October 26, 2025 • 12 mins
After an unforgettable 37th birthday trip to Paris, HungerFF returns with a raw and personal storytime unlike any other. From an airport nightmare with Air France to a terrifying pulmonary embolism that nearly ended his life, Ryan James (HungerFF) opens up about the chaos, humiliation, and heartbreak of a week that changed everything. What started as a celebration became a confrontation with mortality — and a forced pause on his long-awaited colostomy reversal surgery.
In this brief but powerful life-update episode, he shares what it feels like to have your body betray you twice in one year, what he’s learning from it, and why he refuses to let pain silence his voice. Honest, unfiltered, and deeply human — this is Brolapse at its most vulnerable.
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(00:00):
Welcome to Bro Labs, the Fistingpodcast that goes deep explore
my life, views and raw, unfiltered conversations with
the creators that are redefiningkink connection in the fisting
community. Hey you guys welcome back for
another episode of prolapse. This is episode 58 and I'm sorry
it's delayed. I had a really insane last week
and so I thought that I would kind of update you guys on
(00:21):
what's been going on with my life in the last week or so.
I'll start from the beginning. So I just turned 37 last week.
I decided to go to Paris for my 37th birthday, go and spend some
time with my friends Mitch and Max and basically get into all
kinds of trouble in Paris celebrating the fact that it was
turning 37 as well as that I finally had a date for my
surgery for reconnecting my colon.
So just before I decided to planto go to Paris, my surgeon
(00:44):
called me and told me that I waseligible to get my colostomy
reversed. It was scheduled for October
27th to just after my birthday. So I was looking forward to
going there, having a good time,spending some time with my
friends and just kind of gettingready for this really exciting
life change back to normal for me.
So I flew to Paris very excited.I had an awesome trip, so much
fun. My friends Mitch and Max live in
(01:06):
the center of Paris and we had an amazing time.
I got fisted by a ton of hot dads.
I made a ton of content and it was just overall like a really
super fun trip. So I booked my flight home
flying Air France and get to theairport and discover that my
checked bag that I was planning on bringing with me back to the
United States was for some reason it was totally fine
(01:27):
coming to to Paris but leaving to go home.
My checked bag was 2 kilos over the weight of the there allotted
weight which this was medical supplies.
So this was my post me bags and my just equipment that it that I
basically used to change my my colostomy bag.
So I go over to the customer service desk where I'm told that
(01:51):
I have to get rid of some of thesupplies some of the stuff in my
bag and I said it's medical equipment.
I can't be I can't be separated from it and they wanted me to
check it. So after arguing with them for
about 3045 minutes, a manager finally came over to me and
asked me to or allowed me to go through the security checkpoint
without removing the items from my bag.
(02:11):
So we're already eating up time at this point for me to make it
to my flight. Then I get to French TSA and I
set off the detector because of the awesomey bag.
This is where things get kind ofweird.
They made me take the belt off that I usually wear to keep my
the awesomey secure to my body, lift up my shirt and basically
gave me like a pat down and feltup the back.
(02:33):
So this was really super uncomfortable for me.
Really strange experience, especially one that I had to
have publicly in front of an entire airport full of people,
very degrading, something I would want to go through again.
I had to put my feet in this machine or I had to hold on to
these grips and then they were like checking me.
They basically gave me like the most insane pat down of my life
(02:56):
in front of an entire airport full of people with my colostomy
bag exposed. I tried to explain to them that
it was medical equipment again. Eating up time, eating up time,
eating up time. Finally I passed their test and
they let me through. So I at this point make it
through the gate only to discover that it had closed 5
minutes prior so and I had shownup to the airport probably three
(03:17):
hours earlier than my flight wasscheduled to take off.
I would sound like I was there late, but then this is where
things get really bad. So they tell me that I have to
go through security or I have toleave the airport rather and,
and then come back inside and discuss the issue with their
rebooking team at the entry of the airport.
(03:38):
So I didn't realize that this also meant that I now had to go
through customs again. And customs, there's no access
to restrooms. There's no access to anything
really. You just have to kind of wait in
that long, long, long line with your passport ready.
And so I had to stand there for probably another 45 minutes to
an hour to get through customs. So I make it through and then I
go straight outside to the airport.
(03:59):
I have to take a terminal or a bus rather the tram to the
central station or the central terminal, leave to go outside,
come back inside. And then I discussed it with the
agents at the ticketing desk. This was not a good experience.
So basically what happened was Idiscussed it first with this
initial agent was very nice to explain the situation and my
(04:21):
thought was that since I was delayed due to their security or
rather the initially due to their misunderstanding of what
medical equipment was necessary for me to fly with.
That I would be able to be pre booked easily on the next flight
considering I also made it to the gate just before it was
closed. She told me that I needed to pay
€1700 to rebook the flight. Which was an insane amount of
(04:42):
money I thought considering whatI had already gone through
trying to explain what had happened and the insane pat down
at security. So I guess to speak to a
manager. The manager comes over and she
tells me that the best that she can do is €750 and I needed to
go to get medical clearance fromtheir downstairs from a
downstairs medical office at theairport.
(05:04):
It's €750 is still a lot of money to have to pay to rebook a
flight that I was 3 hours early for in the 1st place.
So then she tells me that they can get it down to 450 and I
said well OK, at this point you've now dropped it from 1700
to 750 to 450. Why can't you do it for me as
just a rebooking? Like courtesy rebooking and then
(05:25):
a third manager shows up, or a second manager shows up a mail
manager and tells me that this is my only option.
I need to either take it or leave it and get out of the
airport. Nobody seems to understand what
a colostomy or what an awesome he was.
I lifted up my shirt this time willingly showing them what had
happened and that they were preventing me from essentially
changing the bag if they were separating me from the supplies.
(05:47):
And I started getting really upset.
And admittedly, like I didn't really understand.
I don't understand French laws in the United States.
If you have an issue with somebody at A at an airline or
somewhere and it's not, you know, a police officer or
whatever security, it's not abnormal to pull out your phone
and record the situation so you have evidence of what's going
on. Which is what I did and was
(06:08):
immediately were wrapped by security and told that I needed
to leave the airport. They took my phone, deleted the
photos and I said, well, you guys have no photos of this
whatever. I realized at this point I was
fighting a losing battle that I wanted to get home.
I needed to get home. And so I reluctantly paid the
€450 because I figured that was the best offer they were going
to get. I was going to get before I got
(06:29):
kicked out of the airport, took the offer and then left the
airport, not before having an issue with the bag that I was
wearing, which was also incredibly embarrassing to have
an issue in public like that. And this is just me basically
kind of on my way out cursing Air France and just being like
this is ridiculous. So the next morning I went and
actually went back to my friendshouse.
The next morning I go back to the airport, this time five
(06:51):
hours early, and I'm told that Ihave to check the bag again.
The manager that was there for me the day before wasn't
present, so I paid €100 to have the bag checked.
This was, I just sort of said tomyself, you know what, I'm like,
fuck it, I need to get home. If they don't want me to have my
supplies, they don't want me to have my supplies, whatever.
So check the bag. I get to the gate super early
only to find out that I have an own middle seat instead of an
(07:13):
aisle seat close to the restroomlike I had before.
So I say to the gate agents, youknow I have an Austin mean, I
need to be close to a bathroom. She tells me it's €100 to change
the ticket and I looked at her and I said you want me to climb
over passengers in your flight with a bag of shit attached to
my stomach and that's what you would prefer rather than seating
me for free next to a restroom and you've already checked my
(07:33):
supplies. So at this point she kind of
understood and she rebooked me on a different seat and I was
able to get a seat closer to a restroom on the way home.
So the flight was a very long flight, approximately 10 hours.
I slept most of it, which was nice.
And when I got home, I started feeling a little weird, like I
felt like my personality was a little bit off.
(07:54):
I felt like it was hard, a little hard for me to breathe
because I didn't know if it was like a stress reaction or what
was going on with my friend thatwas with me told me that he's
like, you're acting really weird, like something's wrong
with you. I'm like, I don't know, you
know, I feel like when I take a deep breath, I feel like I have
like a knife in my chest, but I was kind of trying to dismiss
it. I, I personally hate hospitals.
(08:15):
I hate going to the hospital. I hate being impatient in
hospitals. And so I'll kind of do whatever
it takes to avoid going went to a hospital and so I put it off
until it got to the point where I really, I couldn't breathe
anymore. So my friend drives me to the
hospital and I tell them what's going on and they tell me that
there's a couple different potential options of like what
could have happened to me. So they do ACT scan of my chest
and I find out that I have a pulmonary embolism, which is
(08:36):
something that I'd never really heard of before.
Basically what they told me was that while I was in the flights,
at some point I had a blood clotappear in my leg, which traveled
up to my lung and got settled inmy lung and caused this painful
breathing. The more I talked about
pulmonary embolisms with people,I got very lucky.
It was small and had it continued traveling could have
(08:57):
made it to my brain but an aneurysm and killed me.
And not to say that pulmonary embolisms don't kill people
already, but it's just made me kind of look at my life a little
bit differently. It's my second near death
experience in 2025, and ultimately scheduled surgery for
October 27th has now been postponed like indefinitely.
So I'm a little feeling a littledefeated, a little disappointed
(09:19):
or a lot disappointed and more or less kind of like kicking
myself for taking this trip to Paris that I was just so excited
about going and having a good time spending of my friends
celebrating the surgery when I could have just stayed at home
and set still. But who, you know, there's no
way of knowing that this would have happened to me on my way
home. And yeah, so my surgery has now
been in indefinitely postponed. So I will be with the bag for at
(09:43):
least six more months while I'm on blood thinners to make sure
that the clot disappears. And yeah, so it's been a rough
week. I couldn't pull it together fast
enough to get this episode posted on to the platform.
I was too depressed and too upset.
Still kind of a, you know, trying to pick myself up out of
it. I keep thinking to myself that
the lesson that I needed to learn during the initial injury
(10:06):
was that I needed to rely more on my brain and not so much on
my body to make a living. That's why I kind of dove head
first into making the podcast really exciting.
And I started doing, you know, writing a book and I've been
releasing music on Spotify and Apple Music that I've been
creating using AI apps. And I've just been trying to
find other ways other than just making content videos that I
(10:28):
could, you know, make make a living on.
And it turns out that there's another lesson to learn because
I learned that lesson in the hard way from the injury.
But now I feel like it's just sort of like extended torture
this point. My surgeon told me that I'm
seeing the the trees and not theforest, that there is a larger
lesson to be learned here and itwill reveal itself.
(10:49):
I'm just sort of waiting for that.
I'm grateful to be alive. I'm grateful that it wasn't
worse than it was. But I'm still just sort of a
little down because I was reallyready to have my body back.
I was ready for 2026 to kind of be the year that I get back in
the gym and start working out again.
Hunger FF10 point O is what I'vebeen joking around calling it,
but instead I will be still stuck with the bag through at
least April or May. Yeah.
(11:13):
So I'm sorry, this has been sortof a downer episode.
I just kind of wanted to inform you guys as to what was going on
with me, what was going on with my life and the rough week that
I had. So between the Air France issue,
the pulmonary embolism, and the delayed surgery, it was like
triple trauma back-to-back to back.
So I'm recovering from that still and yeah, it's just going
(11:33):
to be a long road ahead. And so I hope you guys stick
with me. Make sure you guys are enjoying
the show. We are on Apple, Spotify,
Amazon, YouTube and iHeartRadio.New episodes go live on Friday
nights at 8:00, typically on hungerff.com.
And just for fans, slash hunger FF early video access is
available for Spotify subscribers only on Spotify.
As soon as I'm done editing the episode, typically a couple
(11:54):
hours before the live, excuse me, the audio episode goes live.
Again, I apologize for this being sort of a little bit of a
downer episode, but I just wanted to kind of let you guys
know this is where things are atfor me right now.
Next week we're going to have Pop Hulky on.
It's scheduled for normal release.
Tights coming guests include Riddick and Stefan Faris, Blue
Bailey, and we have some other really exciting guests coming up
(12:16):
with this that will be announcedshortly.
Again, thank you guys for listening and TuneIn next week
for the episode. Pop Hulky, have a good one.
Thanks for going deep with me onHunger FF Presents Roll apps.
If you're loving the ride, hit subscribe, drop a review, and
share the fisting love. Follow me on social media at
Hunger FF for unfiltered updatesand exclusive content.
But until next time, keep it raw, real, and always hungry.
(12:36):
I'll see you on the next episode.
Welcome to Bro Labs, the Fistingpodcast that goes deep explore
my life, views and raw, unfiltered conversations with
the creators that are redefiningkink connection in the fisting
community. Hey you guys welcome back for
another episode of prolapse. This is episode 58 and I'm sorry
it's delayed. I had a really insane last week
and so I thought that I would kind of update you guys on
(00:21):
what's been going on with my life in the last week or so.
I'll start from the beginning. So I just turned 37 last week.
I decided to go to Paris for my 37th birthday, go and spend some
time with my friends Mitch and Max and basically get into all
kinds of trouble in Paris celebrating the fact that it was
turning 37 as well as that I finally had a date for my
surgery for reconnecting my colon.
So just before I decided to planto go to Paris, my surgeon
(00:44):
called me and told me that I waseligible to get my colostomy
reversed. It was scheduled for October
27th to just after my birthday. So I was looking forward to
going there, having a good time,spending some time with my
friends and just kind of gettingready for this really exciting
life change back to normal for me.
So I flew to Paris very excited.I had an awesome trip, so much
fun. My friends Mitch and Max live in
(01:06):
the center of Paris and we had an amazing time.
I got fisted by a ton of hot dads.
I made a ton of content and it was just overall like a really
super fun trip. So I booked my flight home
flying Air France and get to theairport and discover that my
checked bag that I was planning on bringing with me back to the
United States was for some reason it was totally fine
(01:27):
coming to to Paris but leaving to go home.
My checked bag was 2 kilos over the weight of the there allotted
weight which this was medical supplies.
So this was my post me bags and my just equipment that it that I
basically used to change my my colostomy bag.
So I go over to the customer service desk where I'm told that
(01:51):
I have to get rid of some of thesupplies some of the stuff in my
bag and I said it's medical equipment.
I can't be I can't be separated from it and they wanted me to
check it. So after arguing with them for
about 3045 minutes, a manager finally came over to me and
asked me to or allowed me to go through the security checkpoint
without removing the items from my bag.
(02:11):
So we're already eating up time at this point for me to make it
to my flight. Then I get to French TSA and I
set off the detector because of the awesomey bag.
This is where things get kind ofweird.
They made me take the belt off that I usually wear to keep my
the awesomey secure to my body, lift up my shirt and basically
gave me like a pat down and feltup the back.
(02:33):
So this was really super uncomfortable for me.
Really strange experience, especially one that I had to
have publicly in front of an entire airport full of people,
very degrading, something I would want to go through again.
I had to put my feet in this machine or I had to hold on to
these grips and then they were like checking me.
They basically gave me like the most insane pat down of my life
(02:56):
in front of an entire airport full of people with my colostomy
bag exposed. I tried to explain to them that
it was medical equipment again. Eating up time, eating up time,
eating up time. Finally I passed their test and
they let me through. So I at this point make it
through the gate only to discover that it had closed 5
minutes prior so and I had shownup to the airport probably three
(03:17):
hours earlier than my flight wasscheduled to take off.
I would sound like I was there late, but then this is where
things get really bad. So they tell me that I have to
go through security or I have toleave the airport rather and,
and then come back inside and discuss the issue with their
rebooking team at the entry of the airport.
(03:38):
So I didn't realize that this also meant that I now had to go
through customs again. And customs, there's no access
to restrooms. There's no access to anything
really. You just have to kind of wait in
that long, long, long line with your passport ready.
And so I had to stand there for probably another 45 minutes to
an hour to get through customs. So I make it through and then I
go straight outside to the airport.
(03:59):
I have to take a terminal or a bus rather the tram to the
central station or the central terminal, leave to go outside,
come back inside. And then I discussed it with the
agents at the ticketing desk. This was not a good experience.
So basically what happened was Idiscussed it first with this
initial agent was very nice to explain the situation and my
(04:21):
thought was that since I was delayed due to their security or
rather the initially due to their misunderstanding of what
medical equipment was necessary for me to fly with.
That I would be able to be pre booked easily on the next flight
considering I also made it to the gate just before it was
closed. She told me that I needed to pay
€1700 to rebook the flight. Which was an insane amount of
(04:42):
money I thought considering whatI had already gone through
trying to explain what had happened and the insane pat down
at security. So I guess to speak to a
manager. The manager comes over and she
tells me that the best that she can do is €750 and I needed to
go to get medical clearance fromtheir downstairs from a
downstairs medical office at theairport.
(05:04):
It's €750 is still a lot of money to have to pay to rebook a
flight that I was 3 hours early for in the 1st place.
So then she tells me that they can get it down to 450 and I
said well OK, at this point you've now dropped it from 1700
to 750 to 450. Why can't you do it for me as
just a rebooking? Like courtesy rebooking and then
(05:25):
a third manager shows up, or a second manager shows up a mail
manager and tells me that this is my only option.
I need to either take it or leave it and get out of the
airport. Nobody seems to understand what
a colostomy or what an awesome he was.
I lifted up my shirt this time willingly showing them what had
happened and that they were preventing me from essentially
changing the bag if they were separating me from the supplies.
(05:47):
And I started getting really upset.
And admittedly, like I didn't really understand.
I don't understand French laws in the United States.
If you have an issue with somebody at A at an airline or
somewhere and it's not, you know, a police officer or
whatever security, it's not abnormal to pull out your phone
and record the situation so you have evidence of what's going
on. Which is what I did and was
(06:08):
immediately were wrapped by security and told that I needed
to leave the airport. They took my phone, deleted the
photos and I said, well, you guys have no photos of this
whatever. I realized at this point I was
fighting a losing battle that I wanted to get home.
I needed to get home. And so I reluctantly paid the
€450 because I figured that was the best offer they were going
to get. I was going to get before I got
(06:29):
kicked out of the airport, took the offer and then left the
airport, not before having an issue with the bag that I was
wearing, which was also incredibly embarrassing to have
an issue in public like that. And this is just me basically
kind of on my way out cursing Air France and just being like
this is ridiculous. So the next morning I went and
actually went back to my friendshouse.
The next morning I go back to the airport, this time five
(06:51):
hours early, and I'm told that Ihave to check the bag again.
The manager that was there for me the day before wasn't
present, so I paid €100 to have the bag checked.
This was, I just sort of said tomyself, you know what, I'm like,
fuck it, I need to get home. If they don't want me to have my
supplies, they don't want me to have my supplies, whatever.
So check the bag. I get to the gate super early
only to find out that I have an own middle seat instead of an
(07:13):
aisle seat close to the restroomlike I had before.
So I say to the gate agents, youknow I have an Austin mean, I
need to be close to a bathroom. She tells me it's €100 to change
the ticket and I looked at her and I said you want me to climb
over passengers in your flight with a bag of shit attached to
my stomach and that's what you would prefer rather than seating
me for free next to a restroom and you've already checked my
(07:33):
supplies. So at this point she kind of
understood and she rebooked me on a different seat and I was
able to get a seat closer to a restroom on the way home.
So the flight was a very long flight, approximately 10 hours.
I slept most of it, which was nice.
And when I got home, I started feeling a little weird, like I
felt like my personality was a little bit off.
(07:54):
I felt like it was hard, a little hard for me to breathe
because I didn't know if it was like a stress reaction or what
was going on with my friend thatwas with me told me that he's
like, you're acting really weird, like something's wrong
with you. I'm like, I don't know, you
know, I feel like when I take a deep breath, I feel like I have
like a knife in my chest, but I was kind of trying to dismiss
it. I, I personally hate hospitals.
(08:15):
I hate going to the hospital. I hate being impatient in
hospitals. And so I'll kind of do whatever
it takes to avoid going went to a hospital and so I put it off
until it got to the point where I really, I couldn't breathe
anymore. So my friend drives me to the
hospital and I tell them what's going on and they tell me that
there's a couple different potential options of like what
could have happened to me. So they do ACT scan of my chest
and I find out that I have a pulmonary embolism, which is
(08:36):
something that I'd never really heard of before.
Basically what they told me was that while I was in the flights,
at some point I had a blood clotappear in my leg, which traveled
up to my lung and got settled inmy lung and caused this painful
breathing. The more I talked about
pulmonary embolisms with people,I got very lucky.
It was small and had it continued traveling could have
(08:57):
made it to my brain but an aneurysm and killed me.
And not to say that pulmonary embolisms don't kill people
already, but it's just made me kind of look at my life a little
bit differently. It's my second near death
experience in 2025, and ultimately scheduled surgery for
October 27th has now been postponed like indefinitely.
So I'm a little feeling a littledefeated, a little disappointed
(09:19):
or a lot disappointed and more or less kind of like kicking
myself for taking this trip to Paris that I was just so excited
about going and having a good time spending of my friends
celebrating the surgery when I could have just stayed at home
and set still. But who, you know, there's no
way of knowing that this would have happened to me on my way
home. And yeah, so my surgery has now
been in indefinitely postponed. So I will be with the bag for at
(09:43):
least six more months while I'm on blood thinners to make sure
that the clot disappears. And yeah, so it's been a rough
week. I couldn't pull it together fast
enough to get this episode posted on to the platform.
I was too depressed and too upset.
Still kind of a, you know, trying to pick myself up out of
it. I keep thinking to myself that
the lesson that I needed to learn during the initial injury
(10:06):
was that I needed to rely more on my brain and not so much on
my body to make a living. That's why I kind of dove head
first into making the podcast really exciting.
And I started doing, you know, writing a book and I've been
releasing music on Spotify and Apple Music that I've been
creating using AI apps. And I've just been trying to
find other ways other than just making content videos that I
(10:28):
could, you know, make make a living on.
And it turns out that there's another lesson to learn because
I learned that lesson in the hard way from the injury.
But now I feel like it's just sort of like extended torture
this point. My surgeon told me that I'm
seeing the the trees and not theforest, that there is a larger
lesson to be learned here and itwill reveal itself.
(10:49):
I'm just sort of waiting for that.
I'm grateful to be alive. I'm grateful that it wasn't
worse than it was. But I'm still just sort of a
little down because I was reallyready to have my body back.
I was ready for 2026 to kind of be the year that I get back in
the gym and start working out again.
Hunger FF10 point O is what I'vebeen joking around calling it,
but instead I will be still stuck with the bag through at
least April or May. Yeah.
(11:13):
So I'm sorry, this has been sortof a downer episode.
I just kind of wanted to inform you guys as to what was going on
with me, what was going on with my life and the rough week that
I had. So between the Air France issue,
the pulmonary embolism, and the delayed surgery, it was like
triple trauma back-to-back to back.
So I'm recovering from that still and yeah, it's just going
(11:33):
to be a long road ahead. And so I hope you guys stick
with me. Make sure you guys are enjoying
the show. We are on Apple, Spotify,
Amazon, YouTube and iHeartRadio.New episodes go live on Friday
nights at 8:00, typically on hungerff.com.
And just for fans, slash hunger FF early video access is
available for Spotify subscribers only on Spotify.
As soon as I'm done editing the episode, typically a couple
(11:54):
hours before the live, excuse me, the audio episode goes live.
Again, I apologize for this being sort of a little bit of a
downer episode, but I just wanted to kind of let you guys
know this is where things are atfor me right now.
Next week we're going to have Pop Hulky on.
It's scheduled for normal release.
Tights coming guests include Riddick and Stefan Faris, Blue
Bailey, and we have some other really exciting guests coming up
(12:16):
with this that will be announcedshortly.
Again, thank you guys for listening and TuneIn next week
for the episode. Pop Hulky, have a good one.
Thanks for going deep with me onHunger FF Presents Roll apps.
If you're loving the ride, hit subscribe, drop a review, and
share the fisting love. Follow me on social media at
Hunger FF for unfiltered updatesand exclusive content.
But until next time, keep it raw, real, and always hungry.
(12:36):
I'll see you on the next episode.
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