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Speaker 1 (00:12):
welcome back you bitches.
What's up?
That's where we're starting nowwhat's up, biatches?
Biatches, not for us, oh yeah,no hey guys, welcome back.

Speaker 2 (00:31):
Oh yeah, I don't know , are we okay?

Speaker 1 (00:38):
hey guys, welcome back.
It's you go, karina and malini.

Speaker 2 (00:42):
What's up y'all?

Speaker 1 (00:43):
how's it going?
How's your day?

Speaker 2 (00:44):
yeah, tell us all about it as we go ahead and
start sparking up, okay that'senough, okay, so my day how's
your day?

Speaker 1 (00:55):
that's pretty interesting.
I went in at 12 and I hadtherapy at nine, which was great
.
I learned a couple of thingsabout myself.
I learned that when somethingis making me upset is because
it's weird.
I don't know how to explain it,but it's like I didn't realize

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that it was bothering me.
You know what I'm saying.
You know it's just like huh,like it will make me feel like
it will make me feel judged, butI didn't know that.
I didn't like it.
I don't know.

Speaker 2 (01:37):
It's complicated it's good that you're learning,
though, yeah, that's theimportant part is the
understanding process yeah, buthow was your day?
My day was pretty good.
I was just I work.
I went to my mom's I might begetting furniture, so that's
interesting oh nice yes diningroom table.

(02:00):
Oh nice, yes.
Look who's getting bigfurniture For real we're
upgrading from eating on thecouch to eating on a table.

Speaker 1 (02:11):
Okay, bitch, I see you.
Hey, I love that, though itreminds me of when I first
started.

Speaker 2 (02:17):
Yeah, it's okay, I'm going through Facebook market.

Speaker 1 (02:20):
I love that.
I love that.
I wonder if I have anythingthat I can give you.
I don't know I have a whole lotof storage of things that I Do.
You have a lot, ooh, you don'tlike to cook and bake, do you?

Speaker 2 (02:34):
I like to cook, I don't.
I'm not good at baking.

Speaker 1 (02:37):
Okay, there's a lot of things that Jonathan has
bought me news when it comes tokitchenware.

Speaker 2 (02:43):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (02:43):
Jonathan has bought me needles.
When it comes to kitchenware, Ican go through some of the
stuff that I have duplicate.
I can give them to you, dude,I'll take pots and pans yeah,
okay, I'm gonna do that now,yeah for sure.

Speaker 2 (02:51):
Thanks, dude yeah, yeah, you know like oh yeah,
shit, that's the table he pulledit up.
Shit, what that mesa?
That was nice.
Oh, that's the table he pulledit up.
What La mesa?

Speaker 1 (03:07):
That was nice.
Oh, that's, oh, it's going tobe glass.
Yeah, that is nice Because myLike.

Speaker 2 (03:13):
I have those mesitas in the living room that are
glass, that they're just likeside tables.

Speaker 1 (03:18):
Oh yeah, they're tables, so I'm like it fits the
theme.
Yeah, I love glass Mm-hmm.

Speaker 2 (03:24):
Yeah, you just got to keep it clean.
That's the worst part.

Speaker 1 (03:27):
Mm-hmm, it's actually hard To keep clean.
To keep it clean, mm-hmm,mm-hmm.

Speaker 2 (03:35):
You know, my mom taught me a trick If you spray
vinegar con agua y limon onglass, it won't go and keep it
more like, it won't go ahead andstain as much compared to like
regular cleaners.

Speaker 1 (03:49):
Hmm, because you know , I've had that glass table for
literally like years, Like backwhen my mom was still here.
My mom, you know, she left toMexico six years ago.

Speaker 2 (04:00):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (04:00):
So we've had them for what like eight, nine years, so
I feel like they're pretty good.

Speaker 2 (04:09):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (04:11):
But I try to keep them clean.
But here my little eyes, stickyfingers.
This makes it hard Me too withthe tits.

Speaker 2 (04:20):
I'm going to be touching shit.

Speaker 1 (04:24):
He's just a messy eater.
I can't talk because I get myshirt dirty every single fucking
time, but I just get my shirtdirty, you know.
I keep all the food in my plate, from my plate to my mouth, I
guess because I'm a fat ass,right, yeah?
But like yeah, like straightthis motherfucker be feeding his

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toes, his belly button, hischin hair, fucking his ass.

Speaker 2 (04:52):
The guinea pigs the floor and it's just like damn,
like he's just trying to spreadit all around.

Speaker 1 (04:57):
Oh, for real, that just means you're cooking so
good.

Speaker 2 (05:00):
He's trying to spread it.

Speaker 1 (05:01):
No Girl, do not try to fucking defend him.

Speaker 2 (05:04):
Hell, he in bed.
He was like hey, I got a littlebit of sauce on my elbow.
Hell, no bitch.

Speaker 1 (05:12):
I hate when he eats in the bed.

Speaker 2 (05:15):
Oh, I can't say shit I be eating in there.

Speaker 1 (05:18):
Yeah, you're right here and I tell you your face.
I hate when he eats in the bed.
I hate when you eat in the bed.

Speaker 2 (05:25):
See, I can't say shit because I hate it too whenever
I find crumbs.

Speaker 1 (05:28):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (05:29):
And it's so fucking annoying, I'm like bitch, fuck
you.
And then I'm like, well, quienmas lo hizo, pero yo.
So I'm like fuck me bro.
I was like 12 at night halfasleep.

Speaker 1 (05:45):
Dude, I did that to him one time and he hasn't
really done it ever since.
Like he had eight, and I waslike make sure you clean the
thing.
And like he did it, luego luegoque me metí a la cama.
I felt it and I was just like,okay, like, but I was really
tired, so I was going to try tosleep through it.
So I fucking woke his ass upand I was like I was pissed.
I was like, clean this goddamnbed up right now Get up and he

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was like oh, and then I hecleaned the bed and I got back
in the bed and I was like, don'tdo that again.

Speaker 2 (06:16):
Just have a sleep, good night.
And I went, turned around,basically Turn yeah, but I went
back to sleep Like god damn it.

Speaker 1 (06:24):
Yeah, I just can't, I can't.
I also that's one of thereasons why I can't walk around
barefooted, because I can't dostuff on my feet, like if the
floor is not clean, likewhenever Jonathan does Krusty
Dusty to sweep him up, becauseKrusty Dusty sweeps him off for

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us and whenever he gets himgoing I walk on my barefoot and
I enjoy it.
I'm like hell yeah.

Speaker 2 (06:52):
A little vacuum cleaner.
Yeah, a name named Krusty Dusty.
I've heard that those thingsare really good.

Speaker 1 (06:57):
They are.
They're amazing.
I love it.
It sweeps all over the floorand in our room and then it mops
and it has different type ofsections that you can do like a
little bit, or you can do like alot, like how powerful you want
it to be.
But does it work with a carpetor not?
Yeah, my room.
Really yeah it does and it'spretty cool because it maps your

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house so like you can literallylike control it on your phone.
Okay, not me promoting them.

Speaker 2 (07:26):
For real, but no, it is pretty.
Sponsors.

Speaker 1 (07:28):
Okay, for real, I'm not going to say the name until
they at us.
No.

Speaker 2 (07:32):
For real.

Speaker 1 (07:33):
No, I'm just playing, but no, it's pretty dope, it's.
You can control it on yourphone, so like you can just turn
it on from your house no mamesand like you can set it to.
Like you can set it to whenyou're leaving so you can start
it, and then you leave and it'llstart doing it and then, for

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whatever reason it gets stucksomewhere, it sends you a
notification, like if it's likehalfway, it'll charge itself and
then it'll charge itself andthen it'll restart where it left
off.
So it's pretty fucking dope,yeah.
And then the one that we haveempties itself.
Actually, because there's somethat you have to empty it out
whenever you're like, wheneverit's done, it's cycle, but mine

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has its own trash can, so whenit's done like it empties itself
out, and when they were thatbag's full, then we just switch
the bag out and it notifies you.

Speaker 2 (08:25):
Mm-hmm También.
It's pretty fucking dope yeah.

Speaker 1 (08:28):
And if something's wrong with it, like it tells you
Like I'm off trail or I'm stuck, or I'm flipped or I can't see
Because it's a little sensor,and she said if he goes
underneath somewhere and itblocks the sensor, like it'll
let you know like, hey, I'mstuck, I can't see where I'm at.

Speaker 2 (08:46):
You just have to come out and get it.

Speaker 1 (08:48):
Yeah, and then you just whatever it is, and you
just push like pretty much likepower again and let it go on by
this day, mm-hmm.

Speaker 2 (08:57):
Damn.

Speaker 1 (08:58):
Yeah, what did you get?
It was a birthday gift forJonathanathan.
Actually, I mean a christmasgift.
Sorry, that's what jonathanwanted for christmas.
It was a damn thing of thatdang.

Speaker 2 (09:12):
So it was three something that's not bad, though
, for it to change itself andeverything.

Speaker 1 (09:15):
No damn, I can't remember.
Yeah, so I can't.
Was it three?
Well, you know, you know howmuch it was, because you told me
what you wanted.
Right, something like that.
Like these are like 350, that'snot bad.
Yeah, oh shit.
Oh, that was crazy, yeah oh mymiss.

Speaker 2 (09:38):
It like cleans your whole floor yeah, it's pretty
fucking dope.

Speaker 1 (09:41):
Yeah, investment, investment, it is pretty cool.
It is pretty cool, it's um.
I enjoy it.
It makes me my, it makes ourlife easier well, yeah, cause
you don't?

Speaker 2 (09:55):
have to worry about sleeping mhm cause yeah, there
are days where I have to likecome home and there's cat litter
everywhere, there's bed littereverywhere.

Speaker 1 (10:03):
Yeah, these motherfuckers right here been
throwing their caca all over thefloor and I'm like god damn
their food, their hay, and I'mlike you bitches for real, like
y'all having a party okay, I'mtelling y'all get out and clean
you dirty whores I'm talkingabout my guinea pigs, by the way
yeah, for real I don't knowwhat she has.
Jonathan just got him a newwater bottle.

Speaker 2 (10:28):
Ooh, how fancy.
I know I also just grabbed oneof the gallon automatic for the
cats.

Speaker 1 (10:37):
I don't know if we told our peeps, oh, I adopted
kitties, yeah, so mymother-in-law found three little
kitties Kittens, right, mm-hmm,kittens, yeah, yeah.
And one day my nanny had comeover, or, yeah, right, yeah.
And we were just talking aboutlike cats and she was telling me

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about like this you know hercat story, her cat story.

Speaker 2 (11:04):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (11:08):
Her cat trauma, my previous cat, yeah, and dad.
Just I was just like and sheknows she had mentioned about
you were thinking about probablygetting a cat or something on
your own, and I was like, ohshit, well, I mean, I got like
three for free for real and Iwas like, well, let me go look
at one, yeah, because I told herI'm like she has three, if you
want one, yeah, and that waslike the main idea.

Speaker 2 (11:28):
And then when I got there, they were just like.
They were just so cute and allLike they wanted to be together
and I felt bad.

Speaker 1 (11:36):
I was like you know what?

Speaker 2 (11:37):
let me foster two of these and keep one, and then
days went by.

Speaker 1 (11:43):
You were supposed to give one to someone else.

Speaker 2 (11:46):
Yes, I remember you telling me that they asked me
about it and I was like I don'tknow bro, like I think he ran
away.

Speaker 1 (11:54):
I had no idea that she did it, not that I didn't
watch them.

Speaker 2 (11:57):
Listen to our podcast for real they be like ah, she
still has it.
Next family party I'll be likeone of my cats is missing for
real, but yeah, but yeah.
So I ended up keeping all threeof them.
Two of them are orange, one ofthem is brownish.

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Their names are MJ, milo andAndrea.

Speaker 1 (12:24):
Andrea, such a strong name.
Yeah, I love that.

Speaker 2 (12:27):
Homie picked it Nice.

Speaker 1 (12:32):
Oh no, you have your own letter.
Everybody has their own.
Okay, Okay, so so I guess Ifeel like it's just.
I'm just ready to dive into theconversation, yeah let's dive
into today's episode.
Yeah, so go ahead and hurry upand grab whatever your drug

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poison.

Speaker 2 (12:57):
You better turn up the maruchan and high, because
we about to start.

Speaker 1 (13:02):
Okay, because it's about to get spicy, yes, and a
little to get spicy, yes, and alittle acid going in, one no.

Speaker 2 (13:08):
Don't forget.

Speaker 1 (13:10):
And we're going to call you bitches out for being
bitches.
No.

Speaker 2 (13:16):
Fuck you no just kidding, con cariño, con cariño.

Speaker 1 (13:19):
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Some of y'all, though Some ofy'all can get these hands.
You know who you are.
You at me next time, bitchNashway.

Speaker 2 (13:26):
On site.
On site, you know who you is.
You know who you is.

Speaker 1 (13:36):
Hell, no.
Anyways, no violence, guys.
Violence is not the answer.

Speaker 2 (13:43):
Yeah, no, yeah, no, no, fuck that.
Violence is not the answer.

Speaker 1 (13:44):
Yeah, no, yeah, no, no.
Fuck that.
Violence is always the answer.
Fuck what anybody says okay, Igo to therapy, but fuck that.

Speaker 2 (13:53):
She said it was okay, for real.

Speaker 1 (13:55):
The purge is out once a year, homies.
My therapist said whoop, thathoe.

Speaker 2 (14:00):
No she didn't.
For real.
They're going to be like, hey,who?

Speaker 1 (14:03):
your therapist again For real.
Hey, no, my therapist is great,though, like, honestly, like
she was like my third one that Ihad to like, look for.

Speaker 2 (14:13):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (14:13):
Because I just wasn't fucking with them.
And don't even get me wrong,the first day, the first day, I
was like you know what bitch I'mgood.
Actually that's how I felt.
But then I looked at Jonathanbecause he walked with me and I
was like I don't know, somethingin me was like just give it a

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try.
So I was like he was likesomething to me was like, just
give it a try, yeah.
So I was like he was like, areyou gonna stay?
And I was like yeah, so I wentin there and it was crazy.

Speaker 2 (14:46):
Wait, so you like went to meet her the first time,
like in person.
Mm-hmm, crazy.
I don't know how that works.

Speaker 1 (14:54):
It was a lot of different ways.
Know how that works.
It was a lot of different ways.
We do video chat now, um, butwe did in person.
For the first couple of months,I think.
For like first two months or so, we did it in person and now we
do video chat.
But it's like either way, likeyou can do it in any way in form
that you want.
Honestly, you can do it inperson, you can do video chat,
you can do phone call yeah yeah,so it's like it's available in

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so many different ways now but Ifeel like

Speaker 2 (15:18):
I couldn't do it in phone call, because I would like
completely forget that they'rethere and just like start
scrolling on tiktok they'll beasking me questions and I'll be
like huh, like, what are youeven doing?

Speaker 1 (15:27):
I'm like, I'm watching this historia no, yeah,
like um, the people that needto know know my schedule, like
when I have it, so they knowthat they don't contact me.
I put on my phone and notdisturb for that whole hour and
the only one that can go throughis Jonathan.
So Jonathan's like he alreadyknows, so he's not to call me.
This is an emergency yeah otherthan that I do put my phone

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away, because I will end upbeing on my phone like 100%.
Yeah, it's crazy.

Speaker 2 (15:57):
Por eso te digo if it's phone call, they ain't
seeing me.
So yeah.
They'll be like bitch.
Are you on your phone, Mm-hmm,how you know.

Speaker 1 (16:07):
You know, I actually do like seeing her in person,
like going to a different place,really did help me personally.
So I did tell her, likewhenever she told me that she
was just gonna, she was gonnastop doing in person and just go
like work from home.
Now that's what it was gonna be, just video chat.
I don't know how to feel aboutthat, because it's like you're

(16:27):
changing my scenario.
Yeah, so it's just like.
I don't know, this is my safeplace.
You're making me choose a safeplace, you know, and it's just
like.
So I I was having mentally ahard time trying to wrap my
around my head that my house wasgoing to be my safe place.
Not that I don't feel safe inmy house, but it's like these

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walls were about to hear somesecrets that nobody's heard
before you know.
So it's just like you'rechanging those walls on me and I
have to not have to tell aseparate pair of walls.
Now you know, so it was justlike that's how I was thinking
about it.
It wasn't.
It wasn't like I don't feelsafe in my house.
It was just like it's very hardfor me to be portable, so to

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have to be soft in this houseit's like it just scares me a
little bit yeah, but this hasn'tbeen hard, actually, like I
think it's all my mentality, uh.
But now that I'm like beingmedicated, like when it comes to
doing stuff to better health,my anything like mental,

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physically, emotionally, like Ijust do it because I want to be
better yeah so it's like I knowthat I have to do the work.
Look at me being gay, talkingabout feelings.
I know.
Yeah, so I tried it out and sofar I've been okay.

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Did a chatting with her, that'swhat's up.
Yeah, so it's been cool.

Speaker 2 (18:04):
I like it.

Speaker 1 (18:05):
I have a spot, a specific spot, where I've been
chatting her and I have mycoffee, and then I have the
sunlight coming in.
So it's, it feels good, itfeels coming in.
So it's, it feels good, itfeels really nice, yeah.

Speaker 2 (18:21):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (18:21):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (18:22):
But that's good too, because, like she gave you a
chance to create your own safespace yeah, in your own home.

Speaker 1 (18:29):
Yeah, it's pretty cool because I do it whenever.
Literally by the time mytherapy starts, jonathan has to
be walking out the door, so it'slike I'm literally by myself
yeah yeah that's good thoughit's really nice.
I enjoy it.
I highly recommend it to peoplethat feel like they don't know

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how they don't have anybody totalk to, or they don't know how
to talk to somebody.
Like like I know we say thisbecause by we, I'm also part of
that Like how do you expect meto talk to a stranger when I
can't even talk to the people Iknow, the people that I trust,

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the people that I will letdecide who can pull my plug?
When it comes to the call youknow?
But it's like it's justdifferent because they literally
don't know nothing about you.
Like you are starting with aclean slave.

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Like this person knows nothing.
You can literally tell thisperson what you want to tell
them about yourself, but thewhole point is for you to work
on yourself.
You have to talk about thoseharsh stuff.
This is like the best person tobe ugly crying with because

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they don't know you.

Speaker 2 (19:56):
They don't know you and they don't know you.
They don't know you and theydon't know the people that you
are associated with, so theycan't be like opinionated on
like you know what.
No, this is the reason why youshould listen to them, because
you know, you've been friendswith them for so many years and
la-di-la-di-da and talk aboutfeelings whenever they're giving
you facts.
They're giving you facts,they're giving you more of like

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the honest truth, because familyand friends won't.

Speaker 1 (20:24):
They won't give you that because they care about you
.
Therapy is about healing yes,yeah it's.

Speaker 2 (20:30):
This is the one person that's not gonna judge
you yeah, yeah, and they can'tbecause they have nothing to go
based off of and then all I'msaying is go to therapists that
have gone to therapy themselves,because I've noticed that that
was my issue.

Speaker 1 (20:51):
Well, that was my issue.
That helped me.
The two other people that Itried to.
They've never gone to therapy.
My therapist now has, and thetherapist that she trained, she
told all of them to go totherapy and I feel like that

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makes sense.
How are you going to teach mehow to bake if you don't know
how to bake?
How are you going to tell mehow to work on my mental health
but you don't know how to workon your mental health?
You don't know, even know whatyour mental health is, but
you're gonna sit here and tellme what mine is.
That's funny.
It's like the blind laying theblind but like that's their,
that's their whole purpose,though, is to know exactly it's

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like you can you can only knowhow much in books though I feel
like this is a, this is a careeror like a path line that you
emotionally also have tounderstand it so you can tell
the difference betweenemotionally reacting and
mentally reacting, because theway that we react is either

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emotionally or mentally, and oneof them is right and one of
them is wrong.
I was always reactingemotionally, not mentally, like
I knew that I shouldn't haveflipped the table, but
emotionally told me to flip it,so I flipped it.
So it's like how are they goingto know what, emotionally,

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you're wrong if they never evenprocess their own emotions?
At least that's not how mytherapist explained it, that's
how I understood it.
I might be wrong, but like Ijust feel like it makes sense
regardless, though, like you canonly learn so much I feel like
that's in any career though youcan only do so much in books and
videos until you actually areout there and you get your hands

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dirty.
Then you really don't know whatyou're dealing with.

Speaker 2 (22:44):
But you're saying entonces, if you feel like your
therapist understands thosefeelings because they understand
them themselves aboutthemselves, then it's okay.

Speaker 1 (22:55):
No, I don't.

Speaker 2 (22:57):
That just confused me Because like no, because, like
to me this is interesting howyou're putting it because, like
I, haven't Okay, so I did go totherapy, like once when I was
like 13.

Speaker 1 (23:09):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (23:10):
Like for I want to say like two months.
But I but like I kind of likelike just got her off my back
for her to be like oh no, shedon't need therapy, she's fine
yeah like kind of shit, likebecause I'm, I just didn't want
to go like I was, like you knowwhat like.
I feel like I understand myemotions enough and I can

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process them well.

Speaker 1 (23:32):
I just I chose not to yeah, kind of yeah, and you
know, I also had an experiencelike that myself.
The first time I had therapywas in sixth grade.
So whatever age you are insixth grade.

Speaker 2 (23:49):
One por doce trece.

Speaker 1 (23:50):
Yeah, so that's how old I was.
The school gave um, I was goingthrough some shit.
I got, I got caught with someshit in my backpack and went
whatever, and my mom was likethat was her first like.

Speaker 2 (24:05):
Oh my God, you rebel.
You were in sixth grade, yes.

Speaker 1 (24:09):
I started smoking when I was 14.

Speaker 2 (24:12):
Yeah, Like weed or cigarettes.

Speaker 1 (24:20):
Uh yeah, like weed or cigarettes, weed Cigarettes.
I didn't really start smokingcigarettes until I was like in
my teenage years.
Well, I was already in myteenage years, but like, more
like towards like highschool-ish, you want to start
smoking cigarettes.

Speaker 2 (24:30):
Usually reverse, but okay.

Speaker 1 (24:32):
Yeah, Well, I was always.
The only person that I was eversurrounded with cigarettes was
my mom.

Speaker 2 (24:38):
Yeah Well.

Speaker 1 (24:39):
I was always.
The only person that I was eversurrounded with cigarettes was
my mom.

Speaker 2 (24:43):
But I was always surrounded by weed, by like
family members and friends.

Speaker 1 (24:46):
Maybe because I grew up with güeros yeah, I grew up
in the hood baby, I don't knowBecause like, yeah, it was the
same story.

Speaker 2 (24:50):
Like, oh, we started smoking cigarettes first and
then it was weed.

Speaker 1 (24:57):
I guess because I guess because I like smelling
the cigarette on certain likethe thing is like my mom never
let me go to school smellinglike cigarette.
Like she never smoked in thehouse, she never smoked in the
car, like my mom always smokedoutside and away from me.

Speaker 2 (25:11):
So shout out to that.
Yeah, that's nice.

Speaker 1 (25:13):
But I went to school with people that parents they
smoke, smoking the car, thatthey're smoking the house.
I had friends that I would goto their house and their house
would smell like a whole ashtray.
Like have you ever been to thecasino?
Yes, I have gone to people'shouses and they smell straight
up like that.

Speaker 2 (25:31):
No, dude, because, okay, we were at Vegas, like not
too long ago, Pinche casinos,they smelled so bad, it's crazy.

Speaker 1 (25:40):
You opened the door and it was like boom, it's like
the whole time you're there,you're breathing cigarettes.
Yes, you're breathingcigarettes.

Speaker 2 (25:48):
You're exhaling cigarettes, yeah.

Speaker 1 (25:53):
If that was a fucking weed joint bitch, you wouldn't
even make it out, you would beslum and pass out somewhere in
the corner.

Speaker 2 (26:02):
For real, you wouldn't even make it to your
room.
For real, everybody stays inthe fucking lobby.
Everybody just starts smokingin the fucking lobby.

Speaker 1 (26:11):
Moms, no, mommas, they just start blowing it in
your face.

Speaker 2 (26:14):
For real at that point.
You're dead on the ground.
Just start blowing it in yourface.
For real at that point.

Speaker 1 (26:17):
You're dead on the ground.
Are you here?
Are you here?
Just lay down on the floor.
Just a little bubbles from thebong, Just fucking kumbaya, or?

Speaker 2 (26:26):
some fucking.

Speaker 1 (26:27):
Harley, shit, hell, no, hell, yeah, damn.
Now I want to do that For real.
I'm gonna close all my AC ventshotbox the house hell yeah,
jonathan, pack your shit, causewe about to hotbox the house,

(26:47):
and don't forget your kids forreal, they gonna come back.

Speaker 2 (26:52):
Oh, bug died, hell yeah.
They really gonna have theirspy gadgets out.
I don't see hell.
No, died, hell yeah.
They really gonna have theirspy gadgets out Ahora.
Si and the little gun noise,what was I gonna say?

Speaker 1 (27:07):
Oh, yeah, so that sixth grade, right yeah, the
therapist thing, she was thiswhite lady.
She, oh, yeah so, dad, sixthgrade, right yeah, the therapist
thing, she was this white lady.
She was an older white lady,okay, older white lady with this
Mexican-ass mom.

(27:28):
I get it, I get it.
My mom, like my mom, did thebest that she could.
Colón que sabía.
You know, she found like drugson me and then she went to the
school and like asked for, likeyou know, kind of like help
because it's something that Iwouldn't do.
Like she was like I don't know,she's like, you know, with the
wrong people.

(27:48):
So then they put me to the sideand tried to give me the snitch
and they didn't.
So they started making me go tothis therapy, and so I I got to
.
I lost one of my classesbecause therapy was a period for
me what the fuck they gave youtherapy in school yeah and I was
.

Speaker 2 (28:08):
I never talked.
Was it your counselor or was itan actual talked?

Speaker 1 (28:11):
and um, I don't even remember much yeah, from then
actually, but like no, like I'vefrom all the different

(28:33):
therapists that I've all thedifferent therapists that I've
experienced, the right one,you'll know.
Like the right one.
Like it just I don't know.
Like it just it's she's.
She's one of the people thatI've been able to talk about
certain things without gettingemotional, and for me that's

(28:57):
really good, because sometimes Idon't need to cry, I just need
to say them out loud yeah youknow, and it's like with with
her, it's like I have thestrength to say these things out
loud that I'm very scared tosay by myself, like that I tried
to say in front of jonathan,but I can't because I get too
worked up and it's like mocoseverywhere and it's just crazy,

(29:19):
you know, I can't even breatheand he keeps giving me all this
tissue and it's just like andsometimes I just need to hear
myself say it- yeah.
I had a fucked up life.

Speaker 2 (29:31):
Pero por eso like that's where, like how we were
talking about earlier, theseparation comes in and, like
how, you're saying like which onthe thing, you can't say it
because you have too muchfeelings, because there's a
connection there, there's athere's a line that connects you
both, compared to like acomplete stranger, there's

(29:53):
nothing.

Speaker 1 (29:54):
Yeah, so it's easier yeah, but I feel like she should
understand me emotionally inher point of view.
If she's gone through that to acertain extent, because she
knows what the trauma was, sheknows that the way that my mom
raised me wasn't okay.
Just because we're mexican,because she's mexican, because

(30:17):
her mom did the same thing.
So I think that's just like abonus.
You don't have to go to thesame race therapist or the same
gender therapist, becausethere's a lot of different of us
that grew up in the sameculture.

Speaker 2 (30:33):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (30:33):
Because we're mixed, because we got adopted, because
we chose our own families, typeof shit, you know like.
So it's forget about the raceand forget about all of that,
because every race has their owntraditions on how we raise our
kids and each one of them hastheir own fucked up ways.

Speaker 2 (30:53):
you know, and I feel like it gives you different
points of views also being ableto go to, like having the
opportunity actually to be ableto communicate with people, um,
just all around you don't likereally know who you're talking
to at first I don't know, Idon't know if I'm gonna get some

(31:14):
backlash on that, but I feellike you, I feel like a
therapist should go to therapy.

Speaker 1 (31:21):
If you don't want to go because you don't need it,
okay, because I don't feel likeeverybody needs it, yeah, but I
feel like everybody should atleast try it yeah, I agree yeah,
so you can really see what itis to be the patient, to see, to
be on the other side of thatnotebook, because in the

(31:41):
beginning, whenever I will sitdown and she will start writing,
it's like what the fuck are youwriting?
What did she?

Speaker 2 (31:48):
write.

Speaker 1 (31:48):
Well I wouldn't ask, but in my head what the fuck I
was saying.
Like you bitch, you talkingshit right now.

Speaker 2 (31:53):
For real.

Speaker 1 (31:55):
Not for for reals, but then now it's just like now.
I see her writing and like peroya ni digo nada.
Like nothing even comes up inmy head, like it's just.
I just keep talking.

Speaker 2 (32:07):
I don't know what she's writing.

Speaker 1 (32:09):
No, that's what I'm saying, like I got so used to it
, though, because that's just mebeing in my head, like she's
not talking shit, she's writingdown important shit.
Yeah, she's doing her job.
She's not attacking me, she'snot talking about how fat I am
or my glasses, or you know whatI'm saying Like she's not

(32:29):
talking.
You know, she's doing her job,she's writing down shit, because
there's something wrong withyou in the head, bitch.
You're thinking that thisprofessional ass woman that
doesn't know you is here talkingshit about you Like well, come
on, I'll be realistic.
Yeah, this is why we're herebitch Calm down, so yeah.
So eventually I just like itstopped bothering me, so like

(32:52):
I'll look at her right and likeliterally nothing comes into
mind.
So yeah, like I don't worryabout it anymore and I've
noticed that that I startedbeing out of my head a lot,
which is fucking awesome.

Speaker 2 (33:08):
Yes, dude, oh yeah.

Speaker 1 (33:09):
Yeah, like I actually let myself enjoy things because
I stay out of my fucking head.
So shout out to my therapistman Round of applause for that
woman.
Yes.

Speaker 2 (33:23):
Yes, it's her so.

Speaker 1 (33:30):
I guess because, like this, this older white lady
back then, you know, this isover a decade ago, so don't
think about it in today's nowand day, 13 years ago, type of
shit.
You know, a Mexican, una niñalatina, with this older white

(33:54):
lady.
I wasn't going to talk to herBecause one my mom always told
me not to be talking to nobody.

Speaker 2 (34:04):
My mom hated when I talked to people in English
because she didn't know what thefuck I was saying your mom yeah
, your mom didn't ever catch onto English.

Speaker 1 (34:09):
She did, but like, eventually you know what I'm
saying.
I didn't learn English until Iwas in the fourth grade, so she
didn't really start learning.
So you know what I'm saying.
I didn't learn English until Iwas in the fourth grade, so she
didn't really start learning.
So it was like me and herstarted learning English at the
same time.
You know what I'm saying.
So it's like she knew it alittle bit more because of her
job, but she didn't really getto really truly understand it
until we both had to learn it,type of thing.

(34:33):
Yeah, so it was like she didn'tmake it easy on me, like she
wasn't mean to me, but like shedidn't make it easy on me.
Like she definitely made mefeel like I was a lot of work
and she didn't get paid enoughto deal with me, type of shit.

(34:53):
Like she didn't make me feellike that.
Did I make it hard?
Yeah, but what the fuck did youexpect?
Deal with me?
Type of shit.
Like she didn't make me feellike that.
Did I make it hard?
Yeah, but what the fuck did youexpect if you would have
actually sat there and gave methe and just try to fight with
me now, like with me for me typeof shit, and then and I would
have given you a little glimpseof what the fuck I've been going

(35:14):
through, then I'm probably shewould have saved me from a lot
actually yeah if I would havehad a big breakthrough with that
therapist in sixth grade, Ifeel like I would have
definitely had a way differentpath, like a hundred percent,
because right after that shitjust kind of got worse.
Yeah, yeah, so like that's crazy, so it's like go to therapy.

(35:36):
Yeah, if you're a therapist,just go to therapy one time.
Try it out, because you canchange somebody's life.
I feel like if she would havebeen emotionally available for
herself, she would have beenemotionally available for me.
She would have just sat thereand gave me a hug and let me cry
, because that's what mytherapist lets me do.

Speaker 2 (35:54):
Yeah, crazy Mexicans go to therapy everybody stop
right now.

Speaker 1 (36:03):
Go to google.
No, but I think it's prettycool.
Not everybody needs therapy,though, you know, like shout out
, I hope to one day not need it.
Yeah, I love it.
Shout out, I hope to one daynot need it.
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (36:26):
Like I love it but I hope to not always need it.
I feel like for me, it's notthat I don't need it.
I feel, like it would be verybeneficial if I actually went to
therapy.
Like it would help with like alot of my issues, maybe get on
medication that would help mestay on track and shit like that
.
But, it's more of like I feellike I'm doing okay with myself

(36:48):
right now, that I'm just like mm.

Speaker 1 (36:52):
You know type of shit .

Speaker 2 (36:56):
And I don't know like , but I do agree, like, if, like
, if you really like therapy isbeneficial for you.
Like, I'm not, not dissing onit.
I'm like I agree like it isreally good for you, but like I
also feel like I understand likewhat they're gonna tell me,

(37:16):
like they're gonna be like bitch, this is what you need to do.
And I'm like, yeah, I know, Ijust don't do it.
So it's going to for me.
I feel like it's going to be anever ending loop of the like
we'll just do it and I'm like,okay, and I'm just going to
continue not to Like I justdon't have that initiative
myself to do it.
So I'm just like pa' que voy.

Speaker 1 (37:35):
Type of shit, mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
So I'm going to hit you with aquestion that my therapist hit
me with.

Speaker 2 (37:40):
Ah man.

Speaker 1 (37:41):
I'm like I done it.
Are you a psychic Like?
Are you able to tell the future?

Speaker 2 (37:46):
No.

Speaker 1 (37:46):
So how do you know what they're going to tell you?
Oh man, bitch, like who do youthink you are For real?
That's why I'm like, bitch, no,but like, let me leave.

Speaker 2 (38:01):
I want my money back, even though it's free For real.

Speaker 1 (38:02):
I'm like you know what Take your question back,
give my insurance Back theirmoney, shout out to my insurance
.
That lets me have this, youknow, and I feel like therapy
should be free, because withoutfucking therapy I mean without
fucking therapy without fuckinginsurance I wouldn't have been
going to it.

Speaker 2 (38:19):
It's fucking expensive.

Speaker 1 (38:20):
No, yeah, it is.
So it's like this is somethingthat should definitely be free.
I feel like this is why there'sso many, so many things.
So many of us have a lot ofthings wrong with us Because we
can't fucking afford the helpthat we need and that thing.
That's pretty fucked up.
Stop fucking building all thisstupid ass shit that we don't
need and give us the things thatwe do need.

(38:41):
The hell anyways.

Speaker 2 (38:45):
that's for a different subject, but damn, I
forgot therapist oh, yeah,therapy, yeah to therapy I don't
know I forgot where we weregoing, but that was a bitch, I
was like going to therapy now.
I was like damn, I probablyshould, huh no, yeah, yeah, if I

(39:09):
can't tell the future, thenyeah, how am I supposed to know?

Speaker 1 (39:12):
yeah, I know, like you know what's crazy, though,
that shit stuck with me, bitch,because whenever, every time I
like I have to do something andI start freaking out, and it's
just like bitch, como sabes how?
Pause, bro.
Like every like, honestly, likethat's why that, that's the
type of shit that has helped me,like the one thing that she

(39:34):
also gave me a tip for me forwhen, like, I get really angry,
when I, when I will feel like Ihave to flip a table, she would
be like pause and really thinkabout it.
Are you really mad because afly landed on your food or
because something happened longago and you're just using this
excuse to explode?

(39:54):
So now, every time I feel likeI gotta explode, I really I'm
like, okay, I take a break, like, why am I mad?
Why am I mad?
And then eventually it's justlike why am I mad?
yes yeah, and like I alsohaven't taken my anxiety pills
like over a month, damn.

(40:16):
Because the trick that she gaveme is like I guess she realized
that I like to be very likenature, bonded.
I like to be calm and relaxedand listen to like waterfall and
rain, forward noises andcrickets and you know, just

(40:36):
mellow.
She's like focused sometimes,sometimes focus on where you at.
So when I start feeling veryangry or I start feeling very
like anxious, like I feel likeit's so weird, I feel like I
gotta rip my clothes, like myskin off.
I it's like, I feel like Ican't breathe, I feel like I
have to disappear, like it's soweird.
And she's taught me to startfeeling that.

(40:57):
So I start feeling it before itactually hits me too hard.
So then I'm like okay, okay.
I'm like what am I thinking of?
Because our head wanders, likeyou can just sit there, be
focusing on work, and when youstart feeling anxious, it's
because you're still thinking ofsomething.
So you got to focus on whatyou're thinking.

(41:19):
But instead of me focusing whatI'm thinking, I focus on around
me.
So it's just like okay.
If I were to be having oneright now, I would be like, okay
, so I'm in the podcast Eleni'shere, ray's there, jonathan's
there and I just start namingshit around me.
And then I come back to hereand I forgot what the fuck I was

(41:45):
even tripping about.
And then I'm back andeverything's okay.
So it's like I don't need totake my pill, because that's
what my pill does my pill bringsme back, it relaxes me, it
calms me down.
But how do you do it like?

Speaker 2 (41:58):
that literally like that, just by naming things,
that's like I just stay in mylike.
I literally just say it in myhead because, I'm not gonna lie,
I've had that feeling too, andI thought I was just tripping.
Now that you're saying that,I'm like, oh bitch, I was just
having a fucking anxiety attack.
Yeah, yeah it will.

Speaker 1 (42:16):
Um, it could also be a panic attack, which that's
because I, the medication that Itake for my depression, has a
little bit for my anxiety.
So the the separate one is forpanic attacks.
So the second one is the onethat I have been having, because
it's the ones that make me feellike I gotta rip my skin off or
I got to rip my hair out.

Speaker 2 (42:37):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (42:39):
Like I feel like I got to get out of my skin so I
can breathe.
Like it's weird, I feel like Ihave to remove myself.
Like I got to get out of here,I got to get out of the car, I
got to get out of wherever I'mat.
Like I feel like I'm underattack.

Speaker 2 (42:56):
But nobody's around me, like it's yeah, look, dude,
I'm gonna tell you, becauseyou're explaining this and I'm
like dude, I had that exact samething and I couldn't fucking
figure it out so it was actuallylike.
I want to say like maybe twomonths ago we were watching a
movie at one of our friendshouse we're watching a scary
movie and then the movie.
I was chilling.
I've already seen the moviebefore and everything.
It was his first time watchingit.
We were high, we were justchilling.

Speaker 1 (43:17):
Right.

Speaker 2 (43:18):
Yeah, like it was a whole vibe.
And then like towards the end,like I was watching it and I was
like focusing on watching themovie and like I felt like an
itch on my back and I was likethat's weird.
So I started scratching andthen like my skin started
getting hot.
I was like, damn, I'm trying tofucking watch the movie and
like I'm feeling uncomfortable.

(43:39):
So I'm like hey, I'm tellinghim, like hey, can you get off
of me?
I'm like maybe, maybe.

Speaker 1 (43:43):
It's like that Maybe I'm getting too hot yeah.

Speaker 2 (43:45):
And like I'm watching it and like, like my skin feels
like it's fucking on fire andI'm like, oh, what the fuck.
And I'm like, bro, what thefuck.
And I'm just like you know whatI got to leave, like I got to
go, but I don't want to moveeither, because I feel like, bro
, you're going to look weird ifyou just get up and be like bro,
I need to get out of here.

Speaker 1 (44:01):
Yes, it's hard.
So you just like, you just gotto fucking like thug it out.
You're like okay, my skin isitching Like I'm like and I
can't like, I can't breathe atthat point.

Speaker 2 (44:16):
Like I'm just like I'm holding my breath, like I'm
feeling my face get hot and I'mlike, bro, everybody's staring
at me that I'm like gettingweird, that I'm like fidgeting
now yeah.

Speaker 1 (44:31):
I'm like, oh, my God, they can noticed.

Speaker 2 (44:33):
I don't know if anybody noticed.

Speaker 1 (44:35):
No, I'm telling you.
Yeah, maybe At the whole timenobody even noticed, because
I've said it before and theywere like damn really.
And I was like, yeah, I justhad a whole panic attack and
they were like you were justsitting there and I was like,
yeah, bitch, I wasn't moving,but I was stuck, I was stuck.

Speaker 2 (44:56):
yeah, bitch, I wasn't moving, but I was stuck.
I was stuck on stupid bitch.
It was like I was stuck onstupid mode.
My controller disconnected yeah.

Speaker 1 (45:02):
I was like ah, what do I do right now?
Do I rip my skin off?

Speaker 2 (45:08):
For real, no, but I felt like I was fidgeting so
much.
Like I don't know if I actuallywas, but I felt like I was,
that I was just like you knowwhat, like I got to get up.

Speaker 1 (45:17):
Sometimes I feel like you know how on TV, whenever
things are staticky and they'relike red and blue.

Speaker 2 (45:23):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (45:23):
Sometimes I feel like that oh yourself yeah.
I feel, like I'm like glitching.

Speaker 2 (45:28):
Yes, but like on the inside.

Speaker 1 (45:36):
I feel like my inside is shaking, like my skin is
fine, but like my skeletons andmy organs is like shaking.
But you can't tell from theoutside.

Speaker 2 (45:44):
Dang.

Speaker 1 (45:45):
Yeah, that's how I feel.

Speaker 2 (45:46):
I had a whole ass Shit.
That's crazy.

Speaker 1 (45:51):
But that's trauma.

Speaker 2 (45:53):
But I don't know from what I was chilling.

Speaker 1 (45:57):
No, our mind wanders.
Sometimes you're just chillingand you're watching something
and your mind wanders.
So whatever you were thinkingof when your mind wandered is
what triggered you.

Speaker 2 (46:09):
Dang.
How do you get back to itthough?

Speaker 1 (46:13):
You gotta do the work .

Speaker 2 (46:16):
You gotta remember.

Speaker 1 (46:18):
But you can't remember.
Because you shoved it.
It's a mechanism that humanshave.
We shove it so deep to neverremember that when we try to
remember, we can't.

Speaker 2 (46:31):
See, this is why I low-key, want to go, this is why
I should just go to therapy,but I'm like, this is why I,
low-key, want to go, this is whyI should just go to therapy,
but I'm like this is why I wantto study psychology, so I can
like I can understand thatbecause I want to be a therapist
, but I'm like I feel like Ineed to do like the schooling to
understand my own feelings.
No, yeah, but that's my thing,though.

(46:53):
Like I feel like, once Iunderstand the process of it,
I'm just going to do it on myown and I'm like no, I do see
you doing that, yeah, but I feellike it won't work because you
have to actually do the work.

Speaker 1 (47:11):
So do the work is.
You have to be on the otherside of that notepad, so I
should go to therapy firstbefore.
Interesting, interesting, Ilike that so whenever you go to
learning, you're going tounderstand what you're learning
because you already walked thatpath so it's kind of like making
it easier for me because you'regoing to have an emotional,

(47:36):
emotional, mentally connectionto it already.
Yeah, it's like.
It's like you're studying, butyou're, you're the test.

Speaker 2 (47:51):
I don't like that.
That's scary.

Speaker 1 (47:52):
No you'll be fine, bitch.
Nobody knows you more than youdo.
That's the scary part.
Yeah, nobody knows you morethan you do, that's the scary
part yeah, nobody knows you morethan you do yeah, because at
the end of the day, I feel likewe always know what to do, and
that's what scares us, becausewe already know what to do, we
just are scared to do it yeah,we're just like are you scared
to break up with that bitch?
but you know you should break upwith that bitch you know, you

(48:13):
should have walked away alone.
You know you need to quit thatjob.
You know you need to drag thathoe.
No, I'm just playing All thatfucking 35 and back.
No bitch.

Speaker 2 (48:27):
You know you need to fold that clothes in your corner
.
Oh bitch, I can't say shit.
I have folded.

Speaker 1 (48:34):
I said it to myself I gotta, I gotta, fucking dryer
full of clothes right now we'regonna pretend like that bitch is
not there right now mine's allover my living room dude and
then embarrassing moment.

Speaker 2 (48:50):
What maintenance went into my fucking house what
happened?
Because I, okay, I told themabout the fucking door, my front
door it looks like it was likeit's literally like a cholo yeah
, loki, yeah, like someone triedto break into my house like it
looks the sides like, the airkeeps on going out.
So I'm like, bro, y'all arerunning my ac no, and for real,

(49:13):
and I'm like that's myelectricity.
You know what they fucking did?
They went into my fuckingapartment and they added another
AC unit Like uno en la ventana.
And then they're like so forthe AC to be fixed.
Bitch, that's not what I saidin my thing.
I said fix the door.
I'm like, fix it.
So I'm like now I'm going tostart setting up an extra unit

(49:34):
that I have to pay for onelectricity, because that bitch
is on high, high fan to keepthat house cold, so my AC won't
be fucking running and the dooris still not fixed.
That was, that was the fuckingrant I actually had for you
earlier.
And I'm like bitch, are youfucking kidding me?

(49:55):
When did this happen?
Today, today.
That's why I was gonna tell youabout it.

Speaker 1 (50:03):
Yes.

Speaker 2 (50:04):
Y no, mira y también, they left the fucking luz
prendida.
So I was like you motherfuckersare running by electricity.
You fuckers, you think I'm madeout of money, bro.
So I was like you motherfuckersare running by electricity.
You fuckers, you think I'm madeout of money, bro.
I'm sorry for all the big.

Speaker 1 (50:25):
That one got to me.
I was just like Bro no fuckingway.

Speaker 2 (50:28):
So now I'm going to have to make another report.

Speaker 1 (50:31):
And I'm like look, Look at here, you fucking
bitches.

Speaker 2 (50:34):
Nah, thank you for the AC fan I'm going to take it
with me that I didn't want.
I'm like I'm going to take thishoe with me when I move out,
but I need the door fixed, so wequit wasting my AC and take
your stupid ass fan, becauseMiss Dutts is adding another

(50:54):
extra hundred bucks Fuck y'all,we approve this message.

Speaker 1 (51:05):
Dude maintenance be tripping bro.
Oh my God, living in anapartment fucking sucks man look
Like Living in an apartmentfucking sucks man.
Look man, these bitches up here, these bitches up here.

Speaker 2 (51:21):
If you can't tell we're rolling our eyes.
Yes, Fucking maintenance.

Speaker 1 (51:25):
Like they fucking suck.
Like there's nobody that Ihaven't not wanted to fight in
this fucking whatever thatbullshit's called.
What is that?
Like the leasing office?
The leasing office.
There's no staff that I haven'twanted to fight in this fucking
whatever that bullshit's called.
What is that?
Like the leasing office?
The leasing office there's nostaff that I haven't wanted to
fight.

Speaker 2 (51:40):
Fuck your leasing office.

Speaker 1 (51:42):
If you know me, you know me.
I have cameras all over myhouse.
Okay, One time some guy came inmy house like maintenance and I
was like why the fuck are theyin my house?
We didn't put anything.
So I call and I'm like why thefuck is there somebody in my
house?
Blah, blah, oh yeah, there'snobody's at your house.
I said, okay, I hanged up, Igotta go take my break, drove my

(52:07):
happy ass up here and I waslike who just answered the phone
?
I just called about some uhmania's being in my house.
Oh, that was me.
Okay, go ahead and sit yourhappy ass down.
Let me show you something.
I fucking pulled up my camerasand I was like so why was this
mania guy in my house?
If I don't have an order, letme call him.

(52:30):
Oh, he was in the wrong, wrongapartment.
So what are we gonna do?
Yeah, like, that's like, whatare we doing to fix that?
Because you're sitting herelying to me that nobody's at my
house instead of checking.
My alarm went off.
That's how I even know thatsomebody went in my house.

(52:50):
So it's just like so who'slying me?
Or your or my system that I payfor?
So it's just like.
So who's lying me or my systemthat I pay for?
facts like cause.
That's a pretty solid ass,ghost that's crazy, caught on
camera, yeah.
So it's like once you open thedoor, all over camera is kicking
.
So it's like you see him.

(53:10):
He's just like he was in thehouse and then he went into the
restroom.
And he was in the house andthen he went into the restroom
and he was like I was fixingtheir showerhead, but there was
nothing wrong with ourshowerhead Because we have our
showerhead Like.
We took their showerhead offand we put like our own type one
that I wanted.
So it's just like if anything'swrong with that fucking shower

(53:34):
head, the motherfucker's gonnafix it.

Speaker 2 (53:36):
Lives in this bitch yeah not no maintenance guy and
even then I didn't ask for youto go in there.
So it's like why are youtouching?

Speaker 1 (53:43):
my shit, like exactly what the fuck did you fix that
was broken, like what you turnedit on and what was wrong with
the motherfucking shower?
Yeah, what did he fix, bitch?
And then and then and beforethat, we will put an order in.
And then the motherfucking manwas never coming in.
They were just putting in theorder.
They were saying that it wascompleted, so we will get the

(54:05):
email that has been completed.
So we caught that too.
So then I was just like whenare they coming in?
Because she's still fucked up.
Oh well, they went in.
Well, no, ma'am, because mysystem never went off.
I'm like what time?
What time did they complete itso we can look at the cameras?
Yeah, cause, like no, how, whoY'all going through the AC vents

(54:30):
?
Look at Chingao?
Y'all going through the carunit, like what's going on?

Speaker 2 (54:33):
Y'all got secret doors.
Okay, girls, y'all goingthrough the car unit.

Speaker 1 (54:35):
Like, what's going on ?
How do y'all?
Y'all got secret doors.
Okay, let me know Shit, becausewhat if I gotta?

Speaker 2 (54:38):
escape from this motherfucker one day For real.
Fire exits.
Okay, show me all of them.
Yes, we pay for that, exactlyLike.
Show me my secret, yeah, sothen?

Speaker 1 (54:49):
So then I was like I'm gonna need an update.
And then the update was thatthose maintenance guys were
doing that to everybody.
They were just saying that theywere completing a job, but they
weren't doing shit.
And I was like, okay, well, whothe fuck is going to fix my
shit?
Though?

Speaker 2 (55:02):
Yeah, like you're answering what happened.

Speaker 1 (55:06):
That's still a you problem.
Bitch Like oh my God, I fuckinghate this place.
Don't move here.
I'm not going to tell you where, because I'm still here.
I'll let y'all know after Imove out.

Speaker 2 (55:16):
Yeah, For real.
Once we don't live there,that's when we'll expose them.
Yeah, because otherwise they'regoing to kick us out.

Speaker 1 (55:23):
And the people that know me.
You better shut the hell up.

Speaker 2 (55:27):
For real.
You don't know where I live.

Speaker 1 (55:31):
We're in Canada.
This bitch didn't stay inCanada.

Speaker 2 (55:34):
Bitch, bitch how you think we got a green card yeah,
cause I married me a black guyno mami you know this
motherfucker.

Speaker 1 (55:49):
One time he said that he wasn't gonna give me papers
and I said look at here, youdumb fuck, I don't need him.
I was look at here, you dumbfuck.

Speaker 2 (55:56):
No.

Speaker 1 (55:56):
I'm just playing.
I don't need them.
I was like.
I was born here.
You stupid, what the hell Like?
Keep your papers.
I don't need your goddamnpapers.

Speaker 2 (56:04):
Shit, I got my own.

Speaker 1 (56:07):
Kabam, I actually do still have my original birth
certificate.
That shit crusty and dusty andcracky.

Speaker 2 (56:12):
I would hope so, bro, you need it.

Speaker 1 (56:14):
Well, no, Like I have the original one.

Speaker 2 (56:16):
Yeah, you're supposed to have it.

Speaker 1 (56:18):
Well, no, you can lose it or it can burn down and
shit, and then you can just goget a copy of it.

Speaker 2 (56:30):
You know what?
My house burned down and my momstill had it.
Nice, it burned down when I wasin middle school, literally a
day before school.
What happened?
It was like an electrical thingin la sala and it went, I guess
, in la cortina, like with thedrapes, it went ahead and caught
on fire.
And literally all of our housecaught on fire, except for, like
my mom's room.

Speaker 1 (56:51):
Oh shit, because it was towards the end, right.

Speaker 2 (56:54):
Yeah, that makes sense, sense, but like it got
like the whole kitchen, my room,like the house and everything,
damn did I?
Shit dude, damn.

Speaker 1 (57:04):
That's why that's why I'm gasping so hard, cause I
was like damn the same thing.
Texas dude, it's hot as fuckstop coming here, you whores.
Hey, talking about?
Stop coming here.
Shout out to our Germany peoplewe see you.
We see y'all.
I'm going to learn a Germanword for y'all.

Speaker 2 (57:28):
How do you say it?

Speaker 1 (57:30):
Off Wiedersen.

Speaker 2 (57:32):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (57:34):
Scheisse Off Wiedersen.
Yeah, shysa, shysa, shysa.
Don't come for me if I'm sayingit wrong and I'm sorry if I'm
being disrespectful, becausethat was not my intention.
Hashtag I come in peace, holdon.

Speaker 2 (57:46):
Dang.

Speaker 1 (57:49):
That is fucked up.

Speaker 2 (57:50):
Okay, sorry guys, I would have left, though Okay,
don't be calling me that, youwhore.

Speaker 1 (58:00):
If I would have heard that I'm like ah, got me
Ex-puta, por favor, no.

Speaker 2 (58:08):
Be like you, whore, and be like ah you know me
Retired.
For real, be like ah retired.

Speaker 1 (58:14):
Oh um puta, Don't call me a puta.
Retired for real, be like upretired.
Oh um puta, john, don call me aputa.

Speaker 2 (58:22):
I was like that's not really what.

Speaker 1 (58:23):
I said, john Don, call me a puta.
Like a success in machismo.
Hell yeah, hell yeah, hell yeah.
Deleting and adding shit.
You bitches be messy as hell,damn.
I don't know.

(58:44):
I forgot what we were talkingabout.

Speaker 2 (58:46):
I thought we were going to talk about kinks.

Speaker 1 (58:49):
Kinks.

Speaker 2 (58:50):
Yeah, I don't know.
I forgot what we were going totalk about today Because I said
let's get into it.
We had a therapy talk.
I don't know.

Speaker 1 (58:58):
I forgot what we were going to talk about today,
Because I said let's get into it.
We had a therapy talk.
That means that's what ourlisteners needed.
They need another therapy sesh.

Speaker 2 (59:06):
I actually learned a lot about therapy today.

Speaker 1 (59:09):
If you're experiencing any of the things
that I'm experiencing, try thosetips and see.

Speaker 2 (59:15):
Yeah, they were very useful advice.
Mm-hmm, mm-hmm, mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
I definitely learned a lottoday.
I'm glad.

Speaker 1 (59:26):
Yes, I'm glad that I was able to teach y'all.
It's nice.
Yes, one thing that, before wewrap this up, that I did want to
tell you, I guess, since youlearned.
One thing that I learned todayis that I don't like being

(59:47):
called mean, mean, mm-hmm.
I realize that it bothers mewhen people call me mean,
because it's like I'm not mean,I know mean.

Speaker 2 (59:57):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (59:58):
And that's exactly who I'm not trying to be.

Speaker 2 (01:00:01):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:00:02):
So it's like I'm not that.
So I think I'm going to startwhen people call me that I'm
going to start speaking upBecause I don't like.

Speaker 2 (01:00:12):
Oh, you should.

Speaker 1 (01:00:13):
Because it's like I try really hard to be that
person that I didn't have.
So if you call me needingsomewhere to stay in, a meal,
needing a shower, needed ashoulder, to cry on a ride like
if I got it, you got it, becausewhenever I needed it, nobody

(01:00:33):
had it, yeah.
So it's like I want to be thatsafety net that to people that I
didn't have.
So I'm not mean, because mean aswell, let me in the street yeah
and I'm not gonna leave you tothe street that's good to speak
up for yourself I just didn'tknow that I didn't like that.

(01:00:54):
Like I just took it on my ownday and I ran with it.
I said, yes, I'm a mean bitch,whatever fuck you.
But it's like I didn't reallyrealize that I didn't like that
Because, like, I can be mean, Ican be a bitch, but that's not
who I am.
Right, like I can be silly, Ican be silly, I can be funny.
That's not permanently what Iam, though.

Speaker 2 (01:01:15):
Exactly.

Speaker 1 (01:01:16):
The hell Like we can have moods.

Speaker 2 (01:01:19):
Yeah, I can have a mean mood.

Speaker 1 (01:01:21):
Yeah, fucking about mean mood.
We need to go watch fuckingInside Out 2.

Speaker 2 (01:01:28):
I already saw it.
Bitch, don't tell me nothing Iwon't, I won't, it's really good
though I know it is.
It's really good, I know, Likereally good, melaney, I have so
many spoilers no, calla tu boca,we're going to wrap this shit
up before I hit Melaney withthis damn bong you want to know
the secret.

Speaker 1 (01:01:48):
I'm hit it with the chancla.
No, you're like, stop it'syou're like stop, it's the show,
the program that you werelistening to right now.
No, alright, guys, we're gonnago ahead and wrap it up.

(01:02:10):
Hopefully you learned something.
Hopefully you enjoyed it.
Hopefully we were able to getyou through your bottle of wine
or your sack of weed or whateveryou were doing.

Speaker 2 (01:02:22):
Yeah, hope you learned something.
This was therapy for y'all,right, but you know what?

Speaker 1 (01:02:27):
If you're listening to us and you're exercising or
you're working or you're stuckin traffic hopefully we made it
by go much easier.
Yes, working, or you're stuckin traffic hopefully we made it
by go much easier.
yes, until then, remember tofollow us on instagram, facebook
, uh, I'm gonna say on my podpodcast well, you know, hey, if

(01:02:47):
we're talking about the podcast,if, depending if you, depending
on where you're listening to us, if you go to like our
Instagram, we have a website, wehave a website.
You click the website and itgives you all of our platforms
and it's attached to like ourYouTube or Instagram or Facebook
, and then there's also a waywhere you can text us and you

(01:03:09):
can even comment.
So, if you want, if you want us, so it's so much easier.

Speaker 2 (01:03:12):
Check it out, um go ahead and subscribe, go ahead
and use that little notificationshit yeah, oh yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:03:20):
So like, if you're like, if you are a good listener
, you listen to all of ourepisodes.
If you follow, follow us likeon youtube or spotify you can
turn that bell and it like thelittle notification for us and
every time we put out an episode, you will get notified.
At the same time we getnotified because I have the
turns on, and then you can leaveus ratings like let us know,

(01:03:44):
let us know what you think aboutthe episode when it's out, it's
fucking great.
We want to interact with y'all.
Interact with us.
It's I'm very excited here.
Yeah, teach us, yes, teach uswhat y'all like, so for us to
get better I'm like I'm nevergonna get tired to talk about me
, but give me more reason totalk about.

(01:04:05):
Tell me about stuff.
You know what I'm saying tell mewhat you want to know about me
yeah, yeah, I'm an open bookbitch, yeah, but until then,
remember to wash your hands,cause bitches are still Getting
pregnant From left to right.
It's crazy out here, hootiesare everywhere.
Yes, it's crazy, it's crazy,okay.
Well, bye, get out of here.