymore because I'm gonna season of life where it just doesn't feel sustainable and I am letting that be.
Okay.
I would never want to hear or read from someone that was more concerned with sticking to a consistent, you know, timeline rather than honoring a, a season or experience of their life.

(04:40):
.73434953So I'm going to embody that here. 36 00:04:46,396.73434953 --> 00:04:48,856.73434953 I look forward to catching you next time. 37 00:04:48,856.73434953 --> 00:04:50,236.73434953 Sending so much love.