Escaping Verbal Abuse and Rebuilding Self-Esteem with Caryn Lewis

Escaping Verbal Abuse and Rebuilding Self-Esteem with Caryn Lewis

In this episode, Mathew, Dr. Dave, and Caryn discuss how bullying at a young age can impact us as adults, the slow ramp-up of abuse, and the hurdles that must be overcome to escape and avoid abusive relationships. Dr. Dave talks about why kids bully, the roles fear and shame play in keeping people in bad situations, and the challenges of finding a therapist that fits your needs. Caryn opens up about why "just leaving" domestic abuse isn't as easy as it may seem, how she came to understand abuse is more than just physical violence, and how all of this impacted her son and her relationship with him. She ends the episode by sharing how she learned being alone was better than being in a dysfunctional relationship and giving her advice to the person listening who is still keeping their suffering a secret. Read more below.

 

In this episode, you'll hear:

• How therapy and community helped Caryn escape and recover
• Why did she stay and how did she leave?
• What she thought people would say versus what really happened when she decided to leave

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Resources:

• Dr. David Leicken, MD
• Maid on Netflix

 

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Additional Credits:

• LFPWLI is managed by Sam Robertson

Caryn Lewis grew up with a loving family in Tempe, Arizona. Her parents were lifelong friends and college sweethearts. Typically, our parents' relationships model what ours might look like, but unfortunately, bullying and low self-esteem got in the way of that for Caryn. She started to have self-esteem issues in elementary school when she was made fun of for having glasses and being a smart girl. The bullying escalated in junior high, but she was afraid to tell her parents, thinking it would just make the issues worse. She never felt comfortable in her own skin, and that led to bad choices when it came to boys and, as she got older, men. She tells us she never worked through her issues with self-esteem, and she married the first guy that showered her with love and attention, thinking this was her only shot at happiness.

She had a son with her first husband before we cheated on her. This compounded her feelings of never being enough. After that relationship, she tells us she felt codependent and desperate for love. She fell back into the same pattern of going all in on the next man to come along. This was how her second marriage started. There were red flags, but she didn't want to be a two-time divorcee or a single parent. He verbally abused her and her son and put them in significant fina