April 23, 2025 • 24 mins
From homelessness in New York while treating patients at Brooklyn hospital to owning a dental practice, my journey demonstrates that with persistence and self-belief, you can overcome seemingly impossible obstacles and break generational curses.
• Experienced homelessness twice, including while working as a doctor in New York
• Struggled with serious health issues from endometriosis treatment during final year of dental school
• Received no congratulations or support when opening dental practice
• Discovered indigenous heritage which transformed self-perception and provided strength
• Committed to consistency and showing up daily despite challenges
• Breaking generational curses requires refusing to quit even when everyone else counts you out
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DR. SHON (00:01):
you guys, I had my mic off this whole entire time that
I was just live on my lastbroadcast.
So after I did my review videofor being homeless in New York
and telling you guys how I washomeless in New York the YouTube
video of me being homeless inNew York sleeping in the car and
(00:22):
I talked about how I was alsohomeless before I moved to New
York and how it's difficult toget people to help you.
After you cross that stage tobecome a doctor, everybody think
you are already some type ofwealthy person.
But not only did I experiencehomelessness, I experienced
sickness, I experienced beingbroken.
(00:43):
I experienced being broken.
I experienced just beingdepressed and feeling like a
failure in some sense.
And then having to move to NewYork City, a place where they
say, if you can make it here,you can make it anywhere, and
also ending up homeless,sleeping in the car.
Okay, homeless, sleeping in thecar, not the entire time, but
(01:04):
sleeping in the car, getting upin, but sleeping in the car.
Getting up in the morning,going to the brooklyn hospital,
seeing patients, being amongstmy other colleagues, them not
knowing my situation, and justhaving to hold my head up high
and be strong.
This is what I experienced.
So the hoods and hooded projectis all about just showing you
that you can survive anything,even such as this damn mic being
(01:26):
off.
I'm baffled, but this is alearning experience.
To double check, triple check,it's just a learning experience
for me, but, like I said, youcan survive anything, even when
you feel broken, even when youmake a mistake, even when they
don't give you a seat at thetable, even when you don't have
the right door to go through.
You can overcome anything,anything that you want to put
(01:49):
your mind to.
It is possible.
I survived homelessness, Isurvived not having my parents,
I survived poverty to make it toa place where most people would
have counted me out a long timeago, and people going to count
you out they're going to countyou out, counted me out a long
time ago, and people going tocount you out they're going to
count you out Tell you that youcan't do it Because they
couldn't do it.
But you got diamonds inside ofyour skin.
(02:10):
You have diamonds inside ofyour brain.
You have diamonds inside ofyour heart, your melanin, your
copper tone skin, my Niji isamazing.
They have lied to us so badwith the history About us being
from Africa, the people overhere who are actually indigenous
to America, the married Indians, and it's just mind boggling.
(02:31):
But today I'm here to tell youthat you can overcome anything.
When I was homeless, sleeping inthat car, going into the
hospital to treat patients, Ihad one thing on my mind to
break generational curses.
To break generational curses, Icould have easily stayed in
Nashville, I could have easilywent back home.
But I said I have to do this.
I have something to prove.
(02:51):
I cannot give up on myself.
I will break generationalcurses.
So when I was showing upfeeling defeated, sick, I said I
can't let this break me down.
I can't.
Even when I was in Nashville, Iwas sleeping in a homeless
shelter A couple nights.
I said I can't be here.
I got to get up.
I would get up in the morningand just watch the people and
(03:13):
just feel like dang, I'm takingup a spot from somebody who
might need it more than me.
Yes, I need this right now.
And they were so helpful.
I think it's called a Nashvillemission.
I so helpful, I think it'scalled a nashville mission.
I don't remember but I was.
That's a crazy story, how Iended up there.
That's just a crazy story.
I went into a rage, got out ofthe car and just ran away.
It was just crazy.
The lupron was a chemo drugthat I took.
(03:36):
It had me going crazy.
It had me so sick.
This is my d4 year of dentalschool.
Imagine you're almost done withdental school, right, and you
go to the doctor and they sayyou need an emergency surgery.
And I'm like, no, I ain'ttaking no damn, I'm not having
no surgery.
I'm about to graduate.
We got the party.
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I got parties.
I got a graduation party.
We got the care belly ball.
We got no, that's not happening.
I didn't study all these yearsjust to get to the end and be
like you need a surgery, you'regonna be out for six weeks and
now you're gonna make up yourstuff.
It was just a nightmarelearning that I needed a surgery
regardless.
They told me it was emergencysurgery.
I had to do the surgery.
So I had to quit not quitschool, stop school for a couple
(04:19):
weeks, six weeks to be exacthave, stay on bed rest and then
I had to go back and try tocatch up.
In the middle of that, they toldme my endometriosis was
terrible.
So they put me on this drugcalled a Lupron shot.
The Lupron is a chemo shot thatthey use for prostate cancer,
but they also use it forendometriosis and I didn't want
to do that either.
I rebelled, rebelled, rebelled.
(04:41):
But they said it's gonna makeme feel better.
The bad thing is it puts you inclinical menopause.
So it put me in clinicalmenopause.
I was walking around the dentalclinic with a fan.
I was having hot flashes.
It was just crazy.
The second time they gave methe shot I was in the er.
Every other day respiratoryproblems, heart problems.
This strong, it was so strong.
(05:01):
I was in the bed for two tothree weeks and it wasn't until
somebody said hey, if you don'tget up out this bed, you're
going to lose your degree andyou might not make it.
I was on the verge of dying.
I fought through that, got outof that bed.
I said, yeah, I'm not about totake my degree.
I got to get up out this bed.
I can't sit here.
I fought through and Ipretended like I wasn't sick.
(05:24):
But I was sick as hell.
But I had to fight through.
I could not quit on myself.
I couldn't quit Even thoughthere was every reason, every
motive right there for me toquit on myself.
I couldn't quit, I had to keepgoing.
I couldn't let it go.
I had to show up.
I had to show up for myself,regardless.
(05:46):
So tonight, guys, just show upfor yourself.
You're going to make somemistakes, like me sitting here
recording the whole 45 minutesof me motivating, motivational
speaking, and it not beingrecorded.
It was interesting watchingmyself back then homeless in
(06:09):
this city, new York City, andnow here running a demo practice
.
So you can go from hood tohooded.
You can go from hood tohomeless to hooded, you can go
from hooded to homeless.
But whatever you don't quit,you can tenfold, ten times, nine
times, a hundred times, butwhatever you do, you gotta get
back up.
You gotta get back up, riseback up, be the best that you
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can be every single day.
We are here to break thosegenerational curses, the
generational curses of poverty,feeling like nothing is working.
And sometimes that's how it is,even in this dental practice,
people look at me like I got adental practice, so I'm a
millionaire and I'm just.
I'm trying to figure it out.
Every day is on the brink ofnot figuring it out, but I try
(06:55):
to figure it out and that's themost important thing.
You have to keep trying andtrying and people don't
understand coming from nothingand, like I said, said when I
started this practice I didn'teven get a card to say congrats,
doc, I'm proud of you forhaving this practice.
Or I didn't get one card fromfamily nor friends to say
(07:21):
congratulations on opening yourdental practice, we're proud of
you.
So for a while last year, whenit was really rough here, I got
so depressed and defeated and Ijust wanted to walk away from it
all because everybody waslooking at me like I already had
it and I'm already made and Iwas here really on my last
(07:42):
thread.
I was on my last thread,mentally, physically, burnt out
in the bed for two to threeweeks, just feeling like it's
all, like I had this dry spotwhere it was just too much for
me and I felt like I couldn't doit.
I couldn't come here and treatpatients and go home and feel
broken, confused andshort-staffed and dealing all of
(08:07):
these issues.
I feel like I couldn't do ituntil I got to a sweet spot and
I realized my heritage.
I did my genealogy, I I did mygenealogy, learned about my
great grandmothers andgrandfathers and learned that we
were indigenous.
It changed my perspective andit made me feel like, oh, this
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copper skin is worth something.
Melanin is a defense mechanismagainst the sun and uv rays.
Melanin is amazing, it protectsus.
I have been taught that to hatemy skin, to hate how I look,
that chocolate wasn't beautiful,even though my mama told me.
My mother told me melanin isbeautiful the darker the melon,
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the deeper the roots.
But here in america, when it'scolonized and they have, they
worship people like christophercolumbus, who was such a
narcissist and a loser.
They promote him like he didsomething great.
And I read his journal and I'mlike who is this crazy,
psychotic, delusional man thatthey gave a holiday?
(09:18):
And I knew then that thehistory that I had been learning
was a fluke.
It was a fluke.
It was a source of oppressionfor my people and their mindset,
a source to reclassify us forsomebody who had never touched
foot on turtle island my kneeji.
So it was just a source ofdepression.
(09:39):
So once I learned about all ofthat, fighting through the lack
of support which has become atheme for me is I don't know, I
don't know what it is, justdon't know what it is, but I'm
going to keep going.
One thing I ain't going to dois not be a gold digger baby,
(10:00):
because guess what?
Life don't stop Life going tokeep going.
Regardless, I'm going to showup.
Believe, please believe, andtrust that I'm gonna show up.
And that's what I want tomotivate you to do is to show up
.
You've been counted out, doorsbeen slammed in your face.
You done tripped and fell acouple times, feeling broken,
(10:26):
feeling defeated.
But you need to show up.
Show up for yourself.
Don't take life too serious.
Don't take life, take itserious, but also just relax and
chill out.
Just like me, I just talked fora whole 45 minutes y'all and
forgot to turn my mic back on,and I don't have an audience to
say hey, doc, your mic ain't on,I'm just gonna laugh about it.
(10:51):
That's all I could do is laughabout it.
This is how it is.
Some things are lessons.
Some things are just here toshow you to double check, triple
check.
It's just a lesson.
Life goes on, guys.
It really does go on, and I'mhere as a living proof that it
goes on, that you can still getout of any situation.
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I remember when I was inNashville, homeless, had to sell
all my stuff to move to NewYork, coming to New York,
showering at the gym, using thebathroom at Walgreens at night
Because you know the bathroomsituation is limited, and then
going to the hospital to do mywork for eight hours and nobody
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even knowing that I was sleepingin the car.
Sleeping in my car and I calleda family member said hey, I was
short one day.
I said I need a hundred dollars.
I said you don't have a hundreddollars.
They said it's so condescending, as if I wasn't a doctor and I
wasn't in this general practiceresidency program trying to make
some out of myself.
They said you ain't got ahundred dollars.
(12:00):
I didn't have a hundred dollarseither way.
They didn't give it to me.
Homeless doctor can't even geta hundred dollar loan from a
family member.
Hood to hood it.
That should let you know howhood the shit is.
But guess what?
I didn't even know I had threehundred dollars sitting in my
account.
I went back after that phonecall.
(12:21):
I'm just checking.
I said dang, I got my own $300.
That's how it feels when youshow up for yourself.
I forgot that I even had thatmoney.
I'm thinking I need somebodyelse.
All I needed was to rely onmyself and stay focused.
The people who will help willshow up.
That's why I believe my tribeis coming.
They just don't know that I'mhere yet.
(12:43):
But they coming, baby, believeme.
Baby, I know y'all out there,baby, they coming and we're
gonna have a good old timechopping it up and learning and
growing and debating andchilling and breaking
generational curses, financially, spirituallyancially,
spiritually, emotionally,mentally, on every single level,
because we lit like that.
We are amazing people,wonderfully made, and we can
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overcome any obstacles, whetheryou sleeping in the car, whether
you fighting for your degree,whether you like me, trying to
run a business, a dentalpractice or any type of business
.
And you stress out sometimes me,I stress out a lot about this
business, but anything worthhaving won't be easy.
So I said I want to diversifyand do other things and become
(13:31):
this streamer and I have all ofthese different dreams and goals
.
But guess what?
My dreams come true because Idon't quit on them.
So somebody might be like girl,she crazy talking about going
live 365 day.
Girl, you crazy.
I ain't doing that crazy, I'mdelulu like that.
Y'all already know how delulu Iam.
Like that.
I don't even play with mydreams like that.
Like I said, I was depressedlast year, a little broken, but
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I bounced back.
You gotta bounce back.
I feel like my depression stemsfrom losing my mother.
Ever since I was eight yearsold, just not having her has
been like a forever ache in myheart.
It never goes away.
Mother's day doesn't go away.
Her birthday doesn't go away.
I just got better and notcrying all the time or being so
(14:15):
emotional, because before I wasan emotional person.
I'm gonna going to follow mydreams.
But I'm also going to crybecause I'm emotional, I'm
sensitive, I'm a Pisces, so I'memotional.
But losing her I will always,forever feel like a tear in my
heart.
My heart will never heal fromhearing that your mother isn't
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here.
It will never heal from that.
And just having parents andalcohol planning life in your
alcohol and substance abuseissues and incarceration all
these things that you see andwitness as a child.
Like it goes with you watchingwomen get beat on Like it go.
(15:01):
You watch this stuff and peopledon't think you remember seeing
this.
But I remember seeing all ofthese things and thinking, damn,
I got to get out of the hood.
This is just.
I got to get out of the hood.
To get out of the hood To studyevery day, To show up for
myself, to get into a doctoralprogram and then to have to take
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care of five people while inthat program three children,
four children and a grown man.
That could have took me out too.
The burnout is real.
The generational curses arereal, baby, that's why you have
to fight for yourself.
I had to say, hey, you guys, Ican't keep taking care of people
and braiding hair all night andbeing in the doctoral program.
What am I doing?
I'm gonna kill myself.
So life will move you around,it'll push you around, it'll
(15:46):
make you wake up and it'll breakyou and it'll shake you.
That's just how life is.
It's gonna take you up andthrough there.
I had my patient today, elderlyover 90, tell me hey, I'm not
easy on myself.
She's still hey, I'm not easyon myself.
I said, hey, I gotta stop beingso easy on myself.
(16:07):
So I'm showing up.
I can't be easy on myself.
We can't survive being easy onourselves like that.
Don't be hard on yourself, butdon't be too easy.
You know, when you just start tobe lazy and procrastinating and
don't show up and quittingevery time and complaining,
because complaining ain't gonnado a thing, complaining won't do
a thing.
We can sit here and complainuntil you blue, black, red,
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purple, green in the face and itwon't do a thing.
You know what will do somethingwriting your goals down,
starting to take action on yourgoals, making a list and doing
it, completing it every singleday.
Waking up and feeling like youknow that you're gonna win today
and, even if you have thoseobstacles, thinking like let me
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slow down and handle thiswhatever I lose.
This ain't for me, it's not forme.
Waking up to break thosegenerational curses, to escape
poverty and this colonizedmindset in the matrix.
Waking up and knowing who youare.
This is important, guys.
It is important.
If you are listening to this onthe hood to the podcast or on
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the youtube live, then Idefinitely appreciate you.
Make sure you are subscribed tothe channel.
You can visit any of the linksto support this live or this
video.
You can buy a coffee.
You can go to my wish list.
You can do whatever.
You can support the merch.
So many ways for you to supportthe hood to hood podcast and
(17:35):
also the twitch stream.
365 days of showing up eitherway, I'm still gonna show up for
you guys, just to connect.
I'll be here whenever youarrive, just make sure when you
hear this message you go aheadand hit that follow button.
I'm excited to see who's gonnabe my fifth follower on twitch.
(17:56):
I have four.
I've been standing at four fora while, but I know we headed to
five.
Baby, we headed to five and Idon't know who that's going to
be.
But I thank you in advance andI'm going to get off of here.
I will see you guys tomorrowFor day 10.
But we made it through day 9.
Turn up.
Dr Shawn is all the way live.
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Dr Shawn is all the way live.
Dr Sean is all the way live.
Dr Sean is all the way live.
Dr Sean is all the way live.
And I'm strong and I'm wonderfuland I'm amazing.
You gotta tell yourself that.
Speak that self.
Love.
Baby.
Say I'm strong, I'm amazing.
Something wonderful is gonnahappen to me today.
I know I got my dreams in a bag.
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Baby, you can't stop this glowup.
We got consistency, disciplineminus procrastination.
We headed for a glow up, babyCDP.
Get winning or get lost.
You already know that we'regoing from hood to hooded.
We're going from generationalcurses to hooded.
We're going from stereotypesand feeling broken and defeated
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to hooded.
We're elevating in every singleway.
We're not procrastinating,we're not delaying our success.
We're showing up.
Today, even when you make amistake, you still show up.
You got to turn that car, cararound, put it in reverse, back
it up and back it up.
Yeah, we gotta turn it around,skirt and back it up.
(19:25):
Don't let those mistakes stopyou guys don't sit here and
dwell on it.
So just watching myself tonight, watching reflecting on the
video of me homeless in new york, it was an eye opener.
It let you know how far you cancome, how far I came, and how
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there is no quitting.
No quitting allowed, nope, nope.
We staying consistent.
Baby, I'm showing up, westaying consistent.
Day nine was crazy.
What do I want to rememberabout day nine, number one, day
nine.
What do I want to rememberabout day nine?
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Day nine how am I feeling onday nine?
I feel the momentum.
I feel like I got a littlemomentum to keep with this 365
days.
I feel like it's a little bitdifficult, but I can't stop in
the middle.
I can't stop right here,because nobody going to know
that I quit, but me.
But I ain't going to stop inthe middle.
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So I feel like I can't quit.
I'm so far away from my goal,but I'm also too deep in to turn
back now or just be like youknow what bump all this.
I'm too invested.
I'm too invested and I'mfeeling like dang.
I can't really believe that Idid nine days in a row.
I can't even believe it.
I believe in myself.
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I can't believe it.
I believe in myself, but Ican't believe it.
I believe in myself, but Ican't believe it.
This is not a studio mic, drsean.
This is not the studio and youare not making the song right
now, so chill the freak out.
But yeah, I feel like I'mbelieving in myself more and
more every day.
It's getting easier for me tohit the live button without
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feeling so much anxiety andgetting used to talking to
myself in this room on twitch,because I know everybody had to
start here and just knowing thatI'm different and that my
journey is different and I'm onlater.
So I just have to keep showingup till my replay viewers.
Just show up, that's it.
But I just feel like day nine.
I'm always gonna be a littleexhausted after practicing
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dentistry all day, but I justlook at it like dental school.
Dental school you.
You go to school, mondaythrough Friday, eight to five.
Sometimes you did earlier andall the time you did later and
you study all night and you justgot to push through.
You got gotta find that oomph.
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You gotta find that extra oomphevery day for four years.
You gotta just I'm tired.
But I gotta push to anotherlevel.
When they talk about we only use10 of our brain and there's
another level that we can use, Ifeel like when you go through
the dental school experience, it, the dental school experience
it pushes you to use a wholeanother one percent.
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I ain't gonna go too far.
So you're using three, four,five percent, but I feel you're
using a whole another, maybe oneto three percent of your brain,
because it really be like damn,I ain't know I can learn all
this.
That's how I felt in dentalschool.
I might just be the only one,but I'm sure I'm not.
It's like I ain't know I couldlearn all of this stuff.
(22:40):
Yeah, it's like that, it is,it's really like that.
So it's coming from that anddoing this consistency project.
Similar, it's similar, but theonly thing with this isn't like
a.
This isn't dental school, isn'ta forest, but this isn't like a
forest.
This is something I'm justdoing in my free time, which I
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don't really have free time, butI'm you make time for the
things that you really want todo, so I'm just doing it just to
see the outcome and gettingover my twitch fear.
I think I'm getting over mytwitch fear.
I am.
I literally am.
Yeah, guys, day 10 is on theway.
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Before we go, you already know,brush and floss your teeth
tonight.
Goodbye, chat.
I will see you guys tomorrowfor another live.
I will see you guys tomorrowfor another live.
I will see you guys tomorrow,tomorrow, tomorrow.
I love you Tomorrow.
Only five minutes, wait, yeah,peace.
you guys, I had my mic off this whole entire time that
I was just live on my lastbroadcast.
So after I did my review videofor being homeless in New York
and telling you guys how I washomeless in New York the YouTube
video of me being homeless inNew York sleeping in the car and
(00:22):
I talked about how I was alsohomeless before I moved to New
York and how it's difficult toget people to help you.
After you cross that stage tobecome a doctor, everybody think
you are already some type ofwealthy person.
But not only did I experiencehomelessness, I experienced
sickness, I experienced beingbroken.
(00:43):
I experienced being broken.
I experienced just beingdepressed and feeling like a
failure in some sense.
And then having to move to NewYork City, a place where they
say, if you can make it here,you can make it anywhere, and
also ending up homeless,sleeping in the car.
Okay, homeless, sleeping in thecar, not the entire time, but
(01:04):
sleeping in the car, getting upin, but sleeping in the car.
Getting up in the morning,going to the brooklyn hospital,
seeing patients, being amongstmy other colleagues, them not
knowing my situation, and justhaving to hold my head up high
and be strong.
This is what I experienced.
So the hoods and hooded projectis all about just showing you
that you can survive anything,even such as this damn mic being
(01:26):
off.
I'm baffled, but this is alearning experience.
To double check, triple check,it's just a learning experience
for me, but, like I said, youcan survive anything, even when
you feel broken, even when youmake a mistake, even when they
don't give you a seat at thetable, even when you don't have
the right door to go through.
You can overcome anything,anything that you want to put
(01:49):
your mind to.
It is possible.
I survived homelessness, Isurvived not having my parents,
I survived poverty to make it toa place where most people would
have counted me out a long timeago, and people going to count
you out they're going to countyou out, counted me out a long
time ago, and people going tocount you out they're going to
count you out Tell you that youcan't do it Because they
couldn't do it.
But you got diamonds inside ofyour skin.
(02:10):
You have diamonds inside ofyour brain.
You have diamonds inside ofyour heart, your melanin, your
copper tone skin, my Niji isamazing.
They have lied to us so badwith the history About us being
from Africa, the people overhere who are actually indigenous
to America, the married Indians, and it's just mind boggling.
(02:31):
But today I'm here to tell youthat you can overcome anything.
When I was homeless, sleeping inthat car, going into the
hospital to treat patients, Ihad one thing on my mind to
break generational curses.
To break generational curses, Icould have easily stayed in
Nashville, I could have easilywent back home.
But I said I have to do this.
I have something to prove.
(02:51):
I cannot give up on myself.
I will break generationalcurses.
So when I was showing upfeeling defeated, sick, I said I
can't let this break me down.
I can't.
Even when I was in Nashville, Iwas sleeping in a homeless
shelter A couple nights.
I said I can't be here.
I got to get up.
I would get up in the morningand just watch the people and
(03:13):
just feel like dang, I'm takingup a spot from somebody who
might need it more than me.
Yes, I need this right now.
And they were so helpful.
I think it's called a Nashvillemission.
I so helpful, I think it'scalled a nashville mission.
I don't remember but I was.
That's a crazy story, how Iended up there.
That's just a crazy story.
I went into a rage, got out ofthe car and just ran away.
It was just crazy.
The lupron was a chemo drugthat I took.
(03:36):
It had me going crazy.
It had me so sick.
This is my d4 year of dentalschool.
Imagine you're almost done withdental school, right, and you
go to the doctor and they sayyou need an emergency surgery.
And I'm like, no, I ain'ttaking no damn, I'm not having
no surgery.
I'm about to graduate.
We got the party.
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I got parties.
I got a graduation party.
We got the care belly ball.
We got no, that's not happening.
I didn't study all these yearsjust to get to the end and be
like you need a surgery, you'regonna be out for six weeks and
now you're gonna make up yourstuff.
It was just a nightmarelearning that I needed a surgery
regardless.
They told me it was emergencysurgery.
I had to do the surgery.
So I had to quit not quitschool, stop school for a couple
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weeks, six weeks to be exacthave, stay on bed rest and then
I had to go back and try tocatch up.
In the middle of that, they toldme my endometriosis was
terrible.
So they put me on this drugcalled a Lupron shot.
The Lupron is a chemo shot thatthey use for prostate cancer,
but they also use it forendometriosis and I didn't want
to do that either.
I rebelled, rebelled, rebelled.
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But they said it's gonna makeme feel better.
The bad thing is it puts you inclinical menopause.
So it put me in clinicalmenopause.
I was walking around the dentalclinic with a fan.
I was having hot flashes.
It was just crazy.
The second time they gave methe shot I was in the er.
Every other day respiratoryproblems, heart problems.
This strong, it was so strong.
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I was in the bed for two tothree weeks and it wasn't until
somebody said hey, if you don'tget up out this bed, you're
going to lose your degree andyou might not make it.
I was on the verge of dying.
I fought through that, got outof that bed.
I said, yeah, I'm not about totake my degree.
I got to get up out this bed.
I can't sit here.
I fought through and Ipretended like I wasn't sick.
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But I was sick as hell.
But I had to fight through.
I could not quit on myself.
I couldn't quit Even thoughthere was every reason, every
motive right there for me toquit on myself.
I couldn't quit, I had to keepgoing.
I couldn't let it go.
I had to show up.
I had to show up for myself,regardless.
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So tonight, guys, just show upfor yourself.
You're going to make somemistakes, like me sitting here
recording the whole 45 minutesof me motivating, motivational
speaking, and it not beingrecorded.
It was interesting watchingmyself back then homeless in
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this city, new York City, andnow here running a demo practice
.
So you can go from hood tohooded.
You can go from hood tohomeless to hooded, you can go
from hooded to homeless.
But whatever you don't quit,you can tenfold, ten times, nine
times, a hundred times, butwhatever you do, you gotta get
back up.
You gotta get back up, riseback up, be the best that you
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can be every single day.
We are here to break thosegenerational curses, the
generational curses of poverty,feeling like nothing is working.
And sometimes that's how it is,even in this dental practice,
people look at me like I got adental practice, so I'm a
millionaire and I'm just.
I'm trying to figure it out.
Every day is on the brink ofnot figuring it out, but I try
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to figure it out and that's themost important thing.
You have to keep trying andtrying and people don't
understand coming from nothingand, like I said, said when I
started this practice I didn'teven get a card to say congrats,
doc, I'm proud of you forhaving this practice.
Or I didn't get one card fromfamily nor friends to say
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congratulations on opening yourdental practice, we're proud of
you.
So for a while last year, whenit was really rough here, I got
so depressed and defeated and Ijust wanted to walk away from it
all because everybody waslooking at me like I already had
it and I'm already made and Iwas here really on my last
(07:42):
thread.
I was on my last thread,mentally, physically, burnt out
in the bed for two to threeweeks, just feeling like it's
all, like I had this dry spotwhere it was just too much for
me and I felt like I couldn't doit.
I couldn't come here and treatpatients and go home and feel
broken, confused andshort-staffed and dealing all of
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these issues.
I feel like I couldn't do ituntil I got to a sweet spot and
I realized my heritage.
I did my genealogy, I I did mygenealogy, learned about my
great grandmothers andgrandfathers and learned that we
were indigenous.
It changed my perspective andit made me feel like, oh, this
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copper skin is worth something.
Melanin is a defense mechanismagainst the sun and uv rays.
Melanin is amazing, it protectsus.
I have been taught that to hatemy skin, to hate how I look,
that chocolate wasn't beautiful,even though my mama told me.
My mother told me melanin isbeautiful the darker the melon,
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the deeper the roots.
But here in america, when it'scolonized and they have, they
worship people like christophercolumbus, who was such a
narcissist and a loser.
They promote him like he didsomething great.
And I read his journal and I'mlike who is this crazy,
psychotic, delusional man thatthey gave a holiday?
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And I knew then that thehistory that I had been learning
was a fluke.
It was a fluke.
It was a source of oppressionfor my people and their mindset,
a source to reclassify us forsomebody who had never touched
foot on turtle island my kneeji.
So it was just a source ofdepression.
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So once I learned about all ofthat, fighting through the lack
of support which has become atheme for me is I don't know, I
don't know what it is, justdon't know what it is, but I'm
going to keep going.
One thing I ain't going to dois not be a gold digger baby,
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because guess what?
Life don't stop Life going tokeep going.
Regardless, I'm going to showup.
Believe, please believe, andtrust that I'm gonna show up.
And that's what I want tomotivate you to do is to show up
.
You've been counted out, doorsbeen slammed in your face.
You done tripped and fell acouple times, feeling broken,
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feeling defeated.
But you need to show up.
Show up for yourself.
Don't take life too serious.
Don't take life, take itserious, but also just relax and
chill out.
Just like me, I just talked fora whole 45 minutes y'all and
forgot to turn my mic back on,and I don't have an audience to
say hey, doc, your mic ain't on,I'm just gonna laugh about it.
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That's all I could do is laughabout it.
This is how it is.
Some things are lessons.
Some things are just here toshow you to double check, triple
check.
It's just a lesson.
Life goes on, guys.
It really does go on, and I'mhere as a living proof that it
goes on, that you can still getout of any situation.
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I remember when I was inNashville, homeless, had to sell
all my stuff to move to NewYork, coming to New York,
showering at the gym, using thebathroom at Walgreens at night
Because you know the bathroomsituation is limited, and then
going to the hospital to do mywork for eight hours and nobody
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even knowing that I was sleepingin the car.
Sleeping in my car and I calleda family member said hey, I was
short one day.
I said I need a hundred dollars.
I said you don't have a hundreddollars.
They said it's so condescending, as if I wasn't a doctor and I
wasn't in this general practiceresidency program trying to make
some out of myself.
They said you ain't got ahundred dollars.
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I didn't have a hundred dollarseither way.
They didn't give it to me.
Homeless doctor can't even geta hundred dollar loan from a
family member.
Hood to hood it.
That should let you know howhood the shit is.
But guess what?
I didn't even know I had threehundred dollars sitting in my
account.
I went back after that phonecall.
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I'm just checking.
I said dang, I got my own $300.
That's how it feels when youshow up for yourself.
I forgot that I even had thatmoney.
I'm thinking I need somebodyelse.
All I needed was to rely onmyself and stay focused.
The people who will help willshow up.
That's why I believe my tribeis coming.
They just don't know that I'mhere yet.
(12:43):
But they coming, baby, believeme.
Baby, I know y'all out there,baby, they coming and we're
gonna have a good old timechopping it up and learning and
growing and debating andchilling and breaking
generational curses, financially, spirituallyancially,
spiritually, emotionally,mentally, on every single level,
because we lit like that.
We are amazing people,wonderfully made, and we can
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overcome any obstacles, whetheryou sleeping in the car, whether
you fighting for your degree,whether you like me, trying to
run a business, a dentalpractice or any type of business
.
And you stress out sometimes me,I stress out a lot about this
business, but anything worthhaving won't be easy.
So I said I want to diversifyand do other things and become
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this streamer and I have all ofthese different dreams and goals
.
But guess what?
My dreams come true because Idon't quit on them.
So somebody might be like girl,she crazy talking about going
live 365 day.
Girl, you crazy.
I ain't doing that crazy, I'mdelulu like that.
Y'all already know how delulu Iam.
Like that.
I don't even play with mydreams like that.
Like I said, I was depressedlast year, a little broken, but
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I bounced back.
You gotta bounce back.
I feel like my depression stemsfrom losing my mother.
Ever since I was eight yearsold, just not having her has
been like a forever ache in myheart.
It never goes away.
Mother's day doesn't go away.
Her birthday doesn't go away.
I just got better and notcrying all the time or being so
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emotional, because before I wasan emotional person.
I'm gonna going to follow mydreams.
But I'm also going to crybecause I'm emotional, I'm
sensitive, I'm a Pisces, so I'memotional.
But losing her I will always,forever feel like a tear in my
heart.
My heart will never heal fromhearing that your mother isn't
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here.
It will never heal from that.
And just having parents andalcohol planning life in your
alcohol and substance abuseissues and incarceration all
these things that you see andwitness as a child.
Like it goes with you watchingwomen get beat on Like it go.
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You watch this stuff and peopledon't think you remember seeing
this.
But I remember seeing all ofthese things and thinking, damn,
I got to get out of the hood.
This is just.
I got to get out of the hood.
To get out of the hood To studyevery day, To show up for
myself, to get into a doctoralprogram and then to have to take
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care of five people while inthat program three children,
four children and a grown man.
That could have took me out too.
The burnout is real.
The generational curses arereal, baby, that's why you have
to fight for yourself.
I had to say, hey, you guys, Ican't keep taking care of people
and braiding hair all night andbeing in the doctoral program.
What am I doing?
I'm gonna kill myself.
So life will move you around,it'll push you around, it'll
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make you wake up and it'll breakyou and it'll shake you.
That's just how life is.
It's gonna take you up andthrough there.
I had my patient today, elderlyover 90, tell me hey, I'm not
easy on myself.
She's still hey, I'm not easyon myself.
I said, hey, I gotta stop beingso easy on myself.
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So I'm showing up.
I can't be easy on myself.
We can't survive being easy onourselves like that.
Don't be hard on yourself, butdon't be too easy.
You know, when you just start tobe lazy and procrastinating and
don't show up and quittingevery time and complaining,
because complaining ain't gonnado a thing, complaining won't do
a thing.
We can sit here and complainuntil you blue, black, red,
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purple, green in the face and itwon't do a thing.
You know what will do somethingwriting your goals down,
starting to take action on yourgoals, making a list and doing
it, completing it every singleday.
Waking up and feeling like youknow that you're gonna win today
and, even if you have thoseobstacles, thinking like let me
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slow down and handle thiswhatever I lose.
This ain't for me, it's not forme.
Waking up to break thosegenerational curses, to escape
poverty and this colonizedmindset in the matrix.
Waking up and knowing who youare.
This is important, guys.
It is important.
If you are listening to this onthe hood to the podcast or on
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the youtube live, then Idefinitely appreciate you.
Make sure you are subscribed tothe channel.
You can visit any of the linksto support this live or this
video.
You can buy a coffee.
You can go to my wish list.
You can do whatever.
You can support the merch.
So many ways for you to supportthe hood to hood podcast and
(17:35):
also the twitch stream.
365 days of showing up eitherway, I'm still gonna show up for
you guys, just to connect.
I'll be here whenever youarrive, just make sure when you
hear this message you go aheadand hit that follow button.
I'm excited to see who's gonnabe my fifth follower on twitch.
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I have four.
I've been standing at four fora while, but I know we headed to
five.
Baby, we headed to five and Idon't know who that's going to
be.
But I thank you in advance andI'm going to get off of here.
I will see you guys tomorrowFor day 10.
But we made it through day 9.
Turn up.
Dr Shawn is all the way live.
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Dr Shawn is all the way live.
Dr Sean is all the way live.
Dr Sean is all the way live.
Dr Sean is all the way live.
And I'm strong and I'm wonderfuland I'm amazing.
You gotta tell yourself that.
Speak that self.
Love.
Baby.
Say I'm strong, I'm amazing.
Something wonderful is gonnahappen to me today.
I know I got my dreams in a bag.
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Baby, you can't stop this glowup.
We got consistency, disciplineminus procrastination.
We headed for a glow up, babyCDP.
Get winning or get lost.
You already know that we'regoing from hood to hooded.
We're going from generationalcurses to hooded.
We're going from stereotypesand feeling broken and defeated
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to hooded.
We're elevating in every singleway.
We're not procrastinating,we're not delaying our success.
We're showing up.
Today, even when you make amistake, you still show up.
You got to turn that car, cararound, put it in reverse, back
it up and back it up.
Yeah, we gotta turn it around,skirt and back it up.
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Don't let those mistakes stopyou guys don't sit here and
dwell on it.
So just watching myself tonight, watching reflecting on the
video of me homeless in new york, it was an eye opener.
It let you know how far you cancome, how far I came, and how
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there is no quitting.
No quitting allowed, nope, nope.
We staying consistent.
Baby, I'm showing up, westaying consistent.
Day nine was crazy.
What do I want to rememberabout day nine, number one, day
nine.
What do I want to rememberabout day nine?
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Day nine how am I feeling onday nine?
I feel the momentum.
I feel like I got a littlemomentum to keep with this 365
days.
I feel like it's a little bitdifficult, but I can't stop in
the middle.
I can't stop right here,because nobody going to know
that I quit, but me.
But I ain't going to stop inthe middle.
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So I feel like I can't quit.
I'm so far away from my goal,but I'm also too deep in to turn
back now or just be like youknow what bump all this.
I'm too invested.
I'm too invested and I'mfeeling like dang.
I can't really believe that Idid nine days in a row.
I can't even believe it.
I believe in myself.
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I can't believe it.
I believe in myself, but Ican't believe it.
I believe in myself, but Ican't believe it.
This is not a studio mic, drsean.
This is not the studio and youare not making the song right
now, so chill the freak out.
But yeah, I feel like I'mbelieving in myself more and
more every day.
It's getting easier for me tohit the live button without
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feeling so much anxiety andgetting used to talking to
myself in this room on twitch,because I know everybody had to
start here and just knowing thatI'm different and that my
journey is different and I'm onlater.
So I just have to keep showingup till my replay viewers.
Just show up, that's it.
But I just feel like day nine.
I'm always gonna be a littleexhausted after practicing
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dentistry all day, but I justlook at it like dental school.
Dental school you.
You go to school, mondaythrough Friday, eight to five.
Sometimes you did earlier andall the time you did later and
you study all night and you justgot to push through.
You got gotta find that oomph.
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You gotta find that extra oomphevery day for four years.
You gotta just I'm tired.
But I gotta push to anotherlevel.
When they talk about we only use10 of our brain and there's
another level that we can use, Ifeel like when you go through
the dental school experience, it, the dental school experience
it pushes you to use a wholeanother one percent.
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I ain't gonna go too far.
So you're using three, four,five percent, but I feel you're
using a whole another, maybe oneto three percent of your brain,
because it really be like damn,I ain't know I can learn all
this.
That's how I felt in dentalschool.
I might just be the only one,but I'm sure I'm not.
It's like I ain't know I couldlearn all of this stuff.
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Yeah, it's like that, it is,it's really like that.
So it's coming from that anddoing this consistency project.
Similar, it's similar, but theonly thing with this isn't like
a.
This isn't dental school, isn'ta forest, but this isn't like a
forest.
This is something I'm justdoing in my free time, which I
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don't really have free time, butI'm you make time for the
things that you really want todo, so I'm just doing it just to
see the outcome and gettingover my twitch fear.
I think I'm getting over mytwitch fear.
I am.
I literally am.
Yeah, guys, day 10 is on theway.
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Before we go, you already know,brush and floss your teeth
tonight.
Goodbye, chat.
I will see you guys tomorrowfor another live.
I will see you guys tomorrowfor another live.
I will see you guys tomorrow,tomorrow, tomorrow.
I love you Tomorrow.
Only five minutes, wait, yeah,peace.
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